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#honestly I do think groceries is the most likely but I'm try to be funny here
queenlucythevaliant · 1 month
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I've always wondered what was in Tumnus's parcels. Some ideas:
His haul from the bookstore
Groceries
Another, warmer scarf
The sardines he later served to Lucy (she has to watch him unwrap them first)
His mail; they have PO boxes in Narnia
Birthday gifts
His salary from the White Witch, given in the form of mystery packages which she takes the time to wrap
There's only one thing we know for certain wasn't in them: Christmas presents.
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loving-strawberry · 11 months
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✶(Reversed)Breaking up prank goes wrong with Stray Kids✶(Hyung-Line)
Maknae-Line Disclaimer: This has nothing to do with the other post on my blog!
Summary: You take your boyfriend prank seriously.
It was a request!
A little note: Sorry, not sorry. I wanted to go with full angst post, but I didn't know how to compensate the pain, so two of them will end up good. Maknae line will be posted in a few days, split as well. I will not be doing part two for the angst endings. Also, I got too much into details to do simple hcs.
Genre: Angst, Fluff. (2 Happy endings, 2 sad endings)
Pairing: Bf!Skz x gn!reader
Warning: lot of swearing, actual break up, mention of food and drinks, mention of cheating, talking about insecurities and not being good enough, talking about not feeling loved, mention of slapping and hitting (?) Possibly some writing mistakes.
Bang Chan☆
Felix fault on this one, honestly.
He told Chan about this prank, and Chan somehow... decided that it will be a good plan.
So he put his plan in use when you were out shopping and saw you were pretty late.
You left your boyfriend a little note saying that you went to do groceries, so he knows where did you go as he arrives home. And you left a specific time when you get home, because you are never late, so saying specific hours are normal.
But unfortunately for you, as you were driving back home, you got stuck in traffic. And your phone didn't had any battery left, leaving you stressed out because you will be late home and you hate being late.
Chan got home some time now, and saw the note, so he was expecting you to be back soon. But when he saw that you are not back yet and you're not responding his messages, he grown a bit worried, but calmed down, knowing that you had a good reason to be late. Most likely being stuck in traffic. That's when the thought of a break up prank that Felix showed him recently popped up in his head. This was his perfect opportunity to do it, knowing you don't really mind pranks and some of them you find them funny.
One hour later, you finally came home, stressed up for being this late.
As you enter your house, you see Chan sitting on the couch. "Hi, love! I'm sorry for being this late! I got stuck in traffic..." you smile sweetly and walk over to him.
Chan is actually relieved that he was right and you are safe, just stuck in traffic. But now's the time to go on with his plan. "Are you sure that you were stuck in traffic?" he asks suspiciously.
Now you are looking at him like his third eye just grew on his forehead, confused on what was that all about. "Yeah? Why?"
"I was just thinking that you were cheating on me. So, tell me straight up. Who are you seeing behind my back?" he looks at you in all seriousness.
"Am I what now??? How low are you thinking of me???" now really angry and even more stressed, because you couldn't believe what you are hearing. You didn't ever gave Chan any reason to think that you are cheating on him, but here you are, your boyfriend accusing you of this.
Straight up ignoring you just questioned, he continues his idea "I think this is over between us. I can't believe you."
"Are you fucking serious??" you are trying your best to keep yourself from slapping him right now. That's when you see his small smirk on his face, you realize that it was just a prank. Usually, you don't mind his random pranks learned from Felix, but right now, you were super stressed because of your late arrival home and because of the traffic, that you really got mad at him.
"Ok. We are over. As you said. Go on and pack up your things and leave." you say coldly as you look at him.
Oh shit... He fucked up. Now his smirk fade away so fast. "I'm really sorry, my love! It was a prank!" he come closer to you, but you just turned and walked away without saying another word. Finally understanding that you need some space, he walks out the front door in an instant.
You are now in your shared bedroom, sobbing out all of your painful feelings, trying to process what just happened. That was just a prank, but it did hurt you pretty bad. Was just because of the stress? Were you just too dramatic? Now you are regretting taking it too seriously and hope there will be a way of making up for it.
After 30 minutes, Chan comes back home, and you get out of the bedroom, wanting to talk with him, but before you could say anything, he shows up and stops in front of you, having a big bouquet of your favorite flowers and a box of chocolate.
"I really want to apologize for that reckless prank. I understand if you don't want to see me again, I should've known that it was going to hurt you. And I didn't have to accuse you of cheating either, even as a joke. I'm really, really sorry. I don't why I thought it was funny. I-" as he continues to ramble and mutter apologies, you take the bouquet and box out of his hands and hug him tightly.
"It's ok, love. I was also overreacting... I was too stressed and let it out on you... We both know that I won't ever cheat and I know that you trust me. But please don't do a prank like this again. These ones can hurt." you kiss his cheek and smile softly at him.
"You didn't overreact, you were hurt. And I promise I won't pull these pranks on you again. I love you so much." hugging you tightly to his chest, he starts kissing your lips over and over again, happy that you are still his and you forgave him.
"I love you too."
Lee Minho☆
He knew from the start that this prank is a stupid plan
Then why he did the prank on you anyway? No idea
He just texted you that he wanted to meet with you so you could talk something
So now, there you are. Standing in the middle of your living room, waiting for Minho to speak. You could see on his face that something isn't right, this putting an unsettling feeling all over you.
As you were about to ask him if something is wrong, your boyfriend spoke one thing that was actually unexpected for you, making your heart drop in an instant. "We need to break up..." he doesn't even looks at you, already feeling guilty.
"Why...? Without any reasons?... Did I do something wrong..." you are trying to make eye contact with him, but he just won't look at you. This is making you feel even worse than a few seconds ago. Million of thoughts starts going in your mind like a spiral and you start fighting to keep your tears from spilling "It was my fault... Wasn't it...? Was I not enough for you, I knew it..."
Hearing this, Minho finally looks up to you and the feeling of guilt now became full regret, written all over his face as well. "No! No! Don't say that!! It was all a prank!" he tries to take you in his arms, but you shove him away.
"Prank...? Seriously...?" you back away from him, not wanting to be anywhere near the man who was supposed to be protect you and your feelings, not to play around with them.
"I-... I'm really sorry... I don't even know why I did this prank... I know it was a stupid idea..." Minho tries getting closer to you again, but you just keep backing away.
"Yeah. It was a stupid idea. And I think I know why you did it. You don't actually care about me. Because if you did, you won't pull something this stupid on me." kept looking at the floor, you finally letting go to the flow of tears.
"I do care about you... I'm extremely sorry... I love you" he stops moving seeing how you just keep the distance.
"Oh please. Keep the apologies to yourself. You shouldn't do it in the first place. You surely do love me." the last sentence that escape your lips was a sarcastic one and also filled with venom. So much venom, that made Minho's next words caught in his throat.
"Leave my apartment, now. We really are over."
Nodding and without any protests, he just turns on his heels and goes towards the door. You are unable to move as you just look at your now ex boyfriend exiting through the door in silence.
As soon as the door close behind him, you finally broke down sobbing, everything being poured out alongside with your tears and heart aching with so much pain. You are so confused as to why he did something like that as a joke. Was this simple for your feelings to be played as they just got played a few minutes ago? Did he even cared about you in the first place? Did he even loved you?
Because of that prank, everything that was left now were two broken hearts. You were left in a spiral of thoughts and feelings. You were left hurt and in pain just because of a stupid prank.
Seo Changbin☆
He decided to do the prank right away after he heard about it, not really thinking it will bring any serious harm and it will be just fun
Oh boy... He was so wrong about it
And the fact that he did it on one of the most stressful periods in your life, left both of you in total pain
You just got to their dorms, wanting to spend some quality time with your teddy bear of a boyfriend and just let him hug all the stress out from your soul. Not knowing this will turn out to not happen anymore.
