Slaffs would u mind explaining all the members of the band 2 a newbie…. 🥺👉👈

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Chris - chris is extremely cahrismatic. He has just a lot of fun and he has a lot of hjokes perhaps like i b his back pocketm sorry if i mispell lol. He seems to be a very pasisonate individual, he has an amount of insecurity that motivates hi MN to him to outdo himself (i under the impression). He is not a fraid to start a conversation. He has brown hair and glasses and likes to pose for the camera in a sort of. Pressing his cheek against your forehead manner. Theres lots of proof of this. He really like to live in canada. He is friends with jay

Jay - jay really is just the twee member of sloan he has strawberry blonde hair ad my poll had condluded. I have never heard someonensay somethinf bad about meeting jay, he likes to bhave fun like chris but he is less oit of pocket. He is a collector type. He likes vintage things and is really inspired by his childhood times of workig. In a record store. He is nice and likes to listen to Mike Love. He produced. Agood band like local rabbits because he has good taste.. Bard to He likes denim

Patrick - I HAVE 5 MORE MINUTES NO. Okay patrick has dark hair and glasses, he likes to wear black clothes. Patrick is heavily inspired by hard rock sometimes but dont let that fool you. He is a hopeless romantic in a lot of his songs. He seems very shy at times and soemtikes people think that thats him being mean but perosnally i dont think hes mean!!!!! I think hes just shy like me and he likes to experiment with music aka destroytomorrow666 and And he likes to be silly sometimes rslaly. And he loves to write he has a long hisyroy of writing anf hes good at it and dave bidini thinks he should write for the west end phoendix

Andrew - andrea is a painter first musician second who bought a house to live in not flip. He looks like stewart copeland. He seems very quiet and has a wry sens eof humor and hes a big fan of thi gs sort of suxh as trucks, motorbikes, sharjs, and the color pink which he b puts in his beautiful artworks. He was akn in a movie in hmmm around 1994 maybe dm me for details. He likes to respond to bots in instagtam comment sections. Hes pretyy darn good at srumming drummkign

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Actor and musician Brinsley Forde MBE was born 16th October 1953 in Islington, North London.

He achieved early success in the children’s TV series Here Come the Double Deckers (1970-71), which was co-produced by 20th Century Fox and screened on BBC1 and ABC America.

Having appeared in two episodes of the hit London Weekend Television sitcom, Please Sir, he had a significant and memorable role in the 1971 movie adaptation as Wesley, with his character a critical part of the storyline. Having been accidentally left behind by the coach on the way to the school camp, he hitches a ride with Penny (Jill Kerman), convincing her that the benign and totally sincere teacher, Mr Hedges (John Alderton), is in fact a racist slumlord, leading to a number of comic encounters and confrontations.

(Given the standards of the time in UK television comedy, the writers, John Esmonde and Bob Larbey, and LWT, seemed to have a generally enlightened attitude in terms of race. LWT had been previously stung by the debacle of Curry and Chips (written by Johnny Speight) which had attracted the attention of the Independent Broadcasting Authority and Race Relations Board in 1969. As a result, both Brinsley Forde and fellow student Aziz Resham (Feisal) were able to shine in their own right and even poke fun at some overcompensating liberal attitudes, to their own advantage.)

Brinsley Forde went on to numerous other acting roles. He is a Grammy nominated musician, and founding member of the legendary reggae band, Aswad, which in amongst numerous international hits, had a UK number one in 1988 with Don’t Turn Around.

(Top Image: Seventies Time Machine/ Classic British TV. Bottom Image - Brinsley Forde Facebook.)

Who's ready for WALLS!?

This girl right here!!

I can't be expected to wait until February for LWT s05.

...And yet, I am.

I’VE NEVER WATCHED LWT IT SHINE

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3, 12, and 17 for the fic ask! :)

3: Favorite line/scene you wrote this year 

Hmm… I’ve written a lot. 

“I think my Christmas just came early…” from “With Great Whiskey…” aka the Drunk Hans prompt. because we all know in Hans’ wasted and somewhat still-aroused-state, it probably wasn’t just his xmas that -came- early if you get my meaning…. Dirty puns ftw. 

