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#and now i have two more rekindled childhood crushes . . .
pinkmirth · 3 months
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. . . is it okay if i say something?
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lilmashae · 3 months
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first and last! — park sunghoon x female reader
wordcount: 3.4k | warnings: eventual smut, light angst, maybe some form of enemies to lovers, petnames, weird timestamps (skips) | summary: your unrequited love, park sunghoon realizes just how much he needs you: resulting in a rekindling of past love! | author's note: i think i lost the plot somewhere along the way... oops !
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you wake up to a sunny morning, drawing back your curtains to let the light flood your room. it felt like a perfect day: your uniform fit just right, the sun beamed brilliantly, and the flowers outside painted a pretty picture. but nothing quite matched the charm of sunghoon, your neighbor, pacing in his room across the lawn, searching for something. you often stole glances at him through his window — studying, getting ready, or simply lost in thought. however, today he caught you staring, and after receiving a small wave from you, he simply huffed and closed his blinds.
despite being neighbors with a thin lawn being the only thing separating you, your worlds couldn't be more different. in yours, sunghoon was everything, while in his, you barely registered. yet, you weren't persistent, except when it mattered — like now, with your long term crush on him ever since you were younger and your parents would force you two to have playdates.
"hey park!" you'd call out from behind him as you two walked to school together in the eighth grade. "y/n..."
sure, he wasn't always the nicest, but it was his moments of kindness that stood out to you: like when he helped you up after watching you fall off your bike when you were younger, or standing up to your bullies in the tenth grade. he was always there for you when it truly mattered, wiping your tears and helping you up — even helping you pass every exam, calming your mind when you were frustrated. "fuck, i just can't do it!" you cursed with your head buried into your arms. "you're fine, y/n... you've got it all under control, okay?"
as you grew up, you also couldn't help but notice his sudden attractiveness too. he was everything you’d written about in your diary: dreamy and smart. meanwhile, he seemed indifferent, brushing off your affection without a second thought.
you crossed paths every day, attending the same high school and walking home together. "hey, sunghoon! wait up!" every time your eyes met, your heart skipped a beat—maybe there was he liked you in the slightest? but those hopes usually crashed against the reality of sunghoon's cold responses.
"i don't want to be late," he'd say — his voice monotone yet strangely comforting to you. you'd try to engage him, but his indifference always kept you at arm's length.
one afternoon, when the school was empty, you mustered the courage to confess your feelings — only to be met with rejection, delivered with a cruelty that cut deeper than any blade could. it hurt more than you expected, realizing that your pursuit of him was absolutely fruitless.
he'd been your neighbor your whole life, yet he'd always been so distant — that sliver of lawn must've been a lot bigger than you remembered. even from childhood to adolescence and now adulthood, you were always the one chasing him, praying for a flourishing love that never bloomed in the slightest. and as he walked away, leaving you shattered, you finally grasped the depth of his indifference.
through tears, you faced the truth: you'd clung to false hope for years. despite trying to move on, sunghoon's memory lingered, haunting your every thought — and as you left for college, you looked back at his house one last time, reminiscing about your silly crush on park sunghoon, your neighbor who never really cared about you.
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you spent most of your summer with your friends, going out to keep your mind off of sunghoon — and for the most part, it worked. you went on spontaneous trips with friends — even going to australia with your friend, jake — staying there for almost half of your break. you went to festivals and picked up new hobbies: meeting new people and laughing wherever you went. with each new experience, sunghoon’s memory faded, replaced by smiles and bonding, the haunting chills of your childish stupidity melting away as you embraced living in the moment, rediscovering your love. 
the months flew by quickly, you ended up spending your last few weeks before college with your family at home, not once did you open your window and look out at his house — totally at peace with his rejection.
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it was your first day and admittedly you were nervous — walking on a new campus full of strangers, except for one or two friends. you reminded yourself that everything'd be fine: you looked good adorned in your new clothes and hairstyle — your books were secure in your tote bag and your laptop was charged. you were more than ready, and the day'd be perfect.
you took a deep breath before entering your first class, finding a seat near the door — scrolling through your phone until the professor arrived with the syllabus review. "y/n!" you peered over your shoulder at the door, one of your friends waving at you with a huge smile plastered on her face. "hey, it's good to see you." she sat beside you, the two of you talking about your summers until the class began.
"how long've you been on campus?"
"hm... maybe a while, i moved into my dorm a couple of days ago." you replied as you finished packing. "oh, so have you been to the café down the street? there's this barista... he's so cute!" she nudged your shoulder as the two of you walked out. "i can't say i've been… i’m not busy later, we can go if you want?” 
“great! i’ll see you then, okay?” you nodded, waving her off as you walked to your next class until you’d see her later that evening.
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the cafe was cozy — warm and welcoming. as you and your friend queued up to order your drinks, you couldn't shake off the sense of anticipation. but what caught you off guard was the barista behind the counter, who looked oddly familiar. he flashed a warm smile, "hey there, what can i get for you?"
holy shit.
your heart skipped a beat as you looked up, stunned to see sunghoon standing behind the counter, wearing an apron in place of their old highschool uniform. you blinked in disbelief, trying to process the unexpected encounter. sunghoon, the same person you’d had spent years pining over, was the same one taking your coffee order. “are you ready to order?” you’d spaced out — lost in thought.
your friend nudged you, breaking you out of your daze. “y/n! what’d you want?” with a slightly shaky voice, you swallow your embarrassment: “uh, sorry.” an awkward laugh abruptly pushed past your lips. “americano… please.” you were trying to act casual despite the flutter of excitement in your chest. “a matcha, please!” your friend orders and he nods. as sunghoon prepares your drink, your eyes met briefly — you can’t help but feel a rush of adrenaline, wondering if he remembers you.
after receiving your drink, you thanked sunghoon with an uneasy smile, feeling a mix of disbelief and curiosity. “thanks.” you begin walking back to your table, but not before hearing that weirdly comforting monotone voice. “yeah, of course.” it seemed the roles were reversed, with you being the one walking away from him instead. It wasn’t until after you left that sunghoon’d realized how much he’d really liked you — he missed walking to school together and catching you glance at him through your perfectly aligned bedroom windows. and when he ran across that sliver of grass, knocking on your door, your mom answered, “she’s gone out of the country, sunghoon, i’m sorry.”
“do you know when she’ll be back?” 
“some time before you kids start school, but i can’t be sure.”
sunghoon couldn’t dare let you get away again — not after sitting in his room all summer, coming to terms with the fact that you’d probably never want to see him again. 
 “hey, uhm y/n?”
 it was an unexpected twist to your first day of college, but you didn’t want to  deny the spark of intrigue that ignited within you when he called out. you leaned on your heel, turning around swiftly. “yeah… sunghoon, right?” he nodded, and suddenly, your mouth felt dry. "it's been a while!" you awkwardly smiled — this wasn't the ideal situation, but it's still your first day and you have to make it work. "mhm... how've you been?"
it was all so new to you, how he seemed to take interest in your life: when you two were younger, it felt like it was always you — starting a bland conversation, asking how he was, greeting him in hallways with a warm smile: putting in the effort. but this once with sunghoon smiling at you and asking how you were, you felt your heart swooning. " 'good, thanks." you looked down, swirling the liquid of your cup around in the cup. "what about..."
"y/n! hey, are you coming?" your friend's voice pierced through your own. it was hard to believe you were looking at your childhood crush who's now even more handsome than when you last saw him — more skilled and finally giving you the attention you once so desperately craved and part of you still does.
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as the weeks passed by, you'd learn college was a lot easier than you thought it'd be. you'd made a small group of friends: supportive and comforting.
the few of you would occasionally get together to study at the cafe, allowing you time closer to sunghoon as you two'd indulge in small talk. you must say, highschool you would've been through the roof — not that you weren't already buzzing with excitement. luckily, none of your classes were overwhelmingly difficult. they'd all passed by pretty simply. however, that didn't mean you weren't overwhelmed yourself.
you sat down in the corner of the small campus cafe with your hands buried inside of your hands. the dim and cozy lighting was perfect for studying and taking notes — but it was also making your eyelids feel heavier, stressing you out. "i hate finals..." you groaned, waiting for your drink. "y/n!"
walking up to the counter, sunghoon'd noticed the look of distress on your face. "here's your drink... 'everything alright?" he offered a sympathetic smile while handing you the drink. "finals..." you mumbled, taking a sip of the coffee before sighing yet again. "it's not that i suck at studying... i'm great at it! i'm just nervous and all of these theories are making my head hurt." you really were the same — sunghoon laughed, "i can help you... only if you need it?" just like when you were younger... your eyes lit up, his offer gave you a rush of dopamine. "really? that'd be great... i... i can pay you, and..."
"y/n, relax. it's fine, it won't be the first time i've tutored you," he snorts. "i guess you're right, seriously thank you."
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it was endearing, you two were closer than ever — for the first time it felt like he was actually with you. sunghoon worked his shifts in the bustling campus café, finding himself more and more drawn to your presence amidst the sea of students: you soft laughs and beaming smile whenever you felt confident in an answer — with a warm smile and a willingness to help, he offered his assistance whenever you came in to study.
day by day, your shared laughter and easy camaraderie polluted the air as you two grew closer through shared struggles and small victories. it felt as though you'd known each other for a lifetime — really known eachother, not just as neighbors or two different bodies. as you navigated the stress of finals week side by side, you each found solace in each other's company — meeting in the cafe and library, even occasionally your dorm.
you weren't having the best day — busy and slightly overwhelmed. but it was warm, the gentle spring wind prickling your skin as you entered the library. you felt at ease meeting the comforting scent of books and vanilla. but seeing sunghoon only made your heart race yet again — the dimly lit building perfectly illuminated sunghoon's face, stirring so many emotions within you. "hey..." he broke you out of your trance, waving you over with a supple smile — notes already adorning the small desk as e sorted through them. "sorry, i'm late." you replied, pulling out your computer, opening your notes. suddenly, you felt something next to your hand. "what's that?" you asked, eyes still glued to the page in front of you. "your order."
what was he talking about? you looked away and then at him, confused.
