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speakeasier · 2 months

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yo, ohh my gosh. i'm not even exaggerating. like, legit, foreals. i spent from midnight to fucking five in the morning legit scrolling comments on youtube...ABOUT A HORROR MOVIE, LAUGHING.

but what's so funny is that i'm kind of afraid to even watch the video because people were saying that it was even hard to watch the explanation of it because it's so gory??? and one of the lines said in the video was 'it makes saw look like sesame street'.

like, gore i can handle to an extent. i'm not one to faint over blood or like, a limb being cut off. but this movie is apparently known for how controversial and brutal it is in terms of the gore. this is the first time hearing about it from a french fry friend. which, FUNNY ENOUGH. IS A FRENCH HORROR MOVIE, LAUGHING. but that's besides the point.

i am genuinely so fucking fascinated by everything i've read even without witnessing a hint of the video and like. only one or two thumbnails while searching up what is up with this movie. homeboy told me it was one of those movies that kind of fucked him up and made him think. it stuck with him. and i was like...okay, i kind of want to know more.

and like. MAN. the comments are selling it to me, wikipedia was only the tip of shit. but i'm just also fucking afraid that if i see it, i will never get a part of my soul back and be traumatized??? like, from what i can tell, the story is so genuinely well written and haunting. and the theories are so interesting because it's one of those left for interpretation things. and gosh.

sorry for this late night/morning passionate rant, i just can't get enough. like, i'm not usually afraid of horror. there was only one movie that got to me in terms of that genre and it was the original thai 'shutter'. but this one, i'm just like. this might fuck me up hella bad, but i kind of want to know....

like, not even joking, all i've been seeing since midnight was all this shit!!! stopping only because i'm getting actually tired!!! p.s. i think some people be speculating wrong because of subtitles, but could just be me!!!

doutez, etienne. blows a kiss to something that can never be mine.

#me laughing in past grilled cheese hours if anyone is curious since i'm not sure if anyone cares much for this post since LOLOL it's horror #but it's called 'martyr' if anyone has the nerve to even look up a hint of what it is!!#gosh i am genuinely so deep into it or like the comments #this is giving me 'the house of fallen leaves' kind of feelings #in the sense of not that they're similar stories or have the same kind of horror or dread??? but that like #i'm so facinated by these two particular things but i have not actually consumed them #because comments really be do saying they don't feel the same after consuming it???#LIKE MAN I WANT TO BUT ALSO DO I WANT TO BE...TRAUMATIZED???#anyways yeah sorry i had to go on a rant i am now about to pass the fuck out #hope i don't have nightmares LOLOL #i had one more thing to say but i forgot anyways night morningggg

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expecto-kedavra · 1 year

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Hi i love your MC's man bun lolol

but i was wondering if i could request a male mc ravenclaw piece where he is trying to work through trauma caused from ranrok? also could you use me/i perspective cause i've never seen that written for HL on here

the longer the better!

First off, thank you! Second, this was a great first ask as I myself am a male Ravenclaw/Slytherin who has dealt with trauma ✌️I HOPE ITS NOT TOO LONG 😂

RAVENCLAW M!MC DEALING WITH THE AFTER EFFECTS OF RANROK

!Warning! - insomnia, nightmares, grieving over death, loved ones dying, PTSD.

4,257. That's how many stars were on my Ravenclaw dormitory ceiling. I had long memorized the constellations before all of this, and I quite wished I hadn't. It would be another wonderful way to pass the time. I sat up on my bunk, and let out a large, dramatic exhale. I looked down at Amit, and chuckled as I saw him drooling into his pillow. It was a wonder that he was able to sleep with the dragon that was Everett snoring in the bunk on the other side of the room. I always managed before, but not now. Not anymore. I usually don't dream, and if I did it was something ridiculous like Sebastian turning into a Runespoor. It started the night of Ranrok. The night he attacked Hogwarts. The night Professor Fig...left.

It had been six months since the events underneath the school. Six months since the nightmares began. The first time it happened, I thought I was awake. I was in Hogsmeade, but it was...different. There was a low fog covering everything. From out of it walked Victor Rookwood. "Impossible. You're dead!" I screamed at him. He let out a low, cruel chuckle. "Arrogant child. Thinking death is the end." He grabbed my shoulder and we disappeared into a writhing black mess of flames. I dropped onto the floor of the Final Repository, right in front of the demonic dragon that was Ranrok. I barely could stand before I was incinerated by a massive black wave of heat, death and pain. Then I woke up. They all started like this, for the first week or so. Then they got worse. I could handle those ones. I couldn't handle the ones that came after. The ones with my friends. At first it was Professor Fig, and I had hope. I thought he would save me, just as he had so many times before. I was foolish to think that. Ranrok eviscerated him. I was left to grieve again, crying over his body as the ghostly forms of Rookwood and Ranrok cackled over me, telling me how I will always fail. Of course it got worse after that. It was no longer Fig, but my friends. Sebastian, Ominis, Amit, Poppy, Samantha...all dying horrible and painful deaths, while the ghosts of my enemies laughed at my failure to protect them. It was easier to just stay awake. Brewed several wakefullness potions in the room every day, so it wasn't hard to keep myself up. It was dreadfully boring though.

Eventually the morning caught up with my thoughts and it was luckily time to head to class. Classes were easy. Like Fig always said, I had an affinity for magic, which meant I seemed to absorb everything and didn't have much struggle with anything. Unfortunately, I seemed to always drift off into my own thoughts, which would always lead me back to Fig. How he gave his all, literally to his death, to help me seal the repository. I hadn't been down there since. As soon I decided to pay a visit tonight, Professor Hecat called on me. "And MC, could you tell us the difference between a Lethifold and a Dementor?" She looked at me with that knowing look she always had, like she was fully aware of everything I was thinking. "A Lethifold is classified as a Beast, and eats its victims, whereas a Dementor is a non-being and sucks out the soul of its prey." I effortlessly answered. "Correct, and how do we repel them both should they cross our path?" She knew that I knew this. Why did she ask? "A patronus charm." I'd never cast a patronus before. Quite frankly I'm unsure if I'd be able to. "Correct again. Points to Ravenclaw." she beamed. "We must remember that happiness is subjective, and often finds itself accompanied by other emotions, even sadness." Again she looked deeply at me, almost studying my very thoughts. "That is all for today, class dismissed!" I couldn't help but feel her piercing eyes follow me out of class.