As you enter into Bin room, you were meet with a serious aura around your boyfriend "Is everything ok, teddy bear?"
"I need to talk with you about something..." he pats the free space on his bed, beside him and you go take a sit there. You look at your boyfriend and hum, letting him know that he has your full attention. "I miss you... I feel like you are not loving me anymore. I don't think I want to be in this relationship anymore" the look of hurt and confusion on your face right now made his heart fill with so much guilt and regret.
"What...? I'm so sorry... I was that busy that I forgot about you...? I thought I was giving you the love you needed..." truth be told, you are in an extremely stressed period of yours, you are focused on your exams and you've been studying so much that sometimes you forgot even about yourself, but that didn't really stopped you from according attention to your boyfriend whenever he needed you. This way, you were also getting rid of some of your stress, by spending time with him. The thought of you not giving enough love to Changbin never crossed your mind.
"It was a prank!! I'm sorry!!" he starts hugging you tight, hoping that you are going to forgive him. But this isn't the case right now. You force yourself out of his arms. All the stress you accumulate these past few days made you snap at him.
"You asshole! I was thinking that I made you feel unloved! What the fuck?! And why the fuck did you thought that doing something like this will be funny?? It is funny playing with someone's feelings??"
"I'm really sorry... I promise that you make me feel loved..." he doesn't dare looking at you anymore, regret getting everything in him.
"Yeah. Because I'm trying my best to give you all the love you need, even when I'm busy. But do you love me? Someone who loves won't do such a bullshit on their partner." you are sitting up from his bed and move towards the door, Changbin following you.
"Of course I love you! I promise I won't do anything like that on you again!" he tries to stops you from leaving, but you just storm out, scaring the other 3 members that were chilling in the living room.
"You are right. You won't do it anymore on me, because we are done for real. Hope your future girlfriend will be treated better. Don't contact me anymore." and with that, you loudly shut the front door behind you as the words flew in the air and left Changbin in pure terror.
"What the fuck did you do??" Hyunjin asks all confused.
"I think he played that break up prank I showed him a few days ago." Han responds, feeling guilty for showing this to Changbin, knowing fully well that you are stressed out with exams.
"Leave him alone, guys." Chan interrupts the other two, when he sees that Changbin is starting to tear up as the realization that he lost you for good hits him hard. He takes a final look at his members, then goes back in his room and locks the door. He just now realized that he will feel unloved from now on, as he mentioned at the start of his joke.
As for you... You just went straight home, trying your best to maintain your emotions from getting out in public, as you process the thought of your just now break up. What you wanted to be a chill evening after a stressful day, turned out to be actually the end of what you loved the most.
Now you won't be able to get all the hugs and kisses you were craving before. As you just want to be left alone, too hurt to see him again.
Hwang Hyunjin☆
He saw the hell prank on the internet, he wanted try it on you, not knowing the potential consequences
He's lucky the outcome isn't tragical
"Hyunnie, I'm here!" you said as you arrived at his dorm. He texted you a few hours ago to pay him a visit after you get off work, as he wanted to talk with you. You did as your boyfriend asked. Not really paying too much mind about why he asked to see you all of the sudden.
"Oh... Hi" you take a look at your nervous boyfriend and starts to feel uneasy yourself. "Can we talk about something...?" he gulps as you make eye contact.
"Did something happen, love?" taking a sit on his bed, you let him gather his thoughts as he just pace back and forth in his room.
"Unfortunately... I'm forced to break up with you..." he says, not looking at you, knowing that his soft spot for your sad eyes will kill him in an instant.
"But we are allowed to date as long as it's not public our relationship. What are you talking about?" you are more confused than hurt, honestly. But of course you still feel sad hearing about all of this.
"Our managers are saying that I'm distracted easily. And they believe is because of you. I'm sorry, my beauty" he finally looks at you again, and instantly regretted everything as soon as he sees your face stained with tears already.
"It's ok. I understand." you get up and head towards the door to leave, wiping away the tears that keeps overflowing your eyes.
Hyunjin runs after you and hugs you extremely tight in his arms, that you almost can't breathe anymore. "I'm so, so, so, so sorry, my love! It was just a prank, I swear!!! I won't ever break up with you for real, doesn't matter who is forcing me to! I'd rather give up everything for you!"
"Are you serious? A prank?" you give your boyfriend a deadly stare when you hear his explanation.
"Yeah..." he looks so defeated right now by his stupid choice of actions.
"How old are you? 7?" you hit Hyunjin on the back of his head.
"Ow!!! I'm really sorry, ok!? I won't do it again! Can I have your forgiveness...?" he starts massaging the spot where you hit him as he's dramatically asking for you to stay with him and forgive him.
"Fine. You're forgiven. But I'm excepting lots of cuddles tonight." you pout and your boyfriend starts laughing at how cute you are.
"Of course, my muse."
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winchesterszvonecek · 4 months
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hii I'm obcessed with your Otis ficss and saw that your requests for him are open, so i was thinking about him and reader at the firemen's ball and them flirting and dancing and sneaking around to have to smutty time together?? i'm literally not able to focus on anything else
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The Gala - [ Brian 'Otis' Zvonecek ] 18+
Summary: You and Brian attend the CFD gala together where things quickly turn from boring to steamy
Word Count: 1539
Warnings: female!reader, smut - [ dirty talk - sort of, semi-public sex, p in v sex ]
A/N: there wasn't much flirting or dancing - at all - but hopefully you still liked it :)
Masterlist | Otis Masterlist
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Department gala’s were always boring. At least, for you they were. Everyone else in the firehouse seemed to enjoy attending them. They looked forward to them. Talked about them whenever they could, driving you insane in the process as you always dreaded them and would avoid bringing them up lest you end up with a headache. 
You hated them with a passion and most years you were able to get out of going, as it wasn’t like they were mandatory and no amount of begging from the others would ever get you to say yes. But this year was different.
This year you said yes. This year you had a date. One you really didn’t want to stand up, as you’d been secretly hoping he’d ask you on one for weeks now even though you were technically already a couple thanks to a drunken night at Molly’s. You just hadn’t expected him to ask you to the gala of all places, but it was a price you were willing to pay which was exactly why you found yourself surrounded by Chief’s, engaging in yet another spat of small talk about things that honestly bored you to death. Like seriously, you were off work so why on earth would you want to talk about nozzles with a group of old men?
You were not drunk enough for this and unfortunately, you never would be. But luckily for you a shift in conversation allowed you to sneak away and find your date again, as he seemed to have gotten lost on his way back from the bathroom. That or he’d abandoned you. Or maybe fallen down the toilet. Who knows? All you knew was that you wanted him back by your side to act as your lifeline from the mingling around you.
Soon enough you spotted him, Brian, the cutest firefighter in all of Chicago. And you were not at all surprised to see him talking to Cruz, no doubt about something stupid like whose turn it was to do the grocery shopping. You weaved your way through the room towards them, using the cover of others to avoid those who you knew would try and talk to you until you finally made it to the other side. Just like the chicken in that joke.
“Cruz, I don’t appreciate you stealing my date.” You muttered, jokingly, yet partially serious, as you slid your arm around Brian’s waist, his own immediately taking yours the second you were close enough to him.
“Sorry.” Crux replied, lips pressed together apologetically as he held up his hands in surrender, playing along as he knew you weren’t overly annoyed. “Won’t happen again.”
“It better not. I can’t take being pulled into yet another circle of old men who insist on reminiscing about the ‘good old days’.” You complained, air quoting your words and making both men chuckle softly in response, which only had you frown as it was not funny and you were slowly losing the will to live.
“Cheers to that.” Brian said humorously, only dragging your frown further down as it wasn’t like he’d been there to have to endure it. He chuckled again, pulling you in closer and placing a soft kiss on your cheek, feeling the way your lips twitched upwards as you never could stay mad at him for long. 
