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#OR YOU STOP DOING IT IF IT'S SO UWU HEARTBREAKING UWU FOR YOU TO WATCH
anaalnathrakhs · 1 month
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it's rlly fun how my parents just straight up. do not care. about the disordered eating. we had all this talk back when i went through a big suicidal crisis a couple months ago, i explained what was really difficult for me, eating socially, restaurants, not choosing my food, etc, and now it's like. okay it didn't exist actually.
mother i am not going to order you around, either you accept that i'm gonna have difficulty dealing with "normal people behavior" or whatnot and you stop looking at me like :/ anytime i am anything but ecstatic at the idea of eating anything anytime anyhow, or you adapt your behavior to avoid the results you don't like to see. i'm only doing my best to handle things from my side, and i am certainly not going to try measuring for you how important family social eating occurences are to you.
#''we should talk abt it uwu'' WE TALKED ABOUT IT. STOP COMPLAINING THAT DOING STUFF THAT I CAN'T EASILY HANDLE MAKES ME WEIRD.#EITHER YOU ASSUME IT'S GOING TO MAKE ME WEIRD BECAUSE YOU KNOW EXACTLY HOW AND WHY#OR YOU STOP DOING IT IF IT'S SO UWU HEARTBREAKING UWU FOR YOU TO WATCH#i'm not happy about how guilty i am too of that specific brand of ''oh this is so sad *continues doing nothing*'' form of ''compassion''#they just want me to perform anorexia recovery for them#so they can feel okay we're doing a good job at raising a normal child#they don't give a shit as long as the compusive eating is my mom's meal at the dinner table#just like they didnt care when i had roughly the same problems but not as bad before i had a restrictive phase#i cannot compromise because then WHAT im just hurting my parents for a situation that doesnt make me any happier either?#i do not want to live with them. i do not want to go place or do activities with them.#i dont want to talk to them most of the time and im perfectly willing to handle the times it could be cool to.#but it's really hard to start developping a life of your own when you first of all need like two weeks of total life-reset#quiet at home#and ''at home'' there's your parents who will simply not stop trying to pull you into going random bullshit places#and i can't say no. because the places ARE interesting and time-limited. and it makes them happy. and what am i gonna do anyway?#keep doing nothing on the computer and wait for them to come back to keep doing only the shittiest parts of this unsatisfactory routine?#try to do some work in the house or go out. for them to see that something happened?#i dont know how to live like a normal person#literally not once in my life have i been able to think ''oh i need to do X'' and then just. do X. prepare what's necessary for doing X.#go out and do X. i have to keep stuck at this computer or in this room or with this book.#because there is a million different obstacles to every single thing i'm trying to achieve and half of them are parents-shaped.#everything hurts holy shit#broadcasting my misery#vent#ed tw
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goldenchunkycat · 1 year
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Hello, my lovely! Missed u sm. Can I req neteyam with "I was too used to his/her love." and "You look happier." where the reader ends up with someone else?
Too used to her love...
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Pairing: Neteyam x Omatikayan!reader
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Warnings: ANGST (obviously) unrequited but requited but unrequited love (it does not makes sense but to me it does ?), heartbreak - A/N: Hi my sweetie ♡♡ I missed you too uwu... I hope you're having a good day !
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"You look happier."
"Do I ?"
"Better than when we-"
"Yeah."
You cut Neteyam, fiddling with the beads in your hair, trying to avoid eye contact with the boy that you once loved.
"I'm glad that you're feeling better."
He smiled softly to ease the tension. He noticed the way you were fidgeting and trying to escape. To get away from him. Once upon a time, you just wanted to be as close to him as possible. In his arms, in his embrace, in his world. But he wanted none of that. He just wanted to look at your glowing eyes when they were looking at him. To look at your smile when you were praising him for his skills. That's all he wanted to do.
"I'm sorry..." he whispered, chest tightening and eyes watering. Despite how hard he tried to appear unaffected, looking at your boyfriend talking with your parents just behind you was too hard to handle. It could have been him.
"Don't be. Perhaps it wasn't the right time." you said, finally looking at him. Looking at his pretty face that you once fell for. Those glowing eyes, those pretty hair. You remember hating seeing him distraught. No matter the change in your feelings for him, you still hate it. Maybe that was the reason why you reached your hand to caress his cheeks. But midair, you stopped your movement and retracted it. "You know... I'll always love you. But... It faded. It was hard to understand but now I get it. No matter how much you love someone and how hard you try, if they don't love you back you can't wait for them eternally. It's not good for yourself. To just...hope."
Neteyeam hold back a sob and clenched his fists. He deserved it. He really deserved it. He laughed when you told him that you loved him. He selfishly maintained his friendship with you even if he knew that it hurt you to be so close but so far to him. It was your time to be selfish. But...it was hard.
"I gotta go." you took a step back, watching him, watching his face one last time, trying to ink his expression behind your eyelid. You felt like the world crumbled. Like you fell from the Hallelujah mountains. You were in pain. But your boyfriend was here for you. Caring, attentive. The exact opposite of how Neteyam treated you when you told him that you loved him. Your boyfriend was going to catch you and hold you close, tell you that he loves you.
And Neteyam could only watch from afar as you smiled like a lovesick pup when you reached him, when your boyfriend hugged you and kissed your forehead.
"It's her mate ? What happened between you two ?" Kiri asked as she came to her brother who was standing here for some minutes now.
"Yes. They will be declared as officially mated tomorrow." Neteyam said bitterly. Or was it sadly ? "I guess that..."
"I was too used to her love."
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llycaons · 7 months
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ep38 (2/3): heartbreaking: the worst person you know just came out
man I feel like xxc is SUCH a romantic. he likes being in love he likes having a partner he's drawn to those idealized fairy-tale romances he doesn't look too deeply below the surface (consciously or not) because he just loves having that kind of connection with someone. and ah he and song lan were perfect for each other. if not for that foolish mistake...! but tragically he's not a main character so his suffering will lead not to a happy ending but to death
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anyway. scream? I assume these are yi city residents? fuck, but that's so many. an entire city
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he just loves giving those expressions to xy for no reason. unhinged menace
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this is honestly hilarious. obviously 'all he wanted was a domestic life with famer's market trips uwu' is a patently absurd claim because look what he DID with that life but I cannot lie this is very funny to me. like sure maybe DEEP DOWN that's all he wanted but my sympathy for him is like. nonexistent because look what he chose to do
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also. this man is gasping in fear. does xxc not notice?? willfully ignorant, perhaps
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SONG LAN!!!! thank god you're here there is such bullshit going down here xxc needs you. he just lit up so much when he heard about xxc
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she's such a little survivalist <3
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omg remember that translation meta that described sl's answer as like 'he is world-endingly beautiful' or something? first of all he was right. they casted xxc perfectly, second of all how the hell did she write this and not make them canon gay. insane.
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this kills me bc at this point SL KNOWS but I don't think he even considered approaching this with the care he would have needed to. and why not just confront xy? it's not like he knows xy has a tool to make xxc kill him
also sl is standing here in broad daylight and xy just walks past him? I mean his back is to sl but that's weird, I feel like he'd notice him just STANDING there esp if a-qing jerks away and hides
damn I hope she hasn't been hiding every time xy is around. that's her home too. she could technically leave but I doubt she wanted to abandon xxc. and she's not likely to trust any of the sects to intervene either even if she told them. and I don't think she understands that xy is making xxc kill living people
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witnessing sl see how xy treats xxc (familiarly, cruelly, lying) is like. that IS a man watching someone he loves involved with someone else who's hurting them. not even jealousy, just heartbreak and righteous anger. li bowen NAILED it
I don't think sl and xxc were ever actually together which just makes this entire thing more exquisitely painful
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THE SINGLE TEAR
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oohh and the BLOOD
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at this point a-qing is distressed enough to grab onto wwx for comfort :(
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it's not often that I see the xxc/xy situation described as abuse but xy DID abuse his power over xxc to trick him into murdering people (and then the heavy implication that they were in a relationship too 😬)
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I love this expression from SL. no detached justice here. this man is furious and ready to kill
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this fight scene is actually good? so many fight scenes in this show are bad and this one just rules. the chemistry, the action, the drama, the tragedy. what a neat and tight little narrative
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ohh double-meanings. KILL HIM SONG LAN
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this was so insane of xxc to do. man had one great love of his life and he dug out his eyes for him then walked away 😭
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this is so funny though. he is the worst. oh SHIT THERE'S THE CHEETAH-PRINT ROBES. what a slay
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also now xy won't stop rubbing it in his face and playing on sl's insecurities. deflecting from his own crimes. as jgy does, later in the temple. xy probably learned from him honestly. but don't fall for it song lan!!! he is literally using xxc to murder people!!!
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this is a taunt eerily reminiscent of wwx. his voice goes up all high, like 'awww, were you SAD? huh?' wwx taunts like this, all sarcastic. but also he's not like, evil
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BITCH YOU'RE THE ONE LYING AND MANIPULATING HIM
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when sl's tongue gets cut out, a-qing gets all this splashed on her. ugh
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NOOOOOOOO XIAO XINGCHEN!!! THAT'S THE MAN YOU LOVE!!!
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katherinevalo · 11 months
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extra dose of screenshots! just to make sure i don't forget why i made them because as you probably noticed the last batch didn't have many thoughts XD
we are going over eps 22 and 23, eventful eps if i may say so myself
1 - "what is personal space?" god i love how close zishu stands like, he could absolutely stand a little further and still block wkx, but instead he is almost bumping into his chest. seriously it gives me pure joy looking at them
2 - a beautiful scenery with our beautiful ah-xu. *sigh~ took that ss to potentially use it as my desktop wallpaper, because (i had this convo on discord) i can't use proper fandom wallpaper since i use my laptop at lectures.
3 - unwelcomed guest interjects. shenshen seriously, why didn't you just stay inside?
4 - i will never stop being in love with this scene. i love how zishu helps him to lay down safely. tho i gotta say that the ss doesn't do it justice and you simply must watch the original scene
5 - fierce look while protecting his shidi (look idk why my laptop doesn't have the holding back tears emoji, but if it did i'd have used it here)
6 - i said this before and i will say this again, but this is some proper spirk handholding right there uwu
7 - back to our regularly scheduled "heartbreaking expressions of wkx"
8 - look at cao weining! look at his silly happy face! what a sweet child! don't we all wish we had someone like that in our lives-- *sobs~
9 - i know OUCH but also i love this subtle way to remind us of the reality of things (i always appreciate when writers don't underestimate the audience's intelligence by overexplaining and this is the perfect example of how to remind us without doing that). ALSO the panic on ah-xu's face. also, i have a whole thing here, because a discord friend said that ah-xu here was trying to hide the symptoms which i don't fullly agree with. i think that it was sort of aha! moment for ah-xu when he realized how bad it has gotten. because when you live with declining senses they decline gradually and you barely notice (but then there is something that you kinda punches you and you realized how much your senses have declined - tho i'm milking this from my experience of worsening sight and can't really speak for taste) tho imo for tastes and smells of familiar things (like liquor here) your brain would sort supply what it remembers them to be like. so to cut it short, i think it's also that kind of a moment for ah-xu
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baekhvuns · 2 years
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Bestie I forgot to answer you, sigh.
So Yeosang in his anime era with that shorts and high boots once again. Makes me wanna see him cosplay Ciel Phantomhive sooooo sooooo bad. Yep, hair colours but especially hairstyles. This is a cruel world, one wrong move and you're on time out 😘 Lmaooooo president Jongho and his slutty bodyguards.
Ah Seonghwa said sometimes he writes things down, if he doesn't use them as lyrics he utilises them in letters I- 🤧🤧🤧🤧
My door to keep pink Hwa stealers away
Shhhh if they weren't the worst people ever especially our man this would be cute and heartbreaking kkduduejhddjsnsurueuhsusu
Omg but what's with the apparently leaked pics of my uber driver and miss Jennie, are they real or not 😭 Blonks and Armchairs are more concerned with debunking the legitimacy than talking about some sicko potentially invading JenTae's privacy, wtf. Anyways, hopefully he remember his duties. He's free now, but I might need him soon, so he better know his place
#Hongjoongisoverparty so true, at least Mingi has my back he's trying with the streaks, bless him. Wooyoung cut his hair I don't know that man. Seonghwa's is growing though we cheer (aaaand I probably jinxed it....) 💔💔💔💔 Felix natural blonde, yes, he's a chick, chicks are blonde.
I've been re-watching so much anime ! Zen was so cool you're right <3. Spice and Wolf s3 is coming out next year aaaaaaaa. Also bestie have you finally watched Spy x Family? Season 2 is premiering next month, uwu
The whole world collapsed, stop because I asked some people about Big Mouth and they're in shambles. Shockingly I haven't seen many spoilers....
Ohhhhh noooooo and now I AM COLLAPSING at the prospect of this sporty fic you put on my head. What if Hwa tennis player? He looked so cute holding the tennis racket <3
Your result, lmao we're both very cursed lol but your scores are so low wtffff
I heard Shut Down, I like it more than Pink Venom, but this shit is too short. I haven't heard the album cause lately I don't keep up with kpop releases, I only really listened to Twice, then Key and Oneus, and accidentally heard NCT and NMIXX...... Though BP's lyrics are really something... whip it whip it vroom vroom BP x NCT collab incoming lmaoooo
The video of Byeol and San, lol. I must be really innocent because I saw a cat and didn't even look at the hand until I checked the replies 😅 sorry but no one can compete with cats, even Seonghwa.... unless it's Cathwa ofc ☺
Omg, btw, new miss tenelkadjo Hwa fic is coming! Everyone cheered 😭🤗 - DV 💖
hi helloo!!
Bestie I forgot to answer you, sigh.
do not worry about it !!!
So Yeosang in his anime era with that shorts and high boots once again. Makes me wanna see him cosplay Ciel Phantomhive sooooo sooooo bad. Yep, hair colours but especially hairstyles. This is a cruel world, one wrong move and you're on time out 😘 Lmaooooo president Jongho and his slutty bodyguards.
