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featherlouise · 1 year

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So what happens after Hollow attacks their father? How do their parents deal with it? How are they treated afterwards?

Also, is the whole vessel plan discarded? What does PK do about Radiance? Also, how would other people who were involved or knew about the plan (like the dreamers or five great knights) react to this turn of events?

Sorry for all the questions djdbfn I love your AU 🥺👉👈

Pls don't apologize for asking questions !!!

I love gushing about my characters/ AUs lmao

Okok so I'm gonna try my best to answer all ur qs

(also u are under no obligation to read all of this, it turned out a lot longer than I expected :D)

1. Basically, after the attack (I'm assuming u mean after Hollow stabs themself but if not I'd be happy to talk about the actual confrontation lol) there's a lot of panic regarding whether Hollow's going to survive or not, so there's not really any time to properly process the whole "holy fuck the thing I thought was a bastardisation of the corpse of my child is actually just my child," so it's only after Hollow's been stabilised that I can imagine PK and WL sitting down and coming to terms with it.

The infection REALLY does a number on u, both mind and body, so Hollow's basically just snoozing in some sort of (dreamless) healing coma while their parents have a breakdown at their bedside. I imagine PK and WL's relationship to have been pretty strained since the vessel plan was enacted, like they still love each other but they can't really seem to agree on anything anymore.

Ditching the vessel plan is the first thing they've wholly agreed on in 17 years.

2. So! Immediately after they wake up, I think there'd be a lot of overcompensation on WL's part. She was never a mother to Hollow and she feels IMMENSELY guilty about that fact, so she'd probably start trying to be super motherly to them, giving them food, being affectionate, trying to start conversations, etc, which freaks Hollow tf out bc it's a COMPLETE 180 to how she interacted with them before. Before the reveal, she was super detached, kind of like she is towards Ghost in the game, mostly in an attempt to remove herself from the entire situation?? Like if she doesn't acknowledge them she can't get lost in her grief?? Cuz I imagine she genuinely believed that the void had sucked out her child's soul and was piloting around their corpse (or something of the like) and then there's the GUILT of the whole situation, KNOWING that you had a part to play in the death of so many of your children, that you were complicit to something so cruel?? I don't think she'd be able to truly face it, so she basically just let herself ignore them. And the most she ever really saw of them was when they were sent to guard her gardens and Hornet dragged them from their post.

So. Now she's seizing the opportunity to finally get to know her child, but she's also not really taking their feelings into account on top of ignoring the very real trauma that Hollow has from being treated like a glorified roomba their entire life. Her main coping strategy seems to be to just. Ignore her problems lmao (she like me fr fr)

3. SO. Pk. Whooo boy.

At this point, I don't think he'd realise that Hollow was never hollow, bc then he'd have to face the possibility that none of the vessels were hollow, and if that's the case, how many of his children has he killed?? He knows a fair few of the vessels were stillborn, but how many hatched and died at the bottom of the abyss, cold and alone and scared??

(Yes the vessels hatched, yes this is a gijinka au where most people are born like humans. Higher beings are weird and also non human, moving on)

So PK at this point believes that at some point while growing up, Hollow had an idea instilled and,, gained consciousness?? Ig?? And he likely blames himself bc of course he does.

With PK there's a lot of guilt there, which I think would mostly lead to complete avoidance, bc "surely my child doesn't want to see me after how I've treated them, I'd better give them space,"

Meanwhile Hollow is wondering whether their fears truly have come true and their father does hate them for not being pure.

Just. A lot of miscommunication.

When they finally talk it out, there WILL be tears.

4. The Dreamers!!

With Herrah, I think she'd be a pretty big support for Hollow during their recovery. I don't think Herrah was ever truly convinced that Hollow was pure?? Like she witnessed a lot of small moments between them and her daughter while they thought nobody was looking, along with subtle mannerisms that just. Wouldn't be there if they were pure.

Like, Hornet once roped them into playing hide and seek with her, and as smart as her baby is, the Pure Vessel, were they completely hollow, would only be able to act when given orders, and there's no way a 5 year old managed to give complex enough orders for them to be able to follow. She probably just yelled at them to play with her and they did lmao (bc they can't say no to their bby sister duh)

Herrah was also on the outside, so there was no reason for her to go into denial or detach herself the way Hollow's parents did, so she'd be much more likely to notice them shifting on their feet, their ear flicking when they tune into a nearby conversation, the way they'd lean into any and all contact with other people, how reluctant they are to let Hornet down when she no longer wants to be carried by them, etc etc.

Herrah may be titled the Beast, but she's not stupid. However, at this point, she's seen them spar with the Knights, she knows that they would be able to escape unnoticed if they wanted to, they're definitely skilled enough. So that means that if they end up being sealed inside the temple, it's their decision, and she respects them for that.

She also notices how reverently they treat their little sister, so if nothing else, they can bond over their mutual adoration of her.

Herrah's a pretty abrasive woman, loud and unapologetic, so I figure she'd be a nice change to the coddling of their mother, and Herrah ends up promising them a place in deepnest if they ever feel the need to escape the palace.

Herrah's the only dreamer I've really thought about?? And since she was there when the incident happened, she's very present for pretty much the entirety of Hollow's recovery. The other 2 don't really come into it till later, so for now let's just say they're all probably pretty relieved that they don't have to sacrifice themselves anymore lmao.

5. The 5 Great Knights!!

I don't have anything super specific about these guys yet? But I imagine they'd be friendly to Hollow. Hollow looks up to them all quite a lot and they were probably the closest things they had to friends growing up?? But honestly not much really changed there except they start trying to bring them into conversations, and they're always willing to spar if Hollow ever wants to.

6. Finally, RADIANCE!!

So I imagine that after Hollow has stabilised, PK will immediately start trying to distract himself by basically preparing for war. If it wasn't personal before, it definitely is now. The Radiance discovered his child's sentience before anyone else and what's the first thing she does?? Turn them into a weapon to be used against him (slightly hypocritical of u there my guy)

There's probably a lot of feelingsy bullshit that everyone (ESPECIALLY the royal family) needs to work thru before any action can really be made against Radi, so for the most part she's just simmering in the background. Her who was probably bruised when Hollow managed to wrestle control away from her so she's probably licking her wounds in the dream realm, but after a few months, infection rates start to REALLY spike again, because she is PISSED.

I could make PK and Radi duke it out but I kinda wanna lean into Hollow’s empathy?? Like they’re hyper empathetic and I feel like after having Radi in their head for a while they’d come to understand her anger?? Like they still want her gone but they understand that she has every reason to be pissed at PK, at least from her pov. (I’ll get into Hollow’s feelings regarding Radi in a later post bc this is getting ridiculously long now lmao)

So maybe eventually they can come to an agreement with Radi?? I’m not sure on the details but I don’t think I wanna just kill her off.

WOW this was really long, sry if it’s super rambly I’m basically just word vomiting into my notes app lol

And if you’ve read this far, ty!! Glad u love my blorbos as much as I do （＾ν＾）

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petri808 · 3 years

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— I just wanna say thank you so much to everyone who followed along, your comments and suggestions along the way really helped to bring this story to life! It’s my longest fic to date, and to think it started as a one-shot for nalu day 2020 lol. YOU GUYS HELPED MAKE THIS HAPPEN! 🥳🥰🥰 ILY YOU ALL!💜💜💜💜

@mcornilliac special shout out for you help with the toughest part 😘

Even after all these years, riding on a train still brought a small flutter to Lucy’s stomach as she remembered the long ago evening when she’d met her husband. From an innocent meeting to a death defying experience, talk about a roller coaster ride. And yet, if she had to do it all over again, Lucy wouldn’t change a thing. Crazy sounding yes, for why would anyone not want to avoid what she’d gone through? Touka had truly pushed her sanity to the breaking point, but well, the therapist was right in the end and Lucy felt almost invincible now. All that pain, all the struggle she’d pushed through had made her the strong and resilient woman she was today. Happily married to Natsu with their fraternal twins Nashi and Ryuu. Mrs. Natsu Dragneel, Lucy smiled to herself, there was no way she’d change a thing.

Of course, it hadn’t been easy. After Natsu proposed and Lucy had accepted, there were still a lot of work to be done. But that measure of acceptance and affection did wonders. Any worries she’d had that he wouldn’t want a broken woman melted away and gave her the confidence to get better. With each passing therapy session, her strength grew, and by the time they graduated college, Lucy could honestly say she’d been cured to a functional degree. No longer struggling through nightmares and panic attacks, her anxieties were under control and the debilitating depression a distant memory where it belonged.

Yeah... Lucy sighed happily as she watched the landscape pass by from her train seat. Meeting Natsu was the best thing to ever happen in her life, well, aside from the kids. They’d married about a year after graduation on the anniversary of their meeting. It was a beautiful affair at an indoor venue, with close friends and family to join them. They’d gone a more modern route for the ceremony but did take pictures at a garden dressed in the traditional attire for sentimental reasons. Lucy wore the shiromuku white kimono while Natsu a montsuki haori hakama. And no, it wasn’t train themed! Levy was the Maid of Honor and Gray was the best man. By then, Levy and Gajeel were also married and Gray in a serious relationship with a girl named Juvia Lockser. Lucy was so happy for them both. All of their lives were moving in the right direction.

Everything was perfect. Great jobs in their fields of interest, lives settled into a comfortable routine, when 5 years later Lucy was pregnant with fraternal twins. It was a total surprise since twins didn’t run in either of their families. Always the jovial optimist, Natsu joked that they’d been doubly blessed because of what they’d gone through, and Lucy couldn’t help but love such a concept. Of course, once the euphoria of the motherhood prospect waned, reality set in that she was having twins! Two! Double the babies meant double of everything, from the pregnancy concerns to raising them. Growing up without a mother and as an only child, Lucy didn’t have a lot of experience with small children. But Natsu patiently assured her, that she’d do just fine. Think of it as a new challenge, and after overcoming one pretty tough situation, this would be a walk in the park. On the bright side, Levy was also pregnant with the couple’s first child so the two best friend’s kids would grow up together.

And Natsu was right, there were a few bumps in the road but nothing too difficult. During her fourth month Lucy was diagnosed with gestational diabetes as well as some minor gastrointestinal issues, so Natsu swayed the doctor to put her on bed rest. Better safe than sorry. The babies were healthy, but by the 7th month, she really couldn’t move much, and she was miserable being stuck at home all the time. Lucy missed her job because she genuinely enjoyed working for the magazine. But in the end, it had been a good thing. She could manage her health easier that way and it gave her time to do something she’d thought about doing as part of the healing process. With Natsu’s support and permission, it was time to put her writing skills to good use and write a book about their experience.

It became an instant hit, especially with female readers. The book was not only an autobiographical reflection of what had happened to them but focused on shining a light on the dangers of stalkers, as well as the importance of taking the warning signs seriously. Lucy didn’t hold back in her re-telling, even pointing out the serious flaws in Japan’s laws in protecting citizens from stalkers which at the time were nonexistent. Feminist organizations working to change those laws used her story with permission for their cause. She had no intentions of becoming a poster child for the movement, but in the end her role may have played its part, because 2 years after the publishing, Japan finally adopted anti-stalking laws making it easier for police to string together harassment cases, as well as for victims to get the help they needed.

Her life was nothing but exciting to say the least! And with two young children, now age 10 certainly kept them on their toes. Their daughter Nashi was just like Natsu, very outgoing, friendly, but a bit of a daredevil while her brother Ryuu born 4 minutes after her was the quieter of the two. He preferred books like his mother to adventure. Of course, that never stopped Nashi from dragging him into shenanigans! But the best part was how close they still were and fiercely protective of each other. Lucy and Natsu couldn’t be prouder of them and hoped this would continue throughout their lifetimes.

Fifteen years... come to think of it, their wedding anniversary was coming up shortly. With Natsu now a senior fire inspector for the Tokyo prefectural government, he was often busy. Lucy did mind it, because frankly it gave her some peace and quiet. She chuckled at the thought. Not that it was all that peaceful with the twins. But she digressed. His success meant their lives were very comfortable, and her own journalism successes while not as financially based, were still celebrated in their relationship. Natsu never waned in being the dutiful and supportive, always loving husband that Lucy felt blessed to grow old with.

‘Two more stops, pick up the kids from school, stop at the grocery store for dinner...’ Lucy tapped out on her phone a to-do list of ingredients to pick up at the store. Perhaps katsudon... ‘Mmm, or maybe nabe,’ hot-pot soup since it was expected to be a bit chilly that evening.

Lucy looked up briefly, really just spacing out in thought when someone catches her eye. At the other end of the train car, she noticed a woman facing slightly away, but enough to where she couldn’t quite see a face. It couldn’t be... Lucy looked away not wanting to stare, but somehow... for some reason the woman was awfully familiar... looking exactly like Touka. Well, not exactly, but enough to make the hair on the back of her neck stand up. It was a blonde, with a different hair style— and that could always be changed. Similar body type, the facial side-profile features that Lucy could see resembled Touka...

Now despite being better, her anxieties still bubbled up from time to time, so she immediately switched to her coping techniques to calm them down. ‘You’re fine,’ Lucy talked herself through it, ‘no point in getting riled up.’ The woman hadn’t done so much as looked in her direction, so it must be okay. Contrary to popular belief, things like depression and anxiety never fully goes away, especially when someone has experienced a severe level of it. Those emotions and irrational thoughts are forever programmed into the brain, but there are ways to keep them at bay and Lucy’s successfully done just that for 15 years.

‘Just go back to what you were doing. Katsudon or nabe? And don’t forget you need to pick up milk...’ But, fifteen years... could Touka have been released by now? Lucy shook the thought away again. ‘Stop it! Everything is fine. It’s not her!’ The train was semi-full of passengers all minding their own business... including the woman. There was no reason to start panicking now. Lucy adjusts her position on her seat away from the woman’s direction. If she couldn’t see her, she could pretend she didn’t exist. ‘Maybe I should pick up ingredients for both, that way I don’t have to shop tomorrow.’ Lucy thought to herself, and with the kids with her, they could help in carrying the shopping bags. ‘Yeah, we’ve got a plan…’

After figuring out her shopping list, Lucy pulled up social media to keep herself distracted and for a few minutes it did the trick. Silly videos of entertainers never got old. The train reached the next stop and she felt it come to a stop. Since it wasn’t hers, she didn’t pay it any mind as she scrolled through her feed. But as the disembarking passengers funnel past Lucy, her eyes pick up on a pair of pink high-heels peeking from over the edge of her phone. Her body instantly stiffened up from the similarity to the ones worn by the woman, while her curiosity slowly got the better of her. ‘Breath, act nonchalant!’ Lucy’s eyes tracked the high-heels moving past her until they left her periphery. She then slowly sat back up, pretending to readjust her position, when she caught a pair of eyes looking back. Lucy’s breathing hitches with a shaky exhale. “Oh, my god—"

Standing at the doorway with one hand on the frame, the blonde woman smiled at Lucy then winked before stepping off the train.

It was Touka!

