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nevernonline · 6 months

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✧.* svt as songs from 1989 (taylors vrs)

happy 1989 day to all my bbs celebrating!! xoxo. idk whose but one of these will prob end up being a full fic vv soon give me a suggestion lol im indecisive 🩵😌

seungcheol: i wish you would.

"2 AM, here we are see your face, hear my voice in the dark. we're a crooked love in a straight line down. makes you wanna run and hide but it made us turn right back around. i wish you would come back, wish i never hung up the phone like i did, i wish you knew that I'd never forget you as long as i live and i wish you were right here, right now, it's all good i wish you would."

jeonghan: is it over now?

"was it over when she laid down on your couch? was it over when he unbuttoned my blouse? "come here," i whispered in your ear in your dream as you passed out, baby. was it over then? and is it over now?"

joshua: new romantics.

" 'Cause baby, I could build a castle out of all the bricks they threw at me. and every day is like a battle but every night with us is like a dream. baby, we're the new romantics, come along with me. heartbreak is the national anthem, we sing it proudly. we are too busy dancin' to get knocked off our feet. baby, we're the new romantics the best people in life are free"

junhui: wonderland.

"flashin' lights and we took a wrong turn and we fell down a rabbit hole. you held on tight to me ’cause nothing's as it seems and spinning out of control. didn't they tell us, "don’t rush into things"? didn't you flash your green eyes at me? haven't you heard what becomes of curious minds? oh, didn't it all seem new and exciting? i felt your arms twisting around me, i should have slept with one eye open at night. we found wonderland, you and i got lost in it"

soonyoung: how you get the girl.

"stand there like a ghost, shakin' from the rain. she'll open up the door and say, "are you insane?"say, "it's been a long six months" and you were too afraid to tell her what you want. and that's how it works that's how you get the girl and then, you say i want you for worse or for better i would wait forever and ever. broke your heart, i'll put it back together, i would wait forever and ever and that's how it works. that's how you get the girl."

wonwoo: blank space.

"nice to meet you, where you been? i could show you incredible things. magic, madness, heaven, sin saw you there and I thought "oh, my god, look at that face. you look like my next mistake love's a game, wanna play?" new money, suit and tie i can read you like a magazine. ain't it funny? rumors fly and i know you heard about me. so, hey, let's be friends i'm dyin' to see how this one ends, grab your passport and my hand i can make the bad guys good for a weekend."

jihoon: you are in love.

"morning, his place burnt toast, sunday, you keep his shirt, he keeps his word and for once, you let go of your fears and your ghosts. one step, not much, but it said enough. you kiss on sidewalks, you fight and you talk one night, he wakes strange look on his face pauses, then says "you're my best friend" and you knew what it was, he is in love."

dokyeom: suburban legends.

"i didn't come here to make friends we were born to be suburban legends. when you hold me, it holds me together and you kiss me in a way that's gonna screw me up forever. i know that you still remember we were born to be national treasures. when you told me we'd get back together and you kissed me in a way that's gonna screw me up forever."

mingyu: wildest dreams.

"he's so tall and handsome as hell, he's so bad, but he does it so well and when we've had our very last kiss, my last request it this. say you'll remember me standin' in a nice dress starin' at the sunset, babe. red lips and rosy cheeks say you'll see me again even if it's just in your wildest dreams."

minghao: i know places.

"you stand with your hand on my waistline it's a scene and we're out here in plain sight, i can hear them whisper as we pass by. it's a bad sign, bad sign. somethin' happens when everybody finds out, see the vultures circlin', dark clouds. love's a fragile little flame, it could burn out. 'cause they got the cages, they got the boxes and guns. they are the hunters, we are the foxes and we run baby, i know places we won't be found and they'll be chasing their tails tryin' to track us down. 'cause i know places we can hide"

seungkwan: sweeter than fiction.

"seen you fall, seen you crawl on your knees, seen you lost in a crowd, seen your colors fade. wish i could make it better, someday you won't remember this pain you thought would last forever and ever there you'll stand, ten feet tall i will say, "i knew it all along" your eyes are wider than distance this life is sweeter than fiction"

vernon: now that we don't talk.

"you grew your hair long you got new icons and from the outside it looks like you're tryin' lives on i miss the old ways. you didn't have to change, but i guess i don't have a say now that we don't talk. i call my mom, she said that it was for the best remind myself the morе i gave, you'd want me less i cannot bе your friend, so i pay the price of what i lost and what it cost, now that we don't talk."

chan: slut!

"send the code, he's waitin' there the sticks and stones they throw froze mid-air. everyone wants him, that was my crime, the wrong place at the right time and i break down, then he's pullin' me in. in a world of boys, he's a gentleman."

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itsgrimeytime · 7 months

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Magnolia in May (Part Eighteen) || Rick Grimes (TWD) x Greene!f!reader Regency AU

Part 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17...

Taglist: @loliakeoghan23 @belaballs @curlycarley @queenie32 @mgparker

rick grimes taglist: @golden-hoax

AVAILABLE ON AO3

Inspiration (in honor of Speak Now Taylor's Version): Enchanted by Taylor Swift.

Summary: Your town was small, not the smallest you knew, but anyone of high fortune was the gossip of the week. Predictably, Richard Grimes was a thing of whispers -rumors of a search for marriage among the grassy hills. You weren't one to buy into town gossip, but something about him... just seemed a little too intriguing.

TWS: duelling mention, gun mention.

[[A/N: Thanks for reading!!! ]]

There was another knock on the door -a lingering sort of knock as knuckles dragged along the wood. Not a knock you knew.

You knew your family's knock, except the Headmistress who often just barged in, and you were gathering to understand Mr. Dixon and Mr. Grimes' knocks just by their visit amount. But it was an unusual sort of thing, not proper, and not quick.

Something in you wished to return to your room, you did not listen.

You swung the door open a peek, foot propped against the door to keep it from moving. You readied your best scream and glanced out the sliver.

A tall man, not as tall as Mr. Grimes but certainly close, black curly hair and warm brown eyes -his hair, atop his head was indented. As if he'd been bandaged-

You knew this man, didn't you? He just felt so...

And then he looked at you, the creep of a smile on his lips and a toothy sort of grin. You knew that grin, you knew that-

You swung the door shut.

"Mr. Walsh," you spoke through the door, "-I'm going to request you leave the premises. Perhaps head back to the clinic? To be treated?"

There was silence on the other end for a moment, and you were half worried he'd collapsed on your doorstep until he spoke up.

"I just wish to talk to Rick's lady," he spoke -rather loopy, big airy breaths and you had the unusual feeling that he was perhaps drugged (not fully maybe the after-effects of some medicine), "-I hear she lives here."

"I'm afraid you're incorrect, Mr. Walsh," you answered -strictly.

"It's you," he remarked, intelligently, "-ain't it? You know my name, why would you know my name if you weren't the famous Ms. Greene."

You remained silent, unsure of what to say. You were in a situation beyond understanding, and were afraid -you didn't know his capabilities.

"I just..." he echoed, rather vulnerably, "-I want'cha to know it wasn't just because she was Rick's wife. That wasn't-"

"Mr. Walsh," you urged him to quieten, "-my father is bound to attend to such matters soon, I don't believe you should be here when he does."

"I love Lori," he echoed, lost and far away, "-I love Lori and when she left I didn't know what to do. And then I find out she's with Rick, and then I just- I couldn't think-"

"Mr. Walsh-"

"I was afraid and angry and I pressed 'im, 'til he said yes. And then the man wouldn't even use the gun-"

"Mr. Walsh, please!" you escalated, before settling back down, softer and quieter, "-I don't believe you should confess to illegal things so loud."

"Smart," he let out a gruff chuckle, before sinking to the ground -the scrape of the wood as he leaned upon it scaring you slightly, "-now I know why Rick chose ya."

On instinct, your mouth flew open, "He didn't choose me. We weren't just objects to pick, you know."

"Fair 'nough," he remarked, much lower now and you could hear the scrape of his shoes on the gravel as he fell silent.

The ominous sort of silence that made you wish to say something small just to clear the air. But you weren't sure what you should've said, or what you could've rather-

"Did ya see 'er?"

You didn't have to ask who, the whisper -vulnerable and open- was quite enough, "Yes, I've met her upon Mr. Grimes's estate."

"No, not-" he echoed, "-not Lori."

Judith, you realized quietly. You hadn't thought about the other half, the man who lost his only child because of stature, of societal standards. You had no children but to imagine such pain... You truly couldn't.

"She's who I met first," you responded, slow and quiet, "-wanted a berry at the shops."

"She must be so grown now," he echoed -lost and far away again.

"Mr. Walsh," you responded, a whisper really -saying everything and nothing at all, "-she's very happy where she is."

"I don't deserve such a family," he answered both your implication and your statement, "-it's only proof I dueled the man that is housing her out of only gratitude."

You thought for a moment, just a spare moment.

"Would you like me to describe her?"

"Yes," he answered, more humane -more vulnerable, "-I very much would."

"Well..."

You talked for a few minutes, slow and careful and laughing when it felt necessary -describing her ask for your berry rather directly. Headstrong, you had decided. You spoke until you heard him rise to his feet -the smallest whisper of a thank you drifting into your ear.

And it wasn't until a moment after that a frantic knock came, rushed and urgent as if begging for you to open. Worry.

