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i was supposed to be dead and gone w this account by today but i’m just not done. i will be finishing number neighbor, like that is a fact, bc i physically and emotionally cannot leave yall without it. ive crafted it and really felt it w yall for so long (not really but a month feels like soooo long). but i have made the decision that once i’m done w it i’m deleting my account. i know you all want to come back and read my stories and i love that and love you but i just don’t resonate with this blog anymore.
i hope you understand. when i post the final parts of number neighbors i’ll leave it up for a couple days and then the blog will be gone. i’ve thought long and hard about this and decided it’s the best thing for me and i hope you all understand. i’ve loved being apart of sturniolo tumblr, even if half the time i was jus writing the triplets for face claims LOL.
you all mean so much to me, and i love you so much. every person i’ve interacted with or talked to on here has been so important to my time on here and i love you. but it really is over. i’ve jus been kinda afraid to say it.
what’s coming: a chris one shot (6k+ words), the last few parts of number neighbors and the finale of dealer w benefits matt. i’m sorry if what you wanted didn’t get completed, i still love you all the same. thank you for being part of this page!!! i couldn’t have done any of it without you.
also if u have something hating as fuck to say abt my goodbye post fuck you!!!!!!! i appreciate every SINGLE note i’ve ever gotten on this page. i’m just explaining what it means to me 😒
long live slut!switch matt and slut!bratty!sub!chris, those are my parting words.
love u all <333
#cherriespeaks#sturniolo triplets#matt sturniolo#christopher sturniolo#chris sturniolo#nick sturniolo#nicolas sturniolo#sturniolo edit#sturniolo fanfic#sturniolo imagine#i love yall so bad
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Archive-locking the fics that YOU WROTE and are thus 100% yours to decide what to do with 'hurting people' is so silly tbh. Skill issue on their part. Wish those people could be normal about the amazing fics that writers like you put out & be understanding or at the very least respectful of the choices that writers make about how and where they make their fics available. Especially in light of recent ai training theft and nonsense & all that.
I hope this doesn't sour the fic writing & sharing experience for you too much. I love your writing & think you're very talented & skilled!
There seem to be dual attitudes I'm coming up against recently (and obviously these are not held by everyone, I don't even know that they are held by a majority, but they are certainly held by a plurality).
The first is that authors should be grateful that readers deign to read what they put out there. I think this stems from the "content creation" mentality and the idea that everyone who posts things wants as massive as an audience as possible (for monetization purposes which... isn't a thing in fanfic). I think this mindset also leads to readers demanding that people write specific tropes/pairings/whatever, or threatening basically to take their business elsewhere. "Nobody will read unless you do [X]." 1. Not true and 2. Okay, you weren't my audience.
(I also think authors circulating those posts about how badly they want comments/kudos feeds this mentality of readers doing authors a favor by even clicking on the fic. "Wow, if people are so desperate for attention, then mine must be worth an awful lot!")
Fanfic ain't a business, and I write for myself. Readers choosing to read my work isn't a privilege or an honor they are bestowing upon me (nor are comments for that matter), just as me posting my writing where they can see it isn't a privilege or an honor for them. We are both engaging in hobbies and a love of some media, and sometimes we will overlap and connect and sometimes we won't. Readers aren't reading out of altruism for attention-starved authors, and authors aren't writing out of altruism for content-hungry readers.
And there are those who will read these paragraphs above and think to themselves "wow, what an ungrateful author," and that's exactly the attitude I'm talking about. Don't get me wrong, it's delightful and rewarding to receive comments on fics and chat with people about Blorbo and the Situations. But it should be delightful from both sides of the exchange, or why the hell are we doing this? If I'm meant to be grateful for every commenter who jumps into my inbox, then every commenter in my inbox better be grateful for me, and I can tell you right now there is a population who is not. There is a population who sees me as a service provider for their entertainment, and whatever form I take in their brain, it is not shaped like a full person.
