#but mentally i was still vibing with the women lmao
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you would have to pay me an egregious amount of money to get me to actively care about tdd lmao
#vee queued to fill the void#track 5 is only exception and that’s because i do think tdd as a whole needed track 5#‘cause like track 5 added more depth between their bonds i think is just absent from tdd#but track 5 also had sasara and kuukou and that’s my primary beef with tdd lol#narratives that leave nagosaka out i completely check out of lol#i have a tdd poster hanging in my room that i WILL be replacing with either a bat poster or a poster with the homies and hoods art#when tdd legend happened during the 9th live i astral projected out of my body so my body could do its thing and jam#but mentally i was still vibing with the women lmao#readers revisionism takes effect whenever i read the tdd manga actually what happened was the six leaders formed a six man crew#and then they got so big chuuoku brainwashed sasara and kuukou to break up with samatoki and ichiro#and in a very harrowing few days/weeks samatoki and ichiro face off in that drb test run and ramuda and jakurai fight on a rooftop#lol i’m tdd’s biggest hater
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If you were a mermaid or a siren, what powers would you have? Whats your story? What song captures your essence? 🌀🐚
Hi everyone! Super fun and silly tarot reading just to switch it up 🤗 I always fantasized being a mermaid when I was younger and I still do 😤 mermaids are ELITE. Sirens too 👀 if ya’ll liked playing mermaids this is your reading —> Pick below 😈
• Pile 1: You guys love adventure as a mermaid/siren. I’m getting mermaid vibes for ya’ll instead. You would be the type to talk to fishes and have your little community of fish. I’m seeing fish school 🤣 like if fish could talk you’d have a little meeting where you’re the teacher and you’re teaching the fish the wonders of the world. Meaning you’re telling them your stories of walking on land, and they’re all so intrigued. Talking fish is a little scary for me, but I’m picturing the little mermaid alright 😤 and ya’ll love a good chase either with men or women or both. You guys love the attention, and love to hide at the same time. You never really give up who you are underneath, but you’ve got one best friend who you tell everything too. They’re probably a mermaid too, and they’re super sweet. So maybe you know someone in this lifetime who is sweet, you can picture them as your mermaid sister 🤣 or best friend. As for powers I get the power of creativity.
You cast spells with your eyes and the fire of creativity makes you feel alive as a mermaid. Other people are so intrigued by this they can’t help but wonder who you are, and what you’re doing. As a mermaid, your bubbly nature and warm laugh draws people in, and lures them into your energy. You’re definitely the kind to bring a topic up, scratch just the surface, and never truly give away the details. It leaves people wondering, thinking they truly know you, when in reality they don’t.
Your channeled song: Brent Faiyaz- FYTB this song is literally your essence. More so the lyrics than the beats. “I’m a hot bitch(cannot say the N word) check my degrees” thats literally your essence :)
• Pile 2 Hi :) I’m getting the vibe you moved away from the coast and have had to adjust to the city as a siren. The new life is something you want, but staying on land is temporary for your kind. Eventually, you have to dip your toes in the water. I see you as a siren studying in university or working in a job during the days, but by night your tail is out 💅🏻 you are reserved and it takes a while for you to slowly open up, so people are naturally inclined to wonder about you. You mostly spend time alone, and enjoy the peace the waters bring. But you know all about destruction, and change. You may resonate with this phrase, you are a walking tower of change. People learn different things about you; and you learn different things about others. When you walk into (or swim 😉) into peoples lives, they never remain the same. As a siren, your touch and energy cause people to feel seen. Naked almost, but no ones actually naked lmao. When they feel your otherworldly presence, they shiver and get goosebumps. Immediately, they know you’re different. Because you’ve seen many reactions which are good or bad from them, you’ve learned to isolate.
When you speak, when you move, or just exist, people see your power. People know there’s something intoxicating about you. They know you’re different, and to some it repulses them. For others who are bold, they are attracted to you. They want to know you, but you hold them at a distance. The unknowing push or pull attracts others and that is your power 🐚 I’m also seeing you have healing hands. When you touch others, they feel so much warmth wrapping around them. Some may want more than want you give, they want to be consumed by all the ways you touch them. Physically, mentally and spiritually.
Your channeled song: The Beach by The Neighborhood 🤍
• Pile 3! Hi 🤗🐚🤍 You guys are the real star lovers and moon lovers. Mermaid vibes for sure. Wanderlust and daydreaming. Some of ya’ll use daydreaming as an escape from your life. Some of you guys want to live as a human, and travel long distances without losing your legs. You fantasize about how humans are connected to earth, but find yourself returning to the water as a source of comfort. Both are important to you and it seems to me as a mermaid you want to strike balance with both worlds. You definitely are shy, but not quiet. I think if you had a chance, you’d spill what you want to someone else. You’d tell them your fantasies, your ideas of travel. And their response would be like, “why don’t you do it?” And you’d remember your reality as a mermaid, needing water to live and somehow you’d feel sad. You’re reminded of your hometown. I think leaving home, or a concept of home is scary for you all. As a mermaid, you find yourself talking to birds the most, your fish friends aren’t present as much. Somehow you find yourself connecting to birds more.
What is your power? Definitely your ethereal, starry energy. You resemble the night sky but a soft one. Where the wind blows gently and the stars are clear, and the moon is round and bright. People are comforted by you, and its easy to get lost in the likes of you. People like a good fantasy, they get high off you. They like the euphoria you bring, and want more. When they look in your eyes, they see nothing but a certain dreaminess, mixed with a longing. It makes them want to coddle you almost, or give something to you you never had. Thats how you lure others in. Along with your deep conversations, people think about them a lot after. It stays 🤍🐚
Your channeled song: Cool For the Summer Demi Lovato- this really captured your secretive energy. People are drawn to what secrets you hold, and your curiosity for the world pulls them in. So much about fantasy and paradise in this song, getting lost in someone, but for you its the world 🤍
Hi guys!! This was so much fun to create and definitely got my inner child going 🧜♀️🐚 comment below what mermaid you are & what resonated. We need more mermaids and sirens in this human world anyway 😤
Book a reading with me here 🤍
#astrology#devi post#tarotcommunity#divination#astrology community#tarot#tarot deck#witchcraft#tarot reading#tarot community#pick a pile#pick a card#pick a picture#fyp#pick an image
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Ok, so, I just randomly decided to make a list of Top 10 hottest (male) TR charcters... No idea why, it just popped in my head, lmao.
I wrote this 97% for the lolz, so don't take it too seriously.
So, here it is:
Top 10 Hottest Guys of Tokyo Revengers
10. MITSUYA - It's common knowledge that he's the Husband Material ™️ of the series! He was introduced as this responsible, mature, reliable guy with a somewhat eccentric hobby, and you may be into the cool, calm, collected, talented, kind ones, who're good with kids and house chores, but you can't convince me that your ovaries didn't do a happy little backflip with his glow-up in the last arc! You just know he's a little devil behind that whole boy-next-door act. 😏
9. SHIN - Ok, throughout the most part of the story, he was just Mikey's dead brother, who Mikey himself led us to believe was weak, generally lame, and a hopeless loser with women. Then we got the flashback chapters in the last arc, and what did we see? Capable, hardworking, caring, loving, selfless, persistant man, strong both in a fight and in holding his ground. Hell, he cared for vegetative Mikey for four years, pretty much all alone, sacrificing his own dreams and life in the process. Also, black turtlenecks and bomber jackets. That's all I'm gonna say.
