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dumbfilmstudent · 1 year

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Watching a 14 year old 8th grader

Things I have been told/asked:

She showed me EVERY Pokémon and made me judge them and then told me I was wrong about every single one

Why Luka is a better boyfriend than Adrien Agreste (thankfully something I could understand)

Made me explain the entire plot of Steven Universe bc she saw one episode but couldn’t find the rest

That she is in love with a Splatoon character

Explained the full Five Nights at Freddie’s Lore (maybe better than MatPat who, by the way, she has no idea who he is)

Asked me about those Urban Legend Horror games like Bloody Mary and the Elevator game and then proceeded to have to sleep with every light on bc she was scared

Told me she doesn’t swear and doesn’t respect people who swear and that she has cut off friends who swear. I have to apologize every time I accidentally curse because of this.

She had me read 14 pokemon ffs on fanfiction.net to make sure there wasn’t any adult content.

In that same vein told me that she had learned how to use ao3 filters (something I had accidentally taught her how to do last time I watched her)

Asked me if I knew what Dokidoki literature club is and made me read 5 of those fanfictions too to make sure there was no adult content (there obviously was. How she ended up in dokidokiliterature is beyond me. She said it was because she is in love with Monika)

Made me read the ao3 ship stats and then asked me about every single fandom/show etc

Quick rundown of what she said when I explained them: Hannibal “remind me never to watch that”, Harry Potter “no one even cares about Harry Potter. Is Dumbledore gay?”, Supernatural “why are ppl shipping brothers” and then I explained destiel and how he got sent to hell and then she got mad at me for saying Hell, 911 “why does 911 have a fandom? People being hurt isn’t funny” I had to pick around a bit but realized she thought that 911 emergency calls were being made into fanfiction, BTS “who even are these people”, My Hero Academia “an anime? I don’t watch it. Is there any Comiket Communicate in the top ten?”, MCR “what’s that” I showed her some music and mvs “why do people like this it’s weird” to which I explained ppl were emo bc I didn’t know how else to explain and she said “my friend is a tall and skinny emo” and then wandered off

Made fun of me for thinking 53 degrees was cold. (We live in California. It is cold)

A dream she had where her friends are baking cookies but her one friend who she calls her little brother climbed into the oven

The fact that her friend group play house and she is the oldest sister

While roleplaying as a family they also roleplay that they can all turn into Eevees (this is not a one time game. They have done this for three years)

Asked me why there are so many fanfictions about BTS because she doesn’t understand how ppl can ship real people

While I was trying to explain it I accidentally mentioned the Dan and Phil real people shipping problem and she proceeded to ask me about who they are. I tried to be vague but she kept asking questions until I explained their whole online career.

Asked me what Doctor Who was and what he was a Doctor in.

Made me watch Friday Night Funkin modded videos for what felt like six hours and then had me watch her play animal crossing.

Told me that boyfriend from Friday night funkin was not good enough for girlfriend and that girlfriend should be with Sky from the Sky Mod (I don’t know what these words mean but I’m sure I agree)

Explained an Eevee YouTube fanfiction series in its entirety.

Wandered back and forth across the living room in front of me listening to music in headphones breathing incredibly loudly making me incredibly overstimulated (she’s got a cold it’s not her fault)

Explained her entire friend groups sexuality, gender and pronouns, mental illness, and the Eevee evolution they are when the rp.

Btw the first time I met her she asked me if I had ever had a fictional crush, I said yes, and she said “I only have girl fictional crushes” which through her mother for a loop she told me later, not bc she’s homophobic (she’s literally a lesbian) but because she had never met me before and was surprised how open she was around me.

Today proceeded to try to explain the nuances of bisexuality vs pansexualty. She has never been on tumblr or twitter but was definitely aware of the arguments.

Asked me what one direction is

Got mad that I named a character in a Pilot for a college film class after a girl who is her friend at a math tutoring place who I of course have never met and then yelled at me until I changed the name. I didn’t but she doesn’t know that.

Told me I need to vacuum my car. I do.

Handed me a warhead and watched me eat it with the most malicious look on her face as though she was tricking me or something.

Cooked all of her meals by herself, gets up and leaves for school on her own, does all her hw immediately, doesn’t swear, let’s the dog out every morning. Literally the most self sufficient child I have ever met (was able to do all of this three years ago when I started watching her) the only reason I’m here is in case of a freak accident or because she freaks herself out at night at can’t sleep.

Then she puts the pot she used to cook pasta on the floor for the dog to lick up…

Asked me what pecan pie is

#babysitting #the kids are alright #adventures in babysitting #fandom #one direction #9 1 1 fandom #supernatural #five nights at freddy's #friday night funkin #miraculous ladybug

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izzysdiary003 · 5 months

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Drove really well to tesco today! Proud that i can drive after a 9 week break from it. Headache all the time (even iller now i’ve stopped doing stuff and am home?). L still thinks liking dan and phil is embarassing and posted about it. I think that is more embarassing for her. I feel bad for people who are too worried about what’s cringe to enjoy themselves. With exceptions (kkg) i am so reluctant to shit on stuff which used to make me so excited…. I love the past me that loved stuff like mcr so much. Passion is one of the greatest things a person can have.

However i am still desperate to be as cool/interesting/perceived as her. Obsession and jealousy lingers. She posts about her notes app, i look through my own to see what is post-worthy. I feel the need to read and do cool stuff solely when i see others do it. This is bad!

I cannot let the rot set in this holiday! I am gna read and sleep early tn, get up earlier tomorrow and do things. Start couch to 5k, eat nice food, start my greek and latin. I could even find a new spot to do it.

I should really get in touch with people too. People are all we’ve got.

I love that i’m rewatching the hunger games with my family. Catching fire last night. This resurgence is the best thing to happen this year in pop culture…

I love those corecore videos where someone smashes a plate and then there are these vague liminal videos that reaffirm life as interesting and emotional and fast paced. I think right now is a very limited way to live - at home in a small town, dark at 4pm, tired and ill. I need a richer internal world for sure or i’ll get devastatingly bored not running through fields or living under city lights.

I got a video talking about the bad side effects of anorexia today. Hair loss. Always cold. Loss of bowel control. How awful that all is. Yes i want to be a little skinnier but do i really? Its so not something i can let myself romanticise. I see girls w a little meat on their bones and i think they’re so gorgeous. That could be me.

I really need to learn to eat healthy ish and exercise but not be consumed with guilt. I definitely gain a feeling of control from calorie checking stuff. This is okay for now but could be bad. Let’s work on it! If i gained weight, would that really be so terrible? Would people value me less? I fucking hope not and i know they wouldn’t. I want to be strong.

I dont know why i care about L so much in the way that i measure up my life to hers to assume my successes and failures. Who fucking cares if she is skinnier than me. It’s not a competition! Imagine if she knew that i even thought about that…

My friends tell me that i am funny and interesting. It’s true. I need to get that into my head and work on my self confidence so severely. Low self esteem is legit at the core of every problem i have.

Not liking yourself is stressful (what did i say? Did i embarrass myself? I’ve made them hate me forever!). It’s lonely. It’s time-consuming (what do i eat next? And next? And next?). It makes you a narcissist!

I also need to stop watching porn. Bad habit which will only get worse! It’s when i admit these things that i realise this diary must be just for me. I feel like im writing with an audience in mind until i say unglamorous stuff like this. But u do what u gotta do for the God of Self-Improvement.

I’ll say this to myself. I love you! You have got this! You are worthy! You are trying!

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piratewithvigor · 3 years

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My first thought in regard to every band that gets played on my radio station

ACDC: Every dad’s favourite band

Adams, Bryan: Every mom’s favourite singer until Michael Buble came along

Aerosmith: haha they thought Vince Neil was a lady

Alice Cooper: he’s a Game Of Thrones fanboy and I have proof

Alice In Chains: my sister doesn’t like them because she decided AC were Alice Cooper’s initials ONLY

Allman Brothers Band: good music for dropping acid to

Allman, Gregg: That’s too many Gs for one name

Animals: House Of The Rising Sun, or who even cares

Argent: Sometimes Hold Your Head Up is really catchy

Asia: Tuesdays

Autograph: one of the members went on to be a pharmacist

Bachman-Turner Overdrive: There are just so many pop culture jokes about Taking Care Of Business that whatever I say won’t be as funny

Bad Company: with their song; Bad Company, off their album; Bad Company

Benatar, Pat: Always getting her confused with Patti Smith

Black Crowes: I like them for Lickin, but it doesn’t seem to exist outside of one shoddy video on youtube and my old CD

Blackfoot: this band name feels kind of racy

Black Sabbath: Dio was not better or worse than Ozzy; just different

Blondie: I like Call Me, but Blondie confuses me stylistically

Blue Oyster Cult: MORE COWBELL

Bon Jovi: Hello, childhood trauma, I missed you

Boston: ONE GUY. ONE GUY DID IT ALL AND NO ONE KNOWS

Bowie, David: Don’t let your children watch The Man Who Fell To Earth, or David Bowie’s will end up being the third penis they see in life

Browne, Jackson: Another musician ruined by Supernatural

Buffalo Springfield: Jack Nicholson was at the riot they sing about

Burdon, Eric: no ideas, brain empty

Bush: ditto

Candlebox: ditto once more. Who are these people?

