#also i don't think many people will but if you're like 'you can't have pda without autism' i have been officially recognised by leaders
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My name is Ariel. I'm the first ever person to be recognised to have a PDA profile (of autism) without autism. And I've realised recently how much the random stuff I do on here, is what I want to be doing for the rest of my life.
So much of my existence has been spent masking, hiding who I really am. And how could I not? When there is no representation of a neurotype anything like mine. When there is no category for it in people's heads either, and so the way they perceive me--and I see it in the way they communicate with me, in their language and behaviour--tends to be a facet, a side, a view of the real me that never shows the whole picture. It's exhausting, never really being known. Existing in fragments of myself to accommodate for people who genuinely do want to know me, but I don't have the language to explain the extent of who I am to them and as a result, the first thing they see becomes everything, in their mind. After that's happened it's hard to explain how it's always not been the case. How I didn't mean to deceive them. I didn't ask to be this way.
I relate to late-diagnosed autistics in this, the confusion of people around them as they unmask. But they often will say they get to fully be themselves in autistic spaces. I don't experience that relief. I feel the kinship of being neurodivergent, and I share the experience of hyperfixations and overload in the ways they present for me. But it's like communicating with neurotypicals, only different. I don't feel a sense of home. I'm like you in some ways. In other ways, not so much. Just different ways. And it's exhausting living in fragments. But this weird partial dual citizenship has superfinetuned my communication skills. My empathy. My ability to understand brains and experiences which are wildly different--and when I'm taking in all of this information all of the time, feeling all this empathy, shifting gears in my brain for every neurotype of every person I lose myself in the experiences of a little--it gets overwhelming. I get overloaded, yes, from the volume of it, and I wish I could relate to empaths more on these things, that I didn't have to expose myself to problematic takes to try. But I also see patterns and trends. I'm hyperaware of authority structures and power and hierarchies as a PDAer. And so some of these patterns concern me. But who can I debrief what I'm seeing, what I'm exposed to every day I interact with people (and I always am interacting with people) with? No one sees it from the vantage point I do. And it's exhausting to have to explain it.
But a silver lining, I guess, is the sense of purpose it brings. The sense that maybe little by little, I can be a part of putting some of the things I see right. There are many areas I'm passionate about, and I talk a lot about them on this blog. It's good to have the outlet. There are many ways of addressing them that I can see, and imagine playing out from my unique perspective, predict how every stakeholder will interact with them. See whether they work, or it's time to return to the drawing board. I'm a PDAer, I'm a natural problem solver. And every effort I make takes a weight off my chest. I'm processing things and doing what I can for them. I can rest knowing I've done my part. I'm not ignoring the injustice, the elephant in the room or in my vision, the thing that when I'm involved with gives me sensory overload (or the closest thing to it) and I'm so empathetic to the people involved with at all times, I can get overloaded from feeling how it must be for them.
I have to look after myself. Manage my energy. But it's hard, because the accounting formulas we're given don't work for me. Even common profiles of neurodivergence--I'm energised by novelty. By connection. By creativity, not by routine. I need each of the carefully constructed tasks in my routine to regulate me in order to be able to do the next, which will regulate me for the next and so on. It's a hard system to put together. I don't know anyone else who has to do the same. And I know a lot of people.
I think my neurotype only assists me with my biggest form of art, the main thing I want to do with my life. I like to joke that every urban planner/designer who graduated from my high school is a PDAer. I don't have a large sample space for that observation. But I'm usually right. We see the big picture. We care about justice and we're good at finding it among fake claims of it. We're natural problem solvers. We're empathetic artists. We're practical at our core. We hyperfocus. And perhaps most of all, we're communicators.
I've heard the main thing an urban designer is is a communicator. No wonder. I shuffle through information and perspectives like a deck of cards I'm trying to sort by colour, number, and shape. I match up people's opposing perspectives and I unpack their fears in front of me. And then I draw. I write. I compose melodies--anything to get this constant stream of ideas out of me and doing something productive. So of course I'm going to be standing up against power abuses in religion, unpacking every way this infiltrates into our lives and all of its impacts. Of course I'm going to dissect colonialism and present ways we can do better. Face and push through the fear that has us trying to lord over others without realising. Of course I'm going to reach out to anyone even vaguely like me that they might not have to be alone in it. I might not have to be alone in it as well. And of course I'm going to understand them perfectly.
Is it a skill? Sure. Is it a neurotype? Absolutely. It's myself, the 'me' I never understood how to be until I understood everyone else. Is it a disability? It disrupts any ability I have to do anything else I or anyone else might want me to do with my days. It tires me out. It overloads me in ways there aren't really any normalised ways to explain and I can't say no to it when I feel compelled to do something. It impacts my mental health. It limits me. But it's who I am. Why would I want to try to be anything else?
#neurodivergence#pda profile#name reveal i guess#personal mental health tag#silver studies urban design#silver bridges#even things i do like#punk christianity#it all fits in here#this is why I need to press on. keep working on how to be more me around everyone else. be honest. explain if necessary#but overall just stop hiding I guess. i don't need to defend myself. I do need to find people to connect with#also i don't think many people will but if you're like 'you can't have pda without autism' i have been officially recognised by leaders#in the field researching from a neurodivergent affirming perspective. who have told me they thought that til they met me#and so i think it's time to stop doubting myself being like 'not sure i can actually exist like this' i can. i do. and i'm not the only one#at least i don't think. even though we are rare#like does this mean autism criteria are too narrow? maybe. but i'm not the person who makes them what they are. i don't meet them
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Dating Yoongi headcanons
Yoongi x Reader
Warnings: swearing, lil suggestive, not proofread.
A/N: Alright, if we're gonna do this series, then it's time we talk about my ult. The man, the myth, the meow meow(I'm sorry Yoongi)
(Also, I'm already planning a pt.2 for this series that's more on the crack side, so if anyone wants to send me headcanons for the members to possibly be included in future lists?)
Masterlist
Requests are open
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Dating Yoongi is comfortable.
So soft for you, I can't even begin. Like, I don't understand how people ever think he's cold, he is the epitome of soft boi.
Blushes when you complement or brag on him.
Turns into a scrunched up, spluttering mess if you call him cute(we love our tsundere).
Very cautious at first with his feelings, but once he feels comfortable enough to open up, he's very straight forward.
To call it dating is a bit generous though. Like, y'all immediately go from 'kinda dating' to 'married-but-not-married'.
Tells you he loves you for the first time in one of those long ass, 3am texts like he sends to the members.
Random,(half-)joking proposals(Marry me, Yoongi uno reverse card!)
"What kind of ramen do you want?" "Marry me." "Both it is."
So many songs about you, but you will not know until they're released(or he makes them into a playlist/mixtape for your birthday or anniversary)
Actually really hesitant about letting you in his studio(sorry fellow writers). He just prefers to have a level of separation between his work and you.
Dates are usually pretty chill(except for special occasions or when he wants to flex and rents out a whole fucking skating rink for y'all or smth)
Another who lives for domestic activities with you, like cooking together or even just grocery shopping. Idk, he just likes getting to be with you.
Probably would love going camping with you in one of those little camper vans.
Likes to teach you things?
I mean, he won't want to be your full time teacher, but if you show an interest in smth like piano or producing, he'll get a kick out of teaching you the basics.(let him teach you about basketball, he'll lose his gd mind)
Not big on nicknames(big shock🙄). Like, you have a perfectly good name, why not just fucking use it? Also calls you 'Jagi', but that's if he's feeling particularly soft or needy.
Acts of service King.
Have you eaten? He's making food. Are you cold? Makes you take his jacket. His top priority is making sure you're taken care of.
Gets lowkey jealous of Holly getting too much of your attention. "Yah, are you dating me or my dog?!"
Sass and bickering are basically a second language for you two.
Subtle about pda. If he's not holding your hand, he has to have one resting on your back.
SOMEONE HOLD HIS FUCKING HAND FOR THE LOVE OF-(sorry, I'm calm)
Not always vocal about wanting physical affection, but when he is, he's lowkey dramatic.
*laying on the couch*"If you don't kiss me, I'm gonna die." *kiss* "Better?" "Hmm, still in critical condition. Keep going."
Another who gets more than a little enjoyment in winding you up into a flustered mess, and is smug about it(again, shocking no one, I'm sure)
Slow, lingering kisses as he holds onto you like you're the most precious thing in the world.
Gets really quiet if you fight(and sulks), but is usually the first to apologize because he absolutely cannot stand y'all being mad at each other.
Holds you to go to sleep.
"Marry me." "M'kay."
Okay, that's enough delulu for right now, Imma go cry.
#yoongi#yoongi imagine#yoongi fluff#yoongi headcanons#yoongi scenarios#yoongi x y/n#yoongi x reader#yoongi reaction#bts scenarios#bts reaction#bts headcanons#bts fluff#bts reactions#bts x y/n#bts x reader#bts imagines#7ndipity
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Boyfriend!Hobie Brown Heacanons - Hobie Brown x GN!reader
I am not normal about Hobie Brown and I don't plan on stopping
Before we begin!! I feel like Hobie would be really slow and hesitant on letting his partner know he's Spider-man (considering he wasn't willing to tell Miles).
So I imagine he'd try to juggle it with the band and all the political action he does. He just wants to keep you safe, but when it comes up he usually brushes off why he up and disappears sometimes. But if directly confronted, he's not gonna lie cause he feels like that's shitty. If asked why he's gone, he'd come out and say it, but try to soften the blow best he can.
(With that out of my system)
Okay first things first Hobie is the most SUPPORTIVE bf ever
No matter what he's always in your corner
Hobie believes in his partner a lot, and that means he'll always back you - even if he's the only person to have your back
And he knows you can handle your own, but if anyone has anything to say about it they can deal with him
(RIP to anyone who tries to talk down to you or insult you cause he finna roast they asses no filter)
He's an incredibly good listener. Like crazy good
Hobie's able to bring up things you don't even remember telling him, things said in passing that yoy may not think is important, but he still picks up on
Which is why he's really good to vent to. He may not have a lot of words of comfort, but is has a shoulder to cry on, and if you're angry, he's always there to validate that. Plus no matter what you're going through, he'll always encourage you to get through it, and keep your head up
Hobies also a low-key romantic (in his own way).
If you think Pavi is a great boyfriend then wait to you get with Hobie
If you're like most people, Hobie is most likely taller than you.
He's a lot touchier than you'd think, in his own way. Leaning on you, hanging off of you, arm over your shoulder, or crossing his legs over yours.
Hobie is a man of much slang and many nicknames (and part of the reason people playfully call Pav 'Big Steppa')
He'd call you nicknames more than your actual name - 'love',' 'darling', 'bird' the like, along with some few custom ones
Most of his date ideas involve breaking the law in some way and bashing the occassional facist together
Hobie is actually incredibly smart, both street wise and science wise, so I imagine he's pretty well read. I could see him really enjoying the some anarchist literature with his partner, and then discussing it with them
Protests are his favorite kind of date, followed by concerts, and picnics in abandoned buildings
(or, after he meets Miles, going out to graffiti)
he lets you wear his vest and even helps you make your own
He may not be as verbally affectionate or into PDA as Pavi is, but he still makes it clear that he trusts you and cares about what you have to say
He may not say 'I love you' in front of people, but he'll pull you onto his lap, or ask if you're okay, and give you slang-covered compliments all the time
Being Spider-man is actually a lot more stressful than Hobie lets on
And like most Spider-men, he looks to his other half as support, emotionally
being an international rockstar and anti-facist icon comes with big images, but when he and his partner are alone, he feels a lot more relaxed and a lot less pressured.
Hobie's been Spider-man for 3 years, meanwhile Pavi and Gwen are both in their first months of joining the spider-society. Because of that, he kinda feels responsible for them
He's been putting up with the Spider-Society's shit for years (hence why Miguel is so done with him)
There's definitely times he's come home to his dimension cursing and fuming
Any type of injustice or power inbalance really pisses him off, and sometimes if its really bad he can't stop thinking about it
Especially growing up in a totalitarian universe
He leans on his partner to remind him that there are still good people out there fighting for what's right
Hobie has already gone through most of his canon events, and he carries that with him, though he won't say it
From his reaction in atsv, he doesn't talk about it a lot, and tries is best to brush it off but sometimes, it just can't be ignored
his partner would probably be the only person he brings it up to and it just makes him more pissed with the spider-society
When he's relaxed though Hobie may be more quiet in private, strumming his guitar as his listens to you, or kicking back while the two of you shoot the shit
Pavi's energy hypes him up a lot though, so you two hit up Mumbattan a lot
Or he loves bringing his partner to band practice and mic checks. And he always calls them out in the crowd if he's on the mic
Last sweet stuff okay
If he's gone he'll give his partner one of his bracelets. He'll just be like 'oi, hold this.' then leave chill as hell
Gwen, Pavi, and Miles are all really supportive of you two, even if they have a thousand questions in the beginning (all of which he dodges or plays off)
He's not one to get jealous at all. But he will join a conversation and casually mention the rockstar-model thing. Just to assert dominance. A subtle flex
He keeps asking you to give him a stick & poke somewhere because he thinks it's a cute idea
He likes doing that thing where he sits behind you while he teaches you guitar
He loves having you sleep over, and you can crash in his dimension any time
Especially after he meets Gwen. His fave thing to do is to just play while he listens to the two of you talk for hours
Hobie is a really heavy sleeper but somehow gets up exactly when he needs to be or right before shit starts going down - otherwise he sleeps till 1pm everyday
If theres anything Hobie is, its loyal and supportive, and he wants nothing more than for you to be safe, and free, and happy
(even if most of his advice is throwing a brick at someone)
He is always pushing you to do better, to speak up for yourself or trust yourself because he knows how much you're capable of
And finally he knows your favorite song by heart to the point that if hes zoning out or missing you, he'll strum it on the guitar without even realizing
(okay bye lemme know what you thought thanks for reading loves also I am not okay i am obsessed with him )
#hobie brown#hobie x reader#hobie brown x y/n#hobie brown x reader#hobie brown x you#spider punk x reader#spider punk#spider punk x you#marvel#marvel comics#spiderman#spider man#across the spiderverse#spiderman atsv#atsv
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PUPPY BOY! AU HEADCANONS PT.1
About this AU: Puppy boy! Au is your normal MHA universe with a slight twist. Men possess dog traits (ears, tails, and sometimes large canines), it's hereditary from father to son. Some reactions like tail wagging and perked ears happen, but they have normal lives like any other (mostly, if they like you enough they can give you an “owner” title.)