"you didn't come to the cafe, so i figured you got busy — brought it to you since i knew we'd be getting together." the drink sat before you, still cold. "oh... thanks, sunghoon." picking it up, you noticed the small note attached to the cups side. "it's okay if you get busy, i just hope you'll keep coming to see me :)" you took a sip, rereading the note in your head and smiling against the lid of the cup. "good?" he asked, "not bad, park." you nudged him, the two of you giggling before beginning work.
that wouldn't be the last time he'd make your heart pace, but little did you know, he felt the exact same.
you two sat at the desk in his dorm, he thought you looked absolutely gorgeous with your hair pulled back, glasses leaning off the tip of your nose. you were so adorable, working so hard with your lips pursed in concentration. "so, i think that..." you trailed off, turning your head to look at him. "sunghoon? is there something on my face?" your hands darted to your cheeks, frantically searching — which only made him chuckle at you antics. "hey," he grabbed your wrist, stopping your panicked motions, "there's noting on your face." you stared into his eyes, you're so pretty... "no?" sunghoon shook his head, "no. but..." his other free hand came reaching towards you, tucking a piece of hair somewhere behind you. "...thanks." you murmured, slightly under your breath not even noticing how close your faces were... sunghoon doesn't know what happened in that moment but it felt right, pecking a chaste kiss on your lips.
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and maybe that's how you ended up underneath him? with your glasses far disregarded and your hair messily thrown, huffing as you two's lips met and molded together in yet another embrace. "fuck... y/n, i really like you." all your previous memories fade away into obscurity, one image remains vividly clear: sunghoon — not the person you once resented in your childhood, but the one you've come to love more than ever. the one who notices small things, makes you laughs, and picks you up when your down. "i like you too..."
you two found yourselves drawn to one another, your tongues intricately tying themselves into a knot. with trembling hands, sunghoon gently cupped your face, pulling you closer into him. his knee meeting your core sending a shiver down your spine as you leaned into his embrace with your arms wrapped around his neck.
your lips met in yet another a fervent kiss, a silent symphony of longing as you lost themselves in each other's kiss — time seemed to stand still as you explored each other with an unwavering hunger, moaning into each other’s mouths and pleading for more. your bodies moved in perfect harmony as they sought to get closer and feel every inch of each other's skin: you threw your shirt over your head and onto the floor. “ ‘so pretty, all the time… ‘wanted to kiss you for so long.” his hands pawing the side of your hips. “shit… ‘should’ve done it sooner, hoonie…” you sighed into the plush of his lips watching as he too removed his shirt.
you were eager, feeling his hardened length caressing your clothed clit. "is this what you want, pretty girl? y/n, please tell me what you want..." you nod, feeling his hands embrace your face yet again for another kiss. "use your words..." he huffed, nipping at your bottom lip, "please, sunghoon... i want this so bad."
his hands were sliding down your sides to reach your waistband, tugging your pants off and trailing kisses down your abdomen. his fingers lingered on the small of your skin — softly tracing imaginary inscriptions, leaving a trail of bruising kisses leading to the waist of your underwear:
pulling them aside he stared in awe at your bare cunt, your puffy clit and semislick folds, staring up at you once more, smirking — leaving another kiss above your cute little clit before licking a stripe up your whole cunt. "shit, you taste so sweet, y/n."
his tongue was hot, prodding at your sticky entrance. "f-fuck..." you huffed out, hands tangled in his hair. sunghoon's so soft and intimate — cherishing this moment as his lips graze and carefully suck your clit with his arms wrap around your thighs, nuzzling further into you heat before slipping two of his fingers inside of you. "such a sweet girl... 'sweet cunt too, 'can't ever let you go again..." you nodded you head, feeling the girth of sunghoon's fingers made you whine. "hoon..." you squirmed under him as he lapped your cunt eagerly, fingers pumping and curling in and out of your sopping cunt. "shit!" he was hungry — he's been waiting for this for what feels like an eternity. "so good, y/n... pussy's so good..." he hummed into your warmth, the vibrations sending chills across your whole body. "fuck, i might cum... sunghoon, please!" he was close too: about to cum practically untouched by rutting into the mattress — getting off on your sweet moans.
his tongue lapped your cunt eagerly — and right when you were about to cum, he suddenly stopped. "why'd... fuck, why'd you do that?" trying to catch your breath you look down at him, chin coated in slick and breathy heavy. he hushed you with yet another soft peck on the lips. "s'okay, 'wanted you to cum on my cock... 'sound good, baby?" he asked in a hushed voice. right now, sunghoon wanted nothing more than to give you the world.
you were so pretty with your fluttering cunt and fucked out face. "y-yeah..." you nodded, anticipating the feeling of his length stretching you out. you watched as he pulled down his sweatpants and breifs, his cock springing out. "s'pretty.." you spoke quietly to yourself, admiring his leaking pinky tip and the veins adorning his cock, slightly curved up and to the left. he tugged at it a couple of times before aligning it with your entrance, easily plunging in and kissing your cervix, bottoming out immediately. "shit! so fucking wet... pussy's so warm, y'know that? s'perfect, fuck!" he groaned, babbling to himself about what felt like nothing.
your tight gummy walls swallowed him so well, leaving him speechless. each thrust, he lost himself deeper and deeper inside of your cunt, hitting your g-spot several times, making you flinch. it turned him on so much, seeing that ring of cream around the base of his cock and watching you squirm and moan under him. "fuck, hoonie, feels so good..!"
"shit... i love when you call me hoonie, y/n! s'tight, ah, shit! say it again: my name, call me hoonie, baby."
"hoonie, please... 'think i'm 'gonna cum!" his thrusts grew sloppier — more desperate as he grew closer to spraying your walls a sticky white. "feel me?" his hand applied pressure to your abdomen, his cock bulging out of your tummy. "oh, fuck..."
"yeah, babygirl... 'hoonie's right... here." his hips relentlessly snapped into yours as he firmly held you down. "mpf! sunghoon, i'm 'gonna cum!"
"go ahead, y/n." another kiss, right on the lips. "cum f'me, yeah?" as you felt the knot in your stomach quickly unraveling, you could feel yourself clenching around the girth of sunghoon's cock. you wished you could stay this way forever, bodies firmly pressed against one another in a warm embrace, lips perfectly bonded as you stared into each other's eyes.
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the next time you saw sunghoon, was a week after. you'd run into his arms for a tight hug. "hoonie! i passed, i passed my finals!" he picked you up, peppering your face generously with kisses, "i'm so proud of you," and as you looked up into his eyes, you'd remembered everything — good and bad: rejection and fear and a strange curiosity that led to this: everything you'd always wanted. but most importantly you saw him, park sunghoon: the love of your life.
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guidelines and disclaimers | took me way too long to write ! i have no fucking idea where this went but hopefully someone likes it a lot 😭
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gabessquishytum · 7 months
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Alright, I’ve got an idea for you:
Childhood/high school friends Dreamling. They’re best friends/crushes and decide to be each other’s first sexual partner as well. Except you know, they’re inexperienced teenagers. It sucks. So now it’s awkward and they kinda drift apart after high school, as people do.
Fast forward a decade or two and they run into each other and rekindle their friendship. And their mutual crushes that never really went away. Seems like it would be a decent time to try again, right?
Except Dream never made the connection between their mutual inexperience and how bad the sex was. So he’s running under the impression that Hob just isn’t great in bed. Which is a shame because he’s really grown into himself and Dream would love to climb him like a tree. But he really, REALLY doesn’t want a repeat experience and/or have to tell Hob he sucks. Who needs communication, right?
Hob meanwhile is very well aware that he’s a much better partner these days. Except he’s somehow gotten the impression that Dream isn’t interested in sex. Might be asexual? So now he’s worried Dream might’ve forced himself into doing something he’s not comfortable with back in high school. And he’s DEFINITELY not going to pressure Dream into anything.
So now they’re just sort of orbiting each other, not really sure if they’re dating or just best friends or what because neither of them will actually talk to the other.
I think it comes to a head when Dream somehow indicates he actually does like sex/experience attraction. And Hob’s just like, oh. So it’s not everyone it’s just me 🥺
Obviously this ends with Hob getting to show off just how much he’s improved 😉
YELLING. This is so funny. I love it.
Dream sleeping with Hob once when they're both like, 17, and deciding there and then that Hob is a Terrible Fuck is very funny, and very Dream. And he doesn't really have any sex after that, so he doesn't have anything to compare it against. He just knows that it was awkward and a bit terrible.
Meanwhile Hob has been out there fucking his heart out and improving his technique. When they reconnect he's desperate to show Dream how different he is (and how he can actually put a condom on without coming too soon, whoop!). He figures that maybe Dream will come to him when he's ready, and they keep dating happily.
But Dream never initiates anything. He talks about the kind of porn he likes, and Hob knows that he wanks sometimes. He even mentions people that he finds fuckable. Hob is half convinced that Dream might be ace, and half convinced that Dream just... doesn't want to have sex with him.
Hob’s not the kind of person to let that fester in his heart, though. He explains that he won't be mad if Dream doesn't want to have sex, it's totally cool etcetera. He just feels like maybe Dream specifically isn't into him? And that's not... ideal.
Dream in turn explains that he's just not keen to repeat their first sexual encounter - the embarrassment might kill him this time. He doesn't get why Hob starts laughing and doesn't seem able to stop.
Hob eventually wheezes that he's not 17 anymore. He's not gonna do anything that Dream doesn't like, but he'd be honoured to show that he's picked up a few skills in the last decade or so.
Poor Dream actually ends up even more embarrassed than ever because Hob is, in fact, Very Good at sex. They could have been doing it this whole time! Hob is still laughing as he goes down on Dream for the first time, but the vibrations of his mouth do feel very good against Dream’s hole so... that's ok. Better than ok, even <3
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yandere-writer-momo · 11 months
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So I'm a sucker for childhood friends that get separated when young and reunite as adults and fall in love. How would the boys be to a reader like that?
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I love a good childhood friends to lovers 🥰 Especially with the sorts of things I write because my parents didn’t hold me enough as a child and that’s why I am mentally ill 🌚 But I am a Yandere account so it’s going to be sick love
AND DO YOU KNOW WHO I REALLY THINK FITS THIS TROPE?! KATSUMI AND HIS BROTHER MUMON
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Childhood friends reunited!
