Has this been done yet? Probably.

Tried to use language that's inclusive of alterhumans who are still human.

it is incredibly exhausting to go through tags for a disorder i have been diagnosed with and see almost every post say “endos dni” “i hate endos” “endos fuck off” like oh my fucking god can you not make a single post about being disordered without sticking it to the endos or whatever

like hi hello, i am both diagnosed with OSDD and i identify as an praesigenic system because i dont care why my system formed and you shouldnt care why my system formed (and also bc people were breaking their own dni by following me, an endo supporter). you are creating a hostile space and alienating parts of your community because you refuse to understand that others can have different life experiences

its also really exhuasting when im looking for posts about OSDDID and everything is either a coining post telling endos to fuck off or a post bitching about endogenic systems existing.

i am just so tired and angry about it. disordered endogenic systems exist. endogenic systems diagnosed with OSDDID exist.

plural computer girl

each headmate is a different program

by the way happy trans day of visibility to all the trans systems out there :)

whether you’re a trans headmate or your whole system collectively identifies as trans, we’re out here, we’re beautiful, and we make both the trans community and the plural community more vibrant just by existing in these spaces.

keep moving and shaking things up. keep reaching for your goals and accepting yourselves unconditionally. keep creating and trying new things. keep unabashedly being yourselves. keep your chin up when things get tough. keep shining!

we know it’s not always easy, but we see you, we care about you, and we are so very proud of you. also, we believe in you and know that there are great things in store for you.

trans lives are magic. trans joy is eternal. we hope you can take some time to revel in your own majesty today. we love you. 💙💗🤍💗💙

OSDD system when they start to open up:

Thinking about ???%/Shigeo as a character today and losing my mind. Like he's so funny to joke about but also he's SUCH an interesting character (especially from a plural angle, ESPECIALLY when you're a system yourself) and he makes me want to explode. Imagine forming to protect a little kid and deciding you love him so so much and you'll always be there for him, and you love his little brother, and you love his best friend, even though the world doesn't love you very much. But you take it anyway because you have those three and your little family so you're happy. And you have powers and they're a part of you and the other kid and it's fine until it very suddenly Isn't, and nobody's explaining why, just that you need to Stop Having Them. And the kid just decides, okay, I'm sorry, I'll be normal. And you get no explanation. You just have to be suppressed that little bit more. You form because he can't handle being suppressed yet he suppresses you. And then one day it all blows up and you make a mistake trying to protect your little brother and suddenly everyone hates you. Everyone thinks every little thing you've ever done is proof you're a monster and you always would've turned out like this, and you have no idea what they're talking about. You made a mistake trying to save your brother. But because you look scary and act different, even though you've always been there suddenly you existing is dangerous. Because you made a mistake, you are now Irredeemable.

That would fuck ANY kid up. But like, think about it. Shigeo had no one except Tsumobi and Mob and Mob's family. And suddenly he has no one. Mob represses him so deeply. He makes one mistake and suddenly he's not allowed to talk to anyone, suddenly he's completely alone and isolated. He has to share a brain with someone who despises him. He has the trauma of the accident AND the trauma of suddenly losing everyone he loves on top of it. He literally had no one for years. No wonder he's so fucking cynical. All of the shit about "I don't trust anyone" in the manga? Yeah, of course he doesn't. The rug was pulled out from under him so fast. In his eyes everyone just hated him for no reason, because he existed, and everyone would hurt him for existing, so he could only trust himself. Yeah, no wonder he's so selfish, he has no one else there at ALL. It's just...holyyyy hell.

And the thing is if you actually look the little things point to him yearning for connection so desperately. He's still so aggressively protective of his family (even though he lost them a long time ago, they're Mob's now, they don't even know he's there. Don't get me started on that from a plural view. I won't shut up and will probably pour my heart out.), and just ...world domination arc. When he's so upset about losing his family. We know he doesn't trust Reigen. Yet he's running to Reigen for some sort of comfort because he's scared and doesn't want his family to die and wants someone to tell him everything's fine. And Reigen DOES and he believes him. He believes him and immediately passes out. The guy who doesn't trust anyone wants to be loved so so bad and wants to believe Reigen more than anything. He really clearly WANTS to be able to trust Reigen. But he can't. More on this later.