Still working on this AU please, give feedback 🙏
Kirishima + Pitbull
@angelshimaa come get your dog, bb
• Eijirou is a Pitbull puppy boy, he doesn't have his tail or ears cut like many of his kind, but he does have the eyes an attitude.
• Plenty of people fear him because pitbulls have a bad reputation, but he proves the myth is false by being super kind and loyal! Besides, it's difficult to be scared of him when he welcomes you with such a sweet smile.
• You decided to let him into your life after spending a lot of bonding time with him. It'd be a lie if you said you weren't nervous at first, his pointy teeth were reason enough to be wary. He managed to dissipate any fear, whatsoever, his tail wagging effusively whenever you spoke.
• Like many pitbulls, Kirishima is energetic and loves to exercise, so he constantly drags you to daily jogs and weight-lifting training.
• Did I mention he gives you scary dog privileges? Again, many people associate pitbulls with aggressive behavior, so they think twice before messing with you, specially if he is by your side.
• He is oblivious of his size and weight, and will try to be a lapdog even if his size is not the most practical. “Oh, you are sitting on the couch? Let me just crush you with my weight to cuddle.”
• Not very eager of the idea of being collared like some puppy boys are, but will accept to wear one if you really want him to. Just don't expect him to wear it for long periods.
• It's funny to introduce him with a scary and ominous nickname that contrasts with his kind and gentle personality. “This is my friend Bone crusher planet destroyer” *Kirishima waving his hand happily in the background* “A real menace!”
• Will not hesitate to smother you with PDA if another puppy boy tries to approach you.
“You're home, you're home!” Kirishima said, opening the door for you before you could even finish putting your key in the lock set. You'd only been away for a couple of hours, yet - in Kiri's mind- an eternity had passed. He had missed you so much!
“Hey, buddy, did anyone come while I was gone?” You asked, your hand finding its way to the soft black fur of his ears. It was easy to tell he liked it, specially when his tail wagged so rapidly. “No, no one came - Hey, I smell something on you.” Eijirou pointed out, sniffing your clothes a little. “You were with other men!” He pouted, crossing his arms across his chest.
“Well, it was a party. Of course, there were more people.” You giggled, leaving your bag on the kitchen counter.
Kiri was not having it, his strong arms locking you into a tight embrace. "Now I gotta cuddle you until my scent is there again!" He claimed, throwing you into the couch to cuddle for the rest of the evening. Oh, if only people knew how much of a baby your scary pitbull was!
Dabi + Dobberman
@dabislittlemouse your puppy bites!
• Even if this scary looking dog may seem like some sort of hell hound when your first meet him, he comes from a very selective bloodline after all! His breed would be a Dobberman, with his ears pointy and tail short from being cut at a young age. Also, albino dobbermans have blue eyes! And so you have Touya (white fur) before becoming Dabi (black fur).
• He knows people fears him just by looking at their reactions, and he enjoys it! Dabi wonders, however, why you didn't run away the first time you approached him. He thinks you are very dumb for not being careful around him, but doesn't mind your company at all.
• Hates the idea of an owner but can't help the tail wag whenever you compliment him or do something that he finds exciting. The first time you see that reaction is when you tell him how cool he was!
• Sometimes allows you to see his canines and smirks when he notices how much you like them. Dabi likes to tease by saying "Do you want me to bite you that bad?"
• Dabi IS the definition of scary dog privileges. Looks like he'll bite and WILL bite if someone tries to approach you.
• He also refers to you as "Lady" because, in his eyes, your dynamic with him is similar to the "Lady and the tramp" story... Except the tramp is more of a hurt dog that turned aggressive against everyone except you.
• Won't admit it but enjoys resting his head on your lap whenever you are sitting, this only happens in private though. Bonus points if you caress his hair and ears, you can see the stump of his tail wag!
"Dabi, why are you standing under the rain? You'll get sick!" You worried, watching the man waiting for you outside your workplace. His black spiky hair had turned slick and damp, but his ears remained perked up with attentiveness as he watched you step out of the building. "Just making sure you walk home safe, nothing else." He grunted with his hands inside the pockets of his coat. "There were some drunk fucks a few blocks down."
You pulled out your umbrella and shielded him, "Yeah? Will you put them in their place if they misbehave?" He heard you joke, but the dark smirk he had on his face was enough to tell you an answer. "Who says I didn't take care of them already?"
Your mouth gaped for a moment in both worry and amazement, "Well, as long as they still breath."
"Yeah, they do... I think." Dabi snorted, wrapping an arm around your shoulder and flashing you a grin. "Now, let's get you home."
Bakugo + Chihuahua
@shonen-brainrot Your man is a Chihuahua, can't convince me otherwise
• A lot of people think Chihuahuas are evil, crazy and aggressive rats. Most of the time, they'd be wrong, but in Katsuki's case, the stereotype applies... partially. Chihuahuas are very friendly and social under the right circumstances, but if they get too spoiled or babied, they can develop a rather snarky and corrosive personality! So, on one hand, he is very attentive at home and knows when and where to be cooperative; on the other, if you push his buttons, he won't hesitate to bite.
• He has big fluffy ears, always pointing towards the sky. The tail matches, coated in soft cream fur. Hates when people tries to pet him and will get easily annoyed with baby talk; he is supposed to be scary, not some sort of fashion accessory people could coddle!
• Anxious, but not in the "I will have a mental breakdown and cry" type. He is anxious as in, "I feel vulnerable or attacked in this situation and will maul anyone who tries to approach."
• Like many Chihuahuas, he likes to be treated as a "big dog". Stands all strong and stern, plays rough, and will pick up a fight with people twice his size if he somehow thinks he can win (happens often, no one knows how). Definition of delulu tiny dog, and sometimes needs a reality check.
• Won't use a collar! At least not in a visible way. If you end up being his significant other, he will wear a collar but very subtly.
• Doesn't handle extreme temperatures very well, specially considering his quirk. Give this pup a sweater for God's sake!
"Goddammit, stop touching my damn ears!" Bakugo barked, swatting your hand away from him as you giggled. "Sorry, they're just too cute! Look at them twitch when I poke them." You pointed out, earning a growl from the blond. In a swift movement, he pinned you down on the couch, frowning and baring his teeth to you.
"I'm not your pet!" He huffed but the smirk on your face made his eyes widen in realization: he still was wearing the collar you gave him, tucked underneath the shirt of his uniform. "Relax, I won't do it again, ok?" You assured.
With a flustered face Bakugo let go of you, ears dropping with embarrassment. "Shut up, dumbass..." The blond mumbled, hiding his adorned neck with his clothes. "Has anyone seen it?" You asked curious. "Of course not! And I would kill them if they do." Smiling, you giggled. He was such a grumpy puppy!
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i need more of those 5sos thoughts!!!!
bf ashton thoughts ⋆ฺ｡*:･
a/n: ask and you shall receive!!! i swear i've been seeing so much ash content so ofc i had to do him next. he also happens to be my 5sos lane which makes it even better. fluff and smut sections included in this one!!
so so so many beach days. he loved when you record a wave he caught while surfing and it doesn't hurt that you're wearing a bathing suit either
big gift giver. always brings you fresh flowers and makes sure to keep on to know when he needs to rebuy them. picks up little trinkets that he thinks you'll like and tries so hard to package them up cutely but ends up failing. but it's the thought that counts!!
100% tries to teach you how to play the drums, even if its just a simple beat
late night spontaneous dates are a normality when being with him. could be anywhere from going to a park and stargazing to diving into the city and going to a bar
he wants to show you off 24/7. like he doesn't have one picture "this is my partner" picture, its a whole album that he's showing to people because he can't believe you're all his
meditating together
guarding together
tbh just being outside and being in nature together would be a big thing for him
not a super huge pda person but BIG on physical touch
so so so many songs written about you. if they didn't end up on a 5sos album he would totally curate his own and dedicate it to you
tons and tons of inside jokes
would 100% get a tattoo for you. i don't think it would specifically be your name, but maybe some art you produced or something that reminds him of you, etc
not a super big pet name user, but sometimes he'll sprinkle them in
smoking together>>>
smutty/suggestive thoughts below the pics
its always ass or tits, and though ashton definitely loves both i feel like he's more of a thigh guy. they way they're so plush and he can squeeze them and mark them to his liking. how they look in skirts or dressed or when they they're over his shoulders. he can't get enough of them
100% puts you're pleasure first. if he comes, great! but he's so focused on you and making sure that you're experiencing as much pleasure as possible
on that note-- he loved to eat you out. your taste, your smell, the way your hands grip at his hair and his name falls from his lips is just intoxicating for him. he also can't deny how much it boosts his ego knowing that he can make you come with just his mouth
so many suggestive comments when you're with a group of friends. he loves watching you get riled up and pressing your thighs together by his words
he's such a tease oh my god. like you know something is about to happen just by how his eyes shift and that smirk that he can't seem to wipe off his face
such a slut for you. he wants you anywhere all the time. doesn't matter who's around, before a show- after a show, he needs you.
thigh riding!!!
so much casual dominance omg. driving you guys everywhere, constantly trying to find ways to help you, helping you pick out outfits. ugh i can't stop thinking about it
don't think he's a huge lingerie guy, but he really appreciated it when you take the time to pick out a set and doll yourself up
cannot get enough of bondage and blindfolds. both using it on you or you using it on him
obsessed with marking-- he wants people to know he's yours and you're his. like i can just imagine him posting a picture on his instagram story where his hair is all messy and his lips are plump from friction, neck littered with hickeys. he would probably delete it after a couple of minutes because the pr team would actually freak out, but it was most definitely worth it in his book.
high sex
likes to take his time, but doesn’t mind a quickie
cuddles that turn into sex that end up with you two curled back together asleep
love love loves kissing. how simple it can show your affection for someone and how it can be innocent and turn into something more
sleepy sex!!! early mornings or late at night when he’s back from the studio and just needs to be as close to you as possible
#5 seconds of summer#5sos#5 secs of summer#5sos fanfic#5sos imagine#5sos images#5sos smut#5sos x reader#luke 5sos#luke hemmings#luke hemmings imagine#luke hemmings fanfic#luke hemmings x reader#luke hemmings smut#calum 5sos#calum hood#calum hood x reader#calum hood smut#calum hood imagine#calum hood fanfc#ashton 5sos#ashton irwin#ashton irwin x reader#ashton irwin smut#ashton irwin fanfic#ashton irwin imagines#michael 5sos#micheal clifford#micheal clifford smut#micheal clifford imagine
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Would you write for the M6 with an MC who's touch-starved and craves affection? Thanks in advance!
The Arcana HCs: M6 with a touch/affection-starved MC
Sequel is here! M6 with an MC who's been bottling up their affectionate tendencies
~ honestly I don't know why I didn't think of writing this one sooner, these kinds of headcanons are always my favorite to read and now I get to write some! many thanks @lemon-len ^.^ ~
Julian
If you think he didn't notice the way you melted into his touch when he healed you of that vampire eel bite that first night, you are wrong
He totally noticed
Most of it he chalked up to chemistry, but it definitely piqued his interest
He's also a champion at writing off his own impact on people, so the whole time you're unraveling the mysteries of the Red Plague and stealing moments with each other he's assuming it's the adrenaline high
It doesn't become apparent to him until after, when he's checking over all the bumps and bruises you've accrued, that he sees the way you lean into his touch
He's told you he loves you, and he knows you love him too, so he doesn't have to be hesitant (though really, when was he ever?)
Now he's folding you into his chest, wrapping his arms around you as snugly as he can and tucking your head under his chin
You're all surprised and tensed up at first, until he presses a gentle kiss to the top of your head and you melt
He can feel the tension draining out of you and the way your fingers are tying themselves into the back of his shirt, and how you're burrowing into his chest
He's always been "too much" in his relationships as to how much physical touch he likes to initiate, but now he's found someone who wants what he has to offer and it's the person he's promised his life to
You can fully expect him to make you a solemn vow to never let you go uncuddled again
If you thought he was already generous with the PDA, it's about to get waaay worse
Asra
In case it's not obvious, their love language is touch
One of the hardest parts of hiding his affection for you those three years was not letting himself touch you
They already knew it was something you craved, it was obvious when they were your caretaker
But the first time he pulled you into a pillow pile with him to snuggle the familiarity of it rocketed you into inhuman levels of pain, and he wasn't going to risk that again
Once it became clear that you had grown enough to learn about the past and accept their affections, it was on
You have five minutes? cuddle time
There's a seat next to you? He's sliding into it and falling into your lap
You're walking by while he's sitting down? They're pulling you into their lap
You're getting ready for the day? He's doing your hair
You're having a conversation with someone that they're not a part of? They're standing behind you with their arms around your waist and their head on your shoulder, letting you take their weight
He has been known to fall asleep on you in public like this, most notably in the town square during a royal proclamation
If you're each doing your own unrelated tasks, they're either sitting beside you with your knees touching or behind you so you can be their backrest
He also knows how people tend to associate the feeling of different clothing articles with the people who wear them
So anytime they leave the shop while you're asleep you can expect to wake up wrapped in one of their shawls
He fully expects you to let him take your clothes with him on long journeys too, which is fine for the most part except for when it's one of your favorite pieces (you still want to wear that!)
Nadia
Her favorite way to love people is to provide for them
It demonstrates her commitment to being an important pillar in your life for you to lean on
Which is why she is completely tuned in to picking up on any of your needs, so she can satisfy them
So she figures out early on that physical contact is a desired and effective method of showing affection to you, but she can't figure out why you never ask for it
She guesses this could make a fun game, so she tries holding back a little and waiting for you to initiate
And then she watches you slowly withdrawing for a whole day, the confidence you always show in her is wavering slightly, and by the time dinner rolls around you're picking at your food with a face full of hurt and confusion, but you haven't said anything!