You merely reacted as you did, a sort of heaviness weighing onto your shoulders -something you hadn't imagined upon first meeting Mr. Walsh. And still, you know he betrayed Mr. Grimes's trust, yet he was still a human, he had nuance. Once again you found yourself assuming when you shouldn't have, and it framed you differently now.

You opened the door.

"Oh, thank goodness," erupted your father standing there with a creased forehead and rushing forward -hands brushing over your arms and enveloping you into a hug, "-you're alright."

"I'm fine, Father, truly," you laughed.

Mr. Grimes followed him in, he looked rather charming today but perhaps that was the concern for you shining bright in his eyes that made you biased. His suit was a deep sort of blue now, wonderous, and fit him perfectly -you wished you'd seen him in better circumstances.

"Did he come?" He asked, eyes dragging along your frame like he could find any evidence of him there if he had hurt you.

"Yes, he did but-" you started, "-he stayed on the outside of the door. We merely spoke."

"You would tell me if otherwise, yes?" your Father spoke, pulling back from the hug with a raised brow.

"Of course," you exclaimed, such as such a thought was obvious, "-I was getting ready for an outing with Mr. Grimes, you think I'd let such a man cloud my judgment?"

Mr. Grimes laughed, and you merely gleamed brighter from such a noise.

"Well, don't let me keep you," Father hummed, letting you go -hesitantly, "-Mr. Grimes?"

"I will be by her side every moment, sir," he responded, humming, "-if not me, my courier."

"Good," your Father seemed to relax slightly, "-now off you go, enjoy the sun while it's still high. And don't forget the milk, darlin'."

"Yes, I know, Father," you responded, digging into your purse for a piece of paper quickly written at the moment, "-I've written a list."

And then you were off, initially towards the direction of the shops, but suddenly, he pulled you to the side. Mr. Grimes gently guided you to a carriage, embellished the same as the one he sent, but a touch different -his personal carriage.

"Drive us around the block, will you?" he spoke, casually, before extending a hand to help you into the carriage -gentlemanly.

Your face bloomed a crimson as he joined you in the area -the space was much closer than you'd ever quite imagined with him. It was usually ballrooms and offices, this was rather private.

"I hope you don't mind my detour," Mr. Grimes spoke, low, "-I must speak to you about Mr. Walsh's visit."

"You wish to know what happened?" you responded in kind, matching his eyes -something in there was off, "-You must know I would never do anything against you."

"I do," he turned fully toward you, and you could feel his breaths on your face. You turned further crimson, "-but I want to be sure what he's spoken of is not deceitful."

"I don't believe it was," you spoke, turning your head because it was rather close, "-it was rather vulnerable, I don't believe men usually lie when they're vulnerable."

Mr. Grimes tilted his head slightly, "Was he in despair?"

"A bit," you responded, unsure, "-I believe medicine may have weakened his sense. He was improper but honest, I do believe. And he spoke only of Lori and Judith."

"I believe such a conversation was disheartening?"

"It was," you answered, rather dramatically, "-I find I never thought of his perspective."

"A fate I'd never wish on anyone," he remarked, quietly.

Something in him was sad, you could see it in his slouched shoulders, the pout of his lip, and the dimness of his eyes. You merely moved your hand to hold his for a moment, interlocking fingers between the space on the seat.

"It's for the best," you spoke, a bit distantly but all for him to hear, "-you are doing what is right."

"I know," he echoed, tightening the grip and bringing the united hands to his lips -kissing the back of yours (lips brushing along your skin), "-I know."

#rick grimes #its griming time #stuff n' thangs #rick grimes x reader #rick grimes x y/n #rick grimes x you #rick grimes x y/n fanfiction #twd #twd rick #rick grimes fanfiction #rick grimes oneshot #magnolia in may

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k4katsujin · 11 months

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random hobie brown headcanons!

all will be sfw the nsfw/spicy ones will be in pink

trying real hard not to delete this acc and kms bc of a sudden trigger

also this won't be proofread because im in the middle of a mental breakdown

he always looks for you when he performs

he's not the jealous "i show everyone who is my lover" type, more like the subtle "let's go" kind in crowded places to yk do unholy things

also small public demonstrations of affection <3 <3

like holding hands, putting his hand on your waist when you walk, small kisses both on your cheek and on your lips, small notes when he wakes up earlier than you since he's yk a spider man

he gave you one of his very own spike bracelets which i feel would be really dear to him

prob made you one esp for you

no matter how your styles differ he will still find a way to have something that reminds him of you on him whether it's a badge, a hair clip or even rings

taking you to the piercer as a first date!!

despite him being an anarchist he's actually very caring

you're sick? fuck capitalism he will make you his own medicine with some of his teas

unrelated but i feel like he's Jamaican or smth wait lemme check

ok i didn't find anything but ill js hc him as jamaican

so like yea when you're sick he makes you jamaican medicine

"take this shortcake! i know it doesn't seem yummy but i promise you'll feel better in a snap after!

you did feel better in a snap

(for fem aligned readers) when you're on your period he turns into the sweetest man ever

sometimes the two of you meet after his concerts - even though that's smth really important for him he makes sure you know you're his actual priority- you go on a rooftop and he tells you about his parents

feeling dysphoric because you're transmasc and on your period ? he makes sure you're the most handsome person he ever knew

when the two of you are doing it, he always makes sure he has your consent before trying anything new - or even before trying anything at all

he's not afraid to admit he's in love with you and he treats you like ROYALTY

you like this specific song? he'll post you to this song and even write love songs for you. remember that specific cat café you mentioned three months ago? he'll bring you there for your birthday.

going nonverbal and being overstimulated? that's no problem for him he'll sit with you in the dark in silence until you feel better.

THIS MAN IS A MAN OF AFTERCARE "you did so well for me darling <3 now what about we get some sweets and cuddle under the stars?"

he's a top most of the but yk he secretly lives when you're in control

HICKEYS HICKEYS HICKEYS ALL OVER YOUR BODY esp on your neck and in between your thighs

speaking of thighs whenever you feel insecure he turns into your girl best friend

having big thighs ? it's more comfy for when he has his head on his lap. big boobs?more comfy for cuddling. no/small boobs? it's ok clothes fit more easily. the list goes on but he always cheers you up.

UNLABELLED THEY/HE HOBIE‼️‼️‼️‼️

p sure he love when you ride him

like you're on top of him in some way but he somehow keeps control

probably likes to asset his dominance by putting a hand around your neck (wdym i don't have a choke kink i do)

BUT HE ALWAYS MAKES SURE YOURE OK THAT MAKES HIM LITTEALLY SM HOTTER OMG

he's always down for ditching class but he somehow has the best grades

which upsets you bc you're the one who always want to ditch class but your grades ain't following

omg it's giving academical rivals au

so like he sometimes comes at your place to help you w the subjects you have trouble with

eventually you end up pinned down on your desk passionately kissing

+ seeing you in a school uniform makes him go feral

fucking you in your school skirt? boy he sure is turned on

quickies in the school's bathroom ? man he loves danger so he's obviously down

+ he loves the way kissing you makes his piercing feel (idk but if i had healed piercings on my lips id love the way it'd feel)

SLOW BURN MAKE OUT SESSION IN THE RAIN

can you tell i love rain? bc i do

he makes sure you feel loved and says it to everyone he knows

"hey that's (reader's name) did you know they're my partner i love them sm"

he notices small habits and picks them up when he misses you (idk how to explain bit for example i sometimes twitch my nose because of my allergies- in that case if you did he would too)

HIGH PATTERN RECOGNITION even though he won't force you to tell him why you feel bad he instantly notices the changes in your behavior

"can you repeat, darling? i didn't hear what you said"

he makes sure you use your words despite you being overstimulated

+ his hands. they make you go crazy.

he's actually a lonely guy, give this poor man a big hug :(

no but fr tho he went through sm his backstory made me cry

OK bit of a vent now🕺🏻 but first tysm for reading ily ! <3 /p

i suddenly lost all motivation to post full fics bc i keep comparing me to others, most well known posters and it really triggers me so i guess i'll make the lonely series go on a hiatus. also working on requests! but it's getting harder to not kms bc of the pressure im putting on myself 🫠

anyhoo, kaheri there,back to dreamland! see you in the next dream! (new outro who dis?)

#x reader #atsv hobie #hobie brown #hobie brown smut #hobie brown x reader #kaheri's chronicles #headcanons #hobie x reader #hobie spiderverse #hobie x you #gender neutral reader #queer writers #writers on tumblr #writers and poets

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defodisturbed · 2 months

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Mastermind - Recoms x Singer!Recom!reader

(A/N: heyy... hey.. im back :3. im sorry for leaving for SO LONG im dealing with a lot of personal stuff right now but im really trying to write more. i want to get faster at typing and i also needa feed my children. also most of this fic will be exposition and the events leading up to the climax like im not even joking its so long. hope yall enjoy this one. mwah) (and yes I based the songs on Taylor Swift and if you're gonna be in the replies being hateful, gtfo my page (kindly))

What if I told you I'm a mastermind?

And now you're mine.

I had always hid my true past from my teammates. Practically everyone. I only really had a journal, and even that was locked away under my rug under my bed. Nobody knew it was there, and nobody could access it without waking me up or making some kind of noise. It was a sacred book to me. I could talk to... something with it. I could express my feelings of wanting to go back to the way things were, but never wanting to leave Pandora. Never wanting to leave my friends. And never wanting to leave my lovers.

