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rare (actually very common) james vulnerability post um im kind of hating having bpd right now. i reeeeally really hate how the smallest thing completely sets me off and i HATE gettinf close to people and then having to hit them with the “btw if i get even the slightest feeling you dont like me or that im being replaced i absolutely will not confront it directly and will instead opt to just never ever speak again and be mad for 6 months straight” and its cost me a lot of close friendships! i’m in therapy and i am on medication and i have been for months but for some reason it’s just ??? not working??? i dunno but im feeling very Not great tonite james nation 💔 sighs soo hard and goes back to drawing star trek yuri
#jamesdottxt#i jsut want to be normal tbh#its so embarrassing#getting close to people and then realizing its Too close#and suddenly your entire day revolves around how theyre feeling/what theyre doing#i really wish that i didnt have to be like This#because once i get mean and i start freaking out people tend to drift away and find other people#and its like Oh i really am the problem#but whats the point of recognizing youre the problem when… youre the problem lol like im not purposefully staying like this#and im trying to get better#but at what point does it start being pathetic#i hate freaking out over the smallest shit#and losing sleep because of overthinking#ive fallen out with um. Both of my favorite persons in the past few months#one of them was lowkey a predator and the other one. man idk what the other one even did#he didnt do anything#i jsut kind of sucked i think#but yeah . being fp-less and only having a very select few friends is FREAKIN ME OUT!!!!!#you’re nice to me? I WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU ALONE NOW! AHA!#embarrassingggg….#but um real talk i would so love to be able to maintain relationships properly without fucking it up so bad because of my outbursts#sighs so hard. the only thing that can fix this is drawing self insert x hughie campbell yuri#back to the coal mines (drawing program) i go#ant with bindle image#bpd#tw vent#personal vent#rare james vulnerability post#vent
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megumi's teacher — gojo satoru x reader
tags/warnings: fluff. fem!reader. gojo beefing with an eight year old. 700 words.
ever since megumi started the second grade, it's been (l/n)-sensei this. (l/n)-sensei that.
gojo picks up megumi's favorite ice cream, only to be scolded by the young boy. "(l/n)-sensei's favorite flavor is strawberry, so that's my favorite now!"
gojo tries to help him with his math homework, and it's "(l/n)-sensei did it this way. that means you should too!"
gojo reaches down to tie megumi's shoes for him, before his hand is promptly smacked away. "(l/n)-sensei said big boys tie their own shoes!"
honestly, gojo is starting to feel a little jealous. megumi's known you for what? two months?
he's been raising megumi for the past few years, but does that earn him an ounce of the adoration the young boy seems to have for you?
apparently not, though he perseveres nonetheless.
he and megumi are spending the afternoon out in the city and they stop at a small bakery for lunch.
while megumi is distracted looking at all the sweets behind the glass counter, the bell on the door draws gojo's attention.
his eyes fall upon a pretty young woman. actually, you might just be the prettiest woman he's ever seen.
and of course, a smirk forms on his lips when he catches you looking his way. he's puffing out his chest, running a hand through his hair.
he's always had a certain effect on the ladies, and he's never been more happy about that until this very moment—
"megumi?" you call from a few feet away. the wide smile adorning your face makes you look even more radiant.
while gojo visibly deflates, megumi's head whips around at the speed of light. "(l/n)-sensei!"
oh.
gojo very quickly comes to understand why the boy is so enamored by you.
megumi launches himself at you, while you crouch to meet him with open arms.
"i'm so happy to see you!" he practically sings, clinging to your neck.
you chuckle at his enthusiasm. "i'm happy to see you too, 'gumi."
gojo clears his throat, hoping that megumi will take the chance to introduce you two, but he is completely ignored.
"what are you going to get? i'll buy it for you," he states proudly, despite having zero money of his own.
your gaze shifts to gojo for the first time, and having your attention even just for a brief moment takes his breath away.
"that's very sweet megumi, but that's alright." you ruffle his hair when he pouts at your words, standing back up. "who's this?"