That's when it clicks for her that there could be another layer to this
Maybe one of the reasons you cherish affection so deeply is because you know what it's like to live without it
Now she's bodily lifting you out of your chair and dragging you to a more secluded spot to make up for her mistake
She feels awful, she should have known not to trifle with depriving you of something that obviously meant so much to you
She has you reclining in her lap, insisting on feeding you your dinner and apologizing for making you worry
Words are very important to her though, so she's going to ask as many questions as you're comfortable with answering about why you don't ask for affection and how to help you get there with her
Now she checks in with you every day by taking both your hands in hers and not letting you go until you've requested some gesture of affection from her
Muriel
He is so generally touch-averse that it took a long time for him to feel comfortable with giving or receiving any kind of physical affection
This didn't bother you too much until your trip south into the tundra
Because it was so cold down there you were incapable of keeping yourself warm at night, and needed to share a blanket and sleeping space with him
Oh my, that did things for your heart
Every night for several weeks you got to finish a day of uncertainty and training and exhaustion by sliding your back right up against his and melting in the waves of body heat he produces
It got easier as he relaxed around you, sometimes you'd wake up to his arm slung around you in his sleep and then you'd happily suffer through Morga's unimpressed stare as you savored the moment
But he was still so self-conscious of how big and intimidating he was, and you were still too hesitant to initiate contact whenever you wanted it, so things stalled for a bit there
You also have to be careful navigating his own relationship with his body
He's got so much trauma from the physical pain he was put through and the deprivation he endured that he's still learning how to taste the food he eats
Eventually you're able to ask him why he doesn't want to touch you, to which he responds that he's not used to touching someone without hurting them or them being afraid of him
It's progressing slowly, but now you have permission to initiate or invite cuddles, and it's changing the world for him bit by bit, because you're showing him that his touch can be a good and precious thing
Portia
She notices how much you love it when she touches you, but she doesn't really get why it's such a big deal at first
She grew up with a sibling and a grandmother and a town of friends and she does manual work elbow-to-elbow with a multitude of palace servants, touch is normal
Until she's sneaking another chapter of a favorite novel and encounters a character for whom touch is not normal
And now she's drawing connections between you and the character, is this why you relax as soon as she puts her hands on your face or your whole body sags when she hugs you?
She can't imagine a life without hugs and tussles and elbows to the ribs and tripping over other people's toes
As soon as you're both back in the cottage that evening she's pulling you onto the couch with her for cuddles
She's telling you all about the book character and listing all the ways you're similar to them, how you don't touch people often but you melt as soon as somebody does, how the character was that way because they weren't used to being touched
Was it the same way for you? Who gives you hugs? How many hugs did you normally get? Did you also get locked in a tower and use glass slippers to climb a beanstalk out?
You're surprised by the onslaught of questions, but her tone is purely curious and slightly concerned, without an ounce of judgment
Once you tell her more about why you crave affection so much she's determined to give you as much as you can handle
This is her partner in crime, her ride or die, you have always had her back and she is going to watch yours
Besides, she thinks you're the most attractive human to walk the planet, who wouldn't want to cuddle you for hours?
Lucio
He clued in faster than you expected him to
He's not very emotionally intelligent, but he is physically intelligent
He grew up in a warring tribe and spent his youth as a mercenary, interpreting people's body language for strengths and weaknesses is second nature
So here you are, dragging him through mystical realms he's completely vulnerable in, and he's watching you like a hawk
And he picks up on it quickly, any time you two make casual physical contact your guard slips a little
At first he's thinking of ways to use it against you, but your charm gets through to him fairly quickly and he never acts on it
It's the night you spend in the labyrinth that settles his doubts for him
You're stumbling every few steps but you're too hyped up to rest, until he sits next to you and pulls you into his side
He watches the way you tense and then completely relax, falling asleep on his shoulder while he's still holding an open weapon in one fist
He's briefly wondering if he'll have to make a habit of this, pausing everything to guard you so you can sleep
And then he's getting an emotional punch to the gut by feeling just how much trust it takes for someone like you to fall asleep on someone like him
He can't remember the last time somebody trusted him at all, much less this completely
By the time your eyes are fluttering open he's decided he'll be willing to keep watch while you sleep as often as you want him to
He's not shy about showing affection at all, so once you two save the world and start your new life together you can expect to receive some kind of physical affection several times a day
(an extra note from brainrot - this prompt has me inspired for a second one, which would be the M6 with an MC who has a lot of affection to give, but has been bottling it up and is just now getting to share it with someone who wants/appreciates it. Would anyone like to see that?)
#ask arcana brainrot#the arcana headcanons#the arcana hc#the arcana#asra the arcana#julian the arcana#nadia the arcana#muriel the arcana#portia the arcana#lucio the arcana#the arcana shitpost#the arcana game#asra alnazar#julian devorak#nadia satrinava#muriel of the kokhuri#portia devorak#lucio morgasson
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Wonderland Girl
Himeko,Jing Yuan,Seelie,Yanqing x GN! Reader
Summary: Relationship Headcannons!
Notes: Muhahaha, another theme change stg if I change my name rn no one will recognize me 😼😼. Ignore the Pastel★Pallette Referance I ran outta ideas
Warnings: suggestive humor,not proofread
She finds you so adorable even when your supposed to be serious. She'd be right next to you watching you come up with a plan and circle around the room. When you come up with a plan you do this cute thing where your head perks up and she just melts seeing this you can't be this cute.
She also likes whenever you act professionally in front of people from the train and then turn around and flirt with her. "Yea...if March is right about this, this could lead to a whole investigation breaking out... What do you think my dear" "my dear?" "Well the best course of action if things go south would probably be an ambush" "yea...most likely I'll go with you guys" "does that mean my room will be vacant again?" She teases "don't worry you still have plenty of things to remind you of me while I'm out ♡" March leans into the Trailblazer. "I think we should give em some room" "they need a room"
100% her hands are all over you. If your right next to she's having a hand around your waist. You could be on your phone she'd lean on you smiling. "You're so warm" she remarks, laying on your shoulder. She just loves physical contact
Her kisses are soft yet intimate depending on how many people are around. She's fine with pda but understands if you may be uncomfortable. Dosent stop her for pinning you against a wall and kissing you all over. "You're so adorable when you're flustered," she smiles
Welt usually gets indirectly bullied by you two. You could be all lovey dovey while he's on a call with the Trailblazer and he would just be unable to handle it. You pointed this out to her and wanted to see how long it would take for him to leave the room. "Himeko you're so beautiful today!" "Why you're as beautiful as always my dear" "Why you're stunning my love!" He looks back at you two annoyed. "Pardon Trailblazer" he moves to another room he could hear you two laughing in the other room.
She enjoys you pampering her. You tucking her in or preparing food for her. She loves it! She'll pay you back preparing a bath for you or giving you massages. "Just relax I'm very good with my hands" she rubs your back. "Thank you Himeko" "No problem" she kisses the back of your neck.
She likes dancing with you in private, not everyone should be allowed to see this side of her after all, a calm song with her being able to rest on your shoulder as you lead. "Thought you said you had cold feet" "I can manage." It's so calm and intimate that she tries not to fall asleep on you. "Don't sleep again" "aw howed you know" she looks up a bit drowsy. "Whenever you go five minutes without conversation it's kinda odvious your drifting off" she smiles "you know me well~"
She slipped a ring on your finger while out on a date. You two were drinking tea, and while you were looking away, she slips a ring on your finger. When you notice this, you look at your hand and look at her. "What?" "Did you-" she smirks, watching your flabbergasted reaction
She adores staying in and watching moves with you. Random crime docs or just bad TV drama she enjoys laying in bed next to you as you two cringe at a bad romance show. The best parts definitely when you end up sleeping. Then she gets to admire just how cute you could be without even trying!
Attempting to make tea together is something she didn't know she wanted until you did it. "Himeko, what flavor do you like?" You yell out,"Whichever you'd like." "That's not what I mean!" She walks into the room, finding you going through tea. "That one's hard to prepare. I'll show you," she guides you step by step on a way to make that tea. "And that's it!" You sigh in relief "oh finally that took two years!" She giggles at this, taking a quick sip. "...we should do this more often"
"Hey would you date me if there was a bird on your head right now?" "Why that's an odd chance but I'm willing to take it" you pluck out a bird from his head "...well-"
It was an odd way of asking him out, but what was odder was how genuine his feelings were for you. You never really saw any signs of him liking you. "You thought someone kissing your hand was normal?" "I thought that's how he greeted people!"
His kisses are quick and surprising. You turn to face him, he has a kiss planted on your cheek. You just wake up, quick little kiss. The only times you'll get a longer kiss outta him is when he's feeling a little more intimate or just a way of saying thank you for adoring him the way you do.
Whenever you're sick, he lets you come into the office to stay with him, but you gotta do some of the paperwork at least three pieces. "I told you you should have stayed home." "I can handle it!" You lean into him. "You're already groaning after the first paragraph," he softly laughs. "It's overwhelming, but I can do it!" He sighs turning back to his work
He likes catching whenever you look at him. You would admire his beauty thinking about him almost zoning out. He winks at you suddenly, waking you up from the day dream flustered. "How long was I staring at you?" "Few minutes" "HUH"
Dates with him are calm and fascinating. Often walks where you two sharing random stories with each other. He can't help but smile as you recount a random story you had. "So this one time I found a moth in my room" "mhm" "and it was on the shoe I usually used to kill bugs" "I see" "and then I remembered there was another shoe and smacked it" "remmber something simular happened to me but instead of a bug, it was a bird!" "You're like a princess next your birds are going to make up a military." "...that's actually a pretty good idea" an odd silence "so did you actually smack a bird-" "No I let it fly free out the window" "oh-"
He dosent want you near any danger. The dangers of paperwork are fine but straight up fighting monsters. No you're staying inside. Even when you have combat prowess he's still gonna be all "no its too dangerous" "I fought them before tho-" "good counter argument...stay inside till its safe" "HUH-"
He'll let you pat his head as long as there aren't any birds on it. As soon as you do, he leans in to eventually leaning on your chest. "Are they that calming?" "Very much" he smiles
He thinks you're so adorable. He tries to hide the urge to just cup your cheeks to see your reaction. He enjoys the thought of catching you all flustered and kissing you just to see your reaction.
He let you meet members of the military, and they treat you like a little sibling. Like a damsel, it makes you wonder when they'll ever realize why there are fewer monsters appearing lately. "General! Monsters haven't appeared as much as they used to its assumed they must be retreating!" "Why what good news the problem is...where are they retreating to..." and you'd just be looking away from him like you're totally not the cause for this
She's very VERY clingy. She won't lose you she'll make sure of it.
If anyone in the underground didn't know you were her s/o, she'd force em to know. You'd have to hit her with a "this isn't you 🥺" as soon as you got home, she'd hate it. "Pookie!" You'd snap your fingers in her face."This isn't you!" Snap snap,"quit it! You know stuff like that's cringy" "Sorry, can't help myself"
She'd sometimes get lost in thought when talking to you, almost in a daze. "Are you alright?" You wave your hand over her face. "Yea, yea I'm fine did you just...always look so?" Once she realized she said that last part outloud, she covers her face. "Forget I said anything!"
She loves whispering things into your ear. She thinks it's intimate. She'd sit next to you leaning in "I love you~" you look at her blush nearly covering your face. "Could have said that outloud!" "Seeing you flustered makes me wanna do it more"
She pokes you whenever she's in a bad mood or just finished off a mission. Poke Poke "you had a bad day huh?" "What makes you say that" she pokes you a bit more. "Did you get into an argument with someone again?" You cup her cheek. "...maybe" she stops poking you. "How about this we get some ice cream later to help you forget about it!"
She sometimes draws stuff on your skin. Randomly opening a marker and drawing a small butterfly. If you ever told her to stop she'd look a little disappointed before figuring out she could just write letters and cover them with little drawings in the corners. "She's so old fashioned but these little drawings...she's so adorable" Natasha smiles "she's so childish when around you" "really? I just always assumed she was like this"
If she were to ever catch you asleep, she'd cuddle up with you as if waiting for you to notice she's there with you. She'd kinda lay there awkwardly before just pulling you in for a cuddle.
Natasha definitely has pictures of Seelie growing up. She'd proudly show you as soon as Seelies out of sight. "And this is her 6th birthday" you cover your mouth "she's so cute!" "I know right!" She giggles to herself
She doesn't admit it, but she likes you treating her more than Natasha. Not that she doesn't like Natasha it's that if she knows it's not that bad, she's going to you with it. "Can't believe you got yourself hurt like this" you sigh, putting a bandage over her bicep. "Try not to fight too much k? Might open up the wound" you sigh. She likes the thought of you taking care of her she hides odvious blush on her face.
If you ever knew Sampo or someone she thought would do something bad to you that she knew personally. She'd quite litterally drag you away from them. You're just lucky you got to be held by the waist and not by the scruff, unlike one unlucky salesman.
You beat him through sword fighting. He got butthurt, challenged you to a rematch, you jokingly flirt with him, he got flustered then realized he really liked you, thank god you confessed first because he would have evaporated
He's very light. Lightheaded and light on his feet. You don't hear him running up to you for hugs. "Y/n!" He rubs his cheeks against yours,"Yanqing! Where did you come from -"
If he ever caught you stretching in an open area he'd get so excited. "What cha stretching for?" He sneaks up behind you putting his hands on your shoulders. "Nothing just wanted to get out a bit" "mmmhh WANNA SWORD FIGHT?!" the idea suddenly pops in his head. "I ment I was going for a walk" "oh..." he looked so disappointed. "We can train next week if that makes you feel better" and just like that he's back to hugging you tightly shifting most of his weight onto you. "Yay! Thankyouthankyouthankyou!" "Calm down its nothing"
Hell never admit he's cute. You could tell him how cute he is and he'd be all "I am a swordsman! Not a piece of mochi!" "But you squish like one!" He tries not to smile as you stretch and swish his cheeks. "You're so cute!" "I'm not!"
He's always next to you, so say he lost you somewhere he'd lose his shit. "So then I hit em with-" he'd notice you not next to him "AAAHHHHHHH" he shreaks like a little girl and runs around the store looking for you. It got so bad he had to ask people coming out of the bathrooms. "Have you seen my s/o?!? Pretty cute...Looks like they unironcally sleep with plushies" "no?" "Damn, thank you!" It turns out you were in the other aisle looking at a piece of clothing you wanted for a while and then looked at the price and noped out. He's holding back tears
You got hurt when you went out without him. You covered it up, but he could tell something was bothering you. You didn't usually limp a tad when walking. So when you two got outta the public eye he kinda tests you softly kicking where he thinks you're in pain. You try to hold in a hiss as he's proven correct. "So what happened while I was training?" "Don't know what your talking about I'm fine." "Uh huh-" he kicks you there again "AH FINE FINE I TRIPPED" you hold onto the rail overlooking the view trying not to step down on that leg. "Knew it, why didn't you tell me?" "Because you get overly dramatic and would probably trap me in blankets and oreos if I did"
"I wouldnt!" He did...as soon as you got home it was almost an ambush. He wrapped you in your blanket and reopened your oreos. "...I told you" "shush! Now lemme take care of you" he looks at your knee rubbing cream on it. He seems pretty focused. "I'm sure it isn't that bad-" "I'm sure it is" "your wrapping my foot like a mummy..."
