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i need to stop being so fucking bitter and envious
#i hate this feeling so much#but also it's my fault so#i should probably stop complaining and whining#i also need to shut the fuck up#personal
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was rewatching fabian’s baron moment on account of it being the most delicious piece of pvp in my recent memory and ally beardsley’s growth as a player just shone through so brightly and with such clarity. after dusting off their shock they immediately asked about the nemesis ward, had enough knowledge about fellow pcs stocked to remember adaine’s ac with such like frustrated confidence and certainty, suggested to siobhan to dimension door out of adaine’s room, like. they came into this making a character with 4 dex. and now the dice deity offered to roll a check to sense if adaine was in danger. making decisions, asking questions, getting invested in the story, trying so hard with the tools they have to save characters from danger; ally beardsley is an incredible d&d player.
#blahblah tried to fly with a ribbon dancer SHUT UP. SHUT UP THEY HAD A VISION.#margaret encino’s call to the guards in battle of the brands is also a good moment#‘bonus action pick up a turtle and kiss it’ is CHARMING and FUNNY and APPRECIATES the art team#i swearrr to god if anyone comments abt them trying to railroad other players' actions. what the fuck do you want from them.#u hate when they play kristen as unserious when she’s literally a teenager with adhd + when theyre literally a comedian on a d&d comedy sho#but if theyre invested in other pc’s welfare youll shut them down too? bffr#ally beardsley you are so special to me#fully aware theyre an adult who likely does not care about people on the internet talking abt how theyre doing their job. as they should#they dont need defending they shouldnt need it people should just be normal abt them and until they are beardsley get behind me#yna.txt#fantasy high junior year spoilers#fhjy spoilers#fantasy high junior year#fhjy#dimension 20#d20#ally beardsley
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AURGH auwarghh the autistic parental trauma... the epi was wacky hijinks then dropped this on us out of nowhere... (sobs) laios... laiiiiooooos
#he just like me fr#dungeon meshi#laios touden#actuallyautistic#aphelion.txt#dunmeshi#laios#autism things#im definitely chewing on that marcille lore/angst too but the laios nightmare sequence hit close to home!!#dont think falin had a great relationship with their parents either#i mean aside from being willing to abandon her in the dream. idk if that's 100% accurate to how they acted.#it didnt seem like her affinity for ghosts was gonna go down real good in that flashback#also i need to write that post abt how falin has girl autism (dont ask me what that means unless you want to enter an unskippable cutscene)#actually its pretty easy to hit most dunmeshi chars w the hammer of autism laios is just the most obvious#senshi hyperfixating and having meltdowns (Waterwalk Incident.) and low empathy for people until he's gotten Attached#i need to go find that post someone made about chilchuck being the token allistic it was so fucking funny#i have like 3 more dunmeshi autism metas in my mental queue apparently. please make me shut up
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The love triangle WORKS because:
Patrick has Art as soulmates do, seeing and understanding each other in a way no one else can. In silent stares and sly smirks and shared beds and a complete mastery one the other’s psyche.
Patrick loves Tashi in the way being full only comes after hunger. Oil fueling fire, burning bright before burning everything around them. Feeling love for the first time and never knowing when its too much or not enough.
Art needs Patrick in the same way you have a side of the bed you always sleep on, a brand of detergent you always buy. Stability in the unpredictable, how Patrick knows when to push and when to pull. How he has the spare key to the lock box where Art hides his desires.
Art loves Tashi like a dog needs a master. Freedom in being directed and told, the security you get from being a devoted follower to a higher being.
(And once Tashi is dragged into their orbit like a stray asteroid taken off its course)
Tashi loves Art in the same way you hate all your wasted potential. An alternative future, a time machine that could take you to where your body has not betrayed you. In him and through him she’s given every path: as a wife, a mother, a coach, a puppet master but never a player.
Tashi wants Patrick in the way smokers ignores labels on cigarette boxes. The beauty of self-destruction and passion she’s lost. Constantly chasing a high that hurts so good you’d risk everything to have it again.
Tashi hates and loves them both in equal measure. Resenting them for taking the one thing she loved away from her and forcing her to live her own dreams through two diverging paths. Loving them enough to push them back together where they belong.
And yeah, because the third in their love triangle was always tennis🙄
#it is and it isn’t about tennis#i am so fucking gone for this movie#i will literally never shut up about this#EVERYONE NEEDS TO SEE IT !!#also pls be nice these are just my thoughts and if you disagree..too bad#challengers#art donaldson#patrick zweig#tashi duncan
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Bruce's love language is handing you his kids. Yes, even the 6'5 anti hero with anger issues. Lift with your back
Bruce: Isn't he precious
Martinez, struggling to hold this human tank: y..yeah ....
