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autistic-bowlcut-swag · 8 months

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Jeff Andonuts

-Overall characterized as pretty awkward, the kid first introduces himself by listing his flaws (including “I’m very nearsighted” among them, the silly, that’s a neutral trait!) and then saying he wished they could be friends when he literally just saved people that called him over there telepathically with the phrase “friend we never met” in there! Almost like he was rattling off a memorized script in a way and I say this in the most awww look how hard he’s trying way possible. He’s pretty implied to be nocturnal as he works during the night and his specialty is fixing busted technology. He’s very good at it too! His dad was also a scientist but their relationship is interesting? Anyway, tldr his dad was always so absorbed in his work that they hadn’t seen each other in 10 years while Jeff was at boarding school and for context, Jeff is 13. Relationship with mother unknown. Do not ask. We don’t know either. Anyway, he’s got the autistic swag in the tbh stares at you blankly way. You can’t even see his eyes in most official art, so he’s just peak -_- to me right behind Frisk Undertale. Did anyone submit them too? Maybe I will if I have the energy.

-saved my life while i was playing this game also he has guns and can make a lot of gadgets he cannot crit but also cannot miss and hes super genius

Peter

-pathetic below average guy at the beginning of the story, everyone treats him like shit. then he gets possessed by an angel and he has to go kill god. he meets two guys and he falls in love with one of them and through the power of love and friendship and gay people they save the universe and also peter kind of becomes god. anyways its never outright said that hes autistic but he very clearly is and ive never met a single person in the fandom who disagrees. his special interest is rocks and he used to have a job sorting them at the rock factory. he has a pet lizard named lizard. hes still a pretty below average guy throughout all of the god killing stuff also but hes pretty nice and his humanity single handedly changed the narrative. he had gay sex

-autism swag . he likes rocks

-OHHHH BOY. Peter Sqloint was just a dude with a lizard until the archangel of retribution Exandroth possessed him. then he met Rumi (WHO HE WILL LATER HAVE SEX WITH AND MARRY BECAUSE OF HIS AUTISTIC SWAG) and Thanatos (big robot bitch who likes the lizard and hates Gods) (they all hate gods) (they kill gods). Anyway Peter Sqloint is THE Autistic with a Bowl Cut ever :3 OH he beats exandroth in a battle in his mind after he's stabbed by Thanatos (it wasnt his fault, a god put a spell on him). He comes back though, so it's chill

#jeff andonuts #earthbound #mother 2 #just roll with it peter #peter sqloint #jrwi apotheosis #just roll with it #off topic question but how would someone go about starting just roll with it?#asking for a friend 👀#autistic bowlcut swag tournament

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northlight14 · 7 months

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Spinaraki headcanon’s

The biggest fucking simps for each other holy shit. Whether one of them just did something really badass in a fight or is just laughing at something the other said, they’re both gonna be flustered messes

Shigaraki steals Spinners clothes a lot but will deny it every time. Also steals Spinners food. Shigaraki basically just lives by a strict “if you’re in a relationship with me, everything you own is fair game.” This system does not work the other way around, however. Especially not with food, which Spinner learned the hard way😂

Every time they have a cute moment, Shigaraki will call Spinner either “simp” or “gay” cuz he’s too emotionally awkward to be able to keep a romantic moment romantic. Spinner thinks it’s funny tho so he doesn’t mind. Especially cuz Spinner is also hella awkward so if Shigaraki didn’t do that, Spinner wouldn’t know how to continue the conversation anyway😂

They compliment each other a lot on the things society views as “unattractive” or the things that the other is insecure about. Spinner tells Shigaraki a lot that he likes his scars because they make him look like a badass video game protagonist and show how strong he is since it means he’s survived something. Likewise, Shigaraki compliments Spinner on his scales for how smooth they are and how pretty their colour is

Dates between these two are never fancy and that’s how they like it. Usually it involves video games and ordering junk food and also movie nights. They also love to visit the arcade together

They’re both autistic (Shigaraki isn’t diagnosed but Spinner hung out with him for 2 minutes and was like “yeah this dude should probably talk to the doctor and see if he knows anything about ASD”) which helps in a few ways because they have a better understanding of how to communicate with each other. Also, infodumping about special interests as a love language/listening to infodump about special interest as a love language

If Shigaraki is having a particularly bad mental health day, Spinner will hold him in his arms and just quietly remind him that he’s there and everything will be ok. On the flip side, when Spinner is having a bad mental health day, Shigaraki at first didn’t know what to do so he started giving Spinner his hand (not touching completely or while wearing gloves, we’re not trying to kill the dude) or just touching his shoulder and asking basic things like “do you want to talk about it or do you want to just sit in silence?” And he’s content with whatever Spinners answer is

#these 2 are so in love #mha #spinaraki #spinneraki #shigaraki tomura #spinner #shuichi iguchi

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squash1 · 10 months

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THANK YOU FOR ALSO LOVING GREYWAREN that book made me go from slightly obsessed with this whole little universe to being VERY obsessed, and I suspect I'll never stop being a menace about it <3 it did THINGS to my psyche

i know u just said some favorite scenes from greywaren, but as a fellow lover of that book, I just have to know: what are some other things u really love about it?

