#god this is so hot ive literally been thinking about this ask all day little brođ§Ą
HII okay so ik this is a bit of a weird request (or maybe im js rlly anxious rn for some reason??) BUT i was wondering if u could do like little head canons of Leo and a female reader who has like, a really deep country accent IYKWIM?? PLS N THANK U dont rush or anything js a small requestđ«¶đ«¶
âźâË howdys, yeehaws, and cowgirls; leo valdez x western! daughter of apollo! reader blurb
content: leo valdez x western! daughter of apollo! reader blurb
warning: lanauage and stereotyping (?) of texans but it's okay yall will get over it
author's note: as someone from rural california (yes ive been trying to gaslight you guys into thinking i live on the beach when really it's three hours away stfu) and literally just went to a school sanctioned line dance that is quite literally more anticipated than prom, i feel more than qualified to answer this prompt lmao. ive seen a pair of cowboys more than once everyday my whole life. for FUN kids i know raise pigs and cows and lambs and shit and then sell them off at fairs. also do not stress bby, this wasn't a weird request at all! in fact it was so good i made a whole blurb lmao. ALEXA play my childhood country playlist, thank you miss girl. 10 year old me knew good music when she heard it okay, stfu. OH AND PLAY COWBOY CARTER WHILE YOUR AT IT YALL COULD NEVER MAKE ME HATE BEYOUNCE LEAVE MY GIRL ALONE FRFR you just dont wanna admit the albums good smh
to say leo missed texas, would be a lie. there was a deep ache in his chest to just go home. it was a strange feeling, considering he couldn't remember the last time he was in that state, as the foster system was eager to drag him all over the country. he missed the sticky and dry heat, he missed the longhorn cows that always seemed to be in the roads, and what he missed most of all was whattaburger. him and will mourned the loss of the beloved food chain weekly, if not daily. but, he only ever mentioned these feelings around will and simply in passing. he didn't think people would understand why he missed the state who's accent he tried his best to rid himself of.
which is why, when news spread of a new camper from texas, leo was buzzing to meet them. what was failed to be mentioned in the rumors, though, was the fact that you were a girl and also drop dead gorgeous. he was staring at you in a way that would have his mother smacking him upside the head, cursing him out in spanish. it took a bit for him to introduce himself, his nerves allowing his accent to slip through occationally.
"are ya from texas?" you asked, eagerly, your eyes brightening in a way that had leo's knees buckling. your voice, oh gods, your voice-
"yeah," he breathed out, bordering on a coo as you cheered.
"finally! and here i thought there were no cowboys left in new york," you teased, poking his chest with a finger before someone from the hermes cabin was calling you over. you flashed him a smile brigther than the sun on a hot texas day and scampered off, your cowgirl booties with bows clanking to the beat of leo's heart as you went.
from that day forwards, it was hard to see you without leo close by. finally, someone else to talk to about texas. sure, will was great, but he was a busy guy with all his medical stuff and boyfriend. and your voice left leo like a fly to honey. it was sexy and got him hot and heavy. but, it was also a comforting dialect that had him thinking of childhood, sweet tea, and sweltering heat.
and then you were claimed by apollo, only a few days after your arrival. i guess apollo has a thing for cowgirls, and leo couldn't relate to the god more if he tried. leo was slightly worried that you'd turn out just like will, locked up inside the infirmary, destined only to share passing comments of missing real texan barbeque. but, then you came up to leo during lunch, blushing as you admitted that you fainted when kayla pressed the scalpel into your hand. and leo laughed, and silently thanked his lucky lone star.
then the more musically talented apollo kids caught wind of the fact that you sang in your church's choir as a kid and nearly blew the whole camp up in excitement. something about wanting to do a country performance for camp but never having a lead singer with the accent as they'd rather jump into the sea of monsters in speedos then listen to will attempt to sing. naturally, you were more than happy to sing, excitedly telling leo about the country songs you were picking out, even letting him request a few of his childhood favorites.
and as you were prancing around on that slapdash stage with your siblings, singing proudly into a mic with your accent clear as day, leo fell a little bit more in love with you every note. and he fell back in love with texas, too, and everything it meant to him - everything he knew it meant to his mom. every twang of your voice and every playful tip of your cowboy hat had him thinking of how much his mother would have loved you or how he had wished the two of you could have met. nevertheless, he was laughing and singing along, front and center with will, there arms thrown around each other. they both wore barely thrown together western outfits, thought will had a hat, that despite leo's begging, he wouldn't give up.
at some point in the show, you were singing of coca cola and tight shirts, kneeling near the edge of the stage. leo was entranced as you locked eyes with him, just barely computing that you took your hat off and set it on his curls before jumping back up to your feet, singing about wanting to be wherever your boy was, throwing a wink to leo over your shoulder.
and gods, you were hotter than the blazing texas sun in the middle of summer, that much leo valdez was sure.
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can you do thigh riding hcs?!?!?! it's been on my mind all day literally I need it so bad!!! I love your miles stories/fics! đ«¶đŒđ«¶đŒđ«¶đŒ
YEYSYEYS!!! I LOVE!!!
a lot of people also asked for this!! so Iâll be combining everyoneâs requests here!!
thigh riding. â miles quaritch â
pairing. naâvi!miles quaritch. fem!reader
content warning. daddy kink. lil choking. edging. lots of dirty talk. overstimulation.
note. kitty has BIG thighs for sure!!! like daddy Iâm begging u PLS just be real
Okay so this could go two ways!! this MF loves you ofc, cherishes you and everything but!! I feel like thigh riding can either be for heâs too busy and canât get pleasure u rn or heâs punishing your ass. There is no in between
letâs just say your sitting on milesâ lap while heâs doing his work in his office. Your thighs spread around his and your arms wrapped around his neck, giving him little pecks. you grind your clothed pussy on his bulge, causing some friction.
âmama, cmon behave for meâ heâd tap ur butt. youâd just whine. like daddy pls!!! youâd start to kiss along his jaw to his cheeks, âbaby, you know we canât do this now, Iâve got work to doâ still kissing him you say, âpls mwah ive mwah been so mwah good!!!â he thinks ur so cute omg
he chuckles at you and pulls you away, finally making eye contact with you. he grabs you by your chin, âthis work is very important to me right now, so can you sit on my lap and look pretty while I finish this?? then we can play for as long as you want babyâ but that wasnât enough. You need him now. you need release now!!
you grind on him again, âdaddy!!! but Iâve been such a good girl today!! Iâve done everything youâve asked!! pretty plsâ you pout ur lips and flutter ur eyelashes. AWW HE LOVES U!!!! he shakes his head, âtsk, baby, you know I canât say no to youâ
âbut I still need this work done, so ride my thigh mamaâ girl HUH??? u froze, youâve never done this before at all!! âwhat ma?? too scaredâ he teased. he pulls your body onto his left thigh, flexing it a bit. âhere mama, you know how to love to grind on my dick, itâs like that but on my thigh. you can do that right baby??â you nod your head. âbut what about u??â
omg heâs so INLOVE with you!!! the fact that you care about him getting off too!!! âaww baby arenât u the sweetest thing, donât worry about me mama, Iâll be just fine watching you get offâ GIRLLLL!!!
you slowly start to grind on his thigh, rubbing ur poor pussy against it. miles doesnât acknowledge you at all and u hated that. like daddy come help me out pls?? heâd just be doing his work while you would try to get off on his thigh.
more pleasure rose from your heat, your pussy getting wetter by the minute. He could feel his thigh become damp. LORD heâs trying so hard to focus rn. heâd take a little peek now and then to see your beautiful body and my god he loves it.
âmmm!! d-daddy, feels so goodâ this fucker is not focusing on his work anymore. Heâs now leaning back on his chair, one arm hooked around ur waist while the other is slowly rubbing your clit. âyeah baby, u like that?? u like daddyâs thigh huh?? yeah u do. look at ur pretty pussy getting off to itâ.
he is loving the sight. You getting lost in ur own pleasure, ur hands grabbing his thighs for support and ur head rolled back. âa-ah!! m-milesmmm!!! so closeâ heâs into now omg. âalready mama??? fuck ur so hot, letting daddy take u like this. s-shit gimme a kissâ you lean into him and kiss him. tongue dancings together.
âu gonna cum baby?? my good girl gonna cum for daddy?? all over his thigh right? yeah thatâs my pretty slutâ GIRLFIRL youâd grind faster, chasing your release. âp-please!! talk to me more daddyâ
ohmygod now he is going feral, âyeah baby?? you like my voice huh? Gets you off now doesnât it?? such a fucking slut mmmâ and if u thought that wasnât going to make u cum, âcmon mama, wanna see ur pretty pussy cum on me, need it bad, s-shit can feel u clenching baby, u like that huh???â and BOOM u came!!!
now this fucker will take thigh fucking to the next level!!!! see if ur a bratâŠgirl u better run. he will edge u over and over again on his thigh. Like not even on his dick or tongue.
youâd be facing him, his hand on ur neck while his other was on ur hip. youâd be a sobbing mess, tears coming from ur eyes down to ur cheeks!!! lips all pouty and pink omg!!!HE LOVES THIS SIGHT
but bc u were being such a brat heâd canât show that he likes it, he just looks mad. âawww baby r u close?? you know u canât cum until daddy says so, and u want to make daddy happy again right??â Ur nodding ur head, grinding on his thigh.
âd-daddy please!!â u cry out. ânah uh mama, your not getting away with what u did that easy. just keep grinding on daddyâs thigh, be a good girl for meâ HIS WORDS HIS VOICE SO DEEP!!! the way he speaks to you makes u WETT like girl.
he can clearly see when ur about to cum or not, when u r heâd pull ur whole body up and youâd cry!!! heâs denied you so many times now omg.
âyou wanna cum so bad donât you mama? you wanna cum for daddy right? yeah I know u do, cuz ur such a slut huh? just needa cum all the time dont you?â okay girl u crying rn. But you couldnât hold it in this time, your release ur juices on his thighs. u r in big trouble now.
âcanât even listen to a single thing i say. I asked for one thing mama, fucking slutâ. oh MYGOD âyou wanna cum mama?? yeah go ahead cum againâ u look at him confused. âw-what?â âYou heard me slutâ you go back to grinding on him and feel urself getting close
âcmon baby, cum for meâ and u did. Why is this fucker LAUGHING??? âaww u thought it was that easy didnt you?? u think u can just cum all you want, uh uh baby, since u wanna disobey daddy ur gonna cum over and over again until ur fucking brain deadâ OHSJIT!!
this MF is overstimulating you now. youâd cum so many times that all u would see were stars. He is loving it.
youâd be a babbling mess, trying to form words, âm-miles aaahhhshn f-fuck p-pleaseahh too muchmmmm!!â omg he thinks this is the hottest youâve ever looked, so fucked out and just for him. âjust one more baby, you can cum one more time right?? yeah I know u can, daddy wants to see u cum cmon mamaâ GIRL!!!
youâd release all over him one last time, heâd kiss your forehead, âyou gonna listen to me now right baby?â You nod ur head, âthatâs my good girlâ heâd pull you to the bedroom, giving u lots of kissing and rubbing your thighs with his thumbs.
lord this man loves you. even though ur the biggest brat he knows he still loves u!! âlove u so much mama, u did so well for me, good girlâ youâd smile at him, âonly for you daddyâ HE SMILING, âatta girlâ
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RYAN DUNN WITH A GOTH AND METALHEAD GN READER
heyy yalll im backkk, took a little break for a bit but IM BACK BABYYYY, ive been getting into goth culture a lot as of recent and have been changing my style to fit around it more so this is js a silly little thing to fuel my brain âșïžâșïž enjoyyy
WARNINGS: none
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GOTH
ok so really i think ryan would LOVEE a goth s/o
but it depends on the era of him
if we r talking BEGINNING of cky days i feel like he would be into it but NEVERRR let yk abt it
if we r taking 1999 ryan oh my god hed fall in love with u then and there
we all know back then he had a little thing for more hardcore women (COUGH COUGH YALL EVER SEEN GLOREN BRO, the leather jacket RYAN WE KNOW WHO U RR)
i feel like he would be curious about it
just with how intricate the style is
i feel like hed be into all the styles of goth ngl, hes js so curious on how it all works
the closet thing hes really seen of goth is bam fanboying over ville
soo not much to compare it too
i feel like he would ask so many questions
just like âwhere do u find clothes like that??â âhow long does it take u to get ready?â js air headed questions
if u started dating him tho oh my god hes a sweetheart
anything halloween related that looks edgy in the slightest he will buy and say it reminded him of u
will help tie up corsets, clip on necklaces, and always have a spare pair of flat shoes on him just incase ur heels start to kill ur feet
obsessed with the make up, he thinks its so cool (and so hot)
oh bam is lowkey so jealous
especially if u are a fan of ville
ryan would try and color match his shirts to ur outfits
u wearing red? his shirt is gonna be red
purple? he has a purple button up somewhere
hes js so in love w u he doesnt care
will be the type of guy to run to the store last minute to get accessories for an outfit for u
also will buy u those overly expensive edgy ass heels from the store bc he know u will rock them
probably has tried on some of ur platformed shoes or heels and busted his ass
bam would probably be there dying laughing bc of it
or he would casually put on a hair piece or some necklaces and imitate you (he swears it out of love)
honestly would let u give him a gothic makeover, js dont show bam
he doesnt reallyy get whats going on but he loves it anyways bc he loves u
METALHEAD
oh he thinks ur so cool
depending on what metal genre u prefer he would listen to so many songs from it
i feel like heâd be a little intimidated at first bc mf thinks HIM and CKY is hardcore
he will buy patches for ur battle vest
love hearing u go on about the bands
WILL GO TO CONCERTS WITH U
warning tho hes gonna try and fucking stage dive into the mosh pit
hes gonna get his ass KICKED
loves ur accessories
the gauntlet cuffs, the bullet belts he thinks its so edgy and cool
hes a little scared of the corpse paint tho
hes seen bam do it but never fully going out with it
when he walks into the room and see u just with two massive black holes for eyes a white face and a frown drawn on it kinda scares him for a second
but he thinks its so cool after he realized
wants u to do it on him
literally if u do he will js be staring in the mirror of a good 20 lins is awe
will go to bar shows with u
cant fight for shit tho so if someone starts shit goodluck LMAOOO
lowkey would grow his hair out bc one of ur fav bands fav members has long hair
hes wayy more into this probably then the gothic vibe but tbh ryans such a sweetheart if he liked u, HE LOVEDDD u
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hey yall so hope u enjoyed, ive been really into both these scenes recently and broo the goth metal style is my favvv, its hella cool. i need to start writing on here again lmk if i should do other cky/jackass members with different styles and genre loving readers!! byeeee :))
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KINKMAS 15 thor x you thor falls for a goddess.
TW:MINORS DNI
A/N: YALL BEFORE YOU READ, I AM HOLDING A VOTE ON 6 NEW CHARACTERS THAT I SHOULD WRITE FOR IF YOU WANNA VOTE, INBOX ME WITH THE CHARACTER OR PERSON YOU WANT ME TO WRITE FOR, IT CAN BE ANYONE, BRYCE PARKER, JACOB DAY, OR ROMAN REIGNS. ANYBODY!
you got up, feeling amazing, but somewhat nervous as you had a date with the god of thunder and storms. you had some nice pink classy heels.
preparing for this date was nerve wrecking usually you didn't care or give much importance however, this was the god of thunder, he was handsome and so hot.
THOR's pov:
I got ready to see the beautiful Y/N, I was excited but a little nervous the goddess was hot and known for seduction, tricks and leaving men in love with her for years.
your POV:
you were anxious "I need to make a good impression" your friend alex came bursting in. "I already know how you are. everything will be okâŠ"
you gave a nervous chuckle "how do you know?"
"because, you've literally done this hundreds of times you do not need to worry what's so special about him anyways?"
"because alex⊠hes the god of thunder, and war. he's mighty hes not just a normal everyday person" you said as you put on some eyelinear. you stared at alex through the
mirror. she smiled "really? you will be fine." if anything goes wrong I will be there"
you were ready, you went to asgard, seeing thor.
"hey Y/N. how are you?"
"im good how are you?"
"im great here lets order some drinks"
alex stayed back watching, she saw an amazing garden and went to check it out.
you saw as thor snapped his fingers ordering a sex on the beach his buttoned up shirt tighted around his large biceps and his veiny wrists.
you smiled ordering a martini.
"you rule all of asgard?"
"yes of course darlingâŠ"
he gave you a bright smile that made your heart light up.
he set his drink down explaining how much he loved his place. as he set his drink down you noticed his biceps, your eyes fluttered as he stared into your soul.
"I know you are well versed in glamour and seductionâŠ" he said with curiosity. his eyes were searching deeply for a response. "yes I am, I dont rule much but Ive been known to seduce any man ive come into contact with. sometimes it depends, some men easily get sucked in, but some need some risk, like showing off my potions of posion."
"I see⊠I can see the intrigue⊠I wouldnt say thats totally fair tho as you are a ruler of all men in a way." he said finishing up his drink, giving you a glint within his eyes, you finished up your drink.
you both ordered a 2nd round.
you were beyond attracted to thor⊠his blond hair, his perfect biceps the way that he dressed all of it.
"tell me how has the progress with asgard been ever since its destruction" you saw a lump build in his throat. "pretty goodâŠ" he said stumbling on his words. "its been rough with architecture but the progress has been fast"
he said a little shocked at the question. you saw alex, she had found some pumpkins and she kept looking at how beautiful things were. but they were also far apart, this place was far beyond what you imagined.
alex walked in, you didnt notice "hey, hey thor I am alex nice to meet you" alex said having a smile on her face being as welcoming as possible. "nice to meet you alex tell me a bit about yourself"
"I am a archer, best one of my town along with a spice of witchyness."
"ha nice, heres a ticket to an archer event being hosted in asgard the both of you are invited"
"oh thank you thor."
"Y/N ill be over here with an old friend wave if you need me"
"alright love ya"
"love ya Y/N"
thor asked "so.. are you gonna take me up on that offer"
he said with a stern smirk, you noticed his jaw, it was perfect and beyond smooth"
you licked your tongue thinking about how handsome he was. "I dont think so I would love to get a tour of your place."
"someones egar to see my palace huh?" he said with a grin "lets go" you said slapping his bicep, you got an eletric touch from skin to skin contact is felt amazing. you also noticied him shiver.
you arrived to the palace it was big, just like him⊠you got your mind out of the gutter as he showed you all of the rooms.
bathrooms everything was carefully placed.'their was no speck of dust.
everything was protected, you noticed a large bubble around the palace. protecting it from any danger.
to be fair this was your first date in awhile, not your first date ever but, the first one in a long time.
"wow this place is pretty thor.."
"just like you my darling" he said with a grin. fuck you said to yourself you he was so hot, you noticed the way he was standing and how he would stare at you. he scratched his back nervously. he showed you his room, you found a gold necklace "whos is this?"
"its a magic necklace⊠used for the seductress I have others one for poseidon, one for eros."
"wow its so pretty"
he got face to face. you saw his hot nose, his soft and sharp jawline, you squirmed, feeling a shock of bliss. you gave him a kiss. the first one in months. he shivered it was almost as the both of you had a shockwave of bliss sent through one anothers bodies.
"you are beyond beautiful." said thor. your stomach has butterflies as he kissed your stomach, you took his shirt off and then his pants "careful darling"
"love you in the color blue looking so sexyâŠ"
"you know your biceps are amazing" you both had smirks but you were flushed beyond your comprehension. you were entranced by him. but thor was so handsome.
you rubbed your hand across his biceps, he groaned as almost if he had gotten a massage. "what about you⊠I wanna see that beauty underneath the blue"
your cheeks flushed.
"just relax handsome" he had a strong gaze you kissed his abs. slowly taking off your dress. you took off his boxers. you kissed him "are you comfortable darling"
"yes thor, I just need you to fuck me up" you wished you didnt say that but your doubt quickly went away and you gripped onto his arms, you switched your position you were no longer ontop of him you were now laying on the bed. he kissed you as he slowly entered.
the feeling was crazy like never before, somehow you knew you were at the right place and at the right time you had never felt this. tingling sensation in your cunt but also all over his body. he let out moans groans "fuck darling⊠you⊠send⊠tingling through my entire body." his words flew out with a arrow of bliss
you hand was gonna slip off the bed but thor didn't let that happening keeping you in a comfy position.
"fuck" you moaned, "someone's needy" you moaned as he went faster. "dont hold back thor" he went faster. now your legs were a puddle of wetness while thor was turning into a fireball.
"I guess a god like you has good taste"
"of course I do especially with a respectful person like you Y/N" as he said that he kissed your cunt slowly licking it as if you were ice cream. you moaned titling your head back. almost as if his tongue gave you an orgasm. he went back to fucking you deeply.
you both did not stop moaning as every movement was like an orgasm.
"fuck darling⊠I see why your the rightful ruler of men" that alone sent you off you both moaned loudly as you reached your peak.
a burst of energy was sent out not only from you but from him as a storm and rain set in stronger then any other you've seen.
"I love you"
you both hugged eachother tightly. planning to set off together into asgard as it rained. still feeling a tingling senstation of bliss.
THE END!
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This week mustâve been so long for you. I know you cant come yet so as a mercy how about I put just the tip in. Just enough for you the feel the fleshy head and some pre yeah?
Pull you aside, maybe during your work break, push you against a wall and slip in. Pulling your underwear to the side, not even bothering to take off your pants, and just wedge in right at the entrance.
You couldnât take the whole thing yet, cuz even just the tip might make you cum, just these shallow teasing thrusts to get you through the day. Then when youâre break is over just leave you there, cuz when night comes youâd have an idea of just what was to come.
With the day being teasing the night would be rough. You get home and are shoved to the floor and just like during the day the tip is wedged in without even taking off your pants fully, but this time instead of teasing thrusts I dont wait and without waiting start pounding and breeding you immediately.
Both of us would have been waiting so long so Iâd be rough. Pulling you into my thrusts by the hips and pushing your head into the floor. The only thing for you to focus on is how that cock stretches you and bullies your insides. The wet smack as you get more and more wet dripping onto the floor. Even after you finally came youâd be pushed into orgasm after orgasm, so much so they become one long drawn out rollercoaster and you turn into in mindless cockdrunk bun.