#also??? fuck out of here dick wouldn't fight for the spot#damian when he first arrived: now father. i understand my position as the new succesor of your legacy. after meeting the others god knows#im needed.#bruce: stares. picks damian up. big fat smooch on chubby cheeks#damian a touch starved little assasin: ...ah.#baba.#bruce wayne#jason todd#dc#dc comics#regarding first tag: they absolutely fight for the spot and bruce is sad LMAO#bruce: :( we can all cuddle :(#jason: id rather be 15 again#dick: yeah no id rather kiss lex luthor. kill one of us or shut up
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the jaidens on the can you hear it mini-event and we all know ab their chat shenanigans
but like. how about this one. (after the dungeon crawl, when they're at the ordo discussing theories)
they're so silly.... their friendship means so much to me
#the jaidens#qsmp#ramblings#qsmp jaiden#qsmp badboyhalo#qsmp cellbit#qsmp foolish#i am incredibly emotionally attached to the sheer potential of this group and their combined goofiness and their dynamics and-#yes i have issues shut up#fun fact! im also actively avoiding anything and everything chess related on the server (eg when they play chess games)#this is beacuse i know i will scream about it#is it because of the play styles and thus analysis or because of rage? well. depends#(poor portrayal of chess in media is this user's most prominent pet peeve)#but back to the jaidens i love them so fucking much there needs to be more about them as a group im sobbBIing#sun qsmp posting
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you ever just have a lot, a LOT of feelings all at once about a character and not even remotely enough words or brainpower to FORM the words to describe everything you're feeling. so it feels like you may explode. yeah
#sorry i got really into my feelings about mark hoffman again#the very specific version of him in my brain that i really really wish i had the time and energy to properly share with you guys#saw#well until i muster the energy to explode all of my feelings out into a fic. if you want to TRY and understand#know that my three biggest hoffman fic insps right now are as follows#your best kept secret hoffman. a series of mistakes hoffman. and rushed like a dreadful wind hoffman.#there is a very clear throughline just know i am extremely emotionally compromised rn#thinking about theee fics vs the canon path hoffman spirals down#something something the absolute tragedy of watching a man's descent into madness#the transformation of a man into a monster#and what could have saved him from himself and kramer's corruption#sorry i'm rambling so much oh my god i was just having such a crying fit out of nowhere about this#do you think he could feel it happening. do you think he was aware he was losing his mind.#the script version of him fucks with me so bad. the crazed rankings and the longer hair and him not being well kept anymore#it's impossible to think he didn't know he was deteriorating#fuuuck okay i need to either chill or write a whole longfic rn#i project on that guy so much i truly don't know if i could properly write my vision of him#until i do something more substantial the full extent of my hoffman exists for me and my boyfriend only. they get me like no one else#well ginny and jenna also get me. please read best kept secret and a series of mistakes Oh My God#where am i going with this. i like tag rambling actually this is a nice way to do it without forcing EVERYONE to read my delirium#anyways if you've read all of this i think i love you? feel free to dm me about hoffman and my very specific headcanons and aus#maybe soon i'll try and start writing my fics about this tragic man#i could never say any of this on twitter btw they'd string me up for my opinions on him as a sad wet beast who could have been fixed#if only he hadn't been weaponized first#god i'm too tired to even be as embarrassed about this as i should be. thought i unlearned cringe already#but i've been spending way too much time on twitter and they HAAATE hoffman there#rip. i know it's not that serious but i'm sensitive rn and hate feeling lonely in my thoughts#ok bye for real otherwise i'll never shut up. i might tag ramble more often bc this was therapeutic in a way i needed badly#cat chat
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ok among my favorite parts of qsmp is the fact that charlie slimecicle can only hold the act of being mad at mariana when mariana isn't in the room. like he successfully rp'd being mad at his deadbeat puta esposa for months while mariana wasn't logging on, like he complained about mariana at the wedding, during the election, in subsequent appearances, and then he's messaging mariana in the chat during purgatory and he's still holding it
