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Post Outbreak! Joel Miller x Female Reader
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summary: You come home from your first day back out on patrol and find Joel giving your daughter a bath.
warnings/tags: 18+ ONLY, MINORS DNI. JACKSON ERA. GIRLDAD!JOEL. established relationship. this specific work does not mention readerâs age (other works in this series may mention she is younger than Joel), no physical description of reader, Rosemary comes with a slight physical description (she has Joelâs hair color/hair type and eye color, no mentions of her skin tone). brief mention of Sarah, brief mention of Joel being a single father pre outbreak, Joel and Ellie are fine because i said so and itâs what he deserves, okay? general fluff and a lot of cuteness, brief smutty themes, but nothing explicit. minimal editing.
word count: 2.3k
a/n: short little thing, but this feels like the cutest thing i have written in a while. if you enjoy it, please consider reblogging or leaving a comment <33
Joel sighs to himself as he scrapes the remnants of Rosemaryâs lunch into the bin of food scraps beside the kitchen counterâthe neighborâs chickens were in for a real treat tomorrow morning when he dropped them off on his way to patrol. He had just about coaxed his two and a half year old daughter into eating the crust of her jam sandwich when Ellie walked into the kitchen with a soccer ball tucked under her arm, a trade he was fairly certain sheâd made more for the toddlerâs sake than her own.
She was sixteen now, spent more time with her friends than she did with her family lately, but her soft spot for the little girl always, always brought her back home.
âHey kid, look what Iâve got,â Ellie had grinned, holding the ball out for the child to see. âWhat do you say we go out back and kick this thing around? Sound like fun?â
He frowned, the creases between his brows deepening.
âEllie, canât you see Iâm in the middle of feedinâ herââ
But it had been too late.
Rosieâs dark brown eyes widened, and she squealed in delight. âDown! Down!â she had exclaimed, whacking her teeny hands down on top of her wooden high chair on either side of her plate. âDaddy! Down, want down!â
Joel decided to put his foot down.
Well, he had tried to put his foot down, anyway.
âNot âtil youâve finished every last bite, babygirl. Yâgotta finish your sandwich and eat all your carrots, alright?â
âMâall done,â sheâd insisted, placing both hands on her belly. Although Joel would have preferred she clean her plate, you had taught him to honor her fullness cues.
âWe have to listen to Rosemary,â youâd told him. âIf she says sheâs full, then sheâs full. The last thing we want to do is force her to keep eating when sheâs not hungry, Joel. Her relationship with food starts with us, after all.â
âYouâre startinâ to sound like that goddamn child rearinâ book,â he had teased you, earning himself a stern glare.
He liked to give you a hard time about it, but the truth of the matter was, that parenting book you found in the library turned out to be pretty helpful for both of youâwhile this wasnât Joelâs first rodeo, the last time he had been around a child this young was over three decades ago. With Sarah, heâd flown through her childhood by the seat of his pants, went through a lot more trial and error scenarios than he liked to admit.
Often, Joel found himself feeling guilty. He tried to give some credit to the clueless young man in his twenties, the one who had been left to raise his baby girl all on his own when her mom couldnât take it anymore after one year. Things turned out alright, but whenever he sees you with Rosemary, takes in the way you pour your entire heart into being a good mother to yours and his daughter, he canât help but reminisce on his first life, on all those moments he felt so hopelessâall of those moments when he didnât know what to do, and had no one to turn to for help. No one to lean on.
Oh how he wished Sarah could have known what it was like to have both of her parents at her side.
Like Rosie does.
Sighing, Joel places her plate in the sink, along with his own. He turns and glances at the clock on the wallâitâs half past noon, and he knows your early morning patrol group should be arriving back to the townâs main gates any minute now. Sure, caring for Rosemary had served as a decent distraction, but every so often, his anxieties would creep up on him. He worried about you being out there on the other side of the wall. And if you being out there wasnât bad enough, you were out there without him.
âIâm back on the patrol roster next week,â you informed him one evening while the two of you were cleaning the kitchen after supper. You winced when he dropped the plate in his hands into the sink, the loud clanking noise bouncing off the walls. You wasted no time in pleading your case. âItâs been almost three years, Joel. I have to get back to pulling my weight around here. As much as Iâd love to, I canât stay home forever, and you know that as well as I do.â
Slowly, heâd spun around to face you, the muscle in his jaw tickingâhe wasnât happy. âFind another job,â he bit through his teeth. âSomethinâ in town. Somethinâ safe.â
âJoelââ
âYouâre a mother now!â he hissed, angrily.
âAnd youâre a father,â youâd countered without missing a beat. Knowing Joelâs reaction was only coming from a place of concern, you walked up to him and placed a hand on his heaving chest, right over his racing heart in an effort to calm him. âLook, Iâm just capable of getting myself home safely as you are, alright? And if it makes you feel any better, Iâll be partnered with Tommy. Heâll have my back.â
Heâd found very little consolation in that.
Joel sighs again and reaches for the faucet.
âUh, Joel?â Ellieâs voice comes from behind him.
âWhat?â He turns around, his jaw dropping open when he sees her standing there, carefully holding Rosemary out towards him by her underarms. Sheâs covered from head to toe in mud. âWhat the hell did you do to her?â
âYou know how it was raining for like three days?â Ellie shoots him a sheepish smile. âThe ball went into a mud puddle, and well, she sorta went in after it.â
âJesus Christ, sheâs filthy!â Exasperated, Joel narrows his eyes at her. âWhy werenât you watchinâ her?â
âI was, but she was too fast! Kidâs a little speed demon, man. Arenât ya, Rosie?â
Rosie giggles and kicks her dangling feet, mud dripping off her tiny, leather oxford shoes and onto the floor with an audible splatter.
âSheâs gonna be home from patrol any minute now,â he says, shaking his head. âIf she sees Rosie like this, sheâll have my ass, and yours.â Carefully, he takes Rosemary from Ellieâs hands, holding her out and away from him. He jerks his chin towards the dirty floor. âClean up this mess while I take her upstairs and give her a bath. We might just be able to get away with this.â
She gives him a thumbs up. âYou got it, old man.â
âCâmon, Rosie Posie. Letâs get you all washed up before mama gets home and puts all three of us in a timeout.â
She gives him a wide, toothy smile. âOkay, daddy.â
Groaning, you shove through the front door.
You had underestimated how difficult it would be to get back in the saddle of a horse after almost three years of not being in one.
It would take some getting used toâagain.
âFuck,â you hiss, closing the door and leaning against it for support. Your knees. Your thighs. Your lower back.
There isnât a single part of you that isnât aching.
After taking a minute to collect yourself, you push away from the door and toe off your old, brown leather boots, leaving them there near the entryway. You call out, âIâm home!â
âOh hey!â From seemingly out of nowhere, Ellie comes speeding down the hallway, skidding to a stop in front of you with her backpack slung over her shoulder. âJust the person I wanted to see! Mind if I head over to Dinaâs for a while?â
âHow long is a while, El?â
âShe invited me to stay for dinner.â
You raise a knowing eyebrow at her, a smirk tugging at the corners of your mouth. âAgain?â
Flushing, Ellie nods. âYeah.â
âDid you ask Joel for permission?â
âAw come on, man! Do I really have to ask Joel?â She huffs and rolls her eyes. âI can hear him bitching at me already.â Dropping her voice several octaves, she starts to mimic him, accent and all. âYâbeen spending every fuckinâ night over there. Donât you forget youâve got a family, kiddo.â
Amused, you chuckle and lightly nudge her shoulder. âI have to take his side on this one, Ellie. It would be nice for the four of us to have dinner together. You know, like we used to before Dina came into the picture?âÂ
âIâll stay home for dinner for the rest of the week,â Ellie swears, clasping her hands together. âPlease?â
Sighing in defeat, you step aside. âAlright, go ahead. Iâll hold you to your word though, alright?â
âThank you!â she grins as she breezes past you and out the door, slamming it shut behind her.
Shrugging out of your jacket, you hang it up in the hall closet and then head upstairs. âJoel? Are you up here?â Thereâs no answer. You pass by Rosemaryâs room first and peek inside only to find it empty. Furrowing a brow, you head a bit further down the hallway into yours and Joelâs bedroom. Thatâs when you hear his voice coming from the en suite bathroom.
There, you find him kneeling on the tile floor beside the tub, his back to you as he gives your daughter her bath. Hours ahead of her normal schedule, you realize.
Casually leaning against the doorframe, you cross your arms over your chest, and quietly watch them, your lips already curling into a smile.
âWhatâs this?â Joel asks her, holding up a yellow rubber duck. Itâs almost comical how small it looks in the palm of his large hand.
âDuckie!â Rosemary answers, enthusiastically.
He nods. âSâright, honey. Itâs a duckie. And what sound does a duckie make?â
Craning your neck, you catch a glimpse of her sweet little face as she stares at him, her expression a mingle of equal parts curiosity and confusion.
âCâmon now, babygirl,â Joel prompts her, handing her the toy. âMama taught you this already, remember?â
She looks at the rubber duck and thinks, thinks, thinks.Â
After a minute, Rosie gasps and shouts, âQuack!â
âSâright! Good job, Rosie,â he praises. Leaning over the edge of the tub, he presses a kiss into her damp, dark brown curls. âThatâs my girl. Youâre so smart.â
âQuack!â Giggling, Rosie lifts her chubby arms over her head, bringing them down into the water with all of her might, splashing Joel. She does it over and over again, soaking his face and the front of his denim shirt as she chants, âQuack, quack, quack!â
âAlright, alright, alright!â Joel laughs, shaking his head. He lifts an arm, wiping at his face with the sleeve of his shirt. âSâenough, my little duck. Daddy already had his shower today.â
Grinning, you saunter up behind him, and with a bit of protest from your back, you bend over to kiss the top of his head. You say in jest, âWithout me?â
âMama!â Rosie cries happily, reaching for you.
âHi baby, I missed you!â Leaning down further, you kiss her cheek, the soothing, calming scent of her lavender soap invading your senses. Drawing yourself back up to full height, you glance down at Joel with suspicion. âIs there any particular reason youâre giving her a bath so early today?â
You can tell heâs contemplating lying to you. That is, until your eyes flicker over to her muddy clothes, which lie in a heap next to the hamper.
Heâd forgotten to get rid of the evidence.
âJoel? What happened to my child?â
âWe, uh, we had a little problem earlier this afternoon,â Joel explains, his ears burning red. âShe was out in the backyard playin' with Ellie and she got into one of the mud puddles.â
âRosemary Miller!â you playfully scold her. Placing your hands on your hips, you ask,âIs that true, young lady? Did you get into a mud puddle?â
Rosie beams. âYeah!â
Rolling your eyes, you laugh and shake your head. âYou silly girl.â
âThought youâd be mad, darlinâ,â Joel admits, peering up at you in relief.
âJoel, all that I ask when I leave her alone with you and Ellie is that I come home and sheâs still in one piece,â you tease him.
Dipping his hand into the water, Joel splashes you, and of course, Rosemary decides to follow his lead and she does the same, bursting into another fit of giggles.
âGet her, Rosie, get her!â he encourages her.Â
âHey!â You jump backwards, almost tripping over your own feet. âCut it out! Youâre getting water everywhere!â
About an hour later, once both Rosie and the bathroom floor are dry, Joel puts her down for her long overdue afternoon nap. He heads back into the bedroom where youâre digging in a drawer for a pair of clean leggings and a sweatshirt. He comes up behind you, his arms snaking around your waist as he nuzzles his nose into your neck. He inhales deeply.Â
âEw, Joel, stop it! Iâm all filthy,â you say, wiggling to get away from him.Â
Joel holds you tighter. âMm, I love it when youâre filthy, baby,â he smirks. âCâmon. Sheâs out for at least an hour. Weâve got some time to ourselves.â
âIâm so sore,â you whine. âFrom riding a horse all day.â
His lips find the shell of your ear and he whispers, âToo sore to ride me, darlinâ?â
Biting back a tiny whimper, your head falls back onto his shoulder as wet heat pools between your thighs. He lightly nips at your pulse point, his teeth scraping your tender, delicate flesh.
âJesus,â you breathe when he presses into you. You feel him against the small of your backâheâs already hard. âCan you at least let me bathe first?â
Joel hums. âIâve got a better idea, baby.â Spinning you around, he reaches for the buttons of your shirt. âHowâs about we save some water and shower together?â
âThought you already had a shower today,â you remind him of what heâd said earlier.
He pushes your shirt off your shoulders and licks his lips. âIâm sure as hell up for another one.â
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If only wishes could be fulfilled - Gojo Satoru
Words: 2,6k
Paring: Gojo x oc
Warning/tags: manga spoilers, angst, flashbacks, mentions of characters death, fluff, established relationship, Gojo and oc adopted Tsukimi and Megumi, open ending, no use of y/n, gn!reader
Note: I posted this one on ao3 weeks ago but never posted here, so here you have. Also Gege when I catch you
Jujutsu Kaisen materialist
Everyone knew him as the strongest, as Gojo Satoru the strongest sorcerer of the modern era, the one that brought balance to the world when he was born. He was also known as someone annoying, irritating, arrogant, never caring about others and too full of himself.
But you knew they were all lies. And it broke your heart they only view him as that, because he wasnât any of that, sure he was annoying sometimes but annoying in the good way. And he cared, he deeply cared for others.
So whenever you heard people describing Satoru it broke your heart a little bit, each time. Everyone knew Gojo but only a few knew Satoru.
You met Satoru back on the day when you entered the Jujutsu world when you were both 15 at the time and you didnât know anything about the sorcerer's world or clans. The only thing you knew was that you could see things no one else in your town could, so when three years ago a big guy with sunglasses came and fought one of those things, you asked him if he also could see them. It was then when you found out for the first time about what those things were.
