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just something about "you don't get to say that to me".
Not "you're lying" or "I don't believe you" but "I know it's true but you don't get to say that to me" because "I know you love me sure as the sun but you've not yet earned the right to tell me" and "you don't get to say that to me" because "I know you love me as pure as grief but we're not getting over this that easy" and "you don't get to say that to me" because "I know you love me sure as you know that I love you but I don't know if I'm ready to hear it yet" my god this fucking show
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About Episodes 7 and 8...MASSIVE SPOILERS!!
Initial thoughts (because if I talk about EVERYTHING right now you'll be here for at least half an hour)...
WHAT THE HELL?!
I mean I loved getting to watch the season finale, don't get me wrong. But I have just as many grievances as things I loved about it and also SO MUCH happened?!?!?!
Charlie: Loved getting to see her be all demon-y, I've been waiting all season. Also loved her and the cannibals (especially Rosie!!!). So glad she got to work w/ Luci to protect the hotel <333 She and Vaggie are adorable too.
Vaggie: I really enjoyed watching her and Carmilla's song, that was cool. Protecting her girlfriend, very cute. I liked seeing her and Lute have that little face-off.
Husk: Sad that we didn't get to see much of him, but I get it. His interactions with the others were sweet (especially Angel). I loved the one line he got to sing on his own in that last song of episode 8. 😍
Angel: Ngl I am very glad he wasn't the one to die. It would've been a fun little "oh crap" moment but I really didn't want to be right. He's still got business down there. His interactions with the others here are everything to me, and he's just grown so much and aaaaaa. It's lovely to see! I love him more and more with every episode.
Niffty: YOU GO, GIRL!!!! Love to see the stabbing. I also really loved the...one line Nifty got. Kimiko Glenn's voice is a gift, I freaked out over getting to hear one line. Anyway. not much else to say other than I definitely thought it was Alastor doing a big "oh look, I'm alive!" thing when Adam got stabbed, but I was pleasantly surprised.
Cherri Bomb/Sir P: I was surprised, to say the least, when Cherri and Sir P had that little moment. Glad they got it before he went and DIED. Cherri is such a good friend to Angel and she's great. Now, onto Sir P...WOW, OKAY. Glad we know Charlie's plan isn't completely stupid. Wonder how Sera's gonna react to him being there now, lol.
The Vees: FIRST OFF, VOX?????? "This is better than sex!" 💀💀💀 Truly was not expecting to see as much of the Vees as we did. Not complaining though. It was...interesting...to say the least, watching Vox get as excited as he did over the prospect of Al dying (still as obsessed as ever, fr). Not at all surprised to see Val and Vox have a thing going, I figured from the interactions we've seen so far. Them dancing together was silly, them practically making out was less so 😃. Also, gotta continue the love for Velvette--putting up with these two idiots must take a lot. Also also, her HAIR! HER HAIR!! EEEEE
Lucifer: I reallllyyyyyy enjoyed seeing Luci make a return to help Charlie, even if it was in one of those "last-minute saves" that I usually hate. Idk, makes sense here I guess because he's probably always watching over Charlie some way. ALSO LUCI AND CHARLIE GOING ALL DEMON-Y TOGETHER WAS <33333333 I really loved him starting off that last song in episode 8, and telling Charlie that he believes in her. It was so sweet. I love Luci sm, hoping he becomes a more integral part of the crew in s2.
Adam/Lute/Lilith: HAHA HOW DOES IT FEEL TO LOSE??? Lute got what she deserved with the whole...arm thing. ALSO WHAT--JUST GONNA CASUALLY DROP LILITH IN HERE NOW? Sure, fine, whatever, totally cool. Not sure how to feel about Lilith atm so moving on. I dunno why I was so shocked upon seeing Adam's face. I guess I expected him to...not look as good as he does? Also so upset that he broke Al's staff. How rude. He sucks.
Rosie: Not how I expected her to sound, but I'm most certainly not disappointed. I don't have much to say other than I loved literally everything about her. No complaints--at least not yet ig, need to go back and rewatch the episodes critically. Her and Alastor is everything to me, and seeing them dance was <333333 I cannot express my excitement over it enough.
Alastor: Saved him for last because yes. If I wasn't limiting myself to a short paragraph for each, I'd be writing a whole essay just about Al, I swear....CANNOT believe what just happened omg. Not only did we get to see silly Al in episode 7, but we got to see scary (and scared) Al in episode 8. He's really freaking out, it's so entertaining! I'm so glad it wasn't him who died, I started getting a bit worried for a minute there....His relationship with Rosie is aaaaa, best of besties fr. Fighting Adam scene was glorious. Making Vox act like an idiot even when not trying was funny to watch (Vox's obsession with this guy is so silly). Him retreating sure was a move, but I'm glad he didn't get all stubborn and end up dying. Him ranting a bit in his section of the final song was so...AAAAAAA. Man is so scared, he looks stressed as can be. I need to see Alastor just have an external breakdown because he honestly feels like he's on the verge of one. 💀
Stopping for now before I go on a bigger rant than I already have. To those who read all this, I'm so sorry pfft. Feel free to leave a comment if there's something you wanna discuss (or, better yet, send one of those ask thingies. I do not have comments figured out yet...)
Anyway, have a good one <3
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After the onslaught of criticism about her IFTA look, I thought of putting together some of Cait's quotes, a look into her character and what she's about.
“I respect and admire people who put work before fame, and life before work.”
"I think as women sometimes we can judge other women's journeys, actions a lot more harshly than we would if it was a man."
"I think there's something in the DNA of actors that we thrive on the lack of stability or regime. I relish the unpredictability of it in many ways."
The sexiest things about a man are, "Integrity, smarts and kindness".
"I just want to be happy in my life. I want to stay sane. I'm lucky that I have a job that I love. It's very important that your career can't be your only thing. So, I feel lucky that I've also found someone who makes me very happy. As long as I can keep those two things going well, then I'll be good."
"While 'Outlander' is a brilliant period show, Claire represents so many qualities of a 10th century modern-day woman: someone who is forging her own path, fighting for what she believes, and doing so with integrity."
"It's such a compliment when people say they can see 'thoughts' on your face. I started theater before modeling and the frustrated actress within me made work interesting by viewing a character or story in the head with interior monologues."
"Life is meant to be lived and not put on the back-burner for one day when you will have time. I love my job and I love work but it can’t be the be-all and end-all."
“You have to fight to create the life that you want. I’ve been lucky and had a very varied and interesting career so far, but I’m always thinking about the next chapter.”
"I'm very young at heart but combined with a bit of an old soul. I have two sides of myself, one side is this cray-likes-to-party side, and then the other side likes-to-hibernate-and-keep-quiet-and-read. Those two sides constantly battle and that's why I'm crazy!"
"It was something I've been wanting for a while. There's sometimes fear about actors who become producers—that they're going to try to throw their weight around. For me, it's an expansion of growing within this industry. I like to problem solve. I like to look around at what every single person is doing, and [ask], how can we make things better?"
"Wrinkles equal time, equal life . . . trying to love them."
"SM brings out the very worst in people and makes us feel worse and worse about ourselves. So I'm trying to do, at least one day a week, hopefully 2 days a week, where I just step back and, I've been trying to do it recently and because I really felt like I needed to ... there's so much anger going on and there's so much "uhh" that it was making me feel just awful about everything."
"The modeling industry is completely what you make it. I've had a really great career but what some girls fail to understand is that it is a business like everything else. It's a job, not an opportunity for you and your friends to go away together a lot. You have to remember that the reason you're flying off to an exotic location is that you are there to deliver a job."
“The hardest part when I decided to move into acting was trusting I'd made the right decision.”
Thanks for the message, Anon. 😃 I’m happy to share the impressive list you’ve compiled of Caitríona’s quotes, and I hope people enjoy the walk down memory lane. As for the onslaught of criticism about her IFTA look…
One of the things you and I and everyone else are entitled to is an opinion. Some people liked her IFTA look, some did not. I sometimes post “fashion,” but have no expertise in that field, and I don’t necessarily like or dislike the garments or jewellery or footwear or accessories, or how they’re worn.
As for Standing Ground’s collections, unsupported breasts and nipples abound. I’d like to say it’s by design (wee pun), but I don’t know if it’s the designer’s intent in keeping with his natural scheme or if it’s the model’s choice to go braless. (If I were writing in DM, this is where I would say, “Blah blah blah.”)
What I do know, if I owned “the IFTA” dress and could wear it the way I chose, I would be wearing a bra. Everybody, every body, is different.
Most of the time, when I disagree with an opinion, I silently 🙄 or 🤦🏻♂️ or 🤯 or 🤬 or 😂, and scroll along my merry way. The odd time when I both 🤬 and chime in is when someone says it’s their opinion Caitríona is not married to Tony.
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Remember… opinion has caused more trouble on this little earth than plagues or earthquakes. — Voltaire
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Snow Ball | Steve Harrington x Fem! Reader.
a/n: This is a moderately short piece of writing I found in my notes 😃 it's one of the first ones I wrote in general like with Steve, so it's not as amazing as others, still I'm fond of it, hope you like it <3
It happens in the finale of the second season, on the same night as the winter formal. In this version Steve was going to attend the ball.
Warnings: Nothing, maybe a little bit of dislike towards Nancy, but only that (in my defense, I was very angry with her after what she did to Steve 😞).
Number of characters: 4,533
"Are you sure you don't want to go? We still have time to go to your house and find something you can wear" Steve muttered, looking at Y/N.
"I already told you I'm not going, Steve" she laughed, finishing adjusting the collar of his shirt, "The idea of going to a dance is dancing, and doing that with a broken foot doesn't sound like fun to me at all" she picked up the tie, ready to start adjusting it, "Besides, Nancy's going to the party, and I don't feel like seeing her tonight.
"I still don't understand why you hate her so much" He grabbed the car keys and hugged Y/N's waist to start down the stairs.
"I don't hate her, it's just that if given a choice between being with her or a wild tiger, I'd definitely choose the tiger."
"That sounds like you hate her to me" He opened the car door once they were outside, helping her into the passenger seat.
"We're going to go get Dustin, right?" She changed the subject quickly once he got in the car, she didn't feel like talking about Wheeler right now.
"That's right, after I pick him up I'll drop you off at your house" Steve started the engine and put the car in gear.
She nodded softly, opening the window to get some fresh air. The ride was silent, neither had a topic to talk about, and Y/N didn't want to distract him while driving either, so she preferred to stay quiet as they made their way to Dustin's house.
Unfortunately, Dustin had never been good at keeping quiet.
"Hi, Steve" The boy greeted as he got into the car with a big smile on his face, "Hi, Y/N."
"Hi, Dustin!" Y/N turned quickly to give him a high five.
"Are you ready to party, kiddo?" Steve started the car again, this time smiling big.