8. HANMA - Who doesn't love a bit of occasional insanity?! The ultimate troll, both in the verse and in the fandom, tricked us all good! That's just how bored he was. Annoying, completely random and unpredictable, grinning madman who's only there to watch the world burn, by setting it ablaze with his own hotness! I mean, tall, tattoed, well dressed, cocky, handsome bastard, with sleepy eyes, anyone?! I hate the fact that he's giving an inexplicably strong 'boyfriend vibe'! But, I just wanna call him 'Shuuji'... 🤭
7. HAKKAI - This cutie is criminally underrated and slept on! I know Wakui did him dirty by not giving him a more complex personality than just a Mitsuya simp, but look at him! Tall, handsome, strong, blue eyes, lip scar, piercing. No wonder he ended up with a modeling career! And on top of the stunning looks, he's just a pure, shy baby! 🥺 Makes you wanna tease and corrupt the hell out of him! 🤭 Besides, his implied clinginess and loyalty suggest he's a keeper, and if that isn't hot, I don't know what is!
6. MIKEY - The definition and the school example of that old proverb - the strongest poisons are kept in the tiniest flasks. Yes, having incredible fighting prowess is hot, being a capable leader is hot, having endless authority is hot, being "emo" is hot, being painfully cute is hot... We don't care that he's pocket sized (and mentally unstable), with his endless charisma, our favorite gang leader very well deserved his place on this list!
5. WAKA - Simply, he's sexy and he knows it. And we know it. You know it. Your grandma knows it. Everyone knows it. Teen or adult, law abiding citizen or a crime lord, the White Leopard could make anyone anywhere fall for him at the snap of his fingers! ...if he only cared enough to do so, tho.
4. KOKO - Intelligent, smart, sassy, sarcastic, and plain insolent = perfection. This cheeky, well-read, super stylish, handsome motherfucker had us fawning over his strong, passion-driven personality, hidden under the cool façade. What's not to love about a blindly devoted guy?! It doesn't matter if it's the devotion to a cause or a person he deems important (#lucky Inui siblings). But fair be fair, that habit of sticking his tongue out should be X rated...
3. BAJI - If his fiery, man-among-the-men personality, undying loyalty, and endless kindness aren't enough to make you burn like a car, just take a look at that perfectly chiseled face, cocky smirk, and glorious raven locks! Still not convinced? Well, you're either blind, dead, or not into guys at all! We should actually be grateful that his adult version was only ever shown at the very last chapter, cause anything more than that would have been beyond too hot to handle!
2. KAZUTORA - There's just something indescribably magnetic about the whole "redeemed sinner" trope, and that alone would have been enough to get him a spot on this list! But since he also happens to have the handsomest face in the show, a beauty mark under the eye, the cutest smile, a piercing, a tattoo, and a fair amount of badassery and strength, it all sums up to the total of our dear banana tiger being the runner-up!
1. HARUCHIYO - Does this one really need any explanation? Pathological loyalty is beyond hot, wearing a mask is hot, scars are super hot (as already established), suits are hot, piercings are hot, long lashes are hot, pale blond/albino is hot, green eyes are hot, skillfully wielding a sword is hot, smarts are hot, being a little bit deranged is hot... the list could really go on for days, there's literally nothing about him that doesn't make him hot. "...Being a homicidal maniac and a drug addict?" No, he's excused for all red flags on the account of pretty privilege!
#tokyo revengers#sanzu haruchiyo#hanemiya kazutora#baji keisuke#kokonoi hajime#imaushi wakasa#sano manjiro#hanma shuuji#sano shinichiro#mitsuya takashi#tokrev headcanons#tokrev x reader#mikey#baji#haruchiyo#black dragon tokyo revengers#mitsuya#tokrev koko#tr hanma#kazutora#tokyo revengers manga#tokyo revengers headcanons#shiba hakkai
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Now, watching Mammon's magnificent blah blah to lazy i'm sorry
This is going to be a looooooong post
(Containing laughter everytime the name Mammon appears on screen because in Mexico and without one m it's a word to say call someone an egocentric ot an asshole or both)
"Women aren't funny" WOW MAN I KNOW IS HELL BUT HOW ARE YOU NOT CANCELLED¿
"He can eat my ass, in a bad way"
Blitz your fucking disgusting
HE SAID IT, OZZIE CALLED BLITZ BLITZ AND NOT BLITZO, YES, YEEESSSSSS
I know and I know and I know Ozzie is right and Mammon is definilty abusing Fizz and he's an asshole and Ozzie is trying to help but I really really don't like how he words things because out of context it sounds really bad but again I know Mammon is a bitch
Me: "Oh wow Ozzie hired Blitz and other guard, the guard looks like him, probably someone strong because Blitz is mainly there to convince Fizz, right?"
"Wait THAT'S OZZIE?? HOW IS HE- HOW IS HE SO THIN-"
Ozzie Ily but srsly you need to learn to communicate with your partner
I really hate how it looks like the upper arms are coming out of Mammon's chest I really hate that
STOP GRABBING HIM LIKE HE'S A TOY NOOOO
BLITZ ILY YOU TOO BUT RULE #1 OF SEEING YOUR FRIEND CLEARLY BEING MENTALLY ABUSED BY SOMEONE WHO HAS POWER OVER THEM: GAIN THAT PERSON TRUST FIRST HAND SO YOU CAN WORK BETTER INTO GETTING YOUR FRIEND AWAY FROM THEM WITHOUT RISKING YOUR FRIENDS SAFETY
"He thinks he's funny" "Offended"
FIZZ NO
Ooooh who are these two, oooooh no I don't like their designs
I'm dying, Blitz insulting the blue twins and Fizz possing like trying to replicate Blitz sass but not really
Blitz NO you're making it worse help you're giving him more pressure
Ooooooh I like this "song" I like it a lot
NO THE GIRL WITH $ TITS FELL NOOOOHOO 😭
Istg if the creep from the beginning comes back i'm going to chew my shoes
WAIT ARE THE HORNS LIKE THEIR EARS?? THEY HEAR TROUGH THAT??
OMG THE KID IS SO CUTE THIS SCENE IS GOING TO MAKE ME CRY???
FIZZ KNOWS SIGN LANGUAGE I'M CRYING AND I'M NOT KIDDING THERE'S TEARS ON MY FACE
(Takes a break to chill the fuck out)
Aight
FUCK HE DID CAME BACK, BLITZ, SHOT 'EM
Okay help he's a discord mod isn't he
Pixar villain complex
I'm sad because I know Fizz really greatly appreciates what Blitz did but will probably not be able to say anything
Yeah, called it, fuck you Mamon
I'm going to call him Mamon now idc he deserves it
HE SAID IT! "Good enough for WHAT?"