I'm a recombinant for the RDA. When I died in my human body, they had my DNA and were already growing my new body to be revived. I have my memories of my past life, and it was awesome. Until... my mom found out she was drafted for the mission on Pandora. I, being the best kid ever, took her place. My fans were scared for me, and tried to convince me not to. They'd heard it all, how dangerous Pandora was. Especially for a singer with no military experience or knowledge. But I accepted my fate. For my mother. For my family. I had siblings back home, and with me going on tour all the time, I wouldn't be able to take care of them if my mother was gone. So I accepted the fact that I was most likely, if not definitely, going to die on this mission.

And I did. My family recieved the news, but also learned about Project Phoenix. They were relieved to know that their kid was going to be revived, just maybe not the same.

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"Hey, ma. How're you?" Prager asked as I sat down at the table. It was lunch at the cafeteria. They pretty much just fed us protein-filled slop most of the time. Rarely, they would throw a cookie in there if it was a holiday on Earth.

"Oh, it's going alright, baby. Thanks. Hey, can I ask you a question?" I replied. Prager nodded and leaned in. "Do you think you could ask the Colonel if we could go out in the forest today and just... explore? He doesn't know this, but I actually have some science friends and they showed me some fruits and animals that we can harvest and safely eat. I tried some and Pandora food is good. Like, really good. I wanna surprise the team, and you know Colonel can't say no to you."

Prager agreed and once the Colonel sat at our table, he immediately started.

"Colonel, I was wondering if we could go out into the forest today and just have some fun. Explore, fuck around in some river or something?" Quaritch looked at Prager and gave that ONE sigh. (A/N: its giving "go get my purse") "Fine. But we ain't bringing a baby viperwolf home because Ja wants one." He glared at Ja. He was always the one to see a stray dog and say "please please pleaaaaase mom can we adopt it??" as a kid.

I silently thanked Prager for doing my bidding as always.

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We were out in the forest, going over the rules we've memorized by heart now. Once the Colonel finished up, I immediately took off. I was so excited to get some nice food that I didn't realize the cliff drop below me. I was suddenly falling, the wind rushing past my body and feeling almost painful as it hit my face and went away so fast, over and over again.

I dived head first into a lake. The drop wasn't that bad, I realized. Alicia was first on the scene, peeking over the dropoff with a worried look on her face as she hoped to God I wasn't dead. I waved my hand up at her and called out.

"Get down here, this is so fun!! Don't be afraid to get a running start either!" my voice echoed. "Are you okay??" she shouted back. "I'm amazing!!"

Alicia ran over to the others and told them to watch her. She embraced her inner child as she ran as fast as she could and leaped off the cliff. She felt the wind rush past her face as I had, and splashed in the water with me. The rest of my team ran over and looked. We were... fine? Lopez was next. He gladly jumped and plooshed in with us. Then Prager, Zhang, Walker, Warren, Mansk, Lyle, Fike, and finally... Quaritch. He took a chance and jumped.

We were playing and splashing each other with water as we finally relaxed for once. Of course, we had fear of predators. But we didn't care as much anymore. We were playing like kids and it felt so good.

After we dried off and got back to the forest, I took off again. This time, more careful. I found an abandoned basket in pretty good condition and took it with me to collect fruits and veggies. I collected some yovo fruit, some other stuff I didn't know the name of but still knew was safe, and finally it was time to get some meat. I was looking to make some nice Pandora burritos for everyone. I found a nice bow and some arrows, perhaps forgotten by a young hunter excited to show their family their haul.

While I was gathering food, one of my favorite songs got stuck in my head while I was thinking about my life back on Earth. I started humming... then singing the lyrics... then full belting the long notes. I didn't realize Lyle was near, close enough to hear but far enough to stay hidden. He'd never heard my songs because he was in the military before I even debuted. I'm sure he was confused who I was singing.

I got some hexapede meat, some meat from hard fruits, and I also took down a lone viperwolf. I put the stuff in the basket to bring home.

"What the Hell is all of this? What've you been doing this entire time? Why do you have a bow? Did you encounter a native?" Colonel asked. I said I found it and saw no booby traps so I took it. I explained that my friends at the lab wanted some samples so I got some for them. Obviously it was a lie, but I couldn't spoil the surprise.

He allowed me to take my findings and harvest home. I thanked him and was so excited to make him and our team a good meal for once.

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I got out my cutting board and my cooking knife and started chopping. I cooked some of that chicken-y stuff and some of that fruit. I thanked Mansk in my head for teaching me these things.

I radio'd everyone to come to my room. I said I had a surprise for them. "I swear to God, if we get there and you're on the bed naked again I will... actually not be mad." Lyle said back.

"This isn't that kind of surprise, Lyle. Just get over here!"

Once they all were in the room, I retrieved a tray with foil over it. The smell wafted into the room as I uncovered the gift. They were all so surprised and hypnotized by the burritos.

"For you guys! You deserve it. Take one, I insist!" I squealed. They all grabbed one and a paper towel and with the first bite, they relaxed their tense muscles and rolled their eyes back. They hadn't had a good meal like this in a good, long while.

"Hey, Y/N, what song were you singing in the forest? You were really loud... must've been one of your favorites or something. Is it on Spotify?" Lyle asked as he finished his first bite. My eyes widened. "You... heard that?"

"Yeah, I heard a little bit too. It was something about a new romantic or something like that." Zdinarsk added. "Yeah you were singing about something related to rings or something too." Mansk said. "I don't know, I could be wrong, but last time I checked, you weren't married." Lopez said.

"Um... can we forget all of that happened? Sorry, I was just getting carried away and I sang some of my own songs and-" I was soon cut off by the Colonel saying, "Wait- your songs?"

I soon shoved them out of my room, begging them to let it go and to not talk about it again. I closed the door behind me as I slid down the metal wall to the floor. I took some big, deep breaths and checked under my bed to check if my journal and hard drives were still there, even though I'd been with them the entire time. Phew! They're still there. I thought.

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The next day, at dinner in the cafeteria, I brought my bag with me and sat down with everybody acting like nothing was wrong. Conversation sparked when someone asked, "So what's everyone planning on doing tomorrow? Ardmore gave us the day off." I said I was planning on bingeing my favorite show wrapped in my blankets with my favorite foods. They all agreed and said they would be training, sleeping, exploring, hooking up, or something fun/relaxing.

I suddenly got a call from my friend on the phone. I knew it was something important, because my phone was blowing up with texts while she was waiting for me to answer. I hurriedly ran off to my room for privacy, forgetting my bag full of personal stuff. Including my hard drives. Zdog decided it couldn't hurt to see what I carry around all day, so she started digging. She found my sunglasses, hairbrush/comb, an unopened soda can, some loose candy, and... hard drives?

"Hey does anyone know why Y/N has hard drives in her bag?" Z asked. Nobody knew, so she decided to take them and pass them out for them to watch later. It for sure wasn't porn, Ardmore would've never let it through. It's gotta be some home videos or something.

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Zdog and the others piled onto the bed in her room and uploaded the drives onto her computer. They were numbered. They watched the first one and it was a black screen with the sound of a crowd cheering. It was around an hour long. They watched as a... stage appeared. A big one. It was a stadium full of people. A concert? Then appeared the person performing. It was... you. Some already made the connections, while others took a little bit. You were performing for around 70,000 people along with cameras so everyone could watch it live. they watched all of the hard drives all throughout the night, only falling asleep when they went through all of them.

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You were in your room, hanging up the call. turns out it was just some cute guy flirted with her at a restaurant. Only then did you realize that you left your bag in the cafeteria. You immediately went back for it, checking everything was there because people just love to snoop. You realized all of your hard drives were missing. You soon were banging on the Colonel's door, asking if he'd seen anybody take them or had anything in their hands. He wasn't there. You knocked on everyone's door and nobody answered. You went back to your room, wailing into your pillow. Those drives were the last thing you had of Earth. Of your entire life before the military. Soon enough, you cried yourself to sleep. In the morning, you slept in. It was your day off, after all. You heard a knock on the door. You recognized it as Z. You opened the door and there she was. She came in without an invite and immediately sat on your bed.

"Y/N. I am... just so sorry. When you left your bag in the cafeteria, I looked through it when I should've respected your privacy. I found hard drives and took all of them to my room and the rest of the team and I watched all of them. In order. All the way through. I am so sorry for disrespecting your right to privacy and watching the videos that were obviously private." She closes her eyes softly, looking down toward the floor with her hands twiddling in her lap. Too embarrassed and disappointed with herself to even look at me.

"Z, I'm sorry too. I shouldn't have been so secretive. Especially with the ones who love me most. The truth is, I was a very rich and famous singer on Earth. You probably know that by now. So does everyone else. But I'm trying to work through it and not be embarrassed to share my past."

"It's not your fault. I love you. We love you. You never have to hide anything from us, but if you don't want it to be shared, that's okay too. So... can we listen to some of your songs?" Z laughed. I said yes an radio'd everyone to come to my room. I had a surprise.

MWAH I love yall!!!! hope you guys enjoyed i've had this au stuck in my head since like last year :) 💋💋

@dyingofcookies ITS HERE BESTIE

#zdinarsk #avatar zdog #recom zdog #z dog #z dog x y/n #recom lyle wainfleet #recom squad #recom quaritch #recom mansk #recom oc #james cameron avatar #original character #avatar x reader

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idkwhatthisisbutheresdcandstuff · 8 months

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So.... Y'all know that post that @lemonwisp made?