"Sure am!" He rested both hands on the seat backs, leaning out to look at them both "Are you going dressed like that, Y/N?"
"Oh, I'm not going" she lifted her leg as best she could, pointing at it with her hand "Fracture."
"Right, I forgot" he turned to look at Steve "Does that mean you don't have a date for the dance?"
"No, I might ask some other girl to be my partner for tonight, I'm not too worried about that."
"Dustin, keep a close eye on Steve, there's never a shortage of girls after the one with the girlfriend" Y/N joked, laughing under her breath.
"Roger that, Miss Y/L/N" He nodded proudly.
Steve just laughed as he parked the car in front of her house. She wasn't in the mood to spend the night watching Nightmare on Elm Street and eating whatever knick-knacks her parents had left behind before heading off to Grandma and Grandpa's house, but she didn't have a choice either.
"Well, gentlemen, I guess this is goodbye" she unbuckled her belt and opened the door, ready to have a 'spectacular' night "By the way, the suit looks great on you, Dustin."
The boy smiled at her, showing her his new teeth. She got out of the car and walked to the door, pulling out his keys to unlock it.
He turned to look at them one last time to wave goodbye.
Once inside her house she sighed heavily. She was exhausted by everything that had happened these past few days and couldn't understand how those guys had the energy to go to a party after the hell they went through.
Just as Y/N had predicted, today was nightmare on Elm Street, which meant spending an hour and a half watching youngsters being chased by a psychopath appearing in their dreams, while she enjoyed a nice jar of chips and a glass of booze.
She was getting to the part where Freddy was taking his first victim and, just then, her doorbell rang. Her paranoid side came out. She stood up, gripping the TV remote tightly in defense. Y/N turned the knob, ready to strike whoever was on the other end.
"Hello again."
It was Steve. He was no longer wearing his suit jacket, just his shirt and untucked tie.
"What are you doing here?" a sense of relief and happiness washed over her.
"I didn't feel comfortable being at a party while you were here, alone, so I decided to keep you company" he smiled as he held up his hands full of bags "And I brought burgers."
"God, you're the best non-boyfriend in the world" Y/N stepped back from the doorway so he could walk through, smiling big.
"What do you mean, not-boyfriend?" he asked teasingly, sitting down on the couch and setting the burgers on the little table.
"It's the term I put on our relationship, it will be that way until one of us takes the final step" she sat down next to him, resting her head on his shoulder.
After all, the night didn't turn out to be as boring as I thought it would be.
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#steve harrington x reader#stranger things#fanfic#steve harrington oneshot#stranger things au#steve harrington#stranger things fics#dustin henderson
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Hello, as the days count down and the Bad Batch finale draws closer, may I show to the fine folks of tumblr my first Star Wars OC in 20 years, created thanks to this show? 😃
Too bad, I'm showing them anyway 😊 somberly chilling while listening to their bestie talk.
Please excuse the poor background (I got lazy) and half-finished Tech (I got sad)
there's, uh, a big mess of words under the image because I wanted to put into words the importance this show has for me, and I am bad at doing so.
I want to get some thoughts off my chest, because I have no one in my day-to-day life who cares about the animated Star Wars shows, and especially the Bad Batch. (well, other than my mom, but I don't want to bore her with my rambling too much. she already banned star wars from me once, i won't let that happen again lol)
I can't stop thinking how much I don't want Bad Batch to end.
This show has been so dear to me. I can't remember the last time I've loved something this much.
Before the second season started, I had an artistic block that had lasted way too long. Anything I drew or wrote, mostly turned out a horrible mess after staring at a blank page for hours and hours, if I ever managed to create anything at all. For someone who tends to draw whenever their hands aren't otherwise busy (aka all the damn time), such a block weighed down on my mental health.
Well, then season two happened, and full-on gave me back my love for Star Wars, a love that had somewhat gone out over the last few years. Then, Plan 99 happened, and broke me because again my favorite character "died" (I'm in team Tech lives until I draw my last breath or until proven correct. That chocolate-eyed cutie-pie is alive nothing will convince me otherwise). Pretty much after finishing the episode and staring at a wall for another 30 minutes, I said "nope" and began writing.
I wrote for hours. I believe it's been well over a decade since I last wrote fanfiction, but here I was, creating a Star Wars oc, something I'd last done as a ten-year-old. And now, roughly a year later, I think I've written over a hundred pages of (very self-indulgent) fanfiction with the Batch, and with my oc that I've come to love.
And drawing, oh boy, have I been drawing!
(... Sure, I've mostly been drawing Tech, over and over again, to a point I once actually considered lying and saying "yeah that's my boyfriend haha!" to a man at my job last summer, when asked who it was that I was drawing for maybe fifth day in a row 😂 likely would've been a more acceptable excuse for someone my age. But, I mean... I just really love drawing him, not only because he is my favorite character of maybe all time, but because he is just so fun to draw! And most of all, at least I draw again!)
And it is all thanks to this wonderful show about a bunch of defective and effective copy-paste boys and their sister.
It's probably something many say, but I've always felt like a bit of an outsider. I've felt like I have no place; when I was a kid, my interests were very different from the other kids of [gender assigned at birth], and trying to play with them while inserting my own interests into the games, often didn't go so well. I was... kind of an odd child (although now, older and questionably wiser, knowing that I might actually be autistic, many things make more sense now. me kind of discovering this about myself is also partially thanks to Bad Batch)
Also, growing up trans/non-binary, while not even knowing what that is or having a word for it, didn't really do much to help with the feeling of "I'm different and an outsider because of it". Perhaps it was one more reason I fell in love with Clone Force 99, because I could see some of myself in them. Being different from the "regs".
I love this show, and these fictional people have become my family, and I am not ready to say goodbye to them.
Alright, weird pile of thoughts over. In case someone read all this, uh... thanks 😊
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i had been talking to a friend and we had an idea that had been stuck with me for a while😃
um. vampire au👀 mc can also be a vamp but VAMPIRE AU…Nicky with sharp teeth..hehe… and red glowing eyes…
apparently i lied when i said i wasnt very interested in Nicky anymore. i think its just seasonal. warm weather brings back the need to think ab him. time to go through my dusty old inbox and spout gibberish at the ghosts.
jealous of anon for having a friend to talk ab Nicky with fr. if only fictif didnt suck and get abandoned, I'd force my friends to play it.
AS HOT AS VAMPIRE NICKY WOULD BE...I HAVE TO TALK AB VAMP MC
poor Nicky trying to hide the fact that he, a catholic (or so he swears, despite not acting very catholic) sicilian mob boss, is in love with a chaotic arsonist (possibly queer as hell) vampire mc is so so funny.
Like. suddenly he's also completely nocturnal bc he wants to spend time around his love and Chris is like "dude you never wanna do meetings during the day anymore, why do i have to go to all your daytime meetings" and Nicky has to try to pass off an excuse.
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Chris: whatcha got there?
Nicky, holding a parasol over his vampire lover while holding their drink: alcohol :D
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also... him allowing mc to bite his neck and then practically begging for it next time you need blood bc surprise this 6 foot somethin' mafia boss found out he gets a lil hot, bothered, and submissive when you bite him and drink his blood. straddle his lap while doin it to feel the effects what who said that. anyway. uh. 👀
the absolute confusion this man would feel in terms of whats possible and his faith. can someone be catholic and horny for a vampire lover? surely he can bc he also finds it hot how "wrong" it is despite how good it feels. but yeah tbh he wouldnt think too much bc he canonically doesn't think too hard ab love he just goes with what he feels and doesnt question much further than that.
(side tangent: i adore him so much for being one of the only love interests I've ever seen that canonically uses no labels for his sexuality. no label representation. i adore that he doesnt wanna be put in a box. and its not just because he lives in the 1920s and doesnt have the word for his sexuality, he just truly doesnt vibe with labelling his sexuality. good for him. if you didnt know this, surprise! thats a fun fact from this dumbass who knows practically everything about his character bc i cant be chill about anything and must know everything)
anyway for example with my self insert(ish) mc: trans gay little vampire man who turns into a sgrunkly little bat and hangs from his chandelier in protest that Nicky had to go to a daytime meeting for once? Nicky comes out of the kitchen with a lil platter of fruits to lure him down for a cuddle by the fire place while sweetly apologizing bc god forbid he do his job and not suffer the wrath of a little clingy dustball squeaking at him.
OR NICKY TUCKING LITTLE BAT MC IN HIS COAT DURING THE DAY WHILE HE DOES HIS ROUNDS CHECKING ON HIS BUSINESSES?! he just reaches into his coat every now and then to give his love a little scritch on the head 😭 and everyone around him gets nervous that he's hiding something super valuable or dangerous that he doesnt wanna lose (which is true, but not in the way they think)
see also: Nicky getting into some trouble during the night and being all chill ab it and saying to the guys "oh im not the one you gotta be afraid of" and the guys laughing until guard dog Mc appears, absolutely pissed, hungry, and ready to hunt their fill for the night.
and mc just randomly one day being like "you realize im a good 200 years older than you, right." after Nicky says something that implies Mc is younger and Nicky immediately lights up and just begins asking baseball history questions, not even phased by Mc saying that. which is much to Mc's dread.
my brain worms have recently been obsessed with the concept of a mob boss falling in love with a vampire anyway, so this is prime thinks for me.
i shall continue rotating this in my mind.
#*goes back to staring at ceiling for the next 100 years*#i rlly just spout my bullshit and hobble back to my cave#does anyone care or understand? probably not. i dont either its okay#fictif two against the world#fictif tatw#eggy answers#fictif nicky valentino#fictif nicky#nicky tatw
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🖤🐺 Being MSBY's Manager 🐺🖤
Relationship problems with Atsumu
MSBY featuring Time!Skip Miya Atsumu x Female Manager
Warnings: angst to fluff, Swearing, poor self-care, unwanted advances/touching , blood mentions, ITS SO LONG 😭
A/N: absolutely no one requested this 😃 wrong, I requested this 😃😃 because I like to feel pain 🥲 this is for Atsupremacy and all my angsty bbys 💖 also I kind of want make this a series 🙃 maybe Sakusa next??
I'm 110% sure I'm an emotional masochist when it comes to fanfictions
I freaking LOVE angst to fluff
I want someone to rip my heart out, pick it back up, dust it off
Because the ground is gross and I don't want a dusty heart 😬
And then put it back together again, piece by piece
And since I made myself cry for writing mean Bokuto (coming May 10th 👀)
I thought I'd do it again 🙃
This time, with Atsumu
Now 🤚🏻 I know what your thinking
#bullyatsumu2022
And you would be correct ✅️
But Atsumu is also one of my favorite characters in the series
Which is why I bully him so much
It makes no sense right 🥰
Anyways, since I've been obsessed with MSBY lately, I thought "why not?"