Professor Yaga then introduced you to the school and you began studying alongside Satoru, Shoko and Suguru.
Itâs been over a decade since that and a lot of things changed on the mean time. Suguru left only to end up dying by the hands of his once best friend.
You still recall the moment you found Satoru sitting next to the dead body of Suguru.
24th of December 2017
It didnât take you much to arrive at Tokyo thanks to you cursed technique. Arriving at the school you made sure the students were safe, and fortunately they all were.
âWhere is Gojo?â
Yuta looked around searching for his teacher. âHe was here just a few minutes ago.â
You looked around and nodded, leaving the kids on their own, knowing they would be safe. You walked across the destroyed place, searching for a white hair.
The sound of loud sobbing hit you in the face, like cold water. It was distant but your heart knew too well who those sobs belonged to.
Moving your legs as quickly as you could, you rushed to the direction where those faint sobs were coming from.
The scene you found was one that you would never have liked to witness, and that would continue to torment you some time later. Satoru was kneeling on the ground, while he hugged Suguru's lifeless body. You froze, not because of the cold of Tokyo, but at seeing Satoru hugging and crying the way he was doing at that very moment.
Taking light steps so as not to upset him, you approached him, even though you knew well that thanks to his six eyes he had already known for a long time that the person behind him was you.
Carefully you placed your hand on his shoulder and gave it a light squeeze. âSatoruâŠâ You whispered, trying to hold back the tears that threatened to come.
Satoru stood still for a moment and then spoke. âIt was what he had to doâŠâ The words barely left his lips. âBut it hurts too muchâŠâ
You knelt behind him and rested your forehead on his back. âI know Satoru⊠I know.â You wanted to be able to take away all that pain and keep it for yourself, you wanted those tears that kept falling down his cheeks to stop. You wanted to protect him.
Sniffing he moved and stood up with Suguru's body in his arms. A strong pang pierced your heart as you clearly saw the lifeless face of the person who was once your best friend.
âHe had a familyâŠâ He whispered. You did know that Suguru had had a family during those 12 years that you had been apart, at least that's what the reports said. âThose two babies that were here with him⊠you would probably want to say goodbye to him⊠and bury him.â You knew where Satoru was going, he wanted to return the body to those Suguru had called family for those last 12 years and you weren't going to stop him.
You stepped aside and Satoru walked a few steps and then disappeared.
Satoru returned the next day, you were standing next to Megumi preparing a Christmas cake when Satoru walked through the door. Without saying a word he approached Megumi and ruffled her hair and then approached you and simply hugged you without saying anything. You knew that at that moment words were unnecessary and that what Satoru needed most was to be with those he loved most.
âIn the afternoon we will go see your sister.â Satoru spoke, turning away from you and looking at Megumi. He just lowered his gaze and nodded. "Everything will be fine." He told him, ruffling his hair again, to which Megumi protested.
23th December 2018 [present day]
A sad smile appeared on your face as you remembered Megumi and Tsumiki. You had been unable to protect them. You looked up and saw Satoru's back, he was stretching. Tomorrow was the day, tomorrow he would fight Sukuna.
05th October 2008
You looked at Satoru first and then the two kids that were right next to him. âRepeat that?â You were confused as hell.
âCongrats babe, we have two kids now!â He said in a playful way.
You and Satoru had been dating for two years now, in fact your second anniversary would be in November. You were barely almost 20.
âSatoruâŠâ You looked at him with your arms crossed. âCan we talk for a moment?â He nodded and walked towards the bedroom. You looked at the kids. âYou can turn the tv on if you want.â
The two kids looked at each other and nodded. The little girl, who seemed older, grabbed the boy and guide him to the sofa and turned the tv on.
âSatoruâŠâ You said entering the room. âHave you lost your mind?â
âBabe listen.â He said leaving a kiss on your head. âThe kid, the boy, is talented and they have no one.â
They were alone? That broke your heart a little bit.
âHow did you find out about them?â
Satoru sighed. âHe is the son of that guy⊠Toji.â An immense cold ran through your body from head to toe. Just remembering what happened in the summer of 2006 made you nauseous.
âHe is his son?â Satoru nodded.
âBefore dying he told me about him, he was sold by him to the Zenin clan.â He fell silent for moment. âYou know the type of clan they are and his father probably knew that too.â
âSo he told you to take him in?â
Satoru shook his head. âNot exactly, but I decided to take him.â He smiled. âSo I paid what the Zenin clan asked for him and here we are.â
âSatoru⊠they are both small, rising a kid itâs a lot of responsibility.â
âAnd we can do itâŠâ He approached you. âI know we can do it. Besides, I think I could be a pretty awesome dad.â
You rolled your eyes. âWhatever you say, but I hope I donât have to be taking care of three kids.â
He laughed and grabbed your face. âYou wonât. I love you.â And left a soft kiss on your lips.
âLetâs go with the kids and introduce each other properly.â
You walked outside the room to be meet up with the sight of the two kids focus on the tv in front of them.
âKids.â Satoru spoke and they both turned their attention to him. âThis isâŠâ Satoru mentioned your name. âBoth of us will be taking care of you two from now on.â
âHello.â The girl smiled. âIâm Tsumiki and this,â she pointed to the little black haired boy. âItâs my little brother.â She gave him a slight nod.
âHi⊠Iâm Megumi.â The kid looked up and then down.
âHello kids.â You smiled wildly trying to calm them down. âI hope we get along well and take care of you as best as possible.â The children nodded.
Present day
Looking to the ceiling you tried to hold back your tears. God, you missed your two babies so much.
âLoveâŠâ Satoruâs voice made you look forward. âYou okay?â
You nodded, even though it was a lie. âHow about you?â
âPerfect.â He smiled but that smile was hiding so much pain.
âYou know you donât need to hide your real feelings from me.â You whispered as he approached the place where you were at.
âThe same goes to you.â He said poking your nose. âBut love, Iâm alright. Tomorrow I will bring Megumi back to us and everything will be fine.â
He sat next to you and surrounded you, you rested your head on his chest and felt his heart beating. "Our poor Megumi... if I hadn't been in the state I was in, he might have been able to save Megumi and also Tsumiki. God, I just hope that Megumi isn't aware of what happened to him, otherwise our poor boy will be extremely devastated. â Satoru grabbed you tighter and kissed your temple.
âYou were injured in Shibuya and mentally you were not well. Shoko made the right deck to keep you away from everything that happened in the last month.â He whispered softly to your ear.
19th November 2018
Shoko had stopped by to check on you that same morning, apparently she couldn't come by in the afternoon and it was better to check on you that same morning.
You had hit your head in a very bad way during the Shibuya incident, it had even left you unconscious in bed for 5 days.
When you woke up, everything, absolutely everything had changed. Nanami was no longer with you, Kugisaki was in critical condition, the higher-ups had ordered Itadori to be executed immediately, and Satoru had been sealed and accused of treason.
At that moment you felt like your world was falling apart, you needed to find Satoru, know where Megumi was and see with your own eyes that Tsumiki had woken up, but Shoko wouldn't let you get out of bed. Apparently the hit had been big, she even was surprised that you could be as well as you seemed to be.
It was November 12th when Shoko walked with her head down into your room and you felt like your heart might jump out of your chest before she even spoke the words that were in her throat.
âItadori arrived this morningâŠâ She said sitting on the empty seat near a window and taking out a cigarette from her pocket. âMegumiâŠ.â Your world was about to stop moving. âHe⊠was possessed by Sukuna.â
Your body felt weak at that moment, you were very cold, so you hugged yourself trying to stop shaking. Was it because it was cold outside? Or something else?
Shoko called you once again. âThere is something elseâŠâ You could barely see Shoko clearly, your eyes were filled with tears. âA sorcerer from 1,000 years ago has reincarnated on TsumikiâŠâ
âWhat⊠what does that mean Shoko?â
âIâm not sure⊠but according to one of Itadoriâs new friends it was KenjakuâŠâ Shoko looked at you and whispered your name softly. âShe is goneâŠâ
You covered your face with your hands and started sobbing. That was 7 days ago, since then you had barely moved out of bed. Your body was too exhausted to do so, you wanted to go back to a year ago when everything was fine, when you and Gojo were celebrating your tenth anniversary and both Megumi and Tsumiki were fine. Today, November 19, would be your 11th anniversary, but you were there alone and completely broken.
âSatoruâŠâ You said, through your sobbing. âI need you, I need you here.â
Thatâs when you felt the bed moving and a hand touching your hair. You slowly opened your eyes, meeting up with a figure you didnât know if it was real or your mind was already playing tricks on you.
âYou are real?â You whispered, still crying.
âI amâŠâ He said touching your face and whipping out your tears. âI couldnât miss our anniversary right?â He smiled.
You sat on the bed and looked at him, still unsure if it was really him. âI missed youâŠâ You said hugging him and feeling the warmth of his body.
âMissed you too, my love.â He whispered to your ear, hugging you tightly.
âSatoru, ourâŠâ
âI know, I knowâŠâ He said stroking your hair. âI will bring Megumi to us, I promise.â
And you nodded against his neck, believing in all his words.
Present day
âIâm scaredâŠâ You finally confessed. âAnd I know youâre too, thatâs why you sent Yuta to talk with Miguel right?â You glanced at him.
He stayed silent. âIâm the strongest, everything will be fine.â
âSatoru⊠I know you are the strongest but that doesnât mean youâre not terrified of facing Sukuna.â You moved to face him.
He rolled his eyes. âLove⊠I will win and bring Megumi back to us. Trust me.â
âI trust you, I trust you with everything I have but⊠but doesnât mean Iâm not worried and doesnât mean I donât know you enough to know that you have the feeling that things might it go as you want.â You took a deep breath. âThatâs why you have been doing something behind everyoneâs back right?â He looked in another way, you were right. âSatoruâŠâ
âIt has to be meâŠâ He whispered. âIf I had not been sealed, none of this would have happened. Maybe Nanami wouldn't be dead, nor Yaga either, maybe we could have looked for a solution to save Tsumiki, Megumi wouldn't have been possessed by Sukuna either.â She took a breath into her lungs and continued. âIt has to be me⊠after all I'm the strongest, right?â A broken smile appeared on his face.
You silently approached him and hugged him as tight as you could. People didn't really know what kind of person Satoru was, always putting others before himself and always blaming himself for things that didn't go well, even if they weren't his fault.
âYouâre too good.â You whispered against him.
âThatâs not trueâŠâ He replied. âIf Iâm good is because I have a reason to be the best version of myself.â He separated from you and looked into your eyes, those blue eyes that you loved so much. âYou make me be the best version of myself. Be a better sorcerer, be a better teacher, be a better influence on the kids. âIt's because of you and it's been that way since we were 15.â He grabbed your hand and gently caressed it with his thumb. âI don't know what will happen tomorrow, butâŠâ Swallowing and wetting his lips, he looked at your hand and then at you. âLet's get married, we've been together for 11 years and I want to continue being with you for the rest of my days, soâŠâ In one quick movement he knelt before you. âWould you do me the honor of being your husband?â
From his pocket, he took out a small box containing a beautiful ring. âSatoruâŠâ You whispered in surprise, both of you had talked about getting married on more than one occasion. You knelt in front of him and hugged him. âOf course.â
Satoru covered your face with kisses, causing you to laugh. âThank youâŠâ he whispered close to your lips. âI love you.â
âI love you too.â
Your heart still felt heavy, you didn't know what would happen tomorrow in the battle against Sukuna but you just hoped that Satoru would return to you and bring Megumi back. To be able to all be at peace.
Thatâs all you wished and hoped for.
If only wishes could be fulfilled.
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ăBetter Than the Restă [Johnny Cage x Fem Reader]
Summary: Johnny allowing you to live with him after coming home from Outworld was a blessing and a curse. You loved it, but⊠you couldnât ignore the problematic way your body felt when you looked at him. Stick to friendly flirting and fucking other people, for nowâŠ
Tags: johnny cage x fem reader, smut, pwp, masturbation, pet names, blowjob, friends to lovers, johnny being a cocky asshole (i say with love)
An: okay guys my bad for not posting forever⊠lets pretend something tragic happened to me so i have an excuse
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It had been about a month since you moved in with Johnny. After you both returned from Outworld you didnât really have a place to stay anymore, and like the âgentlemanâ he is, he offered you his guest room.
Throughout the month you had been there the two of you became best friends, you pretty much shared everything with him and he did the same with you. But recently being divorced and now rooming with a very⊠attractive woman, things were hard for him. He couldnât help but stare at you, cherish every time you touched him, or think about the sounds you made when you worked out late at night when he was trying to sleep. Everything you did replayed in Johnny's mind constantly.
And things weren't much different for you. Johnny was a dickhead but he was also a very charming, funny, attractive dickhead. You hadnât laughed more in your life until you met Johnny. You also happened to not be able to take your eyes off him, your mind even started wandering to Johnny while you were touching yourself. You thought about it a lot, would he be gentle? rough? Would he whimper? moan? You couldnât fight these thoughts. Of course they started plaguing you at the worst moments.
And this moment was no different. You and Johnny were sparing, you had been for at least 3 hours. You had been bested by him the last 2 rounds and were beginning to get annoyed. This time was the same unfortunately. Johnny had swept your feet out from underneath you, leading to him winning. You sighed, defeated. Johnny walked over to you, a cocky stupid smile on his dumb face. âLooks like I win again, see I told you, you canât beat the Cage.â You rolled your eyes. âYou only beat me because I let you.â Bitterness in your words. You finally looked up at him, glaring. He didnât know why but the way you looked at him from beneath him made his dick twitch a bit. He cleared his throat, then helped you up. You groaned, your muscles sore from the amount of sparing you both did.
