I take my wins where i can take em, okay?

Autism Awareness Month is over you know what that means

Hello Fresh & Autism

So like I find the process of cooking hella overwhelming as an autistic person which is why I recommend this service

Planning meals is very difficult for me as it’s a multi step process that requires multiple spoons.

From going to the grocery store with bright lights, loud crowds, oversaturated colours, unmasked people, and closed in shelves trying to find the ingredients needed.

To then figuring out how to properly portion the ingredients I’ve gathered along with googling how to clean and prepare each ingredient.

To finding a recipe website that isn’t stupidly long, filled with unhelpful details, covered in ads, with the tutorial hidden under paragraphs of text. 

Then figuring out what to do with all the ingredients I didn’t use and don’t want to let waste in the fridge.

I have spent way too much money on Doordash just to avoid those steps. So having healthy safe food ingredients planned ahead delivered on a day I chose saves SO MANY SPOONS and MONIES!

am i introverted or am i just neurodivergent and get burnt out interacting with neurotypicals

unmasking the ‘tism

how the fuck does one unmask decades of hidden autism? how do i find out what is my mask that i’ve put on for everyone and what is actually me?

mac and cheese is a BIG comfort food to us.

I just saw the most bizarre tiktok. A mum of an autistic adult male found bruises on him one night after he had been at day group. Took him to the hospital reported it to the authorities... she eventually get him to say using pictures that he was hit by a car. The police won't consider his testimony evidence as he use pictures to give it. This is tragic and I was with the mum until she then went on to say this was the actually autistic online communities fault because we waist all our time fighting over labels instead of helping her son. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK

a bottom-tier autistic experience is being told throughout your entire childhood that you are just an overthinker when it comes to social situations and later finding out that your friends did, in fact, hate being around you and tried to communicate that through weird little hints

The ‘you’re mature for your age’ to sleeping with a bed full of plushies in your mid twenties pipeline is real

the most helpful thing i have ever seen from neurodivergent internet spaces is “THERE ARE OTHER TIMES OF DAY TO BRUSH YOUR TEETH”. this has genuinely saved me from executive dysfunction spirals so many times.

No no you don't understand! I want to watch this show/movie, read this book, listen to this podcast, etc.! But I must be in the right mindset and the exact head space to begin, or I just can't!

Ah yes, the autistic experience of being more mature than your peers as a child/teen, and then less mature as an adult. The window of opportunity to relate is... not there

Autism is a disability. Sometimes it disables me.

autism & guilt

i’m new. i’ve only been aware of my autism for just under 2 years out of being alive for nearly 30. 

i feel guilty for “suddenly” needing extra support. for “suddenly” needing headphones, stim toys, weighted blankets, safe spaces, breaks from stimulation, understanding and acceptance from my family.

logically i know that’s dumb, because i’ve needed all this extra support my whole life but everyone just wrote me off as being difficult; when i refused to hug my aunts and uncles goodbye and would rather run away and hide, when what i really wanted to do was give them a handshake - but that was deemed rude and i HAD to hug my family goodbye because that’s what families do.

the guilt of standing up for myself now and saying no is immense. i feel like i’m burdening everyone by saying no, that i should just go back to how i used to be and just comply with everyone else and be uncomfortable, miserable, depressed and unable to succeed at anything at all, just because it’d make everyone else more comfortable

i feel guilty for existing sometimes because i’m not easy

Anyway last week my professor told the class "coworkers will put up with poor technical skills but they won't put up with weird" and after class I just went and sat in my car and cried bc how am I supposed to survive if I still don't seem "normal" even though I've been doing behavioral therapy since first grade but masking hurts so goddamn bad that I'm only doing two classes a week rn but I'm still falling apart and barely functioning every day and barely getting my work turned in bc i come home from class and collapse for days at a time and its just not fair, its not fair, why do other people get to be the normal, why do jobs get to be easy for other people, why are 66% of autistics unemployed/underemployed its not FAIR