So let's break some hearts shall we 🤗
First off, when you found yourself at the doors to the MSBY gym, you were definitely nervous
You had been a volleyball manager in high school and had loved it
This couldn't be much different right?
You were super sweet, calm in chaos and absolutely stunning
"Ok I can do this. YN you can do this"- you, jumping up and down a little and hyping yourself up
"Are you talking to yourself?"- a voice sounds from behind you
You turn to see a giant man with yellow-blonde hair looking down at you
"Ummm-yes?"- you say nervously
"You know, fans aren't allowed in here but you are a cute one"- he said, smiling at you
"Ohh I'm not a fan- wait, I AM a fan but I'm here to interview for the managers job. By the way, my name is YN"- you, bowing
The man just stood there, with hair that desperately needed toning, smiling at you
"ATSUMU- leave that poor girl alone"- a giant dark haired man yelled
"I was literally doing nothing-" Atsumu 😐
"Yeah we know what your NoThInG includes"- another dark haired curly man says
You just stare 👁👄👁
Please they are all Titans
Someone call Levi 🗣⚔️
"You must be YN- I'm so sorry about him. I'm Meian Shugo and this is Sakusa Kiyoomi"- Meian said, bowing
"Oh no! Really it's ok! I was uhh- talking to myself? "- you shaking your hands, now feeling awkward you admitted that out loud
Atsumu is now smirking at you in that kind of cute way
This one 👇🏻
"Well ok then! Follow me YN and we'll get started"- Meian laughing as he escorts you to the office
As you walk, you turn around to see Atsumu is staring at you and STILL SMIRKING
Is he cute? Yes
Does him watching you make you blush? Absolutely ☺️
"Hey Atsumu- let's go before Bokuto and Hinata burn the gym down"- Sakusa, looking back at Atsumu
"Yeah- yeah I'm coming"- Atsumu still smirking as he sticks his hands in his pockets and turns to leave
The absolutely STUNNING YN weighing heavily on his mind
A week after your interview, you were offered the job 🤗
Please you were ecstatic
Side note: I hate you, just know that 🥰
Another side note: I mean that in a very loving way YN
You're first day and you are both excited and nervous 😓
Seriously, you're literally like a logger handling giant trees YN ✋🏻
You walk into the gym and find Meian whose talking to a very Owlish looking man and a red-headed man
"HOLY CRAP- IS THAT OUR NEW MANAGER?"- The owl man says, excitedly as he bounds towards you
You brace yourself for impact just as an arm snatches you're waist and pulls you behind him
Atsumu is standing in front of you- hand on the chest of the bouncy man
"Bokuto, please don't kill YN before she even starts"- Meian, as him and a red-headed man approach
"Hi I'm Hinata! It's so nice to meet you. You are so pretty! Atsumu said you were hot but I definitely didn't believe you were this hot"- Hinata
Please Atsumu is so freaking mad 😡
"Hinata shut your trap or I won't set to you"- Atsumu, glaring at Hinata 😑
"Hey YN you should watch me hit some wicked cut shots! They can get past all the blockers!!"- Bokuto grabbing your hand as you giggle and follow along the giant man
"Bokuto please don't break YN, she's literally half your size"- Sakusa, coming from the locker room
"Yeah Bokuto, we want our manager to last longer than 3 minutes"- another man says coming out with two tall players
"Nice to meet you YN, I'm Inukaki, the libero of the team"
"And I'm Thomas, a middle blocker and this is Barnes, he's a wing spiker"- Thomas says, smiling at you
"It's very nice to meet you YN"- Barnes says, towering over you
"Well I guess I know who to ask for help getting stuff off high shelves"- You, shocked by his height
Everyone laughs as Bokuto continues to pull you towards the courts
"Bokuto honey, how about I finish setting up and then I watch you? You are going to need a sports drink for all those line and cross court shots!"- you, hyping Bokuto up
"Wait 🤚🏻 you know about my line shots??:- Bokuto, shocked 😲
"Of course I do! Everyone knows about Kotaro Bokuto, the famous ace from Fukurodani!"- you, eyes shining
"HEY HEY HEY- THATS ME!!"- Bokuto, now squeezing the life from you
Atsumu watches in pure jealousy 😒
Everyone else just looks at you 👁👄👁
"Let me help you YN so you can watch me do liners!"- Bokuto grabbing the crate as you laugh following him
You walk past Atsumu and see your chance
You stop next to him, go up on your tip toes and whisper in his ears
"His information is on the website and I know all about you Mr. All Japan setter"- you, smiling as Atsumu looks down at you
You wink 😉 as you walk away, Bokuto leading the way with his bubbly personality
Atsumu just gapes at you as you walk away
Please, he totally does that fist biting thing 😫
Ugh it's so hot
From that day forward, it's safe to say Mr. All Japan had a big crush on you
You proved yourself a very capable manager from day one, your ability to handle Bokuto, Hinata and Atsumu was a feat all it's own 👏🏻
"Atsumu that was an amazing set! Nice kill Hinata!"- you screaming as your boys score another amazing point
"You know YN, I think the guys really work harder with you cheering them on"- Barnes, towering over you as you cheer the boys on
"I'm glad! They really are amazing! Even Bokuto when he gets in his crazy emo modes"- you smiling and laughing
"Emo-mode is down significantly with you around YN"- Thomas, standing on the other side of you
Atsumu watches you as you smile and talk with his teammates
He can't help but think about you constantly
It's been 2 months since you started and everyday seems better than the last
Having feelings is new for Atsumu
Sure he's had lots of hookups and a few short lived relationships, but never a person he felt so strongly for
In a way, it kind of freaked him out
"You know you stare at YN like she might turn into a pumpkin at any second"- Sakusa, walking past Atsumu to get a drink
"Ohhh does someone have a crush??- Inunaki, probing
"Heck I wouldn't blame him, YN's hot"- Hinata
Atsumu glares at him and it's not missed by Sakusa
The teams resident Nosey Nancy 💅🏼
"Yeah you've got it bad-" Sakusa walking away
That night, you are cleaning up the gym while the guys change
At night, a local team comes to practice in a secondary gym located in the same building
You are just putting away the mop, when you step into the gym and see two men looking around
"Hello, can I help you?"- you, being polite
"Well hello there doll"- one of the men says
They are both tall, but not Barnes or Thomas tall, but still they tower over you
"Can I help you find the other gym? This is MSBY's official gym and it's not for public use"- you, still being a professional queen
"Oh we know babe, we just wanted to come see the absolute stunner that is MSBY's manager"- the other one says as they both look down at you and smirk
"Well here I am. Now if you will please leave, I need to lock up"- you, now getting a little angry
As 👏🏻 you 👏🏻 should 👏🏻
"Oh come on doll. Hey what would you say to helping us out? We could definitely use a gorgeous girl like yourself to stare at and give us inspiration"- one of the guys says
First off, gag 🤢
Second off, Miss Manager doesn't work for free 💅🏼
Just as you are about to ask the men to leave again, one of then puts his hand up to push your hair behind your ears
You slap at his hand ✋🏻
"Hey don't touch me!"- you backing away
The men advance on you as you back up towards the locker room doors
If you can just get to the doors, you can get the teams help
"Hey hey pretty girl- shhh, we won't hurt you"- one of them says, grabbing your upper arm
"HEY FUCKERS"- Atsumu shouts as he barrels towards the men
The man holding you pushed you off, causing you to fall as Atsumu runs up and punches the man in the face
You scream as the team rushes from the locker room
"What the fuck happened?"- Meian shouts as he sees you on the floor, now crying and Atsumu standing over a now blooded man
"Fuck- YN!"- Barnes yells as him and Sakusa run to you
"He fucking attacked us-" the other man shouts as Barnes helps you to your feet
"No he didnt!! You guys came in the gym and I asked you to leave! Then you grabbed me! Atsumu saved me!"- you, now standing as Barnes holds you
"You two realize that everything that happens in this gym is recorded right?"- Meian now approaching the men as Thomas pulls Atsumu back
Meian looks to Inunaki who nodds and runs to check the tapes
The men's faces pale as Meian stands over them, arms crossed
Atsumu turns to see you staring at him, eyes wide and red from crying
He goes to you as you leave Barnes for refuge in Atsumu's arms
"Shh its ok baby- its ok"- Atsumu says consoling you, whispering into your hair as he hold you
"Hey captain, YN was right! These two idiots came at her"- Inunaki, standing next to Meian who is now pissed
Meian and Thomas grab the men, pulling them towards the doors to the other gym
You take off, shooting out of Atsumu's arms as you follow behind
Atsumu, Sakusa, Barnes and Inunaki follow as Meian and Thomas drag the men in front of their team
"These two fuckers are permanently banned for anything and all things related to MSBY"- Meian says, shoving the men to the floor
"I'd advise you all find a new place to practice from here on out"- Thomas adds as MSBY turns to leave
Back in the gym, Hinata and Bokuto appear from the locker room looking at the blood on the floor
"We saw the tapes- YN are you ok?"- Hinata, approaching you
"Yeah YN, we are so sorry that happened"- Bokuto
"Atsumu handled it"- you say, looking at the man whose now standing right next to you, a secured arm around your waist
"Damn straight he did! Dude I'm saving that tape forever! The look on their faces when you plowed out that door! Priceless 👌🏻"- Inunaki, hyped up
But Atsumu fails to notice because he's too busy staring at you 😍
"Are you two gonna kiss or something?"- Hinata, breaking the awkward silence
"Eww please not in front of the team"- Sakusa, walking to get a bucket and mop
"I'll help Sakusa"- you say as Meian stops you
"Let Atsumu take you home YN. We have it handled"- Meian looking at Atsumu and nodding
Atsumu grabs your bag as you both head towards the door and to his car
"Wow, I would have never pegged you for a Nissan man"- you, as Atsumu opens the door for you
"It's a fast car baby and I love going fast"- he says, smirking at you 😏
Pls say less sir 🥵
Atsumu pulls up to your apartment and walks you up
"Well this is me"- you say, super awkwardly
Hey I never said you won any social awards YN ok 😅
You turn to see Atsumu standing close you and studying your face
"God you are so gorgeous and I just want to kiss you right now"- Atsumu
PLEASE GOD YN PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF CHRIST! IM BEGGING YOU 🙏🏻
"Then do it"- you say shyly but smug 😏
You know what your doing 💅🏼
Atsumu leans down, taking your mouth and OH SWEET MOTHER- 😫
The kiss to end all kisses 💋
Seriously MSBY Atsumu is an amazing kisser and you'll never be able to convince me otherwise
When he breaks the kiss, he rests his forehead against yours
"Perfect just like you"- Atsumu
God the man is good at laying it on THICCC- with 3cs
But he totally means it
"Dinner with me tomorrow night"- Atsumu, not even giving you an option
If I could have an ounce of this man's confidence ISTG-
You nodd as Atsumu kisses you lightly again, hand trailing down your arm as he whispers in your ear
"Go inside baby"- Atsumu
Freaking GOD when a man whispers in my eat I'm a literal puddle I CANT 😫
Atsumu watches you enter your apartment, as he waits for you
"Lock the door Yn and sleep well"- Atsumu, winking 😉 as he leaves your building
It's safe to say YN.exe has stopped functioning
After that night, Atsumu had you hook, line and sinker
You started spending more and more time together
Atsumu would pick you up every morning for practice
Unfortunately, that often meant getting yo at 5am
Because we ALL know this man would be at the gym bright and early
"YN- get your cute ass out of bed!"'- Atsumu, coming into your bedroom and pulling your covers off
