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bcofl0ve · 2 years

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those priscilla actress!reader pregnancy scare headcanons got me 😭 but can we get so thoughts on if it wasn’t a false positive?

ofc bestie, already ahead of you on that

- the doctor comes back in after the blood test and the austin goes so pale at the revelation you’re worried he’s going to pass out

- the ride back to your flat is almost completely silent. austin holds your hand over the console as he drives, and you try not to cry.

- “whatever you wanna do, that’s okay.”

- “i don’t want an abortion” ends that conversation and he nods. “so we’re havin’ a baby then.” is what he says next, voice dry.

- luke bracy’s trailer is right next to austin’s and he’s heard you two fighting enough over the past year to think the email blast baz sends out is a prank. he realizes it’s not when he goes to talk to austin and you’re puking your guts up in his trailer bathroom.

- when he *does* talk to austin he lays it on him thick.

- “the two of you, you more specifically, need to figure your shit out before you’re bringing a baby into it.”

- “i know” austin says, biting the inside of his cheek. “i’m trying, to be better. for both of them.”

- you find out it’s a girl and baz makes a joke about history repeating that doesn’t sit right, but austin laughs so you do too.

- things feel a little less stressful after elvis wraps and you don’t have that to focus on on top of the whole baby growing inside you.

- austin goes a little crazy buying things- for both her and you. but how excited he is makes you excited. so you don’t it mind it.

- he’s almost more nervous than you the day she’s born, to the extent that a nurse asks if you want to kick him out so he doesn’t make you more panicked.

- you don’t, and you get him to calm down enough to sit down next to you.

- he cries when he sees his daughter for the first time, cries harder when he holds her.

- “hi pretty baby,” austin says quietly, brushing a finger over the back of her head like he’s scared he’ll break her. “you’re so beautiful, just like your mama.”

- you haven’t been living together but it’s easier to be under one roof with the baby here. eaiser in terms of taking care of the baby at least. austin is still shaking off elvis and seeing it when he’s holding your daughter terrifies you. but he loves her- and you, so it’s okay. it has to be okay.

- he calls you ‘cilla during an argument, twice.

- you take your daughter and go to your mom’s house for the night. austin shows up the next day and your mom makes you both sit down in the living room, no leaving until you talk everything out. mentions something about wishing someone had made her do this with your father that makes your chest tight.

- things get a lot better. you’re both seeing a therapist, your daughter is beautiful, happy and perfect. life is good.

- the press tour rolls around. you don’t take her to cannes, but you do take her to graceland. perhaps that wasn’t your best idea, but the presley family is hosting everyone for a bbq the day after the premiere and everyone is bringing their families.

- you’re watching austin and lisa do the interview in the jungle room when your daughter decides she’s no longer interested in being quiet so you take her outside.

- you never thought you struggled as intensely with shaking off priscilla the way austin did elvis. but something about holding your daughter to your chest pacing around the backyard of their house gets to you.

- priscilla watches you doing this from the window and it takes her right back to over five decades ago when she was doing exactly that. she looks away.

- when you go back inside to find everyone your daughter’s babbling, screeching “dada” over and over until she sees austin, wiggling out of your arms when she does.

- you’ve been trying to get her to practice her walking so you set her on her feet, gently nudging her in his direction. “go to daddy baby,”

- she takes an experimental step and austin beams. “yeah, come ‘ere lisa,”

- he doesn’t even realize what he’s said at first but everyone else does and you could cut through the tension in the room with a knife.

- you want to bolt and lock yourself in the bathroom. you only don’t because you don’t want to make a scene. baz laughs and the room moves on.

- you see priscilla look in your direction but actual lisa leans over and whispers something in her ear and she doesn’t come over.

- guilt is written all over austin’s face as her scoops your daughter up and kisses her face. “silly daddy, i know your name baby girl.”

- he walks over to you and wraps the arm not holding the baby around you, squeezing your hip. “i’m sorry mamas,” he whispers as he kisses the top of your head and you suck in a breath.

- “i hate it here.” you whisper and weren’t expecting such a strong word to come out, or to sound so close to tears. but austin nods along.

- you don’t really cry until you’re in the shower back at the hotel that night. austin steps in with you and you sob into his shoulder about you just want to go home and be done with everything elvis already.

- when you mumble through tears that you never want to step foot in the god damn state of tennessee again austin agrees.

- he has to go back to to graceland for a press conference the next day, and your presence is technically required too. but you make up a lie about getting food poisoning.

- you can tell baz sees right through it, but he lets it slide.

#austin butler #austin butler x priscilla actress reader #austin butler x reader #austin butler headcanons #austin butler headcanon #austin butler imagine

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confused-bi-queer · 9 months

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It’s Sunday!!

Thank you @nightimedreamersworld for tagging me. Baz IS drama. He should join the drama club haha

So, I’ve been working on this wip I just posted yesterday and I’m very proud of it. It’s hurt comfort (ofc), and it starrs the Mage being a Massive Asshole as I’ve mentioned.

This fic happened because I thought to myself, what if the Mage had told Simon he was his Dad?

So, a bit of that angst.

“Simon.”

I will myself to stop crying, but I can’t. What does he want me to say after he’s threatened to ban me from coming home if I fail this? What do you say to that?

I start crying in silence. I’ve mastered that when I’m around him; he hates it when I cry, but I know he hears my voice trembling.

“If I’m not allowed to call you dad, you shouldn’t call me son either,” I say.

“Okay. Do we have a deal, then?”

I look at him.

He’s the same. Cold, unmoving. I want to say I can’t believe he agreed to stop calling me his son in a second when I’ve struggled to stop calling him dad for years, but I can’t. I know he’s ashamed of me. I understand. I would be too if I were him.

And it’s not like I have a choice. When have I ever made any decision?

And a bit of SnowBaz to counter that trauma

Whenever he writes a difficult paper or prepares himself to take a penalty, he does this face. Eyes focused, eyebrows drawn and he bites the inside of his bottom lip. It’s his focused face. I like it.

At some point, the beast got to me with its claw and ripped my skin at the shoulder, ripping my sweater along. Baz lifts the fabric and I groan loudly. The thing has merged with my skin.

“Just do it quickly,” I say. “I won’t— Ow!”

He’s lifted the fabric.

“Surprise element,” he says, smiling.

“Asshole.”

It makes him chuckle.

Here’s the fic: Family Line (18k)

I swear it ends well

Now tagging: @artsyunderstudy @aroace-genderfluid-sheep @martsonmars @wellbelesbian @bookish-bogwitch @bazzybelle @cutestkilla @johnwgrey @yeonjunenby @j-nipper-95 @hushed-chorus @forabeatofadrum @captain-aralias @castawaypitch @dragoneggos @fatalfangirl @facewithoutheart @palimpsessed @ninemagicks @larkral @excalisbury @thehoneyedhufflepuff @alexalexinii @shrekgogurt @theearlgreymage @onepintobean @stitchyqueer @blackberrysummerblog @kohatenz @whogaveyoupermission @ic3-que3n @raenestee @ileadacharmedlife @aristocratic-otter @letraspal @erzbethluna @imagineacoolusername @moodandmist

#simon snow #snowbaz #baz pitch #carry-on #carry on #baz x simon #the mage

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jovenshires · 6 months

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Here's a Halloween ask because you seem hyped and my country doesn't celebrate it: what do you think would be good couple/group costumes for some of your fave Smosh ships/dynamics? Also I love your edits so so so much they really scratch the brain good -dot hell anon

AH i am honored to receive this ask bc i have been thinking about it ofc. also tysm im glad you enjoy <33333

spencer and tommy - obv i've thought about this a TON and i think they would have multiple costumes. one kinda basic that they can just throw on and wear to parties - like cowboys. just super simple. but what they would take pictures in? some insane movie reference. like the brother and mom from hereditary.

shayne, courtney, and damien - they have The opportunity to go as ken, barbie, and allan. why would they not.

keith and noah - miles morales and peter parker. end of discussion.

angela and amanda - oh they have so many cute options. sun and moon, glinda and elphaba, mario and luigi. any of these would be fun!!

bonus: you can add chanse and/or arasha into any of these combos and make it a group costume. sun/moon/stars/clouds. glinda/elphaba/fiyero/boq. mario/luigi/bowser/peach. the golden four know no bounds.

kimmy and courtney - pspsps please y'all wanna do a daphne and velma moment so bad.... bonus shayne and damien can be fred and shaggy if you want but idc im thinking about Women

shayne and damien - finn and jake adventure time. its the perfect time to do it if you really think ab it.