Well, I did it :3

For reference:

Red= Octavious

Blue= Jedediah

Purple= both

Also warning: this has the f slur in it

I’m Octavius, I’m Jedediah

He’s Jed, He’s Oct

Our life at

The museum

Totally rocks

Started as rivals

but now we are friends

Totally platonic

Which makes this next bit quite ironic

Jed’s like my husband

And Oct is like mine

Alive to the end of the night

Had nothing much in common

Loves horses

Loves swords

But we were attached at the hip

Jed’s so intriguing, so wild and brash

Oct is a nerd and a drip

But we would be together every our of the night

We would be recognized on sight

It's Jed and Octavious

Two peas in pod

Well if one pea had armor

And one pea did not

They're together

Are not!

No i don't think he's hot

Though I think he's quite gorgeous

But our people would not support us

(Ahem)

(Whoo!)

Just watching him fight

My gosh its a site

Alive till the end of the night

Octavious looks so damn fine, I just admit

Just look at the way he walks

It cant be that bad to give him one little kiss

I really wanna see his.... Clock!

Why would being together make us social refugees?

'Cause there's no you can fall in love with me

Oh right

So we were

Octavious and Jedediah

A vulgar display

Like some weird romcom

Except we're totally straight

He's so fine

He's so nice

But no way we would date

I mean we could just have a a fling

But im scared that we would be seen

We were contrary forces, who somehow combined

Alive till the end of the night

Then something crazy happened, when I came to his aid

I was tending to Jedediahs wound

I decided this was the best time

I was no longer afraid

I told him how I feel but he refused

I didn't want to hurt him i wasn't trying to be mean

But what we have is very unclean

Um, Jedediah?

Sorry, thanks for the bandages

We walked around the museum and no need to pretend

What he said had made me sad

And everyone was asking "Octavious who's your friend?

The one thats a-"

Cowboy?

"... F*g?"

All this malice aimed at Jedediah was quite startling and new

So I did what any best friend would do

I said

"I'm Octy, he's Jed...

We used to be close

But now he's malicious and stupid

It came from his folks

Used to have a crush on him but now we are foes

In this world is there a site

More tragic than this parasite?

So that is our story

And ain't it divine?

Alive till the end of the

Cold bitter end

I cant wait for the end of the night

Yeah sorry, I don't know what you were expecting

#natm #night at the museum #jedtavius #natm jedediah #natm fandom #natm octavius #jedediah smith #natm jedtavius #jedediah and octavius #octavious

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ifyoucandaniel · 1 year

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Crimson Rivers as Reputation Songs

hi ive decided that taylor wrote reputation for Crimson Rivers and I'm sure you've all had the same thought, but i wanted to write down all the little ways i see them in the album and my interpretation!!!! soe spoilers for CR ahead so be warned! @mayzarbewithyou

…Ready for it?

jegulus!!!

“In the middle of the night in my dreams / you should see the things we do, baby / In the middle of the night in my dreams / I know I’m gonna be with you / so I take my time”

very regulus to james !! dirty scandalous man hehe

regulus talking quietly to James when they’re alone and not being watched and he opens up and tells james the things he dreams about for them

I see how this is gon' go / Touch me and you'll never be alone / Island breeze and lights down low / No one has to know

regulus at the beginning of the fic when he was in his parting gift era

"no one has to know"

Obviously the “baby let the games begin” is very Crimson Rivers of her!!

“I see how this is gonna go"

Regulus seeing the ending before it can even begin and never letting himself just want and have until be finally does

“Knew I was a robber / first time that he saw me / stealing hearts and running off never saying sorry”

WHEN THEY WERE LIKE “ stole your heart, did I?” “Return it to me will you?” “No I think ill hold onto it for a bit more” IDK if that’s word for word but off the top of my head that’s what I remember and ??? That’s so them im???

“Every lover known in comparison is a failure” regulus after exactly one night and thinking Barty wasn’t as good as James LMFAO

End game

This one is also jegulus I’ve decided

“Big reputation / you and me we got some big reputations / and you heard about me / I got some big enemies / big reputation / you and me we’d be a big conversation”

This is so them before their games!!! Like there isn’t a single person who doesn’t know their names and if they were in love??? They’d be a big conversation indeed

“I don't wanna touch you / I don’t wanna be / Just anther ex-love you don’t wanna see / I don't wanna miss you / Like the other girls do / I don't wanna hurt you / I wanna be your end game”

This is so James to reg. Like he wanted him to love him so badddd he just wanted to be reg’s endgame!!! He didn’t want them to be something only to be nothing to him later :(

“Knew her when I was young / Reconnected when we were little bit older / I Did Something Bad”

Them growing up and being in love so close yet so far and then when they’re older falling in love fr this time??? Yeah this is so them

Don’t Blame Me

dorlenes ANTHEM

“For you, I would cross the line / I would waste my time / I would lose my mind / they say she’s gone too far this time / Don’t blame me love made me crazy”

You’re going to look at me and tell me this ISNT Dorcas meadows starting a WAR to save Marlene ???

“Lord save me my drug is my baby”

Dorcas literally on her KNEES doing whatever she can to save Marlene oh my god they’re so in love they invented love

“And baby for you / I would fall from grace / just to touch your face / if you walk away I’ll beg you on my knees to stay”

This is it. This IS their song it belongs to them and them alone I don’t care

Like dorcas went against both riddle and Dumbledore for Marlene. She made her own side and went against the person she’s been fighting for for years for the love of her life

This whole song is just so them!!! I love a woman on a mission <3

Delicate

Lilymary!!!!! Also wolfstar, but lilymary!!!

“This ain't for the best / My reputation's never been worse, so / You must like me for me / Yeah, I want you / We can't make any promises / Now can we, babe? / But you can make me a drink / Is it cool that I said all that? / Is it chill that you're in my head? / ‘Cause I know that it's delicate “

The first part is so remus to Sirius because he met him at his lowest point and still fell in love. they are the definition of love. Look up love in the dictionary and its them

Then lily <3 she was always so afraid of love and what it can do and how It can rip you apart, but she knows what she has with Mary is so so so special and she wants to treat them with so much love and care!! They have a delicate beautiful thing that she’s holding so gently!!

“Just think of the fun things we could do / ‘Cause I like you”

When lily only wanted a fun time with Mary at first and wasn’t ready for anything else, but then going from that to just “it cool that I said all that? / Is it chill that you're in my head? / ‘Cause I know that it's delicate”

Yeah just them being so lovely and treating what they have with so much love and care

Also very remus and Sirius learning to trust and tentative touches and gentle kisses and washing dishes together and !!!

Just delicate things

Look What You Made Me Do

this could go either way and a little bit of both between dumbledore and riddle.

But either way it’s directed at Dorcas.

Dorcas finding out the things dumbledore has done to ensure he wins this war HE started

“I don’t like your little games / the role you made me play of the fool / no I don’t like you / I don’t like your perfect crime / how you laugh when you lie / you said the gun was mine / isn’t cool / no I don’t like you”

Like we can all agree this is Dorcas @ dumbledore right? Okay cool

“But I got smarter I got harder in the nick of time/ honey I rose up from the dead I do it all the time/ I got a list of names and yours is in red underlined”

DORCAS MF MEADOWS BABYYYYY she’s so cool wtf I want to be her and be with her I just need her

“Oh look what you made me do” riddle bc he fucking sucks

But also Dumbledore when he made Gideon and fabion take the fall for dorcas

And dorcas when she started a war because neither side was doing anything so she took things into her own hands.

Dorcas looking at Dumbledore and saying “look what you made me do” is so powerful!

Dorcas is a badass mf put some respect on her name I want to kiss the back of her hand so bad

Getaway Car

this is one of my favorites off the album and it is very much dumbledore and grindelweld. (unfortunately? idk bc zar did so amazing fleshing or their backstory that its fascinating and i dont like them as people, but their characters are fascinating and the PARALLELS mmmm so good)

“It was the best of times, the worst of crimes / I struck a match and blew your mind / But I didn't mean it, and you didn't see it / The ties were black, the lies were white”

Albus falling in love during the worst time of his life (best of times worst of times)

Grindelweld not seeing albus’ betrayal coming or maybe he did but the lies were white

"X" marks the spot where we fell apart / He poisoned the well, I was lyin' to myself / I knew it from the first Old Fashioned, we were cursed / We never had a shotgun shot in the dark”

He poisoned the well I was lying to myself- albus when grindelweld betrayed him and killed Ariana, he was lying to himself thinking grindelweld wasn’t the man he was and that he wouldn’t do anything to get him back

You were drivin' the getaway car / We were flyin', but we'd never get far / Don't pretend it's such a mystery / Think about the place where you first met me / Ridin' in a getaway car / There were sirens in the beat of your heart / Should've known I'd be the first to leave / Think about the place where you first met me

This part belongs to the moment when dumbledore finally kills him.

Don’t pretend it’s such a mystery, think back to the moment you first met me- they were never going to have a happy ending and grindelweld should have seen it coming, they met during the hunger games where he was putting him and his sister in an arena to fight for their lives. They could never exist like they wanted to.