Cars: This band feels so gay and so straight at the same time, I can only assume they’re the poster children of bisexual panic

Cheap Trick: I played Dream Police on Guitar Hero so fucking much because it was the only song anyone who played with me could keep up with

Chicago: Chicago 30 exists, but they do not have 30 albums. Fucking riddle me that

Clapton, Eric: 6 discs in one Greatest Hits is too many. That’s called “re releasing your discography”

Cochrane, Tom: For some reason, everyone thinks Rascal Flats did it better

Cocker, Joe: Belushi did it right

Collective Soul: who?

Collins, Phil: If his biggest hits were done by MCR, they would be emo anthems, but because he’s 5′6″ and from the 80s, they’re not

Cream: *Vietnam flashbacks on the hippie side*

CCR: *Vietnam flashbacks on the war side*

CSNY: David Crosby; meh

Deep Purple: THEY’RE SO MUCH MORE THAN SMOKE ON THE WATER

Def Leppard: the only music for when you’re a heartbroken bitch but also a sexy one

Derek And The Dominos: Clapton and ‘Layla’ broke up

Derringer, Rick: Tom Petty if he was from the midwest

Dio: You thought it was an anime reference, but it was me, Dio

Dire Straits: You can tell how bigoted a radio station is based on how much of Money For Nothing they censor

Doobie Brothers: I have yet to smoke weed, but I listen to the Doobies, and I think that’s pretty close

Dylan, Bob: I take back everything I said about him in my youth

Eagles: Hotel California isn’t their best song, but the memes that come from it are second to none

Edgar Winter Group: @the--blackdahlia

Electric Light Orchestra: Actually an orchestra and sound a fuckton like George Harrison

ELO: I really hesitate to ask what happens with the 7 virgins and a mule

Essex, David: no prominent memories of him

Fabulous Thunderbirds: cannot spell

Faces: Who on earth thought that was a good album name?

Faith No More: I got nothing

Fixx: One Thing Leads To Another is a damn bop

Fleetwood Mac: I ain’t straight, but I’m simply not enough of a witch to enjoy them to full potential

Fogerty, John: He got sued cause he sounded like himself

Foghat: Slow Ride slowly becoming less coherent feels like a drug trip

Foo Fighters: He was just excited to buy a grill

Ford, Lita: deserved better

Foreigner: dramatically overplayed

Frampton, Peter: a masterful user of the talk box

Free: dramatically underplayed

Gabriel, Peter: leaving Genesis changed him a lot

Genesis: if someone likes Genesis, clarify the era, because yes, it does matter

Georgia Satellites: sing like you have a cactus in your ass

Golden Earring: Twilight Zone slaps, but it doesn’t slap as hard as this station thinks it does

Grand Funk Railroad: Funk

Grateful Dead: I like their aesthetic more than their music

Great White: there are so many fucking shark jokes

Greenbaum, Norman: makes me think of Subway for some reason

Green Day: the first of the emo revolution

Greg Kihn Band: RocKihnRoll is literally the most clever album name I’ve ever seen

Guns N Roses: They have more than three good songs, but radio stations never recognize that

Hagar, Sammy: I’m still trying to figure out where he lived to take 16 hours to get to LA driving 55 and how fucking fast was he driving beforehand?

Harrison, George: He went from religious to rock, and if he had continued rocking, he would have gotten too cool

Head East: I respect people who use breakfast foods as album names

Heart: Magic Man and Barracuda are played at least once every goddamn day. They’re not even the best songs!

Hendrix, Jimi: I have both a cousin and a sibling named after Hendrix references

Henley, Don: Dirty Laundry gives me too much inspiration

Hollies: Somehow sound like they’re both from the 60s and the 80s at the same time

Idol, Billy: he’s doing well for himself

INXS: Terminator vibes

Iris, Donnie: knockoff Roy Orbison

James Gang: too many funks

Jane’s Addiction: if TMNT had a grunge band representative

Jefferson Airplane: *assorted cheers*

Jefferson Starship: *assorted boos*

Jethro Tull: The only band to make you feel not cool enough to play the flute

Jett, Joan: icon

J. Geils Band: I requested them on the radio once and it got played

Joel, Billy: he really did just air everybody’s business like that

John Cafferty And The Beaver Brown Band: literally wtf is that name

John, Elton: yarn Elton sits in my basement, unstaring. Please someone take him from me

Joplin, Janis: Queen

Journey: Stop overplaying Don’t Stop Believing. It takes away from the rest of the repetoire

Judas Priest: literally started the gay leather aesthetic

Kansas: another fucking band Supernatural stole

Kenny Wayne Shepherd: the man confuses me to the point where he isn’t in the right place alphabetically

Kiss: Mick Mars and I will simply have to disagree on the subject

Kravitz, Lenny: runaway vibes

Led Zeppelin: Fucking fight me if you don’t think they’re the most talented band (maybe not the most talented individually, but collectively, no one comes close)

Lennon, John: My least favourite Beatle for reasons

Live: I got nothin

Living Colour: slap a decent amount

Loverboy: do you not get TURNT the fuck up to the big Loverboy hits? Who hurt you??

Lynyrd Skynyrd: Sweet Home Alabama is a Neil Young diss track

Marshall Tucker Band: no opinion

Manfred Mann’s Earth Band: VERY STRONG OPINIONS THAT THEY AREN’T GOOD

McCartney, Paul/Wings: Power couple

Meatloaf: I have nothing but respect for a man who willingly named himself Meatloaf

Mellencamp, John: voted cutest lesbian of 1987

Metallica: I liked their appearance on Jimmy Fallon

Midnight Oil: I get them confused for Talking Heads a lot

Modern English: who?

Molly Hatchet: Hollies vibes, but also Georgia Satellites vibes

Money, Eddie: DAN AVIDAN, IF YOU SEE THIS, COVER TAKE ME HOME TONIGHT

Motley Crue: Stan Mick Mars and John Corabi. They’re the only ones who deserve it

Mott The Hoople: no one loves them except for David Bowie

Mountain: props for naming an album ‘Climbing’

Nazareth: I want to make a John Mulaney joke here, but I can never come up with one

Nicks, Stevie: witch queen

Night Ranger: I get them confused with Urge Overkill

Nirvana: Kurt Cobain was the ally grunge needed

Nova, Aldo: he’s Canadian, at least

Nugent, Ted: *serves a ghost as jerky*

Offspring: nothing here

Osbourne, Ozzy: this bitch crazy

Outfield: Your Love is kind of a sketchy song, but it slaps hard

Palmer, Robert: low quality Eddie Money

Pearl Jam: *grunts in Eddie Vedder*

Petty, Tom: I have so many feelings about Tom Petty and they are all good

Pink Floyd: which one is Pink?

Plant, Robert: solo career is a crapshoot, but his voice is unparalleled

Poison: I want them to write a song called ‘Alice Cooper’

Pretenders: I want to say good things, but I have nothing to say

Queen: A doctor of astrophysics, a screaming girl, a disco queen and a diva walk into a bar. It’s Queen; they’re there to play a gig

Queensryche: neutral opinion

Quiet Riot: they got big because of a song they hated. I love that

Rafferty, Gerry: the second-sexiest sax opening in all of music

Rainbow: Ritchie Blackmore created something very magnificent

Ram Jam: one good song and they didn’t even write it

Ratt: I’m sure they have more than Round And Round, but I don’t know it

RHCP: funky, but if you have paid money to hear them, you’re going to The Bad Place (I don’t make the rules)

Red Rider: basically Golden Earring

Reed, Lou: Walk On The Wild Side would be such a cool song if it wasn’t so dull

REM: American Tragically Hip

REO Speedwagon: Props for having a dad joke as an album title

Rolling Stones: Never in my life could I imagine the drummer being named anything but Charlie

Rush: How to make being uncool the coolest fucking shit

Santana: The world needs more Santana

Scandal: There’s something really funny about The Warrior being my brother’s “song” with his girlfriend

Scorpions: Was Wind Of Change written by the CIA? Only the spotify podcast I got an ad for once could say

Seger, Bob: A different variety of Eric Clapton (frankly a better variety, but that’s just me)

Simple Minds: we ALL forgot about you

Skid Row: Sebastian Bach is prettier than all of us

Soundgarden: music that makes you feel like you dunked your head underwater

Springsteen, Bruce: my arch-nemesis. Maybe someday, he’ll find out about it

Squeeze: according to my friends, the stupidest band name ever, but they’re theatre kids, so you know

Squier, Billy: If he can make it through 1984 alive, you can make it through whatever bad day you’re having

Stealers Wheel: Yet another band who I always mistake for George Harrison

Steely Dan: my house’s nickname for the Robber in Settlers Of Catan

Steppenwolf: Either makes me think of Jay & Silent Bob, Jack Nicholson, or that time I had to cut 6lbs of onions

Steve Miller Band: when you’re in the right mood, they slap hard

Stewart, Rod: my soundtrack to summer 2015

Stills, Stephen: Love The One You’re With Is Catchy, but the lyrics are questionable

Stone Temple Pilots: the only band to write a song about goo you smear on yourself

Stray Cats: an obscene amount of merch is available for them

Styx: Supernatural would have ruined them for me too if I hadn’t been into them previously.

