sometimes i’m fine until i think about how reg spent the whole time leading up to the games saying he wouldn’t hesitate to kill james if it was just them two left. and then when it is, regulus is dropping his dagger and calling james baby before he’s about to kill himself so james will be the victor. because he could never actually not hesitate… and then my day is fucking ruined.

james “god i wish he’d stab me🙏🏾‼️” potter gotta be my favourite character of all times

this man just walking around with a knife kink and regulus is just so sure it’s trauma and it’s killing me☠️

crimson rivers jegulus:

regulus: i love daggers but i’m going to do my best to keep them away from james because i think him getting stabbed traumatized him and i love him and never want him to be afraid around me🙁❤️

james: oh you’re putting away the dagger:((?

do you have to??:(((

GET A GRIP SIR😭

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chapter 65 made me smile at my phone, not everything but especially the end with wolfstar and jegulus 🥺 i want them to have their everything so so much, i literally NEED them to 🥺💓 and regulus worrying bc he thinks he doesn’t know how to care, but he cares so much so so much even just worrying about it shows he cares 😿😿😿 i love them very very much, im a bit (a lot) scared about next chapter

crimson rivers jegulus (color version)

yes i cropped regulus so he doesn’t look that short but the height difference is indeed very big

SPOILER WARNING for Crimson Rivers!!

Regulus updating James on their relationship status and their life in general is one of the funniest and one of my favorite things ever

Like he seriously was just like "would you marry me" and because Jamie said yes of course, decided that they are engaged

I love him so much haahha and Siri being like "walk me through it" and then having to explain to Reggie that saying "would" instead of "will" changes everything and that they're not actually engaged... and Reggie sticking with it and being like "nah Jamie knows what I ment we are engaged"

Jamie just thanking Frank for the congratulations lolll - he was just so happy about being engaged he did not care at all that he found out at the same time as everyone else hahahah

And Reggie correcting everyone about calling Jamie his boyfriend instead of fiance

"fiance actually" when Rabastan uses the term boyfriend

"fiance!" As he slams the guys head against the table and Barty immediately "yeah be careful with that he is very sensitive about what term you use to refer to James"

And him updating him about their life still even after they're married 😭💜

He really just babysat a pair of twins for a few hours and the three of them decided that the twins need to stay with Reg and he just was like "okay Siri I need a favour also hi Jamie honey welcome home, how was your day? Yeah so meet our new kids because we are keeping these two" like I love this sm it's hilarious

Like obviously I'm paraphrasing all of this but yeah, I just need to gush about cr because I can't do that with anyone irl loll

Also its been months since I read it so I really miss it but I dont have time to reread all of it at the moment 😭

everyone else (mortal, foolish, severed from access to the prophetic visions and omens) after reading the new crimson rivers chapter: omg what if effie and sirius go in like finnick and mags??? what if sirius volunteers for regulus?? what if REGULUS volunteers for sirius?? what if

me (unkillable, enlightened, plagued by the prophetic visions and omens) after reading the new crimson rivers chapter:

@zeppazariel u cannot hide from my all-seeing eyes

when you don't have a specific fanfiction consuming your entire being for a little while after finishing a specific fanfiction that already consumed your entire being so you're sitting there untethered and useless like you have no purpose or joy because you read everything by the author who wrote said specific fanfiction that consumed your entire being and you need to find another fanfiction that feels like feelings but someone else's feelings so you don't have to feel your own feelings because if you do that you'll explode into a billion pieces like that one person in crimson rivers which is ending in 3 chapters and i don't know what to do with myself after that happens help

"You promised."

"I lied."

is probably the most heartbreaking quote of all time from any literary work.

in just these 3 sentences... i was completely and entirely broken...

"It's already done, baby," Regulus whispers.

"You promised," James whimpers.

Regulus gives him a sad smile. "I lied."