“Until I switched to the other side, to the other side / It's no surprise I turned you in / 'Cause us traitors never win”

Albus turning on the man he loved, betraying him and killing him, but never winning.

“It’s no surprise I turned you in”

Just thinking about dumbledore killing him and saying “don’t pretend it’s such a mystery” as if he would ever do anything less to avenge his sister, even to the man he loved.

Gorgeous

Regulus through and through

This song is literally his internal thoughts about James 24/7

reg wrote this song about James I know bc he showed me his sad boy poetry and this was in there

“You should take it as a compliment / That I got drunk and made fun of the way you talk / You should think about the consequence / Of your magnetic field being a little too strong / you’re so cool it makes me hate you so much”

Liiiiike? Regulus coded. Taylor knows CR reg personally and wrote this for him

Him making fun of James because otherwise hell just talk ab how pretty he is and how in love he is

You're so gorgeous / I can't say anything to your face / ‘Cause look at your face / And I'm so furious / At you for making me feel this way / But, what can I say? / You're gorgeous”

ITS SO REGULUS.

Like come onnnnnn he can’t even look James in the eye most of the time bc every time he does he’s just a deer in the headlights

James is so pretty im in love with him

Regulus get in line I wanna kiss James face so bad

“You should take it as a compliment / That I'm talking to everyone here but you / And you should think about the consequence / Of you touching my hand in the darkened room / ‘cus you’re so gorgeous it actually hurts”

God this is so regulus idk what more I can say

“Ocean blue eyes looking in mine / I feel like I might sink and drown and die”

I know James eyes aren’t blue, but the comparison to regulus drowning in them is too good

“You make me so happy, it turns back to sad, yeah / There's nothing I hate more than what I can't have / You are so gorgeous it makes me so mad”

UUUUUUUUGH they’re so lovely im clawing at the wall I want what they have ugh ugh ugh

Dress

this is both wolfstar AND dorlene

“Secret moments in a crowded room / but they don’t know about me and you / there is an indentation in the shape of you / make your mark on me”

This is so CR wolfstar Zar might as well have written the song himself.

Secret moments in a crowded room but they don’t know about me and you??? You’re joking. Like it’s so them😭 Remus at parties as a server while Sirius is siting with sponsors like 3 feet away with hickies he left the night before?? Yeah

“Say my name and everything just stops / I don’t want you like a best friend / only bought this dress so you could take it off”

DORLENE DORLENE DORLENE

LITERALLY THEM. When they tried to be friends but Dorcas wanted so much more! Them being in love and being friends never being enough!

When Marlene asked Dorcas to take her dress off!!! God I love them so much oh my god

“Everyone thinks that they know us / but they know nothing about / all of this silence and patience / pining and anticipation/ my hands are shaking from holding back from you”

WOLFSTAR <3 I love them so much. When the hallows think they have Sirius and Remus all figured out and put in their little boxes, the boy who give out sexual favors for sponsors and the servant to the hallow, but they know nothing about them

When they’re around the hallows and have to hold back from each other but all they want is to be in each other’s arms😭

Also dorlene!!! Again everyone thinking they know Dorcas and Marlene and they have them in their little boxes, but Marlene would never be the girl they wanted or thought she was and Dorcas was literally undercover for a war.

The pining and anticipation / my hands are shaking from holding back from you !!!! Dorcas and Marlene!!!! They’re so in love oh my god I love them sm

“Flashback when you first met me / your buzz cut and my hair bleached / even in my worst times / you could see the best of me / flashback to my mistakes / my rebounds my earthquakes / even in my worst lies / you saw the truth in me”

This is so wolfstar and dorlene. Flashback to my worst times- Sirius knowing Remus saw both his games and has seen him at his worst and Remus thinking about grayback but even then Remus saw the best in Sirius and neither love the other less for their lows

Flashback to my mistakes- Marlene finding out about lily and despite not being together still hurting because it hurts! They’re so heartbreaking and I just love them so much

Call It What You Want

THIS IS CR WOLFSTARS SONG I DONT CARE THIS IS IT

“I brought a knife to a gun fight / they took the crown but it’s alright”

Sirius winning his games but never actually winning

“My baby’s fit like a daydream / walking with his head down / I’m the one he’s walking to / so call it what you want”

Remus walking with his head down bc he’s a servant but he’s always walking to Sirius!

Sirius thinking Remus is so fit all the time and basically drooling nonstop- me too babe, me too

“My baby’s fly like a jet stream high above the whole thing / loves me like I’m brand new”

Remus never paying attention to rumors and loving Sirius for him and nothing else, loving him like he’s all new and never been tainted by the hallows or the games

“All my flowers grew back as thorns / he built a fire just to keep me warm / all the drama queens taking swings / all the jokers dressing up as kings / they fade to nothing when I look at him”

Sirius feeling like after the games he only destroyed things and like he grew thorns and ruins everything he touches, but Remus showing him he’s loved???

All the hallows trying to get their hands on him and sink their claws in but he only has eyes for Remus (specifically that one scene when Remus is working at the party and all the hallows are throwing themselves at Sirius but as soon as he sees Remus his eyes follow him all night and yeah them)

“ I’m laughing with my lover / making forts under covers / trust him like a brother / yeah you know I did one thing right / starry eyes sparking up my darkest nights”

It’s literally them. That’s all. It’s them building trust and loving each other and laughing together and being in love.

“I want to wear his initial on a chain ‘round my neck / not because he owns me / but because he really knows me / which is more than they can say”

No you’re not listening. This is literally cr wolfstar

NOT BECAUSE HE OWNS ME BUT BECAUSE HE REALLY KNOWS ME

Remus is the only person aside from his friends who can say they KNOW Sirius because Sirius let’s him know him. He KNOWS Sirius. All the hallows who want to own Sirius and to make him THEIRS don’t get it. Sirius could never be theirs because they don’t know him and they never will. Sirius wants to belong to Remus because it’s his choice! He wants to belong to the man he’s built trust with and who KNKWS him. Oh my god they make me SICK. They’re so perfect

“Would you run away with me?” Sirius to Remus all the time pls pls pls I love them

anyways I have to go do some work so this is all i have but i just love these characters so much and !!!!!

#sirius black #remus lupin #marlene mckinnon #mary mcdonald #james potter #regulus black #dorcas meadowes #lily evans #aberforth dumbledore #ariana dumbledore #albus dumbledore #crimson rivers #jegulus #wolfstar #dorlene #marylily #zeppazariel #marauders #the marauders

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criminalmindsgonewrong · 2 years

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assigning midnights songs to the bau and ships

characters

emily;

anti-hero; did you hear my covert narcissism idisguise as altruism like some kind of congressman, tale as old as time, i wake up screaming from dreaming one day i'll watch as you're leaving and life will lose all its meaning for the last time

would've, could've, should've; all i used to do was pray // i would've stayed on my knees and i damn sure never would've danced with the devil (at fifteen)// if you never touched me, i would've gone along with the righteous // you're a crisis of my faith, would've, could've, should've, if I'd only played it safe // god rest my soul, i miss who i used to be, the tomb won't close, stained glass windows in my mind, i regret you all the time

dear reader; dear reader, get out your map, pick somewhere and just run, dear reader, burn all the files, desert all your past lives, and if you don't recognize yourself, that means you did it right // never take advice from someone who's falling apart // dear reader when you aim at the devil make sure you don't miss // you wouldn't take my word for it if you knew who was talking, if you knew where i was walking, to a house, not a home, all alone

penelope, bejeweled; best believe I'm still bejeweled when I walk in the room, I can still make the whole place shimmer // baby boy, I think I've been too good of a girl, did all the extra credit, then got graded on a curve // what's a girl gonna do? A diamond's gotta shine

jj (about ros or maggie), bigger than the whole sky; ive got a lot to pine about, ive got a lot to live without, im never gonna meet what could've been, would've been, what should've been you // did some force take you because I didn't pray? every single thing to come has turned into ashes // it's all over, it's not meant to be so ill say words I don't believe, goodbye

elle, vigilante shit; and she looks so pretty, driving in your Benz. lately she's been dressing for revenge. she don't start shit, but she can tell you how it ends, don't get sad, get even // someone sweet and kind and fun the lady simply had enough

morgan, karma; i keep my side of the street clean, you wouldn't know what I mean // karma is a god // me and karma vibe like that // don't you know that cash ain't the only price? it's coming back around // ask me what i learned from all those years, ask me what i earned from all those tears // im still here // karma's gonna track you down step by step, town to town

spencer, you're on your own kid; cause there were pages turned with the bridges burned, everything you lose is a step you take, so make the friendship bracelets take the moment and taste it, you've got no reason to be afraid // you're on your own, kid, you always have been

haley, high infidelity; high infidelity, put on your records, and regret me // do you really want to know where I was april 29th? do I really have to chart the constellations in his eyes? // storm coming, good husband, bad omen // at the house lonely, good money // you know there's many different ways that you can kill the one you love, the slowest way is never loving them enough, do you really want to know where i was april 29th? do i really have to tell you how he brought me back to life?