This attitude also leads to people thinking that things like lorefm are no big deal. Don't I want to get my work in front of more eyeballs (or ears)? Don't I want to broaden my audience? And once I put my work out there for readers to see, should I be shocked (or express any negative emotions at all) when someone plagiarizes/scrapes it for AI/demands updates rudely/reads it on a monetized youtube channel/binds it and sells it for profit?
The other idea I've been coming up against is almost the opposite of this--that because some readers form attachments to fic, deleting that fic (or even archive-locking it!) is actively harming those readers. Sure, they can't be bothered to hit the download button or get an AO3 account, but that's no reason not to think of these strangers first before doing what I want with my creative output.
Yall, life is ephemeral. There are things we will see and enjoy and never find again for one reason or another, and it's not harm being done to us, it's just the nature of existence. Having an emotional reaction to something does not give you any sort of ownership over that thing. Artists are allowed to change their minds about whether they want that art in the wild, particularly given that it's free. Maybe it's because I utilize the library a lot, but reading a book and then losing access to that book is not a crime against you, it's just a normal thing that happens. If you read something and it means that much to you, there are ways to avoid losing it (download it).
Seeing this particular attitude extend out to "not making your fic available for as many people to read as possible is harming them" is beyond bizarre. If I woke up tomorrow and deleted everything I have ever written, there would still be thousands upon thousands upon thousands of beautiful, emotional, meaningful fics out there for people to read. They would lack for nothing. Would some people be upset? Probably. Would I be hurting them? No, not really.
Sometimes people have negative emotions because of our actions, but that doesn't mean we did anything to them. This is one of those times.
Lastly, this AI and everything else bullshit really has taken a toll on my enthusiasm for posting my work. It's one thing for companies to try to pillage every thought, every word, every stroke of a pen or paintbrush to enrich themselves while actively making the planet an unbearable and inhospitable place to live, it's another when fellow fans are telling you that "Whelp that's just life, what did you expect, give us your content anyway or you're a bad person and if you complain, then I'll be taking my business elsewhere, you sensitive, entitled creative, lol."
#because here's the thing#it just stops being fun#and fun is the reason I (and hopefully all of us) started writing in the first place#if I wanted to cater to people whose tastes aren't mine#I would be trying to woo the taylor swift fans who control the publishing industry#and don't get me wrong the people on AO3 who interact with my stuff rule#Particularly patrochilles fans like that group of people has given me the best writing experience of anyone#and I don't want to let some idiotic exchanges ruin the joy I get from writing#but it feels like it's coming from all sides this year#I do think everyone would benefit if we all remembered that author-reader interactions are just two strangers attempting to communicate#sometimes good sometimes awkward sometimes wires get crossed sometimes cultures clash most often it's just small talk
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#I disabled the ask feature#and the submission one too#I wanted to delete the account but decided not to#I will be letting my friend change the password and email so I can't log in anymore
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WIP Wednesday :: Six Sentences
Tagged by @improvised-finish, thank you!
Tagging: @elliewiltarwyn, @akirakirxaa, @ainyan, @janzoo, @idalenn, @otherworldseekers, @sasslett, @humblemooncat
I have a couple WIPs, but here are some from things I'm working on:
Steppe by Steppe // Available here or Ao3!
Nomin hurried along to get herself seated in the back of the wain. Before she crawled in, however, Bayarmaa stopped her and then handed her a cloth. Nomin held it and stared down at it before looking back up at Bayarmaa inquisitively.
“What's this for?” Nomin asked.
“It's for your nose and mouth. You'll need it,” Bayarmaa briefly explained before she walked back toward the front of the wain to get the harness attached.
FFXV: Reimagined // Available here or Ao3!
“... You still should have at least said something. You know I'd never sell you out -- least of all to Mum.” Tandem sighed, his frown deepening. He then let out a frustrated scoff. “Six above… No point bitching about it now, I guess. What can you do?”
#tag game#the ao3 links necessitate having an account#but like#there are works available at least for both of them!#steppe by steppe is currently undergoing a massive reworking to make things flow better#please heed the notes i have if you decide to have a look at the chapter list#you can read the old stuff!#if i wanted to stop you i'd have deleted them!#but do know that past a certain point those chapters are no longer canon for the most part
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Let it be known I did NOT make Valin with love when I was creating a Warlock for myself. I'd made it to the Farm twice with two other attempted Warlocks but the vibes were off, so I decided to try a new beast entirely and made a Valin. He was originally going to have black hair and patternations but I found it too boring...
