ugh remembering the time i sobbed when i finished crimson rivers cause of all of the deaths. i was a weak bitch then. i could read it again and not cry

(also please listen to my crimson rivers playlist - here 🫶)

Regulus: You...love the moon?

Sirius: Yes.

Regulus: And you associate Remus with the moon?

Sirius: Yes.

Regulus: Hm. Wanna think about that any further...?

Sirius: I'm good thanks.

regulus “where are his glasses? he cant see without his glasses” black

i just saw a post analyzing why 2023 has been the most profitable year for the hunger games franchise since 2015. and they didn’t once mention that crimson rivers ended last year. i say give credit where credit is due.

“oh, well you haven’t read the big three—” i’ve read the big three. i have read the big three.

Sirius and Regulus 🫶✨⭐️💫

i have some thoughts on zar’s exit from the fandom & their decision to delete their fics and how the fandom is reacting to that. and the fandom is reacting horribly.

and the irony of it all! because, arguably, crimson rivers is what zar is most known for. crimson rivers, set in the hunger games universe, created by suzanne collins to criticize capitalism, the entertainment industry, and consumerism patterns of offered media and how it varies based on a social class. and zar’s work added so much nuance to what suzanne collins had written. zar had done an excellent job writing james, sirius, and regulus as victors and exploring their respective traumas when it comes to being in the public eye.

regulus (and james, too) constantly felt like he had no autonomy and no choice because he was thrust into the public light and pressured into doing exactly what was expected of him. and sirius? oh, sirius. sirius won his games and was made into this galaxy-sized celebrity by the hallows, expected to conform to every assumption made about him, to follow all the rules his new role as a mentor & a victor burdened him with. but most importantly—the hallows viewed sirius as nothing more than what he could offer to them. they looked at him and did not see the person.

zar wrote that, and tens-hundreds of thousands people read it and completely misunderstood. because zar wrote 865k words exploring how traumatizing it is to be made into an Image, to be stripped away of your autonomy for the sake of entertaining others. zar wrote that, only for the marauders fandom to do the exact same thing to them that the hallows did to sirius, to regulus, to james; to victors.

and that. that is fucking infuriating.

because, yes, zar is a brilliant writer, but first and foremost, zar is a person. and the way a large part of the fandom has been treating them is completely dehumanizing.

STOP saying “i respect/support zar’s decision but [insert a paragraph about how devastated you are and how you cannot stop crying]”.

STOP sharing the pdfs/epubs of his fics on literally all social media platforms when it’s the one thing zar explicitly asked people to not do.

STOP feeling entitled to the creative work that does not the fuck belong to you. STOP thinking that you have any right to demand anything from zar. STOP hiding emotional manipulation in-between words of illusory support and respect.

and to quote zar: for fuck’s sake, STOP calling them zeppazariel.

zeppazariel is a brilliant writer who was elevated within the fandom to a height so big that it hurts when you fall and crash, and the fandom pushed zar down. the marauders fandom made zar into a full-blown celebrity, but

zar is a person.

REMEMBER THAT.

sometimes i’m fine until i think about how reg spent the whole time leading up to the games saying he wouldn’t hesitate to kill james if it was just them two left. and then when it is, regulus is dropping his dagger and calling james baby before he’s about to kill himself so james will be the victor. because he could never actually not hesitate… and then my day is fucking ruined.

My own feeling ab Zar removing his fics aside, I am truly baffled by how many people are shocked by this and seem to have no idea where this decision came from? As if they haven’t been trying to set boundaries and distance rn themselves from the fandom for months. Like did everyone miss all the posts asking people to stop putting him on a pedestal? The month long break he took in November? The fact that he stated that he was no longer going to publish wip bc of people’s entitlement? Like it seems like once a week I was witnessing Zar trying to set boundaries and watching people blatantly disregard him. It sucks, but this is a great lesson to everyone who consumes fic. We aren’t entitled to authors and fic authors are under no obligation to allow us access to them or their writing.

"Don't look at them," James murmurs. "Look at me."

- James Potter, Just Lovers (Like We Were Supposed to Be)

Sirius: So it turns out I am gay.

Remus: Oh, congrats.

Sirius: Now I just need to find a bloke to shag.

Remus: I'm a bloke who shags.

When we found out in one of the earlier chapters that Remus is allergic to penicillin (along with other medicines) I thought something might come of it ,and then forgot about it.

I was absolutely not expecting reg to fucking POISON HIM?

And the worst part is I'm not even mad ,go regulus for that honestly.

(Fic 'best friends brother' by bizzarestars)

"regulus is essentially walking on the fucking sun at this point, burning himself up in the name of feeling warm." -just lovers, bizarrestars

"i'll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror" -anti-hero, taylor swift

All of you assholes getting mad at zar for deleting their fics suck and are part of the reason that they did. Fanfic writers don’t owe you anything. You read their books for FREE. You have no right to demand they post more or be in any way rude. Stop acting like childish 8 year old and grow tf up. Some really good fanfics are gone. You’ll survive. There are thousands of marauders era fics you can still read. Stop being shitty people and allow other to do what they need for their mental health.

So I’ve been re-reading bfb andddd

IS IT A COINCIDENCE?

IS IT A MOTHERFUCKING COINCIDENCE???

lowkey reading (and writing) fanfiction makes me so happy and also so sad at the same time like jegulus in just lovers has me giggling has me kicking me feet and i’m so happy but at the same time it reminds me that i’m perpetually single and alone and i’ve never dated anyone or kissed anyone and i’m literally GRADUATING (not that there’s a timeline or anything wrong with that but) idk it just is like WHEN IS IT MY TURN this regulus kinnie needs a james in her life omg