hotchniss;

the great war; all that blood shed, crimson clover, uh-huh, sweet dream was over, my hand was the one you reached for, all throughout the great war // your finger on my hair pin triggers, hold you down on that icy ground, looked up at me with honor and truth, broken and blue, so I called off the troops. that was the night I nearly lost you

labyrinth; it only hurts this much right now was what I was thinking the whole time, breathe in, breathe through, breathe deep, breathe out, ill be getting over you my whole life// you would break your back to make me break a smile, you know how much I hate that everybody just expects me to bounce back, just like that

mastermind; what if i told you none of it was accidental? and the first night that you saw me, nothing was gonna stop me, i laid the groundwork and then, just like clockwork, the dominoes cascaded in a line // no one wanted to play with me as a little kid so I've been scheming like a criminal ever since to make them love me and make it seem effortless is this the first time I feel the need to confess? and i swear, im only cryptic and machiavellian 'cause i care

jemily:

maroon (emilys perspective); and I chose you, the one I was dancin' with in new york // the burgundy on my tshirt when you splashed your wine onto me and how the blood rushed into my cheeks, so scarlet, it was maroon //sobbin' with your head in your hands ain't that the way shit always ends? // and I wake with your memory over me, that's a real fucking legacy to leave

paris; privacy sign on the door and on my page and on the whole world, romance is not dead if you keep it just yours // i wanna transport you to somewhere the culture's clever confess my truth in swooping sloping cursive letters

snow on the beach (jjs perspective); and it's like snow at the beach, weird but it was beautiful, flying in a dream, stars by the pocketful, you wanting me tonight feels impossible, but it's comin' down, no sound, it's all around // i can't speak, afraid to jinx it. i don't even dare to wish it

glitch; we were supposed to be just friends // i think there's been a glitch, five seconds later, i'm fastening myself to you with a stitch and I'm not even sorry // a brief interruption, a slight malfunction, id go back to wanting dudes who give nothing, ihought we had no chance and that's romance, let's dance

other ships

willifer, lavendar haze; all they keep asking me is if i'm gonna be your bride the only kinda girl they see is a one night or a wife // im damned if I do give a damn what people say, no deal, the 1950s shit they want from me

hotchniss/willifer/jemily, midnight rain; he was sunshine, i was midnight rain he wanted it comfortable, i wanted that pain, he wanted a bride, i was making my own name, chasing that fame, he stayed the same, all of me changed like midnight // i broke his heart 'cause he was nice // Picture perfect, shiny family, holiday, peppermint candy but for him it's every day // i guess sometimes we all get some kind of haunted

garvez, sweet nothing; they said the end is coming, everyone's up to something, i find myself running home to your sweet nothings, outside they're push and shoving, you're in the kitchen humming, all that you ever wanted from me was sweet nothing // to you i can admit that im just too soft for all of it

jeid, question...?; one thing after another fucking situation, circumstances, miscommunications and I have to say, by the way, i just may like some explanations// did you leave her house in the middle of the night? did you wish you'd put up more of a fight, when she said it was too much? do you wish you could still touch her? it's just a question // half-moon eyes, bad surprise, did you realize, out of time, she was on your mind with some dickhead guy that you saw that night but you were on something

#criminal minds #taylor swift #bau as taylor swift #bau as midnights songs #midnights #criminal minds gone wrong #emily prentiss #jennifer jareau #aaron hotchner #spencer reid #derek morgan #jemily #hotchniss #willifer #penelope garcia #garvez #elle greenaway #haley hotchner

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mintjamsblog · 2 years

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15.) and 41.) for the writing thingy <3

Sorry this has taken me so long!

15. I have already answered: Trembling hands

41. Comfort food

He can't do a fucking thing right these days — from the way he holds the baby to the way he holds his tea — everything he does elicits a barely smothered fuck's sake or an irritable flinch.

"He doesn't mean it, sir," Frances assures him. "A new baby takes its toll on a couple. If Mr Shelby would only eat and rest, that baby would follow suit."

Eat and rest. Sounds simple enough, don't it? But another week on and there's been precious little of either for any of them. Which leaves Alfie operating outside of his usual sphere of tolerance, equanimity and cooperation and might have had just the tiniest role to play in triggering, between he and Tommy, the mother and father of all rows.

"More like father and father," Ada mutters, when she tracks him down at the bakery. "He doesn't look good, Alfie."

"Yeah, well he's just had a fucking baby."

"Mmm. You don't look so great yourself."

"Well that is bloody charming, ain't it?"

"I know he's a law unto himself, but he needs someone to make him stop. He's irritable as almighty fuck and he looks gaunt. And puffy."

Those descriptions shouldn't fit together, and yet he knows exactly what she means. "Alright, alright, I'll head home. But I'm telling you, nothing I say'll make a shred of difference."

He drives back to Warwickshire that afternoon, somewhat less rested than he might've hoped after two nights spent on his own. Funny how quick you come to miss the disturbed nights; his brain kept trying to fill in the gaps with sudden jerks and phantom cries.

Arrow House is strangely still when he steps through the front door. He's about to bellow his return when Frances appears from the study with a finger against her lips. "Mr Shelby's asleep," she whispers.

"At four o'clock in the afternoon?"

"Yes sir," she nods. "I thought it best to leave him there. I've just banked up the fire."

Alfie pokes his head into the study and sees Tommy's shod-feet flopped over one end of the sofa, a tuft of dark hair at the other. The air smells not of cigarettes but of something rich and sweet. Vanilla, maybe? Nutmeg? He doesn't venture closer, afraid to pierce the delicate veil that separates Tommy from consciousness.

"What the fuck did you give 'im, Frances?" Alfie asks, backing out into the hall. "Fucking laudenum?"

"No, sir." She's holding a dish in her left hand, a large enamel thing with the remnants of a yellowish-brown crust around its edge. "Rice pudding. He must've been hungry," she says, tilting the dish towards Alfie. She seems a little embarrassed. "Mrs Thorne suggested it, when she popped in yesterday, so I had cook make it for him."

"And he ate the fucking lot?"

"It seems that way, yes."

"Well, well, well," he says. "And where's the little man?"

"Mary took him out in the pram to give Mr Shelby some rest."

"Do us a favour, would you? Nip back in there and unplug the phone."

"But, sir he'll—"

"Never fuckin' know, will he? He's flat out." Alfie takes the dish from her hands and nods towards the door. "Be quick, or one of his brothers'll call and fuck up my moment of peace."

Frances dips her head to hide a smile and tiptoes back into the study.

#there's more than one baby in Arrow House #tommy sleeps for 4 hours #alfie doesn't know what to do with himself #my fic #stargazing verse #i guess #tommy x alfie #tommy shelby #tofie #peaky blinders #asks #writing

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mllebabushkat · 1 year

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☀️ Warrior Nun S2E5 🌙

holy shit yeah this one's wild

"[she had] her sisters" the INFINITE FONDNESS in that look between avatrice at that moment 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

"tell jilian her son is here" MICHAEL?????????????????

insert beyonce meme

yo he sounds sorta cultish what's up with this reya miguel

camilla darling 🥺

she reallly has been through it all these few months, having to grow up alone too fast

loving her arc tho can't wait to see more !!

yayyy more bea + cam <333

bea giving her her all the affirmation and recognition she deserves, and in return,

cam putting into words and validating what bea has been so afraid to admit

GIRL UR IN DENIAL

did i mention i love their dynamic

oh i missed bea in her ocs habit!

oh wow now it's bea's turn to go 😍 at her flying gf 'best friend'

"i trust you. you know i do. we'll beat him." *CLUTCHES HEART*

ava is ROCKING her hairstyle this season ugh 👌

aaaaa mother superion + yasmine what a cute duooo

"never apologise for your gifts, just use them wisely" <3

me, recognising the conference room set: that's the thing! from the trailer!! superion boutta kick asS

insert pointing leo dicaprio meme

oh i love superion's actress, such Presence

kudos to her for recognising cult speak from a mile away 👍

william always talked too much for a bg character to be on the good side ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

soooo. Catholic Murder Hotel.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAA all the old men waving their tiny knives IM DYING

like copious bloodshed aside IM CACKLING LMAO

obligatory 'poor yasmine bby' honey ur doing great

SUPERION MONTAGE

fave moment: superion screwdrivers her handle straight down into that guy's skull and uses him as a shield

this really is Her Episode

quality fight scene as expected *kisses to the crew*

WAIT i just realised

yasmine doxxed herself and her secret sect to adriel's followers uhhhh-

oh ocs reinforcements!

psa: exposure to bring camilla's brilliant smile will blind you 🤩

brief detour

im gonna need an obligatory 'lilith wtf' to go along with 'fuck off adriel' and 'vincent el bastardo'

speaking of which, is he having second thoughts?

so yeah, lilith wtf

did she just...., orgasm out a pair of demon wings? like fine the eyebag scales make sense but i'm so fucking confused hahahahahaha

and disgusted

don't make out with the creepy beardo

sheesh

oK back to the RESCUE MISSION

"fuck shit fuck" yeah me too girl-

;KJ;LKADSJF;JASHDG;JAS;DFA NOOOOOOOO AVA

not at beatrice being so used to mortality she went straight to that inspiration-from-the-brink-of-death spiel 💀💀

CLOSE CALL

halo said u ain't dying here in this shitty alley

"easy, easy" ava no my palpitations haven't eased off just yet

the Patented Avatrice ✨Face Cradling✨

the way ava Nestles into bea's neck 😍😍😍

aaaaaaaaaaaaa they are so TENDER

"they can't beat us bea. not together." *CLUTCHES HEART AGAIN*

ANYWAY

hoo boy what's next

#i love how they've set up the issue of ava's mortality so far but i'm also terrified T-T #like yeah i've had spoilers but i simply pretend i do not see #s t r e s s #warrior nun #wn #warrior nun season 2 #babushkat watches warrior nun #babushkat rambles