You curl up and moan as you try and reach for the covers
"SUMU- IM TIRED"- you whine as Atsumu picks you up and takes you to the bathroom
"Here baby, I grabbed you a coffee"- Atsumu, handing a literal Gremlin her coffee
"It makes it really hard to hate you"- you
"🙃 you know you love me"- Atsumu says as he leaves to go into your kitchen
It wasn't the first time Atsumu had said this
The first time you thought nothing of it
Now the 10th time 👀
You began to wonder if perhaps he was feeling something more for you
Your routine continued over the next few months
When regular season games picked up, you noticed how the guys would become more tense
The match with the Scweiden Adlers was approaching and you could practically cut the tension with a knife 😬
You were tossing balls to Atsumu as Bokuto, Hinata and Sakusa went up to spike
You were tired, it had been a long day of meetings followed by training
You sent a ball that was a little too high, causing Atsumu to have to adjust and accidently hit the net
"Oh Im sor-" you started to speak, unfortunately for you, Atsumu beat you to it
"What the fuck was that YN? Can you try to get the ball closer to me please?"- Atsumu said, snipping at you
You were taken aback by his harsh tone
"I- I'm sorry Tsumu"- you, putting your head down
"Thank you. Now toss another one"- Atsumu said as you grabbed another ball and threw it up
Sakusa and Hinata watched your face fall when Atsumu scolded you
At the end of practice in the locker room, Sakusa spoke up
"You were kind of a dick to your girlfriend dude"- Sakusa to Atsumu who just looks at him
"Huh?"- Atsumu, clueless idiot 🙄
"It's not like she meant to toss the ball towards the net Tsumu. It happens, even in games. It's not like she did it on purpose"- Bokuto now interjecting
"I wasnt that harsh on her. Besides, it's good for her to learn. It is her job after all"- Atsumu, grabbing his bag and leaving the locker room
Sakusa, Hinata and Bokuto stare after him as he leaves
Atsumu catches up with you as you are walking to his car
"I'm just going to drop you off at your place tonight YN. I've got some footage of Tobio to review from last season and I'll probably be up late"- Atsumu
"Oh- umm I thought maybe I could cook for you tonight?"- you, hopefully
"Nah I'm good YN- Samu dropped some food off yesterday and I really want to get to those tapes"- Atsumu
You nod as you get in his car and head home
After that everything was fine and dandy 🥰
Just kidding 😂 we haven't had enough pain yet obviously
2 days before the match against the Adlers, a press conference was being held at the gym
Tons of reporters and cameras flocked the gym as the boys did interviews and photo shoots
You were talking with Meian and helping coordinate when you overheard Atsumu talking with a reporter
"So Atsumu, tell us about your personal life? What is the amazing MSBY setter up to off the court?"- the female reporter asks
You perk up, thinking about Atsumu telling the world about you makes your heart soar
Unfortunately your heart is then shot down and stomped all over
"Haha well- nothing too serious. Volleyball is my life and my passion. I live and breath this sport and my team"- Atsumu, smiling at the camera
Meian catches you watching Atsumu
Meaning he also catches you being utterly crushed by Atsumu's response
"Hey YN-" "I've got to go check on Bokuto. You know, make sure that big lug hasn't broken any cameras"- you smile, it's a completely fake smile and Meian knows it
He watches you walk, his mind working
2 days later, the match against the Adlers takes place
The crowd is excited and everyone is pumped
You and Atsumu had not seen much of each other the past few days, making your mood a little less enthusiastic
You tried hard to put a brave smiling face on for your team
As the match progressed, it was neck and neck the whole time
For every point MSBY scored, the Adler's added a point
Until Ushijima's final kill put the nail in the coffin ⚰️
MSBY had lost
The guys were down when they left the gym, Atsumu's face passive but his mood sour
After the match, you wait for Atsumu to appear
When he finally emerged, he walked past you
You ran to keep up with him, your legs working overtime
"It's was a good game Atsumu. You all played so well-" you, trying to help
"Yeah"- Atsumu
"Hey why don't you come over and I'll make your favorite?"- you, still running
"Nah I'm not in the mood YN. I'm just going to go home"- Atsumu, grumbling
"Atsumu, I don't think it's a good idea for you to be alone-" you, making complete sense
Atsumu stopped, looking over his shoulder at you
"And why would that be YN?"- Atsumu
"Well because I- I love you Atsumu and I care alot about you"- you, now with a soft smile on your face
Atsumu just blinks at you
Ok not the response we were going for-
"You are in love with me?"- Atsumu, half questioning and half repeating
"Yes- I really am"- you, still holding that smile
"And why did you think now of all times was a good time to bring your stupid infatuation with me up?"- Atsumu, his voice steady but still sharp
"Infatuation? What- Atsumu we are dating.."- You
"You know what YN, it's pretty sad and pathetic how much you lean on me for support. The fact that you need me to drag your ass out of bed every single day. The fact that you can't toss up a ball worth a shit. You really think I'd be in love with someone like that?"- Atsumu, now shouting
"Atsumu you don't mean that-" you, eyes now filling with tears as you try to remain calm
"I wish I wouldn't have saved you that day in the gym"- Atsumu muttered under his breath
"W-what?"- you, now completely shattered
Now Sakusa, Meian and Barnes have gathered behind you
"You fucking heard me YN- I wish I never would have helped you that day!"- Atsumu, now in your face as you cower back
Tears streaming down your face as your heart breaks into a million unmendable pieces
"I hate you Miya Atsumu"- you say below your breath as you ram into his shoulder, quickly running out of the building
Atsumu stands there, his anger radiating
Meian and Sakusa run past looking for you as Barnes stays behind
"Atsumu, man- what the hell?"- Barnes
"I'm going home" Atsumu says, turning and heading to his car
Meanwhile, the cold air bites at your skin as you walk home
Your tears stain your face as they continue in a non-stop stream down your face
You can't believe Atsumu would say those things to you
That he could even think anything like that
Your phone vibrates as you see messages and calls pop up from Meian and Sakusa
You put your phone on silent as you continue your walk home
"I couldn't find her"- Meian says running back into the gym
"She must have walked home"- Barnes
"She lives at least 5 miles from here! She'll freeze"- Sakusa
"Does anyone know the route she takes home?"- Barnes
"I think Atsumu takes her on the main road"- Hinata
"Ok let's go. Sakusa, you and Bokuto take the side streets"- Meian
"I'll wait here incase she comes back"- Barnes
"I'm going to her apartment"- Inunaki says as Thomas nodds
"What the fuck got into Atsumu?"- Meian
"Hes been pushing her away for a few weeks. He's been really hard on her. I just didn't expect it to end like this"- Sakusa
Meanwhile, Atsumu arrives at his apartment
He walks in, seeing the vase of flowers you had bought from the farmers market on his table
Filled with anger, he picked up the vase and threw it at the wall
"FUCK!! FUCK FUCK FUCK!"- atsumu screamed as he punched the wall, knocking a picture of you both down
The picture shattered as it hit the floor
Atsumu left, walking into his room and slamming the door
"Just one night miss?"- the lady at the front desk of the hotel asked
You nod as you take your key and head to your hotel room
You couldn't make it back to your apartment
The air was cold and your body was so tired from crying
You settle in, removing your clothes as you enter the shower
The water pelts your face and head as the memories of Tsumu come flooding back
The tears start as you sink to the floor of the shower, crying uncontrollably
Interjection time 🤗
This is super serious guys, I'm like super hella crying 😭
I wanted pain, gave myself pain and now I want it taken away 💔
Ok ok back at it 😅
You emerge from the bathroom to see over 50 missed calls from Sakusa, Meian and the guys
You decide its best to let them know your safe
You create a group chat and message
"I'm safe"
Turning your phone off, you roll over to try and sleep
The nights events replaying on your mind
"You really think I'd be in love with someone like that?" The words ring in your ears as your chest tightens
The tears you once had, no longer falling
The next day, Atsumu pulls up to the gym
He's exhausted and in a horrible mood
Good you asshole 🖕🏻
He thought about what he said to you all night long
The words replaying in his mind
He thought about you and how much he regretted every single thing he said
The truth was, he failed
He failed at being a setter, failed against the Adlers and in his mind, failed you
As he walked into the gym, his body tensed as he saw the team all huddled together
He looked around, noting you were absent
"Atsumu- I see you didn't get my text"- Meian, crossing his arms
"Text? No my phones been off all night. Why?"- Atsumu now looking confused
"No practice for you today"- Meian says, turning and walking away
The guys all follow suit, Bokuto shaking his head
"What? Wait- why? Where is YN?"- Atsumu, starting to get concerned
"She's not here. We don't know where she is only that she's safe"- Barnes says, jerking his head towards Atsumu
"What do you mean you don't know where she is? Didn't anyone take her home last night?"- Atsumu, being a dumbass
"You must be the stupidest fucking person on this earth Atsumu. Yn ran out when you absolutely shattered her heart and we couldn't find her"- Sakusa
Thank you Sakusa for your service 👏🏻
"She-she didn't come back?"- Atsumu, his bag now dropping to the floor
His head was pounding, thoughts of you alone in the city making his eyes burn
"Atsumu, we understand you were upset but man, what you said to YN. That was unforgivable"- Meian, looking at Atsumu who has tears filling his eyes
"Go home. Rest. Come back tomorrow"- Thomas says as the men turn
Atsumu doesn't even fight it
Honestly the first warning bell right there 👏🏻
In his car, he pulls out his phone and calls you
"Hi this is YN, Manager of the MSBY Black Jackels! I'm sorry I can't answer your call right now but leave your name and number and I'll get back to you! Have a lovely day! "- *beep*
The mere sound of your voice set Atsumu off, he slammed his hand on his steering wheel, screaming and cursing as tears flowed down his already damp cheeks
You woke up, your body cold and head pounding as you made your way out of your hotel room
You found a nearby taxi, making your way to your apartment as the numbness of your mind settled in
It's like when you finally come to terms with something and it just hits you again once 😭
You open your apartment door, entered and locked it
Not even bothering with your clothes, you fell into bed, covering your body up in an attempt to feel warm
Everything was so cold and dark
No matter how hard you tried, you couldn't get past the feeling
The next day you walked into the guy as the guys stared at you
Literally these goons are like 👁👄👁
Like how fantastic 😃
"YN, hey hey hey"- Bokuto says approaching you slowly
You smile a little at him, your mind and brain still numb
"Hey bo"- you say, walking past him to the office to grab your papers
Atsumu watched from afar, afraid to approach you
You didn't spare him a single glance as you made your way about your duties
Atsumu doesn't approach you just yet
He'll he's glad you showed up at all
He watches you from a distance as you interact with the team
At the end of practice, he quickly changes and waits to see you leave
You say goodnight as you walk out the gym doors, headed down the street towards your apartment
You're walking home? Shit!