"MC!" I heard from behind me. It was Samantha Dale, one of my closest friends. "Hey, Sammy. How are you?' I asked. "Doing well, thank you. I was wondering if you'd join me in the gardens? I'd like to ask you something about..uh...nature." she seemed to stumble over the last mouthful. "Oh, sure. I'd think you wouldn't need any assistance in that area, you're an expert." Something seemed a bit out of place, but I didn't press for more. Turns out she needed help identifying a beehive, and if Glumbumbles had infested it. They hadn't. Once we had concluded, I turned to head out of the gardens and on to Charms. I was called back by Samantha. "You are stronger than you know." she said. That was what Fig said before I summoned everything within me to seal the repository. Why did she say that? I abruptly turned, confused. "Thank you." I managed to get out. The thought barraged my brain...why did she say that?

The rest of the day was uneventful. I visited Hogsmeade with Natty, and helped Poppy with some Kneazle trouble. Darkness fell, and after I was certain everyone was asleep, I headed down to the Map Chamber with the assistance of a disillusionment charm. When I reached the large sleeping dragon statue, I was startled to see someone there. Professor Hecat. "Welcome." she said. I removed my charm. No doubt her years as an Unspeakable had fine tuned her senses. It was useless to try and pass. "Lovely night, isn't it?" she said, rather gently. "If one can avoid Peeves and his flaming pins, I'd say so." I replied. She laughed. "Yes, well I suspect you have something and someone to attend to. I'll leave you to it." This lady will always astound and confuse me. "I suppose so, Professor." I responded, trying to keep the confusion out of my voice. Who was she talking about? The portraits? She was there for the battle of the repository, so I knew that she had met the Keepers. I picked my brain as to any other hidden meanings she may have been trying to allude to as I made my way down the spiraling stone stairs. I decided she must have meant the Keepers and they must have some new knowledge or task for me. I was wrong.

Once I entered the Map Chamber, I was greeted by four very empty portraits. "Strange." I muttered to myself. I pushed Professor Hecat's cryptic words to the back of my head and meandered down to the repository. Sealed, blue and glowing, as it should be. I could feel the power emanating from it. So much pain. literally, went into it. So much loss...and luckily, so much more prevented. I shuddered at the thought of Ranrok gaining that power. It would be my nightmares come to life. Right as I sat in front of it, a warm, familiar voice rang through the cold air.

"Shouldn't you be in bed?" I turned with a start, wand drawn. Once I saw who was speaking to me, it clattered to the floor. "Professor Fig?" I croaked. His pale ghostly form stood just a few feet in front of me. Well, hovered, not stood. "Yes, my young friend." I apologize I didn't present myself to you sooner, but I wanted to speak to you here. I enlisted the help of some friends to get you here." His voice was just as comforting as I remembered. Suddenly, Samantha and Professor Hecat's words all made sense. "I'm sorry, Professor." I tried to force down the lump in my throat. "I'm sorry I couldn't save you." I fell to the ground, and six months of emotions poured out of my eyes. I felt him kneel beside me. Even as a ghost, he felt warm. "Do not burden yourself with this shame my friend. It is not your fault." His tone was reassuring. "But if I did more, if I tried harder.." I choked through sobs. "Maybe you'd still be here." I looked at him, and saw him smile. "My dear, young friend. You are stronger than you know. You saved so many souls. Do you know why some of us become ghosts?" He mused. I gathered myself. "Yes, when we have unfinished things that our souls cling to after death. Like that poor chap who has to run away from his wife, the one with the ax." I couldn't help but chuckle. "Precisely, and do you know why it is that I am here before you?" He asked, in that very professor-ly tone. "I can't say I do sir." He responded before I could even get the words out. "You, my dear MC." he said lovingly. "Me?" I sniffed. "Yes." he chuckled. "I never told you how much you meant to me. I had may students over many years. None like you." "What none of them could wield an ancient and powerful magic?" I joked. "Of course not, but that's not what I mean. You were more than just a student to me. You were my friend, and my adventure companion. You constantly were impressing me, not only with your magical abilities, but your kindness, cleverness, and incredible sense of love for the world." He stopped abruptly, as though he was swallowing his own lump in his throat. "Miriam's death left me devastated and alone. This pain I shoved deep down, but it still seemed to leave me a tad bitter. Once you came along, however, I found myself laughing and smiling once again. Miriam truly would have loved you, my friend. As I did." I looked at his face, and saw tears streaming down his cheeks. "If I may, you were a son to me. And I am beyond proud of you. You will change the world." As soon as he ended his sentence, a brilliant yellow light filled the room. I shielded my eyes, and saw a figure emerging out of the brilliant golden aura. A short, older witch with a straw hat and half-moon glasses. She had an infectious smile and the kindest eyes I'd ever seen. Miriam. I saw Professor Fig rise to meet her, and take her hand. "I have said what I needed to say. Good luck, my young, capable friend." with that, he turned and entered the light, hand in hand with his beloved. "Now I shall rest." The light faded. I laughed to myself, and wiped the dried tears from my cheeks. "Yeah, me too Professor." and rest I did. The best sleep I'd had in a very long time.

#hogwarts legacy #hogwarts legacy oc #professor fig #x reader #y/n #male mc #wizarding world #ravenclaw #gryffindor #hufflepuff #slytherin #harry potter #hogwarts #hogwarts houses #harry potter universe

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esta-elavaris · 1 year

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for the ship drabble challenge, number 10 and/or 13, I couldn't choose.

Also I adored catch the wind so much I loveeed their dynamic. I was looking for a movie to watch tonight and I had such trouble because all I could think was "I just want James and Theodora :( these romances don't compare"

Aaaa don't do this to me, my heart can't take it. Thank you! I know exactly how you feel though - I work on other WIPs now and I'm like "I just want them back, I want to write CTW all over again from the start, take me baaaack". It's why I have the little one-shot collection, it gives me an outlet, I'd be going through all five stages of mourning at once rn if I didn't have that. It's just a relief people aren't getting bored of them before I am at this rate lolol.