jackie and shayne - yzma and kronk and im taking no questions, comments, or concerns at this time

jackie and damien - i would pay. I WOULD PAY. for baz luhrman's romeo & juliet. you know the scene. with the angel wings. i would die.

spencer and courtney - sharkboy and lavagirl. once again i am taking no questions.

noah and chanse - mermaid man and barnacle boy. im so serious. you can decide who is who.

tommy, spencer, and courtney - team rocket is meowth. either spencer or courtney is meowth and tommy in every iteration is in drag as jessie. thank you for your time.

olivia and courtney - olivia rodrigo and sabrina carpenter. she's topical!

arasha, chanse, angela - i feel like these three have real opportunities to rock trio costumes. alvin and the chipmunks, the sanderson sisters, mean girls, powerpuff girls. so many options. chanse is in drag for most of these too absolute added bonus

#anyway! i have to go to a party now so that's all we get but you get the gist #ask #asks #anon #anonymous

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mooodyblue · 1 year

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hi lily!! did you see that baz just recently posted some pages from the elvis script of an extended scene from where priscilla calls elvis when he's at the int'l with another woman? they included elvis saying "Buntyn needs a little extra lovin' tonight" and I wanted to know what you think of that.

obviously it's clear that they took it from linda's book but idk how to feel about the context they put it in. ofc it doesn't really matter because it never made it into the movie, but the nature of this part of e at least from linda's perspective wasn't of a sexual nature and it seems the opposite in the script... but they're also very correct when it comes to him saying that after a show so I DUNNO anyways I'm just blabbing really and could probably ask baz 21475843 different things about the process of making the film lol

another reason why i wish linda had some sort of mention in the movie honestly! she played a huge part in his life too. i genuinely believe she helped give him a few extra years of life. she's not perfect, but i have a lot of respect for her too. i know a lot of people who strongly dislike her or even just flat out hate her for reasons i can definitely understand, but you can't deny how much she helped him.

as far as the mention of buntyn goes, i didn't even think of it that way. i do get it though, that is kinda annoying. i would have been a little disappointed at them using that during a scene like that although i would have loved to hear buntyn come out of austin's mouth 🥲 like it is just a nickname but when you learn about when it was used it's kinda like . idk. like it's just a movie, not everything in that movie is really 100% accurate and even now i have some issues with it now that i'm an elvis fan(don't get me wrong tho yall it's my comfort movie if i hated it or disliked it in anyway i wouldn't be sitting here contemplating on seeing it one last time on saturday before the oscars) but STILL.

part of me is glad that it wasn't added in cause god knows what people would have written and said with the nickname honestly. like it's just a name, but linda still calls him that to this very day so .... i am a buntyn defender.

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blackberrysummerblog · 1 year

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WIP game: I'd love to know more about "Devotion, COC22 Day 13" or "Mordelia asks" (I'm always here for Mordelia content!)

Oooh, I have asks in my inbox! *unreasonable excitement* This is my first one, but there’s another ask about Devotion so I’ll talk about the Mordelia one here and Devotion separately. Thank you so much for asking!

So I actually thought it was something else when I read my half-assed title, because there’s a running bit in the fic where Mordelia keeps mistakenly framing the boys’ more innocent activities as ‘having sex’ and I figured this was one of those scenes. It isn’t! (Although that’s why Baz says what he does.) This is set a bit early in the fic and Baz and Simon are just settling into a kind of unwilling affection toward each other. Baz has known who Simon is for most of his life and has been secretly harboring feelings for him for about that long, and meanwhile Simon grew up not really knowing anything about Baz specifically, but he was aware that the Pitches were one of the Old Families that the Mage has turned him against. It’s never a very convincing antipathy on either side. Simon believes that the Crucible doesn’t make mistakes, and Baz is just uselessly smitten ofc.

Baz’s relationship with his siblings fascinates me in the books—he’s such a typical teenager with his family, making Mordelia leave his room and knock to come in again, telling her he’ll stop up the chimneys etc. At the same time we really get to see a soft, nurturing side of him with his young siblings—it’s unexpected and sweet, and I tried to play into it in this fic. There’s a number of scenes with Baz’s sibs and I loved writing all of them. The way he is with his sisters and brother helps Simon to see past the snark and antagonism.

I put a piece from the file under the cut. Hope you like it @aroace-genderfluid-sheep!

Snow turns around on the sofa and kicks his legs over the arm, letting his head drop into my lap like it’s nothing. Like it doesn’t absolutely ruin me. He closes his eyes and sighs, resting against my right thigh so that I have nowhere to put my hand except on him. His chest? His forehead? I’m hovering somewhere over his heart when Mordelia bursts in, eyes wide, and all of a sudden I’m throwing my arm back over the couch in an awkward display of casual disinterest.

“We’re not having sex now, either,” I say acidly, but Mordelia takes no note of my tone. She crowds up on my left and tucks herself against my side. With a roll of my eyes, I drape my arm over her shoulders and tug gently at her hair. Her gaze is locked on Simon, and I can hardly blame her for that.

“He’s asleep,” she whispers loudly. “Do you love him soooo much, Basil?”

Fuck, yes. So, so much. But Snow isn’t asleep; I can hear his heartbeat and his breathing, which hitched at the question. “Hmmph,” I say, tweaking his nose. “Bit funny looking though, isn’t he?”

Simon’s arm sweeps up, knocking my hand away, but his mouth twitches in an unsuccessful attempt to hold back a smile. I cup his cheek in my palm, the pad of my thumb pressed against the upturned corner of his mouth. He's utterly gorgeous.

“Not that funny looking,” Mordelia allows, tilting her head. “He’s got pretty hair!”

My fingers trail up along the side of Snow’s face and into his hair, raking back through his curls so gently that he hisses in pleasure. “I like his wings,” I say absently, fixated on his face. “They’re pretty too, don’t you think?”

“Can he fly?”

I nod. “He certainly can,” I say.

Mordelia perks up. “Will you ask him to take me for a ride? Oh, please, Baz!”

“Only if he leaves you at the top of a tree,” I scoff. “Snow’s not a pony, brat.” I’m the only one he’s going to be giving rides to, I don’t say.

#ask game #asks #SnowBaz #Simon snow #Baz pitch #Mordelia #Mordelia asks #crucible AU #WIP #WIP game

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palimpsessed · 2 years

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Author Self-Rec

Thanks for tagging me in for this @bazzybelle @facewithoutheart @bookish-bogwitch @nightimedreamersworld @tea-brigade and @sillyunicorn

post your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers

I have 10 fics so I guess I’m recommending half of them 😂 . Which means none of these will be surprising because I’m sure you’ve all heard me talk them to death by now.

1. Slings And Eros (M, 95k and counting)

I couldn’t make this list without this fic. It’s a beast, but it’s my baby. It’s my longest by a wide margin, which probably feels intimidating to potential readers, but I still hope people give it a chance because I just feel all kinds of ways about this one. It’s on the surface an Eros and Psyche Greek myth au but it’s also barely that at all and does not require knowledge of the original or of mythology. It follows star-crossed god Simon and human Baz as they work with Penelope to save Baz from the wrath of Simon’s father. In the midst of that, it explores prophecy, destiny, morality, accountability, identity, and all the ways we can love. And it also weaves in as many themes/characters from the books as possible ofc. I look forward to the day this one is complete and I can read it through and hopefully still love it.

2. A Man of Letters (T, 54k)

I’ve easily read this fic more than any other (mine or anyone else’s). It was so much fun using the unsent-letters-cum-diary format to construct the narrative and I think this ended up being a super successful way to write it. Baz gets to live that Beau Brummell life and Simon gets to play with swords. There is trauma, class anxiety, miscommunication, and oodles of romantic tension. Also! Lady Ruth! Who, I dare say I did a pretty bang up job of characterizing pre-awtwb. (You didn’t hear it from me, but Lady Ruth may do a bit of Plotting™️ of her own...🤫 )

3. Chamber by Chamber (E, 19k)

My most kudosed fic now apparently. Maybe I should just rec the series it’s in. There are three fics that do all build together, but they can stand on their own, depending how deep you want to go. This fic was my way of having Simon and Baz finally fully accept the monstrous in themselves by giving that to each other, using Simon’s WS quote as a kind of outline. I termed it therapeutic smut, which is accurate, while also being very kinky—but look at who we’re dealing with. It was also an excuse for me to write all the tail sex. Fully (and very explicitly 😅) illustrated with a banging playlist.