#nalu #nalu au #nalu fan fiction #nalu fan fic #natsu dragneel #Lucy heartfilia #Natsu x lucy #fairy tail #strangers on a train #epilogue #petri808

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askomori · 3 years

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Since mod is offering hot takes I’d like to know what in your opinion is most likely to be the actual ending. Not by what you’ve read on the internet but judging from your own thoughts and your own experiences with these kinds of feelings. Do you genuinely believe Sunny would head out to talk to his friends? Do you think it all would be enough to get him to confront his past? Or do you think he’s more so destined to stay locked up in his bedroom and his dreamworld?

LONG POST............... KEK

>Do you genuinely believe Sunny would head out to talk to his friends?

honestly, not until sunny starts healing from everything that happened. he didn’t leave the house for 4 years even though kel never stopped trying to check in on him. even if all his friends received the truth well and didn’t hold it against him, that severe habitual isolation doesn’t go away overnight. maladapted coping mechanisms that arise from ptsd, especially ones that overtake your personality, take a tremendous amount of willpower to overcome. he would need years of working through the trauma in therapy.

he wasn’t ever a sociable kid, he was sort of awkward and uncomfortable around other people. mari was the one who helped him make friends, and you can see throughout the photo albums that he got more comfortable around them. its terrible that she had to die in that way because not only is mari not there to support him anymore, but the guilt is driving him into total isolation.

because i understand him well, i can identify that a lot of this is explained by schizoid personality disorder. (one thing this criteria list i attached below doesn’t explain well is the description “desires” nor “enjoys”. the misconception comes from, by nature of the disorder, being unresponsive to therapists, and often they may outright say they don’t want relationships because they’ve given up. it definitely presents that way though, and sunny definitely presents that way, with dropping out of school and not responding to kel’s attempts to help him.

i needed to clear this up because otherwise id get a bunch of people who don’t understand the disorder going “but he had friends when he was younger!”)

^the criteria for reference. (more on szpd if you’re interested: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/books/NBK559234/).

(authors note: i love the flat affect representation because i never see that in media) (another side note: i love the juxtaposition of sunny’s flat affect and omori’s extreme emotions. its very accurate to someone who is terrified of showing emotions due to a trauma that involved them)

>Do you think it all would be enough to get him to confront his past?

luckily, moving out of the house that mari died in will be really good for him. and moving towns will also help him learn how to go outside again, because he no longer has the extra hurdle of worrying about seeing his old friends like he did for years before he told them the truth. he has space to sort through his feelings at his own pace without the unintentional pressure sunny felt because of his friends (ahem, kel) who were just trying to help and wanted him to be happy.

after finally getting the weight off his chest about the truth, he has a good start on confronting the past. there will be ups and downs, but i believe in him.

>Or do you think he’s more so destined to stay locked up in his bedroom and his dreamworld?

in the bad ending, yes. but in the true ending he accepted and embraced omori, the part of himself he thought was irredeemable, the part of him he was in his own psychological civil war with. (jfc this visual made me cry.)

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i know this isn’t a fluffy feels good answer and it made people mad when i answered this in a fandom server haha... but its realistic. to gloss over the painful truth of this game is to flat out disrespect the themes it portrays. this game is a tragedy, its not pleasant, but that’s what its like when you go through trauma and debilitating mental illness. its not realistic to just have one conversation in the hospital and all of a sudden everyone lives happily ever after. his friends will need time to process the truth as well.

but! i believe in everyone to resolve everything that they went through. they can bond through their shared pain and understanding each others perspectives, and i know they’ll come out the other side stronger.

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EDIT: I JUST REALIZED you asked if the real world events of the game were realistic. yeah fr when he left his house and stayed out all day and then did it again thrice i was like ok he built different... i could never

but if kel was knocking on sunny’s door every day since he learned sunny was moving, then it is a possibility sunny would give it a chance and would have built up the courage after a while because “im moving in 3 days so why not”.

remember: waiting for something to happen?

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EDIT 2: so i’m playing the hikikomori route and i like af that the player gets that choice. so far, this route is accurate too. i highly recommended playing both routes.

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please do not be ableist in my askbox in response to this! i will literally crazy murder you!!!

#i need to lie down #omori #askomori #sunny #my humble little opinion #serious

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sunsteez · 4 years

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HellO!!

Wow okay so it has been 2 years (almost 3)?? I feel like Tumblr is a very different place now and 3 years a lot of time so if you’re wondering who the fuck this even is popping up on your timeline I FULLY understand SCROLL ON MY FRIEND

If you’d like to continue reading an extremely long and jumbled stream of consciousness, keep goin under the cut

I’ve been wanting to post an update like this for a while, but it’s been really hard for me to sit down and write something because of how disconnected I am at this point to the Haikyuu community, and how guilty I was feeling for just sort of..leaving abruptly? But I signed into my account recently and realized that after being inactive for years I was still getting the kindest, most warm hearted messages- not just about art, but people saying they missed me popping up on their feed, that wherever I was, they hoped I was doing well, or that I was happy, and folks just checking in and genuinely concerned and wondering if I was okay. I also realized that it was pretty uncool of me to just sort of peace out like that without an explanation, so I thought I owed you all at least that much.

*Things are about to get a little sad here (just a warning, in case you’re not feeling up for that)*

Basically, around the time I left, a very close childhood friend of mine passed away in a very tragic and unexpected accident. She was like a sister to me, someone who was always there and was always supposed to be there- we grew up together, shared so many first experiences side by side, and of course we annoyed the shit out of each other to no end. She was supposed to be there for my other firsts, but now I have to do them alone. Losing her broke me like nothing I’ve ever felt in my entire life. The pain was both terrifying and debilitating, and I had to take a break from EVERYTHING for a while. I went backpacking for a month in the woods with a couple of friends to get away, no service or anything, completely detached from everything and days of just walking, eating, sleeping, and being in nature. It was very healing. And I guess I never really came back.

This blog was a safe and happy escape for me, a place to just have some laughs and fun, and that’s what I wanted it to be for everyone else. My life on social media was always pretty separate from my real life (though y’all got a weird ol chunk of that in the tags), but this especially had no place on my account. I didn’t want to bring something so unpleasant and painful into my safe space, but that resulted me in completely abandoning this blog altogether since that loss is something I’m still learning to cope with.

I am finally feeling ready now so I’m here to say: I am okay!! I’m still picking myself back up, but I’ve come such a long way. I’ve been seeing a therapist for almost 2 years now who’s helped me deal with not only the grief of losing my friend but making sense of past traumas I’ve experienced and teaching me to learn how and why I’m feeling the things that I do. I’m still the same fucking weirdo with maybe a bit more emotional depth. I’m now a full-time freelance animator and illustrator, and currently thinking about making the jump into comics!! And you know what, I don’t think any of that would have happened had it not been for the wonderful experience I’ve had on here.

Concerning the future of this account and contents: I guess it goes without saying but Full Eyes Full Hearts is officially being discontinued- thank you for the love and support for this comic, even if it was short lived. I know how frustrating it is to become invested in a story only for it to be discontinued, so I am sorry for those of you who were so looking forward to it. But here is a big

*SPOILER ALERT*

They love each other. They always loved each other. WHAT A TWIST THAT IS HUH I BET YOU DID NOT SEE THAT ONE COMING??????

*END OF EXTREMELY HUGE SURPRISING SPOILER*

I have no current plans to return to this account, but as Justin Bieber once said, “never say never.” Who knows, maybe someday I’ll get back into haikyuu (I heard my BOYY came back in some of the latest chapters and if there is oikawa content to consume I WILL consume it), maybe I’ll join another fandom? Maybe this brief resurfacing will awaken the tumblr child inside of me. Even I don’t know. For now though, I’ll be doin my own thing, working on my own projects and maybe one day you’ll find my work again!

I’ll also be popping in and out in the next week or so in case anybody has any questions or comments or wants to talk, ANYTHING

The world is wild right now, so I also just want to send some love to everyone. Things are not always happy, and that’s okay. Something that my friend taught me that I hold dear to this day is that: it’s important to laugh, and play, and cry when you’re sad, and just enjoy all the bad and good the world has to offer you. Because feeling means that you're alive.

I cannot thank everyone enough for the love and support you’ve given for me and my art, my mutuals for being there to inspire me and teach me and push me to do more, honestly I would not be where I was today without any of that. I never took art seriously until I realized how much I enjoyed it on here. Maybe that sounds silly to some people that Tumblr Dot Com changed the course of my life, but it really did.

Thank you!!

#asks #replies #a whole big life update #did yall think i wouldnt have something #extremely weird to say here in the tags after an uncharacteristically serious message #wrong #i had a dream last night that my butthole disappeared #and i looked at my arm and realized i was growing a new butthole on my arm #and when I woke up I though for a solid 5 seconds i was actually growing a butthole on my arm #it was the most confusing and concerning 5 seconds of my life #happy to report there is no asshole growing from my arm

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ramblingguy54 · 5 years

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Lemme Let You All In On Something

Inspired by @beaglelover62‘s post about DuckTales helping (2017) those through rough times. I’ll leave the link here below for all to check out, if you haven’t come across this post yet.

https://beaglelover62.tumblr.com/post/187179198864/ive-been-inspired-by-a-few-shared-stories-as-of

Whatever Happened To Della Duck is a truly beautiful episode to be sure, showcasing a mother’s undying determination in getting back to her family, despite the harsh many factors stacked against this determined duck. It left a serious impact on me emotionally, easily ranking it high up on my list of favorite DuckTales (2017) episodes for introducing Della into the TV’s adaptation franchise with such phenomenal execution. However, what I especially praise about this episode is how inspiring it can be to others who suffer through very tough times. People need role models in fiction like this to look up to, naturally, as another way to better cope in their unfortunate situations in life.

That was basically how it helped me better cope in dealing with not only my depression, which I’ve had for the past several years or so, but it also gave me a new positive perspective when I tackled those awful anxiety tremors at the tail end of 2018. To give a better context to this, besides depression I’ve dealt with having an Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) where I can’t relax if I see something that isn’t in order, like say cleaning anything particular for example. It’s hard for me to simply take it easy a great number of times because my mind is hollering saying, “Do this now! You can’t relax until it’s fixed! It has to be perfect!”. Not to mention when I’m analyzing stuff this OCD can cause me to keep re-thinking what I’ve already concluded on in terms of my opinions and it’s beyond freaking obnoxious. I’m no stranger to anxiety attacks either, as they happened quite a great amount in my childhood where I couldn’t control myself because I didn’t obviously understand what was going on internally at the time. Although I’ve had experience before with anxiety attacks, tremors on the other hand I wasn’t prepared to face at all in early December of last year. It was terrifying because I had no control of my mind going a million miles per hour, on top of my body already shaking furiously off and on. My heart felt like it was going to explode outta my chest, considering how insanely fast it was pumping. OCD + Anxiety = One hell of an awful time, being a huge factor in what caused me to have this nervous breakdown where I was consistently panicking. Thankfully, I soon got a medication prescribed which helped me recover from that awful state of mind and have been feeling much better by mid-January of this year ever since.

This story of mine ties back into the massive weight surrounding Della’s situation. She’s in such an highly anxiety inducing situation of having no family, friends, losing one of her legs in the ship crash, going through a Lord knows how awfully painful physical healing/rehabilitation process with her robotic leg, and the cherry on top of all this crap being without social contact toward any living thing. Della Duck suffered without any real social connections for 10 WHOLE YEARS straight. She only has her thoughts to keep herself company in this terrible predicament, which no doubt were looping furiously in Della’s mind all those days spent on rebuilding the Spear Of Selene. It’s honestly amazing Della was able to keep her sanity throughout those many passing hours in that cold painful solitude on the Moon. Many people would’ve been driven to the point of insanity of being alone for that long, but not Della Duck in all of her endearing charm. The thoughts of once again seeing Scrooge, Donald, and reuniting with her triplets was enough determination, of course, to fight back against that severity of her current issues. There’s a lot of symbolism I found here akin to OCD, like say with Della’s thoughts of regret for unintentionally leaving her kids on Earth never leaving her mind, no matter how hard she tried to tune that irrational voice of her’s out on focusing toward the bigger picture of getting back home to make up for all that lost time. Despite putting on a such a cheery headstrong attitude, it’s all of course a facade masking Della’s depression and compulsive thoughts deep down.

Della has a low self-esteem for making the decision to hop onto the Spear of Selene and getting torn away from everyone/everything she loved in life. Anytime I look back on this scene where Della drops the headstrong nature for a split second with tears running down her face, these words just write themselves showing Della’s real inner thoughts.

If I hadn’t made the decision to take that rocket, I could’ve been much happier and better off. I don’t deserve to even call myself a mother. I’m a terrible person for not being by my kids side when they were born and helping them grow up. Della, you’re such an idiot...

Regardless of all that self-hatred and doubt though, Della persevered against it because she knew there’s no sense in crying over spilled milk at this current point. Della knows she deserves to be happy and back at home with her family again, so continues working on rebuilding every piece of the rocket ship.

She put every fiber of her being, mind, and soul into learning the fundamentals of understanding how to properly create a rocket ship. All for the sake of one simple important thing...

Family.

Throughout every day of what seemed like a “solitary confinement” on the Moon Della never once let her mind falter from what she was doing it all for. Even though Della has low self-esteem, struggling with depression among this compulsive internal belittling of herself, she never allows that to break her iron will in accomplishing what needs to be done.

Granted, she sacrifices the key of her gold tooth in poetic fashion to help calm down a Moon Mite mother and her baby, but that is more than rewarded in return by the Moon Landers’ helping her rebuild the rocket once more. After all the years of hardship she had to endure alone, Della finally is able to set out back to Earth instead of just viewing it from afar.

Not gonna lie, every time I look at this shot of Della breaking out into tears saying, “I’m coming boys! Mom is coming home!”, it always chokes me up. This is an individual who has been to put it bluntly, shit on by life hardcore for the past 10 years straight never being able to catch a break in getting home until now. Della, much like her twin bro Donald, has been dealt an awful unlucky hand with how much she had to endure on her own for so long, getting traumatized in certain emotional aspects from all that experience on the Moon.

You can damn well bet my emotions were overflowing, like a waterfall, when Nothing Can Stop Della Duck premiered back in the May bomb of episodes. I’m surprised by how quickly they brought Della into the fray because I genuinely believed they were going to hold off for awhile, until much later down the road, like say Season 3 or something. However, I’m beyond glad they didn’t because, besides shaking up the chemistry dynamic of the family by removing Donald temporarily, that hug was so amazing to behold on screen. It’s all kinds of wonderful.

Anytime I think back on that rough anxiety tremor stuff I dealt with, during 2018′s tail end into early January, Della’s story of her hard-headed never say die attitude against immeasurable odds is one all generations should take big notes on. This beautiful story made me feel less alone in my struggles with depression, OCD, and anxiety. Seeing Della never give up because her family was always there for her in spirit hit me in the heart real good. Much like how it was for me when my family, most notably my mother, who helped me through those anxiety tremors that hit me like a meteor. Also, knowing Della will still struggle with trying to be a better mother figure adds a real layer of humanity to the story, reminding people that just because you’ve gotten better doesn’t mean you’re outta those woods yet. Della’s story is a perfect representation on life overall because it’s okay to still have problems and not feel weighed down by them too. You’ll always have loved ones there to back you up when you’re feeling like dirt. I still struggle with anxiety, depression, and OCD every day, even though I’m not in that terrible state of mind anymore, but my family has always helped me through this when it counts.