Oh you're cool I like you a lot
GOOD SONG BUT I STILL HATE YOU TWO
Oh God no the makeup it's going to be really bad right? This is going to be really bad
HE CAN'T FIT NOHOOOOO
Okay I can't even like
HE THINKS OZZIE IS WITH HIM BECAUSE HE BECAME FAMOUS FOR MAMMON AND I'M FUCKING CRYING
HE TOOK OFF HIS HAT HE THINKS OZZIE ONLY LIKES HIM AT HIS BEST I CANNOT BE FUCKING KINING THIS JESTER THIS MUCH THIS IS UNFAIR
Okay Ozzie again ILY BUT THE WAY HE MOVES LMAO SDGHABNM, NO NVM, I LOVE HIM EVEN MORE
ANOTHER ONE?? IT REALLY IS A MUSICAL HUH
Should've seen it coming
Whatever is Ozzie and Fizz is going to be my favorite song of the episode
"You're messy but i'm messy too" MDHFDDGSH
They kiss, i'm losing it
B L I T Z
Hey who the fuck put me into Helluva Boss
ANOTHER SONG, AND IF IT'S ABOUT WHAT I THINK IT'S GONNA BE I WILL BE SOOOO HAPPY
I would comment on what Mammon said but I need to make the image or else it won't work
"It's about you" "w h a t"
HE CALLED MAMON A CUCK, YOU GO FIZZ DO WHAT MANY OF US COULDN'T DO
Mamon clapping at the performance even tho he knows it's about him is like the same AND opposite vibe of Bruno vibing to his family talking shit about him and Idk how to describe it
Okay but everyone thought it was like a random song he thought it was catchy and when he said Mamon's name everyone just started to process the lyrics
He called him out of his abuse and everyone will realize how much he sucks now, at least a lot of them will
THE KIDDDDDDDD
God I was so worried that they were going to do THAT gag, i'm glad it was just Mamon becoming a weird spider
Damn Ozzie that's hot (Pun intended)
THEY ADDMITTED IT, THEY'RE FREE, THEY'RE GDSHADBHAKJLCNDVJAKL
I'm those fans screaming in the background that's me, that's us all
"You're going to regret revealing that Ozz" Oh shit these three WILL come back won't they?
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I’m kinda surprised that you don’t like Dylan? He seems to be such the fan fav I don’t think I ever actually seen anyone rank him so low on their list- what’s your opinions on his character?
yeaah i just didnt really vibe with him when i played, plus i got pretty annoyed seeing him everywhere before getting into the game (travis too but thats a whole nother thing). like good for all you guys for having fun but i just cant get into it
im gonna be honest about my opinions on him so if you reeaaaaally like dylan i recommend not reading. and i mean that genuinely
1.ive just. i immediately saw dylan as one of those like male characters that get super popular in a fandom bc he: is white.is a guy. is a brunette. is associated w/ a gay ship. and is fit under a "bad boy / mentally ill / misunderstood" trope. i truly and honestly dont care if someone likes these types of characters. as long as you're not a fucking freak, i dont give a shit what you do. its just such a prominent trend that should make you go HMMMMM fandom hates women and people of color! and basically im just sick of that trend! so seeing dylan also fit into it turned me super off lmao
2. in relation to his character, i think its fine, i guess, its nothing revolutionary. especially in regards to other supermassive characters.... i thought about this during work one day and like. emily has a similar character to dylan LOL and ive had this thought before but. dylan and emma are also very similar character wise! in terms of like. compensating ina very negative way due to insecurity! but you know whch characters get the most flack for being dicks? for being bitches? for being the worst? and you know who doesnt?
3. i also particularly hated the thing he did to abi during the camp fire scene. like. i dont care if you compensate by making jokes and shit, you're still an asshole. and so is emma. and so is emily. i dont understnad why dylan should get ANY different treatment. but anyway, that dare was absolutely targeted towards abi and nothing will change my mind on the matter. abi is very clearly on the outside of the group. hell, the entire time everyone (mainly kaitlyn and emma) makes comments about how incompetent abi is when it comes to dating anf shit. and so for dylan to ask what he did? it put her on the fucking spot and humiliated her. i dont care if he "saves" it if you dont interrupt as ryan, there's absolutely no way hes unaware of abi's standing social wise in the group. him asking HER that of all people is just shitty. he fucking knows what abi's answer is gonna be. and even though she never answers the question, the damage is already done.
and before anyone says anything, i know nick also was targeted in diff ways for being "incompetent" in this specific sense. which is another conversation im willing to have. but even so, rthe comment ryan still makes bout not letting that "prep aesthetic fool you"? and the way he kisses emma? he clearly has got some "game" or whatever the fuck. whereas abi doesn't really have any of those moments (except for kissing nick first, which is something kaitlyn ryan and dylan said she wouldnt do LOL). and speaking of kaitlyn? and in association, emma? what they did to abi is one of the things i hate most about them and what happens in game. its actually what made me begin to DISLIKE both of them when it happened. basically what im saying is, kaitlyn and emma arent exempt from this criticism just because i dont like dylan. and i also dont care if thats the "point" of truth or dare. it still makes all the characters involved fucking dicks. they know how abi is like, emma especially, so seeing them all pull this shit is just disheartening and sad.
and 4. i like being hastag different
#the quarry#asks#anon#mine#text#hopefully this is competent#my thoughts#jesscourse#discourse#[emma mountebank voice] ok :) i’m done#my TQ tag#TQ
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last tuesday of 2023!
i thought about making this my Yearly Roundup for last tuesday of the year but i think instead i will make this a normal tuesdaypost, and do a big yearly reflection on friday or saturday for last shabbos of the year :)
listening: twilight mirage, still in that holiday special, episode 23. the way that there are eight fuckin episodes for that special........in part 1 or 2 they make a comment how they might have to do three parts and i was like. lol. lmao, even. i'm in the bit right now where they're doing an election and it's very funny. thisbe as the debate moderator made me laugh out loud.
reading:
the best part of the game awards this year was the fashion, alyssa mercante: i looooved some of these looks. love the art corset on slide 4, jay-ann lopez on slide 15, the pleated dress on slide 17, the MATCHING BABY ON SLIDE 19, and the author's whole everything on slide 20.
sff's big fat problem, r. k. duncan: i was already aware of some of the stuff talked about here but i am definitely guilty of having less overt things - i.e. goblin emperor reference in there - totally fly by me. i feel like i saw a lot of people talking about rowling's fatphobia after she went mask-off but she is definitely on the more malicious end of the spectrum, it's a much much much more baked in problem than people give it credit for. thinking also about the locked tomb, which i love, but also makes some very weird comments about ortus that i did not clock at all until someone else pointed it out. just something i'm thinking about lately.
the world is hard, dinner doesn't need to be, julia turshen: what it says on the tin. some recipe ideas, cut down to mental bare essentials.
old growth, brawlite: saved the fanfic for last. obsessed with this. it's so so good. the format is a really neat idea that i don't know if i've seen done before. like, using the 'comment section' to point out 'things in the background of shots'? genius. i am eating it up. i should have signed up for this exchange. maybe next year.
playing: fallow. i might buy some games that are on sale tho lol, i've seen both pyre and ghostwire: tokyo recommended this week. latter is no longer on sale unfortunately but i am noting it down for later.
watching:
the fashion industry hates older women, mina le
history of bathing, bernadette banner
aaaand a short film that a grad student in my department made as a project. it's. not good. like i'm happy that he's doing hobbies or whatever but this short film commits the cardinal sin of being neither good nor bad, Just Boring. 2/10.
making: the [redacted project] is almost done!! i have 10 rows left. each row takes me about 15 minutes. i will definitely finish it by the end of the week, fringe and all. no pictures yet for obvious reasons but it will be in the first tuesdaypost of the year for 2024! the biggest challenge now is the point of contact on my left hand where i rest the knitting needle against my middle finger is aggravating on a sensory standpoint from overuse, so i have been knitting with one glove on that hand which has helped a lot.
there was a preview of these last week, but i added finishing touches to my gavle goat holiday cards! i used a metallic sharpie to add some horn embellishments and wrote a little note on the back, and mailed out a bunch :)
misc: the first christmas eve/day of my life where i didn't get chinese food!!! shock, horror, etc. i'm at my roommate's family's place so i experienced a real christmas situation. it was fine. her family & their home is like ... hallmark card vibes and idk how i feel about it. i want wonton soup :(
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In all of chaldea who do you think personality-wise is closest to Arjuna's wife? And would this make him fall for them?
