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honeypirate · 3 years

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HIIIIIIIIII!!!! I hope your okay and safe

But I was hoping to request a Aone x reader where the reader is Futakuchi twin sister and she has the mega crush on Aone. And the way they find out that she likes Aone is when they walk in on her singing “Bestfriend Brother by The victorious cast “

(I’ve been binging Victorious like a 10 year old again and it’s been on repeat hope you have a great day<3)

I hope youre doing well! Thanks for being patient with me writing.

I never really got into Victorious because it was like at the end of my childhood, I only ever watched a few episodes 😂 but I remember really liking the mean girl. I thought she was so cool.

Anyway I hope you like this! I didn’t know how to end it so I just... ended it.

Aone Takanobu x Fem!Reader who is Futa’s twin

Your palms were sweating as you walked to the volleyball gym, butterflies in your stomach and a smile on your face, you’ve been the manager for a year now but every day it’s the same since you developed a major crush on a certain tall white haired boy. “You’re late little sis!” Futakuchi says, ruining your good mood. You sigh and send him a death glare before smiling sweetly “I can’t believe i’m so blessed to have you as a Twin, Kenji” you say, your voice dripping with sarcasm, before turning to the rest of the team “sorry i’m late!” you bow “no worries y/n” a few boys say with a chuckle.

As you settle on the bench with your notebook you finally let yourself look at the real reason you wanted to become a manager, Aone Takanobu, part of the infamous wall, quiet, shy, so cute and sweet. You blush when he looks over at you, catching you staring. He thought it was pretty adorable the way you blushed when he looked at you, and the way you looked down to your notebook in your lap, scribbling away. You were really scribbling down any words you could think of so you looked busy, just until your cheeks cooled off at least.

You should be more confident around him, he comes over often to hang out with your brother and his friends, you can have small conversations with him and feel comfortable around him at home but for some reason when he catches you looking at him while he plays volleyball you can’t help but blush, like you were caught ogling him or something.

When you felt relaxed again you pulled out your phone to text your best friends group chat, it consisted of Karasuno’s Yachi and Kiyoko, as well as Yukie and Kaori from Fukurodani.

“Ughghsadkj he looks so good date tech wall is RIGHT” you send with several drooling emojis

“Maybe you should talk to him instead of just blushing and looking away” Kiyoko sends back and you pout “no fair you know i’m working on it”

“She is working on it, give her time, we all know she’s a late bloomer” Kaori says and you feel grateful until she quickly adds “plus im trying to convince her to serenade him with her ukulele LMAO”

“I’m leaving this chat” you send and then shove your phone back into your pocket, ignoring the next couple buzzes.

You weren't mad, you thought they were funny, but you also thought they were right. You needed to step up and open up communication so you can talk to him normally and if that goes well maybe you can ask him out. You can’t keep pinning here forever! Time for action! You’d call them later and explain everything. You turn your attention back to the practice, actually doing your job now so the coach doesn’t yell at you.

As your usual Friday night, you walk home with the team to eat dinner, where you usually go to your room and study after, the team heading to the living room to study themselves or play video games.

After you are done studying you open a video chat room on your computer on your desk, calling Kiyoko who is hanging out with Yachi and who adds in Kaori and Yukie, you video chat every night for a little while it’s basically tradition, feels weird to not call them every night after seven.

“How’s Karasuno doing? How’s that quick attack?” Yukie asks Kiyoko, they’ve been talking for a few minutes while you stand on top of your bed, ukulele in your hands as you pluck through a familiar song, lost in your thoughts, your music playing in the background.

“Really y/n? You have Victorious on your music playlist?” You pop out of your thoughts and toss your ukulele on your pillows as you use your phone to turn up the music and start singing along to the second verse, dancing on your bed while facing the camera, their laughter coming through the speakers “I kinda think that I might be his type, 'Cause when you're not around, he's not acting too shy, Sometimes I feel like he might make a move, Is this all in my head? I don't know what to do” you’re doing made up dance moves on the spot, making the crazy notion around your head, doing little kicks as you bounce on your bed, pointing at the camera, a smile on your lips as you really get into the music “I know it's strange I don't know what he's thinking. But it is wrong if I see him this weekend? I really hope I can get him alone I just don't, don't want her to know Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah My best friend's brother is the one for me”

you hear Kaori through the computer speakers saying “this is the song you should sing to Aone when you confess” they have knowing smiles on their lips but you don’t realize. You don’t realize that they can see the boys standing in your doorway behind you.

You stop and smile, panting from your dancing “that wouldn’t make sense though, he’s not my best friends brother he’s my brother’s best friend” you start to sing again “'Cause I just can't get him out of my mind, and Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah” but before you can sing anymore you hear “pffffffttttt” from your doorway and you panic, your foot landing on the back edge of your bed and slipping, effectively throwing yourself from your bed and to the ground.

It feels like you’re frozen in this moment of panic, looking up at your brother and his team, Aone standing right next to him, as your brother laughs hysterically, holding his stomach doubled over “this is amazing. This is the best thing that could have ever happened to me!” Futakuchi is struggling to catch his breath and the rest of the team is chuckling and starting to move away from the door leaving just Aone and Futa.

You scramble from your spot on your back on the floor and pop up to your feet, running your fingers through your hair “uhh how long were you…?” “THE WHOLE TIME” Futa says with peals of laughter. Aone frowns, his ears and cheeks pink and he shoves Futa down the hallway to the stairs before coming back to you, gesturing to your room, asking permission to come in.

“Oh! Yeah of course. Come on in” you say with a nervous laugh, it feels like your stomach has twisted, acid in the back of your throat as you step back into your room. Aone comes into your room and closes it in the face of your twin, who groans outside of the door but doesn’t cause any more problems, surprisingly. You look back at your computer in time to see the girls wave before they disconnect the call.

“So uh.. yeah.. I don’t know what to say to make this any better and less embarrassing” you avoid looking at him, focusing your vision on the edge of your shirt, a thread from the hem you were wrapping around the end of your first finger.

“You… like me?” He asks and you feel your face get warmer, a small smile uncontrollably on the edge of your mouth. You clear your throat and decide that if you were to confess you’d do it confidently. You look up into his eyes and gasp, your heart skipping at the sight of the big guy smiling sweetly at you, his cheeks flushed and his ears red, he looked shy and sweet and oh my god he made your heart skip along like it was made to beat for him “yes” you say and then more confidently add “I like you very much”

You didn’t think he could look cuter but you were wrong, the light that came to his eyes once you admitted it, the way he reached out towards you, had you without hesitation crossing the room and closing the distance. he took your hands in his, his calloused palms rough against yours.

Your eyes were glued to his, the sweet energy reciprocated and smiles matching as he said as a matter of factly “I like you too” you laugh once, in shock, before throwing your arms around his neck and hugging him tight “really?!” You ask and he laughs into your neck as he hugs you back, his voice muffled against your skin “yes. I like you so much” you pull back and kiss his cheek “thank you” he quirks his brows “for liking you back?” He questions and you laugh “yeah kinda. but mostly for not laughing at my singing and when I fell” he smiles and shakes his head “I like your singing” you blush and hug him again “thank you, Takanobu” he hums, a low and happy sound from his chest that reverberates into you

“are you done studying?” You ask when you pull away from the embrace, your hands still in his. He nods “do you wanna hang out here? With me? Until you have to go home?” He smiles and nods “yes I’d love that”

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thedaddie · 3 years

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hey !! i rly fucking love match ups so im here lol

i prefer guys, my prns are she/they, im 5'7/169cm, i have dark hair and eyes, and i love music, playing bass, studying, and i am an intj

i can be pretty shy at first and i love being friends w ppl who talk a lot so i can j sit and listen

hi!! thank you for requesting!! i match you with…

SEMI EITA

the way y’all are both musicians HNFNDJDNNDNF

so you actually go to shiratorizawa but you never blinked twice when semi passed you in the halls

at first, he was just another face in the crowd (especially since you weren’t really into volleyball)

but then!! you went to a local concert with some of your friends

AND U BUMPED INTO HIM IN THE CROWD

and you both were like!! oh!! i know you!!

so you guys stuck together the whole concert! enjoying the music and learning more about each other!!

then the next day at school you immediately found him so you could talk more about it!

once you guys ran out of bands to talk about, you asked more about each other’s lives :)

you started going to his games, sharing earbuds with him in class, and hanging out after school!

and one day he surprised you with a playlist!

you guys made each other playlists all the time so it wasn’t weird,

but when you looked at the titles of each song YOU REALIZED THAT HE WAS ASKING YOU OUT!!

it looked something like this:

SO OF COURSE YOURE FREAKING OUT

you decide to meet up with him right after you figured it out

and semi confirms that yes, he’s crazy about you and yes, he wants you to be his significant other 🥲

SO NOW YALL ARE DATING

even if he complains, he loves when you help him study! boring schoolwork can’t ruin time with you

he also loves listening to you play bass

he’s picking up guitar just so you guys can play together!

and he’s writing his first song!! and it’s about you!!

semi prefers to keep to himself too! so a lot of your dates are spent quietly in each other’s company :)

but the man can TALK

like if something happens in volleyball BOOM an hour long rant

which is perfect for you!!

now for your MBTIs!

semi is an ISTP

the key for a healthy relationship between you two is for you to give him his independence (which makes him feel appreciated and will help you guys bond) and for him to keep organization and dedication in mind!

but yeah y’all are cute asf 😫😫😫

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moodboard:

he’s bored. there’s no other way to put it.

the combination of being separated from you and having to study drained him of all happiness.

he tapped his pencil against his textbook, trying to recreate the beat from a song stuck in his head. he had a test next period, the same one you were taking right now, hense the lack of your presence.

“semi!” a voice whispered sharply. he turned his head, spotting you as you made your way to his table in the library.

a grin quickly formed on his face as he ushered for you to sit down next to him.

“i thought you couldn’t come! how was your test?”

“it went pretty well, i think. my teacher let us out early.”

“and you’re using your extra time to help me?”

“of course,” you smiled warmly at him, offering him your other earbud which he took it happily.

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songs for your matchup :)

thanks again for requesting! hope you enjoyed!!

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a-random-ghoulie · 3 years

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Chapter 1: Jacked by the Jocks

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This is my attempt at a fanfiction for eli x reader. Lets see how this goes.

It was a normal morning like any other, waking up around 7:30 and making breakfast. Breakfast this morning was a nutrigrain bar and a Starbucks cold brew vanilla latte. Well it wasnt technically cold, more like warm, but it still got the job done. Its crazy to think yesterday you were staying in a nice abandoned house, and now youre here. In the woods. Alone and sweaty. Hmm, lets see its 6 months after the apocalypse started, so its May. Of course its hot out. The abandoned house had a generator that worked, and supplied you with nice cool air condition, you missed it severely. Oh? The reason you had to leave? The Jocks. They hijacked your crib and took most of all your supplies. (Except your secret stash under the loose floorboard in the kitchen) around 12am they busted in through the back door and shoved you out, stole all your shit and left, what the hell.

Thats yours. Litterally your stuff. You were gonna get back at them oneday. I mean its not like you had anything good anyways, maybe you did have a running fridge, food that was still fresh, PLENTY of gas to power your generator, air conditioning, a comfortable bed....well maybe you did have some good stuff but it was still yours.

The nutrigrain bar you were eating was stale as shit but it was all that you had at the moment. You finished it and looked up at the sky. It hurt to look up due to the fact that you slept on the forest floor last night. You were already tired of sleeping here. You wanted your air condition and bed back. God did your back hurt too.

You got up, packed everything up and began your treck out of the woods. You were pretty deep in the woods too, which was a bad idea on your part, considering ghoulies could sneak up on you at anytime. But you were prepared, youd had your axe since the beginning of the apocalypse. You got it from the shed of the first house you visited looking for shelter. You also had a chainsaw and a hand pistol. You tried to use the pistol sparringly considering you only had so much ammo.

You walked and walked. It was already hot to begin with and this just made it way worse. It took about 30 minutes to get out of the stupid woods and into civilization. Civilization?? I wouldn't really call it that, just a bunch of abandoned stores. You needed more food and water so you headed into the walmart that was closest to you. You knew it was Yung Kopps territory but you really didnt care. You used to hang around them anyways, im sure they wont mind.

You walked into the walmart and headed straight for the snack section. You grabbed everything that was still good and shoved it in your bag. "Hey, is that you Y/N?" Shit. You knew exactly who it was. "Yeah AJ, its me." You said. You heard his feet shuffle around the side of the isle. He peaked around the corner "Hiiiiiiiiii." You rolled your eyes at him and kept picking out your snacks. "Sooo" he said, "Where have you been holding up since you left the Kopps?" You turned to him, "Well, i did have a pretty nice house, but it got ransacked by the Jocks so, i stayed in the woods last night." You said, ashmed of having to sleep in the fucking woods. "Really?! You know you can come back with us right?" He said to you. You could tell he was concerned about you but you wanted to be alone now. "Yeah i know, i just- yknow i want to do things by myself." He looked you dead in the eyes and frowned, "I miss you yknow..."

There it was, youd been expecting it from the start, he always said stuff like that to you. You knew he liked you but you did not want to bring it up. "Yeah, i miss you too. But i just need to be alone." You said to him laying your hand on his shoulder. "Well, if you wanna be alone i heard no ones copped the mall yet. I mean, it has been six months. Its probably infested with ghoulies and mutant rats by now but im sure you can manage." He said pointing down to your axe sticking out of your bag. "Yeah, i could go there, but the malls like. 5 miles away. No way im walking that far." You rolled your eyes. "Oh my god, you lazy ass. You know i actually have a bike in the back if you wanna borrow it." He said with a smirk. You thought on it for a second, "You know, what the hell. I guess im taking your bike AJ." You decided "Haha i knew youd want it." He mumbled as he walked you to the back of the walmart.

He walked out of the back of the walmart and held the door open for you, "really..?" You said. "What?? it IS a bike." Yeah it was a bike alright. A purple kids bike with streamers on the handles. You rolled your eyes, "Whatever, i guess this is all ive got." You hopped on the bike, "Thanks AJ, ill see you around." You smiled at him. He frowned, "Yeah ill see you around too..ill miss you Y/N." You gave him one last look and took off. It was hard to see over your large bag in the basket on the front of the bike but you managed. The seat was also very uncomfortable but you didnt care.

It had been a long time since you felt the wind in your hair, it was perfect. Well, almost. It was missing something...music. you stopped and pulled out your phone and shuffled the playlist. One of your favorite songs played. You looked up at the sky as you put your ear buds in. You took in a deep breath and let it out, "Glendale Mall, here i come."

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all-hail-the-witcher · 4 years

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jaskier’s breakup album

alright full disclosure i probably went into way more detail than i needed to. but jaskiers a dramatic little shit and therefore so am i. but this album slowly became my baby and I've been listening to it for the last 2 weeks while I've been doing homework and its a good sad bop. these are just my opinions, but i think it would be cool to see what other people think (esp because im fairly new to this fandom). also this post is really long. sorry about that.

so. we all know jaskier is a bard. he traipses around writing songs about whatever fling he's having or about his witcher. netflix canon makes it pretty clear that geralt is one of jaskiers muses (and probably one of his more reliable ones given what we know about jaskiers dating history). jaskier is also very, very dramatic (as I'm sure everyone knows cause he's the damn comic relief that show desperately needs). in particular though the scene at the beginning of 1x05 where geralt is djinn hunting and jaskier stumbles upon him, drunk, singing off key, and rambles about how "the countess de stael, my muse and beauty of this world, has left me. again. rather coldly and unexpectedly, i might add. i fear i shall die a broken hearted man” and jaskier is clearly half muttering some sad attempt at a breakup song he's trying to write at the beginning of the episode so the question is, wouldn't he do the same thing post mountain scream down with geralt?

the answer is of course, yes he would because jaskier is nothing if not a dramatic little shit. and i am proposing that he writes not only one but an entire album (or set if this is canon era, but if this is canon i think he would keep a great many of these songs to himself, only playing a few select ones with the hopes that someday geralt will hear one and realize how badly he fucked up) of break songs and lamentations about geralt, because say all you want about what their relationship is, but one does not simply go traipsing around the entire continent with someone for 20 years and not grow close to them in some way shape or form (and the show makes it clear that geralt is at least one of jaskiers close friends so). now what is on this breakup album? well I'm glad you asked.

i peg jaskiers music (modern or canon honestly) for this album as being a combination of taylor swift’s folklore/evermore albums and james arthur and ill explain why.

taylor swifts folklore/evermore albums have this almost ethereal, floaty, reminiscent, indie vibes. there are many metaphors, recurring themes and its overall kinda dramatic at points which i feel is exactly what jaskier would be doing right now (it also just kinda gives me canon era vibes, idk). but james arthurs music is much more emotionally intense which i think is definitely in character for jaskier at this point because he strikes me as someone who copes with things through his music. both artists do the sings through story telling in an almost monologue manner which goes along with that kinda bardic music and all that. i also think that jaskier would want geralt to know that these songs are about him because hes dramatic like that (kinda like how taylor swift writes her stuff). anyway here's what i think would be on his breakup album:

heres a link to the playlist

1. the lakes - taylor swift 2. from me to you i hate everybody - james arthur 3. maybe - james arthur 4. sad eyes - james arthur 5. hoax - taylor swift 6. naked - james arthur 7. right where you left me - taylor swift 8. all too well - taylor swift 9. impossible - james arthur 10. exile - taylor swift 11. illicit affairs -taylor swift 12. safe inside - james arthur 13. quite miss home -james arthur 14. my tears ricochet -taylor swift 15. phoenix - james arthur 16. this is me trying - taylor swift 17. happiness - taylor swift 18. death by a thousand cuts - taylor swift 19. empty space - james arthur 20. coney island - taylor swift 21. new years day - taylor swift 22. the 1 -taylow swift

so theres 22 songs which im sure jaskier would do on purpose cause hes a dramatic little shit ( “one song for every year i wasted on you” or something of that sort). jaskier being a dramatic little shit is going to be a recurring theme. some of them work better for modern era than canon era but as a whole this can be interpreted as either romantic or platonic. anyway lets unpack.