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i just finished chapter 45 and it lowkey hurting me in SCARED for the second arena like my hearts thumping in my chest i do not think i should read the rest but oh my.

james lying saying he hated bagels HURT ME like no jp you don’t hate them your just angry

THEN JEGULUS HAVING SEX IN THE LIFT??? no mate no you don’t

the interviews had me laughing i love them i love how everyone ganged up to assault riddle then riddle actually getting mad saying ‘i want them all dead’ i was actually laughing sm but then what he says afterwards wasn’t as funny

MARLENE!! MY LIFE!! MY HEART!! i love her so so so so so much like omg she started the chaos she started the riot she’s literally my IDOL i love her.

ugh i miss the happiness of the other chapters but whatever

i think I've said before that I've started to read crimson rivers because even though i'm not that huge a jegulus fan, my friend said wolfstar is also very main and dorcas is so iconic. which made me start reading it. and now??? i found out lily is fucking everyone?? why did my friend not mention that?? i literally talk about slut!lily like all the time. like lily having loads of situationship/friends with benefits and being terrified of being in an actual proper relationship>>> also ace-spec sirius!!! that's my shit. cannot believe my friend didn't mention that smh

“Don’t go to Troy” my brother in christ you ARE Troy

this’ll probably only make sense if you’ve read Choices by messermoon and chapter 25 of Crimson Rivers by zeppazariel

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the war was absolutely devastating, i have to get up bc i have to leave in 30min but i am devastated 💔💔💔 i think after the second game i was kinda relieved and idk why i thought everything was going to be okay now even if it is the literal war but idk it didn’t feel the same and then barty died and marlene and monty, i have no other word than devastating <\3 and omg i rly thought riddle had killed pandora minerva etc, its only when it came to remus or regulus that i realized something was wrong 🥺🥺 and marlene talking about marriage and being excited to meet the after war version of herself </3 i KNEW something was going to happen, it was just too sweet and optimistic in the middle of a WAR but i had hope 😭

more 84th hunger games jegulus cuz i love them (wip)

Rereading Crimson Rivers again and I just finished chapter 15. I am, as expected, not doing well.

ok i know it's just a silly little fanfiction on the silly little internet but at this point i have seen a few different people discussing crimson rivers james + the possibility of him going back into the arena in a way that just feels...kind of casually ableist?? so. some thoughts:

if your first reaction when considering the possibility of james going back into the arena is anything along the lines of "nooo omg he would die so quickly/he wouldn't stand a chance/he'd be dead in a second because of his leg" please! please. please just pause and think for a moment about why that is your first response and how that is informing your speculation that it couldn't possibly be him, because we know pov characters won't die and of course james would die if he went back into the arena with a physical disability. here are some things to consider -

when you talk about things like "disadvantages," think about where you're drawing the line. in the first games, we saw that evan was taller than regulus and better built for climbing trees. he had an advantage that regulus did not have. peter was certain that he was going to die, because he wasn't as strong as some of the other tributes. vanity was physically "disadvantaged" when compared to...pretty much everyone else. both of them outlived tributes like avery and mulciber. clearly, physical disadvantages don't always matter the way you might think when it comes to who lives or dies.

think about what assumptions you're relying on and what lines you're drawing in your own thinking when it comes to disability. yes, james needs a cane. he also gets triggered by bugs. regulus can't fucking shower. regulus gets triggered by the smell and taste and sometimes even the sight of blood (if i'm remembering correctly?). sirius has dissociative amnesia. like. nobody who has been through the arena has come out the other side without some kind of issue, and all of those issues could affect them in different ways that could put them at a disadvantage if they go back into the arena. pause and consider why you might be responding to james's leg differently than you are to sirius's dissasociation, or regulus's panic attacks. what narratives about physical disability have you internalized?

consider that we have actually already seen disability addressed in the first arena! james needs glasses to see. many people don't consider needing glasses a disability, because the accomodations needed for those who wear glasses are widely available, and because it is so common + normalized that those who wear glasses don't face much (or any) stigma in their day to day lives. but regardless of how you'd define poor eyesight and where you'd draw that line, it is undeniably a physical disadvantage that james needs a physical accomodation to address in order to put him on a "level playing field" with anyone who has 20/20 vision. and how was it addressed? super-fancy high-tech contact! bam. clearly, the hallow does take disability into account in some ways, because they want to make sure they have an interesting game. so again, where's the assumption coming from that james's leg would put him at like...an egregious and impossible disadvantage?

i think it's completely valid to have discussions about disability and to talk about the reality of how a physical disability like james's might affect him in the arena. but i also think that discussion should be dissecting and pushing back against societal ableism surrounding physical disability, and saying shit like "oh he'd die so quickly bc of his leg" is...not doing that. so. just some food for thought!