"oh that's just gojo. don't worry about him," he states with a wave of his hand.
the white haired man gawks at him in response. the nerve on that kid! he silently decides megumi will be losing dessert privileges for a week. no, two.
you stifle a giggle before offering your hand to him and introducing yourself as megumi's teacher.
he repeats your name, taking satisfaction in the way it sounds rolling off his tongue.
"that's a pretty name," he compliments, trying to recover from megumi's dismissal. "heard a lot about you. in fact, the kid never shuts up about you."
this earns him a glare from megumi, but gojo is too preoccupied with the shy look that crosses your features to notice.
gojo insists on paying for your order, a show of appreciation for taking such good care of megumi in class. you chat with the pair of them for a little while longer before eventually excusing yourself.
"thank you again, gojo-san. i'll see you on monday, megumi!"
just as you're turning on your heel, gojo calls your name and you look back at him expectantly.
"when, uh," he struggles, scratching the back of his neck. "when do i get to see you?"
nice.
"oh! well, parent-teacher conferences are only a few weeks away! i'll look forward to seeing you then," you answer sweetly, misunderstanding the meaning behind his words.
you bid them goodbye once more and they both watch your figure disappear down the street.
megumi turns to look at gojo smugly. "weeks? that sounds like a really long time—"
"shut it, kid."
#m!writes#im trying to get better at writing shorter fics#so bare w me#jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jujutsu kaisen fluff#jjk#jjk x reader#jjk fluff#gojo#gojo x reader#gojo fluff#gojo satoru#gojo satoru x reader#gojo satoru fluff#jujutsu kaisen imagines#jjk imagines#gojo imagines#gojo satoru imagines
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Au where Damian comes to Gotham with the goal of infiltrating and eventually overthrowing Batman instead of inheriting the mantle. Not much changes from canon except for the fact that he views everything that batman owns as his. That's his future cave and his future batmobile. This also includes his robins. After all everyone knows Batman wouldn't really be Batman without them.
Cue a very bewildered Tim being lectured on his eating habits by a righteous Damian who won't let one of his people take shortcuts with their health.
#Damian looking at the manor: its free real estate#he almost writes off red hood but after finding out his identity he switches to trying to lure him yo his side#jason gets the head of a random thug who was bothering him on his doorstep#damian: im gonna be a better batman than batman. I'll sway all his allies to my side and then there'll be no complaints when i take over#everyone else: he's such a sweet kid. sorta prickly but he has a good heart ❤️#damian wayne#batman#batfam#bruce wayne#tim drake#jason todd#they all thinks he's trying so hard to be accepted into the fam when infact he's trying to get to the top
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the wandering painter, part one
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#artists on tumblr#illustration#animated illustration#animation#backgrounds#animated gifs#background illustration#myillust#landscape#plants#scenery#summer#hiii! just wanted to share an artwork i made that's super fresh from the oven ksfknsf#'the wandering painter' will be a series that consists of artworks that has elements that i struggle to draw and am trying to improve on!#ive always really struggled with the process of painting (for example) clouds fields grass grasslands flowers etc#despite the end result coming out satisfactory imo but i cant deny that it most of the time feels like a fluke#so this series would consist of my journey of improving how to draw said elements/areas more confidently :D#this artwork in particular - i studied and practiced how to paint/draw silver grass better along with grasses and clouds#i feel like im sorta getting the hang of it but theres definitely room to study and experiment how i can paint it better#so yeah! nonetheless i really hope you'll like this! and i hope you'll have a lovely day/night ahead <3333
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anime Mob not being as sassy as manga Mob was truly a loss
look at these
it even looks like he’s kind of grinning
#little sassboy#‘see my previous remark’ ?!#woah little man ! better watch your tone there !#hes so funny#i like him#also sorry for all the low effort posts#ill try to get some art n stuff out….cuz i love yall…….#im just silly tired rn 4 no rezn#and like kinda buzy#but thats liek all the time so hhehe#mob psycho 100#mp100#shigeo kageyama#kageyama shigeo
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hes not bitter at all actually. he doesnt hold any grudges…
utilities included, ch. 6 (mind the tags and rating)
masterpost
#one piece#sanji#zoro#zosan#usopp#nami#vivi#utilities included#with every successive comic i feel like im getting better and better at all this comic stuff#theres so much to juggle but im trying to make this a Learning experience#OH#cw suggestive#I FORGOT TO TAG THAT ON TWITTER I FEEL BADLY
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" im gonna get better at art I'm gonna improve I'm gonna get better ''
#girl help#the art block is back#its really late to complain abt this now but like i was goin thru it today over this and its killing me !!!#kae.txt#i dont really know how to learn to get better all i know is to keep drawin (not to the point of burnout...well ehhh)#mmm im gonna go to bed and try not to think on it so much 😖 gnite
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a piece from last year's @d20zinejam! the fridge snack selection at mordred manor sure is... aquatic....