Katsumi Orochi and Mumon Katsuragi edition
Katsumi Orochi vs Mumo Katsuragi
You were once their childhood friend. Someone they’d always play games with. Their favorite being you as the princess, Mumon as the dragon, and Katsumi as the knight. Their childhood was full of imagination and promises of marrying you (mostly Katsumi promising). Katsumi hated that you seemed to like his brother more while his brother didn’t seem interested in you
When Mumon left the circus, Katsumi was the one who hogged all of your time. He made sure you didn’t cry much over the loss of your friend (and his brother). Katsumi dedicated himself to filling the hole in your tiny heart
When Katsumi was adopted, he was able to convince his adoptive parents to take you in as well. Katsumi never wanted to be apart from you and his new parents were able to find a family nearby to adopt you. Katsumi was so thrilled that you two didn’t have to be apart. He could protect you forever then!
As you two got older, Katsumi’s feelings only intensified. Meanwhile, you cared for Katsumi as a sibling. Katsumi chased every suitor away from you before you even noticed. He wasn’t going to let anyone swoop in and steal you away. You promised Katsumi you’d marry him one day and he didn’t want you to ever forget that promise
It was the one time he wasn’t around that you ran into Mumon again. His red hair and beautiful face were his trademark. The older Mumon approaching you with a smile as he pulled you into his arms. This is the first time he had ever been the one to initiate affection with you. It rekindled your childhood crush on him
You secretly began meeting with Mumon behind Katsumi’s back. Mumon sharing all of his stories with you and how he’s on a path to avenge his mentor. You just smile and listen. It’s nice to see that Mumon was healthy and safe. Your crush dies down and you see Mumon as a friend but Mumon now sees you in a romantic way, he misses the way you used to cling to him when you were children
You begin to notice Katsumi and his efforts. You ask him out on a date. Katsumi is over the moon that when the two of you finally get to go on a date. He’s been wanting to do this for years but he’s always been too scared to ask you in fear of you not returning an ounce of his feelings
When you meet with Mumon again, you excitedly tell him how you and Katsumi are dating. Mumon smiles politely and excuses himself. He absolutely loses it once he’s far away from you. He’s so angry with himself for not coming to see you sooner. But Mumon isn’t easily going to give up on you. He decides to up the charm
You’re a bit weirded out when Mumon starts bringing you flowers for you friendly meetups and how he brazenly asks you out. You reject him. You’re with Katsumi now
Mumon decides to fight Katsumi. Katsumi is surprised to see Mumon enter the dojo. And even more surprised that Mumon wants to fight him for your hand. But Katsumi takes him up on it. It’s Katsumi’s turn to have your endless adoration. Mumon had his chance and he abandoned you
It’s up to you to decide which of them is worthy of being your partner
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iliketoreadstuf · 5 months
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my works
all of my fics in one place for you <3
WIPs:
linger on your pale blue eyes: Nico di Angelo and Will Solace haven't spoken in years. The once best friends are only distant strangers after Will moved to Texas as a kid. Now, years later, Will has returned to work at the same amusement park as Nico.
Will they rekindle their friendship... or maybe something more? (solangelo, multi-chap)
because i liked a boy: James Potter is a well-known celebrity riding the high of his acting career. After breaking up with his longtime girlfriend and past co-star, Lily Evans, he enters a relationship with Regulus Black.
Chaos ensues. (jegulus, multi-chap)
sing your heart out: In a last-ditch effort to escape his parent's control before settling down at their finance firm, Regulus takes a leap of faith and auditions for The Voice, which will be coached by the four members of the Marauders. (jegulus, marylily, rosekiller, multi-chap)
boys don't cry: It all starts with a girl who doesn't know her name, a childhood board game, and the disappearance of Regulus Black.
or, the marauders if they existed in Stranger Things (jegulus, wolfstar, nobleflower + others, multi-chap)
every summer after (on hiatus): Regulus Black has never had friends, all except for his childhood best friend that moved away years ago. What will happen when said best friend turns back up as his roommate at summer camp?
or, a Bartylus childhood friends to lovers story told through each summer at camp and the letter correspondence between reg and barty during the rest of the year. (bartylus multi-chap)
stereotypical (on hiatus): Remus is a basketball player, Sirius is in Marching Band. Alternately, James is a basketball player, Regulus is a theater nerd. Chaos ensues. (jegulus, wolfstar, multi-chap)
Finished Fics:
and i'll never go home again (place the call, feel it start): Camp Half Blood holds a volleyball tournament every summer. This the first time Nico di Angelo has ever had a chance to participate, and on Will Solace's team nonetheless. (solangelo, multi-chap)
close proximity: Marauders x Holiday Season x Office Romance. Fluff. Mutual pining. Falling in love. Happy endings only. Enjoy. (jegulus, wolfstar + others, multi-chap) written with @prongsisthesun
anything can happen: after getting out of tumultuous relationships, both regulus and remus are desperate for a break. deciding to go on a vacation and switch homes for christmas, both of them find out the true meaning of love and what it takes to keep it.
or, a marauders AU set in "The Holiday" (jegulus, wolfstar, multi-chap)
second chances: when Regulus is hit with a rogue spell that sends him back to a 6-year-old, Sirius is forced to face their adversities and grow past their animosity. (jegulus multi-chap)
touch starved: Regulus can't sleep; James can't sleep. They fix this by cuddling. (jegulus one shot)
it's worse to be nothing with you: After his ex left him with no warning, Regulus has to find some semblance of normal. That is, until his ex returns 8 months later on his doorstep. (bartylus one shot)
harry vs. the homo sapiens agenda: Harry Potter has a lovely life: loving family, amazing friends. But he has a secret. No one knows that he's gay. Well, no one but his anonymous pen pal "Dragon". What will happen when his emails are found by the wrong person? (drarry multi-chap)
a real cowboy: Harry dresses up as a cowboy for a Halloween party at the Gryffindor frat house. Draco finds him. (drarry one shot)
i feel more free than i have in years: Narcissa Black has been brought up to be the perfect ballerina, but her long-time crush on Alice Fortescue seems to always take precedent over everything. (nobleflower one shot)
to me, you are perfect: What if the Marauders existed in Love, Actually? (jegulus, wolfstar, dorlene + others multi-chap)
sweeter than revenge: In the aftermath of The Prank, Remus finds himself desperate to get revenge on Sirius. And what better way than fake dating his brother and two best friends? (jegulus, wolfstar multi-chap)
sometimes it's easier to be invisible: Regulus Black hates James Potter. He's loud, egotistic, and replaced Regulus at a time he needed Sirius the most. But when Regulus gets kicked out of his home and forced to live with him, will their spark grow or die? (jegulus-centric, multi-chap)
Blinding Lights Universe:
blinding lights: Regulus is the highest-paid actor of his generation, and when his brother's band agrees to write a song for his film, the brothers are forced to speak to each other again after seven years. (jegulus, marylily, rosekiller, multi-chap)
lifeline: Years before they ever dated, James sent Regulus post cards in hopes of getting a reply. He finally does. (jegulus one shot)
keep his name out of your mouth: What happens when someone publicly drags Regulus's husband on live tv? They get socked in the face. (jegulus one shot)
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virgo-mess · 5 months
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Good Cop, Bad Cop
I forgot to mention this is a request from @karatekels!
And there will be three parts to this! Next chapter is dubcon and should be up hopefully tomorrow evening or possibly early morning depending on how quick I can crank it out for you. This part is on the longer side, but I felt like reader and Cash needed a little more development.
Enjoy!
TW: Abduction, Vague mentions of abuse, mentions of unhealthy attachment styles, depression, bleeding, pressure points, police corruption, tiny bit of fluff in some areas but it's slightly manipulative so....... 😂 I think maybe Cash actually does mean it, but I honestly can't decide what do you guys think?
Chapter 2: Romantic Cop?
Reader’s Pov
            You take a deep breath as you stare up at the ceiling in your childhood bedroom. Debating on whether you wanted to get up today or not; you knew you had to eventually Daisy wanted you to go to her last fitting with her and try on the two maid of honor dress options she had picked out for you. You found that without having to go to work getting out of bed was hard for you now. You guess the post break up blues are finally catching up to you; the emotional numbness you had felt for so long was finally starting to disappear. You knew you’d be sad, but you hadn’t expected to feel so lonely.
            “Y/N” comes your mother’s voice form outside your closed bedroom door. You let out a soft sigh knowing that she’s coming to have one of her signature heart to heart discussions. You knew one was coming, your boss had told her about your panic attack in the office last week. You were surprised she hadn’t tried to force one on you the day you had got there.
            “You can come in” you replied softly as you moved yourself into a sitting position. Your mom opened the door slowly and walked over to your bed with a tray in her hands. She gave you a loving smile and a kiss on the head before setting it on your lap. It was filled with all your favorite foods and a fresh cup of tea. “Thanks mom” you said picking up a cinnamon roll and taking a bite.
            “You’re welcome pumpkin. We should really talk, you know. I know you don’t like to, and I think that’s my fault.” She admitted, your eyes snapped towards her in surprise. You furrow your brows taking a quick sip of tea before responding.
            “Why would you think that? It’s not your fault Jack cheated and left me for her…” you trail off trying not to think about it too hard because thinking about it still hurt even after two years. Your mom sighed placing a reassuring hand on top of your leg.
            “I know that’s not my fault, that wasn’t your fault either. I’m talking about the way you’re choosing to handle it being my fault. You already know I’ve talked about you in therapy, and we got to talking about what might cause your avoidance behavior. He said it usually all comes down to attachment styles that develop in early childhood.” She said slowly, you resist the urge to roll your eyes and take another bite of your cinnamon roll to prevent a groan from escaping your lips. You hadn’t planned on having a therapy session this morning and suddenly wished you had forced yourself out of bed to take your morning walk. You were actually supposed to go on it with Cash but left him a text message saying you weren’t feeling well and that you’d see him at the fitting later. You and Cash had been spending the days before the wedding catching up and hanging out. You find it a bit odd Cash has all but glued himself to your side, but you can’t bring yourself to mind because you actually enjoy his company. The last few years in New York were so lonely, most of the friends you had were friends with your ex-boyfriend first so when shit hit the fan not many picked you in the “divorce”. Being with Cash was helping you sort through all your feelings in a weird therapeutic type of way. All your alone time had defiantly rekindled your childhood crush, you were starting to feel butterflies when he smiled at you again. You never had the courage to act on your feelings back then and you weren’t sure you were ready to act on them now, it’s not like he was going to stick around if he knew anyway. You were sure that when the wedding was over, he’d go back to Cleveland and disappear for another twelve years. You weren’t sure if you could handle him abandoning you a second time.