Please Atsumu doesn't want anything to happen to you and the mans has had more than enough time to think
He watches you walk as he gets in his car and follows a ways behind
Creepy? Yes
Reassuring? Also yes
You know what he's doing and you can't help but feel a little bit of satisfaction knowing he's hurting
You wake up drained
You body hurts, your head is pounding and your exhausted
Admittedly, you haven't been taking care of yourself
You routine has consisted of work, home, shower, bed
It's been over a week and your manager uniform is loosening
"Shit-" you mutter as you opt for leggings and a MSBY t-shit
When you enter the gym, you greet everyone with a wave
Despite your exhausted state, you have a job to do
Again, Atsumu watches you from the sidelines as you head to the office
Meian comes in, closing the door behind him
"Hey, what's up?"- you
"YN you're miserable go home"- Meian
"And it's nice to see you as well"- you say, your hands now at your hips
"Hello YN, now go home"- Meian
"No, the Adlers are stopping by today and I need to be here"- you, sorting papers
"You need to rest"- Meian
"I'll rest when I'm dead"- you
Honestly mood 💅🏼
Just as Meian is about to say something, Thomas announces that the Alder's have arrived
You pick up your clipboard and make your way out to the floor
You stand next to Barnes as Meian and the Adlers captain, Hirugami speak
You notice Kageyama looking at you from the side of his eye
When you go to look back, he looks back at the captains... face awkward 😐
You can't help but smile at Kageyama's weird behavior
But you know who isn't smiling 🙃 yep
Atsumu is staring daggers at Kageyama
And of course, Sakusa notices and oh boy is he excited 🤪
"YN will help you guys get set up"- Meian says, gesturing to you as you nod and turn
"No!"- Atsumu shouts as he blocks the Adlers from your view
"Atsumu what-" you, turning to look at him
"Atsumu knock it off!"- Meian, growling
Freaking GROWLING 🤤
Please I'm such a Meian simp I can't ✋🏻
"Sorry-" Atsumu says, moving away as you look at him and turn to walk with the Adlers
"Well that was awkward"- Inunaki, breaking the silence
"Alright enough- let's get to it"- Meian, shouting
During the whole game, Atsumu struggled to focus
His eyes searched for yours as you wrote notes and talked with the teams
On your way back from the water fountain, you entered the gym to hear the sounds of volleyballs smacking the floor
"YN WATCH OUT"- Barnes shouted as a ball came at you
You quickly ducked as you braced of impact
Only it never came 🤨
You peer up to see Kageyama standing over you and offering you a hand
"Hey are you ok?"- he says, lifting you up
"Yeah thanks to you"- you smiling up at him
Atsumu watches as his body heats and his fists clench in rage
Without knowledge, he steps forward in your direction, only to be stopped by Bokuto
"Tsumu no"- Bokuto, the voice of reason
Never thought I'd say that 🤣
You turn to see Bokuto hold Atsumu back as you quickly smile at Kageyama and return to your duties
By the end of the day, you're exhausted
All you want to do is sleep
And to make matters worse, it's freaking raining 🌧
Like for real right now😐
You sigh as you pull your hood up and reach for the door
"Let me take you home Yn"- Atsumu says from besides you
"I'm good but thanks"- you staring out the glass door
"YN I know you know I follow you home every night. Just let me take you home"- Atsumu, practically holding his breath
You gulp and look out the windows, trying hard not to cry but a tear sneaks past
"Come on YN, please?"- Atsumu
You nod as Atsumu opens the door and you walk in silence to his car
Your body hurts as you move slowly, getting in the car and shivering
"Are you cold?"- Atsumu, concerned
"Yeah a little-" you say, quietly
Atsumu cranks the heat as he pulls off to your apartment
He can tell from your frame you've lost weight
The fact that you wore leggings and a t-shirt instead of your managers jogging suit concerned him
Your eyes were sunken in and your lips looked dry
Your normally perfect, beautiful hair was limp
Atsumu pulled up to you apartment
"Thanks"- you said, a small smile grazing your lips as you open the door
"YN wait- please can we talk?"- Atsumu
You gulp, trying hard to steady your breathing as the words come out
"I don't have anything to say Atsumu"- you, fiddling with your fingers
"Then will you listen while I talk?"- Atsumu
You sigh softly, nodding a small yes as Atsumu starts
"YN you can't imagine how sorry I am for what I said. I took out my anger the last few weeks on you and I'm so incredibly sorry. You've been nothing but supportive and I completely took you for granted. When you confessed to me, it just, it just didn't feel real. How could you love a loser like me? Someone who can't even win a game for their own team. I just- I just didn't think YN. But please believe me when I say I love you. And I think I've loved you from the first moment I saw you talking to yourself outside the gym doors. Please YN, please believe me"- Atsumu, tears now filling his eyes as he looks at you
Your vision blurs as your eyes lock on his
"Thank you Atsumu"- you say, opening the door as you exit his car and walk to your apartments entrance
Atsumu watches you go as the tears flow, his heart breaking like he broke yours
The next day, you awake with a headache again
Atsumu's words fill your brain as you make your way to work
The gym is busy as you enter, waving to your boys
Atsumu watches you as you go about your tasks
Only something feels off about today
He notices your rubbing your temples and decides to approach you
Unlucky for you, your headache has mounted as your vision starts to blur
"Hey YN- YN are you ok?"- Atsumu approaching you
Your eyes glaze over as you step forward, body failing as you fall
"Fuck!"- Atsumu shouts, catching you as your body completely fails
"Jesus christ YN!"- Meian says running to you
"I'm going to call an ambulance"- Sakusa shouts as Atsumu lays you down
"Fuck YN- baby can you hear me? Yn!"- Atsumu, shouting
Only, you are too far out of it to notice
Seriously why do I do this to myself 🥲
The ambulance arrives and secures you to the stretcher as Atsumu runs behind
"I'm riding with her!"- Atsumu
"We'll meet you there!"- Hinata yells as the men all rush to the locker rooms
In the ambulance, they hook up and IV to you as you begin to come around
Atsumu watches as your eyes open and look around
"Where- where am I? Tsumu?"- you, your eyes watering, panic setting in
"You collapsed at practice YN. An ambulance is taking you to the hospital baby. Just stay calm ok"- Atsumu says as he grabs your hand
You squeeze it back, making his heart flutter
At the hospital, the doctors wheel you into a room to begin an evaluation
"Sir will you please wait outside?"- a nurse
"What? No- I'm not leaving my girlfriend"- Atsumu
"Tsumu, I'm scared"- you whimpering as the doctors check you over
Atsumu runs to your side, kissing your forehead as he pushes your hair back
"Shhh baby it's ok alright? I'm not leaving you"- Atsumu
After a few hours, you manage to fall asleep with the help of meds as Atsumu walks out to find the entire MSBY team filling the waiting area
"Hey Tsumu- is YN ok?"- Barnes says as Meian heads towards him
"Severe dehydration and pneumonia"- Atsumu says, sitting down defeated
"Well shit-" Thomas says
"She's in the best place man. We should be lucky it happened at the gym when we were with her. She could of fell and hit her head"- Sakusa interjects
"It shouldn't have happened at all- and now I have to live with that"- Atsumu says, head down and arms rested on his thighs
"Tsumu"-
"I've fucked up so bad and I could have lost her! She could have died if that would have happened anywhere but the gym! And I'm the reason for it!"- Atsumu, his emotions now overwhelming him
"Atsumu stop"- Hinata
"The women I love, the one I want to spend the rest of my life with and I causes this. I'm such a FUCKING PRICK!"- Atsumu, now shouting and standing up
Please Atsumu we are in a hospital 🤚🏻 chill my dude
"Well it's nice to hear you finally admit it"- Meian says, crossing his arms over his chest
Please Atsumu is just like 👁👄👁 huh-
"You were the BIGGEST prick to YN and you finally admitted it. Good for you. But now, what are you going to do about it?"- Meian, smirking
"That girl in there loves you"- Thomas
"-even thought you're a fucking dick"- Inunaki
"And a selfish asshole"- Bokuto
"And a royal doo doo head"- Hinata
Please everyone looks at Hinata and he just shrugs 🤷♂️ 😭
"Now what are you going to do about it?"- Sakusa says
👏🏻 👏🏻 👏🏻 👏🏻
Atsumu wandered back into your room to see you awake and sitting up
"If it isn't me being a burden again"- you chuckle lightly
Pls YN my heart is already broken 💔 😭
"YN you were never a burden to me. You are the only one who can stand me half the time!"- Atsumu
"I'd say it's more like 80% of the time but proceed"- you
Please not YN taking stabs at Atsumu in her hospital bed 🤣
Atsumu laughed and nodded
"You know YN, I don't think I've ever been more scared than I was just a few hours ago. The thought of losing the woman I loved and it being my fault.. it broke me more than anything I've ever done in my entire life"- Atsumu, now sitting on your bed, soap opera style 💅🏼
Your eyes widen 😳
"You really love me Atsumu?"- you, tears now welling up in your eyes
"Yeah, I've loved you for a long time. And I know I was a total ass and I don't deserve you but I'd give anything to have the chance to keep loving you"- Atsumu
"I don't know Atsumu. I'll have to think about it"- you, trying not to laugh
Please he deserves to be tortured
The truth is you started to forgive him the night he took you home
"W-what??"- Atsumu, kind of shocked
Please he did not expect it to go this way
"Can you give me some time?"- you still trying not to break face
We make men suffer YN 😏
"Oh ok- I'll just leave then"- Atsumu, so deflated he looks worse than Bokuto in one of this emo moods
Please YN end his misery 😫
"Atsumu wait"- you, still trying hard not to laugh at how dejected this man looks
"I just wanted to let you know that I love you"- you, now smiling
Atsumu, so confused 👉🏻😃 whet-
"Get over here you big dumb idiot"- you, opening your arms
Please Atsumu is not so relieved, mand will RUN 🏃♂️ to your arms
"God YN!! Thank you! Thank you so much!"- Atsumu now crying on your shoulder
He stands up a little, kissing you lightly as he rests his forehead against yours
"*ahem* a voice says from behind them
"Miss LN, you'll need to stay overnight tonight for observation. I'm sorry sir but visiting hours are over"- the nurse says
"-but I didn't even get to see the team"- you, your eyes not filling with teams
"Ma'am please- its been a long day. Can she please see our friends?"- Atsumu, willing to do anything to make you stop crying
"Oh alright. You have 30 minutes. I'll grab them"- the nurse
Soon the team floods your room
And you soon realize you need a bigger room 🤣
"You two ok?"- Meian says, giving you a hug as he looks between you and Atsumu
"We're getting there"- Atsumu says smiling at you
"Hey hey hey YN!!"- Bokuto squeezing you
"Bo please your breaking my back"- you, patting his shoulder
Please Sakusa is double masking in the corner