So with all that said, please remember to think of this message when you’re feeling very down on your own self-worth.

If Della Duck can overcome not only her emotional insecurities, but the large void of space and solitude that came with it for a decade, then I should be able to handle my own baggage with this same attitude.

Thanks so much for taking the time to read this story of an experience from my life and how DuckTales 2017′s story center around Della inspired a more positive outlook for me in the future. Feel free to share your own perspectives in the comments if you’re feeling up for it!

#della duck #ducktales 2017 #ducktales #whatever happened to della duck #ducktales season 2 #my life experience #relatable #huey dewey and louie #scrooge mcduck #donald duck #ducktales 2k17

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traumantic-a · 5 years

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HOW TO INTERACT WITH JORDAN ( A PLOTTING CHEAT-SHEET )

so, you want to write your muse against jordan, but you have no idea what to do? have no fear! plotting can be pretty daunting—I know I always blank on ideas the second I go to approach someone about something, or I’m always afraid I’ll suggest something that’s overdone or that the mun isn’t particularly interested in. hence, this guide! keep in mind everything here is just a suggestion, so if you have ideas that don’t really fit what I’ve put in this guide, that is fine! throw them my way! and happy plotting!

MEET JORDAN RILEY ( aka a really quick character cheat sheet )

she’s a college student. specifically, she’s currently in her junior year as a graphic design student and is also a resident assistant, because it’s the only way she could afford to continue to attend school ( #justcollegethings ). like many students, her preferred study method is coffee and tears, and thinking too far into the future freaks her out, so she copes by screaming inwardly and pushing on even though she needs to relax ( whatever that means ).

she’s also a resident assistant. and surprisingly, taking the job wasn’t all about the money, though that was a big motivator. jordan genuinely enjoys the position; not so much the paperwork and having to enforce rules all the time, but getting to decorate her floor, help freshmen navigate campus life and academics, and plan fun programs and activities for them is something that makes her feel a sense of accomplishment. of course, the perks of having a room and bathroom all to herself make it extra nice.

she’s very involved. if she’s not working on projects, she’s designing layouts for one of the student-run magazines; if she’s not doing that, she’s hosting a radio show with one of her friends; if she’s not doing that, she’s at improv practice; if she’s not there, she’s probably stress crying in the shower, tbh. either way, she likes keeping busy whenever she can; sometimes to a fault.

she hates talking about ‘it.’ not the movie; no, she enjoyed both chapters, even if she hasn’t made her way through the brick that is the novel yet. no, she hates talking about her past traumas, she absolutely hates talking about the whole rothfield murders fiasco and the fact that she was a target because she spoke up about being assaulted, which is understandable, because all of that is shitty. she’s trying to move on from it all; she wishes the rest of the world would, too.

PRE-ESTABLISHED RELATIONSHIPS ( aka a starting point for fleshing out dynamics )

be a resident in her building. this one is especially great if your muse is a college student; rothfield university is a big school and there are roughly six thousand students living on campus; 250 of those students live in williams hall, split across four floors. while williams hall tends to have a mix of underclassmen and skews heavily toward having primarily incoming freshmen reside there, it isn’t unusual for juniors or seniors to stay in the building because it’s cheaper than trying to rent an apartment on their own, and they don’t have to pay for a parking pass that they rarely use because there’s never any place to park. jordan has to keep in contact with the residents living on her floor, do regular academic and wellness checks, etc.; but beyond that, she genuinely wants to help them adjust to campus and college life, and likes being a mentor.

be a fellow art student/classmate. technically jordan’s major of study falls under the college of communication and information, but she’s on track to learn a bachelor’s of fine arts in graphic design, and she spends a lot of her time in the art building attending studio classes and pouring over projects. she has other courses she has to take to fill requirements for her core classes and the like ( such as art history, algebra, sociology, etc.); if your muse is a college student, why not make them a classmate of jordan’s? especially if they’re in different majors but happen to be taking all the same ‘core’ classes; it’s always great having a note-sharing buddy, if nothing else.

be involved in a club/organization with jordan. she’s an illustrator for a student-run general interest magazine, she has a radio show, and she’s in an improv group, and usually auditions for productions through the school of theater and dance whenever she has the time. make your muse a member of the editorial team on the magazine, or a blogger, or a fellow DJ, or someone who enjoys performing; I’m sure they’ll cross paths with jordan somehow, some way!

be one of her professors/mentors. chances are there’s a bullshit course your muse could teach if they don’t fit in ‘traditional’ courses of study like history, economics, etc.; my university offered two different courses on glass blowing; there’s no limit to what can be taught on a college campus to fill credit hour requirements. jordan’s degree of study requires a lot of liberal arts credits and she’s definitely the type to take a course on analyzing tone and message in zombie movies because, what else is she going to do with $800 dollars in grant money? she’s a good student, and tries not to skip classes, and will usually keep quiet in the back if she’s not up to participating. she also attends office hours when she’s not grasping something, and if she likes a class she took because of the professor, she usually tries to take more of their classes.

work at/in rothfield in some capacity. be another resident assistant, work at the coffee shop frequented by students, be part of campus security, be an event coordinator with campus, be that one lady who walks her three rescue dogs on campus every evening; there’s really no limit here ( the lady with rescue dogs was a thing at my school and I ended up befriending her, and she turned out to be the dean of the women’s studies department and is generally the coolest person I know, ANYWAY ); if any of this appeals to you, hit me up and we’ll flesh out the details.

be a townie. whether your muse is a student who graduated and never left rothfield or is a born-and-bred local that can spin a yarn about the history of campus, or just likes showing up at house parties for the hell of it, this is another great way to cross paths with jordan and strike up a friendship.

THINGS I WANT TO EXPLORE ( aka a living document of my wishlist tag )

jordan opening up to someone. jordan’s assault and the trial from her high school years were pretty well-publicized; while her name was never printed in the news stories surrounding the case, it’s not hard to put the pieces together when people find out where she’s from. this only becomes more apparent after the rothfield murders that take place over spring break 2019; being the ‘sole survivor’ of a revenge-murder rampage takes its toll in some unusual ways. it takes time for the trauma of the murders to fully sink in for jordan; initially, she’s relieved that her abuser is dead and gone and she never has to see him again, but that relief is short-lived. it doesn’t change the fact that she hasn’t fully healed from her past traumas and that she needs to be more vocal about her feelings and emotions; she needs a support system, especially considering her family is hours away and the only other person she’s confided in outside of her parents and sister goes to school in another state. I’d love to develop some close friendships where jordan feels comfortable opening up to others she knows she can trust and lean on when she’s having bad days; likewise, she’d do the same for those she loves dearly. she’s loyal at her core and if she trusts you, she will always be there for you.

more to be added as ideas come to me

THINGS I’M NOT INTERESTED IN ( aka...... it’s pretty self-explanatory )

your character ‘fixing’ jordan. through love, through friendship, through whatever; while all of the above can definitely help people dealing with trauma heal, it is not the sole, solitary thing that will get the job done. jordan will never rely on one person to be the sole thing that makes her happy and makes her feel whole again; it’s not realistic and it’s a harmful cliche that I don’t wish to perpetuate here. she absolutely needs friends she can trust, and she is capable of being in a loving relationship, but those are not going to automatically fix all her problems.

toxic ships. I don’t really feel the need to go super in-depth with this; while I’m not opposed to exploring shitty or toxic friendships or relationships, because those do happen, I’m not interested in doing so in the sense of “they’re toxic because they care!” again; very harmful cliches and stereotypes that I do not wish to perpetuate here. if I explore anything like this it’ll likely be with close rp partners I’ve had for a while and know I can trust.

fetishizing/‘fixing’ demisexual people. it’s a spectrum, folks; jordan needs an emotional connection with someone deep enough before she feels comfortable with intimacy. I’m not interested in anyone being the ‘exception’ to this for obvious reasons. if you come to me with anything related to your muse ‘fixing’ jordan’s demisexuality ( which existed before her trauma and was amplified by it, both of which are valid ), I will hard block you.

FINAL THOUGHTS so, I didn’t intend for this to get as long as it did; as far as the last section goes, a lot of that is common sense, but I’ve included it anyway because I’ve had similar experiences on blogs before with people coming to me with plot ideas that were inherently toxic and glorified to be something bigger/better, and felt it would be best to address what I’m not comfortable with and why directly out of the gate. keep in mind that all of this is a guideline, and if you have ideas that expand outside of what I’ve placed here, I’d love to hear them! don’t hesitate to approach me to plot, especially if you want to expand on anything I’ve listed in this cheat sheet. <3

#PSA.#WISHLIST.#ask to tag /

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I recently came across The Adventures of Unico and it's demographic is targeted at kids but HOLY CRAP!

Some of the subjects touched upon in this film were kind of intense.

1. You have Unico, a selfless, kind and magical creature being ripped away from his family and hunted by angles who fear his kind nature. He is faces the struggles of being alone and ripped away from anyone he begins to love or form genuine connections with . If he stays, he faces being banished away, never to see the light of day ever again. He faces one heartache following another. It always seems he is able to heal everyone's issues but never his own.

2. You have a blue boy demon Beezly who has been so lonely for so many years, he lost sight of how to properly treat another person let alone cope with his own loneliness till he met someone who broke through his tough facade. Finally given the opportunity to make himself vulnerable and allow himself to make a friend, is he then ripped away, leaving him to see things as they truly are. This important lessons jump-starts his new way of thinking that loneliness isn't a friend and he should fighting for the things he truly wants instead of struggling all by himself.

3. You have a cat Katie who thought she was genuinely loved by her family, up till they abandoned her and left her floating upstream. Facing a completely life altering situation, she wants nothing more to find somewhere she belongs. Digging deep into all she knows, the idea that becoming a "witch" and finding a mentor will fill a hole left inside of her. After along search and not finding what she is looking for, does she begins to be faced with a revelation that just because things don't go as planned, doesn't mean that she won't be able to find the happiness the she disserves. Once she finally behind to make sense of her new found life, is she taken advantage of and nearly killed by her own inability to see things for how they really are.

I know this is a movie most likely targeted for kids, considering the diligence around the main characters issues, but it's amazing to see that personal growth within the short amount of time of meeting someone special or being faced to deal with our own issues when brought to light.

Despite the movie being an older one than I am used to watch, I really enjoyed the first movie and look forward into seeing the others.

#the adventures of unico #unico #anime #review #thoughts #nice thoughts #deep thoughts #cartoon #unicorn #movie review #movie recommendation #old movies #life learning #life lessons

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Zatanna Zatara: Who-Doo

A/N: Thought I should have some variety on here. :)

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Zatanna refused multiple times, even going as far as to looking into dark magic herself - a thing she vowed to be forbidden. If she could do it then there was no need for the team to traverse the spookiest forest known to man for a psychotic dark magician discovered by John Constantine. That was her first warning, John meddled with the most dangerous sorcerers so why was this enchanter any different? She'd met you before on many occasions, considered you a true friend who she loved dearly but after the loss of her father she vanished from your life and didn't want to drag you back into hers - in response you delved deeper into the dark arts, to what extent, she dare not find out.

Regardless of her futile attempts, she had to accompany Nightwing and their team on their mission to assist in hopes of defeating Kalrion, Felix Faust, Wotan and the demonic army that hunted them. Regretfully, she was incapable of handling this by herself due to her inexperience with the blackest of magic and those were 3 of the most powerful sorcerers they'd encountered. With fearful thoughts racing through her mind, they instantly ceased when a gloomy cottage decorated with all kinds of warding fell into her peripheral vision - why they had to arrive in the dead of night she had no idea.

As they approached, the wooden shack door flew open with a hollow bang, talismans clattered and flame torches sparked to life as if welcoming them inside but the supernatural presence only caused them to freeze in place.

"Why so nervous heroes?" A devious laugh followed after the eerie voice that echoed behind them, causing them to turn back to the origin to find nothing but a whisper of wind along the deserted pathway.

"Zatanna what's g-"

"I don't know! I don't know! It's some kind of illusion." They'd never seen Zee so spooked, although they couldn't feel the darkening auras that lingered around the area like she could - something was very wrong with this place.

"It's no illusion, I'm right here Zee. You just didn't look hard enough..." They flicked back to the door instantly, readying a defence stance contrasting to your more laid back one as you leaned against your doorframe.

It was peculiar, they never seen anything quite like you. Your skin was decorated in elegant designs whether painted or tattooed they were unsure, your feet were bare but your ankles were laced with string, shells, bone and other fragments hanging off them that jingled as you walked much like those on your wrists. You were adorned with golden bangles, hair littered with braidings and feathers with your loose belt holding pouches and jars, a golden animal skull decoration handing from it. You were beautiful though many would deem your attire mystical like that of a voodoo god/goddess and the hissing Death Adder entangled around your arm certainly didn't help to put the team at ease. Zatanna had forgotten how beautiful you were, clearly the bayou had rubbed off on you but the difference from her memories of you still left her speechless. Although if you were to return to the city then you’d probably revert to your usual clothing.

"Are you coming in or not, Umbra doesn't bite... much. I can whip up some tea if you'd like since you need some demons taking care off and it's been a while Zatanna I hope you're alright." And your voice was like music to her ears, she'd truly missed you and began to regret the way she left things but still believed that your safety was more important than her feelings.

"We are not walking in there until we know we can trust you." Zatanna commented, stepping forward protectively as you raised a brow and clicked your fingers with a degree of flair - before they could even register what was happening, their surroundings morphed to that of a grand contrasting interior, artefacts littered the elegant shelves, presumably ingredients filled the delicate cupboards and it definitely wasn't the haunted forest they were in moments ago.

"Aha, no need to walk in Zatanna Zatara, and you are going to have to take the fact that you are all still breathing as your 'trust'." Your tone was cold yet kind, your abilities leaving the Team awestruck.

With a calm demeanour you offered them tea as they grew comfortable enough to confide their situation to you so you could potentially lend you assistance. However, chaos levelled the grounds outside of your illusive cottage, you felt the vibrations on the tips of your toes causing you to glare at your door.

Upon exiting behind you, the Team relished in the fallen demons littering the grounds with shadowy dust dispersing from their bodies no doubt assuring you of their demise.

"How did you -"

"It wasn't me." You stated rather proudly.

"TEAM GUARDS UP!" You heard Nightwing's bellowing voice, the curiously large 'log' he was inspecting suddenly moving smoothly through the undergrowth with piercing crimson slits causing them each to go on the offensive - however when your hand shot up to disarm them, weapons instantly locked to the ground like it was some form of magnet, they had no choice but to watch in horror. The beast brought its head down to your level, the snake massively oversized compared to any reptile that currently roamed the earth and it's scaly forehead gently met yours with your hands reaching up to greet it.

"Ah, thank you my darling. You did wonderfully."

"That's... a Titan boa..." Zatanna remained awestruck like the rest of her comrades, the sight alone enough to strike fear into even allies.

"Impossible, they went extinct millions of years ago!" Nightwing added, marvelling at the creature.

