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nanawritesit · 1 year

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Class 1A as Baristas at a Coffee Shop

TW: this is aged up bc there’s references to alcohol and 🍃, so if you’re a child of god then read no further 💀 also mineta isn’t included because i hate him, and you should too 😊

A/N: i’m a barista so i’m qualified to make these claims. also i know i haven’t written any of my actual requests. i’m depressed and my life is chaotic. besides this is just for fun and didn’t really take much effort so leave me alone 😤

midoriya:

literally the best barista boy on the planet

his customer service skills are GOD-TIER

even when a customer is being rude to him, he’s just such a lil cinnamon roll back to them and kills them with his kindness

has amazing relationships with all the regulars, completely memorizes all their names and orders

legit has full conversations with them

“hey carl, how’s the wife doin’?”

“welcome back emily, did you get into that university you told me about?”

“good afternoon joyce, how’d your husband’s gallbladder surgery go?”

comes up with really creative drinks to use for the monthly specials

is secretly all of the managers favorites because he just works so hard (even bakugou’s)

whips through all the cleaning so fast at the end of the day

todoroki: “okay so we need to wash the utensils, mop the floors, and clean the espresso machine…”

midoriya: “oh, i already did all that todoroki!” 😊

loves coffee but is very sensitive to the caffeine so the managers have to make sure he doesn’t have more than two shots a day 💀

bakugou:

one of the managers

honestly the least likely person you’d expect to be a barista

can only work morning shift bc he goes to sleep at 8:30 (nerd)

his customer service SUCKS but he’s literally so good at his job they can’t really fire him

he just hardly ever runs the cash register and assigns it to one of the more sunshine-y baristas (usually deku or uraraka)

not usually trusted with training new recruits bc he’s such a bully

if a customer is being rude to one of the baristas he won’t hesitate to clap back, because HE’S the only one allowed to bully his employees 😤

uraraka will just step away from the cash register and go “bakugou i need your help with something” and he whips around with the most deadly grimace

bakugou: “is there a problem, sir?”

customer: “n-no problem here, the coffee tastes great” 😄

god forbid one of them gets snappy on one of the rare occasions he works the register

customer: “i demand to see your manager!”

bakugou: “you’re lookin’ at him, dumbass”

damn near explodes when some white girl comes through wanting a mocha caramel latte-cino made with skim milk and no whipped cream in a medium cup with the same amount of coffee as a small so she can stir in her own nutmeg

doesn’t give a single fuck about regulations if he thinks they’re unnecessary

iida: “bakugou, the health department says these bagels have to be thrown away after six days!”

locks the doors ten minutes before closing time and won’t let anyone else in

bakugou: “i don’t give a damn what the health department says, i’m not throwing away six perfectly good bagels!”

punched the espresso machine one time when it wasn’t working and it fucking exploded 💀

iida made him walk across town to buy a new one

todoroki:

another one of the managers

is tasked with training the majority of the new recruits since bakugou cant

the most level-headed chill person to have around during a rush, he never loses his head

can instantly correct someone’s order if they mistakenly got a hot or iced coffee

customer: “excuse me, i ordered this coffee iced.”

todoroki: “oh i’m so sorry, lemme just-“ *touches the cup with his right hand and it fills with ice* “there ya go”

customer: “i don’t mean to be a bother, but i wanted a hot coffee and this is iced.”

todoroki: “yeah gimmie a sec-“ *heats up the cup with his left hand and melts the ice* “should be good now”

likes macchiatos because the separated milk and coffee reminds him of his hair 🥺

pisses off the rude customers with his indifference

customer: “i’ll just take my business elsewhere!”

todoroki: “okay well, it’s your money so you can do what you want with it”

gets flirted with all the time but is too oblivious to notice

kaminari: “dude that girl TOTALLY just gave you her number”

todoroki: “nah she probably just wrote it down in case we needed a survey” *throws it away*

kaminari wants to go off on him but he racks in a lot of money in tips for all of them to split so he keeps quiet

iida:

general manager from hell

runs the shop like it’s the fucking army

really nice if you follow all the regulations tho 😀

he’s the best person to have around during a rush because he just kicks his engines into maximum overdrive and speeds through all the orders

also does deliveries on the side because he’s a fast boi

tried to implement a demerit system, but bakugou took one look at the poster and tore it off the wall 💀

everyone prays to god that they get scheduled with momo instead of him

constantly taps the other workers on the shoulder to hand them a wash cloth and a spray bottle and goes “if you’ve got time to lean, you’ve got time to clean”

everyone acts like they hate him, but when he gave a really touching speech at the christmas party everyone started crying

also organized the secret santa

ends up apologizing to customers for bakugou’s terrible customer service and hands them like a thousand coupons

uraraka:

customer service skills only come second to midoriya’s

she’s a DELIGHT to talk to

even at 7 am when you’re sleep deprived and caffeine deficient, the sight of her smiling face behind the counter will cheer you up :)

during a rush she forgets not to grab the receipts with all five fingers, so they’ll just start floating everywhere

bakugou: “hey round face, all my orders are on the ceiling!”

uraraka: “oh shoot, sorry!” *puts hands together* “release!”

draws cute little pictures on all the chalkboards 🥰

somehow knows exactly what a customer would like when they ask her to recommended something? people start wondering if that’s her real superpower

ironically doesn’t like the taste of coffee… her favorite drink is a hot chocolate with whipped cream and rainbow sprinkles

tsuyu:

only got the job to be closer to her best friend uraraka but ends up really enjoying it

gets nervous talking to customers so she mostly just sticks to making the drinks

has to be reminded not to grab things with her tongue because it’s against the health code 💀

when a customer is rude to her the ENTIRE team gets pissed at them, because she’s an angel and must be protected 😤

hates when people watch her make their drinks (she gets anxious 🥺)

pretty much the baby of the shop, whenever she accidentally burns herself steaming milk everyone rushes over like “OH MY GOD TSU ARE YOU OKAY?!?!”

kirishima:

one of the only two baristas trained by bakugou, so he ends up being really good at making coffee

is able to memorize large orders really quickly

“alright i’ve got a skinny macchiato no whip, iced dirty chai with oat milk and an added shot, two americanos extra hot, and a vanilla frappe?”

is the designated carrier of the cold brew kegs

AND the delivery boxes

AND the milk jugs

pretty much anything that’s heavy, he happily carries it

eventually becomes a team trainer, which suits him perfectly because he’s always boosting the team’s morale

bakugou giving the morning debrief: “alright guys, today’s gonna be super busy, and it’s gonna suck.”

kirishima: “SO LETS GET OUT THERE AND DO OUR BEST! I KNOW WE CAN DO IT!” 😆

kaminari:

the OTHER only employee that was trained by bakugou

tries so hard to flirt with customers but fails miserably

is really good at making coffee but he makes a decent amount of mistakes, like using the wrong milk or making drinks hot instead of iced (good thing we have todoroki!)

also wanted to become a team trainer but couldn’t pass the servsafe exam 😀

hooked himself up the espresso machine after bakugou broke it so they could use it until he came back with a new one 💀

does stupid shit with kirishima whenever the shop is dead

bakugou walked in on them making a castle out of cups and knocked it over, then screamed at them to get back to work

conveniently goes to the bathroom every time a huge group of people walks in

sneaks his phone in the bathroom with him

is also a chronic stoner and can’t get through a shift without hitting his pen

he accidentally left it in his apron one night and the next day iida gave everyone a talk about paraphernalia in the workplace

and everyone just had to act like they didn’t know it was kaminari’s 🤡

sero:

only has this job to pay for weed

is basically a glorified janitor because he’s not good at making coffee at ALL

he tries tho 😗

has the worst memory ever

customer: “can i get a small hot vanilla cappuccino?”

sero: “yeah so a large iced mocha frappe?”

customer: “no… a small hot vanilla cappuccino…”

sero: “yeah, that’s totally what i said.” 😀

also can’t remember how to make drinks to save his life

sero: “i’m sorry but what the hell is the difference between an iced coffee and an iced latte?”

bakugou: “OH MY GOD IVE TOLD YOU LIKE A HUNDRED TIMES”

goes to take out the trash with kaminari and they don’t come back for like twenty minutes

and when they do they’re coughing up a storm and reeking of weed 💀 like they don’t even try to hide it

would have gotten fired months ago if they weren’t so short staffed

mina:

is also a team trainer because she’s good with people

tries to get everyone to hang out outside of work, and she usually succeeds

made everyone go to karaoke and get drunk together

iida was QUITE the life of the party after a few drinks, and she evilly videotaped it all

makes memes about the managers and sends them to the barista group chat

spontaneously starts dancing while working, even when there’s customers

drinks like eight shots of espresso a day

is also the shop’s social media manager

constantly takes pictures of everyone and posts them on the shop’s instagram

jirou:

manages the shop playlist

kaminari tried to get her to put a bunch of inappropriate rap songs on it but she didn’t want iida to get mad

sings to herself throughout the entire shift, everyone thinks it’s really cute

except bakugou, he isn’t afraid to tell her to shut up

only drinks black coffee, she doesn’t like milk or sugar

always spices up her uniform with cool accessories and jewelry

she’s not going to sacrifice her individuality for a corporate position 😌 (even if iida constantly lectures her… momo didn’t want to hear it anymore so she started scheduling jirou with her)

momo:

assistant general manager

everyone loves her, she’s an amazing boss

always releases the schedule two weeks ahead of time

is everyone’s barista crush

literally, a new man asks her out every day

is in charge of keeping inventory and ordering ingredients, she’s good at math so everything is always well stocked

is super nice to all the new employees she trains

is a tea enthusiast

sources a bunch of fancy tea and recommends it to the customers

she’s actually garnered a few coffee converts, no one is really able to say no to her pretty face 🥰

never gets made at anyone for requesting time off, in fact she’ll excitedly ask them ab their plans

also never guilts anyone for being sick and not coming into work

pretty much everyone’s mom, if anyone comes in looking upset she’s immediately like “okay what’s wrong, tell me right now”

hagakure:

sneaks up on people all the time

like someone will go up the counter to get their coffee and just see a floating apron

customer: “um, i ordered a latte and-“

hagakure: “yeah, it’s right here!” 😄

customer: “OH MY GOD-“

LOVES to gossip with mina

always has way too much energy early in the morning

*todoroki barely being able to keep his eyes open as he unlocks the door*

hagakure: “AYO SHOTO ARE YOU READY TO OPEN THIS COFFEE SHOP?!?!”

aoyama:

refuses to wear a hair net

DEVOURS croissants

wants to put cheese on the menu, and doesn’t care at all that it’s a coffee shop

buys fresh flowers to put on all the tables 🥰

one day the open sign burnt out so bakugou made him shine his navel laser though it 💀

goes on his phone during his shift ALL the time, and never listens to iida when he yells at him to put it away

tokoyami:

everyone likes being scheduled with him because he’s basically two baristas

“hey dark shadow, can you make this order for me while i stock the bakery case?”