(Hope that wasnt too much, but also goddamn your responses last night were soooo hot. Hope your impending O is amazing)
hi again đ©”
and fuck,ive been at work all day so thinking about this is making me even more đ”âđ«
only slightly pushing into me or just rutting against my cunt to make me whine.
i wouldn't be able to wait till i got home, id be so excited, trying to discreetly rub myself against a desk or chair. just thinking about what you might do to me.
and gods when i got back home đ”âđ«đ”âđ«đ”âđ«
please push me down and treat me like that, only tugging my panties to the side before you start fucking me hard.
be as rough with me as you want, either way ill be moaning like a good whore on the ground.
feeling how wide you stretch me and how deep you fill me, need my cunt to be ruined by you
cumming only from your cock fucking deep into me over and over, need that so fucking bad. over and over again until im drooling and dumb.
make me your cockdrunk bunny, good little breeding slut for your pleasure.
(ohmygods no its not too much, i like your asks a lot. people dont usually bully me very much so i kinda enjoy it sbhsjsnsjs)
(im literally so worked up i stretched at my desk earlier (back not my holes) and i thought i would cum because i like somehow put pressure on something dhhddjdj)
(im wearing fishnets and panties and a plug under my clothes)
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Noooo chapter 5đȘđȘđȘđȘ weâre coming to a close, fellas. I cannot⊠and yet. I can. We move forward my sisters in god
OhâŠnot him spending winter break with herâŠin the same house⊠as their parentsâŠwith all thisâŠtensionâŠ. (Ive seen this [adult] movie before)
Aww he holds the door open for her⊠helps her take off her socksâŠwalks her to class/.., it really is the little things. His actions⊠Peach said show dont tell đźâđšâ€ïž
Not Cardan being fluent enough in french to have La Chute in its original publishing bye thats so hot of him and dare i say,..timothee chalamet coreâŠ. @iknowitwontwork wya (This is rockstar anon btw i am on medication (dont worry abt it peach this a little inside comradery bby)) anyways have i mentioned you write and its like a movie?
ââIs it your favorite?â I ask. I wiggle my brows, âDo you think you, too, have fallen from grace?ââ â first, not babygirl being versed in Camus đ secondly, ohhohoo i love all the biblical referencesÂ
âHis smile is Cheshire in response, âSince the day I met you, little sister.ââ - u know whatâŠ. At least he honest, like its really now hitting me that hes soooooooo honest about it. Playing a little game as jude said when he was leaving her dorm after the party⊠like its a game but an honest one. Like am i crazy or is he just trying to see how far he can provoke her w their situation and honesty?Â
Omg wait not him CLOCKING HER the very next paragraph (By the way i feel like u should know, i have the chapter open on one half of my split screen and the other half is your ask box lol i am literally typing as i go like this is the wattpad comments section fr)
i feel so smart and validated that cardan literally says all of that ^^^ like wow i should have held my tongue (fingers) and read the next paragraph lmao
ALSO BAD THING SBY CULT DIDNT I LITERALLY SAY SHE KNOWS DOT MP3 BEFORE????Â
I like that his jewelry comes up frequently because its part of him, just like her knuckles come up cus its part of her fr like both of them are so natural abt it too like her playing w his chain and him rubbing her fingers like ugjhhfh SHOW DONT TELL IS SO IMPORTANT
Whoaaa not him clocking ASHA now!! Not jude saying her mamma dead or alive she dont really care, RESPECTÂ
Wait not him pulling up to the gas station to get a first aid kitâŠ.like he really doesnt say a word about it at allllllll
And jude said oh, more time alone with him? In a diner? Count me in â€ïž
Oh shit cardan has moneeeyyyyyy â âI guess, there really is a lot about him I had no idea of. âI'm an honorary member,â he shrugs, âItâs kind of hard not to be when Daddy funds their lifestyle.ââ purrrrr
Oop!!! â âGhost is my best friend. It would have been a fight had it been Locke or anyone else,â he divulges, and though I shouldn't be startled by his honesty, it still makes me feel a little too warm. Then he admits, maybe selfishly considering his track record for the past few weeks, âIf he had gone further, I would have buried him.ââ HELLO
Lol jude got some balls to say ââThat's a visceral reaction,â I come to terms with. âYour best friend?â I blush when I remind him quietly, âyouâre the one who told me to open my mouth.ââ cus like she right tho
Ahhh! I squeaked ! ââPlus, I think you look cute with a dick in your mouth.ââ
When hes a feminist đźâđšđźâđšđźâđš â ââWhat makes you think you have any right over my body?â / âI know I don't.ââ
Hold on hold on hold on wait a minut wait a minute hold on, when did cardan transition from little sister/dear sister to baby? It happened so naturally how am i this far in and catching it???? I love him
Lol jude said fuck condoms we fucking raw or not fucking at allll đ€đ€đ€đ€Â
âAfter a while, I notice him staring. âDo you want some of my pie,â I offer. / âIs that a euphemism?â / [..]âDo you want it to be?ââ â yes, i do, i wsnt it.
ââWhat's the pipeline between mommy issues and wanting to bend your sister over the bathroom sink?â â - HELP ME?! â ââStepsister,â I tell him.â â emphasis on step fr okayyyyyyyyyyyÂ
ââIt makes no difference to me, Jude. Sister or not, Iâd want you the same way I wanted you then, the same way I want you now.â â - wait why is there butterflies in my tummy đ«Łđ„ș
ââI want you to copy me,â he says, huskily, startling me, my eyes growing wide. âI want you to stick your fingers in your panties and do what I do.â â - PEACHâŠthe gasp i gasped âŠ. !!!! PEACH
IN THE DINER!?
IN FRONT - ACTUALLY !! ACTUALLY IN FRONT OF MY SALA D IN THE DINER?! .. do continueÂ
ââI thinkâŠI want to do to you what Spring does to cherry trees,â he murmurs. âOpen you upâŠwatch you bloom.â â â DO NOT BE QUOTING PROFOUND POETRY RIGHT NOW IM GONNA FALL IN LOVE.Â
His fingers in her mouth jus - đ¶đ¶đ¶đ¶đ¶PUT MY FINGER IN UR MOUTH CUS U LOVE THE TASTEÂ
âHe pulls out of my mouth, a trail of spit losing connection when he finds his way under the jacket, following my hand, and adding his finger to my two. I whimper at his intrusion, and think, disoriented, three. Three fingers.â â no fuc me for real PEACH PEACHERLY ANNE POSSIBLE i dont care that its dirty as hell this shit is poetic
NO NOT THE WAITRESS !!! NOT HIMS STILL GOING TOOO AHH PEACH
My heart racing rnÂ
Oh god.. The soft forehead kissâŠlike he didnt just rock her world in a booth in the diner⊠im literally and figuratively unwell
âHe kisses me sweetly when we get to his car, and I kiss him back, because we can, for right now. â â why did this hurt?!
AND ALL THIS TIME HE DIDNT EVEN LIKE CHERRIES
Not is it out of your system!!!! Twk ate w that fade to black fr tho
ââCherries?â / âMe,ââ - STOP hes so fucking cuteÂ
Okay this might be the longest ask yet đ my sisters in god is sending međ
I think in any fic Iâve ever written, cardan is always holding doors for her lol
Not timothee chalamet core đđđ @iknowitwontwork ur friend is here, come get her â€ïž
lol that is a nice piece of info to be made aware of đ I was lowkey wondering if you were switching through tabs lmao meanwhile Iâm scrolling up and down trying to respond đ lol it would be soooo much h easier if this was the Wattpad comments section. Like they ate w thatâŠthat one little thing. They ate.
You did mention the song!
I really do try so hard to show not tell cus I hatttteee reading tell not show in booksđ like donât tell me he loves her, show me!!! Whereâs the build up?? The tension??
lol if cardan is blunt, Jude is ballsy (I hope it comes across this way lol)
Actually donât know when that transition happened I just be typing stuff đ
Always emphasis on STEP lmao heâs not the step brother heâs the brother that STEPPED up lmao lemme stop that was uncalled for anyways yes the diner, yes infront of your salad, ues the waitress, yes that song lmao
Also you should know the first time you called me peacherly anne possible, something in me changed like the stars alined and now peacherly is my go to user name for websites and stuff cus slayyyy who tf else being called peacherly ????!!!
Two really did eat w that lmaooo
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oh if ur still doin this: 8, 5, and 1
im just gonnna do this for whatever i can think of first bc ive been answering asks based on what the person asking likes and you are one of my least Privy To My Video Games pilled mutuals but i love you okay enjoy the rants
common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about
coming in hot with a dmc opinion but i think everybody who flanderizes vergil into this selfish cunt who acts the way he does out of spite needs to let me hit them in the face with hammers. i literally love vergil so dearly and it pains me to see everybody reduce such an interesting dude into POWER XD DEADBEAT DAD XD. like you guys know that his obsession with gaining strength and almost every single step he has taken is because he never wants to feel as scared and small and powerless as he was when his mother died and he thinks his mother abandoned him to save dante but she didnt she died trying to save him and now he hates (hated) his brother because of it. everything in his entire life stemmed from the day their mother died and it grew into an almost fanatic obsession because he never wants to be that fucking helpless again. not to like say he did nothing wrong obviously or hes a poor little meow meow, hes anything but a poor little meow meow but vergil get behind me i will protect you from the redditors. also the deadbeat dad joke is overdone and boring. dude gets laid (somehow) after being in the torture nexus for god knows how many years, he DIDNT EVEN KNOW HE HAD A SON UNTIL DMC5 AFTER RIPPING NEROS ARM OFF. and anyway fuck all of you he gave nero his stupid corny poetry book when he left for hell and theres a menu screen background of nero and vergil chilling at the table and vergil is awkward because he doesnt know how to talk to his son but theyre just vibing okay. sniffles. sorry for going on a rant about vergil devil may cry are you mad at me
worst discord server and why
im not really in any tumblrina discords or what you would consider "fandom" discords i pretty much only strictly use it to talk to like my overwatch friends. im in a lot of servers but its only like hub servers for information about stuff that i would want access to, not really community servers. with that being said, and i just commented this under a mutuals post, but the demon hunter class discord for wow is a god forsaken nuclear wasteland full of edgelords and misogynists and its so painful bc im just there to learn how to press buttons better
the character everyone gets wrong
raiden metal gear. sylvanas wow. wrathion wow. d.va overwatch. VERGIL DEVIL MAY CRY. dante devil may cry. trish dev- you get the point.
maria/doll bloodborne is my most beloved but surprisingly ive found that like a majority of the fanbase is like sane/normal about her. its a nice breath of fresh air
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my god my fucking god im so powerful i actually amaze myself sometimes okay okay so. picture me at the races with my friends circa this time yesterday. it was absolutely full of students bc the whole reason we went was bc it was student day and there was a whole deal on for it organised by the uni, so it's just students as far as the eye can see all dressed up. as a bisexual, i was in heaven. EVERYONE looked hot. we had the lads in suits and the girls in their nice dresses. i didn't know where to look. i cannot stress enough how many hot people there were.
but one lad really stuck out to me. i genuinely have never seen anyone prettier than this fucking boy. i literally did a double take when i first saw him and i could NOT get him out of my head. literally drop dead gorgeous i was flabbergasted to the point i didnt even do the usual 'i've spotted a fit lad' with my friends bc his level of fit just seemed to exceed casualness. so i played it cool and did my usual little Eye Contact game (basically just glancing at them a shit ton and hope to catch their eye, and it looks like an accident and you dont look desperate, but once you get that moment of 'oh we've made eye contact by pure chance' then don't look away. if they're interested, they'll hold ur gaze and u can hold it long enough to be suggestive before looking away, and then usually they'll come to you and it's really funny bc they play right into it and they think it's their own idea but you're like ha ive been plotting this for 15 mins now. if they're not interested, they'll look away. im so clever and hot right)
one problem, this boy WOULD NOT LOOK AT ME. like it's purely a chance thing but every time i looked his way he was just doing his own thing. i gave up in the end bc it just wasn't happening and i literally forgot all about it, but later on i'd had a few drinks and i always get VERY sociable when ive got a bit of alcohol in me, and me and my mate saw this guy who had a star wars themed suit on. and id seen this boy earlier BECAUSE HE WAS STOOD WITH HOT GUY so i knew they were friends, but he was on his own this time and hot guy was nowhere to be seen. still, i was a little tipsy and i genuinely thought his suit was cool, so i went and told him his suit was cool. there was literally no ulterior motive here bc how could i possibly even scheme that much????? yet star wars guy was really friendly, asked for my instagram, and that was that. me and my friend walked off. no biggie.
EXCEPT I JUST GET A NOTIF ON IG AND DO YOU KNOW WHO FOLLOWED ME???? THE FUCKING HOT GUY FOLLOWED ME the hot guy who DIDNT HAVE MY INSTAGRAM which means his friend would have had to not only bring me up again upon us literally having a three second conversation but also speak highly enough of me that hot guy asked for my instagram AND THEN LIKED ME ENOUGH TO FOLLOW ME???? HELLO????? and he has his spotify linked in his bio HIS MUSIC TASTE IS GOOD and he has a playlist for spike spiegel. im in love
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Hey hey, another Thursday!
Starting off with OC, ive seen the promo pics and tbh, im excited.
Jet looking amazing in green.
That was the WOOORST job putting a necklace on EVER. Like, not only was it over the hair, but it was not properly lined up for the revealâŠ
Just casually walking around the streets of nyc with a severed hand.. nbd
Are you seriously telling me that dog devoured that hand in that little time, bones and all?
How and why is it that these hardened career criminals always fall so fucking hard and fast for the UC cop!?? Like, you should have your guard up a little bit shouldnât you??
Okay, soâŠ. Can we talk about ayannaâs nails for a hot second? She clearly a pillow princess with those claws⊠LOL
 THANK YOU JET. THANK YOU for fucking calling out that stabler has done SO much worse than KISS someone while UC.
Man this whole sending an agent cop into the field UC to be the romantic interest of a perp/mob/mafia and the cop ends up crossing a line or two, fucking things up and falling for said perp⊠all while the guy playing Doyle is the main mob boss?? Hmm⊠this is a little too familiar, like even jetâs wigâŠ
Is she faking this?? Okay, yes, she is. Called that.
This ep is super Ayanna jet heavy and im LOVING it thank fucking god
Also loving ayannaâs apt
Okay the wig coming off would not be that big of a deal in todayâs day and age, tons of girls wear wigs all the fucking time. ALSO, why was it not wigcapped, pinned down and secured??
Welp. Cant say im not surprised by the ending. But I am glad that jetâs getting to do more.
As of right now I am paying ZERO attention to mothership. Weâll see if that changes when sam pops up or not.
Okay, the black & tan number Samantha has on close to the end? It looks like itâs a two piece outfit with her midriff hanging out⊠good job wardrobeâŠ
Ooo..odâd⊠yeah⊠called thatâŠ, also Nolan that was some of the worst cpr compressions ive ever seen on tv.. cmon
OKAY. Paying attention now!
We REALLY had to watch that machete attack again!?? WHY
Jfc that openingâŠdid we have to go that graphic?? Is this gonna continue to be a new thing?
I cant figure out if theyâre trying to test out muncy/Velasco with the fandom and see what way we go, or of theyâre teasing the relationship, or if theyâre just playing on the brother/sister vibes, because all im getting is muncy being a brat, which is accurate. Also that scene wouldâve been a lot less awkward if there was any kind of background noises/music, like when thereâs elevator dings on greyâs, you know what im saying?
Loving the purple on Velasco tho
âyou wanna keep a stray puppy?â âyou got to keep one!â LOL
So brunoâs here to stay?
#1: wtf is this bucket hat.
#2: why is it pulled down so far over her eyes?
Bro those crutches are way too short for this dude
âA funk?â carisi then gives the âwhoâs this guyâ look to liv. LOL.
Man the writing this ep is great.
I appreciate that weâre getting more into muncyâs personality aside from being a lil teasing brat, like, thereâs gotta be a lot of grief in there, knowing that her mom died and im pretty sure it was when grace was young, so sheâs probably been bottling shit up since then. Also still and always really hoping that they donât push her & Velasco, let the brother sister bestie vibes win please.
Glad weâre getting lots of muncy this week
Bruno is growing on meâŠ.
âsometimes though itâs hard to make a u-turnâ IS THAT THE ONLY FOLLOW UP WERE GONNA GET?! (I say that as someone who is 100000000% NOT an eo shipper, but I do think itâs strange that *that* happened last week and like, fin didnât even ask how noahâs drive back to the city was kinda thing. Yeah, sure there was enough going on in both episodes, but like, there was literally ZERO follow up to everything. Jeeze.)
 Joe looking hella cute in that toque
Man this just keeps getting worseâŠ
Okay⊠hold up.. grace says âa great oneâ about Velasco being a liar and liv just flies right passed it AS IF THEY ALL DIDNâT FIRST MEET HIM WHEN HE WAS UC AND NONE OF THEM BELIEVED HIM. Like homeboy WAS working majorly UC for how long??
Though we DO know a tidbit about his previous gang involvement⊠so I honestly donât know what direction theyre taking this⊠itâll be interesting to see.
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Ive been following you for years and I love seeing your hc/long posts even when I dont super know what they are about I just think you have such a fun/smart way of thinking about things. I miss it you should start doing it againâŠSo uh what are your favorite hcs about this ENGR crew?
ough this is such a sweet ask thank u i love u im glad u enjoy them wwhjkhsglrkjgfdl
hmm.....favorites for them....i have so many i think about them like 24/7. let me say this first: korn is a trans man to me and chang uses any pronouns (hot girl at a bar hitting on him really changed him i see it clearly). also mo is 5'6 and korn is just barely taller and never lets mo forget. just for some little things i feel very strong abt<3 but anywayss
pat mindlessly plays with his friend's hair mindlessly. like specifically braids it. he used to do it all the time for pa and he doesnt even notice at first that he's doing it until like one time he's ranting to korn and he tugs a little too hard and korn shouts but never tells pat to stop or anything. just does it all the time and they looovveee it and if they all have pat gifted braids in their hair at the same time they r so annoying about it. they just go around with matching hair and pat gets sooo embarrassed bc they wont shut up about how their bestie did it for them literally if you even glance in their direction they will tell you
engr besties cuddling...they are so obviously just an overly touchy group they've always got an arm around shoulders or hand on the back, half sitting in laps and all the like. no concept of personal space in that friend group!!! they like to be close to each other!! and they get fake jealous if they get left out of the affection which is how 50% of the time they find themselves in a cuddle pile, the other half is intentional/just kinda happens bc they drift together. korn is 100% someone who likes to hold people he's always wrapped around one or multiple of them. mo likes to spread out and it works well bc he's the smallest. chang likes to nestle up. like curl into people's laps or lay his head there or on a shoulder. pat's pretty fine with any arrangement he just likes being able to touch everyone in some way like korn wrapped around him, mo's legs in his lap, and a hand stretched all the way over so he can touch chang's arm. he does start to like get all >:( if anyone tries to like spoon him after he and pran start dating bc it simply never feels as nice so it makes him irritated. korn and pat are kinda chronic overheaters, korn gets whiney about it but pat doesnt notice its just everyone else's problem. chang runs super cold and mo is just normal. he's fine and normal in this department. they dont usually use blankets though bc they will fucking die then. esp if they are squeezed tight. they are convinced they can all fit anywhere until it blows up in their faces. pat lovveess playing with his friends' hair and hands and they all love when he does. mo falls asleep super easy when he gets cozy. korn thinks its funny to just randomly shake them around sometimes or just full on start trying to get everyone to wrestle with him with only works like 40% of the time. chang, surprisingly, is the one who talks the most like sometimes its just a normal hangout session so they are all just having normal conversations but on the days where its like more sleepy/quiet chang just kinda fills up the space by like monologuing about something he found interesting recently or whatever. they also have like a very specific way of holding each other when one of them needs some Serious comfort. it varies per person, like after the (fake) break up, korn and chang would glue to pat's sides and mo would lay across their laps and hold one of pat's hands and they'd usually watch something or pat would feel safe enough to vent. but yeah they all have a special comfort cuddle setup...they love each other soooooo much that it's embarrassing. and oh my god? pran is not safe? they walk in and see him and pat cuddling and they just fucking leap onto that couch and snuggle in best they can everyone wants to be close to pran bc he's their special guy! and he gives very good rubs and sometimes gives their heads a little kiss (which they all do to each other but its different bc again! its pran!) and pran feels so nice and loved but he cannot last very long bc it gets so hot so fast and he does not enjoy being sweat on by multiple people for more than maybe 45 minutes. sometimes inkpa join. pa's a lot more used to it and has a higher tolerance but both would much rather just be cuddling each other. with them it is just like a prolonged group hug basically, korn once got a black eye trying to keep ink in longer and she hit him in the struggle. they love each other (:
pa gets sooo many brothers. like she has pat and pran but she also get korn mo and chang and they all love her soooo much (society if i finish my fic abt this>)
ive talked about it before (mostly in reference to korn and pat's relationship) but i think the engr crew has an interesting relationship with violence and anger. pran being the catalyst in the change in it since it allows pat to become further removed from those things which leads to the other 3 to do so as well. i have a lot to say.
chang breaks him arm and the next day mo shows up with his broken too so korn and pat are like dude what the fuck happened and mo is just like oh i didnt want chang to feel weird being the only one ): the only reason korn and pat dont do the same is bc pran stops them. korn mo and chang were having a really hard time when pat got shot bc they could not easily recreate it for themselves to share his pain
korn mo and chang love pran so fucking much not an ounce of this is just out bestie's bf in them pran is THEIR special guy!
silly little group of bisexuals<3
months after the (fake) breakup starts to die down patâs out at a bar with his buddies and chang just is like âthis was pranâs favorite appetizer hereâ and then both he and mo just start drunkenly bawling about how much they miss pran leaving pat and korn to comfort them
korn mo and chang take that fake break up SOO hard. korn at least knows its fake but he still doesnt get to see his guy as much as he wants now but mo and chang? Devastated. oh i have so much to say i have many visions that make me so ]: (society if i finished this fic lol>)
they have secret handshakes
they like to tease pat for how down bad he is and force him to share his bf. pat's out there acting like a chauffeur bc they make pran squeeze in the back with them. shouldnt have gotten such an epic bf if he didnt want to deal with the consequences
Simply they love each other so much and are so supportive and learn to navigate newfound vulnerability with each other which allows them to just continue to grow closer and into the people they actually want to be<3
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The other night I got way too high in a public setting
I meant to take a three 5 mg gummies I eagerly bought at the dispensary because it is 2024 and weed is legal in the great state where I happen to reside.