"You're both correct, but it's amazing what a little voodoo and some fossils can conjure. He's a loyal friend, he won't hurt you. Although more are on their way, are you ready to go?" You released their weapons, heading off toward the dangerous auras.

Zatanna appeared in front of you, hands on your forearms with a sense of urgency. "You're not coming!"

"Excuse me?" To say you were surprised would be an understatement, especially after your previous display.

"You’ve changed so much (Y/n) and your magic, it's forbidden! It could kill us, for all we know you could be working with Klarion."

"Voodoo is dangerous yes, but as is all sorcery - it depends on who uses it! If I was working with Klarion do you really think you'd be alive right now? No. Do you think Demons would be invading my territory? No. So I'm sorry I do not reach your incredulous standards and that I make you feel 'funny' Zatanna but you'll finally have to accept it." You brushed her off, walking around the worried magician

"How- How did you know that..." She became flustered, skin flaring a beautiful shade of pink.

"Oh come on Zee, I'm good at magic but it's not that hard to read a person." You halted, turning back to answer her, still frustrated with that lack of compassion you were receiving from her despite your proven efforts.

"Then... you're not very good at it..." It was an embarrassed whisper, yet you’d caught it.

"How so?" You looked back incredulously eyes shrouded in a brief golden glow.

However before you could extract an answer, the 3 demonic sorcerers made a chaotic entrance which only left you to sigh with your Titan Boa as well as your fellow comrades prepared for battle.

As predicted, your abilities were dangerous - exactly as Constantine had recommended and with assistance, you had all collaboratively sent the demons back to their realms, bound them into submission or reduced them to ashes. Although, not without cost, it was a thoughtless act but you'd seen Zatanna's fatal demise and without hesitation had stepped to her aid leaving you with a ravenous dagger imbedded in your skin. With a twist of your wrist, your magic decapitated the demon at close range and left you collapsing to the ground with a hiss.

"(Y/n)! No no, please no!" You heard the devastation her voice, the woman immediately embraced you, her hand gently grasping the handle of the knife over your own with a worried expression.

"Don't! Not yet! Geez Zatara, are you mad?!"

"I - I'm sorry, you can’t die - this is exactly why I didn’t want you involved! I can heal you if you'll let me!" She tried again, enchantment slipping from her lips.

"Oh what you trust me now? Stopped feeling 'funny'." You rolled your eyes, silencing Zatanna and removing her hands from yours.

"It's not what you think, I may not have expressed it as I should've. I didn't want you to get hurt, I value you more than that but anyone who gets close I lose, just like my father and I can't lose you (Y/n)..." Her tone was quiet, she understood what she did was miscalculated though her intentions were pure.

"Aw, knew you cared." You joked, smirk on your lips.

"This isn't a joke, if it were different, I would've asked you to dinner... We'd make one hell of a team... but obviously I couldn’t do that, it’d mean putting you in danger, and yet after we grew apart you still put your life on the line to save me. (Y/n) I wouldn’t be able to cope with your loss." You hadn’t explicitly noticed her tears, the way she took every detail to memory in case it was the last time she saw you and it made your heart melt.

"Dinner then, Friday night? I know this nice place down in Metropolis, that way you won’t have to lose me." Your smile was now genuine, pulling the dagger from you heart - to her surprise only the handle remained, the blade nonexistent besides the evidence of decay.

"You - how?" Her tears continue to fall, although her cries ceased, overcome with sheer happiness at your improved well being.

"Basic spell really, decomposed the dagger as it reached my skin but not fast enough, still got a little cut. But I can protect myself Zatana, don't worry about that - hopefully you know I won't leave you, as much as I can help it love." Half way through your explanation, she’d embraced you whole heartedly, pulling back with a beautiful relived smile on her features, her fingers intertwining with your own as you both basked in the content of the other’s company.

“Love? You’ve spent too long with Constantine.”

“So... that’s a yes to dinner?”

“Yes, although I should’ve asked a long time ago.” Zatanna laughed, the two of you walking back to your home so lost in conversation that you were oblivious to awestruck expressions left on your comrades regarding the events of the last minute - none of it making sense to them. Surviving a dagger to the heart? Ancient languages? Date plans?

Maybe you and Zatanna were meant for each other after all.

#zatanna zatara #zatanna zatara imagine #zatanna zatara x reader #dc #dc imagine

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Rebuild: Behind The Scenes

I thought just for some fun, I might post the plan I made for writing Rebuild. It has some silly alternate titles, some doodles I sketched out, and I thought some people might like to see how much the end product was different from the plan.

I do also have a section of the plan just for ideas, but I haven’t included it here because it contains spoilers for the sequel(s).

Hope you enjoy my ramblings below! (Obviously it contains major spoilers for all of Rebuild, so make sure you’re read all that before reading this!)

Rex Brickowski AU Outline

C1: Rexile (AKA Anikin Voice: "I hate Sand". AKA What to do when you're suddenly not dead)

Rex ends up back in his own original timeline in the outskirts of Syspocalypstar. He’s alone, no Rexcelsior, no velociraptors. That makes him sad.

He looks to the city and thinks about everything.

Cat lady comes, he gets bricks and builds and awesome bike and drives to the city.

C2: Shattered (AKA Rex really likes bikes for some reason and also fucks shit up)

There, Lucy and the others are chillin in a park while Rex tears through the city exploring, turning heads.

He goes up a ramp that sends him up over a building above the park. Whilst in the air he grabs his bike and does a flip. The others watch him. He lands on the road next to the park and spots Lucy, his eyes go wide. He does a skidding turn to pull up beside them.

They say how awesome that was. They don’t recognise him and he plays along with that. He needs to get used to them and himself before he drops a bombshell on them.

They show him around the city. He gets a black coffee from the shop. Freezes when he sees a laundromat (PTSD), he hallucinates the deafening roar of the Dryar of Undar until Unikitty distracts him and pulls him away and they continue the tour.

At one point Everything is awesome plays, he acts aloof but taps his foot quietly and lucy notices.

Eventually they get to the town square. There is a statue of Emmet. Rex is immediately taken aback and asks what it is (to gauge his friends reactions and also because he's genuinely surprised to see he's been acknowledged).

Lucy says it honours the special, Emmet. That he was there friend. That they looked for him for a while, but eventually had to admit that he was gone, so they stopped looking.

BIG ANGST TIME.

Rex snaps. He’s still bitter. He starts off vauge like “You gave up? Would he have given up on you?” but gets increasingly louder and madder. Revealing that he was trapped in Undar, how he feels abandoned and slowly revealing to the others that he’s Emmet. Lucy is like “Emmet…?” And he’s like “Emmet is gone! He’s dead!”

He breaks the statue in one punch in anger. His friends are horrified. He looks between them and the statue, shocked and saddened by himself. “What have done?” (Internally). He drives off, leaving the others sad and confused.

C3: Traces Of You (AKA Talking to your ex who you feel betrayed you, even though she thought you were dead… that's rough buddy)

Alternate titles, How can you stand there, a whisper from me? Gone But Not Forgotten

After a short while, giving everyone some time to breathe/ think, Lucy finds Rex in the outskirts. They talk. He explains how he toughened up, how he did some terrible things, how he wants to be better but doesn’t know how. How he’s ruined any chance he had with his friends because of the statue incident. Tears form in his eyes. Lucy goes to comfort him with a hand on his shoulder and says “Emmet...” Queue the “I’m not Emmet anymore and I dont know how to be” line.

Lucy convinces him to not be just one, be a combination. That his friends can help him through this and him to be happier again. He says he’s still can’t fully/ needs time to trust them again, but he’s willing to try. Oh and to call him Rex, cause he wants to be different from movie Emmet.

C4: Building Blocks (AKA DON'T TOUCH ME WHEN I'M WRITING ABOUT SPACESHIPING!!!!)

Lucy and the others ask Rex to build something with them. He decides on a spaceship, they let him lead. Friend interactions.

C5: Time Heals All Wounds (AKA So it turns out you based your entire new personality on your friends and also you finally acknowledge your PTSD)

Over a longer time period (make this clear), montage of helping with each individual. Them understanding Rex and who he is more, maybe after he tries to act exactly like Emmet would but it’s unnatural for him? Finding out about raptor training. Helping him cope with his PTSD (Dryar, paralyzation, loneliness) and abandonment issues.

(after writing half the chapter, i realised) His hand injury and recovery mirror emotional healing! )

https://askmarietheapprentice.tumblr.com/post/183050688583/meta-monday-rex-dangervest-based-his-persona-on

Order:

Fist, alone with Benny, flying spaceship they all built. (Who Rex developed his spaceship love from.) Emotional thing dealt with: ?

Unikitty. He learnt to harness/ weaponize rage from. Unikitty encouraging him to release some anger and destroy some rubble. Helps him get his anger feels out.

Metalbeard. About being a captain of pirates/ raptors. Talk about how he misses them.

Batman. Learnt how to be tough fighter and suppress deep emotional issues. See below for events. Then they talk about talking through things with others, stuff B learnt in Lego batman movie.

Maybe he’s left alone for ten mins whilst a friend goes to grab a brick or something and is terrified they wont come back. He’s relieved but visibly shaken when they do return.

Maybe a change over between friends. One has to go and leaves Rex to meet the batman outside of a shop. As he waits his mind wanders thinking Batman has forgotten about him, doesn't want to meet with him, or even like him etc. As this happens he hallucinates hearing the dryer roar. He stands frozen in place, covering his ears as his vision gets darker. Maybe this causes him to glitch to the real world and back every few seconds. The roar gets louder and louder and louder. Batman comes, sees Rex, is concerned and tries to get his attention by touching his shoulder. Rex freaks out, snapping out of his hallucination shouting/ screaming and madly thrashing punches. He smashes a bin or lamppost or car to pieces before Batman can calm him and he realises he's fine. Rex apologies.

Lucy. Made a super cool alias like Wyldstyle, and hides his insecurities under confident exterior like her. Maybe they talk on their way to her surprise. She asks why he changed his name and himself? He explains his thoughts on Undar, how at the time he thought his friends were right and so he toughened up. Made a cool name like she did. He realises a lot of his Rex traits are semi based on his friends. Maybe talk about how it's good to be confident but also not bad to be vulnerable/ talk about problems with others. He realises he's already been doing this with others? Or just have mostly fun not angst for them here!? Meh, idk yet.

Ends with Lucy giving him that cute little house he made for her, that he’d almost forgotten about. Says it’s just a basis and he can change it if he wants. Talk. Suggests they could be platonic (for now) roommates. She leaves him for the night, he’s now ok (ish) with being left alone.

C6: True Colours (AKA Title made it sound like Rex would turn out evil but surprise! He actually just wanted to look pretty. AKA Rex stares in a mirror for an awkwardly long time)

When Lucy returns, Rex looks different. He briefly went to the Man Upstairs realm and used markers etc, to change his appearance. He wanted some brighter colours to look happier, and more like a combo of Emmet and Rex. He explains this, and decides he wants to be called Rex Brickowski to symbolise this combo of all his aspects.

Basically this first bit is the man I used to be from count of Monte cristo musical.

(Rex and Lucy designs and also size comparison.)

Maybe some Rex and friends hanging out, it’s better than before. Group karaoke? Tries to warm up to Sweet Mayhem?

C7: Epilogue (AKA The end happens. Everything is awesome is still a bop)

Rex and CO are hopeful for the future. Rex knows who he is now and thinks he can be happy again and trust his friends. He’s a mix of mature and innocent/ sweet. He can now enjoy ‘childish’ things and tough things. He’s happy and thinks everything might be ok now.

Maybe he goes to the coffee shop, orders Lucy something and a black coffee with 25 sugars for himself and returns home, listening to rock music on his headphones.

(End on poignant thing.)

Side Notes/ Reminders For Myself

“According to a draft from the first film's script, Emmet is 22 years of age in that film, thus making him 27 in the sequel if accepted.” My AU Rex spent 2 years on Undar, plus 5 getting tough before the movie happens. Making him 34 at the start of the AU.

Rex was in his past changing things. But when Emmet was saved, it was no longer his past/ his timeline. So he faded and was sent back to his original timeline. All the stuff he did in the movie timeline still happened, we see three raptors are still there with Ms Scratchen-Post at the end. So the raptors stay where they are in the movie timeline, because they aren’t like Rex who is being written out of the movie timeline’s future. Which is why Rex is alone at the start of this AU.

Very important! Rex's trust of his friends. My take: friends are the most important thing to Emmet. With friends, he was happy even during the apocalypse. Without them, he becomes jaded, tough. Lucy is who he was closest to/ loved. None of his friends, but especially her not coming for him and moving on hurt him the most. As Rex, he was most mad at her (see him scowling at her during the movie). But then they all try to come back for movie Emmet. Lucy makes it through and saves him. She saved him. This changes post back to the futuring Rex's view. The fact the movie Lucy saved him plus the fact he loved her and cared for her the most before, means AU Rex is inclined to trust her most.

Titles for 3 stories: Rebuild. Rekindle. Re-----. (I'm an idiot for planning 3 of these!!!!!)

Rebuild: Rex's relationships and himself up again.

Rekindle: his and Lucy's love for each other.

Re-----: ((REDACTED BECAUSE IT’S A SPOILER! You’re gonna have to wait to find out what it is!))

INFO

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aw-r_G7rfnU - Chris Pratt Singing

Dino facts:

https://www.psd1.org/cms/lib/WA01001055/Centricity/Domain/36/SS_How_Fast_Did_Trex_Grow.pdf

http://cycles.westinmathies.com/Info_Pages.asp?ptype=Velociraptor_Cycl

SPELLING = Armamageddon (according to the subs)

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And that’s it! This is the rambling mess that brought you Rebuild. Hope it was interesting to see.

As another note of my writing process, I did a lot of jumping around. If I had an idea for some lines of dialogue pop into my head, I wrote it down before I forgot and then slightly altered it and filled in the gaps later. In fact that whole bit between Lucy and Rex in chapter 3 was almost all dialogue (with a few notes like “He turned. She smiles” Etc in between) and then later after writing some of chapter 4, I went back and filled in all the gaps.

I would really recommend writing down whatever pops into your head like this if you want to write things. You might think “Oh, i’ll remember to put this in when I get to writing here!”, that is a lie. You won’t. Or it’ll be different to that brilliant thing you came up with whilst day dreaming out a window. It’s definitely better to jot it down and have it, then decide to edit it later if you don’t like it, than lose it entirely. Just make sure when reading over your chapter/ story that everything flows together nicely. :)

This method also meant I wrote chapters 5, 6 and 7 simultaneously. I had about half of chapter 6 and 7 done whilst I was still making my way through 5. (Probably because 5 was so big!) But then when I was done with 5, I finished off 6, then 7. It also really helped when I came up with the idea to put the first line of the story as the last line too. It gave me a direction to go in for the last chapter (after Rex get’s back from the coffee shop) and also was a nice way to end it off.