1. the lakes by taylor swift (more canon era interpretation)

this song is the bonus and final track off of folklore. the song is actually about how she wants to go live in seclusion with her boyfriend out of the public eye but that is not what it means in this interpretation. i think that this song is about how jaskier feels as though his career as a bard is tainted now because he spent so many years singing geralts praises and there is no way he will be able to escape that part of his life because undoubtedly hes going to get requests for toss a coin and others he wrote about geralt and people will probably know him as “the witchers bard”. so this song is him talking about how he wants to run away and live out his life in seclusion because geralt took from him one of the only happinesses in his life.

Take me to the lakes, where all the poets went to die I don't belong, and my beloved, neither do you Those Windermere peaks look like a perfect place to cry I'm settin' off, but not without my muse

the line “i dont belong and my beloved neither do you” references the fact that jaskier feels like an outcast now that he’s spent years traveling around with a witcher, notoriously outcasts from society, so he feels that he doesnt belong anymore either.

I want auroras and sad prose I want to watch wisteria grow Right over my bare feet 'Cause I haven't moved in years And I want you right here

the second stanza references his idealization of living out his life in solitude, with nature, where no one can judge him (and geralt cant yell at him).

jasper would have started this album with that song because it states his intentions: he feels as though he’s done with singing. it could also refer to him leaving the public eye (in modern era) to write this album.

2. from me to you i hate everybody by james arthur (more canon era interpretation)

songs 2-4 on jaskiers album are ones that he wrote at various points while he and geralt were still together/best friends/etc. these three songs establish what the relationship was like before everything went downhill, but they are kind of melancholy, like looking back on a past love (which is what jaskier is doing). this one jaskier wrote about when they met. geralt would have heard him play it before and he would have known that this song was about him (he probably also secretly liked it and jaskier putting it on his album would have been like a slap in the face because it wasn't one that he had shared with other people, thinking it to be too personal). if this album had been released in modern era, jaskier would have released this song as a single to get geralts attention. he would have definitely wanted geralt to know that this album was about him.

I used to come here on my own and drink So I didn't have to think or hear the whispering I stand with people telling lies again In suits and ties again and I just need a friend

they meet in the tavern and its clear that jaskier is Not having a good time and really just needs a friend, hence why he decides to go talk to geralt.

You walked into the room and cut the atmosphere like a knife, alright Sobering mind 'cause up to now, I've just been wasting my time, ooh yeah

the “wasting my time” part is of particular interest because it clearly articulates that jaskier feels as though adventuring around with geralt was the best part of his life and before that he'd just been a bard with debatable songs. the song as a whole makes it sound like geralt was jaskiers lifeline.

3. maybe by james arthur (modern or canon era works)

this song, while geralt would know immediately it was about him, was not one jaskier ever shared with geralt. it would have been written a few years after he and geralt had met initially. the reason that jaskier never shared it was because it talks about destiny and geralt made it Very Clear that he does not want to fuck with destiny.

I don't know what's going on Where you came from and why you took so long All I know is that I feel it Like it's the realest thing, I mean it Something changed when I saw you Oh, my eyes can't lie You said, "They're so damn blue And I love how you're so forward Is it too soon to say I'm falling?"

this would have been what young jaskier felt over the course of a few years after traveling around (or befriending if this is modern). There was probably a slip up somewhere, or jaskier just thought that he got really good at interpreting geralts grunts and the line about the eyes is what he hoped/imagined/thought geralt was saying to him in return.

So maybe Maybe we were always meant to meet Like this was somehow destiny Like you already know Your heart will never be broken by me So is it crazy For you to tell your friends to go on home? So we can be here all alone Fall in love tonight And spend the rest of our lives as one

jaskier probably thinks that destiny is some wildly romantic thing hence why he compares them meeting to destiny. the line about heart break would have also hit especially hard after the mountain scene. also i think its pretty clear that jaskier wants to spend as much of his life traipsing around with geralt in the show (modern era wouldn't have been any different), hence wanting to spend the rest of his life with geralt.

Oh, is it too crazy For you to tell your brothers about me? They told me they'll protect you But I'll look them in the eye Tell them you and I will be as one

this is the part that sells it for me. i think that geralt lambert and eskel would all be very close (admittedly i havent read the books but i kinda get that vibe from the fandom so). this part about geralt telling his bothers about jaskier and then jaskier probably meeting them would have been an Important Moment.

4. sad eyes by james arthur (modern or canon works)

aright so im not sure if geralt has heard this one before. i can see it going both ways. its a possibility that jaskier wrote it at some point and then would kinda sing it softly when hes patching geralt up after a particularly rough hunt so its one of those where like geralts not quite sure what the song is but then he hears it on this album (cause say this was modern era and jaskier actually did release this album geralt would totally buy it after a few weeks and then realize how badly he'd actually fucked up) and is like shit thats what he was singing all along?? but anyway this one is essentially about how jaskier thinks geralt puts too much pressure on himself and all that stuff

You wear the burden World on your shoulders, babe So let me hold the weight I know you're hurting Deep as the coldest pain But this is the order sayin'

essentially jaskier can see through geralts bs and hes calling him out on it and wants him to just take care of himself for once (see: the scene in 1x05 when geralt says he cant sleep)

5. hoax by taylor swift (canon or modern works)

so this song begins the plethora of break up songs that jaskier wrote about geralt. this one would have been written some time after the incident, after jaskier has some time to reflect on the whole thing. i know that taylor wrote this song about enduring a toxic relationship, which kind of works if you think about the way that geralts treated jaskier and how jaskier interpreted it (but im not implying that their relationship was toxic or abusive or anything)

My best laid plan Your sleight of hand My barren land I am ash from your fire

jaskiers plan was to reinvent geralts image and geralt did not think that it was worth it. jaskier is just sorta his side kick (who gets him into trouble, as geralt points out) and geralt kicks him aside like he doesnt mean anything to him (like ash from a fire

Stood on the cliffside Screaming "Give me a reason" Your faithless love's the only hoax I believe in Don't want no other shade of blue But you No other sadness in the world would do

this is a little more literal with the screaming on the cliffside. jaskier wanted a reason to stay and geralt didnt want him to. jaskier knows that witchers dont feel emotions (or at least not like humans do) so hes been tricking himself into believing that geralt actually liked having him around, knowing that it was probably going to blow up in his face at some point. but he doesnt quite regret it, and doesnt want to be sad over anyone else.

6. naked by james arthur (modern or canon works)

this kind of goes along with hoax, jaskier probably wrote them around the same time. he’s admitting in this song that he would be willing to try to work it out with geralt, but geralt needs to change first (needs to actually communicate and let him in and all that stuff).

'Cause here I am, I'm givin' all I can But all you ever do is mess it up Yeah, I'm right here, I'm tryin' to make it clear That getting half of you just ain't enough

hes quoting geralts words back at him here ( “all you ever do is mess it up” is pretty similar to the line about shoveling shit), saying that all hes ever tried to do is be good and kind to geralt, but geralt hasn't really done the same in return and while jaskier may have dragged him into some things, geralt also needs to take responsibility for what hes done as well.

7. right where you left me (modern or canon works)

this starts the Real Sad Boy Hours songs. this would refer to how he felt pretty much right after, not knowing what to do because geralt had been so much a part of his life for so long:

Help, I'm still at the restaurant Still sitting in a corner I haunt Cross-legged in the dim light They say, "What a sad sight" I, I swear you could hear a hair pin drop Right when I felt the moment stop Glass shattered on the white cloth Everybody moved on, I, I stayed there Dust collected on my pinned-up hair They expected me to find somewhere Some perspective, but I sat and stared

this is kind of the processing of the event. and also the moment on the album where the audience would realize that this relationship that he's been telling about until now definitely ended. this song isn't super super emotional, its more a jumble of thoughts cause he didnt know what to feel after the breakup happened. although he didnt write it right after the break up, it was written much after as a looking back.

8. all too well by taylor swift (modern or canon era works)

(the link to this one is from a live performance because i like the emotion in this one better) so this song is not off of folklore (its off of red) but its such a powerful, painful breakup song that i had to include it in the lineup because it seems like something that jaskier would have written very very soon after the incident. the memories especially that she touches on in the song (driving upstate, dancing in the fridge light, looking at the photo album, etc) are all very powerful and real and i can see jaskier doing the same thing. again, if this were modern era i think that he might release this one as a single. theres so much to unpack in this song, this ones gonna be a little longer oops.

Maybe we got lost in translation, maybe I asked for too much But maybe this thing was a masterpiece 'til you tore it all up Running scared, I was there, I remember it all too well

this clearly references the mountain scene. they were a pretty good duo until geralt blamed him for all his problems. and jaskier was effectively stuck on the top of a very dangerous mountain that he would have had to navigate down by himself.

Time won't fly, it's like I'm paralyzed by it I'd like to be my old self again, but I'm still trying to find it After plaid shirt days and nights when you made me your own Now you mail back my things and I walk home alone

jaskier spent half of his life following geralt around, its likely that he doesnt know what to do with himself or his life now that he doesnt have geralt to follow around on adventures. he doesnt know what to do anymore (see the first song).

But you keep my old scarf from that very first week 'Cause it reminds you of innocence and it smells like me You can't get rid of it, 'cause you remember it all too well, yeah

this is more of a hope that jaskier has. he hopes that geralts held onto something of his that he left behind. maybe he left a shirt in one of roaches saddle bags (canon) or a notebook in their apartment (modern) that geralt just cant seem to get rid of. he would like to think that he had an impact on geralts life and that it wasn't just all for nothing. in the beginning, he wants geralt to be just as hurt as he is.

'Cause there we are again, when I loved you so Back before you lost the one real thing you've ever known It was rare, I was there, I remember it all too well

this is a dig at geralt. he'd never had someone to follow him around on adventures before, much less a human. as far as we know it seems like jaskiers the first human that has even given him the time of day. this is jaskiers way of throwing it back in geralts face

9. impossible by james arthur (canon or modern works)

this would have also been written very soon after the incident. it is more jaskier being mad at himself for not seeing the signs than him being mad at geralt. it is almost like his admittance of the event and like hes finally accepting what happened.

I remember years ago Someone told me I should take Caution when it comes to love, I did And you were strong and I was not My illusion, my mistake I was careless, I forgot, I did

jaskier is someone who clearly falls in love (or at least screws around with people) easily so its likely that someone would have given him some advice along these lines once. but when he met geralt its likely that this caution went to the wind.

When all is done, there is nothing to say And if you're done with embarrassing me On your own you can go ahead, tell them

Tell them all I know now Shout it from the rooftops Write it on the skyline All we had is gone now Tell them I was happy And my heart is broken All my scars are open Tell them what I hoped would be impossible

this hints at the first song on the album. jaskier has no stomach for singing for audiences asking to hear about the adventures of geralt of rivia. this is his way of telling geralt that, almost as his punishment, he should have to deal with the people who ask why hes not traveling with his bard anymore, because jaskier has no intention of doing so. this is pretty brutal because (as we know) geralt doesnt really enjoy talking about feelings, or talking at all in general.

10. exile by taylor swift (modern or canon era works)

this is a fictitious conversation that jaskier wrote as occurring between him and geralt. it can be looked at either way but i think it makes more sense if bon iver is jaskier and taylor is geralt.

I think I've seen this film before And I didn't like the ending You're not my homeland anymore So what am I defendin' now? You were my town Now I'm in exile seein' you out I think I've seen this film before

this first chorus is from jaskiers perspective. note the use of “homeland,” as home becomes a theme on jaskiers album. in geralts version of the chorus the line instead is “youre not my problem anymore” which is probably what jaskier took the whole mountain thing to mean.

All this time We always walked a very thin line You didn't even hear me out (you didn't even hear me out) You never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs) All this time I never learned to read your mind (never learned to read my mind) I couldn't turn things around (you never turned things around) 'Cause you never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs)

(the () in this are geralt) this is jaskiers lamentations about how he didnt notice geralts abject discomfort in their relationship and also his regrets in not being able to remedy the situation.

11. illicit affairs by taylor swift (modern or canon works)

so this song is clearly and obviously about an affair. however, i have seen interpretations of the song where people view it as being in a relationship that is so intense and well hidden that in a sense it is almost like an affair, like in the aftermath you’re not even sure if it was real or you deemed it because there isnt really a trace of this other person anymore, and that is the way i think jaskier would have written this song.

And you wanna scream Don't call me kid Don't call me baby Look at this godforsaken mess that you made me You showed me colors you know I can't see with anyone else

the dont call me kid, dont call me baby part would reference jaskiers humanity, he has a normal human lifespan at least in canon (very much unlike geralt) so geralt might brush him off as being young and stupid. jaskier would have made this album to show geralt that hes not being young and stupid, that this did screw him up, and hes suffering cause of it. kind of like a reality check or a slap in the face.

Don't call me kid Don't call me baby Look at this idiotic fool that you made me You taught me a secret language I can't speak with anyone else And you know damn well For you I would ruin myself A million little times

the secret language would of course refer to geralt himself. hes a hard man to understand (especially cause half his vocabulary is grunts) and hes also a witcher. so jasper had to learn to understand him and now he has no use for that anymore. and the ending line about ruining myself. that would be jaskiers admittance that he would do it again, he'd do it all again, which comes back up in later songs.

12. safe inside by james arthur (canon era interpretation)

this is one that jaskier would have written maybe a week or so after the incident. the song itself deals with distance and coping with not being in someones life anymore, and i think that that is something that jaskier would struggle to cope with because hes not sure he wants geralt to be alone. this song is more for jaskier than for geralt.

Everyone has to find their own way And I'm sure things will work out okay I wish that was the truth All we know is the sun will rise Thank your lucky stars that you're alive It's a beautiful life

obviously geralt can take care of himself, but its kinda clear that he doesnt much like his life as a witcher (the part where he talks about them getting slow and killed). so this is kind of jaskiers way of almost reminding geralt that his life on the path is still beautiful and important now that he back by himself.

Oh, will you call me to tell me you're alright? 'Cause I worry about you the whole night Don't repeat my mistakes, I won't sleep 'til you're safe inside If you're home I just hope that you're sober Is it time to let go now you're older? Don't leave me this way, I won't sleep 'til you're safe inside

this is more jaskier worrying about geralt being by himself. he hopes that hes okay in the aftermath of this this and that hes taking care of himself still. because of course jaskier would write a whole breakup album but still write one song about how he hopes the person is doing well.

13. quite miss home by james arthur (modern era interpretation)

this song. oh my god. its so amazing. if you dont listen to any of these, at least listen to this one (actually im pretty sure no ones read to this point so if you have thanks). this song is kind of more along the same vein as the previous one, how jaskier misses geralt but its more for him than geralt. he would have probably written it at like 3am in a fit of tears and weakness, and debated long and hard about whether or not to put it on the album, but done it anyway because what does he have to lose? theres a lot to unpack here tho so this is going to be a longer one. (sorry)

I'm in the kitchen while you smoke outside You're careful not to let the smoke inside I always tell you it's poison But I know it helps you take the edge off the day We get a drink before it's closing time The one on high street with the blinking sign All these memories feel poignant I won't be there to see the snow melt away

this is a very very clear picture of an event that seems to have happened a great many times, so much so that it seems like second nature. its like a little glimpse into what their life was before this incident. its intimate, but it still is melancholy.

Whoa I'm in another city I got nobody with me And it just really hit me

this is where jaskier is now, it provides some opposition. its like a culture shock almost, like hes so used to this intimate lifestyle with another person that its jarring to be by himself.

That I quite miss home And I miss you telling me To leave my shoes at the door 'Cause you just swept the floor And the dirt drives you crazy Yeah, I quite miss home 'Cause it feels like poetry When the rain falls down on the window While you're in my arms And we're watching the TV Yeah, I quite miss home

the key here is what jaskier is referring to as “home.” it's not the place, its geralt himself. all these memories center around him, not an establishment. (calling geralt “home” comes back in later songs.) again, this mosh of memories is like theres so many of them that its almost overwhelming but its stemming from jaskiers need to feel something other than lonely and hes craving this reality that hes lost.

14. my tears ricochet by taylor swift (modern or canon era works)

this is a song that really emphasizes jaskiers dramatic little shit tendencies. this is something that he wrote, trying to predict what geralts reaction would be if he found out that jaskier died. this is really just jaskier fantasizing that geralt didnt actually mean any of what he said and does still care about him. theres many lines in here that are jabs at geralt (if I'm dead to you why are you at the wake? and Even on my worst day Did I deserve, babe All the hell you gave me?), but i think this is the most important one:

And I can go anywhere I want Anywhere I want Just not home And you can aim for my heart, go for blood But you would still miss me in your bones And I still talk to you When I'm screaming at the sky And when you can't sleep at night You hear my stolen lullabies

this is again, jaskier referring to geralt as home. as seen in the last song, he clearly wants to go there, but he cant. this could also refer to where he grew up, which he cant go to either because his parents still view him as a disappointment (as seen in finally). jaskier saying he still talks to geralt is completely in character, he probably still curses him and the whole thing. but the part about geralt not being able to sleep at night and hearing his stolen lullabies is really hard hitting. jaskier likes to think that geralt wouldn't be able to sleep without his banter or his lute playing or something of that nature. over all its a very powerful song.

15. phoenix by james arthur (modern or canon works)

this is a fictitious apology that jaskier wrote from geralts pov, kind of what he wished that geralt would say, but knows that he won't.

Let me, let me begin Let me begin, with an I.O.U Who I owe everything to Lately, lately my friend Lately, you think I'm ignoring you But I've been trying to pull through All of the pain, I know you're looking down, down on me I could have been someone I hurt everyone Pushed away everyone who got near

in this “geralt” outlines what he did wrong, and that he didnt mea what he said at all. again, this is more for jaskiers benefit because he knows that even if geralt were to apologize to him, it wouldn't be to this extent.