4. I Can’t Believe He’s Not Butter (T, 5k)

Yes it’s crack, but I still really love this fic. Also, most of my fics are chaptered and 10k+ so this could offer some nice entry level commitment. Do you yearn for sensual scenes of butter spreading? An oversaturation of saucy puns about sauces? Poetic musings from the syrup caddy at table six? Have a need to see the only appropriate use of the word “nubbin”? This is the fic for you! I truly had no idea how much worldbuilding I was going to do for this one. Did I need to explore the interpersonal relationships and social/power dynamics of diner condiments? Well actually yes, yes I did. I hope pancake syrup!Baz and margarine!Simon are very happy together in their blue plate special life.

5. To the Manor Borne (T, 43k)

My COC entry from 2020, using each day’s prompt to write another chapter; the plot is intentionally loose at best, so the chapters are pretty standalone if you wanted to do this one in shorter installments. The ws-era gang spends the Christmas holidays at Pitch manor doing dead spot research, arts and crafts, caroling, canoodling, and introspection. Shepard teaches Baz, Penny, and Agatha how to tie their shoelaces the Normal way. Simon is back in therapy and trying to convince Baz to go to, too. Penny is doing work on her dad’s team. Agatha doesn’t know why she’s there, but she’ll figure it out. Snowbaz exchange gifts, have touching moments in the rain, go flying, and are just generally nauseatingly adorable.

And that’s it! If you read to here, hi, thank you, and if you’ve not done this yourself, consider this your official tag. Also tagging in five people: @bloodiedpixie @starwarned @skeedelvee @prettylightsbigcity @otherpeoplesheartachept-2

#tag game #fic rec #slings and eros #a man of letters #chamber by chamber #icbhnb #to the manor borne #shameless self promotion #spicy links

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uniformbravo · 2 years

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Today Will Be The Day I Catch Up Or Mark My Words,

in carry on ofc :)

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[Fiona]

O FIONA POV???? LETS GO

All right, Natasha, I know I shouldn't have told him anything.

You wouldn't have done.

Swans right into my flat, looking for trouble. Being trouble, every bloody moment he's alive.

"Tell me about Nicodemus," he says, like he already knows everything he needs to.

He knows he's my favourite; that's the problem.

AW i love how much she loves him, their relationship in general is so good they both complain about each other but are obviously Super close 🥺 baz deserves a close family member like this TBH

It wasn't supposed to be me, Natasha. Telling this boy how to make his way in the world. I'm no good at this. [...]

What would you say to him if you were here?

No...Never mind. I know what you'd say--and you're wrong.

That's one way I've bettered you. I was weak enough to give your son a chance. And look at him now--he may be dead, but he isn't lost. He's dark as pitch and sharp as a blade, and he's full of your magic. He's a bonfire. He'd make you proud, Tasha.

🥺🥺🥺

PLEEEEEAAAAAAASSSSSEEEEEEEEEE

"So Nicodemus is an undesirable," he says.

"We're not permitted to talk about him. It's mage law."

"Would you cut me off so easily?"

"Oh, fuck, Baz, you know I wouldn't. What are you on about?"

"I can't help but be curious."

[...]

"Good. Go home and study."

"I'm on break."

"Go home and figure out how to take down the Mage."

"I told you. I'm going dancing."

I look at his suit again and his shiny black shoes. "Basil. Have you met a bloke?"

He smiles, and he's made of trouble. We should have dropped him in the Thames with a bag of stones. We should have left him out for the fairies.

"Something like that."

u SEE this is what i meant like she accepts him both as a vampire and for being gay But Also she's the one who gave him the recorder to steal simon's voice so like EVEN the person he's closest to in the world isn't 100% on his side adn i JUST

i cry U___________U

[Agatha] "But we never hang out without Simon," I said.

"Only because he's always around," Penny said. "Just because you guys broke up doesn't mean we're not still friends, you and me."

"We're friends?"

"Nicks and Slick, I hope so," Penny said. "I only have three friends. If we're not friends, I'm down to two."

*literally any friendship happens in this story at all* me, pointing and gesturing Wildly and With Feeling

(also THREE??? 👀 WHO IS THE THIRD FRIEND is she including baz in this lineup PLS TELL ME SHE'S TALKING ABT BAZ AAAAAAAAA

wait fuc i forgot abt her american bf she's probs talking abt him orz)

"He only comes out for tea and sandwiches," Penny said when I asked her about it. She has a few younger siblings, too; I recognize them from Watford.

SEE she has other siblings AND THEY EVEN GO TO WATFORD....... BUT WE DON'T EVEN KNOW THEIR NAMES...... Release The Forbidden Lore

"We're making gingerbread," Penny says in answer to her mother. "For Simon."

for SIMON??? 🥺

"The Mage had a girlfriend," Penny says again, goggling. "And a name. Mum, I didn't know you went to school with the Mage!"

Professor Bunce takes a gulp of tea and shrugs.

"What was he like?" Penny asks.

"The same as he is now," her mum says. "But younger."

"Was he handsome?" I ask.

She makes a face. "I don't know--do you think he's handsome now?"

"Ugh, no," Penny says, at the same time I say, "Yes."

LMFAO AGATHA

"Mum, you have to admit," Penny says, "he really was a visionary."

Professor Bunce makes a face again. "He always had to have everything his way, even back then. Everything was black-and-white with Davy, always.

ooooohhhhhhh inch resting, just like how simon's current views are, huh

But she does come back, holding out a photograph. "Martin took this."

It's three Watford students, two girls and a boy, sitting in the grass--by the football pitch, I think. [...] And the boy is obviously the Mage--different with his hair longer and loose, and with no silly moustache. (The Mage has the worst moustache.)

yet another reason why simon and agatha are completely incompatible (that one time simon was like "i'd grow a moustache just like the mage's if i could, for some fucking reason,)

ok i don't remember EXACTLY where i left off but i THINK it was chapter 58 actually im pretty sure it was so WAAAA CONFETTI WE MADE IT WOOOOOOOOOO from this point on is shit i've NEVER read so i may simply die in the middle of the liveblog at any given point anything could happen wowie

[Lucy]

ok lucy's another character i think i havent mentioned AT ALL but basically she's aforementioned mage's (ex)gf and she's had occasional pov chapters talking about her days at watford with davy (mage) and mitali (penny's mom)

i'm convinced she's simon's mom bc of the "rosebud boy" thing, which simon misattributed to natasha's ghost but rly it was lucy talking about Him (the mage isn't his dad tho bc 1. didn't he have to like submit documentation to make simon his ward or his heir or smth and 2. as we just learned he and lucy ended up breaking up a few years after graduating watford. lucy did run away to america tho so idk how simon would've ended up back in the uk. ok fine it's possible the mage is simon's dad but He Better Not Be)

I wish you could have known him when he was young.

He was handsome, of course. He's still handsome. Now he's handsome in a way that everyone sees....

also in all her chapters she's addressing someone, who i assume to be simon

which would make sense for this first sentence, bc she's talking abt the mage, and obvs simon didn't get to know the mage until like. way later

"Lucy, did you know that Watford used to have its own oracle?

[...]

"[...] And did you know that there's only one vision that every oracle has had since the beginning of Watford?"

"I didn't even know there were oracles thirty seconds ago."

"That there's a great Mage coming."

[...]

"It says there will be a threat, that we'll be dark and divided--that magic itself will be in danger, and that there will be a mage who has power no one else has ever dreamt of, a magician who draws his power from the centre of the earth. 'He walks like an ordinary man, but his power is like no other.' One of the oracles describes him as 'a vessel'--large and strong enough to hold all of magic itself."

Davy was getting more and more excited as he talked. His eyes were shining, and his words were tripping over each other.

[...]

"So why is this so important to you?"

"Because the Greatest Mage of all is coming, Lucy. And he's coming at the hour of our greatest need. When the mages are 'scrabbling with clawed hands at each others' throats'--when 'the head of our great beast has lost its way.' That's soon. That's now. We should all care about this! We should be getting ready!"

are u fuckin telling me the mage has a parasocial relationship w simon

FJDKGLSDKF Jokes Aside this Fascination with the prophesied Greatest Mage is so...... interesting

it makes it feel like the mage sees simon less like a Human Boy and more like. well he says it right there, like a Vessel. this hugely exciting Thing that's coming to fix everything, to solve all his problems for him, smite all the Evil Old Families and replace them with a Just Leader (him)

i didn't liveblog it at the time but there's a mage pov chapter waaay back in bk 1 where he talks about wanting to "fix" simon, like his magic is broken, not working the way it should, and he just needs to find the answer that will make everything click into place. actually let me go find it

I'd thought I could be of more help to Simon, especially by now. Help him come into his power. Help him take hold of it.

There must be a spell for him....Magic words that would fortify him. A ritual that would make the power itself manageable. I haven't found it yet, but that doesn't mean that it isn't out there. That it doesn't exist!

And if I do find it...

Is it enough to stabilize his power, if I can't stabilize the boy?