Supertramp: I hunted for Breakfast In America for two years and it was worth every hunt

Sweet: I will never understand my two-month obsession with Ballroom Blitz when I was 15, but it was legit all I listened to

Talking Heads: you may find yourself in a pizza hut. And you may find yourself in a taco bell. And you may find yourself at the combination pizza hut and taco bell. And you may ask yourself; ‘how did I get here?’

Temple Of The Dog: I keep confusing them for Nazareth

Ten Years After: somehow still relevant

Tesla: not the car or the dude

The Beatles: Evokes a lot of opinions from people. Mine is that I love them

The Clash: I showed my sister the ‘Lock The Taskbar’ vine ONCE and it still kills her

The Doors: evokes teenage terror from deep within my soul

The Guess Who: Canada’s answer to confusing question-themed band names

The Kinks: kinky

The Police: wrote the theme of 2020 and everyone somehow forgot it was about a teacher resisting becoming a pedophile

The Ramones: playing all of their songs in a row wouldn’t take more than 2 hours

The Romantics: you don’t think you know them, but if you’ve seen Shrek 2, you have

The Who: If someone can explain Tommy to me, I’d be glad to hear it

The Zombies: I think they happened because of the 60s

Thin Lizzy: Could the boys maybe leave town?

Thorogood, George: blues, but make it modern

Toto: the most memed song behind All Star

Townshend, Pete: just makes me think of the end of Mr. Deeds

T-Rex: Mark Bolan is an icon

Triumph: The no-name brand of Rush

Tubes: like the yogurt

Twisted Sister: they did a christmas album and my mom does NOT hate it

U2: U2 Movers; we move in mysterious ways

Van Halen: RIP Eddie

Van Morrison: honestly, who’s named Van?

Vaughn, Stevie Ray: Steamy Ray Vaughn

Walsh, Joe: The Smoker You Drink The Player You Get

War: Foghat, but even groovier

Whitesnake: the most successful band to be named after a penis

Wright, Gary: the 90s thanks him for writing the song every movie used for the “guy sees cute girl and it’s love at first sight” scene

Yes: To Be Continued

Young, Neil: The best part of CSNY

Zevon, Warren: the album cover of Excitable Boy makes me deeply uncomfortable for reasons I don’t understand

ZZ Top: has been the same three guys since 1969. Lineup unchanged.

3 Doors Down: They feel a little modern to be on a classic rock station, but whatever

38 Special: Why 38?

#I made this instead of doing homework #Classic Rock #Meme

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xfriendstilltheend · 3 years

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✨Appreciation Post✨

ive seen a lot of these and have even been tagged in some so i figured itd be nice to make one too :)

@threecheersforsweetirony i cant explain how thankful i am to have met you, i've tried to explain it but i can and i won't be able to but i love you so much, no matter the language❤️

@wokeupsunshine @maddie-revenge @im-the-master-of-the-wicket ( + apollo)my fellow latino/as!! tener a un grupo de ustedes a sido increíble y me hace tan feliz saber qué hay más de nosotros✨

@middleschool-stomachaches thank you for being my first mutual, i know we don't talk a lot but seeing you on my dash talking about your interests is super nice, even if i don't necessarily understand, take care

@boku-no-emo-academia denki!! thanks for being the one who finally got me on mcr tumblr, and for always being the sweetest, you have no idea how much i appreciated that as a tumblr beginner

@give-em-queer-kid omg nico thank you so much for freaking out with me about whatever thing dan and phil did this time! also thank you for always being so supportive, it helps, trust me 🥺

@hxtel-bella-muerte evan!!! your music, your art, your dolls, your outfits, theyre all amazing! you're amazing! and i really want you to know that, pls take care of yourself

@frank-ieros-knuckles i can't tell you how many time i've seen on of your trans posts and just thought "haha i do that" i know dysphoria can be hard but we'll make it out dude ☺️

also to anyone who followed me, having 109 of you, has been wild and i honestly did not expect it

thank you, i love you and i hope y'all have an amazing 2021❤️

#tumblr let me tag people challenge #long post #manuel’s bullshit

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chemicalarospec · 3 years

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Genuinely Don’t Say Anything Interesting Here But I Like Talking So Thus I’m Posting This

okay I did like nothing productive today but have a ramble on youtube fanbases, specifically the new gen of mcyt. This was two posts and then I made it one so sorry when I repeat myself. I did edit it tho lol. But that means I also inserted more, so this is just all over the place now.

me from the future: oh god. all over the place. wait wtf this is so long. I don’t even have much to say I just like writing the same sentence three different ways and refusing to cut any of them. I’m sorry; I don’t know how to edit; this is informal AF. (can I use three semicolons? at least one of those is wrong anyways lol.)

edit: I’m so sorry I forgot about having a “read more” last night laksjdflksjad. Also idk if I even agree with myself lmao.

it’s so funny how mcyt is like The Thing now. It’s not cool to like it anymore lol, cuz everybody does. (This is a me thing. I like being special lol. I also self-define “cool” so you should not take it to heart when I say it’s not cool.)

I mean, just thinking about the Dream SMP as something I *do* want to get into, it doesn’t feel like “our thing” -- it’s has the feel of a HUGE fandom. Seriously, I’m in the phandom, which ngl has been dead since 2018, and the fanbase for the SMP has a much different, bigger feel. Idk what i’m getting at, it feels imposing? looking at the Dream SMP fandom seems similar in scope and slightly in atmosphere to pre-2019 phandom, at least to me, and it’s actually making me grateful that I joined now and not all that time ago.

Also I brought up the “our thing” bit because of the mcr post that goes “funny how MCR seems like our little secret and the biggest thing in the world at the same time” and I kinda thought that was just how all fandoms worked? idk I was going to assert that the truth is different but I thought some more and now I’m not sure.

but yeah I like the “our little secret” feel and somehow the phandom has (re)gained that while technoblade (and the new gen of mcyt as a whole) is loosing it.

I mean, I’ve been watching Technoblade since the bedwars winstreak. He had less than a millions subs but most people I brought him up to actually did know who he was. He was big but he wasn’t *famous* -- we all knew about him and we all cared. Like the only person who knew who he was and didn’t care had a little brother(s?) that loved him (wait why is this all in past tense this is all still true). (Yes AFC this has become a callout post for you mocking techno lol.) (If you’re still reading my miNeCRaFT yOuTuBeR fAnBaSe MEta. cringe culture is dead tho; I don’t have to say it like that.)

Anyways, I didn’t follow Technoblade’s Dream SMP streams and now I feel like I’d just be tagging along if I did get into it. (also didn’t watch SMP Earth lol.) This is because I’m a gate-keeping jerk. Or hate missing out. One of those two things.

(awkward transition where I don’t know how to make my tangent meaningful and have to make it back to the original train of thought I violently interrupted)

As a long time Techno fan, I’m really proud of the growth he’s experiencing, but a little sad too as the community is being -- well, I don’t want to say “infiltrated,” as I don’t want to shade anyone who was simply late to the party -- perhaps diluted? overwhelmed? yeah, overwhelmed by newer fans, and becoming “unmanageable” in a sense; it feels like we’ve lost a bit of our sense of community with the influx of new fans -- no shade to any new fans! This is just the way fandoms work. When the crowd is larger, it becomes harder recognize each member as a person, even if everything else is the same. (”The death of one man is a tragedy, the death of millions is a statistic.”) (look this is how my brain works deal with it)

I just really like this small community feel, and it’s a bit daunting looking at the smp fandom.

Also the growth Dream experienced this year is genuinely ludicrous. I mean, the wide appeal of shipping is part of it, not going to beat around that bush, but there’s just so much and I wanna read an essay from a long-time fan who saw it on why he’s got so much growth.

