i think something we should talk about more is how OCD can sort of traumatize yourself? like my religious trauma is from my religious OCD, no doubt. no one was telling me demons were following me, watching me sleep, in the shower, chasing me or waiting behind closed doors, my OCD did, but that was traumatizing. i mean i couldn’t even say demon for years because i was convinced it would summon one, i couldn’t even think it. to be constantly on edge for years because of demons was traumatic for me, but that was no one’s fault but my own in a way.

i don’t know of this is even a thing? has anyone else experienced this?

You don’t get it, this pain never goes away

@suncaptor birthday event sam & tauma // sam & ocd I would always be like this, always have this within me. There was no beating it. I would never slay the dragon, because the dragon was also me. My self and the disease were knotted together for life. — john green, 'turtles all the way down'

Please, for the love of gods, allow yourself to consume content/media uncritically

You can be aware of issues a show/game/movie/etc has but you don't need to be aware of it *all* the time, you shouldn't have to justify yourself liking it every time you go to talk about it.

You shouldn't have to feel like you're the worst person in the world just because you like something that happens to have problematic stuff in it.

And you're setting yourself up for failure if you go into something immediately looking for all of the bad in it, you're setting yourself up to be unable to enjoy it! And if you do manage to enjoy it it'll likely just feel wrong because of that!

I'm begging y'all not to consume *everything* critically and to sometimes enjoy things uncritically.

Hm. Been seeing posts saying that ocd has become normalized/accepted in most of society at least at the same level as anxiety and depression (which are. Not exactly normalized in the first place but that’s a different discussion) and bitch??? As someone with ocd. Where. Where is it acceptable anywhere. Where are people treating ocd like it’s normal. Where is this secret perfect world.

I do think how Sam is neurodivergent is the most central piece of how he gets treated by his family & the narrative though.

hot girls have ocd and are literally insane

me: yeagh i really only had one ocd ritual growing up it was mostly just The Thought Spirals

me thinking about my child-to-teenhood "superstitions" that impacted my daily behavior and mood and that no one taught me but that I staunchly believed in secret: hey wait a second actually.

House Husband Haganezuka

I imagine he just continues to be a smith after the events of Demon Slayer, but this was fun to think about.

And House Husband Haganezuka has a very nice ring to it ☺️

(That's not one of the knives he made, he's still too scared to use those for cooking. Ume bought a set and he's not allowed to sharpen them.)

Included, the main sketch (plus reference) that I probably won't finish because I'm not really liking how it looks so far, and I'm ready to move on to something else. But still, figured I'd post it.

(Edit: when I originally made this post I completely forgot that he's the home ec teacher in kimetsu gakuen bc I have the brain capacity of a goldfish)

Last night my feed was randomly flooded with endless pictures of raccoons from various blogs I don’t follow.

I used to be seriously scared of raccoons, lol. I had to work through the fear, and now I can look at them without being afraid, and I can acknowledge that they’re cute, so fuck off ocd!

Raccoons are cute.

Even if they have creepy ass little hands that used to scrape on the walls, and the sliding glass door while they watched me sleep. Even when I woke up at 3am to those creepy claws scratching the glass, and they didn't run away even when I got big and banged on the door. Even when we had to walk down the mountain roads to go to school because they'd broken into my mom's van, and hissed at us when we opened the door.

They're cute, even if they are lil demons that fear nothing.

I'm totally not scared anymore! Thank you tumblr for the reminder 😅

I saw that one post you had about religious OCD and I have never felt so seen in my life. Mine revolved around the thought that if i didn't do something right that I sold my soul to satan and that demons were on me trying to rip into my chest and take my soul away. I had to inhale extremely hard everytime to feel like I got my soul back. I just wanted to say thank you for that post and I hope you managed to get better from the suffering you've experienced. It sucks that no one in church ever talks about it because if someone even mentioned something similar to this I could have felt less alone. You have my support homie.

im so so glad that you resonated with what i wrote! there are so many people out there who have had similar things happen and dont know why the thought of demons (or other things) effected them SO much. it took me years to realize that it was my own disorder that made me feel that way/hurt me in that way. there are also many people out there who dont know how to talk about this because of stigma.

i was at a loss for words when i received this, this page is mainly for venting, but knowing that im 1. not alone in this and 2. helping others feel less alone is astounding. thank you so much for reaching out, i cant put my appreciation into words. i can say that i have gotten better, sometimes i still get scared and ive lost many things in the process of recovery (including my faith and closeness with my family) but i am better. you have my support and love anon. things will be easier one day, i promise :)

Just had a horrible thought...

The thing about OCD is that it's Intrusive Thoughts Pull Up A Chair And Refuse to Leave Disorder. It's checking that your homework's done even though you already checked 5 times, because "intrusive thought of what if I fail this class and fail school and my life is ruined forever and everyone thinks I'm stupid." It's touching telephone poles in the exact place, order, and tempo necessary to a made-up ritual because "intrusive thought of if you don't do this your partner will die in a car crash and it will be your fault." It's stopping your car every 20 feet because "intrusive thought of what if I just ran over a baby" even though it wasn't a baby all the other times you stopped your car, it's never been a baby, there's no reason for it to be a baby.

The thing about The Giggle is that it makes you think you are 100% factually correct at all times in all your thoughts and judgments.

Petronella Osgood is having a very bad day.

the amount of mental illness i have that i project onto rhys specifically is criminal. you are NOT going to be mentally stable on my watch

choose-your-own-adventure post where i say “the neurodivergence won today” and you get to decide if i mean i’ve made an unwise hyperfixation-related decision, or if the morality obsession took over and i mentally spiraled for three hours straight

Don’t wanna try anymore, I’m just so tired of trying

my ocd brain, upon hearing the lyric ‘you don’t have to believe every single though that runs through your head just ’cause it sounds like you talking’