Especially when his kisses were your weakness. And he knew it, meaning he abused it completely. But you weren’t exactly complaining, not when it meant you got to kiss him.
You turned your head, leaning closer to him and for a second he thought you were about to return his kiss. Only, you didn’t. Instead you got as close to his ear as possible, the tip of your nose brushing against his skin and making him shudder before you whispered, seductively.
“What do you say we sneak off somewhere and have a little fun instead?” 
The moment the words fell from your lips you found yourself being dragged, gently, across the room, neither you nor the clearly eager Brian paying any attention to those around you. You carried on until you reached the main doors of the ballroom, the two of you slipping out and making your way excitedly through the rest of the hotel in search of a little privacy.  
Eventually you came across an empty lounge area, one you were pretty sure you weren’t meant to have access to unless you were staying at the hotel. Luckily for you though, someone had left the door open long enough for you both to sneak in and the second you entered the room Brian’s lips were on yours, kissing you so vigorously that you almost toppled over on your heels. He managed to catch you before you did, securing you in place against his body as he carried on. 
You could feel yourself slowly inching backwards, your feet shuffling ever so slightly with every second his tongue was in your mouth. He kissed you like the hungriest of the men. Like one so starved that he simply couldn’t help but devour you, tasting every inch of your tongue that he could possibly reach. He kept moving you backwards until eventually your back hit something solid, and by what you could make out it appeared to be a table which only got you growing hotter underneath your dress. 
In one quick motion, Brian lifted you onto it without once having pulled away from your lips, and it wasn’t until you were seated atop the table did you part, lungs burning fiercely from the lack of oxygen. Neither of you felt the need to say anything as you gathered your breath and instead you lifted your hips a little, allowing Brian easy access to slide off your panties, soft hums leaving your lips as his knuckles grazed along your outer legs. 
He straightened, tucking your panties into his pocket with a slight grin on his face before he grabbed your hips and pulled you forwards a little, kissing you fiercely and in a way that just got you all the more hot between your legs. You pulled back, glancing down just in time to see him pull his cock from beneath his pants, already hard and dripping with pre-cum as he gave it a few quick pumps, watching as you did nothing but stare down at it with such hunger and lust in your eyes that he couldn’t bring himself to deprive you of it any longer.
“I’ve been thinking about doing this ever since I saw you in that dress.” He said breathlessly, a faint groan leaving his lips when you ran your thumb across his tip, gathering up what had already leaked out of if. He followed your hand with his eyes, focusing intently and when all you did was suck the salty droplet off your skin with a soft moan, he really couldn’t hold himself back any longer.
Closing the gap between your bodies, Brian slid into you slowly, allowing you to feel the entirety of his length as he stretched you open in such a way that you couldn’t seem to form a single coherent thought as your eyes rolled back into your head. He held you close, lingering for just a second inside you until pulling back and repeating the process once more. 
Pulling you a little further towards the edge of the table, until you were barely hanging on, Brian began to pick up the pace, thrusting into you with such vigour that you had to grab hold of either side of the table to keep yourself in place. The moans that left your lips were like music to his ears, his eyes focused on nothing but the way he disappeared inside of you, his cock glistening with the arousal he’d so easily caused you.
“Oh, fuck, Brian.” You panted, throwing your head back as that fire deep down in your abdomen began to burn so hot you thought you were going to come already. “Fuck baby, that feels so good.”
“Yeah? You like that, baby?” Otis groaned, angling his hips in a way that had such a moan leave your lips that he didn’t need a response from you. But he wanted one. “You like when I fuck you like this? You like being so spread open that anyone could come in here and see you? See the way you take all of me like such a good girl?”
“Mhm.” You nodded, biting down hard on your lip as the new angle sent you to highs you didn’t know were even possible and you couldn’t seem to find anymore words. Guess you just hadn’t been fucked by the right guys as you were fairly certain you were ascending towards heaven as all you could see right now was white.
By the time your orgasm hit you, you were already a shaking mess atop the table. One who could barely breathe let alone speak. You weren’t even sure if you’d been dreaming or not, or whether the sex had just been that good, but there was one thing you knew for certain by the time you regained a little clarity… Perhaps gala’s weren’t so bad after all.
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5mind · 3 days
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GET TO KNOW YOUR ADMIN !!
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name — garlic / hsah
pronouns — she/he/they
preferred comms — mostly dms thanks, maaaaybe discord
name of muse — Fivemind, Chirptune, Antares
experience in RP — started when I was like 15? 16? that's like more than a decade now that i think of it. started off on the gaiaonline forums and then took a long break from it until I got back into it on tumblr. It's been on and off since then.
best experiences — honestly I'm mostly having a good time here, but shout-out to @pzfr for the fun hero shenanigans and , of course, the dodostep saga. Also shout out to @outofthiisworld and @fluxofthemouth who are tons of fun to write and plot with! Also this private discord rp I got going on with a bud who's not even in the tumblr rpc lol
pet peeves/dealbreakers — hmmm...hmmm. I'm kinda real lenient actually or at least I can't really think of anything off the top of my head until it actually happens. I know 'no godmodding' is like a rule page cliche at this point but it does happen... Especially if they get my character wrong...
muse preference ( fluff, angst, smut ) — variety's good ! love to put my funny fellas in Situations but also love to have them hang out with other people's fellas and get groceries or something. I'm generally on the silly side but I do enjoy dramatic tension and mystery and maybe some horror elements :3
plot or memes — memes are a good start and then we can plot from there! plotting straight away's cool too but I personally go by memes reblogged by the other person first because at least that gives me an idea of what they might want
long or short replies — yes to both ! will admit I can get burned out fast if I dont have threads with shorter replies in between. and really it depends on what we're trying to do here.
best time to write — after a quick rest or nap once I'm home from work. Or the weekends. Mostly weekends tbh since then I can be in an rp mood while my mutuals are active. Unfortunately, a lot of my mutuals' peak activity hours are also during sleep and work hours for me ...
are you like your muse?: damn... i sure hope not ! I kid of course. I mean, most people channel some part of themselves (not necessarily personality but yknow) into their main muses and I'm no different. And I mean,,, I'm a super sentai fan writing a super sentai fan of a muse ...I have never been subtle in my life
tagged by: @pzfr
tagging : uhhhhh @schattenmagier , @the-haunted-office , @rage-reloaded , @the27percent , @mechahero and whoever else was tagged in the question above and whoever else that wants to do this
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Honestly, my favorite types of theory on how some of the tf2 mercs got hired are the ones where they aren't even officially hired in the first place. Like, they just appear one day and no one questions it, or just assumes this random stranger is actually supposed to be here. Just imagine all the silly little stories about how the team accidentally picked up a murderous bloodthirsty stray cat mercenary from the side of the road
I can totally imagine the team waking up one day for battle to find Pyro already in a full on fire suit and gas mask with a crude jury-rigged flamethrower and everone just thinking Oh great, it's the new pyro, about time. Meanwhile The Admin is watching through the cameras like "wtf who is this, how did they get in" but lets it slide when she finds out Pyro is pretty good at being a Pyro
Okay, so this one's basically a oneshot fic idea I had bouncing around in my head for a while about how I think Medic got "hired". Just in case some of y'all are interested. Anyways, basically:
Spy, Engie and Sniper are out in town for groceries one day. The two latter go their seperate way into this store and see this tall german dude covered in dirt from head to toe, trying to convince the cashier at the front that he's not crazy or homeless. The strange man then proceeds to get real mad at the stubborn teen behind the counter and pulls out a wad of cash from his pocket, slams it onto the counter like: "you want proof that I'm not homeless? Go get me the most expensive liquor you got in this goddamn shithole of a place". And just to be extra petty and drive his point to the ground he also looks at Sniper and Engie waiting in line behind him and tells the cashier to "get these fine gentlemen some of that candy I see on the shelf behind you", bc funni
Obviously, the two mercs are confused af and as they walk out the shop they ask the soon-to-be Medic wtf happened to him to which he replies: "Oh, just a bit of graverobbing gone wrong. Turns out being the one buried is a messier affair than I had imagined". They genuinely can't tell if he's being serious but judging from the dirt, his bleeding fingertips and the odd glint in his eyes, it's hard not to believe him.