Anyway! Hopefully I see you all again for Rekindle! Which by the way, if there is anything involving the characters from this story that you might want to see, please let me know! I might just fit it in somewhere! :D

#lego movie #tlm2 #fanfic #rex dangervest #rex brickowski au #My writing #tlm2 au #mali speaks

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asiryn · 5 years

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Healing Vision Headcanons: Olette/Xion/Namine/Sora/Riku Edition

will be putting this behind a cut for the length. will contain a bit of kh3 spoilers behind the cut. refer to this post for background knowledge about this verse.

as indicated by the title, this post will all be about that ship, and the subset ships of olette/namine, xion/namine, xion/olette, sora/riku, and sora/namine.

- namette, namishi, xiolette, soriku, and sonami will all be romantic ships

- olette/sora, olette/riku, xion/sora, rikushi, and namiku will all be more on the queerplatonic end of the spectrum

- sora is pan; riku is gay; olette is a lesbian; xion is a lesbian demisexual; namine is a demiromantic ace

- xion is intersex, but i’m still deciding between her either being a trans girl or nonbinary; i’m similarly undecided about namine, tho for her i’m deciding between bigender or nonbinary

- originally in the HV, soriku and namixiolette were going remain separate. but then i played kh3, and my sonami feels were really reawakened with a vengeance; when i went to look up fanfic for the ship, i was distressed to see that the majority of them were all alternative CoM angst endings---there was pretty much no fluff, none where sora and namine just got to be happy together. so---i’m being the change that i want to see in the world :3

- many years ago now (o.o ...god saying that makes me feel old), i wrote an olette/namine fanfic, which essentially details how i think they could have met in the canon verse, and even now it’s still essentially my headcanon. this is a bit of a spoiler for the end of that fic, but namine ends up having to wipe herself from olette’s memory. in the HV, when olette sees namine again for the first time after kh3, all her memories come back, and she remembers her again

- xion and namine bond over their similar experiences of being forgotten by the ppl they cared about

- part of the reason that xion and namine are drawn to olette is bc, compared to most of the ppl they’ve known, she’s so simple and uncomplicated; she’s warm, genuine, honest, easygoing, affectionate, and compassionate, and so she’s like a breath of fresh air to them

- sora’s feelings for riku have been present for a long time, though before the events of the series, he was a bit oblivious to the true, romantic nature of those feelings, mostly bc he just didn’t really dwell on it that much. all he knew was that riku was his favorite person to be around, and he was content w/ that

- but as they grew older, and especially as riku hit puberty, riku’s relationships with both sora and kairi started to take a downward swing. riku started getting very jealous of sora and kairi’s relationship, bc he was realizing that he was in love with sora, and wanted all of sora’s attention to himself, especially romantically. but riku was also experiencing an incredible amount of internalized homophobia, and he started lashing out at sora, which drove sora into spending more time with kairi

- riku’s parents were extremely homophobic, and so riku grew up knowing from a pretty young age that he was in love w/ sora, and also that those feelings were Wrong, but no matter how much he tried to ignore them, they never went away. and as he grew up, riku knew perfectly well that his parents would kick him out, at best, if they found out he was gay, and so he grew up with a crippling fear of abandonment, and he especially became terrified of losing sora too (riku attempting to share a paopu fruit w/ sora was partially motivated as a way to ensure that sora would never abandon him)

- ftr, when sora and riku are finally together and are going to go home after kh3, they discuss how they want to handle their relationship, and when riku finally reveals his parents’ emotional abuse, sora refuses to let riku go back to living w/ them. so first they come out to sora’s mom, who’s supportive and agrees to let riku live w/ them from now on, and then after they pack up riku’s belongings, they come out to riku’s parents and the community on their own terms (bc after everything they’ve been through, they refuse to be ashamed about this, and they know that word would travel fast anyway); riku’s parents react as expected, but at this point, riku’s done giving a shit about them, and so he moves in w/ sora

- (this is the beginning of hikari becoming the pioneer of what i call the gaywakening of destiny islands; she’s on a one-woman crusade to bring about queer education, rights, and pride, and it is 50% her being determined to be the most supportive parent in all the known universe, and 50% her being passive-aggressive as fuck towards riku’s parents. but the details of her crusade will be for another post XP)

- by the beginning of kh1, sora was starting to feel more flashes of attraction to riku. when riku first attempted to share a paopu fruit w/ him, sora kind of panicked, and thought that riku was just teasing him, and so sora tossed it away (riku of course took this as a total rejection)

- the next day, when riku brought up the idea of sharing a paopu fruit w/ kairi, was when sora’s confusion over his feelings really started. bc of general compulsory heterosexuality, and bc destiny islands was a more conservative community and thus had a lot of casual homophobia, sora never much questioned the assumption that boys and girls could only date each other (not that he had really given dating much thought before then, either). and w/ the assumption that strong relationships between boys and girls always ended up as romances, sora started wondering if his feelings towards kairi were romantic, and whether he did want to share a paopu fruit w/ her. complicating this was the fact that he really didn’t like the idea of riku sharing a paopu fruit w/ her, though he didn’t quite understand why, combined w/ the fact that he hated feeling like he was only ever second best to riku

- all of riku’s anguish came to a boiling and breaking point in kh1, as riku perceived all of sora’s actions as him choosing to abandon riku, just like he’d always feared. at this point, riku felt that he needed to be needed and necessary, and his whole identity was built on the idea that his friends needed him to be their strong protector, and he couldn’t really cope w/ the idea of sora not needing him after all; he latched onto saving kairi bc she really did need help

- as the series went on, sora became more fixated on the idea of kairi; she came to sort of represent the home that he missed so much. and w/ everyone else just assuming that it was So Obvious that sora was in love w/ kairi, he went along w/ that assumption too. upon his reunions w/ kairi and riku in twtnw at the end of kh2, and the wildly different emotions they each had inspired in him, sora began to realize the truth of his feelings, but he was still mostly in denial. when they were all home for a brief bit before the mark of mastery exams, sora was being confronted w/ the fact that his ideal of both kairi and Being Home weren’t matching up w/ the reality and things were awkward between them, but sora tried to tell himself that it was just bc they still needed more time

- all of this was even further compounded by the fact that sora fell in love w/ namine during re:com, and tho he couldn’t recall the memories of her, his feelings for her were still there, along with the aching sense that he had forgotten something important. seeing namine again at the end of kh2 really sparked and stirred up his feelings again, but sora had no context to understand them (how could he be in love w/ someone that he didn’t even know?). he kind of tried to convince himself that these feelings were for kairi, but he knew that they weren’t really

- obvs, after kh3, sora remembers (and thanks) namine; the circumstances of this aren’t fully fleshed out. partially it’s bc it’s tied in with my indecision about in what way i should alter the canon scenes of kairi being fridged. on one hand, bc i feel that the whole affair of kairi dying was entirely superfluous, i could tweak it so that she never dies. on the other hand, i could go with kairi ‘dying’ in the battle, but in a more heroic self-sacrificial way (maybe she took a hit meant for sora or someone else), and then there being an actual story arc where sora and riku go and save her. it would essentially involve them collecting the pieces of her and putting her back together (like sora did for himself in the final world), but with more...effort involved. and in said story arc, there could be an event that triggers sora into remembering namine, or something to that effect.

- again, undecided if i want to change the canon paopu fruit scene into being a sorikai friendship moment instead, or if i’ll keep the canon version, but with the reading that it happened bc sora and kairi were both still suffering from compulsory heterosexuality, and still trying to force themselves into believing that they liked each other romantically; if i go with the saving kairi story arc, it would be the latter option

- continuing on with ‘saving kairi’ story arc, in this version, when sora and riku go off to save her together (on a meta-textual level, it’d be a way for their story to come full circle: they’re back where they started, but they’re going to do it right this time; instead of having petty fights with each other over who gets to save kairi, they’ll save her together), sora still would have been in denial about the true nature of his feelings for riku. but travelling together with him, and actually spending time with riku after being apart for so long, sora will start to understand his feelings better

- riku of course already knows that he’s deeply in love with sora and is pining, but he’s trying to keep his distance, bc sora and kairi are ‘together’ now (and mostly riku is just resolved that he won’t let his jealousy get the better of him this time, and he’s determined to be the best and most supportive friend that he can be)

- romantic moments and almost kisses keep happening anyway, but riku tries to tell himself that he’s imagining things and reading too much into it, while sora struggles with acceptance of his true feelings

- even still, sora and riku won’t actually get together until after sora and kairi have some sort of conversation where they finally talk through everything and can admit that they only love each other as friends, and they finally put to rest their attempts to force romantic feelings for each other

- after coming to an understanding with kairi, sora will then seek out to riku finally talk things out with him and to confess his true feelings (and there’ll be a lot of happy tears, probably)

- even tho sora might be a bit hesitant to potentially rock the boat this early in his new relationship w/ riku, in the interests of honesty and full disclosure, and having by this point remembered namine and had all those feelings come rushing back to the forefront, sora will quietly confess to riku that he thinks he might be in love with namine too

- to sora’s surprise, riku’s quiet for a moment, but then tells him that he’s honestly not really surprised, as he’s always thought that a lot more went down between sora and namine in castle oblivion than namine tried to let on; at this point, riku reminds sora that he spent the majority of a year w/ namine while she was trying to fix his memories, and he remembered her heartbreak and anguish as she essentially worked to erase herself from sora’s memories, tho she tried to conceal her pain

- riku remembers this as being one of the big turning points for him as a person, bc instead of being jealous about namine being in love w/ sora too, he just empathized w/ her instead, and thought that they were/would be suffering the same pain of being in unrequited love w/ sora, as he thought they’d both have to watch sora be in love w/ kairi

- while sora and riku are off saving kairi, and incidentally saving namine as well, during that time, xion and olette are meeting and getting to know each other as friends

- xion and olette may have already started going on a few dates by the time sora and riku get back w/ kairi, and namine is given her own body again; sora and riku get together not long after they get back

- at first, namine is more focused on forming friendships; during this time, the person she becomes closest to is xion, bc again, they can both empathize w/ each other a lot

- during this time, sora and namine are trying to keep their promise of being friends for real this time, but it’s not quite working out bc they’re both kinda pining for each other

- all the while, namine is coming to terms w/ her asexuality, and she’s also starting to fall for xion especially, but also olette; namine tends to experience a lot of insecurity and anxiety, and she becomes terrified of possibly ruining her friendship w/ xion, and so ends up confiding in her all of her angst. xion assures her that she’s not ruining anything, and that she’s interested in namine as well, but admits that she doesn’t really know what she’s doing either, and suggests that they consult w/ olette, who’s pretty much the relationship expert

- olette is the one who helps namine understand her asexuality, and suggests the polyamory option; xion and olette have an allosexual relationship, while their relationship w/ namine is purely ace

- meanwhile, riku can’t stand seeing sora be unhappy, and so he goes to consult w/ olette, and together they arrange for all five of them to sit down and hash everything out, w/ the end result being that sora and namine will also be dating; their relationship is also purely ace, and sora’s w/ riku is allosexual

- after kh3, axel and saix effectively adopt roxas and xion, and they’re all living in twilight town now

- sora and riku are of course living w/ sora’s mom on destiny islands, and namine was adopted by kairi’s dad, and so now she’s living w/ kairi (at first namine was afraid of kairi being mad at her for dating sora, but kairi’s perfectly fine w/ it)

- if the ‘saving kairi’ story arc didn’t happen, then during the amount of time that it would have taken for sora and riku to save her, that time was instead sora and kairi attempting to date each other; when they realized that the relationship wasn’t working for them and neither of them were happy, they finally gave up on being in denial and called it quits. during that time, riku and namine were pining for sora, while in this version, namixiolette fell for each other at around the same time and pace (instead of it being xiolette first, and then namine coming into the relationship later)

- after sokai stopped dating, the ot5 getting together went down pretty much in the same way as in the ‘saving kairi’ story arc

- is it perhaps excessive that namine has two girlfriends, a boyfriend, and a queerplatonic partner? imo, she’s been alone and isolated for far too long, so i’m giving her all the love that she deserves (and she’ll also have ALL the friends; a few of the ones she’s closest to being kairi and terra)

- every one of the ot5 ships will just be full of softness and gentleness

- sora and olette.....are just gonna be such BROS to each other (in general, olette is just cultivating her butch lesbian #aesthetic these days). she’ll be like this w/ roxas too, but they’ll just constantly be playing video games and skateboarding; xion’ll be getting in on this too

- okay, so xion and riku’s relationship. during Days, when xion was absorbing sora and his memories, she did experience and kinda channel sora’s feelings for riku (and for his part, riku felt something of an echo of sora from her). so while she doesn’t experience those feelings for herself anymore, she still remembers the echo of it, and so things are a bit awkward between them at first (also riku still feels guilty about essentially coercing xion and roxas into dying). eventually they do find common ground and settle into a comfortable friendship (also, xion experienced the same thing in regards to kairi)

- for sora, he had a similar problem w/ xion, in that he experienced a lot of roxas’s feelings towards her (tho that was mostly the pain of losing her), so he still remembers the echoes of those emotions. but again, he ends up really becoming bros w/ her and olette

- olette and riku probably took the longest to really bond, tho they eventually did bc they discovered they liked doing little crafts together

- being both introverts, riku and namine find a lot of solace in each other when they just need some quiet time; olette and sora are both extroverts, w/ xion being somewhere in the middle

- olette does have some playful flirting going on w/ kairi, but it’s never anything serious. xion and kairi like sparring w/ their keyblades together

- if the five of them ever moved in together, it’d probably be in either twilight town or destiny islands. there’d be at least 3 bedrooms (one for if someone needed some alone time, one for cuddles, and one for activities that would not involve namine)

- the more likely option is that soriku and xiolette would each have their own houses/apartments (in destiny islands and twilight town, respectively), and namine would bounce back and forth between them. both places would have at least 2 bedrooms each

- soriku’s place is probably more of a cottage that’s closer to the seaside than the center of the mainland, while xiolette’s place is an apartment. namine has rooms set aside for her in both places, and her belongings are scattered between them. big things like her easels for paintings and canvases and things like that are at soriku’s cottage, which has more space than xiolette’s apartment, etc.

- sora, riku, and xion are all officially keyblade wielders/masters, so that’s pretty much their occupations. olette is probably going to be attending university soon, and namine will probably go to art school (probably just for the experience more than anything else)

- tbh, idk what olette would be studying at university. maybe business management and/or marketing, bc she found she really liked working at scrooge’s bistro and wants to take over it someday? maybe she wants to open her own small business. maybe it’s a sports scholarship. fashion or graphic design? idkkk

okay, i think that’ll be enough for this post. if i have more headcanons about this ship, i’ll be making another post for them, bc this one is already probably far too long XDD

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starfleetdoesntfirefirst · 5 years

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3, 7 and/or 19 for Michael/Tracy and/or Jett/Philippa!

(otp question meme)

Thank you so much for sending these! :) This got a little long, so I’m going to write Jett x Philippa in a separate post. :D

3. Most common argument?

Not to go for the low-hanging fruit, but. Michael’s selflessness and her proclivity for putting herself in danger is definitely the biggest strain on their relationship. Tracy’s been in enough relationships in her younger years that have ended up a little too one-sided when it came to support that she’s wary of situations where she might end up in a situation without reciprocity–of course she’s willing to support a partner during a crisis, but she’s learned the hard way that relationships that lack longterm balance in whatever way shape or form aren’t sustainable. Of course, Michael’s compassionate nature makes the reciprocity question moot when it comes to day-to-day acts of caring–which Tracy worries might be part of the problem, this time around. Can she have a sustainable relationship with a woman whose selflessness verges on self harm? Is she stumbling into the classic trap of trying to “change” another adult by loving them?