I really hate to shame fans and stuff, but part of it, at least for me, is that most of these new fans probably aren’t “minecrafters” like we were. I doubt the majority of them grew up on Stampy, DanTDM, and whatever the other ones I didn’t watch were. I mean, some of this is because Child. For them, the distinction is really pre-quarantine post-quarantine i guess? Really, whether they played Minecraft or not. Again, I know it’s bad to shame fans, but apparently I’m just a terrible person and I feel like it’s more shallow or disingenuous to get into MCYT when it’s popular without already being into Minecraft.

WAIT that’s it -- Minecraft community, as a whole, is special. It’s a LARGE umbrella of fandoms in general, but that’s the thing: they’re all more communities than fandoms -- from the casual builders to the pro parkour players to those who watched the og youtubers to those who followed the Great Potato War, there was Minecraft Culture.

And the expanded fandom that’s sprung up around the Dream SMP and possibly Dream in general (???) is more of fandom. It feels like a fandom. People treat it like a fandom, they talk about it in fandom spaces, it is fandom, a modern fandom. Not a quaint “little” Minecraft community.

I’m not going to say it’s because of the shipping, but... I have no data but at least I can say that it certainly creates an appeal for Fandom People as opposed to Minecraft People. And then also it’s just a fandom thing so it makes the space more fandom.

Also I realized this is all based upon a feeling, so where did the feeling come from? I was reading in-fandom texts a lot today, and I think the storyline actually might have something to do with it. Also maybe the “talking behind their backs”? I can’t be bothered to remember what I’m comparing to what at this point but that’s definitely done in a lot of other spaces I’m in, so idk.

OH FRICK I’ve mostly been *in* the fandom spaces for real things lmao. (Read: I’m 100% making up everything at this point.)

(awkward transition because I inserted the last two paragraphs later on)

And really, I played minecraft today for the first time in months. But it’s still with me, you know? The memories of being introduced to it, growing up with it. Going to the Nether with my cousins, my uncle’s giant survival mode cathedral. Mojang being bought by Microsoft and everybody hating it. (... me, my brother, my two friends, essentially... how did we even know??)

[I had part about the minecraft.net writers here but it was completely unrelated so it became it’s own post. I should do that more.]

(With every sentence the target audience of this post gets smaller.)

What was I saying? I’ll just wrap up.

TL;DR: Dream SMP fandom feels like a fandom and not a Minecraft community and while that’s not necessarily a bad thing, I’ve realized I prefer a community feel, which makes me grateful I joined the phandom now. Also I shouldn’t be allowed to post things past 9:00pm.

Oh my god I’m so sorry to all my mutrals. My tired loquacious reflex has kicked in. This is essentially a dan and phil stan blog, and though I know a few of you know what I’m going on about, I’m so sorry to the rest of you.

Well, at least *I* think I’m a fascinating person with interesting things to say hahahahha.

This is like a diary post. Should I post this? Yeah, other people should share my thoughts lol. OH NO: Late-night Tumblr fandom ramble posts are the new social-justice tirade/generally useless blog-like Goodreads reviews. At least it’s what Tumblr’s made for :P.

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sad-sshit · 3 years

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things that make me thing that I might have autism

hello! I am a 20 yr afab. I have thought I might have autism since I was about 17. I also have dyslexia, OCD, anxiety and depression. I can't afford to get tested and my gp doesn't really care. Here is just a list of things that makes me think I might have autism. It isn't everything but off the top of my head.

- every xmas with my family I get overwhelmed. it is too loud, too many people I have to talk to, smells, have to eat food that I don't eat. I use to always cry and stay in a room by myself after about an hour.

- In school, I use to play with stim toys when I first got diagnosed with dyslexia. they made me feel better and made things easier.

- I don't make eye contact. If I do, it will always be for a second. Really didn't know that people made eye contact all the time.

- I find it really hard to make friends. If I do have a friend, it is normally one at a time. find it really hard to commutation with more than one person. and it is normally an intense friendship.

-I always got called smart at school but never really worked hard.

- have a really hard time with executive function

- the smell/taste/texture of meat is horrible. I always thought it was disgusting and I can't stand it. when I use to eat meat I hated eating, I thought the texture was the worst thing.

- I can't stand the sound of teeth brushing. it hurts and it overwhelms me. I think it is generally the sound of bristles.

-also the feeling of non-cotton clothes, cutting boards, wool, carpet, most blankets. just off the top of my head.

- So many times I have said something and people just look at me like I am mad. It is really annoying/sad when it happens because it doesn't make sense. It is better when I am with my boyfriend/sister as they tell me when I say something.

-I get confused and really anxious when I am in social situations. I never know what to say as it is always unplanned. unless it is something I have scripted in my head before.

-I don't always get jokes. I hate when people make them and laugh I just laugh with them even if I don't get them.

-always felt a bit 'off' and 'different than others. As a kid, I always had a really hard time talking to people for YEARS. It took me about 15 to understand some social ques etc.

-(Can't remember the term) throughout my life, had intent love/interest: for bob the builder(2-5yr) scooby doo(5-10yr), dr who(8-13yr), lego(8-11)twilight(9-13yr), dan and Phil, MCr, FOB,(12-16yr), tfm, frank ocean, (16-18yr), archer, bob burgers(15-20yr)

- have a hard time audio processing. I use closed captions and hate watching things with others as I just don't understand what the people are saying.

- I like the feeling of pressure on me idk how to explain it but things like being wrapped around me. not when people touch me.

- also got called sensitive, small things really upset me

-when something doesn't go to planned or doesn't follow how things were meant to go I always seem to cry and get really overwhelmed.

- hate ppl being close and touching me

- white light hurts

- cant write a bike or swim (idk it if is related but i think it is)

there is more but these are just things I thought of. I'll add more later

#autism #i think i might have autism #afab #neurodiversity #autism undiagnosed

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consultingkilljoywinchester · 5 years

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Hey all!

So like.... if any of you want to talk about fandoms, shows, bands, characters, or just life in general feel free to dm me! I’d love to make some internet friends

My fandoms:

Spn

Destiel

Mcr

P!atd

Harry Potter

Lucifer (Fox show)

Dan and Phil

Good omens

Ineffable husbands

Sweet pea (riverdale, he’s like the only one I care about)

Motley Crue

Sherlock

And Marvel

Again, always feel free to message me! Btw if I seem awkward or have nothing to say, it’s not personal, I’m just awkward sorry!

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lestered · 5 years

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Questions! -Whats your fave animal? - do you have a fave breed of dog/other animal? -do you like houseplants? Do you own any houseplants? -do you like scented candles or scented stuff? What's you fave scent of that item? -what albums have you listen to reccently? (I need recs!) -fav quotes from Dan and Phil? (you can choose however many you want!) -Do random things D&P have said pop into your head at random times? (this happens so much it distracts me constantly) Hole you're doing well ♥ -🌊

ahhh so happy to hear from you again babe!

fave animal: depends if you’re talking domestic or wild i guess, domestic is probably a tie between dog and bunny which is kind of unfortunate because i probably wouldn’t be able to own both at the same time, at least not with my current dog because i’m almost positive that when left to her own devices with a bunny she’d try to eat it. but if we’re talking wild animals, then it’s a babirusa, mostly because of an inside joke between me and my brother from when we were kids but i also just think they’re neat.

i do like houseplants, i think they do a lot to spruce up a living space and make it seem more homey, but i don’t have any of my own because i know from past experience that i’m shit at remembering to water them and then i get sad when they die (weird thing about that i guess, i find it so much easier to care for animals that run around and make noise and constantly remind you that they’re there and need you to take care of them, rather than something that just sits in a corner that you can forget about v easily. that’s why i think the whole “if phil can’t take care of a houseplant then how’s he gonna take care of a dog” thing is pretty bullshit)

i love scented candles, i’m not sure i have a particular favorite scent though. i love seasonal/holiday scents when the time is right, like cinnamon apple or pumpkin spice around fall, or woodsy/fireside type ones around christmas. but just normally, i really like calming herbal scents like lavender and eucalyptus, or just like the generic fresh-scent ones.

oooh i’m kinda shitty when it comes to music recs, recently i’ve been re-listening to a lot of old pop punk albums that i was really into as a teenager (like all time low put up or shut up, p!atd pretty, odd., mcr three cheers for sweet revenge, mayday parade anywhere but here, etc), i’ve also been re-listening to a lot of old 1d stuff so like if you’re looking for new music i unfortunately don’t have much to offer atm because i’m on a nostalgia binge

some fave dnp quotes in no particular order:

“i believe in science, sadness, and the color gray”

“i’m just phil from rossendale, and now people are screaming for me because i make youtube videos”

“it’s okay. you’re okay. you were born this way. it’s right.”

“if you’re insulting people on the internet, you must be ugly on the inside”

“normalness leads to sadness”

“why do they call it spoons”

“i’m gonna go change the world in ways you could not believe”

“always go with your first instinct, unless it’s to stroke a bee”

“i will find you in any world, phil”

“he smells like warm”

“you could go swimming in those eyes”

“stop being so damn pretty dan howell”

“oi he’s mine”

“and there was me and phil in the corner with matching haircuts and skinny jeans. i feared for our lives”

“i’m so glad i failed. for so many reasons.”