“Why the hell am I naked?” from the same prompt. Poor Hans is so confused in this scene. He doesn’t remember anything. That’s one of my favorites, too. You know what? Just lump that entire piece into this answer. That whole thing was super fun to write.

As for scenes….

The final scene of LWT. (For the sake of spoilers, I won’t describe it. If you’ve read the story, you know what it is… ;) ) 

The massage preview for Fugitives– mostly the parts where Hans gets too intimate for his own good. 

The part in “The Throwaways” when baby Hans is tending to his falling-apart-rocking horse. And naming it Sitron. 

12: favorite character to write about this year 

Well… this is either a fifty fifty shot. I’m going to say Anna. I mean, she and Hans pretty much featured in everything I wrote, but she had the bonus prompts for Mother’s Day and I ripped her heart a new one in “Elsa? It’s Me…” so… I’m going with her. 

2020 will probably end up being “Year of the Westergaard anyway if I get that oneshot collection going. Hans can shine in all his glory then. And we all know he is glorious… 

17: fics you’ll continue next year

Well, Fugitives definitely since it’s the only major fic I have on my plate. Though I won’t rule out new content for the Ulterior Motives AU. After that inspirational boom this holiday season, who knows when something might strike. 

the first - t.h.

pairing: tom holland x reader

type: one-shot

words: 1,285

warning: none for once???

summary: as it turns out the tom you were texting and talking to was the tom holland. 

a.n.: i know it’s very short, but i honestly had such a hard time with this for no reason??? i rewrote it like six times oops-

anyways, this is a request that stated:

hi! i’m not familiar w the terminology so u can do this in what format you think would be best but i wanted to request something w tom holland! tom and the reader start dating and after a month tom has to go off to film so they start doing long distance and after a while reader accidentally says “i love you” for the first time on the phone one night? hopefully this makes sense haha            

i hope this was to your liking anon! i tried my very best to stick to your request but it kinda escaped me??? also, the timeline is very wonky, so ignore that. 

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It was all so very strange when you found out that the Tom you were speaking to was Tom Holland, the Tom Holland.

Tom Holland had quickly became your favorite actor when you had seen his debut for the Marvel Cinematic Universe as Spider-Man in CA:CW.

Thinking back on it, he'd ask you about himself - or rather his career - quite a few times and you'd gladly share and oh hell. All the embarrassing things you said during conversations popped into your head in that very moment.

One instance was when he asked about Infinity War and you told him about how you felt.

( Have you seen Infinity War yet?

Have i seen it??? tOm, I've seen it THREE times and like I'm still in tears??? I told myself i wouldn't cry and wore mascara, not waterproof mind you, and like five minutes in, there are STREAKS of it down my face.

Also, don't even get me started on my baby boy, Peter's death. That scene rips my heart into little pieces and to think it was improvised!!! I honestly want to sue Marvel and the Russo Brothers for allowing that damned scene in the movie.

Honestly Tommy-boy, I think that Tom Holland has replaced you as my favorite Tom. Dont be too offended but his acting and dancing skills are TOO much for my heart to handle. Also, his accent is like music to my ears. He's great.

Okay, but enough of my rambling, how did you like it?

No, continue darling. I want to hear more. I'll tell you later.

Well since you said I can, let me tell you... )

Or when you called him crying at 3am because you just had to rewatch the entire series again.

( Tommy, you up?

Yes, what's up darling?

Can I call you?

Of course.

"Good morning, Tom."

"Good morning, now how can I help? Wait, are you crying?"

"A bit, but that's besides the point. The point being is that sometimes i just wish that people would stop trying to hurt me so much."

"What is it this time?"

"I rewatched the entire MCU series and I feel dead."

"Come now, love. It can't be that bad, right?"

"Wrong. It's worse." )

Oh hell, indeed, because that was only the beginning. 

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When you had signed up on that dating app, you didn't think much of it. It was one where you only shared a biography of yourself, no pictures. It was to create a relationship out of  personality and with words and not looks. 

Tom had been one of your first matches and had been the one to bridge the gap between you two.

It was about six months before the both of you decided that it was time to meet the other.

You remember how nervous you were as you waited in that little bakery on 5th. You can clearly recall your knee bobbing up and down rapidly and how sweaty your palms were as you rubbed them on your jean-clad legs.