He'd try to get into video games you like. He didn't like some of them and ended up deleting some, but he still saw how you enjoyed them. He also tries to get you into video games he likes as well. "Hey, I found this game we might like playing!" "...looks like something my grandma would play. " You open your phone, proceeding to show him your grandma flexing how far she got in the game. "Only took her 10 months...scared of that woman." "Me too"
He tries to initiate kisses. He'd cup your face and lean in, but sometimes he just can't bear going through with it. He usually kisses you without a second thought, but when he thinks too hard about it, everything kinda just crashes down in his brain, and he goes pink. "Uh-" he pauses in the middle of leaning in to kiss you swiftly, turning away. "Thought about it too hard again?" You kiss him.
He whenever you do his hair. He purposely messes up his own hair to walk over to you. "You mind if you do my hair?" "Yea, sure, lemme get a brush. " You grab a brush and calmly untangle his hair. "The same again?" You look over to him. "Kinda wanna see something new." "All right," you part his hair, trying to think of something that would fit him, figuring a bun wound work. You wrap up his hair and put it in a bun. You had him a mirror. "One of the strands is lose," he points at it. "It's on purpose," you smile at the mirror. He gets up, looking at his hairstyle again. "You mind...doing this more offen?"
#honkai star rail#star rail#star rail x reader#star rail x y/n#honkai x reader#honkai seele#honkai yanqing#yanqing#honkai himeko#himeko#jing yuan#jing yuan x reader#yanqing x reader
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HI TOAST 🩷
please indulge me and tell me about how your faves enjoy kissing hehe 🎤
GRAY!!! 💕
I'm so sorry my indulgences are coming late, life hit me so hard last weekend 😭 BUT I'M BACK AND
And I think I might have too many faves but we will make them fit hehe
Kaeya enjoys unexpected kisses - whether they're given to you or to him. He's not the best with setting a scene up for romance and, while his flirty tone and general aloofness may say otherwise, always tends to get a little flustered when he thinks about kissing you too much. So he settles for greeting you with a kiss to your temple or your hand; there's always a chilled chuckle after he places a kiss on your neck or shoulder when he sneaks up on you.
Of course, you're not the best at sneaking up on him so...you don't get to surprise him as often as he surprises you with kisses. But his guard is significantly lower when he's around you...maybe you can catch him while he's rambling?
Diluc is both like his brother in terms of getting flustered over kisses and unlike his brother in terms of being direct about his kisses. He's someone that is very direct about his wants, but worries about forcing them onto with how direct and blunt he can be. Because of that, he's much more likely to press kisses against the back of your hands, your palms, and your forehead. He's also less likely to kiss you in public, favoring more intimate and private atmospheres where he can show more hm...vulnerable sides of himself.
Greatly enjoys climbing into bed with (or after) you and feeling you stir against him. There's only a hint of guilt that flares in him for disturbing you if you were already asleep, but it's always quelled when you immediately reach for him to give him a sleepy kiss in greeting. He'd be lying if he said it wasn't one of his favorite things to come back home to.
Xiao is...how do I put this...unfamiliar with kisses. He's spent the bulk of his existence avoiding most people and dedicating himself to protecting Liyue from a distance; he hasn't exactly had the time to stop and try kissing, well, anyone. So when he does try to kiss you, it's a pretty rough and crude reenactment of kisses he's observed from a distance. So you often have to take the initiative with him and gently guide him to how you'd prefer he'd kiss you. It takes awhile, but he gets it eventually and has given you a few, more delicate kisses, but never too many out of fear he might hurt you.
If he was a bit more honest with himself, he'd admit how much he enjoys kissing your lips. There's something calming to him about it. Grounding. Don't be surprised to find him staring at your lips more often - he's still not one to initiate, but he'll jump at the chance to be able to kiss you again.
Thoma, oh Thoma...I don't even know where to start with him! He kisses you when he sees you in the morning, he kisses you when you come by Komore Teahouse, he kisses you when he spots you in the street; there's almost no place he doesn't immediately pull you into his arms and give you a kiss before asking about how you're doing. The only place he may have some reverence is in the Kamisato Estate, especially if the Lord or Lady of the manor are present. PDA is a nonissue with him - unless he's working of course!
Thoma really, really enjoys being able to kiss you anywhere on your face, especially your cheeks! He'll always give them a little nuzzle afterwards since he has to run off and get back to work, but he always promises to make up for his departure with several more kisses when you see each other again!
Tighnari is always a bit of a hit or a miss. Not because he doesn't want to kiss, but because he's been working on several new guidelines and regulations for researchers coming into the forest, working on another presentation that he'll need to give in a few weeks, and he really can't afford to be distracted right now. Which almost always happens when he kisses you. He's somehow pavlov'd himself into treating kisses as a reward and can't untrain himself for the life of him.
That being said, he really and genuinely enjoys giving and getting kisses after a long day when you've both gotten the chance to settle down and the rest of Gandharva Ville is at peace for the night. He enjoys getting them a little bit more though, especially on top of his head. Kissing his ears is nice, but he always involuntarily flicks them in your face when you do that and then you have to hear him rant on and on about not doing that. As if that's actually going to stop you next time.
Cyno's kisses are always sweet and shy...because he's genuinely shy about it. This isn't something that he can learn in a way that he's familiar with and there's no substitution for learning about it in a non hands-on way. And since he's a perfectionist, or very near to being one, he always overthinks when, where, and how he should kiss you. Unfortunately, since he's frequently away for work, he doesn't often get to even think about giving you a kiss and it's even more so unlikely for him to attempt one when you're both in public. He's already frequently targeted for his position. Getting you tied up in a mess would just make him feel like he has to put distance between the two of you.
That being said, he does always enjoy pressing a kiss to the corner of your mouth. In part because he's too shy to kiss you directly, but also because he likes the way he can feel the way your lips quirk into a smile at the action. There's always a joke either following that kiss or said right before he kisses you because if there's one thing that he enjoys more than actually kissing you, it's getting a chance to hear you laugh.
Kaveh...most people would expect him to be well versed in this realm given his artistic and perfectionist nature. They could not be more incorrect. Those closest to Kaveh know that he's thrown himself into his work and studies for the majority of his life - often resting only when it most benefitted the most recent project or proposal he was working on. As honest and open of a person he is, he's never really let that part of his inexperience be known (lest he be mocked by a certain Scribe hovering around) and is quick to change the subject if he's ever asked about it.
Unfortunately, Kaveh is very uncertain when it comes to accepting affection. Not because he doesn't want it, it's something he wants and treasures dearly, but because he often feels like he doesn't deserve it or that it could be taken away from him at any time. Kisses specifically make him nervous because he wants them and enjoys them so much, especially when he gets to press them against your palms, wrists, eyelids, the corners of your mouth - anywhere he can reach really. Kissing him back is a one way ticket to a very emotional evening. Not every time, but it takes him a moment to relax afterwards and acknowledge that everything is alright and that you aren't going anywhere. Be patient with him, he's working through a lot right now.
#toast talks#genshin impacted#genshin x reader#kaeya x reader#diluc x reader#xiao x reader#thoma x reader#tighnari x reader#cyno x reader#kaveh x reader#This is so LONG I got too excited lmaooo#Been thinking about these lads for days they won't leave me alone aaaaa#Thank you for making me think about them Gray now I will never be normal again
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thoughts about abby anderson bc i've been having really bad brain rot (some water polo player!abby)
abby isn’t the biggest fan of large displays of PDA, but she does this thing where she just hovers around you. she never strays too far away from you, so she’s just kind of lurking lol. when you’re walking together, she’ll either put her hand on your shoulder or your back and subtly guide you. (tbh i also do that. gotta treat my babygirl right fr). i don't think you'll hold hands too often, mostly because her hands are kind of sweaty due to her naturally running quite hot. if you try, she'll laugh and say, "don't. my hands are sweaty." like ok? just wipe them off girly, i wanna hold your hand. i think she likes linking arms, though. she eats it up when you hold onto her arm and cling onto her, she loves it. despite not liking pda, she takes every opportunity to subtly touch you. brushing arms when you're walking, touching thighs because you're sitting so close to each other, one hand on your knee, stuff like that. she's seriously borderline clingy, but she's always so gentle. she's so cute omg
i think that abby likes to be pampered. specifically, i think she likes it a lot when you play with her hair. brush it, wash it and tie it when she’s too tired to do it herself. start running your fingers through her hair and massage her scalp and she’s immediately putty in your arms. she’ll most likely insist on doing it herself, but if you push back she’s not going to argue further lol. do what you must, she’ll enjoy it
when it comes to pet names, i think she'll only really use them when there's no one else around. however, occasionally there are times where it'll just slip out. i don't know why, but i think she'll call you bug pfft. she'll come up from behind saying, "there you are, bug. i've been lookin' for you," as she kisses your temple and you can feel her smiling mhmm. if she's taller than you, she likes to rest her chin on your shoulder. wait omg, imagine her calling you trouble. but lorddd she'd use so many nicknames, i think. babe, honey, hun, sweetheart etc etc. the girl has some variety, I’ll give her that
PERSONAL TRAINER ABBY! unfortunately, she can be such a dick lmao. if you're struggling with an exercise or with lifting weights, she'll just be watching you and laughing to herself. "you need some help with that, hun?" and you're whining at her to stop laughing and to hurry up and help you out. but she's so helpful and strong and attractive you can't stay mad at her for too long. like she'd grab your waist and fix your stance and when you get it right she’ll say something like “yeah, that’s it. you got it." she's always gonna encourage you to keep going. she'll really push your limits because she just wants you to do well. but this applies to lots of other things, not just gym. i honestly probably wouldn't be able to go to the gym with her because i'd be distracted by her the entire time. so.
playing fighting with abby. she gets so competitive and will do literally everything in her power to win. she's the furthest thing from a sore loser, thankfylly. she’s very conscious of her strength, so despite the fact that she’s literally able to toss you around like a bag of potatoes, she’s never hurt you by accident. she’d genuinely be so mortified if she thinks she hurt you. will literally sulk about it meanwhile you’re like “abby, I’m fine??”
she's always very relaxed whenever she's around you. i can't say she'd be smiley when there are other people around, but she'll have a kind of pleased and content expression on her face. but when you're alone? oh boy, have fun trying to wipe that cute ass smile off her face, because you can't! she's just very at ease when you're around teehee. her demeanour is a lot less tense than what it may be typically. honestly I think she’d just melt around you
abby isn't the biggest gossip around--if you ask her, she'll just shrug and say that that kind of stuff isn't something she's particularly interested in. however, she is absolutely invested in whatever gossip you have for her, even if she pretends to be nonchalant about it. she'd probably say some bullshit like, "babe, that kind of stuff isn't even worth your time." but then the next time she sees you she asks about it because she wants an update. talks shit but doesn’t consider it to be real gossip. “it’s called a discussion, not gossip.” she’ll say, like a fucking liar
she’s SO invested. always asking for updates, always asking questions. she tries to be subtle but honestly at some I’d think she’d give up and go all in
waterpolo player abby !
you literally cannot drag her away training so as a result she always smells like chlorine. she bitches about it all the time, too.
she’d look stupid as hell wearing the hats lmao i'd call her egghead or something
she definitely complains about how damaged her hair gets from all that swimming she does
idk about you guys but soggy Abby does something to me… like she's wearing her swimming costume and her hairs down and she’s still damp and you can see the water droplets on her skin and AAAAAAHJASHIEDQHV
don’t even try pushing her into the pool because she’ll drag you down with her lmao
she'd definitely be centre forward REAL
she could try drowning me and I wouldn’t really mind tbh. but ik for sure she’s a scary ass player. fast AND strong as hell? I’d be fighting for my life. make sure u don’t get hit in the head by a ball thrown by her bc you’d be asking for a concussion. also she seems like the kind of person who keeps elbowing people?? LMAO
my gay ass needs to be locked up NOW 😟
#whattt? fictionfawn is writing for tlou??#fawn’s fiction thoughts#we both grind our teeth in our sleep so obviously it was meant to be#i would treat her so good#owen doesn’t know how to handle allthat but i do#➼ blondie xx#tlou2 x reader#abby anderson x reader#abby anderson headcanons#abby anderson hcs#tlou x reader
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bonfires (flatmate!matty x reader fluff)
day 22 of promptober, and the first full fic i've ever written where these little shits are actually bf and gf. it's bonfire night and you're going to matty's mum's. have fun <3
"it's weird doing this with you."
matty looks up from his phone, brows knitted together. "what d'you mean?"
"i mean," you swivel to face him, moving your feet from the seat beside you onto the floor and resting your head on your hand. "i used to get the train from manchester to wilmslow all the time. but it was always to see you, never with you. and now… here you are."
your boyfriend (!!) smiles, taking your hand; your heart flutters when you realise he's tracing little lovehearts on the back of it. "it's a good kind of weird, though, yeah?"
"'course it is," you kiss his hand. "i don't have to imagine you and get excited now - i can look at you and do it instead."
matty's cheeks go pink. god, you love it when that happens. "you really used to do that?"
you nod. every time, without fail, you would resolve to focus on the view from the train window as you travelled south, trying to be in the moment and enjoy the peace of the journey, willing the shift from city to town to instil some sort of calm within you as it does for so many other people. but knowing who you were going to see… it always became impossible to stop your thoughts drifting to your best friend, and how in love with him you were - are - and how excited you were to see him. staying calm was never an option when it came to matty.
it still isn't; the way he looks at you gives you goosebumps, and sends your heart into a frenzy. when matty looks at you, you feel like you're the only two people in the world.
right now, you are. well, you're the only two people in the train carriage, which is basically the same thing, and therefore you're a bit more inclined towards pda with your boyfriend (even thinking about matty with that title makes you giddy) than you would normally be. smiling, you lean across the table and pout your lips; matty presses his own to them immediately, hand coming up to hold your face as he kisses you sweetly. he sighs against your lips. you smile against his. it's perfect.
matty kisses your forehead when he pulls away. "how long have we got left to go, d'you think, sweetheart?"
you reluctantly tear your eyes away from his face long enough to glance out the window, returning to gazing lovingly at him as soon as you register your location. "ten, fifteen minutes?"
"i'd have been at the station by now, waiting for your train to get in," matty smiles fondly at the memory, resting his elbow on the table and his head on his hand. "pacing, outside in the car park. actually, i'd have been there ten minutes before that, and all."