AT FIRST I THOUGHT YEOSANG WAS WEARING A SKIRT BHGJHF NO UR RIGHT YEOSANG ANIME ERA,, hear me out him as tomoe in kamisama kiss,,,, absolutely, one chop and ur out LMFAOOOO HIS SLUTTY BOYFREINDS PLS JFBJF 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 ateez are like a walking talking ouran highschool host club meets losers hjbfh
Ah Seonghwa said sometimes he writes things down, if he doesn't use them as lyrics he utilises them in letters I- 🤧🤧🤧🤧
IF HE DOESNT DROP THE CENTURY'S TEAR JERKING BALLAD I UNSTANNING THIS MAN ON SPOT
My door to keep pink Hwa stealers away
LMFAOOOOOO FHCJEFHEJ I'M AFRAID IM BRINGING FBI WITH TO KNOCK THAT DOOR DOWN but now that white hair hwa is becoming the bane of my existence, i will be coming over to steal those pc's
Shhhh if they weren't the worst people ever especially our man this would be cute and heartbreaking kkduduejhddjsnsurueuhsusu
if goblin or moon lovers ever gets a season two, he better. be the main lead.
Omg but what's with the apparently leaked pics of my uber driver and miss Jennie, are they real or not 😭 Blonks and Armchairs are more concerned with debunking the legitimacy than talking about some sicko potentially invading JenTae's privacy, wtf. Anyways, hopefully he remember his duties. He's free now, but I might need him soon, so he better know his place
oh my god that entire fiasco is so creepy and the way ppl are trying to find evidence to debunking it rather than being concerned about their privacy is mental,,, that leaker apparently has a gc snd there's like 21k ppl in it if all those don't get sued it's on site,,, even if it comes out as they are friends or in a relationship the amount of hate they'll get is nasty,,, imagine 10 years from now and they both have their own lives and suddenly remember all that shit that went thru,,, mad awkward,, IF THAT MAN DOES NOT COME TO HIS JOB IM DEDUCTING HIS PAY
#Hongjoongisoverparty so true, at least Mingi has my back he's trying with the streaks, bless him. Wooyoung cut his hair I don't know that man. Seonghwa's is growing though we cheer (aaaand I probably jinxed it....) 💔💔💔💔 Felix natural blonde, yes, he's a chick, chicks are blonde.
HONGJOONG IS OVER PARTY BUT YUNHO AND SEONGHWA NEW HAIR PARTY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 U JINXED IT HES GOT AN UNDERCUT 😭😭😭😭 no bc its so crazy, so many idols look so good in blond as if that's their natural hair
I've been re-watching so much anime ! Zen was so cool you're right <3. Spice and Wolf s3 is coming out next year aaaaaaaa. Also bestie have you finally watched Spy x Family? Season 2 is premiering next month, uwu
zen was the bane of my existence but usui takumi just decided to fuck with it a little,,, I HAVE WATCHED SPY X FAMILY AND I CANNOT WAIT FOR SEASON 2 SO EXCITED TO SEE THEIR DYNAMICS AGAIN
The whole world collapsed, stop because I asked some people about Big Mouth and they're in shambles. Shockingly I haven't seen many spoilers....
no bc the ending... idk what to say anymore,,,, no words no feelings nothing,, would've loved if they had an extra episode to explain things much better 😭😭😭 may b its the yoona curse
Ohhhhh noooooo and now I AM COLLAPSING at the prospect of this sporty fic you put on my head. What if Hwa tennis player? He looked so cute holding the tennis racket <3
HJDFGHGF AND THE READER WILL BE OLDER TOO,, I WILL TAKE THOSE CONSIDERATIONS IN, ATM ITS TRACK, TENNIS AND ICE SKATING bc then the reader will have a nice scandal plot <3
Your result, lmao we're both very cursed lol but your scores are so low wtffff
LMFAOO i am not as chaotic as i seem apparently <33
I heard Shut Down, I like it more than Pink Venom, but this shit is too short. I haven't heard the album cause lately I don't keep up with kpop releases, I only really listened to Twice, then Key and Oneus, and accidentally heard NCT and NMIXX...... Though BP's lyrics are really something... whip it whip it vroom vroom BP x NCT collab incoming lmaoooo
really?? for me i liked pink venom a little more after hearing shut down, but the jennie rap in shut down has me begging on my knees i need to see it live 😭😭😭,, i think u will like yeah yeah yeah, happiest girl (ANGSTTT)+ typa girl (tho some parts) what's ur opinion on 2 baddies 2 porche dfhfkbn WHIP WHIP CAUGHT ME OFF GUARD 😭😭😭😭
The video of Byeol and San, lol. I must be really innocent because I saw a cat and didn't even look at the hand until I checked the replies 😅 sorry but no one can compete with cats, even Seonghwa.... unless it's Cathwa ofc ☺
no bc i must be innocent too i only found out after seeing the retweets bc there were so many and went "oh" ,, THE ONE THAT SAID BYEOL ISNT THE ONLY CAT GOING CRAZY RN SCREAMED 😭😭😭 u know what, we need to see byeol with hwa or ANY cat or dog with hwa we'll go mad that day
Omg, btw, new miss tenelkadjo Hwa fic is coming! Everyone cheered 😭🤗 - DV 💖
GIRLFHWEDSHFH I SAW IM SO EXCITED THIS THE SEASON OF FAKE DATING / MARRIAGE AU'S AND IM ABOUT TO READ TEH FUCK OUT OF EVERY FIC W IT
2/2 Shit, forgot to attach this:,, Only took me 37637373 years, but here's my Hwa talk part 2! I'll give you a run down of the ot8 talk too, don't worry <3 hope it makes sense, I wrote it on the plane after the call. - DV 💖
U ARE DOING GODS WORK BY ASKING HIM FOR THE TAEM COVER HWDFBWDKFHG SCREAMED omg u would be very glad to find our that i walked by where sunmi had her concert going and whisper screamed fanchants
also bestie idk if u watch turkish drama's but u need to watch sen çal kapimi (you knock on my door) EVERYTHING FROM CEO, FAKE DATING MARRIAGE AND DRAMA EVERYTHING
also
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whorefordazai · 3 years
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you said there’s so much to say about dazai and his relationship with women...care to share? I’d love to hear your thoughts 👀
dazai and his relationship with women
warnings: mentions of sexual assault and sexualization
// note: a few of you wanted to hear my thoughts on it, which is surprising 😅 but sure! I’d love to talk about it, especially since it’s been on my mind for a while <3
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TABLE OF CONTENTS
// scenes in the anime/manga
// port mafia backstory
// sexualization/hyper sexuality
// yozo in no longer human
// conclusion
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ps. I’m sorry if this seems messy and all over the place. I have a lot of thoughts on this topic and it’s really interesting to me. If you have anything to say, I’d love to hear it !!
scenes in the anime/manga
In the manga and anime, Dazai is portrayed as a womanizer and big flirt who uses his good looks and charms to manipulate women into getting what he wants. This can be seen in multiple different occasions—such as with Higuchi, the cafe barista (although it doesn’t really work 😅) and most importantly, the nurse.
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It wasn’t shown in the anime, but in the manga it’s pretty clear that the author was hinting of some sort of sexual contact between Dazai and the nurse. My guess is that he seduced the nurse into giving him his phone.
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“Perhaps if I’m in the mood”—I don’t think he was in the mood again lol.
Now, this is a pretty popular trait of his—using things to his advantage. Especially when it comes to flirting and sexualizing himself. He never attempts to get close with any of these women, or commits to relationships with them. Maybe he feels it wouldn’t be meaningful enough. Dazai doesn’t really do things if he finds no value in them.
port mafia backstory
As we know, Mori used Dazai’s intelligence and talents to get want he wanted and help the mafia in numerous ways. This involved killing, torturing, and other things. Dazai was taught to be strategic, efficient, and use opportunities to his advantage (just like Mori). But I feel like, along the way, there was also some sort of sexualization hidden there.
For example, when Atsushi and Kyouka started her first task at the agency to deliver this envelope, it gets delayed due to security stopping them. Kyouka’s first thought is to use her “womanly charms” and seduce the security guard to distract him and get past. She says that she learned these tactics from the Mafia.
She’s fourteen? Womanly charms?
I’m not saying it’s the most popular tactic in the Mafia besides torture/killing, but the Mafia does use its opportunities. There’s nothing morally right about the place, so I wouldn’t be surprised if Kyouka was taught about such things.
Since Dazai was Mori’s prodigy, I wouldn’t be surprised either if he learned a few tricks from him. However, Dazai does observe his surroundings so maybe he decided to utilize his good looks as advantage all on his own.
Chuuya describes Dazai as an “enemy to all women” and when they first partner up after years of not seeing each other, Chuuya threatens to give Dazai’s address to all the women’s hearts he’s left broken.
This can hint that he’s had multiple relations with women back in his Mafia days—meaning he’s been using these tactics since he was a young teen.
sexualization/hyper sexuality
Sexualization: a person’s value comes only from his or her sexual appeal or behavior, to the exclusion of other characteristics;
Sexualization is linked to sexual objectification. Obviously there are countless other ways to put this and definitions—but I think using the word “object” really fits Dazai. Early sexualization can lead to dehumanizing thoughts, which can be seen in Dazai.
Dehumanizing thoughts can lead to not caring about your well being or using your body however you’d like with barely any concern (either drugs, sex, etc). At one point in being in the Mafia, he lacked so much empathy for others and that definitely tied into having empathy for himself. To be kind to himself.
Him being manipulated into using these advantages is possible. Even though moments like these are played off as jokes, Dazai and Kyouka could’ve been exploited in such ways.
I do wanna mention hyper sexuality (that I saw in the irl Osamu Dazai when I read the book) but I’ll bring that up later.
yozo in no longer human
As I was reading the book, I noticed a lot about Yozo’s character. It is heavily implied that at a young age, he was sexually assaulted by the maids (men and women) in his house (I was unsure about that, but found out it was canon in the manga adaption by Junji Ito)
“Already by that time I had been taught a lamentable thing by the maids and menservants; I was being corrupted. I now think that to perpetrate such a thing on a small child is the ugliest, vilest, cruelest crime a human being can commit.”
“But I endured it. I even felt as if it enabled me to see one more particular aspect of human beings. I smiled in my weakness.”
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The first time I read it and processed it, I got chills. Now I’m not saying this has anything to do with bsd Dazai, but it does explain a lot of things.
“Women found me in a man who could keep a love secret.”
Due to the sexual abuse in his childhood, Yozo grew up to be a huge “lady’s man.” This caused him to be hyper sexual, practically using his charms to get whatever he wanted from women. He formed many different relationships with them (that he found no value in) just for all of them to never work out. He made the same mistakes with women over and over again (it was pretty painful watching him get hurt and hurt others so much).
It was an endless cycle of seducing women, using them for either drugs or sex, forming some kind of meaningless relationship, getting hurt, and then doing it all over again. He was stuck.
He was afraid of women.
But maybe breaking their hearts has something to do with his past trauma. In some way, it’s taking back the control and innocence he was stripped of from his childhood.
In the manga adaptation, I was able to clearly see how he treated women. Sometimes even throwing himself onto them, randomly initiating sexual contact, etc.
Yozo’s relationship with women is so incredibly sad and heartbreaking.
conclusion
It was said in this post that Dazai would never be faithful or form a real relationship with a woman unless it was someone like Oda. And I agree. Women, to Dazai, aren’t necessarily objects but they really aren’t something he needs or wants in life.
He can be nice to them, make them feel good, form relationships, but at the end of the day it’s like there’s this huge avoid of empty space between him and the “female species.” So much uncertainty and words that will never be spoken because he cannot form a bond with another human being.
All I can say, fictional or not—he was just a child who was stuck in a terrible situation.
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random-fireworks · 3 years
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Supernatural really did that
Writing this post hurt so much.
The domestic montage that we’ve I’ve been craving for for years
For years, years, I have been asking for the Winchesters doing their laundry and we just got a whole adorable montage of domesticity 
Soft Dean waking up and cuddling Miracle (uwu)
tHE BREAKFAST???? “It’s hot” and Dean burning himself when taking the toast anyway?? It’s such a rom com scene and I am here for it.
Dean mouthing the words as he reads on the laptop 
Soft HAPPY Dean at the pie festival 
Dean calling Sam’s expression “sad Sam face” (he knows his little brother so well and I love when we get a glimpse of that)
Dean getting pied
Basically this whole first part where we get to see the boys being happy and domestic
Dad’s journal!!!
Sam is so fucking soft for his brother when he says “Vamp-mimes” and honestly who wouldn’t be???
Psycho Winchesters about to torture the vampire (‘See, we’re the ones you should be afraid of’ flashbacks)
I can’t believe we got both soft domestic Winchester and psycho serial killers Winchester vibes in the same episode, this is Jack’s work
Soft Dean with his ninja stars awwww
Not talking about that scene, nope.
Okay, here we go anyway.
The whole dialogue. (just. kill me.)
Jared and Jensen in this scene delivered the best acting I’ve ever seen on television. 
s o f t  d e a n 
“Can you stay with me please” (man I was already sobbing when he said that)
Dean is so proud of his little brother, it’s his greatest accomplishment and I’m just. Dead. :)))
Dean saying “saving people, hunting things, it’s what we do” and not adding ‘the family business’ because it’s not about the family anymore, it’s about him and Sam only
Dean’s smile when he says “it’s okay, it’s good” because hejfszkzd and his brother is there i’mqs kdjdhdslhqd
“We had one hell of a ride, man.”
“Yeah, there he is” There he is, my everything.
How the music goes so soft when Dean starts to talk about the night he came for Sam
The music was so good and beautifully completed the scene. Thank you Jay Gruska.
The way Dean says “The woman in white, that’s right.” fuCK ME. All that nostalgia. The happy and the sad feelings, god, I am tearing up just thinking about it.
I’ll never get over Dean waiting for hours in front of Sam’s door.  1. That’s straight from a fic (not complaining) but 2. It’s actually so coherent with Dean’s character in season 1??? Continuity, we love to see it.
“It was always you, and me. It’s always been you.....and me.” 
Pilot parallels as if I still had enough tears left to cry without risking dehydration
“I love you so much. My baby brother.” And validating all our ‘baby brother’ lines in our fics (THANK YOU, I KNEW IT)
Dean being the one to leave this time and asking permission to
But also “I’m not leaving you” skqbdqbk
Jensen Ackles deserves all the awards possible for this scene. How you could see the pain but also the pride, the peace of mind and the love in his eyes. 