I keep turning this ask around in my head and it’s difficult for me bc im not experts in his wives so my opinion is strongly vibe based so I don’t want to say something overly stupid
That being said I don’t think he’d go for someone just bc they reminded him of his wife bc I think there’s more to it than that-I do think based on what I know of them atm there’s some female servants they might be similar to? Possibly?
Draupadi is a bit difficult bc I have 0 idea how they’d want to handle her, and every servant we’ve seen so far who’s famed for their beauty (consort yu, Yang Guifei, semiramis, cleopatra) don’t really share any common threads except…dark hair? Maybe? That does seem like something she would have though lmao
That aside I am of the opinion she and medb would absolutely get along like a house on fire. I think she’s far less sexual and impulsive but they both definitely would relate to the desire to avenge the humiliations they experienced, not to mention they’re both pretty driven and outspoken. I may have just started making mental headcanons for them being friends and forgotten she doesn’t exist in fate </3
Chitrāngadā…she was raised as the heir to her father’s kingdom in all manners including warfare while still being a women so she’d probably be more of a tomboy type? Realistically given how some of the versions have her even pray to become more genome to try and impress arjuna she could even be outright masculine normally, but I doubt fate would do that. I’d say though that Martha, lakshmi bai, and Qin liangyu all seem relatively close to the kind of person I’d imagine her to be like or that she would get along with.
You would have to actively keep ulupi away from people like tamamo and kiyohime for the sake of humanity. Her ‘fun trick to get a husband 100% guaranteed’ is neither legal nor ethical and should not be replicated which is exactly why they’d try to talk to her.
Subhadra is actually the one I have the hardest time thinking up anything for. I don’t even really know what her thoughts on arjuna were as Krishna basically told arjuna to abduct and marry her and he was like ‘ok’ and did it. (I guess that was a thing guys could do then???)- depending on the version she either says nothing about it or seems happy. In some versions she’s a reincarnation of yogmaya, which would make her a goddess in a way so that’s something? Honestly she seems like the type of person who would try to get along with everyone-although i do think she’d probably be friends with Sita? She’s probably the one who has the least amount of people who dislike her as well bc who tf hates subhadra is there something wrong with you??
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vampires for mel?
OKAY SO THIS ONE. Born after several conversations with @musical-chick-13, my beloved.
And. This is a WIP in the loosest sense of the word. I wanted to write a short story about vampires for her because we both have Opinions. (Lmao)
And also because well vampires are my favorite trope but i still didn’t have a vampire WIP and this is still my only one which all of y’all should be grateful you didn’t know me in my twilight phase is all I’m saying.
ANYWAY. This is mostly built on ~vibes~ atm because when it became a WIP, my mental health was in the garbage and then I got hit with a migraine that’s still happening.
But it’s heavy on themes of like. Monstrosity and dependence and religion and just. Love. Jury’s out on the exact nature of that relationship but the women WILL be in love. VERY MUCH SO and they will at least be a 🤏littol🤏 unhinged about that love.
#hey hi thank you for this ask#and to mel#hey hi this came to be basically bc i was like WELP. IF WE CANT FIND YOU SOMETHING ABOUT VAMPIRES#GUESS ILL MAKE IT#writing#cuz like#shiki sounds amazing and i still need to watch it#I just need more vampire media to shove at you#cuz they are my specialest littol creechers#so#(waves hands awkwardly)#🖤#adventures in the inbox#wip game
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Film RED bullet review below the cut bc of spoilers but also it’s living in my mind rent-free and i gotta holler for a min (though I should preface this with saying i haven’t read wano yet bc I keep procrastinating but If I Don’t See EVERY one piece film in Theaters I WILL Die! Waited 32 years of my life for this and I’ll get my spoilers via the big screen if i have to!)
THAT BEING SAID lmao
the only reason i went to see this film is bc of JINBE it was BABY’S FIRST FILM and he had 8 entire minutes of screentime rip
the COWARDS didn’t dub the songs for some reason???? but Uta’s english VA AmaLee did her own version of Genesis and it’s a FUCKIN BANGER give it a big big listen she deserved to drop the entire album on the big screen!!!!!!!!!!
in spite of that, me and my friend are huge Jpop nerds so this movie felt tailor made for us and we were alone in the theater thank God so we got to be absolute assholes and jam 100/10
Uta’s EXCELLENT Cult Vibes my girl swung so far to the left she curved right back around A for effort
Every song being a little more deranged than the last as her mental health plummeted bc of sleep deprivation / stress MWA we love to see it we love a girl saying Fuck the Government AND the Pirates and streaming her absolute break down live on global television and taking EVERYBODY DOWN WITH HER only bc it is SO FAR REMOVED from Oda’s typical villain trope of Bitter Old Man who wants to destroy the world bc he is Sad Z i am looking you in the face
the Things I Care About and the Things This Film Wanted Me to Care About Divergence was... Incredible! Uta being Shank’s daughter got crickets from me bc ask me why i should care but it was immediately followed by “Strawhat is The 5th Emperor” which received uproarious applause and that was a spoiler for me lmao
Oda/etc Stop Cramming 48 Random and Unnecessary Characters into every Film Just Because They’re High On The Popularity Poll Challenge
We have a full entire cast of STRAWHATS. There are TEN STRAW HAT PIRATES. Would have loved to see a little bit of oh i don’t know Interaction and Shenanigans that lasted longer than a few seconds, i mean jesus christ I remember the older movies always having lots of fun banter and moments with the strawhats and that’s what made them fun to watch, i remember when there were Character Driven plots give me some of that back I come here for the StrawHat Pirates!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Did i enjoy Trafalguy turning up to babysit his queer platonic BF? Yes!
Did this movie in particular benefit from him being there? NO.
Fleeting Lullaby (song/scene) is Unhinged, Uta i love u
Luffy who recognizes No One Ever spotting that girl he saw like twice when he was 7 from 40 yards away and being like Hey Stop The Show I Think Know Her sklfsjfasd;lk KING
He said he was gonna go take a nap and Uta had a meltdown abt it, say you have Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria without saying it
ALSO Uta sitting in the rain stroking Luffy’s precious sleeping face and crying got me cryin in the club fr
That very quick flashback of shanks thinking abt Roger and Rayleigh also punched me in the chest but I went into the film not caring abt shanks and his daughter and I left the film still not caring i’m sorry lmao
Usopp’s observation haki connecting him to his dad and them both working to coordinate their respective crews was GODTIER OH WE LOVE TO SEE IT. USOPP THANK U FOR SHINING SO BRIGHTLY
the very quiet scene where Uta gives Luffy his hat back and she’s trying to be silly with him but you Don’t See His Face At All that entire scene so you KNOW he’s upset and something is wrong made me fucking feral I love Luffy’s growth I love his character development I LOVE HIM SFM
Coby was the REAL MVP of the Film
Jinbe deserved more screentime
Rob Lucci struggling to trouble-shoot the Elders TV sent me right into the stratosphere HOW fucking embarrassing sdfljslfksl
Uta fuckin died????????????/ Unconfirmed but implied
Oda Stop Martyring Women Challenge
this movie is GREAT but it’s not Film Gold
#film red spoilers#my shit: personal#one piece#i loved this movie and it was SO FUN TO WATCH but it also fell a lil short at critical points for me i guess there is just no topping Gold#and Strong World#and the Baron movie#and the turtle movie
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Further Umineko Posting
episode 1, part 2
battler is in the unique position of having been a Normal Guy™ ages 12 to 18, which explains a lot of his weirder comments on wealth (i didnt choose to be born rich.... my family owns a yacht.... pensive emoji) after all, he just got there. add to that, jessica (future heir) and george (oldest of his generation) bear the brunt of expectations while he is Just above a 9yo in the hierarchy. it makes sense the story focusses on his view, he is somewhat of an outsider and its easy to explain dynamics through his eyes.