The red was garish and I wasn't too sure I liked what I had made but I decided to commit to that horrible beast and he has since grown on me like a fungus.
#When I went back to Destiny 1 I discovered I'd actually had a proto-Valin in the Warlock slot the entire time.#He had the more delicate male face and slightly different hair and patterns (and mint-green eyes) but it was very much Valinesque.#I wonder if I was compelled to make Valin in such a way because I subconsciously remembered this proto-Valin.#I have no memory of making that one and evidently I didn't get very far with him.#When I went back to replay Destiny 1 properly I decided I wanted to learn how to play as a Warlock.#Thus deleting the D1 proto-Valin and replacing him with Valin.#Season of the Worthy being as... as it was. Was essential to my consideration of Valin as a character.#And I'd learned to play as a Warlock...#It is funny. I have actually mained all three classes over time...#The first time I played Destiny on my old account (which became my mother's instead) was as a Titan.#Then when I got my own account I made a Hunter and played that way for years and years.#Up until 2020 when I had enough time to play Season of the Worthy across all three classes and discovered I was very fond of my beast...#But I was not familiar with a Warlock properly...#It was nice to replay Destiny 1. I really really enjoyed that experience.#Anyway. Now I am a Warlock main...#Whenever I open the menu I have to select the third character because I made Valin last...#But I don't think I would rearrange that order if I had a choice.#My skills as a Hunter have completely degraded by the way... Shameful...#OC: Valin
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#girl help i decided to look at the lotro forums before going into work today#and someone responded to my post in the name-stealing thread with 'but everquest deleted a bunch of accounts once'#with the implicit assumption that thats okay and not enormously fucked up?#i will reply after work questioning the impact that had on peoples motivation to come back to that game if they had been gone for a while#they also said that most people start over from scratch if they come back to a game after a long time#which i have found to just not be true at all#i jave talked to 3 or 4 people in the last few monts who came back to lotro after 5+ years away and started sorting things on their old alts#rather than starting new o es#i explain the new li system to them#anyhow theres already a system in place for this#which is that you approach a gm about it and if the character has been inactive for a while they have been known to make the name available#which is fine. it gives people a recourse for getting the name that they want without taking the names away for no reason#asking for more than that is unnecessary and unkind
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mutuals i got myself into a situation so sticky i don’t even know how to describe it (edit: *describes it* lol). please send thoughts of successful escape my way lol
#purrs#delete later#i SONT understand anything about retirement or insurance whatever and basically imightve signed a contract for smth i didn’t understand#fully and im so scared lol. and i feel so bad bc im stupid and i don’t understand anything and no matter how much peopel#xolain it to me i don’t understand it. i feel like a stupid silly naive little girl rn LOLLLLL i feel so sick#it’s probably fine and not that bad and i didn’t do the wrong step but im freaking out. not just bc of the money situation but also bc they#have to do a. medical exam on me to see how much i would have to pay or whatever 😃😃😃😃😃😃😃😃 wtf#im making it sound like a big bad scary freak thing isigned up for when really it’s not i don’t thin&. it’s just dividend lige insirance but#i don’t understand what any of it means and apparently other stuff is better. idk anything about retirement i only got into this stupid#situation because i had a mandatory retirement selection for work and ididnt understand anything so i scheduled a meeting with a retirement#counselor person to help me figure out which option would be the best for me and he was really nice and helped me a lot but then he started#saying he could help me w additional retirement stuff if i wanted to see what the options were and i was like sure and then he told me abt t#this thing and had me fill out / sign the application in that same meeting to ‘get the process started bc it takes. a long time’ even if i d#decided to pull out later it would be a good thing to get the ball rolling asap if i did end up wanting to do it. but i didn’t understand an#anythi ng and i went along with it anyway and now i might’ve fucked myself over so bad. except i probably didn’t but i feel so bad. bc he wa#was so nice and genuine but maybe he was just trying to sell me a product bc he gets a commission from the insurance company which i he told#me wheni asked him if im getting his help for free. i feel so stupid and guilty omg#and also i signed up for my first credit card but the interest rates are really high which i didn’t realize. and i can’t log into the bank a#account for some reason liek it says my acc doesn’t work. and hr fucked up my pay so i haven’t gotten a time sheet for like 2 pay periods an#and im getting retroactively paid in august but it’s just one more fucking thing and i haven’t gotten the chance to pick new benefits yet#and idk if i can / will bc of my stupid pay situation like i literaly don’t exist in the system rn apparently. i fucking hate all of this i#hate adulting i hate it i hate it i want to explode and hide forever and cry a lot. and my bank account isn’t even my own rn and i don’t und#understand anything about mony or insurance or benefits or credit cards or anything. im so overwhelmed FUCK