Fucking caressing hands 
Dean is fucking dying and he still moves his head slightly so he can lean on Sam’s forehead. JHQFDKSHDJS. 
Sam wearing Dean’s hoodie :((
I can’t even. Jared’s performance? Never seen anything like it. God, that was heartbreaking. 
And Brother in arms????? aRE THEY TRYING TO KILL ME?
The fucking single toast fucking broke me :))))
SOFT DEAN in Heaven 
“Almost perfect.” Dean is supposed to be at peace because he’s in literal heaven but still misses Sam AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH (it’s about the longing)
Also, Bobby been knew. Can’t fool him.
Dean being like, ‘Ah, I’ll just go for a ride and wait for Sam :)’ Look at my codependent boys even in Heaven, what the fuck, we love them for it
BABY. KAZ 2Y5.
How the montage showed how Dean is still very present and a focal point in Sam’s life. The only other character we see is a Dean and Sam is only living because Dean would have wanted him to (it’s the codependency)
Sam raising Dean Jr seemingly mostly on his own just like Dean raised him 
Okay so Sam sitting in the Impala and crying made me lose it like-
Sam wearing Dean’s watch :(
Dean knowing when to stop and sensing Sam behind him azjhjdzahjzadjzbdz FUCKING SOULMATES
Dean grinning so hard when he feels Sam behind him and then trying to play it cool ayqshudldzfhjf
Obviously the Pilot clothes and me bawling like a baby even though I knew it would happen 
“Heya Sammy” (Dean saying this always makes me so fucking soft but this time I was like...a soft weeping mess)
Dean glancing at Sam’s clothes and the big smile that follows
That hug. This freaking hug. Dean hasn’t seen Sam in like an hour and he gives him a hug that is so fucking tight.
And Dean does not let go of Sam
Dean looking at Sam like he is the most precious thing he has ever laid his eyes on, because he is
Did I mention how much Soft Dean we got in this episode?
It was literally an episode about the codependency of the brothers
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mochimiyas · 3 years
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summary: interviewer: “when did you realize that miya osamu no longer loved you the same way he did in the beginning?”
warnings: angst, mentions of depression, implied cheating, mentions of miya atsumu and suna rintarou
pairings: timeskip!miya osamu x reader
a/n: i just woke up today and chose violence uwu. content is under the cut!
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‘what a coincidence...’ you pondered to yourself as you looked outside your window, the condensation making it hard for you to make out the figures running to their homes, cars rushing to their destination for the day. it rarely rained during the spring in hyogo. normally hyogo had warm, yet refreshing cool breezes; it always felt as if spring was gently guiding you through their season.
today... seemed different. 
your normal morning routine didn’t wake you up the way it usually does. you woke up 5 minutes later than your alarm clock, throwing you off your balance as you rushed to shut that annoying beeping noise. groaning, you threw your comforter out of the way and placed your feet on the cold, cold tiles, seeking warmth in your fuzzy slippers. 
they weren’t in the place they should be in. 
your senses started to fully awaken, and you finally took in the state of your room. work clothes thrown haphazardly on your love seat in the corner, your slippers sitting nice and prettily against the door to your bathroom. 
why was everything so out of place?
confusion started to settle in your features as you walked up to your restroom, feet snuggling into your slippers as you flicked on the light, your reflection staring hauntingly back at you. letting out a sigh, you continued the rest of your morning routine, hoping to get rid of the uneasy feeling settling in your bones. 
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click. clack. click. 
every click and clack of their shoes gnawed at the back of your conscience, the slight tremble in your figure starting to feel overwhelming as you looked up, standing to greet the interviewer as they did the same. 
sick, you just felt sick to your stomach at their smile. 
“thank you so much for coming to the interview! here at as/is japan, we want to expand and broaden japan’s society, showing our audience that anyone, including celebrities and every day people, that everyone goes through similar issues. we’re hoping through this video that we can convey that they’re not alone in this, and we’re all in this together,” they explained, gesturing to the group of people being ushered into the waiting rooms to get prepped. 
you laughed nervously, “i hope so as well. it’s a very thoughtful video for you guys to prepare for your audience.”
the sound of the clapperboard startled you, the director behind the camera holding up three fingers, slowly counting down before the camera started rolling. 
the interviewer cleared their throat and pointed to the camera, indicating to maintain eye contact with the device. 
they started. 
[today at as/is japan, we asked questions about their relationships and why it ended. we’re going over the topic of heartbreak today. so please, introduce yourself.]
“my name is y/n. i used to be in a relationship for six years with the owner of onigiri miya, miya osamu. we ended our relationship last year in march.”
[i’m sorry to hear that but wow! you dated one of the miya twins. how was it dating the famous miya osamu?]
“it was just amazing. i didn’t care for the fact he was famous, and we started dating way before he opened his restaurant; i believe it was our third year when we finally sealed the deal, haha. miya-san is kind, super attentive, and just overall a great man. anyone would be so lucky to have him.”
[gosh, he really does live up to the name. miya osamu is truly known to be the quiet one compared to his brother, but i’ve always thought twins would have the same personality y’know?]
“right? i thought the same when i first met them at the beginning of high school, and until i started hanging out with them, my perspective has changed.” 
[good to know. moving on, what caused your relationship to fall?]
“...it was our third year anniversary. we somewhat had a routine when it came to our anniversary. we always went to awaji island early in the morning to rent a boat and fish for the day. he and i really enjoy basking in nature, so it was ideal for the both of us. when i woke up at the usual time, i usually snuggle with him before we have to get ready.”
“when i woke up, he wasn’t there, and it was downhill from there.”
[a-ah, y/n-san you don’t have to continue if you don’t feel comfortable. here, a tissue.]
sniff. “thank you, but i would like to continue.”
[as you wish. may i ask what’s happened since your third year anniversary?]
“he... osa- miya-san slowly, but surely stopped being affectionate with me. mornings that were filled with loving kisses turned to waking up alone. lunches that used to be spent together were now filled with empty promises and excuses, saying he had plans to eat lunch with someone else. truthfully, i didn’t think too much of it, and kept supporting him from the sidelines, even if it meant not being able to see him as much.” 
gasps overloaded your senses. [when did you realize that miya osamu no longer loved you the same way as he did in the beginning?]
pause.
“i... fuck, i need to get my shit together.” 
you took a moment to breathe.
in, and out. in, and out.
“on our six year anniversary, i tried to set up our usual routine, and it seemed like he was on board with it. for the past three years, miya-san made excuses, saying things like, ‘i need to meet up with a rep from an investment company,’ or ‘i made a promise to atsumu and rin to meet up with them.’ i could give less shit if it was an ordinary day but it was our anniversary for fucks sake! i had so much hope that he would stay, wake up in bed with me, do our usual, and just be with each other for once.”
in, and out. in and out, in-
“i woke up to an empty space right next to me. it was barely warm, so it meant that he’s been out for a while. i remember being so fucking angry, so torn up inside. how could he flake on me again? i walked to the restroom and saw his phone on the sink counter. i didn’t think too much of it until his phone lit up, and i saw a preview of a message he received. i knew right then and there that this relationship was done for good, so i packed all of my stuff and left without a trace. blocked him and all of his friends on everything and moved away.”
[is there anything you would like to say to our audience, and quite possibly miya-san if he’s watching this?]
“to the as/is japan fans, thank you for tuning in. i hope you all know that you’re not alone, and even the nicest people in this world can be scum bags. my advice to everyone is to make sure you’re in a relationship where one isn’t sacrificing more than the other, and that your happiness isn’t defined by theirs. i’ve always thought whenever miya-san was happy, i was too yet there was still a void in my heart every time i questioned it; make sure it’s genuine and real. and as for miya-san...”
ahem. 
“miya osamu. i don’t hate you, and i never will. i’ve forgiven you a long time ago. truthfully speaking, the day he told us that he would be trying out for teams in tokyo and i saw that look in your eyes, i knew i would never be enough yet i kept on trying. for six years, i’ve chased after you to make you stay while you had eyes for him, traveling to set up your stands at his games. you even had the audacity to invite me to one of his games. i wish you could’ve ended it when you realized it because to this day, i... i’m still in love with you unfortunately, and i don’t know if i ever will stop. please stop searching for me. i just want to be left alone and for him, i hope you make osamu happy.”
wiping your tears, you bowed towards the camera, faintly hearing the clapperboard as you stood up. you bowed once again to the crew members and made your way to the exit, the sound of the light shower soothing your senses. looking up, you smiled. 
‘what a coincidence...’ you pondered to yourself as you saw the sun shyly peeking out from gray, murky clouds. 
gray eyes stared blankly at the outro of the video, the screen illuminating his grave features. 
he brought his hand up to wipe the tears on his sunken cheeks, the action causing for more tears to leak out. miya osamu finally felt the consequences of his actions catch up to him, and he couldn’t take it any longer. every single word that left your lips, your sad smile; it felt as if there were thousands upon thousands of needles pricking his heart. 
to hear that you still loved him, yet didn’t want to do anything with him, killed him inside. 
... “i’m so fuckin’ sorry y/n, i’m so fuckin’ sorry-”
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sunaswife · 4 years
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A Suna Rintarou Series |
Summary: Suna was the best boyfriend you could ask for, after fighting with your inner demons that screamed you were ugly, worthless, and annoying. You finally decided to go the next step with your boyfriend, only to find out it was all a game.
AN: PART 6 lol after the last chspter i knew I had to give you some suna vs tsumu content
Warnings: underaged drinking, smut, guys talking badly about women, heartbreak, messed up shit that you shouldn’t do and a bit of fluff if you squint
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Disc three-slide two: Miya Atsumu 🏐
The two second years silently watched as Y/N walked away and was bombarded by her best friend. “What are you doing, ‘Tsumu?” Suna asked, “Well I mean, Jamie did say that I had a better chance at getting with her than you.” He had a mischievous smirk on his face. “You think treating her with kindness is gonna get you somewhere and I think the complete opposite. I’ll seduce her and eventually she’ll fall for me.” He shrugged. This definitely pissed off Suna. You were his, not Atsumu’s.
Suna to a step near Atsumu, grabbed him by the collar of his shirt and brought him close. “I’m only going to tell you this once. Stay away. She’s mine already, you lost. Eventually she’ll come crawling to me.” He said lowly and shoved the twin away. Suna turned and walked to class and never looked back.
Atsumu chuckled and then quickly apologized to the people around him who saw the whole encounter. His fangirls came up and asked if he was okay but he shrugged them off and said he was fine.
Atsumu went to his locker to grab his stuff and headed to class. He couldn’t stop thinking about your chubby cheeks and your flushed face. Suna was right, you did seem like a goody two shoes, and you didn’t seem so uptight like Suna hypothesized. It was obvious how innocent you were because any little thing made your face turn into a darker shade and Atsumu felt something in his chest. It wasn’t love he knew that for a fact. It felt a little bit like lust and desire. An infatuation if you will.
If only I saw you first
He was pretty annoyed you were in Suna’s class and not in his or else Atsumu would have sweeped you off your feet already. He wanted to see what was under your uniform, what sounds you made, how inexperienced you were so Atsumu could play with you. But you “weren’t” his. You belonged to Suna.
But if Atsumu could convince you to leave pussy bangs for him then he’ll make sure you’ll get treated right. Like how a proper princess should. Atsumu could fake being your Prince Charming if that’s what you wanted. All he wanted to see was you in his jersey with cute white panties and probably some thigh high socks.
He wondered how you would look with your hair down since it was up in a ponytail and how it would feel between his fingers. Whether that be pulling it while pounding you or brushing it out of your face during aftercare.
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“I swear you could cut the tension with a knife in here.” Osamu pointed out as he walked in between his brother and his best friend. “Not my fault Suna is the jealous type.” Atsumu muttered. “Bold of you to assume I’m jealous, I just don’t want you touching and eye fucking what’s mine.” Suna shot back. “So you’re finally dating her?” Osamu asked as they stepped into the club room. “Yeah on the date I made a bet with her, she lost. I won, like always. And now she’s my girlfriend.” Suna emphasized on the my and glanced at Atsumu. “I honestly wasn’t going to say anything until I saw how freaking cute she is. Now I’m down to see who will win.” Atsumu declared.
“You’re both lame.” Osamu muttered and left them behind after he finished changing, just so he can get another glance of Suna’s cute little girlfriend.
The three second years saw how you got along with the coach and how you helped him and Kita out with little things here and there during their practice. Right now you were collecting some scattered balls, they were warming up for their practice match today and Atsumu saw you on the opposite side of the court as he practiced his serves.
He wanted to scare you to see your cute reaction. So while you were talking to Kita who was at a distance with a ball in your hands and a smile grazing your face. He tossed the ball up, and jumped but at that moment you took a few steps back right where he was about to hit. And before he could do anything he accidentally hit the ball directly at you. Everything was almost like in slow motion.
This wasn’t part of the plan, he didn’t want to hurt you at all. He knew he was gonna get an earful and he’d have to apologize for hurting you.
“Y/N watch out—“ You heard and turned your head to see the ball coming your way. Before you could even think you dropped the ball in your hands and slightly did a split step back to receive it.
Growing up you and your cousin were both in love with volleyball. It definitely had something to do with your grandfather. He had taught you and Tobio how to play since before you both could even walk. Photos of a one year old you and a few month old Tobio trying to eat a volleyball was always something your grandpa used to tease you both about. (He kept a picture in his wallet)
You and Tobio both became setters in elementary and middle school but when your grandpa suddenly passed away you lost that passion to play and decided it would be best to quit then bring the team down. Tobio became angry very quickly when things didn’t go his way and both of your personalities turned 180. Everything went even more down hill when your parents suddenly moved Hyōgo and you went to Inarizaki instead of Shiratorizawa in Miyagi like how you and Tobio planned on going.
And since you were used to not running from the ball, the most logical thing to do was to receive it. “DID YOU SEE THAT?!” You turned excitedly to Kita. “I haven’t played in almost two years and I still did an amazing receive!” Your face lit up and the twins as well as Suna had the pikachu meme face. “I didn’t know you knew how to play.” Ojiro told you. “My grandpa showed me when I was younger but I decided not to join when I started highschool so I could focus more on my education.” You half lied.
