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Ellie leaves behind a letter for Dina....
[farmhouse aftermath]
Dear Dina,
I don't know where to begin. I'm sitting here in the farmhouse, surrounded by the memories we built together, and it feels like the walls are closing in. The echoes of our laughter, the warmth of our shared space, they all seem distant now.
I came back after finding Abby. After all that time, after all the pain and sacrifice, I confronted her. And you know what? I let her go. I let her go, Dina, and I thought it would bring me some closure, some peace. But all I feel is emptiness.
I walked through the door, half-expecting to see you and JJ waiting for me, your smiles lighting up the room. But the silence greeted me instead. The rooms are empty, and the air feels heavy with the weight of what's been lost. I searched every corner, called out your names, but there's no answer. Just the quiet reminder of a life, our lives, that's slipped away. I didn't want to leave bu And it's all my fault.
I understand, Dina. I understand why you left. My pursuit of revenge took me to a place you couldn't follow. I can't blame you for wanting something different, something safer for JJ. It hurts, though, realizing that I've pushed away the people I care about the most.
I'm writing this note because I can't stay here any longer. The farmhouse holds too many ghosts, too many memories that I'm not ready to confront. I'll leave everything as it is, the way you left it, and I'll take only what I need.
I don't know where I'm going, Dina. I don't have a plan, a destination, or a purpose. Maybe I'm running away from the pain, or maybe I'm running toward something I can't yet see. All I know is that I can't stay here. Not now.
Thank you, Dina, for everything. For being the light in the darkness, for giving me a reason to keep going. I'll always cherish the moments we had, and I'll carry them with me, even if the weight becomes too much.
Take care of yourself and JJ, he's lucky to have an amazing mom to take care of him. I hope you find the peace and happiness I couldn't give you. Maybe our paths will cross again someday. Until then, know that you were the best part of my life.
With love,
Ellie
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#drabble#ellie the last of us#ellie tlou#ellie williams#the last of us 2#tlou#depressing shit#letter#dina tlou#ellie x dina#tlou part 2#tlou2#fucking sad#going to cry now#shit#shit went down w/Ellie after Santa Barbara#imagine#angsty
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My followers to me.
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Man I really don't think I'm gonna live long under these no love condition I'm in.
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I hate how on this platform people always assume absolute fucking worst things in each other, because instead of communicating to help each other improve, people just block with no closure, creating this cycle of paranoia when everyone is afraid of saying anything because they never know what is it exactly that can get them blocked.
#I've seen people asking here anonymous questions or responding to something really nicely but prefixing it with#“anon because I'm afraid of getting blocked”#and those questions and responses are always just so nice and neutral like what is even the blocking material here?#fucking wild#fucking sad
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Today’s eats✨
604 cals total
I feel like I’m eating wayy too much and that the calorie tracking isn’t correct, but I’ve weighed everything and it should be right. I just feel fat😫
#food diary#loose weight fast#low cal diet#tw ed diet#weight loss#diet coke#ed food#fucking sad#low cal food#lana del rey#low cal meal#low cal recipes#dieta ana#pr0ana diet#weight loss diet#diet plan#ed blog#tw ed rant#foodpics
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I don't want to finish the new honkai story chapter anymore, I need a fix-fic and I need it NOW
#fucking sad#Loving the depression today#Veliona my beloved noooooooo#Senti got vored 💀#honkai impact 3rd#honkai impact#Fuck honkai impact#Ao3
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Dear collarbones;
I know you're there...somewhere. I appreciate you (I guess) but I really don't know why you're so scared to show yourselves.
I can feel you... but I can't see you, and that upsets me.
#tw disordered eating#disordered eating in tags#tw ed diet#tw ed in the tags#tw ana thoughts#tw ana diary#tw ana related#tw ana vent#ana trigger#anarec1a#tw ana shit#tw ana relapse#ed tw#tw ed relapse#tw ed recovery#tw ed rant#rant#fucking sad#emo#goth#ranting
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mood:
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How sad is the American Healthcare system when someone gas to go around messaging people to see if they have any extra antipsychotics laying around so that their partner doesn't go into withdrawal from their insurance fucking up
#told him i cant do that bc i cant go without them either obviously but he was just checking to see if i had old prescriptions laying around#fucking sad#and he's my british friend he came here overseas so he's extra pissed about it#.bdo
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Joel's first and last letter to Ellie...
Dear Ellie,
I hope this letter finds its way to you, though I doubt I'll ever have the courage to actually give it to you. I've been meaning to write down these thoughts for a while now, but every time I pick up the pen, my hand hesitates. There's so much I want to say, but I fear the words won't capture what I truly feel.