(all zines from the jam can be found here)
#*voice of guy who hasn't posted here in a year*#listen im trying to get better at crossposting just bear with me here#fantasy high#dimension 20#d20#fhsy#fhjy#fig faeth#figueroth faeth#riz gukgak#fabian seacaster#fabian aramais seacaster#kristen applebees#the bad kids#my art
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workout mix
#this was fun to draw but hhghrghrgh again i spent too much on it im so bad at just making satisfying doodles fast#like i wanna draw stuff as warmup thats fun to do & also ideally looks kinda nice bc THEN i need to try to get other more serious work too#but at the moment i just spend too long on the warmup & then fail to move on to something else hhhhhh#i'll get better i'll get faster i'm not dead yet#anyway yeah she's listening to you're gonna go far kid. you know why. my little pony rainbow dash you're gonna go far kid [explicit].#shevr#my lines#mlp
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uh hey guys there's a bigass chair down here? is that, uh, normal?
#you know how it is with chairs#im trying to get better at like. actual scenes that suggest a story. perspective. etc....#my art#artists on tumblr#art#digital art#digital painting
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we're at it again🕺
#jrwi riptide#gillion tidestrider#my art#sketch#back on my bullshit woo yeah woo yeah woo yeah#genuinely a lot happier with this design than the previous ones. the lighter metal looks better on him#and this one doesn't have a lot of detail (or any detail tbh) so it looks more solid and fun i think#and you can see im trying to figure out how gill would carry his sword around#technically he should just carry it in his hands and don't have a scabbard because its a longsword and isn't supposed to be sheathed...#but like... its not practical to always carry it in his hands. especially in a day to day life. because he always has the sword on him-#but he doesn't necessarily always hold it? like. he needs hands for stuff#i think i like the back scabbard better (even if i drew the whole turnaround for the hip one) just because it doesn't mess with his tail#plus that way destiny's blade is higher up and gets to look around at stuff and i think its funny#but then like... the cape is a little awkward if it has to go above the sword...#but its not a big deal. if he has a cape and armor on he probably holds the sword in his hands anyway#am i putting too much thought into this unnecessary detail? yes#am i rambling in the tags again instead of making a separate post? also yes
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ITS JUST. ALL CREEK
im glad we can all agree that Craig approaching Thomas in "Le Petit Tourette" and asking him if he could do his laundry was very gay
#south park#sp#craig tucker#tweek tweak#creek#sp creek#super craig#wonder tweek#sp thomas#thomas le petit tourette#thats just his last name to me#i have been using ao3 more lately and whenever ppl tag him they say 'Thomas (le petit tourette)'#cuz they dont tell us his last name & thats the only episode he appears in#but hes kinda funny#him teaming up w kyle to get back at cartman was very fun. underrated character#trying to make tweek more... skrunkly. in my art#hes like a wet rag to me#places him in the bathtub and he gets all crinkly like a sopping wet cat#does thag make sense.#im really getting better at form and shapes its maling me really happy#ALSO CONTINUING MY TRADITION OF DRAWING SHIP ART OF TWO CHARACTERS JUST STANDING ON TOP OF EACHOTHER#LIKE LEGO BRICKS#i do this for almodt everything i hyperfixate on its very important#potatart
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#1 rule of homestuck. if there are stairs, someone will fall down them
#my art#fan art#art#katnep#karnep#nepkat#karkat vantas#nepeta leijon#karkat#nepeta#not sure why i used such a trickster ass palette#i think im going to keep trying to use variations of green/red for these comics to keep up with the katnep theme?#but i will probably grow tired of that so dont hold me to it#also youre meant to read karkat's 'neepeetaa' like 'alllVINNNNN'#not sure it comes across like that#tryina get better at comics 💪#oh my god i forgot to tag this homestuck#im so sorry#homestuck
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oh you know it's all latestage capitalism but the thing is. how are you supposed to be a person inside of this. a person trying to be a better version of yourself.