“i’m gay, it’s great, i’m happy, and hopefully you’re happy for me too. if not, i hope you have a think about why you want a fellow human to be unhappy and not true to who they are, and if that’s a healthy mindset to have”

i do have random dnp stuff pop into my head at times. a lot of the stuff is when they weirdly address people by specific names (like not specific people but they use specific names) ie “great dungarees timothy” “stop masturbating while watching danandphilgames while you’re high, greg” “would you like to tinker in my toolbox, said…. roger” because it makes me laugh, also stuff that they say that they instantly regret saying ie “she’s a pee witch…i instantly regret saying that” “i’ll hit your mum’s box…..no i did not say that i did NOT say that” (it’s usually phil) just because those are the moments where i’m like wow you’re disasters and ily

ty for the questions ♡

come talk to me in general or send me🎤+ an ask and i’ll voice record my response

#ask #anon #🌊

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egg-and-friends-blog · 5 years

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Meet the squad!

So this is a simple introduction to me and my friends who feature in my art on this account! There are 9 of us (if you include me) and here’s a little profile of each person

Ellen (Me)

Hi I’m Ellen and I’m the person who runs this account! My pronouns are she/her they/them and I’m currently dating Ebs. I like Japanese culture and anime, but adore rock (or emo) music like Panic!, TØP, FOB, MCR, Paramore and other alt. artists like Troye Sivan, Billie Eilish and Hayley Kiyoko.

I’m an Aries and I’m the Memey lesbian of the group

Liv (Or Shepardo)

Liv is the sporty one of the group and thrives in a social environment. She loves food, pop music and likes to spend her time playing on her laptop

She is an Aries too and is the Energetic Bi of the gang

Stabs (Abi)

Stabs has her nickname for a reason- she is not afraid to cut a bitch! However, she is super caring towards her friends and acts as a support blanket when we need her most.

She is a Leo and she is the Slytherin therapist of the group

Ebs (love of my life)

Ebs is my girlfriend and is a total otaku! She loves all things manga and anime and spends most of the time fangirling with her friends on Tik Tok. T be honest, she probably has the most common sense out of all of us.

Ebs is a Leo and is the quiet weeboo of the group

Kaitlin (Ketchupp)

Kaitlin is an exuberant meme. Not much more to say apart from that she’s my best friend, types like a two year old and leads a good six meme cults

Kaitlin is a Scorpio (Oof) and is the shady uncle of the group

Katie

Katie is the say-it-as-it-is friend who isn’t afraid to share her opinions. Lily, Katie and I are the tryhard trio as people like to call us. Katie loves art too, but prefers to draw animals and is great at it too!

Katie is also an Aries and is the reality check of the group

Lily (Or Lilerino)

Lily only has two moods- sensible adult figure that stops us all from doing stupid things, and four year old child who finds joy in the simple things like platypuses and pogo sticks. Lily is the genius behind all of our crazy plans and gives us all a good laugh.

Lily is a Cancer and is the man-with-a-plan of the gang

Liz (Or Lizard)

Liz is the memey and slightly edgy member of the group and is a hardcore Dan and Phil fan. She’s the most productive of all of us and though she doubts that we do, we really value her.

She is a Libra and is the cool aunt of the group

Kayleig (Or Bröther Kyle)

Kayleigh doesn’t spend as much time with a lot of the group anymore as she prefers to hang out with Liz, but I like to add her into my art as she is an interesting character. We spend science lessons together memeing about twenty one pilots and she is a lot of fun to be around.

She is a Virgo and is the cat meme of the group

Thats it! Thanks for reading if you made it so far and I’ll be posting my art soon!

#egg and friends #art #intro #long post #artists on tumblr

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pleased-aesthetics · 3 years

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an update lol

i know that no one will see this or care but a life update could be fun since my only persona here is a cringey emo phannie, inspired from my introduction post like 4 years ago:

i’m angela, i’m 18 now, i’m gay and can’t believe i ever called myself straight, i still love dan and phil and mcr and all that good middle school stuff but from a nostalgic and not obsessive standpoint now jdjd

my current aesthetic is some weird blend of cottagecore lesbian and 90s/y2k girl, i’m in my first year of college and a neuroscience major (probably the one thing consistent with my past interests), i love indie/alt music and some of my favorite artists rn are cavetown, wallows, saint motel, and boy pablo (shameless spotify plug with my feel good songs playlist here)

i love photography and have progressed astronomically since 4 years ago, partially from self teaching but also from having an amazing photography teacher in hs, i pretty much like the same tv and book genres but i don’t get to read or watch as much as i used to :/ and im still super passionate about mental health advocacy and the offer still stands that im happy to listen to anyone who needs to vent, and i hope that someday i can use my degree to erase the stigmas around mental illness

that’s all i can think of for now, hope whoever reads this is doing well :)

#about me #//#original post #this is really just me thinking im the main character

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daislysxftie · 4 years

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This is hella creative

1. Soldier, Poet, King/ Choke/ I'll Sleep When I'm Dead (no shit it's 12:53am)/ Helena/ Taking Care Of Things/ Somewhere In Neverland

2. Shit. Idk! I'd love to meet multiple people. I mean I love the whole of MCR, but that's like 5 people. I know I act like such a 15 year old girl but tbh I'd love to meet Dan and Phil... Would you call 11 years a phase?

3. "The X Files", "Gary tells me you have security clearance?"

4. How everything and everybody I love will die one day

5. "Roses are red, Your eyes are nice, He didn't have ice cubes so he put vanilla ice" I literally couldn't ask for a better poem

6. It doesn't have phobia in the title but I have misanthropy and it's an automatic strong dislike to people.

7. Wiccan

8. Dying inside or going home

9. It's not that complex, it's easily MCR.

10. "I'm not going to get up and go into a whole other room just because you forgot to check the toilet paper roll" that was in text form but it still works

11. Ehhh, not really. Idk. I hope it exists

12. Don't have one-

13. My greatest weakness is something I don't want to say anything more about except that I'm a little. My greatest strength is my great ability to mask myself and my feelings, for example, I'm autistic but you could never tell.

14. Who are we kidding? Nicki Minaj is hot

15. I cry and listen to Honey, This Mirror Isn't Big Enough For The Both Of Us on repeat

16. You have no idea how much band merch I have

17. Sometimes I am. I know I could always be someone better, but I gotta learn to be comfortable with something I tried my hardest with: me.

18. Ok I have no sound I love except for rock/ punk/ emo music. I have misophonia meaning there's a specific sound that I hate, it can cause meltdowns and I have no control over myself. It's at a specific time, so if I'm feeling upset my misophonia kicks in and I absolutely HATE any human noise made. I do hate all human noises all the time but when I'm upset it's when I'll start shaking, crying, puking and pulling my hair out.

19. What if we could run away to neverland and have no worries

20. I'll just say I want to believe.

21. The air. I'm literally in my bed

22. Nothing, but whenever my ef comes into my room they can smell rice bubbles and apparently I smell like rice bubbles. My sibling says the exact same thing.

23. Ohio

24. Troye Sivan is so cute ahdbdhdvfj

25. Live your truth, food and sex. Tbh I am panromantic but I'm also lesbian meaning you know what

26. I don't drive because it was suggested I don't because of my height. It was just a guideline, like how 1% of people follow PG 13+

27. Fucking Star Wars. I've literally been forced. I've learnt the whole bee movie script in morse code.

28. I cracked my head open when a kid in 4th grade picked me up then dropped me after saying us shorties need to stick together. They were 6 inches taller than me.

29. Fuck there isn't one

30. Would you call a true rumour a rumour? If so then yes.

31. Nope. For example;

32. Cancer

33. It may or may have not been tea

34. uhh both?

35. Yes, I mentioned my ef before. (ef means enbyfriend)

36. I'm very guilty, I may have dated 32 people exactly..

37. I don't have one, I'm literally the least talented person

38. In Scotland

39. Writing in this

40. Kinda? I'm good at telling lies that I've told myself and I don't wanna put up with being able to tell every single lie they say

41. Call for anyone on the sidewalk to watch and make sure the dog is ok while I call a service and literally sprint when I see them coming.

42. A, no I would only tell my ef, Blayde, Taylor, Julie and Angel. I want everybody else to think of how they were too late to tell me they cared. B, I would spend them with my ef and siblings. C, No because I never expected to live later than 18 years old and I was never scared of death, my existential crises covered that.

43. Woah. Hold your fuckin horses mate. I'm literally listening to Runaway Train at the moment. I guess Sweater Weather?

44. Consent, love, listening and communication

45. Ya can't uneless you're Jakson

46. I actually did go insane once, I went to a mental hospital and it's not like the movies. It doesn't have padding and you don't have cellmates. I guess insanity did bring out creativity in me, I painted a lot and said that I can lie easily in words but I'd never lie in art and sign language.