You both made your way over to your water bottles. Johnny couldnât tear his eyes away from you though. His throat tightening as he scanned your body, watching as a bead of sweat rolled down your breasts and then disappearing into your sports bra. The way your hair looked, dishevelled from the sparing. Johnny could feel himself getting hard from just looking at you.
âOkay, fuck. This is my last round, my muscles are so sore.â You groaned, rubbing your neck. âAnd this time, I will beat you!â Johnny let out an exaggerated laugh. âOh sureeeeee you will.â You rolled your eyes again, pissed by his stupid sarcastic comment. âNo I will. Trust me, Iâm gonna beat you so bad youâll be whining about it for weeks.â A smirk on your face, you were determined to win. He laughed again, getting into position. This time you wouldnât let him best you. You went at him with full force, dodging his quick punches and landing a few of your own. After a few more minutes of you dodging and hitting him back, Johnny found an opening and was able to knock you off your feet. Immediately getting on top of you, and pinning your hands above you. âSo, do you give?â You could see a smile forming as the words left his lips. âFuck that.â before he could respond you wrapped your legs around his torso and flipped him.
You were sat on his bare stomach, your hands on his chest. Johnny couldnât believe it, one that you beat him, and two, that you were sitting on top of him. You both stayed in the position silent for longer than you shouldâve⊠eventually you broke the ice. âSoâŠâ you said through pants, âDo you give?â He groaned, âFine. Whatever you win, dumb luck.â You smiled, but still didnât move, wanting to cherish the feeling of his abs on your clothed pussy. A few seconds after you finally snapped out of it, quickly moving off him and getting up. An awkward laugh escaped your lips and you mumbled a small âsorryâ before walking away.
Johnny couldnât believe what just happened, but what he did know is that he needed to take care of his little problem asap. His dick was so hard it was painful, he was even a little surprised at how you didnât notice it while you were on top of him. You gathered up your things, turning back to Johnny. âIâm gonna go have a shower, donât cry too hard about losing.â You giggled before turning and leaving. As soon as you got back to your room you let out a long exhale. Your panties were soaked and you were so turned on you could barely think. Grabbing a change of clothes and a towel, you left your bedroom and made your way to the bathroom.
You were so excited to not only wash off the sweat from your skin but also to get some alone time. You were so sexually pent up and you needed a release. You had been feeling like that for so long and you would often go out and find someone to hook up with, sadly none of those hookups gave you what you need. Youâd often find yourself getting home from a hookup and complaining to Johnny about how mediocre it was, and wishing for someone to just fuck you right. But nevertheless that wish still hasnât come true, so youâre left to your own devices.
You turned on the water, stripping your clothes off and stepping into the hot water. Taking in the warmth of the water, your hand made its way down to your clit. Rubbing small circles you couldnât help but whimper. Your mind filling with images of Johnny, and thoughts of what he would do to you. Your other hand slowly entering your cunt. You tried your best to keep your moans quiet, but the more you thought about what Johnnyâs dick would taste like as you fucked your face on it, what his nose would feel like on your clit as you sat on his face, what his tongue would feel like as he lapped at your folds, the more you couldnât hold back. His name leaving your lips as you sped your fingers up. You could feel the knot forming in your stomach as you reached your orgasm. Yelling his name a bit too loud for comfort. You finished up your shower and wrapped the towel around yourself, hoping and praying Johnny didnât hear your⊠exclamation.
As you leaned over the sink to start on your skin care you noticed a text on your phone. âHey, u free tonight?â It was a text from one of your former hookups. You thought about it for a second, you were still so turned on despite your shower endeavour that a one night stand might be just what you need. Sure they werenât the best in bed but you were kind of desperate. âYeah, meet you at the usual bar in an hour and a halfâ You felt kind of pathetic for giving it up so easily, usually you were the type to play hard to get, but desperate times call for desperate measures.
You left the bathroom, quickly going to find Johnny to tell him you were leaving. Entering the living room you could see Johnny sat on the couch watching one of his own movies. âHey Johnny.â His head turned to you as you spoke. He was quite the womanizer but when it came to you, you always left him speechless. His eyes glued to your barely covered figure.âWait⊠are you watching your own fucking move?â You chuckled, âYeah, I gotta make sure my performance was top tier, itâs why iâm the bestâ Johnny responded, the cocky tone in his voice unmistakable. âAnyways⊠so yâknow that guy I told you about?â Johnny chuckled, âYouâre gonna need to be more specific.â Your name rolling off his tongue. âOkay the one that was able to make me cumâ you smiled, you were so comfortable with Johnny that telling him things like this didnât bother you at all. For Johnny though, it was another story. He hated hearing about all the mediocre sex you were having. Often thinking about how much better he could treat you. But he is an actor so whenever you told him about your encounters he would do what he does best, act his ass off.
âAh, gotcha.â He nodded, âSo, let me guess, you need me to pick you up if anything goes wrong?â , âBingo! Thanks so much Johnny, youâre the best!â You smiled brightly before bidding him farewell to go get ready. Johnny quickly taking in the view before you disappeared behind the walls. He sighed, thinking about you. Unbeknownst to you, Johnny had walked past the bathroom door as you yelled his name. He couldnât believe what he heard. He needed to be sure, so even though every part of his body was telling him to move on, he pressed his ear against the door. Through it he heard many small whimpers and moans, all muffled by the sound of the water, along with you whining his name. Johnnyâs lips slowly forming into a satisfied smirk, this was an ego boost beyond any other. But after hearing that, he could barely function. He was so horny he was losing it, attempting to put on a movie to distract himself from how hard he was. When he saw you though, only in a towel, leaving so little to the imagination⊠he knew he needed to deal with the problem you made.
He made his way to his own room. Stripping himself of his clothes, he moved to his bed. His tip leaking with precum. He brought his hand to his aching cock, stroking it slowly. Sometimes he felt like you messed with him on purpose, but this time⊠no way. That just made him needier. He sped up his strokes, imagining what you would look like stuffed with his dick. His head fell back, his groans becoming louder. What he would give to taste you, fuck you, love you. It was all too much, the idea of you was too much. Before he knew it, he came. Thick white ropes spilling over his abs while he groaned at the thought of you. Johnny cleaned himself up, and changed, not wanting to risk being caught by you.
You were kind of rushing to get ready, your makeup a bit messy and your hair refusing to stay in place. Sure this was a guy youâve seen a few times but still, you wanted to look hot. You let out a frustrated groan while going through your closet. You had plenty of clothes but none of them seemed to be what you wanted, until you came across a dress you hadnât worn in forever. Your fingers brushed along the seam of a short red dress, it was exactly what you needed. The moment you put on the dress you inspected yourself in the mirror. Black lace lining the top of the dress. It was a little short but you were only really gonna be at the bar for a little bit before you leave and get that dress stripped off of you. Not long after you grabbed some heels and your bag and were ready to go, texting your fling that you were leaving. âOkay Johnny Iâm leaving! donât have too much fun without me!â You giggled, Johnny only catching a glance at you before you were out the door.
It had been about 5 hours since you left and Johnny was so close to falling asleep. Just when his eyes closed he heard his phone ding. An annoyed âwhatâ coming out of his mouth before he turned over and checked his phone. Surprisingly it was a text from you, it wasnât rare for you to text him to come save you in the middle of the night if a hookup had gone bad but he wasnât expecting it tonight. Mostly because you seemed to really like this guy, and because of this Johnny felt a little happy that it didnât go well⊠along with feeling some guilt over the fact he was happy you werenât having a good time. Your text was as usual, at least for the other guys, a simple âcome pick me up pleaseâ along with their address.
After driving around for a little bit, trying to figure out where the fuck this guy lived, Johnny found it. Honestly the only reason he was able to was because you were standing outside the building. He pulled up to you, opening the passenger door for you. While you got in his eyes scanned you from head to toe. âOhmygodthankyousomuchforcomingtosavemeâ Your words spilled out of you faster than you could think, your mind still a little fuzzy from having a few drinks at the bar. Johnny laughed, âNo problem babe.â His tone coming off more seductive than he meant. âFuckkkâ You exhaled, sliding down in the seat. âI waited outside for like 20 minutes in this stupid dress. I'm so cold.â Johnny was about to say something but before he could speak you were taking off your dress. âWoah thereâ His hand going to yours to stop you from taking off your clothes. âListen I know Iâm attractive but thatâs no reason to take your clothes off.â His joke making you laugh. âNoo I have a change of clothes in my bag.â You explained, slurring your words a bit. âPleaseeeee let me change, I am sooooooo cold.â You turned your head to face his, your eyes begging for him to let you change. Johnny didnât say anything, he simply removed his hand and started driving.
There was nobody on the road that night, which was lucky for you because you could change in peace, also lucky for Johnny because focusing on not crashing was a lot easier. Johnny tried to keep his eyes on the road but he could see you in the corner of his eye. He took notice of the lingerie you were wearing underneath your dress, how little it covered. His thoughts were interrupted though. âJohnny, can you undo my bra, I canât get it.â You whined. âCanât you just put your clothes over it? We are gonna be home soon..â Johnny really wasnât the type to back out of taking a girls bra off but he was really trying not to fuck things up. You groaned, âNoo I canât wait, itâs so uncomfortable, and I need it off now, also I'm freezing here waiting.â Your pleas convincing him. Johnny pulled the car over and turned to you. His focus waning seeing you from behind, barely anything covering your body. You made a noise the moment his hands touched your cold skin, a noise that Johnny couldnât get out of his head. The moment he unclipped it, in your slightly drunken state, you tore it off of your body, turning towards Johnny to grab your shirt. His breath hitched in his throat for a minute as you turned to him, your bare breasts on display.
âOkay thanks so much, you can continue driving now!â Your cheery tone not making the situation any easier on the poor man next to you. Johnny just tried to get home as soon as possible, because the feeling in his pants was becoming uncomfortable, especially after your took off your panties to put on your sweats. The rest of the ride was so quiet, which you thought weird, considering Johnny never shuts up. The moment you got back to his house you ran inside, almost forgetting your clothes. Johnny came in after you, exhaustion taking over his body. He didnât even feel like going to his room, so instead he sat down on the couch, his eyes shutting slowly. But just like before, he was interrupted by you. You straddled him, leaning your head into his chest.
His eyes shot open, immediately moving them down to see what was going on. There you were, on top of him, looking up at him with puppy dog eyes. âI know youâre tired but I didnât even get to talk about why I left!â You propped yourself up on him and started talking. âUgh okay so basically everything was fine until he got a call from his fucking girlfriend! can you believe that?â Anger seeping from your words. Johnny was half awake and along with you on top of him, forming words was extremely hard, so he just nodded along. âSo of course I go âWhat the fuck!â and then he starts making up some stupid excuse. Ugh what a dick, I feel so bad for the girlfriend..â A pout forming on your pretty face as you stared at Johnny. âAnd also! I didnât even get to finish⊠this is so stupidâŠâ Your defeated tone got Johnnyâs attention. His head perking up, âHe didnât even let you finish? Yeah that guy sucks.â He said, moving his hands to your waist.
âOf course the one guy that can actually make me cum has a girlfriend, is a dick who cheats on his girlfriend and doesnât even let me orgasm the last time I see him.â You whined, unknowingly grinding down on his lap. He snapped out of his trance the second you did that, realising that if this continues he will lose his self control very very soon. âOkay gorgeous, I think itâs bedtime.â He said, trying to sit up. Your head leaned back, an annoyed sound escaping from you. Begrudgingly you stood up, missing the warmth Johnny radiated. You trudged your way to your room and fell onto your bed, not bothering to even take your makeup off before you fell asleep.
When you woke up your head was killing you, along with all of your muscles. You cursed yourself for going out after doing a hard workout and drinking. Your clothes becoming a bit too warm. You stripped off your garments, and threw on a big t shirt, too lazy to even put underwear on. As you walked into the kitchen you noticed the time, it was already 11am. You sighed, head still pounding. You felt bad for making Johnny do everything for you but also he kept agreeing so whatever, might as well ask him to make you breakfast. So you went on a search, looking everywhere in Johnny mansion for him.
After what felt like forever (5 minutes) you finally found him. âJohnny!â You exclaimed, happy to see him so you could beg him to make you food. He was in his gym, working out with his headphones in. âJohnny..?â Repeated, less excited and more confused. âUhh Johnny..â You said once more, this time louder. It seemed that attempt worked because he immediately stopped his set and sat up. âOh hey, sleep well miss homewreaker?â Johnny said jokingly. âOh fuck you. I didnât know..â , âSureeâ His sarcasm annoying you. âWhatever⊠since youâre such an asshole to me can you at least make me breakfast⊠yâknow as like a way to amend things.â Your face morphing into an overdramatic begging expression. âSure, I mean what woman doesnât want me to make them breakfast after a rough night?â Johnny said, winking after. Immediately you rolled your eyes, âYeah yeah whatever mr bigshot, go cook me something.â
Even though you asked Johnny to cook you wouldnât even let him crack an egg without criticizing him. âNo! Johnny you are supposed to butter the pan not use oil.â Your head in your hands in annoyance. âUgh move I will cook it myself.â You couldnât bear to see him ruining your precious breakfast any longer. You wedged yourself in between Johnny and the stove, completely forgetting about the no underwear thing. Your bare pussy against Johnny's crotch. He pretty much turned into a mess. He fumbled backwards, making up some excuse about having a business call and rushing off to his room. Too focused on food, you didnât even consider that to be odd.