Then they meet up with Spy who was doing some shopping at another store and when he sees Medic he recognizes him because: "Hey aren't you the guy that Miss Pauling asked me to get rid of like 2 days ago? Aren't you supposed to be dead 6 feet under??" and Medic is like: "Oh hey murderer :D, fyi your taste in coffin is shit, who tf buys spruce wood coffins anymore. I would kill you for that but u guys outnumber me by 3 to 1 so I won't"
They bring Medic to the base because they don't know what to do with him. Spy calls Miss Pauling to ask and she's like: "Holy shit, that guy survived being nearly killed by you and also being buried alive?? AND he's a doctor with no qualms about murder?? Get that man on the phone, we got ourselves a new Medic"
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saucymincks · 4 months
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GIFT-GIVING TIPS AND REMINDERS NO ONE ASKED FOR
Hello, my name is Caro and I fuckin' love giving people gifts. This year, we're all doing the "shit shit money is tight oh no" thing, a lot of us have to buy things for people we don't know super well, etc. so here are a few ways to make cheap/generic/last-minute gifts a little more special!
WRAP THE GIFT I know this might seem obvious, but you'd be surprised. Get some cheap wrapping paper and scotch tape and wrap it up! Or, if you're like me and hate wrapping gifts, grab a gift bag AND TISSUE PAPER. Don't just throw the thing in the bag and call it a day, a little puff of tissue paper makes it look like you gave a shit. Plus, the gift wrap is a great way to add a personal touch - you can use someone's favorite color, it can be cute or pretty or funny, whatever you want it to be. There are all sorts of creative ways to wrap gifts, too - I've seen part of the gift itself used as the wrapper, like when I received a book wrapped in a scarf and tied with a hair wrap!
REMOVE THE PRICE TAG Either cut the price tag off or, if it's printed directly onto the gift in any way, scratch it out with a pen or sharpie. It's not entirely about hiding what something costs (though there are reasons to do that) so much as it's about making it seem like you put any effort whatsoever into this. I've received $5 bargain bin gifts that were thoughtful and wonderful! But when you receive a $5 bargain bin gift that has the big red sticker on it and is unwrapped, it kinda feels like a "fuck you". I've also received expensive gifts and felt guilty/inadequate when I saw the price tag. That's not the energy you want when you're giving a gift. PERSONALIZE IT Even if you're giving something generic, you can personalize it at least a little most of the time. I'll use bath stuff as an example - we often think of that as a general "buy this for whoever" kind of thing, and it totally can be, but it's also easy to make bath stuff thoughtful! If I'm buying for my mom vs. my best friend, the vibes will be very different. My mom is more of a sunshiney organicy type, so she'd get light floral/herbal/citrus scents in colors like pink, light green, cream, etc. My best friend is basically if Morticia Addams and Tia Dalma had a baby, so she's getting things in purple, black, gold, forest green, with heavier scents like you'd associate with incense and the woods. They're both getting a candle, a bar of soap, and a sheet mask, but those items are personalized to their tastes and vibes.
IT'S OKAY TO ASK If you honestly don't know what to get someone, you can ask! And you don't have to phrase it like "what do you want me to buy for you" because that might make them feel weird! A more tactful way to ask what someone might want as a gift that doesn't make them feel as pressured to have the "right" answer is to ask them "is there anything you've had your eye on that you haven't been able to justify getting for yourself", or "is there anything I can help you replenish that you might need", or "what sort of things are you trying to keep on hand these days", or something along those lines. Ask them what they're watching or listening to these days, ask them what they're enjoying as hobbies, ask them where they like eating, etc. All of these questions can spark a ton of ideas!
IT'S NOT ABOUT YOU Some people really struggle when the person they're shopping for just wants practical or "boring" stuff, but remember: giving a gift is about giving a gift, not about receiving points. If someone says all they want is socks and a grocery store gift card, give them those things. If someone is overloaded with stuff, consider gifting them an experience or a subscription (I'm giving both my parents the gift of "pick a night, pick a theme, I'm your personal chef, you get to hang out and watch movies while I continue to hand you food until you say stop" this year). Don't buy loud stuff for little kids unless the parents are okay with it. Consider the person you're shopping for rather than how the gift will make you appear. If you're really hung up on the whole "paying your electricity bill for a month isn't a gift", "cleaning supplies aren't a gift", "underwear isn't a gift" thing, get them something indulgent in addition to the thing they're asking for.
GO ONE STEP FURTHER I have a friend who is BIG into Pokemon. I don't know a dingdang thing about Pokemon. I could very easily give him a Pikachu plushie and call it a day, and he'd be delighted by it, but you know what's a little more creative and fun? Doing some research and finding something a little more out of the box and unexpected. Which is how I stumbled across a bunch of Pokemon-themed cocktail recipes, and how I stumbled across the idea of making little cocktail kits in small mason jars with dried fruit and sugar cubes and stuff like that and pairing them with airplane bottles of liquor, which is how I gave that friend a gift that made him go "BITCH THIS IS SO CUTE, I'M GONNA MAKE THESE JIGGLYPUFF JELLO SHOTS TONIGHT" at the top of his lungs one year. Plus, he still has and still uses those jars after about a decade! It didn't cost me a ton of money, I was able to DIY most of it, and it was cute and personal. There are a lot of ways to do something a little unexpected and create a gift that's not going to set you back a ton but that has a ton of heart and love put into it.
CONSIDER A BUNCH OF TINY THINGS I...love tiny things. I love knickknacks. I love stuff and tchotchkes. I love opening a box or a bag and finding SO MANY LITTLE THINGS IN THERE. If you know someone like that, oh my god, shop for them like that, trust me, it's so much fun. Sometimes it's hard to come up with one big concrete item to give someone, so maybe...don't! One of the nicest gifts I ever got was literally a box of a bunch of little things that reflected me as a person. There was a mini bottle of a bourbon, a couple of jars of spices, a pair of fingerless gloves, some stickers, a box of shabbos candles (I am forever forgetting to replenish my supply and having to light random candles on Fridays), all sorts of random but personal stuff. Each item on its own was inexpensive and simple, but when it was all put together, it added up to an incredibly thoughtful mixture of practical, indulgent, and just plain fun!
YOU CAN REGIFT BUT YOU GOTTA BE CAREFUL ABOUT IT, BUDDY Look...it happens. We receive a thing we can't use/don't like/already own. Someone else might like it. We give it away. But please, please, please be strategic about regifting. I've regifted things plenty of times, but the trick is to keep it outside the circle so the person who originally gave it to you doesn't see you blatantly passing it along. There's honestly nothing inherently bad or wrong about regifting, in my opinion, but there can be hurt feelings attached to it for many people, so it's a good idea to try and avoid that. Also, if the item is personalized in any way...most of the time, regifting is not gonna work. Use your head here!
This is all I can think of at the moment but if y'all have other advice please feel free to add. Gifts don't have to be a "feed the capitalist machine" thing - they can be (and should be) an opportunity to give a loved one a tangible reminder that they are cared for, a chance to give someone a little treat to make their day and by extension their life better and happier. Gifts also should not be something that causes you stress and shame and frustration! Gifts should be JOYFUL for everyone involved. Now go out there and don't forget to buy tissue paper.