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nowyouknowandokay · 5 months

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If I am being truly honest, I've been avoiding being honest because I think it's for the best, and I'm afraid of showing what hurts. Ain't a day that I don't think about you and wonder what you do but do I ask? Nah. Keeping my distance so im able to walk forward because if I don't, I know I'll fall down on my knees and spill what I've bottled up. And so what that it hurts, rejection is worse, and I've been fragile for a while acting like nothing bothers me. So if ill lose my balance and fall, ill break what I've been trying to hold together. How long will I last in this state is uncertain like that what's coming and where exactly I'm going. I don't look back, and yet I see it all every night. Words flow out of me on the paper as if I connected my heart to the pen, throwing it out and trying not to give into the pain, trying to keep myself sane. A new day knocks on my Windows before I get the chance to look at the clock when I can't sleep, and i fantasise about us. I'm not the only one in pain i know and definitely not the only one trying to keep myself sane. What will I do if one day I'll see you look at me with empty eyes, what will I do if one day I won't be able to make your eyes spark up like they do. Maybe holding back makes it worse, but what if I won't hold back and you'll just not be bothered. The longer I'm looking at you from the distance the more I wanna fall, the more I hold back the more I regret. Help, help, help. I write you a text and delete 99% of it, so it just says 'hi, how are you?, and maybe , "did you sleep well?'. I don't wanna lose control but I wanna fall. I don't wanna hurt but I wanna fall. I wanna trust and don't wanna crawl.

How do I know what to do, How? How? How? How do I know? How? How? How?

#spilling my guts #personal

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spikeinthepunch · 9 months

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twitter is dead to me and i dont feel like my random tweets on my private mean much anymore, and also i can type way more here- so im going to ramble about Lisa again (this is about new content in the Definitive edition)

so yeah i did just beat legacy Lisa before Definitive came out but wanted to replay ASAP to see the new things (which is mainly campfire convos i care abt. also one secret boss). i played Lisa: the First just before jumping back into it as well and i did at first start Joyful buut i wanna get to that after i replay. (i started joyful on legacy too but might just go to definitive for better features and added content) though these are not all "conversations", some or are just scenes of characters doing things.

anyways, i have yet to see nearly all the campfire scenes-- i have gotten nern, tiger face, maybe beastborn?, geese and just now queen. i dont know how many of them are actual conversations... but i did just watch a couple of videos of them on yotube BUT only the ones for characters i wont have/already killed off (sorry Terry :( your scene was so good too...). but when checking prior how scenes are trigger i saw people saying queen's was good and so i specifically wanted to find that considering i love him lol.

and yeah it was really good. i cant say its the "best" bc i havent seen the others but i am biased so... but it was a good conversation-- and i think whats nice about these is it gets brad talking more (....kind of. he still doesnt say much). in general i love that they added these since party members dont have much of a speaking role at all until the endgame. but lemme talk about this one-

you can see the interaction here on YT!

(spoilers) their conversation is in Area 2 and you stoke the campfire as an indicator it will happen. Considering my last conversation campfire (if you wanna call it that) was Nern waking up brad in the middle of the night with brad saying nothing, i wasnt sure what to expect if it was a real interaction lmao.

but its really good-- brad is awake sitting at the fire with queen and their talks are kind of casual and queen is basically leading it talking about brad like. how handsome he is, and how desirable he is. and generally talking about sex- so like, expected conversation lol. its mostly amusing bc brad doesnt talk much in general and the few comments seem obviously flustered but.

into that conversation queen pulls away from the sex talk bc he doesnt want brad to be uncomfortable and then they talk about general intimacy, hinting that maybe at the very least, they could cuddle, but that has queen digging a little deeper and realizing brad is saying he doesnt hug people- even people like buddy or dusty. who he says need discipline and thus cant be physically intimate (and stating he reprimanded them for it)

while brad seems to drift off into sleep, queen goes off in a very serious manner basically stating how important it is to have someone you love that you can be intimate with even just in hugging. sorry but i just had to write it all out.

"Being held by someone you love is the best feeling in the entire universe. [...] These men out here. All this strength. This power. Your respect... you cant take it with you when you die. It wont save you. It doesn't matter how powerful you are. No ideas matter. No experience matters. None of that shit thats consumed you your whole life matters. You're completely naked in the face of death. Its terrifying.

Now, a good hug. That matters. Honestly, it ain't gonna change much... dead is dead. But the way i see it. You can die afraid. Lost in your own mind. Haunted by the guilt of all your mistakes. Tormenting nightmares wondering what comes next. Or... you can be in the moment with someone you love. Someone that makes you feel like nothing else matters. Nothing could be more important than feeling each other's warmth and love. No thinking. Just feeling."

considering the end of the game it makes the choice of letting buddy hug brad so much more painful. brad should have someone he cares about to hold him, and he wanted that. he really wanted that despite whatever else anyone felt for him and its because he denied all of that closeness. yes, of course, this came *after* the main game's writing but, it works a lot into the character for brad that you wouldnt have gotten before, esp because he is so quiet anyways.

and i love how queen is as a character here. he is of course shown pretty 'stereotypical' in being kind of catty and outwardly rude and all that. but you know considering his role of running the bees, i think its totally in character that he talks like this and can be deep and emotional and caring for brad's position of not having any people to be close to.

#you know i noted so many ppl using they them for queen in that yt video #i find it interesting. i mean there is nothing wrong w it #if anything it kinda shows ppl are trying to be open minded as a 'just in case' for a character breaking gender norms #but as a person who Gets It referring to roger w he him is right #and no hate towards people who dont Get It but drag queens certainly and very much so still use he him #so #unless theres an outside source there isnt any trouble w he him

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harmcityherald · 10 months

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I used to queue a song every day at 3pm. it wasn't laborious or anything but I grew out of doing that. I use queue now to schedule posts like its my favorite artist yea happy october birthday only its February so I put it where it belongs. or those wonderful on this day its crab with a knife birthday and such. mostly if you see me posting I am here, present, accountable for all my mistakes. please come tell me about them. You would be surprised how good a listener I am. also if something I post or reblog needs backhanding Im always up for coherent debate. what Im not here for are political attacks, name calling, being a nazi, terf, bigot, you know the list. Im not here to have a dialogue with fascists. you will notice I always say don't be afraid to talk to me if you are a republican. we can have a coherent debate. I don't think all republicans are bad Im literally surrounded by them. just don't be any of the above. nazi, terf, bigot, fascist. hell, you can even be a cop. Im guilty of attacking one kust for being in my notes. I was in the wrong. regular guy just wants to scroll tumblr probably in secret in his patrol car. he didn't deserve what I did and I won't point tto him because that guy deserves to scroll for whatever he likes too. was he a bad cop? how the fuck do I know? I was in a bad place at the time anyway and his likes triggered my paranoia. look, I tried to be a cop. I know some cops who are good guys. not all cops are bad like not all women are bad drivers just to use a worn out analogy. you can posture as if you are king shit antifa and acab all day but Im here to tell you when I have had to call them I am thankful they are there. call me a bootlicker if that makes your dick hard but Im here to tell you I been a fucking rebel since around 73. that's when my angst started. The best rebels don't hide from police. my rebellion is in my VOTE. now having said all that I truly believe that the police were instructed by 'higher ups' to cause the ferver of the blm riots. it was an election cycle and boy did they show their asses. Im not saying the anger at lets say the death of George Floyd was misplaced in any way. what I am saying is after Trayvon Martin I could almost see a effort to intentionally stir up these things. So I may be right or wrong about that, its not my place to say. but it is my place to wonder and to always try to think critically always. 18 year old me wanted to be a cop. I wanted to be on the brand spanking new profilers unit of the fbi. I wanted to take serial killers off the street. you can thank my great uncle for implanting that desire. They put him to death and 13 year old me said I will pull that lever myself. So I can never believe that all cops are bastards. there was me and there was Serpico. blows your little catch phrase up. same with the defund the police bit. ok maybe they don't need 30,000$ robot dogs. I get it. we should fund better things. I get all of that. But.....you take away the police force and 6 dudes on the block break down your door for whatever it is they gonna kill you for, you really think you and your ar15 are all you'll need. trust me, it ain't. some of you all want the 24/7 purge going on. what we've needed from way back is POLICE REFORM. not abolishment. and thats where I fall on that spectrum. police brutality? oh it absolutely exists in great numbers. I will even give you that most police are corrupt in some way. shit there may only be one guy on any given force that is a real on the level good cop. we need to train them more. pay them more and hold them accountable more. thats a long way off with a supreme court packed with nazis. and I mean that from the bottom of my heart. its packed with nazis. you guys think im crazy but look at the other side of the world and nazis fighting there and everywhere. they call themselves many things, the media calls them 'far right' my dude they are fucking nazis.

wait a minute. how did I go from my queue to fuck nazis in 7 seconds flat?

anyway you may not agree with me on a lot. Here I am.