A few minutes later your food was finally done. You were famished and scarfed down your breakfast at record pace. After breakfast you decided to go around and grab all your things that you left near the door last night. When you went to grab them though, you noticed your shoes were nowhere to be found. You spent a couple minutes looking for them before you gave up. âI donât know maybe Johnny has seen them..â You said to yourself.
As you approached Johnnyâs room you heard noises, they were quiet but there. Against your better judgement, when you got to his door, you opened it. âJohnny have you seen-â Your question interrupted by him moaning your name as he touched himself. âOh my god!â You exclaimed. âIâm so sorry!â You shielded your eyes, Johnny becoming aware of your presence and quickly throwing a blanket over himself. âFuck uh sorry?â He said through whimpers, trying to calm down. âWere you⊠moaning my name?â Your question barely louder than a whisper. Johnnyâs bold demeanour seemingly disappearing as the words left your mouth. He was left silent, not sure how to respond. Johnnyâs self reflection quickly cut off by your laugh. You stepped closer to his bed, moving your head down to his level and looking him in the eyes. âYou have no idea how long iâve craved you.â Before he could speak you smashed your lips against his.
Your tongues entangling with each others. Subtle moans leaving both of your lips as you got on his lap. His hands falling on your ass. You intensified the kiss, biting on his lower lip, lapping at his mouth as he used his hands to move your hips back and forth over his aching cock. You broke the kiss, a string of spit connecting the two of you. You pulled your shirt off of your body, eager to get things moving. âStand upâ Your breathy voice driving Johnny crazy. You got off of him and got on your knees. âOne second babe.â Johnny said while he leaned over to grab his phone. âGotta record such a pretty view.â He said, a smug grin appearing on his face. He stood up, pointing his phone camera down at you. âAction.â You rolled your eyes at his stupid comment and then turned your focus to something much more important.
You brought Johnnyâs cock to your lips, spitting onto his tip. You took your hand and wrapped it around his length, doing slow, steady strokes. Your fingers tracing his veins, looking up at him to see all his reactions.
His grunts making your pussy clench around nothing. To him you were torturing him. The pace you were going had him losing his mind. âFuckkâ His hips thrusting into your hands, trying to get more friction. âBaby I need you to go faster, please..â His begs making you smirk. âTell me what you want.â Your seductive voice almost making Johnny buckle. âGod, youâre evil yâknow that?â He chuckled. âAnything, just, just go faster.â He said, exasperated.
You tilted your head to the side, âAnything?â You asked, âFuck yes anything.â He was so desperate for you. You thought about it for a second, then moved your lips closer to his cock. Doing small licks to his head. Watching as his head fell back in pleasure. You then licked his slit, his entire body tensing up. Slowly, you moved your tongue across his entire shaft. giving extra attention to his veins, like you did with your fingers. Finally, you brought your head back to his tip, and then you slowly took his entire length into your mouth. A beautiful moan leaving Johnnyâs lips. You started to move, making sure to look at the camera. Johnny could barely contain himself, hips rocking back and forth with the flow of your mouth. You could feel him twitch in your mouth, he was close. So, like an asshole, you pulled your mouth off of him when he was about to cum. His eyes shot open. âWhat the fuck?â He was clearly annoyed about his orgasm denial. âJohnnyâŠâ Your sensual tone reverberating in his ears. âI need your full attention for this, I need you to look at me.â He panted âWhatever you say.â You stared up at him, his cock in your hand. You opened your mouth, bringing his dick back into your mouth. You took his entire length into your mouth, getting down to the base.
Johnny was losing it. A slew of curses, moans, and your name rolled off his tongue. âShit, thats perfect baby. Fuck you look so beautiful with my dick stuffed down your throat.â His praises making the aching between your thighs no longer able to be ignored. You started to move back and forth, your body so hungry for his praise. âJust like that⊠god youâre mouth is like heaven.â The rasp in his voice making you crazy. He wrapped his hand into your hair, pushing you down onto his cock. Your hands shooting to your clit, rubbing circles on the sensitive bud. Your moans felt so good around his dick and he couldnât hold back anymore. âFuck iâm so close.â He groaned. His hips thrusting into your mouth so faster you could barely think. He pulled you off of his dick before he came, wanting to see your pretty face covered in his cum. As he finished he moaned your name, releasing his seed onto you, covering your face in it.
âSmile for the camera baby.â Were the last words he said before Johnny stopped recording on his phone, throwing it onto a chair. You licked your lips, lapping at whatever landed there. Johnny grabbed you a towel, grabbing your chin and wiping off all his cum. The second he was done cleaning off your face you stood up, crashing your lips to his again. You pushed him back onto his bed and got on top of him, grinding your cunt against his abs. âYou wanna ride me?â He questioned, his confidence returning. âFuck yes oh my god.â You responded, so excited to finally feel him fill you. You moved yourself down and aligned yourself with his cock. As you rocked down on it you and Johnny both let out a whimper. His dick was the perfect blend of big and girthy, it stretched you in a way youâve been longing for. You propped your hands up on his chest and started rocking back and forth, eliciting the most beautiful moans.
âNo one can ever compare to this pussy.â Your name leaving Johnnyâs mouth while he groaned. âYou have no idea how much I wanted to do this yesterday Johnny.â You cried, riding his cock at the perfect pace. You kept the speed going up, never faltering. Johnnyâs dick hitting all the right places. You were losing your mind already but when Johnny moved one of his hands to your hip and the other to your clit you couldnât take it. His hand rubbed circles into your sensitive bud while his other was rocking your hips on his cock. You couldnât take all the stimulation and your orgasm was close. âJohnny.. mmph Iâm so, Iâm so close fuck.â You could barely keep yourself upright, the pleasure taking over. âCmon baby, cum, scream my name too, let everyone know who is making you feel this good.â Johnnyâs smug voice ringing in your ears. And you listened, as the knot in your stomach came loose your mouth screamed his name, your cum coating his dick. And right after, he came, his seed filling you up, along with his moans filling your ears.
You collapsed beside Johnny, a mix of his cum and yours leaking out of you. He chuckled, words leaving his lips between gasps for air. âIf I knew your pussy was that good I wouldnât have let you leave to go fuck those losers.â You turned your face to his, pulling him into a kiss, âYou donât gotta worry anymore, this is all yours, Mr A-list.â You whispered, enjoying the calm moment. Johnny couldnât hide his amusement, but he also couldnât hide his need for more. He grabbed your waist and lifted you back onto his chest. âCome here, sweetheart, why donât you sit that pretty pussy on this pretty face?â You groaned at his self centredness but still moved your hips up to his face. âYouâre the most self obsessed person Iâve ever met, did you know that?â You ask, sarcasm dripping from every syllable. âHard not to be obsessed with yourself when you are as sexy as me.â Ending his sentence with a wink. âOkay that's enough out of you.â Shutting him up with your cunt sat on his face. His nose felt heavenly on your clit but when he started licking your folds you started seeing the light.
While he ate you out he also gave himself some self love, jerking himself off. It had barely been a minute since you sat on his face but you could already feel your body going numb. The sensitivity from your last orgasm not worn off. The way his tongue lapped at your pussy had you squirming. Johnny had to use his unoccupied hand to hold you down while he sucked and licked your pussy raw. Your moans were getting out of hand, you were screaming so loud a part of you was worried the neighbours would hear. But when Johnny started moaning into your pussy you fell apart. Legs shaking and cunt clenching around his tongue. You could barely get any air in as you came undone, squirting all over his face, Johnny doing his best to catch your juices in his mouth. You pulled yourself off of him, crawling down his bed to replace his hand with yours. You listened so intently to every noise he made until he finally came, his cum falling over his chest.
Craving more of him, you bent down and ran your tongue along his abs, trying to lick up every last drop of his seed. âYouâre such a whore, drinking up my cum like that.â You giggled, licking the last drop from his muscles. âYou did the same thing a few minutes ago, I guess we are both whores.â Your hands rubbing at his chest. âYouâre dangerous.â Johnny says, a glint in his eyes. You nod, a feeling of pride in your heart. âIâm thinking⊠one last round?â A playfulness in your voice. âWe donât wrap until itâs perfect baby.â Johnnyâs smugness extremely apparent.
He stood up and walked towards you, leaning you back on his pillows. Johnny climbed back into the bed, sitting in between your legs. He leaned in, kissing you on the lips. Unlike the other kisses you shared this one felt different, it was less needy, more intimate. While kissing you he started pinching and squeezing your nipples, rolling them between his fingers. You moaned into his mouth, needing more. Johnny removed his lips from yours and moved them to you jaw, sucking and licking at your skin till a bruise formed. He did that all the way down, from your neck to you shoulders. Johnny stopped at your breasts though. He payed extra attention them. Using his tongue in expert ways around your nipples. You were so obsessed with the way he made you feel, no hookup had ever been like this.
By the time he reached your cunt your body was already turned to jelly. He took a hold of this length and slowly pushed it inside you. The curve of his cock hitting every sensitive spot inside you. âNgh Johnny please..â Your begs replaying in his head. He started to move, slow and steady thrusts. Johnny went deep inside you, pulling almost all the way out before sinking back in. You were a mess, the erotic sounds of your rendezvous making anyone who might walk by walk a little faster. His pace was so slow, but even thrust was sending you over the edge. The louder you got the harder Johnny would go. It was slow and rough, neither of you able to form any words due to the feeling bubbling to the top. Johnny got slightly faster and his movements became more sloppy, you knew he was close, and so were you. âJohnny, please, I need to cum.â You pleaded with him, your entire body was shaking, ready for release. All he had to do was utter three words and your became a shaking mess underneath him. âCum for me.â
Johnny pulled out of you, the way your cunt squeezed him when you came was too much. A couple of strokes and he came on your pussy. He fell to your side. All was quiet except for your breaths. You were the first to speak, âI hate you and you fucking cocky attitude but god do you have the skills to act like that.â You both laughed, âFuck youâre so amazing, I wish I got a piece of that sooner.â An annoyed sigh left your lips, âSure, whatever, now go be a gentleman or whatever and get me a cloth so I can clean up the mess you made.â He smiled and leaned in to kiss you, âYes maâam.â
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*currently asks and messages are both off but will be back again soon
Hello I'm Lenka, welcome to my blog
i am a balkan lesbian woman, and i am in my mid 20s
im a big scary radfem so block me if that threatens you
my blog is crypto safe (if youre crypto, dont feel inclined to follow me if you dont want to, i value your safety above all)
though this is mainly a radfem blog i also post funnies, things i find pretty/cool, etc. (if youre wondering why i followed you and youre not a radfem blog, thats why)
i LOVE being spammed with reblogs and likes so dont be afraid to do so!!
i identified as "trans/nonbinary" for years before reclaiming my womanhood, and am so happy i did (its never too late)
in that same vein, theres no "right" or "wrong" way to be a woman
i was a huge trans activist for years before i realized it doesnt and will never benefit me despite their lies
on that note, i dont argue with tras, go kick rocks and debate with the mirror, loser
i post free pdfs, resources, graphics and everything else amongst the sort on this blog, feel free to explore and read, its not illegal to do so despite what youve been made to think (hashtag: #useful)
my dms are always open to mutuals (i love all my mutuals)
it sometimes takes me a while to reply (i.e. days, weeks...) to my messages because my life can get busy at times but rest assured i will get back to you, and love chatting!! (i sometimes also just come on here to feverishly reblog but dont have the energy to converse, i hope you understand)
i dont always reply to every reply on my posts because sometimes theres nothing else left to say! youve summed it up perfectly! but i LOVE reading all replies!!!
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though i do have some hashtags on this blog i regularly use to keep things somewhat organized, in general i dont use tags a lot, if ever
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there are more trans activists/trans people turned radfems than there are radfems turned trans activists/trans people, think about why that is
you are not the only one who thinks these thoughts, i promise you there are SO many women who think the same as you, you just havent found them yet, or theyre in hiding
how to find other like-minded women to follow
what makes a cult?
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Baking
This is a thank you for 300 notes on the other one
Itâs something I drew about the same time
Closeups below
(Freddy does not understand the intricacies of Baking)
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not to make people believe in me and my work ethic but im lowkey a liiiitttttleeee stoked to share the fics ive been cookin lately..
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Imagine being so insecure in your own identity that you start literally gatekeeping your gender
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1) a reminder that just bc someone cosplays a character doesnât mean they condone that characterâs actions
2) this cosplay gave me so much gender euphoria like i legitimately teared up lol
heâs still unfinished, but hereâs an oberon cosplay lmao. i actually made the outfit for a high school sewing project 2 years ago, then i dropped out so. i just⊠never bothered to do the cosplay xD so heâs here now!! this is actually my lucy wig and i didnât want to cut that and not be able to use it for her, i know it isnât styled for him â-_- iâll finish making his crown and wings soon and iâll buy a wig for him once theyâre finished, but for now iâm actually pretty satisfied with how it came out??
i still hate him as a character, obviously, but i always liked his design and he gives me a lot of gender envy. plus, this is kinda like another way for me to take away the power from my trauma, i guess? this and my titania cosplay mean a lot to me for that reason.
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My favorite food is pain au chocolat. I donât even feel like I need to explain it. It is so obviously and manifestly a perfect food.
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(Out of nowhere, you are approached by a familiar lightbulb-headed Cog.)
Ah, it's you, cat. Thinking you're oh-so-slick. Muttering and whispering under those raggedy whiskers of yours... Thinking I am unable to hear it all...
Well, you've simply underestimated my fantastic hearing. You probably want to know the reason why I'm here, taking a 'break' from my incredibly important scientific breakthroughs? It's quite simple, really!
(She gets close, and squints her eyes.)
I know what you are.
Farewell, now!
(She then leaves the way she came from.)
(Spam giggles immensely, covering her face... it always seems like she's giggling, isn't she? This lasts... at least thirty seconds. Longer than usual.)