wants to be emo like jirou and only drink black coffee, but can’t stand the taste

“yeah jirou, we’re the only strong ones in the shop!” *dumps three creams and five sugars in his coffee when no one’s looking*

made everyone wear costumes for halloween and handed out candy to customers

purposefully messes up rude customers’ orders 💀

like if they ask for almond milk he’ll put in whole milk so they shit themselves

or if they want it skinny he’ll use the regular syrups so they get sugar overload

doesn’t know how to answer the phone

customer: “is this my hero coffee academia?”

tokoyami: “no, this is fumikage.” *hangs up*

almost has a meltdown everytime he spills something, has to lock himself in the freezer to calm down before walking back out like nothing happened

only works night shift for obvious reasons

shouji:

multitasking king

all his arms allow him to do different things at once

him and iida are the speed demons of the shop, so when the two of them work together everything gets done in like two seconds

iida will be running around making all the orders while shouji is cleaning everything all at once

is pretty much everyone’s therapist, he’s just so easy to vent to

gives the best advice

is so huge and intimidating that there’s hardly ever any rude customers during his shift

koda:

gets so upset every time a bug is killed in the kitchen

koda: “NO PLEASE HE HAS A FAMILY”

momo: “koda i understand this is hard for you, but we cannot have a spider roaming freely around the food”

squeals whenever a customer leaves their dog outside

he’ll be standing at the window with his hands pressed up against the glass and tears in his eyes

todoroki: *sigh* “you can go pet the dog if you want-“

koda: “THANK YOU” *sprints out the door*

starts buying dog treats to give to the owners, he even offers to put them in a little cup of whipped cream 🥺

gets sato to make some vegan baked goods :)

ojiro:

cant spell customers’ names right to save his life

ojiro: “alright, can i get a name for this?”

customer: “yeah, it’s brian with a y!”

ojiro: “got it!” *writes yrian*

or he just writes the wrong name altogether

sharon is now shannnon

tyler is now tyson

jack is now jake

let’s kaminari fluff his tail when he gets overstimulated during a rush 🥺

is constantly apologizing to everyone for accidentally bumping into them with it

sato:

the faithful head baker

comes in at 4 am everyday to prep the baked goods

always asks everyone if they have any special requests <3

customers are constantly complimenting the stuff he makes and asking who made them

the baristas just smile and they’ll them that their baker sato made them, and if he’s still there, they’ll drag him out to accept the compliments 🥰

isn’t very good at asking for help, but hagakure and aoyama are always around to frost donuts or decorate cupcakes when he’s running behind :)

(BONUS) aizawa:

the area coach that stops by every so often to make sure everything is running up to standard

everyone is really scared of him but he honestly doesn’t give a single fuck so long as they’re not serving trash

only comes by during the night shift because he refuses to wake up early

and of course that’s when they least expect him

iida and momo are just nervously leading him around the shop while kirishima and kaminari are sprinting to the kitchen to throw away all the expired food 💀

tells them they’ll get shut down if they don’t get enough customer surveys, which makes everyone panic and hand them out with every order

they still didn’t have enough so sero and mina were in the back filling them out the day they were due 🤡

turns out they were never going to get shut down, he just lied to them so they’d push surveys 🙃

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artdecosupernova-writing · 3 months

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OC Kiss Week Day 1: Almost

WIP: Partners Pairing: Ben x Reagan Timeline: non-canon, but 1969 (the time of the majority of PIII) CW: none Rating: T Words: 1,776 (🤙🏽)

***

"Alright, Reagan, let's try it once more from the top of the scene..."

Ben watched Reagan push himself off of the couch in the rehearsal room, pressing his thumbs into his eyebrows with a weary sigh. His scene partner, however—gorgeous Hollywood "It girl" and rising star Favra Violetta—glided off the couch to eagerly await him on the blocking tape beside the false door standing in for the real, eventual movie set.

As he crossed to her, Reagan threw a glance at his director to verify if that's what he meant by "from the top" before swiping his palms together. "You don't think I've got this acting thing figured out by now, Jimothy?"

"Shut up," grumbled Academy Award-winning director James Fernando as he took exactly two long steps to position himself at a prime angle to best view the scene. "Okay, you're back in the house, you're casting aside the horrible day, you're in your coat and soaking wet from the rain." James gestured to Favra. "Your beautiful wife has music on, and you smell dinner in the kitchen, and the only thing you can think to do despite all the bleakness and the misery is dance with this amazing woman. It's not difficult."

Ben crossed his arms in the spot where James once stood, an unregistered smirk on his face at the promise of watching Reagan have to dance again. "I'm so sorry this is the direction your career decided to take you."

Reagan shot him a third of a glare that melted into a boyish grin the moment his fingers wrapped around the doorknob.

"Right," James said, clapping his hands. "Action!"

A record started from the other side of the room, a kicky tune that likely would be replaced for filming. Reagan shut the door behind him, his shoulders heavy, eyes cast to the floor, and in the way he carried himself, he looked soaked to the bone from a nonexistent downpour. He stepped forward but stopped, recognizing the music, and his vacant gaze fell on Favra's Sadie bustling about the simulated living room.

She turned and smiled at him, smoothing down the waistband of her trousers. "Hey there, Mitchie."

What Reagan was supposed to do, here, was wait a beat, and then sweep Favra into a mid-tempo dance that carried them joyfully around the living room. Instead, he frowned and bit his lip.

James looked at Ben over his shoulder with a huff of desperation.

Ben shrugged. "He's got the yips."

"And how in the hell do I fix that?"

Ben swiped a thumb across his nose, taking in Favra's olive skin and endless brown eyes. He shook his head. "He lacks chemistry with Favra. It's kinda weird for him not to click instantly with...well, anyone, and it's probably nothing against you, Favra...but until he's able to find that spark there, I don't really see this working out the way you want it to."

"Yeah," James sighed. "Wonderful."

Favra dropped character and pulled her dark hair over one shoulder, motioning toward Ben. "Why doesn't he try the scene with Mr. Murray? Maybe going through the motions with someone he's comfortable with will help loosen him up?"

"I'm also standing right here in case one or all of you decide to consult me on the matter," Reagan said.

James nodded and waved impatiently. "Sure, sure, if Reagan's good with it, we'll do it that way. I would like to be confident in this scene sometime before I fall down dead of old age." He punctuated his sentence with a dramatic flop of the hand and a raspberry sound effect.

Favra graciously allowed Ben to take her place, and he did, with much apprehension. He'd been on the big screen a few times—once in a major way with Reagan—but he'd still never gotten used to the practice and found himself a bit nervous even though it was only rehearsal.

Since he was a temporary substitute, he went the comedic route with his miming, pretending to use a vacuum that started to suck up the toe of one of his socks as Reagan's Mitchie walked into the house.

"Good, good!" James said. "Music cue's late, but roll with it!"

Ben glanced up as the music hastily kicked on, and he smiled at Reagan much like he'd watched Favra do several times leading up to this. "Hey there, Mitchie."

Reagan stood where Ben imagined there'd be a step leading down into a sunken living room. He didn't know how long had passed since Reagan shut the door, but it was long enough to affect a wistful, bittersweet stare right into Ben's face.

He dragged himself, "wet" and "tired," into the living room and started to bounce a bit to the beat of the music. He acted out setting the vacuum cleaner aside and took Ben's hands.

"What're you doin'?" Ben asked, still on script and pulling his smile as far as it could go. He stopped needing to try when Reagan began to guide him in earnest, swinging his hips into a gradually more enthusiastic partnered Watusi.

Ben met him with every move, spinning with him, letting the music and the laughter sweep him into another mindset entirely. He remembered almost too late that the script then called for Sadie to break away and for Mitchie to chase her around the living room until he caught up to her by the couch and they shared a passionate kiss.

He would've brought the rehearsal to an end had he not clocked the mischievous sparkle in Reagan's eye as they danced fairly close to one another.

"Sadie, go!" James barked cheerfully.

Without another thought, Ben took off, a strange giggle bubbling out of him, fueled in part by adrenaline and mostly by the years that sloughed off of him just by being silly with Reagan. It brought him back to their school dances, their respective weddings, the time on the secluded beach before Reagan moved back to Ireland...

Ben screeched to a sudden halt in front of the couch and whipped around to Reagan, his heart slamming into his chest and a bolt of thrilled fear shooting through every extremity of his body as Reagan bore down on him like a beast of prey.

Like a movie reel flashing before his eyes, he recalled Reagan's twenty-first birthday, their rough and wasted first kiss against the brick wall in the alleyway he still wasn't sure some twenty-seven years later that he didn't yearn to remember in full...the drunken, highly charged striptease Reagan gave as a parting gift when they went to the beach alone...every time they'd give each other a quick kiss because they just loved one another that much and didn't care who knew it—

Reagan grabbed Ben around the waist, fervently cupped his face, and kissed him.

Ben did not expect that.

For comedic purposes? Sure. But to put his heart into it, his soul into it, to pull Ben closer and dig his fingers into his hair, to zap his knees of strength, to splay his other hand against the small of Ben's back? To take a man in his forties still recovering from a mental breakdown nearly a decade ago, a man who still couldn't fully admit to himself that his mind made up the rest of what happened on that beach, and whittle him down to a trembling mess sinking into his arms as the kiss became more and more meaningful?

When Reagan pulled away, Ben didn't even notice at first. Ben pried his eyes open and he was slammed with Reagan's beauty, his incredible smile, his blown pupils, and the sneaky dart of his tongue across his own bottom lip.

Why was Ben not able to do this all the time? Why was he wherever he was right now, whatever they were doing, whatever was going on, and not enjoying this every minute of every day? Why was he so pressured, so stupid, so restrained, so sad, why wasn't he running away to live with Reagan in blissful devotion and adoration for the rest of their lives...?

...Faye.

"Son of a fuckin' dumbass," he breathed sharply, swiping the back of his hand over his mouth.

"Right, excellent!" James clapped once again, laughing boisterously and scaring the daylights out of Ben. "That's great! Favra, whenever you're ready, dear. We'll run through it one more time to make sure we're in a good place."

Ben's eyes had gone wide as soon as his wife's name entered his mind. He swallowed slowly, making the mistake of dropping his face toward the ground. Reagan hadn't let go of him yet, and Ben felt an almost imperceptible squeeze around his midsection, an apology, a clutch of barely concealed terror. Reagan pressed his lips to the side of Ben's head, and then it was over.

Favra smiled at Ben as the actors reset the scene. Ben finally looked back to Reagan, spotting the regret veiling his face prior to getting into character again.

Standing to the side to watch the scene again, Ben could see the added frustration, the added fire in Reagan's performance that had definitely not been there mere moments ago. Reagan chased Favra around the couch, caught up with her, pulled her into a kiss that made Ben's lungs feel as if they were being squeezed.