            “And what did he decide my attachment style was?” you ask just to humor her. Your mom gave you a knowing sort of look as she watched you take another sip of tea.
            “He said it sounds like you have a disorganized attachment style. He can’t be sure unless he sees you, have you reconsidered therapy?” she said, you furrow your brows at her again. You didn’t know all that much about attachment styles, but you did know what that one was usually caused by.
            “Mom, you and dad didn’t abuse or neglect me” you said finally, you honestly didn’t remember that much about him anyway but what you did remember wasn’t scary.
            “The abuse doesn’t have to be done to you. I did my best to shield you from it, but your father and I had a very violent relationship and there were defiantly times you were afraid of him. That’s why I got sole custody” she said honestly. You slowly nod your head even though you don’t agree with the assessment.
            “You did great mom. I know you did your best. People cope in different ways, and I know the way I chose to do it wasn’t healthy, but I don’t think it has anything to do with an unhealthy attachment style. What brought you to this conclusion?” you asked, trying to understand what she was getting at.
“Cash Ewing” she said simply, you feel a deep blush creep up on you suddenly remembering you told her you guys had been meeting up for your morning walks.
“Cash Ewing made you think I have a disordered attachment style” you said in disbelief, this time you don’t resist the urge to roll your eyes as you take a sip of tea. Your mom gives you a long knowing sort of look that makes you want to shy away from this conversation.
“Yes, Cash Ewing. You guys were always so smitten with each other, everyone always thought you were going to be high school sweethearts just like Pete and Daisy. You never could tell him how you felt about him back then and you still can’t seem to tell him how you feel about him now. Why did you cancel your walk this morning?” she asked, you let out an exasperated sigh as you finish your breakfast before forcing yourself out of bed.
“You’re being ridiculous mom; I just wasn’t feeling well this morning. I feel a bit better now, so I’ll walk over to his mom’s house and see if he’s still in, ok?” You said, avoiding eye contact with her as you head to the bathroom.
“Okay, pumpkin” you can hear the note of defeat in her voice, and you hear her shuffling around before she finally leaves your room without another word.
After a quick shower you decide to get dressed, you rummage through your suitcase for a long while. You let out an exasperated sigh when you notice a large chunk of your clothes are missing, you were sure your mom took them to wash them but a lot of them weren’t even worn. You settle on a pair of denim shorts and a crop top before slipping on a pair of white sneakers. You glance at yourself one more time before heading down the stairs and out the front door to head over to the Ewing house. Before you even make it to the door Cash pops out with a big grin on his face and you can’t help the way you blush because he had to have been waiting for you to change your mind. Probably sat in the armchair watching out the window the same way he used to do when you were kids.
“Hey Y/N, are you feeling better?” he asked, walking down the front steps in long strides towards you. You nod your head in reply taking in his outfit for the day, dark jeans, and a blue button-down shirt. You wonder how he still manages to look like he just walked out of a magazine spread in such a mundane looking outfit.
“Yeah, I know it’s a bit late, but we can go to the fitting and then go for a walk or grab lunch if you still want to” you said trying to keep the hopeful tone out of your voice. Cash gives you another smile, but you see something dark flicker in his eyes again. You haven’t been able to figure out what that dark emotion is. Sometimes he still comes off as the innocent carefree Cash from your youth but other times he comes off dark, brooding, and dangerous. The darkness honestly terrifies you, but you still can’t help how much you want to be close to him. You assume it’s just because you’re feeling a bit overly emotional these days.
“Of course, I still want to, Butterfly. I want to be wherever you are” he said nonchalantly with a comforting smile on his face, but his words send a spine-tingling shiver down your back. You feel your cheeks heat up now feeling slightly nervous as you gaze into his icy blue eyes. Cash gives you a coquettish grin that you find a bit arousing in the moment; you feel his long fingers trail gently down the length of your arm before they lace with your smaller ones. Everything in your head is telling you to pull away but you can’t bring yourself to do it.
“Okay, my car is in the garage” you said coyly, looking down at your laced fingers in bewilderment. You hadn’t held hands since you were ten, you find that holding his hand makes a wave of happiness wash over you. The happiness is soured by you reminding yourself that he’d be abandoning you again soon, but you can’t bring yourself to pull away because you still want to be close to him.
“Why don’t we take mine, you don’t have to use all your gas on me.” Cash said giving your hand a firm but gentle tug towards his truck. You give him a nervous sort of smile, something is still telling you to pull away from him, that going with him today wouldn’t be a good idea. That you were going to regret ever allowing yourself to enjoy being with him because he was going to hurt you in the end.
“Okay” you replied timidly, Cash gives you a smile that takes your breath away as he guides you to his truck. He opens the door before tenderly scooping you into his arms and setting you gingerly on the seat.  “Thanks Cash, but you didn’t have to do that” you said blushing furiously. Cash let out a deep chuckle before shutting your door and heading over to the driver’s side.
Cash’s Pov
            “It’s my job to protect and serve, Butterfly. Can’t have you hurting yourself” Cash said flashing you another dazzling smile, appreciating the way you flush for him. Watching as you rolled your eyes at him playfully.
            “I know how to get into a truck without hurting myself Cash” you said with a cute giggle. Seeing you this happy made him feel slightly bad about what he was going to do to you later. He had planned on waiting to make you his until after the wedding; he was just going to sneak into your hotel room and seduce you. Make it all romantic even with flowers, champagne, and some long-winded declaration of love. He supposed he could still do some of that when he cuffed you to the bed and The Wings Neck Lighthouse would still be romantic. His words would be true, but you might have some trouble believing them when you were under duress. He was still trying to make it good for you at least, he did want you to be happy, he just didn’t want you to be happy without him. You really left him no choice after you promptly cancelled on him this morning, you didn’t even have the nerve to call just sent a half assed text message. Cash gazes at you for a long moment before pulling out of the driveway, he remembered what happened the last time you canceled on him out of the blue and he wasn’t about to let it happen again.
            “Well, I can’t be too sure about that, you broke your arm four times. I wanted to nickname you Fragile, but Butterfly seemed a better fit for you.” he said teasingly enjoying the cute giggles you give him in response. He was relieved you didn’t seem to notice all the bags filled with groceries, his clothes, and your clothes in the back of the truck. He charmed your mom before she went up to your room giving her very vague information about what he planned for today. She came bounding down the stairs with a duffle bag filled with more clothes than you were going to need; he hadn’t planned on holding you hostage forever. You both still had to be in the wedding after all but that was a couple days away. He could do what he wanted and then clean it up in time. He wasn’t technically abducting you, you got in the car pretty willingly for him and didn’t ask any questions about where he’d be taking you. He’d give you little bits of information right up until he couldn’t anymore, if you tried to run, he’d simply use a few compliance pressure points to subdue you. It shouldn’t be hard his size was his advantage after all. From the outside this all just looked like a grand romantic gesture, and something told him you wanted him as much as he wanted you. You were just too afraid to make a move, luckily for you he wasn’t anymore.
            “Why is that?” you asked curiously, staring at him with big eyes. Cash feels a smile tug across his face, he always loved when you looked at him that way. Like he was the best thing to ever grace the planet. Under these circumstances, however it makes him feel bitter, if he was the best thing to ever exist then how did you leave him so easily? He was sure he’d be getting all his answers tonight whether you wanted to or not.
            “Because they’re delicate and beautiful and I thought you were too” he said nonchalantly, and because he felt them in his stomach every time you were around. He glances at you one last time to see you looking a little sad. “You still are Y/N” he said, hoping to you smile again since it might be the last one you give him for a while. Hopefully you weren’t going to make tonight too hard on him, he’d be getting what he wanted either way. You were going to finally be his, he didn’t care how you guys got there, all he cared about was finally ending the day inside you. Cape Cod was the perfect place to do it.
            “Thanks Cash” you said with a timid looking smile and rosy cheeks.
Reader’s Pov
            You make it through your fitting quickly with Daisy deciding on a satin slit dress with floral detailing to set you apart from the other bridesmaids. You blushed furiously when Cash showered you with compliments, you awkwardly threw a few back at him when you saw him in his suit. You hadn’t seen him in one since prom, which you sadly didn’t even go to together. You did notice he was being even nicer to you today than he usually was, romantic even. There was even a moment where you thought he was going to kiss you. You of course shied away and played it off because kissing him would make him abandoning you again, harder to handle. After the fitting he told you he made a reservation at your favorite restaurants down in Cape Cod and said he had another surprise for you after. You and Cash had spent so many summers down in Cape Cod running up and down the sandy beaches often with Pete and Daisy in toe. You missed the way things were in those innocent years, those ones before the dread of awkward adolescence crept up on you both.
            “I should call my mom” you said awkwardly, feeling flattered but skeptical as you reached in your pocket for you cell phone but realize it isn’t there. You try to remember where you left it, and you grumble bitterly to yourself when you realize trust issues are a sign of a disorganized attachment style. You suddenly hated your mother for bringing this to your attention; you’d rather be blissfully unaware because that would mean you didn’t have to address all the real reasons you never told Cash how you felt. “Have you seen my phone?” You asked, looking over at him curiously. Cash shakes his head at you but doesn’t take his eyes off the road, this immediately sounds alarms in your head, but you don’t push further.
            “No, you don’t need to call her anyway, I already told her all about it this morning” he said nonchalantly as he pulled on to the express way. Cape Cod was only a half hour drive from Plymouth anyway and you did trust Cash just not enough to open up to him.
            “Is that why she came in my room with a tray full of my favorite foods?” you said narrowing your eyes at him, you see a small smirk twitch on his lips.
            “Maybe” he shrugged keeping his eyes trained on the road. You make it to Cape Cod around 1:30 and share a late lunch at the Belfry Inn and Bistro. You’re a bit surprised when Cash agrees to shop with you for a bit around the village because he always hated going shopping with you before.
            “Okay, what’s up?” you asked, narrowing your eyes up at him suspiciously. Cash furrows his eyebrows at you for a moment and you’re too focused on your little interrogation to be bothered with him wrapping his arms around your waist tightly.
            “What do you mean Butterfly?” he asked as he stopped you both in front of one of the flower carts. You give him a weighty look; Cash keeps his eyes focused on the cart and you start to feel a bit uneasy.
            “Why are you going shopping with me? You hate shopping and you’re acting weird” you said sharply, Cash lets out a long sigh and you don’t miss the way his shoulders tense as he tightens the grip he has around your waist. You squirm a little trying to create a little space between you, but you freeze in place when he shoots you an intense stare. His eyes soften up when you stop but his tight hold doesn’t let up.