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Last mod post, but heads up for spam in case I start uploading old art today 🫡
I'm not going to transfer my entire twitter, but I at least will want to upload stuff I'm proud of still-
#Still trying to decide if I'll have it all on this one account#Or if I want to have a side blog as well#It's been so long since I've thought about using tumblr seriously 😭#Delete later#Mod post
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if you cant tell. im having a normal one (turning 20 tomorrow and. feeling a kind of way about the fact that im never going to be a teenager again)
#probably going to delete this immediately on account of i always try to be vague ab my age on here#i will say im an adult but let ppl assume whatever based on what else i say#but .#much as they suck theres also something a little special ab being a teenager. this informs who u are for the rest of ur life on some level#id wanted to go get a tattoo before my bday but didnt book one in time so itll be a little after my bday#as long as its still within the calendar year i think it counts tho#that is. a much more physical permanent reminder for the me that will exist somewhere down the line#that i was this person once. and that it was something special.#its gonna be a sunflower. just a little thing. either on my shoulder blade or my ribcage i still havent decided yet#just. a little piece of who i am right now that will exist forever.
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should i risk putting my pride digimon designs on re.dbubble or no
#on one hand i do want to put them up cause i did work hard on them and i think people would like them. on the other hand i am worried about#like... getting in trouble copyright wise... i know like at worst probably what would happen would be the designs getting taken done or my#account deleted but hhhh anxiety :c#(also as a note i still don't have them all done. i think i have like 7 more to finish? i kinda lost steam a while ago but i don't think#it'd take me to long to finish the last couple sets. like for reference there's gonna be 27 total so i already have 20 done.)#once i finish them i'll probably just post them on here with a watermark either way so i can always decide if i want to put them up later#ig i don't have to decide immediately. just have been contemplating this for a while.#dramon thoughts
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i can’t understand how people orphan their fics on ao3. even the ones i wrote in high school and would change so many details of and cringe when i reread certain parts, i wrote those. i wrote them and they’re mine and for some reason i still really want people to know they’re mine no matter how much my writing has changed
#this is indeed brought about by me scrolling through the same 16 suzumutsu fics i've been reading and rereading since i was 14#and seeing just how many are orphaned now#and yeah i deleted any fics i did briefly feel confident enough to share at that age and contributed little content until i was 17-18#but i was there#and i remember all those users that are now orphan-account#sometimes i feel like a wise observer who knows all your ancient sins#and i mean ALL your sins#but other times i realize i'm just some hermit who's still going to be writing the same pairing from the same just okay series in a decade#when no one knows what i'm even talking about anymore#also i think even the fic i wrote then i was 17 and hadn't actually taken classes in pharmacology and anesthesiology and stuff...#is pretty decent for 17#but also if i do decide to revamp more of my older fics#i want anyone still around to care to KNOW i'm the og writer and not some random person remixing it#not that it matters when no one reads your shit but its still in my mind#actually you know what its kind of amazing how ive come from 14-y-o me deleting everything i write#and now wanting people to know yep that god awful novel-length fic is MINE
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#going to sound deranged but beating up 20 year old me for deciding to make it extremely hard to access the Forbidden Email#google is deleting gmail accounts that have had 2 years or more of inactivity#i'm desperately trying to recover it even though it hurts to even think about#because i want that archived#if it's gone it's like it never happened and i made it all up#i don't wanna lose it#whatever fuck my baka life