16. this is me trying by taylor swift (modern or canon works)

this is jaskier trying to articulate the fact that hes trying to pick himself back up after everything, his way of showing his “healing process” and that he can do it, he doesnt need geralt (as the song shows, its not going very well)

And it's hard to be at a party When I feel like an open wound It's hard to be anywhere these days When all I want is you You're a flashback in a film reel On the one screen in my town And I just wanted you to know That this is me trying (maybe I don't quite know what to say) I just wanted you to know That this is me trying

its showing that jaskier is having trouble enjoying things that he once did (like parties) because hes still so distraught over what happened with geralt, but at the same time he also wants to show geralt that he doesnt need him. it has a very i dont care kind of attitude, but jaskier at the same time is having a hard time showing geralt that hes doing okay, hence the “maybe i dont quite know what to say” which is out of character for the very talkative bard

17. happiness by taylor swift (modern or canon works)

this is more him convincing himself that things will be okay. he's clearly trying at this point to move on, but its proving difficult because geralt was his happiness for so long:

There'll be happiness after you But there was happiness because of you Both of these things can be true There is happiness

he also repeats the line “havent me the new me yet” a few times, which i think is again him trying to convince himself that its going to get better and he will move on from it. but this line is the one that i think hurts the most:

No one teaches you what to do When a good man hurts you And you know you hurt him too

this implies that 1. he still thinks geralts a good man (not a monster) and 2. that he knows he hurt him to and doesn't know how to fix either of them. this is also kind of him giving up on how to fix it, but him recognizing they were both at fault is important for the arc of the story.

18. death by a thousand cuts by taylor swift (modern or canon works)

this is another song that is not off of folklore (its from lover), but i wanted to include it because it think it has a little bit of anger to it (especially in this live acoustic version that i linked) which i think that jaskier would feel a few weeks post incident in a fit of rage, like why am i still feeling this way? why did you think that this was okay?? and its right after happiness, which shows that his healing really isn't linear. there's many lines in this song that pertain to geralt and jaskier and i could talk about the whole thing but im not going to

But if the story's over, why am I still writing pages?

this i think is very jaskier. its so raw and like, i know this is over, why am i still writing about it? why am i making an album about this? why should this still matter to me? its very angry and again, like many of the songs, like a slap.

My heart, my hips, my body, my love Tryna find a part of me that you didn't touch Gave up on me like I was a bad drug Now I'm searching for signs in a haunted club Our songs, our films, united, we stand Our country, guess it was a lawless land Quiet my fears with the touch of your hand Paper cut stings from our paper-thin plans My time, my wine, my spirit, my trust Tryna find a part of me you didn't take up Gave you so much, but it wasn't enough But I'll be alright, it's just a thousand cuts

this part, especially if you listen to her sing it, (which i would HIGHLY RECOMMEND BTW) is very passive aggressive and the the last line is like quite sarcastic and downplays it, like, yes you put me through all of this, but i guess its *just* a thousand cuts. this really shows that in many ways geralt was a part of jaskiers life, and his sudden removal from it would have stung in many ways, and thats not something that you can get over quickly.

19. empty space by james arthur (modern or canon era works)

this song starts the beginning of jaskier getting over geralt. these last 4 songs would have been written much after the incident, after hes had time to think, but there's still this nagging in the back of his head thats like, well what if im being stupid and he is the one and im supposed to go back?

I don't see you You're not in every window I look through And I don't miss you You're not in every single thing I do I don't think we're meant to be And you are not the missing piece I won't hear it Whenever anybody says your name And I won't feel it Even when I'm burstin' into flames I don't regret the day I left I don't believe that I was blessed I'm probably lyin' to myself again

this is more what jaskier wants to be, not what he actually is. he thinks that hes over geralt, but hes not (the chorus gets into it more but im not going to talk about it here, but it essentially says “only you can fill this empty space”) clearly jaskier is further along in his healing process, but hes still having second thoughts. he wants to be over him, but he knows hes lying to himself, very deep down.

20. coney island by taylor swift (more modern era interpretation)

this is the true moving on song. it’s still laced with memories and speculation, but it puts clear distance between the two of them, much more so than empty space does because it lacks the longing. it just shows things for what they are.

And I'm sitting on a bench in Coney Island Wondering where did my baby go? The fast times, the bright lights, the merry go Sorry for not making you my centerfold

its apologetic, but nothing more than that. it dwells more on what could have been rather than what he wants it to still be.

The question pounds my head What's a lifetime of achievement If I pushed you to the edge? But you were too polite to leave me And do you miss the rogue Who coaxed you into paradise and left you there? Will you forgive my soul When you're too wise to trust me and too old to care?

this is interesting because it addresses their immortality and how they've been together for years and also the way in which they left things (paradise). but it also implies that things were on the downfall. and the last two lines about forgiveness is interesting because it then calls geralt “too wise to trust me and too old to care” meaning its more a wish of jaskiers rather than something he knows geralt will do.

Were you waiting at our old spot In the tree line By the gold clock Did I leave you hanging every single day? Were you standing in the hallway With a big cake, happy birthday Did I paint your bluest skies the darkest grey? A universe away And when I got into the accident The sight that flashed before me was your face But when I walked up to the podium, I think that I forgot to say your name

these are all very specific, very intimate moments that would clearly mean something to geralt. and it further implies that jaskier is uncertain if he actually made geralt feel appreciated when they were together. but again, its more what could have been rather than what jaskier wanted it to be, which is a nice segway into the last two songs.

21. new years day by taylor swift (modern era interpretation)

this is another one not from folklore, this song is the closing track on reputation, but i like the nostalgia of it so i decided to include it (and it also has good parallels to the last song). initially jaskier intended for this to be the last song on the album, but decided to add another one last minute (and we will get into why). this song is more jaskiers muted longing to still be with geralt, albeit in the far future.

There's glitter on the floor after the party Girls carrying their shoes down in the lobby Candle wax and Polaroids on the hardwood floor You and me from the night before but Don't read the last page But I stay when you're lost and I'm scared and you're turning away I want your midnights But I'll be cleaning up bottles with you on New Year's Day

this interpretation is very much like the actual songs interpretation: the desire to stay with someone through the unexciting parts of life, like cleaning up after a party on new years day. additionally, wanting to start something new with someone (being there with them past the midnight kiss and actually starting the first day of the year with them). additionally though, there is the line of “dont read the last page” which refers to the last song on the album, which we will get to.

Hold on to the memories, they will hold on to you And I will hold on to you Please don't ever become a stranger whose laugh I could recognize anywhere

this is more jaskiers reality. hes torn between holding onto these memories and hopes and actually facing reality. he wants to hold on to geralt, but he also kinda wants to move on. and the last line about the laugh, thats more jaskiers own hope, he hopes that he will come across geralt again and things will work themselves out.

22. the 1 by taylor swift (modern era interpretation)

the decision to make this song the last one on the album was a very last minute decision, and it was written significantly after the rest of the songs. the reason for this was without this last song, the album ends on a note of hope “Please don't ever become a stranger whose laugh I could recognize anywhere” but this last song is more of a reality check and acknowledgment that what's done is done and that it will never be again.

I'm doing good, I'm on some new shit Been saying "Yes" instead of "No" I thought I saw you at the bus stop, I didn't though

this refers to the fact that its been some time since the whole thing and jaskiers kind of changed a little bit. he claims hes doing good, and maybe is going to try out a new career (since the first song references wanting to put music down for awhile). seeing geralt at the bus stop is a reference to cardigan where he says “chasing shadows in the grocery line” where hes not actively looking for geralt anymore and it doesnt upset him that he didnt see him.

I guess you never know, never know And if you wanted me, you really should've showed And if you never bleed, you're never gonna grow And it's alright now

this is jaskier saying that hes almost glad that it happened because it gave him a new perspective and it was a learning experience. he also says that its alright, which is the second time that hes said hes okay, which probably means he isnt completely, but hes much closer than he was on the rest of the album because hes not still looking for geralt at every turn

I have this dream you're doing cool shit Having adventures on your own You meet some woman on the Internet and take her home We never painted by the numbers, baby But we were making it count You know the greatest loves of all time are over now I guess you never know, never know And it's another day, waking up alone

this is jaskier acknowledging the fact that geralt has probably long since moved on with his life, either with other romantic people or with his life entirely (the first time he does this on the album). he says that while their love or friendship was unconventional it still was definitely something (implying that it may have been one of the greatest loves of his life). and the waking up alone part references quite miss home and being by himself, but it isnt sad, its just a fact at this point.

But we were something, don't you think so? Roaring twenties, tossing pennies in the pool And if my wishes came true It would've been you In my defense, I have none For never leaving well enough alone But it would've been fun If you would've been the one

this is the part where we see that jaskier has grown. hes recognized that his wanting to be with geralt was never anything more than a fleeting wish or a moment that couldn't last. but he knows that it had potential and it could have worked but it didnt and thats okay. in the last chorus the pennies line is “rosé flowing with your chosen family” which implies that he and geralt were close enough to know each others family (chosen or real), meaning that it meant something. and he wouldn't have minded a long term relationship with geralt, but its not what happened.

in new years day jaskier says “dont read the last page” this song is that last page. part of him still doesnt want geralt to know that hes put aside the hope of it working because he wants to still keep himself open for geralt, but knows that its not healthy and ultimately he needs to move on. hes essentially giving geralt the choice: remember jaskier as wanting to get back with him (since the last line of the album would have been “please dont ever become a stranger who's laugh i could recognize anywhere” or let him have the knowledge that jaskier is done with him (since the official last line of the album is “but it would have been fun if you would've been the one”)

anyway thats jaskiers breakup album. i put way too much effort into this. and if you actually read through the whole thing, thank you and please let me know what you think!! if you use this for fics or have your own interpretations please please tag me, id love to see!!

#the witcher #geralt of rivia #geralt #jaskier #julian alfred pankratz #geraskier #wow this took so long #literally so long #id recommend listening to the songs tho theyre all kinda vibey #there's like a million songs i could have used but i liked these ones cause i think they have a very nostalgic vibe #also dont get me wrong jaskier would also eventually release some sones like uhh #truth hurts by lizzo #like very fuck you breakup songs #but this is him being sad first #anyway im literally only posting this cause witcher anon said they wanted to read it #i hope you like it my dude

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Yes I love our friendship !! Also shoutout to my playlist for playing like a G6 to get me in the mood to write this lol. #teamcanadaplayingthissong.

Lmao our ship name is ligid or not? hehe. Yes thank you Jamie Drysdale for existing, we like you vv much.

Aw I’m sorry about your joint problems that really sucks. Even if they don’t bother you a lot. Actually the resistance training helped me, all of that just made my hips jacked lol . So I’m happy that it doesn’t bother me that much!

Yayy I’ll come visit! You can take me to all the fun places . Oo please come back with me, driving in Canada out of city is just wildlife and road hehe. It’s all straight and a bit curvy especially if you are driving to B.C. Honestly it would be so fun , you can sit upfront with me. You can have the aux. The music would be great. I think we would need to make frequent stops lol because everyone is tall and needs to stretch and walk around lol. I think at some point they would be asking “are we there yet” constantly hehe. We would chirp each other, eat a bunch of snacks, sing along to music, and just be joking around a lot lol. Idk it’s just my imagination!. Who would you want to be in the same car as you? Let’s say we rent out a 7 seater.

I think I’ll jump onto quinner next, let him have a fitness challenge for a bit hehe. Coach Brigid is gonna be working you guys. I actually have heard about the core concept! It helped me a lot! You’re gonna be a great coach. I will wear that shirt and it will have you and Dylan playing chicken lol. Ooo we should make shirts that has a team pic on it + us #memories.

Lol, we do like to spell things differently. Hehe yes, me + Ryan would be crazyyyyy and we would probably act like we are going to crash into you guys. You know you love us :)) okkkk i am still imagining his chin on your shoulder🥺 it makes my heart melt. Yess I want it to get spicyyyyyy. Or if it were reversed you could hold him around the waist, im just gonna say it- he has a great bod.(nice job dyl)

Ikkk quinton and devon would dominate in the hair department and give us Dutch braids or any other hairstyle- I’m not sure what you would want?. Wow your hair is long, it’s probably so pretty!! I have thick hair and a lot of it so it’s annoying to brush lol. Aww Dylan and Jamie playing w your hair 😍

Yes option 2 is great :) yes him helping you in would be so cute! Lol I would probably just jump in. But I would love them to help me hehe. Yesss let’s go buy matching frames! I want that in my room:)

Hmmm what colours do you have? Also what colour do u want your Holloway hoodie? Haha yes I was like who’s Lexi? That sucks that it’s cold in your school. And it sucks that you can’t wear any sweats or hoodies.

It would be so fun to dance w everyone! But we would slay the dance floor. I’m a crazy dancer so get ready to get dizzyyyyy. Yes you, Jamie and Dylan having cute moments is a must!. Awww maybe I could convince him but he might step on my feet lol. Idk I just love that feeling of slow dancing with somebody. Yk, being close, they’re arms around your waist etc.

Lol yea, a bonfire on the beach is something I really want to do! I still don’t believe you have a bad voice! Idk I have a deeper voice than girls I know so it doesn’t sound really good when I sing. I’m good just letting the guys sing and dyl playing the guitar . Aww I wanna cuddle on the beach, but yes falling asleep on the beach and then waking up would be the funniest thing. Just everybody looking around and seeing who they fell asleep on hehe. I see u sleeping on dyl or maybe even Jamie?. Some good insta photos will be taken, so we can flex even more :)

Ok you and Dylan are partners again if you want. I think I’ll go w Ryan just cuz he’s competitive as well and we would be a good match against you guys. Yes you’ll reassure us again! We’d help them get over their fears- it’s what friends are for!. Zip lining is so fun, have you ever gonna on a double zip line with someone - like when you’re facing each other?.

I have come to the conclusion that I’m in between both, like you with Jamie and Dylan🥺 I’ll see at the end lol!

Also escape rooms- thoughts how that would be?

haha my gym teacher played like a g6 during gym one day and i was just like team canada where you at? and then my team won, so that song’s good luck now. ok so we have 2 options for our ship name lmao: ligid or brexi. which one do you like better? and yes jamie we love you, if you see this feel free to hmu

hehe yes we can tour chicago together. tbh there’s not all that much, but we could go to navy pier and the maggie daley park. and then drive thru canada together! just open road with no one else where you can go way above the speed limit is the best for road trips tbh. yes i get aux! idk if people would like my music tho lol it’s kind of all over the place. like a lot of the 2000′s stuff like like a g6, but then also a lot of rap and a lot of country. hehe yes lots of stops to stretch our legs and get more food lol. and definitely there would be a lot of singing, chirping, and asking are we there yet lmao. ok if we have a 7 seater, definitely the two of us, dyl, jamie, quinner, braden, and then maybe quinton for our 7th person?

hehe yes give quinner that fitness challenge lol. yes ik engaging your core helps sm but no one ever believes me when i tell them. but the thing is if you don’t your torso will sink which makes it harder to swim. hehe i’ll make everyone great at swimming. ooooh yes team dylan + brigid shirts and team canada + lexi + brigid shirts

hehe yes i can definitely see you guys pretending you were gonna crash into us. but we love you guys anyways lol. yes the chin on the shoulder seems like the softest thing 🥺 but then also if his hands were on my waist and it starts to get spicy and maybe they start to drift just a bit lower 😏 oooh yes if i could hold him around the waist, yes he does have a vv nice bod. i mean have you seen his wakeboarding pic on his insta?

yesss i love dutch braids, quinton or devon please put them in my hair for me. oooh you have thick hair, that’s so lucky. thick hair is so pretty! and yes i would love it if they play with my hair, idk why but it’s just so soothing to me when people do 😍

hehe you just jumping into the raft and we almost flip, i could see that happening. unless of course they help you in, in which case we’re safe from flipping lol. but that would be such a cute pic to put in my room with our matching frames

i have a lot of different blue/turquoise ones and about half of them are tie-dye (i also have a grey one, but i refuse to part with it sorry) for the holloway hoodie, maybe red? i don’t have a lot of red. or grey bc i love my gray hoodies lmao i just realized i spelled grey two different ways in the same sentence

haha same i’m a pretty crazy dancer too, so we can be dizzy together lol. hehe jack stepping on your feet bc he’s tipsy and he’s never really slowdanced before, i could see it. it would be so cute lol. and yes slowdancing gives me 🦋🦋 in my stomach

actually same i have a kind of deep voice for a girl, so i don’t like my singing voice. like it’s ok but definitely not good. but it would be so cute to cuddle on the beach and just end up falling asleep together. or just imagine you’re sitting by the bonfire but you get cold so one of them gives you their flannel and then pulls you closer to keep you warm 🥺🥺

hehe get ready for me and dylan to dominate again. i love any kind of ropes/obstacle course so i’ve done a ton of them. but yeah we would definitely have to reassure some of the guys. no i haven’t been on a double zipline but it sounds super fun

oooh an escape room would be super fun! i did one once and it was so chaotic but somehow our team was the first one out of our room even tho we had the hardest one. but i definitely feel like some of the guys would be super into and super good at it, some of them would be trying but would just be super confused, and some of them would just be wandering around watching the chaos unfold lol. who do you think would be which?

also yes you with quinner or braden 🥺

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barnesandrogersfanfics · 4 years

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Love Lockdown

A/N- Just a little one shot about being stuck in lockdown and having to video chat with Bucky.

Im not sure what this is to be fair, the boredom has set in!💕

Being ordered to stay home amid the virus outbreak meant having to work from home for the foreseeable future. Id only been working with the newly formed Avengers team for a few months, id been hired to run psych evaluations on the team.... make sure they were all stable enough to be working with the public. Of course the one person the higher up's were concerned about was Bucky Barnes.