"really? you were there that early?"
"yeah. i'd leave the house as soon as you'd text to tell me you were walking into piccadilly, pretty much."
you giggle. "but why, baby?"
matty shrugs, stroking your cheek with his index finger and smiling when you kiss it. "wanted to be waiting in case you got in early, or something. no fucking way was i going to miss a single second of spending time with you, darlin'."
jesus. you're thankful you're sitting down, because that statement would've damn well swiped the legs from under you - the thought of matty being so sweetly eager to see you, as eager as you were to see him, is heart-breakingly cute.
it's also, however, quite funny. "i can't believe you ever thought a northern train would be early," you laugh, twirling one of your boyfriend's curls around your finger as he rolls his eyes. "but that's really sweet, angel. and, to be honest," you get a bit bashful. "i used to stand at the train door for a full five minutes before we got to wilmslow, just so i could get off as quickly as possible and see you. used to be my favourite sight in the world, you standing waiting for me in that car park."
"oh, sweetheart," matty kisses you again. it's like a reflex for both of you, at this point, smooching whenever you reveal something sweet about all the years you spent (well, wasted) pining over each other; you hope it never stops. he grins cheekily afterwards. "and what's your favourite sight now?"
narcissist. but you love him for it. "this one's pretty good, actually, sitting on a train going home with you. feels like a homecoming for me, too."
"that's fucking adorable, sweetheart, but you cannot say that in front of my mum. she won't let us leave if she hears it."
you smile. "she really misses you, doesn't she?"
"nah, babe, she misses you," matty shakes his head. "that weekend i came up here without you, because you had that exam and couldn't leave london? she was distraught. think she'd rather i'd have stayed in the flat and you came up alone, to be honest."
"bless her. well, we're a package deal now," you kiss your boyfriend's head. "you jump, i jump, jack."
"i'd argue i'm more jess than logan, babe, but yeah."
"oh, you wish," you smirk. "but whatever. the point still stands."
"where you lead, i will follow," matty smiles softly, and you grumble about missing the arguably more obvious gilmore girls reference. "although mum won't complain about that at all - can't believe she fucking cried tears of joy when i told her we were together. she's wanted it for years, apparently."
"so have we, to be fair."
"no, absolutely, but mum's on a completely different level. it's like all her christmases have come at once," matty sighs. "thank christ we're walking to the house. gives us time to prepare for her fawning over us."
"true," you kiss your boyfriend again. "and it'll be nice. like old times, but better."
that assessment of yours proves to be correct from the second you leave the train and wilmslow station. at 2pm on a wednesday, the car park is quiet, and matty uses that as an opportunity to run slightly ahead of you with a "wait there, babe!" - you do as he asks, smiling when he reaches a specific lampost and turns round. you can see his grin from three parking spaces' width away. "alright, my girl, you can come over now."
the déja vu practically sucker-punches you as you oblige. it's impossible to even comprehend how many times you've done this exact walk to this exact lampost to meet the exact same boy, smiling the exact same smile he always has upon seeing you.
(fuck, you were so oblivious to his feelings for you. you fucking idiot.)
"hi," you wink as you near matty. "that was a cute little exercise in nostalgia, baby."
"i'm glad you think so, darlin'," matty pulls you into a hug - again, the same as he always did. your body reacts the way it always has, too, muscles relaxing and nerves reducing and serotonin levels skyrocketing; you're convinced your face must be gormless in contentment when it ends. "but now i'd like to do something new, if you don't mind. although i s'pose it's nostalgic for me, given that i thought about it every time i met you here."
"ooh, ok. what?"
matty smiles. "this."
his hands gently meet your jaw, and your lips meet a beat later. the kiss doesn't last long, but it's long enough for your hands to make their way onto matty's waist and his tongue to slip inside your mouth, and long enough for you to be able to tell how much he loves you just from the way he kisses you. although, it would be impossible for you not to know that fact already - he only tells you upwards of twenty times a day.
it's such a good kiss that you're actually woozy when it ends, blinking rapidly in an attempt to stop your head spinning. "wow."
"that good?" comes the response, accompanied - naturally - by a smirk.
you glare at your boyfriend, who only laughs and takes your hand. "m'sorry, baby, couldn't resist. thank you for letting me be self-indulgent. shall we?"
he holds out his hand. you take it, and after a quick kiss to your temple, the two of you begin the familiar walk to matty's old house. like him being on the train with you, it initially feels weird to have matty hold your hand as you go, but the feeling doesn't last long - by the time you're halfway there, joyfully pointing out places you went together and houses of his classmates you crashed parties in, his hand in yours feels like the most natural thing in the world. it's only been a month since the two of you finally got together, but you've both taken to the romantic, couple-y side of life together with relish and ease; despite your respective reservations about getting together and potentially ruining your friendship, it's all been so smooth that you think both you and matty would say that it almost feels like your relationship was predestined, fated, meant to be.
others would and will say the same, including matty's own mother, who throws the front door open so hard when she sees you walking hand-in-hand up the path that the handle chips the brickwork on the wall. she winces at the scraping sound it makes. "oh, bugger."
matty snorts. "nice one, mum. excited to see us?"
"less of the lip, matthew. hi, darling!" denise hugs you, before embracing her son. she steps back, smiling as widely as you've ever seen her, taking in the sight of you and matty and his arm slung sweetly around your waist. "oh, it really is lovely to see the two of you like this. together at last! i always said you'd be a perfect couple, didn't i, matty? anyway, come in and get settled "
you turn to your boyfriend, whose cheeks have rose-tinted at his mother's words. smiling, you kiss one of said rosy cheeks, and follow denise inside. she's still talking, about guests "already starting to come over for tonight, so i'll leave the two of you to your own devices for now. i imagine you'll be a bit tired from the travel - and from studying, for you, darling, i assume? i'm very proud of you, though, smart girl. you know, i've been going around telling everyone 'oh, my daughter in law is training as a solicitor', she's very accomplished, and they're all so-"
"mum," matty interjects, not unkindly. "we really are a bit tired. talk later, yeah?"
"oh, of course. sorry, sorry," denise waves you off. "looking forward to a good girlie catchup later, darling!"
"me too!" you shout, as matty pulls you down the hall, up the stairs, and into his old bedroom. he face plants onto his bed with an "ughhhhhhh", and you giggle. "happy to be home?"
"mixed emotions, actually," matty rolls over to look at you. "because, on one hand, mum's stressing me out already, calling you her daughter in law…"
"i thought that was quite sweet, baby."
"...but, on the other hand," he opens his arms out, and you climb onto the bed and into them without a second thought. matty's hands find your hips almost immediately. "i've got you on my lap in my old bed. nothing could be better."
an idea pops into your head - it's twisted of you, you know it, but you can't resist. grabbing the hem of your jumper, you pull it over your head and throw the fabric to the floor, leaving your top half bare save the dark red bra you know is your boyfriend's favourite. his breath catches in his throat, and you smile, saccharine. "slight improvement?"
"you-" matty lies down and covers his face with his hands, breathing heavily. when he looks back up at you, though, he's smiling (albeit slightly defeatedly). "you knew that would get me, you minx."
"i suspected, yes."
"oh, she's cheeky," matty smacks your still-covered bum, sitting up quickly to kiss you and muffle the moan that escapes your lips when his hand makes contact. "i'll have to do something about that."
sheer glee overcomes you. "now?"
matty softens, tenderly tucking a stray hair behind your ear. "no, sweetheart. i want to take my time with you, and that's time we don't have tonight. but," his lips kiss up your neck, and hover over your ear. "i'm going to fuck you in this bed before we go back to london at the weekend, i promise. sound good?"
"very," you nod, kissing matty's forehead. "do we still have time to kiss for a bit now, though?"
your boyfriend checks the alarm clock on the bedside table, a digital radio thing that used to blast system of a down in lieu of an actual alarm. "one really long one."
"fine by me," you say, hooking a finger under matty's chin and pulling him to you. he rolls the two of you over so you're under him, bringing his hands to hold your face as he kisses you.
the pda from earlier was nice, but you far prefer these private making out sessions; the kisses are far more passionate, sloppier and dirtier and desperate. matty tangles his hands in your hair, and kisses like he's trying to devour you. quite frankly, you'd let him.
actually, the way he looks when he pulls away from your lips (your foreheads stay touching, a tender contrast to the passion of the kiss), beautiful eyes wide and staring adoringly at you, cheeks flushed, lips kissed and bitten cherry-red? you'd let him do anything to you.
god, you still can't believe he's yours.
and he's quite set on showing that you're his, it seems; after exchanging "i love you"s, matty peels himself off both you and the bed to rifle through the wardrobe, uttering a quiet but excited "fuck yeah" when he comes across something.
he turns, and you see he's holding a familiar blue hoodie with a yellow design. "d'you wanna wear this tonight? it's quite cosy."
"are you serious?" you gawk at him, remembering several occasions of having to coax matty out of actually hitting people should they dare even touch that hoodie. "that's, like, your most prized possession. you didn't even want to bring it to the flat in case something happened to it in the move."
"yeah."
"and you're giving it to me? to wear? to a bonfire?"
"yeah," matty grins. "wanna try it on?"
you nod, taking the hoodie and carefully pulling it over your head. he's right. it is cosy. "how do i look?"
"oh my god," matty's jaw drops as he takes you in; it lifts back into a smile as he smoothes your hair and kisses your nose. "perfect. my perfect girl. i love you."
"i love you too," you rake a hand through matty's curls, gently massaging his scalp. "i'm excited for tonight. more so now that i'm wearing this."
your boyfriend laughs. "me too, darlin'. it'll be sweet."
he's right. it's one of the colder november 5ths you remember experiencing, weather-wise, but matty never gives you the chance to get cold; his hands are either holding your own or on your waist as you chat to his family (who all share the same sentiment that "it's so nice to finally see the two of you all loved-up. we knew it would happen!"), keeping you ensconced in a cocoon of literal warmth and love-induced glow. the only time he lets go of you is to get you a drink or a baked potato or another s'more, and even then his less-than-a-minute-long departures are bookended by little kisses - the same sort of cute, giggly ones he gives you to get rid of the chocolate from the s'mores lingering on your lips.
as you wait for the fireworks display, the main event of the night, matty settles on a camping chair and tugs you onto his lap, covering you both in an old tartan blanket. he kisses your temple. "you having fun, darlin'?"
"mhmm. a lot of fun," you snuggle into him, taking a sip of your tea and holding the flask towards him. "want some?"
he takes a sip, wincing as the brew hits his tongue. "christ, sweetheart. i don't know how you can drink that. s'far too strong."
"well, i'm sweet enough already."
another kiss. "yeah, you are," matty murmurs against your lips. "sweet girl. my sweet girl."
you restart the kiss at the exact moment the fireworks start to shoot into the sky and burst into colour - naturally, it doesn't last long at all, because you and your boyfriend both start laughing at the unintentionally perfect timing.
matty kisses your nose instead. "you know, as heavy-handed as it was, i'm glad that just happened. i always feel like there's fireworks going off in my brain when you kiss me. and that nat king cole song, too."
"which song?"
"you know," matty bobs his head, presumably to the music playing in it. "l! is for the way you look at me!"
giggling, you kiss his cheek. "so… like the opening scene in the parent trap, yeah?"
matty's brow furrows, and he opens his mouth as if to argue; he closes it after about half a second and sighs. "yeah, exactly like that. without the divorce, though."
"i would hope so," you snuggle further into him. "wouldn't mind if you bought a vineyard in napa, though. i could get used to that."
matty smiles against your neck. "well, i'll see what i can do after the second album releases."
"thanks, baby."
#mads muses#mads does writing#flatmate!matty#matty healy fanfiction#matty healy fanfic#matty healy fic#matty healy fluff#matty healy x reader#matty x reader#promptober75
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I love the hange head cannons could you do something similar with korra?
Yes! Also this is for everyone( I didn't put it in my last work because I forgot) please dont reblog or repost with giving me credit.
Dating Korra would be like:
When Korra first met you she was a mess. Her face was red and she was having a hard time talking.
Over time you to got to know eachother and she asked you out. You said yes and she took you to her favorite restaurant.
Korra is very protective. She needs to protect you, I mean, she's the avatar. If she cant protect you. Who can she protect?
She loves PDA, it's her way of letting everyone know you're hers. Small bites or kisses in public never hurt anyone.
If you dislike a lot of PDA she'll respect your wishes, but be PREPARED! She'll be even worse in private. She wont let you go until she feel it's enough.
She loves and trusts you with all her heart so please don't break it. Whenever you fight she gets stubborn and wont apologize.
She'll end up crying and coming back after an hour or two.
Depending on your bending abilities, or if you can bend at all, Korra will train with you. She needs you to be ready in case something happens. She can't lose you.
If you bend fire, water, or earth she's going to be a great mentor. If you're an air bender, not so much...
I'd you can't bend, Korra will train you in hand to hand combat. She loves seeing you workout with her, it's a bonding activity in her eyes.
She'll introduce you to people as her future wife, and will more than likely tease you if you get flustered. If not Korra will find other ways to make your face all pink.
Shes very trustworthy, you can tell her anything. Whatever your thinking, she'll reassure you and talk you through it.
You're her baby, her pretty girl, she'll help you no matter what. Believe me, she loves every bit of you, and she will frequently remind you of that.
NSFW UNDER THE CUT
S W I T C H if I ever seen one!
She loves it when you eat her out. Do it, just once and she's shaking.
She'll beg, and I mean beg. She cries and squeaks, begging for you to slow down. Of course when you do, she begs for you to get faster.
She'll pull on your hair and scratch at your scalp. While her nails are cut down she had a tendency to bite.
(Were gonna pretend straps exist here) She'll bite your neck, arms, chest where she can. Depending on the position, you'll either have multiple very visible marks or multiple non-visible marks.
Now for when Korra is on top? That's a whole new story. She's a soft dom, but dont think that means she wont put you in your place. It just means you'll get more chances, with her at least.
Korra loves to chase you, she finds it cute how you think you're going to win. In the end she'll have you in her arms, taking her strap, begging for more. Your little game of cat and mouse is over quite quick.
She'll either hold you down, or tie you up. It all depends on how you act, if your good, ropes aren't involved. If you're bad...
Dont think that she's going to hurt you though. After having you so many times she get to understand what you like and dislike. Korra can be very rough or very gentle, but you have to voice it.
She could degrade you, or praise you. Call you her pretty girl, or treat you like you're mud under her boot.