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#hmmmmm i kinda wanna start using this site again#its been like what? 3 or so years now??#im like 20 now lmao#idk if i should delete all the past posts from here or not tbh#like. i apart of me just wants to make a new account and start fresh but another part of me is tempted to just delete all the posts from-#-my current blog#i already have a url set aside i might use considering 'kowomawu' is kinda cringe but in a bad way lmao#oh also this blog will probably become a gg (guilty gear) blog so if you dont like that then uhhh unfollow now lmao#well if i decide to revive it again that is#idk man i just wanna post about that bedridden twink on this hellsite lmao#im still torn..........also if anyone who knew me irl from 2015~2020 please block <3#theres 2 people who do who at one point followed my blog and i really dont wanna talk to any of them#i dont wanna be attached to who i was when i was a dumbass teenager....... which ig is why im tempted to just start fresh#but i follow so many blogs on here and my feed is so personalized from the like what? 8 or so years of using this site?#idk im kinda just yelling into the void rn#if anyone knows any way to like. move your blogs posts to a side blog please tell me i dont really feel like accidentally creating lost-#-media
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Heya um, I know that some of followers of the @elliehodunk blog also known as James follow me too and probably read about their current situation and I'll be real with you I feel very responsible for parts of their current emotional distress.
I was unaware that the extremely disrespectfull minor that caused them enough distress to delete their previous blog was someone that I had been mutuals with for about a month up until today (28th of may) when I saw them actually being mentioned in the tags of one of the posts about the whole thing as the cause.
I unfollowed and blocked said person as out of respect for James and apologized to them via dms for the damage I feel I have caused.
At first I was not going to tag them in this post because they are currently on a well deserved break from this site and I didn't want to disturb them but since this is about them it felt wrong to basicly...hide it? by not tagging them. I just felt the need to explain why some of this is happening because I feel like I am at fault to some extend at least, how far that extend is is not for me to judge.
But James you are seeing this: hi, I hope you're doing better or at least getting to feeling better. Please tell me if you want this deleted and it will be gone as soon as I see the message, it might be a couple hours tho since we live on different ends of the globe and my sleeping hours overlap with your main activity time. a simple "plz delete" it more than ehough.
EDIT: I feel like I should also add that none of this was done with malicious intent from my end. I personally don't harbour any bad feelings against the person mentioned above, I simply chose to cut ties because I felt it was hurting somebody else I value greatly. They are a minor smack dab in the middle of growing and if you're frontal lobe isn't fully developed yet you tend to do some stupid in hindsight pretty shitty stuff. I sure as shit did too. My actions came to be from me wanting to be a friend and support somebody who I, a at the time total stranger, beared my soul to upon our first interaction and they still chose to be mutuals with me, not a place of hatered.
Thought I should mention that too just in case somebody get the wrong picture from this.
#hmmmmmm I hope this doesn't come off like I'm trying to make this about myself#I'm just trying to take responsibility for my actions even if they were unintentional#it's midnight now. I had this drafted for a while and planned to post it earlier but I had to help my parents outside of the house#and wanted to re-read it first to make sure it's appropriate and then proceeded to get hit by anxiety about posting it#but here it is. I'm still anxious about it is what it is#I even screenrecorded me unfollowing and blocking them as well as leaving their discord in case anyone demands proof#I've actually had the other not the minor person that is causing them such distress blocked for quite some time#or at least that's what I thought but turns out they have a second account but I don't think I've ever interacted with them#or at least I couldn't find any interactins (like reblogs) with them started from my side while combing through my archive just to be safe#personally I hope that james and I can still be mutuals/friendly with eachotherin the future#but if they decide that's not possible then I will accept their decition and respectfully take a dip#I'm going to pin this to the top for a bit but I'll probably un pin it after like a week or two I feel like that's enough time#or I'll delete it if james asks me to since this is about them
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Edit: as hoshi9zoe pointed out, the original version of this post needlessly berated other transfems like Jennifer Coates, for which I do apologize, and I have toned it down in this edited version. The original version survives in reblogs.