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lilliesforya · 8 months
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The first week of school and NPC mode at the grocery store
September 7th
I go to three different schools during the week. One junior high school (US grades 7,8,9) and 2 elementary schools (US grades 1-6). Two of my schools were recently renovated and it was done by the same company so the interiors are almost exactly the same. This only matters to me, who gets super confused in the middle of the hallway when looking for classrooms or the bathroom. Just yesterday, I walked to what I thought was the bathroom only to find it was a different room because I was thinking of the other school. It makes my brain fully have a moment where it needs to restart like an old computer because I'm usually so tired that I can't take whatever is happening to me anymore at any time. It's really funny though. I used the experience to talk to teachers standing by. My days blend together easily because I go to different schools each day but could have seen the same teachers or students a day or two before. Having speech contest practice after work does ground me back in reality but no matter when it goes until I usually end up home around 5pm. 
I hate that I have to bring my own lunch to school. It is so annoying to have to think of meals for lunch when everyone else gets to have school lunch. I'm thinking of sticking it out for a little while and then asking if I can just see the schedule in advance and see what I can and can't eat. Because making lunch is not sustainable for me. It is expensive and I'm always so tired that it takes so much mental work to make myself make a barely passable lunch. 
I like being in class so far. I have a hard time remembering what age groups I'm working with because of the different classifications of grade levels, so I try not to judge the English ability. I usually think of it like “If I would have known the Spanish for this at their age, then it's viable for questioning why they don't know it” . Though, it's important to note that it's nearly impossible to gauge because the kids are extremely reluctant to speak. They are good at repeating after me or the teacher. And some classes are comfortable doing pair work outloud or shouting the answer to me but oddly the English level is dependent on the individual class composition, not the grade level. When I walk around the class and look at their papers or worksheets I can see what they understand. The English they write is usually fine, or even good or great. Honestly, the girls and some of the boys have nicer handwriting than native English speakers. They understand the concepts most likely, there's just no surefire way to make them say anything sometimes especially in junior high. Their testing primarily is writing, reading, and listening from what I can see so far but I don't know if there is any speaking component. I don't remember if I was speaking for a test grade in 9th grade Spanish but we were definitely writing dialogues and presenting them in front of the class. I'm sure it's even harder with a native English speaker who they barely know just standing there, but I think they can do more than they let on for the most part. Some kids were even bold enough to ask me questions about their work straight up in class, it was really heartwarming.
The kids also enjoy talking to me about shared interests. I included pictures from my first time in Japan and pictures of the video games I play in the powerpoint I presented to them to give them material to work with. Also, all of the things I own (phone, laptop, water bottle, planner, etc.) are all insanely customized with stickers of things I like and both students and teachers use it to talk to me. There really is no comparable feeling to being in the teachers office and some teacher you just met points to your water bottle and asks "do you like gojo satoru?" Or "where is sannomiya located?" Seriously not everything feels like something else because I was floored both times. But the students, especially the girls, like to talk to me about Genshin or anime and it's super cute. I'm thankful for the Japanese that I do know that makes me able to communicate these likes to them. Plus, in classes where the English level is lower, being able to ask them if they have questions or if I can read the prompts of their English workbooks helps me to help them. 
At the beginning of each class, I do the greeting. I ask them how they are doing, the day, the date, and the weather. This is fine but my issue is that it's super confusing to me to ask “what  is the day today” to get the day of the week as the answer. I always fumble this because I ask “What day of the week is it?” Especially because the question after that is “ what is the date today or what is today's date?” I feel like the weekday question should not sound so similar. However, no one asked me and I will just have to stumble over it until procedure wins over my natural phrasing. 
I also really enjoy being the English language authority in the class. Not in an overbearing way, but like when the teacher doesn't know how to spell a difficult word or the pronunciation of something, or if a sentence is awkward or okay they ask me. I love being asked these things because I have an opinion on everything and it's the one part of my experience here where I'm the authority on something. It is the most familiar role to me in Japan thus far. Back home, I am the oldest, the responsible one, etc etc  my judgment is sound and my opinions are respected and sought after. I like being listened to. Here, I'm an NPC at most and a court jester at worst. Also, Japanese social and workplace hierarchy makes it so that very few people's opinions actually matter. I don't mind not being asked about stuff that I clearly don't know anything about (like how a japanese school system functions) but the American in me (my pronouns are USA) wants so clearly to just comment on literally anything. 
Switching topics but related in my head, at the grocery store I go full NPC mode for the most part. If I'm there on a weekend it may be different because I have energy, but I like to go after work for the most part. Unfortunately for me, everyone else also likes to go after work. So, the day I went after work for the first time I was treated to the most people staring at me that I've encountered in a while. I don't blame them. It must be odd seeing a nicely dressed foreigner in the middle of their local small town supermarket, but I wake up foreign here every day and I frequent these places often, so it feels worse than if I was a tourist passing through. Though, if they stare because I'm using my phone to google translate literally all of  the products they get a pass because that's completely excusable. Like, hey buddy, did you just blow in from stupid town? 
I like the grocery store sensory experience and I usually go to the same place so it feels nice to see familiar things and learn where things are. I always find new things like on that trip after work, I found ice pops. I  also like to look at all the interesting sweets they have. I was minding my own business staring at the sweets ( and google translating the ingredient lists) and I was thinking about how embarrassing it would be if someone from work or somewhere else saw me shopping. I don't know why I thought this because everyone shops but it was plaguing my thoughts nonetheless. Then I heard a sound of vague recognition, looked up, and saw two teachers from the school I was just at, one of them being an English teacher I just worked half the day with. I was mortified because it felt like the universe read my mind and because I  wasn't in work mode. I had already begun to shed my mask of normalcy for the day and was content being nonverbal in the grocery store, so I choked out the weirdest sounding ‘hi’ I've ever said and then had an interaction where I attempted and was mostly successful in trying to sound normal saying hello etc. Don't get me wrong, it was literally just a basic hello/ cool seeing you here and they spoke English to me! I can't even complain! Plus, it's cute to be recognized in the community that I live in. but jesus christ did I have like a horror video game youtuber level jumpscare from my own consciousness manifesting my anxiety fueled thought spiral into the grocery store. 
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theredqueens-blog · 6 months
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Hi again gods and goddesses 🤭
So,I just wanted to talk about the little changes that keep happening in my reality.
The most amazing thing about learning(or remembering, beacuse we forget or are programmed to believe other things) that we are gods,little gods,ok,but we were created in the image of the mf creator of the entire universe,this one and any other that I believe exists! This is big.
Is so gross that from the moment we are born people try to convince us otherwise. They say we are lesser,sinners,helpless. That because of our skin color,place of birth,social standing,etc,etc,we can't have it,we can't do it,we have to suck it up and accept things as they are just like anybody else.
And the biggest blasfemy,they say we are separated from the creator,god,the universe,whatever you call It.
FUCK THAT.
Really. I was created by the universe itself. I'm an immortal councioness. I literally created a matrix for myself to experience life in the 3d!
I'm powerful. We all are.
And I'm actually so happy to learn manifestation because I changed from the inside to the outside. I used to have panic attacks for example and now they are gone. I'm tried to kill myself once and I used to feel so fucking depressed,so down,like I was a piece of dog shit on the floor 😅. I honestly think that until finding my way to manifestation I've never experienced real peace and content. I know it sound crazy,but I had a pretty hard childhood and teen years,but I'm revising it because why not? I DESERVE to have a good childhood,good parents,good things happening to me in that timeline.
So I'm really grateful for all the teachers I found on the internet,for neville and florence and abraham,and many others.
I also wanted to say to that before your big manifestation comes little funny things start to happen,and I don't believe in coincidences.
It can be as little as thinking about a music and the radio plays it right away or your playlist rolls it. Thinking about numbers and seeing then everywhere.
I guess in July I was going back home from grocery shopping and I was thinking that I really wanted to see a friend of mine,her son died and I wanted to see her and see how she was doing,so I decide to pass in from of her house on my way home. She's almost never home because she runs a business,but guess who was just getting home when I got to the street where she lives?