"Darling, I know, I know it hurts but you're doing so well. I'm so fucking proud of you! You look so beautiful with my cock buried in your pussy!"
Or
"Ugh, you cant do anything right, can you? I'm getting tired of someone who can't even take my cock properly. Fucking slut! You need me? Hm?"
Trust and believe the aftercare is GODLY that woman knows how to treat you like the princess you are. Water, food, whatever you want, she'll get it.
She just loves you so much, so believe she's going to spoil you.
I really hope you liked it!
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BAD BATCH HEADCANON - Showing Affection
A/N: I'm doing these to overcome my irrational fear of doing bad batch headcanons and people thinking i have wrong opinions on them LOL i am such a baby QQ
These are just the ways I think the boys would most appreciate when it comes to showing affection or their fav sweet lil gestures! Enjoy ♥
Warnings: just a little spice for Crosshair but I think the rest is fine and sfw lol
WRECKER
His favorite PDA is obvi just smacking u with lula
Wrecker loves touching you so much all the time
Sometimes it's intentional--he'll wrap you up in his arms and kiss your head a hundred times
But sometimes it's just a subconscious response
When Hunter's going over plans, he'll just pick you up and set you on his shoulder, not even noticing he's done it
This is a common occurrence: he picks you up all the time just because it feels so natural to him
You're like a magnet for him. If he can hold you, he will hold you.
It's a little embarrassing to be hoisted into your boyfriend's arms in the middle of an important briefing, but you can't stay mad at him.
You're sure if you had the power to lift him into your arms so easily, you'd do it, too
ECHO
I think Echo wouldn't be a frequent PDA-doer for many reasons
He's very disciplined and seems more reserved than his brothers
But I think a little forehead touch would kill this man parentheses positive
If he needs to leave for a mission, and you rest your forehead on his and smile when you wish him luck, he will die!!! Parentheses positive!
It'll be all he thinks about while he's gone
It'd become something of a tradition between the two of you
Just a subtle and easy way to convey the way you feel about one another that would take hours to accomplish with words
I could see it becoming so important to him that he'd be unwilling to leave your side without it
Because if anything were to happen to either of you while you're separated, he wants to be sure you know what you mean to him
HUNTER
Hunter does not strike me as a prude Victorian maiden or anything
But I think hand-holding would be really special to him
He'd be happy to kiss you whenever, of course
But it's the subtle way his fingers always find their way to interlock with yours that is so meaningful
If your hands are smaller than his, I think he'd secretly be very sentimental about it--it reminds him that, even if you can defend yourself, he wants to be your protector
(Or, at least, someone you can count on if you ever get tired of being so amazingly capable)
It's also something of a sweet gesture from him, too
You know how often this man uses his hands--the way he can spin a knife with a blade so sharp you're liable to get cut just looking at it, the way he's always throwing hand signals
But he prefers to hold your hand, instead
He must like you, or something
don't tease him like that or you'll earn yourself some much more overt PDA than hand-holding
TECH
Tech doesn't strike me as one who'd be very into PDA
Not because he doesn't like it, or he doesn't think it's worthwhile
He's just busy thinking about lots of other stuff, and so it wouldn't come to mind as often
That's why whenever you lean your head on his shoulder while he's working, his poor heart can barely take it
You're comfortable enough around him that you're willing to just sit with him? And be close to him in a way that lets him keep fiddling away at whatever he's working on?
He is so in love!!!
It becomes routine for you to sit beside him when he's piloting the Marauder, or when he's looking up schematic's in Cid's bar, or really anywhere you can be near one another.
And once you lay your head on his shoulder, he lays his head on yours, in turn
To anyone else, it doesn't appear like much--but to Tech, it means the galaxy
CROSSHAIR
Crosshair strikes me as someone who says he's not into PDA
But you always find his hand on you in some capacity whenever you're out with him
Most often, he'll sneak his arm around your waist and rest his hand on your hip
You know better than to point it out--you're sure if you were to say anything, he'd pout about it
So instead, you always try to make it easier for him.
You'll stand close to him, keep your arms out of his way, even lean in a bit closer to him once he finally has his arm around you
It's a small and meaningful way for him to show that you're his, without invoking the torment of his brothers
(That being said, he's a lot less subtle when it comes to the regs)
(If you're out and about with him and a reg so much as glances at you, expect some very salacious, very obvious kisses on your neck)
A/N: I hope you enjoyed!! pls let me know if you wanna see more ♥
#tbb#the bad batch x reader#the bad batch headcanons#tbb headcanons#hunter x reader#crosshair x reader#tech x reader#wrecker x reader#echo x reader#huge shoutout to flowered-bicycles for encouraging me to post these!!#W6Fic
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could you do romantic hcs for aged up kyle/human kite ^^ btw I luv your blog
Romantic feels --- Kyle Brovloski
SUMMARY: Head canons of dating Kyle, just general ideas and thoughts.
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-> Kyle is a very romantic lover. He's sweet, relaxed, caring, and loving, but only towards you. Anyone else he knows, he keeps them at arms distance emotionally. Everyone he's friends with agrees that you're the only one he trusts more than them, and it's true. He tells you everything, like you're his best friend. He loves you unconditionally no doubt.
-> Along with being very romantic, Kyle us a worrier. He's a stickler for making sure everything is perfect, that includes injuries. He flips out over the smallest paper cut. You could even stub your toe and he immediately runs to your side. He doesn't flip out but he fusses at you to be more careful. Your physical health isn't all he worries about. He's always making sure you're eating right, sleeping well, you feel well mentally and other stuff. He just wants to be sure you're okay.
-> Being the way he is, especially with Cartman, he can be very protective of what he loves. He's a very fiery person, always jumping to defend you and hates when Cartman mocks you or makes fun of him being with you. In these situations he's hit Cartman over the things he's said about you and to you but he's also gotten into arguments with him too. Other than that he knows that people won't mess with you but under the circumstance that someone does, he's bad off the hands. Though he typically doesn't fight, he's pretty quick to escalate into a fight. Kyle would do anything for you and that includes getting himself hurt and he's not one to take risks.
-> Kyle's not entirely good though he tries to keep himself out of trouble, he does like to occasionally skip school. Usually it's with the boys but when you're involved he tries to keep them out of trouble and organized. He doesn't like the idea that you could get dragged into their dumb ideas. He's also skipped school just to go out with you, even without much to do he finds stuff for you to do together regardless.
-> When it comes to PDA and cuddling, Kyle's not exactly an advocate for it but he does love to do cute romantic things together. He can only ever do romantic stuff when you're alone. In public he gives you hugs and kisses here and there. He'll also sit as close to you in public as he can. His favorite way to spend time together is to sit by the pond and talk for hours and hours. There's nothing the two of you don't know about one another, he talks to you about anything and everything. He's also very honest about a lot of things, even when girls flirt with him too.
-> although Kyle can be very tough, he's very soft towards you. Figuratively and literally. He's so soft when he touches you and holds you, it's almost like he's scared to break you. He has so many different nicknames for you, each of them as cute as the last.
-> Spending the night at each other's houses is more common than you think though it's usually three days out of the week and then the weekend too. Your parents are very welcoming with him around, his parents however have the door open rule. Even though he's supposed to sleep separately from you, he doesn't. Some time throughout the night he will find himself cuddled up to you with you in-between his arms. He loves sleeping together, it's not that he wants to have sex, no, he just loves holding you close. He's never tried to jump in your pants either, he himself has told you that he's not ready for that but he admits that he wants you to be his first.
-> Partying isn't something that Kyle enjoys doing often but it happens, when it does he gets absolutely fucking cock-eyed. Can't see straight, blabbering about nothing, and more. He's a baby when he's drunk but it can also end in very hot make out sessions. Even in his drunken state he stops it before it can escalate. His respect for you knows no bounds, your wants and needs come way before his and that will always be his way.
-> In school you have a strange way of communicating. In classrooms where you can't speak all you have to do is give him a look and he knows what's up. Eventually he created another way of communicating that stuck permanently. He would start putting up an amount of fingers, each number he put up was a part of a number sequence that was representative of a sentence. Sometimes you have full conversations in class without the teachers knowing.
-> When it comes to being with Kyle romantically you've come to love everyone in his family, including his troublesome younger brother, Ike. Bless his heart, he's the sweetest boy in the world but he acts so mature all the time. Mature in ways he shouldn't be acting but regardless he absolutely loves you. He does things like buy you flowers for your birthday and Valentine's day. Kyle is jealous of this, he absolutely hates when Ike does this. It turns into a battle for who can prove their love to you. At the very end it ends with you forcing the boys to apologize to one another and relax.
-> Going on dates with Kyle is a rarity, however his favorite is study dates, usually at his house. He helps you with your school work and any classes you're falling behind in before he ever does his own work. While he does his work you're sitting between his legs, either facing him with your head resting on his shoulder or watching him work while he occasionally rests a hand on your stomach to tug you closer. No words are usually shared between you during this time unless you ask him something out of curiosity, you know he needs silence to focus. Study dates aren't always at his house though, he really likes to go to the library with you while you sit in a corner with him and read a quick book.
-> Kyle's a try hard in school, he does his best to keep his grades up but sometimes he takes it too far. He locks himself up in his room over the weekend and won't come out for anything. Sometimes you'll walk in on him asleep at his computer desk with an educational video still running on YouTube. The poor guy works himself to the edge and then almost gets himself hurt. Finding him in that state makes you sad. But you pull him from the chair and tuck him into bed. He's too tired to form a sentence but he has a routine now. Every time you leave to let him sleep, he grabs your wrist to pull you back into bed. You like to call them sleep dates.
-> If you've forgotten to do homework or take notes, Kyle let's you copy off of him. While you copy his stuff you like to doodle in his notes, as much as he acts like he hates it he absolutely loves your small little doodles. He even hoards his old notebooks to look at your older ones.
-> When Kyle gets sick, he becomes very lethargic. You usually have to skip school that day to take care of him since his parents are busy. He doesn't mind this though, even if he won't have you to get missing work from. He quite likes being able to have these calm quiet moments with you. Oftentimes you find him staring at you with such love and adoration in his eyes that it makes you melt at the sight. He only lets you take care of him because you insist that you do, he still fusses at you claiming you'll get sick too and he's right. You do. When he takes care of you he doesn't skip school but he stays the rest of the day with you to ensure your well-being.
-> Being with Kyle means you're gonna be really close to his friends, out of the bunch you see Stan the most. He'll come and visit you when he can't find Kyle, Kyle doesn't mind him being around when he's not there but anyone else bothers him. He won't admit it though.
-> You were around for the escapades of Human Kite back in fourth grade, so you knew who he was. But Kyle didn't think you knew. He never said anything but he still runs around as Human Kite to this day and occasionally you see him out and about. Of course his outfit has changed a lot over the years but you think it's cute when you see him. He tries so hard to hide it from you and you can't help but let him keep that fantasy. He has an issue of following you out and about as Human Kite, just to make sure you're safe. At the end of the day you like to brag about Human Kite to Kyle, claiming that he's your favorite. You can't help but notice the prideful grin that slips through every now and again.
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Enid Sinclair Relationship Headcanons
Fandom: Wednesday
Sweetest, wonderful, most sunshine girlfriend ever that makes every day so much better by being around her.
Enid is very affectionate, hand holding, hugs, cuddling, physical touch is her #1 love language.
Also really likes the idea of love languages and wants to know yours! Says you're compatible even if the chart doesn't agree, she also just likes trying to guess other peoples' with you.
Doesn't think she's the jealous type but someone stole her spot next to you and she growled at them.
Was happy as soon as they left! Slipping her hand into yours and talking as if nothing happened, you just smile at her, amused.
She loves making playlists for you! Has a playlist for every occasion, roadtrip, grocery trip, study date, and they all have super long names and will send you ones titled "because i miss you ❤️❤️❤️"
She will try to finds song you will like, and listen to your favorite songs and bands even if she really isn't into it.
She loves Taylor Swift and Harry Styles, will recreate TS music videos on tiktok using littlest pet shops.
Tries to get you to dance with her! She loves dancing in her room and having fun and does her best to get you to join. She likes dancing just for fun, and little tiktok dances, but also wants to dress up with you and try to 'recreate' romantic dancing scenes.
You send her Monsters and Men on a playlist "indie werewolf tunes"
She tries to be vague but it's very obvious she's bragging about you on her blog.
Skin care is very important!! She'll drag you to her room for facemasks and manicures, she can do some pretty impressive little nail designs on you too.
She comes up with the cutest dates! has a pinterest board dedicated to cute things you can do together and cute couple ideas.
Biggest heart eyes if you surprise her with a cute date even if it's simple like a picnic 🥺
So! Many! Cute! Nicknames! She wants you to like your nickname and have something special for you but she can't help but call you anything that comes to mind "sweatheart, honeybun, cutiepie, cupcake"
Personal Space is really not her thing and if you're okay with it she will be touching you all the time, in your bubble, leaning her head on you, just being casually cuddly.
Very into PDA but tells you she doesn't want to be cringy or 'too coupley' and explains to you how to go about that.
They're all very sweet and you tell her they seem pretty fitting for her instead, which she will argue with you on.
You call her even cuter things though, even if you're not really one for giving out nicknames. "Lovebug" is just too good not to call her.
She always tries to do things that interest you! Even if they're spooky or uncomfortable likes bugs...she looks so pained but fully puts in an effort to enjoy it if you do.
Uses emojis with every text, she is a fast texter and can go on nonstop when you're not together and suddenly your screen is a wall of at least 40% emoji to text ratio.
So many hearts and "🥺🥺" and every other sweet/cute one. She can convey such long things with emojis and you've become a pro at deciphering her hieroglyphs.
Shopping dates! Even if you don't buy much, choosing outfits for each other to try on is so much fun.
100% will buy a stuffed animal and call it your child, switching who's bed it sleeps on regularly is a must.
Movie nights! She actually likes watching horror movies that aren't too gorey, but is easily spooked. She falls for every jumpscare and her claws come out when she yelps.
Her instinct is to protect you though! Which means if you're scared or not, you'll be yanked into her lap for safely, and might get a little poked by her claws while she clings to you.
You will defend her from anything but when someone called her your golden retriever,,,you admit there wasn't much of an argument there and she was a tiny bit offended.
You send her pictures of cute things with "this reminded me of you ❤️" and you can hear her squeal from 2 corridors away.
She told you her fears of dying alone if she's never able to transform, that she would be alone all her life and no one would love her so you blurted out "You wont be alone, I love you and I'll be there."