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prisonmindsgypsystar · 10 months

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Todays been a long day, I'm looking at the time 10,33 that's the time

This morning Im looking at the date, thinking of dad because jun 21st, 21st is his birthday date in January,

I don't know I just was feeling kinda funny

I was thinking how off I felt,

And so mum calls speaking to her was good mum had said, she felt the same way, but wasn't sure what of, not that she would have been with him in any way again, But she felt his love bombarded her with noise feeling dim.

The day goes by it seems a little slow, filled of things and places to go,

But negative more than good pushes and shoves,

The train doesn't come, so here I sit with thousands of winning teenage , sitting here man this ain't it, the world knows they way I think why they do me so dirty, shut up me stop over thinking and love story, the story is my life, so I look up at the sky but that isn't working so I put my hood on and hide, wait for the train, and now everyone's in a hurry because the fucking train people shuved us in only 2 trollies, so head down I face till the train pulls up, and off I go to my next stop,

I get to the next town, and walk to wait, for another hour, well atleast I'm not late, I stand by and listen to a boy before me, drumming out his heart I could feel it through my body a little boy only 10 drumming banging on heads singing out loud man that kids gonna break legs

Soon it was my time 4 o'clock I go in to my drummer lesson here we go,

But something pretty special I've realised today, that I've learnt intirly

I learnt while finally doing something I truly like,

But the issue is something I don't like, something that I'm glad to see,

just figuring out how to break down my walls that I've created to protect and survive the negativity

I'm in freeze fight mode and afraid to try,

Try and fail, but I know thats how you learn right

It's just everytime I did something it was always wrong

In the eyes of others, it's all they see in the song

Walls I've built to show I'm alright

Not truly doing what I love and desire not holding on tight

I'm learning to break them down, it's just I don't want to share my love with them anytime,

Anytime I win anytime I soar flying through the sky doing it all

I try to do my best and that's all I doo

I love many things but I just wanna do my best in all I doo

I like to fail because it helps me learn, but the people that taught me was not the right burn,

It was burn like fire, ripping at my soul melting away my inside not caring if I was hurt

So I liked the loneliness or people that love me because fuck I don't like the negativity,

I'm scared so i try, because I want to break free,

From this nightmare inside of me

So drumming I'm trying to see where my limits are, to push past those walls, smashing down the negative calls

I get into the zone trying on my own,

Until it's time to go home

Nana comes, it starts again

This world of hell raises and begins,

Shut up me full of worry,

Just wanting food cause I'm hungry

So dinner we go butterchicken on, date night with Nan I love her man she's on,

Back home I go

To a handsome man, that has no idea what I see,

Everytime I walk in the door my heart melts seeing his eyes breathing in his smell, home comes rushing in we go

Seeing my beautiful man at home,

I come in kiss kiss I go I love this man there's no place like home

I sit there to see how he is, before I begin to chop for my bong that's about to hit me into another reality shift,

Hitting me into saying shit that always seems to be wrong,

My love start to act funny I ask him whats wrong but instead jhe shoves me off, saying can you go upstairs and there I sit wondering what the fuck I even said, what did I do to make you go numb, now I felt something was definitely going on, so then I pack my shit to go, looking up one last time saying I love you so,

I go upstairs wondering what the fuck, did I do to make things go dark, so I message to ask what's wrong but he says go have funn with your sexy drummer bum

This egg of a man really misunderstood what I said so I said what's up, but he seems to not care what I was saying was going straight into the air,

So I wait for him

I love him and now I'm back looking at him

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elizevault · 1 year

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a letter to the me who is afraid to fall in love.

it was never been easy.

to love? it was the scariest thing for me. i have been reading so many novels, even fanfics of my favorite ship. it showed different themes and different plots. it gave me the taste of how love is intoxicating and how drastic is when you've been hit with its effects.

afraid - a plain feeling that everyone hates. however, isn't it contradictory how love radiates positivity while the latter does not. being afraid is in between the lines of yin yang. yin as it covers you shady making you feel gloomy and in fear to what is meant to be. yang as it shines you hope and feel the warmth of the sun as you are driven to conquer your fear.

as i have red different stories of love and its testimonies. i was afraid to feel it. i was afraid to feel how tender love is and how painful once you've been scarred. cliché people says "when you love, you expect pain" but how about those people who wants to love and is afraid of the pain? is it possible to love without pain? is it?

i have read this one story, where the one character loses the feeling of love to their partner. the reason? he was consumed by the feeling of being not enough to the relationship. he was not insecure rather he was too secluded in his bubble. his partner wants him to step out. he wants but he doesn't feel the neediness of it to the point that the fire burning on his heart was slowly fading. they broke up, opened their time capsule as closure and bid their last "i love you" and "good bye"

that. that is the feeling that i don't want to feel. it makes me feel afraid. i have so much love to give but i fee so unsure about its concept. i feel so afraid that one day what if he fell out of love? what if i did? can i bear the pain of losing someone who knows half of my life, experiencing with me my firsts, and being with me through my highs and lows. how can i retrieve myself back?

i want to love, but the pain? it makes me feel that i am not ready. it makes me feel sad how I, so much love to give but is so afraid of giving and receiving love. im not used to the pain. i was treated by all as a princess, even myself. but i don't want to feel pain?

i hope soon this will fade. this will be gone. i hope someone will enter to my life with no hesitations, eases and makes the pain bearable. he will come to me in maybe the strangest way or maybe the most cliché. he will ease my fears and he will be with me in mountains we cannot reach.

but first, i will choose myself. i will build myself the best way that he deserves. he will claim me complete and all unresolved puzzles will be in place. he does not deserve a person who i am today. i will build myself for me and not for everyone else. partially for him, but its for me. i may be building strong walls but i hope someone will try to climb that wall and understand the way that i am and how i perceived to be.

this ain't the most descriptive and most imaginative piece that i've made but this hits my heart. i want to express this as i am building myself a wall again.

one day, i will not be afraid of love. one day.

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virunathestarbaby · 2 years

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Sorry if these were asked before.

👪🍁📸✏️📏📎 for Otoha :)

OOHH MANY💕

LETTUCE STAART >:3

👪 FAMILY - what is their family like? what is your ocs relationship to them? does your oc have any siblings?

>>Otoha doesn't really have a biological family. At least she doesn't consider them to be her family anymore since they often abused her and neglected her. Heck, they didn't even give her a proper name and just called her whatever.

She does however, consider A, B, Watari, L, Mello, Near, Matt, and Nini to be her family though along with the other children at Wammy's as time went by.

Luckily and fortunately, she now has a family she could call her own with Matsuda and they have 4 energetic children (minus their youngest, Aito— he's as energetic as L)

🍁 MAPLE LEAF - what is their favourite season? why?

>> I don't think Otoha has a favorite season, but if she were to choose a hated season, she absolutely despises summers in Japan especially with all the cicadas and beetles and all sorts of bugs that are available during the season.

📸 CAMERA - do they enjoy having their picture taken? what's their go-to pose? do they like taking photos? what do they take photos of?

>> OH YES, Otoha loves getting her picture taken. She loves doing all sorts of poses, but she usually poses suggestively, or in a sort of sexy way especially if she's in a sexy outfit. Mirror selfies is what she loves most.

She also likes taking photos but unlike her selfies and photos of herself, she likes taking "in-the-moment" photos, aka candid photos and stolen photos. L is stacking sugar cubes? Photo taken! Matsuda sleeping on the couch? Photo taken! Nicole getting lost in her writing? Photo taken!

✏️ PENCIL - is there a particular quote / lyric that you associate with them?

>> I got multiple!!

"I know, I've heard that to let your feelings go, Is the only way to make friendships grow. But I'm too afraid now. " - Sia, unstoppable.

"Not your Barbie girl, I'm livin' in my own world. I ain't plastic, call me classic. You can't touch me there, you can't touch my body. Unless I say so, ain't your Barbie, no. " Not your Barbie girl, Ava Max.

"Who am I supposed to be? When will they be proud of me? It's getting harder to see. " Worthless, Eli.

"My family always said I was the bad child. Throwing me away into the bad pile. " Tones and I, Bad Child.

"Cause I feel like I'm the worst so I always act like I'm the best. " Oh no, Marina and the Diamonds.

I have more but like, I'll just keep this short hshs.

📏 RULER - is your oc well educated? where did they get their learning from?

>> Let me be honest, Otoha isn't the sharpest tool im any shed or toolbox, nuh-uh. She's educated but she's not that smart. She struggles with academics and finds it really hard to focus whenever she took classes at Wammy's, and since she often daydreams and her focus is elsewhere, she often gets punished by the teachers. While she always fails her classes, she's still got brains enough to function as a normal human being. She knows basic math and science, language studies is one of the few she excels at along with information technology where she sharpened her skills in hacking and programming. She's really bad at writing essays, explaining, complicated math equations and science.

She honestly didn't know where her programming and hacking skills came from but it was a natural talent of hers and the reason she got to stay at Wammy's. Hadn't she shown signs of her skills in this field she would have bean sent off to be adopted.

📎 PAPERCLIP - a random fact.

>> can I give multiple? HSHHS

- Otoha likes ramen. It is the only thing she can cook without burning it or the kitchen.

- Despite always rocking her heels, flawlessly walking and running while wearing high heels, whenever she's wearing flat shoes or just barefoot, she trips. Hard.

- She gets lost easily. Not just because she doesn't have a sense of direction and bad memory, but she also gets distracted with a lot of stuff and she often ends up straying away from her original path.

#ask game #this was very fun #ask more👀#HSHDJSJ

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