            “I don’t mind shopping now, people can change” he said simply giving you a soft smile. You can’t help the sudden wave of jealousy you feel when it crosses your mind that he probably doesn’t mind now because some girl he dated also liked shopping. Of course, this change wasn’t prompted by you because you weren’t important to him in that way.
            “Gee, I wonder which girlfriend finally broke you in. The sex had to have been amazing if she coaxed Cashton Ewing into shopping with her willingly” you sneered, yanking yourself out of his grasp. You ignore his calls as you stomp into the next store. You can feel Cash lingering behind you as you frantically pull random items from the rack. Before rushing to the dressing room, hoping to create some distance between you two after letting your mask slip. You try on about twenty pairs of clothes as you try to figure out what prompted another mini meltdown. You didn’t have the excuse of being stressed. Your time back home had been quite enjoyable. You were having fun up until ten minutes ago. Maybe it was better if you just went back to your mom’s house. You let out a sigh, settling on a dress and a few skirts before getting redressed and walking up to the register. You avoid making eye contact with Cash, who is standing awkwardly at the end of the counter with flowers in his hand. You feel a wave of guilt pass through you as you hand the cashier your credit card, accepting your card and the bag she hands back to you.
            “Here Butterfly” Cash said softly reaching out to hand you the flowers when you make it over to him. There’s an unreadable expression on his face as he looks down at you with soft eyes.
            “Thank you” you said as you awkwardly accept the flowers from him. “I’m still not feeling that well, my stomach hurts I think I might be coming down with something. I know you had something planned so I can just take the bus” you said avoiding eye contact.
            “No” Cash said grabbing you by the arm firmly as he tugged you out of the store. He’s practically dragging you and you find it hard to keep up with his long strides.
            “What do you mean no?” you asked trying to keep yourself from falling over feeling nervous with how quickly his demeanor shifted. You can’t see his face because of how far you’ve fallen behind him, but you can tell that he’s angry.
            “No, you’re not going home. You’re getting back in my truck and you’re going with me” he said sharply, before wrapping an arm around your waist to keep you from falling down. You scowl at him in disbelief.
            “No Cash, I want to go home” you said feeling yourself shudder against his side when he throws you a menacing glare.
            “I don’t really care what you want Y/N. All I’ve done my whole life is care about what you want. Now it’s time to care about what I want” he hissed; you feel a genuine wave of fear washing over you as you see his truck coming into focus. You start thrashing frantically, trying to free yourself from his grip; you had never seen him act this way before.
            “Please, I just want to go home Cash please take me back home. We can watch movies on the couch” you begged still trying to free yourself from his grip.
            “We can watch movies on the couch where we’re going too as long as you’re a good girl for me, Butterfly” he said teasingly as he yanked the car door open. You let out a gasp of surprise, realizing what he’s implying as he tries to lift you into the truck. You kicked back at him with a force you didn’t know you were capable of connecting with his knee. Cash lets out a hiss of pain but he lets his hands fall from your waist quickly. Without his arms there to steady you, you tumble to the ground and feel one of your knee’s scraps roughly against the gravel on the ground. You watch as blood rapidly flows from your new cut, and you look up to see Cash glaring at you with dark eyes filled with equal amounts of lust and sadness.
            “Just get in the truck, Y/N, please.” He said in a pleading tone as he reaches down to help you up, you shake your head feeling tears brim your eyes.
            “Only if you take me home” you demand hoarsely, you’re not sure why you allow him to pull you back to your feet, but you do. Cash brings his hands up to gingerly wipe the few tears that do manage to escape your eyes.
            “No, we have to talk about this. I’m not letting you run away from me again. So, get the fucking car, Y/N” he said in a soft threatening tone. You let out a whimper as you try to pull away from him again sharply, but Cash only tightens his hold on your face.
            “Then I’m not getting in the fucking car” you hissed giving him the coldest stare you could muster with tears streaming down your face. Cash lets out a pained sort of groan as he stares deep into your eyes, before sharply turning you to face the open truck door. Before you can even wonder what he’s doing you feel one hand cradle your chin firmly and his other thumb trailing to a tender spot on your neck right below your ear.
            “I’m sorry, Butterfly” he whispered before firmly pressing his thumb into your neck. You feel a shocking amount of pain flow through your jaw, and you let out a loud, high-pitched shriek. Cash takes the opportunity to hoist you into the truck before rushing to the driver’s side and locking the doors. You look over at him, feeling dismayed and cowering away from him when he moves in to comfort you. Sobs racking through your whole body. Cash shushes you as he runs his fingers in comforting circles up and down your legs. You hate the way your body seems to immediately relax into his touch.
            “It’s okay, Butterfly. Everything is going to be okay. You’ll see.” He croons placing soft kisses on the pressure point he just assaulted. Cash gives you one last charming smile before pulling out of the parking lot. You start to feel dizzy as your vision starts to blur in and out of focus. You faintly feel Cash wrap an arm around you, he gives you a gentle tug, and your head plops against his thigh. You look up at him with dazed, tired eyes.
            “It’s just from the stress, Butterfly. Go ahead and rest, we’ll be there before you know it” he said stoking your hair gently. You let out one last whimper before your whole world goes black.
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manicformunson · 2 years
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hihi!! ur work is amazing omg!! ur one of my fav eddie writers on tumblr :)) can i request a eddie munson x fem! reader who used to be super close w each other when they were in elementary/middle school but when they got to high school reader slowly started to distance herself from eddie after joining the cheer team and got more popular and her jerky friends kinda pressured her to ghost eddie?? and maybe a soft reunion after the whole season 4 mess?? just some angst with a fluffy ending bc i’m a sucker for the friends to strangers to lovers trope 🧌 tysm and have a great day/night
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pairing eddie munson x fem!reader
summary reader and eddie haven't talked since middle school, after she joined the cheer squad but Hawkins tries to pin him for murder reader decides she needs to visit him in the hospital
note pLEASE that means so much to me!
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Y/N hadn't really thought about Eddie in years; it's really crazy how high school can drift two people apart, people who were childhood friends, people who grew up together and told each other absolutely everything. It was just crazy, Y/N thought.
What was even crazier is when Eddie had became a suspect of murder. Of being a cult leader of satanic worship. Even if they had grew apart, she knew that Eddie wasn't even capable of that.
It was absolutely ridiculous and no one would believe her when she tried to defend him. Why was she even trying? They hadn't even spoken in what, seven years? Since she joined the cheer squad in sixth grade.
Y/N had accepted her popular friends had manipulated her into ditching Eddie and now she just had the need to see him. She was standing outside of his hospital room, fist hovering over the wood ready to knock. She was so nervous, Y/N had even stopped to get him flowers, as stupid as it was.
With everything that went down last week Y/N knew she had to rekindle with Eddie. She didn't realize it until it was too late but she had a crush on him, she always did even when they were kids. Even if they were just friends, Y/N decided that was better than nothing at all.
Taking a deep breath, she knocked softly and entered after hearing a soft 'yeah.' Y/N shuffled in with her face slightly hidden by the bouquet of flowers, so it took Eddie a second to figure out who was visiting him this time.
"Y/N?" Eddie was relieved but confused. Feds had been in and out, promising they'd cover everything up as long as he kept his big fat mouth shut -- it scared the shit out of him.
"What are you doing here?" He tried his best to sit up, but winced causing Y/N to rush to his side, "Do, do you need me to call a nurse?" Eddie shook his head, waving her arms away, "No I'm good."
Y/N chewed her lip. Maybe it was a mistake coming here, she had half a mind to just apologize and leave but Eddie spoke through her rambling thoughts.
"You get those for me?" He pointed a weak finger at the bouquet in her sweaty hands with a grin, making her feel a little better. "Oh, well yeah. I just, I don't know. I wanted to bring something."
"And you thought flowers were perfect for the satanic cult leader of Hawkins?" He was being sarcastic, Y/N knew it but she couldn't help but meet his eyes for a second, "I never, never believed any of that you know."
Eddie's demeanor changed, he scoffed and threw his gaze to the window beside his bed. "Of course not, just your friends that decided to hunt me down and tried to kill me."
Y/N set the flowers down on the small table at the foot of his bed. "Jason wasn't my friend, and I tried to stop him." Her mind flashed back to screaming at Jason to let the cops handle the investigation only for him to push her to the ground and rant about how Satan must have been in her head too.
Eddie noticed her shutter out of the corner of his eye, "You okay?" Y/N ignored his question, "I tried to stop them, he just wouldn't listen."
The two fell in an awkward silence, Eddie couldn't handle any type of silence, especially awkward silence. He turned to look at the flowers. They looked nice, but he wasn't ready to tell her that yet.
Eddie was still angry at her, as stupid as it was after all these years. They had been best friends and she had tossed him aside the second she began to climb the social ladder. Even so, he was still curious. "Why did you decide to stop by?"
Y/N was looked out the window now, with her arms around herself. "I just, I don't know. Wanted to apologize just for everything. I just pushed you away and that wasn't fair."
"No it wasn't." Eddie sighed. "I guess I just, I wanted to tell you that I'm on your side. I want to be friends again." Y/N bit her lip at Eddie's silence. It had really taken a lot in her to come down, to open herself up like this.
"I'm still mad." Eddie muttered. Y/N nodded, "I understand if you want me to go-" "But," He held up his hand to cut her off, "But, I'm willing to try again."
Eddie held out his hand, motioning for her to shake it which she did. "Friends." Y/N gleamed, making Eddie smile, "Friends."
—ノ*.✧
Y/N visited Eddie in the hospital everyday she could and stayed as long as she could until he was cleared for release. Then she was at his trailer every day, bringing him food, beer, cigarettes, anything she thought he might want or need.
Part of it was because she had felt so guilty, even if Eddie had assured her that it was okay. Y/N even quit the cheer team, mostly because she actually hated it but also so she could spend more time with Eddie and he's friends.
Hanging out with him really opened her eyes to just how awful her 'friends' were. Y/N was glad that she didn't talk to them anymore, she enjoyed the Hellfire Club's company more anyway.
"Eddie?" Y/N knocked on the trailer door, balancing a tupperware container full of cookies on her hip. No one answered so she knocked again, louder this time still with no response.