Things like that. Neville says that there are no signs BEFORE manifesting,the signs FOLLOWS, so if you're seeing the signs your manifestation already is here.The fact that it's not in the 3d means nothing. It will show up.
And that's it I guess.
Just some thoughts.
I know this week will be amazing for all of us
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And hoot again :D
Yeah, you’re very right (both with so quickly depending on it being overwhelming and with it showing how much I needed it)
The trip to therapy went quite well! The bus wasn‘t overly full on both ways, so I could sit down which was really good. I‘m still nervous for the first time that I’ll sit down on the floor if all seats are taken (it would be safer and better for me, but before I was always too scared to do that. Now that I have a cane that makes it sort of visible that I have trouble walking/standing, I want to try to do it).
I have suspected that I have hypermobile joints for a while (the problem is that I’m not in enough pain to really struggle so much that it would really be worth seeing a doctor for, but I’ll mention it when I got my next appointment). Part of the problem is my bad memory, because due to that I honestly can‘t even remember if I’m in pain (I know stuff constantly and quickly starts hurting but that’s probably normal in most cases and I also have a really high pain tolerance).
My body can do things it‘s apparently not supposed to do though
But I feel it with the cane, cause my wrist always sort of wobbles cause it’s really not stable. So I tried applying tape today, but only went to the very near grocery store that takes like a minute to walk to. So I don’t really know how much it has helped yet regarding walking with the cane. I do feel more comfortable though, and I think it‘s also helping me with writing and drawing
(On the video I watched the guy explained what the hypermobile thing in that hand he was showing it on is exactly, what it would look like if it wasn‘t hypermobile and what the tape is gonna do. And my thumb has the exact position that is a result of the joint being hypermobile (so like my suspicion doesn’t seem to be too wrong)
Since noon I had a really really bad headache that felt like my skull was split open and my brain crushed. So really not nice. I took 1,5 ibuprofen and later one paracetamol but nothing helped.
Then I tested myself cause I remembered that the only time I had such a bad headache was when I had COVID and boom! Positive
So yeah. I‘ll stay in bed tomorrow (and my head hurts so fucking much. I hate it)
I‘ll send you pics when the order gets here if you want! :D
But two pairs of Doc Martens sounds very nice!
A really sweet and funny story:
A friend of mine asked me to explain Ghost (as in, explain everything).
Three days ago I sent a video of like a few clips of Jutty, one of which being this clip in which he is like “unfollowing is bullying“ and “wHaT iF i WaS cOsMo 🧐🤨“
And since then, we‘ve constantly been sending “wHaT iF i WaS cOsMo 🧐🤨” back and forth (then we started to send the clip as a only one time viewable video so it wouldn’t be visible beforehand).
Today, I cut off the beginning of an edit and put that clip behind that to hide it and sent it to them. They have also hidden it in a poll on WhatsApp already
It turned into a game and we can‘t stop laughing about it because it‘s so fucking silly xD (it‘s practically like Rick-rolling)
wHaT iF i WaS cOsMo 🧐🤨
(You just got wHaT iF i WaS cOsMo 🧐🤨-ed. You‘re welcome xD)
~ @owlishanon
I'm glad it's still going well! It's good that it gives you so much peace of mind and that you feel confident doing what you need to do now without worrying that something awful is going to happen. But I'm so sorry that you have COVID! It's rotten. I hope you get lots of rest and your headache doesn't last too long. Sleep and drink lots of water! You can definitely send me pictures of the stuff you get when it comes in! I always love to see people's hauls! I am very excited about my docs. I paid $140 for both pairs, which is like half of one what one of them costs brand new. I feel VERY lucky about it. One pair is rusty orange suede, they're short boots. Great for every day. The other are standard black knee highs which have been my dream boots since, like, forever (I've owed many, many pairs of knee high lace-up boots, but none of them were Docs). The wHaT iF i WaS cOsMo 🧐🤨 thing has me giggling. Thank you for that. What a great joke to have with your friends, seriously. Fucking Jutty. He kills me in the best ways.
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pbandjesse · 10 months
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I have a really bad migraine right now but thankfully I am home. So I can just be a lump in bed and rest in the AC. I am really happy to be home right now.
And it wasn't a bad day. It was just really warm. I was just covered in a light layer of sweat all day. I drank a lot of water but I still really felt dehydrated. Which is probably why I have the migraine now. It started in the afternoon. But for most of the day I was fine.
I had trouble falling asleep last night. I don't think I fell asleep until 1:30. And it wasn't a bad sleep. I woke up at 6:00 and was a little unhappy about that but I felt okay. And then I blinked and it was 8:00. I have no idea how quickly I fell asleep.
It took me a while to get up and get myself together. But that was fine. I knew I wanted to wear my Hawaiian pants today. For Hawaiian shirt Wednesday. And I had my biscuit but I had a bad taste in my mouth and it didn't really like the jelly that I had. It was like mixed fruit and I did not enjoy that. But it was fine.
Tatiana came again today and it turns out she did not have the loom. So I have no idea where the 12th one went. She looked at me like what and tried to look around same way I did and neither of us can find it So I'm just assuming a child took it. And it's gone. Which sucks but I ended up just continuing using the cardboard looms today and the kids really liked it and so honestly in the end it worked out.
We had two groups this morning and they did a good job. We had top bar and then pioneers. We finished girl week and we start boy week. And the boys were good. Everyone seemed to try pretty hard for the most part. And I enjoyed everyone's company. It was a good day.
And lunch was an actual meal. I did not get the vegetarian option because it was just the same sad sandwich from yesterday. So I had a very good salad because they finally had hard boiled eggs. And I had that and pasta salad and tater tots and we finally finished the special week ketchup. So I texted James because I knew they were going to get groceries. And they would get us a new bottle.
My afternoon groups were again very early for some reason. And I decided to make a sign for the door because they were 15 minutes early and just came through the building to the back and they were like we're here and I was like no no go do something else. But then it turned out that they weren't even the right day camp group and weren't even supposed to be there! My actual day camp group came on time. Cuz then all of a sudden both of them were there and I was like what is happening. And they're counselor came and took them away because it was their CIT that had misread the schedule I guess. But the day campers did really good and it was fun and then we had a little break to reset and Ty came over so I could help him finish his loom knit hat.
Which actually looked really good! It's a little small for how big his hair is but I was really proud of him. We're going to work on sewing next week so we'll see how that goes. And we both have tried to talk about how we're going to try to stay positive and that our materials are coming and things are good. We're going to try our best to be positive. Things will get better.
I had stockade next and they were very good. The curse too much but they're very funny. And they were very sweet. I got to do a lot of sewing and talking to them about stuff and teaching them bracelets. And I enjoyed chatting with Quan and I showed him the camp TikTok I made last night. Which took me a while because I had to make sure I cropped as many kids out as possible but there's one clip where the kids are in the background so I'm hoping those are okay. I'm going to try my best to make sure my angles are better next time. But Quan gave me a cookie and my headache was right behind my eyeballs but I was still having a nice time.
My last day camp group was fun and I had double-checked that horses was not coming this week so I could go home right after my last group. I got their blooms all finished up and showed them how to tie things off and they helped clean up and then they headed out.
I went to the office to let them know I was leaving and to sign out in our little book and I also wanted to just let them know how great Tatiana is doing and how helpful she is and Heather told me that Tatiana was considering taking some AP classes this summer but instead she decided she's going to stay with me and I just think that is so sweet. So even if she is taking away from my sitting in the dark time I really do appreciate her and her tapestry that she worked on today is so good! She put four of the nail looms together to make it and she really is taking to it and I love that so much. I love when people find art that they really enjoy. She's talking about making blankets and stuff too. So proud of her.