You had arrived first and ordered your favorite drink as you glanced at the message that he just sent.

"Be there in five minutes or less. See you soon ;)"

It did nothing to calm your racing heart but it did lift your hopes up a bit.

You'd heard about all the stood-up stories from other people who used this app, but you were quite sure that Tom wouldn't stand you up. He seemed too nice to do that. If anything, he'd let you down after the date was over.

You were glancing out the window when you were tapped on your shoulder.

You turned around and had said, "Yes....?"

As you soon as you looked at him, you felt your cheeks warm up and you choked on air.

"Darling, is that you?" His voice was heavenly and just the same as it was over the phone.

"Oh hell. You're Tom, my Tom." He chuckled as he took the seat from across you, a cup of tea in his hands.

"Well, you're not wrong, but I was expecting you to faint, to be slightly honest. After all," he did quotation marks with his hands as he said, " 'If I ever meet Tom Holland, I'm going to legit faint.' " Immediately, you laughed and rubbed the back of your neck.

"It's nice to meet you officially, Tommy."

"Likewise, Darling."

He smiled at you with that crooked smile of his and you knew you were a goner in that very moment.

And that was how it started.

From there on, you'd be with him for most of the time as he wasn't filming for another film just yet.

It was a few weeks of just you and him when he came to your apartment with a wide smile on his face.

He wrapped you in a hug and twirled you around and you couldn't help but smile right back at him.

"Darling, Darling, guess what?!" His voice sounded so happy and you reached out and held his cheek.

"Hmmm, did you get good news?" He nodded his head up and down with his eyes wide and shining.

"I got the role!!" Your eyes went wide and you moved in to squeeze him tightly.

He was laughing and you were sure his smile was brighter than the sun when you looked at him right then and there.

"Congrats, congrats!! I'm so proud of you, love!"

He pulled you in and kissed you, oh so nicely, and you knew you loved the man who held you in his arms.

He pulled away and just gazed in his eyes, they were nearly lidded but when you looked into them, your heart fluttered as did the butterflies thay rested in your stomach.

He wrapped his arms aroumd you and you felt content in the position. He smelled like lemon and pine with a dash of coconut.

It was lovely.

It was when you both pulled apart and sat on the couch when you asked him, "When do you leave?"

"In two days." He looked down at you from your position on his lap.

You grinned and said, "I guess we'll have to make the best of the rests of our days then, huh?"

He smirked and nodded.

"I suppose so, Darling."

---

It was three weeks in and you missed him dearly. You had yet to tell him of your love, nervous because what if he didn't love you back.

You told yourself many things but you couldn't utter three words to a man you adored more than anything.

You fell asleep with your mind filled to the brim with thoughts of your bright sunny boy.

Ring. Ring. Ring.

"... Hello?"

"Were you sleeping? If so, I can hang up-"

"Tom, you're fine. Now, what's up?"

"I just wanted to hear your voice. I miss you very much."

"Aww, you miss me, love. I miss you too. I can't wait till you come back."

"Well, I can't wait to get back."

You could practically see his grin in your mind as he says that. 

"Oh shit, I gotta go, my break is almost done. Bye, Darling."

"Bye. I love you, Tom."

Just as you were about to hang up, you heard his voice say, "Say that again, Darling."

"Bye. I love you, Tom...?"

"You... You love me?"

Your eyes widened when you realized exactly what it was you just said.

You wanted to deny it, just in case he didn't reciprocate your feelings but you decided not to be a little bitch.

"Yeah, I do. Like, a lot."

"Me...?"

"Yes you, Thomas Stanley Holland."

"I love you too. I really do."

You gasped and swallowed the happiness bubbling up in your throat. You were crying and-

you were just so happy.

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Aku pengennn bgt ngliat smua anak” skrg tu tau klo mrk tu punya sesuatu yg bisa dibanggain dan bikin kita tu terlihat spesial. Stiap org pasti beda” kan? Klo sama yaa it seems weird and awkward :v. Jaman skrg klo mau shining brightly itu bnr” hrs all out dan jan tanggung. Krn kita bkl kalah sma org yg punya potensi sma ky kita dan bisa mrk kelola dgn baik.