He had been a tough one to crack, we spent many sessions in silence before he started to finally open up. Because of that reason it had been agreed that we would still hold our sessions via facetime, i didnt want him closing himself off again.

"Hey doc, hows quarantine treating you?" Bucky asked on the first video chat.

"Its not been to bad so far, its given me some time to get some things around the house sorted. But its only been a week" i chuckled "hows it going over there?"

"Its a nightmare, Sam is driving me crazy. I dont know how much more i can deal with" Bucky rolled his looking bored.

"Try not to kill each other okay"

"Im not making any promises".

Two weeks into lockdown and i felt like i was loosing my mind stuck indoors alone. Bucky was checking in every couple of days for his sessions and i started looking forward to that. We spent most of the time chatting like old friends, there wasn't anything else to really talk about right now.

"So Sam's still alive?" I asked smiling while topping up my wine glass.

"For now, i'm actively keeping my distance. I dont even know why i have to do this damn lockdown i cant get sick anyway"

"Joys of being a super soldier huh?"

"Yeah, gotta have some perks"

"Your lucky you have the company, im going crazy stuck here on my own. Im gonna need a psych evaluation myself by the time this is over"

"You getting lonely doc?" Bucky smirked through the camera.

"Yes! But i'm getting through it with wine" i smiled raising my glass to him before taking a mouthful.

"You'll be an alcoholic by the time this is over"

"Im being sensible Buck i promise"

"You can call me anytime you get bored or lonely, its not like i have Avenging stuff to do right now"

"I might take you up on that" i smiled resting my chin in my hand "so your definitely doing okay?

"Im fine doc, i actually feel pretty good. I haven't been having nightmare and I've been training, for the first time in ages i feel like me"

"Thats great Bucky, really. Im so pleased your doing good, soon you wont need these meetings"

"But what if i want them...... talking to you helps"

"Well i'll always be there for you"

""Thanks doc....."

"Yo Buck! We're late for the conference call with Ross..... get your ass moving!" I heard Sam Wilson calling in the background, Bucky closed his eyes shaking his head.

"Well id better go"

"Yeah sure, im gonna go shower and watch a movie or something.... thats what my life has become"

"Okay well have fun, i'll speak to you soon"

"Bye Buck" i clicked end call and pushed my chair back from the desk.

I grabbed my wine and phone and opened up Spotify, i selected my 'getupandgo' playlist, a mix of songs that just made you wanna dance! I went upstairs and quickly showered, singing loudly and probably very offkey!

It wasnt long before i was dried off and dressed in panties and a tank top, my hair still wrapped in the towel. I noticed my wine glass was empty so headed downstairs for a refil. As i went down Camila Cabello's 'Liar' started to play and i was instantly dancing around and singing.

Bucky's POV

I walked back into my room after another pointless conference call with Ross and instantly heard some music playing.

"I don't care, if you're here

Or if you're not alone

I don't care, it's been too long

It's kinda like we didn't happen

The way that your lips move

The way you whisper slow

I don't care, it's good as gone (uh)

I said I won't lose control, I don't want it (ooh)

I said I won't get too close, but I can't stop it"

I didnt leave music on.... where the hell was it coming from....

"Oh no, there you go, making me a liar

Got me begging you for more

Oh no, there I go, startin' up a fire

Oh no, no (oh no)

Oh no, there you go, you're making me a liar

I kinda like it though

Oh no, there I go, startin' up a fire

Oh no, no (ooh)"

Shit! I gasped when i followed the music to my desk and there on the screen i could see the Doc dancing and singing in her living room! She was in a pair of panties and a tank top, her hair wrapped in a towel still while she swayed her hips and drank from her wine glass..... i shouldn't be watching this! But damn she looked cute! I couldnt help but smile.

"You're watching, I feel it

I know I shouldn't stare

I picture your hands on me

But what if, you kiss me?

And what if, I like it?

And no one sees it

I said I won't lose control, I don't want it

I said I won't get too close, but I can't stop it"

Seeing this side to the Doc made me like her more than i already did! But i shouldn't be watching this, it felt to wrong. I should call her.....

Readers POV

"Oh no, there you go, you're making me a liar, Got me begging you for more

Oh no, there I go, startin' up a fire

Oh no, no

Oh no, there you go, you're making me a liar, I kinda like it though

Oh no, there I go, startin' up a fire....Oh no, no" i was singing loudly while dancing around my living room.

My phone started ringing causing the song to stop. When i looked at the caller ID and saw it was Bucky i instantly smiled.

"Hey Bucky, you okay?" I asked smiling like an idiot.

"Hey Doc" he said sounding a little amused, i was confused by the sudden echo in the room.

"Why can i hear you twice...."

"Look up"

What?? What was he on about.... oh!

My eyes fell to the screen where i could see a grinning Bucky.

"Oh no.... how much of that did you see?"

"Enough.... you look like your having fun" he chuckled.

"Shit! I dont even have pants on! This is so unprofessional of me im sorry...."

"Calm down doll, im not complaining. I was actually enjoying the show"

"Haha Buck, very funny" i shook my head at him.

"Im serious, im just thinking about how much i wanna come join your party now"

"Yeah? Well your more than welcome" i laughed knowing he wouldn't come round.

"Dont tempt me....."

"As if you'd come here" i rolled my eyes "well im gonna go get some more wine and maybe put on some pants! I'll make sure to hang up this time" i laughed and said goodbye once again making sure it disconnected. If i hadn't been drinking i'm sure id be more embarrassed about this whole thing but I just shrugged it off and headed to the kitchen for a refill.

20 minutes later and i was in the middle of making some chilli nachos when there was a knock at my door. For a second i panicked thinking it was Bucky but then remembered he didn't know where i lived. It was probably Mrs Harper from down the hall asking to borrow a cup of flour for some extravagant cake she was making!

But as i swung the door open there stood Bucky Barnes still wearing the hoodie and cap from the video call we had.... oh my god he looked good dressed so casual, he looked so relaxed it made me smile.

"Bucky.... what are you doing here?"

"You invited me" he shrugged smirking at me.

"How'd you even know where i live huh?"

"I may have hacked into your employee file"

"Stalker much" i teased making him laugh "come on in" I opened the door wider to let him in and took the chance to take a calming breath.

"Never did put on those pants i see" he smirked looking me up and down, it was then i realised i was still in my panties!!

"God damn it!" I said loudly feeling my heart start to race "let me just..." i pointed down the hall towards my room.

"Dont put them on on my account Doc, i dont mind at all" Bucky said walking over and standing closer to me "Look im just gonna say it how it is and hope it doesn't ruin our relationship..... i like you Doc, alot. Like im crazy about you, cant stop thinking about you....."

"What?.... Bucky thats not funny...."

"Dead serious. I mean its hard to think very clearly with you standing there looking like that but..... what are the chances you feel the same?"

"I think the chances are in your favour...." i smiled feeling my cheeks burn. Bucky suddenly closed the distance and kissed me, pulling my body tight against his..... his flesh hand slipping down to my ass.

"Mmmm i'm glad you forgot those pants" he smiled before picking me up and leading the way to the bedroom.

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selfcareparker · 3 years

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(lovely anon) ok so this may sound so dramatic but; let me paint you a picture: i’m responding to your latest message, sitting on the edge of the sofa. i type in “lovely anon” into the search and see this longgg post come up and i’m like uhhh... i scroll down and see the people you tagged and literally. when i saw @ lovely anon. i . cried . like full on tears. my brother goes “what are you doing” “she tagged meeeee” and he continued what he was doing and didn’t care LMAOO but i was so emotional? i love and appreciate you too and aAH IM CRYING!! you’re just really sweet and i didn’t expect it at all and it was really lovely to be a part of something :’)

the kermit pic sent meee but yes yes yes!! when you start uni let me know, lol i’m so excited for you!! let me know how it goes cuz i’m literally hype hahah & yes we will be in our sad corners of the world, missing england but you’re right it’ll be sooooo worth it in the end!!! and oH i’m glad you talk to them lol i truly thought you like haven’t seen them/haven’t spoken to them this whole time😭 that would’ve been awful!

also i totallyyy get what your saying about the english speaking thing. and idk why you’re insecure (well i *knowww* bc it’s not your first language and you’re studying it in college so yuh) but your english is great :)))

lol yeah that makes sense.. my mom took french in college and she remembers NOTHING HDJSHSJ (the fact that you wanna learn MORE languages i- ahh i so admire you.. you literally know so many languages🥺) yea i mean you know a bunch of languages bc you know the base of words lol, but i wonder if because you know latin it’ll be easier for you to learn french? oh- oh wait you said it’ll be easier HAHHAHA

THERES SO MUCH EXCITING STUFF TO TALK ABOUT HDGSJSJSL it’s so wild to me that you can’t watch chaos walking :( i’m a professional hacker tho so i’ll try and find a way for you LMAO (by professional hacker i mean i literally have gotten multiple free trials and i’m pretty sure the hulu police are after me bUT ITS THEIR FAULT BC WHY IS IT SO EXPENSIVE???) i mean the movie was good? and cute? and funny? but yea don’t think it’s gonna be the most fantastic thing haha AND THE DOGGO AWWW (i saw it again today- or my today lol, saturday, aND THESE OLD PEOPLE CAME AND SAT IN FRONT OF ME AND MY FRIEND LIKE ITS A LONG STORY LMK IF YOU WANNA HEAR IT)

SHARK FILMS?!?!! PLEASE READING THIS I HAD NO IDEA YOU WOULD LIKE SHARK MOVIES TOO FHSKSHSHDJDJGAJAYSJS ok so i haven’t seen any of the classics (i’m working on it) but i would probably watch jaws to laugh at it? not like that lmao but like comparing it. OKAY BUT HONESTLY I BARELY KNOW ANYONE WHO LIKES SHARK FILMS AHHH OKAY im adding “the shallows” to my watchlist bc it sounds super good AND SAME AHSJD ANY BODY OF WATER IN A MOVIE I JUST KNOW ITS COMING LMAO watch me not go in the water anymore after seeing that picture HHDJSJ

WHEN I READ THIS I JUST GOT DONE TALKING TO MY MOM ABOUT THE MEG AND THAT SCENE WHERE THE SHARKKK JUMPEDDDD AND ATE THE OTHER ONEEEE AND THEN JONAS HAD TO DO- bro i cannot (i think that one is my favorite because i love me a bit of romance and the subtle romance hAD ME) 47 meters down PHEW could you imagine?? i try not to think too hard about it i’m like “don’t be dumb catherine, don’t put yourself in a dumb situation” (not autocorrect having “dumb bitch” ready i am not lying) and i literally understand... there is no other way to explain 47 meters down

i CANNOT watch horror movies, can’t can’t can’t, i literally hate them i cannot do it!!! the thrill is tempting and it’s cool in the moment but i cant lmao. i don’t have nightmares about scary things (for the majority of the time) but going to sleep i’m like oooohhhhhh shit 🥲 literally what you explained

music !!!! music !!!! music !!!! (u ever write a word and now it looks weird lmao) MY BROTHER DOESNT LIKE MUSIC AND ITS SHIT IM LIKE WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU- anyway, my music taste is all over the place i mean......... it’s crazy. earlier today i was listening to meghan trainor’s album “title” oUT OF NOWHERE, but just a few minutes ago i was listening to fall in love with me by earth wind and fire soooo lol .. megan is *chefs kiss*, i’m not familiar with stormzy🙈, harry styles.... IM SORRY IM THAT PERSON but i don’t listen to his solo music EEK i only listen to adore you... and not that frequently... the music video freaked me out... i like niall’s solo music a lot more, which i listen to a lot more. now. one direction. favorite. please & thank you. i have a playlist called “boy bands” and it consists of one direction and the vamps (obsessed with cherry blossom btw) but as you can see my taste is all over the place!! fr fr if i sent you what apple music has as my “favorites” it went from ariana grande to carrie underwood to glee (OBSESSED DONT LET ME TALK ABOUT IT) i mean please if you let me i will nonstop (hamilton HDJSH) talk about music all day😩 & NOOO UR MUSIC IS GREAT HAHSK IM NOT A BIG RAP PERSON BUT DOJA CAT IS MY FAVORITE!!

okay good, i’m glad :) i was just nervous that you did feel that way <3 and GOT IT HAHAJ healthy pressure is always good :’) my friend got me these pens cuz i love stationary and school supplies lol and was like “now you have to write something” soooo yea i feel that! and i saw you posted the ficcccccc literally so proud of you 🥺🥺 i’m trying to decide if i read it tomorrow or tonight..... sleep or a literal beautiful creation made by the sweetest person and is v v nice smut and college!peter and 4.7k...... sleep aint really calling no more.

GIRL ALL OF MY SENTENCES ARE TOO LONG HAHAHAH IN FACT THIS IS TOO LONG SOOO (also why am i 3 days late..😑) anywho it’s 1 in the morning so <33 lovely anon

🥰

oh my god the fact that you cried nearly made me cry too😭😭🥺🥺 (also, your brother LMAO), i wasn‘t even sure if you‘d see it but i immediately thought of you so of COURSE i included you <333

the hulu police lsjsjaiaik, girl i was ready to get a hulu membership when i wanted to watch big time adolescence and i couldn‘t find it anywhereee, and when i got to the payment it said i need a bank account that‘s based in the US or whatever. like bro i was about to pay you!! but i was forced to find it somewhere (and i did, on levidia,— not that i‘ve ever used it because it‘s illegal 😤 i would never!!! i‘d rather support billion dollar companies and spend my money on watching films that i can find for free 🥰🥰🥰 not

i‘ve found chaos walking online so i‘ll watch it som time this week!! also YES TELL ME THE STORY

okay so idk if you watched/are planning on watching falcon and winter soldier but i watched the first episode the other day and they were speaking french (just a few seconds) and I UNDERSTOOD SOME WORDS DLDJDJ and i was so proud of myself. i‘ve only ever learned french with duolingo lol (i only do like 5 mins a day and that‘s why i was so surprised that i understood some of it!!). and yeah apart from latin i feel like italian, german, french and english are all similar in a sense.. i mean obviously they‘re completely different languages but for example there are some grammatical constructions in french that i think i wouldn‘t understand if i only spoke english? so when i translate those things into english you can‘t directly translate them bc you say things differently, but when i translate them into german then it makes more sense to me. idk that‘s something i noticed so i feel like if you already know multiple languages it‘s easier to learn another language compared to if you only know one language and are trying to learn a second one. even if the languages aren‘t similar then i think you get the hang of it easier.

ikd slsjsjs also i don‘t want you to think that i‘m a linguistic genius or anything lmfao, like i‘m only fluent in english and german and i‘m just a wannabe (ew that word) polyglot sksj (yes i had to google polyglot— i do think learning ancient greek would be super cool tho? like imagine studying latin AND ancient greek, whew). and honestly i don‘t think i‘ll ever be fluent in another language bc i don‘t plan on living anywhere other than germany or possibly england and i‘m not dedicated enough to properly learn any other languages esp if i don‘t have anyone to speak the language with. but i still try my best and i just love language/languages as a whole so yeah i‘m happy & just learning as much as i can dkdjh🥰

(I guess language/linguistics are/is my passion (which sounds sooo lame lmaoooo) and the word passion comes from the latin word pati (i think💀) which means to suffer, and in german passion is called Leidenschaft which basically means suffering too, idk why i‘m telling you this maybe you know it already. but ok dumb fun fact, in german you can make compound words with as many words as you like, and the longest official german word is Rindfleischetikettierungsüberwachungsaufgabenübertragungsgesetz which is a law for the monitoring of labels on beef... this is such a dumb fact but i think about that word like once a day idk why dodjsjsj so... 👁👄👁)

but i‘ll stop boring you with my linguistics talk because truly i don‘t know much about languages but i am interested omg i‘m gonna shut up now.

now water + sharks. (so in non-covid times i always go to croatia with my dad during the summer, and even before ever watching a shark film i was always kind of scared in water.. but after watching so many shark films wldjdj HELP Like you know when you go deeper into the ocean and you can‘t see or feel the ground/floor? anymore.. then i just start imagining sharks. like i can‘t help it i just imagine a shark sneaking up on me or feeling something graze my foot ABD I JUST START FREAKING OUT SSKJSHSJ. idk. anyway kdkdh i do love the ocean/swimming though but the older i get the more i realise how fucking scary the ocean is ( even if we’re gonna disregard sharks)

your brother... what‘s wrong with him? HOw CAN YOU NOT LIKE MUSIC LIKE WHAT THE FAWK

OKAY BUT SAME ABOUT THE ADORE YOU MUSIC VIDEO DLDKDJSJSKSLSLKSKSJSHSH and yeah i have to say harry’s style (styles lol) as a solo artist isn‘t reaaally my cup of tea, and i only like the popular songs from his second album and the first album is only good when i‘m in the right mood (haven‘t actually listened to it in a while though, but kiwi is one of my all time favourites along with only angel but i hate the start, like it takes 40 seconds to actually begin properly). i like mgk and because of him i watched the dirt which is a film about motley crue, and now one of my favourite songs ever is same ol situation and i‘m into rock now lol. +++ justin bieber. I had a justin bieber cardboard cutout thingy😭 i was the biggest Belieber on earth when i was 13-16, but i didn‘t like his last album and tbh he‘s become a bit weird lately, BUT OH MY GOD. i Listened to his new album yesterday and i‘m in LOVE with the song hold on

i really like niall‘s music toooo!!!! And doja cat 😌😌😌😌 And THE VAMPS OG MY GOD. i got to see them live bc they were the opening/support act for little mix and ajdsjskslslsjsjsj. (Also i love concerts, some of the best memories of my life are concerts, i‘ve seen nicki minaj live 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and justin twice and my heart fills every time i think about how excited i was, it was my first concert ever (16th of September 2016 😌) and i was the happiest person alive seeing justin drew fucking bieber (even if i‘m not tooo sure about justin nowadays)

i have a confession? Idk what hamilton is. I mean I‘ve heard about it and i keep googling it but i‘ve never watched it (is it even a film???? or like a proper musical? also pls tell me you grew up with high school musical. i have a few friends who didn‘t and it makes me so sad 😭😭😭 hsm is the best thing to happen to my childhood , the sooooongs— i still listen to some of them every week or month lool they make me so happy)