47. Following Dan's guide to stalk your idol until they notice you.

48. "I wasn't wrong when I thought I was going to die before I'm 18." that may not be a very deep thought to you (I'm 18 at the moment) but it's true, because I'll never be the same person. I change as a person so often and one personality will never live to be older than 18.

49. An anatomical heart

50. Pastel purple, pastel pink, pastel blue and pitch black

51.

Don't look at me like that

52. Casey

53. "Do you have any life regrets?" is a question I'll never answer for anyone that knows me. Since nobody on here knows me, I regret life.

54. Selective invisibility

55. I would like to experience the first time I was told I matter. I wanna go back to 2011, I was 9 years old and I was told by a stranger on youtube that I mattered.

56. Well it would be the 14 years that my father never let me live in the house for

57. uH nO

58. I would go to Australia where it's safe

59. Uh yeah?

60. Nicki Minaj, Troye Sivan, tbh Dan pretty hot and so is Phil but they're not one person so just ignore that, ok I give up I'll admit Tom from svtfoe is hot and Bill (yes I know I find a triangular demon hot, your point?) Cipher from Gravity Falls is kinda hot 🥵

I feel like I know you better. You definitely know me better and if you've seen a glimpse of my instagram you'll feel like they're two completely different people.

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mikeysglabella · 7 years

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Internet Friends

I already posted one of these on my other acc but I thought I would make another one with updates sooo here ya go:

About me//- Hi! im Grace and im 12 y/o. I live in the USA (specifically CA) and im in 7th grade. I am extremely socially awkward and i have very bad anxiety. I consider myself extremely annoying so i hope you dont mind haha.

Here are some of the fandoms im in~

MCR (rip 😢)

Panic!

Tøp

Fob

Dan and phil

Melanie martinez

Crankthatfrank

13 reasons why

Shane dawson

More that i cant think of rn cuz I'm tired

What I'm looking for//-

Someone to Skype late at night, talk to every day, send ugly selfies to each other, have deep personal conversations but also be super silly with, and just over all really close friends.

Requirements//-

Must not be homophobic/racist/sexist/or just anyone who doesn't accept others for who they are.

Should be ages 11-13. I dont care about your age but that's the age group I'm most comfortable with.

I dont care about gender, religion, or sexuality. Anyone can message me!

Must prove to me that you are who you say you are (im not trying to be rude im just being cautious)

If you are interested (your probably not haha) then just message me and we can exchange other social medias or phone numbers😊

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frankensteindotpdf · 7 years

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All of them (bc why not)

HOLY CRAP HERE WE GO

Harry Potter: How do you want to be remembered?

As someone who made a difference; someone who was kind, sweet, funny, and loving.

Hermione Granger: If you could meet anyone, living or dead, who would you meet?

Daniel Handler/Lemony Snicket- This man is amazing. He’s my favourite author and I couldn’t even begin to express how much I love him.

Sir Arthur Conan Doyle- Another one of my favourite authors. He was insanely intelligent and just sounds like an awesome guy.

J.K. Rowling- Obviously.

Gerard Way- His songs mean so much to me, and his art is amazing…I just love him so much

Dan and Phil- (including them as one fite me) They’re so smart and funny and sweet and I just really really want to meet them.

(that’s just the first few to come to my head)

Ron Weasley: What ice-cream flavours do you love/hate?

Mint Chip is one of my favourites (fun fact! for a while I only said it was my favourite because it was my favourite character’s favourite flavour). I also L O V E cookie dough and cotton candy. I cant hate ice cream broski

Hagrid: If you could breed two totally different animals together, what new animal would you create?

A turtle and a sloth. No specific reason why.

Dumbledore: What is your most treasured possession?

My books, probably. (This includes my sketchbooks)

Voldemort: On the first day of ruling the world, what would you do?

Remove all laws against things people can’t control or that don’t harm others (being gay, bathroom bans, religions, etc.). After that I’d order the wealth of the world to be spread more evenly, as well as the food.

Fred Weasley: If you were told you only had one week left to live, what would you do?

Cry? Then I’d probably read, try to do something impactful, start a fundraiser (people love to donate to dying teens) so the funds could go somewhere important like disaster relief.

George Weasley: If you could read minds, whose would you want to read?

Authors mostly. Also my friends, see how they really feel about me.

Draco Malfoy: Do you like yourself?

I’m working on it? I know I don’t hate everything about myself (even though it feels like it sometimes), and I’m trying to be more positive.

Ginny Weasley: What’s your favorite indoor/outdoor activity?

Drawing and listening to music.

Neville Longbottom: What’s your fondest memory?

(Oh it sounds so pathetic) Going to Universal? Honestly I was shaking it was literally like stepping right into the movies I’ve been watching since I was 2. I really love the peaceful happy moments spent with friends and my cousins (they live like 10 hours away). Singing and feeling genuinely happy.

Luna Lovegood: What are your favorite lyrics?

Oh there are SO many I’ll just go with the ones I can think of first

“I never let them see the worst of me. ‘Cause what if everyone saw? What if everyone knew? Would they like what they saw? Or would they hate it too?” Words Fail, DEH

“I cry tears you’ll never see. So fuck you, you can go cry me an ocean, and leave me be.” Save Rock And Roll, FOB

“Oh how stupid to think that I could compare to the pretty girl with the butterscotch hair. And I won’t hate you but oh, it stings. How does it feel to be adored by him?” Adored By Him, Dodie Clark

All of Waving Through A Window

And wow that was depressing how about a nice one

“Take my jumper. Wear it, you’ll need it on the train home. And everyone will know that I’ve been loved tonight; a permanent hug from you.” Permanent Hug From You, Dodie Clark

Severus Snape: Of all your pet-peeves, which is the strangest?

Wow there’s a lot…incorrect grammar, being able to hear people chewing, clicking noises with no rythm or beat, people being too physically close…

Remus Lupin: What is your greatest fear?

Being alone.

James Potter: If you were reincarnated as an animal/drink/ice cream flavor, what would it be?

Honestly I have no idea…I have yet to decide on a favourite animal, drinkwise maybe one of those punches with pop and ice cream, and ice cream flavour…uhh is music a flavour?

Lily Potter: Who or what, if anything, would you die for (or otherwise go to extremes for)?

Anyone? People in general, I don’t really see myself as a person anymore, or at least worthy of the same respect and treatment so I’d do a lot for other people and yes, if it came to it, probably die for them too.

Sirius Black: What are your views on sex?

Personally I think it looks like a great thing to be shared with the right person. I think everyone has a right to their own bodies and their own decisions but I personally would have to be with someone for a while first.

Tonks: if you could be anyone else for a day, fictional or non-fictional who would you be any why?

Oh man idek that’s so difficult…..maybe Tonks? Honestly she’s so sweet and fun and CONFIDENT I could totally learn from that. Plus the metamorphagus powers would be awesome. and of course she’s married to remus

McGonagall: What do you believe I am thinking right now?

I think you’re doing the Jared Kleinman Laugh TM because of all the work you’re making me do.

Bellatrix: three words would others probably use to describe you?

annoying, irritating, stupid hopefully sweet, kind and funny

Lucius Malfoy: Do you tend to argue with people, or avoid conflict?

I love debating, but actual arguements happen VERY rarely…I never stand up for myself so the only time I’ll argue with someone is if they’re hurting one of my friends.

Molly Weasley: What do you define as a family?

A group of people who love each other, feel comfortable around each other, and support and bring out the best in each other.

Arthur Weasley: If you could have any career possible, what would it be?

FULL TIME LIBRARIAN, PART TIME TATTOO ARTIST

Peter Pettigrew: If you had to change your first name, what would you change it to?

If I had to, I would put much more thought and research into it but atm probably Beatrice or Elizabeth or something gender neutral

Umbridge: If you could choose, how would you want to die?

I WANT TO BE HIT BY AN AMBULANCE, AND HAVE JUST ENOUGH CONCIOUSNESS TO SAY “SOMEONE CALL AN AMBULANCE”

Colin Creevey: Who inspires you?

Youtubers like Dan and Phil, Thomas Sanders, and Dodie, as well as the members of MCR and authors and artists in general.

Dean Thomas: Are you generally organised or messy?

It’s a mix. I want to be organised, and some places of my life are organised (my closet is organised in rainbow order as well as type of clothing) but others are horrible (my room is a dump).

Seamus Finnigan: What makes you laugh?

Youtube, memes….everything tbh

Dudley Dursley: Who is the person you despise the most, and why?