Ben's forehead creased. James called it a night on that day's rehearsals.

Reagan drove Ben home from the studio in silence. Sometimes, most of the time, their silences meant nothing. They could endure an entire car ride without a word and be quite comfortable. But this time was different, and it made Ben's entire head hot. Even the crisp air exposed to them via the Capri convertible did not help.

Halfway to Ben's house, Reagan switched on the radio. Serendipity or a happy coincidence, he'd tuned into the last seconds of one of their songs from their Gilmore and Murray days.

Ben carefully looked over to Reagan, who broke into a warm smile and caught his eye while maintaining focus on the road.

"'Sendin' me into a tailspin...'" Reagan sang along, his voice soft and pillowy against the chaos of the L.A. streets. "'No matter what kinda mood I'm in...'"

"Forgetting everything I know,'" Ben joined in, "'I'd wanna see you again before I go...'"

Reagan led them into the crescendo, "'But I'm not goin' yet, I'd be a fool to put down a losin' bet...'"

Ben threw his arms up into the air. "'So we're on! Our! Way!'"

Reagan laid down some jazzy vocal runs behind Ben's sustained final note, and things went almost back to normal...

#ockiss24 #Partners #PIII #I promise the books aren't all in Ben's POV lol #also I'm a little high so I'm not really in a place to do last-minute edits whoops

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unovan-gardener · 2 months

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//heyy I hate to ask this bc it's probably annoying/inconvenient but my brain does this dumb thing where it's like, "you can't interact with that person, you're months out of date with their lore" which is stupid but brains suck sometimes

//so. I hate asking this cause it's probably time consuming but. Could I maybe have a summary (doesn't need to be detailed!!) of unovanra (& possibly joltik guy, since you guys are very connected characters I think) lore? Specifically after minkst went to jail

//I know this would probably take for ever, so if you just give me arc tags or a link to posts with major events that's totally fine too! I don't mind reading through stuff at all and I like your writing! But if I didn't have a starting point / label of "here's what's important" I'd try to Read Everything and get burned out

//Thank you! Sorry! Your characters are cool! AAAAA

//okay!!!

i will do my best!!! it will be under the cut for length!! HEED TAGS SERIOUSLY THIS IS SUPER LONG. ITS FROM LATE NOVEMBER TO NOW. ITS SO LONG. PLEASE.

NOV 24-29: okay so! after Minsk got arrested, CD stayed with their dad for a while, since their dad found out how their face got burned and he did a skin grafting surgery on their wound. CD is scared of catmons after this. While CD is in surgery and recovering, their dad (Atley Deo) takes over the account briefly (his tag is #pater plantarum). He is the head of Deo horticulture, a plant based business. Auzi owes Atley a blood debt. Atley asks about service mon and everyone and their mother suggests a smeargle. It is revealed that CD's mother and Atleys wife died in childbirth. Joltiks boyfriend breaks up with them while CD is out. When they come back they are very woozy.

NOV 30-DEC 1: CD decides to adopt an eevee egg from @/allthatglitterzz, and they receive a smeargle service mon to monitor their heart "arrythmia" , lovingly named Stencil. nobody thinks its an actual arrythmia and also people are even more theorizing that he is a plant. Speaking of that arrythmia, CD has a heart attack while home alone, and Stencil calls Joltik instead of their dad to come help. Their heart had stopped entirely, but a zap from Tik sets it back going again. Joltik calls CD's dad, and then leaves before Atley comes home.

DEC 2-DEC 6 : The eevee egg hatches! She is a beautiful baby girl and her name is Porridge, Pidge for short. CD is diagnosed with the TIsm for plant identification reasons /joke. CD and Joltik watch a lot of competition reality tv shows.

DEC 7-DEC 8: Nothing really important happens

DEC 9- DEC 15 : Joltik asks CD to catch them in a pokeball. CD keeps buying candles and they keep going missing, much to their annoyance. CD catches Joltik and it goes poorly, Joltik gets a bit messed up because of it. His candles continue to go missing, people begin to theorize about litwik. A new problem arises: a resident with a mightyena that is hopped up on X attack is roaming campus. DEC 16- : A candle appears on CD's windowsill, looking a lot like a litwick, although it has no flame. its merged into the windowsill and cannot be moved. It continues to amass more wax. CD names it Kerosene, after being hounded a bit by anons. DEC 17 -18 : Pidge briefly goes being, being found in Joltik's dorm. She knocks over a drawing filled with thunder stones and evolves into a Jolteon. Mightyena guy comes back, CD is on duty and patrols to chase him off. CD runs into him on patrol, and Pidge gets her ear torn off by the mightyena. CD goes offline, and Kerosene takes over the phone. It is implied that Kero evolved into a lanpent and consumes the mightyena to save CD. Kero uses a spirit box to communicate, saying that CD was at a pokecenter, and asking for help as she is lost. Joltik comes to find her. DEC 18 -23 Nothing overly important happens. CD accidentally helps Joltiks eevee Mint evolve into Umbreon.

DEC 23- 26: CD's dad finds out about the mightyena attack, and wants to assign CD a bodyguard which they think is stupid. their dad makes them stay home for a while. Tik comes to visit and watch shows while Atley is out. Atley comes back early, but isnt mad, just starts interrogating Tik a bit.

DEC 27-30 : Christmas present from dad!! It's a sprigatito named trowel!! Technically Juniper's first canon interaction with CD! @/sinnohstruggles

DEC 31: Lucretia Minsk escapes prison

JAN 1: the nuytsia project arc starts. should be tagged #the nuytsia project but is occasionally mispelled as #the nuystia project. Summary: joltik is infected by a parasite that makes them compulsed to protect and take care of CD, CD is revealed to be kept alive by a living plant inside them after being stillborn. Atley gains remote access of CD's phone for a brief takeover to try and explain why he did what he did. Atley then proceeds to let himself be taken to jail without struggle. CD is very very sad and distressed by the events of the arc. ARC OFFICIALLY ENDED JAN 8

JAN 9-12 : not a whole lot of importance here, cd gets sleepy and slow in the cold because plant. Juniper and CD start dating and they are cute lmao JAN 13-20 :CD's granparents get in contact, finally hearing that Atley is in jail. They attempt to get custody of CD, all of the pokemon, and all of Atley's assets. Atley did not get along well with his parents and a Lawyer will be in contact with CD, as they are being taken to court. CD quits their job as an RA and drops out of college due to stress from the oncoming court case. They begin lashing out a bit, because of the stress. CD has an argument with Juniper where Juniper attempts to help them but CD feels like they are being treated like a child. They throw the phone at the wall in frustration and Kero takes over the account. During the court case, CD has a heart attack due to the stress, and their grandparents use that to win the case, gaining custody over CD and all of Atley's assets.

JAN 21-22 : CD is taken to live with their grandparents. Their pokemon are taken from them, leaving them only with Stencil, Trowel, and Pidge (as well as Kerosene who is there secretly). CD is locked in their room at the grandparents house during this period, not allowed to leave. The house is cold and they feel slow and sick, not allowed plants or anything from home. They are fed food that makes them sick. CD begins sending audio messages to their friends, but they are short because they get in trouble when caught. It is revealed that the house is in Icirrus City. Kerosene evolved into a Chandelure in order to melt the window and get CD out of the house. JAN 23-FEB 1 : CD's phone is still broken, so they post audio recordings for a while. While in the Snowy forest, CD finds a eevee named Kiwi in a basket, who becomes very clingy and comes along with. It is revealed that CD has now been declared a missing person by their Grandparents. ALSO JUNIPER AND CD ACTUALLY STARTED DATING THE 28TH I FUCKED UP. Anons start hounding CD to go to moss rock because they think it will activate CD's latent plant powers. CD notably doesnt want Kiwi to evolve and gives kiwi 5 everstones. Kiwi dips once they get to pinwheel and loses all their everstones somehow, evolving into a leafeon, much to cds dismay. CD goes home very grumpy about this.

FEB 2- :Silvervine arc starts. should be tagged #silvervine arc. Summary: kiwi roots into cd, merging into them and making them a leafeon hybrid. minsk kidnaps CD, brainwashing/mindcontrolling them with her control over cat-mon. The hybridization merge makes CD have a rush of endorphins and dopamine to minimize the pain, giving them a floaty fuzzy feeling. cd helps minsk with some gardening ;3 lore is dropped, and CD escapes, fully hybridized, but still somewhat conditioned to listen to certain command phrases told to them by minsk, and feeling floaty fuzzy when they fall into leafeon instincts. THIS ARC ENDED FEB 5TH FEB 5th- Onward: Juniper went to a psych ward after stress from CD not wanting to see him post hybridization, he is still there. CD is briefly blocked by both tik and juniper. CD goes to live in lostlorn for a while. CD kinda breaks up with Juniper??? unclear. CD can now spead to cat mon and understand grass types. they meet a tropius named Yache who joins their team. CD lives with Juniper's pokemon team for a while before an argument happens and they leave again. now theyre kinda homeless! also! they turned into a leafeon for a few days and now they can kinda do that sometimes maybe work in progress I hope this was helpful!!!

#tw kidnapping #tw brainwashing #tw mindcontrol #tw manipulation #tw pysch ward #pokeblogging #rotomblr #pkmn irl #pokemon irl #irl pokemon #irl pkmn #pokeblr #anon ask

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Anon is right tho. I mean it's lovely how much carlos loves TK and how he's not afraid to show it but we need to see the same effort from tk too. Now, don't get me wrong I'm not trying to hate on TK or tarlos I know they love each other equally but unfortunately they're not showing that. Like I was really hoping for tk to call carlos his soulmate but I guess we can't have everything.

Sorry for the rant but this episode is kind of let down for me and I'm sad because I was so excited for this episode and now it's 5am and I can't sleep 😅

Firstly, I want to start by saying that it sucks to be disappointed by something you were looking forward to. Especially something like a television show that is usually a comfort and is very much controlled by real people.

Second, dear nonny, I would like to say as much as I enjoyed this episode my feelings are not without some critique. I have sucked my spouse into Lone Star with me and our major critique is one that has been a problem with this show for a long time.

Tim Minear and the writers room over-write for their episodes and then film all of they and sometimes in editing/post production they’re so intent on fitting everything in that things feel very surface or not fully fleshed out. I felt that way about all of tonight’s storylines. There was more to mine, but it all got left very shallow.

That being said, I do fundamentally disagree about TK not showing love back to Carlos in this episode.

First, I’m going to start with context. TK was just told by his father that he has a 1 in 4 chance of having a genetic neurodegenative disease that could take him (if they have the gene) anytime in the next 5-20 years.