After I talk to Heather and Alexi about the art building flooding for a little while longer I let them know I was going to go home. And that my head hurt and I just needed to be in my house for a while and they understood and I said goodbye.
I did get stuck behind that can't bus for a couple minutes but I got out of there and got on the highway. There wasn't really any traffic. I let James know I was coming home and they were going to order pizza for us and they did but then they canceled because the place had no delivery driver so James had to reorder and then walked to the place. I wish I would have caught that text because I just would have went gotten them.
But once I got home I took a shower and that helped me feel a lot better. I still had the headache but it wasn't quite as uncomfortable.
I open the mail and I had a little gift that I had gotten for James come and romper that I ordered. And soon James was home with pizza and I ate that in bed and now James is recording their podcast and being sweetp are laying in the air conditioning.
Sweetp is looking at me with so much love in his eyes and it's so cute. He misses me so much I think! And I hate that he seems so sad about it but he loves me so much when I come home and that is so nice. Even if he is stinky I still am glad that he is next to me.
I'm riding my post early because my head hurts so much and I don't want it to get worse So I'm going to try to get off my phone for a while. I hope you guys all have a great night and I hope tomorrow is fun and not a sweaty. Good night everybody. Have fun out there.
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yrigami · 1 year
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Inner thoughts
Pt.2
Welp... I never thought this day would come. If I’m being honest, I was honored and so humble to have this happen to me. I honestly couldn’t have done this without the help of my dear mother and father.. they’ve helped me come this far in life, without them none of this would’ve been possible. I’d also like to thank my grandmother for helping and blessing my mother and I with these incredible features. Thank you for this moment. Truly <3
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ANYWAY.. now that, that's over let’s get to the real reason why I’m making this post.
I've been working in retail for about 3 years now, so I've seen my fair share of people. I have many customers that I enjoy seeing, I love seeing my little baby customers and their parents watching us interact, it's cute and honestly makes my day. I also enjoy seeing the many older customers that compliment me about my hair, makeup, or even my eyebrows. They also make my day as well.
What makes me want to leave my job and quit most days is when I have customers that think that I owe them something. Like this is the first time I've seen you, why do you think I'm obligated to do you're every command? I always think it's funny when they give me the "nice side" of themselves, then when they don't get what they want, they immediately drop whatever act they were doing. Make it make sense. Like why not act like that from the beginning? Do better honestly...
One of my many examples of this type of behavior happened not too long ago. It was a regular day at work, I believe I went in early and left around 6-7 o'clock. After I had my break for lunch everything was going ok, that was till a certain customer came in. she came to my line with a medium-sized order, not too small but not a cart full of groceries. She bought 6-7 bottles of wine that evening. when scanning the wine, I noticed a certain tone in her voice (a not-so-nice one at that). She didn't ask for the bag we have at my store for wine, she basically demanded it. When I told her we were out of the bags and had been for a while, her whole mood changed. I ignored it and kept doing my job, but then... Her order is finally done!!
A FEW MOMENTS LATER... *in SpongeBob narrator voice* I go to hand her the receipt and while she grabs it she begins to say, with a tone to try to be sly (what seems to be under her breath at this point), "I come here for a specific reason, to get service with a smile" and then proceeds to walk out the door with my bagger at the time. After that interaction, I was left thinking to myself "did I really hear that, or am I imaging things?"
Turns out I didn't imagine things after all. A little while later my bagger comes back inside. At the time there was a bagger already at my register, but the previous one said he could take over for her. I thought it was a bit suspicious and it turns out that was correct. He had some words to tell me about the lady he helped outside...
Once he started talking, the things he said made me sort of giggle, mostly because the stuff he said sounded a bit odd and weird especially for a kid to hear from an adult. He told me that she was ranting about putting together stocks and talking about cryptocurrency. LIKE WHAT!? Why would you rant to someone about things that like? The kid is still growing! But that wasn't even the best part of the story. The best part was when he told me of her saying ⚠️ curse word ahead ⚠️
"When you get back in there, tell that b!tch to smile.."
...Words I never thought I'd hear about myself..a "b!tch"? All because of not smiling at a customer? My resting face, which looks upset, is normal. I constantly get asked if I'm okay by my coworkers, just because my face looks upset when I'm fine. It's normal to me now, I'm not going to change my appearance for anyone. Why would I smile at someone whos being rude to me? How do people use those words so easily?
I just can't understand them...
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Big personal vent ahead, TW for medical stuff.
I'm so sick of being sick. I had the most terrifying experience of my life last night. I slept pretty badly the night before last, only like 3 and a half hours. Then I had a really hectic day. I had to get up early and go out of town a couple of hours away for some personal business and I also ended up doing my bi-monthly grocery shopping and exhausted myself. I've also recently dealt with a pretty bad UTI and kidney pain, and had a bad reaction to the antibiotics they tried to give me for it. I was exhausted all day and didn't end up falling asleep until around 2am last night. I woke up pretty much exactly 1 hour later, completely delirious and hallucinating. My partner said I was acting like I was having some sort of manic episode. I got up to pee and then blacked out and woke up a couple mins later in my bed, unable to remember if I had actually gotten up a minute ago or if it was just a dream. Then suddenly I was in the shower spraying freezing cold water on my head which really freaked me out and sent me into a panic. Partner said I was running around yelling that I was having a stroke and needed to go to the hospital. Next thing I know I'm burying my face in my cat, crying and telling him how much I love him. Then I'm walking around in the street, freezing. Dunno if I was trying to get some fresh air or what, but it didn't help. Then I'm in the hospital in the most wack, embarrassing outfit I have ever worn. Leopard print pajama pants, pink Uggs, a blue sweater, pink beanie, and pink/green/purple/white striped fuzzy socks lmao and there are nurses taking my blood pressure and asking me my name and if I know where I am. I have tons of weird vague memories of getting ready and how I got there, but they feel like foggy dreams that didn't actually happen. They really believed I was having a stroke at first, but I passed their neurological exam perfectly fine. They took a bunch of blood, ran a ton of tests, everything looked good aside from my usual anemia. They even said my infection seemed to be gone. Turns out I was in some sort of severe sleep deprivation induced episode of delirium or derealization or something bc I slept so little and did so much after being so sick for so long (on top of being immunocompromised). Also I was severely dehydrated. I drank up like 3 bags of fluids they gave me via IV, then started to feel more aware. I slept ALL day when I got home and now I just feel kinda.. funny? Like I'm a little spacey and out of it, but nothing like I was last night. I'm so terrified it will happen again. I sincerely believed I was about to be one of those young people who drops dead of a stroke bc of covid complications. I remember clearly thinking at one point "oh my god.. I am having a stroke. I had covid and now I am having a stroke and I am going to die." I have a horrible fear of having a stroke bc I was there when my grandma had one (I was about 14). I was home alone with her and she was calling me by one of my cousins names and walking around the house and standing in random places and staring off into space, then she had a seizure and I had to call for an ambulance and I was the one who went with her to the hospital and I watched her flatline. They managed to stabilize her and she has been fine ever since aside from being weaker on one side of her body and having some difficulty with speech, but ever since then I have had a severe fear of that happening to me. I honestly accepted death last night. Now I feel like maybe I was being dramatic, but I don't think I have ever been more scared for my own health in my entire life.