And I know what I am too, Sparky! You broke through something, that's for sure. Really, broke through...
(She looks down, continuing to laugh nervously.)
You know, I find it odd you Havent tried to bulb blast me into the stratosphere by now. I mean knowing how you acted with Frostbite. Is there something peculiar about me that you perhaps can't quite track? Something about me that you... don't know what I am?
I know, I know, I'm talking to nobody again. But you were there when I had a moment today with the one the only Frostbite The Bravecog. You may be remaining. Lurking in the shadows. Knowing about these thoughts that I'm thinking.
(The giggling resumes, lasting far shorter this time.)
Your brother's a piece of fucking barp, by the way
(She braces for impact for a few seconds, wincing while smiling, before comically looking around to realize nobody's there. She sighs.)
Wow, okay maybe toony superhero show logic doesn't apply in this situation. Cool.
WAIT I JUST FUCKING REALIZED WHAT SHE MEANT but like. Dude if she meant that then what's the point I mean the whole ahh sellbot department barping knows unless you're Really low on the ladder. Heheh... maybe she did mean what I thought she meant.
Oh i'm so fucking screwed. What kind of bitch gets filament fever
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APRIL 12, 2005: a very happy anniversary to my chemical romance & the used's cover of david bowie & queen's 1981 song "under pressure", which was originally released to raise money for the 2004 indian ocean earthquake & tsunami!
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The Muzzle Problem
Pairing: Wriothesley x Fem!Reader
Tags: nsfw, smut, rough sex, muzzle, breeding, possessive sex, creampie, mentioned marking, doggie style, feral!Wriothesley
Word count: 0.7k
A/N: Expanding on that post I made the other day cause got damn I want him in a muzzle so bad!
He fucked you like he hated you, and maybe in this moment he did. Not because you did something wrong per se, not because he had a reason to hate you, his pretty girlfriend, but all because you wanted to see what would happen when you put a muzzle on him while he fucked you.
"Think you're safe from me when my mouth is caged up?" The cold bars of the muzzle pressed against your face when he attempted to nuzzle in closer to you, his frustration palpable in the loud smacking of his hips into yours. "Think again, there's many way that I can mark you as mine." Your pussy tightened around his cock, legs feeling weak and suddenly you found yourself grateful that you had the bed to fall back onto.
You reached behind you and felt the cold cage of the muzzle, "You know you can't leave marks on me. What if someone saw? They'd know... ah... about us... and..." Wriothesley tightened his hold on your hips and pressed your hips fully against the bed, clit grinding against the pillow under you while he fucked you hard, fast, possessive, almost feral. "Wrio! Careful! Your hands!"
"My hands, my cum, my cock, yes all of them, I can mark you with all of them. I don't really have to though, do I? Because at the end of the day you already know that you're mine." Behind closed doors you were his, but to everyone else you were his right hand woman, to be respected and feared as such too. In both cases though you were his and he was yours, secretly ready whenever you called for him.
Unlike you Wriothesley didn't have any problem teasing you during work hours, which lead to situations like these, getting fucked on his bed right after the shift ended, a puddle between your legs and a pulsing ache that grew every time his cock sunk back into your wet...
"My pussy, it's all mine, and you know what? I think this pussy could use some of my cum in it. It's been so good for me lately, so good for me. You've been amazing, I don't know what I'd..." He groaned as you hooked your fingers on the muzzle and pulled him forward, causing his cock to sink in balls deep into your drooling cunt.
"There, yes, fuck... fuck me there..." Again you tugged on his muzzle and felt the full weight of him on top of you, doing everything you could to keep your ass smacking loudly against his, "Fuck me however you want, just don't leave any marks where people can see." Those were some very dangerous terms you just agreed to.
You could feel yourself dripping with arousal as he began going faster, fucking you like he wanted to see you break on his cock. And maybe he did, as punishment for denying him the pleasure of biting and kissing you. "Breed you, I'm gonna breed you, get my cum in your wet little cunt. Let's see who owns your pussy then huh? When you're dripping, when your womb is flooded with my cum. Say it, say it, say it!" Your hips met his one final time before your mind went blank with pleasure, warmth spreading both inside and out, your orgasm making your stiff against his rock hard body.
Hot cum rushed into your spasming walls, your abused, sensitive pussy taking all of it before he collapsed next to you.
A few minutes passed in silence, the only sounds being each other's breath, slowly getting back to normal. You turned to your side, trying not to squirm as Wriothesley's cum dripped down your thighs. He looked happy, hair very messy and eyes a little hazy still but happy. When you reached behind him and undid the clasp of his muzzle he let out a long sigh before opening his mouth wide, flexing the soreness out of his poor jaw.
"Sorry." You snuggled up to his chest and kissed him on the chin, "But it's not my fault you can't keep your mouth to yourself."
"Yes it is. You're too cute for your own good." Wriothesley pressed a long kiss against your forehead, another content sigh leaving his lips. He was finally able to do what he wanted to do all day, kiss you as much as he wanted.
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Some tips and tricks on how to spot scam accounts in general. This isnât a detailed explanation as I have more info on my other blog but here is some general things to go by and what to look out for overall.
The pinned post is only a few days old or even a few hours old. The text may occasionally be multicolored for the link.
The ask they sent you seems catered to a specific issue or event and looks very odd if you read it throughly. Text might seem out of place or make no sense at all by a health standpoint.
They sent you an ask after following you and have no prior interactions and isnât someone youâve met before. This is usually prompted when interacting with a trending post or sharing a post related to certain topics.
The blog doesnât have very many posts. Itâs usually limited to a few posts from a trending tag, a popular topic, or catered to pass at a simple glance if you donât scroll far enough down. Most posts are made the same time as the pinned and shared seconds apart.
Even if your bio says no aid asks, the account will send you one anyway because they donât read or donât care they just want your money and will keep spamming asks until you share the post or block them.
Sometimes the same ask is sent from multiple accounts all using the same story and setting as the account that sent it to you at a different time. Any errors in the text donât get fixed and itâs usually a quick way itâs a scam.
The accounts usually base their blogs overall theme around whatever is going on at that moment more often then anything else.
Sometimes the ask is about sharing their pet aid post. Any images used may be stolen off somewhere else so itâs advised to ask them questions back and see what they can tell you and if it matches.
On occasion theyâll say to answer privately because they donât want anyone else to see the ask.
In general, most strangers asking you for money in your inbox found you from searching tags and you need to check and ensure their being honest as scammers unfortunately exist. Not everyone asking for money is a scammer! Just do your research.
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Wingwoman (Spencer Reid x Fem!BAU!Reader)
Pairing: Spencer Reid x Fem!BAU!Reader
Summary: You take your good friend/coworker, Spencer, out to the bar to find him a girl to hook up with. Things do not go as planned.
Word Count: 5107
Warnings: Romantic/sexual tension! Mentions of drinking / sex
A/N: Hi! I haven't written posted fanfic in like, 8 years, please be nice xD I would love to know your thoughts - if you have any requests or anything, I'm happy to oblige. ALSO -- I have only seen up to Season 7 of Criminal Minds because I'm a fckn loser. Anywayyyyy enjoy! Not my gif btw, all credit to the owner :)
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It was kind of your fault, now that you were thinking back on it.Â
Actually, it was definitely your fault, now that you were thinking back on it.Â
It had been your suggestion to go out. It had been your idea to act as Spencerâs wingwoman, some last-ditch effort to try to get him out of your mind. He was your coworker, for Christâs sake. And your best friend. And youâd thought about him desperately for eight of the nine months that youâd known him.Â
Emily, Derek, and Penelope had all agreed to tag along, but as the work day went on, each of your coworkers had found some kind of excuse to opt-out. Derekâs niece wanted to Facetime. Penelope forgot Kevinâs birthday was next week and needed to go shopping for a present. Emily had a headache.Â
Finding Spencer a romantic prospect on your own was certainly not the plan, but, stupidly, thoughtlessly, youâd decided to go along with it. You could do this. Just one night in a bar, chatting up women for the man youâd slowly been falling for the past eight months. As good of an idea as any, right?Â
You and Spencer took an Uber to the bar the group frequented. Ski-ball and pool in one corner, a vintage jukebox and small space set aside as a makeshift dance floor in the other. But the best part - half-off drinks for federal agents. Youâd never been one to abuse the badge before, butâŠÂ
Three Jack-and-Diet-Cokes later, your moral code had a bit of a crack in it.Â
Spencer stood next to you - towered over you, actually, because that man was a fucking beanpole - and you felt his eyes on you as you scanned the crowd. âWhat about her?â you suggested, jerking your chin to the woman at a high-top table against the wall. She had her nose stuck in her phone and an untouched martini on the table in front of her.Â
âSheâs clearly waiting for someone,â Spencer pointed out, and you realized he was right just as the woman looked up from her phone and towards the door for the third time in the past minute. âI also donât understand why youâre so dead set on finding someone to hog me up with.âÂ
You snorted into your drink. âHog you up with?â you repeated, turning in your barstool so you faced him. Your knees brushed his thighs.Â
âYeah, is that notâŠâ realization dawned on Spencer and he grimaced. âThatâs not the phrase, is it?âÂ
âHook,â you corrected, but not impatiently. You made a little hook with your index finger, like a pirate. A little giggle escaped you. âAnd Iâm not dead set on it,â you argued. âI just didnât want to be the only one leaving the bar with someone.âÂ
Your eyes flickered up to Spencerâs to gauge his reaction. He seemed surprised by this implication that you planned to leave with someone - someone who was not him.Â
âYeah? Who are you leaving with, matey?â Spencer countered, arching a brow and pointedly looking at your index finger, still in its hooked position. You dropped your hand.Â
âIt doesnât matter right now,â you blushed furiously, desperately trying to drive the conversation back to his romantic conquests. Your thought process was that if you actually saw Spencer with someone else in any sort of romantic capacity - dancing, flirting, kissing - youâd finally hurt yourself enough with the sight for those stupid feelings for him to dissipate. âWeâre looking for you.âÂ
Spencer merely hmm-ed in response, an indecisive non-answer, and you noticed he shook his head. Like he was annoyed, but trying not to show it. You swallowed the lump in your throat and polished off your drink before returning to examining the patrons in the bar. You nudged Spencerâs elbow with your own and your gaze landed on the group of three women giggling around one of the tables. âAny of them? The blonde is cute,â you pointed out.Â
âNot really into blondes,â Spencer muttered, and you glanced back at him. You could have sworn his eyes were locked on your brunette hair. You opened your mouth to say something, but Spencer cut you off. âBut, sure, if watching me strike out will amuse you, Y/N.â Before you could protest, Spencer set his glass down on the bar and started towards the trio of women at the table.Â
You leaned down to sniff his glass, curious as to what heâd been drinking. Clear liquid. No smell. Was he⊠totally sober?Â
You watched with narrowed, studious eyes as Spencer approached the women. You could only see the back of his head, but the three womenâs faces were perfectly visible. They smiled, friendly, unassuming, and then something came out of Spencerâs mouth that changed their expressions. The blonde in the middle furrowed her brows, and the two women on either side cocked their heads slightly. Spencerâs hand tapped the table and he earned awkward smiles as a goodbye was bid, and when he turned around to head back towards the bar, he just shrugged his shoulders and shook his head, like what are you gonna do?Â
âWhat happened?â you asked as he returned to you.Â
âI blew it,â Spencer said matter-of-factly. Too accepting of his defeat. Further supporting your theory that heâd gone over there and purposefully botched it.Â
âRight,â you flagged down the bartender to order another drink.Â
âYouâre getting another one?â Spencer asked.Â
You whirled your face to meet his and didnât see judgment, but rather, concern. âWhy does it matter?â you asked, no, dared.Â
Spencer shook his head, defeatedly. âIt doesnât,â he grumbled.Â
âWhat about that girl you were talking to earlier by the jukebox?â you asked, nudging his shin with your foot. âThe grabby one. She seemed really into you.âÂ
Spencer visibly gritted his teeth. âIâm not interested.âÂ
âAre you interested in anyone in this bar tonight?â You asked. The words came too quickly for you to stop them. They were too real. Especially as Spencerâs frown hardened just slightly and you watched him look away from you.Â
You took in a sharp inhale, the realization hitting you, the possibility that Spencer might actually feel the same way about you. And that youâd dragged him out here tonight to try and set him up with someone else. You were selfish and thoughtless and stupid.Â
You hopped off the barstool, your feet wavering beneath you. âIâd better go home,â you said suddenly, grabbing your bag. You had to leave. You had to go home before you said something stupid, something irreversible.Â
You stalked out of the bar and onto the brisk, late-autumn sidewalk. Youâd forgotten your coat at the office and insisted youâd be fine. The chill smacked you in the face and you tucked your bag beneath your shoulder so you could cross your arms over your chest and hug yourself for any semblance of warmth.Â
Thirty seconds hadnât even passed before the door creaked and Spencer appeared at your side, throwing his coat wordlessly over your shoulders. âWhat did I do?â he asked. You looked up at him and saw his eyes - hurt, frustrated, confused.Â
Your lips parted and there was a small shake of your head. âNo,â you breathed. He furrowed his brows and you explained further. âYou didnât do anything.âÂ
âThen why the hell have you been so weird around me lately?â Spencer asked, scuffing his shoe against the sidewalk. Like a temperamental first-grader.Â
âWeird how?â You asked, trying to pretend like you had no idea what he was talking about. Like your stomach didnât flip every morning when you saw him.Â
âLike youâre⊠like youâre mad at me. Like you donât want to be around me,â Spencer looked at the street ahead of the both of you rather than at you. âYou always find an excuse to leave the room when itâs just the two of us. You pull Derek or Emily or Penelope into the conversation so you donât have to interact with just me. Youâre out here trying to find me someone to hook up with?â he phrased the last sentence as a question, shaking his head. Your heart lurched. He let out an incredulous laugh. âItâs either youâre trying to shrug me off as a friend entirely, or -âÂ
He stopped himself. His eyes were fixed on the streetlamp a few feet in front of you. They widened and you felt your heart pound as he slowly met your gaze. The realization hit him, the second half of his sentence lingering, heavy and palpable between the two of you.Â
âOr,â you repeated, not phrasing it as a question. Your voice was soft as you said it, your tone anything but a question.Â
âOr?â Spencer asked, and you could see his chest start to rise and fall more slowly.Â
âOr,â you confirmed, taking in a sharp breath.Â
Spencerâs throat bobbed as he looked at you, his gaze piercing and soft, studious and lazy, hungry and satiated all at once. âOh.âÂ
Oh.Â
âHow long?â he asked, turning his feet towards you.Â
Your face went red and you lifted your chin, refusing to make yourself feel ashamed of it anymore. There wasnât any point, not when he knew now. âSince March,â you admitted. Your voice was squeaky.Â
âMarch?â Spencer repeated, incredulous. It was early October now.Â
âYeah,â you exhaled, shrugging his jacket off your shoulders and bunching it up by the middle. You handed it to him. âYou donât have to say anything,â you said. Your body felt like it was on fire. âYou donât have to-â
âIâve had feelings for you since the day we met.âÂ
You thought maybe you were hallucinating for a second. Your mouth fell open and despite your three drinks, you remembered clearly that Spencer had been drinking water. This was not some drunken confession, not for either of you, because the second heâd asked you why you had been so weird lately, you had instantly sobered up. âOh,â was all you managed to choke out.
