“second to the right, and then straight on till morning”

MADDIE BRODATT → my top 50 fictional characters [23/50]

Inspired by this post.

(Ian Johnston, Book 10)

Stop im rewatching why dan is leaving me bc of ur post theyre so disgustingly domestic i adore them

sometimes i watch that video just to feel something

"Is it somehow satisfying for you to beat yourself up for things you couldn't be blamed for missing? It's not as though it's obvious - anyone could have missed it. Why do you assume that something like this is a flaw of the self?" I think it's a preference thing, honestly. Sometimes it's more comforting to believe that you are the problem (so it's in control), while sometimes it's more comforting to believe the world is the problem (so it isn't your fault). Sif takes the former to an extreme. Plus the low self esteem.

We know the psychology, in theory, but it's... hmm. Frustrating, we suppose? We've been there, we know how it is to be hurting for control so badly you'll shred yourself to ribbons for a single piece of it, but it's partially that that makes the thought process so damn irritating when it turns up, especially when we sometimes have to play whack-a-mole with it in ourself.

It's a theatre of destruction for no audience. Ripping yourself to shreds in a way that benefits no one and will only hamper you later down the road. You attack your every flaw, and for what? Making yourself fear to try new things for fear of the repercussions that you yourself placed. Making yourself believe you are worse. Sabotaging your own chances just to pretend that you call the shots in a world that never worked in the way you pretend it does.

The more that you do anything, the more it becomes a habit, the more you take the cart down a road that wears and wears until the wheel-ruts are too deep to get out of, and when that habit is something that actively sabotages your chance to get things right, it does nothing but harm you.

Yelling at it isn't productive, either, it gets nothing done, but it is immensely frustrating to watch that go down, because it's an endless mud pit of feeling bad that doesn't even accomplish anything but making everyone in the area feel worse. It's the particular flavor of poor mental health where having experienced it ourself makes us a bit worse at dealing with it, because - well, we've experienced it ourself, and now we have to deal with watching someone dig a pit for themself and we can't even do anything about it because it's the sort of thing that they actuvely have to figure out and take action to handle themself.

“Nothing radical about trans exclusion” actually I would say women excluding males from their lives is very radical and above all admirable ✌🏻

You sure about that? Radicalism is gender liberation, which is only attainable through trans advocacy. If you actually dug your head out your unwashed ass, you could start to see how your transphobia resembles conservative transphobia. It's literally the act thing. I have never actually gotten an answer on why you think exclusion of trans people is justified but sexism unacceptable.

Cissexism is among the most dangerous, life threatening discriminations that one can face. There is a statistically significant trend of trans suicides due to trans exclusion. But if cis women had the same statistics? You would never hear the fucking end of it. Social isolation is the leading cause of suicide, how could you fucking be proud that you actively practice it?

No one is asking you to be friends with us (dont think any trans person would want to be your friend). You don't have to be a colossal bitch to everyone who disagrees with your bigotry. I am not civil to bigots. Especially not stupid asshole bigots who think they're woke. Your feminism is such a mockery to the idea of true gender liberation that you're hindering it more than helping. Your feminism is Susan B Anthony's. The feminism I subscribe to is Marsha P Johnson. We aren't the same.

Can Dorian stop bullshitting us into trying to get us on their app like if I wanted unrelated rants while trying to talk about valid concerns I would willingly call my dad

tw// traumadumping in tags

Liz truss really said solar panels are ugly like utilising the suns power isnt the smartest possible thing humans could do. I hate her man shes not just wrong shes a fucking idiot, shes dumb as hell its insulting to even consider her for party leader.

awkwardly jostles myself around at weird angles like i’m a headphone wire that’s always cutting out when it’s not Exactly Positioned At This One Specific Angle Or So Help You It’ll Be Silence Or Static, Fucker going hey c’mon man why won’t you work already :(

CHAMPIONS OF EUROPE, BABY

i'm a nail polish bitch now.

anyway I have one hand that is painted an irridescent baby pink and the other is black with red glitter and silver tips

this is joy.

personally offended that my depression comes with Bored™

finally cleared equi 4 on 2nd try after i got some passable relics for serval and pela 💀

I'm sick but delusional into thinking I'll work on my geto cosplay. Brother I can barely compute much less pleat the bottom or fucking sew a kimono sleeve.

I'll try (bc I'm at time crunch by this point) but I might die trying.

btw if anyone was wondering my wrists are still shit.

Ouch.