Some months ago, I was searching through this transandrobro blog to see if they posted a callout of me, and i found this reblog, which I couldn't really write about for months, because what do I even write. I recently wayback machined it for posterity, and I guess this is my attempt to write a post about it.
It's saint-dyke himself, the coiner of transandrophobia, saying that the infamous (at least for me) article "I am a transwoman. I'm in the closet. I'm not coming out" is what made him coin the fucking word. It's literally bolded and underlined: "Reading this article is what made me coin “transandrophobia”.
The reason I put off writing this post is that reading that article makes me feel like i'm drinking poison. And it is poison, make no mistake, it's internalized transmisogyny brainworms dripping out of the writer's brain and onto the page.
It's a justification for why the author, known by pseudonym Jennifer Coates, doesn't want to transition, despite knowing she is a trans woman. And it's the exact kind of internalized transmisogyny that keeps trans women in repression and not transitioning. "I'm not going to pass, i'm forever going to be an ugly freak who will at best be humored by other women, the closet is uncomfortable but at least it's safe"
It's the same exact bullshit a lot of represssed trans women tell themselves because it's what society tells us about trans women, that we are freakish parodies of women, that we will never pass, and if we don't pass we have failed and are ugly freaks. It's all to scare us into staying in the closet and make others hate and fear us. Transmisogyny permeates our society, and the majority, maybe all transfems will absorb and internalize some of it.
Coates says that it all is just applicable to her, but again so many transfems believe this shit before transitioning and realizing it's a pack of lies. If this bullshit was in any way valid, a lot of trans women shouldn't transition, because before we actually transition many of us believe it word for word. And "it's only true for me" is how we justify it to ourselves. We tend to be way harsher on ourselves than others. This kind of self-hating transfem tends to think: "Other trans women are beautiful graceful goddesses, earthly manifestations of the divine feminine, always destined to be women, while I'm an ugly forever male ogre who just has a fetish."
It's all bullshit, it's poison, it's internalized transmisogyny.
And the rest of the article is bullshit too. It is not some insightful mediation on gender as some people say, it's the author confusing and mixing up actual transmisogyny with an imagined problem of misandry. She does this because she has gone full repression mode, and decided she has no other choice to live as a man, so her dysphoria and experiences of transmisogyny are actually men's problems.
It's a bad article, excusable because as Coatas points out, it's "essentially a diary entry." that was meant to be a way to "vent frustration" and she "did not intend for anyone else to actually read it." It is clearly not the product of a healthy mind.
I hope the author sometime in the past seven years eventually did transition, and that for whatever reason she didn't want to publicly repudiate her own article. Maybe she lost access to the medium account so she can't delete it.
Far worse than the article itself is the response to it. I've seen it passed around as some insightful commentary on gender by the "feminists are too mean to men, misandry is real" crowd. I have argued against this before. And other people have made insightful comments about it.
And learning that saint-dyke claiming that he was inspired to coin the word "transandrophobia" because of this article is the cherry on top of this shitcake of transmisogyny. For my thoughts on "transandrophobia" theory and how transmisogynistic it is, see here.
Of course, Saint-dyke absolutely could be bullshitting here. Claiming that Coates's article is what inspired him to coin the word might be a lie to claim that transandrophobia theory is not transmisogynistic because it came from listening to trans women.
This is why "listen to trans women" doesn't work. Because TME people will always choose a trans woman who confirms their prejudices. Blair White has made an entire career out of this. And Coates article is popular because it says that misandry is real and trans women's issues are partly caused by it, misgendering herself and other trans women.