This isn't in the prophecies; there's nothing about headstrong children.

like. his #1 concern is getting simon's power up and running, he's not important to him as the boy he is but rather for the potential he embodies. rather than wanting to help him control his power for his own sake, he wants to help him control his power so he can fulfill the prophecies proper

also v interested in this:

I promised to take care of him.

How do you keep a promise like that? To take care of a child, when the child is the greatest power you know...

And what does it mean to take care of power? Do you use it? Conserve it? Keep it out of the wrong hands?

1. who did he promise to take care of simon. my money's on lucy; i could see her running off to america, having a child there, Circumstances Happening and her having to bring simon back, asking a trusted old friend to take care of him, etc etc SOMETHING like that

2. the progression of these thoughts is so interesting to me bc it goes from "i promised to take care of him" to "how can i take care of a child with this much power" to "what does it mean to take care of power" like, in his mind the original request of "take care of this boy" translated into "take care of this power"

i think to an extent the mage does care about Simon the Human Boy, but i also think the majority of that feeling comes from his perception of simon as something Valuable and Important. he has astronomical expectations for simon and those take priority over all else

so to get back to the original excerpt, the reason i think it's so interesting seeing how excited he was reading through the prophecies back then is because it provides further context on how he views simon and his "purpose," and lays out his motivations more clearly, all of this in contrast to simon's feelings on everything- on being The Chosen One, on having these impossible duties to fulfill, expectations to live up to, all of it

just more details leading up to simon's definitely upcoming departure from the underside of the mage's thumb :)

[Penelope] I like my dad's lab. In the attic. No one's allowed to clean up here, not even his assistants. It's a complete mess, but Dad knows where everything is, so if you move a book from one pile to the next, he goes a little mental.

One whole wall is a map of Great Britain--the holes in the magickal atmosphere haven't spread across the water yet, but they've grown over the years. Dad uses pins and string to map the perimeter of each hole, then uses different colours of string to show how the holes have grown. Little flags record the date of measurement.

penny's dad has SUCH cryptid energy i'm kind of obsessed. LOVE the energy of this lab. attic dwelling freak. pins and string over a map. Piles And Piles of shit stacked up Everywhere. fuckin Excellent

"I'm working on a project for school," I say. "And I was looking through some old copies of The Record...."

the way penny and baz both use The Same school project excuse for their families gkjslakgsjd They Are Alike

"Not for a while," he says. "We didn't know the Humdrum was an entity at first."

"What do you mean?"

"Well, when the holes started appearing--"

"In 1998."

"Yes," he says. That's when we first recorded them. Seventeen years ago.

👀 17 years huh 👀 like right around the age simon is right now 👀 👀

(also so this story's taking place in 2015 good to know)

ALSO he says they started recording the holes in 1998- so it's possible there were come unrecorded ones that happened before that- but assuming they actually did start appearing that year- and assuming that my theory that they started showing up because of simon directly is correct- that means simon was born in 1998 and is therefore younger than baz, who was born in 1997,

but ok i feel like simon said at the beginning of the book his bday is in july question mark...? and baz was 5 on aug 12, 2002, which means his bday would've had to have been before that date, but their bdays can't be TOO far apart seeing as they're in the same year at school, so maybe simon WAS born in 1997 as well HMMMMMM

not enough info let's keep going

"There wasn't one day," he says. "I mean, everything sort of shifted in 2008. I personally think the Humdrum got more powerful around that time. [...] I suppose it was when the dark creatures started coming for Simon directly that we knew there was malice there--and intelligence--not just natural disaster.

2008 ok, so potentially the year simon started attending watford, i mean. he would've had to have been born in '97 to be 11 in 2008 so

no conclusive evidence yet u_u

Dad thinks the Humdrum took Simon's form to mock him.

I rest my elbows on the counter. "Why do you think the Humdrum hates Simon so much?"

"Well." He wrinkles his nose. "The Humdrum seems to hate magic. And Simon does have more of it than anyone--maybe anything--else."

hmmmm hm hm hm that's something i never rly considered in my theory about all the magic from the holes being what gives simon his power, that the humdrum is specifically Attacking simon, like sending creatures n shit to destroy him

not entirely sure what to make of this but im sure i'll figure it out when the story tells me directly what it means gkdjflskdgd

"What did you say your school project is about?"

"The Watford Tragedy."

"Tell me if you turn anything up that sheds light on the Humdrum. I've always wondered whether anyone felt his presence there."

HM so not even the fuckin Leading Researcher on the humdrum knows if anyone actually FELT the humdrum that day, that's gotta count towards a big fat No

"Hey, Dad, one more thing--did you ever know a magician named Nicodemus?"

He looks up, and his face doesn't move at all--so I can tell he's purposely not reacting. "I can't say that I have," he says. "Why?"

It's not like my dad to lie to me.

It's not like me to lie to him. "It's just a name I saw in The Record, and I didn't recognize it."

"Hmm," he says. "I don't--I don't think he's anyone important."

yea no im pretty sure he's just Some Guy lol

[Simon] We have time to kill after we leave his aunt's, so we go to a library--the big one--and then to the reading room at the British Museum, where Baz steals at least a half dozen books.

"You can't do that," I argue.

"It's research."

"It's treason."

"Are you going to tell the Queen?"

Lines That Hit Different Now

"You should eat something," I say.

He raises an eyebrow at me.

"Oh, piss off." I wonder if this is why he's never had a girlfriend. Because he'd take her on dates to the library, then insist on sitting there creepily while she ate dinner alone.

GJFODGDKFJDK is this ur idea of a date simon why'd u choose ur specific circumstances rn as an example of a date that baz would take someone on-

(also wondering why he's never had a gf hee hoo- specifically the fact that simon has taken note of this)

"Hey," I say, trying to catch up. When he ignores me, I grab his arm.

He frowns. "You can't just grab people when you want their attention."

"I said 'Hey.'"

"Still."

Angy he got grabbed

"I've been thinking," I say, "if we're going to do this, you have to start calling me by my name."

CHOKES

👀 YEAH????????????

I don't know why this seems important. Just--if we're going to walk into a vampire den together, it seems like we need to get past some of this stuff and actually be allies.

"Snow is your name," Baz says. "Possibly. Who named you, anyway?"

He Is Changing The Subject He's Deflecting

I look away. It was written on my arm--Simon Snow. Whoever left me at the home must have written it. Maybe it was my mother.

OOG

mysteriouse

"You have to call me Simon," I say. "You've called me that before."

YOU'VE CALLED HIM THAT BEFORE

He opens his car door and gets in, as if he didn't hear me--but I know that he did.

"Fine," Baz says. "Get in the car, Simon."

I do.

UOAUGHGGUHOUOGUOAGOHFUGHAUGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA HE SAID IT HE SJAGAKK OUGUGAGHAGH AAAAAAAA

DESPERATELY wanna know baz's thought process here IS HE GLAD IS HE SCREAMING IS HE LOSING HIS SHIT I GOTTA KNOW

"Is this it?" I ask. "Are they here?"

He straightens his collar and cuffs. [...] "Stay close," he whispers, and raps at the door with the back of his fist.

STAY CLOSE,

It's Baz they're checking out, not me. He's got to be scared, or at least nervous, but he doesn't look it. I swear he gets less ruffled the more that he's threatened. (When I'm the one threatening him, that's infuriating. But it's kind of cool now.)

SCREAM

but listen simon he DID say earlier that when ur threatening him he feels at ease SO LIKE

Every one of them must be so jealous of him. He's everything they are, plus magic. Plus he looks the part, like he was born to be some sort of dark king.

LMAO WHAT IS THIS WILL SMITH ASS LIKE

Or maybe he knows who I am. The Mage's Heir. (The Mage kills vampires; he doesn't think it's murder.)

Interesting way to phrase it Hmm

(the implication being that simon Does think of it as murder in some regard, aka a direct contradiction to smth the mage believes)

I follow Baz through the room, wishing I'd worn all the posh gear he tried to push on me before we left Hampshire. I'm wearing my Watford trousers and one of his Scandinavian jumpers--and I only took the jumper because he said my Watford uniform made me look 12.

LOL let baz dress him up it'd be a dream come true for him

Baz is walking so slow, I keep kicking the back of his heels.

I don't even have my wand on me, though they don't know that. (Baz knows. He couldn't believe I left it at Watford.) (I was in a hurry!)

CUTE love the lil offscreen argument here

Nicodemus grins again, and I see the gaps in his smile; his eyeteeth are missing. His tongue is pushing at one of the holes.

H aren't eyeteeth the fuckin. canines????? missing his vampire teefs????