And Huntington’s is no joke. It’s like taking Alzheimer’s, Parkinson’s and ALS and sticking them in a blender with steroids. It’s devastating and relentless and there’s a reason Robert is asking Owen to help him live out the end of his life instead of his wife and children. And TK is a medical professional who understands exactly what the progress might be.

And so he doesn’t lie and he doesn’t hide it, but he stays up until Carlos is off shift to have the conversation because TK loves Carlos too much to want to burden him with the reality of this disease.

But this is one of the first times all season that TK has been the one who needed comforting. So I’m not surprised that Carlos is the one that said the soulmates line. Because TK needs reassurance that this isn’t a line too far for Carlos.

TK has been doing that for Carlos all season.

TK looked Carlos straight in the face when Carlos explained the Iris situation and just said “alright, what do we have to do.” Many members of the fandom wanted him to be mad or petty or jealous or have feelings and while there were feelings, TK put Carlos first and helped to take care of the barriers in their way.

When Carlos was kidnapped and didn’t come home, TK was the one who tirelessly advocated that something was wrong. He figured out the pharmacy connection and then he literally saved Carlos’s life and had very romantic conversation as they loaded into the ambulance.

TK then, a man who has been having conversations about having kids since season one, faced with the fact that Carlos didn’t want kids gave up his dream and plans for fatherhood because Carlos is more important. Like…he cooked fucking dinner (how many phone calls with Tommy and Paul were there to get that together) and told Carlos it didn’t matter if Carlos was ever ready for kids because Carlos is all the family he needs. That’s a level of conflict that often leads to broken engagements and divorce.

This is all THIS season. Seasons two and three TK gave every romantic speech this couple had. Carlos is just getting here with words this season. And it’s beautiful growth for both of them.

#911 lone star #tk strand #carlos reyes #tarlos #911 lone star spoilers #doublel27 talks #anon reply #anon ask #i’m sorry but i’m also not #tk strand loves carlos reyes with his whole being #enough to sacrifice his dreams for carlos #like idk what you’re watching #be disappointed sure #but it’s just not even textually based

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sevcasejay1chicago · 1 year

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Married to chief Boden’s daughter.

Matt Casey is married to Boden’s daughter, and he have been that for five years now. Casey is the lieutenant and Y/N is the PIC for Ambo 61.

Casey and y/n have a 2 year old toddler together, but Casey have started to think how he wants to have another child.

Y/N also wants to have another baby, but how will they talk about it? Is it the right time?

But Casey is the one who starts to talk about ut with his wife.

Two Is Better Than One

Authors note: This one was a bit tough for me to write, but I loved exploring this idea! I’m so sorry this is so short, but I hope you still enjoy it!

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When Lieutenant Matt Casey first asked your dad, Chief Boden, for your hand in marriage, he thought it would be his last day on earth. As the sole daughter of Wallace Boden, your dad is very protective of you. After some careful breaths and the reminder by Christopher Hermann that Matt Casey was madly in love with you, he finally said yes. Three years after the wedding, you and Matt made the announcement that you were expecting your first child just as you get promoted as the PIC of ambo 61. Clarissa Hope is the light of your life. Nobody thought that Wallace Boden could love anymore more than you, your brother, and his wife, but Clarissa had your dad wrapped around his finger.

Matt was smitten as soon as he first heard Clarissa’s heartbeat. Your husband has always wanted kids, but was afraid after the heartbreak he went through with the Darden boys and Louie. He was never sure he would be able to be a great dad given that he hardly had one growing up. All and all, he was terrified and felt under qualified, but your joy and that baby’s heartbeat scared him and strengthened him all at the same time.

Two years later, Matt can’t help but want another baby. Clarissa is still his little girl, and she still has him wrapped around her little finger, but the sight of you holding baby Severide while Clarissa coos at the baby in your arms has Matt all flustered. At this point, he knows he’s got this. With you by his side, Matt Casey is confident that he can do anything. It helps that Clarissa has been the perfect child from the start, but watching his two girls love on that baby has really got Matt thinking.

When Stella found out that she was pregnant, you got major baby fever. Given that your husbands are best friends, you and Stella became quick best friends as well. You helped plan and throw the baby shower, just like you did for their wedding. Everyone was excited for the new firehouse baby, but you were suddenly longing for another one of your own. You said nothing to Matt, not wanting to disrupt the momentum he had going toward his Captaincy or rock the boat with Clarissa since your first baby was the most perfect angel. After all, conceiving and carrying Clarissa was extremely hard for you, and almost made you never want another child, but seeing Matt hold baby Severide brought you back to the first time he held your daughter. Though the love for baby Severide was never as bright or deep as the love that Matt has for Clarissa, you felt the need for another little love in your family.

A few days later, after Clarissa was settled in, Matt draws you a candle lit bath. You think nothing of it, given that Matt will do this on occasion when he knows your feeling stressed or just wants to spoil you. Matt slips in first, helping you carefully settle in between his legs. You sigh as you finally get comfortable, causing Matt to chuckle lowly as he kissed your neck.

“This is a nice surprise.” You mumbled, grinning as you lean back into your husband.

“You deserve it.” Matt immediately responds, sucking on the most sensitive spot behind your ear.

You moan, leaning back further into his embrace. Matt chuckles again, loving how easily he can make you melt under his touch. He kisses you a few more times before settling back again, just enjoying you laying in his arms.

Once you grow heavier in his grasps, Matt knows you are completely relax and takes his shot. “We should have another one.” Matt whispers, kissing the top of your head.

“Another one?” You ask, turning slightly to get a better view of your husband. You are sure you know what he means, but you want to hear it.

“Yeah. Another baby.” Matt says, making it sound like it’s the most obvious thing in the world. “Two is better than one after all.” Matt replies, giving you a lopsided grin.

You smile, shaking your head. “What’s gotten into you?”

Matt sighs, groaning slightly. “Well, I’ve been watching you and Clary with baby Sev and it get me thinking. I love you both so much. I never knew I could love anyone more than I love you, but then Clary came along. You are both home for me and I just really think I want more.” Matt said, blushing at how vulnerable he is getting. Matt normally doesn’t have a problem with being vulnerable with you, but he knows how tough your pregnancy was with Clary and doesn’t want you to feel pressured.

“Matt.” You whisper, catching his attention with a hand to his cheek. You couldn’t believe this was happening. Once his eyes meet yours, you smile brightly. “When should we start trying?”

#one chicago #matt casey #fluff #matt casey x reader

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daisybellejpeg · 9 months

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hi! this is regarding dr. shaw and the bright situation, so don't feel forced to answer this at all ^^ asking about 2 things

do you plan on rewriting the scp 963 article with dr. shaw? i know a lot of people say it's already not written the best, and i'm wondering if you'd give it some major rewrite or just sort of replace the character and leave it

the character dr. bright has been mentioned to be jewish, is dr. shaw as well? i'm not jewish personally but i know that, especially because he was such a well known character, a lot of jewish people (that i know at least) appreciated seeing that representation. ofc i understand that they're 2 separate characters so i don't expect them to be the same, but i'm curious because i've definitely seen mixed feelings on that aspect specifically

sorry for any poor grammar! i'm a bit sick atm but i wanted to send this ask in because i'd forget if i put it off. again, feel free to delete this if it makes you uncomfortable due to the situation, i've been through something similar and i get how hard it is to work through. wishing you the best!

Hey hey! Dw about asking, I don’t feel forced to answer any of my asks and love talking to people!

Onto what you’re asking:

1. As of now there is an article being made! Unsure if it’ll replace the original’s slot at the moment. I’m sure you’re aware kaktus put me on board with the project, he proposed strong arming staff into the article getting the original slot but I have no updates as to how that’s going as of now. It is to note that I’ve lost contact with him since late April. None of our mutuals know what’s up with him either. I’ve both quintupletexted him and asked around;;

I’m making my own version of the proposed article, once he pops up again I’ll cross ref with him and probably ask for help with formatting because I suck at computer stuff.

2. Ethnically Shaw is Mexican, specifically Chicano-Indigenous. I’m latine myself and live in a community with a Mexican kind of majority (lossa Haitian people too, unsure which demographic is more prominent). A ton of family friends are from Mexico with indigenous roots and I only have two other Mexican characters so I have the advantage of being able to ask my pals from my former parish alongside my usual deep dive research. As for the Roma aspect of his character I’ve been doing research on both Caló and Chicano Romani peoples for him and his mother (https://www.tiktok.com/@florida.florian?_t=8eDhq1agf51&_r=1 here’s a link to my favorite mainstream Romani content creator. His informative videos have been of major help for writing them as well as Dr. Carina and their mom. He even has vids on how to write Romani characters!!)

I don’t have a religion for him or Ansel yet? His mom, Dr. Soraya Zugasti, however, is a Muslim convert and is actually hijabi, not presumed hijabi like Evelyn was. At the end of the day to my knowledge Judaism is an open religion with the exception of some ultra orthodox communities and Shaw is the kind of person to be pretty open minded when it comes to spirituality. Statistically, as Ansel and Soraya immigrated from Mexico, the country has a Christian/Catholic majority, especially in the time that they lived there. There’s always the possibility that Shaw could be a convert like how his mother converted to Islam from being mostly agnostic. I’d have to think more on it but it’s a good chance that I’ll write that in!

I also have more Jewish characters if that gives you and your friends reassurance! Most notably Carina’s wife Commander Jezebel Diamandis and her kids, Dick and Rachel, as well as one of Carina’s Uncles, Agent Hannemann Charles. I’ll have to draw em up soon but I’d like to think they’re pretty cool 😎

Hope that answers your question! Feel free to pm me or reply to this if you have anything else to ask!

#ngl I’ve been also considering him following La Santa Muerte maybe following the theme of death and rebirth his character has going on #if anyone has suggestions lmk #I’d also appreciate Jewish scp fans chiming in #scp #scp foundation #elias shaw #tw//bright #scp doctors #dr shaw #scp fandom

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winterchimez · 1 year

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Beast in the Beauty - Chapter 5

pairing: profiler Hyunjae x detective f!reader

genre & warnings: jack the ripper au, angst, violence, thriller, crime, mentions of prostitution, graphic description of death, major characters death, alcohol, some fluff

word count: 3,602

taglist: @hokupi

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The sun beamed right into your face as you struggled to open your eyes to start the new day.

You arrived pretty late back home the night before, and your head began to hurt as you remembered the events from last night.

How the ultimate plan to catch the ripper failed miserably, how everyone failed to notice the ripper carrying out his fantasies when all of you were in close proximity with the killer, and that everyone witnessed the tragedy that unfolded in front of all you when everyone stood there helplessly as you watched the third victim’s life slowly being sucked away.

And how you actually came into close contact with the killer himself face-to-face.

That smile that the killer gave you? It was a sight you’d never forget, even when all of this will be over when the time comes. The smile sent chills down your spine, and the tension during the time was unbearable.

You grunt, then decide to toss and turn in your bed for at least 10 more minutes before deciding that you should be getting up anytime now to head to the office.

