Tecteun is an excellent character to clown on because their tags would be "fuck you Mum!"
Sure she's deplorable but calling her Mum would never not be funny.
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"I respect you and won't stop you from being who you are" and "I'm not ready to call you by a new name and pronouns because it hurts me" can not co-exist when the speaker is your parent who has a huge amount of control over your life.
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Well MAYBE me not taking care of my health has a REASON
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not a good night :( i want to feel loved
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Cont. from my prev. post: I don’t think anyone outside my family will ever understand the dynamic. It’s so fucked up but it works. If I told ppl all the shit my mum has done through my life they wouldn’t believe it or they would tell me to cut contact. They don’t understand that I can’t. They don’t understand that my family is everything to me. I love my parents an I hate them but the love wins anyway. And I forgive them but I won’t forget. I can’t. It shaped me into who I am in the worst way possible. A neurotic freak but also loving and kind. Naive and world-weary, smart but stupid, hopeful and hopeless. I feel like I’m healing and changing since I moved out but it’s also obvious that if I had to move back it would be the same as it ever was. I want to cry just thinking about these things. I don’t know how to express my emotions so they burst out of me, uncontrollably.
I think about being a parent every day. I used to be afraid that I would turn out like my mum but I think I physically can’t. I wasn’t allowed to be angry so I don’t know how. All I know is shutting down, which is also bad in a parent. But at least I know I could never hit a kid. Or intimidate them. Or make them feel like they’re less than. It’s actually funny how little self awareness my mum has. “you don’t have any confidence in yourself, and I don’t know why”. “You used to be so talkative and laugh and be happy, I don’t know what happened”. Beats me, mother! Oh wait, she literally did. ayyyyyy
And then I hear my little sister mouth back to her and argue with both of them and the alarm bells go off in my head, bc if I did that I would have been slapped or hit. It takes me so much effort to realise that her doing that is a good thing bc it means my parents HAVE changed after all. But she still got hit and she remembers. She remembers the constant comparisons between us, trying to pit us against each other. She remembers the way my mum treated me & my other sister when we were her age. And my mum still criticises and controls her, even without it getting physical.
And then, when I actually talk to them I can only remember the good times. The warmth of her voice, the love she puts into everything she makes. The reassurance of her approval. It’s so hard to put into words how it feels like she’s two completely different people at once. And how even though I respect my sister not talking to them, I could never do that because I’d miss them too much. Being the eldest meant I had to grow up earlier but I also stayed more of a child than my sister. She has always been so serious and independent, even when we were little. We understand each other more than anyone in this world but we’re still two completely different people. I could never cut contact, but neither could I drop out of uni just bc of something my mum said, like I fundamentally can’t take anything she says seriously. She has told me so much stupid bullshit throughout the years that it really doesn’t affect me, even though I’m the “sensitive” one out of the two of us. Whatever. As long as she’s happy. I hope she will go back next year tho.
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wednesday: enid? what are you doing?
enid, lying facedown on the floor in a snuggie: i’m practising
wednesday: for what?
enid: my future as a homeless, unemployed failure
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We need more Sirius just doing the most fucked up shit thinking its completely normal and James being like... haha... um no we DON'T throw stones at cats around here... actually, its considered RUDE to punch someone in the face... yes even if they pushed you a little in the corridor
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