ive made some playlists i thought i would share if anyone might like some bjr tunes! i have a serious one, a silly one, and one for the nebulous modern au tht lives in my brain
the last two i'll most likely still be adding songs here and there, but the 1st playlist is complete! i'll add the 1st playlist's tracklist+some lyric excerpts in the read more
black black heart - david usher
Something ugly this way comes
Through my fingers sliding inside
All these blessings all these burns
I'm godless underneath your cover
Search for pleasure search for pain
In this world now I am undying
I unfurl my flag my nation helpless
Black black heart why would you offer more
Why would you make it easier on me to satisfy
I'm on fire I'm rotting to the core
I'm eating all your Kings and Queens
dark entries - bauhaus
I came upon your room, it stuck into my head
We leapt into the bed, degrading even lice
You took delight in taking down my shielded pride
Until exposed became my darker side
dissolved girl - massive attack
Shame, such a shame
I think I kind of lost myself again
Day, yesterday
Really should be leaving, but I stay
Say, say my name
I need a little love to ease the pain
Need a little love to ease the pain
It's easy to remember, when it came
on the bound - fiona apple
You're all I need
And maybe some faith would do me good
I don't know what I'm doing
Don't know, should I change my mind?
I can't decide, there's too many variations to consider
No thing I do don't do no thing but bring me more to do
It's true, I do imbue my blue unto myself, I make it bitter
i think i'm paranoid - garbage
I think I'm paranoid
And complicated
I think I'm paranoid
Manipulate it
Bend me, break me anyway you need me
All I want is you
Bend me, break me, breaking down is easy
All I want is you
symphony - dorian electra
Something's funny when I grab my guitar
Feeling lonely like a dead shooting star
I'm not the only one who's crashing your car (crashing your car)
Need something louder just to drown out the scars
(Make some fucking noise)
Come on, baby, can't you see? (Can't you see?)
I'm gonna need a symphony (symphony)
And I'm gonna need to hear you scream
lecher bitch - genitorturers
I am the Lecher Bitch and I call on all who feed on danger
Taste of the whore. Suffer my seed
Crawl with the heretic and the world outside gets a little bit stranger
the bondage song - london after midnight
Innocent child, how you thought you knew me
Understood my ways, my dark needs
The hunt is not the thrill I'm after
I want the kill, the conquest, to be your master
Wrap your arms around my pale skin, it's too late to back out you're in
On your knees and praise your new lord, deeper now
And here's your reward, take me to bed and rip me apart
mercy - hurts
Fill me with rage
And bleed me dry
And feed me your hate
In the echoing silence
I shiver each time that you say
Don't cry mercy
There's too much pain to come
touch myself - genitorturers
I love myself, I want you to love me
When I feel down, I want you above me
I'll search myself, I want you to find me
Forget myself, I want you to remind me
I don't want anybody else
When I think about you, I touch myself
nihil - 3teeth
Bound by flesh
Freed by blood
this s*it will fcuk you up - combichrist
I am a bitch
How do you want me?
From behind
Or on my knees?
I am a slut
Please hold me down
I'll be your noise
This shit will fuck you up
you spin me round - 3teeth
I set my sights on you
And no one else will do
And I
I've got to have my way now, baby
All I know is that to me
You look like you're havin' fun
Open up your lovin' arms
Watch out, here I come
closer - nine inch nails
(Help me) I broke apart my insides
(Help me) I've got no soul to sell
(Help me) the only thing that works for me
Help me get away from myself
you've seen the butcher - deftones
I wanna watch the way
You creep across my skull
You slowly enter
'Cause you know my room
And then you crawl your knees off
Before you shake my tomb
hey - pixies
Hey, must be a devil between us
Or whores in my head
Whores at the door
Whore in my bed
But hey!
Where have you been?
If you go, I will surely die
And the whores like a choir: Uh-uh
All night
And Mary, ain't you tired of this?
Uh, is the sound
That the mother makes when the baby breaks
hail mary - skating polly
She got hit so hard she just got up from the ground
If she ever hits back, I won't tell
Hey Mary, follow me out and we'll never walk back
Hey Mary, tell me honestly you'd never want that
Hail Mary, trust me, don't look back or it's gonna end badly
if you really love nothing - interpol
When I find my home
The next artery
Splendid I bled my whole life
So it's probably a kiss
Goodbye then
tangled up in plaid - queens of the stone age
Come, lets play along
And let each other lose
A win would cause an alarm
Don't matter to me, don't matter to you
spaceboy - smashing pumpkins
And spaceboy, they'll kill me
Before I'm dead and gone
And any way you choose me
It won't be wrong
And any way you choose me
We won't belong
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a Black fem (Arlette) & stud (Jodi) on racism from white butches & fems in the 1950s
from Boots of Leather, Slippers of Gold: The History of a Lesbian Community by Elizabeth Lapovsky Kennedy & Madeline D. Davis (1994)
excerpt 1:
“When we started going in there, we found out how really prejudiced other white gay kids were. They didn’t even want to talk to us, and they looked at us with resentment. … Well at Bingo’s we would always sit in a booth. They would have the bar, a lot of them would look at us and roll their eyes. So we decided that we were going to get some of these to be our friends no matter what we had to do. One thing that drew them was the fact that we would get up and dance. Then some of them would say, ‘Hey, I like that, teach us how to do that.’” (Arlette)
excerpt 2:
Jodi remembers that the presence of Black studs made many white butches nervous: “Some of the stuff that happened was so typically racist, it was so ridiculous. I mean it was like Black studs were coming into the bar, people would just kind of put their arm around their women … [as if] they were just coming in there to snatch up their women.”
excerpt 3:
White lesbians also attended [house parties] but not in large numbers. This was resented by those Black lesbians who wanted a racially mixed community. “White kids started coming. Now they come up with, ‘that neighborhood,’ which I resent. Because there’s no such neighborhood that anybody’s gonna attack you. I get mad at that. ‘Well where do you live? I don’t want to come over there.’ What do you mean you don’t want to come over there?” (Arlette).
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