saying the natural beauty of the island and its large wild bird population should give way for a golf course was a terrible take, still.
i said before that he is a very believable 18yo. so far the writing did well to capture that weird sort of liminal period between Playing Adult and internalizing the adult play behaviours so that they manifest in Being An Adult. hope this makes sense.
another conflict has been reoccuring; the servants call themselves furniture. there has been little direct interaction between ushiromiya family members and servants so far so its hard to tell whether this mindset is employed but them or the the older servants themselves.
POSSIBLY related to that, shannons winged emblem is on her thigh. no idea whether this is a funny design choice or, more dubiously, marks her in her role for life.
interestingly, gohda and kumasawa seem to be the only servant characters without this emblem. their names also dont follow the same convention as kanons and shannons. possibly because they existed elsewhere before they were hired to work here, while shannon and kanon ....??!?!? grew up in this enviroment and had to accept their names from it. maybe this is what "being furniture" means, their status is quite belonging-like.
genji seems to have been with kinzo forever, so he fits that category too.
would be funny if they ended up being some sort of enchanted candleholders, all beauty and the beast like.
i finally saw every family member, i believe. krauss and jessicas hair colour is suspicious but oh well. kinzos mental state has been tanking dramatically. he seemed stressed out in the intro but sociable at least. now he just appears as a drunken choleric. genjis is in the weird role of enabling his selfdestruction.
how much of this is him spiralling over some business he has with beatrice and how much of it is ???? dementia? i up in the air. krauss believes it to be later. it struck me when he said his father is already dead, only a phantom remains.
unhinged out there thing to say but kinzo reminds me so much of my own grandfather, though he had no beatrice..... there was always Someone bestowing evil unto him in his very potent paranoia, though. a few years ago i would not have been able to read umineko, i think. but my grandfather has been dead for a while and my family is poor and we didnt all get murdered on an island. so thats great!!!
they are very similar though, lol.
also weird that i read two visual novels in a row and both of them closely describe how absinthe is prepared and looks. unlikely but not impossible. ANOTHER UNEXPECTED PERSONAL THING: funny how i Just learned about the hour of the ox from enstars of all places lmao.
are both topics a staple in vn or am i just running into them by chance. whats happening.
according to kinzo, beatrices curse (everything she gave kinzo must be returned upon his death? or something?) manifests in the fact that all of his heird are incapable. i somehow think it will manifest in beatrice swallowing the family whole as if they never existed. women be eating.
i fully expect kinzo to die soon and for hell to break lose afterwards. currently the conference has the uncomfortable yet normal vibes of a family meetup but with his inheritance at stake it could get very ugly very soon. its funny genji hasnt come up in related conversations at all. it is not unlikely for him to inherit a lot as a lifelong butler and the only person kinzo tolerates around him.
oh so thats where all that comes from. huh.
"lol" rudolf said, and "git gud"
and i thought it was the witch who was supposed to murder
all siblings seem to be very business savy, safe for rosa perhaps, who openly admits that she still feels like a child. even before that battlers inner monologue informed us that being in adult in the ushiromiya family has little to do with age and all to do with success.
indeed, krauss gets accused of embezzlement because there is no other way to explain the source of his funds.
the siblings goals in all this seem quite clear for now. krauss needs his father financially to avoid debt and failure. eva sees herself as the most capable of the four, with an intelligent husband, son, and successful enterprise in the background. rudolf wants a piece of the cake. rosa is not yet as financially stable as she would like to be.
and natsuhi is caught in the crossfire, with tons of responsibilities but little power, as she is not related by blood. her chronic headaches are probably psychosomatic and/or stress related. her own family, while not clearly explained (yet?) seems to be very unfortunate and this much nobler cutthroat enviroment is destroying her.
the girls are, once again, fighting
natsuhis struggle has much to do with gender. she is related by marriage, left another family, will never be seen as an equal in her new one, and has the expectation of producing a child. it is also mentioned she organizes the private household and family meetings, so she got stuck playing along with her conservative patriarchal wife role.
this contrasts eva, who by all means is shown as empowered and ambitious (her husband took her name, she does multiple martial arts). by design those two are to be pit against each other, when they would have had no further beef otherwise.
the core issue seems to be whose child is to continue the main ushiromiya bloodline. their real problem does not lie with each other but with traditional values and expectations towards women. unfortunately being a narrative foil doesnt always mean you get to have gay sex or else we wouldnt be here.
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Its 7:30 Am Perfect Time To Post OC Refs
also typed All Of That out under the readmore in case it's hard to read. this would have taken so much less time if i just didn't insist on handwriting it all LMAO
Tessa Yadid Ahava Hassan
he/they
30 and lovin' life
under no circumstances a scientist, despite the get-up
lives out of his scooby doo van
unnaturally unlucky but SUCH a good sport about it
DOES NOT have lightning powers.
just... the power to strike himself with lightning.
TOTALLY different!
not visible here, but has lichtenberg scars down his back
does his darndest to be a good person & put good vibes out into the world
...despite those good vibes never coming back around his way :(
"oh fuck i have to respect women *runs into oncoming traffic*" kind of guy
their unlucky streak is how they explain "almost running over a random man" AKA meeting rae - though that's more about the "nearly killing him" part rather than the "new van roommate" one
speaks in a kind of sing-songy, overly-fancy way. type of guy to say "jolly good" unironically
their unlucky streak ALSO leads to them getting tied up with rae's past. literally.
imagine the next pic here
31 and still kickin'
more prominent white hair
right hand missing ring & pinky fingers' last 2 digits
bad right leg - uses a cane when need be
lichtenberg scars now down back & both arms
traded the goggles & labcoat for glasses with side shields & a Grandma Sweater :)
turns out being held hostage by a shapeshifting alien hivemind, interrogated regularly for information on your not-husband, and kept in a hole the rest of the time is Bad For You
has A LOT of identity & confidence issues on account of the same shapeshifter taking tessa's place back home
doing their best to Not Explode
despite all the difficulties the last year presented, rae has been helping them A Lot. which they cannot thank him for enough
still keeps their Goofy Helpful Guy personality, just. a bit more subdued
ok now imagine the rae pic here
Renee Rosalinda Romero ... aka just Rae
they/it/she/he (stick with one, alternate, anything works!)