oh, you started working young, which was kind of hard, but it's just the way stuff works sometimes. and it was 2008 and your family couldn't afford heat. but it's fine, you grow a spine and get used to the professional world and besides it was the suburbs we're talking about here, like, your life could have been actually hard, so what if your father lost his job and you can't afford to move or turn the lights back on. and once you start making money, it's good. you keep doing that. because now they're relying on you. so you have to do that.
oh you were in thousands of dollars of debt at 17 years old so that you could go to school, because you have to go to school if you want to get a "real" job. you even did it "right", you worked parttime and attended community college before you transferred to a public school. you were under so many merit scholarships.
which is fine. you pick yourself up and you say like, okay. i graduated college. i'm holding down a job. i'm doing the Adult Thing, which looks and acts like this, according to all the books i've read. you start with the shitty job and then you climb that corporate ladder.
but the shitty job doesn't cover rent and you stretch yourself too-thin so you get sick. good luck with that. the shitty job no longer pays for your meals. everyone asks why you don't just move, but there's nowhere to move to. and with what money are you going to be moving? and then the loans come back, because they were never going to forgive them, because you were 17 and trying to do the right thing, which was stupid. people are now saying you shouldn't have even gone to school.
which is fine. but because you have no other option, so you do the shitty job, and you apply every day for like 5 new ones, and despite the fact everyone says "there's no one who wants to work!" it's actually just that nobody is fucking hiring so you can either work for 13 dollars an hour in the shitty place you know (where at least you have a passingly friendly relationship with the manager) or you can start from scratch again with a different 13 dollars an hour without knowing how much abuse from the new job you'll be taking.
and if you quit you lose your insurance. if you quit you lose your housing. if you quit, you'll be another burnout kid. the lazy ones. these assholes, look at them!
and you come home to a family dinner and you hear from your father the same old thing. how he worked hard at his job and yes it sucked for a while but he was able to provide for the family and then the house and the dog and the rest of barbie's dream vacation. how the insurance did cover some of it. how you just really need to start speaking up more in manager conversations so they know you're a go-getter. you want to tell him - did you know we're actually doing more now hourly than any previous generation? - but you can't remember where you heard that statistic, and you're far too tired for the fucking argument. and then he starts in on his usual bit. where's the house? where's your kids? where's your ambition.
the same job the same money the same hours doesn't do it anymore. the same nose-to-the-grindstone now just shreds your face off. there's no such thing as upwards mobility, not really. and as far as you're aware, the money certainly is not trickling. you do the soulless stupid shit you signed up for because you fucking have to or else you literally risk your life (food, the apartment, the insurance), but it's not getting you anything. you download the stupid "save more" app and you budget and you do every right thing and then the price of eggs is 7 dollars and you say - oh great! another thing i have to fucking worry about now!