You just mentally prayed to yourself in hopes that you won’t be seeing any blood-filled, splattered crime scenes for today.

As you made your way into the office, you were surprised at how empty it was.

There was no sign of both Haknyeon and Eric at their desks, which was unusual as they mostly arrive first before you do each morning.

Shaking the odd feeling you were having, you began to take out your typewriter from one of the drawers of your desk and placed them on your table to start typing away on the reports you were tasked to do.

That is until Chief Inspector Ayden made his way to your desk, looking very desperate.

“Y/N. I’d like to have a word with you in my office.”

Without saying much, he quickly turned his back and retreated into his designed area.

What in the world was going on? The chief himself has never personally come to speak to you face-to-face ever. It was mostly Haknyeon who did the messenger job if the chief required anyone’s presence in his office.

But since the man himself isn’t present, you figured it may have something to do with that.

You stood up from your desk and made your way to the chief’s office. You’re just scratching your head and hoping that it may explain Haknyeon’s disappearance, as well as Eric’s.

“I’m sorry you want me to do what now?”

You had to ask the chief once more, thinking that you might have heard the man wrongly.

“You heard me, Y/N. I do not wish to repeat that.”

Apparently, the reason the chief summoned you to his office had no relation to Haknyeon’s and Eric’s disappearance, they just had to drop off some intel to Scotland Yard for the day. Nor was it about anything regarding the murders from last night.

“So you’re telling me that you somehow lost your daughter’s pet dog and you require my assistance in hopes of finding it?”

“I’m not proud of it Y/N but yes.” The chief was starting to lower his once so-called confident voice, definitely feeling embarrassed.

“Umm.. with all due respect sir but why me?” You questioned. Clearly, this was more of a family issue.

The chief himself took a deep breath before standing his ground to give a reasonable answer. “You see, I was tasked with walking my daughter’s dog this morning. We were having a great stroll around town when I just took my eyes off it for one second and the next thing I knew, it was gone.”

Chief Ayden began to let out a cough, as he stands up from his chair, pacing around the room.

“The reason why I asked you was that my daughter is somehow pissed at me and wouldn’t talk to me for the time being, and my wife will not let me live to see tomorrow if she finds out I’ve lost our family dog. Since you’re a female, I understand that you may be able to sympathise with my daughter and that she will be willing to talk to you about it.”

Okaaayyyy… now we’re dog hunting instead of catching the ripper? Clearly, you couldn’t say no or decline whatever the chief instructs you to do but this? This was something new.

You have to update Haknyeon and Eric when they get back from their job.

“I’m… umm... I’m not sure… chief.”

“Please, Y/N. I’m asking for your help not as your chief but as a doting father to one’s daughter. I’ll give you a pay rise if that’s what you’re looking for.” The chief clears his throat. He was desperate and you were certain his ears turned bright red after literally begging you for help.

“Alright, sir. Umm.. maybe tell me what breed the dog is and the last place you’ve seen it.”

“I can’t believe his daughter named the dog Poirot.”

In the midst of your side job for the day, you somehow stumbled upon the brunette again as you made your way to Arthur’s street, where the pet dog was last seen.

You swear. Your fate with this man sure is something else lately.

“Don’t judge a poor girl’s choice. I’d like to think she has taste alright.” You fired back at the male, clearly siding with the chief’s daughter on this one.

Both you and Hyunjae made your way to the chief’s apartment while you were on the way to the designated location, and had a brief talk with the chief’s daughter.

His daughter seemed to be no older than 5, and she wore a bright yellow floral dress that was obviously purchased from those high-end shops in central London. Based on her facial expressions, the young lady was very upset and her eyes were swollen which indicates that she had been crying for some time.

As always, Hyunjae managed to reassure and calm the young lady down, promising to find her pet dog by sun fall today. At this point you’re convinced that if he wasn’t a profiler, he could damn well be a magician, knowing the right gestures and words in all sorts of situations.

And it was during that time when he learned the name of the pet dog, he couldn’t help but to hold in his laughter till you both were out the door and where the brunette finally made his sarcastic remark.

When you both stepped foot into Arthur’s streets, you mentally wished you could turn back in the other direction.

The streets were somehow way more crowded than usual, with so many pop-up stores from both sides of the road. A carnival was going on right in the middle of town, and seemingly almost everyone in London decided to pay their visits to the infamous district.

How on earth were you supposed to find the beagle dog in this massive crowd?

You were mentally having a battle with yourself, wrecking your thoughts with one negativity to the other, until Hyunjae brings you back to your senses.

“Umm Y/N, I’m not sure if that is the dog you’re looking for but I sure do see a beagle paddling its way into the theatre.” Hyunjae taps your shoulder and grabs hold of both sides of your shoulders to turn you in the direction he was mentioning.

You squealed. Thanking the heavens as if they have heard your voice in looking for the lost dog in the busy town.

You immediately ran towards the theatre, only to be stopped by the ticket master.

“I’m sorry but only couples are permitted for the current show.”

Couples? Why such a specific group of individuals?

That is until you laid your eyes on the poster that was displayed at the ticket booth. Ah, Romeo & Juliet. It was a Valentine’s Day promotion that was specifically done to celebrate the oh-so-happy couples day.

You obviously were still single, well as far as you’re aware since Eric stopped setting you up with random blind dates ever since all of you were preoccupied with dealing with the Ripper murders.

Great, Eric should’ve been here so that he could be my pretend boyfriend-

“I’ll get two tickets, sir.” Hyunjae immediately hands the ticket master 6 penneys, and he grabs hold of your wrist dragging you into the theatre hall.

“Wait wait! Hyunjae, did you just straight out lie to the ticket master?”

“Well, weren’t we supposed to find the chief’s dog? He definitely went in here. And besides.” The brunette then finds the remaining two empty seats that were situated not too far from the stage, dragging you down to be seated where he finally turns to you face-to-face, you swore both of your faces were merely inches apart.

“I guess it wouldn’t hurt to have a fun little date at the theatres with a beautiful young woman like you.”

“God, I absolutely detest whatever we’ve witnessed during the show. That’s not a true love story.” You crossed your arms as you made your way out of the theatres, the brunette trailing right behind you.

“Hey! I forbid you to insult my favourite play like that. William Shakespeare is a genius alright.” Hyunjae fought back, clearly standing his point.

“I mean, who the hell meets and falls in love on the first day, and then gets married on the following day? That’s just total nonsense.”

“Not on my watch, young lady. You can’t stop two young lovers as they work on their romantic relationship. True love knows no limits and that is something you just take down some notes on, miss Y/N.” The biggest smirk was plastered on Hyunjae’s face, as he nudged your elbow clearly showing that he is winning this so-called debate.

“What do you know about true love, Hyunjae.”

“I could ask the same thing about you, Y/N.”

You immediately blushed, the hot sensation was quickly rising up to your cheeks and ears as you turned away from Hyunjae, showing your back towards the male as you kept walking forward. Until the male spat out something you’d never expected to hear.

“By any chance Y/N, are you a virgin?”

You immediately stopped in your tracks and choked. What’s gotten into this guy that all of a sudden that he is questioning your love life? But you couldn’t fight back because it was true.

You’ve never had a boyfriend, heck even dated someone (because you’ve always chickened out of the multiple blind dates Eric has set up for you but the young lad doesn’t need to know that), and you can conclude that you have 0 knowledge when it comes to romance.

That is partly the reason why you hate this time of the year, if only you have not forgotten you would’ve come up with the best excuse to Chief Inspector Ayden that you were preoccupied with some urgent matters at the office, or you were sick all of the sudden and have to take the day off.

You looked at Hyunjae, looking all bright red like a tomato and gave the man the biggest pout, which you did not know you were doing until the man pointed it out himself. Hyunjae burst into laughter, and you swore you were about to bag the guy up and throw him into the nearest river you could find.

After clearly having way too much fun (for Hyunjae, not you because you were miserable), you both turned your attention back to your task for the day.

Ah yes, the lost dog.

You both searched high and low after the show was over in the theatre, even checking with the staff and actors backstage, but to no avail.

The only plausible reason is that the dog somehow escaped sometime during the show and was nowhere to be seen again.

You sighed and slumped your shoulders in defeat because that was the only lead to your search and it was gone just like that. Though the brunette seemed confident, convincing you that the beagle is still somewhere near and that there was no need to worry.

Both of you then continued with your search, going door to door asking almost dozens of people about the whereabouts of the dog. Some hints were proven to be somewhat useful because they slowly led you to the potential location of where the puppy was, but you both have always hit a dead end.

As you both continued, you somehow ended up on the cliff that overlooks the entire Whitechapel district. It was already sundown by the time you both climbed up here, and Hyunjae suggested that you both take a rest by the bench as you admire the city itself.

You were in awe with what lay upon your eyes. You’ve hardly had the time or even the thought of coming up here to the cliffs to truly take a breather and time from all that has been going on.

Since when did Whitechapel have such a magnificent place to ogle at?

When you took the time to overlook the entire city before you, you couldn’t help but to smile at the sight before you. Whitechapel was truly a beautiful city from above, and it was tragic how below the district was hunted by a monster for several decades now.

Whitechapel surely did not deserve such cruelty.

As you were about to let yourself be taken away by the mesmerizing sight, Hyunjae softly chimes in which makes you remember that you weren’t alone watching this beautiful scenery in front of you.

“It is beautiful, isn’t it? I often come here when I want to be at peace.”

“So is this your favourite spot in all of Whitechapel?” You chimed in and asked the brunette.

“You could say something like that.”

As the peaceful silence between you continued for a good several minutes, Hyunjae took this opportunity to answer a question that you have been meaning to ask the man himself for a while.

“Remember how you asked me to tell you more about myself back when we had the little cafe date?”

That wasn’t a date, sir.

“Well, I wasn’t born here but rather in central London. My dad, or rather I should say, my family has been with Scotland Yard for generations, so it’s natural that I should follow my father’s footsteps as I have been told.”

As Hyunjae took a sit down on the bench situated near the edge of the cliff, you did the same in hopes of wanting to listen more to his side of the story you have been desperately wanting to know since that conversation you’ve had with him back in the cafe.

“But over the years, living in such a hectic city has taken a toll on my family, specifically my mother, who had to do everything to make ends meet. It wasn’t easy raising two children, me and my sister, so my father ultimately decided to move us here to Whitechapel when I was a teen.”

Now that Hyunjae has given you his backstory, it somehow made so much more sense in his demeanour. The way he presents himself, his words of choice, the image that he puts up daily? Yes, it undoubtedly screamed central London.

The brunette then cleared his throat as he continued. “As time passed I lost my mother because of something she was accused of, she never fully recovered mentally, and eventually physically.” You could tell it was hard for the male to talk about it, you were about to chime in to pause but turns out he was fine continuing with his story.

