Alright! So I finished hand binding Crimson Rivers by @mayzarbewithyou :) this was my first time bookbinding so excuse the mistakes I am far from great, but all in good time! This fic basically changed the trajectory of my life so I thought I’d give it the love it deserves! the spine is regulus standing looking up at the tree and he is purposely put on the last book because he finally learned how to climb and grow. I’m so emotional over the end of the fic so this is very emotional to me. I did the typeset myself and there are some cool details I’ll try to put in another post, but basically I added all of Zar’s end notes as footnotes to the specific scenes he talks about! All very fun and the dingbats match the theme for the books and the backs each have quotes the correspond. I split it into 5 just because it didn’t feel right to have the epilogues in the same book as the war. They were two completely different parts of the story so I separated them. Anyways I’ll make another post. This was a labor of love and I hope I did it Justice :)

Regulus ready to set the world on fire for his fiancé...

i have some thoughts on zar’s exit from the fandom & their decision to delete their fics and how the fandom is reacting to that. and the fandom is reacting horribly.

and the irony of it all! because, arguably, crimson rivers is what zar is most known for. crimson rivers, set in the hunger games universe, created by suzanne collins to criticize capitalism, the entertainment industry, and consumerism patterns of offered media and how it varies based on a social class. and zar’s work added so much nuance to what suzanne collins had written. zar had done an excellent job writing james, sirius, and regulus as victors and exploring their respective traumas when it comes to being in the public eye.

regulus (and james, too) constantly felt like he had no autonomy and no choice because he was thrust into the public light and pressured into doing exactly what was expected of him. and sirius? oh, sirius. sirius won his games and was made into this galaxy-sized celebrity by the hallows, expected to conform to every assumption made about him, to follow all the rules his new role as a mentor & a victor burdened him with. but most importantly—the hallows viewed sirius as nothing more than what he could offer to them. they looked at him and did not see the person.

zar wrote that, and tens-hundreds of thousands people read it and completely misunderstood. because zar wrote 865k words exploring how traumatizing it is to be made into an Image, to be stripped away of your autonomy for the sake of entertaining others. zar wrote that, only for the marauders fandom to do the exact same thing to them that the hallows did to sirius, to regulus, to james; to victors.

and that. that is fucking infuriating.

because, yes, zar is a brilliant writer, but first and foremost, zar is a person. and the way a large part of the fandom has been treating them is completely dehumanizing.

STOP saying “i respect/support zar’s decision but [insert a paragraph about how devastated you are and how you cannot stop crying]”.

STOP sharing the pdfs/epubs of his fics on literally all social media platforms when it’s the one thing zar explicitly asked people to not do.

STOP feeling entitled to the creative work that does not the fuck belong to you. STOP thinking that you have any right to demand anything from zar. STOP hiding emotional manipulation in-between words of illusory support and respect.

and to quote zar: for fuck’s sake, STOP calling them zeppazariel.

zeppazariel is a brilliant writer who was elevated within the fandom to a height so big that it hurts when you fall and crash, and the fandom pushed zar down. the marauders fandom made zar into a full-blown celebrity, but

zar is a person.

REMEMBER THAT.

yes i've posted this on literally every platform i have, stop me i dare you.

crimson rivers regulus, after the arena.

do i have the faintest idea about how tumblr works? no. am i praying this will reach people anyway? yes.

Dumbledore: I have a mission for you…

Remus: Fuck no

Dumbledore: …it’s about Sirius

Remus: Fuck yes

Jegulus in crimson rivers by @zeppazariel !!! Absolutely obsessed with this fic!

The hallows and inferi drag James and regulus away from each other, cause what’s Jegulus without angst right?

A bit of a different style to what I’ve painted before, but I really enjoyed painting this:)

(loosely inspired by „Romeo and Juliet“ by Sergio Cupido, an absolutely stunning piece of art)

CR SIRIUS!!! ME TOO REMUS!!! I UNDERSTAND!!

Listen, I haven't read cr yet but my general understanding is that people need to fucking listen when Regulus threatens them

it’s always “i like you” and never “i love you James. I loved you from the start, I love you now, and I'll love you for as long as love is something that exists—and, if it ever stops existing, I'll reinvent it just for you”

i still can’t believe we went from

"You'll always be my Reg,"

to fucking

“I want you to be aware that I don't forgive you for this. I want you to be aware that whatever we had, whatever we were doing these last two days, that's done. Don't touch me. Don't sneak into my room and expect me to hold you, because I won't. Don't apologize, because I don't want to hear it."

choices 🤝 crimson rivers

some guy named troy??? idk i didn’t read the fics

James brushes his lips over Regulus' cheek as the last croon of the song fades out, and he whispers, "Will you marry me?"

It is spoken softly beside Regulus' ear, like a secret, even though no one can overhear. James has never felt more at peace than when he says the words, and he feels so calm, so content, when Regulus eases back to gaze at him.

"We're already engaged," Regulus murmurs.

"I know," James says, and then, "but will you marry me?"

"Yes," Regulus breathes out, "I'll marry you."

"Reg," James says, breathless, hand coming up to Regulus' jaw, fingers curling to grip his chin. "Reg, love, let's get married."

"Okay," Regulus whispers, a soft laugh tumbling out of his mouth, eyes bright in the sunrise glow of the fire. He breaks out into a smile and nods vigorously. "Let's get married."

Crimson Rivers, @mayzarbewithyou

in every zeppazariel universe, jegulus is bound to happen. also in every zeppazariel universe, james beats the living shit out of mulciber.

lolsies

regulus black from crimson rivers (by @mayzarbewithyou)!

crawling back from the grave to say that he is just soooo...shakes fist someone give him a hug. in fact someone give everyone in cr a hug

I just couldn’t resist painting this jegulus “what could’ve been” scenario from “crimson rivers” by @mayzarbewithyou :

“ "Sometimes, before bed, you force me to my feet and pull me in, even when I complain. We dance by the firelight." 

"You'd let me do that?" James asks, his heart clenching with how deeply the yearning hooks into him. 

"In that life, I do," Regulus whispers. "I let you do whatever you want, and when you want to dance, we dance." “ - ch 24 of “crimson rivers” by zeppazariel on AO3