I actually took three 10 mg gummies and upon that realization, the clock ticking for the party I was due to make an appearance at, I understood that I was not in for a peaceful ride.Â
I used to, I guess, be what you would consider a stoner. I smoked everyday, immediately when I got home, skipped class and meetings and events just to sit in my college suite bathroom and hit the $12 hot pink bong I bought at the smoke shop located a walking distance from me, but just far enough to not seem like the school is endorsing this act.Â
I bought my first bowl when I was 17. It was a gorgeous blue and white and transculent swirley-glass contraption, with a glass frog adorned on the top. It was so fucking cute. I used that bowl for almost three years, until i accidentally threw it on the floor with all my clothes and my naked body because, if you had not caught on, I was smoking in my college campus apartment buildings bathroom. No smoke detectors! It smashed everywhere and I stood there naked. And then I took a shower. And then I cleaned it up. And then the frog bowl was no more. At some point I wasn't naked anymore.
I smoked so much that edibles had absolutely no effect on me. My friends would watch me eat a 150 mg edible and just sit⊠and wait⊠to no avail. And then id go smoke a bowl and theyâd look at me like I was crazy.
Those days are long behind me. Months went by of me smoking out of routine and then me asking myself, why am I doing this? I think I hate this? What is wrong with you? But Ive recently rediscovered the âedibleâ, and now that I am not constantly incapacitating myself just to lay on my bed and listen to music every single day⊠they work!
So Iâve been on a kick. And last friday night was no exception. I actually argued with my friends over my attendance. The party was not a mandatory aspect of my itinerary, the edible, was.Â
So I left my friends apartment and got in the car to go to the party. I was immediately giggly and scared, a fantastic combination for a fucked up girl like me.Â
I arrived at the party. People immediately come up to me to talk. Likability can be such a curse! I cannot do this. I look at this boy in the eyes as he speaks to me like heâs been waiting for me all night and I know I need to get away. Anywhere.
I need to say the rest of my hellos!
Iâm gone, he is mildly defensive and trying to hide that fact.
I say my hellos, who the fuck is here? I donât know any of these people!
I see a jar of olives, my favorite kind. I exclaim over this fact and that starts a conversation between all the people seated around the counter. Something about people who like olives and people who donât. If I actually wanted to hear what they had to say I would have given them my full attention, but given my state, I was more focused on the olives.
Now while weâre on the topic, I never liked olives. I actually grew up hating olives. My mother would slice them up in little bits and throw them in literally any dish she could that simply did not require their presence but she did it anyways. So it was quite often I would be eating dinner, and I would get a taste of the foul little whatever they are. What even is an olive? I donât even know. All I knew was for a very long time I hated them. And then my friend, my best friend, god bless his soul, made it his mission for me to try an olive on one of our cute little cheese-board and movie dates. I am a free spirit, an untamed soul, an adventurer at heart, this is ironic but my point is of course I had to try an olive at his request, and I actually liked it! Years of pure hatred down the drain. Iâve converted.
Anyways, Iâm at this party eating olives, and to be quite frank, I am afraid. So I do what I am best at and excuse myself to find whatever girl-seance is occurring in one of the bedrooms upstairs. I find my sanctuary. My friends are trying on different outfits and I am now trying not to stare at their boobs. I donât know what challenge was harder but at least in this instance I get to lie on a bed.
Eventually though, like all things do, my moment of peace came to an end, because I had to go back to the party!!!!!! And like I said before, I AM NOT AFRAID (yes I am) I AM NOT A QUITTER, so I return.
There I am, back in that god forsaken kitchen. People are offering me drinks and I have to say NO because I honestly feel like I am going to pass out. I am not my usual bubbly cheerful self, and just stand there. I canât talk. People talk to me and I donât know what theyâre saying. This is fine, to be honest. I donât really care. But itâs the principle! I probably look like a bitch to all these people I donât know, but I honestly am not going to remember what a single one of them looks like so Iâll be fine. Even if they ever see me in passing, and think to themselves, that bitch! I will have no idea who the fuck they are.
One person I did know, God bless him, strikes up a conversation with me! God. I absolutely cannot do this right now. Heâs a chatty, quirky, little man so he means absolutely no harm when he goes on some tangent about how if he was ever in an emergency, Iâd be one of the first people heâd call.
I look at him, through glossy eyes, mouth probably ajar, and all I can say is âDonât do that.â
He is immediately defensive but trying not to show it. No not first⊠Maybe 8 or 9⊠Okay well if youâre having to call 8 or 9 people in an emergency maybe you should rethink your emergency contact list.Â
Heâs a very nice kid and we are often in a corner chatting on nights out or in like this. Itâs nothing against him. It was just the time and the state. And honestly, maybe I am just being self centered but Iâve always had this inkling that he is into me, and perhaps the edible was making me more perceptive or delusional, but I could sense it, and I was disgusted.
I normally love when people are attracted to me. Iâm an attention whore and constantly need validation. But these people canât get too close to me. When it becomes too real, I become sick to my stomach. I canât look at you. Donât look at me. I canât do this. This is a weird tactic for a girl who is constantly trying to fuck all her friends without ever making a single move. Itâs fun in my head until itâs set forth into action. Maybe if it was the right person. It never is.
So I pretty much flat out told this kid to NOT call me if ever in an emergency, so what does that say about my character?
I didnât mean it as simply as that. In my state of incapacity, the thought of someone in dire need to contact me was quite intimidating. I am in no place to help you right now! I canât even help myself! So I didnât really mean that I wouldnât help in an emergency, just that I couldnât do so right at that moment. That wasnât his point, but that was mine. I was too stoned to explain myself though so I just left it at that then resumed to my blank stare as I clutched onto a vape, my purse, my phone, and a water bottle all in one hand like if I let go my entire arm was going to fall off with it.Â
I looked gooooood by the way. I wore these gray pinstriped slacks that are wayyyyy too big on me. Red leather victorian inspired boots, a new staple in my wardrobe. An oversized sweatshirt I was too ambitious in cutting the neck out of, it was falling off my body but I can sew it back together. Im not a great seamstress but I can get the job done. I had my glasses on to hide my disgusting nose piercing I couldnât stop picking at, but all my friends assured me that IT WAS NOT A BIG DEAL YOU CANT EVEN SEE IT, not that Iâd ever believe them.Â
On his way out, a boy Iâd only exchanged hellos with in the past, couldnât tell you his name, told me that he âliked my lookâ. Thank you! I could not speak to you as I did not understand what you were saying this entire night, but thank you! Even if my personality is awash and I am nothing but a bag of flesh and bones, I look damn good. So I have that going for me.
A lot of people spoke to me that night, actually. I make it seem as if I just stood in the corner the whole time by myself. No, I was actually in the middle of everything, I just couldnât understand what the fuck they were saying. The music was blasting, roars of conversation in the background, purple lamp lights that while have nothing to do with the sound were just fucking me up. I think I would nod and smile. Or just straight up say I donât know what youâre saying. Then theyâd repeat themselves. And I would just smile again.Â
My friend noticed that I was not doing well. When I say Iâm not doing well, I was fine. I wasnât collapsing, not making a fool of myself, but my mind was ablaze and not in regards to the party. I couldnât be there. She got the gist and we left. Itâs actually quite more complicated than that but thatâs the point.
Upon my exit, I got trapped into another conversation I could barely understand, but this boy had a girlfriend so I could bare to look at him because there was no way (I hope) (No I mean it) this boy would be into me. I donât know what we spoke about, but when he let me go I said something along the lines of, âWow, this has been some of the worst socializing Iâve done in a long timeâ.
He thought I was talking about him or the party in general the poor thing and apologized. No!!!!!! I told him I was too stoned to function. I needed to escape. He laughed. He understood. Pleaseeee laugh at me, it makes me feel better.Â
There is no point to any of this. Just a moment in my life. I went back to my friends apartment and obsessed over every social interaction Iâd incurred and how terribly I handled it. My friend told me I was overreacting. I was. I ate noodles then a mango smoothie-ice cream situation and took a morbid shower where I just turned and turned and let the hot water burn my back as I burned myself for being such a fucking idiot. Then I fell asleep watching tinker bell in her bed. Not a bad night for me! Iâve been worse. Just a little painful.
The moral of the story is to always check the mg of each edible before you take them, donât just assume baby. Also, maybe donât take an edible before a party and focus on drinking or like being a human, but I wonât hold myself to that. No one is thinking about you that much. Yes youâre overreacting. Stop worrying about the dumb shit and ruining your own night.
I forgot to add this: My friend lives diagonal from one of my exes, so I absolutely dread entering and exiting their building. I actually try to avoid it at all costs, and when I do go, take a route where I am most unlikely to encounter said ex. It is very impractical. Iâve been successful so far, no encounters, but my fried brain was very concerned about this at the party. Also a reason as to why my brain was like Go Go Go, get the hard part over with so you can relax. So⊠to rid myself of this feeling... Either never go to that building again... stop caring about seeing people in passing because it doesnât matter... or stop treating people like absolute shit the way you always do then feeling bad about it after when it is too late to do anything about it. Just an idea! I wonât hold myself to it.
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Pretty; taeyong
->Taeyongâsđč
pairing: idol!taeyong x partner!reader (f)
word count: 1.2k
warnings: mommy!kink , sub!taeyong, begging, semi-breeding kink??, soft-dom!reader, literally just smut wish some fluff at the end
->ive been thinking about this all day thank you @nctdeeznutz for the inspiration⊠please enjoy xxx
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I liked to be in control of a lot of things in my lifeâ sex was not and had never been one of them. Well, until of course, I met Taeyong. Maybe it was the doe eyes and the innocence in their sheen that made my submissive role become over shadowed, that made me want to have him how I wanted and leave him whining for me.
It made my insides hot, an unclaimed desire in my wake. I wanted to hear taeyongâs pretty mewls and moans as I made him cum.
Tonight i found myself at my boyfriends dorm, he had his LED lights on and a faint bluish purple colored the room. I lay at his side, my head in his neck as i cuddled close to him, he played a new demo heâd been working on. He hummed along the vibrations of his throat and chest making my core clench. I moved my head the slightest bit as to kiss his pretty neck. I suckled lightly at his soft skin.
âNo marks, Y/n.â His tone was a breathless whisper as his resolve left him.
âMmm, youâre no fun.â Though I did understand his reasoning, he couldnât afford to be seen all marked up with hickeys on his neck. I would leave them on his hips occasionally, before taking him down my throat, they wouldnât be so easily seen.
I pulled myself on top of him, my legs straddling his waist and my chest flush against his. I looked into his big eyes before I smiled and kissed him. It was hot, his hands were urgent at my hips, guiding me as i ground my hips deliciously against his. I pulled the sweatshirt he wore up his torso, it was a signal i wanted him to take it off, he put his arms up and I helped him peel it from his body.
His cheeks were pink as I stared down at him, tracing patterns on his chest. His eyes were large and pleading. He wanted me to do everything to his body, his facade of control washed away. When I continued to stare at him and not make a move he shifted his hips against me with a whine.
âAw,â I place my hand on his cheek, âIs my little baby needy?â He nodded his head eyebrows scrunched up in pleading. His mouth was slightly open and his full lips tempted me.
I leaned down tugging his lower lip between my teeth pulling back and letting it go, âbeg.â I prompt, and he does. Grabbing my hand kissing up my arm begging me please between kisses.
âPlease-â
Kiss
âPlease use my body-â
Kiss
âTake me, please-â
Kiss
âIâll do anything for you-â
Kiss
He worships my body as he begs me to fuck him. To take his cum. I donât fold yet, I find pleasure in watching him try to find a new weak spot, my neck, he tugs my shirt up tugging my nipples with his teeth whilst looking up at me with those doe eyes. He presses his hips up into me and I feel how badly he wants me and I smirk, reaching down to palm him as he sucks at my nipples, and I smirk when his whole body responds to me, stroking against my hand.
âYou think you deserve it?â I ask, just to put him further on edge.
âPlease, please, please-â itâs muffled at first before he drops my nipple from his mouth and continuing, âPlease fuck me, mommy please.â
Heat courses through every part of me and all I can see is him, all I want to see and feel is him. I push him down on his back, moving back further onto his thighs and pulling down his sweat shorts, he even lifts his hips for me. His cock springs free and I take him into my mouth, pulling a moan from Taeyongs pretty lips.
God, everything about Taeyong was pretty. His face, his eyes his collar bones, his moans, his hands, his hipsâ and so was his cock. I couldnât explain it any other way than pretty. All of him. I circled his tip with my tongue, tasting him before going down until he hit the back of my throat, making my eyes water and my throat contract, I felt the drool on my chin as i bobbed my head. I was making a mess of him, he was breathing heavy, containing the moans. I didnât like it I wanted to hear him.
I pulled off of him to which he whined, but I pushed my panties off and moved up, straddling his hips again. I lined us up and I sank onto him, the stretch was euphoric, I let out a moan and so did he. There was laughter out in the living room, talking, a reminder that we were not at my place where we could be as loud as we liked.
I smirked, âAfraid of getting caught baby?â Teasing him, I rolled my hips and moan and he whines. His eyes darting to the door as someone walks down the hall.
âWe have to be quiet.â His words are breathless.
I hum rolling my hips, feeling him inside me, âAnyone could walk in on us,â I prompt in a breathless whisper, âThe doors not locked, they could see you all submissive, obedient for me.â The roll of my hips grows harsher, because Iâm getting wetter at the thought of one of his members walking in and seeing me on top. Taking what I want from Taeyong. I bounce on him, holding onto his hips, I want to drag pretty moans from his mouth.
âP-please-â pleasure clouds his eyes and I bounce harder out skin slapping lightly. He desperately grabs at something, pulling it to his face. The big stuffed bunny Iâd been resting my head on. He bites onto the head, holding it to himself, and muffling his moans.
The scene undoes me, stuffed bunny pulled to his chest while I milk his cock, Jesus- I bring my hand down and rub my clit in harsh circles breathing heavy. Watching Taeyongs pretty eyes roll back in his head teeth still clenching the bunny and feeling hot spurts of his cum fill me up.
My breath hitchâs as I cum, the roll of my hips erratic as I ride my high with Taeyong quivering with after shocks beneath me. This, I could do this, feel this for the rest of my life and never get bored. Never fucking complain. Because it was all I wanted all I needed.
âTaeyong-â I moaned, squeezing my eyes shut, my mouth agape and legs shaky.
My eyes locked with his the second I opened them again. Taeyongs cock still buried to the hilt, still filling me up. I smiled at him before leaning down, chest to chest, my lips hovered over his.
âI love you.â He says first
âI love you more than I can even comprehend.â I tell him, because I needed to proclaim it, tell him how he effected me.
âI know.â He smiles all giddy, and I about melt into him. Because god he is everything.
I squeeze his cheek smiling wider, and I museâ âPretty boy.â
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Goblin anon here absolutely screeching over feral quirkless Midoriya, it's everything I wanted
I would like to also introduce a brand (my brand) of feral to Midoriya: pyromaniac.
Imagine Midoriya getting through the entrance exam by saving people, but also by bringing makeshift Molotov cocktails and wrecking almost as much shop as Bakugou.
Imagine the battle trials where Bakugou tries to blow up the building because "that's the only way to keep this little shit down" and in response Midoriya dodges and then sets the building on fire.
Imagine the USJ incident, which goes about the same, but his first instinct is to set the Noumu on fire. Yes he does so. He also nearly sets the stadium on fire at the sports festival so much that they had to evacuate sections of the stadium.
Midoriya (say it with me now) sets Stain on fire. When Tsukauchi meets with the murder trio after the Hosu incident, he just sighs and is like "Midoriya, really?" And this is when we learn that Midoriya has a history of coming across random villains and setting them on fire. When Inko arrives to pick him up she's just like "You're grounded."
There's theories about what Midoriya's quirk, everything from increased intelligence to extremely shitty luck to the ability to make anything he touches explodes (due to his inane ability to make a bomb/lighter out of the most insane things). When it comes out that he's quirkless, it just makes everyone even more afraid, as Midoriya can make a bomb out of some LSD and a rubber duck quirkless-
Pyromaniac quirkless Midoriya.
- Goblin anon
GOBLIN ANON ITâS BEEN AGES IM SORRY IM JUST RESPONDING NOW (ive been so bad at responding asks my god i struggle but thank u for ur au dumps, i love loVE THEM SO MUCH!!!!)
IM IN LOVE WITH THIS AU
feral quirkless gremlin midoriya going through shit by setting things on fire is just the way to go im duwldjwksk
i read midoriya with molotov cocktails and i have not stopped simping for and thinking about this midoriya
genuinely swooning at this ver of him
midoriya probably has a collection of lighters and basically does those hand tricks to calm him down or to take his mind off of things
bakugou and midoriya being more familiar with each other in their middle school days compared to canon and bakugou gifting midoriya with personalized all might lighter god thatâs adorable
ok but theyâre talking about their favourite heroes and bakugou goes, âshocking that you donât like endeavour.â
and midoriya just shrugs, twisting his hand and fingers to orchestrate the fireâs dance from his lighter, his viridian eyes brighter and says, âhis fire feels wrong.â and they leave it at that
midoriya being inspired by bakugouâs explosions and attempting to copy those so bad that bakugou thought midoriyaâs trying out for support classes
OK BUT FIGHT WITH SLUDGE VILLAIN?
he yanks out makeshift molotov cocktails from his bag, lights them up and throws them at the bastard. the sludge villain screams and retreats slightly because not only was he facing the fires but also the exploded glass shards. it gave enough time for bakugou to explode the villain and escape enough to allow him to breathe. in the end, all might still defeats the sludge but he misses bakugou and midoriya who escaped. no ofa for firey green bean.
bakugou helping midoriya create more explosions.
âbut kacchba i want fire, not explosions!â
âsame difference you pyro asshole!â
midoriya learns them anyways and enjoys it.
THE EXAM!!
i have two ways:
one: midoriya appealed to the staff that he needed support items and they allowed him and they watched in shock as this little boy explodes the arena worse than the explosion-quirked student. of course he passes and aizawa took him on as his student.
two: midoriya appealed to the staff that he needed his support items but the staff did NOT allow him because theyâre considered weapons (as if quirks are not genetic weapons but i DIGRESS) and so when the exam starts, he stays at the very back of the other examinees. this was so that when he arrives at the scene, there are already spare parts for him to scavenge so that he can build makeshift explosions (foregoing whatever shit he learned from katsuki because all thatâs on his mind right now are molotov cocktails)
so thatâs what happens. he scavenges parts and hides inside one of the buildings so that he can focus more on making explosions and be less worried about being attacked. when he was fully geared, he steps out and begins to retaliate.
he works fast as to not waste his time and the makeshift explosions. because of this, others (ahem-aoyama-ahem) had no opportunity to steal his score.
same thing happens: uraraka gets caught and midoriya explodes the zero pointer. this time, however, the robot is utterly destroyed.
aizawa and majima saw midoriyaâs performance, adored it, and began fighting for midoriya.
âmajima, heâs here for the hero classes.â
âgreat. now give him to me.â
nezu pretends that heâs not planning on splitting midoriyaâs schedule anyways.
BATTLE TRIAL OH MY GOD rip all might i bet you keeled over so bad, you were one second from turning to small might there and then.
all might: ok so one explodey kid to look out for. thatâs not bad.
all might, one minute later: this green kid looks familiarâŠ
all might, ten minutes later: what the fuck.
NO BECAUSE bakugou and midoriya being excited to explode things (well, more like midoriyaâs excited and bakugou just wants to fight midoriya) and having a blast when fighting each other.
1aâs probably thinking âoh noâ followed by âtheyâre hotâ (literally too because yk the buildingâs on fire.)
MIDORIYA EXPLODING THE NOUMU??? king shit
midoriya saw this monster running to aizawa and he just points a more eloquent looking flame thrower (thank u mei for working with midoriya with that) at this beast and sets it on fire.
it effectively slowed the noumu and gave the others an opportunity to pull aizawa from the hit zone. it also granted all might more freedom when fighting the noumu because it was slowed enough that all might didnât have to worry about exceeding his time limit.
the fire damaged some of its nerve processes that the scientist and afo had not accounted for. of course this review is returned to them and many of the noumus become fireproof because of this incident.
OK BUT DURING THE SPORTS FEST
midoriya crushing on todoroki because fire.
he was actually very interested in todoroki prior to sports fest but something about todorokiâs fight against sero sparked something more in midoriya. midoriya saw the anger from his ice, now he wants to see the same intensity from his fire.
his spiel of âthatâs your power, todorokiâ goes differently. todoroki still pulls him aside and trauma dumps on him but this time he goes, without missing a beat, âthat fire is a waste on you.â
todoroki full body pauses because thatâs not something heâs ever, well, considered to hear after trauma dumping.
âwhat?â he croaks, confused at the bubbling feeling. itâs a miasma of anger and hurt, but to a scale so unfamiliar.
midoriya shrugs. âfire is unique, more so as an elemental quirk. you think it doesnât make half of youâwell, i mean youâre right. it doesnât. you make it. you control it. fire is often uncontrollable and yet here you are, having it as your power. itâs yours to control, so control it. use it.â
todorokiâs ears are ringing.
âyou have it as your power.â
âso control it.â
and so he did.
midoriya watched todokiâs fire; watched the way the flames lick up up up and leaves no air bathed in heat. midoriya sees the rawness of anger and determination and thinks, âthis is how fire should always look like.â
unconsciously he also thinks how todorokiâs fire is far more beautiful than endeavourâs.
midoriya loses and heâs not as sad about it. losing to something sentient (fire, not todoroki), for him, is a blessing.
todoroki advances along with bakugou.
bakugou who is jealous of todoroki because he saw how midoriya eyed todorokiâs fire and knew todorokiâs a competition in other more ways.
bakugou wins again, this time less angry because todoroki used his fire against him.
STAIN THINKING MIDORIYAâS JUST THIS WEIRD HERO STUDENT WHO HAS NO SPECIFIC QUIRK UNTIL HE FEELS FLAME KISS HIS SKIN AND SCREAMS BECAUSE DAMN IT GREEN EYED KID JUST SET HIM ON FIRE
todoroki full on pausing because he thought heâs the one who set stain on fire unconsciously only to follow the fireâs trail and sees itâs from one of midoriyaâs many support items.
âshoot i didnât mean to burn him that fast!â
âthatâs your issue!?â
midoriya gives them a âduh?â look and todoroki feels himself warming up (HAH another fire pun) at midoriyaâs ease.
flying noumi still comes and picks him up but midoriya also sets this thing on fire. the difference between a winged noumu and a normal noumu is that the wings are far more flammable and midoriya had quite a bit of fun at setting it on fire and hearing the crackling of flames on rubbery wings.
endeavour casts him a glance that speaks of approval and midoriya doesnât know if he hates it or not.
tsukauchi arrives and sees not only stain, but the noumu and heaves up a very big sigh. âmidoriya, really?â
GOBLIN! PYROMANIAC QUIRKLESS MIDORIYA IZUKU IS A FAVE IM SCREAMING
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†made-up love song vi (m).