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Can you help a fellow INFJ to stop overthinking? I don't want this habit to ruin me and others

INFJ: Hi there! Okay, so I think it has come my time to shine :’)

An active mind is something great, but an overactive mind (as I am sure you know) is a pain in the ass. And if there is something worse than being with a high-strung person, is being the high-strung person. To start, understand that overthinking is not helping. If you are asking this, you probably have this step won (nice). The thing is that everytime you start wondering obssesively how something will turn out, you are not dealing with it in advance. What you are doing is killing your efficiency. You are not dealing with the things that are coming in your present with a 100% focus. It’s important that you learn: You got this. Really. You have the ability to handle the things that pop up. Don’t think about them more than you should. Just keep doing what you need to do each day.

You see, I used to overthink to a point where it ruined me. My health was terrible and my coping mechanisms to stop overthinking were making things worst fast. Right now I am not the most okayest person in the world, but I am a lot better. And you know, life is not hell, and that is always a plus. These tips I am gonna give you worked very well for me. Remember it might take a while to change the way your brain works. Be patient with yourself and keep trying.

The first thing I am gonna advise is taking a walk. I would choose 30 mins, but I know life is busy, so adapt as you will. Everyday you are gonna take a walk. I take it in the morning because it’s when I have a cleared mind and I can deal better with irrational thoughts. Don’t bring music or things that might distract you if you can. During that minutes, just lwt yourself think. All the thoughts that come, came the day before and probably will come. Deal with those slowly. Find which one was the first thought that got you obssesed.

For the rest of the day, any time you get an impractical thought, you are gonna save it for later, for when you take your walk. See, there is this little thing where if you wanna rest a tired body you rest, but if you wanna rest a tired mind you activate physically. A tired mind is harder to control and you wanna be able to have your thoughts under your will.

So you may say, “well, and how do I stop the thoughts??”.

When I get a thought (usually a bad one) that I can’t stop thinking about, I do one of the following (sometimes a few more than one):

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- Change what you are doing. Focusing your attention in something else (even if it is getting a glass of water) can help make your brain change its chip.

- Whenever you get a thought, try to come up to a counter-thought and to something cool you will do that day.

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Cerita Ayah (part 5)