Not gonna say the name but there’s a person I know who basically destroyed my mental state. They insisted they were a friend while shredding any self-esteem I had to bits. They made it nearly impossible for me to talk, telling me “no one cares” “shut up” or “you have no friends” anytime I opened my mouth, which of course echoed in my head when they weren’t around. They terrify me, because I know they can rip down the self-confidence I’m working so hard to build back up with a sentence. And I have to see them every day again. And they’re acting just like they used to.

Vernon Dursley: Who is the most important person in your life, and why?

Gosh this is tough. I don’t really…have a best friend. I used to, years ago. And last year, another person. But at the moment…no one. So that makes it really hard to choose someone. I know it doesn’t have to be a best friend but there isn’t really anyone else, either so…no…one?

Petunia Dursley: How close are you to your family?

Fairly? I feel like I hide a lot though.

Victor Krum: What is your favorite form of exercise?

none probably hiking on a nice cool day in the forest. Or sit-ups. Those aren’t too hard, so I don’t mind them.

Dobby: Are you spontaneous, or do you always need to have a plan?

(FINALLY LAST ONE) For most things, I very much need a plan. Otherwise I panic. If it’s just hanging out with friends, though, I do enjoy just wandering around shopping at festivals or downtown (but there has to be a set plan to get there ha)

#ask #the longest thing ever #this took so long #i hate you #jk jk ily #thanks for asking

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shes-my-colllar · 7 years

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the whole byf masterpost

sorry this isnt on my main blog, i wanted to keep this separate from the posts on my main blog lmao

ABOUT ME

hello. i’m Kodi. you can also call me Minty. either one works, but i prefer Kodi.

here’s what i look like. in case that was a concern you had.

i’m 14, nonbinary (they/them or he/him preferred, but anything works tbh), a freshman in high school, and live in Colorado. no, I won’t sell you pot. thanks for asking.

im asexual and panromantic. if you look like lars im probably already attracted to you.

i’m incredibly vulgar, in case you already couldn’t tell. c:

also in case you couldn’t tell, i mostly reblog mcr and frank iero n stuff. i’ll also reblog memes and shitposts and whatever. but it is mostly mcr and fiatp and stuff like that. anything that’s not mcr is most likely tagged.

speaking of stuff i usually post, things will get bloody on here. i will fairly often reblog pictures of blood. 99% of the time i tag it, tho. if you want to follow me but have a blood trigger, blacklist the ‘blood tw /’ tag.

i have depression, ADHD (professionally diagnosed), anxiety disorder, and DPDR (self-diagnosed)

i do art things sometimes. and music things, but theyre not public. maybe when i work up enough courage i’ll post something related to my music stuff.

i’m a Satanist, a member of the Satanic Temple. (i have a membership card man dont fuck with me)

i’m an anarchist, too.

i’m fluent in sarcasm and talking shit. partially fluent in spanish.

i play bass, ukulele, melodica, and violin (and a little piano too but i’m not good at it)

if you see me reblog something that contains a trigger of yours, please do not hesitate to send me an ask and tell me!! you can send it on anon and tell me to tag it. (tho i prefer off anon, so i can answer you privately [and take you seriously. remember that one anon that asked me to tag bob? i thought it was just someone who actually liked bob asking me to start a tag for him, so i responded really sarcastically and told them i wouldnt. it turned out to be someone who was genuinely triggered by bob, and i felt like shit for responding the way i did lmao])

this is completely unimportant, but i want to share it anyway. my main drink order at Starbucks is a mocha. iced, hot, frappuccino, white chocolate, peppermint, dont care, as long as its a mocha. unless the psl is in season. then i get a psl.

thanks for paying a visit to my blog. stay fresh, stay classy, and stay alive.

i support - LGBTQ+ rights (this blog is a safe space, and will not tolerate any form of aphobia) - women’s rights/gender equality (this blog will not tolerate any sexism, towards men OR women, or any other gender identity) - racial equality (this blog will not tolerate any racism) - anarchism (fuck the government! its built on old white men with standards that were good for a country 200+ years ago! they’re racist! they’re homophobic! they’re sexist! get them the fuck out of there! replace the government! respect existence or expect resistance!)

i do not support - conservative republicans - Donald Trump specifically - feminazis/radical feminists - pedophilia/ddlg and any ships involving it - incest and any ships involving it - pro-ana/thinspo - exclusionists (those who think asexuals aren’t LGBTQ+ and don’t belong in LGBTQ+ spaces) - TERFs/SWERFs - forcing sexualities onto people (we all think Dan and Phil look cute together, ok? i like the idea of them being together too. just stop going out of your way to find every little detail that may suggest they’re together, and just,,, saying they’re boyfriends, leave them alone lmao)

bonus unlocked: music I listen to, shows/youtubers i watch, things you’ll see me reblog at times, etc - Twenty One Pilots - Panic! At The Disco - Gorillaz - Leathermouth - Pencey Prep - Death Spells - My Chemical Romance - Frank Iero andthe Patience - Fall Out Boy - I Don’t Know How But They Found Me - Falling In Reverse - Misfits - Nirvana - Vinyl Theatre - the Cancer Crew (Filthy Frank, iDubbbz, Maxmoefoe) - Pyrocynical - Dan and Phil - Splatoon - Night in the Woods - Overwatch - Bojack Horseman - Rick and Morty - Stranger Things - Steven Universe - The End Of The F***ing World

just warning you now; every time something new comes out for something im into (new episode of a TV show, new music video for a band, new video from a youtuber, etc), i’ll be reblogging things related to that thing for awhile. so, you may come across spoilers for some things. apologies. i’ll try to remember to tag it if it has major spoilers.

LINKS

band member tags (they all should be mobile friendly now!! fixed them all)

gerard - x ( tagged #!!.gee ) frank - x ( tagged #!!.frank ) ray - x ( tagged #!!.ray ) mikey - x ( tagged #!!.mikey ) (eat shit bob) bonus: frerard - x bonus: rikey - x

era tags (i did my best to make sure these are all mobile friendly)

bullets - x ( tagged #bullets ) revenge - x ( tagged #tcfsr ) black parade - x ( tagged #bp ) danger days - x ( tagged #dd ) hesitant alien - x ( tagged #aliens ) andthe patience - x ( tagged #patience )

lyrics tag

social media (this list is frequently updated, but if any of the links don’t work please let me know)

deviantart - KoditheInkling instagram - xokodi_ snapchat - koditheinkling (most active) youtube - MintyBlueNobody ifunny - JoeKeery (inactive) wattpad - fantastlc-bastards twitter - xokodi_ spotify - koditheinkling

gaming shit (no actual links here, just where you can find me)

switch FC - SW-5080-0652-7342 switch IGN - SR • xokodi_ pocket camp ID - 0578 1253 280 pocket camp IGN - my dude discord - emo in 2018#1677

support me!!

buy me a coffee shop my redbubble

not an mcr fan? its chill, i got tags for other stuff too c:

gorillaz twenty one pilots i dont know how but they found me panic! at the disco black panther love, simon rick and morty dan and phil

(more coming soon!!)

#DO NOT INTERACT #personal #self #about me #for my blog

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mychemicalphantrash-blog1 · 7 years

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Knock On Wood

Genre: Fluff

Words: 2,167

Summary: Dan and Phil Skype and meet for the first time at Manchester. They can’t help falling in love with each other.

Song To Listen To While Reading: Good Old-Fashioned Lover Boy - Queen

The black loading screen has been taking forever to load. “I can't believe i’m calling him” I thought to myself. Ever since we started texting we never stopped. We were one of each other's only friends and we bonded over our similarities so fast. We've been texting for a couple weeks and now we're finally Skyping. My inspiration, role model, and favorite Youtuber is finally Skyping me, talking to me. Finally Phil Lester lights up my Skype call screen. I took my first glance and I was speechless. His black fringe falling perfectly falling next to his blue/green/yellow eyes you could go swimming in. And his pale skin complements his raven black hair. His smirk and small hair flip made my stomach flip. He's wearing a grey and red Pokémon sweatshirt along with blue and yellow emoji pants. They tell his personality perfectly. “Hey Dan!” He said enthusiastically, breaking me from my trance. “P-Phil! Hey!” I say stuttering. “How's life in Manchester?” I continue. “It's great! What about you in Wokingham?” He asked curiously. We talked for hours everyday. We talked about our favorite music, bands, Pokémon, subjects, and more. Then soon we both felt so comfortable around each other we both came out as Bisexual. And so on, with every Skype call I fell more in love with AmazingPhil. I felt like I've known Phil for my whole life, but it really was only 3 months. Then one night Phil asked me a question that would change our lives. “Do you want to come up to Manchester? You can stay with me and meet me and my parents!” Phil asked while soft pink sprung to his cheeks as well as my own. “Of course Phil, I wouldn't miss it for the world.”

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~ One Week Later ~

(Texting)

Dan: I finally convinced my parents Phil! I can stay for 3 days!

Phil: That's amazing Dan! When do you leave?