"Hello YN"- he says waving at you
"YN maybe don't this again YN. As fun as it was to have a day off, I'd rather NOT be stuck in a hospital"- Inunaki
"I'll try"- you say, giggling
Soon visiting hours are over and Atsumu is refusing to leave
Please he turns literal child
"I'm not going!"- Atsumu crossing his arms and huffing
"And what good will it do you to stay? Yn needs rest"- Barnes
"Sumu I'll be ok"- you, sad Atsumu has to leave
"Atsumu, you can come back at 7am tomorrow. You both need a good rest"- Thomas
"I'm sorry gentlemen but it's time to leave"- the nurse
Your eyes tear up a little as you wait patiently for your team to leave
Atsumu steps close to you
"I said I'm not leaving"- Atsumu, squeezing your hand
The nurse looks at you, smiling at Atsumu and sighs
"Fine but the rest of you need to please leave. Visiting resumes tomorrow at 7am"- the nurse, now walking out
"You guys need anything before we go"- Meian
"Nah we're good but I-" Atsumu
"We know dude. Don't worry about it. Just take care of YN"- Barnes, knowing Atsumu wouldn't be in for training the next day
As the boys leave, you scoot over allowing Atsumu to lay next to you
He lays down, putting his arm behind you and holding you close
"You know, this isn't how I imagined our reunion to be"- Atsumu
"Yeah, I didn't expect to forgive you"- You, snickering
"Ouch- ok I deserve that"- Atsumu
"You do but I really do love you Sumu"- You
"And I love you YN"- Atsumu
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#Atsupremacy#haikyu!#haikyuu#haikyuu!!#haikyu#haikyū!!#haikyu x female reader#haikyu x you#haikyu x y/n#haikyu x reader#miya atsumu#atsumu x y/n#atsumu x female reader#atsumu x reader#atsumu x you#atsumu x yn#atsumu x fem! reader#msby four#msby manager#msby headcanons#hq atsumu#hq msby#msby x female reader#msby x y/n#msby x reader#msby scenarios#angst to fluff headcannons#angst to fluff#msby black jackal#msby
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Fun little AU Nikia ideas while I pretend like it's not 2 AM and I should be asleep 😃
Just for clarification, OG Nikia right now is a very introverted elite ranger who lives in a cabin on a mountain in perpetual winter with giant ass wings by nature and a devil fruit to alter her size (whole or in parts).
Summer Isle AU, Nikia is a life guard beach babe who talks to no one because the only change here is she prefers summer and is okay existing around other people lol (Thatch suffers because there's only so many times he can pretend to drown well enough to fool her before he gets slapped clear to Impel Down and he's not scoundrel enough to do it but really wants to be personally saved by an 'angel'). No devil fruit because how you gonna rescue people in the ocean if you're a drowning risk yourself???
Spa AU Nikia where she's got a different devil fruit and doesn't hate the thought of touching strangers so much. So she works in the spas with her 'dream sheep' devil fruit that puts people to sleep with weird (occasionally prophetic) dreams. Hair is a fluffy, curly cloud when active and she kicks like a mule. Still has her wings but they put off cloud vapor like crazy. Very easily blends with clouds when flying.
Mermaid AU Nikia where shes basically half mermaid. Unsure what her wings would be... Either more like fins or covered in feathery filaments. As much as I like moon jellyfish (not sure how I'd accomplish that one specifically), as well as tetras, there's simply no funnier option than flying fish. Though I'd be tempted to do an eel or octopus as well just for shenanigans like stealing things when someone looks away or excessive cuddling for fluff. Preferably something venomous for added danger lol (Thatch would face many fishy allegations and beat none of them in this au).
Star fruit AU where she's still antisocial on the mountain but with a devil fruit that enables her to make stars. Enjoys casting them into the night sky and making her own light, not fond of the dark in this AU. Her eyes have stars in them that glow and she doesn't tell anyone but she can make wishing stars. Sometimes little stars get stuck in her hair and wings cause they don't wash out, they have to be physically removed by hand. For fun, she'll give herself freckles. Thatch gets to suffer from how cute it all is but will not be complaining, most agree with him.
Marine AU where the job market of her island (not the sister Summer and Winter Isles) is so bad the only real paying jobs are civilian contractor for the marine base nearby. Too out of the way to get 'real' Marines but still too close to an important trade route to go unguarded. There's a volcano on the island that's getting closer to blowing every year as the inhabitants scramble to earn enough money to live elsewhere, the government no help at all. Due to the shitty economy and frequent earthquakes, most buildings are especially vulnerable to strong forces, making everyone very nervous when the only real marine on base manages to catch and imprison a pirate. A Whitebeard Commander specifically. Nikia ends up as his guard and openly admits she's just waiting for his crew to arrive before he 'escapes' so her home can remain standing a little longer. Of course, things go awry and she ends up getting pretty badly injured protecting Thatch from the worst of the building falling apart. He can't just let that go, so it looks like she gets to leave sooner than expected. Not sure if she still has wings in this one. I want her to though...
Obligatory O/B/A. She doesn't have a devil fruit in this one, and I run wild with some less porn-specific ideas for how dynamics work. She's an omega but effectively lives as a beta with what I call 'puppy heats' every few months. It's the urge to nest, hoard resources, and occasionally cuddle people she's close to without any real need for sex. So none of that 'slick' or mindless lusting (as fun as it is to read, I'll fully admit). Less severe than full blown heats, hence the odd term. Her cabin is effectively her nest, and she's a bit... Brutal defending it from outside threats, particularly around her heat. Tends to molt before her heat and knows how bad it's going to be by how the molting goes. Lots of sleepy cuddles in this one. And yes, I imagine Thatch has at least strong alpha tendencies if he's not an alpha. I have a type and I'm only a little ashamed about that.
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Black Walnut Bath
Here is the a bath to help with relationship ending - the Black Walnut Bath.
The Black Walnuts will help obliterate any emotions you have toward anyone. They put you back into a neutral state of emotions which is where you want to be once you've moved forward from your past relationship.
(Now you don't have to be use for relationships any bad feeling or emotions towards any one this can help)
Black Walnuts still in their fruit pods are used for this bath. The fruits have a very dark juice in them that will stain everything in sight, so this should be done outdoors in a metal wash tub or bowl, but don't use your indoor tub it stains.
Black walnuts can be bought whole online, or you can buy the wash online or at a botanica.
As an additional note, this wask (bath) is should be done in the nude or if you have old clothes you don't mine getting stained then thrown away then do that. This can be done day or night just making a place where you have privacy. Especially if your nude. 😃
Preparing the bath: (note) if your doing another practice like wicca for instance you can work the moon phases, I would recommend the dark moon)
If your making your own bthus I'd how.
Start by placeing 9 black walnuts, still in their husks in a large pot full of water (2-3 quarts). Bring them to a boil, and continue to cook them until the water is very dark. Remove the walnuts from the water, and add the dark fluid into a larger basin of bath-temperature water. Take the basin outside where you'll be performing your bath.
Outside, set up a large metal washtub on the ground. Or bowl if prefered. Light a black candle and set it near where you'll be taking your bath.
Disrobe if you like and stand inside the large metal washtub. Now pour the black walnut wash (bath) over your head. As you do so, recite Psalm 51: "
(If you are wiccan, pagan etc you can preform this with your coven or sisters or have them do it for you it makes it that much more powerful)
Squeeze the excess water off starting from your head down to your feet, continuing to pray the 51st Psalm. Then air dry.
Now, gather up a bit of the used bathwater and disposed of it)
Return to where you bathed, dress in new clean clothes, dump the rest of your bath out on the earth, and gather your belongings and head home. You can continue to burn the black candle on your working surface at home.
You will no longer feel anything at all toward that person. Your emotions will be neutralized and you'll find peace in your heart from then onward.
This is powerful and can also be used with a spell as well. ( Check my previous post)
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Hi Lena! I was wondering, which of the characters are most popular among your friends/family who have played shoh?
Hi anon, you might find this a bit weird, but I have never shown ShoH to any of my friends or family--they all know I'm working on a game, but I won't tell them what the name is or anything about it! 🥹😂 This is my modus operandi as an author and has been since I was young... I'm an extremely solitary writer, to the point where my professors and thesis directors would comment on it: even when I was in grad school, they knew I just sort of put my head down and did my own thing once left to my own devices, and that's when I do my best work! My creative process just tends to be really introverted and independent: I know what I want to accomplish and, while feedback always cheers and motivates me, I don't feel inclined to share with my non-writer loved ones until the whole thing is done! Even my editor and agent are aware that I don't talk about or share snippets of in-progress stuff; they just get the whole behemoth in its finished form at the end, or they get nothing! 🤣
So I don't talk about what I'm working on or show it to anybody in my offline social circle until it's completely finished and published! I can't explain exactly why, but I hate talking about my work or am very shy when it's the main topic of discussion (except in workshop/class/professional settings), especially when it comes to friends and family--even though they are beyond supportive, loving, and encouraging! It's a me thing, not them. So I avoid sharing it at all costs until it's done, set in stone, polished to its best form, and there's nothing to influence/change/doubt anymore because it's out there and pretty much out of my hands! (For example, I don't think I could write Chase or Tallys's thirst trap FWB routes as freely if I think there's even a chance of, like, my little sister or something reading along as I write it, so I just treat them as completely separate, divorced worlds and do whatever I want with total freedom until it's too late to worry about it!) It's worked out so far!