And it's popular for another reason. Coates has thoroughly internalized transmisogyny, and thus her article presents a trans woman that is exactly as transmisogynistic patriarchal society wants her to be. She is suffering, but ultimately accepts her assigned role. She truly believes that her biological sex dooms her to forever be male. She literally "manages her dysphoria by means other than transition" as conversion therapy advocates want us to do. She never makes an social claim on womanhood by actually transitioning, so she doesn't invade the sacred women's spaces. Yet she performs the role of woman perfectly by serving men, by defending them from supposed feminist misandry. And she fulfils the ritualistic role that the rhetorical figure of "trans women" sometimes serves in progressive spaces, of giving a blessing to TME people's pre-existing views and actions, all while actual flesh-and-blood trans women are destroyed by those same deeply transmisogynistic spaces. This time it's a blessing for the same "misandry is real" soft-MRA bullshit that has infested the online left and created the transandrophobia crowd.
That is why this article and the positive response makes me sick, makes me feel like i'm drinking poison. This is what its fans want trans women to be like. I'm acutely aware this kind of self-denial is exactly what transmisogyny wants from me and tried to indoctrinate me into doing it. And I want none of it. I want to live, I want to be a woman.
#my writings#transmisogyny#jennifer coates#this is a lot more emotional than i usually am#but i'm so angry and disgusted
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2023 reset guide
Glow up
2023 vision board. Visualize your dream 2023 and write down your goals!
Daily Hot girl walks. No excuses, babes; let's get moving!
Reflecting on 2022. Look back at what you've accomplished and what you could have done differently.
Make a Bucketlist. Write down places you want to visit and things you want to do.
Extended self-care. Take some time to yourself to recover from the stressful holidays and get back on track. <3
Buy a good SPF. Do some research and find something that works for you!
Start Investing in yourself. Money, time, and energy. Put yourself first!
Annual check-ups. Make a dentist appointment, go to the optometrist etc...
Buy a Silk pillowcase. Protect your skin and hair!
Set clear boundaries. And make sure that people respect them!
Less screen time. Self-explanatory.
Manicure, lash lift, haircut. High maintenance to be low maintenance! ;)
Wellness
Daily vitamins. Visit a doctor to discuss which ones you should be taking for the best results.
Morning stretches. Wake up your body and drink some water!
Skin/hair care. It's time to find products that actually work for you.
Reading more literature. Set yourself a daily reading goal.
Planned grocery lists. Make a grocery list that aligns with your dietary needs and goals to make shopping less stressful. <3
Less coffee. Especially if you struggle with anxiety!!
More greens and protein. Let's give our body what it needs.
Journaling. Truly helps with overthinking!!
8 hours of sleep. Beauty sleep. <3
Cooking for yourself. Such a cute form of daily self-care.
Yoga. Or just any low-impact exercises in general.
Deep cleaning
Organizing your closet. Only keep things that make you feel beautiful.
Budgeting. Check your bank account and plan ahead.
Clean your hairbrushes. Trust me...
Donating clothes. Donate the items that you don't wear anymore.
Clean your make-up brushes. The first step to clear skin!!
Fresh sheets. Wash your pillows too.
Charge your electronics. IPad, Mac, Camera etc...
Get rid of expired make-up and skincare. Step 2 to clear skin, lol.
Declutter stationary. No need to keep dried-out pens.
Delete old emails. I currently have 1840...
Delete unnecessary apps. Anything you don't need.
Clean your camera roll. Making some space for new memories! :)
Cut out toxic people. <3
Mindset
Pretty, smart, kind, and prioritising myself.
Positive affirmations!!
Your daily habits play a huge role in your mood/life. Be mindful, and take care of yourself.
It's okay to outgrow people!!
Decide what kind of life you actually want and start saying no to everything that won't get you there.
"I'm attracting opportunities that align with my dream life."
A girl who will do big things can't let small things bother her.
Honestly, reinvent yourself over and over again until you are satisfied with who you are.
Do you want to be comfortable, or do you want to grow?
"Am I doing this for me, or am I performing for others?"
very high standards. VERY HIGH STANDARDS.
Be obsessed with yourself.
2022 has been such a life-changing year for me, not only personally but also regarding my social media! As I already said on Twitter, I'm incredibly grateful for this little community that has formed this year, and I'm excited for all the things that lay ahead of us! I wish everyone a successful 2023 with many beautiful moments and lots of growth!!
✩‧₊*:・love ya ･:*₊‧✩
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