Stelah cukup lama menanti kabar dr nya, skitar jam 8 lwt ia memberi kabar siap meluncur. Jelang stengah 9 ayah mulai bersiap meluncur. Ayah menyiapkan sesuatu utknya. Hanya saja ayah ragu apakah waktunya cukup mengingat toko tempat kami janjian tutupnya jam 9 mlm. Stengah 9 lbh sedikit ayah sampai di lokasi. Mulai melihat bbrapa deretan jaket yg terpajang. Tp pikiran ayah mengarah pd akhwat tsb krn dia blm dtg jg. Menanti agak lama, akhirnya dia dtg dan merapat k lokasi. Ia mulai memilih k deretan jaket. Ia melihat bbrapa warna yg ternyata tak seukuran dgnya. Blm sempat memilih dan membeli, toko tutup. Oke, baiklah. Mission pending, not failed. Akhirnya kami memutuskan utk bersiap pulang saja. Pulang dg tangan hampa. Tanpa membawa apa2. Jelang berpisah, ia memberikan sesuatu pd ayah. Sebotol air mineral dg emoji glasses smiley di tutupnya. Ia bungkus botol itu plastik hitam yg telah disiapkannya. Ayah pun kemudian membalas dg memberikan ssuatu yg mungkin akan menusuk hatinya. Undangan ayah dan bundamu. Ayah memberikannya langsung pdny di malam itu. Ayah tdk tau bagaimana perasaannya kala itu. Yg pasti ketika memberikan undangan tsb, ayah menyampaikan pdnya bahwa dia lah org pertama yg mendapatkan undangan itu. Bahkan saat itu bundamu blm selesai mengetik nama calon tamunya. Ayah mengharapkan doa dan kedatangannya. Tulus... Selepas berpisah, ayah berencana utk cari minum dan hiburan sejenak. Apa daya, lokasi tujuan ayah dipenuhi oleh penonton sepak bola krn cafe tsb digunakan utk nobar. Ayah pun memutuskan utk pulang saja. Kembali k tempat tmn ayah. Sampai di tempat tmn ayah, ayah ditanya oleh tmn ayah perihal kepulangan. Kemudian ayah bulat memutuskan utk menunda kepulangan dr Jogja mlm itu. Entah kpn ayah akan pulang. Alasan telah ayah siapkan utk atasan ayah mlm itu. Lepas menunda kepulangan, ayah pun kepikiran utk menulis ssuatu lg utknya. Ssuatu yg ayah harapkan benar2 jd tulisan perpisahan. Tak sadar, tmn ayah mengambil dan membuka plastik hitam berisi air mineral pemberian akhwat itu td. Sekejap ayah langsung meraihnya kembali. Tmn ayah tampak bingung dg kelakuan ayah. Saat meraihnya ayah baru sadar klo di botol tsb ada tulisannya. Untungnya tmn ayah tak melihat tulisannya. Tmn ayah hanya heran melihat kelakuan ayah. 😅 Malam itu ayah menulis lg. Kali ini ttg kejadian td sore. Ttg tumblr yg ia sembunyikan dr ayah. Ttg smua kekaguman yg ia pendam sendiri. Ttg itu smua. Sambil menulis, ayah kemudian merasa emosional. Tanpa komando, sekilas ayah merasa menyesal. Ayah menyesali ketergesaan ayah. Menyesali ketidakpekaan ayah. Menyesali tak menghiraukan kodenya slama ini. Di tengah2 kekalutan tsb, ternyata ayah malah berpikiran sebaliknya. Bahwa sesungguhnya akhwat tsb lah yg telah jahat. Jahat pd ayah. Jahat krn menyembunyikan smuanya. Jahat krn tak pernah berterus terang pd ayah. Jahat krn membiarkan ayah berspekulasi. Jahat krn membiarkan ayah jatuh pd kegamangan pilihan. Pilihan yg kemudian menghadirkan bundamu di dlmnya. Pilihan yg membuatnya tak lg berarti. Begitulah pikiran ayah kala itu. Tak ingin berlarut2, selesai sholat 2 rakaat ayah memilih tidur. Tidur yg sebenarnya dipaksakan. Tidur yg sebenarnya tak memberikan kenikmatan. Esok paginya stelah shubuh dan tilawah, ayah mulai mencari tiket pulang k Jakarta hari itu. Pagi itu ayah mulai memikirkan bbrapa opsi kepulangan. Apakah naek bis sperti biasanya atau naek kereta supaya lbh puas beristirahat. Ayah msh bingung memutuskan. Sebenernya ayah kepikiran naek bis saja. Naek bis paling awal dr prambanan supaya bisa smpe Jakarta tengah mlm. Biar msh bisa istirahat utk persiapan kerja esok. Tp ayah msh bingung nak kala itu. Bismania kadang jg butuh istirahat yg cukup demi menunjang kinerja dan karir. Di sela2 kebingungan ayah memilih mengirimkan tulisan yg ayah buat smlm pd akhwat Papua itu nak. Ayah sih ga nungguin responnya. Ayah milih searching en mikirin cara pulang. Di sela2 itu ternyata akhwat tsb menhubungi ayah dan meminta maaf pd ayah. Meminta maaf atas segalanya. Ya, ia meminta maaf krn tulisan