She creaked the door open, still calling out as she set the cookies on the counter. "Eddie are you here?" Suddenly a crash came from the back, where his room was. Y/N wasted no time running back there, swinging the door open and immediately covering her eyes.
Eddie was on the floor, in just boxers -- not to mention the strongest smell of weed Y/N had ever smelled. "Eddie are you okay?" She went to help him up but he pushed her away, "I'm fine, just fell 'm fine."
Her nose crinkled and tossed him a pair of sweats she saw on the floor, "Are you high?" Eddie giggled and clapped his hands, "Ding ding ding, the winner is Y/N for staying the obvious."
Y/N tried to ignore how he practically spit it at her like venom. What was his problem today? Had she done something wrong? Y/N tried to think back and couldn't come up with anything.
"I made you cookies." She said, putting on a fake smile and pointing to the kitchen, "I just put them on the counter."
Eddie stood up and slide on the sweatpants, "Another I'm sorry for abandoning you present? Y/N you shouldn't have." Y/N furrowed her brows, she was an absolute crybaby whenever someone raised their voice at her so she was having trouble fighting off the tears that were swelling up. "I just, they were just a new recipe. Why are you being like this?"
"Maybe I had drug deal with your friend Fiona, and boy did she have some shit to tell me."
Y/N's face twisted in confusion. "Fiona? I haven't talk to her in months." She really had no idea what Fiona would tell him that would make him so mad. She never talked about Eddie when they were friends, even when they were picking on him Y/N would never participate.
"What'd she say to you?" Y/N reached out to touch Eddie's arm but he fliched away, glaring at her. "That I'm just a charity case to you." Y/N couldn't see his face, his back was too her but she could hear how hurt he was.
"What? Eddie no," Y/N successfully grabbed his arm and turned him to face her, "You are not a charity case to me. I hang out with you because we're friends, because you make me feel so comfortable with being myself and I,"
Y/N trailed off, chewing her lip and meeting his worried eyes. "I really like you." She finishes. Y/N cups his cheek in her hand and mental awes how he almost nuzzles into it. Eddie places a hand on her waist and smiles,
"You like me?"
"Of course I do."
He brings her in, wrapping his lanky arms around her and kisses the top of her head before she leans up to kiss him. It was just on impulse, but she's glad she did it because Eddie tasted so sweet and she melted in his arms.
Eddie was caught off guard by it but quickly pulled himself together and held her head to deepen the kiss. When they pulled away from each other he laughed, "I like you too."
They stood in each other arms, it felt so normal, so right and Y/N honestly felt like she finally found where she belonged; right here in Eddie Munson's arms.
And fuck that bitch Fiona.
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x-heroesandvillains · 4 months
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Heart Beat, Beat, Beating ~ *Kim Jungsu*
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Summary: After so many years of being apart, Jungsu sees you again. It brings back the romantic feelings he's harbored for you all those years ago. But can he bring himself to confess to you? Perhaps he needs a little nudge...
Pairing: Kim Jungsu X G/N!Reader
Genre: Fluffyish Drabble
Word Count: 709
Warning: The Xdinary Heroes Introverts are a little OOC
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All Jungsu could hear in his ears was the beat, beat, beat of his heart.
He had been hearing it all day, a steady but rapid thundering in his chest. And the reason for the hammering of his poor, aching heart was none other than the new solo idol at JYP.
What shocked him the most was he used to know them before they came to the company. They used to be his neighbor and childhood friend before they moved to the other side of town. He tried to still see them, but they drifted apart in middle school and never really saw each other again. Being apart for so long did not help his burgeoning crush on them back then. 
Seeing them again, it just rekindled the flame from the past. He wasn’t sure he could handle it.
Unfortunately, his strange behavior around them did not go unnoticed.
“Jungsu, you’ve been pretty distracted lately.” Hyungjun mused as they walked from the practice room to the dorms. “Why is that?”
“What? Distracted? I haven’t been distracted! Not at all! I promise! I’ve just been tired! I mean not like tired-tired, like exhausted or anything. Just kind of mentally tired. And not because the workload has increased or gotten harder, although JYP seems to have been keeping us busy lately… But it has nothing to do with that! I promise I have no idea what you’re talking about. I’ve been perfectly fine.”
“Hmmm.”
He could tell on his friend's expressionless face that he was acting totally out of the ordinary and was talking too much. He sighed. “Is it that obvious?”
Before Hyungjun could answer, a voice behind them shouted, “YOU’RE DAMN RIGHT IT’S OBVIOUS!”
Jungsu groaned. "Hello Jooyeon."
The man in question wrapped his arms around his shoulder and smiled mischievously at him. "You've been completely out of sorts as of late. Either you talk too much or you don't open your mouth at all. You're always distracted and you've been displaying some nervous ticks. So... what's got you all flustered?"
"I-It's nothing, I promise." Jungsu tried to assure him, his stutter making him sound as sure as he felt.
“Don't tell me it's the lovely new soloist who has joined JYP, is it?”
Jungsu short-circuited and began to stutter even more. “I, uh, um, you, uh, what?”
Jooyeon let out a loud bark of laughter. “I knew it was them! Now both Seungmin AND Gunil owe me twenty-six hundred won!”
"Why am I not surprised you bet on this." He muttered under his breath.
"Not the point." Jooyeon quickly changed the subject as he leaned heavily on him. "You should just go talk to them! I think the two of you would be so cute together!"
"You don't know if they like him back." Hyungjun spoke up, popping Jooyeon's positivity bubble.
But he would not be deterred. "Oh c'mon! What's not to like about Jungsu? He's got everything! He's kind and thoughtful and he's in a pretty successful band as the keyboardist and vocalist! Everyone likes guys in bands."
"Oh, because you have so many lovers because you're in a band." Hyungjun rolled his eyes.
"I do too!"
"Crazy stalkers don't count."
"That's besides the point!"
Hyungjun shook his head before turning back to Jungsu. "Not to agree with Jooyeon or anything, but you should at least talk to them. You seem to stare at them a lot whenever you're in the same room and they're not looking. If it makes you feel any better, I've seen them looking at you the same way as well when you're not paying attention. Perhaps they do like you back. You'll never know if you don't ask. And even if a romantic relationship doesn't work out, surely the two of you can still be friends?"
"Well..." He trailed off, considering both of his bandmates words of encouragement.
They did have a point. Maybe if he didn't ask them out, he could still try to be friends with them again. He was very close with you when he was a child. Perhaps the two of them could be close like that once more.
Of course, in order to do that, he would just have to ignore the frantic beating of his heart.
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LITTLE BY LITTLE
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HI IM VERY EXCITED ABOUT THIS SILLY LITTLE STORY. it is:
a feel good lighthearted story about a bunch of kids in high school 👍
one half enemies to lovers romance, other half queerplatonic coming of age 🤨
dual storyline following two annoying siblings who will die for each other 🤱
set in chennai because i want to draw the city i grew up in and have a crisis over not having seen it enough 🤯
me deciding to compensate for my non existent final years of high school via fiction because who needs therapy tbh 🤔
BLURB
It’s Sameera’s last year of high school, and everything’s going her way: she’s a student council head, the captain of the girl’s Kho-Kho team, and she’s liked by almost everyone in her grade. Almost. Frigid, uptight Kayalvizhi, fellow council head, is the lone exception. Their first interaction was a nightmare, and while Sameera is told that Kayalvizhi’s just indifferent to everyone around her, she still feels personally attacked. So when the two of them are paired up as the cultural leaders for their school’s end-of-year ceremony, she’s more than thrilled to prove Kayal wrong by outshining her in everything. Too bad the latter’s determined to shut Sameera up by competing just as fiercely. What neither of them expects, though, is to find common ground, or to realise that the other person isn't who they thought they were, or, god forbid, actually start to enjoy each other’s company.
Anbu is a reserved kid, Sameera’s younger sibling by two years and the apple of every teacher’s eyes. Still just getting used to adolescence, Anbu is, to say the least, a bit disoriented. They’re exploring their confusing world, trying out new hobbies, grappling with their gender identity and pushing the limits of the life they’ve led so far. But right when they think they’ve got it all figured out, change hits them between the eyes in the name of Tamizh—their cool, mysterious neighbour who’s come back from Mumbai years after moving away. Anbu and Tamizh were childhood best friends, but that's childhood, and they know better than anyone else that adolescence upends everything with a rage. As the two’s rekindled friendship begins to deepen, Anbu is left questioning whether they see him as a friend, a crush, or something else entirely.
At least one thing’s certain for them all: this will be an unforgettable year.
CHARACTERS
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SAMEERA. she/her, bi. annoying ass extroverted jock mf. everyones fave gremlin. needs constant love and validation or else she will perish
ANBU. they/them, trans. former sweetheart now saddled with a growing bloodthirst. going through too much all at once and is on the verge of emotional burnout.
KAYALVIZHI. she/her, trans, lesbian. moody ass introverted nerd mf. hates every single person to ever grace this planet and i love her so much actually
TAMIZH. he/him, aro. Resident Cool Kid™ except he feels very uncool and very unchill, ball of nerves just barely keeping it together. is unlearning a lot of toxic beliefs on gender and he’s doing it with style.