(the only reason i know this is bc i had an impacted eye tooth which made my braces Hell)

whys he missing his teefs tho. he voluntarily became a vampire right. did he consciously decide he didn't wanna use 'em or did he get in a fuckin Fight

"What do you want from me?" Nicodemus asks.

"I want to know who killed my mother."

[...]

Baz brings the cigarette up to his mouth, breathes in, then drops his hand, flicking ashes to the floor. "Tell me the rest," he says. "Tell me who was responsible."

Nicodemus laughs. "Or what? Are you going to bite me?" He glances down at the cigarette. "Am I supposed to think you're your mother's son? Going to set us all alight? [...]

"Tell him the rest," I snarl. "Or I'll kill you."

HE SAID NO PICKLES

"Fine," he says. "I'll tell you. Some of it." [...] "Vampires can't just walk into Watford. We can't go anywhere uninvited. [...] Someone came to me--a few weeks before the raid--wanting me to broker a deal. [...]

HMM HMMMMMM

so it was Partly an inside job, someone who had the authority to invite the vampires into watford. REALLY interesting that this is the first time this has come up, bc if you know that vampires have to be invited then that's Obvious but since no one knows shit about vampires except for vampires themselves (baz consistently says he has no one to ask to learn shit abt himself) it's not a connection as easily made- OR it was made but was kept VERY quiet

although. did it rly have to be someone with authority, or could it have just been anyone who had access to the grounds. either way the attack happened like right before the school year started so it would've had to have been someone on watford staff since no students 🤔

[...] He turns his jack-o'-lantern smile on Baz again. "I wonder if you were part of the plan, Mr. Pitch. Hard to believe the magicians have allowed it....Why do they keep allowing it? What are they hoping to do with you?"

my brain is thinking too hard rn i swear i had smth to say about this but i LOST THE TRAIN OF THOUGHT........... i mean okay. so this says that either baz wasn't supposed to be bitten, or he wasn't supposed to survive. i think

also how widely known is it that baz is a vampire. isn't it just his family? is it even his whole family?? what is nicodemus insinuating here. who are "the magicians." is he asking why baz's family have let him survive, or is he saying that people outside of baz's family know, and haven't put an end to him yet. like whoever ordered the attack, for instance

or it could be the old families in general? that would make "what are they hoping to do with you" make sense, since they're like, kind of Controlling him for their plans. so would that mean it was an Old Families job?? someone other than the pitches was like fuc these guys im gonna take em down a peg WOE VAMPIRES BE UPON YE

my head's spinning dude

"Was it. The Humdrum," Baz says again.

Nicodemus shakes his head, still smiling. "It was one of you," he says. "But his name isn't worth my life. Maybe you'll kill me if I don't tell--but I'll die for certain if I do."

"one of you" is he talking about Specifically the pitches or magicians in general. bro what if it was the fucking mage

actually i can't believe i haven't thought of that before. There's A Theory

"What would the Coven do if you cast a forbidden spell, Tyrannus Basilton?" Nicodemus smirks. "Do you think they would be forgiving of one such as you?"

going wild and insane WHAT DOES THIS MEAn

like the coven knows he's a vampire?? like someone on the coven knows he's a vampire????? like the mage?????? or just because he's with the old families (Specifically the pitches), who are currently warring with the coven?? or is it BOTH????? SCREAM

(maybe it's just that they'd be able to tell he was a vampire just by Showing Up i mean)

"I should kill you right here," Baz says, his chest pushing forward. "I don't think anyone would stop me. Or miss you."

I put my hand on Baz's shoulder. "Let's go."

"NO ONE WOULD STOP ME" immediately gets stopped

Baz tosses his cigarette onto the pool table, and Nicodemus jumps back, losing his composure for the first time. He flails out for his drink and pours it over the fag. Baz is already striding away.

non-alcoholic drink confirmed (or stupid nicodemus confirmed)

I look at Nicodemus. "Your sister misses you," I say.

Then I turn back to Baz and shuffle to catch up.

AW i was wondering if he was gonna say anything about ebb simon's too good :(((

also baz smoking in a room full of vampires to make himself more intimidating is so fucking. can't believe him

(simon makes baz quit smoking arc when)

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ok fuc i NEED to stop it here bc this is getting long and the next part fuckin.... NEEDS THE SPACE so u h TBC BABYYYYYYY

#retag later #ss blogging #ur honor theyre gay #ur honor they were staring lovingly into each others eyes at the library i saw them #they forgot to put that part inthe book but i saw it its real

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newplace2befrom · 2 years

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get to know me tag🧚

name: baz, speck, llewyn !!!!(u gotta say the exclamtion points)(i use multiple names)

sign: sagittarius sun and like fuckin... gemini moon or some thin no clue

height: 167cm

time: 9:43pm while im writing this at least

fav band/artist: 5 seconds of summer...nightly.. bo burnham...the 1975..phoebe bridgers.... ... im not well

last movie + show: last movie z-o-m-b-i-e-s 2 ╥﹏╥ show uhhh probably fuckin moon knight for the 4th time i dont remember

when did i create this blog: august 21, 2019 shdhdd i had one from like 2014 ish but it got too cluttered

what do i post: random things i find cool + hyperfixations (also things i find cool)(see: favorite bands, last show) + my art!!! + random thinks

other blogs: none. i always make n delete side blogs like once every 4 months

do i get asks: only from lucy. i wish more but lucy is enough.

average hours of sleep: 14-16 hours/night

dream job: concept artist/character designer for indie game design company

dream vacation: ummm san diego back to my college roommate's high school principal's big house and it was just the two of us housesitting. i am not immune to nostalgic bias. maybe mexico

current fav songs: NAME SOMETHING BETTER AND I WANNA BE YOUR CAR BY RAY BULL IS MY EVERYTHING. EVERYTHIG! oblivion by grimes ofc, + idea of her cavetown

tagged by: @taeyeonsb per usual /aff 🥺

tagging: @chamaleonsoul @harringtonhood if u want ummm i think thats it cool

#tag game #speck talks #tags tag #tags tags tags #wooooo #text

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srirachafilledbees · 3 years

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I wasn’t tagged by a specific person by @nick-eyre tagged everyone so that’s me :)

I can’t remember who’s done this already so I’ll also tag anyone and everyone who sees this and wants to join in on the fun!

Also I won’t be on tumblr at all from when awtwb comes out until I finish it so see y’all sometime in a week to a month from now 😘

#you cannot make me choose between the main four I love them all so much #also for the fandom discourse one I love most of the options that I didn’t choose as fun memes or headcanon s #but I chose the ones that I genuinely believe in #bowl cut/flat ass baz may represent his soul sometimes but let’s be real he’s an athlete who cares way too much about his appearance #ofc he has a juicy ass and nice hair #carry on #tag #achacha

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champgnesny · 3 years

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final part of this series! that’s right i got to any way the wind blows again and ofc finished so thanks to that now we have:

“things i noticed while re reading any way the wind blows!”

btw this might contain spoilers so if u haven’t read it well here’s your warning!

we start off way too sadly, not noticing now but like ouch? let me stop crying for this mfs two seconds cmon.

simon tends to seem numb when his life is mess, but in reality he’s just two more tragic events far from exploding and being done with everything and everyone.

simon believing he doesn’t deserve baz breaks my heart every single time.

baz texts simon at least twenty six times until giving up and telling him he will tell him more when he gets back home.

this lead us to the next point, wherever simon is, that’s where baz considers his home.

it’s sad to think baz can’t talk with his own family about how things are going for him, cause well his life goes around whatever his doing with simon or discovering about vampires, and it’s so relatable it hits near home.

im pretty sure baz dad got something for naming his child with uncommon names, ej basilton and sophronia (like pls?) and then gets annoyed when people gives them nicknames to shorten their names to baz or soph lol.

baz it’s an incredible brother, it softens my heart seeing him sing to the baby, or comforting his sisters i swear.

when penny told baz that simon moved out and didn’t want to be found, baz stopped himself from thinking he hated him cause he knows he he would do everything for simon.

it’s always mentioned how it’s almost impossible to hide from someone you love, and it makes sense that simon doesn’t realize it when baz appears at his door, but it would have been cute to see him connect the dots later.

simon believes he was meant to find baz, that they were meant to find each other in all of their lifes, but mentions how this one isn’t the one he stays with him, and yes, you guessed, i cried.

i think most of you don’t realize how much does simon loves baz, yes, he was breaking up with baz cause he couldn’t keep up anymore but he also mentions how he was not going to be the reason baz couldn’t find something better and letting go is one of the hardest things someone can do, more when you are madly in love.

when they are arguing baz tells simon to use his words, and simon immediately goes like “that’s my boy” i cried five minutes straight to that line.

baz being desperate to get a reaction from simon shows how he would prefer having simon screaming at him, fighting, hitting each other than having nothing from him and it hurts me.