ayah td nak. Sejujurnya ayah tak pernah sampai hati berkata sperti itu. Itu hanyalah luapan emosional sesaat yg ayah rasakan kala menulis tulisan tsb. Ayah mengatakan bahwa ia tak perlu minta maaf. Ayah lah yg seharusnya minta maaf pdnya atas smua ini. Ayah lah yg telah membuatnya jatuh pd pengharapan yg kosong. Ayah lah yg seharusnya minta maaf utk itu. Sembari berkomunikasi dgnya td, ayah telah memesan tiket kereta keberangkatan jam 6 sore. Tak lama kemudian ia mengajak bertemu utk bicara lg. Kali ini Shine jd tempat yg disepakati. Ayah pun kemudian mandi, beberes dan menanti tmn ayah. Kali ini ayah ingin jalan kaki saja. Maka ayah memintanya mengantar ayah sampai plaza agro saja. Ayah minta diantar sampai plaza agro krn dikejar waktu utk bayar tiket kereta yg telah ayah pesan. Tmn ayah kemudian mengantar ayah k plaza agro. Sampai dsana ternyata sudah pas tenggat waktu pelunasan tiket. Tiket ayah hangus. Oke, baiklah. Husnudzon saja.. Kemudian ayah berjalan kaki menuju Shine. Sampai tkp ternyata Shine tutup. Sementara akhwat tsb blm dtg. Ayah kemudian mencari peruntungan lain. Msh berusaha mencari tiket kepulangan. Dan akhirnya dpt! GBMS premium! Ayah pun mengklaim satu kursi di kereta kls ekonomi premium tsb. Tak lama stelah klaim tsb sang akhwat dtg. Melihat Shine tutup kami mencari alternatif lain. Ayah sempat mencoba mengajaknya melihat lokasi yg dulu pernah jd Kedai Kopi di dekat gejayan. Ternyata sudah tutup. Akhirnya ayah mengusulkan k sebuah kedai minuman buah yg letaknya tak jauh dr FT UNY. Bowling Fruit jd tempat singgah yg kami sepakati selanjutnya. Tp sblm meluncur k TKP ayah memohon ijin dr nya utk mencari ATM guna membayar tiket kereta yg telah ayah akuisisi. Ia pun mengiyakannya. Tak butuh waktu lama, kami sudah berada di lantai 2 kedai buah tsb. Pembicaraan kali ini dia yg memulai. Lagi2 permohonan maaf. Efek tulisan ayah yg terakhir itu lho nak. Kemudian ia jg mengatakan menyesal. Ia kemudian bertanya pd ayah bagaimana selanjutnya. Duh, ayah kok jd kebawa suasana ya.. Ayah pun menasehati dirinya (dan jg ayah) utk menerima takdir Allah ini. Berharap masa lalu biarkan jd masa lalu dan segera move on dr nya. Sebab memang sudah sampai disini. Kita sudah tak bisa apa2 lg. Maka terima saja. Terlihat semudah itu. Nyatanya ayah harus menyimpan rapat2 kesedihan dan penyesalan yg ada jauh di dlm lubuk hati yg paling dlm. Berharap ia tak menyadarinya. Berharap smua baik2 saja. Ayah kembali berusaha tegar di dpnnya. Ayah kembali mengingatkan pdnya hal yg slalu jd harapan dan pertimbangan ayah. Ttg menikahlah dg org yg siap menguatkan dirinya dan dakwahnya di Papua sana. Ayah tegar nak. Kamu mesti belajar dr ayah nak! Kami menutup perbincangan dg harapan kita msh bisa jd sahabat baik. Jd teman bercerita. Meski akan sulit utk secair dulu. Secair sblmnya. Tp tak ada salahnya berjanji kan nak?! Sblm berpisah akhwat tsb memberikan sebuah susu ultra kemasan kotak yg ia tulisi sebuah kalimat yg menurut ayah lucu. Ia menuliskannya tepat di dpn ayah. Ayah hanya tersenyum menahan tawa yg tertahan. Ayah menerima susu kotak tsb dg senang hati. Susu kotak tsb dibungkus dg plastik hitam dan kemudian ayah taruh di saku jaket gunung yg ayah kenakan. Setelah itu kami benar2 berpisah. Kami menuju k tujuan masing2. Ayah lalu menuju k markas komsat UGM yg penuh kenangan dg nya. Niatan ayah hanya satu, menutup sgala ingatan ttg komsat dan dirinya di hari itu. Ayah pun menyusuri jalan di bawah teriknya matahari utk ksana. (bersambung)

Danny's World: Here's the Problem With Living in the South U.S.

Danny’s World: Here’s the Problem With Living in the South U.S.

I went out to wash the little white truck and nearly died.  We are experiencing a heat wave and humidity like none I can remember.  It’s noon and it’s already 93* with an index of 103*! We’ve had almost 2 weeks of these temps.     On a positive note, I have the tag renewed on LWT, he’s washed and wheels are shined.  Life is good when the cars are clean.  

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