ANYWAY the prompt for no. 13 is below the cut -- "I'll do a paragraph or two!" turned into this I am very sorry 💀 I'll do no. 10 in a wee while but I just wanted to get this one up now so it's not a long wait for a response.

13 - "I tried but I can't forget"

James awoke in the dead of night with a start, coated in sweat and fighting to catch his breath, arms scrambling and legs kicking in an effort to tread non-existent water. Then he registered the walls of his bedchamber around him - and the woman sprawled atop the covers at his side, and he relaxed. Or at least, he tried to.

“Y’alright?” Theodora’s voice was rough from sleep as she murmured to him.

“I didn’t mean to wake you,” his own betrayed how wide awake he now was.

It was the heat, in all likelihood. This was the hottest summer they’d endured since returning to England, and sleep could only be found without a stitch on, atop the covers, with the windows as wide open as possible in hopes of enticing a stray breeze. It was bound to encourage memories of the Caribbean.

“Bad dream?”

Rolling from her front to her side, she blinked herself into wakefulness as he waited for his heartbeat to right itself.

“It matters not,” he shook his head.

There was no need for both of them to be stuck thinking about that night. But Theodora would not be cowed.

“I get them, too,” she said “That the plan failed - or that it hasn’t happened yet, but it’s going to fail.”

“In mine, you succeeded.”

“Well, I hate to break it to you but…”

“And that you did not live to see the results.”

Any trace of teasing slipped from her face “Ah.”

“Ah,” he echoed “I wake expecting this to all have been the dream, and that I’ll find myself back on the Empress, plotting how I might best exact my revenge, knowing that it will mean little in the end.”

Sitting up so she could shift closer to him - despite how the unbearable heat had sent them to opposite ends of the bed during the night - she curled up against him, burrowing her face in the dip between his neck and shoulder, her bare form pressed against him, apparently uncaring that the nightmare had left him resembling a human furnace. James was glad for it, too, as the nearness offered him the rest of the reassurance he needed to calm himself - daft as it was.

“It has a way of creeping up on you, doesn’t it?” she sighed quietly “I try to forget it, but I can’t.”

James pressed a kiss to the top of her head, wrapping his arms around her “I hope never to forget it. I hope never to take what you did - and what you were willing to do - that night for granted. If this is the cost of it, so be it.”

Splaying a hand flat atop his chest, she said the same thing she’d said the very next day after it had happened.

“I’d do it again. Every day. A hundred times over.”

“I know,” he breathed a tired, mostly humourless chuckle “And I know you too well to try and talk you out of it. But for the sake of my nerves I hope you never have to.”

#james/theodora #james and theodora #ctw

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salomeslashes · 1 year

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So sorry you're having a bad anxiety day friend, hope things get better for you!

As for prompts... what about a Whumpee who has a nightmare? Bonus if Caretaker comforts them!

-- @whumperofworlds

Thanks for the kind words! I uh...don't actually think I've ever written a caretaker before? I will do my best but...I don't often do happy, so uh...I hope this works lolol

CW: nightmares, fear, death mention, captivity, scant comfort, hopelessness.

Both character names in this piece were donated to the Name Donation Bin by an anonymous donor.

Ron was dying. He felt himself dying, and he knew there was nothing he could do to stop it. He couldn't see it, but he could feel the knife at his throat and knew who it belonged to. There was no pain yet, but soon pain was all he would have left.

"Ronnie?"

His eyes snapped open and he thrashed against the hand at his face, the one holding his. He thrashed, and then he hated himself for striking out. The hands belonged to Debbie. He blinked his disorientation away.

"Are you alright?" She didn't look offended by his violent awakening, but she had always been quiet, always collected. She was never the type to have nightmares.

"I will be," Ron said. "Thanks."

"Was it the same dream?"

Ron licked his lips and turned his eyes toward his lap. In the dark, it was almost possible to believe that he was back in his bedroom at home and that all of this was just a bad dream. Instead he knew his destruction was an inevitability, and now he had brought Debbie down with him.

"Do you want me to climb in with you?"

Ron nodded, but he couldn't bring himself to speak. He put his arms around Debbie, pulling her close and letting her nestle her face against his chest.

He tried not to look at the bars in the door, the ones trapping them in this cell until their captors saw fit to get rid of them.

He tried to pretend it was just a nightmare.

#salome speaks #salome answers #salome whumps #whumperofworlds #nightmares #fear #death mention #captivity #scant comfort #hopelessness

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stinkysam · 7 months

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Hihi I hope you don't mind me popping back in again! An artist's worst nightmare happened to me today and I figured maybe my horrific (/lh) experience could be turned into inspiration (no pressure if you can't/don't want to!)

Imagine if you will a scenario where a character finds out the reader is an artist (or has knowledge of it) and mentions it in passing or brags about it to everyone else. Then, per everyone's curiosity the reader is forced to pull the sketchbook out from his bag and is like "okay but I'll only show you the pages *I* like" before someone immediately wrestles it out from his grasp (and trust me I played tug-o-war for a good five seconds). Nothing too embarrassing was in it thank goodness but mayhaps there's a fluffy twist where it turns out the reader has numerous doodles or candid sketches of the person he likes in there? Cue a confession sequence lolol (I had my faves in mind like Deke, Sanji or Buggy but honestly if you want to write this for someone else you're more than welcome to! Sorry this is long <\3)

Oh god. I cringe so hard when I have to show my art. So showing what wasn't supposed to be seen ? AHAH 🥲

Did you say Deke ?

hEHEHZHSUZHZ GIGGLING AND KICKING MY FEET AND TWIRLIBG MY IMAGINARY HAIR EHEHEHEEHHEH (<- I've been like this for the past 8 hours)

#intrepid-captain #i dont mind long asks dont worry

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thvnderdraws · 1 year

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HELP NOW I WANT TO RANT ABOUT MY OC

Idk if you will read this but if you do, I love u /p

SOOO she's a little girl, around the ages 4 and 6. She'ss not a human, she's kind of like a monster who's body is made out of wax? Like, candle wax to give an example.

The one who found her was Horror. She was living on the streets as she didn't have any parents or home (she kept escaping from her foster parents bc she did not like them lmao). I'm still not sure from what universe she was originally from, but let's say that, the bad guys were there causing misery and then a small girl who's not taller than 1.30 walks up to them and asks if they have food, which is the reason Horror felt sympathy for her.