Oh.Â
âYeah, oh,â Spencerâs mouth twitched up into a smile. That playful, friendly, teasing little smile youâd learned to love on him. He stepped towards you.Â
You let out this little half-garbled laugh. Spencer reached for your hand, and you let him. Your fingers spread, allowing his in the spaces between. You looked up at Spencer and little fires shot up your hand. How could merely holding hands feel so monumental?Â
âWhat do we⊠what do we do now?â You asked, your mind in a haze, like a computer awaiting command.Â
Spencer let his jacket fall to the concrete and used his other hand to slowly, almost hesitantly, cup your cheek. He looked down at you and your entire face reddened. âWell,â his voice was soft, crackling, like a fireplace, and he met your gaze with searching eyes. âIâd like to kiss you now, if that would be okay,â he said finally. Your lips turned up into an idiotic smile.Â
âI think that would be okay,â you whispered.Â
His hands were so soft, you realized. His grip on your hand loosened and he was now cupping your face on both sides. And every nerve in your cheeks was firing off signals - Spencer is touching my face, Spencer is touching my face. Like it was some forbidden thing. But then, as if in slow motion, he ducked his head down and his lips touched yours. Gently, at first, tentative and wobbly like a foal taking its first steps. Your hands rested on his torso - taut beneath that stupid little sweater vest.Â
He pulled back after just a moment. It was really only five or six seconds at the most, but you were red-faced and breathless by the time your eyes fluttered open, into his. Spencerâs smile was now a full-blown grin, and your expression mirrored his. âYeah?â He asked, the word carrying more meaning. Youâre into this, right?Â
âYeah,â you exhaled as Spencer dropped his hands from your face, but your hands remained on his torso, not wanting to step away just yet. The syllable meant more coming from you, too. Iâm really, very much, super into this. Please, for the love of god, kiss me again.Â
Spencer arched a brow ever so slightly, and you nodded your head.Â
Just like a dance, Spencerâs hands moved to your waist, and at the same time, you slid yours around his neck. He backed you up, completely disregarding his jacket on the sidewalk, until you were flush against the brick wall belonging to the bar. The brisk October breeze ruffled through his hair and yours, yet, suddenly, neither of you were terribly concerned about the weather.Â
He kissed you again, and this time it wasnât as timid. Slowly, at first, his lips pressed against yours, and then his tongue darted out. It teased your lips in silent invitation, and you opened them to grant him access. His hands were everywhere, your hips, your hair, your face. You had moved your own down to his torso again. He coaxed the tiniest little mewl out of your throat, a completely uncontrollable and inevitable noise.Â
Spencerâs low, gravelly groan reverberated through your mouth. Your hands gripped the bottom half of his shirt, balling it up in tight, white-knuckled fists. An unmistakable hardness brushed against your thigh. You were perfectly content to stay right there, pinned against the exterior wall of a D.C. bar, but the sound of a car honking its horn peeled Spencer off of you.Â
His face was flushed and you released his shirt from your grasp. He let out a small grunt, stepping away from you to grab his jacket off the ground, wrinkling it haphazardly in his hand, holding it strategically over his middle.Â
Oh, he liked you a lot.Â
âYou okay, Spence?â You asked all-knowingly, cocking your head to the side, leaning against the wall, lifting a foot to plant against it.Â
Spencer shot a set of narrowed eyes at you, as if noting your smirk and storing it for later. âYeah, Iâm great,â he said, obviously struggling a little bit. His eyes quickly left yours and looked everywhere but at you.Â
You didnât want to embarrass him too much. So you just crossed your arms over your chest and looked at the sidewalk. But the smirk on your face wasnât going away quite so easily. You considered briefly trying to talk to him about baseball or something to try and help him out, but you decided pointing it out would just humiliate him. Plus, it was a nice little ego boost, knowing you could get him like that with just a simple touch.Â
He took a second, but he finally cleared his throat and met your gaze. You sucked your front teeth with your tongue and then bit your lip. âWant me to call an Uber?â You asked.Â
Spencer just nodded, and you pushed yourself off the wall, stepping over to join him, digging your phone out of your pocket to order the car. âYou okay?â You asked him again after submitting the request on your phone. Spencerâs face was still flushed, but he just nodded and reached for your hand. âCareful,â you warned, unable to resist the opportunity to tease him. âDonât want you having an-â
âShut up,â Spencer cut you off, and you snickered.Â
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You had never been in Spencerâs apartment before. It was unmistakably his, with stacks upon stacks of books in lieu of furniture.Â
There was a sofa in his living room, along with a coffee table, a couple of lamps, and a television on a stand. The remaining space, besides a few spots here and there and a clear path with which to maneuver the room, was filled with books.Â
You had never seen so many books in someoneâs possession before. And sure, you were an avid reader yourself. But nothing like this. Your heart fluttered at the sight, not only because books simply just made you happy, but because it was an incredibly endearing detail about Spencer. Your Spencer.Â
He shut and locked the door after you stepped inside, looking around with a childlike, awestruck grin. The TV had a thin layer of dust over the screen - he clearly didnât use it often. And as you trailed a finger along the top of the nearest stack of books, you felt a pair of eyes watching your every move.Â
You and Spencer had both been quiet in the Uber ride here. He had simply held your hand, swiping his thumb across the back of your palm every few seconds. You would occasionally meet his gaze, but then quickly, bashfully, look away, like the two of you were teenagers.Â
It was so strange to think of what he had said to you - Iâve had feelings for you since the day we met. How had you not figured it out before now?Â
You supposed you had been hiding your true feelings as well, so he was allowed to, too.Â
There wasnât any point in wishing to change the past, you reminded yourself. All you should be focusing on is right now.Â
And right now, the street lamps peeked in through Spencerâs living room window, glinting off of his endless brown eyes and making them look like he had the moon in his irises.Â
âSo,â you said softly, not nearly as wicked as you had been when you were teasing him on the street by the bar. âThis is where you live.âÂ
âUh-huh,â Spencer bobbed his head, that awkward, straight-line smile crossing his face.
âLot of books,â you pointed out.Â
âYep.âÂ
You arched a brow, a teasing smile crossing your face once again. âWhatâs with the monosyllabic conversation?âÂ
Spencer clenched and unclenched his fists at his side. âItâs just⊠really difficult to just stand here and not touch you,â he admitted, a sheepish smile crossing his face.Â
You grinned. âYou can touch me,â your voice dropped an octave, without you even really thinking about it.Â
Spencer licked a canine with the tip of his tongue. God, that tongue. You remembered how heâd teased you less than an hour ago outside of the bar. âMaybe I will,â he shrugged, and you rolled your eyes.Â
âYou canât really play it cool, right now, Spencer. Not when I just gave you a-â
âPlease stop talking,â Spencer laughed, crossing the room and cupping your cheeks in his hands all in the same movement. You snickered and he kissed you and anything you might have been wanting to make fun of him for was forgotten about.Â
You pressed your hands against his chest - holy pectorals, Batman - and craned your neck up so you could reach him. Spencer slid his own hands down your arms and to your hips, and you looped your arms around his neck. One palm flattened against the back of his head, holding him in place, fingers curling around pieces of his soft hair.Â
Your heart was hammering away, and there was this aching, hot feeling that was pooling in your core and you all of a sudden felt hungry. Starving for Spencer, for every piece of him, for fully and finally crossing that line from friend to lover. An insatiable hunger for nearly every moment since youâd known him.
Finally you broke away from him, simply because oxygen was a necessity, and he rested his forehead against yours. Your eyes were still closed and your fingers ground into his scalp. âLook at me,â he requested, his voice low.Â
Your eyes opened obediently and one of Spencer Reidâs hands curled under your chin. His face moved away from yours but his gaze was locked on yours, a pinpoint, a Northern Star.Â
And when Spencer spoke again, your knees buckled.Â
âI want you.â
Your mouth fell open, ever so slightly, and you nodded. âI want you, too,â you whispered.Â
âAre you stillâŠ?â He asked, his eyes searching yours. Youâd had three drinks earlier that evening, after all, but youâd polished the last one off nearly an hour ago. Maybe not fully sober, but sober enough to know what you wanted.Â
âIâm fine,â you assured him.Â
Spencer inclined his head to the side. âYouâre sure? Can you pass a sobriety test?âÂ
You narrowed your eyes at him before you realized he was being sarcastic. You stepped back from him, shrugging off his hands, and extended your arms, touching your nose with your left hand, then your right. Spencer just laughed, and reached out for you, tugging you back to him. âOkay,â he chuckled, planting a kiss on your neck. You let him. âYouâre fine, then?â
âIâm fine,â you agreed, shrugging him out of his sweater vest, and then reaching for the buttons on his shirt underneath.Â
Spencer kissed your neck as you fumbled with the buttons - how were buttons suddenly impossible to undo? Your head craned back just slightly on instinct, wanting - needing - to allow Spencer more access. Your dexterity had become abysmal at this point, and Spencerâs lips were kissing your neck, down your throat, teasing at your collarbone. âSpencer,â you managed to groan out, a wave of annoyance present in your tone.Â
âWhat?â he asked, pulling back, concern filling his face.Â
You realized you had actually worried him. âOh, no, no,â you waved it away, and he visibly relaxed. âIâm just really frustrated, because⊠because your shirt,â you stammered, and Spencerâs mouth twitched up into a smirk.Â
âMy shirt,â he stated.Â
âThat one, right here,â You laughed softly, curling your fingers around the buttons. You managed to wiggle one free, then another. Spencer leaned forward to continue kissing your neck, but you held a hand up to stop him. âHang on,â you murmured, working through another button, and one more. âIâm concentrating.âÂ
âYouâre sticking your tongue out,â Spencer snickered. Your eyes met his and your cheeks flushed.
âIâm concentrating!â Your voice rose slightly in self-defense. Spencerâs hands went to your hips.Â
âItâs adorable,â he told you. âYou make the same face at work. When youâre in the middle of filling out a form or trying to open a new bottle of coffee creamer without spilling it,â Spencer rubbed circles in your hips and your fingers stopped working again.Â
âYou noticed that kind of stuff?â You asked softly, looking up at him with doe eyes.
Spencer just nodded. âAll the time.âÂ
Iâve had feelings for you since the day we met.