Atsumu was pleased to see your excited face and decided it was better than seeing a scared reaction.
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twistedlymad · 4 years
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Reader Giving Into Darkness (Overblotting Reader)
Hewwo everyone! I hope you guys are fine and having a lovely time! 
First off, I’d like to apologize for the inactivity for these past few days, I caught a fever last Saturday and I had to do some editing work for Sunday, so, I didn’t really write a lot last Saturday and Sunday. Don’t worry though! I’m fine now and I immediately jumped back into writing!
Secondly, this fic was supposedly to be an overblotting reader fic, but now, after writing and proof-reading it, it doesn’t seem like an overblotting reader story, more like, reader gave way for darkness to take over them. I have no idea anymore haha! I will most probably write another story for overblotting reader depending on how this one goes. (Also tell me if you want a part 2 to this, for now, I haven’t got one planned yet)
Third, I’d like to thank you guys once again for supporting me so much! I do hope you’ll enjoy this story that I’ve written! Thank you for reading and have a lovely day! (Story is under the cut uwu)
It was a pretty mundane day at Night Raven College. You’ve got your daily dose of chaos, your classes went along swimmingly and surprisingly, no fights occurred between your group of dumbass friends! I would even say that it was a boring day!
Or had it really been a mundane day?
You were on your way back to your class after helping Professor Trein run a small little errand, he needed to have a few paperwork submitted but Lucius had fallen asleep on his lap. You volunteered to go in his place instead since you needed some fresh air after sitting at a desk for an entire day. You brought Grim along since the furball wanted to tag along with you.
You were humming softly to yourself as you cheerfully made your way, you couldn’t wait to sit with your friends again and continue your day happily.
“Fgnaaa, you seem to be in a really good mood today (Y/N).” Grim said from your embrace, you giggled in response to his words.
“Well, today has been a really good day so far! I’m sure that today will be a perfect day.” You said as you let a smile grace on your face.
“Well, whatever you say (Y/N).” Grim said as he let out a small yawn.
However, when you got to the doorway of your class, your ears picked up on a few chatters of familiar voices.
You were about to enter your classroom but you had halted yourself just behind the doorframe for you had heard your name being mentioned. You didn’t want to enter your class just yet, for some reason, you had wanted to hear what the chatter was about and why it involved your name.
“(Y/N) doesn’t need to know.” One of the voices said.
“Why did we even ask (Y/N) in the first place?” A second voice asked.
“Yea, it’s not like it’ll be any help to us anyway, after all, (Y/N) can’t use magic.” Another voice piped up, agreeing with the first two voices.
“Let’s not mention this when (Y/N) comes back later, this’ll remain between us.” The first voice said once more and you heard a few grunts and hums of agreement from a few different voices.
You slowly lowered your head as you leaned against the doorframe of your classroom. Those voices were all too familiar to you, for they were the voices of your best friends, the ones that you had spent so many time with, the ones that you had went through the most with, the ones that you had trusted yourself with.
You felt as if you had been slapped in the face harshly after hearing the voices that you had felt safe with associate themselves with such words.
Slowly squatting down, you released Grim from your embrace and onto the ground. The furball faced you with a sad look on his face.
“(Y/N)… They-” Grim started but he was cut off by you gently pressing your index finger on his mouth.
“It’s okay, I’m fine.” You said with a smile on your face.
“We still have some time before class right? I’ll be going for a little walk then.” You said as you stood back up and walked away. Grim looked at you with worry as he stayed in his place, his eyes locked onto your leaving figure. You knew he was watching, so you took a sharp turn, letting a wall come between his stare and your figure.
Once you knew that you weren’t being watched anymore, you ran as fast as you could, adrenaline was pumping through your veins as your vision began to blur. You weren’t sure where you were running to, you just wanted to get out of that place, as far as possible.
Unbeknownst to you, a figure had been watching the whole event and they were smirking to themselves the entire time.
“According to plan I see… Excellent.”
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After running for what seemed like hours, you find yourself in a forest, surrounded by trees, the only sounds that you heard were the chirping of various animals and insects that inhabited it. You sat down under one of the tall trees while taking deep breaths in hopes to help soothe yourself. You wiped away your tears as they flowed.
The chatter of your friends rang in your head as you reminisced your memories with them, as if whenever you tried to remind yourself of all the good times you had with them, the chatter would be there to tell you that it was all fake.
“They don’t care for you.” Suddenly, an unfamiliar voice spoke out. Or had it been an unfamiliar voice?
You frantically looked around, searching for the source of the voice. It took you some time before your eyes landed on a small little puddle of water beside you, your reflection was as clear as sky as you looked.
So it did give you quite the scare when your reflection suddenly spoke up while you didn’t.
“Don’t mind them, you don’t need them.” Your reflection said to you.
“What?” You asked as you took a closer look at the puddle. You rubbed your eyes to make sure that what you were seeing was real. You wanted to make sure that you weren’t dreamin-
“Oh, you’re not dreaming, don’t worry about that.” Your reflection said, as if it had read your thoughts.
“No. They do, I am their friend after all.” You huffed and stood up, arguing to your reflection’s previous statement. You didn’t want to question the existence of your talking reflection, after all, you were in Twisted Wonderland, a place where magic is real and almost anything can happen, even talking reflections. Heck, take the mirror of darkness for an example.
“Besides, they could be talking about anything! Maybe they were talking about homework. I just overreacted, that’s all.” You replied further to your reflection as well as reassuring yourself.
“Are you entirely sure?” Your reflection asked you once more. “You heard what they said loud and clear.” It said to you. You took in a deep breath through clenched teeth as you closed your eyes and turned away, hugging yourself as you tried to walk away. You wanted to ignore your reflection, you thought that it was just giving negative feedback on the events that had already happen, you wanted to believe that your friends were possibly talking about something else.
But you were shocked when you heard the next sentence come out of your reflection’s mouth.
“Friends don’t talk to friends like that.”
You whipped your head around immediately, looking at the puddle as beads of tears formed in and fell from your eyes. Your reflection was right after all, friends don’t talk to friends like that, friends will tell you their problems straight away, friends don’t hide secrets about friends and most importantly…
True friends don’t talk about friends behind their backs.
As you were buried deep in your thoughts, your reflection smirked a little after seeing the look of hurt on your face. It waited for a few seconds before continuing its statement.
“Don’t worry, like I’ve said, you don’t need them. You only need me.” Your reflection said with a smirk. “After all, I am a part of you.”
“A part… Of me?” You asked, you didn’t completely understand what your reflection had meant by its words.
“Yes, for I am your conscience, I know what you need right now and that’s me.” Your reflection said to you. It then wiped off the smirk it had on its face and extended its hand towards you.
“Take my hand.” It said. “I promise you, with me, you won’t ever feel heartbreak anymore, you won’t ever experience betrayal anymore and you don’t need anything else, you just need me.”
“But, my friends-“ But before you could finish your sentence, you were cut off by your reflection.
“They don’t want you! You only need me!” Your reflection yelled, clearing its throat, it told you once more.
“Take my hand.”
You hesitated. You didn’t want to take the hand, you knew that it was dangerous. But, the chatter of your friends continued to repeat itself in your head, its ringing was making your head spin and drowning out your sense of danger and uncertainty, making you temporarily forget all the good times you had with them and all the happiness you had experienced with them.
As the ringing in your head continued, you felt confused and broken, you didn’t know what to do. Your heart ached as you remembered the memories you made with your friends, for everything was fake. The happiness, the sadness, the trust, the comfort, everything had been fake.
You just wanted this feeling to stop.
Then, the ringing of your friends’ chatter in your head was soon replaced by the chanting of your reflection’s offer. Your reflection seemed to be so welcoming, you felt as if only your reflection understood you, you felt as if you could trust yourself with it, after all, it is a part of you, right?
Surely you could trust yourself with yourself.
So, you took a deep breath and closed your eyes as you extended your own hand towards your reflection. Placing your hand on your reflection’s, you felt your hand being gripped by it. You then opened your eyes to see that your reflection was holding your hand rather firmly with a peaceful look on its face.
But all of a sudden, your reflection looked back at you with a sharp look, its mouth twisted upwards into a menacing smirk as it tightened the grip it had on your hand. You let out a small gasp as you tried to pull your hand away, but you didn’t succeed, the grip on your hand was far too strong.
A black cloud began to form on your gripped hand as your reflection cackled. You finally managed to disconnect your hand from your reflection’s when you forcefully pulled your hand away. When you inspected your hand, your eyes could only widen in horror as you saw the cloud that continued to linger on your hand.
And it was slowly spreading.
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Grim had managed to get your friends’ attention as he questioned the harsh choice of words of your friends, but, your friends only looked at him in confusion as he did so.
“What do you mean Grim? We never said anything like that.” One of your friends replied.
“Fgnaaaaa! Don’t lie to me! Me and (Y/N) clearly heard you guys say those words.” Grim said angrily.
“But, Grim, we were doing homework, plus, we couldn’t talk since the professor was there.” Another friend stated. Grim froze in his place as he realized that he had just seen the professor leave the classroom as you were running away.
So, how did that chatter even happen? If it wasn’t from your friends, then…
“Oh no.” Grim said with a grim look on his face.
“What’s wrong Grim? Is everything okay?”
“No. You guys need to follow me. NOW.” Grim ordered your friends as he ran out the classroom, your friends gave each other a look of worry before rising from their seats and followed the furball.
Your friends had a hard time catching up with Grim as he swiftly navigated his way through the busy hallways of the school. Your friends were yelling questions to him, wanting answers for this sudden change of behavior.
“Just, follow me!! I don’t think (Y/N) is safe!!” Grim yelled back, hoping that his answer would satisfy the curiosity of your friends. As the furball ran, he was buried deep in his thoughts as well.
‘I hope you’re there (Y/N), you always go there whenever something’s wrong, please be there, please be safe… Please.’ Grim thought to himself as he continued to run, eventually running into a forest, the exact same forest that you were in.
However, when they got to you, it was already too late. Your figure was surrounded in a cloud of sheer blackness, leaving only your torso and head available. The cloud slowly rose up, covering your entire body little by little. It was getting hard for you to breathe, your body felt numb, you couldn’t move any parts of your body.
You were panicking, afraid that your friends will get injured just because you had made a wrong decision. You were also afraid for your own life, for you knew what was happening to yourself all too well. You’ve always managed to save the others from this situation, yet you have never thought that it would happen to yourself.
You thought that since you didn’t have magic, it would never happen to you.
Yet, here you are, experiencing the exact same thing that had happened to some of your friends.
“(Y/N)!” Your friends yelled for you, their faces donned looks of pure fear and shock.
You gave them one last look, it was a very interesting look.
It was a look of worry,
Yet it was also a look of sorry,
A look of terror,
And a look of horror.
Tears flowed out your eyes as the cloud slowly engulfed your torso and is partially engulfing your head. With one last breath, you muttered the following words:
“Run… Save… Yourselves…”
Darkness had consumed you as your vision was clouded by pitch black. You felt tired, sleepy, drowsy, your eyelids were heavy and they were drooping on their own. Yet, you tried to fight it, you weren’t going to it control your body with such ease. But it was no use, you had already accepted the darkness when you accepted your reflection’s hand.
Your friend’s smiling faces were the last thing on your mind as you fell into a deep slumber.
As the cloud began to disperse, everyone just stood there, looking at your figure that stood before them, or rather, what was once your figure.
“(Y/N)…” Your friends called out your name softly as they stared at the monstrous and black form you had donned on.
“We have to fight her to save her.” Grim said.
“We have no choice.” The furball continued as your friends nodded in agreement.
‘Hang on (Y/N), please, for us.’ Was the only thought on everyone’s minds as they readied their magic pens.
Let’s just hope they could save you like how you saved them.
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pretty-setter-bois · 3 years
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     THE FIRST THING you think of is to call kita. you know he’ll ask questions without bombarding, but offer comforting words instead. your fingers shakily press his contact, and he picks up after a few rings.
“hello?” he asks.
“are you free right now?” you try to make your voice as stable as possible.
“yeah, why?”
“could you pick me up?”
“yeah, of course. where are you right now?”
“in front of my apartment complex.”
“alright, give me a few minutes.”
“thank you.”
“it’s really no problem-”
“no, thank you for everything.”
the call ends after that, but the tears streaming down your face are practically endless. kita pulls up to the driveway, where you stand with nothing but your phone, your purse, and your shoes placed on hastily.
“what happened?” he asks. “are you alright?”
the tears fall even more after that, and he decides that questions aren’t what you need right now. you get inside the passenger seat, not informing him of a specific location, but he doesn’t ask for one.
the drive is quiet, with you silently lost in your thoughts and kita awkwardly driving. he opts for taking you to his place, to give you a warm cup of tea and a calming environment to sort yourself out.
you sip on it slowly, still stuck in your thoughts. what you could’ve done differently, what would’ve happened if you hadn’t come home…
your mind dwells on those thoughts, despite it not wanting the answer — it doesn’t stop it, though.
you don’t feel like saying anything, doing anything, feeling anything. you hope kita doesn’t take it the wrong way.
his presence is always comforting to be in, whether it be at times of struggle, or times of heartbreak like this one.
you’ve finished your cup of tea, and he takes it from in front of you before you can say anything.
“re-fill?”
“no, thank you.”
the exchange of words is just an explanation, him asking if you wanted some more tea, and you declining politely. it meant more for the two of you, though. him, knowing that you are now there mentally, and you, knowing that he’ll be their by your side for many times after this one.