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foxcassius · 1 year
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i have felt like shit for most of today. i do not know how to fix it. i finished stitching one of the sleeves on my quilted jacket but i dont like the shape very much. honestly it is starting to look like a ren faire jerkin lol which is kind of funny. but i need to decide if its okay as is or if i'm going to fuck with the shape more. but I think not having a sewing machine is just really doing me in here, because sewing a seam takes me four times as long as ripping it out, whereas usually it's the other way around when you have a sewing machine. anyway after being discouraged by that my friend asked me to meet up in okayama and i was hesitant because of finances but agreed because i wanted to get out. but then trying to put on clothes made me deeply upset so i told him i couldnt go. and then i spiraled and confronted the fact that i just need to get rid of my lolita because it doesnt make me happy. and then i knitted for a little while and went to the grocery store. and then i took a nap. and then i ate dinner. and i just still feel like shit. and i have work tomorrow :(
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hospitalterrorizer · 4 months
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diary113
1/4/2024
thursday
so tired my head hurts
was reading tiqqun's cybernetic hypothesis this morning in the laundromat, got detergent on my hands and felt gross. the wind was blowing today too, which made me feel dirty upon setting foot outside, sickening feeling. plus it messes your hair up, but honestly it didn't get me that badly. but my head hurts, the wind probably blew a bunch of allergens into my lungs, that's going to be awesome i bet. we also went grocery shopping and saw a crazy guy who said fuck off at my girlfriend, and then wandered into the smiths and was still very strange. he didn't do anything ultimately though.
what else. i dunno.
i did 3 songs today, 1 is perfect basically, the other two have tiny issues, the one closest to perfect just needs a bit less highs in the vox and needs some tonal volume back in the kicks. the other that's a bit farther away mostly has problems in the vocals, too many high mids, 2k i think. maybe the snare needs to be pumped up too. i also need to figure out a good outro bit in the song, some kind of thingy that rises up, maybe an 8 bit synth thing. i did that in one of the songs, it's really fun to do, just nonsense bits stuck in the end that swell in a matter of like, less than 3 seconds, in some cases. that'll be fun to implement, especially with some of the really annoying synth sounds. it's funny that really ugly random chiptune sounds might help the album cohere better or something, i guess because it will help keep the momentum up.
i should also do that w/ feedback, maybe when i get the sequence down better i can throw in some feedback things at the end/start of certain tracks, that should be good to help create cohesion as well.
the big annoying song i have kept going back to, upon listening to it, is kind of still really frustrating me. i should maybe take some more days off of it and keep getting through all these other ones, or maybe correct the tiny errors i noted here and get to others tomorrow. but the annoying one, when i do get back to it, i should try at first raising the low layer and dropping the treble layer a bit. i should also maybe think about replacing the treble layer with another sound, maybe another instance of that same guitar sound but in a better form, from another where that guitar sound is like, more perfect i guess. the rest of that song is really in a good place i feel like though, is the thing, it's really messed up. the issue is, right now, it almost sounds too clean/pristine, it's a bit too fluid sounding, i guess another thing is i can reduce the level of the lossy effect on the guitar, which i know is doing that a bit as well i think. another idea i'm having is to remove all amp sims from the guitar layer thing and instead do that on the group layer, i wonder how that'll go.
i should also look at the frequency range of stuff i'm listening to for pointers w/ guitars.
another music idea i should note down: hxc thing that when it slows down it's just the song's main riff resampled at a slower rate, maybe 30% or whatever.
and now about the little bit of reading i did, cybernetic hypothesis is very interesting so far, mostly about the circumstances that have produced our particular moment. one part caught me as interesting, how the marginalized/minoritized/outsiders are 'given voices' now, supposedly, but it's really a kind of mandatory participation in a dialogue/submission to many kinds of apparatus which categorize and make one intelligible, rather than to oneself, only to the various systems/autonomous processes we are interred in, serialized, carrying credit, gifted diagnoses, but we are always prevented from engaging with these statuses on our own. but i guess what caught me as most prescient re: mandatory participation or in their words "imposition of participation" reminds me of how people always get wrapped up in bizarre kinds of drama online, carrying opinions, forced into having thoughts on any number of things.
anyway i am tired now, so:
byebye!!!!
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HI dear Piscena ! That husband levi post you tagged me in was perfect ! It boosted my mood and i want more now, so can i request caring husband Levi hcs ? I love how you write him sm :3
Caring Husband Levi HC
A/N: funny how this took me months to complete??? anyways, you always have the best prompts, i really mean that and I'm so in love with husband Levi :) i set these in a modern au!
Okay so Levi is #1 best House husband this is a fact don’t even try to argue with me
Growing up, he didn’t think too much about marriage but the moment he met you he changed his mind. The more he got to know you, the more he knew he wanted to spend the rest of his life with you.
Levi is the type of husband who will never stop wooing you, he’ll text you at work to drop off coffee/tea/snacks whatever you’d like, bring flowers if that’s what you like, send you pictures of cool things he sees, just anything to let you know you’re on his mind
He’ll never admit but he loves sharing a bed with you, he finds your body and breathing very comforting at night when he’s struggling with his insomnia
Since he’s an early riser, he’ll make you coffee/tea while you get ready and then bring it to you. He’ll also make you lunch because he loves leaving little notes in your lunch box.
But on the weekends, he’ll stay in bed a little extra longer to snuggle under the warm blankets. He loves how your hair looks and the sleepy look in your eyes. He’ll always ask you about your dreams and he’ll try to tell you about his but he has a hard time remembering :(
For date nights, he’d rather stay in and cook a nice meal, watch a movie or play a game. He feels the most comfortable in your shared home. However, he's not opposed to the occasional weekend getaway.
Speaking of housing, he LOVES decorating your shared space constant trips to the container store, Crate and Barrel and IKEA. He leans towards minimalism and light palettes so it’ll take some compromising to fit in your aesthetic too. Honestly, as long as everything is clean he won’t really mind.
In his book, Sundays are made for cleaning. While you go and do the grocery shopping, he’ll deep clean everything using the supplies you got him, I’m talking cutesy gloves, apron, slippers, and headband. He loves them but he’d probably be a little embarrassed if Hange saw him in them.
Levi loves taking candid pictures of you, sweet ones from the park, and thoughtful ones of you at a gallery. His phone background is a candid pic of you looking at the ocean, he thought you looked extra pretty that day :)
He has a photo of the two of you on your wedding day, when he's having a rough day he'll look at it and feel better
He won’t use a lot of pet names for you but he loves when you use them on him! Especially ones like my baby or my love and if you speak another language and use a term of endearment on him, his heart will literally swoon.
If your ever gone, he’ll literally be the saddest boy ever, he’ll mope around the house and stare at the window like he’s an indie move while drinking his coffee. He’ll never admit that to you because he doesn’t want to worry you but he’ll always have your favorite meal ready when you come back.
Does he want kids? he's not sure, he loves the idea of having a tiny human who's part you and him but he knows they're messy and expensive. He'll never pressure you into having them though, he really is content with the way his life is with you.
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Even after seeing you naked so many times, the poor man always gets flustered before sex. He thinks your body is the most beautiful thing. He thinks your body is amazing for constantly changing and adapting to the world.
He def makes a lot of money and he wants to spend it all on you! You have a drawer full of expensive lingerie and a box full of toys. Anything that could bring you pleasure, he’ll happily buy.
Levi is a switch mainly because he’ll adapt to whatever you want, you wanna be taken care of? He’ll literally eat you out for hours and praise you the entire time. “So fucking good” “My pretty pussy"
When you wanna dom, he gets the hardest boner (secretly this is his favorite type of sex), he loves when you use his body to get you off, Wanna tie him up and ride his cock? Sure. Wanna sit in his face and pull his hair? Hell yeah. “Love when you take care of me like this” “Use my cock, baby, it’s all yours”
But when you brought up the idea of pegging him, he was a little scared but he loves and trusts you more than anyone so he decided to let you try it once. It quickly became a part of your sex lives.
He has a secret file of all the dirty pics you’ve sent him, if he could he’d print them all and hang them on the wall but he doesn’t want anyone else to see you like that.
The one thing he won't do is degrade you, you're just too precious and important to him to do that.
Aftercare with this man is something else, he'll hold you for as long as you want not even thinking about the mess but his favorite part is taking a shower together after, he liked washing your hair and scrubbing your back.
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