and you go to your stupid job and everyone in your father's generation just tells you to be better about being an adult. they have their homes and their savings account and their bailout and they say. well have you tried not drinking starbucks. well your generation just spends too much on clothing. well you might just be too addicted to travelling. and you - because you need the job - you bite your tongue and don't say i am being held prisoner and you're suggesting i stop pacing my cell if i don't like the scenery and you don't say what the fuck do you think i've been doing with my money and you don't say i haven't spent a cent on something nice in literally forever much less coffee you arrogant asshole. you open and close your bank app and check your loans and check your credit score and check fucking zillow and ziprecruiter and apartments.com just one time more. and still they give you that demeaning little grin and say - see, what you need is -
what you need is for your meds to stop being so fucking expensive. what you need is for the housing bubble to explode into dust. what you need is for billionaires to choke on their wealth. what you need is actual help. what you will get is more economic advice from people who are older-and-wiser.
and above you, almost in a glimmer, you can see the wedged smile of your debt getting toothier, wider.
#i hate when people try to tell me i didn't do it right#what should i have done better#i did it ALL the right way#(not that there is a right way)#it's just that others feel comfortable believing that THEY did it the right way and that's how they made money#whereas i must have just committed a sin somewhere in there! i MUST be doing it wrong!!!#and i'm not a victim!!! im simply experiencing consequences!#and im like. where . where. wherewherewherewhere#i graduated top of my class. i was almost the student speaker.#i have always excelled at work and i work hard#i have been working since i was 13#WHERE !!!!! IS MY FUCKING !!!! MONEY!!!!!!#ps please do not make the assumption i am ablebodied or neurotypical.#i am neither of these things.#it DOES get worse if u are either of those things. so fuckin much#but @ the one anon who was like ''u could be X that would be worse u don't know how lucky u are''#.... don't i?#do i need to be luckier than someone else#or is it possible we are BOTH victims?#and that we need to work TOGETHER to resolve it#not just wave it off since it COULD be harder for someone else... it can be true we BOTH deserve better
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something something specific species of rove beetle mimic the appearance, odor and behavior of certain species of ants in order to infiltrate colonies
aka @somerandomdudelmao's most recent marble sky part is on my mind and i can't stop thinking about oscar in relation to rove beetles. he may not be trying to eat marmor young but hey. imitation beetle funny
#yes i know his eyes arent blue#no i dont care. i like dramatic lighting#art#artwork#digital art#heartz art rot#heartz art#marble sky#marble sky comic#marble sky oscar#bugs#rove beetle#im going to be so real i think my style forcibly feminizes men#no matter how hard i try. good gd#need to get better at drawing men but all my favs are women#oh well. ill make more characters for it
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the mighty nein - critical role
this is a place where i don't feel alone.
this is a place where i feel at home.
#also with softer vibes. i offer They#every silly little brainheart found family deserves a to build a home edit#the mighty nein maybe most of all. thats my family#also the lyrics deliciously well suited to m9.#when jester pulls that. stupid tarot card for fjord. home or traveler. and there's a carnival wagon. and veth says Thats Us! . them#i just think about . the tower is their home the xhorhouse is their home the lavish chateau is their home the balleater. the mistake.#the nein heroez. veth and yezas apartment. the dome. fjord and jesters living room floor.#a bar with a silly name on rumblecusp#also like. the song has stone and dust imagery. gardens and trees.#the inherent temporality of life and love and how that holds no bearing on how greatly people can love. im losin it okay.#ive been making this edit for days straight with my computer screaming at me for trying to shove 143 episodes of cr into a 2min20sec video.#crying becuase. theyre a family do you get it. they were nine lonely people and most of them had given up on seeing their own lives#as something that might be good. something that might make the world a better place. and in the end they're heroes.#and it doesn't matter if no one else knows because They know they're heroes. and they wouldn't've believed that was true when they met.#rattling the bars of my enclosure. to be loved is to be changed#posted on twitter and want to get in the habit of posting here too bc.#general reasons but also bc . i have noticed some of the ppl liking/sharing it are also ppl who shit on my ops by vaguing about my posts#which is in general whatever but does leave a funny taste in my mouth.#critical role#the mighty nein#cr2#caleb widogast#caduceus clay#jester lavorre#fjord#veth brenatto#yasha nydoorin#beauregard lionett#mollymauk tealeaf#my posts
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