Incomprehensible Age Disease
everybody's favorite time-traveling identity-issue-having gay alien symbiant
the species he belongs to survives by befriending other sentient creatures, living alongside them, and slowly (over the course of several generations) changing their own biology to almost perfectly mimic the other's
...so when a different alien species trying to eliminate all disease and "faults" within its society finds them, it turns out they make Really Good Lab Rats
rae Spawns long after that becomes the norm. he's a test subject for curing & treating fatal diseases
the Big One he's used for is very deadly, but rae is MOSTLY unaffected - the only side effects are both Physical Teleportation and "Mental" Teleportation
basically: rae clips thru walls and his consciousness jumps back & forth to past & future raes
translates as rae having random amnesiac episodes, OR knowing what's going to happen for however long
anyways. gets so stressed during "treatment" one day he just teleports away through time & space To Earth
wandering around 'til he nearly gets hit by a van & meets tessa
sticks with them initially out of confusion, but ends up getting attached
actually Develops A Personality now that he's not constantly stressed as fuck
extremely laid back guy. usually has some sort of quip for every situation
if he's in anti-amnesia mode, 9 out of 10 times, he just uses his knowledge for goofs & gaffs instead of changing stuff
tessa helping out with amnesiac episodes has made him a lot more casual about them
is often accidentally intimidating. in reality wouldn't hurt a fly
eventually, rae's past catches up to him.
ok now imagine the next rae pic ok we're almost done
Incomprehensible Age Disease (+1 year)
big ol' clump of white hair now
eyesight a bit worse, especially in his left eye. used to have fake glasses as a placebo but tessa got her real ones
lichtenberg scars around left eye
got ONE WHOLE INCH TALLER!!! short king.
his style stayed mostly the same, but she started wearing tessa's old sweater. it's comfy. :)
all of the physical changes to his body help ground her when any particularly bad What Timeline Am I In Now episodes come up
dealing with the whole Fake Tessa debacle has made him a bit. Self-Doubt-Y
but having his not-husband's shoulder to lean on helps them both
despite... ALL THAT, she has somehow gotten more upbeat than she was before
turns out getting to explode (at least one part of) the weird hivemind trying to track you down and kidnap you is sort of cathartic
#mine#original#artists on tumblr#if you read all of this you get a gold star and a kiss on the head from me#idk if i'll do artfight this year but (makes refs anyways)#Can you tell that i have a lot to write about how rae works. everything i wrote here is so oversimplified too for space reasons help#i also made a ref for the vaguely-referenced-other-alien-species mentioned here but they kind of suck and i hate them so NO POST
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i feel like this was kinda a long time coming but it definitely feels weird to write it down.
having a weird time trying to, i guess, 'solve' my sex life and kinda by extension love life and reconcile it with having an actual relationship with my family. the hilarious part is the thing that brought this on was me shopping for toys lmao. this post is like half sex half depression.
like i was browsing dildos bc i wanna try to experience penetration for once without clenching up like a vise grip like i wanna try to learn to enjoy it bc ngl im getting a bit of fomo of all the other girlies out there. and also ive never really had the opportunity to kinda explore different things sexually like maybe i was just afraid but now that im basically financially independent its like i want to try. the same way i tried last year but this time i dont feel like there's other people or things holding me back. except there kinda is
anyway the entire time i was thinking like wait isnt this kinda like analogous to a man's penis? yeah no shit but its the realistic ones specifically that get me. i'm like wait i really do not like that. it really shoves in your face that like this is a MALE sex organ (which ya ik gender and sex is not real but for all intents and purposes in this case, it’s male). and its weird its like my brain kinda gets that im a lesbian but there's a disconnect with my body somewhere. like ok i know there's a huge thing about this and its like stepping on a minefield but just for me personally. i never thought i had a strong genital preference specifically like i always thought well, i like boobs and i like pussy and if i'm like watching porn or whatever and a dick pops up im like cool fine that is an object thats not a human. sorry to anyone i dehumanized just now. but its not like i HATE dick i think its alright sometimes even great but is it something i want inside me? idk. not really. especially not face to face with a man its just disturbing idk.
but point is im still kinda mentally in denial somewhere like my brain thinks theres some deep trauma or problem or bias against men that needs to be solved so that i can like men. but ive never been through a trauma like that. and obviously im well aware i am a little sexist like i dont vibe well with men. is that why? like i don't like the idea of having to have a relationship with a man bc i need to feel superior somehow? or maybe not superior but just not inferior. like its just more equal between women. yeah i think thats maybe it. but i feel like thats not just it. i also feel like theres some biologic instinct that turns me off to them. or maybe its nature vs nurture and ive nurtured myself so hard that im like well i can't like men now. the weird part about that is that i'd think it should be the other way around. like how straight incels will be like god i wish i was gay but i can't help being attracted to women. its a question ive been trying to solve for a decade and maybe i already know the answer but idk how to feel solid about it
anyway i saw one that was so cute it was like a bunch of pink hearts but its way too girthy. plus it was like $55 which is just. its probably normal for dildo prices that arent the microplastics shein ones but also like seriously. i might wait for if it goes on sale if i think ill like it after i try a smaller one. ill have to order it next week bc i wanna ship it to the post office so theres no chance my upstairs neighbour would get it by accident. but tbh ive experienced enough embarassing things that when i recall them i dont even get embarassed im just numb so i think if that happened itll just go in the numb pile or maybe funny pile.
now to the kinda sad part. how tf do i tell my family? ive always known that im gonna have to tell them sooner or later and id do it after im financially independent but this is the thing in my way that i was talking about. my family is not perfect or even close at all but idk. they kind of are all i got. yeah i have friends but nobody close enough to call in an emergency or whatever. and i feel a bit bad bc they have actually done a lot for me. like the shit before uni was whatever like thats what you do for family but everything they helped me with during uni, even though i hated it, i did need their help. i guess if i had other people to rely on i wouldn't have. but im a really fucking guarded person like i really dont like trusting people like that. at least with my family i believe they wouldn't screw me over bc of something petty. i moved halfway across the country so i could have the sort of privacy i wanted and seems like my mom knows that but i talked to her today and she was like maybe i could come visit in july and i was like alright i guess. but now im like wait so what happens if i start dating.
i actually really dislike that it seems like everyone in my family, extended and all, all of the sudden wants to hang out all the fucking time.
you know i bet they wouldn't even acknowledge it. in which case im not gonna acknowledge that they aren't acknowledging it. like ill just pretend they accept it. i need to make some queer friends here like actually
or maybe it isn't as big a deal as i think it is. i do live pretty far away. wtf are they gonna do from all the way over there lmao. nobody's gonna kill me over it. worst is i probably get disowned or cut off. or ill have to be the villain and cut them off. thatll be interesting
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No bad blood here! Briana DeJesus and Mackenzie McKee were able to put their former feud behind them while filming season 3 of Teen Mom: Family Reunion.
“It was surprisingly great,” Briana, 29, exclusively tells In Touch of reuniting with her Teen Mom 3 costar. “I know there was a little bit of a hiccup back in the day, but we’re past that. We’re over that. I think she’s a great person. She brought so much energy to the house and it was a really good experience.”
Briana and Mackenzie, 29, were both on the only season of Teen Mom 3 in 2013. After the show’s cancellation, both ladies were interviewed to become new cast members on Teen Mom 2 in 2017. Briana was chosen to join the cast and Mackenzie didn’t hide her disappointment. “I hope MTV didn’t choose her over me because I am married and have three kids with the same guy,” she said. “The story on different baby daddies is what people are interested in.”
A few months later, she also “liked” a social media post that protested MTV’s casting decision. When Briana caught wind of the former cheerleader’s social media activity, she tweeted, “Lmao [Mackenzie] why?” Mackenzie did not directly respond to Briana’s message but she did seemingly address the controversy in her own tweets. “I don’t hate anyone,” she wrote. “I’ve always loved this person. But I can promise she hates me.”