and then they're both at spawn like as close to face to face as they get. and bro CANNOT hold the act it drops so fast lmfao he was like "yea cellbit i'm gonna kill mariana" and instead they have a genuinely heartfelt conversation and then rp sexo in the fountain
and i know i'm brainrotting purgatory rn but i'm actually thinking about this bc i saw a clip of mariana and slime talking during the awards show and literally. slime's face goes from 😡🤬 MARIANA'S HERE, SAY SOMETHING PUTA ESPOSA to 😄😁 the second mariana shows up on the screen
like he's still pretending to be mad but dude is grinning like absolute crazy and i love that
#qsmp#qsmp slimecicle#qsmp mariana#shut up vic#block game brainrot#their dynamic is among the best things to have come out of this#and genuinely it was the thing that got me into qsmp in the first place#((even tho i only dove in for real after flippa was gone LMFAO))#also shoutout to cellbit losing his shit when slime says me-WH*RE?#oh and for absolute clarity that ain't my tiktok lmao#probably obvious but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ it's 3:30 am i like to be Certain#i missed this live because LITERALLY I WAS WALKING IN THE DOOR FROM A SHOPPING TRIP EXACTLY AS IT HAPPENED#i am being so serious like i looked over my sibling's shoulder like 'so how are awards?' and there's FUCKING MARIANA#AND THE FUNNIEST PART IS THIS HAPPENED DURING THEIR PURGATORY INTERACTION TOO#I WALKED IN FROM BEING OUT RIGHT AS FUCKING SLIME AND MARIANA WERE GOING TO SPAWN TO MEET#SO I CAUGHT PART OF IT BUT NOT ALL OF IT#basically what i'm taking from this is i need to go out more often bc they have a tendency to exist together when i touch grass for reasons#that are not 'going to my job'#long tags#i'm not at the mariana convo in my rewatch yet so i may or may not have more to say when i hit that#but yea was thinking about it#this is the qsmp at its finest >:D its most base form#sillies being sillies together who might never have met otherwise >:D
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what is the theory that ivan manipulated the event where till and mizi met the wagyein?
It's not a theory, actually! It's confirmed that Ivan orchestrated the whole event. The true reason as to why however is still unknown. The information provides more context to this scene, though:
During the earlier times of ALNST the most rational explanation for this scene was that Till ran after a flower crown (presumably Mizi's) and Ivan followed him in out of curiosity. Now we know that Ivan was conveniently just standing there because he was waiting.
Side note, I find it heartbreaking (and maybe a little funny, sorry) that Till most likely didn't notice Ivan in this scene. That's just like him, isn't it. Always too busy running after Mizi while Ivan trails behind, an ever-present shadow.
I'm not sure how Ivan manipulated the circumstances for both of them to end up there, but it is confirmed that everything was intentional. What strikes me most is how they describe this particular scene:
I can't copy down what they said word-for-word (Patreon info), but they described Ivan watching "creepily" as Till and Mizi are faced with danger. We know that Ivan was familiar with the Cerberus wagyein beforehand, enough to touch its teeth and even to rest himself inside its maw. To Ivan, the wagyein is not dangerous, but to Till and Mizi, it could be. Ivan prepared the wagyein, led them there, and watched "creepily" from afar as Till fell on his knees, seemingly injured.
The closest I can get to making sense of Ivan's "scheme" is that he wanted to see how other children would react in a dangerous situation. Ivan's always been an observer, after all, and he's learned to survive by copying the more "normal" behaviors of his peers. This situation occured when Ivan was still young and had not yet developed his more charming mask, so perhaps he staged this encounter to study a situational response, to learn and mimic the emotion of fear. And what better subjects for the experiment than two of the most expressive and reactive humans of their batch? It helps that he was already fixated on Till beforehand, too. I think Ivan became irreversibly obssessed after this incident, especially since it's framed as a turning point in Ivan's life, comparing Till to the stars.
This is just my attempt at an interpretation, though. It could very well be for another reason. He most likely chose Till and Mizi specifically for personal reasons, not just for reaction. I'm still not sure on the purpose behind the whole thing.
The team wanted to capture Ivan's "dark emotions" through the shot of his stalking, which could relate to his more sinister intentions. His gaze can be read in a few different ways, though. Curiosity, interest, fear, etc. Maybe that's why they decided to redraw the shot in ROUND 6.
I think this better sells the feeling they were trying to convey.