Your first encounter with Kim Seokjin doesnât go so well, nor your second, or your third⊠and maybe thatâs because it shouldnât work on paper. Youâre an elementary school teacher, never left the country despite hitting the third decade of your life not so long ago, and youâre unable to remember the last time you dated. Heâs the dad of one of your students, nearly a decade older than you and divorced. Oh yes, and just another minor detail â heâs a multimillionaire.Â
Your lives are lightyears apart, yet somehow, your paths having now crossed, things just seem to fall into placeâŠ
pairing; kim seokjin x reader Â
au/genre/warnings; strangers to lovers, romance, eventual angst, single dad! seokjin, ceo! seokjin, elementary school teacher! oc, age gap (oc is 30, seokjin is 37), seokjin is a dilf, smut; basically a montage of the sex theyâve been having during the rest of the summer lol, they canât keep their hands off one another, seokjinâs mouth gets progressively dirtier as time goes on, he also gets strategic with condom storage, smut includes; 69, face riding, condomless sex, creampie, biting, (light) spanking, thereâs cute things too, like arinâs birthday party and oc meeting his parents Â
words;Â 12,064
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chapters; i ⹠ii ⹠iii ⹠iv ⹠v ⹠vi ⹠vii ⹠viii ⹠ix ⹠x ⹠epilogue (+ drabbles)
You spent the whole of Sunday in bed â which you thought was Seokjinâs plan all along, only finding your way downstairs to eat, and even then he couldnât keep his hands off you for long enough. (Not that you minded.) He was making the most of it, he told you, before he had to leave you for work. That, and he was waving goodbye to his celibacy the right way⊠Despite your snort, you understood what he meant. You had fun familiarising yourself with the wonders of sex again⊠Miraculously blessed with an abundance of energy. Although, when it came to Seokjin, how could you even think about resisting him?! You couldnât keep your hands to yourself. And neither could heâŠÂ
âMmm. What time is it?â You asked Monday morning, voice heavy with sleep, eyes still closed as you heard Seokjinâs alarm go off. He stirred beside you, sitting up to knock the device off before burrowing back under the covers to wrap his arms around your naked body.Â
âHalf 6,â he grumbled, mouth pressed against the back of your neck. âI donât want to work.â With one squeeze to his chest, you felt that very obvious erection of his pressed against your ass. âCanât I just stay here for the rest of the day? Inside youâŠâ
You giggled, attempting to roll over and face him. A hand cupped your cheek instantly, puffy lips finding yours. Morning Seokjin wasnât good for your heart. His messy hair flopping over his eyes, pillow marks marring his skin, the slight stubble beginning to grow along his top lip⊠It was all just so⊠sexy, and now you were wide awake. Still, some teasing couldnât be helped.Â
âWe literally spent yesterday all day in bedâŠâ
âYes, and it was amazing,â he declared. âIâd do it all again today.âÂ
You raised an eyebrow, a palm holding him steady at the waist. âAll again? You do realise we still have all week to go, right? I wouldnât want you to fail on me so soonâŠâÂ
He huffed out a laugh, fingertips ever so cheekily grazing the underside of your right breast. âYou underestimate meâŠâ His voice was still gruff from sleep, it made his words ripple through your body, settling between your legs. âI still have 95% of the condoms to use. So,â he grinned, dipping his head to capture your mouth. âYou,â â he rolled you onto your back expertly â âbetter,â â he kissed your throat â âkeep,â â then your cleavage â â up.â His tongue around your nipple had you gasping out immediately, back arching, wanting more.Â
Spreading your legs, he nestled in between them easily, the muscles of his meaty thighs protruding as he kneeled up slightly. You gripped them urgently, needing to anchor yourself somehow, knowing what was about to come.Â
His teeth grazed your nipple as he dragged away, lifting his head up to smirk. âWhat do you say, baby, one for the road?â
Baby. Yesterday heâd become quite partial to that word, learning quite quickly what it did to you, what effect it had on you. (Yes, a curse word â or two, or more â may have slipped out of you yesterday⊠Heâd won, embarrassingly soon.)Â
You refrained from rolling your eyes, but still told him to shut up. Two minutes later he was buried inside you making you moan out his name.Â
It wasnât even 7am.Â
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When Seokjin finally got off to work (after about a bajillion kissesâŠ), you slipped into the shower, attempting to work it without breaking it. With that successful, you wondered downstairs to make some breakfast. It was strange being inside his house alone. Youâd arrived to meet him for lunch early a couple of times, yes, but Misook and Arin had always been there ready to greet you. Today it was just you, playing music as loud as you could just to drown out the deafening silence as pottered about in the kitchen. After eating, you washed the dishes (most leftover from yesterday) in the sink, unsure how to set the dishwasher correctly, and wondered to yourself how Seokjin had managed to cope living here alone before Arin moved inâŠÂ
You busied yourself with unpacking your case, not having a chance to do it yesterday â too preoccupied â while watching the clock. You had a lunch date with Soojung at half 11. Youâd managed to text her a brief reply yesterday but other than that youâd been AWOL. You knew it mustâve been killing her. By the time you met up at the food court, she was frothing at the mouth, desperate for all the details, which you gave to her in hushed whispers over a shared thin crust margherita. You didnât divulge all though, just enough to keep her nosey butt satisfied.Â
âThis is not fair at all,â she whined. âYou were getting dilfed the hell down and I was getting farted on by Tae.âÂ
You laughed, wholly impressed. âYouâve turned it into a verb now? Very creative. Iâm so glad to have you as a best friend.âÂ
Although, she wasnât so happy to have you as one when you confessed to telling Seokjin about his plethora of nicknamesâŠÂ
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Seokjin came home a little earlier than youâd expected. After lunch with Soo, youâd popped to the local grocery store, picking up a few things for dinner and then youâd sat in front of the television for the afternoon. It wasnât the most productive day youâd had by any means, but you felt contented, excited to greet Seokjin after his long day at work. You were in the kitchen, beginning to prepare dinner when you heard his voice.Â
âHoney?â Before you had time to reply, he was calling your name, closer down the hallway. âY/N? Where are you?â
âKitchen,â you called back.Â
You werenât looking when he entered, back to him, so suddenly you were engulfed in his arms from behind. He held your back to his chest tightly. âHey,â he murmured, nestling into your neck. âI missed you.âÂ
âI missed you too,â you said with a smile, holding his hands that were around your stomach.Â
He shook his head, pressing his crotch to your ass. âNo, I really missed you.âÂ
âSeokjin,â you hissed in surprise, feeling his erection instantly. You were getting dĂ©jĂ vu. Laughing, you wriggled around, facing him. He already had his tie loosened around his neck, the top two buttons of his shirt free. âControl yourself. Youâve literally just gotten through the door.âÂ
His facial expression looked immediately agonised. âI canât. Youâve awakened the beast.âÂ
âThe beast?â You snorted.Â
He stared you down. âYes.â And then he was on you, no time to return his kiss with just as much enthusiasm before he was at your neck, growling playfully. You fell into a fit of giggles, held prisoner by his hands pinned to your hips. âI was â distracted â all â day.â He informed you between tugs of your skin, tongue dutifully swiping where heâd bitten. He repeated. âCouldnât stop thinking â  about you naked â and moaning my â name â while I ate yourââ
âSeokjin!â you roared, heat instantly travelling up your face. You swore his mouth was getting dirtier by the hour. It made sense. He was teasing in nature⊠you just needed some time to get used to it. You would not let him finish that sentence for fear your legs would collapse beneath you.Â
He broke away and leaned back, pupils so dark you could just about make out the brown of his irises. He panted slightly, lips wet. âDo you want to?âÂ
Your eyebrows shot up in surprise. âRight here?â It didnât practically look like he was about to sweep you up in his arms and dash you up to the bedroom if the urgent grinding of his crotch was anything to go byâŠ
He grinned wolfishly, tilting his head. âWhy not?â
âItâs not very sanitary.â You glanced to your left as you spoke, eyeing up the two bell peppers youâd placed on the counter five minutes before Seokjin and his penis had shown upâŠÂ
You watched in pure disbelief as Seokjin eased back and pulled a square foil packet out of his inner breast pocket. âWhy? I have protection.âÂ
âWhat the hell?â You exclaimed. âWhy do you have a condom with you?â Heâd gone to work with that in his pocket? Attended meetings? Was he crazy?Â
âItâs not what it looks like.â He chuckled, looking momentarily bashful. âI just thought⊠easy access. We never know when weâll need one.âÂ
Folding your arms, you stared at him. Frustratingly you were unable to keep the corners of your lips from quirking up. âWeâll need one at your office?â
He shrugged casually, a smug smirk on his face. âWho knows. Iâm a man of very many fantasiesâŠâÂ
Oh, my god. Unbelievable. But you couldnât pretend that his words werenât having an effect on you, nor that the office fantasy didnât sound hot⊠You stepped forward, hooking your fingers between his belt and slacks, pulling him forward â which was easy because he was caught off guard. âEnough small talk. Are you going to fuck me in your CEO suit, or what?â
He composed himself expertly, hands reaching for your waist as he leaned in. âFirst of all, hearing you curse will never not completely obliterate me, and second of allâŠâ He paused to grin, so full of himself it was unbelievable. âYou want me to fuck you in my suit?â
âUh huh.â You nodded, tugging on his tie.Â
And fuck you in his suit he did, spread on the counter, your tank top yanked down so he could watch your breasts bounce as he pounded into youâŠ
You spent the Tuesday in his home office, making the most out of idle time to lesson plan for your new class come September. You facetimed Soojung (who tried her best to get you to give her a house tour) and then ended up sunbathing with a book for an hour or so outside. After Seokjin came home he called Arin, asking her what sheâd been up to so far and if she was having fun. Despite how much he was enjoying your company you could tell he was missing his daughter, even if he didnât explicitly tell you with words. You sympathised with him, it must have been weird not having her around.Â
Unsure what to do for dinner, Seokjin suggested making a last minute dinner reservation. That sounded fine by you, too lazy to think of preparing something tonight, so off you went upstairs to get ready, but of course, Seokjin found ways of distracting you⊠(You were thirty minutes late for dinner.)Â
The days were passing by quickly, and you could quite honestly say the week with Seokjin was bliss â and not just because of all of the sex. Although, it did play a very big role⊠It was the little things that meant the most, such as grocery shopping on the Wednesday afternoon. Generously, Seokjin had used two of his vacation days for the end of the week, saving the others he was due in the summer to spend with Arin for her birthday at the end of next month. Heâd arrived home early on the Wednesday afternoon, informing you he would be making dinner tonight and as silly as it sounded, walking around the store while Seokjin pushed the cart was one of the sweetest activities youâd shared together. The domesticity of it made your whole day, but the pasta dish he prepared later that night almost ruined it. His seasoning quantities were a little off, shall we say, all those years out of practice, so it turned out he was a danger with those chilli flakes. However, the coughing fit you both had after the first bite made for great entertainment⊠You didnât know whether you were crying with laughter or because your throat was on fireïżœïżœïżœÂ
The next day, as great as staying in bed and having sex all day sounded, Seokjin wanted to take you out and spend some time together as a couple. You were left to decide what you wanted to do, and of course you chose shopping. A new mall had recently opened up about an hour away and because you were so nervy on highways, you hadnât had a chance to go yet. Seokjin was more than happy to take you, and kindly enough he did spoil you a bit that day. Usually you wouldnât allow it (heâd tried it in the past), but there was no harm with once in a blue moon, was there? Besides, he got great use out of a few of the gifts too⊠One being the black skimpy laced lingerie heâd picked out⊠(The panties had an open crotchâŠ) That evening you shared a bath and a bottle of champagne before youâd given him a very indulgent fashion showâŠÂ
On Friday, you prepared a picnic and went hiking, which left Seokjin with an incredibly (and comically) red nose even though heâd applied sunscreen. You spent the afternoon cuddling in front of the television, making the most out of your last day alone together. Truthfully, you felt a little sad at the prospect of tomorrow. You missed Arin too and couldnât wait to see her but spending your days so intimately and lovingly with Seokjin had been amazing. You told him just as much gone midnight, wrapped up in his arms and bedsheets, head pressed against his sheened chest as you listened to his heartbeat slowly even out. This week had made you fall for him harder â if possible â and you were sad it was ending, but just so excited this was only the beginning⊠He kissed you long and hard, agreeing wholeheartedly, words unneeded.Â
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Arin was due back early afternoon, so you and Seokjin shared breakfast together before you packed up your things. He clung to you the entire time, sighing every time you folded up an item of clothing and placed it in your case.Â
âHow will I function without having sex with you every morning?â He bemoaned after one particularly loud unhappy exhale.Â
âIâm sure youâll manage,â you laughed. He was unbelievable. And whiney. But then again, so were youâŠÂ
Stood beside your car an hour later, saying your goodbyes, you hugged him tight. âIâm going to miss youuu.â How were you expected to sleep alone tonight?! It wasnât fair.Â
It was now Seokjinâs turn to chuckle at your ridiculousness. âIâm not going anywhere.â He assured, cupping the back of your head as you pulled back to look at him. His expression softened instantly. âBut I feel the same.â Kissing your nose, he smiled. âYou know that you can spend the night here anytime you want though, right?âÂ
You held out until Monday. You wanted to give Arin some time alone with Seokjin after her week away, you bet sheâd missed her father like crazy, but apparently sheâd missed you too⊠Seokjin called you while he was at work â his second call of the day. (His first had been at six oâclock this morning, waking you up to let you know he (and his dick) missed you.) Arin had asked him to ask you if you wanted to come over tonight for an impromptu movie night. You were touched to say the least. You let Seokjin know youâd  be there 6pm on the dot with snacks at hand. He told you to bring an overnight bagâŠÂ
Having sex with Arin under the same roof took some time to get used to. The first time was so hilarious looking back. It was 1am, time was ticking on and Seokjin had to be awake in under six hours, Arin was long asleep â and across the hall! Yet still you were both anxious fools, listening out for the slightest of noises just in case the unthinkable happened. Not that it would have, Seokjin knew Arin was a heavy sleeper so there was little chance of her barging in⊠but it still didnât stop him from whispering âWhat was that?â every five minutes, eyes pulled wide like a deer caught in headlights.Â
It definitely got easier though, and soon movie nights became a regular thing as the last weeks of summer rolled by. You had a routine; one movie of Arinâs choice and then it was her bedtime, and then if Seokjin and you felt like it, youâd choose a movie yourselves to watch. Tonight was a Saturday, so after Enchanted had finished and Seokjin put Arin to bed, you decided to watch something too seeing as he didnât have work the next morning.
Halfway in, however, you were getting distracted⊠Your hand sneaking inside the blanket you had wrapped around the both of you to run up and down Seokjinâs thigh. This week had been an odd one. Your boyfriend had been super busy with work and youâd missed him â obviously. Youâd done well to keep your hands off him for this long, now you were finally cavingâŠ
âI guess this movie is boring?â Seokjin whispered into the darkness, face lit up with a blue glow. His eyes sparkled as your gazes met, your palm hovering over his crotch. He lifted his hips a touch, brushing against you.Â
âNo,â you grinned, leaning in to kiss him. âYouâre just more interestingâŠâÂ
He chuckled against your lips. âI definitely agree with that.âÂ
Groaning, you went to lift your hand away but he snatched it back, pressing you into him, encouraging you to rub. With your tongues entwined, you soon felt his erection stirring, cock stiffening under his sweats.Â
It was a wonder you both heard the creak of the wooden floorboards in the hallway â but thankfully you did. Movements stilling, you pulled back. Eyes wide in question, you mouthed, âWhat was that?â
You both listened out for another noise, hearing the tell-tale sound of footsteps walking towards the movie room. âArin,â Seokjin breathed, and just like that the moment was over. You broke apart, Seokjin rearranging his junk expertly (a round of applause) before he stood up.Â
On cue, a tiny voice sounded from behind the door. âDaddy?â
âArin, sweetie, what is it?â He asked, walking over to pull it open.Â
Arin was stood there, looking perfectly wide awake hugging her rabbit plush. âI canât get to sleep.âÂ
âAnd whyâs that?â Seokjin asked.Â
She ignored him completely, walking into the room. âWhat are you watching?â
âA grown-ups movie,â he replied, sounding amused. âCome on, let me take you back upstairs. Say goodnight to Y/N again.âÂ
Arin whined loudly, turning to her dad. âBut I canât sleeeep!âÂ
âMaybe she can stay up for a little while?â You suggested, looking over at Seokjin before you turned your attention to Arin. âUntil youâre tired, hm, Arin?â
Her face lit up immediately. âI think thatâs a great idea, Y/N.âÂ
You laughed and Seokjin wasnât close behind, bending down to squeeze Arinâs sides, playfully causing her to squeal. âDo you, little miss?â You met Seokjinâs gaze, both of you coming to terms with the fact your moment had been well and truly ruined. It was fine⊠You had later on tonightâŠÂ
âItâs the weekend, she can stay up a little later than normal, no?â You asked with a smile.Â
âFine,â he mock sighed, pretending to only give in right now.Â
Arin cheered in victory, rushing over to sit next to you on the sofa, cuddling in immediately. She had gotten what sheâd came downstairs for. You wrapped your arm around her shoulders, an action that had become more than normal these past couple of weeks. The more time you spent here, the closer you had become. You were no longer the teacher who had started dating her father. You were now his girlfriend, someone she saw regularly, someone she could laugh and joke around with. Someone she felt comfortable around, and vice versa. You were Y/N. Just as your relationship with Seokjin was growing and developing on the daily, so was your relationship with Arin. And you wouldnât have it any other way.Â
Arin looked up at her father and grinned. âCan we watch another Disney movie, Daddy?âÂ
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As it happened, Arin didnât last an hour before she was fast asleep between you both, softly snoring, her bunny fallen forgotten to her side. Deciding to head upstairs too, you followed Seokjin as he carried her to her room, stopping by the entrance to watch him lay her down and place a soft kiss to her forehead. You smiled to yourself, warmth flooding your chest at the touching scene in front of you before you both headed off for Seokjinâs room and began getting ready for bed.Â
Seokjin was lying on top of the mattress when you exited the bathroom, knowing youâd left your pyjamas in the closet somewhere. Only, the sight of him sprawled out in baggy shorts and a t-shirt, so casually sexy, had you suddenly distracted. In just your underwear, you viewed him from the end of the bedframe. âWhere were we earlier?â
He groaned, rubbing his hands over his face. âI donât know, I think Iâm in a Disney Princess coma.âÂ
Chuckling, you placed a knee on the bed. âYou enjoyed yourself really.â Then your hands. Then your other knee. Slowly crawling towards him. âDo you want to enjoy yourself now?â
He immediately sat up, back against the headboard, his eyes falling to your cleavage. He smirked softly. âThat sounds like an offer I canât refuse.âÂ
Ten minutes later you had him in your mouth, knelt to his side, ass facing him as he rubbed and massaged the flesh to his heartâs content. âYouâre so good at this,â he praised, his fingers slipping into the side of your underwear teasingly. You sucked him deeper. âFuck. So good. Baby, let me make you feel good too.â He removed his fingers and ran them along your ass, stopping at your entrance to rub. You were soaked through, could feel it yourself. He moaned. Either because of your tongue or because of what he felt. Maybe both. âSo wet and youâre only sucking my cock.â Â
You slid your mouth off of him, running your fist up and down the solid and slippery length instead. He jerked his hips into your touch, chasing the pleasure. âQuit inflating your ego,â you quipped.Â
He chuckled, turning to his side as his fingers moved up to the waistband of your underwear. âMm. Like this?âÂ
You got the message loud and clear, letting him slide the fabric down your ass before settling down on your side too. You ran your fist over the tip of him as he rid you of your underwear altogether, wrapping his arms around your hips to angle your heat towards his mouth. You wriggled as you felt the first press of his tongue, earning you a quick, playful smack to the ass and after that you let him hold you tight, the tip of his tongue digging between your folds to flick against your clit.Â
You leaned forward, wanting to return the favour, and sucked him back into your mouth, the angle now making it easier to slip him deeper. Youâd never done something like this together before, which was surprising in itself considering the sheer amount of times youâd been unable to keep your hands off each other these past three weeks. It was so erotic hearing him groan against you as he continued to pleasure you, your own moans vibrating down his cock as you both grew more eager, lost in the feeling.Â
He came first. It probably had something to do with the way you massaged his balls, concentrating on sucking the tip of him as his hips grew impatient and he began rocking into you. He moaned your name, mouth faltering, and all he could do was grip your ass tight as he felt his orgasm take over, grunting as you swallowed each drop.Â
âI win,â you gleed softly, pulling away from him to kiss down his softening length.Â
âOf course you do,â he murmured, sounding fucked out. âFuck, I needed that.â Rolling onto his back, he ran his hands down your thighs. âCome here, let me kiss you.âÂ
Moving to straddle him, you leaned in and kissed him hungrily, still very much horny, and tasting yourself on his lips didnât help matters. His hands cupped your bare ass, spreading it slightly so he could run his fingers along your lips, so wet he was sinking in before he could realise.Â
You moaned, rocking into him and he cursed softly, pushing his head back into the pillows. He tugged you forward. âThis way,â he got out, panting slightly, out of breath from the way youâd kissed him. You understood from the way he was lifting you up where this was goingâŠ
Moving up his body, your thighs were soon either side of his head. He wasted no time in lunging forward, mouth picking up where he left off. You held on to the headboard, careful not to press your entire body weight into him for fear of suffocating him. Not that he would mind, you thought⊠He was all over you, licking and kissing wherever he could reach, hellbent on tasting every inch of you, humming in enjoyment the entire time as you panted.Â
You kept your eyes on him, one of your hands moving to caress his hair, pushing it out of his eyes, his forehead on show as well as those deadly eyebrows of his, currently furrowed in determination. When his dark eyes flickered up to your face, you shuddered, moaning loudly. He loved it. It set him off.Â
âI love the way you taste so much,â he praised, pulling back to rub his thumb over your clit. You bucked into him, fluttering when he kissed the spot lovingly. âThat right then,â he almost rasped. âItâs been a fantasy of mine for a while.âÂ
In other circumstances youâd 100% shoot a witty comeback his way, but not now â definitely not now. Â Not when he was slipping two fingers inside of you right this instant. You were soon rubbing your hips into his face like a woman possessed, needing to feel his tongue again as you choked out a few extra moans.Â
âHoney, thatâs it,â he encouraged with a long groan. âRide me a little. You have no idea how much this turns me on. I could get hard all over again.âÂ
Moaning, turned on by his words, you listened, relief flooding you when you felt the warmth of his tongue against your clit. You moved like you usually did when he had you spread on your back, grinding against his tongue, only this time you had a lot more control â and he seemed to love it, free hand digging into the side of your ass, the other dragging against your walls, making you tremble. With one hand clutching the headboard, the other in his hair you used the leverage to rock against him, the squelchy wet noises fuelling you further, until you were panting and out of breath, unable to take much more.Â
You lifted your hips a little, feeling your legs tremble like jello, and let Seokjin kiss the inside of your thighs, his fingers now shallowly fucking you as you attempted to catch your breath. âI love how wet and warm and soft you are,â he groaned. His lips brushed past your clit, breath fanning over you. âYou really have the most amazing pussy.âÂ
âSeokjinn,â you moaned, unable to stop from jerking against his face again. His mouth would be the death of you. He latched his lips against your clit, sucking the bud gently into his mouth over and over again. You were done for, sighs of pleasure rolling out of you as you stared down at him.Â
âMmm, baby? You gonna cum?â He asked, stroking your walls deeper, pressing and curling as he went. You nodded, incoherent noises all you could manage as your thighs tightened. âAll over my face?â He prompted.Â
You didnât need much encouraging.Â
It was inevitable the need for condoms would become unnecessary soon enough. Which was a shame really, given Seokjinâs bargain hunting, but it wasnât long before they became a bind â inconvenient, more so. That, and you wanted nothing more than to feel Seokjin bare inside of you, to be as close as physically possible, and nothing could be as close to feeling him come inside you. It had been a while since youâd been on birth control, years obviously, but highly organised and a bit of a control freak, youâd be damned if you ever forgot to pop that pill every goddam day.Â