He decided to take her with them (even though Killer and Dust weren't approving his decision, mostly bc Nightmare would be pissed) and offer a place in the castle for her, so she wouldn't have to suffer from starvation.

Now, I won't explain how she started getting along with everyone since I don't want to make this too long LMAO buuuuut I will say that she ADORES Nightmare, and sees him as her father. She also sees Horror, Dust, Killer and Cross as her big brothers (in the case that Cross is also with them, bc remember, this is all their fanon versions), so you can guess from there the amount of fluffy things that could happen.

ANYWAY I just wanted to rant about my oc since you liked her concept I HOPE YOU DON'T MIND

i don’t mind at all !! i love her !!

i hope u don’t mind me adding, but nightmare seems like he would hate the idea first, but after like two days he warms up and starts pampering her lolol

#thunder says #i imagine her as a little candle 🥺#the mental image of horror holding a tiny candle child hands is adorable #🕯️ anon #candle child

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fonulyn · 1 year

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For your Leon/Piers soulmate au, I don't think Piers would be able to easily find out it's Leon. Like yeah sure his nightmares about Bows and racoon are gonna be fucked, but it's not like the government would let any information about it come out so Piers wouldn't be able to connect the dots. like Piers has never seen Racoon and maybe in the dreams Piers doesn't see any signs that show where they are, so it's just a random hell hole burning and filled with monsters. And once Piers joins the fight I assume he'll have heard of a bunch of these stories and they'll all kind of end up being the same things he's dreamed about right? And just Leon's exploits are all gonna be kept in the hush hush, no real confirmation that it was Leon, so maybe Piers is the one to figure out their soulmates after Leon and him have like a heart to heart and Leon let's something slip that no one but the person actually experiencing the situation would know. Lmao maybe it would be like Ada Wong or some shit. Like no one knows Ada was in Racoon except Leon, and now Piers to I guess. Or maybe it's just Leon confirming that he was at racoon after he feels Piers is trustworthy and shit. Cuz you can just write it like, no one really knows about Leon's first mission, he just kinda appeared one day. Lolol I kind of love the idea of Leon being a myth/cryptid among the bow community and Piers just goes with it till one day Chris introduces Leon, this pretty boy that only wears leather jackets and laughs at dad jokes, and he has that moment of "this guys? There's no way he's Leon 'the one man army' Kennedy." And promptly loses his shit.

i kind of wanted to use the moment in re6 as the grand soulmate reveal thing tbh so it wouldn't really work with that if they're already friends and having heart-to-hearts before 😅 although that does sound nice.

and I think it could be plausible Piers doesn't connect it to Leon, he would just think it's someone fighting BOWs. but how would Leon not know it was Piers, is more my issue. if Leon first dreams of some random kid and then later about the random kid all grown up and going on missions with Chris Redfield, Leon would know in half a second who it is. and that is kinda what I'm trying to avoid, I want mutual confusion :'D

but i'll figure it out i hope lol. it's not my first priority fic to write right now, there's two others i wanna do first, so i have time? :'D

#anonymous #ask and i shall answer

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mrsgiovanna · 2 years

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- Inside Giorno's mind -

Angel Giorno: *groaning* Oh. Why did we have to watch those scary videos with Narancia and Mista? Now we'll have nightmares for the whole night!

Devil Giorno: *shrugging* Look, they gave us a dare that we couldn't refuse! And hey, they had gotten scared faster than we did, so there's the win!

Angel Giorno: *staring at Devil Giorno* But now, the baby is going to be scared for the rest of the night!

Devil Giorno: *looks at Haruno shivering* Well, I thought the kid was gonna be sleeping while we watched the videos!

Haruno: *shivering under the covers* I'm scared of the dark! I'm scared of the monsters! I don't... I don't really feel too good. My head hurts...

Angel Giorno and Devil Giorno: ...!

Angel Giorno: We don't feel too good either...

Devil Giorno: Oh man. And our nightmares are...

All three: *feel very uneasy*

- Giorno's fever nightmare -

Giorno and Doppio: *drawn in crude chalk and crayon drawings*

Doppio: Hey, Giorno! The light is too bright. May you turn it off?

Giorno: Okay! *turns off the light*

Doppio: *turns into a mixture of Diavolo, Secco, and Cioccolata amalgamation*

It's okay, I didn't need sleep lolol /j

Giorno: *wakes with a start* I have to wonder how I come up with things like this *goes downstairs to get a drink*

Narancia: *sitting at the table with se orange juice* you were freaked out too?

Giorno: *startled* ah! Don't do that... thats not even the word

Mista: shhh you're going to wake the others

Giorno: *pinches the bridge of his nose* well seeing that were all up, what do you want to do?

Narancia: a game?

Giorno: can you play quietly?

Mista: no *laughs* more murder mystery videos maybe?

Giorno and Narancia: *menacing glare*

Awww lol, I hope you're well and that you have a beautiful start to the weekend, as always tysmmmm for blessing me with these, stay safe ❤️ 😊 💙 💖 ♥️ 💕 ❤️ 😊 💙 💖 ♥️ 💕 ❤️

#beloved mutuals 🥺#don giovanna #angel/devil gio

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annbourbon · 23 days

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The Ssum - My diary with Harry Choi.

⚠️⚠️Spoilers ahead⚠️⚠️

First it was cloudy.

We got to know each other. My feelings for you were nothing more than love-hate relationship. I could not even put up with you and you were so annoying. but funny in a way.

30 days after knowing each other i still didn't feel like falling in love with you. But i kept playing and tagging on with your adventures.

Then it was burny. My heart started to skip beats around you. you were a bit mean at the beginning trying to scare me. you did scare me. TT that painting now is haunting my nightmares.

You decided to have a tattoo. I chose the moon. Because of my love for the moon. Because of the ever changing moon. The one that can help the tide rise even though she's far away. Because of my love for sailor moon. and because of Selene and the legend of prince Endymion.

Tbh i didn't even think through. all i thought was, i want you to have something that reminds you of me on your skin. i want you. i want to mark you as mine. but.... ohhh... i should have seen it coming. day 44. lol

TBH still don't love you. just.... not yet. i don't think i ever realized of my own feelings.

Other things happened and i was more focused on Teo than thinking about you. I wanted to know more about Zen's life too.