THANK YOU FOR ASKING. FINALLY. SOMEONE ASKING THE IMPORTANT QUESTIONS

declan lynch autistic child core. as a child i was exactly like child declan and it warms my heart.

jordan and declan are the best couple and if anyone tries to say they’re not u should shut up. (i love all the couples equally but i love them more).

hennessy is so fucking funny like what an icon. her hatred of pennsylvania is so special to me. i don’t even hate pennsylvania i just admire her commitment to the cause.

the thing with declan’s moth. enough said

also declan and adam bonding and (this is mister impossible but whatever) meeting up to have a Ronan Lynch Support Squad Consultation….yes.

THE MATTHEW-BRYDE DYNAMIC. “YOU ARE THE SADDEST DUDE IVE EVER MET!”

the juxtaposition of niall and ronan in the chapters at the barns. aghhhhhh. and the glimpses into niall’s past like…..i wouldn’t call it a redemption arc but the careful way he is humanized WITHOUT being redeemed. and seeing what ronan saw in him. but also what declan saw

DECLAN LYNCH GANGSTER ERA

on the seventh day the lynch brothers became friends again. BECAME FRIENDS AGAIN

but basically. if trc is a coming-of-age series where you see these kids delighting in and struggling with the magic on the edge of adulthood. the dreamer trilogy is like the loss of childhood innocence. cdth and mi are ROUGH at points. it’s much harsher feeling than trc, more heavy and sad and action-packed and suspenseful. and greywaren is like…the tentative peace you make at the end of the transition to adulthood. ronan’s finding his feet, seeing old friends, proposing. declan is settling down, letting go of his childhood wounds. it’s not an ending really but it’s where things start to be okay. and that’s how it feels. and that’s why (for all the plot holes and rushed pacing blah blah blah) it’s so. fucking. good.

AND CAN I JUST SAY. all the ppl who say that post-TRK pynch became “bad” and “toxic” and “isn’t as good as in trc” and “they shouldn’t be together anymore”……..i hate those ppl w my whole heart bc. i’m sorry, but if you read the scene in greywaren where their, like, celestial soul energies found each other in dreamspace and reconciled and apologized and forgave (in. disembodied dream soul form…whatever) and WERE WANTED THEY WERE WANTED THEY WERE WANTED and decided to love and help and heal one another and you STILL think that???? i just don’t know how to help you!!! sorry u can’t enjoy mature healthy relationships where people have gone through bad periods and so the relationship suffered for a while and then they recalibrated and decided to continue to grow together, but i’m built different :))

#ask #all the love in the world to anyone who disagrees no tea no shade it’s fine ur just wrong #greywaren #trc #ronan lynch #adam parrish #the raven cycle #pynch #adam and ronan

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lady-lazagna · 2 years

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I'm not super back into Bakugan (that five-year solo special interest phase will be missed) BUT impulse buying a Shun funko pop has reignited something in me

SO I'm gonna write some random headcanons of the core six (anything after season one doesn't exist to me lol sorry) and their Bakugan:

-Hitting Shun with the Autisti-fication beam. Only talks when he feels it's important, super observant, can't tell you how he feels for the life of him (I am him, actually). In my hc, he's pretty sensitive to bright lights, fucking hates people touching his forearms or neck, as is over-empathetic.

-Runo wants to be a lawyer. No one's 100% sure where this ambition came from, but it likely has something to do with the constant sexual harassment she faces in her current workplace under the watch of her criminally ignorant father... but who knows🤷‍♀️

-Always designating this hc to the loudest mf in the show, but Dan is a youtuber. That guy is an absolute Clout Chaser. He'd do a lot of irl stuff I think, like challenges, pranks, storytimes- and of course, a lot of Bakugan content. Some would compare him to David Dobrik. He'd fucking kill those people.

-Julie lifts. Girl could bench-press you in a heartbeat. When she gets excited, she'll just grab whoever's closest to her and twirl them around like a doll. However, she's learned to ask people if they're okay with this beforehand since becoming friends with the aforementioned autistic ninja. ^^^

-Alice listens to Death Grips when she knits. That's it. Guillotine has the best rhythm for knitting in her opinion.