The first time without a condom had been mind-blowing. You were under the impression sex with Seokjin couldnât get better than it already was, but you were wrong â very wrong. You were home alone, Arin staying with her mom for the night and you were taking full advantage of the opportunity. Who needed dinner at a time like this? But Seokjin (who had now become reacquainted with his culinary skills) insisted on preparing a candlelit meal. It was almost reminiscent of your first time together entirely, Seokjin keen and eager to pull out all the stops, and you teased him to no end. Was coming inside you for the first time really that big of an occasion? His reply: Yes. Very much so yes.Â
Not an hour later, half your plates still full and too excited for no more than ten minutes of foreplay, you were both naked, sweaty and way beyond control. The bedsheets were rumpled, barely hanging onto the bed as you rolled around, the pungent smell of sex in the air, and in hindsight, you shouldâve knocked the aircon onâŠÂ
Not that you had time to think right now. Youâd successfully gotten him onto his back, riding him into submission until all he could do was hold onto your breasts and meet each bounce with a roll of his hips. You clutched him to you, hands over his own as you concentrated on the burning pleasure travelling up your body. It had been a couple of weeks since the last time youâd been able to fuck with such abandon. Arin was obviously home 90% of the time and on the odd occasional Seokjin spent the night at your place, Soojung was there (maybe even Tae too), her bedroom right next to yours.Â
Seokjinâs hands soon found their way clamped to your hips, pushing you back a little so he could see himself as he thrust up into you. You cried out, the sound of his skin thudding against yours telling you just how hard and fast he was pounding into you. His eyes were glued to where your bodies met and he could see perfectly just how well you were soaking his dick, just how good you were taking it, stretching over his girth.Â
âIâm close,â he panted, hips stuttering. He slowed his pace, but kept the pressure, his cock getting deeper. You held on tightly to his thighs, anchoring yourself, your walls clamping down around him. He groaned, feeling every minute sensation without the latex barrier. âIâm so fucking close. Canât wait to cum inside you.âÂ
You moaned in response, holding eye contact with him, your face contorted with pleasure, and that seemed to set him off, your pants and sighs of pleasure happening in unison as he sped up one last time, ready to fill you with his cum. The veins in his neck burst as he grunted and his cock twitched, flesh scorching. He fucked you through each wave of his orgasm, holding you still, your body jerking with the force. In the back of your mind you realised come tomorrow morning youâd be sore as hell, but honestly, who cared?Â
Carried away, no longer able to think straight, his cock fell out of you with one awry thrust. He was growing flaccid anyway, sensitive, so it was impossible trying to push back inside of you. Which was sad because you were still a mess, warm with his cum and desperate for more relief. You plopped down on his thighs, your breasts rising up and down with each laboured breath and then Seokjinâs eyes caught something. Something seeping out of your bodyâŠÂ
âFuck.â He half moaned in amazement. âItâs dripping out.âÂ
After that you didnât have a moment to think. You were flat on your back before you could truly process his words, his fingertips circling your swollen entrance, smearing his cum in the process. You pulsed in anticipation, body greedy, and he gave it to you swiftly, plunging two fingers inside you. You moaned on impact, feet planted to the mattress as he started snapping his wrist, pushing his cum back into you.Â
âBaby, you drive me crazy.â He husked, sounding positively tormented. âLook so pretty with my cum inside you.â All you could do was moan in reply, walls squeezing around his digits as he coaxed you to orgasm. âI can feel it,â he grunted, pressing his body into yours, his mouth chasing for a kiss. Your tongues meshed together urgently, kiss sloppy, done in haste.Â
âSeokjinnâŠâ Your voice was a whine and you clutched at his shoulders, closing your eyes when you felt his lips trail down your chin, moving southward, towards the valley of your breasts.Â
He growled as your body jerked, his tongue swirling around one of your hard nipples. âYouâve started something now. Iâm gonna have to cum in you every single day.âÂ
You were on fire. His words affecting you in ways you didnât think were possible. âDonât s-stop,â you implored, although if anything, he was snapping his wrist even faster now, fingers curved, hitting right where you needed. You moaned loudly. âYou always make me feel so good. Mm. Iâm-Iâm⊠Fuck.âÂ
Grunting, your curse ruining him, he made his way back to your mouth. You held him tightly, back stuck to the bed with sweat. âCum, baby.â He told you. âPlease.âÂ
That sent you over the edge, waves of pleasure rocking your body and he swallowed each one of your moans greedily, his fingers gradually slowing, easing you through your orgasm until he slid out. He pulled back with a drunken grin. âYouâre so sexy.â Then he looked down your naked body, sighing in wonder. âGod, youâre amazing.âÂ
âQuit it!â You exclaimed with a laugh, whacking his shoulder. Still very much out of breath.Â
Summer continued to fly by, not long left now until you were back at school. As much as the prospect excited you, you couldnât help but feel a little dejected. Having so much time off had worked out perfectly for your relationship with Seokjin, because even though he was still very much busy with work, you had all the free time in the world to match his schedule. It made you sad to realise there would be no more lunch dates. No more impromptu midweek movie nights. Actually, thinking about it, staying over during the weekday would probably be pretty impossible too â with all the lessons youâd have to plan and the work youâd need to score. In fact, you were about to be a hell of a lot busier from September onwards.Â
Seokjin reassured you as best he could. Youâd fall into routine soon enough and things would work out. You could still meet up for lunch â heâd drive over and youâd eat in his car if needed, and you could still spend the night on a weekday. Heâd wait patiently while you finished up work, make you dinner and then make sure you were asleep by 10pm. You appreciated the sentiment, he always did know how to cheer you up. Although his âThink of it this way, you left school single and now youâre going back with an incredibly kind and insanely sexy boyfriend. Iâd call yourself lucky, if I was you.â wasnât as treasured⊠He thought he was funny, but he wasnât at allâŠ
Still, you had two weeks left to go, there was no point being miserable over the inevitable. Youâd had the best summer of your life, you were lucky. (Just not in the way Seokjin had impliedâŠ)
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âI canât wait to take this off you tonight,â Seokjin murmured against your ear as he zipped the back of your dress up, insinuation deep in his tone.Â
Turning around to face him, you placed your hands on his shoulders. âWe can always skip tonight and go straight to the sex.âÂ
Laughing heartily, he tapped your ass. âNice try. Thereâs nothing to be nervous about, okay?â He ignored your grumbling and stepped away, reaching for his cufflinks on the bedside table. âItâs just a dinner, honey.âÂ
âWith a bunch of the countryâs richest people,â you exclaimed, feeling sick all over again. Every few months or so Seokjin had dinner with a few of his colleagues. They brought their partners along, and this time Seokjin was ecstatic you would be joining him. You on the other hand were this close to hyperventilating.Â
âThatâs a small exaggeration,â Seokjin scoffed, cufflinks now attached as he made his way back to you. He cupped your waist, tilting his head to the side with a smile. âBesides, your boyfriend is included in that bunch. Are you nervous around me to?â
âShut it,â you muttered, reaching to straighten his bow tie. He looked amazing in his suit tonight, hair parted to the side. Skipping dinner seemed like an excellent idea⊠But when he leaned in to kiss you sweetly, you knew you couldnât. Seokjin was looking forward to âshowing you off.â (His exact words.) Iâm not a trophy, youâd shot back, but of course you knew he hadnât meant it like that. It was sweet actually. He was proud. And happy. And cute.Â
Wrapping your arms around his shoulders, you hugged him close. He nosed your neck, humming happily before nipping a patch of skin with his teeth, growling playfully. âSeriously, I canât wait to rip this dress off you.âÂ
You squealed as he began to tickle your sides, trying to push him away. âStop, youâll crease it.âÂ
âItâs fine,â he reassured, easing up to gaze at you. âYouâll still look stunning. Always do.â The black floor-length dress you were in was nothing you were used to, and maybe thatâs why your nerves were worse than what they should be but knowing Seokjin liked what he saw helped ease your reservations. How could it not? He always made you feel like a million dollars.Â
He was looking forward to tonight, so you should try to as well⊠You had nothing to worry about.Â
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You really didnât.Â
The night was a success. Despite your lives being vastly different, you got along with Seokjinâs colleagues well. They seemed like lovely people, especially the wife of Seokjinâs CFO. She was around your age, a couple of years older maybe, and you bonded over your favourite book series like a pair of nerds. You both left with a recommended reading list saved into your phones, numbers exchanged with plans of encouraging one another to read more. Seokjin was delighted youâd enjoyed yourself so much and you spent the chauffeured car journey to your place talking about the night.Â
Although, as soon as you got inside was an entirely different story altogether. It had already been pre-decided that Seokjin would spend the night with you, Misook babysitting Arin at his home, and you soon realised that he had not been messing around when heâd informed you he was going to rip the dress off you. You werenât even up the stairs before he was attempting to unzip you, bumping his crotch into your ass with every step as he kissed your neck, blowing raspberries as he went.Â
âShhh. Shush,â you giggled, trying your best to whisper successfully. âThey may be still awake.â You knew Taehyung was staying over tonight too, heâd been here spread out on the couch before youâd left for Seokjinâs place this afternoon.Â
âBetter get you to your room quickly then.â He said confidently, pouncing on you at the top step as he wrapped his arms around your middle.Â
You bit back a squeal, shoving your foot into his shin. âSeokjin!âÂ
In the privacy of your bedroom, you shut the door tight, turning back to see your boyfriend already stripping out of his tux jacket. He didnât have shoes on either and as you looked around for them, spotting nothing, you realised he must have kicked them off back downstairs. When?! He reached for you, running his hands down your curves before they settled on your ass. He looked at you as if he wanted to eat you. Your stomach stirred, only now realising exactly where tonight was heading. He really hadnât been bluffingâŠÂ
âDid I tell you how stunning you looked tonight?â He asked, popping his bowtie off and unbuttoning his shirt halfway. His collarbones sharp enough to cut, the outline of his chest clear enough to make you dribble.Â
You chuckled, although you could hear the aroused tremble so obviously. âYou may have mentioned it once or twice.âÂ
He smiled your way, although it was more like a smirk, and stalked towards you. âTurn around.âÂ
You obeyed in an instant. His fingers reaching for the zip of your dress. It was already halfway down â something you hadnât realised. (He was obviously somewhat success back in the hallway.) As he revealed the expanse of your back he kissed the nape of your neck, gently pushing the straps over your shoulders to let the fabric slide down. With an expert snap he had your bra loose, removing that too, and it fell to the floor in front of you, hands reaching forward to cup your breasts, fingertips pinching your nipples. You moaned, disappointed when he moved, but then he started mouthing down your spine as he helped the dress along, surprising you when he crouched down, and then inevitably got on his knees, pushing the garment past your hips. He groaned when he saw your thong, lips parting to caress you with his tongue.Â
âYou have the most perfect ass,â he gruffed against the skin, giving you a squeeze. âHave I ever told you that? Could worship it all night.âÂ
Please, you wanted to murmur, but you held back, biting down on your lip as you felt him sink his teeth into one of your ass cheeks. What was with him tonight? You could already feel your arousal collecting between the small band of your panties. It wasnât going to hold for long.Â
âLetâs get you out of this dress.â Despite his casual tone, he tugged the garment harshly, causing you to stumble at the sudden movement.Â
âSeokjin!â You chided lightly, clutching onto one of his hands now at your hip. âI still have my heels on, couldâve broken my ankle.âÂ
âI was here to keep you safe,â he assured you with a chuckle, and then as an afterthought, âMaybe you could keep them on while weâŠâÂ
You bumped your butt into his face, silently telling him to shut it, and kicked the footwear off, now able to remove your dress easily. Seokjin stood, spinning you to face him, mouth pressing into yours with haste. He kissed you passionately, wrapping his arms around you, holding you to him, your breasts pushed up against his chest. He was still clothed, but you could feel his erection pressing into your stomach. You wanted to touch it, but your hands were too busy caught up in his hair.Â
âBed,â he panted up against your mouth, practically lifting you up to push you down on the mattress. You settled on your elbows, watching him as he tore open the rest of his shirt buttons, throwing the item to the floor, his well-defined torso now on full display.Â
He pounced on you, kissing you hungrily once more, so hungrily in fact, you needed to pull away to catch your breath. He moved to your cheek, wet kisses finding their way to your ear. Sensitive, you had to push him away with a hand to the chest. âSorry, am I being too much?â He murmured, lips sticky.Â
You shook your head with a shaky giggle. âI just canât keep up.âÂ
âJust lay back and enjoy, baby.â His tone was reassuring, encouraging, and insanely sexy. He lifted your hips, scooting you up the bed to rest your head on the pillows. âCan you do that for me?âÂ
âOf course.â You watched him raise up on his knees, the clank of his belt making you pulse down below as he undid it. He unzipped his pants but made no effort to take them off, running his palm once along the curve of his length before he crawled over you. He placed a sweet kiss to your mouth, smiling as he pulled away. âDid you notice I didnât go for dessert tonight?â Puzzled, you stayed silent waiting for him to explain. His smile widened, more of a grin now â a very amused one at that. âI was saving myself for something tastier.âÂ
You scoffed. He was unbelievable, but it was easy to let him get away with such corny lines. Especially when he had you spread out near naked on your own bed. âLame!â You exclaimed, immediately clamping your hand across your mouth. You needed to remember to keep quiet, Soojung and Taehyung were asleep next door, but you were feeling uncharacteristically unbothered tonight, too eager and excited. Â
He chuckled at your silliness. âY/N, Iâm pretty sure youâve heard them have sex before. Think of it as payback.âÂ
His nonchalance was pretty attractive so you let his words ease your mind. Although maybe it had more to do with the way he was trailing kisses down your stomach⊠He leaned back to spread your legs, already bent at the knee. You were pretty sure your thong was doing nothing to protect your modesty anymore. Â
He confirmed your assumption with a sharp intake of breath. âHoney, youâre soaking. I havenât even done anything yet.â You braced yourself, waiting to feel the brush of his finger, but instead it was the softness of his tongue. He licked a strip up your clothed mound, a noise of delight rumbling from him. You pulsed uncontrollably, eager for more.Â
He gave it to you. Lips wrapping around your hidden clit, tongue laving, soaking the delicate material even more. Your legs instantly squeezed around his head, unsure what to do with the sudden influx of pleasure before you moaned, rocking your hips into him gently.Â
He eased away slightly, replacing his tongue with his thumb, rubbing skilled circles that caused you to squelch. âLove your pussy so much,â he murmured, going back for more hastily.Â
You moaned again at his words, fingers digging into the sheets beneath you, but it wasnât long before he was kissing back up your stomach, mouth now attaching itself to one your nipples. Your hands flew to the back of his head, looking down at him as he flicked the bud with his tongue, moaning as he did so. It was such an erotic sight you felt speechless, and when his chocolatey brown eyes met yours, pooling with desire, you felt beside yourself.Â
âTurn around.â He whispered, roughly. âOn your knees for me?âÂ
You had never listened so fast in all your life, scrabbling on your hands and knees in record time. You waited as patiently as you could, ass in the air, anticipating his next move. You startled when you felt a puff of air against your entrance, the sound of Seokjinâs sticky lips loud in your ears. âYou look so good in this thong,â he praised, snapping the thin line of fabric between your ass.Â
Pushing into him, you smirked. âI wore it just for you.âÂ
He hummed â in contemplation almost â before he pulled your panties to the side and dove straight in with his mouth. You yelped, ducking your head at your volume. Youâd been expecting him to go straight to the sex, not continue to eat you out. Heâd never done it in this position before â it felt amazing. A noise dragged from his throat as he pulled away, fingers dipping under the sides of your panties to drag them over your ass impatiently. As he did so, he bit into your ass, his hands now spreading your thighs, exposing you more so he could bury his face between your legs.Â
You held your breath, waiting for him to continue but nothing could prepare you for the pleasure he was about to inflict on you. He flicked his tongue out against your clit, nose and mouth pressed flush against your heat, hands rooted to your ass and you moaned right away, bucking into him instinctively. Unable to hit your clit as well as he usually could he slid his mouth along your slit, tongue beginning to lick at your entrance, sucking your inner lips gently into his mouth as he did so. You were soaking, could feel yourself starting to drip down the inside of your thighs, but Seokjin didnât seem to have a care in the world, lapping you up as if he was a man dying of thirst, rough moans letting you know just how much he was enjoying himself â enjoying you.Â
When you felt his tongue push inside you, you jolted, sensation instantly making your thighs squeeze together. Not that they could with Seokjin hunched between them. He began to experimentally push in and out of you, noticing the way you tensed around him and hearing the way your breathing got shallower. Wordlessly, his hand reached forward, around your thigh to hook between your legs and start rubbing your clit with his fingers. With his other hand he gently (but firmly) pushed down at the small of your back, your ass rising higher, giving him better access to keep fucking you with his tongue. With the added stimulus you could feel yourself breaking, knees trembling, pushed hard against the mattress. He felt so warm, and wet, and just incredible. Your moans got more frequent, heartbeat pounding in your ears.Â
âThat feels so good.â You managed to choke out, your orgasm so close you could taste it. Thatâs usually when you gabbled. âRight there. Donât stop!â He listened, speeding up his movements, the squelch getting louder as he grunted in exertion. He sounded so hot it just turned you on even more, and you lifted your ass higher, pushing into each thrust of his tongue. He rubbed your clit desperately, determined to push you ever the edge.Â
You gasped, unsure how else to stay quiet as more words rushed out of you. âSeokjinâ! Iâm going toâ Oh, my god, Iâm coming!â Burying your face into the pillows your moans turned muffled as you came, white hot pleasure bursting through your veins. So sated, you couldnât even find it in you to feel embarrassed with how loud heâd just made you orgasm.Â
His finger moved away first, clit pulsing against nothing as he massaged the round of your ass instead, coating you in your own arousal, before his tongue eased off, placing a delicate kiss to your entrance as a goodbye.Â
The mattress shifted under his weight as he moved back a couple of inches and you heard him slide his belt out of the trouser loops, the sound flying straight to your core. He stripped behind you quickly, you couldnât even bring yourself to take a peek, too dazed, yet your imagination worked quite well. Instead, you kept kneeling for him, waiting for his return.Â
He wasnât even a minute. You felt the warmth of his dick press against the small of your back as he made his way closer once again.Â
âAre you ready for me?â Despite the deepness of his voice â how obviously he was affected â you could hear the care in his tone as he checked in on you. Â
âSo ready,â you insisted, jutting into his thighs.Â
He chuckled, pushing his dick between your legs now, sliding it across your slit. You were still sensitive, squirming against him, but you were also still so greedy, so you let him do what he wanted, soaking his cock along your wetness unhurriedly. You were so distracted by his movements, the smack he suddenly landed on your ass had you yelping more so from shock than sting. If you werenât so drunk with pleasure right now youâd chew him out for being so loud.Â
âDid that hurt?â He asked curiously, voice dripping danger. You felt your gut squeeze. That was new. Heâd slapped your ass before but never with that much intent. The sting melted into your skin as he massaged the spot. âMm, baby?â He pressed, voice now dripping honey. âDo you like pain?â He spanked you again but this time you were ready, biting down on your lip. âLike it when Iâm mean to you?âÂ
You nodded, some type of agreeing noise leaving your throat which seemed to appease him. He rubbed your ass soothingly, the head of his cock now dragging across your entrance. How he had this much patience was beyond you. You could not relate.Â
âQuit teasing.â You whined. Put it in me.âÂ
âDonât be a brat, honey.â He chuckled, but he pushed ever so slightly into you. He let out a sharp exhale, starting to fuck you shallowly with the tip, hands at his sides. You squeezed around nothing, flinging your head back frustratingly. âSeokjin!â You wanted him to fuck you. And touch you.Â
Chuckling again, throatily, he pushed an inch deeper. He wasnât even halfway inside of you. âI want to antagonise myself. Shush.â But he gripped your ass, pulling you apart slightly to slowly push inside of you all the way. You both groaned with the drag, taking a breather as you squeezed around him, getting used to the feeling. You always felt so full in this position, trembling around his crazy big dick.Â
Soon he began to move, sliding in and out of you with intense concentration. You couldnât see him but you knew his gaze was welded to where your bodies met, watching himself disappear inside you over and over again. âYouâre the tease, Y/N,â he murmured, Â picking up the pace. You could hear yourself squelching around his girth. âYou drive me fucking crazy.â He felt you pulse and his breath hitched.Â
Bunching the meat of your ass in his fists, he pounded into you for a few moments, holding you still, making you take it. You whimpered, trying your best to stay quiet. âAlways take my cock so well. Donât you, baby?âÂ
âYe-ess.â Your voice broke, a moan tearing through you as he rammed himself deep inside , stopping dead. âFuck, Seokjin.â You were burning up. You needed him to move before you sobbed.Â
With precision, he started fucking you slowly, bottoming out each time, revelling in your warmth, your wetness. It was so intense your eyes started to water, trying your best to stay as silent as possible but each breath was sounding more and more like a moan. You could hear yourself squelching around him every time he moved. So could he.Â
âI love that,â he said, voice tight, as if he was trying his best to keep calm. âIâm gonna cum so deep in you tonight. Fill you up good.âÂ
You moaned loudly this time. It was always hot to hear your well-spoken boyfriend fall off into the deep end, articulation deteriorating with each thrust. It turned you on like no tomorrow. âPlease do,â you urged, walls clamping around him at the very thought.Â
He lost it at that, begging with your words and your body, and it wasnât long before his movements were speeding up, his hips snapping against your ass as he held it tight. âCan you cum again?â He sounded frantic.Â
âM-maybe â oh.â You jolted, feeling Seokjinâs fingers at your clit. Â
âI really want you to cum again for me.â His fingers became persistent, rubbing circles against your sensitivity.Â
Holding your breath, you concentrated. On each thrust, how good his dick was, how the motions on your clit felt. Everything⊠You willed your second orgasm, feeling it start to be pulled out of you. You started to meet each of his thrusts, skin slapping as your sweaty bodies worked together. âYes, yes, yes, yesâ!â You urged with each thud, so close you were trembling. Your voice broke as the sensation took over, moan turning into a squeak as you tried to shut up.Â
This time your orgasm was shorter, but it didnât make it any less intense. In fact, it immediately exhausted you. âShit. Fuck.â You mumbled, pretty much collapsing into the bed, Seokjin wedged deep inside you.Â
âYou feel different.â He groaned. You felt him twitch. âLove that feeling.â Ever so carefully, he drew back, hands gliding along your back. âIâm okay to finish?âÂ
âYes,â you nodded, turning to press your cheek to the pillow. You jutted your ass out, feeling him slide back in almost involuntarily, your tightness calling him back. âBe quick though.â You were tired â and sensitive. Still horny thoughâŠ
He found that amusing, chuckling throatily. âI promise you I will. Iâm so fucking close.â He pulled back again, grunting. He was taking his time, easing you into it. âNgh. Iâm almost too big for you now. Youâre squeezing so much.âÂ
You moaned in reply, loving the way he held your hips firm and rolled into you, slowly fucking you into the mattress.Â
âTell me how much youâre loving it,â he pretty much pleaded, ever so slightly speeding up.Â
âI love it so much.â You professed. âYou have n-no idea.â You jerked forward as he hit deep, crying out. âSeokjinn! Please. Go a little faster.âÂ
He grunted, sounding smug. âYou want my cum.â You moaned in reply. âSay it for me.â He demanded. âPlease, baby, say it for me.âÂ
âI want your cum,â you moaned.Â
And that was enough. With a strangled cry he began to snap his hips faster and faster, fucking you hard, chasing his end. It didnât take long. A minute later he rammed himself deep, stiffening as he came inside you, groan of relief loud as all the tension left his body. âShit.â He muttered, collapsing on top of you, careful not to press his full body weight into you.Â
He held your shoulders, nuzzling into you as he slid to your side. You used what was left of your energy to turn around, letting him smother you with kisses. âThat was⊠I donât know what came over me.â He exclaimed.Â
âIt was amazing,â you gushed, running a hand down his sticky chest. You could spot your arousal, now dried to his face, his hairline damp with perspiration. You leaned in for a kiss, pulling back when he began to laugh. You looked at him puzzled.Â
âYou want my cum,â he gleed.