2 months into you and I just keep thinking to myself that we're good friends now.

Then Pi planet came.

You learned to apologize. Sincerely. And i didn't even force you.... but that day was.... very special to me. I started to like you. For real.

You put on cat ears. You went to the amusement park for me. And took the longest and fullest line just to ride on my favorite rollercoaster. You liked it. You liked my suggestions. You didn't enjoy the people, but you liked my suggestions. you ate what i picked for you too.

It was quite fun. we are 62 days into.

Day 68. i realized your heart belongs to someone else. i don't know why but i cried.

I realized that it's never gonna be me. i decided to not pursue you.

You talked about miracles happening. i'm confused but i will keep following you around. quietly. i don't want my feelings to be a burden to you. actually~ sincce the day you rejected me... i never ever said anything else about it. i hope you notice that at least. i think i'm accepting being a second character here.... even though i yearn for love. more specifically, your love.

Day 71. my heart skipped a big one this time. I saw you and myself under a different light. you told me i should be selfish. that i'm way too kind. i just wanted to let you sleep.

i blinked through tears again. my father has been calling me selfish and ungrateful since i was a baby/toddler. i never realized i could be called kind and selfless. i'm shaking. and you kind of cured a big scar for me. i think i'm falling for you.

Day 79. you decided to start baking. and we talked. and talked. and talked.

Day 80. you're behaving a bit different today.... why don't you want to let me go? lolol it's fun but i have other things to do... i was confused that day.

Dayy 85. you protected our carrots. i'm definitely falling for you... i can't help it. i can't help myself.

Day 87. ..... my heart is a big mess. there's an angel. he said you're gonna break my heart. i.... i received a call from your future you. you hate me so much.... i've been shaking and crying for three days now. all the time. i barely eat. and now i cannot and i don't want to get close... just being around you makes me shiver.

makes my heart break into pieces.. i can't breathe. i never realized how painful it was. no one ever said that they hated me.

I guess i'm lucky... lucky because i've been living my whole life through and people around love me. like really love me. going to extremes sometimes. but they love me.

I.... want to apologize to everyone i have ever hurt by saying that i hated them or despised them. i want to hug them. and sincerely say that i'm sorry. i don't think anyone deserves to be hated. it's so painful it crushes you.

Day 89. i've been quite distant. you're noticing it.

Day 90.... that was flirting. i'm quite sure you were flirting. why!? you don't like me.... not in a romantic way... i don't understand... but made my heart skip a beat again. you made me blush. and somehow i feel like, maybe? maybe i can~ maybe i have you. the present you. and maybe i can change the future? maybe? maybe you won't hate me~? i'm confused and i step out a bit. i'm crying again but i feel lighter. i have hope now.

Day 93 and 94. you're gorgeous. and you're enjoying and i'm enjoying. tain is noisy but it's fun lol

Day 95. i remember the pinapple i chosenthe other day. again. for you. another tattoo... it's heart melting....

Day 97... is it today? i learned some spoilers by accident. my heart is trying to pull it off... it wasn't. i'm happy....

Day 100 and 101..

You confessed.... you confessed you didn't want me to go away. you want to live with me. And you want to live under my constellation. And you were quite romantic about it. i had the perfect opportunity to say that i love you. i didn't. i just enjoyed the moment. i was a bit afraid to say it first. you just said you like me. can i just enjoy that? yeah it's enough. you don't hate me. you like me. and me above else it's gonna live with you. my heart is skipping a lot of beats today. and i'm blushing. i might enter into cardiac arrest lololol

uhhh my constellation~? *looking into it because doesn't know my own constellation lol* Harry seems to know me better than i do sometimes

i tried to call you honey. it only made everything awkward. i myself didn't feel like, i want to call you that. we're not like that. it felt off and fake. yeah, let's not.

Day 103... you love to feed me don't you? lol pls stop because if i get fatter it'll be all your fault.

i love how much effort you put into it all tho

Day 105... i'm getting jealous and highly suspicious of everyone around you who (~Lover, Taylor Swift) you're so hot and gorgeous.... i love you so much...

Day 106... oh~

i wasn't prepared. i ended up crying. i was stuck in my house and carrying water and i got wet and there was a huge mess. and it's been a couple of bad days for me but you have a way to make them good. today was not the case. my heart is~ not feeling well..

I ended up crying. and i'm not sure why but i think i'm gonna cry a lot tomorrow too...

tomorrow is my birthday... but you're going to ruin it. don't you?

i don't want to enter. i want to avoid you all along. but it's my birthday. i want you to say something to me...

So i enter. knowing it's gonna be a lot of drama. *sighs* i made a playlist about you. it doesn't end in a happy note though.

♡~Birthday call~♡... I joked about it you know? I never actually expected of you to say it. But my heart skipped about a mile when you said I love you.

You asked me to wish upon something. I don't think I have something to wish for... maybe because we're in a different universe. But if I had a wish... I wish... I wish for~

Day 107: I tried to be angry. I tried to be jealous. I couldn't. You said you wanted to hug me and that you found the whole situation disheartening. That calmed me in a way I never thought it'd be possible. I usually get angrier when things go south. And no one is able to calm me. You just did it. I have you. It's all that matters. I won't be bothered by that. I love you. Finally my heart can have some peace.

"I don't want people to get curious about you" Is he that jealous~? lol I can't say if he's jealous or not.... maybe protective of me? uhmmm the other reason would be too painful....

☆ I'm editing this through the whole journey. Just not often. Because I can rant a lot sometimes and I want this to be just the most important and noteworthy things I experienced through.☆

#annabourbon #harry choi #the ssum #falling in love #spoilers

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~~BERSERK SEASONS 2 AND 3 SPOILERS IG~~

So yeah, every girl character is still written horribly, love that. Any scene a girl is in she needs saving like- wasn't Casca supposed to be a strong commander, but we only see her being weak for like the whole first season?? Boom, here, have another girl in the cast who's somehow even worse than Casca. Her name is Farnese, and she has a crush on her biological step-brother 🤮

I got a little bit of hope when Schierke showed up and seemed realistic and reasonable... But now they're joking that she has a crush on Guts wHO HAS BEEN ACTING LIKE A FATHER FIGURE OML AND ALSO WAY TOO OLD LIKE BRUH.

