I've been developing new trauma from exposure to images and videos of terrorism lately, and have been hyperfocusong on BG3 to cope. It's had the effect of bringing back my ability to daydream and soulbond? So now I've got a little paracosm and an Astarion riding on my shoulder to keep my sanity intact.

Unfortunately, it's also brought me back into the struggle with myself I always have when I embody myself as Wix in Faerûn -- racial dysphoria.

My body here is light brown and has curly hair and small brown eyes. The other me is icy blue, with straight white hair, and huge blank eyes. Both are racially persecuted and have trauma around how we look. But I spent so much time and effort and money and put such pain and anxiety into trying to make my body look like Wix's. Bleached and straightened my hair till it was damaged as hell, avoided the sun so I would have as little melanin as possible, thought about contacts that i would hate wearing, and even half-seriously considered giving myself argyria to make my skin blue.

Now I've learned to embrace my tan skin, my curly brown hair, my small brown eyes. But then I find I cannot change Wix to fit that, even as a changeling, because their true form means as much to them as mine does to me. We can never look the same.

There's so much emphasis in fictionfolk communities sometimes about ways to be more like, and to look more like, one's fictotype. I wonder if there is room for other discussions about how that is impossible for some of us, and how to embody a kintype you will never look anything like and that it would actually be harmful to change yourself to look like.

Maybe the similarity, for me, is in the claiming of the true form itself rather than having that true form look the same? Claiming the truth of one's phenotype without hiding it or changing it for the sake of conforming to bigoted standards?

What else is valuable besides just looking the same?

Fictidfluid

Image 1: [ID: A 5 stripe horizontal pride flag. Colors in descending order are slightly pastel hot pink, light hot pink, pale lavender, medium purple, and medium blue. No text. /End ID.]

Image 2: [ID: A 5 stripe horizontal pride flag. Colors in descending order are slightly pastel hot pink, light hot pink, pale lavender, medium purple, and medium blue. There is text on each stripe. The text in descending order reads as "Fictive identity", "Fictional identity spectrum", "Fableing identity", "Fluidity" and "Fictionkin identity". The text is white with a thin black border. /End ID.]

Fictidfluid is an identity for a headmate whose fictional identity is fluid in how it presents or is perceived. Their identity is fluid between fictionkin and fictive, with fableing being in the middle.

Fictidfluid as a name is a combination of fict, id and fluid, pulling from the words fiction, identity and fluid respectively. "Fictid" is pronounced like "fictive" but with a "d" sound instead of a "v" sound.

Any system member can use this label, regardless of origin or type should it resonate with or fit them.

(While fableing is usually defined as being for median system members only I find that that is quite restrictive. I'm sure there are many multiple system members who experience a fableing identity. This is why Fictidfluid is not restricted to just median system members, as I find that would be limiting. It is not a requirement to use the term fableing when using this term for yourself, it is simply a term that means inbetween fictionkin and fictive. You can do whatever you want forever.)

I fucking love alterhumans who are between "identify with" and "identify as", I fucking love alterhumans who are fluid between the two, I fucking love alterhumans who use whatever language they want to use to convey their experience, I fucking love alterhumans that use terms that only partly define their existance

I love ya'll

I came out of dormancy a little bit ago and I'm not feeling great. Just generally feeling low, feeling small. Don't really know what to do with myself. I miss my friends. And watching my source is making me miss them more, but also stressing me out.

Orym of the Air Ashari (#💙💙🌙)(Please tag as fableing and/or fictive)

Your fave is a fableing: Ashe from Fire Emblem: Three Houses

(request by anon)

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Fableingage

A (trans)age identity under the plurage umbrella that can only be understood within the context of being a fableing or when one's (trans)age identity affected/caused by being a fableing.

coined by: @altage

flag by: @altage (inspiried by the plurage & fableing flags)

Fableing

Since there aren't really many sources about Fableings, I thought I'll write a bit about it myself. I've seen people ask how an alter from a median system could be a fictional being. Since in median systems the alters are usually not as distinct and different as theiy are in other systems, it seems weird or odd to people how a „fragment“ of the host personality could be something like a fictive.

I am a fableing (Firion from Final Fantasy II) and I am also what you could describe as the 'responsible' fragment of the host. I usually front when there is a lot of stressful stuff to do, when there are appointments etc.

I can't exactly pin down when I first formed, my early memories are really hazy, but it must've been shortly after we finished school. It was the time I was needed, a lot of stuff changed. In the beginning I didn't really had a sense of identity, I was simple the being that took over when needed and because I lacked an identity and mind of my own it was hard to communicate with my host. In other word after taking care of what I had to do I just switched back and my host didn't really have any details about the things I did, creating a lot of problems like forgetting the appointment I just made.

It was at that time my host played Dissidia Final Fantasy which was the first time we ever came into contact with the character of Firion. And he simply had a lot of traits our host thought were admirable. I felt like that this is what I should be like and over time I adapted more and more of Firions traits until I couldn't really distinguish us anymore. I became Firion because that's who I needed to be. I think you could say it's more similar to forming a linktype instead of having a kintype? But yeah, this is why I am a fableing. Of course this is probably not the way it is always and how all fableings are, but I still wanted to write it down.