“Eventually my father couldn’t bear to see how my mother had ended up, and he too died of a broken heart. Along the way, I lost my sister as well.”

Hyunjae then leaned back into the bench as he stared right into the now blue-turning purple sky. “That is why I decided to become a profiler, where I can truly read and understand a person’s demeanour, be it for helping the society or just the individual personally.”

As if it was instinct at that moment, you couldn’t help but to place your hands on Hyunjae’s as he lays them on his thigh.

“Well, I guess everyone has gone through multiple setbacks to be where they are now. And I’m grateful for you sharing with me Hyunjae, and I’m sure your family would be proud of where you’re at now.” You smiled, and somehow that just helped melt all of Hyunjae’s sorrows away.

“Thank you, Y/N. You’re one of the first people whom I have formed such a good bond with ever since joining the force, and of course, listening to my side of the story. I can never thank you enough.”

Just then, Hyunjae interlocks your fingers with his and he lays his dark brown eyes on yours.

Wait wait hold up, what is even happening-

“Listen Y/N, I have been meaning to tell you something for a while.”

“I’m… listening?” You squeaked.

“As time passed and we have been working together as a team for a while now, I realized that I do care a lot about you.”

Yo, wait wait. This is going way too fast-

“I think I am starting to see you more than just a coworker, and literally whatever you do just captivates me. Hell, I can’t stop myself thinking about you all day, and how I dread the days whenever I have to go back to Scotland Yard.”

No, wait. Don’t say it-

“And I think I like you. Like a whole lot.”

Well, shit. Cat’s out of the bag.

“And I know this isn’t a great time to be doing this, especially when we have pressing matters at hand with the case, but I was wondering.” Now holding your interlocked fingers up close to your face, he looks deep right into your eyes.

“Would you give me a chance to be your boy-”

Bark! Bark!

The sudden noise broke off the tense moment you both were having, and you quickly turned your head towards the source of the sound.

No way. It was the chief’s dog. It just came right in front of you both, after the long ass day of finding it all over town.

You immediately scooped the dog up into your arms, jumping up and down in excitement, clearly already forgetting what just happened between you two.

“Hurry up Hyunjae! Let’s bring it back to the chief’s daughter!”

With the beagle in your hands, you wasted no time running down the cliff, leaving a stunned Hyunjae behind.

The man couldn’t help but chuckle. “Well, I guess I’ll tell her next time.”

Chief Inspector Ayden’s daughter was thrilled as she took the beagle right back into her arms. She couldn’t thank you enough and even offered you both to join the tea party she was hosting with her dolls. The chief’s wife also made a feast for dinner, insisting that you both stay to indulge in her work of art.

Not wanting to be rude, you both joined the two for the night. Halfway through dinner, the Chief Inspector arrived back into his own home, surprised to see both of you there. You were sure that his face was about to go pale, thinking that his wife was informed about the chaos that happened this morning.

But as he turned to see the presence of the family dog in the hallway, he let out the deepest huff and put back this fatherly smile towards his family.

You chuckled as you never expected to see this side of the chief. Well, more things to fill in Haknyeon and Eric on.

All of you had a great night together, even getting the chief’s wife homemade raspberry cheesecake with ice cream on top (god your sweet tooth will be thanking you tonight) while you chat away with the family.

It has been a while since you have experienced such family warmth, something that you have been missing for years now, and you could tell that Hyunjae felt the same way.

It was evidently a wise choice to drop by tonight.

As it was getting late, Hyunjae offered to walk you back home after leaving the chief’s house.

You both enjoyed the peace and the light breeze while you can while chatting away with more random topics and of course, having small bickering here and there.

Because clearly Hyunjae still had to make a point that Romeo and Juliet is a masterpiece.

He was way more childish than you would’ve ever thought he was, and that somehow makes you smile ever so brightly.

As you both reached your apartment, Hyunjae made sure that you unlocked the door and stepped foot into your apartment before waving goodbye.

Well, very gentlemen, yes.

Just as you were about to close the door, the brunette decides to turn his heel back and run towards you, giving you a light peck on the right side of your cheek.

You immediately blushed and rested your palm on the spot where he just kissed when you looked up towards the smiley delighted male.

“I had a fun date today, I’ll see you tomorrow. Nighty, Y/N-ie.”

As he left and was finally out of sight, you finally came to your senses and slammed the door shut. Your palm is still cupping the spot where you were just kissed, while you mentally calmed your fast-beating heart down.

What. A. Day.

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a/n: this was a fluff and crack-filled chapter bcs we all know how Hyunjae gives off crack energy LMAO i hope y’all enjoyed this fun & cute little moment they both had (and a little break from all the madness from the previous chapters xD)

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finished s7🖕

started off so so so good (so so so so so so good) but then it turned to suckkkkk . brocks writing just hasnt been great since s3 w a few good eps here and there but just turned to major suck when you see him w the ventures . guild operative and osi operative romance got too much screentime . still dislike 21 and i think him being the monarch's "best friend" just makes them boring . could have done smth irt him being alone w his wife gone and w a henchman he doesnt care for (<- the sudden jump of him loving 21 in s5 was so annoying) or smth . i feel the blue morpho could still work w that that would be fun a dedicated henchman working w a boss who will do whatever to rise to the top even if the boss doesnt like him . speaking of . total drop in the whole BM thing and kind of made it stupid to have him kill villains to rise the ranks but then they just have him do random ass jobs and hes level 10? kind of makes his whole speech in PfT in 6 abt GCI levels kind of stupid . the loss of focus on the ventures in general just does not appeal to me i like the monarchs and conjectech but im not watching the show for them . also did i mention how much brock sucks . should have been more focus in hank and dean esp of theyre gonna have deans speech in the finale (rly good actually did make me sniffle)

irt def more things to explore ik you are a gayboy . would have been interesting to see him come to terms w being a superscience experiment by bonding w jared bc i feel like jared would have some talk abt it not being so bad and bring up the positives (did like sirena's comment on the clone thing though) . rly funny he mentions jared in his speech but you never see them interact s7. his whole character has been a mess since s4 though (actually all the ventures have been but whatever) . this was a characterization that pissed me off though similar to his daddy in s4 for me . i like him missing hank and wanting to go back to being just them and him missing the compound . could have been really good if they actually focused on the family aspect of the show...!!! really wish they fucking did but they ruined my family...!!! that fucking osi dog...!!!

hank didnt really add anything im sorry that happened to you babyboy. hank gets focus but nothing really happens to him. not much to say but he was cute and sigh again a lot of missed opportunities for the Whole Reason I Watch The Show

rusty was more similar to his s4 character but not quite but still annoyed me except brock annoyed me more (major sucks btw) so rusty is safe from my wrath . idk where im going w this now . i wish it was more about the ventures . so many lost opportunities since s4 . everthing brock touched turned to suck i cant even appreciate him shirtless and bloody and killing people why are you such an osi doormst this season . brock sucks so much . rusty really adding nothing but was oh so perfect the 1st 3 eps . i want the family fuck off everyone else the monarchs should have stayed background/main antags or smth i dont need the focus same w billy and white my god i just want the ventures . so many things that could have been explored but werent so instead i have to see kimberly and the guild dude try to have a romance across several episodes w development and tragedy and everything but my ventures get nothing irt to any of them except ig deans speech that comes out of left field bc i havent seen the family interact in what feels like forever . also brock sucks

#e.txt #here is to hoping for that movie...!#if its the same ratio of focus that s6 and s7 had well . that doesnt pertain to me...!#ik some ppl rly rly love the aformentioned new main characters i talked abt and i like them too but not that much..!

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Hope this is okay to bring up but all th points u made in that post abt ppl white woman-Ifying viktor Yeah. It’s impossible 2 scroll through certain tags on this site (or any tbh) without seeing some bad jayce take because people don’t understand they’re completely separate characters. Or refuse to read viktor as he actually acts in arcane OR league just because he’s their scrungly sad little meow meow who can do no wrong and everyone and everything is out to get him. It’s incredibly annoying too because people are Making content based on league lore, but are basing it off other people’s fics instead of reading the lore, so it’s like a self repeating cycle, not sure how else to explain it but it just sucks ass and it makes it hard to interact with th majority of ppl making art for the two of them

that is true! sorry, didn't mean to localise it as an issue particular to just arcane because yeah, it's been happening since the arrival of 2016 viktor's lore (and maybe even before). i can't count the number of times jayce has been accused of genocide(?) or stealing blitzcrank by hiding him in his trenchcoat and running away or purposely trying to get viktor expelled (in the order of significance ascribed by most fans), or any other weird crimes people can dream up because the fact is that if you look at his biography instead of basing your entire knowledge off of drabbles and AUs and author's notes and inside jokes and references he did... none of these things?

like there's nothing gloating about how he describes viktor getting expelled -- i'd argue he didn't intend for it to happen at all. but somehow in fandom discussions or reddit posts people stretch it to jayce stealing viktor's wife and kids or whatever i really don't get it! and if you argue from the lens of interpretation i'm not sure what textual basis you'd have for that at all given that jayce is notably distraught after losing viktor.

of course jayce doesn't do himself any favours by not mentioning blitzcrank, or trying to defend himself, but you only really fall victim to thinking viktor was in the right by doing an entirely surface level reading without realising, hey, maybe trying to strip people of free will is bad?

i understand being more emotionally engaged with viktor's side of the story, and if you read jayce's biography after reading viktor's your viewpoint is already shaped by the uncharitable way viktor depicts him, but honestly if you're going to try to engage with these characters in a serious level i'd at least ask for you to try and figure out what is going on (or don't, if it's more fun i guess i can't really police how you consume fictional men).

the "genocide" that they believe is happening (please google what genocide is) is so... GUYS HAVE YOU EVER WONDERED WHY VIKTOR WAS ABLE TO CONTROL AND ORDER AROUND THE AUTOMATONS THAT WERE SUPPOSED TO BE THE ZAUNITES' NEW BODIES? like there is room for nuance here obviously if you can be bothered to think it through but at a surface level glance viktor is not in the right here. i'll defend viktor and write him and love him until the day i die but that's not because i agree with what he is doing, it'd be because i enjoy him as a character and find him interesting to explore.

maybe people conflate this emotional attachment with the belief that since so much wrong has been done to him (which i won't deny, just that a lot of it wasn't jayce's fault) viktor must be in the right, and jayce becomes the target of this righteous anger because how dare you not defend this poor little meow meow victim of all of society's faults!

and all of these things are multiplied tenfold by looking at it through the lens of arcane and refusing to even consider how the two SEPARATE iterations would fuse together. now white woman A!viktor is dying, and isn't that just so pitiful? why WOULDN'T you let him commit all those atrocities, and if you REALLY LOVED HIM you wouldn't BETRAY HIM AND SELL HIM OUT! WHICH TALIS DOES NOT DO BECAUSE THOSE EVENTS ARE NOT PART OF ARCANE THEY ARE PART OF LEAGUE! or something or the other. and frankly this is just disrespectful to all four characters.

the image most arcane-only fans have of giopara would be "asshole", which is true, but he's also a complex layered character that loses a lot if you choose to reduce him to one archetype, and if you choose to misinterpret a character and then blame him for your misinterpretation it's like... well i really don't get it but it's whatever because it's for real just a video game biography/TV show.