Also yeah Guts is a dad now to Isidoro and Schierke, I don't make the rules. He's a lovely father. I love him. He deserves the world..

And Griffith is hardly here, which is so sad, like I miss my lovely sociapathic gay boy... Also isn't he supposed to be the main villain?? But I think the last season he's gonna be more present. HOPEFULLY.

Granny witch and Skull Knight were totally in love tho right, like I didn't misread that? Adorable, I loved it. Wish their relationship was explained a little more it was so cute.

OKAY PICTURE TIME IG:

Puck is cute. We needed some comedy in this depressing a** show, lol

I ask that question every time a new character pops up on screen. Isidoro's cute too. Best little mysterious orphan boy.

NOW THIS GUY WAS A FREAKING NIGHTMARE. FREAK OF NATURE. SCARY AF. SQUARE FACE A** I'M GLAD HE'S D3AD.

I did not expect for literally everyone to live. Not a single death among the cast I was so confused... (btw I don't mind the artstyle that much. I watched Overlord before)

Somehow he's still hot. Don't judge me.

I totally did not tear up and cry I swear.. SHE LOST HER MOM I GOT EMOTIONAL

Question of the century. The answer is no obviously. I mean, look at him lolol

#berserk #guts berserk #ramblings

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stinkyme · 7 months

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Helloooo Stinky, how are you??

Hopefully you enjoyed your weekend and relaxed a bit! ❤️

I just discovered that after work, people can just disconnect!? Like they don't think about everything that happened and what else shit needs to be done. LIKE HOW CAN THEY PLS, I WANNA KNOW 😭😭

(lol, I know I'm an overthinking mess but I didn't realise that it's THAT BAD).

However I felt like shit these days and my only thoughts were about work and overstressing about a lot of issues, so I'm back at my need for fluff and comfort from the one and only Chuuya (where's this man when you need him, istg he's the only one I need)

I'm really snappy because I'm stressed out and I can't sleep properly or I wake up having nightmares about work. Imagine just telling this mf that I wake up at 6 am because I remember smthg that needs to be done at work. He'd get angry, not at me but at the job. He would have beef with all the managers I have at work. I think that at first he'd be annoyed but seeing it impacts a lot of his s/o life, and seeing her spiraling all over again he'd get concerned. Like really concerned.

"Doll, that's really not good for you, you can't keep going on like that"

He'd try he's best to understand why she can't unwind (good luck boy neither me nor my therapist can understand why I can't unplug after work).

Then he'd just start doing all sorts of things to get her out of the house and change environments. He'd keep reminding me "love, it's just a job, you can change it whenever you want". He'd give a lot of hugs and would stress a lot if sent out on a mission for more than one day and have to leave her alone.

(he's burning the place down for sure)

I'll probably spam you in the next few days with scenarios or ideas about this which come to my mind so I'm sorry in advance.

no need to apologize, feel free to send me anything! :D

I hope your weekend was good as well and that you were able to relax a little bit from everything that has been going on :) <3

I realized my reply will be long, so I will put read more LOL

LOLOL, as for work yeah, I used to be like that too, waking up and sweating myself over stuff, literally my mind was flooded with work 24/7 and constant anxiety as to what will happen. The thing is once you start working in more stable environment it's a bit easier to chill afterwards. Stuff will still happen, but it won't affect you as much because it won't be pure peer pressure on you only. So, I hope you will be able to find a place like that and slowly learn to disconnect and unwind. Job is job, it's something that ends once your shift is done, period. No need to let it exhaust you when you are not there, you deserve to have a chill time afterwards. Finding ways to unwind and relax, get out of your head is very important. Through walking, cooking, art - whatever you are able to do :) You can't unplug most likely because of a control issue. There is a belief that the more you think about it - the more in control you are, which you are not. Just let those thoughts pass like little leafs in the water and keep reminding yourself that you do not need control over work while at home :)

that's very true about chuuya!! he would also help you to find healthier ways to let out all the stress and anxiety after work and remind you how important rest is. Because if you are "resting" but worrying the whole time - it's not really rest at all. So, he would find some ways...maybe book you a spa day or make one at home, give you a nice massage, keep you occupied with movies or cooking or something like that! Before bed, he would make sure he cuddles you and gently takes care of you so you fall asleep first and he would deeefinitely have beef with your work place, probably giving them bad reviews while you are asleep and cussing them out in the comments LMAOO

#stinkyanswers #chuuya lover <3 #i hope you have been doing a bit better!! sending you lots of love and hugs :) <333 #and chuuya would take great care of you he told me btw :3 <3 #me and him are on our way to burn your workplace as we speak

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mangoisms · 7 months

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omg i hadn’t even thought about the hierarchy of needs in that way, it actually makes a lot of sense, but yeah that’s actually a really good idea thank you! and yeah thank you so much for the help i really appreciate it, i’ve been just having like a ton of fun connecting certain characters to psych so yeah. also i will definitely give those a read! i think they’ll fit really well with the stuff i’ve already got too, and i needed more examples to do you also just saved me like an hour of searching so i am forever indebted to you 🙏🏼. i’ll definitely elaborate on that more in the project and let you know how i do lolol.

and since we’re doing memory rn (thank god we moved past the anatomy stuff. eugh. anyways. ) i connected tim’s recollection of the night dicks parents died in a lonely place of dying to arousal theory, and flashbulb memory, since he said he had nightmares about it which in my opinion was a pretty solid connection so i’m fairly confident i’ll get those points

but yeah i have seen some jason and babs stuff here and there and it’s just?? odd. but like i don’t dislike it enough to not read something that has it lol so yeah i’ll check those out! ALSO off topic but i saw something once about bruce and babs?? like they were kissing. and stuff. which is??? um??? it was animated but i have no idea what it was but i did not like it 😭

totally meant to answer this earlier so sorry!!! but!! here i am <3

of course! super happy to help! it's kind of niche really HAHA talking about psych and the bats, so it is very fun to do it!

glad you're having a better time in class now too!!! i had registration for the spring this week and we had like. three options for our singular elective and all of them kind of sucked so i had to go with human cognition which i am Very Scared about but a classmate whose advisor is the prof for the class says his classes are easy/the prof is nice so i am hopeful 🤞 that it will be ok 😭

that's really neat though!!! i have to be honest i had to google some of that it has been Very Long since i had my intro class... super cool though!!! i hope you get points for that too hehe it certainly sounds like a good connection!