“ive been reliving all of it, our whole story, every night i stayed awake to watch him fall asleep, every time i threw a punch just to touch his face” was there any point on me putting this after what i said? no, but i want you to be hurt as much as i am, it’s lovely isn’t it people?

i feel like everyone eventually gives up on baz and he’s so used to it, but then having the person you love giving up on you too is just- no, and simon knows it cause he has been there so i think that’s also part of why he re evaluates the situation and decided to fight for him.

i like how baz didn’t forgive simon just cause he showed up at his door and how for the first time, he forced simon to express himself and tell him what he wanted while he also told simon about his own feelings and the things that hurt him.

baz being embarrassed for having rat blood is funny, but then simon cleans his lip and licks the blood from his fingers like- them.

i like how baz comforts simon but also lets him know what he’s doing wrong or what is hurting him, an open communication king.

the whole butter thing was absolutely lovely they are so cute i can’t. 💞💞💞

fiona is always teasing baz about everything it’s so fucking funny i love her.

them joking around and being the lovely happy couple they deserve to be warms my heart.

simon cuddling baz either with his arms, wings, both makes me so happy, cause i feel like even in his sleep he’s kind of protecting him bye.

simon having a thing for the way baz smells can be seen since the first book but this time he went absolutely feral about it and i love it.

it worries me a little bit the way simon bites baz like he bites him so hard pls but also it’s so pure and i cant with this two, they’re gonna be the end of me i swear to god.

"id drain you fucking dry baz, and it still wouldnt be enough” good thing baz is in bed cause if he wasn’t i am pretty sure his legs would had gone so week he would have fell, thank you.

we got lots of them being horny asf but everything felt so intimate and real and honest even then i was crying, i love this book.

as much as the violent thoughts but i love you thoughts are from baz, simon is currently going through it in page one hundred twenty three lol.

simon telling baz how he never really tried exposing him for being a vampire and baz asking him “have you ever made an effort in me?” sent me i am so so sorry.

page one hundred twenty five and we can already see how simon has a blood kink, amazing.

simon really suggested telling penny to find a way to get baz to drink his blood without turning him or drinking too much pls.

i just know baz let simon look at him while he was drinking the rats blood cause simon accidentally slipped in his ranting that he felt like being “bigger” so he could hold his feelings for baz… istg if baz isn’t marrying him soon, i will.

“fuck you snow” “someday perhaps, ive been told there’s hope” simon please. 😭😭😭

yes simon laughs, but when he’s with baz he tends to giggle, that’s so cute goodbye.

i love how them hunting rats ended up being a date, god bless snowbaz happiness.

simon dislikes the thought of baz going to war.

simon wanting to kiss baz full of rat blood is the most romantic thing i have ever seen and call me crazy but it’s absolutely lovely thank you.

agatha and niamh are the duo, disrespect them and i will jump at your throat in not a good way.

the way agatha rants about niamh tights it’s kind of funny, like she’s really into it and when she talked about boys she was like “that’s hot right?” like if she was waiting for someone to tell her it was so she could proceed please.

couples who take care of goats together, stay together me thinks.

agatha is way more powerful than she thinks she is, she literally invented a spell for goats in less than five seconds and it worked like cmon.

penny’s second name is leigh, fits her perfectly if you ask me.

penny is incredibly alike to her mother i don’t know how doesn’t she see it like i guess she will have to wait a few years to realize but her mother it’s definitely who she is about to become.

baz cousin, dev is into agatha and likes to rant about her idk why that’s funny but it is.

also i imagine simon face when he heard baz saying “took a break from sucking cock” and i just start laughing, please someone draw it out.

baz ranting about his family story and simon being actually fully interested on it makes my heart soft cause baz thought he wouldn’t care about it, stopping himself from continuing.

simon finding out baz is italian is one of my favorite things from this book, that’s it.

okay this way too long, continuing this in part two lmaooo.

#any way the wind blows #baz pitch #simon snow #snowbaz #agatha wellbelove #niahm #penny bunce #shepard love #carry on

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mostlymaudlin · 3 years

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six sentence sunday

ahoy!!! thx for the tags @urban-sith and @captain-aralias

ive been off work this past week but everyone i know is working so ive just been, like, a menace of art and writing. its been nice! but also i have like three silly wips going and have been ignoring writing the last chapter of my actual wip and yeah. im off work next week too so lets hope the juices keep flowing.

anyway! have some kooky romance from my fic where simon accidentally magics himself, baz, dev, and niall into New Super Mario Bros (for the DS, specifically).

I can't see Baz, but his voice has gotten closer. A bright white line of numbers and letters shoots by us, code of some sort, and it illuminates Baz’s face for a moment. I grab for him, keeping my hands on him as the light fades.

“Are you okay?” I’m patting him down now with my ridiculously large hands, searching for some kind of injury. I don't know how I’d be able to tell if he was hurt. I don’t know how these stupid Mario bodies work. I'm surprised he's letting me touch him.

Another line of code zooms by, and I look up at Baz’s face. He doesn't look mad. He looks tired. And… something else, unfamiliar. I'm not as good at reading his expressions when he's a cartoon. I reach up to his face as the light fades again. I feel his eyebrows raise, but he still doesn’t shake me off.

im trying rly hard to make u feel something while also reminding u that they are plump little mario cartoons... let me know if it worked hahah. you can read part 1 of this fic here:

Jump Up, Chosen One!

tags!!: @wetheformidables @snowybank @unseelieseelie (i know u JUST posted but is there more mouth shapes... im waiting patiently..) @stillmadaboutpetra @xivz @bloodiedpixie @tea-brigade @im-gettingby @seducing-a-vampire and ofc anyone else who wants to show off their wips!! plssss let me in let me see

#sorry ire i know u already saw this #but the rest of what i have so far is just sentence fragments because i was just spitting the words out while stoned last night #but i cleaned this bit up to show u lol #anyway i drafted the whole thing yesterday i just have to clean it up!!!! the boring part sigh #my writing #MARIO!!!!!!!!!

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staylavendertea · 3 years

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music, ya know

this is a complete impulse of lying in bed middle of the night thoughts that i don’t even know if anyone’s gonna see that have been stemmed off the experiences of the past couple days, topic of 1:41 am mind boggle:

music and it’s aesthetic and importance in literal every sense cause it’s just that important to me

first experience of realizing this, i’ve always loved film scores and listening to music and the orchestral pieces from movies and shows, but it really seemed to hit me recently, like the fact that this week’s new LOKI episode, no spoilers, has the most badass score and a badass scene with such a perfect mix and musical atmosphere. i literally had one of my best friends over, who has a very small interest in comics, cinema, marvel in general, especially a show about a norse comic god that they know nothing about, and whilst they sat there for my own regard, watching the show like a normal human being would, i sat there clinching their hand, watching in awe as our music is louder than actors talking tv speakers spurted out the most spine tightening world building story and just wandered “jesus that was good” and whilst i will always think about the superior acting, cgi, the amount of different people that just went into those few scenes and like what was physical set and what was computer image and what the hell did i just watch that has my brain running olympic marathon circles right now?

the thought that said brain kept going back to was that fucking score. it was literally tearing apart of every corner of my head and why was it doing that?

second experience, another marvel one, but i digress. black widow (no spoilers i promise), thursday night, movie theater for the first time in i can’t even remember how long now and we set through so many previews just for fucking boss baby to start playing and the reaction of the theater to make me burst out laughing.

however whatever works in that little projection box, gets fixed and the movie is pushed to just a little before it starts, a nice small pepsi ad, the regal rollercoaster intro (if you go to regal movie theaters ya know what i’m talking about), and then i hear it - the marvel studios logo - something so musically engraved into my head that my ass that can’t sing for anything, can harmonize with the sound and makes the hair on the back of my neck stand up around movie theater surround sound. but i can’t think of that now, i’m here to watch black widow, a movie on hiatus with the rest of the world for so long now, a character i didn’t know much about it or truly, didn’t have the most connection with in the first place. yet through that one movie, i seemed to build one of those.

ofc though scarlett johansson’s beautiful acting and world building, but it isn’t until the end of the movie that i even realize why. it was the fucking score again. when i think about it, the beginning of the movie felt like all of black widows scenes in the avengers movies for me, kinda just, there. not really emotionally tugging, not bad ofc either, but just, there. in the present, watching something cool in motion. but then it hits, what i can only describe as a theme that somehow tells the entire black widow movie in one singular composition. something so badass, story telling, but also just singularly black widow-esk. i can tell you that i walked out the movie theater rambling about the composition and looking up composers.