And also thinking about why the build up in confession arc broke him like that is just fucking sad, man. Everyone was telling them to change. Shigeo's been told to change and it meant "be normal". Mob isn't even the one who actually likes Tsumobi like that. Shigeo's being completely repressed and Mob wants to live without him completely. Everyone wants to live without him now that they've used his powers to get this nice perfect life (in his eyes, at least.) Everyone's just trying to forget he ever existed so they can be happy without him, when Shigeo never GOT to heal. He never got to move on. He never got to process any of the god awful shit that happened to him. Everyone's telling him, change. Be normal. Be normal so Tsumobi will like you. And Shigeo's so fucking stressed out of his mind because lying about who he is didn't even help Mob make friends, it didn't make him popular, it didn't make anyone like him, it just made them both miserable. He doesn't want to be stuck like this. Of course he's freaking out. We see in his encounter with the body improvement club that being told to go back to normal sets him off HARD. It's clearly a sensitive subject. "Normal" means "Don't exist" to Shigeo. Do you see why this fucked me up as a system yet. Oh my god.

And his breakdown is just...painfully understandable. Like, actually think about it for a second. Shigeo has never been shown forgiveness or compassion or any amount of understanding for his mistakes. He never was taught to mature or see any nuance. He fucked up, so he doesn't deserve any second chance. Nobody ever taught him compassion. He has such a completely black and white view of the world. If someone did something bad once, they are forever The Bad Thing. If someone was kind to him once, they are forever Good and Perfect. Teru was a threat once, so he is now Always A Threat. Reigen was a liar before so he is Always A Liar. Ritsu was sweet and kind as a kid so he is always His Innocent Little Brother. And Tsumobi accepted him as a kid, so now she's the only person who could ever possibly accept him. Teru sees Shigeo at his most terrifying, when he's actively hunting him down, and in the manga looks at him with fucking hearts in his eyes. Ritsu might not be all perfect, but he's trying so hard and understanding no, Shigeo isn't just a scary part of Mob. Shigeo isn't Evil. But because neither of their acceptance is perfect, and because they aren't from Tsumobi, he can't see it's even there. And also, another thing, his response to people acting outside of his perception of him is to get them away. It scares him. Teru isn't acting how he expected? Attack maim. Ritsu isn't afraid of him anymore? Teleport him away so he doesn't have to confront the change. Reigen acts different? Throw shit at him until he hates him.

It's just so...fuck man. Of course he's like that. He's immature and selfish because nobody taught him not to be. Nobody helped this kid when he needed it and this is the result. He thinks he's an irredeemable monster so he acts like one when he's told to just be himself. He doesn't see change as being realistic. He's been treated the same no matter what he does so he assumes this is how the world naturally is. He's just a bitter mentally ill kid who nobody gave any reason to believe that maybe the world is nice sometimes.

Another thing: I think he really really wants Reigen to care about him. Him going "I can't listen to him" is so intense with the context of the fact he immediately passes out to rest and let Mob take care of it once Reigen says his parents are safe. Reigen can convince him like nobody else can. He cares about him and wants to believe him and that's terrifying! He hates him and resents him and wants him to be proud of him and wants nothing to do with him and it's confusing and he just wants something that is (supposedly) guaranteed. He wants Reigen to care so badly and it feels impossible. Why would he ever care? He just wants to use him. The only way to bring Shigeo back from his breakdown was to show him that people can be kind without wanting something back in return. Reigen saying "you don't need me anymore" was the only real way to help him, to show him that he's not doing this for himself, but because he cares about his student(s). Because he cares about BOTH of them. He cares about every version he's seen and interacted with, not because of his powers but because they were them. He had to let go of them to truly help them here, so Shigeo wouldn't have any lingering fear. What helps Shigeo is the display of kindness with nothing to be gained and Mob finally realizing that Shigeo's just...flawed. They both realize that sometimes people are just flawed and fucked up and make bad decisions and just straight up hurt people. And they'll still love you. They'll still be worth saving. But you can't deny their flaws, for Mob, and you don't need to seek the perfect relationship to have someone there, for Shigeo. It just. Agh! God! I am always losing my mind over this story. Fuck. This SHOW .

I can be normal about Moon Knight (Pauses the episode every 3-5 minutes to write a paragraph about Steven/Marc talking to each other, not even doing anything significant, I just like that alters are on screen being affectionate & silly) (Paces the room while urgently googling comic panels where Marc/Steven/Jake are chatting/collaborating/practicing teamwork) (god forbid I get my hands on a picture of them proudly acknowledging their DID)

also i have a joke in cccr where they’re not understanding how alpha and epsilon are different and doc chimes in to help explain plurality and reminds them all of the pamphlet he made for them and someone (grif) is like oh god do we actually have to learn this shit now and doc is like. well. you could have learned it. for me 🥺

Margulis "waking up" in the Lotus's headspace must've been the most Batshit Bewildering Thing ever

You're not only alive again, but you're now sharing a body (a Sentient body) with 2 other people (who are both Sentients), one of whom just utterly loathes you (why are you in a Sentient body) and views you as a Human parasite who doesn't belong here and never should have been here, and the other who is apparently mimicking your appearance and is strangely devoted to you and knows so impossibly much about you that you think it's hurting her

And with the sight that your Sentient headmates can lend you, you finally see what present reality is and see what your now dead ex did to the entire system and you see the Tenno you died to protect and see that they have indeed become the child soldiers you didn't want them to be

And you're just like

me: avoiding mirrors because that doesn't look like me

also me: pffffft... I'm trans. It's the dysphoria, not like everything is wrong. Not at all a DID thing. Definitely not. ಠ_ಠ

🗡️ The more I think about Vaggie unpacking her religious trauma the more I fucking need it.