SO WHATS THE DEAL HERE
idk what happened in the last two years but i’ve gone from being a prose hoe to a webcomic bitch and it has been working out great for me. comics are such a brilliant format for someone who’s equal parts artist and writer and recently all my important all-consuming story ideas have been webcomic ideas and im so excited to get to make them!!
there are two parts to this story, two parallel arcs, one for each sibling: sameera’s enemies to lovers story with kayal and anbu’s queerplatonic coming of age thing with tamizh. i think the main inspiration behind this was a) bridgerton season two which was the first time i actually ENJOYED an enemies-to-lovers romance and which made me go hmm yanno what. i’m going to do the same but without british people. b) me realising that as much as i love romance and writing romantic relationships i also would like to write a queerplatonic relationship please and thank you [it is endlessly amusing to me that my favourite genre is romance despite me being aromantic lmao] and i esp wanted to try writing a qpr from the pov of the non-aromantic character, just for that extra spice!
in the very short time ive had these four they’ve taken over my brain completely and i love it so much!! im currently working to on getting the basic prep work done [character turnarounds, uniform designs, bg models etc etc] and i’ll post updates on progress whenever i feel like lmao
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under the cut you will find a very long list of very specific plots/dynamics i want to write, organized by corresponding muse. if you're interested in any of them, you can reply below, dm me the plot you're interested in, or just like if you want me to message you first. there's technically no limit on these plots; i don't mind "repeating" plots bc they'll always be different depending on who i'm writing them with, so don't let that hold you back from an idea.
ash: — give me the hot straight boy (or not) from church that they had a crush on. give me the two of them meeting at a pride event, discussing their feelings on gender, sexuality, and religion. give me the rekindling of friendship and feelings, that strange bond with someone who knew you before you knew yourself, the understanding that comes with shared trauma.
brody: — your muse knew him when they were younger, before he got really famous. one day they realize he still follows them back on instagram and send him a message saying they're proud/impressed, hope he's doing well, etc, not expecting him to respond. except he does, and they start talking a lot, and they end up catching feelings. maybe they didn't know each other well before this, maybe one or both had a crush that they never expressed, maybe one or both are in a relationship—idk there's just a lot of fun dynamics we could play with in a celebrity x random guy ship. — just anyone who has an actual crush on him. it'll take a lot of convincing to get him to accept that they care about him as a person, especially if they've already hooked up, but i really want to see someone treat him softly, help him come to terms with the trauma he's endured, and make him realize that he is worth more than his body.
caspian: — first of all tw for self harm; second of all this could work for ships i already have with him! basically i really want to play out the first time he's getting intimate with someone and they accidentally touch/see his scars. he'll freak out and depending on the kind of relationship there are different ways they can handle it, but it's an aspect of him i'd like to explore (esp bc i have not always dealt with it very well in the past).
daehyun: — idk how to explain this dynamic other than just showing you 1:05-2:07 of this video. give dae the stoic, quiet, very masculine, (maybe still thinks he's straight) counterpart to his bubbly, outgoing, very openly queer self. and if we wanna take inspo from the song he won't be actively gunning for the other guy to break up with his gf but he Will be hoping for it. (also bonus points if they dance together but that is not necessary!) — more professional connections please!! choreographers or fellow dancers or people he is doing backup dancing for!! i have also been toying with a verse for him moving to korea so if anyone has idol muses :eyesemoji:
daisy: — imagine reuniting with your childhood crush except they're now a world famous actor and you have a headache from trying to explain algebra to 12 year olds all day. how do you even handle that.
darcy: — someone that knew him before his family died, maybe even a childhood friend who knew them too. they're the only person allowed to come over during august, the only person he'll talk to about any of it. he definitely has feelings for them—maybe always has—but he refuses to say anything because he can't risk ruining their friendship. — someone else who works at the strip club! could be a bartender or bouncer or another dancer; could be purely platonic, could be romantic/sexual, could be a rivalry! lots of potential here.
lennon: — okay this one is so silly but they love anime and i've always had this idea of them having a secret tumblr or twitter where they talk about that! and they also have a longtime mutual who they're best friends with, they know all lennon's secrets but not who they are. and as they catch feelings they have to decide if they want to lose their one place of anonymity, their friendship, and maybe even their trust. (and maybe for bonus funny points they one day reveal that they have an interest in figure skating and lennon like. sneakily tries to get their opinion on themself lmao)
matthew: — in this house we love tropes so pls i am begging give me the person he is bodyguarding; they're soft and flighty and wear their heart on their sleeve and he's both exasperated and in awe of them. bonus points if they are openly queer! he can't have them and he can't be them so instead he will simply yearn in silent agony. (this one can be totally platonic they can totally just be besties.)
miles: — give this beautiful man his first kiss!!! it can be a joke/dare/casual thing that he puts way too much meaning into despite trying not to; it can be the climax of a sweet romantic slow burn; it can be him asking a friend to just kiss him so he can get it over with but oops he liked it a lot actually!!! idk idc just kiss him
rhys: — "hey hello fellow single parent our kids are besties do you wanna set up a playdate for them? no this is not because i have an absurd crush on you and this is not because my daughter knows and will definitely tell you if i don't at least pretend to make a move"
rijin: — polar opposite besties!! they're loud and outgoing but know better than to try to force him out of his shell; he thinks they're brighter than the sun and are fucking terrified of the day they decide they're tired of trying to shine a light into his dark, lonely world.
taesuk: — modelling rival! modelling rival! they could be a fellow up-and-comer or someone a bit older and more established; either way they definitely super hate each other and don't wanna fuck even a little!
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jean for the ask game?
Sexuality Headcanon: aspec something or other, maybe demi-adjacent? I don’t see her as the sort of person who’s overly concerned with romantic or sexual relationships, but i think she has the potential to fall hard if she’s emotionally close with someone
Gender Headcanon: extremely strong butch energy on this one. Woman who is a good sir. Knight gender. Gonna grow up into a dilf.
A ship I have with said character: just one? How about a selection, im always looking to share niche jean ship opinions <3
jeanven: big fan of those deity/devotee vibes. serious and self sacrifical x silly and self indulgent. lovers of mondstadt, freedom, and The Wind. just SO unbelievably soft and loving with one another
jeanxiao: functional long-distance weapon4weapon partners. accept that neither of them could ever place a lover on a higher priority level than their nation. shackled to duty, doomed to fight for an unattainable goal until the battle finally takes them, yearning for a peace that will never truly come, but willing to support one another along the way…
kaejean: childhood friends, two parts of a trio that shattered years ago and has yet to heal, mondstadt’s golden girl and her right hand. I’m a huge fan of the righteous leader being crushed by their responsibilities x loyal second in command who is willing to act in less righteous ways to support them dynamic, and they’re obviously quite fond of each other
eujean: legacy of sinners x legacy of saints, evenly matched at swordplay, born to be enemies and yet defying that fate, need I say more? their voicelines about each other clearly display a mutual respect and trust that I really like.
A BROTP I have with said character: Kaeya again, also Albedo and Barbara (though Barbara will take work to rekindle a functional sibling dynamic, I want to see it happen 🥺) also my left field choice is Zhongli, I think they’d get along and could share perspectives on responsibility and leadership, if Zhongli chose to share the truth of his story with Jean.
oh, also Childe. but that one is purely bc I think it would be really funny <3
A NOTP I have with said character: you could probably sell me on just about anything (disregarding stuff like jean/barbara or whatever) but I firmly believe she would have terrible chemistry with Keqing. It’s not like theyd hate each other, they would just bring out the worst in each other
A random headcanon: she’s a full 7 inches taller than Venti and entirely twice his weight, as he is mostly made of wind and she is fairly beefy
General Opinion over said character: I’m insane about her. She’s exactly my type. I take it personally when people don’t like her and the album of my drawings of her is probably nearing 80 images by now. I would die for her but she wouldn’t let me. If hoyo doesn’t give her at least a few more lore crumbs ill start mauling people
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Roomates to lovers troupe headcannons @
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⭐Ban⭐
when you both found out you two would be roommates you two were slightly annoyed at sharing an apartment with someone you didn't know
Ban wouldn't admit it aloud but Hes was also slightly grateful to have a roommate because he didn't have a single clue on how to even cook boxed mac n chesse
And for some reason he could look at you and tell you knew what you were doing
He was proven right when he saw you cooking taco soup at around 3 in the morning
"Hey I'm not judging you or anything but...why the hell are you cooking at 3 in the morning"
You looked at him with a sickly sweet smile and replied
"I was stressed"
Ban nods understandingly
" Yeah that makes since...by the way do you think you'll have any extras?"
You laugh softly and nod your head yes
Needless to say this cycle of cooking and eating together became a very common thing
how ever as you two would eat yalls 3 am meal you two would talk about things
You talked about your family
Ban talked about his experience with being one of the 7 deadly sins
You two bonded quite quickly and Both of you started developing feelings for each other
Ban fell in love with not only you but with your heart
You were kind to others and never discriminated against anyone regardless of the situation
That kindness you had in your heart was like nothing ban had ever seen
Of course ban knew you also didn't take shit from anyone
You had practically made most of the palace guards cry because they were picking on other villagers
Once again you sticking up for others without an ounce of fear in your heart made him love you even more
Eventually Ban decided to confess to you about how he felt
He did this by taking you to the fields at night when all the stars were out
He looked at the stars then back at you as the stars were shining in your dark brown eyes
"Hey..theres something i need to get off my chest..."
You looked at him in the eyes which just ended up making him blush even more
"I hope I'm not being to straightforward but I've developed feelings for you since we have moved in with each other."
You look at him with wide eyes that slowly soften and your lips raise into a soft smile
"I actually feel the same..."
Ban looks at you with as a smile perks on his face
"you-you mean it?1"
you nod
Ban leans over and places a kiss on your lips
"Good that means i can finally call you mine"
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🌸Kakashi🌸
You two had become roommates' due to the hokage deciding that you and Kakashi needed to get to know each other better since you both would start training team 7
Of course you two knew each other from childhood so it wasn't to awkward
However something both of you didn't realize was that both of you had a crush on each other.
Kakashi had developed this crush when you two were much younger
He always saw how passionate you were about becoming a Jōnin and teaching others
However the main reason he liked you was the fact that you and him were both loners
both of you didn't like very many people but when you two met each other both of you clicked automatically
You two would talk about different books, different jujitsus, and ofc it was a plus that you knew how to cook from a young age
Kakashi had literally punched people in the face for the last of whatever you cooked.
Now that you two were living together you two were able to rekindle
Both of you would stay up for countless hours just laughing at each others stories
He would help you cook (He did the best he could okay?)
Eventually he decides to confess to you because he realizes how short life really is
Kakashi ends up calling you home from town saying its an emergency
of course you get home asap only when you see him you notice he has a small box
"so i have something to tell yo-"
but before he can finish his sentence you hear a bark from the box
"Kakashi...what's in the box?..."
Kakashi smiles at you and rubs the back of his neck
"well I was trying to make this moment sweet but i guess this little guy had other ideas"
He opens the box and pulls out a puppy German shepered
"What I was going to say is i have fallen in love with you, I know this is crazy but I've loved you ever since we ere kids. And I was wondering if we could make it official?"
You smile and tackle him into a hug and ask
"Was the dog supposed to win me over?"
Kakashi scoffs
"What no way....actually...yeah that was the plan"
he kisses you on the head whispers the words
"I love you"
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memory-echo · 1 year
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Just Two Lost Souls
How many times have we been here? 
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Seiichi walks hand in hand with his mother (in child form) until they find the dead cat from chapter 1. Little Seiko wills the kitten back to life, and Seiichi supports her, until the cat rises from the dead.