(Okay wait i was about to recommend some stormzy songs but you said you‘re not that into rap so i won‘t dksksjl)

What you said about my fic AHSLSLSJB (i wasn‘t sure if you sent an ask about it earlier? idk that might have been someone else, so if it was (and you‘ve read it already) i hope you liked it sksjsj i was...... unsure about it. and i have this reeaaallly long peter fic that i started writing in december and that‘s the only peter thing i currently want to write but also i can‘t because idk how to continue kddjj.) but I’m definitely getting back into writing i have a few blurbs that i want to write so 🥰🥰🥰

Oh and pls as soon as you read this let me know: violet or yellow? (it‘s just a tiny thing for my new theme slsksj)

#lovely anon #BY THE WAY: do not feel bad or apologise for not answering straight away #you can take your time i know it can be exhausting (not bc its anything bad but just because its so much and so long) to answer to my shit #all at once*#so really i don‘t mind if you take a few days or a week or whatever to respond #or if you want to you can respond bit by bit/topic by topic whenever you feel like it #so you don‘t have to concentrate on an ask and my post for like AN HOUR DLSKJ but rather do it in smaller chunks #if you want <3 #btw i‘m always so scared that i‘ll type lonely anon instead of lovely dldjdjsksk so if i ever do that i‘m just being #(cue your autocorrect dldkdj) a dumb bitch #its 1 am now sorry if there are any mistakes (i‘ll stop apologing from now now lol but i still am sorry you have to read my word vomit lmao)#*apologis #*from now on #omg

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cowboyshit · 4 years

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Adam.... are you surprised? Lol Lucky number 13

the game! hit shuffle on my music playlist the amount of times as the number sent, then write a fanfic with the supplied wrestler x reader based on the song. here’s the hitch! to challenge my long winded self, the fic cannot exceed 1k words and the closer to 500 words I get, the better I’ve done! LETSA GO!!!!

the song: Matter of Time by Fitness

ship: hangman adam page x reader (any gender or nongender)

word count: 1379 (im sorry sjfdjkd i went over lmao)

rating: general? teen? there’s alcohol mentions and some thorsty thots

Squeezing the pillow tight to your face, you muffled the frustrated groan that wanted to slip out of your mouth with your eyes glued to the television screen. Hangman Adam Page was on the screen, purple floral-patterned button-up long-sleeve undone two buttons to show a tease of his chest, hands tilting a plastic cup of beer back and draining it sloppy, letting rivulets run down his chin and down his neck. You weren’t crazy about the taste of beer, but suddenly all you could think about was how badly you wanted to run your tongue along the path it left and cleaning it off his skin.

It was only after he was off-air that you could breathe and refocus, peeling the pillow from your face and exhaling long and slow. It wasn’t fair he could frustrate you so easily. It’d been years since you two had dated; childhood sweethearts with the world of opportunity laid out before you. Immaturity and mistakes drove you apart initially, and then it was time that left a yawning gap, and then it was distance to drive the final stake in the coffin on your relationship.

But your heart had always lamented. He was the one that got away.

And a month ago he’d found you on social media and messaged you, and your heart had beat too quickly in your chest and your fingers shook as you responded. The pair of you went back and forth in paragraphs, reconnecting, rekindling your old friendship. It was just like old times. Then he asked for your cell number, said it was easier to text the people he wanted to talk to than to deal with socializing on his media platforms where he was bombarded with constant notifications. It only took a few text messages before he was calling, and the pair of you had stayed up all night on the phone, laughing and talking into the morning.

You still hadn’t told him you’d been following his career since the start, too embarrassed to let him know you’d never extinguished the flame burning for him, but you’d confessed you knew he was wrestling on television. He at least knew you watched weekly. He knew you’d expressed fondness for the pearl-snap floral shirt he’d worn a few weeks back doing commentary. Somehow the way he was dressed tonight felt like a personal affront. Like now he was actively trying to do the things you mentioned you liked seeing, when the pair of you toed that dangerous line of flirting and slipping back into old habits. All it’d taken was one laugh of you pointing out how many times he played with the waistband on his trunks in the ring for him to tease you, asking you if you liked it, and for you to be so overwhelmed that you could only laugh and tell him to shut up.

And then he started doing it all the time.

Dynamite ended, and your night carried on per usual for a middle-of-the-week kind of night. By the time you were sliding into bed, setting your alarm and reaching to turn off the light, your phone started buzzing against the table. You glanced the caller i.d.: Hangman Adam Page. Your heart lifted into your chest and you took a breath before reaching to answer.

“Hel-” You didn’t even get a greeting out.

“Heeeyy!” Excited, boisterous, Hangman greeted you happily (and obviously drunk) as soon as you’d picked up.

“Well, hi.” You laughed. “Are you drunk dialing me?”

“No! I’m drunk but I’m not drunk dialing you I’m…” he trailed off and made a noise of thought under his breath, “I’m purposefully dialing you.”

You couldn’t help but laugh, he sounded so pleased with himself for coming up with it. He was definitely drunk. Though, with the way he’d been behaving lately, you weren’t surprised. The only thing that shocked you was the fact that he was calling you drunk… he’d never done that before. Maybe he just needed a friendly voice, you thought as you cradled the phone and slipped into bed, cuddling up under your mattress.

“Did I get you at a bad time?” He asked, country drawl gently slurred.

“No, not at all. I was just getting into bed.”

“Mm… wish I was there.” He murmured it so low, you almost wondered if you’d heard him wrong. Surely… surely you had, right?

“I watched you tonight,” you said, a little louder than necessary, trying to jump for a different conversation to steer your mind away.

“Oh, yeah?” He shifted – you could hear the movement with how close you pressed the phone to your ear. “Did you like my shirt?” He had to have been smiling, because you could hear it in his voice.

Jerk.

“I knew you wore that on purpose,” you laughed and heard him chuckle breathy and low.

“Didn’t answer my question though…”

You were blushing. “Yeah, dork. I liked it.”

“Good. I wore it for you.” Bold. To the point. Your heart jumped into your throat.

“For me? Really?”

“Of ‘course it was for you,” he almost sounded offended you needed clarification. “Who else?”

“I don’t know,” you shrugged and felt dumb, realizing he couldn’t see you do it. “Yourself?”

He laughed.

“I know this is pry the beer and the whiskey talkin’, but I’ve been meaning to bring something up between us and maybe I’m drunk enough for forget this happened by the morning if it doesn’t go the way I want it to.”

Your heart started beating harder and faster in your chest. You sat up and clung to the phone, eyes wide.

“I need you. I need… home. I’ve always needed you, if I’m bein’ honest, but lately with the situation I’m in and how lonely I’ve been feeling… you just… you came back into my life at the right moment, like fate showed me your name on social media when it did and brought you back to me when I’d need you most. Any time I go, I come back to you. I never stopped dreaming about you, and… waking up next to someone else after thinking about you…” He blew a sigh through his lips, gently over the receiver. Drunk, lacking a filter, he was laying it all out for you and your mind was flying a thousand miles a minute just trying to keep up with the fact that this was reality and he was basically confessing that he had never stopped being in love with you. “It was only a matter of time before this happened and tonight I’m drunk and lonely enough to say fuck it.”

And even trying to pretend like he was okay if you told him you didn’t feel the same way, you couldn’t help but catch the way his words held an underlying tone of worry.

“I have to confess something first,” you said, heart pounding, “I haven’t been completely honest with you.”

He was dead silent. Waiting.

“I’ve actually been following your career since you were signed on with Bullet Club… I never stopped supporting you.”

“Are you serious?” He laughed, and you suddenly ached, wishing you could be there to see that you’d put a smile across his face.

“Yeah,” you said, smiling too. “I know we made a lot of mistakes, but we were dumb kids… and truth is, I’ve never stopped loving you, Adam.”

“Shit…” He exhaled with surprise, clearly expecting this conversation to go a different way. “I mean, uh, wow. I… yeah? Never?”

“Yeah. I never stopped.”

“Me too.” There was a pause while the two of you just sat on the phone, smiling, hearts full and minds racing. Adam laughed. “Shit, now I really hope I’m not too drunk, so I can remember this in the morning.”

“You better remember this in the morning, cowboy, because I’m going to be over at your house for dinner and I expect enough kisses to make up for all the years we’ve missed.”

He laughed again. “Okay, okay, I’ll remember. Promise.” Another laugh and then, “oh and don’t you worry your pretty little head off,” his country drawl deepen, “I plan to make up for lost time in many, many different ways and you’re gonna love every single one.”

Every time I goI come back, I come back, don't you knowHey baby it's just a matter of timeEvery time I dream of youI wake up next to someone new

Hey baby it's just a matter of time

Time time time time timeTime time time time

#tw: alcohol #hangman page #hangman adam page #adam page #aew #hangman page fanfiction #biforbecky2belts

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byuniieo · 5 years

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‘Lovely Guardian - CH 1’

「pairing: baekhyun x reader」

「genre:mafia!AU racer!AU & little bit of university!AU」

「☻A ♡F ✿S (later on)」 ✧ 「༄ - on going mini-series」

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·˚A/N✎ ﹏ I made a playlist (on spotify) that helped me create this story!! Feel free to listen to it !!

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Being early october meant there was rain and cold wind. It was fall and it’s one of your favorite seasons despite you not like being cold. You liked being able to wear warm and big baggy hoodies and the rain made you nostalgic, you thought about the man with the jade green eyes.

You usually stay up till 3AM mainly because you just can’t bring yourself to sleep so easily. I guess you could say it’s insomnia or sometimes you just think too much before going to bed. Last time you thought about having a dragon for a pet and then in the morning you ended up trying to do some witchcraft on a cat, which resulted you in chasing a cat. And no you didn’t get the cat but you found a convenience store that sold some good noodles.

Right now you were sitting at a kitchen island, with all your papers, sketch books and sketches laying around but you were sound asleep. You were just resting there ever so peacf-

“Xeno! Wake the fuck up! Your class starts in 12 minutes and i’m not driving you there!” You felt something smack the right side of your face and as you look up you instantly jumped off the stool you were once sitting on as there was a flying a book headed your way. If you could go back in time, You would’ve rather much gone back to your apartment then to have knocked on this crazy girls door at 3am.

“Damn..be a little nicer, it’s barely 7-” You quickly turned around to check the clock on the living room wall, “7:18..” You scratch the back of your head then taking a small glance the person who kindly interrupted your small sleep, which was the one and only, Kim Joy. A while ago you decided to crash at Joy’s place since tonight you didn’t want to be home alone. You and Joy met when you were in high school, 5 years ago during sophomore year. At that time you thought you met someone who was fully capable of being responsible, sadly enough you bumped into the next big hot mess and here you both are. Surprisingly still alive.

You started to pack your things into your backpack when you decided to actually look at the girl. There she stands tall and beautiful from the roots of her black hair to the very bottom of her heels, dressed in a tight black dress with a brown coat gently falling off her exposed shoulders. You had the urge to brush back the hair falling down, framing her angelic face. Its when you hear her that you snapped out of your thoughts.

“Just take a picture and get over with it.” You look up to her eyes just to see her wink. She’s always been confident in herself, either her body or her face. She never failed to show off her looks. Of course she wasn’t cocky about it, she just liked the attention.

You felt a small chuckle leave your lips and you turned around heading towards the door, “I’m good, Later.” You softly mumbled as you pulled on your old black boots and swung your bag over shoulder.

Opening the door you felt the cold air touching your face and then you heard Joy yell out from inside, “I PUT AN ORANGE JUICE BOTTLE IN YOUR BAG AND DON’T COME BACK LATER CAUSE IM NOT OPENING THE DOOR FOR YOU”

The door slams shut right behind you with a small smile adorning your face as you make your way to your first class of the day. Reaching into your pocket to take out a cigarette from its packet and you lit it up with your pink pocket lighter. Lowering your pale hands you inspect the glitter polish chipping off your nails, you puffed out a cloud of smoke without removing the cigarette from your lips.

You could say you enjoyed dressing up and looking stylish. Occasionally you’d do your makeup and nails. Some days you end up walking out barefaced and still be dressed nicely but now you could care less, with your pink oversized hoodie, over your black ripped jeans and your dirty black pair of boots.

Feeling your body get colder you cover your honey colored hair, then placed your cold hands in your hoodies pocket, you hoped the day would be better than yesterdays.

Although you already knew not to expect much from life.

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Your classroom felt warm and comfortable but looking outside you saw raindrops dripping from out of the sky onto the sidewalk below. Luckily you managed to make it to class on time, and now you were just heading out to get some coffee on this cold rainy day. Walking out of your class you saw a couple of students walking around with their umbrellas. So pulling up your hood on, you walk forward and under the rain.

“Hey Xeno! I thought you said you were quitting school?” You turned around to look at the owner of the voice and the hood on your hoodie slides off your head exposing your head to the cold rain.

You look up to see his soft brown hair falling over his dark orbs, you quickly notice his simple outfit, black jeans and a light grey hoodie under his jean jacket and the open umbrella loosely laying on his shoulder. You looked up to meet his eyes and his boyish smile, “Oh Sicheng..” Returning his smile you walked over to him and you grabbed his hand to pull him after you.

You started mumbling a response to his earlier question, “I did say that, and I was going too..but Seulgi said she’d buy me food for the year if I stayed..” Your face scrunches up as you turn to smile at him, “and well you know me.”

A fit of laughter erupted from his chest as he pulled you back and placed your hood over your head. He then turned you around grabbed your bag and gently pushed you forward, “Why am I not surprised” He muttered as he walked behind your small skipping figure, watching you step and splash in puddles.

Rain was a happy thing for you, because it reminded you of the man with jade green eyes. You and him used to play outside in the backyard on rainy days, and even though you got sick the next morning you never regretted it. Sicheng being someone who grew up with you knows this, so he let you be. Sicheng was always like an older brother to you, He held your hand when you were scared, he helped you when you struggled to do things on your own, and he always peeled your oranges because you just never could. He was legitimately the brother you never had. You and Sicheng met when you guys were little, he was your next door neighbor and since then you’ve always been together. Him and his family weren’t the closest or the best and because of that he adored you more since you never pushed him or blamed him for shit. Life can be a cruel ass, especially to those who have already “fucked up”.

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“Aye, Xeno want to come with me to the repair shop with me?” Turning around you saw Sicheng fixing the bags on his shoulders.

“Sure! Is Seulgi there?” You tilted your head watching him start walking in another direction, you began to skip behind him.

“Yeah actually, They’re all most likely there since it’s friday the shop is closed. Meaning they’re taking this time to modify their own cars.”

“Are you going to make me help you?”

“No, Last time I did that you almost broke Yeol’s window”

Your face turned bright red at the horrible memory, In fact what Sicheng said is true you sort forgot to focus on what you were doing because of Toben, Chanyeol’s dog. He was running around and nudging your legs for attention, you shuddered at the memory of Chanyeol threatening to make you into Toben’s chew toy if it were to have happened, “Yeah uh, Maybe that is a better idea.”

Sicheng emitted a small chuckle, “Well no shit, Sherlock”

You walked beside him under his black umbrella, looking up you saw a glowing galaxy drawn all over the place. You drew those for him because you were criticizing him for being “basic” and in the end he challenged you by telling you that you couldn’t do better, which resulted in a glow in the dark galaxy right over his head on rainy days.

You pulled your hood lower on your head turning to look at the steps you take, “How’s Taeyong?”

“I actually haven’t seen him in a while. He’s probably selling drugs again.” Sicheng released a sigh as he looked down at his feet too.

You knew these boys belonged to the world of “bad”, the world where there’s illegal races, drugs, violence, sex, murder, so on so forth. It didn’t bother you, You knew these boys since you were young and even if you knew your life was in some sort of danger for knowing them.. You didn’t really care. You yourself smoked, but never drank or did any xanax, heroin or any sort of drugs. You also never went to one of their illegal races. They never forced you to come but they did ask if you wanted to tag along to which you usually always refused.

“Do you think he’s taking them again..?”

“I hope not, even if he was I doubt it make any difference”

“What's that supposed to mean ?!” You turned to smack his chest.

“Nothing! Nothing! aH! I'm being attacked by a dwarf!” Sicheng pushed your hands away and closed him umbrella and started running away from you.

“Get back here you muffin top!” Running after him in the rain while your boots splashed in every puddle your small foot landed in. With a bright smile on your face you declared a race, and of course the loser buys lunch.

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“Hey Win! Can you pass me the T9 on the front counter”

Confused by the new voice you frown up at Sicheng.

“Who’s that?” You reach out and grab the umbrella from his hands.

“Kai, He’s been a racer of Suho’s for a long time but Chanyeol just brought him here in the garage a couple weeks ago” He turns around taking off his jacket and tossing it on one of the chairs nearby. “He’s pretty chill guy you might like him, but there’s this other guy that I know you’ll be happy to see.”

Right as he finished his sentence a white cloud ran alongside Toben, barking and jumping at your feet.

“Viví~” you cooed at the white puffy dog. Crouching to their level you patted their heads and rubbed their bellies. You picked up Viví and cradled him in your arms.

Standing up you walked behind Sicheng as he made his way over to this Kai person and girl when you saw this man it’s like you saw a literal god. With his honey skin, his well defined face and body, he looked like an actually god, but your mind only thought of one thing..

“Woah, Its Fancy Squidward from Spongebob!” You heard Sicheng snort and look over to see Chanyeol dying of laughter right besides his yellow Mustang GT350.