#bon.docx #long post #anonymous #answered #don't even wanna expound on how much of this is people looking at them and seeing ''big brown man and frail pale twink''#it's just so...#anyway if you're going to have the worst takes ever i'd at least ask for you to do the courtesy of looking at the source material #or not i'm literally just some guy you don't have to care #it's a tv show/game #scratches head i just feel like writing improves a lot from having a sense of characterisation #sorry if i sound like an elitist fuck over a tv show/game i just like reading things that make sense #also don't understand people's needs to be like ''I DON'T ENDORSE LEAGUE OF LEGENDS!'' like league is substance abuse or something #but if it makes you feel better because league killed your gecko or something then i can't say anything

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Oh ho! He is upset that Scott was kidnapped. Also major kudos to Control for finally saying “It’s not me you’re really mad, is it?” Because Mr. McCall does that every single time.

Look at him all worried about his friend.

I’ve seen this movie before. Beauty has been imprisoned, now where’s the beast? 🤣

I love these two. I appreciate that Control is helping. I mean he always helps but he and Robert both kind of suck when it comes to Scott....maybe actually the person who should save him is Mickey. Mickey is the only one who can placate everyone in this oddball family.

There’s too much at stake here, I’m going to ask you a favor Robert, will you head up this operation?

Control...Should the guy pissed off because these people accidentally screwed up and also took his son actually be in charge of the situation? You know Robert, he’s great at saving the average lady who no one believes or small child trying to help their parents but when it comes to his son he tends to shoot himself in the foot, and any time you’re around he takes all his anger out on you...maybe you should send him to Bermuda. 🤣

Mr. McCall did you just put your glasses on to think, make a decision and then take them off again?

They recast Kay! (Scott’s mom) She was originally played by Sandy Dennis, this is Shirley Knight. Robert: Our son has gotten himself stuck in an international incident. Kay: So what are you doing about it? Robert: I’m going to get him out of course. Kay: *Scoffs* of course, McCall to the rescue.

These two...I’m very curious if they talk more about their life together/Scott because the so far what we know about Kay from Scott is. She moved on, her mother is sick.And from her we know she remarried quite awhile ago, and that she hasn’t really seen Scott all that much to the point she thought Robert knew more. I think that’s since changed because Scott went with her to Colorado or something until she bailed and went to Florida and he came home. And he didn’t try to spend teh holidays with her.

So I think...I think both of them sent Scott off to boarding school at a young age and haven’t really been parents until recently. But I’m very curious if this tries to course correct that.

So Robert...you just said you introduced this music guy to Scott and he’s been wonderful, like a father to him. Sir...you’re Scotts father. Are you seriously out here trying to pawn Scott off on other people and admitting it to your ex-wife?

Kay: I hope you get him back Robert, for your sake.

WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? Are you talking about Scott or the ex-agent. Like these two are the most bizarre parents. Scott, honey I’m so sorry. Everyone in Scott’s life is just...so blase about him being in danger. I mean he got a sister and then she thought he was dead and was just like *shrug*.

“I’m not going to lose another child because of your work. I’m going to stay until Scott is safe.”

Ah yes, back to toss William Zabka around hour. 🤣 Out of bizarre family melodrama and back into international incident.

This guy literally just shoved Scott against the wall and said “You are our guest. And you will behave like one” I’m waiting for some singing teapots.

I’m sorry, I know I’m making beauty and the beast jokes but y’all they pulled Scott out of the dungeons and dumped him in a nicer room by himself away from his injured adopted father figure *cough* ex-spy music instructor.

Mickey! He kind of looks like he’s been dragged out of bed at 2 am again or at least like he’s been listening to these two argue for hours.

I’m voting Mickey is running on 0 sleep. Just based off the facial journey he went through which was mostly rubbing at his face like he was trying to stay awake for a full background shot.

Control: How many people do you need? Mickey and Robert mumbling to one another: Two guys Control: 2 men? That’s it?

Robert: *glasses on and off on and off* Well Mickey might tag along.

Mickey: You know, for the group photo session.

Control: I’m so sick of both of you. (LIterally the final part of that scene is him looking like this, opening his mouth like he’s about to say something, then it cuts away) Like no, he’s got no response to their dumb sarcastic jokes. (Mickey truly is Robert’s work son)

What’s the plan man? “Take you home” very long pause (to be tried and shot)

oh man they’re brothers. Oof.

I...I know fear does things to people, but she waltzed in and wanted to know why Scott wasn’t in the papers. Ma’am he’s been kidnapped by a different government you seriously think “You music prodigy kidnapped by foreign powers and trapped here in our city” would be in every newspaper article? Especially when you know spies are involved. I...ma’am, you were married to a spy, why would you even wonder about such a thing?

Okay, taking bets now. Anyone want to guess why he’s choking up and nearly in tears? Anyone?

Don’t be shy. An episode with his ex-wife and his son being kidnapped is the main point of this episode. So what could it possibly be?

Did you guess dead daughter Kathy? Congrats you’re right!

I just...I get it’s a big deal, but your son is alive. Clearly these two never healed from that and rather than reach out to Scott and love him even harder they splintered and sent him away and the poor guy’s spent his whole life trying to help other people for scraps of love.

I’d also like to point out he was half way out the door to go rescue Scott when she came in and now the two of them are sitting having a heart to heart about Kathy.

Scott, marry the beast.

^This is how I feel. But what’s actually happening is she asked him how he’s going to handle if Scott dies because of his job and his honor.

Meanwhile Scott alone, all by himself, in a very nice room with a ton of booze and books.

#mumblings about shows

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For the fic ask game: 🔁💘💌✨😭

2. 🔁 A fic you’ve re-read several times

Love, I'll Let You Go (Song: "Real" by Years & Years) by fabella

okay i'm cheating with this one because it's a fanvid not a fic but it is for real one of my favorite mattfoggy things Ever and that is due in no small part to how well edited it is, the song choice, and the incredible dose of angst it will give you (also sorry i know i have recced/posted about this video before but IT HAS ME IN A HEADLOCK)

12. 💘 A fic you couldn’t stop reading once you started

Always Crashing in the Same Car by @a-silver-sun

alright i'm pretty sure i've recced this one before too, sorry, and also it's a WIP but i've been reading it since its genesis on the DD kink meme and there's quite a bit (68k!) to sink your teeth into. it's a Time Traveler's Wife AU where Matt gets sucked back and forward through time involuntarily and there is lots of angst!

13. 💌 A fic that inspired you to create something for it

oopsies i haven't actually created something for a fic before but i was thinking about taking a look at what people are offering up for remixes during the new year's @daredevilexchange event (go check out what's happening and submit some prompts before the deadline!)

17. ✨ A fic you wish you could read again for the first time

Leap Before You Look by 94BottlesOfSnapple (@pomegranate-belle)

a 5+1 of Matt jumping out the window to avoid dealing with his feelings and it's funny af! can't recommend any more highly

18. 😭 A fic that ripped your heart out (but it hurt so good)

The Evening Darkens Over by @bibliocratic

warning for major character death and cancer and i think you can tell where this is going in the context of mattfoggy but here's what i wrote in my bookmark for this fic: "Absolutely devastating but just as beautiful and incredibly well-paced."

#asks #softasawhisper #mattfoggy #fic recs #daredevil

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bellafragolina · 2 years

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TW: brief mention of addiction, in the past tense

It's the anon who said they wouldn't accept the apology, I just wanted to clarify that I don't think the boys themselves are evil, the twins are lovely men. I meant the prejudice was evil. Or how it can be said everyone has something a little evil in them, even if they're a great person overall. It just sucks that one of their flaws is something so brutal and it comes so instinctually. And sadder still that their ferocity and judgement towards immoral people is directly tied to the fact they're upstanding members of society.

Also, my brother is doing good for himself. The larger community is still hard on him, but he has a steady job (it's hard for recovering addicts to find a job here), a house, got his driver's license back, a car, a long-term girlfriend (essentially his wife), several cats, and something of a relationship with his daughter and his girlfriend's children. He doesn't get shooed off by most of our family anymore too. I made sure to tell him I was proud of him for getting clean today. He's been clean for 5-6 years now, which is a major milestone, especially since he was on drugs for over a decade. Thank you for wishing him well!

Oh, lovely, I never meant to imply you thought the twins were evil! All I was getting at was that I had to work a little bit to not write them as just evil people, because they’re not! And it can be difficult to weave the everyday evils into a person! I’m sorry, I never meant to insinuate that I thought you thought they were evil!!

I’m also glad your brother is doing better! And that things are better in his life. He sounds like he’s got a very good sibling on his side as well, so I’m sure he’s very grateful for that!!

I hope things only go up from here for you both!

~Renee

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Having a huge argument with a friend. Free drama read.

Through Discord text chat. The start of the argument was over if the VTuber, Koseki Bijou, sounded younger than 7 or if she sounded 12. My argument was the former, his was the latter. I am bias against high voices and I am deathly allergic to girls that speak high and cutesy perpetually.

It was a decent length argument going back and forth, and my friend said the VTuber sounded older than 12. He would know because he went to a 12 year old's birthday party.

Meanwhile I recently went on vacation that included children ages 2, 7, 9, and 11. The VTuber sounded younger than 7 pit against them. If you're reading this, you can look the VTuber up and make your own judgements.

Anyway, I made a really dry joke that I was sorry the 12-year-old my friend knew was disabled. (The high voice being the 'disability'.) He got really offended because apparently that's his goddaughter and I shouldn't assume she's disabled because she has a high voice.

Now, being upset I made a mean joke is perfectly reasonable, what's not reasonable is how he handled shutting down the conversation which was strong-armed. Words like: "Stop. No, we're not talking about this." "The conversation is over."

Being treated in such a way triggers me really badly. I don't handle being treated like that very well and it snaps something in my brain. It manifests as anger like a fire that sucks out all my oxygen and my head shifts into a hard "you should not exist in this world" / "I don't want to live in a world with people like you in it." I get heavily suicidal, and go insane. I have enough consciousness to not start destroying things or committing to self harm, but the feeling is there—and this only happens when that type of language is used against me.

Should probably get therapy about that type of reaction—why it is and how to avoid situations like that—but that's not important right now.

Anyway, since I got triggered really hard, I ended the conversation and left for the night; I can feel when my sanity is slipping. I had to extract myself from that conversation because I didn't want to say anything I regret. I considered him a precious friend. I said something along the lines of that I was enraged and that I was getting off for the night.