âGet lost!â You groaned, pushing him away. He rolled onto his back, his chest still rising visibly as he caught his breath.Â
âI need the bathroom,â he announced, standing and looking around. âMy bag? I thought Misook said she dropped it off for me?âÂ
Sitting up, you glanced around. âMaybe Soo left it downstairs.â Sheâd probably thought youâd spot it by the door when you arrived home. Youâd been too distracted⊠âWear my robe.â You suggested.Â
âThat?â Seokjin questioned, looking sceptically at the pink fluffy nightgown hooked onto your closet door.Â
âWhy not? Youâll look cute.âÂ
âTrue,â he agreed, turning to reach for it.
âNice ass.â You had a great view from here.Â
âHey,â he whined, throwing the robe on quickly to hide his modesty.Â
âWhat, you have a really nice ass for a forty year old!â You insisted.Â
He clicked his tongue. âNow thatâs just rude.âÂ
You giggled as he left, calling out a not very believable sorry after him. A few minutes later you heard Soojungâs door open, footsteps in the hallway and then, voices. Taehyung and Seokjinâs. Theyâd bumped into each other. You laughed to yourself, imagining how awkward it must be for them right now. Amazing. Twenty seconds later Seokjin and your fluffy robe were shooting through the door.Â
âOh, my god.â Seokjin grimaced. âThat was so awkward. Taehyung wanted the bathroom as I was leaving.âÂ
âI heard,â you chuckled, amused by your boyfriendâs unnecessary mortification.Â
He laid on the bed, groaning. âWe had to small talk. He was in his boxers⊠I think he knew weâd just had sex.âÂ
âYeah, he probably heard us tooâŠâÂ
Seokjin made a noise of discomfort. He wasnât so sure of himself now, was he? You rolled your eyes and reached for him, gathering the collar of your gown in your hands to kiss him. You grinned. âYou look really sexy in my pink fluffy gown.âÂ
He hummed against your mouth, âI know, right?â He didnât need persuading when you pulled him over you, untying the middle of the robe before pushing the fluffy garment over his broad shoulders. His dick was soft, but he was eager if the way he kissed you was anything to go by. It made you feel guilty when you inevitably pushed him away, robe victoriously clutched in your arms.Â
âWhere are you going?â He whined, watching you stand.Â
You slipped into the nightgown, smiling cutely. âI need to pee.âÂ
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When you woke up the next morning there was a text waiting for you from your beloved best friendâŠÂ
Soojung (08:12am)
Tae just told me he woke up and heard you guys having s e x last nightÂ
Then he bumped into Seokjin who was wearing ur robeÂ
Iâm glad Iâm a heavy sleeperÂ
But he said it sounded like you were having a GREAT time đÂ
Dilf got movesss đł
The embarrassment!Â
Today was a very important day, according to one little person. Arinâs seventh birthday. Sheâd mentioned it almost every single day since August had arrived. Seokjin had worked really hard organising her a garden party, inviting all their family and friends, including a couple of her friends from school. You were a bit nervous about that, knowing youâd be met with a few curious questions but there were more pressing issues at hand... You were about to meet Seokjinâs parents for the first time. (As well as numerous other members of his family, but a girl could only worry about so many things at once.)Â
Heâd already met your family a couple of weeks previous â joining you for lunch with your mom one afternoon and then accompanying you for dinner at your fatherâs house a few days later. Seokjin had taken it in his stride, so even if he was a little nervous he never once showed it. He was good at that, you admired him for that. You on the other hand were this close to breaking out into a nervous sweat.Â
You were thankful Arin had you preoccupied all morning, insisting on helping Misook and you put up the decorations for her own birthday party. Helpful as always, although be it a little buzzed. Scrap that, a lot buzzed. She was still on a high from celebrating her birthday with her mom for a couple of days. Sheâs only gotten back yesterday afternoon, and thatâs when Seokjin had surprised her with two pet rabbits â one snowy white, the other midnight black. Her excitement levels were through the roof today. Seokjin had called you this morning informing you heâd been woken up at 5am and he needed your assistance ASAP because he couldnât handle a hyperactive birthday girl all on his own the entirety of the morningâŠÂ
By 1pm some of the guest had already started arriving; Seokjinâs brother and his wife, along with their two twin boys who were a couple of years younger than Arin. Aunts and uncles, and a few cousins, Seokjinâs friend Namjoon, who had two children; a 9 year-old daughter and a four year-old son, and then a few of Arinâs friends, some from various clubs she attended and two you recognised from school. They recognised you too of course, and you overheard Arin adorably telling them that you were her âdaddyâs girlfriend.â No matter how much time past, and no matter how natural this all felt now, you were still so happy that Arin was on board with all this. It was the best feeling.Â
Seokjinâs parents were the last to show up seeing as they lived quite far away, and you waited nervously to meet them as your boyfriend took their luggage upstairs to one of the guest rooms. Meeting his brother and his friend and the rest of his family hadnât been bad at all, so you were feeling very optimistic by now. Still, you could hear your heart beating frantically when you saw Seokjin leading them into the kitchen where you were blowing some last minute balloons.Â
âYou must be Y/N,â his mom greeted with a smile, arms wide as she walked towards. With a quick embrace she kissed you on the cheek. Seokjin had warned you about that.Â
âHi, itâs really nice to meet you,â you smiled back, relaxing slightly down to her warm attitude. (It also helped Seokjin had taken place by your side, arm brushing against yours.) You glanced towards his father, greeting him with the same smile and he gave you a nod, a friendly âLikewise,â leaving his lips. Seokjin had also let you know that his father was the silent, polite type. Seokjin was similar. They even looked quite alike. His mom was slim and elegant, and incredibly beautiful.Â
âYouâre even prettier than your pictures,â she informed you, taking your hands in hers.Â
âPictures?â You chuckled nervously, glancing up at Seokjin.Â
He groaned quietly. âI may have sent her a couple of us together. My momâs very nosey. Dad not so much.âÂ
âOh,â you blurted, hearing his father laugh. You smiled coyly back at Mrs. Kim. âThank you.âÂ
âNonsense. Iâm not nosey,â she insisted, raising an eyebrow at her son. âCurious, Iâd call it.âÂ
Seokjin chuckled. âOf course, mom â Oh!â Something caught his attention out of the window and he rushed off, opening the sliding glass door to stick his head out. âArin, your grandparents have arrived. Come say hi.âÂ
Mrs. Kim let go of your hands as Arin came dashing in like a hyper puppy. âGrandma! Grandpa!â She squealed, throwing herself into her grandfatherâs arms. âItâs my birthday!âÂ
âIs it?â He asked, playing clueless, but he couldnât keep it up for long. âOf course it is!â He kissed her cheek. âHappy birthday, pumpkin.âÂ
âHappy birthday, Arin. Are you having fun so far?â Her grandma asked, fluffing her hair. Arin went to hug her next. âWhat gifts did you get? We have yours in the car, but you have to wait until later, okay?âÂ
Arin nodded, before proceeding to talk all about her day. She didnât come up for air, which was highly amusing for all four of you. However, inevitably, she got bored, her hand slipping into yours, tugging it gently for your attention. âY/N, can we go and see if the buffet is ready now?â
âOf course we can.â You glanced at your watch, then up at Seokjin who was doing the same. It was half past two, youâd agreed to start eating at 3pm. Arinâs senses were perfect.Â
âNo sneaking anything off the table, young lady.â Seokjin told her. âEspecially not cake. You wonât have to wait long.â
Arin couldnât help but giggle at that, already beginning to drag you off.Â
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You were on your way back from the lower floor bathroom when you bumped into Seokjinâs mother again. She was stood by the dining room entrance, rooting around in her purse, pulling out her cell phone. âOh, Y/N, dear, I was just getting my phone so I could take a few pictures of Arin. I need to show them to my mother. Sheâs a bit too old to make the journey down here.âÂ
âAwh, thatâs a shame,â you replied, coming to a halt politely.Â
With a nod, she changed the subject. âIâm so glad the weather is hot for her birthday.â
âI know. Sheâs been so excited, hasnât been able to stop talking about it for the past month,â you laughed. The party had been a success, the food and games going down a treat. It had been a long time since youâd attended a childâs birthday party â your siblings were long past that age, and youâd forgotten how fun they could be, even if you were much older now.
Being surrounded by Seokjinâs family wasnât as nerve-wracking as youâd initially thought. They were all so lovely â not that you didnât expect anything less, of course, you were just thankful you could hold a natural conversation with his mom.Â
âShe really likes you. I can tell.â Mrs. Kim said out of the blue, surprising you, but you tried to hide it well.
Smiling softly, you replied, âIâm fond of her too.âÂ
âI heard you were her teacher?â
âFor a short while.â You nodded. âThatâs how Seokjin and I met.â But you guessed she already knew that, you know, motherâs curiosity and all.Â
Her mouth quirked up and then she snorted. âMy son definitely knows how to make an impression. I heard he hit your car?â
Laughing, youâd been correct. He had told her how youâd met. âYeah, but I try not to tease him too much about that anymore.âÂ
âIt sounds like fate, no?â She smiled, before shaking her head and raising a hand. âSorry, Iâm a hopeless romantic at heart. The first time my husband and I set eyes on one another it was love at first⊠You probably donât want to hear about that,â she chuckled. You opened your mouth, ready to disagree, but she spoke again. âI just⊠I havenât seen Seokjin this happy in a very long time. Not since Arin was born.âÂ
Speechless, you tried to think of something to say. Just what? âOh, I ââ
âWhat are you two conspiring about in here?âÂ
You heard Seokjinâs voice from behind you and turned to see him walking towards you both with a grin on his face. When he reached you he cupped your waist, kissing you on the cheek. His mom watched on fondly.Â
âNothing⊠much,â she replied, a teasing lilt to her voice. It caught his attention. âI was just telling Y/N that I havenât see you this happy in years.âÂ
âMo-mm,â he whined, immediately growing red.Â
âWhat? Iâm just speaking the truth, Seokjin,â she laughed and looked in your direction. âHe gets embarrassed so easily. Have you noticed?âÂ
âI have,â you laughed along.Â
Smiling tenderly at him, she stepped forward and touched his arm. âIâve loved hearing my son laugh all afternoon.â Seokjin dropped his head, even more embarrassed now. He was cute. âOkay.â She clapped her hands, taking pity on him. âThatâs enough from me. Iâll leave. Your fatherâs probably on his third slice of cake by nowâŠâ Kissing Seokjinâs cheek softly, she began to walk off. âYou love me really.âÂ
âOf course,â Seokjin called, turning to you once sheâd left, heading back in the direction of the garden. âSorry about that.âÂ
You chuckled. âThereâs nothing to be sorry about. We were just talking.â You wrapped your arms around his waist, hugging him. âYouâre cute.âÂ
âYouâre never too old to be embarrassed by your mom,â he muttered, kissing the top of your head. Snorting, you leaned back, but he held you tight, gazing into your eyes. âYou look really pretty today.âÂ
âYou say that every day.âÂ
âBecause itâs true.â He kissed your lips, stopping any clever remark you may have had dead.Â
Instead, as he pulled away, you brought your hands up to his chest, straightening the collar of his shirt. âLetâs get back outside. Iâm enjoying myself.âÂ
âIâm glad.â Seokjin beamed, eyes twinkling.Â
At that moment, it hit you how happy he looked⊠Youâd not really noticed it prior, but now his mom had pointed it out it was so obvious.Â
You hoped he could tell just how happy you were too⊠It was all down to him, after all. Â
Written 2020 - 2021.
Please refrain from posting my work elsewhere. No translations allowed.
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hello kings (gn) ive got significantly more fic than last time which means this is gonna be a little more organized than the last post bc it is much longer <3 categories in order are non casefic canonverse, casefic/roadtrip fic, finale fixits, endverse, non supernatural aus, and then non destiel ones. titles will be in bold for my favs! also within each category theyâre in order from shortest to longest
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for ANYONE who is a consumehimnaturual this is required reading it is INCREDIBLE and gorgeous and very visceral and i am so very obsessed with it. thank you redeyedwrath for enabling my brainrot
the reach of human sense by perilously (4.5k)
âYou know what Jimmy Novak looked like. You think he was beautifulâgorgeous, hot, all of it. Itâs him. Not me. This isnât my face.â
âBut,â Dean says. He doesnât know where heâs going with it. Just that Casâ face is right there, brows drawn together and cheekbones gleaming in the lamplight. Itâs a face thatâs made his heart skip probably a couple hundred beats collectively since they met.
And it used to belong to someone else.
this one is just very nice <3 cas gets uncomfortable w dean calling him attractive since dean has never seen his trueform and they work it out
Down in the River by Ias (4.7k)
Alone in Purgatory and hunted by Leviathans, Castiel finds himself praying to the one person who can't hear him.
cas i love you <3 cas alone in purgatory praying to dean bc dean is the only thing he still worships i love you so much
Creature of Habit by trinityofone (5.1k)
The more you love someone, the more you want to kill them. Or: How Cas developed some bad habits, and Dean coped surprisingly well.
written in s5 when cas was depowered and completely nails the later seasons bitchy husbands dynamic itâs very good and fun <3
sink by crackers4jenn (5.4k)
"Where to?" A 9.06 coda.
very bittersweet very well written and also canon compliant so do not go into this one looking for a happy ending but i DO recommend it itâs very good
Sensational by castiowl (6.1k)
âWhen I first came to earth, it was advised that we temper the senses bound to our vessels. They were a distraction, we were told. An antiquated form of experiencing existence that would hinder our ability to complete our missions, whatever that may be. My true form can better facilitate these experiences. What you would recognize as heightened senses of sight and sound, among other things.â
Or, how Dean helps Cas experience all five human senses for the first time in one night.
early seasons deancas man. i love the sound part i love dean being so worried about doing a good job with this. god. read this please
Something to Protect by Sass_Master (6.2k)
Deanâs violent reaction to being unexpectedly woken has become something of a running joke among them, but Castiel canât help but look past it to the underlying cause. It makes him ache to think that Dean feels so unsafe, so persecuted, before heâs even fully conscious.
Secretly, Castiel has been determined to work on that, to ease Dean into awareness in a less jarring way, smooth away one of the many stresses that follow him even in sleep. Nowâs as good a time as any to try.
oh to sleep more soundly in the presence of someone you love...this fic is very nice i enjoyed it a lot
all this and heaven too by ftmsteverogers (7k)
âHey,â Dean said. âIâm not ashamed of you, okay?â
Cas raised skeptical eyes to meet his.
âI mean it,â Dean insisted.
âI understand you mean it,â Cas said. âBut I donât think itâs any better if youâre only ashamed of yourself.â
hello trans dean community here is 7k of trans dean having to deal with his internalized homophobia now that heâs sleeping with cas <3 it is SO good
The wilderness. by orange_crushed (8k)
He takes a shower and the pressure is not especially good, but it doesnât matter. Itâs warm and he stands under the spray a long time. Human skin, he knows, constantly renews itself, shedding the dead cells of the epidermis. He wonders how long it will take until he is an entirely new person, until every cell on his surface is a new one. He looks at his hands under the water. It might take less than a month.
this might be the only post 9x03 fic on here with a happy ending actually? plenty of good melancholy leading up to it though <3 canon divergent after 9x03 though which means no 9x06 fanfiction gap but it is absolutely worth reading
till the juice runs by deathbanjo (8.4k)
Apparently whoever drew up the venn diagram of Deanâs sex life decided the circle labelled âgood sexâ and the one labelled âsex with menâ should be kept far apart.
hello this one is SO funny dean finally gets comfortable enough with his bisexuality to start having sex with men and it goes so very bad every time so sorry about your shitty choices beloved </3
First Date by aeli_kindara (8.9k)
âWe should go on a date. You and me.â
Castiel wishes he could see Deanâs face. He wishes he had any idea what to say.
âIâm asking you out, Cas.â
this one is very sweet i liked it a lot <3 good refreshing little fic where they just get to have a nice evening together
Entertaining Strangers by cadignan (9k)
Dean settles on to his side, lying in the bed facing Castiel. âSo you had sex without me and you bit all my moves. I think I deserve to hear about it, at least. What was her name?â
op im in love with you. premise is established relationship deancas and cas mentions he did have sex before dean and not only that it was a threesome. good for him <3 this fic is cas describing the story of what led up to the threesome and what happened during it while dean interrupts regularly. incredible
the shape you take by noviembre (10k)
âWhat?â Dean says, fake-offended. âIâd be hot as a girl, you know I would.â
And this is when he really, really should have stopped talking. When he shouldn't have whipped back around and asked, âCas, if I was a woman, youâd fuck me, right?â
Because if he hadnât said that, then he wouldnât have had to deal with this:
Cas, meeting his eyes, forehead wrinkles all smoothed out like thereâs nothing to be confused about anymore. Cas with something at the corner of his mouth that might barely be called a smile.
Cas saying, calmly and without hesitation, âYes, Dean.â
--
Dean Winchester fucks around and, with the inadvertent help of some witches, Finds Out.
dean winchester your gender is diabolical. this fic is insane and its the only thing that matters actually. dean fully convinced its normal and straight to think about being a woman so you can fuck your male friend. incredible. op im proposing to you
Sinnerman by a_good_soldier (10k)
Dean listens to Nina Simone, reads Anne Carson, and makes out with a dude (sort of).
yall want to read about dean realizing heâs in love with a man as a direct result of learning to better respect women right?
youâre fooling yourself by cowboydeanwinchester (13k)
Dean Winchester and Castiel retire from hunting to raise baby Jack. Dean struggles to allow himself the things he truly wants.
Jack is two, Castiel and Dean are idiots, and Sam's gotta solve everyone's problems.
love a married couple who doesnât know theyâre married <3 everyone say thank you sam for bullying deanÂ
The Girlfriend Experience by rageprufrock (15k)
While it's not like Dean hasn't had a couple of truly regrettable hit-and-runs in his sexual history, this is probably the saddest fucking thing that has ever happened to him.
a classic for good fucking reason. weâve all talked about dean thinking holding hands is too gay after having just had gay sex but my personal favorite was sam accusing dean of cheating on cas because dean bought condoms. incredible
No Kingdom To Come by domesticadventures (16k)
âWe should fuck,â Dean says.
Cas looks up from where he sits on his bed, hair still damp from the shower, frowning as he places a finger on the page of his book to mark where he left off.
There are a million things Cas could say here; Dean has rehearsed them. After lunch, his restlessness had given way to a vague panic, a dread that matched his every step and crept along with him from room to room. Eventually, he had returned to his bedroom and spent the rest of the afternoon pacing back and forth, playing out all the possible scenarios. When Cas asks him Why? or Are you being serious? or when he sighs and says, in that way he has, Dean, he knows exactly what heâs going to do. Heâs going to shrug casually, like he isnât invested in the answer, like he isnât desperate for an outlet, and say, Why not? Heâs going to raise an eyebrow and say, What, are you not interested? Heâs going to crowd into Casâ personal space, heâs going to shove himself right up in there and whisper Cas against his ear.