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     KITA KNOWS YOU don’t have anywhere to stay — your apartment (ex-apartment) was out of the question — and he won’t let you stay at a hotel in your state. he insists on giving you his bed, and tells you he’ll sleep on the couch.
no matter how many times you argue about how unfair it is to him, he’ll come back with an even more compelling argument that silences you for the next minute.
you finally give in, finding solace for you and your thoughts in the sheets of a foreign bed. it feels refreshing, much more than your own now that you’ve tried it.
it also feels wrong. you reassure yourself that it’s fine, but there’s a little bit of suna’s mindset at the back of your mind that tells you sleeping in another man’s house was wrong.
the context of why and how tells a completely different story, though, and suna is the last person to speak on the matter now.
no matter how much you try to dodge the subject, forget it, brush it off, it’s impossible. your mind keeps coming back to the ‘what if’s’ and ‘how’s’ of the situation, and before you know it you’re already thinking of him, and her.
every time you close your eyes, you see the scene of him and her again, lips on each others as they laid on your bed. you’re sure her eyes locked on yours as soon as they spotted them, making it all the more erratic.
what scares you the most is that you don’t know the lady, and you haven’t heard about her from washio and komori at all. the only connection you can make is this ‘pesky manager’ they speak of.
for some reason, the moment you made eye contact with her, you could tell it was her. your brain had automatically made the decision for you.
if suna could randomly pick up a woman and start doing intimate things with her behind your back, then what else could he had done?
they seemed to be experts when it came to each other, so it must had been a long time. ‘how long’, your mind keeps asking. and if there is one, then can there have been another?
you rub at your forehead, knowing by the fast pace of your heart and mind that the adrenaline is far too much to let you fall asleep. you step outside the bedroom, looking around for the washroom.
“looking for something?”
you shout in surprise, jumping back.
“sorry, i didn’t mean to scare you.”
“it’s fine,” you assure. “were you having trouble sleeping?”
“yeah,” he guides you to the kitchen. “and you?”
“mhm.” you nod.
“tea?”
“yes.”
he sets the water to boil on the stove, preparing what seems to be a sachet of tea leaves.
“the tea tasted nice earlier.” you comment.
“thank you. it’s from my grandmother.” he informs.
you think back to his grandmother. granny kita was always a kind soul, and although she can be overbearing at times, you know she means well.
“do you think granny could’ve knocked some sense into suna?” you say after a while.
“granny could knock sense into anyone.” he nods.
the two of you share a small laugh. kita takes out two glass cups, placing bits of the tea leaves in each of them.
“are you… alright to talk about it?” he questions. “i don’t want to pressure you, i just want to make sure you’re okay.”
“i could answer some questions.” you say truthfully.
he places the mixture into the cups, turning off the stove before rinsing the pot and placing it on the drying rack.
you watch his movements with grace. kita is truly a comforting presence to be around.
“so… how are you feeling?” he speaks as if he’s walking around shards of glass.
“better than before, so you don’t have to be so worried about what you say.” you assure. “i know you mean no harm.”
he nods. “is there anything i could do to help?”
“honestly? you’ve done more than enough to help, and that was just by being yourself. i’m really grateful to have you around.”
kita looks down at his mug, the steam almost directly touching his red face.
“is there anything i need to know?”
you look down at your ring finger, on your left hand. you don’t know if suna’s wearing his, but you can’t be bothered to care. as much as you do keep thinking about him, you don’t want another topic to keep you up at night.
“i won’t need this anymore.” you state, sliding the jewlery off your finger and onto the table.
kita’s eyes widen. “you’re sure you wanna put it here? i don’t want you to lose something like that, let me get you a-”
“kita, it’s alright. i don’t think i want anything to do with this… not right now. i need to think, get myself together, and maybe get some closure… if possible. i’ll tell you what happened tomorrow, now goodnight.”
“goodnight.”
“thank you for lending me the bed, by the way.”
“it’s truly no problem. sweet dreams.”
you wave goodbye before offering a smile, finding sleep much easier than you did before your short encounter in the kitchen.
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sloppy-butcher · 3 years
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Jealous David king and jake park headcannons I demand of you (in the least demanding way possible uwu) 🥺❤️
haha don’t you worry anon. i got you owo. thank you for the ask and thank you for waiting for so long <3 hope these are good enough for you <333
its kinda nsfw? its only kissing but like.. yknow..
Headcanons for Jealous! David King and Jake Park
David King
Don’t let this guy's tough exterior fool you, deep down inside he is really a sensitive fellow. You can tell when his mood shifts merely, by the way, he looks at you or by the way his hands flexes on your knee. He has a keen sense of all others around you, watching like a hawk for any signs of trouble or danger even if you were only surrounded by friends. He acts broody and unbothered - he has to when considering what labels life has put on his because of the masculine physique, but truly, he is smart and knows when your graze lingers on another for a suspicious amount of time.
David is naturally friends with all other survivors - he’s the dedicated bodyguard. An intrinsic desire to protect those weaker than him (which happens to include almost every other survivor) drives David to befriend all other survivors and instinctively they flock to him. He is safety, he is light and all things good. So when David notices that you start to hang around another person more than you would with him, laughing more and touching their shoulder as you talked, it takes a lot for him to get angry. Sure, his chest puffs out and he marches over to you, draping his beefy arm over your body and leaning into your conversation, but he never actively pushes the other person away or even throws them a glare. He hopes that through these simple gestures you will understand what he is so upset about.
If by some miracle, you do not pick up on his souring mood, David would shift his tactics into overdrive. He’s a big guy and he knows it and he certainly knows how to use it. When next you are in a trial with him and the other survivor in question, David arrives shirtless. You lose blood at the sight alone, feeling weak in the knees and light-headed. He was heavenly, glowing in pride, and god-like beauty. He was foolishly brave for exposing himself in such an indecent (but not unappreciated) manner, and you made sure to scold him every chance you got. “Why are you doing this?” You whisper-shout at him from the other side of a gen. David shrugs, passing a cool eye over the third party member who shuddered under his gaze. He stretched his chest and tensed his arms accentuating the glorious muscle. “No reason.”
He would become overly-protective of you to the point that it was self-damaging. He’d throw himself recklessly between you and the killer, going in for risky hook saves without a care for the killer's whereabouts. It was you he only cared about - only you. He had just unhooked you from your second stage and had led you to the corner of the area to heal. Though your clothes grew red with blood, you bit back the whimpers of pain and instead looked up at the man you loved. You knew something was wrong. “David,” You called, a small hand reaching up and cupping his bruised face gently. At your touch, he softened and hummed, leaning into your palm, seeking your comfort and warmth. “Why are you acting like this?” For a moment he debated where to ignore your question or not. But at the look in your eye, the desperately sweet and tender embrace of compassion, he relented and sighed, feeling horrid guilt crawl up his spine like sickening spiders. “You do love me, right?” He asked, attention downcast. Had you not trying to be quiet you would have gasped in disbelief. “David, of course! A thousand times, of course! How could I ever love anyone else when you exist?” You lift your other hand to his face and careful brush back stray strands of brown hair. Still, he refuses to look at you. Of course, you loved him. Yet he still allowed himself to doubt you - he felt ashamed. You lean forward and press your forehead to his, trying with all your might to radiate your love for the stupid man. After a moment he smiles and finally brings his eyes up to yours - they were filled with tears.
“Oh, my love.” You coo closing the distance and kissing him tenderly. He gives in to you, pushing back with force restricted, he had much more to give you but restrained himself and allowed you to lead. A large hand finds its way up to your back and offers you structure as the embrace deepens, tongues flickering about and dancing in each other's mouths. David feels heat replace shame and love replace jealousy. There was no way this was not real love for if it was then you were the greatest actor in all the world. After a few minutes, you break apart, a trail of saliva connecting your two lips. He's panting hard, trying to remain aware enough to hear you speak. At this point, he wanted nothing more than to bury himself in you, bleed into your love like how the sun breaks the evening sky. “I should get you jealous more often,” You hum, feeling him chuckle in response.
Jake Park  
Jake is a most peculiar case. He acts aloof, floating above all other humans and their mortal troubles in an untouchable manner. To be jealous of another person is a complete waste of energy and time for him. He looks down at melodrama and scoffs at things so simple. But if you can get Jake to open up, to get him to take you in and love you, then his whole previous attitude changes.
Jake is never overly clingy, never the first to initiate any form of physical affection - in front of other people that is. In the quiet woods when the only eyes are yours and his, he reaches for you like a child with fingers twitching and expression desperate. Do not shun him away and he will bloom under your light. He is a thirsty man, always in need of your watering embrace. While you are in the presence of other people, however, Jake is more reversed, only ever standing near you and only occasionally holding your hand. He watches you constantly and notices immediately when your gaze shifts to another survivor and stays there for much longer than his liking.
He wouldn’t call it being jealous - it’s more like he’s being overprotective. If you are found sitting alone at the campfire, he practically sprints over and sits beside you without a word or a look. If you are on-hook, he will drop all previous activities to travel across the realm to save you before anyone else has the chance. It is sweet and enduring, to be doted upon so totally and devotedly, but you start to realize his true intentions when one day you catch the look he gives the other survivors.
Never had you seen such a dark expression on your man before, the lines around his gentle hazel eyes growing incredibly heavy and dirty. He glares pure poison at anyone near you, spitting at them with nothing but a mere downward twitch on his mouth. The others would react violently, hands raising up in a defenseless gesture as they backed away from you and your fuming partner. You’d feel pressure on your shoulder and looking over you’d see Jake pushing himself into you, his attention following the retreating survivor. Jake was digging a trench between himself and the others, isolating himself in the saddest and heartbreaking manner.
“Why are you so angry, Jake? What has happened to you?” You ask him one evening while the two of you sit alone in a forest clearing, earning nothing but a soft ‘hmm’ from the man as his hands worked masterfully on repairing his toolbox. You sigh and shuffle closer, knowing full well that he could not deny you if he felt you so near him. He visibly stiffens as your hand overlaps his, fingers snaking into his own. “I have never seen you so angry before. Has anyone hurt you? Want me to go beat them up?” He laughs at your suggestion, finally relenting to your advances and passing you a soft side-eye. At the comfort of your furrowed brow, Jake felt his jealous boil and seethe and eventually soothe - you were so calm and understanding and he felt terrible for harboring such negative emotions.
“I have seen how you look at the other survivor. How you... long for them.” Jake falls despondent and quiet, retreating back into himself where nothing could hurt him, sinking down to a place where would he be safe. Just as the total blackness would threaten to take him all, you grabbed his hand and pulled his head out of the murky water.
“Jake. You are the only one for me. The others come and go but you,” You cup his cheek in your hand, “, are forever.” All the world leaves his body at your words and he leans into you. “You must stop shutting yourself away from everyone else,” You scolding tone failed as it barely had the strength to stand on its own as he distracted you with his expression and Jake closes his eyes and covers your hand with his gloved one. He moves it over his mouth and you feel him start to kiss your palm. You shiver at his butterfly touches. “I’m sorry.” He breathes in between kisses, talking directly into your skin. His other hand moves towards your head and suddenly he’s pulling you towards him, facing you completely. Gaining confidence he glides up your arm and to your eagerly offered neck. His lips are cold and there is hard stumble on his chin that tickles your sensitive neck wonderfully. You gasp as he bites down, teething you until he left a red, sore spot. He grins at your reaction. Jake then spends the next few minutes branding you with his mark, awarding your skin with the sign of his presence there. You were his alone and though you may wonder and gaze out the window at passers-by, you would always return to him.
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peanutpinet · 3 years
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Nine Percent 3rd Year Anniversary Scenario
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Yes, yes, I know, it's been 3 days since their actual 3rd year anniversary. Yes, I had a brainfart and knew that I forgot something and didn't realise until late at night (like 10pm or 11pm). But hey, better late than never, right? RIGHT?! (My inner self: funny). Anyways, I wish them all nothing but the best for both their career and personal life. May they be able to do whatever they want and not be judged or be commented anything negative. Alright", scenario time!!
Pics are from: @ninepercent._.forever on Instagram
Cai Xukun
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A.N: yes, yes, finally got some more soft pics uwu, thanks Aliya, okie" scenario
I imagine that you were rushing to get this limited edition record/album from your local music shop because not only was it limited edition, but the artist also signed them personally and not the ones where they just copy 1 signature for all the copies but they actually signed them with a pen and all but no one knew about it because they just came out with it but you were lucky because you had a friend working at the music store. You immediately texted your friend, telling them to keep one for you as you were now rushing out the door in your hoodie and sweats with sandals.
Upon arriving, you were wondering where your friend was since you just wanted to pay for the album and leave. You quickly texted your friend which they mentioned that they had to run a few errands for a bit since it was exactly lunchtime when you came.
Sighing, you decided to just look around but stopped at your tracks when you saw none other than Cai Xukun, the very artist whose album you asked your friend to keep. Not wanting him to notice what a mess you look, you hid behind the shelves and peeked through, observing what he was doing. It wasn't until Kun suddenly called you out that you completely blew your cover.
"You know, I'm not that scary to approach" Kun blurted, not moving his gaze away from the albums
"I--I'm sorry, I didn't mean to st-stalk you. It's just that, I'm a fan and I'm waiting for my friend, they work here and I've asked them to keep one of your albums that you personally sign and, what am I even saying?!" you blabbed, covering your face with your hands and hoodies
"I can sign it specifically for you, if you'd like" Kun smiled, looking up to face you
"Oh my, yes, umm, thank you so very much" you blurted, bowing at him
"Relax. You don't have to bow. C'mere, we can take a picture as well :)" Kun exclaimed, nudging you to go there
and let's just say, you and Kun had a nice lil chat after your little meetup session whilst waiting for your friend to come back. You also made a lil note to thank your friend for leaving
Chen Linong
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For this one, I imagine that you, Nongnong and some old school friends were going on a road trip together and stayed in an Airbnb. During the first night, you were supposedly sleeping with your friend (girl) but that night, you guys just finished watching a horror/thriller movie (which you just cuddle up in Nong's arms since you were terrified, if you actually like watching horror, just pretend that this one terrified you quite a bit). After the movie, you couldn't really sleep and it was already nearly 3 in the morning that you went out of your room and to the kitchen to grab a light snack and heard some footsteps.
Scared, you unconsciously grabbed the kitchen knife and turned around to face the person that crept up on you; which turns out to be Nongnong. He immediately held his hands up in defeat but the same time chuckling on why are you holding a kitchen knife. You shyly admitted to him that you couldn't sleep because of the movie you watched; it also didn't help that your friend sometimes talks in their sleep.
Humming, Nongnong asked if you didn't mind sleeping with him. He said that he'll definitely make sure that you'll be asleep before he sleeps and he also suggested that you guys watch some cartoon. Since you and Nongnong have known each other for years and occasionally have sleepovers (of course in different rooms), you didn't mind sleeping with him since back in high school, you had a trip and you slept on his shoulder whilst being on the bus.