Give me Vaggie dealing with the fact that everything she was taught to believe was a lie

Give me Vaggie getting called out for being puritanical and listening, leading to her starting to have a more open mindset

Give me Vaggie realizing that outside of Charlie, she doesn't know who she is anymore without heaven and the exorcists

Give me Vaggie realizing how much she misses her old family and world despite how toxic it was and feeling confused and out of place in this world despite getting away from her abusers

Give me Vaggie taking baby steps to figure out just who the hell she is now that no one is there to tell her who she has to be

Give me Vaggie talking to someone, anyone, maybe Carmilla, about just how deep it cut to be mutilated and left for dead by her sister, by someone she loved and trusted and looked up to, for hesitating to kill a child

Give me Vaggie showing that she's had to learn that heaven's black and white morality is wrong the hard way

Give me Vaggie being overwhelmed by how messy and grey all these conflicts are, how messy and grey humanity actually is

Give me Vaggie getting close to more sinners and realizing that nothing can really be judged by good vs bad because it is ALWAYS more complicated than that

Give me Vaggie dealing with the pain of being part of a system that caused so much harm, of directly causing so much harm herself to people who didn't deserve it

Give me Vaggie going back to the BDSM club after doing some of the work and actually having an open mind about it instead of automatically viewing it as repugnant

Nonhumans are here, even if you do not see us. We always will be. We are often hard to spot, but can be found doing all the things a human might.

A cat went to work at an event stall for a mental health service.

A massive sea serpent wanted to go to science class because it enjoyed it more than the rest of those living in its shared form.

The void sat down, huddled up in a blanket, to watch a tv show with its partners. It had to stop watching after a bit, but enjoyed spending time with those close to it anyway.

A wolf went to a psychologist appointment and gratefully drank the hot chocolate they were offered in the waiting room.

A shapeshifting being of pure darkness spoke publicly about trans rights in front of politicians and then went to the pride festival he helped fight to keep alive.

A dragon went to school so the others sharing his human body could have a break.

A manifestation of the fear of madness itself sat in the food court at the mall eating mochi and drinking tea while waiting for its friends to get back from shopping.

A witch drew a picture of his cardinal bird and shared the work he was so proud of with his friends.

A cockatoo borrowed the next book in his favourite series from the school library and almost couldn't wait the whole day to go home and read it.

An alien went camping and watched the birds outside and the way the wind made waves and patterns on the water.

A fallen angel went shopping for sunglasses to shield his eyes from how bright the sun was.

A harpy went shopping for new plants to look after. He named a few because he loved them so much, and sent pictures to all of his friends.

An anthropomorphic hedgehog traded Pokemon cards with his peers at school. He was happy with his collection.

You may not see us, and you may feel alone, but you are not. We are just hidden. We are in more places than you'd think, and in the places you'd least expect. We are complex, we are valued, and we are here.

We as a system should be restrained from consuming new media.

being a system can be really fucking hard and it comes with a lot of challenges and struggles but man?? I fucking love my headmates. I don't know what I'd do without them and my life is better because they are in it.

Psst. Hey.

Stop expecting yourself to remember stuff.

Just. Just write it down. No you will not remember, certainly not in 6 months time. Just. Write the thing down. Future you will appreciate it.

PRESENTING, "EVE'S WILD RIDE", A NEW SINGLE BY ODIO-HIME FT. THE POPPET SISTERS (@poppetsisters), a melding of audio and visual not unlike other things you've seen and heard before, but perhaps just a bit more fun and interesting...

"officially" releases January 14th (happy b-day), but you can check it out early on my website and my Bandcamp!

Pre-save on Spotify HERE

so a couple years back, Poppet & i became acquainted, and at some point they commissioned me to compose a theme song for headmate Everything Poppet (Eve for short). i happily obliged and (after some time thinking too hard about it and then having a sudden burst of inspiration when i tried to stop thinking entirely in a psychedelic delirium) this is what i came up with.

dig those crazy vocal samples from a documentary by Poppet! also, of course, the lovely album artwork is by them as well, fantastic & beautiful work as always.

and please enjoy yourself and have a safe, wonderful evening.

all proceeds go directly to me and to Poppet, thank you very much for your dough.