Your eyes widen in realization, “Oh! I'm sorry, did I say that out loud?!” You buried your face into the dog in your hands as you walked back to hide behind Sicheng.

That’s when you heard laughter coming from “Fancy Squidward” himself. Peeking over Sichengs shoulder you saw the boy reach over to grab the screwdriver from Sicheng’s hand.

“That was a very lovely first encounter” He looked up to meet your gaze. “Hi” He smiled at you, “Im Kai, or Jongin”

“Y/N,” Sicheng moved out of the way to start working on his car, “Sorry about that I didn’t mean to say that loud” You bent down to let the Viví play with Toben.

“You’re all good” He giggles, “Oh! That’s right uh that’s Sehun” He pointed to a black Aston Martin Vanquish right behind him. Tilting your head you noticed another tall guy standing besides the car. Instantly you recognized his face and ran towards him.

“Sehun!” You jumped up to hug him and he quickly responded by wrapping his arms around your waist as he laughed into your shoulder.

“You haven’t changed a bit.” He placed you down and pinched your cheek, “Still short as ever”

“Hey! You know what go back from where you came from because I am not liking your attitude” You slapped his hand away and crossed your arms.

“You guys already know each other?” You turn around to look at Kai and nod.

“Yeah me, Sehun and Joy met in high school” You turn to look at Sehun, “He’s just older” You stick your tongue out.

“You know he’s the same age as me right?” Sehun pats your head, “tear tear” He starts teasing you by making his fingers in the shape of T’s and imitating your pout.

“Im taking Viví!” You watched as he walks towards the car he was working on.

“I hope we become good friends” With that Kai patted your head and strolled after Sehun.

Grumbling to yourself you walked towards Chanyeol who was sitting on the floor fixing his cars tire and draped your body over his back releasing a sigh. You look at what he was doing and saw his hands skillfully move all over the place, Sometimes he grabbed his notepad and pen and wrote a few notes down. It’s like if he was so engulfed at his task in hand, he blocked out what was going on around him.

“Is anyone using the upstairs room?” You poked his cheek and waited for a response while skimming through all the tools he was surrounded in.

“No, I think it’s empty,” He placed one of the tools on his leg and started fixing a few things with his hands, “Let me guess you’re tired already?” You felt his back vibrate with the sound of his laughter.

“Yeah” You hopped off his back and made your way towards Seulgi, “Hi sexy!”

“Hey Xeno, brought me anything today?” She stood up from where she was inspecting her motorbike and turned to at you. You noticed the faded bruises decorating her face. There was a small cut on the corner of her lips and a small stitch on her forehead.

“Hey what happened to you?” You walked up to her and grabbed her face.

“Just a little rough play” She looks down at you with her a slight sad expression and when you looked at her eyes it’s like if there was some sort of unspoken words, and she just wanted to spill but instead she lightly slapped your hands away, “Go rest”

With that she turned around and started working on her bike again. Seulgi never really acted that way, She was honest and blunt with her words and always spoke up about what she wanted, You were concerned about Seulgi’s behavior but you didn’t want to push it, if she’s not in the mood, sometimes it’s best to give her time, you kind of learned that the hard way. Slowly walking towards the stairs to head up stairs you saw that Sicheng wasn’t to far from there so you strolled over to him.

“Hey Winnie, I’m going upstair.. Im kind of tired” You placed your head on Sicheng’s shoulder and scanned over the motor he was trying to work with.

“Okay, Rest well. Call me if you need anything” He looked over at you as you pulled away from where standing and made your way up the stairs with Viví and Toben trailing behind you.

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The sound of a roaring engine and an argument was heard making it way towards the garage. Chanyeol immediately stood up grabbed his gun and walked towards the big doors. Everyone also felt kind of iffy about the atmosphere and got ready to attack.

“It’s just Irene and Taeyong at it again,” Sehun yelled out towards them, being the closest one to the big doors he was able to peek outside and see who was causing the commotion. “and I think B’s car”

Him and Chanyeol walked over to the big doors and pushed them open allowing a red Lexus CL500 roll into the garage, with an arguing pair following behind. Behind those two were 5 others trying to split them apart before they’d scratch at each other’s throats.

“It’s the same bullshit with you!” Irene glared at Taeyong from where she was walking.

“Well what else was I supposed to do! What could I have possibly done when there was literally 5 guns pointed at me!” Taeyong gripped at his hair looking at Irene as she walked around the red car mimicking him.

“Hey I’m talking to you!” Taeyong walked up to Irene and pulled on her wrist and lord have mercy on him because that was the worst decision he could’ve possibly made.

That was enough to piss Irene off, she grabbed his arm and twisted it to turn him around and she pushed him against the closest wall, “Don’t you ever lay your fucking hands on me” She slammed him into the wall again and before it could’ve gotten worst Seulgi ran up to her and pulled her away.

“You ruined it all! You put her in danger again! We have been keeping her safe for more than half of her life and this is where you get us!” Irene trashes in the arms of Seulgi and soon Sehun and Joy are running up to her in an attempt to help keep her in place.

“I’m not mad about the fucking time we spent! I’m mad that you can’t be her fucking friend and think about where your decision brought her!” She managed to rip away from their grips and ran towards Taeyong punching him right on the side of his face.

“Irene that’s enough!” Everyone started shouting and trying to pull each other away from each other. They weren’t aware you woke up and started watching from the top of the stairs.

Everyone except one.

Your eyes met another pair. His eyes were in a slight glare but droopy enough to not crease his forehead. His lips seemed to be a natural pout, and the strands of white hair slightly falling over his eyebrows.

He looked ethereal despite you knowing he wasn’t anywhere near pure.

You broke out of your trance and glanced towards Irene as she kept trying to attack Taeyong. You didn’t understand the reason behind the violence, using your words can be strong enough to bring a point however whenever someone deeply upset violence seems to be the easiest way out.

You made your way down the stairs drawing a bee line in your head to where Taeyong stood. Without realizing it, the white haired boy had his attention on you since you met his gaze.

But just as your foot touched the floor a gunshot erupted from a gun and echoed through the garage.

With wide eyes you saw Taeyong falling to the floor, as his body touched the ground a small pool of blood started forming around his side.

“Fuck! B, get her out!” The sound of gunshots erupting from different guns, the sound of shattering and yelling soon become white noise as your mind goes blank and the bad memories come rolling to your head like a bullet train.

After all these years you seem to never forget those jade green eyes fluttering close.

“Honey, I’m here. Always.”

You felt a soft hand slightly tug you down behind the red car and as you looked up you saw the boy with white hair.

“I’m here, so don’t panic. I need you to listen to me so I can help you.” His dark eyes look right into yours as he pulls your hood over your head. Tugging on your arm closer to the cars door.

He takes out ,what you assume, is his gun from his pocket and in one quick motion he opens the door and slightly pushes you inside. As he does this he tosses something towards the garage doors.

And just as it touches the floor a cloud of smoke appears from the small item and everyone scatters to their own cars.

Before crawling to the other seat you managed to see Taeyong being picked up from the ground. You released a sigh of relief as you saw that the one picking him up was Sicheng.

You made your way to the other seat as the white haired boy closed the door behind him and turned on the engine.

The sound of the engine was followed along with a few more, you peeked out the window to see 3 vehicles. Chanyeol’s yellow Mustang GT350, Sicheng’s white Toyota 86, and Seulgi’s purple Suzuki GSX250R.

You felt the boy leaned over your body, so you turn to come face to face with him, his eyes met yours as he felt your lips slightly brush over his cheek.

Immediately after meeting your gaze he pulled the seat belt quickly buckling you in and speeding out the garage.

“Here.” You look over at him, seeing he’s looking up ahead, your gaze slowly trailed down to his hand extended out towards you. Grabbing the earphones from his hand you plug them into your phone to tune out the sounds around you.

And from the corner of your eye you see him smirk while taking out his gun.

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You feel a light tap on your shoulder waking you up from your sleep. Sluggishly you pulled out the buds and slightly turned your head to look at the person who just woke you up.

You see the boy slightly turn his head towards you, but the darkness outside catches your attention. And like you weren’t just asleep about a while ago you quickly looked outside the windows to be met with twinkling stars and empty fields.

“You aren’t kidnapping me right..” You slightly turn to look at the boy besides you who is seemingly entertained by your comment, “..Please don’t kidnap me.. I have yet to try cheesecake and- and I- I still haven’t tried the new coffee at the gasoline station across the street from my home so please don’t kidn-”

The boy besides you suddenly chuckles and the sound erupts some sort of feeling inside your stomach because of raspy and deep it sounded in your ears.

“I’m not kidnapping you, besides Win is right behind us.” Your gaze fall to the side mirror and you notice the white car behind you instantly recognizing the cars plates.

“O-Oh sorry.. my names Xe-“

“Aiko. I know it’s Aiko.” Your eyes widen as you hear your given name.

You didn’t hate it. It just always scared you cause it seemed to always bring you wrong attention. You were afraid that what happened to the man with jade green eyes.. would happen again. You were afraid of losing someone again because of that given name.

Yoon Aiko.

The name Aiko meant “Love Child” in other words “child who will be loved” but it’s meaning felt foreign to you. So you changed it to Yoon Xeno, Xeno meaning “foreign” or “strange”.

“How do you know my name..?”

“You’re the daughter of..” He turns to look at your eyes and seeing how they looked confused his brows furrowed in confusion as well, “Do you know who you are?”

“Yeah I’m Yoon Aiko..Why?”

“No. Do you know who you are? Your background? Your family? The place you were born in?.. Do you know Sir Lyeth?”

Lowering your gaze to you hands on your lap, your mind repeating the last question.. Do you know Sir Lyeth…?

“No, I don’t know any of these things. But if you do.. You have to tell me.” You look up at him with determination.

Of course you know Sir Lyeth, He was a friend of the jade green eyes man, and when he passed Sir Lyeth was your caretaker. But one day he suddenly disappeared and you were forced to move elsewhere, leaving you to where you are now.

“I can’t do that, It’s not my place. It would be better if you heard it from Win or Taeyong maybe even Irene or Suho but not me.”

“Why not you?” You see him change the gears while steering with his other hand.

“Because I’m Byun Baekhyun and I’m the last person you’d want to hear this from”

“I’d rather hear it from you, It hurts less if it’s the actual truth.” Stars twinkle outside and all around making it feel as though it’s falling right onto you.The car’s engine can be heard running and the gears being changed can be felt and heard from inside the car.

“There’s no going back now princess.” He turns to look at you with a slight frown.

“When you were born, everyone working for your parents feared for your life. You we’re your parents first and an only child, You were a miracle because your mom wasn’t capable of giving birth to you on her own but you made it. To everyone's surprise you were a girl, they wanted to keep you but they knew your life was endangered. Since well,” You heard him take a deep before he turned to look at you, “You’re the child of one of the biggest and strongest mafia groups out there”

And just with, that your world had stopped. Suddenly the sound of the engine and the sound of the running tires behind turned into silence. You could almost feel your own pulse and the blood slowly running through your veins.

You.. are the daughter of a mafia.

。・゜ ♡ ・。。・゜ ♡ ・。。・゜ ♡ 。・゜ ♡ ・。

✎ᝰ┆I was so nervous to post this, I will be going through and fix some errors ( ・∇・) It’s kind of sloppy forgive me, I was really nervous :’) But any who I hoped you enjoyed!💘

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#baekhyun imagine #baekhyun x reader #baekhyun scenario #baekhyun series #mafia!baekhyun #racer!baekhyun #exo imagines #multifandom #byuniieo #lovely guardian

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tipsyylove · 5 years

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TEENAGERS; PART 1

m a r s h m a l l o w s

jisung, chenle, jaemin, hyuck, teo, mao, and ivy sit around a bonfire at dusk, playing truth or dare, waiting for the older people.

warnings: none

"okay, okay truth or dareeeeeeeee,,,, chenle?" teo asked.

"truth." chenle said.

"do you like ivy?"

it became silent. chenle became red. it was obvious that he did like her, but he would never admit it.

"yes." he finally said.

"truth or dare, jisung?" chenle asked.

"dare."

"i dare you to eat a pebble."

"easy dub." jisung says, picking up a pebble, and tossing it in his mouth.

"bigger than that." teo says.

"that's what she said." jaemin says.

"are we all ready to go?" johnny asks, marshmallows in hand.

"i think so." jaehyun responds.

"i just wanna make sure they're still alive." you say.

"whatever, let's just go." yuta says, before leading all of you out into the garage.

johnny and jaehyun fight over the front seat, but you end up getting it. you mainly fight over it because whoever has front seat, gets to play music.

you're scrolling through your playlist to find some songs, and come across "friends" by why don't we. it seems to be the perfect song for the occasion, even though you guys are more family than friends.

you all slowly start getting into it, and start singing along.

"they're finally here!" jisung said, pointing to yuta's car.

"finally, im starving!" mao says.

"hey, youngins!" johnny yells at them.

"yuta!" chenle screams, running towards him.

"we brought stuff for s'mores, like we promised" jaehyun said.

"don't let ivy have too much sugar, she'll go crazy." mao said.

"noted." johnny said, lifting the marshmallows above his head, so ivy can't reach them.

they all walked closer to the bonfire, being cautious of ivy, making sure she doesn't get too much sugar.

mao got out her guitar, and they all started singing.

"let's gather around the campfire and sing our campfire song.."

! conversation with ivy, chenle started !

chenle: im sorry you had to find out like this

ivy: it's fine, it was obvious

chenle: soooooooo

ivy: i like you too

chenle then gets up and walks towards ivy.

"you're like really pretty." chenle said to her.

"you're like really adorable." she responded.

"soooooooo, wanna be my girlfriend??" he asked, making sure no one heard, even though it was obvious what was happening.

"CHENLE AND IVY SITTING IN A TREE, K-I-S-S-I-N-G!" jaemin screamed.

"are you literally 8?" mao asked.

jaemin remained quiet after that.

"alright, youngins, it's getting late, we should all get going." johnny says.

after that, all of you guys packed up, and got in the car.

when arriving home, the younger kids had already nearly made a bed in the living room. but, this, this is normal. you're all so close. you're actually a family. you tell each other everything. johnny, jaehyun, yuta, and you are always worried about one another, while also worrying about the younger ones.

you walked up the stairs to get into you and johnny's shared room. you opened the door, and plopped on your twin bed, and nearly fell asleep right there. but of course, because you were a woman, you had to do your nightly womanly things.

johnny walked in just when you were done taking off your makeup. he looked exhausted, too, even though you guys barely did anything that day. looking after six kids is exhausting. he, of course, could just fall asleep right there, which made you a little jealous.

"what's on your mind?" he asks, as you lay down.

"nothing, what about you?"

"well, you know that taeyong dude? yeah, i don't really like him. neither does jaehyun or yuta." he confessed.

"okay, woah, that was a lot."

"my bad. i just needed to tell you sometime."

"no problem, but why don't you guys like his guts?"

"he just has a bad vibe." johnny spoke.

"he literally looks and acts like a puppy."

"something's hidden behind that mask."

"whatever, im gonna sleep. goodnight."

"goodnight."

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2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?

Belle: i think that helle would maybe do that if they were ever like apart for an extended period of time--like i imagine when belle travels for work later in life--but it’d probs be belle sending them first since she’d be up first lol and im sure her kids would send them to her :’) but not atm really no

Simba: if simba and ber are ever apart, definitely. nala probably sends them sometimes if they’re meeting up to go running or something. simba is usually the one sending tho bc he’s always up first, he sends them to his mommy a lot or anyone who is having a bad time of it

Toulouse: lol -- tho actually, tbh, i’m sure adelaide sends them to him sometimes and probably did when she was away, aw

Maui: his mama sends them sometimes, or his brothers but it’s like “good morning, dickhead, don’t forget it’s dad’s birthday.”

Attina: i’m sure she gets them from lots of people! her sisters or her dad or benjamin, he seems like the kind of person to send random good morning texts, usually when he needs something lmao

Hercules: from his mum and dad sometimes, not every day, but pretty frequently, he probably sends them to georgette

Lady: nah not really

Artemis: apollo probably sends them sometimes from the other room lol “good morning sister come get breakfast!” she sleeps a lil later than him sometimes bc medium

Mei: im sure her mom sends them and her dad sometimes, her best friend was probably sending them but it tapered off

Megara: nope

8: Are you close with your dad?

Belle: lol no she’s basically disowned him (though part of her does want to tell him about opal, i’ve been toying w another visit from crazy old maurice)

Simba: CRY simba was, despite all hte shit in their relationship, really close to his dad. he considered both his parents his best friends

Toulouse: closer than his brother, but more distant than his sister. lou and his dad had a really rough relationship when lou was growing up and he has a lot of resentment, but he also is a lot like his father and does enjoy having discussions on certain topics with him.

Maui: nah not really, his dad is “fine” - maui

Attina: the closest!! attina loves her dad and would do literally anything for him, it’s probably a lil bit of a co-dependent relationship lol triton definitely depends on tina and she is too afraid to try to function without him around

Hercules: growing up, herc was close to both his parents! they were his only constant companions, but since he learned he was adopted, he’s been struggling a little more and hides more things from them, when once he told them absolutely everything

Lady: daddy’s little girl!! her dad wasn’t around a lot as a child and he was very stern, but he did dote on lady and was the one who came up with her nickname, calling her his “little lady” and he buys her nice fancy things.

Artemis: apollo probably sends them sometimes from the other room lol “good morning sister come get breakfast!” she sleeps a lil later than him sometimes bc medium

Mei: yes and no. mei loves her dad a whole lot !! they share a connection through their divination but she’s also a growing young woman and of course that leads to conflicts with parents. at the end of the day, if you asked her tho, she’d def say her and her dad are close.

Megara: yeah actually! meg’s mom walked out on her when she was a baby so meg’s dad is the only parent she’s ever known and her dad is amazing. she stans forever.

10: What are you listening to?