Dan: In 3 hours. I should be at The Manchester Underground Station at 6:00pm.

Phil: Can't wait to see you Dan!

Dan: Me too Phil. I need to finish packing, bye. <3

Phil: Ok, bye. <3

“What do I say? What if I mess up and he hates me? What if he changes his mind?” I was lost in my mind of Phil and I, when then realizing I'm already on the the Underground on my way to Manchester.

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“Phil could never love someone like you.” My mind raced the whole ride to Manchester. “Phil's too good for you, you don't deserve someone like Phil.” I couldn't stop. “Phil Lester, Phil Lester, Phil Lester" I couldn't stop thinking about Phil. The Underground soon stopped and I heard the speaker say “Manchester Underground Station" And my heart flipped. I texted Phil “I'm here!” and started to get up out of my seat. I walked out of the doors onto the platform. I scanned for Phil. But I couldn't see him anywhere. “Dan you're so stupid to think that Phil would actually come and that he cared about you" I kept thinking. I looked up once more before I get back on the Underground. I see Phil running and then stopping to look around. His Black hair falling perfectly on his face, his tall and slim body slightly bent over from tiredness. His beautiful eyes finally met mine. I dropped my bags and I ran to him. He ran to me and we collided with a hug that seemed to last forever. His soft black hair in my hand, his musky yet soft flowery and attractive scent filled my nose, his arms wrapped around me like he's protecting me. “I wish this could last forever” I say to myself. Phil finally pulls away with the biggest smile on his face. “You're real!” He said laughing, I join in as we walked to grab my bags I left on the floor. We talked about anything we can think of as we walked to Phil's house. We both can't believe we're here, with each other. We finally make it to Phil's house and he opens the door to reveal his Mom, Dad, and older Brother. “Welcome Dan!” His Mom tells me. “We're Phil's parents and that's his older brother Martyn!” She continued. “N-nice to meet you, T-thank you for letting me stay here.” I replied, stumbling. “You're making a fool out of yourself Dan, They would never like someone like you.” I broke out of my trance when she was in the middle of telling me to put my bags in Phil's room. I didn't hear anything else she said. Bright pink sprung of my face as soon as I realized Phil's hand was on my back, leading me.

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“Come on Dan, I want to show you all my favorite places in Manchester.” Phil pleaded. “Ok Phil, lead the way" I said with a huge smile and a soft pink glow on my cheeks. Phil and I walked and stopped for hours, our hands ‘accidentally’ brushing past each others. Phil told me facts about Manchester and took me to the best places, like the Manchester Museum and the Manchester Town Hall. These buildings were so beautiful and old. Phil also took me to Fletcher Moss Botanical Garden. We walked on the dirt path next to the river. Grass, plants, trees and animals everywhere. Birds chirping, the dirt beneath my shoes, the wind against my face, and of course Phil Lester made this my favorite place. Phil and I talked about our childhoods. “I was such a weird kid!” Phil exclaimed. “You really did all of those things? Wow, you're so weird.” I said sarcastically. Be both laughed for hours. We were sat, very close, on a wooden bench looking out to a river and fields. It was chilly that night and I was just wearing a T-Shirt so I started shivering. Phil saw right away and without thinking took his jacket off and put it around me. Both of our faced immediately turned pink. “The jacket even smells like him. But he's just doing this because he's a good friend, he could never love me..” My mind wandered until Phil said something. “Hey, you know ever since I started even texting you, I've so much so much happier. That's why my Mom likes you so much, you make me happy Dan.” Phil said quietly. “Me too Philly, I've had depression for a while now and when I talk to you it all goes away.” I say back, my face slowly turns red. “Idiot, why would you say that. You sound like you're asking to be rejected.” I can't stop thinking about it. “Dan are you okay?” Phil asked worried. “I'm fine, my head is just getting the best of me.” I say as I shut my eyes to hide the tears. “Dan..” Phil says taking my hand “If you ever need anyone to talk to or anything you need, I'm here for you Danny" Phil continues. I turn to him with a smile. He puts his arm around me and I move closer and rest my head on his shoulder. “What are you doing Dan, you're just setting yourself up for rejection.” My head kept going on and on until I finally let my eyes win and let them flutter shut, with Phil Lester by my side.

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I awake in Phil's bed. I'm changed into my night clothes already. But Phil's not next to me. “Of course he's not Dan, why would he sleep in the same bed as you?” I get up from the warm bed, open the door and walk down the stairs to find Phil in the kitchen. “No! Dan why did you come down here! I wanted to surprise you with Breakfast in bed!” He said laughing. “Did you sleep in the bed with me?” I asked without thinking. “Um yeah, sorry if you didn't want me to, I can sleep on the floor.” He said, not smiling anymore. “No! I m- mean, I d-doesn't matter. I was just wondering… Umm Phil?” I stuttered. “Yeah Danny?” He said focussing on the pancakes. “Did you change my clothes, and how did I get to your bed?” Phil's face went bright red. “I did, your clothes looked uncomfortable to sleep in. But I didn't see anything Dan I promise, I just changed your shirt and pants” He said, face still red. “And I carried you to the nearest bus stop to go home. Then up to my room. I'm sorry if you were uncomfortable with anything Dan, I'm so sorry.” Phil looked like he was about to cry. “Phil no it was perfect, you were fine. Last night was the best night of my life, trust me, you didn't do anything wrong.” Phil's smile came back as he put the pancakes on 2 plates and grabbed some utensils. “Want to eat in bed?” he said with pink spreading to his cheeks. “Of course, why wouldn't I?” And we headed back upstairs, happy as can be.

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After breakfast we came downstairs. His Mom wanted all of us sit in the living room and talk. They asked me all sorts of questions. “What do you want to be when you grow up?”, “What's your family like?”, “How did you and Phil meet?”. I answered all of their questions. “What music or bands do you like?” Martyn asked. “I like the band MCR and Muse, Phil likes them too.” And Phil nods his head. “Well this was amazing Dan! I'm glad we got to know you a bit more!” Phil's Mom said. “Anytime Mrs. Lester.” I replied and Phil and I got up and walked outside to their front porch. We sat down on the white wooden bench looking out to the road. “I can't believe I have to leave tomorrow Phil.” I said sadly. “I have only have the rest of the day.” I continued. “Dan, let's go to the Fair for the day. Make today memorable.” Phil said with a big grin. I nodded and we got up and we started to walk to the bus stop. The gravel beneath our feet, crunching as we go. My hands together, moving my fingers around each other. “Phil will never love you, Phil will never love you, Phil will never love you..” My mind wandered the whole walk, trying to fight the tears away. We finally sat at the Bus Station and Phil's hand makes his way to my thigh. “Dan, are you okay?” He asked with the biggest eyes. I flush red. Really red. “I-I'm ok Phil, thank you.” I stumbled. “You sure? You didn't' look okay during the walk and i'm worried.” Phil said leaning closer. I take a deep breath, “Yes Phil, I promise.” Then the bus pulled up with a jolted stop and the doors creaked open.

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We stepped off the bus and doors slammed shut. We pay to get in and sit down at a wooden bench. “What ride do you want to go to first?” Phil asked. “Whatever you want babe" I answered. Phil smiled, took my hand, and led me to the first ride. A rollercoaster. We very close to each other in the front cart, and the worker pulled the bar over us. The carts began to go forward and going right into the first drop. The wind against my face and the butterflies in my stomach felt amazing. Yells and shouts from Phil and the other riders filled my ears. My sweaty hands grip the handle tighter as we go around another loop. Soon the ride comes to a stop. “Your hair!” I yell at Phil and his face turns red and laughs. We went on several more rides and ate dinner. Soon the sky turns darker and it becomes chilly. We decided to go on the Ferris Wheel for our final ride. We got in the wooden wobbly cart, Phil sitting very close to me, and it starts moving. “Beautiful view.” I said looking at the darkening sunset. Phil shifts and puts his hand around me. “Do you know what's even more beautiful?” Phil asks staring at me “No, what?” I say curiously. “You" Phil replies, both of us turning red. Phil then takes my hand and leans closer. “You're the most beautiful person I've ever seen Dan" I slowly place my lips on his. His soft lips made my stomach flip and my heart ache. The taste of Phil Lester fills my mouth. Phil kissed back moving his lips. I place my hand on his jaw and move my hand in his. My stomach flips for Phil. I can feel his soft hair against my face. We finally break away to breath. “I love you Philly" I say giggling. “I love you too Danny" He says placing one more peck on my lips before leaning back into the cart, still arm around me and hand in hand. “Knock on wood”

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// Thank you so much for reading my first Phanfic! Thanks to @grammatically-correct-phan and special thanks to @spicydanhowell for giving me those sweet editing tips <3 \\

#phanfiction #phan #fanfiction #danandphil #danielhowell #danhowell #danisnotonfire #phillester #amazingphil #myfirstfic

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