everyone shut up about emmet. pokemon legends z-a has potential to do the stupidest thing imaginable.

-_- whatevr. *frolics off*

it’s fascinating how trans women on here are tokenized to signal people’s comraderie with trans (terfs dni in bio/trans women are loved here), while at the same time we’re also harshly ejected from communities and painted as predators for piecemeal grievances that are handwaved away when done by non trans women. you can say all kinds of nasty stuff about someone, and as long as she’s a trans woman, people will believe it! people love the ideal of a trans woman but haven’t worked on their biases enough to do anything but grow to despise actual trans women

You’ve heard of He Would Not Fucking Say That. Now get ready for: He Would Not Fuck Like That

Anyways, I cannot fucking understate the psychic damage that is done by transitioning as a trans- masc while being a person of color.

People already didn’t listen to my opinion and boundaries before my voice and body started passing as somewhat male. But as I’ve started to pass, more and more often, my voice and opinions and boundaries are not only ignored; I’m treated as hyper-aggressive/hostile/mean, inagreeable, and stubborn.

Even by my loved ones and friends, they way they treat the words that come out of my mouth or words through text has changed.

When I cannot say “What you said/did hurt me and I need you to own up to that in some actually active way, or at least apologize.”without invoking white tears - when I cannot get upset over boundary crossing and being ignored without invoking anger about my “attitude”… How am I meant to exist safely?

So hello! I'm sitting here stewing over the Watcher news. Like. I too, firmly believe in creators getting paid. But like, also, they have to create content people WANT to watch. I don't watch any of Steven Lim's stuff.

A lot of people have talked about it but, there's something so viscerally infuriating about watching someone eat, which is basically half of my paycheck or more on a single dish. I don't like it! I don't watch it. And the fact that they've confirmed that at least a portion of their content is going to be that moving forward means that that would be the content I'm paying for.

And I won't do it. I will go back and watch podcasts. I actually stopped listening to most of their content in favor of other channels at this point, like I swapped over a lot of the content to Simon Whistlers channels (shout out to him and his writing team) because it covers a lot of the topics that Watcher covered, but it greater detail and with the same-ish bias.

Sure. Creatives deserve to be paid for their work. But when you're asking your community, which is barely getting by, suffering record inflation and a housing crisis "please pay for our videos" the answer for a lot of them is going to be "no" because they can't afford it or don't think that the content you make is worth it.

You can make it about the righteousness of paying creators if you want, but realize, most of these people are supporting creators. I'm subscribed to about five patreons which are about the cost of Watcher. I do not value Watchers content more than these others creators I'm subscribed to currently, and will not cancel one of those subscriptions for this. And that's fine. One third of their content being unpalatable (haha) to me means it isn't worth that money.

So I'll unsubscribe. I'll watch other content and be on with it.

Edit: I'm home now and can add links for alternatives.

Decoding the Unknown > Historical Mysteries Channel, goes over things like The Bermuda Triangle, Jersey Devil, Urban Legends, etc.

The Casual Criminalist > What it says on the tin, True Crime Show, thoughtfully researched and abstains from unnecessary gore

Into the Shadows > Darker Social/Historical Topics

Biographics > Also what it says on the tin, Biographies of different people, spans all throughout history

Highlight History > Look into a variety of historical topics, unfortunately, does not have a gameshow-like element, but informative

I saw some dumb shit on reddit and after being down voted to all hell made some memes to express myself

Crawling back out of hiding to say that I don’t think we talk about epilepsy on here as much as we should

Epilepsy is not just the “flashing lights and bright colors disease.” It just isn’t. There are so many different variables that make up what a seizure is, and I feel like the word “seizure” in and of itself is really only understood in the case of tonic-clonic (“Grand Mal”) seizures, i.e. the most dramatic type of seizure that can cause loss of consciousness (LOC), as just one example.

Not all of them cause LOC! In fact, a seizure can be as simple as “staring into space” for a spell and losing time, sometimes while making involuntary twitchy or jerky movements. They may feel like being in a dream, or invoke a sense of deja vu. They may cause muscle stiffness, dizziness, or tingling. Sometimes people respond differently while in a seizure, and may sound confused or dazed. Sometimes they can cause random feelings of happiness or anxiety. And then there’s also the repetitive movements that can sometimes look like stimming. 

Another thing that’s misunderstood is that not everyone person with epilepsy is photosensitive (i.e., sensitive to flashing lights and such), and seizures in general aren’t just triggered by flashing lights or colors alone. Seizures can also be triggered by specific times of the day, sleep deprivation, alcohol or drug use, stress, hormonal changes and periods, nutritional factors, medications, etc. 

According to Mayo Clinic, epilepsy is usually diagnosed when two seizures unprovoked occur within 24 hours of each other. An EEG can detect electrical activity in the brain, and is generally used in epilepsy workups. It is even used during sleep and can be a helpful aid in detecting nocturnal seizures (yes, those are a thing as well).

There are, as described above, several different types of seizures. Mayo clinic does a good job in identifying what type is which, but keep in mind that epilepsy is not something that can be self-diagnosed. If you think you might have epilepsy, talk to your doctor so they can assist with assessment.

With summer approaching I just wanna remind people that “Hawaiian” is not a summer party theme.

My people, my culture and our history are not your summer aesthetic. My heritage isn’t a theme or a costume.

Those parties with plastic lei and “sexy” hula costumes only add to the harmful ignorance and degrading stereotypes that surround my people.

We’re not sexual objects, we’re not an aesthetic, we’re not pineapple shaped party decorations or paper umbrellas in your drinks.

We’re human beings who deserve respect and acknowledgement. We’re a culture and a history that deserves honor and remembrance.

Casual and ignorant racism is still racism.

[through gritted teeth] life is good because we make it good

patron saint of leaving your early 20s

stained glass bat ( source. )

from the very start the road hongjoong took to get where he is now has been rocky between his career choice not being ideal to his family to pursuing a company with such a passion that he sent in a cd of his work through registered mail directly to the ceo only for them to ignore it for a year and by absolute chance someone found it when they were moving. and to be introduced into this place he wanted to work at and being told you must do well if you want other trainees to come. you have to be good so others will join. while being alone and the first and only trainee for 6 months in a company who had less than/equal to 10 employees at the time and had no experience with trainee idols in any sort of way. and his mentor being so harsh and unwilling to teach him that he gave him a difficult task and giving him scathing remarks on his first day and yet. hongjoong still looked at that situation where he was hurt and belittled and said 'if nothing else, i need to prove this one man wrong and get him to respect me'. to have 40+ songs created by him before debuting and losing everything except the mp3 files on all those songs bc someone happened to break into their residence in the states during ateez's training and to still pick himself up and remake some of those songs despite that. hongjoong is someone so in love with his job and his dream and so persistent in the perfection of his craft beyond it being a fame game or for money or for attention. a lot of his art gets lost in the process because the edenary team is unwilling to look outside themselves and allow him the space to grow and develop inside ateez's sound, and you'll constantly hear hongjoong say that he doesn't make much music for ateez because the sounds he makes don't suit ateez but i think that's a bs excuse the production team are feeding him bc he is this fundamental foundation in ateez. he is ateez, he is part of ateez, he is someone who represents ateez no matter what he does. there is no one better suited to help ateez flourish than the members themselves and as the captain and leader and the one person ateez was built around, hongjoong deserves the platform for his creativity and work.

Smoking that shit that made Gilles Deleuze it

feeling soft ❣️