Because you were also quite tired and really wanted some rest, you agreed and the both of you went to Nongnong's room. Nongnong then allowed you to sleep on whichever side of the bed as he grabbed his iPad and opened your favourite cartoon. In a matter of a few episodes, you were finally asleep and Nongnong tucked you in before patting your head and sleeping as well.
In the next morning, you woke up surprisingly well. You didn't know if it's because you were watching cartoons with Nongnong or that it was just Nongnong in general making you safe. You decided to head to the kitchen to grab something to drink but then your friends teased you to call your "boyfriend" out to have breakfast all together.
You then blushed and head back to the room, seeing Nongnong yawning as he sat on the bed, asking you if you had a good night sleep which you nodded and told him that the others are waiting for you both to have breakfast.
"Did you have a good night sleep (Y/N)?" Nongnong asked, still yawning
"Y-yea, I owe you Nong, thank you" you stuttered, looking away
"Oi, lovebirds!! Hurry up or you won't have any breakfast" your friends teased
"Let's not keep them waiting shall we sweetie?" Nongnong commented, getting up and stretching
"Wh-what?" you mumbled
"Oh, I thought you already know that I like you since I know that you like me" Nongnong mentioned
"Wh-what?! When?! Wh-when did I?! OH NO!!" you blabbed, covering your blushing face
"In your sleep, last night, right before I fell asleep. There's nothing to be shy about. I like you too (Y/N) <3, let's go eat!!" Nongnong exclaimed, grabbing your hand and dragging you out of the room
Fan Chengcheng
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For this one, I imagine that you and Chengcheng were friends in high school. You knew him since back in junior high and while your first impression of him wasn't all that good since you thought he'd be a spoiled brat since he came from a wealthy family and the younger brother of one of the country's famous actress. But as it turns out, he was very hardworking despite not paying that much attention in class.
A/N: let's rewind a bit how you both got close
You were stuck as his lab partner for a whole year back in junior high which at first you didn't really want to since you knew he didn't pay attention in class that much and you'd worry that in the end, you'd have to do all the job while he just gets the credit. But nope, big mistake.
As soon you were paired up, Chengcheng didn't waste time asking for your contact after school and told you that you guys should stay at the library after school on the day of your lab so you can get the job done that day as well. Now, to say you were amazed was an understatement. You were practically impressed that Chengcheng understood most of the job and even concluded the paper.
But one time, you guys had to stay at the library till late at night and Chengcheng even ordered food the minute he heard your stomach grumble (cue you being embarrassed). Afterwards, you guys just talk over things like your likes and dislikes and Chengcheng even brought you home up till your doorstep. Ever since, the both of you have been inseparable. Well, that is until Chengcheng said he had to leave to join Idol Producer.
It was rough. He wasn't able to contact you since his phone was taken from him. However, you did try your best to send actual letters to him which surprisingly, he received and even send you back some letters as well. You wouldn't admit it but you miss him and actually have a crush on him. You were going to tell him but when he actually made it into 9%, you knew you wouldn't be able to stand a chance against all the other female artists so, you texted Cheng, saying your congratulations and the same time cut off your friendship, to the point you even blocked his number. You couldn't deal with heartbreaks because it was just too much and you really wanted Chengcheng to focus on his career.
Unfortunately, the past few days were not easy for you. It was very painful, especially seeing how happy Chengcheng was in L.A. You're sad and wasn't focused on school at all. But one Saturday morning changed everything for you. You had never been so thankful to be awake so early in the morning until this day.
It's been 2 weeks since you cut your friendship and any sort of communication with Chengcheng and during those 2 weeks, your sleep schedule was a mess to the point that today, you slept at 1 and suddenly woke up at 5(ish) in the morning. You twist and turn yet you still couldn't sleep. Eventually, it was 6 in the morning and you decided to just get up and have an early morning walk to clear your mind.
You got changed and pulled on your favourite coat (which was actually one of Chengcheng's but you forgot) and head out to walk around your neighbourhood. Until you stumble upon a familiar stair walk. It was one where you and Chengcheng hung out after you finished your report and heading back home. The memory caught you off-guard that tears started to stream down your face and you tried your best to wipe them until a familiar voice startled you.
"Are you crying because of stress because finals are in a month or because you haven't seen me in so long? Because I sure as hell miss talking to you, too" a familiar voice exclaimed
"OMO, Ch-cheng?! FAN CHENGCHENG?!" you blurted, whipping your head to see Chengcheng just a few flights below you
"I miss you too (Y/N). It was tough not being able to talk to you through those 4 months and even when I was in L.A." Chengcheng mumbled, walking towards you
"I--I'm sorry Cheng. I didn't want to interfere with your life. I know that you've wanted to become an idol/artist and I know I wouldn't exactly match the people you'll be hanging out, I--" you blabbled until Chengcheng pulled you into a hug, patting your head
"I don't care. Sure, I may meet lots of new people. But no one can replace you. Plus, who am I going to take with me to night markets when I'm hungry and take pretty pictures together with? Of course, that's you!! I wouldn't switch you for anyone or anything in the world. I don't care that you blocked my number because I can always put in my numbers again. So please, don't leave me. Now, let's go have breakfast, hmm?" Chengcheng grinned, pulling away from the hug, smiling as he tucked a hair behind my ear, caressing my cheek in the process
Justin Huang
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aFor this, Imma do something slightly different than previous Justin scenarios. So, I'm going to imagine that you're Justin's senior back in primary school. Justin has a vivid memory of what you did for him (which was standing up to the bullies) but you didn't remember him that well since you had a 2 (almost 3) year gap.
*Also, let's say that you were in campus (3rd year) whilst Justin had just turned 19
You were just trying to have a nice "normal" day in school since finals were just right around the corner. Everything was going so well and finals were not bad at all. It was the studying process that was annoying to you because your dorm were filled with either parties or gossips all in the halls whilst the library of your campus was always hogged by random people (like hello? are you here to study or to live here?). Anyways, lucky for you, a small studying cafe just opened near your dorm and so you decided to just stay there and study.
The past few days were nice. The cafe was calm and everyone was either actually studying or chatting (but they weren't loud and unreasonable like those in campus). Until one time, there was this boy, looked like he's in his teens and forgot his wallet to pay since it seemed that his phone ran out of battery. Because the drink was already being made, he couldn't exactly cancel or anything. Sighing, you got up and decided to pay for the boy who turned to bow at you, thanking you. Until the boy looked up and immediately recognised you.
"Eh?! JIEJIE?! It's me!! Just....uhhh, how bout we sit down and talk" Justin softly exclaimed, grabbing you and went to sit back at your table
After a bit of talking, you were taken aback that the boy/junior you helped back then was now this handsome tall young man. The both of you talked quite a lot since it has been years since you last saw each other. The two of you exchanged contacts and Justin proposed that you'd meet up again since he was in town for a few weeks.
But that plan somewhat backfired since Justin couldn't wait to see you again so he just straight up went to meet you since you told him where you lived. Instead of being a "brat" like most kids his aged, he was very polite with your parents, telling them that whilst he was younger, he'll protect you and bring you back before 10pm.
It was nice to catch up with Justin. You realised how mature he is for his age and even had to miss out on normal teen stuff like going out with friends, struggling with assignments and finals together. But Justin said that while he does feel sad for missing out on lots of things, he said that he loves what he does and he learnt so much.
Everything was going well with the both of you until Justin's sasaengs finds out about you. Some made fake accounts, threatening you to stay away from Justin. You know better than to deal with those immatures so you just blocked them from your social media and went on with your life.
But damn the universe is testing you because some of the sasaengs actually go to the same campus as you do. The first few meetings with them were still manageable. But they aren't called sasaengs for nothing. Because it slowly escalated and things got more physical to the point you started to distance yourself from Justin.
But Justin noticed your change in behaviour. He was so fed up one day that he went all the way to your campus to figure out what has made you like this. He didn't care about the amount of ppl suddenly paying attention to him because all he cared about was finding you; which he found you exactly when the sasaengs attacked.
Immediately, he didn't waste any time and called mama Ting, telling him about the sasaengs and have him report them to the police or something. Justin then immediately called out the sasaengs, threatening them and telling everyone who was watching to never bully anyone ever again; regardless of the reasoning.
Justin then took you out of your campus and to the cafe where you guys first reconnect again. He apologised for getting you involved in this mess but the same time that he doesn't want to be separated from you; adding that he'll always be there like you did when you were young.
"Jie, why didn't you tell me? I know you're strong enough to take care of yourself. Heck!! You helped me back in primary school!! I grew up, getting stronger so one day when we meet again, you wouldn't think of me as a whimp" Justin exclaimed
"I never thought of you as a whimp, Justin. But sometimes, you just need an extra hand" you replied
"Look who's talking? But I'm serious jie. Please tell me whenever this happens. I'll show no mercy!!" Justin boasted
"Ya!! Just because you're famous and all, you shouldn't be like, especially towards women" you complained
"Hehehe, it's not that. It's just that ppl should get what they deserve. Anyways, I'm hungry, let's eat!! My treat!!" Justin exclaimed
Lin Yanjun
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Help, I miss Yanjun so much :(( but for reals though, I don't want to pressure him or complain much because honestly, I can somewhat understand him since I'm an introvert too. Alright, I don't want to give off this negative energy so let's jump into the scenario :)
Alright, for this I'll imagine that you're visiting Yanjun who's in Taiwan because he was taking some rest. Honestly, you were quite nervous since you had never been to Taiwan and met Yanjun from work (this is a story for another time). One of the main reasons why you were nervous is because you were going to meet his parents and even spend your time living with him and his family when you don't really know their culture that well.
But honestly, there was nothing to worry about since Yanjun's parents heard nothing but good things from both Yanjun and even Zhangjing (since you were quite close with Zhangjing). When you arrived, you tried your best to be polite even though you were very awkward and stuttered a lot. But when Yanjun's sister came, she helped make you feel at home and ease despite being slightly younger than you.
Within hours, you and Yanjun's sister became close and she even shared some embarrassing moments of Yanjun to you (which Yanjun found out and deal with his siter later on). And within days, Yanjun's parents showed no signs of disliking you at all. Instead, you and his mom actually went to the market a few times together and even cooked together.
Time skip to a few days before you have to go back to your country
Yanjun's parents thought that it was a good idea for both you and Yanjun to go out, just the both of you since you had been spending so much time with his family and rarely went out with just Yanjun for a whole day. So, they set things up and made sure that it would just be the two of you; they even went as far as letting Yanjun use the car.
Yanjun already knew where he would take you; the ocean (one of his favourite places to be). When you arrived, you wasted no time and getting out of the car, taking off your shoes and running on the sand, barefeet; which of course, Yanjun chuckled whilst taking pictures of you.
The two of you left your shoes by the rocks so they wouldn't get taken by the ocean and walked hand in hand along the shoreline. Stopping right where the sun was setting and just lean on each other, enjoying the moment, until you noticed your shoes were getting taken by the ocean. You immediately rushed to get your shoes; forgetting that you couldn't really swim that well.
Eventually, Yanjun caught up with you and held you back, reminding you that you couldn't quite swim. Chuckling, he took off his jacket and handed it to you before going towards the ocean to get your shoes.
"Jun...be careful!!" you exclaimed
"I'll be fine (Y/N). You should be careful. I wouldn't want you to get wet and sick later on" Yanjun reminded you
"Hmm. OH!! You got it!! Thank you so much!!" you giggled, jumping a bit
"Hey, hey, be careful!!" Yanjun reminded as you jumped to hug him
"You know, you're similar to the ocean. You're as cool, calm and collective when you need to but the same time you're there whenever people needs you just like how humans need water. You also help people calm down when they feel frustrated. You make me feel safe. You make me relax when I feel nervous" you blurted, hugging Yanjun tightly as you inhaled his scent
"(Y/N)..." Yanjun muttered
"Which makes me confused why would you choose a child-like, hard-headed, weirdo..." you mumbled, but Yanjun shut you up by pecking your lips
"Because, isn't that how magnet works? Opposites attract each other. Though I'd say that we are quite similar in the hard-headed side but at least we're willing to tone that down. But for reals, while I make you calm, you make me excited. You burst me up. You're like a happy pill and I'm addicted to you. Now, let's head back, mom and dad made hotpot for dinner. C'mon, I'll carry you whilst you just hold onto our shoes" Yanjun chuckled as you went on his back, leaning on him whilst talking about where you guys should have a date next
Zhu Zhengting
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For mama Ting, I imagine that you have this upcoming show which was your first live stage show. And while you were just a backup dancer, you were still one of the best dancers in Yuehua despite only being hired for a couple of months.
You were so excited and can't wait since you've been practicing very hard the past few days, along with helping Zhengting since he asked you to be his dancing partner for his new mv that's coming out in a month. Speaking of Zhengting, it was him that actually recommended you to Yuehua and him that got you hired in the first place.
Anywho, it was finally showtime and you had just finished getting ready with the rest of the backup dancers. And ofc, you, along with the other backup dancers helped kill the show that the crowd was cheering loudly.
After the show was over, you all took pictures with the artist and a few individual pictures before the stage manager called it a wrap. You then went to go get changed when Zhengting texted you, asking to meet up in the dance practice room you guys normally used.
You told him that you just finished changing and will be there in 10 minutes. Upon arriving, you looked around to find Zhengting and was shocked when he softly called you out whilst holding a boquet of flowers.
"Ting? What's all this? Are you gonna meet up with someone?" you questioned, tilting your head slightly "This is for you!! Congratulations on your first live stage performance!!" Zhengting mentioned, handing you the flowers
"Ahhh, isn't this a bit too much? I was just a backup dancer anyways..." you muttered, looking down at the flowers, avoiding Zhengting's gaze
"Well, you won't be for long. I want you to dance with me, live. Roughly a month or two after the mv comes out. If you don't mind that is" Zhengting asked, scratching his head
"Wh, what? Are you serious?! Like legit? Not joking?! Cause if you're serious then ofc I would love to!!" you exclaimed
"Re-really?! Oh I feel so relieved. I was afraid you'd reject me. I mean my offer. I uhhhh...." Zhengting stuttered
"Relax. I'd never reject your offer. Or even you, Ting. You helped me get this far. Plus, I think I'd be the one to worry if you'd reject me..." you mumbled, fiddling with your fingers
"What?! No, why would I ever reject you, (Y/N). You're pretty, smart, talented, kind. You're an amazing person. If you don't believe me then let's go have dinner, I know you must be starving, c'mon, my treat!!" Zhengting mentioned, grabbing you and dashing off to eat hotpot
Wang Ziyi
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For Ziyi, I imagine that you guys were spending the day to the amusement park that was near the beach as well. So, the plan was for you both to go to the amusement park as soon as it opens and ride as much rides as possible before 4pm then head to the beach and jusy chill till dinner time.