Instead, Cas says, carefully, âOkay.â
literally the only quarantine fic iâve ever bothered to read in any fandom and completely worth it itâs SO good. they become fwb and dean has an existential crisis and he keeps bringing up meaninglessness and death during sex
Bodies by Speary (18k)
It was a secret they never acknowledged even with each other. It would change everything, end everything if either of them ever dropped the act. So they became very good at acting, at keeping up the lie that gave them what they wanted. Even if that lie involved constantly seeking out temporary, consenting female vessels, Cas would do it. He told himself it was worth it for Dean. He just hoped that he could stop wanting more, or maybe one day Dean might stop pretending that he wasn't really sleeping with Cas every time.
i donât even have anything to add tbh if that summary did not immediately make you click we are very different this fic is incredible. god. fellas do you ever make yourself a woman so you can fuck the man you love without him having to talk about it or confront his sexuality
itâs such a mystery (the way you know me) by fleeceframe (20k)
So the man crouching in front of Castiel is named Dean. He wonders if thatâs supposed to mean something to him.
âCas mustâve got hit with something earlier. He just dropped like a sack of fucking potatoes a minute ago. By the time I was checking on him, he had already woken up again, but now he doesnât fucking know who we are.â
âIâm right here you know,â Castiel says testily.
Samâs eyes are wide even as his eyebrows are furrowed, and he looks between Dean and Castiel again.
âWhat do you remember, Cas?â
âFirstly, that Iâm not Cas. I donât know who Cas is, but itâs not me. I donât know who either of you are, either."
or the one where castiel is hit with a memory curse that makes him forget the winchester brothers and is stunned to find out he has a family... also why can't he stop thinking about dean?
BEST amnesia fic oh my god. cas my beloved you deserve the world. everyone read this that is not a request.
More Than Ever by Sass_Master (20k)
Deanâs getting some pancakes together for breakfast when Cas saunters in after a run.
Heâs trying to focus on whisking batter, unfairly distracted by Cas a few feet away, breathing heavily and shining with perspiration. Deanâs been painfully aware for a long time that Cas is pretty easy on the eyes, but heâs used to seeing Cas buttoned-up and unflappable, looking straight-laced in a stiff oxford and an unflattering trenchcoat.
Now Cas is sweating, Deanâs borrowed t-shirt clinging to his skin, flushed from exertion and Dean really canât deal with that in his kitchen right now.
this entire series is really good i enjoyed it a lot, iâm just putting this one specifically on the list bc the rest of the series is very explicit and this is really good as a standalone for anyone who wouldnât be into the rest of the series!!
Being Dean Winchester by Anonymous (20k)
"You should show me some respect. I dragged you out of hell. I can throw you back in."
Who the fuck was this bitchy "warrior of God" doing talking to him like that? Fuck Cas-tee-el and his dumbass trench coat and abrasive motherfucking attitude.
Dean was done with this shit.
***
Wherein a monster of the week steals the essence of Castiel's vessel, so he must use Dean, recently raised from hell, as a vessel instead.
it is at this point i realize that there are more fics than i expected there to be on this list that involves a threesome with only two people/using the presence of a female body to act like whatâs happening is heterosexual. deangirlism is a diseaseÂ
I Shall Not Want by domesticadventures (20k)
His grace is burning out, and the wasteland it leaves inside him becomes an echo chamber for all the memories, all the fear and doubt and self-loathing he's collected over the years. Things said and done hound him on endless repeat until he's convinced theyâll break through his skin and fill the silence of the bunker.
His head is killing him, and he sits hunched over an open book, not really reading, just digging his fingers into his skull and praying nothing slips through the cracks.
this one is GORGEOUS i love it so so much. dean and cas are both struggling so much to get by and theyâre trying to support each other but fucking it up and they have to grow together and learn to cope with the fact that this is where their lives are and they fall in love i need everyone to read this
To Boldly Go by 8daysuntiltheapocalypseiguess (24k)
Title: Just One of Those Things
Author: Impala67
Series: TOS
Rating: M
Summary: Four years into their five-year mission, and all the planets start to look the same.
In which Dean is not Gene Roddenberry, but he does write Star Trek fanfiction.
mx winchester writing star trek fanfiction to process his own trauma <3 this is a wip but itâs SO good and i also have not consumed a single piece of star trek media so it IS definitely readable to anyone who isnât a star trek fan. please read this
where the weeds take root by deathbanjo (30k)
âAre you happy? Yâknow. Justâbeing here,â Dean says, gesturing to the yard with his beer bottle. âBeing withâI mean, you used to fight in celestial wars andâand save the world. Now youâre growing vegetables and talking about chickens.â
this is on here just for the 1.5 people who were putting off this one like i did for no reason. itâs extremely good and it is just gentle. i enjoyed it a lot
Heroes for Ghosts by pantheon_of_discord (42k)
After Sam and Dean are arrested, Castiel is left alone and scrambling to find them. He knows theyâre locked away in a government facility, and heâs still able to hear their prayers, but no matter how he tries Castiel canât seem to track them. He chases leads and even attempts to hunt on his own, but Mary is AWOL, Crowley refuses to help, and Castielâs options are running out.
Weeks pass, Castielâs hope dwindles, and through it all Dean prays, keeping them connected. His voice is comforting, frustrating, and occasionally annoying, but in his solitude Castiel comes to cherish it. But then one day, without warning, Dean stops praying, and Castiel is forced to confront some uncomfortable truths about his feelings.
yall ever wonder what it wouldâve been like if the sam and dean arrest storyline in s12 was interesting? yeah <3
Teaching Poetry to Fish by aeli_kindara (52k)
In which Castiel teaches poetry to fish. Also, himself. Also, eventually, Dean.
(A series-long story, diverging slightly from canon after S14.)
cas learning about humanity through poetry before dean and thats what led to him developing enough emotion to be lobotomized....cas i love you so much
Emergence by ellispark (58k)
Somethingâs been missing from Deanâs life for the past three years, a void left after a hunt gone terribly wrong. He often feels a sense of longing with no discernible cause, a need to talk to someone who isnât there.
A call from an acquaintance leads Dean to James Novak, a man who disappeared more than a decade ago, and suddenly Dean gets the feeling heâs found what heâs been missing. But James isnât really James â heâs the angel Castiel, whoâs wanted by angels, demons and hunters alike. And he may be at the center of the storm that wrecked Deanâs life all those years ago.
another cool amnesia fic!! for unknown reasons everyone forgot cas three years ago but cas didnât forget anything. cas deserves so much love and support. god
a turn of the earth by microcomets (95k)
Deanâs your typical half-orphaned, monster-killing 22-year-old until a trenchcoated stranger crashes into his back windshield one September night, claiming heâs an angel that knows him from the future and that heâs on the run.
Frigging fantastic.
(Or, in which Castiel gets stuck in Deanâs timeline preseries and Dean kind of hates itâuntil he doesnât.)
cas getting to meet and fall in love with pre hell dean just as much as he loves the dean he already knows oh my GOD. i love this fic so much. turn of the earth my beloved
Crossing Lines by sometimeswelose (122k)
Two Deans, one Cas - it's not as sexy as it sounds
Or
An ethics lesson from Hell
Or
The one where Dean from the past meets Dean in the present. They're not sure they like each other very much.
deans intense self hatred vs casâ unwavering love for every version of dean oh my GOD also this is a wip fair warning but itâs so worth waiting for updates iâm having such a great time with this one i cannot wait to see how it gets ended
Plot Holes by saltyfeathers (160k)
Of course it wasnât over after the apocalypse.
There was season six. Then there was season seven. Against all expectations, there was season eight. There were the alphas and purgatory, and then the Leviathans, and then the angels fell. Enter season nine. Loose threads Metatron, Abaddon, and Crowley have to be tied up. Sam, Dean, and Cas have to try to tie them while at the same time dealing with their evolving relationships and newfound graceless states.
Amidst all the chaos, someone has started publishing the Supernatural novels again. Convinced thereâs something amiss in the pages, Charlie starts her own quest to suss out the truth behind the Winchester Gospels.
With the help of various faces, old and new, they must now not only deal with the typical runs of demons and recently fallen angels, but also reconcile the battles raging inside themselves, as the fate of the world, once again, quite literally lays in the palm of their hands.
saltyfeathers said i WILL make the plot holes in this show mean something because the showrunners are sure as shit never gonna adress them ! and i thank them for it bc this was a really cool read
Casefic/Roadtrip Fic
Deprived Of Every Planet by KelpietheThundergod (9k)
Dean's breathing is audible in the scant space between them, irregular. The motel room is dark, pale blue shadows falling in through the gaps in the blinds. Throwing a pattern of uneven white stripes over the bunched up covers. Over Dean's fingers twisted in the sheets. One half of him in shadow, softened by the dark. The heat of his skin. The tremble of him under Castiel's touch.
He caresses a hand over Dean's chest, slowly. Dean's mouth falls open, his body arching into Castiel's touch. Castiel stops over Dean's heart. Through the fever of his desire, he rejoices about the wonder of experiencing another's heartbeat through one's own senses.
Dean gasps, but then he turns his face away and towards the dark. Eyes closed tight and brows furrowed like something is hurting him.
Castiel stills.
âDean?â
the case is background on this one but it Does take place over the course of a case so im putting it here. god touchstarved dean trying so hard to work through his shit for cas head in my hands i love this fic so much
before and after breakfast by spocklee (10k)
The monster of the week is a ghost who hates meat, alcohol, and feeling yourself. Guess who it is during the commercials.
chapter 2 of this one.....god. dean and cas you are both so unwell <3 i love everything abt this fic everyone read it now
we shovel all the ashes out by xylodemon (15k)
Deanâs always known things were headed this way. He just figured getting dragged under would be cleaner and easier than jumping in feet-first.
fics that make you go Oh they love each other...also thereâs lesbians in it literally what else could you want.
thunder road by dothraki_shieldmaiden (20k)
After Chuck is defeated and the Winchesters settle into life without God, Dean Winchester is bored.
OR: Dean and Cas take a road trip and figure out some stuff along the way.
this fic is just like. itâs kind! this fic is kind itâs just a pleasant experience and i enjoyed it thoroughly. theyâre in love and itâs good
Suck It, Judy Garland by GlitterDwarf, midrashic (20k)
It had to be St. Louis. Or, the one where Sam and Cas get fake married for a case, and Dean loses his mind.
actually im gonna defend dean here imagine youre dean and cas gives what definitely sounded like a deathbed love confession while making eye contact with you and then immediately afterwards fake dates your brother. who among us would not have been a bitch about this
best friends without benefits by lizbobjones (20k)
Itâs nearing three a.m. and theyâve been on the road a long time. Samâs been asleep in the back seat since eleven. Giving up and handing the wheel over to Cas and letting the guy who doesnât sleep drive had seemed like a good idea.
the premise of this fic is so funny. cas voice dean you want to fuck me so bad it makes you look stupid. everyone read this
the taste of gravel in the mouth by deathbanjo (22k)
This is what Cas gave up Heaven for: greasy diner food, shitty motel rooms with even shittier cable, long car rides spent in complete silence except for the same six tapes playing over and over again, and a burnt-out husk of a man who can barely hold a conversation anymore.
alt version of getting rid of the mark of cain, the darkness never happens. this one is VERY heavy but itâs so good and it has a hopeful ending. ive read this one twice and loved it both times
Someone Whoâs Feeling For Me by ellispark (45k)
Dean sees her for the first time in nearly six years in some no-name town in Idaho, and it's panic at first sight.
Lisa Braeden, the one woman Dean ever actually had a shot at a real life with, back from where he buried her in his mind. And her hand is on Cas's arm like it's no big deal, like it belongs there. Cas, Dean's dorky, sweet, badass, angelic best friend, and he's just standing there next to Lisa and not moving her hand away.
Dean feels the jealousy rising, and it's not directed where he expected it to be. Because it takes this exact moment for Dean to realize he's in love with his best friend. He's in love with his best friend, and Lisa is looking at Cas like he's the best thing since automatic rifles, and Dean is utterly fucked.
hello op please contact me. please contact me and let me see the inside of your brain. this fic was an unparalleled experience and everyone should also go through it. i love it so very much
Bumper Cars by mansikka (111k)
Two teenagers are missing from an abandoned carnival, and thereâs enough to raise suspicion that their disappearance involves a ghost. Dean, Sam, and Cas arrive in town to investigate, though what they find leads them away from those teenagers, and on the trail of a ghost story that churns up things from their past.
Can newly-human Cas, and Dean, with the help of shipper!Sam, work out the mystery behind the abandoned carnival and its ghost, and along the way, figure out the riddle that is them?
one of my absolute fav case fics it forces dean to confront some aspects of johns parenting and work through some shit and also him and cas fall in love and itâs really well done. love this one a lot <3
Finale Fix-its/Finale Denial
Sorry Jimmy by K_K_TiBal (2.1k)
Based on the tumblr textpost:
jellydeans:
so are cas and jimmy novak just up in heaven existing at the same time
katebushstandean:
#jimmy moves to heaven timbuku so that dean stops trying to make out with him every time they run into each other at the heaven grocery store
this one is just extremely funny. local midwestern heterosexual man is forced to play relationship counselor to the dumbest gay people in existence because one of them wore his face
Dean Winchester Really Needs To Make Some Gay Friends by AreYouReady (2.2k)
âLike, Iâm trying to think if Iâve had, I donât know, crushes. If I ever had a gay thing before you came along and just didnât notice,â Dean said.
Cas suddenly looked down, and away from Dean. If Dean didnât know better, he would swear Cas looked guilty.
âWhat is it, Cas?â
âYou have had several⊠gay things before.â Cas still wouldnât look at him.
âWhat? When? How come you know this better than I do?â
There was no way the answer to this question wasnât funny as hell.
dean learning about gay ppl via the memories of dean smith...incredible.
tiny difference (between ending and starting to begin) by sunforgrace (2.4k)
Sometimes Dean catches Cas staring at the sky.
It doesnât happen often. Not when Deanâs around to tell, anyway. But often enough that he starts to notice.
Eventually Dean starts to recognize the pattern.
Cas just doesnât watch the sky. He watches the birds.
Chuck is gone, Cas is human, and the world is safe. In the quiet aftermath Dean and Castiel find each other again.
i really donât have much to say abt this one it is just very good and they love each other so much
Bring Home by cenotaphy (3.8k)
Dean's phone doesn't ring on the drive back to the Bunker, but that's okay. Becauseâwell, maybe Cas lost his cell, what with getting shuffled back and forth between a cosmic void dimension and all. And anyway, Dean doesn't want this conversation to happen over the phone, he wants toâhe wants to talk to Cas face-to-face. They should talk face-to-face.
Dean will tell himâ
Dean doesn't know what he'll tell Cas. Dean is, in fact, terrified by how utterly and completely he does not know what he'll say to Cas.
cas being forced to face the consequences of sending the risky text that was despair <3
deanâs coworkers vs the heteronormative agenda by cowboydeanwinchester (4.1k)
Dean started working at a local auto repair shop in Lebanon, Kansas about a year ago. His coworkers don't know much about him. Except that he has a wife. Or maybe he doesn't. But he has a kid. Who is either a toddler or a high schooler. Who is either named Jack or Sammy. He also might have a best friend named Cas, but that also might be his wife.
Truth is nobody knows what to make of Dean.
obsessed w people not knowing a single fucking thing about dean because he talks so much and never explains anything. this fic is SO funny
Enhanced Extraction Techniques by goldenraeofsun (5.8k)
The Empty takes Megâs shape, Samandrielâs, Dumaâs, every one of the thousands of angels Cas killed up in heaven. But in the middle of lecturing Cas in the form of Balthazar, it explodes in a burst of light and sound.
Dean Winchester stands in the aftermath.
the empty playing mind games on an awake cas bc it canât put him to sleep is a thing i like a lot and this is very very goodÂ
Speak Silence No More by rea_sunshine (8.1k)
When Dean imagined this moment, it went like this:
Dean bursts into the Emptyâguns blazing, chin high, righteous anger coursing through him. No matter what form his plans and fantasies and whiskey-drunk-whispered-promises took, he is always, always successful. When he imagined it, he was finally the hero Cas deserved.
The reality of the moment is this:
Itâs fucking cold.
dean and cas STILL managing to not communicate with each other properly after the confession is so funny to me and this fic does it really well. also i like that a human being in the empty, where humans do NOT belong, had some like. consequences
my heart is a compass by lagaudiere (10k)
âThere you are,â the Empty says, in Deanâs voice. Itâs cold, like Deanâs eyes are cold, his expression set in contempt. Itâs the expression Cas feared, he realizes, all the times he thought about saying it. Revulsion. It makes him feel sick in the way that goes beyond physical, here where there is nothing physical left.
The moment before it happened had been so sweet it covered up all the hurt. For years, Cas had been holding back those words, biting down on his tongue to keep from saying them. And now he had said it, and he knew that it was good, knew that it was worth it. But on the other side there is only this.
--
In the Empty, Cas dreams of his regrets, until someone comes looking for him.
one of thee best dean rescues cas from the empty fics out there i love the way his memories are written i love how many of them were ones that this fic came up with to give me new things to have brainworms over instead of just making me more fixated on He Watched Him Rake Leaves than i already am
killing time by orestespdf (11k)
It's been four years since Dean saved Cas from the Empty and confessed his feelings in return, and in their Vermont lakehouse, the retired couple is now learning how to heal. One morning, Dean gives Cas a haircut.
(A character study of Castiel.)
perfect fic perfect fic no notes no complaints they love each other so much and now dean is giving cas a haircut and theyâre spending the day together. god.
and every time we kiss, i swear i can fly by knameless (14k)
Every time, Dean tells himself itâs the last.
--
aka, twelve times dean and cas kiss.
a just boy best friends kiss for every season <3 mwah
for which no words exist by MediaWhore (14k)
'a prayer for which no words exist' // richard siken
"Dear Cas who art in my bathtub, give me the strength to be honest about how I feel. For your sake and for mine. Forgive me all the times I wasnât in the past, all the words I should have said but didnât. And please stay. Please stay with me when all is said and done. Amen. "
Dean rescues a newly human Cas from the Empty. That's the easy step.
mediawhore i am in LOVE with you oh my god this fic. this fic. dean taking care of cas after rescuing him dean wrapping cas in a blanket oh my GOD
swimming with the fish pond fish by februyuri (17k)
Some time between Dean bleeding out on a makeshift hook in a barn in Ohio and Sam making marshmallows on his funeral pyre, Dean was brought back to life. By Castiel. Again. Dean agreed to it if only to give Jack time to work out the glitches up top. So, now Deanâs back in the land of the living and things are ... actually good, for once.
Or, as good as they can be when demons are attacking Earth, Deanâs failing to get over why he died in the first place, and Cas is suddenly, inexplicably taking every opportunity to casually tell Dean that he loves him.
this is a wip! but it is so good and so worth the read i love it a lot and am very excited for the last chapter. it IS pretty heavy though dean has a LOT to work through
looking like a true survivor (feeling like a little kid) by courfeyrac (20k)
"Jackâs a clever kidâhas been ever since he was born, maybe even before thatâbut Deanâs pretty sure he hasnât figured out where theyâre going yet. And Deanâs⊠Deanâs excited about it. He remembers planning surprises for Sammy when they were littleâsaving up quarters and sneaking off to the arcade the year he turned seven, or slipping a book Dean had seen Sammy admiring into his jacket before sprinting out of the store the year he turned twelve. There was only so much Dean could give him back then, hindered by lack of finances and transportation and a father who paid attention. Now, though, Deanâs got a wallet full of cash, a tank full of gas, and the freedom to give his kid the kind of birthday he deserves."
Or, it's Jack's fourth birthday, and the kid wants to go to Build-A-Bear.
EVERYONE READ THIS RIGHT NOW. that is not a request this fic undid me. oh my god. oh my god. theyâre a family and theyâre going to build a bear and they love each other. oh my god. also no it isnât a baby jack fic he is 4 and he is also alcal
whatâs missing is found (our souls can exhale now) by sobsicles (27k)
It's not the first time Claire has ever gone missing. It is, however, the first time Kaia panics about it. Dean's dragged into the mess, but he soon finds that it's the best thing that could have happened to him.
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"But have you ever just met someone and maybe it wasn't from the first moment, maybe it was after all these other moments that meant more than you ever expected them to, and it seems like your soul justâjustâ" Kaia makes a helpless gesture with her hands, pushing out, and she breathes out loudly. "Like it can finally exhale. And that person isn't guaranteed to make you happy, but they'reâthey're important. You just know it, you can't even escape it, you can't let them go. Ever met someone like that, Dean?"
"Iâ" Dean halts, his mouth hanging open. He's looking at Kaia, who's looking at him, and his heart is fluttering in his throat like a caged bird aching to soar again. His mind threatens to spiral out of control, but he focuses, swallowing hard. "Yeah. Um. Iâyeah, I have."
deancas AND dreamhunter we love to see it also dean DOES smoke weed with kaia and apologizes for pulling a gun on her what more could you want in a fic
Command Me To Be Well by prospopeya (28k)
Dean did a lot of thinking about when and how he would get Cas back. Months of it, actually, stretching into a year, because while Sam and Eileen were settling into their new lives, Dean was stuck. He was stuck in a faraway corner of the bunker, dark and empty and hollow, ringing with the sound of a vibrating phone.
So when he falls to his knees in that same room, exhausted, hurting, breathless, and he feels a hand on his shoulder and looks up to see Cas, he realizes that he doesn't have a single clue about what to do now. Getting Cas out had been easy--actually, it'd been the opposite of that--but the planning of it, the methodical desperation of one attempt after the other had been a familiar rhythm. It'd been soothing almost, solid, something to focus on that wasn't Cas's eyes, watery and jubilant in a way Dean hadn't ever seen that up close on anyone, let alone Cas.
And now Cas is pulling him to his feet, and Dean's stumbling, and he instinctually grabs Cas's arm, and his hand lights up with a fire that he isn't prepared for.
"Hello, Dean."
oh post despair lack of communication....oh dean refusing to work through his feelings...this fic is incredible i love it everyone who enjoys dean doing everything in his power to avoid talking about feelings up to and including having sex with the guy whoâs in love with him multiple times should read this
break the skin (to break the barriers) by sobsicles (29k)
The first time she meets him, he's nothing more than an almost-missed appointment.
SOBSICLES TATTOO FIC MY BELOVED. dean grieving and getting tattoos and it turns into tattoo therapy. im SO in love with mitzi itâs insane. requires some suspension of disbelief for how long a tattoo takes but itâs an incredible fic and an unparalleled experience. sobsicles does not miss
ascend by quiettewandering (53k)
Something in the world is wrong.