You inhaled sharply, finally undoing the last button.The skin beneath the shirt was pale, smooth, and perfect. And when he slid his arms through the sleeves and the shirt fell to the ground, you bit your lip, unable to help it.Â
âY/N?âÂ
You met Spencerâs gaze and let out this awkward little laugh. Embarrassing, really, if you hadnât been in the company of your best friend. âYou okay?â he asked, and you felt a little giddy as you nodded, moving your hands to his neck and standing on your toes to kiss him again.Â
You didnât know which direction the bedroom was in, so you just took a guess, pushing him back towards one of the doors. He kept his hands on your hips and his lips pressed against yours as he guided you, walking backwards, to the right door. You entered the bedroom and could not possibly be bothered to look around right now, not when Spencer was guiding you in a circle by merely touching your hips, not when the back of your knees hit what was unmistakably a mattress, not when you fell back against it.Â
Your eyes were shut, unwilling to take in your surroundings as Spencer guided you onto your back. You toed off your shoes before lifting your legs, and Spencer hovered over you. Your lips were locked with his the entire time. And when you finally opened your eyes and you saw only Spencer, you grinned like a fool.Â
Spencerâs fingers were like taking a shower. They were all over you - your hips, first, then your stomach, and you had to resist the urge to giggle because they tickled as he teased the bottom hem of your shirt up. You sat up slightly to get the blouse over your head and you watched him discard it onto the floor. And then his hands were over your chest, thumbs teasing under the wire of your bra, outlining the shapes of your breasts.Â
Your breathing had gone heavy and staccato by this point, your body sinking into the mattress, shipwrecked as Spencer touched you. His eyes wandered over your and that little smile on his face was enough for you to know that he was immensely enjoying himself.Â
âCan IâŠ?â Spencerâs hands wandered down and gripped your pants as he looked into your eyes, a brow arched.Â
You swallowed a lump in your throat and your blush appeared over your cheeks at the same time as his. âYeah,â you whispered, and Spencer helped you wiggle out of your pants - black slacks, since you had gone straight from work to the bar. They were soon tossed to the floor, and you were only in your underwear and your bra. And Spencerâs brown eyes did not make you feel objectified or embarrassed, but safe.Â
âYouâre so beautiful, Y/N,â he told you, seriously, and your breath hitched in your throat.Â
âYou-â
âIâm not done,â Spencer cut you off, lifting a hand to run his thumb down your chin. âYouâre so beautiful. And youâre so kind, and smart, and funny. And Iâd really like to show you how much I care about you,â he looked into your eyes as a sort of request.Â
âIâm not on birth control,â You breathed out in response, feeling your cheeks redden for even bringing it up. Way to damper the mood. Still, you wanted to be responsible. âDo you have a c-â
Spencerâs soft smile turned into a wicked grin and he shook his head. âWeâre not going to need one,â he promised, and after looking into his eyes for a moment, you understood.Â
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Spencer had thoroughly worshiped you, until you quaked and cried out with absolutely no thought to how thin his apartment walls might be. Usually, you didnât allow yourself to be the center of attention for too long, but Spencer had insisted, and, well, you couldnât very well deny him what he wanted, right?Â
Covered in a thin sheen of sweat, your hair matted to the back of your neck, Spencer finally lay down beside you. Your breathing was just starting to come back to you as you turned on your side to face him. Spencerâs body mirrored yours, the tips of his fingers - those fingers - trailing up the side of your arm. âThat wasâŠâ his voice was soft, gravelly, and he looked at you like you had anything to do with it. It was literally all him. âIncredible.âÂ
âYeah,â you managed to breathe out, unable to really focus on anything besides the curve of Spencerâs lips, the way the apples of his cheeks appeared when he smiled like this. Spencer kissed your lips, unlike any way he had before. All the other kisses tonight had been hungry and excited, exploratory and new. This one was lazy and slow and you let his tongue dance across yours, and when he finally pulled away, your nose scrunched up in delight.Â
Your eyes traveled from his lips, down his neck, his collarbone, then back up, taking him in. The glow of his skin, the tired yet exhilarated look in his eyes. So different now than at the beginning of the night, when heâd looked at you with that slightly annoyed expression as you had tried to set him up with other women. You recalled how he had gone off to that group of three women right before youâd abandoned the bar, how he had struck out on purpose just to satiate your nagging. âWhatâd you say to those women tonight?â You asked him curiously, furrowing your brows at him.Â
Spencer, in turn, arched his brows at you. âWhy?âÂ
âBecause Iâm curious,â you said as his fingers continued to trail, feather-light, up and down your arm. You traced your thumb along his jawline, stopping at his chin. âYou were obviously blowing it on purpose.âÂ
Spencer rolled his eyes. âI actually do have some game, despite what Morgan might say,â he said, his tone defensive.Â
You snickered. âSure you do, Spence. Took you, what, eight months, to get me in your bed?âÂ
Spencer shot a playful glare at you and pinched the skin on your arm. You squeaked in response and he just laughed. âI just asked them how they were doing tonight,â he said finally, and you knew just from the look on his face that he was lying.Â
âYou did not,â you pushed back. âCome on, Reid, spill it.âÂ
âOk, fine,â Spencer heaved a sigh and rolled his eyes, sitting up in the bed, his back against the headboard. You sat up, too, looking at him with concern. Why was he so embarrassed? âI told them⊠Jesus.â Spencer rubbed the space between his brows with his thumb and his forefinger. âI told them I was here with a coworker that I had a massive crush on, and that you were trying to set me up with someone else,â he began.Â
You started to smile.Â
Spencer continued. âI told them that I had absolutely no interest in going home with anyone tonight, and that I had been purposefully striking out all night long because I couldnât stand the thought of even trying to look at someone the way I look at you.âÂ
Your smile grew and you moved to sit on your knees, inching closer to Spencer and throwing one leg over him, effectively straddling him against the mattress. âSo I asked them,â Spencer continued, his lips turning slowly from an exasperated frown to a small smile. âI asked them if they could just look at me like I had said something stupid, and then I would leave them alone.âÂ
âDid they say anything to that?â You asked as Spencerâs hands found your hips, contouring to match the curves into the small of your back.Â
Spencerâs voice got slightly lower, more serious, when he said, âThe girl in the middle did. She said âthat girl definitely has feelings for you, tooâ. And then they did what I asked, and I walked back over to you.âÂ
âShe did not say that,â you rolled your eyes, just as Spencer kissed your lips.Â
âI have an eidetic memory, Y/N,â he reminded you in a low whisper, as his lips lingered against yours. âWould I lie to you about that?âÂ
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As promised, welcome to
Fun biology in TOTKâs designs
I'll keep this post updated as I go through the game. I'm going to skip the more general identifiable things like apples (they're based on apples!) because there are tons of more unusual species to talk about.
Overall, the really interesting thing I've noticed is that many of the more unique Earth-based lifeforms in TOTK are super ancient, like predating dinosaurs ancient, which is a really cool tie-in to the overall time-hopping plotline of TOTK. Specifically, they're found in the new areas (caves, depths) while the surface remains a bit more normal.
(There will be no plot spoilers in this post, and also I've barely gotten into the plot because I'm spending all my time wandering, so shhh no spoilers in the tags for like a month please.)
Most recent additions: More lilies, irises, wild ginger, spiny bones, pigeon extravaganza, plus added some more real photo comparisons to old stuff.
PLANTS
Bryophytes my beloved. Bryophytes are among the earliest land plants, waaaay predating flowers and even seeds. In our world, theyâre small by necessityâthey lack vascular systems to help move water around like other plants, so they have to stay small and moist (hence their frequency in caves in TOTKâthough they do need some light in real life.)
In TOTK theyâre quite large and I think thatâs very sexy and art directors should give us big bryophytes more often
Anyway, there are three types of bryophytes: mosses, liverworts, and hornworts. First image pair is a moss, second is a liverwort. Those red-brown and palm-tree-like structures, respectively, are their reproductive structures.
Real liverwort photo © Graham Calow, NatureSpotUK
Not yet spotted: Hornworts! Did they forget the third bryophyte sister :(
I think these next guys are probably lycopods (specifically club moss, which is not a true bryophyte moss, thanks science.) Very old, but vascular, so they're a bit more evolutionarily recent than bryophytes.
Real photo © Gloria Hanley Schoenholtz, virginiawildflowers
All the enormous curly-topped trees in the depths: Ferns! They curl like that until they unfurl. Another very old plant, though younger than bryophytes and lycopods.
Real photo via The Cosmonaut, Wikipedia
Brightblooms and some of the other giant plants in the depths: Possibly based on a cycad? Again, a very ancient plant lineage. At this point, evolutionarily, they've developed seedsâthat giant cone in the center is called a strobilus, and that's the seed structure.
These next few plants are angiosperms, meaning they produce flowers. Angiosperms are a more recent evolutionary lineageâstill many millions of years old, but it took a while to develop flowers as a reproductive tactic.
Sundelions (left) are a fun recolor of a lily. There are also some scenery lilies (right) in various placesâthere are yellow ones that spring up when you turn on a lightroot (which gives them literal and thematic connection to the surface) and several other varieties, including tiger lilies, throughout Hyrule. Fun note, the sundelions appear to only have 5 stamen, while other lilies in the game (correctly) have 6. Seems to be an intentional decision to make it a more distinct fantasy species.
These next ones are Peruvian lilies/Alstroemeria, just used as a scenery plant but a very fun inclusion. Fun fact, not true lilies, so they're not deadly to cats like true lilies are.
Real photo © Dick Culbert, Wikipedia
Plum trees: These are also called out as plum trees in game! There's a journal in Kakariko that refers to the plum orchards.
Okay I'm a little proud of figuring this one out. Bomb flowers blend a few botanical references. Superficially, the fruit resembles a type of seed pod called a capsuleâspecifically it's very similar to a poppy capsule. The little red thing in the center is a nice addition to resemble both a flower stigma (reproductive part that leads to the ovary) and a bomb fuse. Now, poppy capsules disperse their seeds via wind, but there are other plants who do explode their seeds outwards as a dispersal tactic! This is called explosive dehiscence.
There is one tree in particular called the sandbox tree, AKA monkey-no-climb or dynamite tree (yes, really.) Their capsules look more like little pumpkins, but are known for violently exploding when ripeâthey can launch seeds at 150 miles per hour (250 km/h) and spread them roughly 200 feet (60 m) away. The photo comparison is a poppy capsule but you should def go look up dynamite tree videos.
Real photo © PommeGrenade, pixabay
Fire fruits (and the other elemental fruits) grow on the same generic plant that looks kind of like it has grape leaves. Fire fruits resemble a specific botanical thing too thoughâthe black netting is a papery calyx (part of the flower) seen in a nightshade genus, Physalis (golden berries, tomatillos, etc.)
Real photo © Helene Rogers, Alamy
I think this stuff is an Asarum, AKA wild ginger. I was actually puzzling over it until I walked past some today and went HEY
Not sure of the exact species but they're very green and heart-shaped and love being dense and low to the ground.
Real photo via David Stang, Wikipedia
Irises: Love irises, one of my favorite flowers and words, very happy to see them in game.
MISCELLANEA
Cup lichen! Lichen is not a plant, but a symbiotic structure of an algae + a fungi. Cup lichen is just a type of lichen formation that has a kind of vertical cup-like structure.
Real photo via Bernard Spragg
Geology crossover! Go look carefully at some of the whiter walls in the depthsâthey look like they have fossils of coral and other undersea hard-structured animals in them.
ANIMALS
Sticky lizards: Based on Diplocaulus, a very early (now extinct) amphibian! Their skulls are wacky. We're not sure whether the long sides stood out separately or were smoothly connected to the body by skin flaps, but the separate arrow-like shape is the most popular rendition.
Deep firefly: Might be a stretch because it could just be a multi-winged fantasy critter, but I think the "wings" and antennae are very reminiscent of Anomalocaris, an ancient aquatic arthropod.
Update: Other folks in the notes/tags have pointed out that they're probably based on a cryptid that's especially popular in Japan: skyfish AKA rods! They show up in photos and people think they're an alien lifeform. In reality, they're an optical blur created when a lower quality video captures intermittent flaps of an insect's wings, leaving sort of a many-winged smear in the photo. Thanks to all who left info!
Little frox: Another stretch because it totally could just be a Hinox-like frog, but every time I see the little ones I can't help but think of like...Ichthyostega, Mastodonsaurus, Eryops, and other early amphibians. They were pretty heftyâlittle frox size or biggerâand had with little waddling legs. This is less "I think it's definitely this" and more "it makes me happy when I picture frox as primitive amphibians."
I haven't detailed many of the scenery animals around Hyrule because most are identifiable with the camera functionâit'll tell you that a certain animal is a heron or porgy, for example, and those groups are real, even though the exact species is made up. But I think the pigeons are fun because they're all crested pigeons. Pink-necked green pigeons may have also been the inspiration for the color palettes on the wood and rainbow pigeons.
Both pigeon photos via JJ Harrison, Wikipedia
Spiny bones: Not a specific critter, but those spiny bones that you can find lying around Eldin Canyon are vertebraeâpossibly from the same thing that left those big rib cages around? The top spike is the spinous process where muscles attach, the littler spikes on the side are the transverse and articular processes. The dark O in the center is the spinal cord.
Also I made a friend who finally recognizes my purpose in Hyrule.
That's all I've got for now! Will add more as I keep playing.
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next of kin | S.R.
disaster strikes and you and Spencer try to take custody of your younger sister
who? spencer reid x fem!reader
category: angst
content warnings: actually might be gn! but i'm too scared to say it is. death, orphan-ing, funerals, child custody issues, blood, general cm violence, like actually an abhorrent amount of death. sorry i killed your parents for the sake of my fanfiction can we still be friends?
word count: 3.33k
a/n: this is the fic that this post is about. i am in fact my own worst enemy. i hope y'all like it actually genuinely i am most definitely overthinking this. if your name is maya im sorry that sucks.
âWhat did your parents say?â Spencer asked, walking into the conference room that the local precinct had offered to you.
You had been staring blankly at your phone since you got off the call with your mother, âUh, they said thanks, but no thanks.â
The uneasy feeling had settled in your stomach as soon as you found out the team was being called to your hometown, and you had been nauseous ever since you found out the UnSubâs pattern.
Married couples with an older child who had moved out and a younger child who was still at home.
Your little sister was a surprise, you had incorrectly assumed your parents were done having kids.
Until today, you wouldnât have traded Maya for the world, but now you sat in fear of your family being targeted by a serial killer. Hotch had offered them a protective detail, but they declined. Self-righteous as they were, they told you it wouldnât feel right for them to accept help that couldnât be offered to everyone.
Clenching your jaw, you stood at the table, âIâll go by later and check in on them.â
Spencer had met your family twice by now. Last Christmas he had tagged along to meet them and celebrate with your family before the two of you spent New Yearâs with his mom. Then, while your sister was on Spring Break, they flew out to Virginia, and you and Spencer had shown your family around Quantico and the District.
Maya had loved Spencer, partially because you loved him, but mostly because of his magic tricks.
âDo you want me to go with you?â He asked, stepping up next to you and placing a hand on the small of your back.
You sighed and shook your head, âNo, not if youâre needed here.â You reached up and cupped his cheek, smiling softly, âThank you for offering, Spence.â
He nodded affirmatively, âIf you change your mind,â he offered. Gently, he pressed a soft kiss to your forehead before the two of you returned to the rest of the team.