You were so excited since it's been so long since you went to an amusement park and beach. Now, the reasoning why you chose this specific amusement park wasn't just because it was right beside the beach. But also where you and Ziyi got to actually know each other.
Let's rewind a bit shall we
So, you guys were high school friends and one time your squad wanted to go to the amusement park so ofc, you joined in. But what you didn't know was that Ziyi (the school's best basketball player) and his squad were also joining (mainly because 2 of his friends and 2 of yours were dating).
Anyways, the whole day wasn't that bad until sometime before you all decided to leave for the beach, your friends sorta ditched you; even when you tried to text/call them. Now, you were left right by the food stands, sitting on one of the benches whilst waiting for any news you get from your friends.
But it wasn't just you that was "ditched" by your friends. Because not long after, Ziyi came and sat beside you, asking if you were also "ditched" by your friends to which you chuckled, telling him that they must've went on other rides. But you were actually grateful that they did. Because now, you were Ziyi's close friend.
To present time
After riding on several rides, you guys went to have lunch at the nearby food court before going back and playing the rides up until it was almost sundown.
Realising what time it was, you asked Ziyi if there were anymore rides he wanted to go on which he shook his head and instead, asked you if you wanted to go on anymore rides. To which you also shook your head. Ziyi then asked if you wanted to go to the beach which u instantly nodded.
But as you guys were walking, you saw a small food stand, selling one of your favourite snacks to the point you instantly rushed over to the food stall and grab some food, nudging Ziyi to hurry and come choose what he wants.
"Ziyi!! Hurry up!! Choose which one you want!!" you called out
"I'm coming (Y/N), don't buy too much things. We need room for dinner" Ziyi chuckled, rushing to your side
"I will always have room for dinner!! Food is life!!" you exclaimed, as you choose your snacks while Ziyi looked at you and chuckled
Xiao Gui
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For Xiaogui, let's say that you guys have been friends since young and he would always be there for you since he's always so hyper while you were so shy in making friends.
Throughout your school life till high school, Xiao gui has always been there to help you make new friends and study (ocassionally). Not to mention, you were the one to come up with his nickname, Xiao Gui. But unfortunately he had to leave to join idol producer. But that never stopped you guys from sending each other letters/text (when he got his phone).
Time skip to your university graduation
While Xiao gui was busy with his idol life since he debutted in 9%, you were busy with school and now, after so long, you were finishing your degree.
After the ceremony and getting your actual degree, you and your friends were heading to take pictures. But as you were taking pictures, your friends told you to stay there for a bit whilst they go grab a quick drink.
But as your friends left, you saw a familiar figure, holding a boquet of flowers, heading your way. As they got closer, you realised that it was actually Xiao Gui.
"G-gui? Is that you? What are you doing here? Don't you have an event or something to attend?" you asked in shock
"Of course I do. It's your graduation. You didn't think I'd miss this out now did you? Look at you, dressed up like this. Last time I saw you all dressed up was...." Xiao gui commented
"The day you debutted with the other 8 as 9%" you replied, giggling at the memory
"Yea. You were with me since the beginning even until I debut and now. I'm sorry I couldn't have come sooner but here, happy graduation (Y/N)" Xiao Gui muttered, handing you the flowers
"Th-thank you, Gui. How bout we catch up over dinner?" you mumbled
"Of course, then we can go get dessert at your favourite place!!" Xiao Gui exclaimed, holding your hand as he slowly pulled you with him
"I miss you so much, Linkai" you admitted
"I miss you too (Y/N)" Xiaogui replied, a big grin formed on his face
You Zhangjing
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Tbh Zhangjing's one is quite hard but I tried my best :"
Alright, for Zhangjing, I imagine that he asked you to join him to shoot for his new mv which of course you quickly agreed, not thinking twice on where, when and what is it.
You can say that it was somewhat of a mistake since the mv is a more romantic one than his previous mv(s). Not only that, on the day of the actual shoot, you were stunned on how good Zhangjing looked since he mostly wore a baggy T-shirt with sweatpants.
But this time, he dressed up so good that your mind can't comprehend. Even when it was time to shoot, your mind wondered off elsewhere until Zhangjing actually called out to you.
Thankfully, throughout the entire shoot, there were minimal errors and you didn't have to reshoot so much. And it was the final shot where both you and Zhangjing were hand in hand walking together.
Right as the camera was rolling, you were a bit distracted by the scenery of the place you were shooting that Zhangjing had to call you several times which makes you shock but Zhangjing just chuckled and extended his hand out to you which you shyly took, and as Zhangjing faced the other side, you couldn't help but blush to see this amazing view.
"(Y/N)?" Zhangjing called out
"Hmmm??? Oh sorry, the scenery was so pretty that I couldn't help but get distracted" you admitted
"It's alright, c'mon, let's just enjoy the view then" Zhangjing mentioned, extending his hand
"Hmmm. It's nice, we should go out more often" you mumbled, taking Zhangjing's hand then facing off to the scenery together
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Once again, happy late 3rd year anniversary Ninepercent!! I wish you nothing but the best and may you always be happy 💕💕
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Heya, I first off wanted to say I love your writing! It’s so cool seeing how you approach such a wide range of topics and characters in a very unique way each time. Second, I was wondering if you could do some angsty stuff, maybe Hanzo, McCree or Genji cheating on their S/O and her basically having to rebuild herself from the ground up, maybe even have them run into each other a few years later. I’m not sure if this has been requested or not but I’m feeling like having my soul crushed. ^3^
Angst is the way to my heart uwu
Also thanks for your kind words and I'm so sorry this took forever pls forgive me ❤️ also there's a little not sfw in there but nothing too intense :)
* HANZO *
Living in Shimada Castle was like a dream. You were waited on hand and foot and your partner was the dreamiest man alive. Yes, Hanzo Shimada, heir to the Shimada throne had chosen you to rule by his side. 
You had your doubts initially but Hanzo had assured you that you would be happy and looked after. 
"You will want for nothing, my blossom," he promised you. 
All of the promises came crashing down on you when you arrived home early from an errand, seeing Hanzo on top of another woman, thrusting into her with a frenzy that sent a sickness into your core. 
"Oh my god," you breathed before turning and running out of the room and through the halls. 
Hanzo froze for a moment, not believing what was happening. He scrambled to his feet and called your name, running after you, holding sheets around his waist to preserve what little dignity he had left.
"My love, please!" he begged, chasing you through the grounds. 
He finally caught up to you and grabbed your wrist.
"Don't touch me!" you cried, ripping your wrist from his grasp. 
Your tear stained cheeks and messy hair broke Hanzo. How could he have done this to you? 
"I don't want to see you or hear from you ever again," you choked, "and you can have this back, too." 
You pulled the engagement ring from your finger and threw it at Hanzo. His features twisted into an expression of heartbreak as terror took over. He racked his brain to think of something, anything to say to you before you could leave.
"My lo-"
"Don't embarrass yourself any further," you mumbled. "Goodbye, Hanzo."
That was the last time you saw Hanzo. That day had left you shattered for months and years on end. Until one morning, you realised you no longer cared. It was liberating and you felt like you could finally move on with your life. 
You found a new job, a new home and you had built yourself a new happy little life. 
"Morning, the usual?" the barista asked you as you stopped by the coffee shop on your way to work. 
"Please," you said with a smile as you dug around for change.
"I will cover this one," said a familiar voice that made you freeze. 
"Of course, mister Shimada," the barista said, taking the payment. 
You tried to steady your breathing, not wanting to believe what was happening. You gulped and thought for a second, deciding to turn and face the man you had once loved.
"Hanzo," you accused, looking up at the man who ruined your life years ago. He had aged slightly and his features were sharper, but there was an obvious trace of exhaustion on his face. 
"Hello, blossom," he greeted. 
"Oh, so I'm 'blossom,' am I?" you asked, unimpressed. 
Hanzo sighed and hung his head, saying your name softly. 
"You have no idea how terrible my life has been since that day," he started. 
"Look, whatever it is you have to say, I don't want to hear it. And I have to get to work," you said, taking your drink, heading to the exit. 
"Please," Hanzo begged, grabbing your wrist. 
"What is with you and touching me when I don't want you to touch me?!" you demanded, pulling from his grip. 
Hanzo dropped his hand and apologised,
realising that you weren't going to forgive him so easily. He wasn't sure you would forgive him at all. 
"Will you please hear me out?" Hanzo asked. The desperation in his voice and his ragged appearance tugged at your heart and for a moment you forgot about all those years ago. 
"Hanzo," you sighed. 
You thought for a moment as he looked at you, hoping you would say something to ease the sorrow in his heart. You thought back to the day you found him in bed with someone else and bile rose in your throat. 
"You seem to forget that I told you I never want to see or hear from you ever again," you stated. 
"I-I" Hanzo stammered, his face turned a deep shade of red and he stood there with his mouth agape as he struggled to think of the right words to say. 
You stood, an expectant eyebrow raised and tapping your foot impatiently. 
"I've moved on," you said, stepping around him to exit the store. "And you should too."
Hanzo could do nothing but watch as you left, he had a feeling that this time, he really was seeing you walk away for the last time. 
* MCCREE * 
Your relationship with McCree was anything but normal. When you first met the cowboy you thought he was a complete creep and you kept your distance from him. It didn't last long and you eventually succumbed to his charm and became another notch on his belt. 
You were different to other girls, though. McCree confessed to you that he could see a future with you and he wanted to take things beyond physical chemistry and see what more could blossom between you. It was beautiful for a time and you had found the one.
Or so you thought. 
"I can't believe we're doing this," the girl giggled as McCree sucked and kissed her neck. 
"What she don't know won't hurt 'er," McCree sighed as he unbuckled his belt and dropped his pants. The girl got on her knees and took McCree's length in her mouth, pleasing him and causing lewd moans to escape from his lips. 
You arrived home after a long day at work and dropped your bag and keys by the door. You made it your bedroom and were shocked at the sight of McCree being pleasured by an unknown woman. 
"J-Jesse?" you stammered.
"Sweetheart!" McCree cried, stepping back from the woman and struggling to pull his pants back up. Before he got the opportunity to say anything more, you left the room, grabbing your keys and leaving the house, not returning again. 
It had been a few months and you were finally over what happened that night with McCree. He had tried to contact you many times during that time but you screened every call and message. One day, you recruited some of your friends to accompany you back to your old place to pick up some of the things you had left behind.
"Angel!" McCree cried when he answered the door, seeing you standing there. 
"Jesse," you said blankly. "I'm just here to get my stuff, please stay out of my way." 
"B-but…" McCree blubbered. 
"Outta the way, McCree," one of your friends said, pushing McCree aside so you could get through.
"Darlin', please… I'm sorry for what I did. I've been so broken since you left me," McCree pleaded, following you around the house as you gathered your things.
You ignored him as he followed, your friends making sure he didn't get too close. 
"I've moved on, Jesse. I'm not interested in what you have to say."
McCree blubbered and pleaded as you finished gathering your things and headed for the door. 
"Sweet pea," he breathed, grabbing your hand as you left. 
"I'm not your 'sweet pea', 'darling' or anything else. Goodbye." 
All McCree could do was watch as you wrenched your hand from his grip and leave, no room in your life for him anymore. 
* GENJI *
You were reluctant to date the young and infamous playboy. You had enjoyed many a makeout session in the back of the club you frequented together but when Genji had proposed that you date properly, you were wary. Genji had tried time and time again to prove to you how serious he was. He finally gained your trust after a few weeks of hanging out with you at your place on Saturday nights instead of going out. 
You took it slow and you were glad you had given him a chance. You regretted however, one Saturday night. 
You asked him what his plans were for that night and he said he was having a night in at home, tired and wanting to catch up on rest. You understood and told him to take it easy, instead messaging your friends and asking if they would like to go out instead. 
You all met up and drank, partied and danced. Many men tried making advances on you and you politely declined, informing them that you were spoken for. Your fun night out came to an abrupt end when one of your friends pulled you to the side, biting her lip and freaking out. 
"Umm, I don't know how to tell you this… but look over there," she gulped, pointing to a couple making out in the corner. 
You looked at them, confused until you recognised the male. You recognised the strong shoulders and short hair that belonged to your boyfriend. Your heart dropped and you felt a pang of nausea in the pit of your stomach.
You marched over to him and tapped him on the shoulder. He turned to face you, surprised to see you standing there, a mix of rage and hurt in your eyes.
"O-oh," was all Genji could manage, not knowing what to say. 
"At home," you murmured, unable to say anything else as bile rose and tears threatened to spill. "Liar." 
You turned on your heel and left the club, your friends following behind you, shooting death glares at Genji.
You went home and your friends stayed with you all night in pyjamas. Tissues, drinks and ice cream were plentiful and within arm's reach. Genji tried coming over to smooth things over with you but your friends stopped him at the door. 
"She doesn't want to see you," they scolded. "You should leave."
"Please let me see her," Genji pleaded. "I made a mistake and I want to make it right." 
Your friend ran up to your room and explained that Genji was at your door and he wanted to speak to you. 
"Alright," you sighed.
"Are you sure? We can tell him to get lost." 
"I can handle it," you said, standing and padding over to the door where Genji stood. His hair was a mess, his nose was slightly red and his eyes puffy. 
"Babe, I'm sorry!" he apologised. "I was stupid and-"
You held up a hand and Genji stopped talking, waiting for you to say something. 
"I don't care what you have to say. You lied to me and that's not something I'm going to forgive you for," you said. "I'd appreciate it if you left." 
"But, I'm sorry!" Genji cried. 
"You can't sweet talk your way out of this one. Bye, Genji." 
You shut the door and Genji stared at the closed door in front of him, mentally beating himself up for being so stupid. 