-Marucho had a big "in a silly goofy mood😋" phase after he stopped being his parents' bitch. He tried really hard to do silly and "outlandish" things that were actually like... bare minimum. He used an empty chip packet as a hat and thought he was going completely off the rails.

-Obviously Runo swears the most out of the group- girl has a lot to say, and a lot of it consists of "you dumb fucking bitch." Dan tries to swear just as much, but it doesn't come naturally to him so it always feels very off when he does. Marucho, Shun, and Julie don't swear as often, but when they do, it's always unexpected and very hilarious. Alice is the only one who actively doesn't want to swear.

-On the Bakugan's end, Preyas uses a lot of old-timey slang for swear words. Dan told Drago that "fuck" is interchangeable with "play" and insanity ensued. Gorem tries not to swear because he knows it's impolite. Tigrerra also thinks it's impolite, but sometimes you just need to call your fellow Bakugan a bitch (and damn does it feel good, even if they have no idea what you're talking about). Skyress only swore once, when she told Shun's grandpa that she fucked Shun's mum. Hydranoid has never heard a swear word in his life and Alice is determined to keep it that way.

-Little self-insert shipper Laz would kill current me for this, but it has to be said: Dan, Runo, and Shun are in a polyamorous relationship. Three bisexual icons. It was bound to happen. I could write a whole post about their relationship if I could be bothered. Maybe I will be bothered one day.

-Actually maybe the entire gang is bisexual (except for maybe Alice... we need a lesbian other than the pretty evil Vexo lady). At first I thought about making Julie a lesbian, because then she'd be a pink femme lesbian (just like me fr), but I do kind of like her relationship with Billy, so she's yet another bicon. I've also heard of this dude named Tsubasa Ren that Marucho has a thing for, so *slams fist on table* ANOTHER BICON.

-Okay maybe the Vexos and the Resistance and whatever other fucking aliens they added do exist to me, I'll just ignore their entire storyline and how they fucked over my three leading ladies.

Aight that's it for now. Idk if headcanoning works the same way here as it does in the beyblade world, so if you're upset by me making them autistic and gay, I offer you my sincerest eat my ass.

#new vestroia onwards is bakugan's shogun steel #I love ignoring canon #bakugan #bakugan battle brawlers #shun kazami #runo misaki #dan kuso #julie makimoto #alice gehabich #marucho marukura #preyas #dragonoid #gorem #tigrerra #skyress #hydronoid #headcanons

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weebsinstash · 1 year

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Did you see elon's dickriders defending him by saying 'he's on the autism spectrum guys dont judge him!!!!!' just straight up throwing nd folk under the bus and acting like being a spoiled narcissistic clown is a symptom of autism

Dude literally two of the people I consider my closest friends whom I've met online are both autistic and they are the most sweetest kindest supportive people i have ever had the pleasure of calling friends who have supported me through extremely difficult times in my life 🥺

Elon has just downright unempathetic behavior coupled with always needing to be the smartest guy in the room while lacking the qualifications for all the attention he feels entitled to receive, like when Dave Chapelle invited him up and everyone was booing, stopped to laugh at Dave Chappelle's jokes, and then booing Elon again, and he has to go on Twitter going on about "leftist snowflakes in LA" because yeah that's definitely who's going to Dave Chapelle stand-up. And then also DC implied people were only booing because they were poor and its like wow ok just insult the people who came to your show because you invited some random billionaire douchebag up especially during record inflation and people still suffering from the pandemic? He's not even funny, he's not what people came to see, it's a fucking stand up show, it's like if you went to a Taylor Swift concert and she said "alright everyone put your hands together for special guest Bill Gates"

But no he's gotta act like he was only treated with absolute public humiliation because "oh clearly those people were just emotional and unreasonable because My Penis Is Just So Huge And Big And Everyone Loves Me Because I Am Cool" ykwim like it's annoying behavior from a man with, 9 children i think it is? Also shout out to his trans daughter who literally chose to be disinherited and change her last name because she is disgusted by him and rejects every and any connection to him, may she live a happy life ❤

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agoraphobiclapine · 1 year

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⚠️THIS BLOG WILL CONTAIN WEIGHT GAIN AND FEEDISM KINK/FETISH CONTENT. IF THIS IS NOT FOR YOU. UNFOLLOW. If you see your content reblogged here and want it removed, I will remove it⚠️

Skip to the next set of ⚠️ if you are purely interested in kink stuff

Sprinkled in will also be plenty of Peaky Blinders, Watership Down, and other things that bring me immense joy.

