Flats and a background???? LETS GOOOO

I'm not sold on how I want to have Tamius' tattoos yet, but all I know is they are pen ink.

Poor man is not happy.

I Am Done.

Being a victim of my circumstances I hold the power I am capable of doing so And I'm thankfully in the position To be able to Do something about it That isn't temporary

Just a lover girl surrounded by fuckboys 🙄

Navigating the Uncharted Territory: My Journey with Chronic Illness and Uncertainty Shaina Tranquilino January 18, 2024 At the age of 18, my life took an unexpected turn, plunging me into a world of constant illness and uncertainty. The symptoms I endure are overwhelming - from debilitating nausea and stomach cramps to the frustrating inability to keep food down. Endless trips to the bathroom, sleepless nights plagued by insomnia, sudden hot flashes, sweating, and excruciating pain in sensitive areas have become my everyday reality. To make matters worse, my body seems to be betraying me with the absence of a menstrual cycle, persistent fatigue, weakness throughout, and inexplicable pain all over. Hair loss, mouth sores, rashes, and high blood pressure further compound my struggles. Seeking answers has been a long and arduous journey that has taken me through countless doctor's offices and hospitals. Specialists have subjected me to numerous tests - from blood work and urine samples to stool examinations, heart assessments, MRI scans, CT scans, ultrasounds, EKGs, endoscopies, colonoscopies - you name it. Yet frustratingly enough, every test comes back normal or inconclusive. It feels like an endless uphill battle where hope for a clear diagnosis seems elusive. The medical professionals suspect that I may be grappling with one or multiple autoimmune diseases or perhaps something incredibly rare. Sadly though, these conditions rarely present themselves on tests until they reach life-threatening levels – a disheartening fact that makes obtaining a definitive answer even more challenging. This uncertain future has pushed me to seize each day as if it were a precious gift because there is no telling how much longer I will be able to stand strong. In light of this unpredictability looming over my existence, I strive to serve others as best I can while I still have the strength. Every task completed becomes an accomplishment knowing that time is fleeting. Each day brings with it gratitude for being alive despite the unknown that lies ahead.

Today, I am humbly asking for your help. I am 30 years old, so it has been 12 years of dealing with this mysterious illness, and it is soon going to be 13 years for me. If you or someone you know has experienced similar symptoms, if you have any knowledge or expertise in rare diseases or autoimmune disorders, or if you simply have suggestions on where to turn next, I would be eternally grateful for your guidance. Perhaps there is a specialist, a research study, or an alternative therapy that could shed light on my situation.

I firmly believe that together we can find answers and solutions. By opening up this plea to the public, I hope to tap into the collective knowledge and compassion of our community. Your support, advice, and connections may hold the key to unravelling this medical mystery and restoring hope to my life.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for taking the time to read my story. Please feel free to reach out with any insights or recommendations you may have. Together, let us strive towards uncovering the truth and finding a path towards healing.

With deep gratitude, Shaina

I realise that healing and recovery is a conscious choice, it’s not an easy one but it will always be worth it. ❤️‍🩹

And what if your strengths are broken?" "Then, we find new ones.

Masika and Jack, D&D Story: Ending an entire Species?

I think maybe I can be ok.

I feel like I vomited all the negative. Maybe. Like one more final purge of the invasive thoughts and maybe then I can be free to….to……move forward.

Maybe some sort of ritual? Like a “here lies all the negative shit, fuck you be gone” and then light it on fire like a bad boyfriends old stuff. I like symbolism. This baby may be some sort of blessing and im SQUANDERING it with my neurodivergent bullshit.

I can be better. I can do better. I will be better. A better me for me. A better mom for this baby. I will do it.

The problem is not suffering itself or oblivion itself but the depraved meaninglessness of these things, the absolutely inhuman nihilism of suffering.

--John Green

I'm lacking motivation and energy. This past week has been so hard on me mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually and even financially. I did not realize 😳 how much life has taken a toll on my mind, body, heart and soul!

Please pray for me to give me strength to get out of this slump! And what are some tips or suggestions you can offer an almost 35 year old person!

The Journey to Becoming: From Darkness to Dreams.

I yearn to be a renowned writer, with every fiber of my being. I understand that this dream cannot be achieved with a mere snap of my fingers; I must pour every ounce of my being into making it a reality. My ultimate goal for the longest time was to rediscover happiness, a journey that took years of relentless perseverance to finally achieve. There were moments when darkness threatened to consume me, moments when I was haunted by traumatic memories of my past that tormented my soul.

I wept for the innocence stolen from me at such a young age, for the scars left by those who were meant to protect me. But through the endless battles with my own demons, I found the strength to let go of the pain that weighed me down. I learned that clinging to the past only hinders the beauty of the present and the promise of a brighter future.

I purged my life of toxic forces, surrounding myself only with those who uplifted and supported me. I came to terms that my father will never comfort me when I need it, realizing that I do not need his comfort. There were moments when the weight of the world threatened to crush me, when I considered surrendering to the darkness that lurked within me. But I refused to succumb, clinging to the hope that one day, the sun would shine a little brighter.

And now, despite the hardships that once threatened to consume me, I find myself filled with a profound gratitude for the gift of life. I have tasted the sweet nectar of happiness, and I refuse to let it slip away. Just as I fought for my own happiness, I will continue to fight for my dreams of becoming a well-known writer. I have seen the impossible become possible before my very eyes, and I have faith that the universe will conspire in my favour once more. For I know that as long as I refuse to give up, my dreams will eventually become my reality.

I love how this turned out. I have been writing since I was 12 or 11 years old! :D

Temptations

At the moment, it isn’t raining, though the sky is still that overcast grey suggesting the possibility of more liquid falling. All the morning routine has been done and I’m enjoying my usual coffee. The fire I built back up in the woodstove has wisps of smoke drifting across the backyard like specters creating a otherworldly dance. Momo the part time cat paid us a visit this morning. I’m always…

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Another Hand Practice Session in- And better yet, my first official art of Tamius (Finding Strength)

Despite Finding strength being the shortest of my ongoing works the plot is actually heavily preplanned and hopefully will have a few more Chapters popping up in the new year

Guys- I've been rawdogging these hands like nobody's business.

Finding Strength in Adversity: Reflection on Psalm 3

1 Lord, how many are my foes!How many rise up against me!2 Many are saying of me,“God will not deliver him.”3 But you, Lord, are a shield around me,my glory, the One who lifts my head high.4 I call out to the Lord,and he answers me from his holy mountain.5 I lie down and sleep;I wake again because the Lord sustains me.6 I will not fear though tens of thousandsassail me on every side.7 Arise,…

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3 Important Reflections

Forget resolutions, let’s get real. I cracked open my heart and discovered 3 unexpected truths about myself – truths that rocked my world, humbled me, and ignited a fire for what’s next. Buckle up, friends, it’s gonna be personal Life so far wasn’t just a blur of days on a calendar; it was a crucible, a mirror, a whisper from my soul that forced me to confront some hard truths about myself. Not…

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Park Benches

“Do you mind if I sit with you, young man?” “The park bench is for everyone.” “Thank you. . . I don’t mean to intrude, but I can help but asking if you are fine.” “I’m good. Why makes you say that.” “You’ve been staring at your foot for quite some time.” “Yeah, I just have been down lately.” “Why? What happened? If you don’t mind me asking.” “I guess it’s okay. My girlfriend broke up with…

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while we wait.

may i offer you all a pubby?? lil bby barns?