The only one who really knows about Shepherds is my partner, but he hasn't read beyond the Prologue because he always gets stuck reading the first chapter of something and then having to wait literal years on the edge of his seat until I'm done with the whole thing (this is happening with my current novel, too); because I always want to see his reactions to the final product rather than being "spoiled" while it's a WIP! But that means he gets teased with a really tantalizing beginning and then has to wait on agonized tenterhooks until I decide to end the torment. 😃 The only exception was when I was writing We Have Always Been Here: after several months of writer's block and tearing my hair out over it (and before I'd gotten my agent or editor), I finally caved and asked him to read what I had, we hashed it out, and I had an epiphany and completely burned that draft to the ground and started over. (Its main premise was fundamentally flawed, hence the writer's block: if you've read WHABH, you'll be interested/similarly mortified to know that the first version had aliens in it.) Then he read the new manuscript before I submitted it to my agent, and then read the book again when it came out, so in the end he had read three versions of the same story by the time it was published. So there were no surprises left for him, which wasn't as fun for me! He was thrilled to do it, but I wanted to see his awe and excitement and 'wow!' reactions when I was finally finished and proud of the final product, not when I was in the weeds with a draft I was ultimately going to slaughter anyway. 😂 So for Shepherds and everything else moving forward, I'm not letting him read anything until it's done!
We have joked here and there about livestreaming his reactions when he finally gets to read the whole thing for the first time, because I just know he's going to be shook and his reactions are always the best 🤣 I've kept all the big story details quiet to really get the most out of his patience, so he will be going in pretty much completely blind... All he really knows is that Blade's stock was initially the highest among fans, and his character went 👀 when meeting Tallys for the first time, but I truly don't know what else will happen with him beyond that... I'll be sure to keep a log when that time comes, if people are as curious as me!
Thanks for your question!
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What's your HC for the girl Tobias and Ethan fell for at med school?
I'd never really put much thought into it before, but I absolutely loved coming up with this 😃
During med school Ethan was always very serious and focused on his studies (unsurprisingly). Tobias took things seriously, but he also liked to have fun and spend time with different people, so he insisted that Ethan let his hair down once in a while and socialise with the other students. Ethan reluctantly agreed and they did end up with a group of friends, well more like acquaintances in Ethan's eyes, but he did become rather fond of one girl called Abigail Murphy.
Abigail was smart, quick witted and beautiful (which didn't go unnoticed by Ethan.) She was also super focused on her studies, so she and Ethan would spend time alone studying and talking about various papers they had read. It wasn't long before Ethan developed feelings and was pretty smitten. Ethan being Ethan, kept the feelings to himself and was very good at hiding them – not wanting to let himself get too distracted. Abi was pretty crazy about him, but because Ethan was so hard to read, she didn't realise that the feeling was very much mutual.
It got to a point where some of their late night study sessions ended with them in bed together, but because Ethan was trying so hard to stop himself falling hard, he still wouldn't admit to his feelings, so Abi mistook it as him only wanting something casual from her. Eventually Ethan put a block on their more romantic interactions and coincidently it was during this period that Tobias made a move.
Tobias had had a crush on her for some time and was pretty oblivious to what had gone on between her and Ethan (mainly because neither of them really spoke about it with anyone else), but at the very least he knew Ethan had feelings towards her. In most cases bro code would've prevented Tobias from making a move (at least not without speaking to Ethan first), but the crazy competitiveness between them took over and Tobias just went for it. Abi agreed to a date with him, she liked him a lot – not anywhere near as much as she liked Ethan – but she didn't think Ethan wanted anything romantic from her.
Obviously Ethan was internally consumed with jealousy, but heaven forbid he should actually talk about his feelings. He could've taken the opportunity to tell her that he wanted to be with her, but instead he put up more of a wall between them. They still remained friends, but it wasn't the same.
It was another nail in the coffin as far as Ethan and Tobias's friendship was concerned (the competitiveness in other areas was already taking its toll), so he stepped back from him as well and just left them to it. They dated for several months before it fizzled out.
By the end of med school Ethan and Tobias hadn't spoken for months and Ethan and Abi barely saw each other, but unbeknownst to either of them, they were still very much pining for the other. They lost touch after their residencies started.
Thank you so much for this ask anon ❤❤
#i really got into this#i even have a fc for abi 😆#ethan ramsey#tobias carrick#abigail murphy#headcannons
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If you've ever wondered how long it takes to water root a ZZ plant (like me), here's my experience so far!
Unfortunately I didn't take a pic when I first removed these two stems from the original pot, so I don't remember when that was exactly. However I can say with confidence that the first root tips didn't take too long to show up. Not at all longer than with any other plant, which did surprise me a great deal! The jar has been sitting atop a stone windowsill that gets warm-ish during the winter due to the heater below it, though, so I'm pretty sure this helped a lot with kick-starting root growth.
That said, I'd removed the stems from the pot because they'd been been getting very very wrinkly and sad with thin floppy leaves (root issues because I didn't water it correctly/ because the substrate isn't great for succulents). I actually didn't have a lot of hope for them because of the sad condition they were in, but I still wanted to at least try to save them.
First I generously cut off the base with the dried/ dead/ mushy roots. Then let that dry overnight before putting it in a jar with water (I think I also put cinnamon powder on them). After just 2-3 days the bases started to get slimy and rot, so I did everything over from scratch. The second time had the exact same result, so it obviously wasn't working for me, even though most of the internet seems to do it that way with great success.
So I cut off the rotting parts for a 3rd time and decided to just stick the freshly cut stems into the water and hope for the best. After a couple of days I noticed the very ends were expanding, but it looked different from before and it also wasn't (as?) slimy, so I just left them in the water.
Maybe after 2-3 weeks I noticed the tiny little root sprouts that you can see in the first picture. Let me tell you that this completely blew my mind! I'm still so happy it worked 😭💘
I didn't do a lot of maintenance except for refilling water as needed and changing the water (and cleaning the jar in the process) only once or twice when it started to get too murky/ dirty and once the roots got to a certain size I changed the jar for something much bigger so the roots and bulbs would fit through the opening later on.
They're still doing really well in there, although root growth seems to have slowed down during the last weeks. As long as they're fine I don't mind though 😃
Not sure if I'll put them back in with the mother plant at some point, but considering I'm going to lose a lot of space in the new apartment that's probably the best thing to do. I'll have to change the substrate, though. The one in the original pot is just way too fine and holds too much water.
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Bonus pic of the regular green ZZ I'd gotten from my sister last spring:
At least this one is doing great in it's pot and substrate 😂 It had lost 2 stems, but shortly after that 2 new ones sprouted, so yay!
Still didn't get to repotting it, but the new pots have been waiting for their turn! It doesn't seem to mind to be very rootbound.
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Hello Tuuli!
2, 3, 5, 11, 13, 17, 18, 20, 30, 33 for Fic writer ask game
That's what I'd like to know 😃
Hi Max!! Thank you so much for popping by with these!! <3
2. How do you spend your time when it comes to fanfiction? Are you primarily a fic reader, writer, or a perfect 50/50 split of both?
I mainly read, but when I'm actively writing I read less. I struggle not to hold myself to the impossible standards of my favourite writers, and usually I just reread the same favourites again and again. (my old ff.net account still exists with 2k favourite stories, so clearly I used to read more back then)
3. Are there any fics that inspired you to write what you do?
I think if I had to name one, then it'd be Breaking and Entering by Resonant. This is one I've, like, analysed, and it's beautiful how many things are said between the lines, and I've been trying to imply more things than I write out ever since. Sometimes I try to imply too many things, for sure, because I'm not a master of it. But maybe some day. (if I had to name more it'd be everything @sorrydearie has ever written, that's the energy I wish to convey when I write Berlermo specifically but that's honestly not a standard me or anyone else should ever hold me to and that's why this is in brackets)
5. What are your fanfic pet peeves? Do they have a huge effect on whether or not you decide to read something?
I can't deal with bad grammar. Like it's not such a big issue nowadays but back in the ff.net days you'd have perfectly good stories absolutely ruined by atrocious grammar. Other than that, I don't really like it when people use a trope but don't bend it to fit the ship they're writing for, that kind of thing. I've a lot of squicks obviously but these are things that I think are a bit more universal?
11. How do you come up with your fic titles?
I put Panic! at the Disco on shuffle until inspiration strikes. Well, sometimes a title comes to mind before that, and I totally have come up with some myself, but this is simply foolproof. Panic! has never let me down.
13. Do you outline your fics? How much of a headache would someone get if they just looked at an outline of yours without reading the fic?
I don't :))) I write whatever scenes come to mind and then I try to fill in the gaps that don't inspire me. I bother my boyfriend to proofread and tell me what doesn't make any sense. Well, sometimes I pitch my ideas to friends and honestly that's the closest it comes to an outline. So maximum headache, you'll have to trust me that it makes sense in my head.
17. How obsessively do you sit and stare at your fic after you’ve just posted and wait for feedback?
Used to be verrrrry obsessively but now it's less so because I already know there won't be much of a response :'D that being said, nowadays I content myself when I hear that one (1) person other than myself liked a thing. That has to be enough.
18. Do you have a WIP that you keep telling yourself you’ll eventually get back to, but deep down you know that’s probably a lie?
Oh yes. I wish to finish my Hollywood fic. More so now that I've actually been to Hollywood. But I don't feel skilled enough to execute it to where I want it to be. I have the vibe so clear in my head, but whenever I try to commit it to paper it just doesn't... work.
20. What’s your favorite part about the fanfiction writing process?
Editing beloved <3 I love not having the stress of figuring out a plot. Plots freak me out and so the less the better. So editing is me living my best life.
30. Post a snippet from your current WIP without context - no more than 300 words.
Below the cut, have this exchange from what will hopefully be my Berlermo AUgust fic. It's 303 words but sue me.
When Andrés suggested they go to a football match, simply because it was a thing a lot of people did, he had conveniently forgotten about one very important detail.
"Who's playing?"
"Hmm? I have no idea."
Martín actually cared about football.
"It's crucial," Martín insisted. "I mean, of course I'll go, but we need to know who's playing, so we can pick the correct side of the stand. Don't look at me like that, this is important."
Andrés laughed. "Look, I'll leave the organisational side of it to you."
Martín glared at him, as though Andrés's lack of passion offended him personally.
Anyway, that's how Andrés found himself a week later, with Martín tying a yellow and blue scarf around his neck, three hours before the game.
"These aren't my colours," he complained.
"You're right," Martín agreed, "They're my colours. And you're going to be a good fake boyfriend and support my team."
"I'm surprised you found an Argentinian team playing here."
"Not just any Argentinian team!" Martín insisted, "It's Boca. That is important, because I'd rather die than show any support for Los Millonarios."
"Would you ever want to go back to Argentina?" Andrés asked, and Martín's hands stopped moving. Unfortunate, really.
"If I did, I'd go for the Superclásico and nothing else," Martín said, bringing the topic back to football so smoothly it could have fooled someone else.
"So you won't abandon me here all by myself?" Andrés asked, aiming for jest but realistically - this was the reason why he was asking. They'd be finishing school in a year, and Martín was smart, and if he wanted to go back, he could probably get accepted by any university he chose.