i was thinking of bruce and lifespan perspective theory (in developmental psych ^_^ since i'm taking that class rn), there's something called multifinality and equifinality. multifinality is usually when people have similar backgrounds but it is still possible for them to end up in very different places or with different outcomes. equifinality is sort of the opposite, where different initial conditions or experiences can lead to similar outcomes or developmental trajectories.

i think there's something to be said about equifinality and bruce losing his parents at a young age and being defined by that, then becoming the batman as a result of it, then you look at tim who, initially, had both of his parents, became robin, then lost his mom, and then lost his dad, and ultimately wound up as an orphan too. they started in very different places and ended up in similar ones.

i wanted to use dick and bruce for multifinality (similar beginnings and all) but i do wonder if their outcomes are that different... you know what i am going to go with, yeah, they are different, dick deserves that much HAHA i won't say he's turned out like bruce, i don't think he has LOL

anyway kind of got carried away with that but YEAH. god i should've brought that up in class. anyway LMAO

no yeah three jokers is questionable in quality i only re-read it for the pretty art HAHA. and oooh yeah i've heard about that... it is SO weird... babs i'm gonna get u out of there i swear...

ANYWAY! good luck with everything <333

#inbox #anonymous

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thatdemiboymess · 2 years

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Maybe your drowning dreams are correlating with the fact you were in the psyche ward??

Drowning in dreams symbolizes being overwhelmed. And you were really overwhelmed in there weren’t you?

And even though water is a comfort for you, maybe your brain subconsciously feels like it can’t find comfort in your environment at the moment (because of your living arrangement??) and it’s just turning your comfort of water, on its head.

I don’t really know how else to word it, I’m sorry.

I hope you have better dreams soon.

The drowning dreams started a bit before I was admitted to the ward so that might actually make sense! I have been perpetually overwhelmed lately - including my partner and I there are 7 (seven) people living here...as we're staying with my partner's sister and her family until we can finally move into our apartment. And that's...a lot of people to be living with in general but for me it's been constant sensory overload and being in a state of shutdown and worse than usual disassociation because it's all just. Too Much. Too many people in too small a space that wasn't meant to accommodate this many people, plus while I'm thankful theyre letting us stay with them this place is honestly...I don't know how to say it nicely...filthy. plus there are mites and they are eating me alive and I don't do well with bug bites of any kind, including these ones. And I'm mostly sure his sister kinda doesn't like me???

So, yeah, definitely overwhelmed. Very, very, overwhelmed, lolol.

At least I'm used to having nightmares since I've had night terrors since I was younger. And compared to some of those this is actually pretty tame! It's just been an odd theme for me.

Thank you!!! And sorry for the dump, there.

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crimsonkenjii-writes · 3 years

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heyy it's the giyuu simp hiding in your request box ᕕ( ᐛ )ᕗ mind if i sneak in another request :> just gonna slide this with a belated valentines day card

may i request a giyuu x reader headcanons? where its just giyuu and the reader living a peacefull and happy life with their kids, just fluff of how their every day life goes and giyuu with his kids :D maybe even some headcanons of the other pillars meeting the kids and his s/o (feel free to change the idea ofcc i don't mind if you write it at all (~^.^)~)

Hello fellow Giyuu simp lolol

This sounds really cute! Of course I’ll write it! ʕ◡ᴥ◡ʔ♡

This turned out to be very long haha hope you don’t mind :)

Giyuu x Fem!Reader with Kids!! ♡

AU: Life Without Demons

♡ 𐐪𐑂 ₒ 𐐪𐑂 ♡ 𐐪𐑂 ° 𐐪𐑂 ♡ 𐐪𐑂 ₒ 𐐪𐑂 ♡ 𐐪𐑂 ° 𐐪𐑂 ♡

Giyuu was the first to ask for kids. It was a shock since you’d figure he’d be too nervous and insecure to think he’d be able to be a father. But he loves you too much to not have children with you. He just can’t picture his life without you and both of your guys’ children in his future.

“Y/N...” he approaches you timidly, “I have um something to ask you...” he kept fidgeting with his hands and struggled making eye contact. His cheeks starting to burn. “What is it, Giyuu??” He sat there a bit, his brows knitted together as if he’d trying to figure out how to compile his sentence. “Let’s have children!” He finally bursts out boldly. You were taken back for a second but smiled wide and hugged him, agreeing with all of your heart.

Giyuu didn’t want too many kids. He only wanted about two children. (Maybe three children he’s thinking on it 👀) And that’s what you both had. One boy and one girl. The boy took more of your looks but also had a good mix of Giyuu as well. He ended up taking his eyes and messy hair but had your hair color and overall facial features. The girl was a very good mix between the two of you. The boy was the eldest child.

Giyuu was the type of parent to spoil his children a lot. You often had to stop him because it got hard for him to say no to them a lot of the times. But when it came down to it, he knew when to be strict and stand his ground. Like if one of your children throws a tantrum for not getting the toy they want, Giyuu would have a stern tak with them about how they need to learn the importance of being told “no” and to handle it like a “big boy/girl”

Giyuu would also do whatever it takes to help you with anything around the house or with the kids. He’d also do anything to spend as much time with his children as possible.

Giyuu also secretly loved it when his kids would get nightmares and ask to sleep with the both of you. He really loved sleeping next to his family and would often invite the kids into the futon even if they didn’t have a nightmare that night. They’d always get really excited and join without hesitation. He also LOVES holding their hands. He loves how tiny and soft they are in his large, calloused ones. He also really loved having them ride on his shoulders

When it came down to being the good cop bad cop, you both had an equal share between it. I can see Giyuu being pretty strict but not to the point where it’s suffocating. He’d still take extra precautions to make sure his kids are safe and don’t get into trouble. He also tries to come to complete understandings with his children when they’re in disagreements with him. He’d sit and talk with them and make sure they don’t feel invalidated or hurt. Sometimes though, he’ll have to put his foot down and tell his children to listen to them and not question his thinking. He’ll often try to come back to them later and explain again.