Demon activity is rising where mysterious black substance oozes and unusual ecological events are shaking the world. Dean, grief hanging on his shoulders, restlessly searches for answers that might lead him to the Empty⊠and to Cas.
But what Chuck wrote canât be undone. The narrative thread pulls Dean along, forcing him to comply. Because once a story already has an ending, it canât be rewritten.
Or can it?
SUPER cool concept i liked this a lot iâm pretty sure everyoneâs read it already but just in case someone hasnât you absolutely should
oh sooner or later it all comes down to faith by sobsicles (62k)
Getting used to Heaven is something of a marvel. It ain't perfect, and Dean thinks he'd hate it if it was, which is probably why it isn't.
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"You don't understand," Dean whispers, exhaling shakily. "I know you don't, because even I don't. The instant you were gone, I wanted you back. Cas, I wanted you back. I wantedâI wantedâ"
Cas stares at him, searching his face. After a moment, his own face falls slack, eyes widening just so. "Oh," he breathes out.
Dean wants to be furious that Cas has figured it out before he hasâwhatever it isâbut he's not even that surprised. Cas knows him too well, always has, even more than Dean knows himself. He's been kicking Dean in the goddamn teeth with how deeply he understands him, even about the things Dean doesn't, ever since they first met. You don't think you deserve to be saved, that's what Cas had said. All bundled up in impossibilities and power, this being that looked at Dean Winchester and knew every single inch of him, as if he had a right to each part.
"What?" Dean grits out.
"I love you, too."
the ONLY heaven fic. i do not read heaven fics bc i refuse to budge in my finale denialism i refuse to read fic where it is accepted that dean dies. i was hesitant to read this but god im glad i did it was so good. literally the best possible outcome of dean dying
Endverse
final fantasy. by orange_crushed (1.9k)
âIf Iâd actually been born human, would I have gotten sick like everyone else? Would I be running around gnawing on the neighbors?â Castiel tilts his head up and even from here Dean can see the black ring of his pupils, wide and dark as dead stars. Heâs high as fuck and heâs been loading the guns for forty-five minutes. He stares into the space where Dean is. He smiles and shows his teeth. âMaybe youâd have already put a bullet in my head.â
"This is why you donât lead storytime anymore," Dean says. "This kind of shit."
endverse last night on earth fics are something that can be so personal actually. god
The Last Song by Moorishflower (3.5k)
The very last song is the Song of Solomon, and Castiel sings it only for Dean. Set in "The End."
this is like. pre endverse and the tone is so like. wistful? is the best word ive got? itâs gorgeous i love it but fair warning there is graphic description of like. viscera and infected wounds
to think that we could stay the same by cipherwriter (6.5k)
cas has all he needs; himself, his creation, and enough power to continue this cycle for a long time. he's fine. dean wants to take care of him anyway.
oh my GOD this one is good itâs based off the thing of how originally endverse cas was supposed to be just sitting in a room killing and resurrecting the same cockroach over and over. very bittersweet at some points i love it a lot, do not read it if youre looking for something happy though lmao
the first church at the end of the world by withbloodstainedclothingon (11k)
The angels donât eat the brain. Only Croats do that.
this one is fucked but itâs incredible it contains very heavy and violent subject matter and cas is an Actual cult leader he doesnât just have orgies it is SO well done and i had a great time reading it i recommend it very highly if the warnings sound like something you can stomach
Down to Agincourt by seperis (1.1 million. i know. yes itâs a wip)
There is no such thing as a guarantee when it comes to war.
The outcome's known. Why try?
Return your rusty sword to battered sheath,
bow your head and bend your stubborn knee. Why
take the field when you cannot win the war?
But Harry -- he went down to Agincourt.
PLEASE. i know the length is intimidating i KNOW itâs a very long fic but please. please read down to agincourt i am begging you. head in my HANDS this series is incredible.
Non Supernatural AUS
Long-Term Relationship by bendingsignpost (2.7k)
Castiel says, budging over to make room for Dean on the couch, âI thought we should have a serious talk about our relationship.â
Reflexively, Dean laughs.
Castiel does not.
âUh, Cas... you know weâre not dating, right?â
look man itâs bendingsignpost okay. itâs bendingsignpost itâs good and itâs sweet and you should read it
One White Lie by komodobits (11k)
Castiel takes a deep breath and rings the doorbell. He doesnât need to run through what heâs going to say â heâs already planned and edited and rehearsed it a thousand times. He is going to ask Dean Winchester out to dinner. If itâs not too forward, heâll say, perfectly charming. You see, Iâve seen you around the neighbourhood and you always seem so earnest and Iâd really like to get to know you betteâ The door swings open, and Castiel panics.
He intends to excuse himself. He means to apologise and come back some other time. However, in a moment of blind fear, what comes out of his mouth instead are the words, âCould you spare a moment for Jesus Christ?â
do you ever pretend to be a jehovahs witness for months to hang out with the guy you like because you fucked up asking him out? yeah.
separate ways and sleeping dogs by sobsicles (53k)
Dean is three years sober when Cas comes back into town.
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For a moment, they just stare at each other. Dean, once again, has to swallow the urge to offer to swallow something else. It's very hard to resist the gut-wrenching pull of want that hooks in his chest whenever he looks at Cas. And to think, he used to have him, used to be able to act on that want.
God, he's so fucking stupid.
Well, there's no point in kicking himself three years later for shit he can't change. He'll just sit right here and pretend that his fingers aren't twitching with the urge to reach out and touch. He can't do that anymore, and it's his own damn fault.
"Three years ago," Cas prompts.
Dean huffs a weak laugh. "Yeah. Eventful."
this fic hit me SO hard emotionally oh my god. donât have much to say bc most of my thoughts on this fic are very personal but my god read this please
Everyoneâs a Critic by Englandwouldfall (109k)
The one where uninspired chef Dean Winchester has a one night stand with the male (!) food critic who described the flavour of his garlic bread as 'closeted' and accidentally ends up dating him to try and prove that he's a kick ass chef, thank you very much.
(He may have a point about the 'closeted' thing).
this one is SO fun. dating the food critic who called your garlic bread closeted and lying about your career because youâre embarrassed and you want to redeem your food in his eyes but then you fall in love with him
Non Destiel Centric
gender? you mean that thing i have that pisses people off? by bigender dean winchester (homosexualitie) (946 words)
sam and dean paint each other's nails and dean abuses the technicalities of her gender. what more could you want?Â
HELLO HE/SHE DEAN COMMUNITY oh my god the pure rush of euphoria reading this. oh my god. oh my god.Â
the quiet road to a distant city by rottingbrains (1.2k)
Sam stares out the windshield again. Theyâre approaching a city, and she can see the lights in the distance. Sheâs past the danger zone, and she feels like the world around her reflects that in some way she canât put into words- as if God is telling her that itâs okay. She did the right thing, and soon she will be past the lonely unknown and into the warm, forgiving light of acceptance. Or something. Come to think of it, the lights only look warm from far away, and she knows that the actual city will seem far less welcoming. Still. Best not to imagine the worst when itâs already going well.
required reading for transfem lesbian sam fans. fics that live in your ribcage to make your heart feel good
Four People Ruby Seduced & One She Actually Fell For (Or: Ruby's Epic Love Affair with Humanity in General and Sam in Specific)Â by tuesday (3.7k)
In which Ruby has a lot of sex, is not any kind of therapist that would be legal, and helps a few people out for her own reasons. (S4/S5 AU)
for everyone out there who enjoys ruby being a girlboss <3
Fractured Link by Trell (orphan_account) (5.5k)
Meg goes on, resolute despite the way Dean flinches, "He likes me. He likes me a lot, and I like him back, and that's probably good enough for both of us. But fuck me for saying so, Dean-o, he loves you, probably more than anything else on his daddy's green Earth, and you need to man up and give back what Clarence over there has been devoting to you for years."
this is meg/dean/cas which is not smth i really seek out but this was extremely good. set in s7 so itâs meg and dean and honey cas and itâs a lot of dean figuring his shit out and trying to forgive cas and i love meg a lot in this
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â [nostalgic] summer romance!au ten
another late birthday au (again) but hey ten time :3
find others here: johnny | haechan | taeil | taeyong | mark | jaemin | yangyang | yuta | sicheng | chenle | kun | yukhei | doyoung | jaehyun | jungwoo
not knowing what to say isn't a foreign feeling to you, yet when you come face to face with ten outside his apartment on this summer morning, you are almost too petrified to even string a sentence together
he's really just........leaving
ten shines a big smile and from the open door you hear kun's exasperated voice asking why in the world ten is packing up his entire existence for a program that's going to last two months
"you look nervous"
ten jokes first, running a hand through his dark hair which he's spent the colder months growing out
"im the one going to a different country and yet you look like you might turn green"
his laughter tickles you and you force yourself out of the weird, frozen feeling, for his sake
"im not nervous - it's just this is our first summer apart since what, highschool?"
ten leans against the frame of his door and lets kun scuttle past him with a scowl
yangyang and hendery bounce after him with ten's insane amount of luggage
"yeah but it's two months, not two decades. plus....you know how much ive always wanted to do this."
right. and here you are being selfish.
"of course, i mean it's literally the birthplace of ballet."
"technically that's italy, but france is a close second."
"i hate you"
ten pulls you into his arms before you register that this is your goodbye hug
"i'll miss you too."
kun drives everyone to the airport, he complains and cries the most.
sicheng gives you a knowing look when ten takes your wrist in his hand and tucks your arm between his.
you ignore the look, and focus on ten. on him. and then - when the switchboard pops up his flight info - he gives a bubbly and excited
"ive gotta go!"
and then summer starts, just as he's gone
"so when are you going to tell him you're in love with him."
sicheng brings the big gulp he stole from hendery up to his lips and you keep your eyes closed behind your sunglasses
"sorry, yukhei's not my type."
"you know im not talking about yukhei."
you dig your fingers into the sand beside your towel, the beach is already so noisy so you pretend you don't hear sicheng, but you still feel him looking.
you guess a part of it is true, you love ten. who doesn't?
is that the core of the issue then, that ten is so available and loveable and charming, that it makes him also unattainable?
or at least, unattainable to you.
you hear your phone buzz inside your bag and sicheng is being dragged into the water by the rowdy rest of your friend group
it could be a text from ten?
your mind excites, but you put out that fire
it's probably just spam.
ten does text and even video call the first two or so weeks while he's away
you get blurry photos of food at cafes and the eiffel tower, random fancy looking dogs being walked on the small, cramped streets
ten's connection is kind of bad - but he still gleams through the fuzzy facetime camera as he shows you around the room the dance academy has provided
pangs of his happiness and excitement seep into you
and then there's the first sign of worry comes knocking and twirling through his door
a group of other dancers, all beautiful and strong, asking ten - from the limited amount of french you catch - if he's done, they're waiting for him to go to a show with them
ten gives you a scattered, quick goodbye. he says he'll video call again.
all you get is an update text almost five days later that has no pictures attached just a;
im ok - by the way i totally miss eating hot chips with you at midnight. ive had like a banana smoothie and that's it.
sicheng and kun are the first to pick up on the shift, you are quietly withdrawing to yourself
nothing makes you laugh
ten doesn't reply to your question about what the paris metro looks like, actually he doesn't even read it
kun nearly tugs hendery's ear red when he shares a snap story of ten pressed cheek to cheek with his new dancer friends in front of the louvre when you're in the same room
the thing is you are not jealous of any of them.
you don't go around trying to find their facebooks, clicking on their instagram profiles, comparing you and them.
you are just sad to your bones that they will understand ten in such a way that no matter how long you two have been friends
you will never, truly know
"you're his best friend"
sicheng reasons on the phone as you stare up at the wall above your desk, littered in old pictures and clippings and your gaze catches on the ticket stub from ten's first-ever solo dance performance
it had been a talent show in highschool.
it had been the first time you saw ten perform outside the corner of his cramped bedroom or the glimpse you caught meeting up with him outside the dance academy
he's in paris, he's with people who love it so much more than i do - they love dancing like he loves dancing.
i cannot understand that.
"i think you were right sicheng."
"im always right."
i do love him. when am i going to tell him?
you hang up after sicheng has his i told you so moment and stare at your screen
a notification flashes across the screen and it's a text from ten
the trains here are blue. i miss you.
you want to reply right away, so you open the message and start typing
i miss you too. actually, i think i finally understand why people who are in love are so hurt when they're suddenly left without their other half and ten you are my o-
you delete the sentence and make a face
nice. i miss you too.
you don't send it - or at least you forget to because your fingers are shaking and you exit out of the messaging app before checking
abandoning your phone, you turn on your side and stretch your hand out to reach the edge of the bed
there's enough space between you and it for someone to fit, so you remember the countless times ten has laid there
smiling and laughing and tickling your face with his sleeping breath
you can't even recall a conversation because there have been hundreds
suddenly you feel a warmth creep up your skin
hundreds of opportunities to tell him - and each time i chose to be a coward.
"you should write him a letter."
"this isn't a movie, what - you think im going to write a letter and he'll jump on the first plane from france to come to my side?"
sicheng cocks an eyebrow as if to say it is a possibility
"no. im not writing a letter. i'll suck it up and confess when he comes back."
you somehow end up writing a letter.
maybe because you really do want to just send a long text spilling your mushy, soft, pink feelings
but you know that's just not what ten deserves
he deserves (and you do too, but you won't admit this) a face to face confession
so you start retelling the moments that flutter up in your heart whenever you think about him
how he makes the room brighter when he's in it, how he dances with every bone, joint, muscle in his body - how he approaches it with no inhibition and true devotion that paints its way across his face when he practices, how he fits perfectly into the hole that grows more massive every day you don't see him
standing there across the hall - coffee in hand, gym bag with his scuffed dance shoes
by the time you're finished - the letter is longer than you imagine. there are parts crossed and scribbled out, repetitive thoughts, and stupid little comments and metaphors that compare ten to flowers or clouds or anything else pretty in nature
you cringe at yourself, but you do feel better
it could be your outline for when the time to actually tell him comes.
you shove the papers into an envelope, write ten's name and the address of his parisian dance academy just for the irony
and then make the mistake of letting it sit on your desk
in a matter of days, it has been swallowed by a bunch of other papers and trinkets
and when you're rushing around your room trying to get ready for another adventure to the beach - sicheng clinks the lollipop against his teeth and fishes it out - curious at the stamp
"do you want me to mail this?"
he asks and you're trying to find those sunglasses you literally just bought and grumble that sure, whatever - you'll meet him out by kun's car.
halfway to the beach, you turn in horror from the passenger seat to look at sicheng in the back
your eyes like saucers and a tremor in a voice
"wait. what did you ask me back in my room?"
sicheng's big smile is red from the candy, "your letter to ten."
and there comes the second pang of dread and worry that takes the overwhelming shape of your summer
oh my god - oh my god - maybe the letter won't even make it. i mean it's a letter to france....it'll take at least a month to get there. wait - it probably didn't even have a stamp on it. oh god maybe the address was totally off and some poor stranger is about to be subjected to my very incoherent feelings.....
every day you look at your phone and there's no texts or emails or anything from ten
his social media has gone quiet too
you throw your dignity down a well and ask all your friends if they've heard from him and they all scratch their heads and say no, it's been maybe a week since they did
your stress then turns from your love letter to a possibility that ten is in trouble
he kind of thrives from attention so it is very weird that he's so off-grid
you decide finally, on the day that it's been exactly a month and one day since he was gone, to call
you hover over the facetime button - should i text him first?
with a yelp, you nearly drop and crack your screen when ten's name flashes across the screen
you settle your breathing and tell yourself he hasn't gotten the letter, there's no way - since when has snail mail been efficient?
you answer and are about to ask what's up when ten waves something into the camera
"i got your letter."
maybe you go into rigor. because ten's eyebrows knit and he asks if your connection is ok, you aren't saying anything
you don't know if it's just because you miss him so much that you're able to drag yourself back into consciousness or because you are curious, in the depths of your mind, what his reaction will be
"o-oh. right- i-"
ten frowns and you think it's coming. the rejection is coming.
"is that why you didn't answer my text? you sent the letter instead?"
"your text?"
"yeah, i said i missed you and you read it and never responded."
a peek of a smile stretches on his pretty, bare face
"i never thought you were so romantic to send a letter."
something burns on your skin but you just try to make sure your hand holding the phone doesn't shake
"im not - i just, it was dumb sicheng said i should write it because - i don't know. he's the romantic, blame him."
"you're the one that said i could make a shy tulip open its petals with my laughter."
"oh god"
that smile turns into a grin
"and that my dancing manages to cast a spell on you."
you hide your expression by turning your face
"are you going to re-read the whole thing to me?"
"should i, you're so poetic."
"don't make fun of me."
your voice is serious this time, small and huddled, because you mean it
worse than being told he doesn't feel the same is to be ridiculed for holding him in your heart like this for so long
"im not making fun of you, the letter is beautiful."
you still can't look at him, it's so ten to be kind before he's cruel
"i could never write something like that - so i thought i would just call you and say it."
you don't need to love song yourself into telling me you just see me as a friend
"i love you."
your head whips back so fast your phone drops and you curse and ten can't help but laugh
"sorry, sorry -what did you say?"
he runs a hand through his dark hair, the lighting in his room is dim and illuminates him perfectly
a large white t-shirt engulfs his slender shoulders as he sits up against the wall
"i love you. i know it's corny to confess over facetime, but im guessing it's more forgivable than text?"
a bubble bursts in your stomach and it makes you feel lightheaded and inhumanely blissful all at once
"i love you too."
"more then friends right, because your letter had this part about kissing im very interested in."
you bite back your lip and nod, both embarrassed that he'd bring that part up too but also seeing ten - your close friend, your secret love - talk about kissing you
makes some of the neurons in your body go haywire
"good, i seriously was scared you might have been pranking me with thi-"
"i would never. im not hendery."
"oh how are they, ive been super busy with the practice for a review so i haven't talked to anyone."
another thing you love about him, he keeps everyone in. he leaves none of his friends behind. he pretends like he couldn't have a care in the world, but he cares more than anyone else.
"he's ok, he almost crashed kun's car yesterday."
ten shrugs, "expected."
and like that - everything is still somehow the same. there is no awkward phase after you've talked about your feelings for each other at all.
because your love doesn't come as a one hit punch because ten is beautiful, although he is to an unfair degree
it comes from the experience of being around him. having so much of him. maybe even getting a little addicted.
you do talk more on the phone, no more long pauses even though ten's practices get more grueling and you tell him to take his time to rest
but he's sweaty on the practice room floor - texting you - telling you everything is sore but the thought of seeing you soon makes it all better
it's three days before ten is scheduled to fly back that he has his review and you are biting your fingernails waiting for him to tell you about it
when you get a youtube link at like three in the morning - you click it and someone has recorded ten's performance
somehow, he looks more graceful than you've ever seen him
a new text comes in when it's almost done
'i think i did well - can i get a reward?'
'you'll get a really good one when you're home'
he sends a winking emoji and you can't fall asleep after because you wonder what he's expecting, you'd meant a kiss - had he meant more?
you wouldn't mind that at all.
xiaojun is being pulled away from the conveyer belt by kun and hendery is asking sicheng for a sip of his starbucks as you all wait for ten's plane to land in the airport lobby
you two have not told anyone - mostly because you know there will be endless questions you won't have answers too and sicheng might literally never let you live it down
so you wait for ten to be here so you can suffer together
you see the gates from his flight open and sicheng mutters that you look like you're going to pop like a goddamn balloon
for once in your life, you don't snide back at him, folding your hands in front of you and tippy-toeing to see over the crowd
and then, like seeing him for the first time all the years ago when you first met, ten comes out
hendery and xiaojun try to go for a running jump, but the older members hold them back because everyone can sense whats coming
you dash toward him and ten doesn't stay still either - you two collide so hard it almost hurts, but you don't care at all
ten's duffel bag falls over his shoulder and your hands are wrapped around his neck before he can even say your name
it's a first kiss that couldn't be more characteristically fit for you
sweet, big smiles tasted on lips, and interrupted by none other than your group of friends gasping in a symphony of shock
except for sicheng - he knew
ten tastes like you imagine he would taste, maybe because in smaller ways you've already had doses of the sunshine that radiates off him before
he keeps his hands wrapped around your waist as he looks down into your eyes
"mon amour"
"is that really all you learned in france?"
"ummm yeah, i don't know how to say let's get out of here and back to my place even though im pretty sure someone said that to me at some point."
you pout, "don't try to make me jealous."
"never!"
ten chuckles as you press your face into his neck and hug him close
the only way you get pulled apart is because someone (kun) reminds you all you're still at the PUBLIC airport
the drive back is a frenzy and everyone wants to know everything and not about just you two - because you're "two" now - but about france and traveling and ten's dancing
like you'd sensed - nothing has really changed
just this time, your fingers are locked in tens. and the warmth you longed for in silence is suddenly all out in the open.
funnily enough, you and ten don't ever write letters to each other again.
ten just doesn't like writing - it takes too much sitting down
and you are horrified everytime he fishes your love confession out of the memory box and dangles it above your head as leverage
it's how he convinced you into adopting the first cat. now you two have three.
so when you and him are deciding the best way to let all your friends know about your upcoming event you cross out mailed invitations
"we can make an email list."
your legs are thrown over his thighs on the sofa and he's resting the laptop on you them
"let's just make an instagram post: wedding in our backyard on thursday - you're invited."
ten pinches his nose
"we are not having a backyard wedding. we could not fit everyone in my dance company into it anyway."
you play with your engagement band and sigh
"fine, fine. what about.....we just call everyone and tell them. if we call kun right now he'll let all of the world know by the end of the week."
ten agrees with a hum, but then starts typing and you lean over to see
"bulk wedding invites? you're giving in?"
he closes the laptop and tosses it to the side, easily and gently pushing you down onto your back to hover over you with a small content sound
"i am. but we don't even have to write the letters - some company will do it for us."
his lips are inches from yours and all of a sudden you're young again - waiting to kiss him for the first time at that airport
"you know we'll still have to write vows right."
he is about to kiss you, he's so close and your eyes are closing
"i'll just read your letter outl-"
"TEN NO!"
he laughs, laughs until he finally does kiss you and then laughs again when he pulls back - the overflowing amount of love that exists in that moment is potent
you tell him to get over that old thing, but he shakes his head
"never, when again in all the lives i live is someone going to say i could make a shy tulip open its petals with my laughter?"
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