"No," Martín said, needlessly solemn, "Till death do us part. Provided you don't say anything offensive at the match, anyway."
33. What do you like writing better: one shots or multi-chapter stuff?
One-shots (no plot vibes only), but actually my favourite thing to write is 1+1 so the fic and the b-side that's the other POV. Even better if they've complementary but slightly different vibes (ruining this banquet // spike the punch beloved). This is mostly because I always wish to see the other side of all my favourite fics so I try to deliver that + it allows more exploration of all the background stuff I enjoy implying. Win-win, really.
#thank you for asking friend!! I really appreciate that :)#hope you have a great day!!!#I've gotta write the aforementioned AUgust fic now but like no stress#it's at 4k words and I realised when answering this ask that most of those words are like--- important plot points which can be good or#bad depending on what one's looking for in a story but I'm trying#asks#writing asks
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Thank you for asking, and sorry it took me a while to get back to this! So today I wanna talk about Strata, my road trip story! And just like with the other asks/replies, I'm gonna put it under a readmore so that the post doesn't get super big!
How did Strata get started?
Believe it or not, by watching Going The Distance! It made me want to write a Road Trip Story myself - first I wondered if I wanted to rewrite Going The Distance somehow, have it be a fluffy little comedy where it's Myka driving the RV across Canada - but that idea didn't have the staying power somehow. Then I thought back to one of my old "fallbacks" - find a way to prevent Helena from turning on Myka (and the others) in Egypt. And I figured that the forced proximity of a road trip might give their relationship a strong enough boost that Helena would stop herself - so the story would be a vessel both for road trip fluff, and for Bering and Wells angst, and also for my favorite thing: emooootions! All the feels!
How did I develop the story?
So, speaking of feels - now I'm not great on story analysis, but even I know that road trips are vehicles (haha) and metaphor in one. You start out in one place, and you end in quite another. Along the way you find out stuff about yourself, gain some clarity on things, have a whole entire journey of your own.
And so when I set out to write Strata, I had a pretty clear idea of the kind of journey I wanted to take the both of them on. I also was pretty sure pretty early on that I wanted this story to be from Myka's POV only, to keep the ambiguity about what is going on within Helena as long as possible. (Mostly because, to be honest, that is one of the most difficult things for me to write from Helena's POV! I can get into her head in a lot of ways, but that one? Is really hard.) But also because not knowing what exactly was going on in Helena's mind is really good for tension!
The next question then was, from where to where? What's the reason for the trip, and the destination? I think the idea of going after caches of low-stakes artifacts wasn't my original one, but I can't think right now of where I read it. And I wanted the trip to be low-stakes to, so to speak. No glitzy destinations, no showing off of tourist spots - or at least not the big names. Biggest ball of twine? Yeah, let's do that kind of thing. Also, I like the Midwest. My wife is from there, too! And that also meant friends that I could plug for interesting spots along the way.
Figuring out destinations and routes was a mix of browsing Roadside America and those friendly suggestions. I love spending time on Google Maps - loved to spend time with actual paper maps too, when Maps wasn't a thing yet. Love finding towns with interesting or funny names, love imagining driving down that road that goes straight for 40miles straight (you better believe I also looked at dashcam videos and Streetview! For research!) And because I like that stuff so much, I figured readers would also be interested in things like routes and maps and whatnot.
And because I bitch so much about how Warehouse agents seem to be able to cross the entire country within half an hour (like driving from South Dakota to a high school reunion gone wrong in Colorado in a very, very short time when that kind of drive takes the better part of a day!), I also put the distances and Google's time estimates in my spreadsheet, and padded them more or less liberally with break times and whatnot. I still took some liberties, putting Bering and Wells in places rather sooner than they should have been even with the emptiest of streets, but, you know. If the actual show can do that (and to a much more blatant degree), then I can do it too!
So the mapmaking was fun, but what was the biggest challenge?
Pacing, I'd say. What to reveal when, how to balance talky talk and thinky thoughts with travel descriptions and actual destinations and Stuff Happening. I think I got it pretty tight, but as per usual, I'll always be a bit self-conscious about if I really did well.
Also, speaking of not having Helena's POV: I hope that I managed to portrait her journey well too, even though we don't get her internal monologue. That was a challenge too, not gonna lie, and with this one as well I can only hope that I did a good job.
So what's with the title then - Latin? Nerd.
Yeah, so, I'm a smartass who took nine years of Latin in school? And I knew that strata means "layers" (as in, the layers of truth and trust (and deceit) Bering and Wells discover about each other and themselves as they go on) and also is the root of both the German word "Straße" and the English word street. What better title for a road trip story, huh? I just had to add a little author's note for those readers who didn't know this, because I wanted everyone to enjoy this little nugget of a perfect fit.
Why Myka's internalized homophobia?
It is another layer, and one I've wanted to explore for a while. She is from a conservative state and city, and has had a rought upbringing in terms of high expectations and pressure from her dad. Conformity, including heteronormativity, is part of that. You could even argue that internalized homophobia is more realistic than her being a-okay with not being straight - it's just a matter of where we meet Myka Bering in her particular journey. Also, when you remember how uncomfortable she was about identifying an attacker as a woman because she "touched her" - "it's totally fine to be gay, just, I'm not; why would you ever think that?!" fits with that.
Also, narrative drama! Ramp it up by adding another axis of conflict!
And... what's with part two?!
Working on it! It will be told from Helena's POV, and won't be a re-hashing of Strata's story, but a true continuation. It's not a road trip as such, but a journey nevertheless, both in terms of character development and in terms of actual physical travel. Paris! England! Prague! Hong Kong! Here, have a snippet:
Helena found the key card where Myka’s note had indicated. Her phone, next to it, informed her that it was twenty-three past seven in the morning, on September twenty-first. The date made her huff a brief laugh; she was a hundred and forty-four today. Truly, she had outlived her days twice over. And yet here she was, somehow still alive, after all that had-
Her thoughts stopped cold. Her birthday?! That couldn’t be right? The last thing she knew-
A wave of nausea washed over her, and she barely kept herself from vomiting right there and then. She hastened through the room’s other door, presuming correctly that it led to the bathroom, and stood in front of the sink for a while, propped up on her arms and breathing very carefully to calm her stomach and keep its contents contained. Her eyes flickered here and there, and in doing so eventually fell upon her reflection in the mirror that spanned the length of the wall.
There was a white streak in her hair, high above her right temple, easily one inch wide. She slowly raised her hand to touch it, and saw the action clearly reflected in the mirror.
What on Earth had happened? Weeks gone, her hair with a white streak - and she herself with no recollection?
Had she come under the influence of an artifact? Her fingers found her locket and grasped it tightly; at least it was still there- but it felt different.
Enough was enough.
I hope you liked this! If you wanna know more, about Strata or in general, please go right ahead and ask! :) I'm always happy to talk about my writing - thanks for giving me the chance to do so!
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have you ever come across low entities as a psychic? like demons or miserable ugly creatures? how did it feel like? I had a weird experience last night near right outside of a church and I wanna see something
Ooh I wanna hear about this experience 👀
Well, yes I have.... Are you up for storytime?
There are so many rumors about this film which basically everybody knows. The Conjuring. Too many people have talked about experiencing strange, scary things after watching this movie. Eek! Let me tell you about mine.
Summer of 2014. I was 12 y/o when I watched this film for the very first time. It was daytime, I was alone in my room and I didn't feel that the film was scary at all. I enjoyed the plot but I expected to Sh my pants. I didn't 😂 but the events that followed next were what actually got to my younger self...
I think the same night, I woke up at 3:07. In the movie, as I recall, there's a clock that was stopped at 3:07. According to the plot, a witch hanged herself and died this exact time. You can only imagine the amount of my terror 😆
For about one month, I would experience waking up to hours after midnight, terrible demonic-themed nightmares, hearing screams the moment right before I'd fall asleep, one time I even heard footsteps (JUST LIKE IN A SCENE IN THE MOVIE). Needless to say.. I had formed this habit where I stayed up all night and I would wait until the sun came up so I could finally sleep safely.
I remember telling my granny everything about it. She put a cross under my pillow and even took me to church. Now regardless of your religious beliefs, we all know that those spirits are absolutely repelled by Christ and the christian church. Plus, my parents would calm me down by saying that I'm surrounded by love and that those beings were powerless around the strength of it.
Eventually, it got better. I was ignorant about my spiritual awareness back then but a) a child is always vulnerable against these beings b) this was the age my psychic abilities started "activating", especially through dreams.
I have never re-watched this film since then, LOL. I believe it is called the Conjuring for a reason... you can call me a nut case if you want but there are multiple people including myself who advise against watching such films. if they don't invite evil spirits to you, they sort of expose you to their dreadful energy in some way. This is exactly how their energy feels like; dreadful. Every time I watch a horror film now (guilty pleasure because it affects me emotionally yet it stimulates me so much :((((( ) I always pick up on these vibes and they always feel uncomfortable and "not right". especially when it has to do with demonic presence and stuff like that. Regardless, it's easy to spot such low energy because of how it makes your body feel. it reacts to it in a way that encourages you to avoid it or "leave" immediately
however now that I'm grown, I know that these beings have no power over you unless you allow them to!!! ❤️ through these films they want to convince you that you have 0 power over evil but they're doing it to scare you. the good has always overpowered the evil. think about it! a dark room can be filled with light but a room with light doesn't allow darkness to come inside. 🤗
it's all fun and games until you respond to such ask at 3 in the morning. 😃
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Yes, I meant "Gentleman Jack"-Anne. Sorry, I probably should have clarified that 😃
Ah, yes! Yeah, I have occasionally posted about GJ here and I LOVE the series, but it's not exactly among the main themes of this blog 😅
Oh dear, in that case you wondered what would have happened if Raffles (and Bunny, I assume) would have broken into Anne and Ann's house, supposing they had lived in the same era. Yikes. All I can see before me is Anne Lister with a big fucking shotgun and murder in her eyes, and two terrified thieves who clearly didn't do their homework on who they were burgling. But, supposing it was more like "A Bad Night", like you said, and let's say that Anne was away and that Bunny was breaking in alone? I could so very much see dear Ann either trustingly asking Bunny for help like Meddlicot, or sneaking down with a gun in her trembling hands like a less confident Netje. Either way, how could she and Bunny not bond and become bffs? 😅
Again, I can't really see it going well if Anne was home - at the least they would be held at gunpoint until the police arrived. However, Anne and Raffles being put against each other or working together in a game of wit and charm is something I'd very much like to see. (!!!)
It's a very interesting scenario with a lot of potential, and if anyone wants to add some headcanons here they're welcome to!
#telegram#anonymous#i'm sorry it took five hundred years to answer this and that i don't have more to say#it's been quite a lot lately and i haven't been doing great
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