HOLY SHIT WHAT???

edit: because Bill is a huge piece of shit and heads up for others

nothing scarier than activity on an old post.....where did u find that thang

Introduction

We’re a newly-discovered (orbital and blurian) median system (definition here) comprised mostly of dragons, so we should all probably introduce ourselves

We will happily answer any questions about us, as long as you’re not trying to get us involved in syscourse

No DNI, they don’t actually work anyways

Individual introductions below the cut

Zhadésya: it/ílí/he Our core Dragon therian Only one who isn’t a fableing Blog: @a-very-confused-dragon

Coal: he/ílí fableing (source: EODW) Fire Dragon Connection to bartending due to source Probably the most extroverted of all of us The one writing this intro

Princess Quetzal: ílí/she/it fableing (source: EODW) Princess of the Sky Dragons Very violent NPD symptom holder

Ember: ílí/she fableing (source: EODW) Fire Dragon Only EODW fabeling with a known age (2.5 dragon years/10-12 human years) Has a lot of exo-trauma BPD symptom holder

Brightsting: it/she fableing (source: Wings of Fire (oc)) animus Sand/Night hybrid Creator of monsters (and very enthusiastic about them) Autism symptom holder Ecstatic right now due to just having realized her creations can exist as facets Blog: @laboratory-of-monster-research (currently an empty blog)

Nightmare: it/its fableing (source: Brightsting’s creations) Drake-like in appearance with extra eyes and legs Can magically induce nightmares onto others Probably the calmest and most mature of Brightsting’s creations

Shadow: it/its fableing (source: Brightsting’s creations) Shapeshifter Mischievous and sadistic

Void: it/its fabeling (source: Brightsting’s creations) Very dragon-like in appearance Able to conjure portals anywhere it wants The youngest (as of now) of Brightsting’s creations

Anxiety (wolf): it/its fabeling (source: Adventures With Anxiety!) The literal embodiment of anxiety Very very protective Anxiety symptom holder (obviously) Finds it most difficult to mask out of all of us Possibly a fragment? (With median systems, it’s not always easy to tell)

also the way that the nimona movie showed that hate is a taught behavior?? the way that gloreth, the hero worshipped for slaying monsters, was fully accepting of nimona until her mother told her what to believe? until that generational bigotry was passed down? the way the director’s motive wasn’t even power like most evil government figureheads in media, but rather a fear of monsters destroying the kingdom because that hate had been instilled in her too, like it had in gloreth? the way ballister was also indoctrinated into hatred of “monsters” until he was just as outcast as one? because only then was he willing to change and learn?? and how even people with good hearts and good intentions like ballister and ambriosius and even the queen herself are still capable of perpetuating bigotry and unnecessary violence when they don’t take the time to understand or learn about the “others” they supposedly hate????????? i need to lie down

what’s up i’m larry johnson sallyface and i love my dopeass little sister el hopper strangerthings 🤙🏼 we rockin outttttt to Loud Ass Rock Music 🤘🏼 also kinda homophobic that there’s no headbanging emoji :/

(i’m a fableing, idc if i get tagged as kin or fictive, but ellie is deffo a fictive/altive)

🍁

Your fave is a fableing: Sebastian from Stardew Valley

(request by anon)

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hannibal is so cringefail because how do you successfully get away with literal murder and cannibalism for years all while being a well respected sophisticate and food connoisseur and then risk it all for a guy covered in dog hair who is also an asshole and also wants to kill you real bad

One quiet day on the farm, the Little Red Hen found some wheat seeds and decided to make bread.

"Who will help me plant these seeds?" the Little Red Hen asked.

"I would." said the Horse "But I'm a workhorse, and I'm too busy moving carts around."

And so the Little Red Hen planted the seeds by herself. And they grew into bountiful golden crops.

"Who will help me harvest the wheat?" the Little Red Hen asked.

"I would." said the Dog "But I'm a guarddog, and I'm too busy keeping away burglars and predators."

And so the Little Red Hen harvested the wheat herself and made it into flour.

"Who will help me bake the flour?" the Little Red Hen asked.

"I would." said the Pig "But I'm a mother of 5 newborn piglets, and I'm too busy taking care of my young."

And so the Little Red Hen baked the bread herself into twenty beautiful loaves.

"Who will help me eat the bread?" the Little Red Hen asked.

"We would." said the Farm Animals. "But we're ashamed, for we didn't do anything to make the bread."

"Nonsense!" said the Little Red Hen. "You, Horse, helped move around the stones that built my oven. You, Dog, kept me safe while I worked. And you, Pig, are raising a new generation of Farm Animals, who will too contribute to our Farm one day. You've all helped me so much by simply being you."

"Besides," the Little Red Hen added. "I couldn't possibly eat all the loaves on my own, most of them would go to waste. Come, eat with me."

And so the Little Red Hen and the Farm Animals ate the bread together. And all saw their own, and each other's, worth.

Realizing that I’m the host of a median subsystem, N is a fableing, and I have a “Rolling Girl” Miku songtive/musifictive ✌️

-🐉Night (Drei/Pup/Claw)