Which made you worry because you never actually talked about the future even though you know you want to be right her the rest of your life.
She froze for a moment, staring at you with watery eyes and you really started to panic but she surged forward wrapping you in a werewolf strength hug and kept crying and thanking you.
She tried to be diplomatic when you met her family but when her mom is disappointed in her, and you, and she's really unsure if you were serious about physically fighting the hag woman, it was not a relaxing time.
Her dad likes you though, he sees how happy you make Enid and that's all he wants.
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8TH House Synastry: Comparing 3 Different People and How They All Make the HOUSE Person (Me) Feel.
I have 3 people in my life that fall in my 8th house and they all manifest VERY differently even though i'm the house person in all scenarios.
For background: I'm a Capricon Sun/Rising with Scorpio Moon and have an active 12H (Pluto, Venus, Mercury, Chiron and Lilith)
(I also have a disorganized attachment style and if you know you know)
Person 1: His Moon and Venus fall in my 8H, and they make many aspects to my inner planets.
Below are only the aspects of his two planets in my 8H making to my chart.
Both of those planets tightly opposes my Mars, his Moon squares my Venus (My 5H Ruler), his Venus and Moon trine my Lilith, Mercury, Ascendant, and Jupiter, and his Moon sextiles my Moon (My 7H Ruler)
Side note: His mars is in my 1H, (conjunct my ascendant) and we share more lilith aspects (hard and soft aspects), his South Node conjuncts my Ascendant, I think my Eros or Venus conjuncts his rising, (don't have his exact time of birth)
AND his Neptune squares my Moon. (a major natal placement that I have)
That being said with this particular boy, I have experienced the very stereotypical 8H dynamic. I'm obsessed with him, I think he is so attractive, (objectively and conventionally) I have cried over him multiple times over nothing because of how intense I feel for him, any slight energy change feels like the world is ending. When it's good it's GOOD but when the energy and expectations of how I would want him to treat me is not met, I get so low.
When my expectations are not met, I feel so irritated. Once he didn't say hi to me immediately and I cried on the way home. Prior to that the entire time at the party I was moping and I wanted to leave. He did eventually come up to say hi but the energy affected me so much.
We share mutual friends but nothing ever gets passed the flirting and physical stage. He was the first boy in my life where I went up to and kissed in front of people and that energy is not me, I don't do PDA but with him I can't help it. I just want him.
When I was with him for two days consecutively I easily became so used to his energy, so much so that without him the following days I felt numb. Nothing made me 'high' like that so I moped for like a week. It's like I suddenly craved his presence?
I want to show him the vulnerable side of me, I want to be open. The idea feels safe for me and naturally nothing scares me more, so to of found a boy that made me feel okay with being seen, I was hooked. It's so easy to allow yourself to want them and it's so easy to romantically be open towards them. You don't have any fear of being emotionally vulnerable.
The thing about 8H synastry; you know you shouldn't go towards this person because you know how badly they can hurt you, but you can't help it. You can't help but still want this person to be apart of your life, even if that means them being the ones who end up hurting you in a way no one ever has.
Them leaving somehow hurts more than them inconsistently staying.
It's interesting because the way he interacts with me feels soft, emotional and I feel that he wants to be held, there's a part of me that wants to give him that. In one instance he just laid his head on my shoulder, with no words and I just held him.
I'm pretty sure my Moon (and even Venus) is in his 12H and there's been times where he would know how I'm feeling with no words. Once I walked into a bar and had to leave immediately when I got there (before saying hi to him) I see him, smile and go up to him to hug him (wishing I could've stayed) he blurts out "You're leaving?!" I have no clue how he knew that since that was my first hello towards him at that bar. Another time when I was at a party with him and he wasn't giving me that much attention so I was moping and just sort of avoiding conversation with others and so the second I went to go cry in the restroom I walked passed him and I heard "Wait!" I ignored it because but I said to myself was that him? There's no real tangible reason why he should feel responsible for me. Some of me thinks a part of him felt that? I know he knows I care, my emotions can't be hidden from him in any way. This could be biased but there's just a lot of "I know what you're thinking" and vice versa.
(We also share more Neptune/Psyche/Eros/Lilith synastry: his Psyche is in my 8H and my Psyche conjuncts his Lilith)
Everytime I see him we flirt and are touchy with each other, the chemistry is OBVIOUS and I don't hold back any desire. When we were making out I literally said to his face "I want you" (we share more mars-venus/mars-asc/moon-mars synastry) So this is all very typical 8H energy.
I want him to want to kiss me so bad, he just grabs me and kisses me. (Ha ha update funny enough he actually has said that sentence word for word to me in person😏)
That being said, I do feel more obsessed and dependent on him. So this relates to exactly what you read with this synastry, it's intoxicating, amazing, overwhelming, full of emotion and desire.
So all of this energy is literally the only way I would ever fall for someone, so there's that.
(And he is my exact physical type).
Update: I haven't seen the boy in 2 months and I feel like i'm with-drawling. Knowing I could have seen him was worse than me not seeing him. (date 10/6/22)
Update: Ok so I haven't seen him and It's been 5 months now and I am still struggling. It comes in waves mainly. It's so easy to idealize our past interactions and so easy for me to hold onto him since the feeling he used to give me was so intense. I do miss feeling like that yet I go back and fourth with feeling unsatisfied and low to letting it go. (1/2/23)
Update: I finally ran into him. So, he's been doing his own thing for so long and he finally went out on Saturday to the club. He passes me and I tapped him saying “Hi” he looked at me and said “I'm leaving” (I think) So no hug and I said “Okay." I haven't seen or spoken to him in 8 months, so I cried (or more like sobbed) coming home because it hurts, these expectations that manifest from this synastry is a lot, it overwhelms and I didn’t think I was going to be this affected but still I am. (2/4/23) *insight: he was dating his girl-best friend that despised my existence during this time but they broke up in March of 2023 - 1/23/24*
Update: I saw him again, and I didn't cry.
I walk up to him and he instantly says, "How are you, how is school going for you?" I responded and then his friend whom I don't know walked over and pushed him out of the way. His friend was overly attentive towards me, and his friend called me cute, while speaking to me but I was just looking at him (the 8h synastry boy). After a minute or two, he started yelling to his friend to come, and his friend ignored, he then shouted his friends name, and nothing, finally his friend got closer and closer to my face, and I moved away (and the second he saw that), he instantly grabbed his friend by the neck and shoulders and shoved his friend away from me? I was not forthcoming towards the friend since I still have this psycho loyalty to him but anyway after his friend called me cute and after he pulled his friend away, the friend couldn't even look or speak to me after? His friend was afraid of me lmfao, just so avoidant. I barely spoke to him after (the boy I share 8h synastry with) but we kept making eye contact. His friend then was staring at me and was dabbing him up, saying like "no way man" while grinning and patting his back and grabbing his neck? Then the 8h synastry boy and his friend who dabbed him up, was walking towards me and I saw his eyes, then he abruptly turned and decided to talk to the girl who was next to me instead? He walked away then later on I passed him and tapped onto him saying "Hi," he said "Hi" we conversed for a second and then he said "I have to go find my friend."
I don't understand his cute energy at the very beginning and the pulling away/shoving of his friend, and the friend being overly cautious and avoidant to me after, and that same friend dapping him up (saying yes man admiring him in a way), and then him talking to a girl next to me? Then him walking away leaving us with barely having any conversation? I feel like he got jealous i received attention from his friend and since he cares that makes him upset? like he gets annoyed at himself for being jealous because he has no right too? that's just how i feel though. Anyway interesting night. (5/2/23)
Update: I saw him again and he didn't go up to me to say hi, instead he just walked over to where I was 3 times and stood there, with no conversation; so that hurt. I had a feeling I was going to see him out so I had expectations, when I saw him last that was out of no where so I had no expectations, it's like when I'm aware I might run into his energy that's when I get the 8H effect but when it's completely random I feel like I have no set claim and however he treats me is somehow okay (how he talked to that girl right next to me instead of giving me attention was somehow ok in my book because I didn't expect to see him out, but him not saying hi or bye at a place where I expected to see him was what broke me. I also in general have low respect for myself, meaning if someone treats me poorly it's somehow justifiable; especially with him (5/6/23)
Update: Guys, i saw him last night and he was so flirtatious towards me, the second he saw me he complimented me instantly, but he was SO drunk. At the beginning of our convo he was just talking to my sister and my friend and I wasn't really involved and I just looked at him & in my mind I was like hellooo are you going to talk to me so I just stared a few times and I feel like he knew what I was feeling because he suddenly put his arm around me and didn't let go. I was so painfully sober so I was so shy and taken back by this energy. After my friend and sister left, he was grabbing me, holding onto me, he literally said "you look so cute tonight" "when i first saw you all i wanted to do was grab you, pull you in and kiss you" "can i kiss you?" cupping my cheeks as he was kissing me, holding my waist, asking for longer kisses and everyone saw. There were all our mutual friends watching so I kept being so shy, he kelt saying "you're the prettiest girl here" "if you want a drink just go up to any man at the bar and ask for one" "i want you" and at the beginning my friend was being overly aggressive (long story) and he was like "okay since youre her (me) friend you can say whatever, her niceness overcompensates anything you say" but once we were alone he just grabbing me complimenting me, saying he wants me, and i just kept laughing and smiling and kind of rushing the kisses because people were looking and so i said everyone's watching and he was like "so what i wanna kiss you" at one point i just kept laughing and he was kissing my cheek and he said "do you even want to kiss me?" bc i was so shy. Prior to this entire thing he completely ignored me while his friend hugged and talked to me, and so i mentioned that, and he was like "i dont want to pressure you or interrupt you when you're talking to someone, i wanna let you do you" ?? something like that, I feel like he was convinced that i didn't like him anymore because it's been so long. After we just kept flirting and he was just holding onto my waist, looking into my eyes, pulling me in, it was a 15 minute conversation and he was just insistently complimenting me. Then he got a phone call & his friend was looking for him, and he said "i have to go, kiss me goodbye" and i did and it was rushed again because i was nervous as fuck and he said "no i want a better kiss, kiss me again" I don't feel this crazy high or crazy in love so i'm so confused on how that's even possible? I feel normal like as if it didn't happen? Maybe i'm in shock and i'm disbelief lmao. (this is probably venus retrograde and he has a lot of mars/venus/moon/jupiter conjuncts/soft transits happening to his chart) (7/15/23)
Update: So I saw him last night, and he didn't acknowledge my existence or say hi. He actually passed me as if he didn't know me, his ex was there and she hates me (because they dated after knowing he wanted me first, they ended things but she became sui*cial because the relationship wasn't working anyway different story for a different day), but regardless him acting like that shattered me. The value and loss I feel is deep. He has never not said hi to me before, he has acted weird like this in the past but that was when we would consistently talk or see each other out? i haven't spoken to him since August and nothing romantic has happened since July? What's notable about this is the fact that this connection just can't be light hearted, His lack of assurance shatters any value i have within, his lack of attention creates my self worth void to grow. We never have dated, we have never even formally hung out one on one yet this doesn't feel like a shallow connection, especially on my end. (10/26/23)
Update: guess who finally saw him! Regarding the last update, his ex (the one who hates me) now has a boyfriend so I'm not sure if his shitty behavior was because of that but regardless I saw him last night. He hugged & walked up to me and I said "you look cute!" while smiling and he smiled big & said "you look cute!" then throughout the night after we kept looking over at one another (03/27/24)
Update: So..I saw him again and it was nothing special. He said hi but I wasn't enthralled, he still had my attention but for some reason he felt more closed off. A weird instance did occur though. His best friend was talking to me and then he started talking to these three girls next to us? His best friend is someone I know as well but in the conversation his best friend said to me "let's take a selfie together!" to which he looked over in confusion, then after that he said to his other friend (not the one I was talking too) "Yo man I want you to meet this girl" ???? well as I was talking to his best friend he didn't come up to join the conversation, instead he just looked over all confused and stared, he only made a face and talked to the three girls next to us. Weird ass behavior fr. (04/10/24)
Update: alright....well guess who saw him again and the energy he had was completely different. Immediately when we made eye contact he stopped walking and smiled then he motioned me over to come say hi to which I did and we hugged. But when I tell you...he. looked. so. cute. I was taken back, I touched his jacket and said, "you look nice tonight" and he smirked, looked at me up and down while pulling me in a little and said "you look cute" then we conversed and i said "are you drinking tn" he said "hell yeah" but when I tell you the second we made eye contact I knew he was in a different wavelength than last time. BUT OK red flag here, he made out with two different girls🙂 and I had to fight back tears at one point not even because he was kissing other girls but because our conversation just wasn't what I wanted/expected. He weirdly never saw that I saw him makeout with those girls, BUT when he was plainly hugging that girl he was kissing, I just look over and he then randomly looks up the same time I looked, so we made eye contact for a few seconds but I turned around and as I turn around he bolts away from that girl and is somehow in front of me? I just walked away but later on he comes up to me and says "Have you seen ****" and I pointed to who he was asking for and I walked away. We just kept having long periods of staring, I can't help it at all like gun to my head I'd still stare. Then as I was leaving I see him and you want to know what he does? AFTER making out with two different girls? he PULLS me in and grabs my waist? As I was looking up at him I said "are you going to the after" and he said "Idk are you?" while holding me and I said "yes" and he said "Then i'll see you there" We didn't even talk at the after just had more periods of blatant stares? In one instance ANOTHER girl who I'm not sure if she was the one he kissed comes over and sits on his lap, placing her legs between his. When I tell you he tried avoid eye contact with me when that happened but guess what, I kept staring. For some reason all of this didn't break my soul because 1. Im delusional and I think I somehow mean more to him than others 2. With those girls I know theres no emotion connection so I somehow justify it/say it's okay and 3. Our long period of staring shows some care, and the way he holds jealousy/dislike when his friends give me attention. Those three thoughts kept my heartache at bay. ANYWAY when she was on his lap he didn't even converse with her? She would ask him questions and he would just say one word answers? Idgi because sometimes he overcompensates to show me he doesn't care about me by talking to a girl in front of me but now last night when he held another girl/a girl sits on his lap he gives that girl the cold shoulder? Like does this make sense?? To anyone? Anyway he looked so fucking pretty and I wish I was lying or exaggerating. There is a reason two different girls made out with him (relatively strangers) and another (or the same girl) sat on his LAP. But in my delusional brain I think I would die more if he cupped another girls face the way he did mine or if he said "kiss me goodbye" to another girl, that would shatterrrr me because of the emotional factor. With me I notice he becomes more masculine and he wants to hold me etc but when he was making out with those girls it was messy and he didn't think twice to just leave when he wanted too. Again I know how this sounds; i'm just word vomiting this. Point is I can't help but care and there's always this underlying tension. Welp I want him again. (Date 4/26/24)
Person 2: His Moon is in my 8H.