#ivan u fucked up little guy.#also okay i just wanna clear this up#i know i make a lot of posts about ivans darker side and his more problematic traits#but this isn't me trying to villainize him or reduce him down to “toxic yaoi”#I HOPE YOU GUYS KNOW ALL MY TOXIC YAOI POSTS ARE LIGHTHEARTED.#i just want to clarify that ivan was always intended to be a darker and complicated character. even since his debut in round 3#the way i refer to ivan (“twisted” “creepy” “obssessive” etc) are literally the direct words used by q and v themselves to describe him#but despite that id like to emphasize that i don't see ivan as a villain or a completely bad person. hes complicated#there is no normalcy in this world they are living in. none of the characters know what being truly normal is#this isn't me condoning his actions#but it has to be acknowledged that alnst is fucked up in nature. we can't expect perfect relationships from people who are born to die#plus ivan has a lot more layers past the “dark” parts. he's constantly battling himself and his desires#especially at the end of round 6 where he performs a myriad of conflicting actions (kiss strangle peck smile)#thanks to the r6 production notes we now know that ivan was going through a rapid internal conflict#“sure and unsure at the same time”#there is sooo much to ivan. his low self-esteem. his desire and possessiveness despite knowing till will never love him#his VEHEMENT insistence that till will never love him vs his desperate persistence in trying anyway#uh i need to shut up i think#anyways sorry. just wanted to clarify my thoughts on him in case people think im. yk.#in short. hes a fucked up little freak and he fascinates me. this poor tragic child. i love him.#SORRY I GOT CARRIED AWAY#alnst#alien stage#alien stage ivan#alnst ivan#asks
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......look i had to. it just fits.
no wings version:
tumblr & twitter design sketches (and template thing) under cut.
designs r inspired by @zzoupz, @vincepti0n and @deathbars also i blame @zapsoda for dragging me down the rabbit hole.
#twitblr#twitter♠️tumblr#yeah im a homestuck shut up#also i need to get crabs or some shit onto tumblrs outfit i only have the double checkmark the transmasc swag needs more bullshit.#anyway what the fuck else do i tag??#art#ok yeah thats enough tags#twitblr ruined me#yahoo forgive me for stucking the socials
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good night to everyone, except:
people who deem it necessary to open their mouth and criticise fanfics by sharing their entitled, ill-conceived and (quite frankly) useless opinions that no one asked for.
people who enjoy pineapple on pizza.
#yes this is targeted at that one tik tok#but yes it’s also a much wider problem than that#and happens far too fucking often#marauders tik tok makes me want to throw up violently sometimes#like#y’all just need to shut your mouth#swallow your tongue#TRY USING A FUCKING BRAIN CELL AND AN OUNCE OF COMPASSION#and be thankful fandom creators do this shit for free#enjoy the BEAUTIFUL FEAST THAT THESE PEOPLE GIVE US#WITHOUT BEING A DICK ABOUT IT#I don’t think it’s that hard#but what would I know ig 🙄#also pineapple on pizza is a crime I will never forgive#marauders#marauders fandom#nathara is active? what.
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He died
#mp100#mob psycho 100#reigen arataka#arataka reigen#ghost trick#id in alt text#artists on tumblr#unrelated to this drawing (or kind of) but ive been thinking up a ghost trick au for mp100 lol#i havent figured out everything but ritsu is in lynne’s role bc i think the ritsu + reigen dynamic would be funny in this scenario#reigen: *smiling smugly at ritsu’s fifth death* // ritsu knowing that he needs reigen’s help to prevent his death: shut the fuck up#oh yeah ritsu as lynne also bc i put mob for jowd’s role where everyone believes he did smth but ritsu doesnt believe he did it#but mob believed he deserves to be jailed even if he didnt do it
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needed to share the photos i’ve been digging up, slay off the charts
#succession#sorry im manic posting the last half week i'll shut up now#im falling hard#i need to give old guard appreciation and i will soon#i guess ill tag it#young guard#lol#frank being a sleeper hit#also david rasche looking back is so dad coded fuck
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dyed my hair blue again
#by dyed i mean my roommate dyed it in our kitchen while we were blasting 2000s pop god bless#i did rinse it out myself though! that was an ordeal#if you ever think of me as someone dignified and cool: don't. i was on all fours with my head under the bathtub faucet for 20 minutes#bc i forgot that the shower nozzle detaches and can turn into a sprayer............. also cleaned the bathroom floor while i was at it...#i consider myself someone who has blue hair often but the last time i dyed it was like. july?? fucked up how time passes#i don't think this needs to be said but i have pronouns regardless of if my hair is blue. could you imagine how funny that would be though#with how i dress i don't think i need to blue hair for ppl to guess i have something going on#no i won't shut up
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If you die, I'll kill you | Next
#ts4#indya#black simblr#omg....#just gonna put it out there now that I don't like this#no fucking comment#ts4 story#sims 4 story#simblr#ch22#DAMN IT#also Darren needs to shut up and listen#that's all I got
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"Please speak english" That's very noice.
#he's a doll#and this was funny.#but also if you comment this shit on an idols live I need you learn some manners and shut the fuck up#wait til a kind fan subber posts on youtube if you wanna know whats being siad good fuckin god#hwang hyunjin#🐭
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