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I guess this is Oshimi's way of renewing hope for a better future... but does it work? Is the road to recovery made by trailing old paths?
It seems as if Seiichi just wanted to let bygones be bygones until little Seiko touches the kitten and tells it to come back to life. In that moment, Seiichi wants to revive the kitten himself, correcting the past and originating a different future. 
In my literary analysis, I posited the hypothesis that the white cat symbolizes Seiichi's lost innocence and crushed potential, after being nearly killed by his mother when he was three years old.
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Is Seiichi acknowledging that potential and hoping that it can be restored? By touching the kitten, is Seiko admiting that she wants to revive Seiichi's killed spirit?
I don't doubt Seiichi's sincerity, but I doubt Seiko's. When little Seiichi asked his mother why the cat was dead, she just smiled at him. He doesn't understand why she would try to kill him, and she never gives him an explanation. She may have never had a particular vendetta against her son, she just hates everybody indiscriminately. Everyone is dead to her, so why wouldn't her kid be part of that picture? 
Nothing seems to have changed in that regard, because Seiko still doesn't see Seiichi as a human being worthy of respect. This entire night has been about her: her sob story, her past abuse, her hurt feelings - all about her. She never once asked her son about how he felt, or even aknowledges him as her son at all. 
The last time she told her sob story (to Fukiishi's father) Seiichi was overcome with guilt and went back home, with a promise that she would change, only to be relentlessly gaslit and kicked out of the house. 
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The only positive feedback she ever gave him throughout the story was when he promised her that he would hate everybody, and when he told his aunt off in an angrily manner. It was him playing the role of loyal companion and protector that got him on her 'good side'... 
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Seiko forced this role and this responsibility on him, but his father was the first one to parentify him, effectively making Seiichi responsible for his mother's wellbeing and emotional needs. 
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That's why he feels so guilty about his mother being miserable, because he thinks it's all his fault. The revelation that Seiko's parents are the ones responsible for her misery should've made Seiichi realize that he was never to blame at all, and should've taken the weight of responsibility off his back once and for all. But that's just not the case, because the first image in this chapter is the adult Seiichi and the child Seiko. 
The emotional incest is alive and hasn't gone anywhere; Seiichi is still the 'parent' responsible for his mother's wellbeing. A more poignant image would have been the bleeding child Seiichi walking hand-in-hand with little Seiko... That would’ve made me believe that things were actually changing for the better. 
As it is, it feels as if Seiichi is just trapped in his usual Stockholm syndrome with his mother, and Seiko is just roping him in with her sob story, because she needs her old narcissistic supply. It feels as if Seiichi is not actually maturing, but rather succumbing to repetition compulsion - his need to relive the most traumatic event of his life, as well as rekindling a relationship with his abuser. He can't just leave well enough alone… He never holds her accountable for all the abuse she put him through. Where has all the anger (that he so rightly expressed at the top of the hill while he was hallucinating) gone to? 
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Now, he offers to pay her rent and then feels sorry for her when she tells him about her own wretched childhood. He may think he's going to get it right this time. It's as if he cannot escape his Sisyphean fate of trying to win his mother's love, acceptance, validation... all the things a child deserves, and he was deprived of. Their relationship, no matter how toxic it is, is a familiar pattern to him. After 20 years of loneliness, well, it's not difficult to understand why... I don't blame him at all for trying, I blame her for taking advantage of him yet again.
I can only hope the typhoon kills her and a heavy object falls on Seiichi's head, wiping his memory clean, so he can start over without the weight of the past on him. Yeah, that would be a cheat ending, but since I don't see any therapists entering this manga anytime soon, I doubt anything can be fixed anyway...
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Silent Knight - Beth Bolden (Christmas Falls, book 4)
Synopsis
Of all the things Murphy Clark loves about Christmas Falls, there’s always been one he loves a little more than the rest:
His childhood best friend, Jem Knight.
Doesn’t matter that Jem’s barely been home in years, or that he’s busy conquering football fields instead of hanging out at Jolly Java or admiring Murphy’s carved wooden gnomes. Murphy’s always loved him anyway.
But now Jem’s finally returned to Christmas Falls to be the honorary figurehead of the biggest holiday festival in the Midwest.
Murphy’s hoping to rekindle their friendship but he didn’t count on Jem not recognizing him. Or flirting with him. Or re-igniting the hopeless crush he’s always had for his best friend.
He definitely didn’t expect for his crush to no longer be hopeless at all.
Or for both of them to realize that all they want for Christmas this year is each other.
Christmas Falls is a multi-author M/M romance series set in a small town that thrives on enough holiday charm to rival any Hallmark movie.
My Thoughts
In the 4th Christmas Falls story, we have another retired athlete rebuilding his life in his 30s. I’m not really a huge fan of this trope – or of stories about athletes or sports in general – and having it fall back-to-back with the last book was a bit much for me.
I didn’t really connect with Jem or Murphy’s story as much as I have the others. The poor communication between the two took me out of the story. And there always seemed to be something going on with one of them, while we were reading from the other’s POV, leaving rather large question marks as to what, exactly, was going on, and why our characters were reacting the way they were.
As with the other books in this series, Jem and Murphy find their happily ever after. It works out for them, eventually, and I’m glad for that. I just really don’t understand how they got there.
Maybe I missed something. Maybe I was supposed to read something between the lines that I didn’t pick up. But I felt pretty stupid not understanding things other characters in the book seemed to just pick up naturally. And that didn’t really make me feel too jolly.
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okok info dump time: so the other day I posted a lot on instagram, including a poll (which, relevant later) and it got the attention of two people who played big roles in my childhood and queer awakenings, but who because of different things like moving and just being in different places, we never really rekindled the friendships we had (and I thus never told either of them how I felt). I’ll tell you about them, first, and then why I’m spiraling. Chronologically, I’ll start with G—I met G in 4th grade, and he was easily one of the few kids that was really nice to me. He and I didn’t really talk about it, but I always felt like he liked me, I was just too scared to ask him about it because he was my best friend (but I’d liked him, too) We both moved away, though, for fifth grade, and we haven’t spoken much in all that time (in 2016 we said like “hi” but it didn’t go any further) but we’re friends on a lot of social media. It’s unreal how attractive he is—he’s practically AotC Ewan McGregor. The other person, C, is the first person I had a crush on that wasn’t a boy. We met in 5th grade, they were also the first friend I made at the new school. They might as well have made the sun, and I still think that about them. They’re gorgeous, smart, and incredibly talented. Hell, I just tried to bleach my eyebrows because C thought it looked cool on me. They only recently followed me back on social media, even though I’ve been following them for a while (read: years), and the moment I saw the notification it felt like the air flew out of my lungs. I had a similar feeling when they replied to my instagram story, saying my hair looked cool, and asking me what kind of dye I used. I replied, but it’s been 24 hrs and C hasn’t even opened it. G, on the other hand, voted in a poll I posted (which, like, only 20 of the 90 who saw it did) and I reached out to him, and he’s had a few responses now, but it’s been only one sentence at a time: one not long after I sent a message, then once late last night, and once this morning. So I don’t know if I’m just really rusty at socializing in general, or overthinking, but I’m a little overwhelmed by feelings that only I might be experiencing. And I don’t know what to do about it, lmao. I can’t even fully describe what I’m feeling? I’m really excited to talk to both of them, but I’m really easily crushed by the idea that it might mean more to me that we’re talking than it might mean to them? And I don’t even know what it means to me, I just feel kinda algdkadjskajdhd ? - 🆘
okay so I think this is super sweet!!
but, I do think there's a little too much going on. You may be rusty at socializing, it's tough to do anyway, but if you start skimping, as with any skill, it gets harder. So don't worry too much, once you get better, things will feel more natural
the other thing is everyone is super busy right now, like life is just hella weird and kinda awkward for everyone. so if G isn't replying right away, could be work/school/pet stuff/whatever that's going that takes priority. It's likely it has nothing to do with you as a person, G's just trying to maintain a level of sanity. Same with C probably.
On the worst case scenario, they're just interested in being mutuals and low level friends. It's not the end of the world, though of course it kinda sucks. But the way they still want to be friends is encouraging. Just focus on keeping it simple and slowly build up to socializing more. If it would make it easier to do so in person, send an invite. Just say 'hey it's been so long, I'd love to really sit and catch up. Are you free for coffee or something sometime?'
This puts the ball in their court. It's likely they'd be open to meeting up again, just to feel things out. If things are awkward irl, you know not to attempt again for a while (or ever, if the vibes are really bad)
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What if Anakin had fallen in love with fellow Jedi Knight!reader? I just love the idea of a strong, successful and powerful couple fighting together, (not dying lmao) and defeating the enemy on the battlefield.
Oh my gosh I love this so much!!!! My dum dum brain can’t think of a cohesive story line for a fic version of this so instead we’re getting ✨headcanons✨
Just imagine,
Growing up as padawan learners together!
Having sweet childhood crushes on each other,
And the both of you thinking you’re so slick, even though your master and Obi Wan totally know
Anyways!
Time goes on,
You both take the trails and become knights
And as war rages through the galaxy, the two of you see each other less and less
Untill,
You’re assigned a long term stake out mission on an outer rim planet
And who else is leading it but the 501st and their amazing general?
The sight of him after so long apart is enough to take your breath away
He looks so different now, so much more mature
But beneath it all he still has that same boyish smile you feel for years ago
“It’s wonderful to see you again, general,” he says in way of greeting. “I didn’t think it was possible but you’ve grown even more beautiful since the last time I saw you.”
You snort
“Oh maker skywalker, it’s good to see your flirting skills haven’t changed.”
As the mission goes on, old feelings are rekindled
But it’s not Until a particularly close call that you put your stubbornness aside and confess your feelings
And with a grin brighter than both of the tatooine suns, Anakin gives you a kiss you’ve both been waiting for for a very long time.
Ok and now for some miscellaneous HCs
I think we all know this already
But Anakin is the ultimate hype man/golden retriever boyfriend
This mans would literally do anything for you
(Source: revenge of the sith)
He will always tell you how amazing you are and how much he loves you
Like
You could look your actual worst and he would just be staring at you like 😍
He likes to be the small spoon
LOVES when you play with his hair
And on the battlefield, the two of you are a force to be reckoned with!
No two Jedi are more in sync!
OR
More in love 🥰
That was so cheesy smh
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