third experience, the most recent as it was literally like 20 minutes ago and sprung one train rail of a thought process that immediately tugged me into typing this brain vomit into a tumblr post. i have playlists. for everything. and when i say everything, i fucking mean everything. i’m a writer and a reader, i have playlists mostly for the young avengers, my most utter comfort characters, and their stories i’m writing. i also have playlists/genre/specific song for about every book i read.

when i read red white and royal blue when that came out, i noticed i listened to one of the drunks by panic at the disco the entirety of the ending of the book and the words and music fit together like puzzle pieces, not only did it make the reading experience better, but i was so fucking emerged in my over hyper-imagitive brain that when i finally actually finished the book, i still never left. rewind present day to the beginning of this past june, one last stop comes out, ofc i get it the day it comes out with my anticipation building like wildfire. i start reading that night and i put on my recents on my liked songs playlist (true to true spotify user) and i slowly over the next day as i read and finish the book, windle down to the genre, then the band, to the album, to the exact song that feels like the carbon copy of the words i’m reading. that song was only ones who know by the arctic monkeys. now go back to this past week, anyone who reads the carry on series knows, anyway the wind blows came out this past tuesday. i waited till wednesday to buy the ✨pretty special addition barnes and nobles copy✨ so that the dear friend that indulged me by watching loki that same day could buy it at the same time and make a cute book date or whateva. i started reading that night and something just felt ,,, off. i didn’t know what it was, but i was living off the pure joy that simon and co give me so i ignored the feeling. until i realized why it felt off this morning. i wasn’t listening to any fucking music, literally nothing, not even queen. motherfucking. queen.

i looked for the snowbaz playlist i made when i read carry on for the first time back in 2016/2017 when i was still a freshman in high school just to remember i deleted that literally forever ago. so i made a new one. like an hour and a half ago. very inspired on how i made the playlists for the young avengers and all their stories. letting the music talk.

the fact that all these rambling thoughts have led to this conclusion makes my head hurt, but for me at least in my own experiences. music talks. a two way conversation. a radio broadcast, turning the peg until you match the same frequency thats being put out and you can hear it and understand it. it’s like when you see comedians on stages or actors on panels, they talk, you have reactions, you talk back, and so forth the loop continues until the last voice, last note, rings out. music and songs and orchestral pieces and bands and composers and lyric writers are telling you the stories in reverse. they don’t know their doing it, obviously they meant something entirely different in their creations, but it’s like literature and any work of words and storytelling. interpretation. to me, the notes, pianos, violins, guitars, drums, singers, cellos, and anything that can make sound you can think of, is telling you something. whispering in your ear as you watch or read. facial features, emotions the characters dont say out loud, outfits, they way their standing or talking or moving or interacting with anything and everything.

when i just made that carry on playlist, i played it, decided to try read some good almost 2 am fan fic as you do, my hanging on by a thread sleep brain telling me words aren’t recognizable right now, and tighten myself into a blanket to see if i can sleep at all. the playlist still plays and my never shuts up head thinks it’s own daydreams, stresses out about anything it can, that is until the song plays. the one that just speaks the carry on trilogy language. the one that i found whilst i was reading wayward son and then would play whenever i re read carry on. the one that started this whole way too long ass post in the first place. cant be alone tonight by atlas. i heard just the first sound and i saw them, as if i were in the same room, like i never even put the book down in the first damn place because i’m actually terrified of finishing it. i could see simon in his oversized hoodies, baz in an outfit that was way too good just to be sitting inside, agatha looking as pleasantly pretty as ever, penelope poking fun at shepherd, and shepherd poking fun right back; bickering, laughing, saying the dialogues i try to remember so i can write them later, existing.

in a way music doesn’t just talk, but it lives. it lives and breaths. a three way conversation you could say. characters, stories, plot, and settings talk to the music, then the music delivers us listeners the message, so that we can send one back. this literally took me over an hour to write and i should point the important note that i do have synesthesia where colors and sounds and colors and words do the association so this entire thing might be me being entirely biased, but alas, i love sound so much and if there is anyone else that feels the same ways as i do as just a simple good film score and song makes anything ten times better, feel free to talk, i will totally be awkward, but i need some music freaks like myself around so feel free to hit me up, also if you love movies and cinema also feel free to hit me up as i need movie buddies and now it’s 3 am and i will be going to bed - peace out 🛸

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andrewsneil · 3 years

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hi thank you to @jasonfunderberkerthefrogexists for tagging me in this fic writer tag game! i have not actually written a fic in a hot sec but i’m working on some stuff so yes. i have no idea who to tag but if you see this and you post fic then i’m tagging you <3

how many works do you have on ao3?

twenty one! tho i have nine more in my ao3 drafts

what’s your total ao3 word count?

fucking. 103844 what the fuck i only posted my first fic like. a year ago ish why did i spend six months writing 103k of muke fic when i could’ve written a fucking novel

how many fandoms have you written for and what are they?

two! 5sos & rainbow rowell’s carry on

what are your top five fics by kudos?

1. coffee shop fic (w/ muke)

2. random hair braiding prompt (w/ lashton)

3. the witch fic (w/ muke)

4. fake dating fic (w/ muke)

5. baz & smoking drabble (w/ snowbaz)

do you respond to comments? why or why not?

ok so i try to but also sometimes i put it off when i receive them, and then i forget about them and feel awkward answering them when i remember like five months later but i do read all of them and appreciate them all <3

what’s the fic you’ve written with the angstiest ending?

i am simply too depressed for angst. some people’s comfort tag is hurt/comfort but i can’t read that w out crying, let alone write it. i guess the end (so far) of what i’ve written of carry on fic is sorta angsty?

have you ever received hate on a fic?

no thankfully not bc i think i’d die inside

do you write smut? if so, what kind?

no! thank u to everyone who does i love that shit when it’s abt fictional characters and not real people but i can’t write it and also i don’t think i want to hfjdkd

have you ever had a fic stolen?

no i don’t think so hfjdks

have you ever had a fic translated?

nope!

have you ever co-written a fic before?

no but the amount of shit that me and @radiosil3nce come up w could probably be put in a fic 😔

what’s your all time favourite ship?

ok. well. my first favourite ship was scorbus. i was dealing w a LOT of self internalised homophobia and then i started shipping them and realised hey maybe gay people aren’t gross, maybe i’m gay. it’s probably wolfstar, but also i don’t think i’d love wolfstar THAT much if i didn’t love sirius. based off of like, the dynamic alone, merthur. their dynamic’s elite. but wolfstar is my favourite just bc nothing makes me happier than thinking abt sirius black happy, and nothing makes sirius black happier than remus :)

what’s a wip that you want to finish, but don’t think you ever will?

carry on fic but also draft’s wise, starstruck fic & my poly hp au

what are your writing strengths?

according to gigi it’s the fact that i write p good dialogue and am good at making my version of other people’s characters seem in character <3

what are your writing weaknesses?

probably. lack of motivation. and the fact that i can’t read over my own writing w out dying. and self confidence hfjdkdks

what are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in fic?

i’d probably do it! i think i’d just be nervous abt getting stuff wrong bc the only languages i know are english (barely) and french (studied it for five years and i can barely speak it) so. it’s not looking good

what was the first fandom you wrote for?

ok it was either winx with a self insert and a completely mary sue oc that i paired w brandon or a harry potter fic where draco had a sister who was a year younger than him called andromeda bc apparently in this andromeda black wasn’t a thing?? ok. also yes she was a self insert who decided to karate chop harry potter at the train station?? i was like, eight. enemies to lovers stan since ‘03 <3

what’s your favourite fic you’ve written?

god quality wise, i think either carry on fic or my witch fic are my best. carry on fic bc it’s the most recent, so ofc it’s gonna be the best bc writing gets better AS you write, so new stuff is always gonna be better than old stuff. i love my witch fic, i got some really nice comments on it and i think it’s one of my best, but also my fake dating fic has a special place in my heart, it’s rlly the only one that i reread

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ayellowcurtain · 4 years

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Ofc Lucas L.🥰

favorite thing about them: it might not be an obvious one and people might not agree, but I like how open he is to feeling. Whatever it is. If it’s anger, sadness, happiness, Lucas feels it with his whole being and he lets himself feel and I think that’s pretty brave and good for a male character to show the world is okay to have feelings, it’s kinda normal.

least favorite thing about them: I guess one is connected to the other, but I don’t like how he can say things he doesn’t mean when he’s too inside his own head. He warned us, but I wish he could learn from his mistakes and think before opening his mouth

favorite line: “but the truth is that I would rather be upset with you than not have you at all” and yes, yes that line does sting a little thinking about it right now...Imagine Lucas overthinking stuff, thinking he doesn’t have Eliott right now because Eliott is not sharing shit with him...

brOTP: Lucas x Yann <3

OTP: Eliott Demaury, of course

nOTP: Lucas x anyone else

random headcanon: Thanks to @starlightdreamss I now would like to imagine him and Baz opening a restaurant together, being chaotic together, running into each other inside their small kitchen, but making delicious, comforting food <33

unpopular opinion: LUCAS IS NOT LUCILLE, LUCAS AND HER DON`T TREAT ELIOTT THE SAME.

song I associate with them: Seinabo Sey - Remember (Lyric Video) ft. Jacob Banks

favorite picture of them: So so hard to choose just one, but

He looks way too cute and soft and his boys are with him :3

#skam france #Lucas Lallemant #aycsundaytag

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belacoded · 4 years

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Fic Masterlist

Here is a masterlist for all of my fics sorted by fandom. This will be updated as my fics are updated. I never abandon anything, so even if it’s been awhile since I’ve updated something, it will be finished eventually. I also take prompts for all of these fandoms and more, and I’ll write for every ship.