These past few months haven't been easy for either of us. I know we've been distant, and it's partly my fault. Hell, it's mostly my fault. I've been carrying the weight of the past, the choices I made, and it's been eating at me. I can see it in your eyes, the hurt, the disappointment, and I can't stand the thought of being the cause of that pain.
I remember the first time I saw you, a scared and determined kid with fire in your eyes. You reminded me so much of Sarah, and I couldn't bear the thought of losing someone else. That's why I made the choices I did – I wanted to protect you, to spare you the pain that I've carried for so long. But looking back, I see that I might have gone about it all wrong.
I want you to know that even when we're not on the best terms, it doesn't change how much I care about you. You mean more to me than words can express. I see so much of myself in you, Ellie, and it scares me sometimes. I want to protect you from the world, from the darkness that I've seen, but I also know that you're stronger than I ever was.
I've made mistakes, plenty of them, and I've hurt people along the way. But if there's one thing I've learned, it's that holding onto anger and regret only brings more pain. I'm not asking for forgiveness; I just want you to understand that everything I've done, I did with the intention of keeping you safe.
Sometimes I lie awake at night, haunted by the choices I've made, the lives I've taken. I've wanted to shield you from the darkness, but in doing so, I've pushed you away. I hope you can understand that everything I did, I did out of love. It might not excuse my actions, but it's the truth.
You've grown into such a strong, resilient person, and I'm proud of the woman you've become. You don't need me to protect you anymore, and maybe that's what scares me the most. I see so much of myself in you, and it terrifies me to think that you might follow in my footsteps.
I never meant to be the cause of your pain, Ellie. If I could turn back time, I'd do things differently, but life doesn't work that way. I've been carrying this letter around, unsure if I'll ever have the courage to give it to you. Maybe it's just my way of trying to make amends, to bridge the gap between us.
No matter what happens between us, remember that you're not alone. You have a strength in you that can weather any storm. Life can be cruel and unforgiving, but you don't have to face it alone. I'm sorry for the distance between us, and I hope you find the courage to forgive an old man who cares about you more than he'll ever admit.
Take care of yourself Ellie.
Love, Joel.
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small drabble I made... god I miss that guy, going to cry ugly now...
#drabble#ellie williams#joel miller#sad#ellie the last of us#tlou#the last of us 2#sad poem#sad quotes#depressing shit#fucking sad#letter#letting go#moving on#forgiveness#the last of us#joel tlou
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I don’t relate to you, no. ‘Cause you made me hate this city!
And I don’t talk shit about you on the internet, never told anyone anything bad. 'Cause that shit's embarrassing, you were my everything, and all that you did was make me fucking sad! So don't waste the time I don't have, and don't try to make me feel bad. I could talk about every time that you showed up on time but I'd have an empty line 'cause you never did. Never paid any mind to my mother or friends, so I shut 'em all out for you 'cause I was a kid. You ruined everything good. Always said you were misunderstood, made all my moments your own.
Just fucking leave me alone.
#happier than ever#billie eilish#frasi#citazioni#frasi canzoni#citazioni canzoni#canzoni#song#song lyrics#relate to you#made me hate#don't talk#don't talk shit#anyone#anything#fucking sad#sad#never paid#you ruined everything
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All this bullshit thrown at you to cheer you up when you're feeling sad means nothing to me. Maybe I want to stay fucking sad, ever consider that? Maybe I deserve it. Maybe I deserve pain and misery because I'm not worth existence-
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Here goes nothing. Waiting for the last bus . Hope it hits me perfectly.
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Fk.
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dude cami, davina, and marcel deserved so much better
#and klaus#klaus baby#god#he was trying so hard#to be better#i feel so bad for all of them#bc none of them deserved to die#at all#especially not cami#tvd#tvdu#the originals#this show is so#fucking sad#klaus mikaelson#niklaus mikaelson#marcel gerard#davina claire#camille o'connell
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This diet makes me soo exhausted. Like I’m barely making it halfway through school days. Today I almost fell asleep my last class. It’s making me sad because I’m usually good in school and I want to do great this semester. Anyways, guess I’ll have to drink some more diet energy drinks.
#physically exhausted#mentally exhausted#tired af#i'm so fucking tired#low cal diet#food diary#loose weight fast#tw ed diet#weight loss#diet coke#ed food#fucking sad#low cal food#sadnees#exhausted#im so drained#lana del rey
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