Belle: nothing really? belle isn’t a big music person. she’s got her mother’s records but outside of that -- eh. though, i’m sure ber is distressed by this and has probs made her a playlist

Simba: whatever ber puts on his iPod (the new imagine dragons song)

Toulouse: the same old shit probably, lots of french music, lots of classical

Maui: the new bastille album !!

Attina: probably carly rae jepsen’s album is her album of the summer unless something else comes along...also probably taylor swift’s new stuff RIP

Hercules: hozier’s new album

Lady: im not up to date on country music but whatever is hot rn

Artemis: also hozier’s new album probably lmao

Mei: some new kpop stuff that i am also not caught up on. mei is spending her summer making a thousand playlists bc she can do it w/o internet

Megara: mother’s daughter by miley cyrus and nightmare by halsey

40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?

Belle: oh def, she regretted kissing hades at first every time bc shit kept getting fucked up lmao

Simba: noooot really. no. i’m gonna say hard no.

Toulouse: he’s regretting kissing peri rn lmao lou always regrets kissing people he’s like why the FUCK

Maui: nope (maybe merida a liiiiiittle bit if only bc of what it did to their group of friends)

Attina: lmao u mean her whole dating history

Hercules: nooot really if only bc he’s only ever kissed like 3 ppl in his life

Lady: oh yeah, for sure. girls lmao

Artemis: yup one time a boy kissed her and he lost his powers lol

Mei: nope !!

Megara: lol yup definitely her ex the ASSHOLE, also she’s probably made some drunken mistakes that the next morning she’s like ‘ew gross’ about as she sneaks out of the house

#headcanons #sorry this is long #also im not answering as dialogue #sorry not sorry #displacedprincess

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i could fall. - chapter 1

relationship: dick grayson x reader word count: 3k warnings: mentions of alcohol, language, allusions to death a/n: im probably gonna write a few more parts to this. like at most three more! here’s a playlist for the kind of vibes i was going for. and there is some mentions of events that happened in the new teen titans!! preview: You know you should have stopped the constant and almost compulsive like manner you looked at your phone after nine o’clock last night, but you just couldn’t. You’d only spent a few hours with Dick, but that was more than enough to get you hooked on him and his brilliant, sun dazzling smile, the easiness of conversation and the comforting nature he has.

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Meeting him is hardly romantic, hardly the love at first sight meeting you dreamt of when you were young. And maybe it’s a little naive of you to think that that could have ever happened, the pause and catching each other's eyes, the world feeling like it was falling into place and the rush of adrenaline and heat before the calm finally comes. In fact, it’s quite the opposite. You feel indifferent towards him. He’s only a friend of a friend. And as much as you may love Donna, she has never played well as a matchmaker, which you have told her multiple times on her desperate attempts to pair you up with her friends.

He sat next to you, and while you were neutral on him- and maybe a little aggressive at the idea of having to go out with another guy that Donna inevitably knows from her studio, you could admit- although begrudgingly- that he was indeed a very beautiful and attractive man. Dark hair that falls into his eyes, just a little messy, but not the messy of a man who just rolled out of bed, but a very relaxed and perfected looked of messiness. A sharp jaw and kissable lips, olive skin and maybe his most striking feature- the mismatching color of his eyes. One a deep brown and the other a clear blue.

You resolve not to look at him too much throughout the night. You know it wouldn’t take much for him to break down the already crumbling wall of disinterest in him.

Donna glows across from you, but that may be from the help of the pretty woman that sits next to her. Another one of her models you are sure. You’re surrounded by so much beauty here and it makes you a little sick, and maybe you sink a little into yourself.

But of course, Donna notices. She clears her throat and smiles at you before turning to look at Dick, “Why don’t you tell us about your economics class?”

Kory laughs a little too loud, attracting the attention of everyone in the restaurant. Her laugh makes other people smile, despite the fact that if anyone else would have done this, they would have received glares. It must be the warmth that she practically radiates that keeps everyone from getting pissed at her. Donna falls suit in laughing, unable to keep the straight face while Dick grumbles next to you.

You feel left out of it though, unsure if it’s something you should laugh at or be upset at. You appreciate Donna’s attempt to make you feel a little more comfortable, but she’s only made it worse.

“You tell someone you took econ once...” Dick crosses his arms over his chest and leans back in his chair.

You take the opportunity to glance at him, only turning your head slightly, not wanting to put so much commitment or care into this. His bottom lip juts out in an exaggerated pout and brow knitted together. You could almost laugh at the expression.

Just as you are about to look away, the five seconds you’d allow yourself to look at him, he meets your eyes and smiles a little hopelessly at you. You feel heat rush to your cheeks and ears, quickly looking to the menu that lies in front of you on the table.

It goes by in a blur, but maybe it’s because you drink so much water in an attempt to have a valid reason to leave the table every so often. The alcohol helps too.

You’re just on the right side of buzzed, and maybe you’ve let your guard down a little more than you usually like, but it’s okay because you’ve decided you like both Kory and Dick. Maybe not enough to seriously pursue a relationship with Dick, but enough to text Kory in the morning about your killer headache.

Donna and Kory say their goodbyes, waving and giggling as they pile into a cab outside of the restaurant, leaving you standing next to Dick. Suddenly, you feel a bit smaller, a little more aware of yourself as you stand there, hands stuffed in your pockets and a shiver running down your spine.

“So,” you say, rolling on the balls of your feet, looking up at him and squinting at the halo of light around him from the street light.

“So,” Dick repeats.

You bite the inside of your cheek, looking for anything to say to him, but drawing a blank. You just weren’t meant for social situations like this. No wonder why you’re single and Donna is so worried about you.

“I should-”

“Could I-”

You just stare at each other, unsure of how to proceed. You’re burning up more than you were before. You cross your arms over your chest, shoulders squared, but he does the unexpected. He laughs. And it’s quite a pretty sound. You’d heard it while you were eating, but it was drowned out by the white noise of the other customers and by the own conversation between the four of you.

Dick makes a motion to tell you to keep going, but you shake your head. You would rather hear what he has to say before ending the night so young. Maybe it’s time to be unafraid of a little rejection and hope for something good instead of expecting the bad.

“Can I walk you home?” he rubs the back of his neck and looks at you sheepishly.

You know it’s not real, but it feels like your heart is lifting in relief. You weren’t sure what you were expecting, but this is better than whatever your mind could have thought of.

“Who says I wasn’t gonna take a cab? Little presumptuous of you, Richard,” you smile, brushing your hair out of your face, “I’d love to have the company.”

He lets out a breath, shoulders sagging and an easy smile pulling at his lips. You don’t think you’ve ever quite met a man like this, all the confidence in the world until it comes to something so simple.

“You can call me Dick,” he says as he offers an arm to you, but then looks a little lost at you, waiting on you to lead him in the right direction.

“Maybe,” you loop your arm through his and tug him towards your apartment, “But it seems a little dated, don’t you think?”

“Yeah, but I can make jokes about my name that annoy my siblings.”

It takes you nearly two hours to get to your building even though you live two miles from the restaurant. You both get distracted. At first, it was a little cafe and he tempted you with hot drinks and conversation, a chance to get out of the cold night that you were both underprepared for. Dick had already given you his jacket and wrapped an arm around your shoulders, pulling you close to his side in an attempt to shield you from the cold. And although you figure that it’s too soon to even be that close with him, you welcome it.

He tells you about his family- the crazy amount of siblings he has and the antics that come with it. He talks about school, his wandering in attempts to find what he wants to do, to break free from some kind of shadow that hangs over him. You can tell he’s holding things back, but wouldn’t you? It’s your first date with him, you wouldn’t be so keen on opening up too.

You’re surprised at how easy conversation flows between you like you’re old friends just catching up with each other. Everything just clicks together.

Then you drag him into a corner store, craving something sweet and salty. Neither of you had actually eaten too much, too wrapped up in the way Donna and Kory talk, unable to tear yourselves away from the conversation, and the food wasn’t that good either.

You stand outside your door, a step above Dick, and you’re finally the same height as him. And all you can do is stare, unable to move or you just don’t want to, unwilling to let this night end even though you never wanted to come out when Donna pushed you out of your door. You’ll have to thank her later.

“So. This,” he glances up from his feet and looks you in the eyes. He looks about as eager as you are to part ways, “is goodnight.”

You nod halfheartedly, “I guess it is.”

“Can I call you tomorrow?”

“You still call people?” you tilt your head, smiling a little at the absurdity of your response. You know you’re going to go over it in your head the moment you lay down in bed, wondering what would happen if you said something else.

“Yeah,” he shrugs and plays with his jacket that hangs over his arm, “It’s more personal.”

“Then yes. You can call me tomorrow.”

“Yeah? Okay. Great!” Dick laughs and rolls from his heels to his tiptoes, raising himself above you and then settling back to look you in the eyes, “Would it be too soon if I kissed you on the cheek?”

You scoff, “It would be disappointing if you didn’t.”

Dick beams and for a second, he doesn’t make a move, doesn’t commit to what he asked of you. He just stares, taking you in, and it makes you feel small again, like he’s able to see all your flaws right there even though the only lighting is a street lamp at the curb. You can’t breathe. It’s the anticipation, to feel him, skin against skin and really and truly feel his warmth on you. He moves, leaning close to you and turning his head just so, and it feels like slow motion. His lips leave a tender kiss on your cheek and you hope that he didn’t accidentally get a taste of your makeup.

It’s warm and soft and you would say everything you imagined, but you didn’t imagine it, you don’t dream about it, any of this kind of stuff. You just never saw it happening to you, but feeling it, it’s like you can feel a piece of you missing. A piece that wants these small gestures in your life.

You smile, shoulders sagging and body no longer tense. Dick looks so off, drifting away like he’s found his own cloud nine. His eyes look a little hazy, but that could be the poor lighting. His smile though, you can see that clear as day.

“Goodnight,” you whisper, wrapping your arms around you, noticing the chill as you step back from him.

“Goodnight,” he sounds breathless and looks hesitant to leave, but turns anyway, sparing one last glance over his shoulder before turning onto the sidewalk with his hands stuffed in his pockets and head held high.

You wait by your phone all day, constantly checking your phone, sneaking peeks at it throughout work, just to be sure you haven’t missed anything, any notifications. You only have a text from Donna. Not incredibly disappointing, but better than the average day.

It might be a little pathetic, but you’re okay with that. Nobody is here to see it. He’s probably just as busy as anyone in college and a job is. It’s no big deal, you shouldn’t have even expected so much.

And when you go home, you wait, cell phone always within reaching distance.

This is just what you get for getting your hopes up.

Another full day goes by, and you know you shouldn’t have worked yourself up so hard over this guy. Maybe you should just tell Donna not to set you up with people anymore. There’s only so many times you wanted to be disappointed. At least Donna seems to be doing okay.

“Hey, hey, hon, Dick is just busy and trust me he is absolutely head over heels for you. I don’t think I’ve actually ever seen him respond that well to anyone I try to set him up with.”

“Oh, so I’m not the only one you do this to?” you try to make a little light of this, just to distract from the way that your heart speeds up at her words. He actually, really and truly likes you. Then again, that just might be Donna trying to make you feel better.

“Oh shush,” she clicks her tongue, “You’re thinking too hard about this.”

“I didn’t even- You can’t even see me!”

“Yeah, but I know you. And I know right now, you are sitting on that couch, bouncing your leg and wondering what the hell you were thinking and trying to lock all your feelings down and throw ‘em out a window before you get hurt by a man who was- is- obviously interested in you,” Donna laughs and her heels click on the ground, “You’re way too predictable. Please, do not go into a catatonic state before I get there.”

You huff and roll your eyes, “Okay, Donna.”

It’s only another half hour until she barges in, laughing and carrying bags of takeout and the very happy Kory following her in. It’s surprising to say the least, but you don’t mind.

“Sorry, babe. Kory was just wandering around-”

“I am still quite new to New York. I hope you don’t mind that I came here with Donna.”

You shake your head and wave them over to you, “I don’t mind in the slightest. It’s always good to have more people over, More opinions. Better times.”

“Am I not cutting it for you anymore?” Donna scoffs, setting down the bags of food and digging through them, “No food for you I guess.”

“Pfft, you know how much I love you,” you swipe the styrofoam container from her. She tosses a plastic bag of utensils and napkins to you. You mix up the curry in the container, frowning as you realize that you’ll actually have to talk about him, “Do you think Dick and I... do you think we hit it off? Or was I just imagining it?”

“Oh, hon,” she brushes her hair back and ties it into a ponytail, an old habit of hers, every time she eats, she ties her hair up, “You should have heard him. He thanked me for the double date.”

“He could have been sarcastic.”

“I’ve known Dick for a long time, babe, and trust me, this was the first time he didn’t leave in the middle of dinner with some BS excuse. He likes you.”

Kory looks between you and Donna and she sighs, “You humans are so careful with your emotions.”

Humans?

Donna gives her a stern look before turning to you, “She just means-”

“What I mean Donna, is that you are overcomplicating this whole thing. You shouldn’t be navigating this with your brain, but with your heart. There’s not enough time to be worrying about whether he wants to love you, whether it isn’t real because it could be taken away from you just like that,” she snaps her fingers and presses her lips into a thin line, “Enjoy the time even if it is still the beginning.”

“Wow, Kory that was... intense.”

Donna sets down her food and takes Kory’s hand in hers, running her thumb over Kory’s knuckles. You know you’re missing something here, once again, but you don’t interrupt, you just watch, taking in the faraway look in her green eyes. Which you now realize, have no pupils.

You wake up earlier than usual, with the sun in your eyes and your body feeling like it’s suffocating under the heavy blanket that was appropriate for the temperature when you fell into bed.

You know you should have stopped the constant and almost compulsive like manner you looked at your phone after nine o’clock last night, but you just couldn’t. You’d only spent a few hours with Dick, but that was more than enough to get you hooked on him and his brilliant, sun dazzling smile, the easiness of conversation and the comforting nature he has.

It’s a full minute that you spend contemplating turning your phone over and revealing any notifications. But you’re scared, and maybe a little nervous. God, you hope he wasn’t playing some game with you or said that he’d call you because he felt sorry for you and hope that you would forget about him.

Now you’re just being melodramatic.

You scroll through your notifications and most of them are from your coworker, complaining about her day. You almost give up right then, completely ready to try and get over him. And you almost miss the message, the missed call and one new voice message alert.

Your heartbeat speeds up and you shake a little in excitement. Smiling widely to yourself, you slide it open and press it to your ear. The monotone voice that announces the new message actually sounds comforting, soothing the fact that you haven’t made up the chemistry between you, that the smiles and laughter you shared were real. You bite your lip as the message starts.

“Hey, so, sorry for calling you so late. I probably should have just texted you. Damn, you’re probably asleep. But anyway, I’m sorry I didn’t call you earlier, I’m just getting home myself,” you hear the faint sound of a door slamming shut and Dick softly exhaling, “I was just wondering you were free for coffee on Tuesday. Just, uh, text or call me when you get this. Goodnight. Or good morning, I guess.”

You can’t even be mad about the fact that he called you four days after he said you would, you’re too excited about the fact that he did call.

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Ooh I have a prompt! This is based on the time woojin said that he wished he could switch places with Jeongin because he gets lots of love and all. So Woojinnie is like feeling really down and insecure so he practices like crazy to 'be good enough' and everyone gets really worried for him and just a big OT9 mess of a relationship with woojin! centric💜💜💜

hey~ ^^ im sorry it took so long. i put a lot of thought into how i wanted to write this.before you read, this story has mentions of overworking, lack of eating and general weakness and depressing thoughts. if you’re sensitive to any of things, i suggest you skip this.

This has been going on for days, weeks even. Woojin would wake up and head straight to the studio, skipping breakfast, lunch, and dinner since he’s no time to lose, and end up arriving back at the dorm in the late evening. He’d pick up some groceries and snacks for the other members so they would be too distracted to ask where he’d been. He had gotten used to the burning and growling of his stomach, telling himself that enough water will subside the inconvenience. Maybe the others are too busy to notice it, too caught up with their own practice, but he’s glad they aren’t picking up on it. They’ll be surprised when he shows them, everyone, in their next comeback, that he’s finally good enough, even better.

It’s a chilly, rainy day in Seoul. The windows of the bus are fogged up with the crystal-like raindrops from the light shower. It’s about 6am, so the sky is still dark. Grey clouds surrounding the sky in the Korean autumn, it gives Woojin a drowsy feeling as he travels to the studio. He clicks skip on his playlist, the soft piano of “I Need Somebody” by Day6 starting to sing into his ears. He closes his eyes for a moment, appreciating the calmness of the piece, before the bus pulls to a halt to his stop. Pulling his bag over his shoulder, he drags his feet through the almost empty bus and falls out into the rain. Like every other morning, he takes a few minutes jog to the studio. The weather has been worse lately, with the showers of rain striking at the most unfortunate hours for Woojin.

He enters the building, the warm air of the indoors hitting him harshly. The patches of wetness from the rain feel cold against his warming skin. He pats himself down before going to for, so he doesn’t create a mess. With a soft smile at the receptionist, he makes his way to the changing room and switches his casual clothes to his practice clothes. He looks at himself in the mirror, pulling at his t-shirt that he never noticed looked baggier on him. Maybe he has been losing a bit of weight the practice must be getting to him. Woojin takes a deep breath, looking at his grayed, dim eyes, tired and sad, in the mirror.The studio is cold, dark and empty. He opens the blinds, letting in the small amount of light that leaked through the clouds into the room. Plugging his phone into the stereo, he puts on some light dance music and begins stretching. He starts from his neck, feeling the hot sensation travel through his spine. There was something about stretching at these early morning hours that really got to Woojin. It always felt so homely to him. His spine cracked with satisfaction as his movements begin to speed up, his limbs feeling loose and free. It was always a feeling he enjoyed.