Kamboko Squad and Pillars’ Reactions to First Born (and general interactions with kids)

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When the news got out to everyone that you both were expecting children, they were all so very excited.

You were a few weeks pregnant and Tanjirou (and the rest of the squad) came by to visit and he was able to smell it off you. You were a little shocked how he was able to notice until he explained how his mom smelled a certain way when pregnant with his siblings. Then it made a bit more sense. Kind of.

Poor little boy teared up because of how happy he was for the both of you. He was so happy to see Giyuu with the love of his life and now starting a family. Inosuke got all those fluffy things around his head. He was very soft and gentle around you and it was really cute. Sometimes he’d just stare at your bloated stomach and it seemed like he was having a psychic conversation with the baby lolol.

Nezuko was very excited to meet the new baby and couldn’t wait nine months! Zenitsu was really happy for the both of you and it really warmed his heart to hear the baby’s heartbeat. He also got very scared for you because he heard that giving birth if very painful and he’d never want to go through something like that either.

They all saw your kids as their own little siblings, especially Tanjirou. Tanjirou is very good with kids so they ended up liking Tanjirou a lot and would often beg you to let him visit more often so they could play with him. Nezuko also saw them and her own siblings and would always volunteer to knit/fix their haoris if they ever got damaged. She always brought snacks (usually toasted rice crackers) for the kids when she visited. She also helped with cooking dinner when she visited.

Zenitsu loved playing with them. Until one day your son found a worm and showed it to Zenitsu and he freaked out and thought it was a snake for a second. He started to become more wary of your son from then on.

Inosuke shared his boar mask with them and would let them ride on his back as he ran around. He also visited one day with a nicely wrapped box (wrapped by Tanjirou) and gifted it to your kids. You and Giyuu were very confused to see that it only had acorns in there.

You had Shinobu do regular check ups with you to make sure the pregnancy was going well. Despite her constant teasing, she actually told Giyuu how happy she was for him. This really warmed his heart and he couldn’t thank Shinobu enough for all her help. She helped with both the pregnancies/deliveries

Mitsuri was so so SO excited to meet the new babies!! She seemed more excited than you and Giyuu! She loves babies and thinks they’re really cute. And the fact that it’s going to be yours and Giyuu’s baby??? Geez, that just makes it 10x more adorable!! She really really wanted to be the first friend to hold the baby so you granted her wish. She was crying so much, she was so happy.

The baby’s cheeks became very red from how much Mitsuri pinched them. She nicknamed him her “Little Mochi” because of his squishy cheeks. (and she nicknamed your girl her “Little Sakura”)

Obanai kept trying to deny how happy and excited he was. “Hmph! I don’t do babies. Not at all.” But then he saw its cute, little chubby cheeks and couldn’t resist. He then vowed to be the greatest uncle to your baby boy (and girl once she visited the world)

Kyojuro was really excited to meet the baby too. His booming voice scared the baby and made him cry so Kyo learned to be more quiet around him. He was so nervous holding the baby but then got more use to it and didn’t want to hand him back. He wanted to hold on to the little boy forever!!

Muichiro was mostly dazed out but waved his finger in front of him and your little baby boy held onto him. Muichiro got very happy. “Y/N, Y/N! Look! He’s- he’s holding on to me!!” You’ve never seen him smile so wide. He’d often visit and be like, “Can I play with him today? I’ve missed him.” And he’d play with him for hours! He was the same with your little girl as well once she came around.

Sanemi kept trying to act all tough. “No! I don’t care about kids! Least of all babies! I couldn’t care less about Tomioka’s stupid ba-“ his eyes widened when he saw the baby. Then you saw the most softest smile on his face for the first time. He hugged the baby tight to him and didn’t let go or move for a while. He might or might not have teared up. But you swore with him that you saw nothing 👀 He’d make plenty of ohagi for the kids and make some extra for you and Giyuu. Giyuu was very happy to see Sanemi opening up a bit more and glad he became better friends with him as well.

“Tch, don’t get too comfortable, Tomioka. I’m only here for my niece, nephew and Y/N.” He was teasing he loved Giyuu too.

Tengen and his wives were all over the baby! His wives loved the baby so so so much!! They even planned out a baby shower for you when they heard the news so a lot of your baby stuff came from them! Once he finally joined the world, all of them teared up from joy. They all took turns holding the baby, playing with him, bouncing him on their laps. Tengen said that if you or Giyuu ever needed help, him and his wives were right there anytime.

The wives loved playing with your daughter! They’d often do her hair and make it really pretty. They’d also often spoil her with new pretty kimonos and hairpins and always said, “Once she gets older, we’ll always have girls nights out! Do all kind of girl talks and girl things! It’ll be so much fun!!”

Tengen got the baby a whole bunch of shiny jewelry and was like, “Ha! Now your baby boy shall be flamboyant! Even more flamboyant than he was before!!” He also secretly found it extremely adorable how he looked like a little baby Giyuu at first. Then he grew to have more of your facial features and it just made it even cuter for Tengen. He had a little soft spot for your daughter because he thought having a daughter would be very precious so he’d literally do anything for her (and would protect her with his life)

Gyomei was SO happy!!! He of course teared up too and was very very gentle with him. It was kind of cute seeing such a large man hold such a tiny little human. It’s like he could fit them each in one palm. He was one of your go to nanny’s and he’d always wear a pink apron when looking over the kids. He’d spoil them with lots of baked sweets. Everytime he visited, he always had a new beaded necklace to gift them. They ended getting too many and he stopped at one point. But he still gave them one on their birthdays

Shinobu found babies/kids a bit icky since they do have many bodily fluids they can’t control and sometimes don’t wash their hands but she still did normal check ups with them and was very good with them. She’d often visit with some new toys for the kids. She even got your daughter and little butterfly clip. Your son felt left out so she got him one too. For a while both your kids refered to her as the “Butterfly Lollipop Lady” since she gave them lollipops after every doctor visit. She’d just smile chillingly at Giyuu and say, “Tomioka-San, I figured you’d at least teach them my name after all I’ve done for you and your wife.” She was just teasing, she secretly loved her nickname

Shinobu also really loved listening to the baby’s heartbeat through a stethoscope. She also loved putting her hand on your belly and often talked to the baby. She’ll never admit to anyone else but she really enjoyed doing these things with both your pregnancies

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