Fortunately,these questions are answered early on, during their first serious argument. In Tracy’s quarters, during their first private moment after Michael is nearly killed on an away mission, Michael seems to almost brush off Tracy’s concern and anguish until she demands, “Do you know what it would do to me if something happened to you?”

She’s expecting another glib reassurance; instead, Michael freezes, staring at Tracy with dawning, horrified understanding. Oh my god, Tracy realizes, she literally doesn’t. She doesn’t realize there are people who care about her that way anymore.

After that, Tracy can see that it isn’t going to be an uphill battle to support Michael in her recovery, but rather a downhill battle that no one else has bothered to begin. And providing Michael with a normal human amount of care and support and reminders of how much Tracy cares about her, along with a few nudges toward other resources–well, Tracy is more than happy to do that.

7. What’s the first thing that changes when they realize they have feelings for the other?

Tracy finds herself attuned to Discovery’s missions, and the endeavors of the bridge crew contingent of the senior staff, in a different way. Formerly, she closely followed what was happening shipwide with a professional eye toward how it would affect the crew, sickbay, and the medical division, along with personal scientific curiosity about whatever the ship was encountering. Now, that awareness has gained a third dimension–everything that happens on the bridge is an indication of what Michael’s day might look like. If the ship is exploring and analyzing a new discovery, Michael is probably taking the lead in data collection and analysis. If there’s a shipwide crisis, as first officer Michael must be under an incredible amount of pressure. And if Michael is on an away mission gone wrong (and don’t they all go wrong?), she’s in danger.

It’s as though, in addition to what’s happening on the bridge being transmitted to sickbay and from there into Tracy’s constantly-running mental chart of the ship’s status and what the next few hours sickbay might look like, now a part of Tracy’s heart is venturing out of sickbay and onto the bridge with Michael.

She certainly finds her heart jolting in her chest more than it did before whenever she hears that Michael is in a high-risk situation. But, by and large, it’s not so much worry–serving on a starship means any of one’s colleagues can be suddenly endangered at any given time, and Tracy’s spent years learning how best to cope with that–as heightened awareness. (All right, and worry, she finally admits after finding herself more emotionally exhausted than usual at the end of a day when nothing much happened on her shift but Michael’s away team had a close call with some interdimensional eels. Having feelings for the daring first officer of an exploratory starship comes with more than its fair share of worry, and, if those feelings turn out to be reciprocated, Tracy knows a decent part of her energy in such a relationship will be devoted to finding a healthy way to cope with that.)

Michael also finds herself more attuned to Tracy after her realization. Later, she will tell her that, from the moment their hands brushed accidentally and Michael’s awareness of her feelings exploded into her mind, it was as though a star glowed to life in sickbay, constantly radiating at the edge of Michael’s awareness no matter where Michael was on the ship and pulling her steps toward sickbay to deliver reports or seek Tracy’s input in person with a force that felt damn near gravitational.

The biggest change to Michael’s life and state of mind, however, turns out to be more internal and personal. Simply the experience of having a crush–under non-traumatic circumstances, and on someone who she doesn’t have to worry about too much–turns out to be healing for her; it feels like one small part of her life going back to “normal,” where normal is defined as the better times in school and on the Shenzhou.

While some of the reasons Michael takes a while to act on her feelings are the obvious painful ones–hesitance about getting close to someone after losing so many people she loves, and worrying she’s not a worthy partner–she’s also genuinely enjoying her crush in and of itself, and savoring the fun, safe-feeling stage of noticing and exploring her own developing feelings. (She tells herself that even if her feelings aren’t reciprocated, that too will, in its own way, be a comfortingly ordinary part of life. Luckily, however, she does not end up having to test this theory.)

19. Who tells their family/friends about their relationship first?

Michael tells Sylvia right after their first officially-a-date-date. Joann, and Keyla and Sylvia are all having lunch with Michael a few weeks into the relationship, and the former two, having picked up on the amount of off-duty time Michael and Tracy have been spending together, start making comments about what they’ve been seeing, leading to Michael to happily confirm their suspicions. Tracy has told Michael that she’s ready for their colleagues to know about their relationship as soon as Michael is, so Michael sighs and gives them all permission to spread the word.

This results in the rest of the bridge crew knowing what’s up within the hour if not earlier.

There are consent forms to be filled out for any relationships that exists within the command structure, so Michael makes sure to tell Saru–who is generally only questionably in the loop–about their relationship just before they submit their forms, so that he won’t get huffy about finding out from paperwork.

Tracy, knowing Michael wants to wait a little longer before the crew as a whole knows about their relationship, and being a fairly private person herself, tells just a few of her sickbay colleagues in confidence early on. She writes her dads on Earth a long letter every few weeks; in the letter she’s working on the day after she and Michael’s first date, she mentions briefly that she has a second date coming up with the brilliant, compassionate first officer of the ship; in her next letter, confirmation of their ongoing relationship and a little more about Michael gets two happy, lengthy paragraphs.

#trauma #trauma cw #injury #injury cw #burnham #pollard #michael x tracy #valentine's day f/f asks #ship asks #okay to rb #headcanons #meta #eta: I noticed the formatting is very weird on mobile (I typed it on desktop so not sure what happened) but am unable to fix it #apologies for the illegibility #hopefully it's just an app bug and will sort itself out

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1, 2, 17, honestly all of them if you’re up to it

1 - already answered

2. Do you have a personal favourite among your OCs?

L O R D T jupiter fuck man got damn id die for jupiter

3. Have you ever adopted a character or gotten a character from someone else?

i have adopted characters before, but ive never done anything with them, and i have received characters Back from people but besides that nah

4. A character you rarely talk about?

HI PLEASE I BEG OF YOU ASK ABOUT THE GODS PLE AS E IM DYING

5. If you could make only one of your OCs popular/known, who would it be?

fuck uh.. honestly if its only semi popular would i do this bc being Well Known would be nice, yeah, but.. it scares me? idk but uh probably leo or aero, theyre two boys i hold close to my heart

6. Two OCs of yours that look alike despite not being related?

:) eldur and leo kinda? idk i try not to make any of them look alike rip

7. Are your OCs part of any story or stories?

YES! theyre actually all part of one universe called cooking with demons! i have a whole game planned out for the man cast kinda? but all in all its all set within one universe, with multiple different stories occurring within it jhfdksg

8 - already answered

9. Would you ever be willing to give any of your OCs to someone else?

unless specfifically made for them upon request, no. ive already tried that once and it lead to me losing any and all control i had over my characters. At this moment, i only “share” a few ocs with my boyfriend @coffee-burglar and even then, its taken almost a year to even be able to do that

10. Introduce an OC with a complicated design?

uh, all of them are kinda complicated for me, but as of right now, that would go to leos full form. (if u want a ref hmu and ill post it, but it wont be my art)

11. Is there any OC of yours you could describe as a “sunshine”?

like a ray of sunshine? yeah! angel and stitch would fit perfectly for that!

12. Name an OC that isn’t yours but who you like a lot

@coffee-burglar their oc chrome n koh, or derek but thats bc im a hoe

13. Do you have any troublemaker OCs?

aero, jhor, innis, leo are all trouble makers to some degree, leo being the most trouble some

14. Introduce an OC with a tragic backstory

uhhhh fuck what counts as tragic?

i guess id have to say leo or jupiter mostly, but eldur fits too

15. Do you like to talk about your OCs with other people?

if youd let me i would yell about these fucks for hours on end, ive done it

16. Which one of your OCs would be the best at biology (school subject)?

the best but wouldnt enjoy it: Jupiterthe best and would absolutely enjoy it: colby

17. Any OC OTPs?

stitch/lavaaero/kohcolby/derek/inniswill/happiness aeyr/Eberictderek/Xhaztolleo/eldur

18. Any OC crackships?

jhfkdfsjghdfkjhgdkfjsgl i never talk abt it but will/aero is fucking A+

19. Introduce an OC that means a lot to you (and explain why)

ah,, leo. i originally made him to project the worst in myself onto, and because of that ive made his life a living shit hole. but,, recently ive been hell bent on giving him a good ending, one where he heals, and lives his life ok, where he finally, finally has a chance to be happy and get help. its,, kind of been a tiny growing point for me? he just, means a lot to me because of that haha

20. Do any of your OCs sing? If they sing, care to share more details (headcanon voice, what kind of songs they like etc)?

uhhh all of their voice claims are songs n such but only a few of them actually sing in canon! heres the voice claims of the ones who do sing:

Aero - thats his voice, but hed probably more likely to sing Something Like ThisAngelStitch - this is her voice! but shed be much more likely to sing something a lot more upbeat, kind of like thisColby (its jeremy from bmc jghfdkg)

and one i dont have a voice claim for yet that does sing canonically is Sycamore!

21. Your most artistic OC

!!!! oh thatd easily be will! hes nothing professional at all, but he does enjoy drawing and making diy type projects :0c hazels also artistic but with food :0c but what would you expect from a kitchen witch

22. Is there any OC of yours people tend to mischaracterize? If yes, how?

Hi My Names Skinny Penis And No One Has Ever Even Looked At My Ocs For More Than Two Seconds

23. Introduce OC that has changed from your first idea concerning what the character would be like?

lordt all of them would fit that, but the one thats changed the most? lordy thatd probably be will! he used to be a persona that was mostly only interested in dying and getting fucked, but now hes? evolved into a fully fledged character, and has even changed from being human lmao

24. If you could meet one OC of yours, who would it be and why?

jupiter, simply because he is The Biggest Comfort i have. hes,,, really important to me and i love him a lot

25. The OC that resembles you the most (same hobby, height, shared like/dislike for something etc?)

:) its bold of you to assume they dont all resemble me in some way. the most though? damian. lazy motherfucker with 200 emotional issues and no motivation to fix any of them

26. Have you ever had to change your OC’s design or something else about them against your will?

…yeah.

27. Any OCs that were inspired by a certain song?

Nope, most tend to be born from ideas spawned by me n my bf concepting about my ocs, and what would happen if this thing happened? yknow?

28. Your most dangerous OC?

He has yet to be revealed >:)c his names icarus

29. Which one of your OCs would go investigate an abandoned house at night without telling anyone they’re going?

INNIS, GOD INNIS WOULD AND HED PROBABLY DIE

30. Which one of your OCs would most likely have a secret stuffed animal collection?

secret: damiannot so secret: colby

31. Pick one OC of yours and explain what their tumblr blog would be like (what they reblog, layout, anything really)

uHHhhHh

damian would probably have a very shitty coded blog theme (or default) and would genuinely only reblog shitty, abstract memes, and nice food recipes for hazel to make him

32. Which one of your OCs would be the most suitable horror game protagonist and why?

protagonist? if youre going for the scared baby, colby. if ur going for the stoic “thats weird but ok” one, innis or aero.antagonist tho???? Leo and angelica :)

33. Your shyest OC?

uh, a oc thats genuinely shy and not just anxiety filled? angel :0c shes had a very limited interaction pool with anything thats not other angels so she tends to shy away from others bc she really, really doesnt want to get into awkward situations

34. Do you have any twin characters?

Jupiter and leo!

35. Any sibling characters?

Jupiter, leo, angelica, damian, eldur

jupiter, leo, damian, and angelica are all related via their dad, while eldur is related to damian via their mom

36. Do you have OC pairs where the other part belongs to someone else (siblings, lovers, friends etc)?

uhh if im understanding this question right yeah i do! derek, koh, n a lot of others belong to @coffee-burglar ! ive just roped them into my universe dkjfhkdjgh

37. Introduce an OC who is not quite human

Op All Of My Characters Are Inhuman

38. Which one of your OCs would be the best dancer?

surprisingly? aero! hes got really good rhythm and can actually dance really well, its kinda scary

39. Introduce any character you want

:)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) Ill let yall have a choice, pick one

1.) Lust2.) Greed

40. Any fond memories linked to your characters? Feel free to share!

fond?? uh,, not really. but damian does have a very important memory attached to him.

tw for suicide ment hjgkdfs

with damian, i created him after i tried to kill myself and was stuck in a mental hospital. i had just finished reaing the first shadowhunters book, and decided to try and draw the first demon(???? was that what he was?? im a dumbass and its been over 2 years) you met, which had bright blue hair and if i remember correctly, electric green eyes? but yeah. i made him to cope with all the mental stress i had while being forced to be in that hospital, and hes become very close to my heart because of that

41. Has anyone drawn fanart of your OCs? If yes, maybe show a picture or two here (remember sources & permissions!)

!!!!!!!!! yeah!!! my boyfriends drawn damian and most of my characters bgjkfdhgkfdsgl but one i do hold close to my heart (bc at the time, i barely knew them) was when @stuck-in-the-ghost-zone drew aeyr! it made me really happy tbh. i still have it saved to my phone actually!!!

42. Which one of your OCs would be the most interested in Greek gods?

uhhhh,,, provided that they found a way to get anything involving earth and their beliefs itd probably be either angel or colby. angel enjoys learning anything and everything she can, while colby enjoys hearing about the Tea™ that comes with greek shit

43. Do you have any certain type when you create your OCs? Do you tend to favour some certain traits or looks? It’s time to confess

lordt ok

i really just? enjoy making demons really, or anything that doesnt quite fit “conveniently attractive” in at least one form they have. (i also favor making guys bc im Gay)

44. Something you like about your OCs in general

how well theyre coming together, for so long, their stories have been little fractures and pieces that never fit together. Fragments. but now, theyre almost fully put together and its… wonderful to see

45. A character you no longer use?

a hi have.. one. their name was angel aura, a steven universe oc. i got rid of them because of too many.. bad things.

46. Has anyone ever told you that you treat your OCs badly?

not directly, but yes. it.. actually helped me give a lot of them a ok life, or at least a good ending

47. Has anyone ever (friendly) claimed any of your OCs as their child?

@coffee-burglar eldur, colby, will n a few others lmao

48. OC who is a perfect cinnamon roll, too good for this world, too pure

ELDUR GOD ELDUR PLEASE SOMEONE GIVE THIS KID BACK TO HIS MOM

49. Which one of your OCs would most likely enjoy memes

damian

50. Give me the good ol’ OC talk here. Talk about anything you want

ghjkfgkfdhgklfjhglkjdfhgslfjdgh give me a actual thing to talk about bc im dying op

#general oc tag #Anonymous

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justanotherbuckydevotee · 6 years

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lostmyhead - part 4 (final)

Word Count: 2,298 words. Prompt : Lovecraftian – Horrible and indescribable platonic love. Or in which you don’t know how to deal with your emotions. Warning(s): Usual angst, sad bucky (im sorry) A/N: At last, the final one! This series took a really really different route. Written for @hellomissmabel for her 2k Birthday Celebration. Thank you Annie for giving me the extra time. I hope you’ve enjoyed this mess of a fic. Now I can focus on memories. As always, I’d love to hear your thoughts and happy reading! PS: this blog turned 1 today <3

** gif not mine ** read previous >> part 3

It’s so damn bright.