The fact that your parents lived only five minutes from the police station gave you some relief, but you still felt tightly wound. Everyone had noticed. You just needed this case to be over.
The porch lights were on when you got there, and you used your house key â which you had never taken off of your keychain - to open the front door. âHey, kiddo,â your dad greeted from the couch. A peek into the kitchen showed you that your mom was wiping down the counters. It all felt so eerily normal.
It was dark by the time you had gotten there. Maya was already asleep, but you tip-toed into her room anyway and kissed her goodnight before going back downstairs. Once you had hugged both of your parents and told them you loved them, you made your way back to the police precinct.
By nearly three in the morning, there was no new information, and the team was starting to consider calling it a night until the police chief got a call.
âWe just got a call. Lady reported shouts coming from her neighborâs house at 86 Meadowbrook,â he informed you, putting his hands on his hips and looking around at the team.
None of them even spared him a returning glance, everyoneâs eyes were on you.
Blinking rapidly, you nodded assuredly, âI have to go get Maya.â You didnât even recognize your voice even as you said it. It couldnât have been your voice. That was the rasp of someone far away from you.
All of the other voices around you were muffled, you couldnât hear what people were telling you, let alone understand them.
Maya. Maya. Maya.
Brown eyes. There they were, right in front of your face. âLetâs go get her,â Spencer whispered.
You had been speaking out loud. Repeating your sisterâs name like a prayer without even realizing it.
Hotch let you go with them, but he made it abundantly clear to you â and the rest of the team â that you werenât working this case anymore.
Surrounded by reverent voices in an SUV, JJ drove while Spencer stayed in the back with you. He held your hand tightly in his.
The house was closed off with police tape. Bright yellow plastic fluttered in the wind as you watched your team and other emergency personnel enter and exit. At your insistence, Spencer went in to get Maya, it felt like it had been hours before he walked out, carrying her in his arms.
Carefully, he brought her to you, and you pulled her close to your chest, blocking her eyesight as two body bags were brought out of the house.
You didnât hear anything after that. You just let yourself be moved to wherever you needed to be, holding your kid sister as she cried for your parents.
They had to take their bodies to the hospital even though they were already gone, and you needed to be the one to confirm their identities. Spencer stayed with Maya while you were busy. She had cried herself to the point of exhaustion, you were grateful that she was sleeping, and then you felt cruel.
By sunrise, she was still asleep, and you had been set up in that same conference room from earlier. Sitting across from you was a social worker, a representative of the state. Your lips had parted in shock as you looked at her, âWhat do you mean they denied my request?â
In an attempt to be helpful, JJ worked with you to file an emergency request for custody of Maya, and the case worker had just told you that the request was denied. âThe state doesnât believe your request is valid,â she told you.
Your mouth went dry, âI donâtâŠâ you glanced over at your little sister. âOur parents were murdered last night, and they wonât let me take custody of my sister?â You asked indignantly, peering at the social worker. It wasnât her fault, somewhere in your grief-ridden brain you knew that, but you couldnât help the feeling that she was somehow your enemy.
âThey donât believe you can provide her with a stable living environment,â the social worker, Brittany, explained.
Narrowing your eyes, you responded, âA stable living environment like a foster home? Iâm her sister. Weâre family â the only family each other has left.â You stood up, excusing yourself for a moment before walking out of the precinct. Once you were outside, you promptly hurled into the bushes.
That was how he found you, to the side of the building with your hair haphazardly moved out of your face, dry heaving into the shrubbery. Gently, Spencer placed a hand on your back before starting to rub small circles on your back, âYou should eat something, love.â
You just shook your head in response, you werenât hungry. âThey wonât let me take her,â you whispered morosely, straightening up, you kept your back facing him.
âWhat?â He asked, his hand abruptly stopping its movement on your back.
Taking a deep breath and sitting on the curb, you looked up at Spencer. âThe state thinks Iâm not stable enough to take her in,â you said, resting your chin in your hands.
Your boyfriend crouched down so that he could sit next to you, âAre you going to challenge it?â
âOf course I am,â you cried. âBut what happens to her in the interim, Spence? She gets placed with whatever foster home here and I go back to Virginia? I see her when the family court resolves this in two years?â
Treading carefully, Spencer cleared his throat, âWhat are you going to do?â
Defeated, you shrugged. âI donât know. IâmâŠâ your voice trailed off. âMy parents are dead, Spencer,â you murmured softly, tears welling in your eyes.
He reached out and wrapped his arms around you, âI know, darling. I know. Iâm so sorry.â
âI donât think I can do this alone,â you whispered, leaning gently into him.
Spencer turned to kiss your temple, âItâs a good thing youâre not alone then. Iâm not going anywhere.â He waited for a moment before continuing, âGive me something to do. Give me a job to take off of your shoulders.â
In the end, you let Spencer take over funeral planning. He thanked you for trusting him before the both of you went back into the precinct.
You had just hung up with a family lawyer who had offered to take your case, letting your phone drop to the floor, you let your arms hang at your side. Someone had taken Maya to get breakfast while you spoke with the lawyer.
At the sound of the phone falling to the floor, Spencer stepped into the conference room, letting the door click shut before him. âHey, what did he say?â
Pressing the heels of your palms into your eyes, you took in a deep breath, âUm, he said heâd be willing to take the case if I could put together a case plan to present before the judge.â
Before that phone call, you didnât know what a case plan was, you couldâve gone your whole life without knowing what a case plan was.
âI need a year-long plan for how Iâm going to prepare to have Maya in my custody, but he said a year is the best he can do,â you said, staring blankly at the wall ahead of you. âA year?â You whispered aimlessly, âIâm not waiting a fucking year to take custody of her. I have to take her home, Spence. I have to.â It wasnât your intention to snipe at him, but you felt like you couldnât help yourself.
The events of the last twelve hours threatened to take you down, but you had to stay strong for Maya. Â
Taking a shaky breath, you looked up at Spencer, âWhy is it that every time I convince myself that itâs going to be okay, I get tossed to the ground again?â You asked him.
Maybe because you werenât fully convinced. Maybe it was because it had only been seven hours. You needed to remind yourself of that.
âSheâs a ward of the state?â Spencer asked for clarification, holding you tightly.
Nodding absentmindedly, you rested your head on his shoulder as he swayed gently. âShe can stay with me until after the funeral, and after that, she has to go with the social worker.â
The sad look on Spencerâs face told you that he was running out of ideas, and you were coming to the very same conclusion. âWe could get married,â he offered.
âStop, Spence,â you said, shaking your head. You couldnât believe this was where he was going.
He shrugged helplessly, âIâm serious, Y/N. If we get married, they might think weâre stable, as a couple. They might give us custody.â
Your shoulders slumped, âI donât want to get married just to get custody of my sister.â It certainly wasnât that you didnât want to marry Spencer, just not like this.
He nodded understandingly, âI know, but Iâm just saying. If thatâs what it takes, then Iâll do it.â Placing a comforting hand on your knee, the two of you sat in silence for a moment. âDo you have any ideas?â He asked you carefully.
Looking through the blinds of the conference room, you saw the rest of the team coming back to the precinct. Setting your jaw, you nodded, âI might.â
Opening the door, you had Maya go in with Spencer while you approached your Unit Chief. âHey,â Hotch said, a glint of sympathy in his eyes. âHow are you holding up?â He pulled you away from the people, wanting to give you privacy.
This wasnât fair, they were still working on an active case. A case that was disturbingly close to you, and yet, you felt you were out of options. âI need a favor,â you blurted to him, wringing your hands. Your nervous energy made it impossible for you to stay still.
Hotch nodded, âWhat do you need?â He asked, studying your composure with the eye of a profiler.
You took a deep breath, âI was⊠I need you to call in a favor with someone. Anyone, really. The state wonât let me take custody of Maya, but I canât let her become a ward of the state. Not when Iâm right here, ready, willing, and able to take her.â
âOkay,â he responded, not even pausing to think about it.
Taken aback, you looked at him curiously, âI- thatâs it? I had groveling prepared.â
He nodded almost imperceptibly as if he was trying to tell you it wasnât necessary. âYouâve been a part of this team for years and not once have you ever asked for anything in return for everything you do for everyone else. This is the least I can do,â he told you.
You couldnât help it. Overwhelmed, you tackled Hotch in a bear hug, âThank you.â Your voice was low, âThank you so much.â
Succinctly, Hotch hugged you back before you pulled away, âIâll go make some calls.â
It was the smell.
The smell that youâd sensed countless times before on the job, the metallic tang of the blood. It shouldâve been mostly dried by now â you supposed you were more susceptible to the scent, considering it was your parentâs blood, but it put you on high alert.
Emily had brought you by so that you could pack a bag for Maya, but you found yourself stuck on the landing. To one side, there was your childhood bedroom and Mayaâs room. On the other side, there was your parentâs room.
âY/N?â Emily called your name from downstairs, âAre you alright?â
No, you wanted to say, but you bit your tongue, scanning the house you had grown up in. âThis doesnât belong here,â you told her, glancing behind you as she made her way up the staircase.
You didnât have gloves, so instead you pointed at the figurine that was resting on the bookshelves, a little bear facing in the direction of your parentâs bedroom door. âThis is in the wrong spot?â
Nodding, your eyes followed the ceramic bear as Emily picked it up with a gloved hand. âItâs mine, it should be in my room,â you informed her. Your parents never changed anything about your childhood bedroom, not since you moved out. âIt was like it was watching them,â you thought aloud.
âDo you think the UnSub did it?â She asked you gently, her voice was low but steady.
Blinking rapidly, you kept your eyes focused on the figurine, âLittle Bear,â you murmured, âThey called her Little Bear.â
Emily shook her head in confusion, dark hair swaying as her head moved. âWho was called Little Bear?â
Dropping the bag you had packed to the floor, you buried your face in your hands, âI shouldâve seen it sooner.â The victimology, it all suddenly made sense to you. âWhen I was a kid, there was a family like mine. A brother who was in his twenties when his parents had another baby, a girl. They called her Little Bear.â
Realization dawned on Emilyâs dark features, âLike this bear?â
You picked up the bag and started making your way back down the stairs. âTheir mother made those figurines. The parents died in a fire two weeks ago â they left everything to the younger sister. It was all over the news. God, I shouldâve figured it out sooner.â
âHey,â Emily said sympathetically, âYou had other things going on. None of this was your fault.â Her voice was stern, harsher than youâd ever heard her, as she pulled out her phone and called the team.
Your teammate drove, passing the police station on the way to drop you off. They left for the takedown, and you felt yourself floating into the precinct. Maya was waiting in the conference room for you, watching cartoons on someoneâs laptop.
Kneeling in front of your little sister, you tapped the space bar, pausing the video. âHey, kiddo,â you whispered, reaching over, and smoothing her hair away from her face. âHow are you feeling?â
She had cried herself to sleep earlier, and you felt like you hadnât been around enough. Maya sat up on the couch and rubbed her eyes, they were red, but not teary. âI miss mommy,â she told you, pouting slightly.
You nodded gently, moving to sit next to her before you pulled her into your lap. At six years old, she was all gangly limbs, just starting to grow into her own person. Just old enough to understand death, âI know, baby. I miss them too.â
âThey wouldnât lemme go home,â she continued, leaning her head on your shoulder. âI wanted Thumper,â she whined, sounding younger than she was.
Looking up at the light, you silently begged for your tears to go away. âI got him for you,â you told her, reaching into your bag and producing the small stuffed bunny that you had given her as a baby.
You savored the way her eyes lit up as she grabbed the stuffed animal from you.
âSo, you and Thumper are gonna come to stay with me in Virginia. Do you remember going there? You said you liked it?â You kept smoothing her hair back as she held her toy.
She was silent for a moment, âWill Spencer be there?â She asked quietly.
Smiling slightly, you nodded, âHe and I live together, so heâll be there with us.â Slowly, you started rocking back and forth, trying to soothe the both of you simultaneously.
âAs long as he doesnât pull money out of my ear,â she answered succinctly, shutting her eyes as she leaned up against you.
There was approximately an hour before you watched the team return to the precinct, slowly, you laid Maya down on the couch before walking out. âIt was a clean shoot,â you heard Rossi tell Morgan, and one look at the rest of them told you everything you needed to know.
The team went back to the hotel, and Spencer filled you in on the funeral arrangements he had made on your behalf. You were about to try to get some sleep when Hotch approached you and told you he needed to speak to you.
âI called a good friend of mine on your behalf, and he gave me some information. We were able to work out a plan,â he told you, sitting across from you in the hotel lobby.
You were about to tell him that a case plan wouldnât work, but he held his hand out, telling you to wait.
He nodded before he kept going, âHe was able to file an emergency request to grant you temporary custody of Maya, and it was granted.â
You felt sick to your stomach, âSheâs mine?â
âTemporarily, youâll have to take care of some formalities back in Virginia, but you have full custody of her,â he informed you. âYouâre being granted family leave, and Iâve encouraged Reid to apply for it as well,â Hotch told you, reaching out and placing a hand on your shoulder. âI am⊠Iâm sorry that youâve had to go through this but thank you for coming to me when you needed the help.â
You nodded absentmindedly, your head still whirling with the information that you had just been given. Stumbling, you walked back to your hotel room that you were sharing with Spencer and Maya.
The funeral was planned, the custody issue was solved, all there was left to do wasâŠ
âBaby?â Spencer said softly as you swung open the door, âEveryone else took Maya to get ice cream, I figured it couldnât-â his voice broke off at your first sob.
Everything you had held in came bursting out, all of the grief and stress and exhaustion nearly knocked your legs out from underneath you.
But Spencer was there to catch you.
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