Meanwhile, back at the dorm, Minho was beginning to wake up moments after Woojin left. He sighs, noticing the empty space in Woojin’s bed. It became a regular sight, but not one he liked. It’s still so early. He doesn’t see Woojin too much these days, apart from when they have a group rehearsal. Times are tough for everyone. Chan, Changbin and Jisung don’t come back until the younger members are preparing for school. Some of the younger members are lacking or skipping classes to practice. This comeback is important to everyone as always, there’s no time to rest. They feel it’s necessary, but they all feel hurt watching themselves.Groaning loudly as he stretches his back and arms, he pulls himself out of bed to walk to Chan and Changbin’s room. “Changbin-ah~! Channie~!” He calls from outside their room, “I’m coming in~”Chan, still asleep, stays unbothered by the racket Minho makes. Changbin, however, expresses his annoyance in a long, tired sigh.Minho claps his hands hard to alert the pair, “Hello? Woojin has left again and it’s not even six.”Changbin sits up, rubbing his eyes, “He… Sorry say that again, I wasn’t listening.”Minho purses his lips and lets out a quiet grunt, marching over to Chan, “Jeez, when did you go to sleep, mister?”“An hour ago…? What time is it?”

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After a few hours of practice, Woojin finds himself soaked in sweat against the mirror of the practice room. He rubs his hands against his warm face in distress. Since he hadn’t rested well last night, he feels he didn’t do well today. God, he just felt so useless. At this point, he couldn’t even notice any improvement. Of course, he was working his ass off day and night, but he feels stuck in this loop of not advancing his skills, and for what? What is he gaining? It feels like nothing. Is it that he’s not working hard enough? Is it that he’s gotten lazy, too lenient with his practice?He holds his breath for a long moment, picking himself up from the ground. He feels his legs wobble in weakness, making him have to use the mirror to support him. He tuts to himself, “Can’t even keep myself upright. I’m hopeless.”In the changing room, a familiar face waits for him. Concern, worry and sadness is written all over his face, and as soon as Woojin spots him, he feels his heart sink to his feet. The atmosphere of disappointment lingers around the two, so much that Woojin can’t rip his gaze from the ground.“I’ve been waiting in here for hours,” He speaks up, his voice croaky. He coughs to clear his throat, his eyes wandering around the room, “Have you been practicing for all this time?”Woojin doesn’t answer.“Woojinnie. You have, haven’t you?”He nods, slowly. He feels like a middle schooler at the principal’s office after doing something wrong, his chin glued against his chest and his throat clogged up.Chan sighs, pulling him by the hand, “Come sit, Woojin.”Woojin drags his shaky legs along with Chan, slumping against the lockers. His eyes stay locked to the ground. For some reason, something about Chan’s aura makes him feel too shameful to even lift his gaze.

“I’ve been in that position before,” Chan starts, looking towards the showers in front of him, “You feel like you have to be better, so you practice like crazy. But it gets to a point where you stop improving, and your effort just goes backwards. You start to deteriorate, emotionally and physically. Your body only feels the constant ache of self-disappointment.” His head turns to look at Woojin, whose head is buried in his hands.“The feeling seems to get worse the older you get. There are all these prodigy children getting love from every each corner and you think to yourself, ‘Will they be the ones to replace me?’.”He pauses for a long moment, staring into space.“And it sucks. It really does. There’s nothing more to it. It hurts. But, I can assure you, no matter your skill level, no matter how good or bad you are at any position, you’re good enough. For us, you’re more than that.”There’s another long pause.Woojin finally tears his head from his hands, looking towards Chan but refusing eye contact, “I’m sorry.”“Talk to me, Woojin.” Chan brushes off the unnecessary apology and places a hand on his thigh.

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They’re on the bus together, Chan and Woojin. Chan keeps his friend under his arm as he sleeps on his shoulder. A weird feeling of nostalgia hits him in the stomach. A similar situation happened between Young K and Chan before, quite a long time ago, actually. He takes some time to look at him, deep in thought. What was it that did it for Woojin? What made him fall that deep?Chan tears his gaze away and sighs, holding Woojin tight. Woojin moves a bit under his arm, pulling on his hand, but Chan doesn’t mind. How did he let Woojin slip so far away? Why didn’t he pick up on it sooner? He had figured Woojin wasn’t around in the early hours of the morning and the later hours in the evenings, it was no secret to him. But, he never asked why, what he was doing. He can’t help but feel that it was partially his fault. If he had just payed more attention, like a good leader should, then maybe…“Channie?” Woojin’s tired voice speaks up, his eyes wide looking at him.Chan manages a smile, “Yeah? Are you feeling alright?”Woojin sits up, so Chan takes his arm away from his shoulders, “I guess. What time is it?”He pulls out his phone from his pocket furthest from Woojin, “Eleven thirty-ish.”Woojin rubs his eyes. Chan notices that his skin had gotten paler. Woojin always had tan, honey-toned, glowy skin. Recently, it looked colourless. The warm colour in his cheeks isn’t there anymore, Chan realises. He’d been too busy to notice, too caught up in work that he wasn’t paying enough attention.

Thinking about the things Woojin said he felt makes Chan’s heart shatter to pieces. To know someone as amazing, as wonderful as Woojin is feeling so worthless burns him to the bone. Does everyone feel the same way? Is he really so selfish that he won’t pay attention to these things?

When they arrive back at the dorm, the rest of the members are sitting on the ground in the living room. As the door clicks to a close, the members all turn their head to look up at Chan and Woojin, sadness and concern in their eyes.That’s what hits Woojin hardest. They weren’t supposed to know. They weren’t supposed to care or worry. He didn’t want that. He didn’t want to be in the way. He didn’t want to hurt them.“I-” Woojin opens his mouth, choking on tears, “I’m so sorry.” And that’s where he breaks. All this emotion and pain he’s been holding in and bottling up for all these weeks finally got the best of him. He cries, and he cries, and he doesn’t stop. It feels good. It’s refreshing. He cries for the nights he never came back home. He cries for the early mornings when he sees his members knocked out, or when some aren’t home. He cries for the growling, never ending pain in his stomach from the lack of food. He cries because he knows, now, he knows how hard it is for everyone in this room. He knows it’s been hard for himself.

All of the members scramble up from the ground and dash to give Woojin a big hug. Usually it was Woojin comforting the other members, but not this time. It feels nice. In between the nine of them are mutters of “It’s okay.” and “Don’t be sorry.”Of course, because they care about him. Because they love him in the same way he loves them. They’re his family.“Alright,” Chan pulls apart, clearing his throat. The members slowly back away, turning their heads towards time.“I suppose it’s time we talk about this.”

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Chapter 2

Ok so I know you read the beginning of this and wondering how in the hell did I get myself here. I'm twenty-three years old, with two degrees, a dream job at DDC House Design, the top interior design house on the east coast and I am officially 6 weeks pregnant. Well I am going to have to take you back to about 8 months ago when I stepped out on a dream and chased it all the way to New York City.

"Congratulations Sloane Taylor,

This letter is to thank you and to acknowledge of your offer of employment to join the staff of DDC House of Designs with an entry level salary of $176,000. We feel it would be out mutual advantage to advance our final decision. Will contact you via email to advise you of your employment packet.

Sincerely, DDC House Designs

"OOOOMMMMGGGGG, Mommy come her look! Omg look at this email!"

"What is it Sloane you are calling my name like you crazy."

""Look mom I got the designing job in New York?"

"Wow that’s great baby girl I'm so proud of you." My mother said with conviction,

I looked up at my mother that had a sweet and sour look on her face when she heard me say New York.

"Ok mom please don’t ruin this moment with that look ok New York is not that far away.

"I know honey but its far enough and you don’t have any family up there. "

See my mother in my eyes is being her usual over protective self at the mention of me going somewhere that isn't Greensboro, North Carolina. I've been here my entire life and I can't wait to leave. Nobody here has hope or dreams of anything outside of those city lines. Don’t get me wrong I love my hometown and I am proud of where I come from, but I want to see the world. I graduated college last year from North Carolina A&T with my Bachelors in Business and a Minor in Art since of course my mother would have had a heart attack if I would have gone out of state. Hell, I think she might have had a minor stroke if I went to East Carolina University, so I didn’t even test the limits. I am by far not a small-town girl but I hold my values. Most of the girls I graduated out of high school have kids now including my best friend Amina Walton who I have known since kindergarten. We met on the first day when she asked me to push her on the swing on the playground and now we have been inseparable ever since. She had her daughter Skylar our freshman year in college and I love her to the moon and back but I know for sure I am nowhere near ready to be a mom.

Mommy, I can take care of myself I am an adult and plus I have done everything you have ever asked of me. I stayed in Greensboro longer than I had planned on it. It is way past time for me to travel and leave."

"I understand Sloane, but what are you going to do it something goes wrong or you need something."

"then I will call home and ask. Mom you have to learn to let me go you are starting to smother me and I am an adult. I love you I really do but I am taking this job,"

I had to put on my firm voice but I know I was hurting her feelings by saying that. It has been me and my mom for years after my dad died and she couldn’t help but hold me close. I can't really blame her though she really stepped up and played both roles perfectly to win an Oscar.

"well what are they offering you to have you move so far?"

"they are paying my rent for my apartment, full benefit coverage, paid vacations and all holidays off. Come on mom, it is no way I am going to ever find a job like that here."

"ok ok Sloane. When do you have to leave after you accept the job?"

"Two-weeks..."

"two weeks! That is too soon how will you pack and get all of your things there in time?"

"they are sending movers mom, everything will be fine.

I was so excited I couldn’t contain myself while she was in my room. Once I finally got her to see things through my eyes she walked out my room. I closed the door and let out a silent scream. I count help it. It felt like such a weight was lifted off of my shoulders. I am leaving this place behind and not looking back.

Two weeks flew by I couldn’t believe my whole life was packed into 30 cardboard boxes and I was counting the hours to load them in a moving truck. I didn’t think I was going to be this sad to leave when I made the call and accepted the position. Amina through me a huge going away party last night and it seemed like the entire city came out to see me off. Including my ex Zayvion.

We dated for 3 years and I learned everything I don’t deserve in a relationship. I know what you thinking and no he didn’t cheat on me but let's just say college can really change people. Everything was perfect in that honey moon phase but after he crossed and pledged Omega Psi Phi Fraternity Inc. Secrets pushed us apart and turned us against each other. I didn’t expect to see him there and I know Amina didn’t invite him so of course he heard through the grapevine that I was leaving. Everybody loved us together being that we were the "black Love Lives" couple of the century. I can't deny he was fine for sure 6"4, golden peanut butter skin, full pink lips and chocolate brown curls. With a smile that made me melt and eyes to steal my soul. Who could turn him down? At one point I never thought I could. Not to mention his dick game was powerful I swear that’s how he pledged on line. Freshman and Sophomore year, I had a nice size four body, but Junior and Senior year I filled out in everything. My body couldn’t lie that he wasn’t putting it down before dorm curfew and the whole campus could see it.

He approached me with that suave walk and pearly white smile smashed across his face. I got a little weak at the knees as I watched him approach me from across the back yard. All my girls giggling behind me talking about "girl here he come" "mmm you sure you wanna leave that behind" "girl he so damn fine". I rolled my eyes at all of them, "look yall need to calm down and play it cool nobody is thinking about that boy." But on the inside my heart was racing. He walked up and said " what's up yall?" His voice rang in my ears so vibrant sending me to reminisce when he would whisper in my ear with my legs up on his shoulders and he hitting my spot just right. Damn I missed that feeling. My pussy started tingling and the thought of his hands rubbing down my thighs to spread my legs.

"Sloane you good? "

I snapped out my daydream, "yeah I'm good, what are you doing here?"

"I heard Kiwan talking about it and I was surprised that I didn’t get an invitation so I thought I would make a surprise appearance. "

"well I didn’t make the guest list so I hope your feelings weren't too hurt."

"A little bit, but it's nothing a hug can't fix though," he shrugged his shoulders and held his arms out and open for me.

It couldn't hurt just to hug him right? I contemplated at first then I just gave in and stepped in for the hug. His Prada cologne hit my nose and mesmerized me. His chest was thick and muscular. I could feel in his back where he had been hitting the gym and it was doing his justice.

"awwww look at my favorite couple." I hear coming from behind him a familiar voice. Zayvion's best friend and line brother Kiwan. He was cool and about the only friend he had that I actually liked.

"shut up you are so annoying"

"don’t do me like that friend, you know im always going to team Sloane and Zay"

"Shut up bro " Zay laughed and nudged Kiwan. "you play too much"

"ok when yall stop frontin' let me know. Speaking of frontin whats up Amina you not gonna speak ? "

" Boy bye no im not speaking to you." Amina gave him the hand and walked off. Kiwan always had a thing for Amina since sophomore year and she tried everything to turn him away but I know on the low she had a little flutter for him. All it took was when she mentioned she had a daughter and he instantly got excited and said he would love to meet her one day. It definitely took Amina by surprise most guys take off at the mention of a kid but he held his own.

"Bro when are you just going to let that go man?" Zay always joked him for how Amina loved to give him the cold shoulder.

"Never bruh, you don’t understand we got a thing its just on the low."

We all burst out laughing and everything felt like old times. In that moment my heart felt a little heavy. Am I really going to leave all of this behind. My friends and family for the big city? I wanted to say im staying but I knew It was just in the moment and when I got there it would all fade away.

*Alarm rings

I woke up not realizing that I had fallen asleep in the middle of my day dreams. Today was the day. I reached over to turn off my alarm and my notification list was longer than usual. I scrolled down and saw Amina, Instagram, Snapchat, Twitter, Daily Quotes and to my surprise Zayvion. My eye widened and I didnt even think he still had my number. I didn’t want to open his message to make it seem like I missed him or was pressed to see what he said so I just went to answer Amina. She said she was on her way to help me load the moving truck so I needed to get up and shower.

Im going over my check list to make sure I got everything to load up as I see her pull up in her red Volkswagen Jetta. I didn’t even have to turn around to know it was her because I could hear the 90s r&b playlist bumping from down the street. The car doors closed and I heard my little angel Skylar's voice call out for me " Auntie!" I dropped my notepad and swept her up in my arms for a huge hug. She has gotten so big so fast and I cant believe I am about to leave her. I have been there since day one and in the delivery room when she was born.

She hugged my neck so tight then pulled back and asked "auntie why is all of your stuff in that big truck where are you going?"

I wanted to lie and say no where without you but I couldn’t. "auntie is moving to new york remember for her big girl job." She just smiled back at me and said "well are you going to visit me and mommy because we are going to miss you."

"of course pumpkin and you and mommy are going to come visit me on the airplane right?"

"yes" she squealed. "good now go see meme she has cookies." I put her down on her feet and she took off running into the house. Amina walked up behind her and hugged me which is something she never does.

"what is wrong with you, im not dying" I said.

"what do you mean you are not dying?" She look confused at what I asked her.

"uhm you are hugging me like im dying tomorrow not moving away."

"well you might as well be! We have spent every day of our lives together since kindergarten, what am I going to do now that you have out grown this place?"

"well you know you can always move there too eventually, they need nurses in every state."

"yeah I know but I have Skylar and I don’t really want to take her from my mom."

"you cant limit your self because of other people Mina." I always wanted so much more for Amina. She had potential to be so much more than she allowed herself to step out of her comfort zone to be. We were similar but our differences made us great friends.

"girl are you sure you are ready to move like what is going to be the first thing you do when you get there?"

"shit find the nearest Junior's Cheesecake and walk the Brooklyn Bridge." We burst out laughing but I couldn’t be more serious.

"how did it feel seeing Zayvion last night? I had no idea he was going to show up even though the whole city was In that shit. We was lit for sure."

"yeah It was super awkward and intense at first and it felt like old times." Speaking of Zay I totally forgot he had texted me this morning. "He texted me this morning and I didn’t think he would remember my number."

"why wouldn’t he? Bestfriend now you know that boy still love you and he know he fucked up."

"to bad that was not my problem then and its not now. He shoudnt be trying to press me now its been a whole year since we broke up and he wants to wait until the day before I leave to reach out? No thank you ill pass." I rolled my eyes and went to grab some boxes. It was no need for me to text back now.

We loaded the truck in a matter of 2 hours and nothing was left but my suitcase and backpack for my flight in the morning. My mom had to work but she would be off intima to take me to the airport. Amina and Skylar stayed over for one of our famous living room sleepovers.

"You know your going to be ordering out every night when you get there because you cant cook?" She laughed trying to joke will she made all my sleepover favorites.

"shut up I can cook enough to survive! Plus that’s what restaurants are for to order out of."

"yeah but your going to miss this home cooking believe it or not because you know I can burn." Amina was the perfect wife and mom type. She had all the qualities not to mention she was beautiful. Milk cocoa brown skin, full curly natural hair that she passed on to Sky and she was 5"4 slim thick thick for sure.

"yeah I am, you spoil me bestie. Thanks for everything!" I smiled at her and she just smiled back because she wasn’t the sentimental type but I know a tear filled her eye on that one. She finished cooking and we turned on the black Cinderella with Brandy and Whitney Houston our favorite movie. Amina was sleep first as usual then sky and me. My mom came in and woke us up in time to get ready for me to catch my flight. We parked the car in the departure parking lot and they walked me to my gate. I hugged Amina and Sky trying to hold back tears. Then my mom who was wiping her eyes quickly so I wouldn’t see her crying.

"oh mommy its ok don’t cry. I am going to facetime you as soon as I land."

"I love you Sloane be safe ok?"

"I love you too mommy!"

*now boarding flight 5477 to New York City at Gate 4*

"that’s me guys! I will call as soon as I land." I picked up my bag and walked to my gate. Handing my ticket over to the flight attendant I took one last look back at them waving bye to me I waved back walked through the doors. I found my seat and adjusted myself for the take off. I had a window seat so I could see the airplane wing. I took a hug deep breath and settled my nerves. This was the start of a new beginning and the plane started rolling.

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