Days later, she opened up about the feud in an interview. “I refuse to speak about her anymore,” Mackenzie insisted. “It’s more of a reason for her to blast lies about me. Best of luck to her.”
By 2018, things were still tense between the women. “The last time me and Bri talked she told me that I am a nutcase and that I need to get my tubes tied,” Mackenzie claimed. “We just kind of blocked each other from there. It was a mess.”
Luckily, they were able to keep the drama at bay for Teen Mom: Family Reunion, which features several Teen Mom stars gathering in Colombia to “create healthy relationships and heal from the past.”
"I really went in there just to have a good time,” Briana shares. “I know there was a lot of things that I have been struggling with mentally and thank god for the coaches there to help me learn a thing or two. But I just learned to just live in the moment and to just be patient with myself and to know that I’m not perfect. But I am perfect, in a sense, if that makes sense.” She also promises that viewers will get “a different vibe” from the show. “It’s not regular Teen Mom [like] you guys have seen in the past,” she teases.
#teen mom 3#teen mom 2#mtv#news#teen mom the next chapter#teen mom family reunion#briana dejesus#mackenzie douthit
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You're so right! People wanna act like a bi4bi relationship is ~different~ so bad but it's not. An m/f relationship in which both are bi is still a hetero relationship even if the people in it are not. Why would it be any different than an m/f relationship between straight people, after all the sexualities don't change the fact that it's m/f. But people get so mad when you say this because god forbid you point out their relationship isn't ~quirky~ and queer. It's ok to be in a straight relationship.
i think in theory it can be different if the people in the relationship are quirky and queer like i can't lie to you i don't have a guy friend and a girl friend who are both bi and are in a relationship together that i could compare to typical straight relationships and it just also depends on their personalities ig but also i'm thinking about things that aren't just vibes like distribution of household chores mental load weaponized incompetence and stuff like that not just being quirky and queer and yeah i just do wonder. like how different is it is it different i would love a study about bi guys vs straight guys especially because ngl but i don't think a girl being bi would change the typical straight relationship dynamic that much. my original post was more about vibes though because you don't even get quirky and queer vibes at all whenever characters are bi4bi that was my point like people want the vibes mostly but when characters are bi4bi you literally get nothing because it's not fanfic written by a bi person. and back to the studies technically you can be in a relationship with a straight guy who's great and so progressive he doesn't subconsciously think women are innately better at household chores and stuff like that but you know what i mean.
i'm not doing a if you're not in a clockable queer relationship you're not queer thing because obviously you are but when people are like um a relationship between a man and a woman can be a queer relationship because one of the parties is queer i'm like. i'm like nothing i just scroll away but yk. like that meme that's like they are a boring straight couple...unless? and they both have bi flags like. okay. that's literally a straight relationship the adjective is about the relationship not the identities of the people in it? you don't have to be ashamed of being in a straight relationship lol if it's different and quirky then that's great and it just means that straight relationships aren't automatically a curse for women or whatever lmao (i'm talking about the study stuff again even though that and the vibes go hand in hand? kind of) like shouldn't the goal be to make straight relationships better not to say this relationship is good so it's not Actually straight. when people are like well it's not actually straight if a bi girl person is in a relationship with a guy they're trying to be progressive somehow but i don't see it at all isn't the point of being bi that you can be in straight relationships too. and that you're still bi regardless of the type of relationship you're in. it's so weird to me it feels...backhandedly biphobic?
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shout-out to my Shakespeare professor who was one of the most put-together ladies i had ever met
i had her during 2020, so the end of the semester was online due to quarantine. but everyday, in-person or online, she themed her outfits around the play we were studying. and as much as i loved Ms Frizzle, when i say that she themed her outfits i dont mean this professor dressed like Ms Frizzle; if anything, she dressed more like the world's most Ms Frizzle-Like Version Of Miranda Priestley. this woman dressed in silk and carefully draped her blazers and wore pencil skirts or pleated pants with luxury high heels. she had the softest-looking waterfall of white hair i had ever seen on a woman. always had her nails and make-up done to match her outfits. i get the idea of planning outfits around Shakespeare plays seems a bit kitschy, but her wardrobe also screamed classic, wealthy silhouttes. she had a sun outfit for the Romeo & Juliet balcony scene, she wore all black for the mourning scene at the end of Romeo & Juliet; she wore an all white and silver-jewlery outfit to symbolize the moon in what i think was a specific passage of Midsommer's Night Dream and she also wore a green, leaf-print outfit with fairy-inspired jewlery for Midsommer's closing i think. it's been three years since i saw her and i have chronic memory loss (and my memory is all Bullet Points and no visuals, weird, i know), so the details are fuzzy, so i just really remember the overall impression and vibe; but i do have a notebook somewhere in which i wrote down notes in the margins detailing what she wore because i was so amazed at her fashion sense and dedication. like, even if i dont remember specific outfits that well bc of my own neurodivergencies, THAT'S how much i liked her outfits, i recorded them individually to spite my chronic memory loss (...i just need to find my Shakespeare class notebook lmao rip). but yeah, it was all very much what you'd expect a fashionable CEO of interior design or a television network to wear. she knew how to look good and relied on classic looks and silhouttes with that play-themeing. and even though i have been describing her to look severe, esp with that Devil Wears Prada reference, i feel the need to iterate that she's a very giggly, always smiling, squeal-happy, elderly woman with a very "Oh, I might complain about men in a generalized sense to analyze all the men cast in these plays but obviously I do not mean like the men in my class, of course not, you darlings are perfect, you're English majors, of course I do not mean you, you're special" Obviously Joking sense of humor (she made the same jokes about the women in her class tho, dw, her coy "my students are perfect ♡" jokes hit everyone she could aim them at), i loved her. she carried around a purse that was formatted to look like a Complete Works Of Shakespeare book; and for her introduction on our first day, she facetiously cuddled her purse with pursed-kissy lips and announced loud and proud (and with many "I can't take myself seriously" giggles) that she was a single, never-married woman whose closest thing to a romantic partner was The Bard himself
i just keep unintentionally remembering her as i myself spiral, thinking of all my chronic health issues and my combination ADHD-Autism and how my each-labeled-"severe" mental illnesses, my C-PTSD and Anxiety and Depression, means i find it hard to sit next to people sometimes bc their presence just feels so pressuring. like, i just feel stiff with my shoulders high and i am uncomfortable. it's only sometimes, but i still panic that-- what if on top of the flare-up days and the bad brain days and asexuality and caretaking and potential medical debt-- what if i cant even share the couch and need to get up and leave to go sit somewhere in private? doesn't that make me a failure somehow? do i maybe not want romance like i have hungered all my life for? am i too damaged or was i never made for it, or am i only wondering this because i am single? because it is a hypothetical, because i havent met someone yet? or would i be better off with a queer platonic partner, or maybe even no one? would my ideal future be me with no one? i felt so safe and at peace, albeit lonely but never debilitatingly, when i live alone. maybe i just need to meet someone i can feel safe with. maybe that person doesn't exist. maybe im not aromantic, but im just not going to meet any person like that, statistically. i dont think i am aromantic anyway. but would "the worst case scenario" (it isn't the worst, but the unloved parts of my brain likes to act like it is) being single forever really be so bad?