The intense light overhead is the first thing that greets you when you blink your eyes open, eyelids heavy. Then your head is pounding, a series of painful throbs at the base of your skull and creeps its way to your forehead that you hiss. You swallow your dry throat uncomfortably, eliciting you to curse under your breath.

“That’s the first thing that comes out of your mouth?” a voice next to you laughed –an unrecognizable voice.

If you weren’t feeling so horrible you’d have the decency to say ‘screw you’ to this unknown person, but your body is adamant to let you suffer. You don’t get the chance to ask who this person is when you feel the ache around your arms and legs, the side of your hip particularly excruciating that you groan.

Finally, a team of nurses and doctors come flooding to your room, giving you that blissful shot of morphine to your system, sedating your muscles to relax. You don’t know how much time passed as you slept, but when you stirred the light isn’t from the fluorescent bulb but rather the sun.

The light comes in through the breaks of the curtain, landing to the floor of your room and giving you a calming feel.

“Hey”

You turn your head away from the window to see Sam smiling at you.

“Hi” you greet him back with a rasp roughly before coughing, grimacing at the sandstorm shoved down your throat. Sam quickly pours a glass of water for you, helping you sit up before you drank gratefully.

“What the hell happened?” you asked, looking down at your own body. Your hands make its way to your eyes, rubbing the drowsiness away. It’s then that you notice the bandage that’s tightened around your head. Panic slowly settles in as you try to remember what happened. You’re confused as you try to recall any memory of you in combat, but your thoughts are muddled and hazy.

“Take it easy, (y/n)” Sam tells you, hands holding your shoulder and forearm. “Could you tell me the last thing you remember?” he asked gently.

You tried to think, hard. What was the last thing you remember? What did you do before this? Where were you? Who was with you?

It’s taking a lot for you to remember anything, and Sam notices the symptom of someone struggling. “Okay, (y/n), could you tell me the date for today?” he asked, guiding you.

That’s easy so you answer him without any hesitation. You’re certain of this because one thing you remember clearly was the mission planned to attack a HYDRA base in Sokovia. You feel accomplished for a moment, relishing in the fact that you at least remembered something. But Sam’s been silent a little too long to let you know that it wasn’t something to be celebrated.

When you meet his gaze, you know for certain that something was wrong.

It’s a beautiful day; the sun is gracing its presence down on you as you walk with Natasha. Or rather, Natasha is the one walking and is the one leading, pushing you in a slow pace around the compound’s many outdoor areas. You lay your hands on the wheelchair’s handle as you looked around you.

After countless days of staying in the bed of the infirmary, you could feel your sanity slipping away; immobile on that damn bed, looking at the white walls that confined you, listening to your heart-rate monitor as nurses and doctors came in to check up on you once in a while. It left you to ruminate about the whole situation you’ve found yourself in.

You see Dr. Cho’s lips moving, explaining to you the effects of your state but you can’t register anything she’s saying. You’re looking at her with a distant stare, not believing that this was real. Then your eyes flicker to Sam and Bruce, eyebrows slowly furrowing. What if this was all a lie? A sick, twisted game played by the enemy? What if this is just a setup? You found yourself thinking to yourself.

“(y/n)” Helen’s hand suddenly breaks you from your thoughts. Her touch alarms you and before you know it you’re squirming for her to get her hands off of you. “Get away from me” you roared.

It doesn’t really shock Helen the way you’re behaving, but it does pain her to see you so distrustful. She’s back to square one now –the progress of friendship between you and her permanently lost. So she nods her head curtly, not daring to look up at your angered state, before leaving.

Sam and Bruce do all they can to help you cope, to help you understand but it’s all too much for you to take in. Your head is pounding, a throbbing headache generated from an overload of information. You can’t decipher which ones are the truth or lies, but your gut is telling, begging you to simply trust one person in the team.

“Where’s Nat?”

Which was how you ended up here. You only trust her enough to accompany you around, and when you asked if she could take you out with the excuse of needing fresh air and warm sunlight, Natasha doesn’t say no.

“You okay?” she asked.

You could only snort as a response, before answering with “I wake up to see myself beaten and concussed to the point where I don’t remember two whole years of my life. I’m peachy, Nat”

You know you shouldn’t be like this, shouldn’t snap at her when she was just being a friend. But the situation that’s befallen you is utterly frustrating. Two whole years of your life –24 months, 104 weeks, 730 days, forgotten.

You sighed, stopping. “I’m sorry” you apologize, looking up to meet her green eyes. “I just feel like this isn’t real. Like I’m being tricked” you confess. You felt cheated and, for some odd reason, you feel like it’s all your fault that you were here.

“Can you feel this?” she asked softly, her hand resting on your shoulder. It’s a simple touch, but it says a lot. You nod.

“This is real, (y/n). And I know it’s tough to wrap your head around it, but we’re here for you. We’re all here for you” she said, her tone gentle yet firm. “You just need to trust us, and I know it’s a big step, but we can’t help you if you don’t” she continues.

Neither of you say anything, letting the nature that surrounds you be the only noise accompanying you both.

Inside the building stood Bucky, the giant glassed window giving him the perfect view of you and Natasha. The bandage that was wrapped around your head is now gone, and he can see there’s color on your skin again. But your eyes. My god, your eyes.

Even in the distance, he can see how empty they looked. Your shoulders are slumped as Natasha continued to talk, defeated. He can see you’re half-listening, half-thinking, at Natasha’s words. He can’t take his eyes away from the scene in-front of him. The last time he was with you was the night you woke up, cursing in pain and obvious discomfort.

Standing here now, he wondered what’s going to happen next? How long are you going to be distrustful? How long before you trust them?

You twitched suddenly, feeling like you’re being watched.

“What’s wrong?” Natasha asked worriedly, moving to the front and kneeling in-front of you. “I just feel like I’m being watched” you answer her truthfully, before nervously looking around. You just see bushes upon bushes of lush green set in-front of the modern buildings and its vast glassed walls. Gradually you scan the upper floor, eyes landing on an unknown figure.

Bucky’s eyes meet yours. For a moment he doesn’t know what to do, something inside him whispering how much you’ll fear him.

“Who is that?” You ask Natasha, who let out a breath of relief at your genuine curiosity, glad to see you weren’t anxious.

“That’s Barnes, James Buchanan Barnes. Steve’s friend” she clarifies.

You turn your head to look at her, stunned. “Steve found him?”

She nods, pulling you to a nearby bench before she begins explaining. It’s long, detailed and something you needed to hear. You listen to her talk, engrossed in the stories she’s recounting. It’s oddly calming you, easing your body to relax, allowing your heart to start believing. When Natasha finishes her story, you lean back.

“All of that in the span of 2 years?”

If you were normal, you’d have thought it ridiculous.

But you aren’t –the world that you’re living in isn’t normal anymore. You live with literal Gods coming and going, enhanced individuals are created, inhumane experiments are being performed. You live in a world where the legendary stories of the mystical world make up parts of this reality. You remember then your secret, the one ability you were taught and told to keep confidential.

Natasha sees you reflecting all she’s said, realization dawning on you. She patiently waits for your reaction, only to be given a gentle and slow nod.

“I’d like to go back to my room now”

Weeks pass, and in that time you’re allowed to go back to your room.

Well, not really your room. But it was better than the hospital bed. You missed lying on your king sized bed, where there was no constant and vigilant people watching over you (try as they may to be stealth about it), where you weren’t strapped by delicate lines, your own privacy.

Thankfully you were healing speedily, the progress promising. After that afternoon with Natasha, you allowed yourself to have a sense of trust towards your team mates, had tried your best to ignore the nagging feeling of skepticism. You apologized to Helen, and Sam and Bruce, and anyone you’d thoughtlessly took your anger at (so many of the staff members).

Sprawled on your own bed, a notebook opened as your hands write down your thoughts, an activity suggested by your therapist to cope.

I only hope this next step will be the step that brings my memories back you jot down, thinking about your request to meet everyone (again) a few days ago. A knock on the door prompts you to stop, grabbing the crutch on your floor to help you properly stand before making your way towards the door.

With a simple twist, you unlocked it, pulling to reveal Steve standing there.

He looks down at you with a smile when you greet him brightly. “Ready?” he asked as you step out, closing the door behind you tightly.

“Yeah” you answer him nervously, rubbing your hands together in an attempt to ease your nerves. “Kinda feels weird, y’know? since they’ve met me before, but I haven’t. But then technically I have” you began to spit the words out, making Steve chuckle.

“It’s gonna be alright. They’re eager to see you”

Everyone’s gathered in the common room, sitting and chatting with one another in an attempt to lighten the mood. It all feels odd to Bucky because he was once at the receiving end of this.

For the first time in a while, he feels genuinely excited, because you were finally ready to meet everyone. He can’t help but let his smile be present as he listens to everyone converse with one another. He’d miss you, but the situation doesn’t permit him to simply come over to you anymore. He’d miss you, and it struck something inside of him knowing that you didn’t know a thing about him when he knew everything about you.

Was this how Steve felt when he met him back in D.C? Was this how you felt right before Steve brought him back to the compound?

He’s brought out of his little reverie when someone nudges his knees.

It’s Wanda.

Her big blue eyes are looking at him with an almost inscrutable expression, before giving him a slight nod towards the direction behind him.

“There she is” Sam is the first one to move and walk over to you, clearly delighted to see you again. Soon everyone’s made to move, except for three of the members.

Wanda, Bucky and Vision all stand behind, looking at the others rejoice.

“Here, meet Wanda” Clint brings you to a young woman with long brown hair cascading her shoulders. She’s looking at you with a look of curiosity and something you can’t quiet put your finger on. Still, you greet her with a smile.

“Hai” you say, shaking her hand in yours. “I’m sorry if this is awkward” you tell her earnestly, eliciting a smirk on her lips.

“It’s alright” she waves it off, extending her hand over to Vision before introducing her.

“Ms. (y/l/n)” “Oh, please just call me (y/n)”

Steve moves over to Bucky, who’s at the side watching the little exchange. “I know this is going to be awkward” he begins, noticing Bucky’s gaze over you. “But give it time. I’m sure it’ll be like before again” he continues, patting Bucky’s shoulder in an attempt to assure him.

But will it ever go back to the way it was?

The answer was simple.

No.

Because then you’re right in front of him, hands extended forward like the first time you met him.

“I’m (y/n). It’s nice to meet you, James”.

It physically hurts when his skin touched yours. He tries so hard to ignore the ache in his heart when the formal name comes out of your lips. It was clear to Bucky then that what the both of you had will no longer happen. But he manages to smile, seeing how everyone bated their breathe during this intimate introduction.

“Bucky. My name’s Bucky”

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Is there an ongoing pain or discomfort that a person can suffer that is worse than hemorrhoids?

I suppose there must be.

But I can’t think of what it might be.

I reckon I have a higher than average pain tolerance. I generally take discomfort quite well. I’m no complainer.

But sometimes the pain after a bowel movement hurt so much it made my eyes water.

And getting relief was next to impossible. Creams and ointments can only cope with so much… when the pain was at its worst, even lying down gave me no relief.

I don’t have hemorrhoids anymore. I got rid of them just over two years ago and they’ve never come back.

They’re not going to either.

Which, I realize, is a bold statement. How can I be so sure?

That’s easy. The method I used worked so quickly that it was clearly the cause of my hemorrhoids disappearing. I had stumbled on something that genuinely tackled those horrible things head-on.

After 3 weeks my hemorrhoids had reduced to almost nothing. Before finally disappearing for good.

There’s no accident here. Something that gets results so quickly has to be doing something right.

So when they finally disappeared I just knew they weren’t coming back.

And I was right.

Believe me, I tried everything you’ve ever tried.

And for 2 long years I tried it.

The creams and ointments…. Forget it. It took me a while to realize what was going on here but in the end I got it: ointments are simply addressing the symptoms.

They don’t stop the hemorrhoids coming back the next day.

I tried eating more fiber. It’s not as easy as it might sound. I got tired of salads and forcing myself to eat more vegetables.

I figured that some veggies would be better for my hemorrhoids than others… but I didn’t know which ones it might be. But despite eating everything in sight I didn’t really notice any change in the way I went to the toilet.

And the pain just went on.

I went to hospital for banding. If you’ve not heard of banding it’s a procedure where they tie bands around each hemorrhoid (I’m not kidding you). The resulting lack of blood flow to the hemorrhoid causes it to wither and fall off.

That worked for a while. It left me with a skin tag but that caused no problems. But over the next 4 months the hemorrhoids came back – with a vengeance. They were actually slightly worse than ever.

So then it was THD – transanal hemorrhoidal dearterialization. I was told this would be relatively pain-free.

I believed it. I shouldn’t have.

True, I did suffer some complications – all procedures carry risk – but I had a month of pain beyond description. I preferred the hemorrhoids, to be honest.

THD was my last procedure. When the hemorrhoids returned I more or less gave up on a cure.

So I carried on suffering all the frustrations that you’re probably experiencing now

Discomfort going to the toilet.

Real, sometimes searing pain afterward. For hours on end.

Bleeding. Which always worried me because of the risk of infection. I mean, an open wound in an area like that… I think you get what I mean.

Lack of mobility. I couldn’t walk comfortably or bend down at all when my hemorrhoids were at their worst. Trouble was, their worse became more and more frequent…

Hygiene… let’s not go too much into that. But you know and I know how difficult it can be to properly clean oneself when you’re swollen and in pain. There’s not much dignity to be had, that’s for sure.

Itchiness. I was luckier in that regard. But when it did itch, well… it itches like crazy.

Having to plan toilet visits so the pain afterward didn’t coincide with a social or work event. There’s no discomfort like having to smile at people, be physically active in ways you don’t want to be, be alert and attentive while you’re painfully swollen and, possibly, bleeding at the same time…

Finally, that permanent background fear of going to the toilet. Knowing, as I did, that it wasn’t going to be nice afterward.

Is any of this familiar to you?

If it is then I feel for you. I know what you’re going through.

At one point my doctor told me that I would probably have to live with the condition.

His advice? Readjust your idea of what it means to live ‘pain-free’.

In other words, take the level of pain and misery that your hemorrhoids are giving you… and try to regard that as your new ‘normal’.

I think that was one of the genuine low points in my time with hemorrhoids. That was one of the moments in which I wondered if I could really put up with this for the rest of my life.

Then… something happened

I can’t claim I did something clever or insightful.

It was no stroke of genius on my part.

In fact, I only got rid of my hemorrhoids by a stroke of luck really.

After more than 2 years of trying out everything that doctors advised me to try… I’d resigned myself to simply managing the pain. Just like my doctor had suggested.

I stopped hoping for a remedy because frankly… I didn’t believe there was one.

But the one thing I did continue to do – now and again – was read some online health forums.

And that’s where I struck gold.

One old forum I used to like had an entire thread devoted to the problems of hemorrhoids.

It felt comforting at times to read other people’s experience of the condition.