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I'm back again (what a surprise lol), if you feel up to it would you mind writing hcs for Jean with the letters Q,T, Y & Z? If that's too much please feel free to take a letter or two off! Tysm 💖
Haha, no worries!! I could gush about Jeanne all day, I really loved writing these!! 💕💕💕 Under a cut because of length (we all know I’m a verbose thot 😂😂😂):
Fluffy ABC headcanons listed here for requests!
Q = Quality Time (how does he like to spend time with her?) 
Jeanne loves to do anything MC wants to do (within reason). Any amount of time with her anywhere fills him with bliss. (The heartbreaking alternative to this is that, while he understands they both have things to do that require them to be apart during the day, he misses her presence dearly.)
She wants to bake? He will sit there in the most embarrassing apron and chef hat known to man, and he won’t give a single fuck as long as MC is genuinely delighted and having a marvelous time. In a meadow overflowing with flowers? He’d enjoy the atmosphere alone, but the feeling is just multiplied a thousand-fold at the sight of MC weaving little flower crowns. She places one on his head and excitedly tries to show him how to make one himself, and he just smiles fondly. She wears the crown he makes no matter his lack of skill for the delicate task, and her insistence fills him with such unabating warmth. He struggles to do more mundane tasks and doesn’t really understand where all her energy comes from sometimes, but even so it brings him endless amounts of joy. Will escort her anywhere she wants to go without a single complaint; theater? You got it. Concert? Sure. Watching paint dry? Sick, time to get out the sword polish and chill. (It’s like Netflix and chill, only worse.)
The only places he will ever hesitate to bring her are places that are potentially dangerous; let’s say the black market, or the local casino, Vlad’s castle, etc. etc. He doesn’t like to expose her to unnecessary risks, but he also won’t stop her if she has a good reason/really wants to go. He’ll just glare at every potential threat and stick to her side like glue.
His personal favorite way to spend time though is in settings where they have quiet and privacy, where it’s just the two of them. Whether they’re in the gorgeous field full of lilies behind the mansion or cuddling in their bedroom, he is at his most comfortable and content wherever she is in his arms and they are left alone. (Let it be known that he doesn’t hate others, he just can’t help that he finds larger groups of people exhausting to keep up with--and he’s always on guard to ensure MC’s safety.)
T = Time (how long did it take them to get together?)
(I’m going to preface this by saying: I’m well aware that ikevamp speeds things up but I tend to see that as a narrative necessity; I think a lot of the men would work up to their romance more slowly, ideally.)
With Jeanne it’s a little funny because he develops affection/intrigue for people fast, so it’s fairly obvious when he starts crushing on MC. (I can’t stress enough, Sebas and Mozart are BOTH lenny face from like the first fucking day, it’s the funniest thing in the world. ANYWAY--). He’s similar to Leonardo in that way; there are certain qualities he inherently finds appealing, so he naturally gravitates to people that reflect them. However, a more abiding love--the desire to form a romantic bond with someone--takes more time for him. He and Sebastian share this quality (ISXJ amirite); they fall more and more deeply in love with the person they cherish as they form consistently pleasant memories in their proximity. More than anything, these two stoic characters need somebody that makes them feel safe, appreciated, and profoundly seen.
Her relentless desire to reach others in a positive way is the first thing that attracts Jeanne’s attention, but otherwise he is absolutely a slow burn when it comes to being committed to another person. He needs time to fall in love with all the little parts of his MC (all of which he finds endearing uwu), to develop trust and see that his MC can handle him, too. He knows he’s...a lot...so he can’t really be comfortably intimate without having the other person see the best and worst of him. If MC can face his past with sensitivity and earnest concern--without being overwhelmed--then he will well and truly be a goner for them. That’s the thing about Jeanne: he needs time to feel comfortable with his decision, but when he has decided he’s one of the most devoted lovers in existence. 
Given his necessity for security, he needs somebody who can see him at his most vulnerable without panicking and gently bring him back to himself--someone who doesn’t mind his wooden nature and difficulty expressing himself. I would say getting together would take at least a year and a half, at minimum. He needs somebody that, for all of his reticence and power, recognizes that he means absolutely no harm to anyone so long as they aren’t hurting him or anyone else. Under normal circumstances (rather than expedited ones), I imagine those difficult topics wouldn’t come up that quickly.
If we’re talking together as in hanky panky, I think it would take him a little while beyond that--but that would depend on his partner, too. If she needs time or doesn’t want it at all, he will wait any length of time or not engage at all. If she’s more desirous, he will engage faster and with more frequency. He likes being intimate and close to her, but would never insist on it if it made her unhappy. 
Y = Yes (how would he propose to her?)
When it comes to Jeanne, I think his proposal would be simple, direct, and entirely expected--but no less heartfelt and deeply romantic. He’s a man of few words, but whatever he lacks in eloquence he makes up for in charged brevity. He doesn’t much understand the social conventions/expectations tied to marriage in this era (and he does not listen to Comte either) so I imagine it comes to him naturally in the course of being with her.
It’s a few years into their relationship, and he’s smiling because she’s dazzling--whether it’s humming in the garden, or staring at the stars, or curled up close to his heart in his shared room; he just knows. Whether it’s a sin, or unconventional, or something he doesn’t deserve--none of those things are strong enough to deter him anymore. He wants to be the one that she turns to always when in need, wants to protect everything that she is--a sweet beacon in a world where he knows how easily that kind of brave light is snuffed out. Honestly more than anything, she just makes him feel like it’s okay to hope again, that it’s okay to want good things for himself and the future. He was a soldier once branded a traitor, but that isn’t who he has to be anymore. Now he has a choice; he’s free to move forward however he wishes. She taught him that.
“MC?” 
Bright eyes turn to him, smooth skin glowing in the moonlight beside him. She’s beautiful; he doesn’t think any amount of time will ever be enough to fully appreciate the blessing of her existence. As if she could hear his thoughts, she encourages him to share. She was always like that, always so perceptive and patient, no matter how much he struggled to articulate something. He much preferred the sound of her voice over his any day. “Is something on your mind, love? Something good happen today?”
He was fully aware he had none of the wit or charm that other men possessed, and while he wished he could be that for her--it simply wasn’t within his capabilities. So he used the words he understood best, following his direct nature: “Will you marry me?”
Her eyes widen a little, but the surprise is muted; it was more a matter of time than anything else. Even so her eyes glisten, and before he can try to calm her (her tears dissolved all his good sense, sent his heart into chaos), her arms are tight around him. He can hear her heart racing, even faster than his own.
“Of course I will! Yes, Jeanne!”
He’d hoped she wouldn’t hate the idea but her excitement, the tenderness that lingers in the way she cradles him close, makes him smile against her shoulder. His arms tighten around her, and he renews his vow to be her sword--the one and only man to protect her until the end of their days. (Yes, Mozart later drags his ass to the jeweler’s to get a proper ring 😂😂😂)
Z = Zen (what makes him feel calm?)
There are very few things in this life that bring Jeanne peace, but I think the highest things on that list would be MC’s voice/presence in general and his little babie Cherie (bonus points if the two are playing together, he just melts Mon Dieu 😭💖💖💖 ). 
He’ll often ask MC to read to him, if she’s so inclined, when his literacy improves. He loves the soft sound of her voice, and he wants to keep improving on his ability to communicate with more clarity. It makes her so happy when he leaves her coherent notes and manages to convey his thoughts with greater accuracy, so it really motivates him to keep striving. He likes it even better when she gets really into a reading, doing silly voices or changing the dynamics of her voice to fit the piece’s mood. It makes him smile; so excitable and cute. Though alternatively, she could be reading the phone book for all he cares; it’s enough to soothe him right to sleep. Sometimes--and especially when he’s had bad nightmares, retraumatizations, or when he’s overstimulated--she’ll fit him gently in her lap and just talk until he falls asleep. She’ll sing, read, talk about things they’re looking forward to, talk about things she needs to do tomorrow, talk about silly shenanigans that happened in the mansion recently; anything that will bring him back to her and her love. It really works to center him, to situate him back in the present moment instead of rattling around in his own head.
It’s honestly much like the sea and the shore, though there may be tides--the water recedes and surges--she will always be there to meet him.
Cherie is his baby girl and such a sweet kitty that he can’t help but smile whenever she bounds over to him. A little ball of energy, he’s always getting her toys, toting her around, and petting her gently. Whenever Cherie and MC are together in front of him, his heart about explodes from the uwus of it all; they’re his most cherished ones, and he loves to see them get along. MC will usually be giggling and cooing at the pretty tiger, and Cherie soaks up the affection with obvious glee. Just watching them is enough to make his heart so light--he can’t think of anything else that makes him relax down to the marrow.
He will also find a lot of calm after lovemaking, which is something that surprises him--something he never expected. Jeanne has a hard time connecting with other people; not because he doesn’t care, but because emoting in conventional ways can be a challenge for him. He doesn’t have He Who Must Not Be Named’s charm, he doesn’t have Napoleon’s easy confidence, he doesn’t effuse Vincent’s natural warmth. He’s aware of how little he emits tangible humanity according to the perceptions of others. It leads to him feeling isolated everywhere he goes, even if people don’t particularly dislike him. Even so, his MC knows that for all his struggle to express himself, he possesses a deep, fiery wealth of emotion and passionate feeling. He cherishes her willingness be vulnerable alongside him; to embrace the good and the difficult parts of him in stride. He is left awestruck by the extent of her fervor and loving heart every single time, and in the aftermath he finds himself at such startling peace with his existence. No pain, no hollowing loneliness, no guilt, no intrusive thoughts--just her warm body against his, so trusting--as she sleeps. He’s grounded in the moment, he feels tethered to her, and he doesn’t know how to handle the full feeling in his chest, the way his heart feels too many sizes too big. He spends many nights adjusting to that feeling of fulfillment, reveling in this new boon--among the dozens she’s already given him. Will wonders never cease?
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Happy 30th Birthday Uchiyama Kouki-san!!! | 16.08.20
Like what I have done previously to some of my favorite seiyuus, I will use this chance to write about my top Kouki Uchiyama roles to celebrate his 30th birthday (OMG Ucchi is already 30!!)
#1: Gin - Hotarubi no Mori e
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I. AM. HURT. 
I’m sorry. This is the first Ucchi role I ever saw in one of the most beautiful anime movie I’ve ever watched T-T From the same mangaka and anime staff behind Natsume Yuujinchou comes this lovely, beautiful, heartbreaking anime about a girl who encountered a “youkai” in the woods behind her uncle’s home. I love this so much and Ucchi as Gin is sooo good T-T He’s sooo softtt I love him so much I’m still crying every time I think of Gin and this anime and even looking at that gif hurts me so much aaaaaaaa *sobs* definitely my ultimate #1 favorite Ucchi role <3 (sorry if I’m being incomprehensible here)
#2: Yoshino Takigawa - Zetsuen no Tempest
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I LOVE THIS GUY!!! Another soft Ucchiii uwu OK yeah I don’t remember which Ucchi role I encountered first - Yoshino or Gin. But these two are definitely the characters that made me fall in love with Ucchi’s acting T-T I don’t remember much about Yoshino since it’s been so long since I last watched the anime (which I plan to watch again), but I do remember Yoshino being super sweet and I just love him?
#3: Toi Kuji - Sarazanmai
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Ah yes, the Ucchi we have come to know and love lately. Brooding. Anti-social. He’s got the looks. He’s got the voice. But once you’ve come to know him, you realize there’s more to this kid than your average stay-away-from-me-i-do-bad-things brooding bad boy. The emotional range Ucchi projected! So raw! Sarazanmai is a masterpiece imo. A hidden gem from the 2019 winter line-up. A beautiful story about human connections hidden behind an absurdity you can only find in anime. And that’s what made this show amazing. I love it.
#4: Kei Tsukishima - Haikyuu!!
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Tsukkiii <3 I love this snarky little shit lmao. That is all.
Lol jk, but well in all seriousness, I don’t really have much to say either? I love this guy. Yeah at times you just want to smack his head and stop being so salty all the time, but Tsukki has one of the best lines and scenes and I love that he’s more rational and smart and observant than our main combi. Also love his arc! Also! Seeing Ucchi in Haikyuu events is to die for!
#5: Hiroshi Kido - Barakamon
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lmaooo I recently re-watched the series and...I am in love. With the characters. The setting. The entire show. Hiro is a third-year high school kid, regarded as the oldest among the children. He is seen as a big brother by the little kids and as a little brother by Handa - who, despite that, still needs to be taken care of by Hiro lol. He is sweet and funny and I love him and he often acts as the comic relief. Love this anime <3
Now for some honorable mentions:
HM1: Roxas/Ventus - Kingdom Hearts
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My precious boy!!! I have never played KH undubbed, and I’ve only heard snippets of Ucchi’s Roxas/Ventus. Gotta say that he sounds so young, even in KH3 lol (though KH3′s Roxas sounds more like his recent self). Still, need to mention him here, right? :D
HM2: Natsuki Usami - Tsuritama
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I’ve only watched the anime recently and I love it. I love the story. I love the cast. Natsuki is that aloof, cool character. Not exactly brooding. He just doesn’t want his classmates to know that he’s the Fishing Prince lmao (a title he earned after winning some angling competitions). Another cool character Ucchi voiced alongside Miyu :3 Also, when they cut his hair short, he looks exactly like Tsukki lol
HM3: Yuuta Asaba - Kimi to Boku
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Didn’t find the gif of him alone, so yes, here is the insufferable twins from Kimi to Boku, Yuuki (left, voiced by Kimura Ryohei) and Yuuta (right). I love the twins. And I love Yuuta. The older of the twin who doesn’t talk much and only watch the scenes from the side, but he’s always there, and iirc, he’s always there to help if needed. If not, well he’s still there, observing his brother and their friends. 
HM4: Takashi Sugiyama - Kaze ga Tsuyoku Fuiteiru
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Another soft Ucchiii. Cute Ucchi. Dork Ucchi. I love Shindo!!! My second, or maybe third, favorite character after Ouji and Haiji (lmao I just realized this is another show with Ucchi, Tosshii and Miyu).
HM5: Neku Sakuraba - The World Ends with You
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Haven’t played the game yet but I’m still excited for the anime! Also, Ucchi’s voice in the trailer is *hhhh* so emotional. I love it!
So, once again, happy birthday to our most lovable dork, Ucchiiii <3 May you continue to bless us with your exceptional talent :3 
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