and the past day or so, i then think back to that Shakespeare teacher, who i am pretty sure is aromantic but either doesn't know or care about labels (and i feel like she might be because of her diction towards these men she self-admittingly had "very shallow" attraction to) as she is at least 75+ years old and identifies herself as a cis woman attracted (at least mildly) to men. she told us once that she's gone on plenty of dates, she's had men move in with her, but then she needs her space back because they breathe too loud or something else feels too suffocating, and now she's something-odd years living happily single and alone in her home with all her books and no loudly breathing partner around, and how happy she is with her life. not to mention how reading Shakespeare and teaching about him is all the partnership in her life she openly thinks she will ever need (which, i have my own inner qualms about her choosing Shakespeare of all people, but, sure, she's a Shakespeare professor with a doctorate in his plays, it makes sense she'd joke about hitching to his wagon alone and no Properly Romantic partners, fair, fair, fair enough lmao)
and it is so nice, even as someone socially raised as female (aka. still grew up with the whole "spinster, get married young, anti-aging" rhetoric) but identifies with they/them pronouns, to see a woman in real life be old and never-married and happy. all the women i otherwise know are either single and at my age (and almost all of them plan for marriage, or at least having a lifelong partner, in their future), or are women i grew up knowing that either are still married or were married. i never knew an older woman who was unmarried her whole life long (nor a man, actually? i think??), much less an older genderqueer person. and it's just really lovely to remember that even with the parts of you screaming "UNLOVED UNLOVED UNLOVED" to know there is still a future where, even if no one else has got you, that you yourself do. you can protect your own peace as you get older. and you can still be happy
it doesn't fix me automatically, of course. but it's comforting to have a real-life example like her to hold onto, to remind myself that even of "the worst" happens and i never marry: it's okay. that's a perfectly fine option. i'd be in pretty good company
#diary dump#shwarmi#me#idk i just needed to vent about this bc i sat next to my mama for 2 stiff hours before i internally went ''i cant take this anymore'' and#feeling very much like garbage the whole time about Why The Fuck Can't I Even Sit Next To A Loved One Without Being All 😰🫨😵💫🫠 About It#thanks Shakespeare Prof for reminding me life is long and its fine to do it on my own. i needed that#i wish i knew a way to tell her thank you for that comfort without it feeling creepy or self-deprecating ugh#anyway TOTALLT UNRELATED ive been fantasizing about owning my own house with just me and only me in it recently.. ♡
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Observations with a dash of my experience 🎄
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🪵 Taurus placements have such a soooooothing presence, they can make you feel at ease and safe and are very warm and welcoming
👨👧👦 I’ve seen Capricorn placements being closer to their mom than their dad. I’m not sure if it’s daddy issues entirely bc they usually have fathers that are present in their life who they really appreciate and respect, but for some reason they have a very distant relationship with them. I’ve hardly or basically never heard Capricorn placements talk about their dad, but on the other hand they always speak highly of their mom or always talk about her the most
🚬 There’s something about Scorpio men and smoking??? Like they either smoke or they are obsessed with the imagery of people smoking. I’m not kidding you literally all Scorpio men I know have an image of someone smoking as their profile pic on Instagram and some others just straight ass smoke all the time. They somehow look good smoking like it suits them. I mean just look at Albert Camus.
💎 Scorpio women are SURPRISINGLY thoughtful and loving. They carry themselves with such a fierce and empowering vibe, but when they decide you’re a good person they pull the cutest and sweetest gestures without being cheesy.
☄️ I’ve seen this observation a couple of times before but I’m here to confirm that Sagittarius men are total assholes and men with Sagittarius moons are ARROGANT af
💖 I once read an observation that said the house where you have your Venus in indicates the sign that is most attracted to you. I have Venus in my 10th house and all guys who have had a crush on me were in fact Capricorns
❤️ And then I also read that the house where you have your mars indicates the sign you’re most attracted to and I’ve seen this apply a lot as well: People with mars in the 5th dating leos, people with mars in the 8th dating Scorpios etc. This one doesn’t apply to me bc I have mars in the 9th and Sagittarius men are, like I said, assholes lmao. Tho my mars is in Leo and I’ve dated a Leo before
🤡 Gemini placements or Mercury dominant people as well as Sagittarius placements really can’t take things seriously 100% they always make some sort of joke out everything. Or they just end up saying something funny or in a funny way when they were actually trying to be serious. Geminis are just very witty on how they express themselves and Sagittarius has that type of straight forward honestly that is hilarious. So even when they’re being serious they accidentally (or not) make references or jokes that you just can’t help but to at least chuckle.
⚡️ Gemini Suns/Risings can NOT. SIT. STILL. They are the type of people who bounce their leg constantly, are always fidgeting with their hands or a random object or move very erratically in general. When they were younger they were probably the type of kid who never sit properly and always moved around. This restlessness if not expressed physically it can be internalized all in their head, depends on the person (I’ve seen this internalization more in Gemini moons tho)
🪢 Having venus or juno in your 10th house could mean that you heard about your partner before meeting them
✨ People with Libra in the 10th house are usually well-liked by the general public (Princess Diana, Bradley Cooper, Oprah, Brad Pitt)
💥 While people with Scorpio/Pluto in their 10th house or in their ASC tend to have a controversial plublic image or are just simply controversial people. People either “ew” at them or are obsessed with them and public image can be sexualized (Kim Kardashian, Taylor Swift, Megan Fox, Justin Bieber, Ariana Grande)
🌪 Capricorns placements are so SO SO hard on themselves, 10000 times more than virgos but the difference is that Virgos spent too much energy on self-criticism while Capricorns directly skip the pity party to improve what in their eyes is not perfect. Seriously Capricorns can be the type of person who shows you something they did and it’s literally perfect and they’re literally like “no this is utter SHIT” or they can be the best at what they do and still just constantly have that “no it’s not good I have to do more” mentality in general. No matter how much you hype them if they see something they’ve done as not good enough, it’s not. They tend to feel more secure and safe when they feel like they’ve overworked something and still be low-key anxious that is not gonna be enough. This obviously won’t apply to all but I’ve see SO many Capricorn placements have an unproportionate sense of responsibility (either too much or too little) and they can have the most confident demeanor and be very admired but be sssSSOOOO self-deprecating when you get to know them.
👩🏽💻 Also I’ve seen this “hardworking” stereotype of Capricorn apply more to women than men. Capricorn men (specially when they’re young) are mostly goof-balls and I’ve noticed they have a frigile ego but it doesn’t show that much
🗞 Uranus or Aquarius in an earth house can point to having a job in which you don’t really have a set schedule or where you have a say on whether you wanna/can do stuff or not at work or where you can decide what you wanna do, etc. (aka you have some freedom) for example freelance
🔥 Many famous models have Aries placements they just have that fierce look about them
👩🏽🤝👨🏼 I’ve pointed to this before but your 7th house represents what you attract and also the role you subconsciously take in relationships/connections
🔪 Scorpio placements really do have murderous glares. Specially Scorpio mars, they squint their eyes in a way that is so subtle but still makes you wanna run. You have to see it to really know what I mean
⚰️ Also this is nothing new but Scorpio or 8th house placements really do be obsessed with documentaries or shows about crimes and stuff like that
💋 Libra placements (Rising, Venus and Mercury especially) tend to have nice beautiful lips
💸 Capricorn placements are often called cheap or stingy and you’ll see them justify this claims with some explanation that involves the words “waste” and “quality”
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