Carry On Series - Rainbow Rowell

SnowBaz Library AU: Completed 7/31/2020. 3,331 words. 3 works. Complete.

Alone at the Counter: Posted 7/25/2019. 1,925 words. 1/1 chapters. No warnings. SnowBaz. Summary: Every day at 2:40pm a man comes into the library that Simon just can’t take his eyes off of.

It’s a Book Club (Maybe Something More): Posted 7/31/2020. 998 words. 1/1 chapters. No warnings. SnowBaz. Summary: Simon and Baz’s first date doesn’t really go as Simon planned. Baz doesn’t seem to mind, though.

Baz to the Rescue: Posted 7/31/2020. 408 words. 1/1 chapters. No warnings. SnowBaz. Summary: Simon has been talking to this lady for twenty minutes. He has no idea who she is. Baz saves him.

Hush.: Posted 7/25/2019. 954 words. 1/1 chapters. No warnings. SnowBaz. Summary: “Shhh.” “I just-” “Hush.” “I worry-” “Don’t.” “But-” “Simon.” “Baz?” “Here.”

We Don’t Need to Wear Costumes: Posted 10/28/2019. 341 words. 1/1 chapters. No warnings. SnowBaz. Summary: Simon leaves before Penny can hide his wings.

As If Nothing Really Matters: Updated 6/22/2020. 3/? chapters. Warnings not used. SnowBaz, Penny/Micah. Summary: Five years after Simon, Baz, and Penny had saved the magickal world and Simon and Penny moves in together, Penny is moving to America and Simon and Baz are starting a new portion of their lives together. Of course, the world won’t just let them live in peace... [I outlined the plot for this before My Wayward Son came out, so it kind of ignores a lot of canon]

Panic! At The Disco

Panic! At Christmas Time: Posted 7/25/2019. 381 words. 1/1 chapters. No warnings. No ships. Summary: A really short story about Panic! in the early years during Christmas.

Filthy Pride: Posted 7/25/2019. 2,646 words. 1/1 chapters. No warnings. Ryden if you squint. Summary: A post-split Panic! thing I wrote based on the song Filthy Pride by Social Repose. It's not really a Ryden thing but I guess you can take it that way if you want.

I Don’t Know How But They Found Me

They Found Me series: Updated 10/27/2019. 7,233 words. 2 works. Incomplete.

They Found Me in 1981: Posted 7/25/2019. 7,017 words. 1/1 chapters. No warnings. Dallon/ofc, Ryan/ofc. Summary: Dallon Weekes and Ryan Seaman are the two members of the band I Don’t Know. Ryan has finally managed to get them a gig at one of their classmate’s parties, but Dallon’s not entirely up to it.

They Found Me in Costume: Posted 10/27/2019. 216 words. 1/1 chapters. No warnings. No ships. Summary: Dallon buys the first skeleton mask.

Harry Potter

...And They Were Friends series: Updated 7/10/2020. 102,506 words. 3 works. Incomplete. Description: How different would Harry Potter’s time at Hogwarts be if he had accepted Draco Malfoy’s offer of friendship on the Hogwarts Express at the start of their First Year?

Harry Potter and the Mirror of Erised: Completed 3/29/2020. 63,566 words. 19/19 chapters. No warnings. No ships. Summary: What would Harry’s First Year at Hogwarts have been like if he had accepted Draco’s friendship on the Hogwarts Express? How much would change?

Harry Potter and the Heir of Slytherin: Updated 7/10/2020. 34, 704 words. 12/22 chapters. No warnings. No ships. Summary: Harry has survived his first year at Hogwarts and all of the trials that came with it, but now his second year seems like it might be a little bit worse. Everyone is accusing either him or his best friend, Draco Malfoy, of being the Heir of Slytherin and attempting to purge the school of Muggleborns, but he swears neither of them are behind the petrifications. Book 2 of the “...And They Were Friends” series, in which I write how I think the story would have gone if Harry and Draco became friends instead of enemies in their first year.

Harry Potter and the Bonus Content: Updated 3/29/2020. 4,236 words. 6/? chapters. No warnings. No Ships. Summary: Extra features such as schedules and deleted chapters to go along with my series “...And They Were Friends”

Welcome to Ashland: Updated 5/31/2020. 4,184 words. 2/? chapters. Major Character Death. Drarry. Summary: Draco Malfoy and Harry Potter have known each other since they were eight, and they instantly hated each other. Of course, they met because they had to play best friends on a tv show, and after a while, they managed to become hesitant friends, and then lovers. Now, it’s been ten years since the show has ended and a lot has happened. Draco is doing promo for a new movie that’s coming out, which means talk shows. Talk shows mean reliving his past, especially his past with Harry. This is a story told through memories; some are happy... some are sad... some are funny... some are painful... but Draco is reliving them all.

Supernatural

Season 15 Destiel Codas series: Updated 10/26/2019. 1,149 words. 3 works. Incomplete.

Secrets Get You Nowhere: Posted 10/16/2019. 453 words. 1/1 chapters. No warnings. Destiel. Summary: Dean finds out about Cass’ deal with the Empty.

Real: Posted 10/23/2019. 255 words. 1/1 chapters. Major Character Death. Destiel. Summary: Some angst in response to 15x02. Dean finally realizes the meaning behind “We are”, but it might be too late.

Fake It ‘Til You Make It: Posted 10/26/2019. 441 words. 1/1 chapters. No warnings. Destiel. Summary: Fake it ‘til you make it. Those are the words Dean lives by.

Ships Are For Sailing: Updated 6/22/2020. 5,289 words. 3/? chapters. No warnings. Destiel. Summary: Just a Destiel high school AU without any angst whatsoever because I need to write something happy. This probably will remain ongoing and never end for a while. Maybe forever. I’m just gonna keep adding on more fluff.

Renegades - Marissa Meyer

Revolution: Updated 6/22/2020. 3,182 words. 3/? chapters. No warnings. Alec/Hugh/Simon, Hugh/Simon. Summary: Before the Anarchists and the Renegades were the greatest of enemies, they were one group working together to bring peace to the world and save prodigies from discrimination. This is the story of how the Renegades were first formed and then how the Anarchists split away from them.

PJO/HoO/KC/GoA/ToA

Coffee: Posted 6/23/2020. 929 words. 1/1 chapters. No warnings. Valdangelo. Summary: A Valdangelo college au based off that one tumblr post that’s like “my favorite college experience is when i had a 7am class and the kid next to me literally poured a monster energy drink into his coffee said “i’m going to die” and drank the whole thing”

Outer Banks

No One Follows It: Updated 7/21/2020. 2,036 words. 3/3 chapters. No warnings. JJ/John B, JJ/Pope, Pope/John B. Summary: “No Pogue on Pogue mackin’.” “That rule doesn’t make sense and no one follows it.” I saw a post that had this quote and basically used it to imply that since Kiara has already turned down the boys, if no one follows the rule, then the boys are all mackin’ on each other, so I thought I’d write a fic to go along with that.

Crossovers

A Hogwarts Story: Posted 7/21/2020. 173 words. 1/? chapters. No warnings. Harry Potter, The Night Circus, Teen Titans, Supernatural, Renegades, Heartless, PJO+, Lunar Chronicles, Carry On, Outer Banks, Good Omens, Merlin, The Umbrella Academy. All of the ships (all of them). Summary: I throw all of my favorite characters into Hogwarts and see what happens. The ultimate crossover. This is probably going to be a mess. There’s over 100 characters so far. And I plan on making every ship imaginable happen.

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