Made me feel less alone.

Because I found having hemorrhoids is quite isolating. I was embarrassed about it to some extent.

It’s not a pleasant thing to describe. How do you tell a person who has no experience of it what it’s really like?

For some people it’s a funny condition. Amusing, even.

Which is both infuriating and dispiriting.

Anyway, on one of the few occasions I logged in and read people’s comments I saw they were going on about alternative remedies for hemorrhoids.

I’m not really into all this ‘alternative’ stuff.

After all, doctors train for years. If they can’t cure something then, so far as I am concerned (or, more accurately, so far as I used to be concerned) that means it can’t be cured.

Right?

Well, perhaps not…

Gradually, the penny dropped….

I read the thread and, in truth, I was intrigued by what some of the contributors were saying about the underlying causes of hemorrhoids.

In particular a couple of people mentioned an approach to hemorrhoids they had taken that had made a startling difference to their condition.

There was endless conversation over it in the forum but the nub of the matter was this:

Hemorrhoids is caused. It doesn’t just happen. We get it for a reason.

If you can identify actual causes you have a fighting chance of remedying the condition itself.

I realized there and then the creams and hospital treatments I’d tried were tackling symptoms, not causes.

They addressed the hemorrhoids you’ve actually got rather than the condition that’s making them happen in the first place.

And here’s what this means to every single person currently suffering the pain of hemorrhoids:

Standard creams and treatments leave the causes of your hemorrhoids in place.

And if you leave the causes in place guess what? You get the symptoms again.

Swelling. Itching. Bleeding. Pain.

What they were saying in this forum was that, like many physical conditions, hemorrhoids are caused by some of the simplest activities known to man or woman, namely:

What we eat

How we move

Most of us have some pretty unhelpful habits in these two areas. If we also have a susceptibility to hemorrhoids then these bad habits will ensure we get those hemorrhoids.

Now, at first I was both excited and a bit deflated by that news.

For one thing, I don’t want diet advice – I really can’t stand diets. I’ve tried a couple in the past and they really don’t suit me.

And I certainly don’t want an exercise program. All those silly moves and jumping about. It just isn’t me.

Turns out though that it’s not like that at all.

And that added to my underlying sense of excitement.

I was reading in that forum about people who’d had painful, long-lasting hemorrhoids for years… but who were getting rid of them in weeks.

There were two main contributors to the discussion in this forum: a lady who had successfully got rid of her hemorrhoids using this approach.

And a man who had only been using the approach for a couple of weeks. His hemorrhoids had shrunk to almost nothing – they were nearly gone.

The lady told us that although she had lost 7 pounds in a month she had eaten more food than she had ever eaten before.

So no diet then. Which was good news for me.

Anyway, weight-loss is just a happy side effect. Weight-loss isn’t the point of this approach.

Here’s the real point:

There are two really, really bad habits that are strong contributors to hemorrhoids.

If you acquired hemorrhoids due to heavy lifting or through pregnancy then these two bad habits are going to make it very difficult for you to shift them.

If you already are naturally susceptible to hemorrhoids then these two bad habits make it almost certain you’ll get them. And you may well get them really bad.

To repeat:

The first bad habit is around what we eat.

The second bad habit is around how we move.

And to cut to the chase:

We eat the wrong stuff.

And we move too little – or we move enough but not in the right way.

Both are very easy to remedy. Much, much easier than I imagined, actually.

I’ll explain it here:

Bad Habit 1 – I was eating the wrong stuff

To be honest, I like my food and don’t really want to change my eating habits.

But get this: modern medical science has stated this for decades: food is medicine.

(Ancient medicine has known it for centuries – but that’s a different discussion).

In other words, all the different natural foods have their own protective and healing properties.

Food has known and measurable effects on us.

So although we tend to eat for pleasure the truth is we can direct our eating towards specific, well-defined goals.

Like removing hemorrhoids.

How do we do that?

Well, the mechanics of hemorrhoids are well-known: they include unhealthy bowel movements, weak blood vessels and severe inflammation.

At the same time, the properties of different foods are also very well-understood: anti-inflammatory, promote very efficient bowel movements, strengthens blood vessels, reduces swelling, relieve pain, and so on.

Food choices are hemorrhoids choices

When you look at the scientifically evidenced health-giving properties of natural foods you end up realizing…

…that there are many foods that seem to have been almost purposely designed to relieve and remove hemorrhoids.

One of the reasons I suffered my hemorrhoids for so long was that I didn’t know which foods they were.

I wonder if that’s the case for you too?

Because it’s all very well endlessly stuffing fiber down your throat – but if more fiber was the answer nobody would have hemorrhoids, would they?

We have to be smarter than that.

Understanding which foods directly affect hemorrhoids means we can take control of the condition and do something about it.

For example, some types of fiber have much, much better anti-hemorrhoids effects than others.

That’s the fiber we want to be eating.

Other foods contain natural astringents and anthocyanins – both these decrease hemorrhoid swelling and so reduce that awful pain. Again, we’d want to make absolutely certain we’re getting these foods in our diet.

Yet other foods specifically combat coagulation and inflammation within the circulatory system – primary causes of the development of swollen, painful blood vessels.

And so on.

Combining the very best medicinal and curative foods has an unavoidably positive effect on hemorrhoids. You can’t help but get better if you’re eating the range of foods whose effect is to make you better.

It is intelligent to focus on foods that can end this hemorrhoid misery for us. That’s the approach those people in the online forum were taking.

Bad Habit 2 – I was moving wrong

The second habit is to do with movement.

I thought at first that meant ‘exercise’ but it doesn’t. Not in the sense that you and I understand exercise, anyway.

The basic bad habit here is this:

we sit too much and move too little.

Both of these are significant factors in your hemorrhoids pain.

As a typical westerner I spend way too much time sitting.

Sure, I walk here and there – but that’s usually for minutes at a time.

Whereas I sit – on the sofa, at a desk, in my car, on the bus – for hours.

Sitting too long is very bad for hemorrhoids.

(As a side-note: too much sitting – which two-thirds of Americans are guilty of – also raises your risk of heart disease, diabetes, stroke, high blood pressure, and high cholesterol.)

So we need to move a bit.

But not all movement is equal.

All that weight training stuff… getting all sweaty, straining… doing sit-ups every day… that’s not helping at all.

In fact, certain types of strenuous exercise is shown categorically to make hemorrhoids worse.

Movement that eases the causes of hemorrhoid pain is gentle movement. They’re nurturing.

In fact, you can perform those movements while you’re watching television.

There’s no jumping about. No special equipment.

Perform the right movements and you’re giving your body the healing that it craves.

A lot of this has been known elsewhere for centuries. We just haven’t been making proper use of it.

Now we can. I did. And I’m so so glad that I did…

Address these two bad habits, get rid of hemorrhoids

So these two bad habits around eating the wrong foods and not moving enough (in the right way) are the reason your hemorrhoids continue to have such a miserable – and, possibly, worsening – effect on you.

So address your eating habits and you’ve stopped doing the things that make hemorrhoids possible.

Eat the specific foods that directly tackle the different aspects of hemorrhoids and you’ve taken away hemorrhoids’ ability to exist in the first place.

Perform a couple of gentle movements that help those hemorrhoids fade away.

And you’re done.

I maintain these simple but powerful habits to this day. I have not had a single instance of anything even remotely like hemorrhoids for a year.

I honestly don’t expect to experience them ever again.

So.. what about you?

If you realized you could say ‘goodbye’ forever to hemorrhoids… would you make these basic changes to your daily habits?

Is getting rid of that pain worth it?

Yes, it is! But… how?

Okay, so the key to all of this is, of course: how the heck do we put this all together?

Well, that is a trick question…

Because I already know the answer.

The lady on the chat forum who had successfully got rid of her hemorrhoids – and the gentleman who was in the process of doing the same – happened to both be following the same program.

They told us about the program and how it worked for them.

The program is called the Hemorrhoids Healing Protocol and it has been created, tested and proven by Scott Davis.

It turns out that Scott is a well-regarded alternative health practitioner. He concentrates on the causes of various conditions. He then applies non-drug, non-surgery treatments for those causes.

Scott’s approach to remedying unpleasant but persistent conditions is pretty simple, really.

Successfully tackling the causes of a condition means you’ve successfully got rid of the condition. Which makes sense: without the causes there can be no condition, can there?

His Hemorrhoids Healing Protocol is designed to remedy the specific bad habits around food and movement that directly cause the condition in the first place.

A long story cut short: I was so determined to get shot of my miserable condition that I bought Scott’s Hemorrhoids Healing Protocol that morning.

It’s not like me to be so spontaneous. But these damn things had made my life miserable and if there was a chance of making them disappear I was willing to go for it.

I got rid of these awful hemorrhoids of mine in under a month. They’ve never returned.

I have zero swelling, zero bleeding, zero itching… and absolutely zero pain.

It wasn’t an immediate fix. But it was a quick fix.

It took about 3 weeks for things to clear up. Certainly before a month was out I was pretty much a new – and significantly happier – person.

So what does this involve?

There are some obvious – and understandable – questions you might have about Scott’s protocol.

Such as:

What is it?

What do I do to make it work?

Am I going to have to change my life in order to do this?

I’m time-poor and cash-strapped – is this expensive? Does it take long?

Let me just answer these clearly – and bluntly – and let you decide if it’s for you.

Put simply, the protocol addresses those two bad habits I mentioned:

first, not eating foods that are known to directly reduce and remove the causes of hemorrhoids.

And, second, not moving in ways that, basically, ease and then reduce them.

First, the food aspect:

Scott describes the precise foods that act directly on the weaknesses that cause hemorrhoids.

He treats food as medicine – which is what it really is – and shows you the foods that remedy hemorrhoids.

He turns those foods into easy-to-prepare but very tasty recipes. They’re quick to prepare too – Scott realizes that if they take too much prep time people simply won’t do them.

If you aren’t a natural cook – or your culinary skills are only basic – you’ll no doubt be pleased to hear this.

On a personal note, one thing that I was most happy about was that this isn’t a diet!

So I ate as much as I liked. (But if you’re underweight check with your doctor before starting – some people report some fat-loss with this protocol.)

Also, none of these foods are exotic items that you’ve never heard of.

They’re all available in your local supermarket. Some of them you might not previously have tried but they’re widely available.

And because they’re easy to source they’re not at all expensive. You don’t have to go to specialist outlets to acquire them.

So – easy to find foods, simple ways of turning them into delicious meals, inexpensive and tasty. There are no portion restrictions and you can still eat many of your favorite foods.

You’ll be a happy eater.

But you’ll also be a much smarter eater.

Which is what your hemorrhoids desperately need. And it’s why you’ll start to see improvements in your condition more quickly than you might dare to hope…

Then the exercises:

Scott’s movement plan centers around exercises that nurture healthy bowels and relieve hemorrhoids’ painful symptoms.

They strengthen the anal muscles and reduce swelling and discomfort. They tackle constipation head-on by stimulating the abdomen.

Although, to be honest, they’re not really exercises as you and I might imagine them.

And given that I’m a bit… lazy… I was delighted to see most involve sitting or, even better, lying down.

In fact, there’s a couple you can do and nobody would even know you’re doing them.

I mostly do my exercises whilst watching TV or listening to music. Actually, that’s how I remember to even do them. The moment I decide to watch something it’s my cue to also quickly do my exercises.

It’s really lovely to be doing these movements with such ease. It’s wonderful, actually.

What do I have to do to make it all work for me?

The simple answer? Not much.

The Hemorrhoids Healing Protocol provides a lot of insightful information that, despite my various inquiries, I’d not heard of.

But Scott does one special thing that, for me, is the key to his whole program actually working.

Instead of dumping lots of interesting and inspiring facts on people – and then leaving us to work out how to apply it – he has created a 3-week, step-by-step plan for us to follow.

3 weeks to freedom from hemorrhoids

I didn’t have to think about how I was going to apply Scott’s knowledge. His Protocol did all my thinking for me and showed me exactly what to do.

So I now shop a little differently.

I still go to the same shops… but I choose slightly different foods for some of my meals.

When I watch TV I don’t just sit there idle anymore. For short periods I do some of the healing movements that helped ease my pain and shrink the swelling.

Doing this ensures not just that the hemorrhoids go. It ensures that they stay gone.

A year after using Scott’s program I can confirm that they have gone, they’ve stayed gone – and I absolutely know they aren’t coming back.

Also – as a bonus – he also describes some really useful ways to get instant relief from hemorrhoid symptoms while the main program is taking effect.

And while my symptoms reduced quickly I did use his instant relief advice for a week or two because, to be honest, I was still experiencing some pain.

But once the program started taking effect the improvement I felt was really, really quick.

I mean, one day I went to the toilet, things were over pretty quickly… and there was no swelling.

And with no swelling there was no pain.

And no bleeding.

It was sort of… weird at first… like something was missing.

But it was a very nice weird!

Just recollecting that first time when everything worked out still makes me smile, even now…

And you?

I’ve talked a lot about my experiences here. What about you?

What would not suffering hemorrhoids mean for you?

If they were gone 3 weeks from now… what would that feel like?

What’s the one thing that would make you most happy about not suffering hemorrhoids any more?

For me, saying goodbye to hemorrhoids meant the end of pain. That was the number one thing for me.

And then no uncomfortable swelling.

No embarrassing difficulties keeping myself clean.

And the other thing… that people who don’t suffer hemorrhoids wouldn’t understand:

Not having to think, plan or worry about the next hemorrhoids attack. And how that attack might affect a social or work event.

Acquiring Scott Davis’ Hemorrhoids Healing Protocol was one of the single best decisions I’ve ever made. I’m so glad I did it.

I do wish I’d done it earlier. I went through some pretty nasty medical procedures – and 2 years of misery.

It simply wasn’t necessary. There was a much better way of tackling it – I just didn’t know what it was.

And it’s the same for you. You don’t have to put up with hemorrhoids either.

They’ve caused you enough suffering. You don’t want this pain anymore.

Which is, I’m guessing, why you’re actually here reading this now. Perhaps you’ve reached that point where enough is more than enough. and you’ve decided today to address the problem once and for all.

Good for you.

It’s the right time to be doing this.

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They once suffered hemorrhoids. And now they don’t.

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This is going to work for you. It worked for me. There are so many people whose only regret about using Scott’s protocol is… that they didn’t find it sooner.

I’m so glad I got rid of my hemorrhoids so quickly. I wouldn’t wish them on anybody.

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There’s never any blood. Everything is always perfect.

It’s your turn now. Be kind to yourself.

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And they don’t have to happen.

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The key, then, to permanently ending hemorrhoids pain is to address those identified causes. With the causes removed hemorrhoids simply can’t exist.

It simply doesn’t have to be complicated.

Bad habits cause hemorrhoids. I addressed the bad habits that created my hemorrhoids… and so my hemorrhoids ceased.

It’s really that simple.

One thing I think you know for certain: they won’t go on their own.

But they will go if you make them go.

Scott will show you how to do that. Every single step.

In about 3 weeks I was able to go to the toilet without suffering any swelling. Without pain or bleeding. Without worry.

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It doesn’t stand still. It gets better or it gets worse.

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