His Moon conjuncts my Vertex, opposes my Uranus, and Neptune, and his Moon trines my Pluto.
There's no aspects from his Moon to any of my inner planets.
(his South Node conjuncts my Sun, his Mars tightly conjuncts my Lilith and his ascendant tightly squares my Lilith)
(I am the Pluto and Lilith in these aspects; but his Moon is in my 8H, although with certain housing systems my Moon could fall in his 8H since he is a late Pisces rising)
With this boy, when I first laid eyes on him I was drawn in, he is cute, my type, but not entirely so compared to the first boy. There is sexual attraction though. When I'm drunk I can feel myself getting intimate with him which is incredibly rare for me. Yet there is no obsession or desire that's overwhelming me. Fear of vulnerability was always something that lingered even with him. (a boy I share 8H synastry with) I didn't like the idea of him seeing me, or me opening up. He asked me to do lunch a bunch of times but when I was sober I didn't like him really, as much as I did when I was drunk. I sometimes even would avoid texting him because I knew he would ask to hangout. He was definitely more emotional available (the way I'm not).
Nothing crazy ever happened between us besides some quite innocent kisses. Hence when we did kiss, I didn't have this urge to take things further or to create a more steamy scenario.
I'll admit though only when I am drunk do I find myself wanting to speak to him in a flirtatious manner which I don't do to anyone else, ever. I do find myself thinking of him when I am drunk and only when I see him in my peripheral vision?? I don't feel comfortable with being open or with showing him off, it's more attractive to me for him to be someone to sneak around with and have our tension be underlying, only where him and I can feel or see it, away from the public eye. I'm being really transparent lmfao.
In our Composite Chart we have: Lilith, South Node, Mars, Venus, Neptune and Mercury in the 12H
Update: So I do see this boy out often and like I said there's always an underlying feeling of tension but nothing is overwhelming me really to want him. I would only want to sneak around with him in a secretive manner; even if he was single, I only prefer it being in that dynamic. The feeling isn't near obsessive though, I can look at him and feel nothing too deep. I think it's because *I* am not consciously allowing him in, therefore the 8th house synastry is not being activated. Since I don't have that intention of truly wanting him, I don't feel the 8th house effects, especially since his Moon does not form any aspects to my inner planets. More than anything there's more of a hidden tension that I feel from him, even though there's no words stating these things, I can just read it through his eyes? This all screams mainly our Lilith synastry (date: 2/4/23)
Person 3: His Moon and rising are in my 8H.
His Moon conjuncts my North Node and Vertex, his rising conjuncts my Vertex, his Moon opposes my Neptune, his Ascendant opposes my Mars, his Moon Squares my Saturn, and Moon (My 7H Ruler), his Ascendant trines my Jupiter, Pluto, and Venus. (My 5H Ruler)
So for reference i'll just state all our close fated synastry: His vertex conjuncts my rising & mercury, his venus conjuncts my IC, his south node conjuncts my sun, ascendant and widely conjuncts my mercury (6 degrees), his moon conjuncts my north node, his moon and rising conjuncts my vertex, my mars conjuncts his descendant, & his vertex widely conjuncts my sun (7 degree orb)
So with this boy it's only platonic feelings. When I first met him three years ago and I have never romantically cared for him, there isn't any intense attraction for me. He is cute but not really my type. He is also younger, and he has dated my friend so there really isn't any romantic or sexual feelings anywhere. The most interesting thing with this relationship is how I feel close to him, I feel safe to state, act, and be just how I am, with no filter, care or even worry. It is SO easy with him but we share so much Vertex and Nodal synastry. I care for him deeply but I still don't feel the dire desire to share myself to him. There's been numerous times where I have thought of him and he has texted me in those same moments. So there is this telepathic vibe that we have as well. I believe since he allowed me in we both could feel each other compared to other friendships. That being said, there is no tension or desire to have him romantically in any way. I do however have this expected claim for him? I notice when he doesn't say hi or come up to me, my mood shifts and I also get annoyed when other people intrude our conversations. I expect a certain response/energy for him and I need him to match it to keep me not hurt. This feels like more 8H energy since it's like our relationship takes on more Scorpio (8H) traits, and I can feel the difference with him compared to other people. He also gets jealous and protective over me, any attention I receive from boys he is keenly aware and makes sure he says Hi to them. He feels a lot with me (he called me his comfort zone too and he always exclaims how much he cares and loves me as a person PLATONICALLY, I know how that sounds but truly if I could place my feelings on here you would understand I just love him as a friend and vice versa, I believe that feeling comes from his Venus conjuncting my IC) I also do feel a high from his presence, I get happy and I feel secure, safe, and in the moment.
Update: He is infatuated with his girlfriend so he's been MIA, though I want him happy he is hurting my feelings. We haven't spoken in a few weeks and I understand why, I do respect him and his girlfriend and I know I don't have this 'expected right' to his energy (logically so) but his absence does hurt me. I'm letting it go though because his relationship has nothing to do with me and again this is probably 8H synastry. (date: 11/23/22)
Update: So I saw him and he was with his girlfriend, I still care about him a lot but I consciously told myself to create a barrier with my emotion so he wouldn't hurt me. He is choosing her over me which is understandable and that's why I decided to create this block for me. He tried conversing with me instantly but I was stand offish. His girlfriend is insecure with us and that's another reason why I wasn't initiating conversations. He kept looking at me and his girlfriend was acting weird asf, she was grabbing his face so he wouldn't look at me and intensely kissing him? Anyway I do want him happy and I'm accepting how things are at face value. I have to consciously tell myself to not place more value onto him because I know I can. And me caring deeply again would only take 2 seconds lmao. (4/1/23)
Update: He is single now! I sometimes feel the need to lower my energy or attention towards him when we are out because I just feel what everyone is thinking, lmao. He also can READ my mind, he knows exactly what I am thinking ALL the time, without a doubt, has no hesitation and exceeds my expectations as a friend (especially since I have a 11H Scorpio Moon) I appreciate that deeply. (His Venus is in my 4H, his Moon and rising are in my 8H, and his Mars is in my 12H, so we have immense amount of water house synastry so telepathic energy x10. He has no water influence in his chart besides a 12th house Moon and Scorpio IC and maybe 8th house Venus depending on housing but he sincerely and whole heartedly knows my exact thoughts with EASE, he knows what my soul needs to hear in order to feel "okay") Date 10/15/23
Update: NVM he is back with her, I haven't hanged out with him since October. I'm so nostalgic and I miss his energy, he went to one halloween party with her and he didn't give me the expectation I was hoping for (meaning he said hi but barely because he was distracted with other people but since I have such high expectations from him I was sad he didn't exceed them) I drunkenly texted him saying "you hurt me" and then I apologized for that text because it was out of line and he responded saying "whaaat i'm genuinely so sorry if i did something, i think i was just really distracted but I genuinely never want to hurt you" and i said "no its okay! i'm sorry again it's okay hope you had fun!" Like .... 8th house synastry does NOT mess around! Everything feels so intensely and it can't be light hearted when there is care involved. Since I allowed him in (vice versa) I feel this 8th house effects. I understand his distance since his girlfriend HATES me with a passion, she openly complains about me to him and has been throughout their entire relationship and from an outside perspective I get it, I do. He is dating her not me but wow, 8th house synastry just makes everything heavy. I expect his undivided attention when I shouldn't especially since he has a GF that I know he cares about. Point is, even with knowing that the 8th house effects brings in illogicalness, nothing truly really matters to me just him and I, BUT I consciously always have to place a barrier due to his gf so I won't feel hurt. Date 10/31/23
That being said, I think when people say 8H synastry is confusing because of how differently it can manifest.
Initial attraction/desire and aspects of the planets in your 8H I think makes the entire connection (especially if you're as closed off as I am).
First Boy: We share the most sexual energy and stereotypically 8H feelings, and I think our aspects indicate as such. There is instant initial attraction, personally, he is a 10 out of 10 in my eyes with or without the synastry overlays I would find this boy so attractive. His physical appearance is everything I find attractive in a boy. He can read me like a book and I can't hide my desire for him, I want to be vulnerable and care for him, I want him to see all of me and I feel comfortable with that idea. Everything feels deep and falls into my core, I can feel myself being able to truly fall for him. Any and all of his actions affect me on a profound level and I can't help but show my affection/dissatisfaction for him in public. (In our Composite we have Libra Moon, Venus, and MC)
Second Boy: Initial attraction was there so I did pursue him but the aspects we had were not intense so the intensity was much lower compared to the first boy. I have thought of kissing him while he had a gf which is weird af for me (maybe that's lilith?). Attraction did somewhat fade away after a year. There is no intense desire, only when I'm drunk and more open do I let my guard down, and would be willing to flirt or kiss. He feels more like a forbidden fruit (this feels like lilith energy) kind of interest in my opinion, my interest in him lies in the fact he wants me but can't have me, and the fact I want him in a more secretive way. Underlying tension and teasing gets me more, I don't care to get into the depths of his soul really unlike the first boy. I only seeing myself sneaking off somewhere with him if I was bored and drunk. (Which I did once)
Third boy: No initial attraction, the planet and rising that fell in my 8H made some intense aspects to my inner planets (Mars, Moon & Venus). There is no intense obsession or romantic desire if at all on my end. I do think of him a lot especially now because we are so close. Him replying my texts does shift my mood, and I see a noticeable difference, since I allowed him in, it's like a 'high. (similar to the first boy) I do place him on a pedestal, and his actions do affect me even though there's no obsession or sexual urge towards him. I do notice I need him to treat me in a certain way (friend wise) so I won't be disappointed or hurt but I know that's probably 8H synastry talking. His absence does affect me.
Lastly, I don't easily form feelings towards anyone; ever, like genuinely. I physically get sick at the idea of ever receiving love, in this life my biggest lesson/karma is accepting affection and vulnerability, I'm working through it but for me it's 100x harder than another person. To gain curiosity, let alone interest there would have to be certain things that would have to take place, and I would have to feel a specific way. I need to be attracted mentally, emotionally and physically. I have abandonment issues (disorganized attachment style) I fear commitment and stable 'love' so, for the first boy to make me feel the way I do is unreal. He genuinely checks off every crazy box of mine. But I don't really know him. Could this just be the 8H synastry talking?
Note: (Normally for me to care about someone universal coincidences and experiences have to happen, there has to be some random crazy thing that happens in my life per se that this person is connected to e.g, meeting him online & him being across the world, then one random night I bump into him in a local LA bar, e.g, meeting him online when he lives in another state + no correlation to my going out scene and a month later randomly seeing him out at a party with the same people I always go out with and casually know (hint that happened with the first boy) e.g, someone I keep running into or having an unexpected pull towards to. Things like that will only get my attention. This stems from my 12H Venus)
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Hi, I saw that you have HC requests open. I was wondering if you could please do some for Yamaguchi or Raoh?
Magoroku Yamaguchi | General Dating Hcs
a/n: Hi, i really love Yamaguchi too but cant find much for him :( So i hope you like it 💕🌸
Sorry for the grammer or spelling mistakes.English is not my main language so...
Thank you and love you 🥰
Warnings: not much just usual hnl things
* A little different and mysterious character
* He is referred to as a lone wolf
* And we know he is pretty strong
* We know that he has challenged Raoh in past and followed him when he was defeated. Also, Kansuke is following him.
* That's why he gives me a pretty loyal vibe
* Also, as far as we can see in the first scenes, no matter how calm and cold-blooded he may seem, he also is someone who likes to fight like Binzo
* But he enjoys fighting only when necessary
* okay dating…
* Magoroku doesn't give me a very flirty or womanizer vibe
* And I don't think he could be with someone who is cocky, smug and childish.
* I believe he will be attracted to someone who is calm but funny, can be silly but not childish, strong and intelligent.
* I don't think he's afraid to take the first step, but he certainly wouldn't mind you taking the first step.
* He definitely keeps his private life secret. No one in Suzuran will know about you until they see you together or until he says so.
* I'm sure he will tell the Raoh faction but maybe after a while…
* Their friendship with Binzo is like "I hate this guy but if you touch him i'll break your all bones"
* That's why I think they have a sweet friendship
* So even though he always tells you that he hates him, you will see many times that he worries about him.
* Even if he is not very flirty, he will care about his girlfriend and will not hesitate to compliment her.
* A change in your new dress, hair, bag or make-up…
* He will definitely notice and make you smile
* He likes it when you wear something for him but he thinks you're always beautiful
* Even though he used his hair in a ponytail and tons of jelly at school, I'm sure he uses his hair untied when you were there or he'd let you do his hair.
* His whole world is Raoh faction and you.
* I don't think he will be interested in other girls.
* No one can disrespect you, he's pretty certain about it.
* You are the most beautiful girl in the world for him and he is not afraid to give you all his attention.
* He has quite a lot enemies. Even inside Suzuran
* That's why he doesn't want you to walk home alone. He wants Kamui or Kansuke to walk with you even if he can't come.
* Exactly the "I'll kill you if you touch her" vibe
* You don't need to be physically strong but he wants to teach you self defense if you want to learn
* He loves to exercise. Did you see his muscles? If you want to do it with him, I think he will be quite happy.
* Even if you have weak fists, I think he’ll find it pretty cute
* Push ups while you're on his back...
* I can't say he is great with words but he’s not too bad at expressing his feelings
* He seems like a quick-tempered person but quite patient with you.
* He’s trying not to show it to you even if he’s so angry in Suzuran
* He doesn't get hurt easily, but he's definitely hiding it from you when he gets hurt.
* He doesn't want you to worry
* He finds you when he needs to get away from all that chaos and violence. Because you are the best thing for him.
* I guess he’s good at cooking. He is also a healthy eater. So happy to cook for you too
* Gums…
* He always carries a pack of gum in his pocket.He carries your favorite ones in his other pocket and won't let anyone take them
* He absolutely loves to being the big spoon and you lying on his chest
* I don't think he likes PDA but it's okay
* He likes physical contact. But I think his love language is Acts of service
* He likes shirts and cardigans, he'll always want to make sure you're warm even if he gets cold
* I think he’s oddly good at caring for the sick people
* He looks pretty cold, but he's actually a cute teddy bear.
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