The reason I used the language of "enraged" is because that's what I felt at the time! The feeling is extremely visceral and can be difficult to explain as a result.

Off the computer I was wailing to my friend about it—screaming—Friend B didn't even take me seriously until I dug my fingers into his sides and shook him as hard as my little arms could. I was very not okay. Sliding off the deep end, but he talked me into calming down until I returned to normal after bitching and crying for several hours about it.

End that event.

Six days later Friend A messaged me. At this point I'm extremely stressed because of my job. My boss was asking me to move across the country for an unreasonable amount of money (45k a year), but the company is a start up. The stress of that, I did not have the emotional capacity to explain to my friend he triggered an extreme mental breakdown. How do you explain that to someone anyway? "I had a mental breakdown and it's your fault"?

I did my best to allude to that it was more than just anger, but also firmly said I couldn't talk about it and didn't have the emotional bandwidth. I would discuss it with him later when I did.

I also went over with him in-depth about the other major stressor in my life in which he gave absolutely no sympathy towards. He moved across a few states for an (apparently) bad wage at a hospital (not a start-up company), and lived with a family member in his current state until he could get a house. (I have no family or friends where I would have been moving aside from my boss who has has a wife and 2 kids; I'm not staying with them.)

Also, something, something, I made some assumption and Friend B says that I need to stop making assumptions. He has a habit of lecturing me about how I should be. How I need to use words around him to dictionary definition to prevent misunderstandings. He needs to be interacted with in a precise way and if I don't, I get a small lecture about how I'm interacting with people wrong.

End second event.

Back to the main point, it takes a lot of time for me to think of a super triggering event like that and not go into a flurry of insanity just at the thought. It was important for me to have space so I could get to a point where I don't get suicidal thinking about the event. So three weeks past and I messaged him today asking if he's going to play Armored Core. I know it's within his special interests and it's a good question to test the waters with.

His answers were really short. Okay, fine, I know things aren't good between us, so I just bluntly ask if we're just not going to talk anymore. His response is exactly, "I'm talking with my parents. Not everything revolves around you."

There was not even a hint that he was busy doing something else, only that he was being short. Last time he was short too, which creates the assumption he's angry. These are normal assumptions, and people make and draw conclusions naturally.

But the "not everything revolves around you" really fucking ticked me off. My assumption was a symptom of a greater issue (us being on bad terms) and I explained that.

And then later he writes back to me the giant thing about how I was taking advantage of him, how I have no self-awareness, and goes on this huge rant about how pretty much he makes so many sacrifices to make our friendship work. So patient and tolerant. He even says he wasn't even mad that I insulted his goddaughter. He was drawing his boundaries and calmly letting me know and tried to move the conversation away. If you've forgotten already how that went, he shut down the conversation hard and refused to talk about pitch and age corelation of high voices. If it didn't make him mad, why did he have such a violent reaction to it?

So then I wrote him a 3 page essay response about what happened during event one, how it made me feel, and that if anything I actually felt betrayed. Not too long ago we were talking about hwo we enjoyed each other's company. There were things we could talk about that we couldn't any other. He was also happy I didn't freak out over alone-together silence and generally I was super grounded.

I have no clue what he was talking about regarding everything else. And so, more context:

Friend A was a very special friend to me because he was one of the first people to treat me like a person and want to do things with me back when no one would talk to me in high school. To me he was like a shining sun and I had a lot of fun, happy memories.

I pay special attention to how I talk to him as a result to preserve who he is and our relationship.

I never want to shame him for his hobbies—like once he was really into painting his nails; I encouraged him to do it if it made him happy. I don't really like that in a guy, but my opinion doesn't matter when it comes to his happiness.

I do my best to listen to him talk about games he's interested in, at the very least keep an open ear even if they aren't my kind of game. He does the same for me. I am admittedly bad at engaging and have bad auditory processing, but I will never tell him to stop talking about them even if I'm not all that interested.

I even talk to him about topics he doesn't feel like he can talk about with others. The appreciation for good doujin or weird web comics. I think they're fun too and it's enjoyable!

I don't really like table top games, but I gave Lancer a try for him. It went really badly for me in particular, but the group and story was just not a very good for introduction for a newbie. I ended up having to withdraw and did my best to explain it wasn't their fault, I'm just not used to TTRPGs enough for it.

During this event Friend A actually got upset for not going to him for help. He is just not someone great to ask for things to be explained to from, and last he tried to help me with Lancer it wasn't a very good learning experience. Also I have a lot of trouble with self learning and focus.

Meanwhile he's great at it! Tried playing Kingdom Death with him. I tried to talk to him while he was reading the rules though once and I get a really terse, "I'm not done reading the rules" in the same tone a parent might tell a child that they're busy and to go away because they're a child. Then while playing the game he insisted we follow the rules to a 'T' rather than focus on making the game fun for us. Friend B was there too and not having a great time.

And another great interaction with Friend A was when we were talking about VTuber rigging. He said that IRYS' first model wasn't expressive enough and that was the fault of the modeler. I said that it was the fault of the rigger and 2D rigging is similar to 3D rigging (my main trade), which is how I know. He insisted that it was the modeler's fault, but we both didn't know enough about Live2D to argue about it. He was going to ask another friend who made and rigged her own model. I didn't bother arguing with him about it, but later he said his VTuber friend said it was the fault of the rigger. OK. I don't even think I rubbed it in that I was right or that it was how I said because I'm not looking to pick arguments.

And then us not being able to play a game together he's complained about, because I used to move games a lot... Well, we had different schedules so I just stopped inviting him to try different games. I wasn't going to make a big deal of it. Says it's my fault, whatever, maybe in the future if there's a game we both really like—shelving the idea.

I'm just griping now honestly. Friend B says I shouldn't be friends with Friend A if he brings no joy to my life. The idea of Friend A is probably where the joy is and we have just such different communication styles we probably should just stop being friends.

In the end though, the start of this whole damn thing could have been avoided if he communicated his boundaries with different phrasing. I don't have a problem with his boundaries, but I also got mine. No one else I talk to treats me like I'm below them, even my boss.

It got worse because I needed to look after my mental health since I could easily become actively suicidal. Maybe I didn't communicate that well when I was overwhelmed and stressed. I'll take that L too; I need to get better at controlling my emotions and handle stress better.

But seriously, how are you supposed to tell a precious friend "Your language towards me caused a serious mental breakdown" when just the thought of it caused insanity to ebb at the edge of the mind?

#personal

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tentajack · 1 year

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I think i figured out what the core of my current mental state is coming from.

Whenever I have a major life shift, whenever from my frequent severe illnesses or mass irl re-shifting or an unfortunately timed wombo combo of both, my priorities and time management and brain worms and even my tastes in media and creation will shift, sometimes a little, other times a fuckton.

That's not even going into some minor personality changes, which is why I've dubbed this kind of event an ego reshuffle. It's occurred many times, and it fucking sucks, sometimes occurring at the same time as either a partial burnout or a full one (never want to live though that again). The most severe one was when I had moved and had to adjust to working life... resulting in taking a four year hiatus from almost all art, which at that time had all been traditional with a little training in how to use ps and illustrator to supplement.

By the time I did get the spark back, it was nothing like what it had been before: drawing reverse centaurs and ponies on /mlp/ with only a mouse and GIMP and writing some smutty greentext on the side, almost nothing to do with how I had created previously aside from some side screenshot edits, back around about 2014 or so.

Time has come and gone,and I've had lesser versions of this kind of shift, but for clarity I'm just going to focus on what I've been making, more so what I haven't been making.

I've made lots of things that I love, and I don't regret taking over writing updates for Royal Quest, or any of the lovingly gay ass shit I've written elsewhere, but in the shuffle I forgot I was supposed to be working on game development this whole fucking decade.

It was easy to lose sight of that goal right from the start, especially with the fatigue issues I discovered after a few years at a desk job. I'd try to make sure I was making some sort of progress, either learning blender or setting up documentation for how to set up an alpha version of a game idea. But between constant and chronic health issues, a marriage to my loving wife that I must confess is much more co-dependent than I should allow, employment upheavals, and growing as a person outside of the shadow of my upbringing, shit got a little too chaotic, and my goals and dreams and everything about myself that wasn't tied to either survival or pleasure (I like to entertain a crowd with my art and writing and I'm not ashamed to admit that, but the chase of serotonin really backfired for focusing on long term projects... or all the gratuitous smut, again not sorry at all for that) simply got buried and forgotten.

I remembered just today that I yearn to participate in game dev in some form, any form, and it would explain why my ambition would burn me up despite doing what I could, given I was not making any progress in making an actual game. Strengthening my skills and making wonderful friends, yes, but if I'm not making tangible progress I feel like I'm dying. My ambition is a living flame, and if i do not feed it, it will find something to burn. It does not help that thanks to my irl commitments and chronic fatigue that my ability to draw and write and make has become painfully slow, and that's really really bad for making a game with no outside help.

I can already see what I need to do:

>Properly cancel Royal Quest

This one will be hard to walk away from, but it's been nearly five years since I hijacked it, and I need to move on no matter what before the five year mark. It's a shame I never got around to the three or four scenes where all the consequences of player actions came to bloom, but I can at least write up a short summary of what those would have been in multiple places and hope my players see the announcement on /cyoag/ to know I'm not coming back for a long while. QM'ing has been such a fun experience, but writing daily updates where pacing suffered due to my own fatigue isn't a great way to finish that story. Maybe I'll remake the whole thing in rpg maker someday in the far future, I still love the setting and characters too much to let them go for good. This will hurt me to do, I do not abandon any project lightly.

>Force finish all my don't starve WIP's

This one is more so the fault of an extended busy season and a bad illness, but I am way past overdue to finish A midwinters nightmare, and the two remaining chapters are not something I want lingering in my work queue. I'm going to need to finish both chapters by the end of February at the latest, even if it winds up being a shitpost-like version, I hate abandoning projects once they're in the public view and it is not an option for something I want to finish like this. I think the only other 'expected thing' was some out-of-season kinktober stuff that I'm going to try to do in February if I can balance my time well in the coming weeks

>Wrap up any other side projects and start daily dev progress

Once I have no promises hanging over me, I'm going to start some pre-production stuff on one particular game idea I had for a hunting/fishing/horror game, so that even if I need to fall back to a more 2d/sprite oriented game later on I'll still have solidified what I need for that main project. I know nobody's first game goes as first expected, but it won't mean anything if I never have a first game in the first place. I'll likely be posting those updates one way or another here or on pillowfort, so I can keep myself accountable (except on days I get sick).

That's all I have to say on the topic for now, it's late at night but I feel my ambition being fed again with this rediscovery. I still want to do fandom stuff, but it might become more and more of a backburner thing until I can manage time for all projects again.

#tentatext #vent #weh #kind long

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