25 || He/Him || gay || trans || ace || Taken by the very handsome and amazing piggy @girthleng

My name is Xander, you can use it, my username, or Xan to refer to me. I am autistic and have other disabilities as well that I prefer not to disclose. This as well as my transness are NOT to be sexualized or fetishized please.

FAVORITE

• Shows: Peaky Blinders, Bob's Burgers, Money Heist, Stranger Things, Queens Gambit, Vikings, Breaking Bad, Better Call Saul, Watership down.

• Movies: Watership down, anything Ghibli (fav is Nausicaa)

• Music: variety of stuff but right now IDLES, The White Stripes, Grandson, Black Pistol Fire. Big fan of Corpse Husband, Doja Cat, and Eminem. Also been listening to a lot of Billie Holiday and Peggy Lee.

• Books: Watership Down (if you have not caught on Watership Down is my biggest autistic special interest)

• Videogames: Divinity: Original Sin 2, Red Dead Redemption 2, Stardew Valley, Hollow Knight, Slime Rancher, Rusty Lake/Cube Escape Games, Final Fantasy XIII, and Animal Crossing: New Horizons.

• Food: Sushi/Sashimi, especially if it is Salmon/Ikura/hotatekai, most seafood, Udon, Miso, Brussels sprouts, and anything involving fish paste. Ice cream is great, and so are vegan mini marshmallows (im not vegan, but I am allergic to gelatin)

• Animals: Otters, Rabbits, Frogs, Capybaras, Horses, Seahorses, and Poodles.

IF YOU ARE UNDER 20 I WILL NOT SPEAK TO YOU

⚠️kink stuff⚠️

- I am currently taken and not interested in teasing/talking to people about kink anymore UNLESS it is in the form of interacting with my art/writing. I will gladly talk to you about my characters. I am still interested in friends that may want to talk about kink in general (i.e. hear me gush about how cute it is that a certain guy stuffed himself silly at the buffet but then wanted ice cream himself after when I went through McDonald's to get an ice cream for the dog as a treat) but I will not be teasing/encouraging anyone but my very VERY amazing boyfriend

- I am autistic and often abrasive because of it. I require boundaries to be placed by both parties and to be respected. Communication should be clear and intentional. If it seems like something is flying over my head, it is. Be direct, please, because I will do the same.

- Not into being a feedee/gaining/mutual gaining. This is final. No joking about it, no negotiations. I love contrast. Let's keep it that way. If you disrespect this boundary, you will be blocked.

- I have a BS in animal science and wanted to be a farmer before my physical health declined. This being said, I have two decades of farm experience and love to bring that into kink talk. Let's just say I'm great at helping you grow.

- I want to get to know the people I talk to about kink. I'm not gonna just jump right into it. That doesn't appeal to me. I'm looking for friends and that is it. It won't break my heart if that isn't for you, but don't let it break yours when I don't reciprocate.

- open to role-playing as OCs or existing characters. I will only role-play MxM as I'm strictly attracted to other men. I'm more into the sensual side of things as an asexual person, and thus, extremely explicit content isn't something I will typically engage in. Talk to me about what we both expect and we will see. No mpreg. No death feedism. No long-term immobility. Not currently open to RP

- my transness is not to be the main topic of discussion in any way shape or form. I'm a dude. Treat me as such.

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catboyrichardkarinsky · 1 year

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Okay so;

Hazel-

Identifies as gay

Her mothers are lesbians

She's adoptive

Her biological parents are witches and that's why she was born with her ears (wich are toootally not me stealing from the witch design of toh)

She's a theatre nerd but can't sing for shit

She's hoping to play a character in a play that Veronica will write someday

She's not so secretly in love with Veronica

She was super jealous of Betty when they started getting closer to Veronica, but she gets over it and the two become chaotic besties

Her fights with Maddie started when Maddie called her evile for being a witch

They truly became friends when Hazel found out Maddie was secretly a witch too

Veronica-

She identifies as Sapphic

She's been besties with Hazel since they were three

She LOVES bunnies

And cats

And basically all animals

She wouldn't consider herself popular, but she is one of the most well-liked kids at school

She's the only person Maddie doesn't hate at the start

She got a bit of a crush on Betty while tutoring her

She can't sports

Betty-

They love track and running and tennis

And other sports to but those are their faves

They're basically popular dude but in femme form

They feel insecure in their identity as nonbinary because they don't want to change how the look or their name

They think Maddie is cool for arguing against everyone

They asked Veronica to tutor them because they believe that she's the nicest and smartest kid in their class

Might have gotten a crush on Percy after he gave them the pronoun pin he and Maddie made

Is super supportive of witches but takes a while to actually stand up for them

I can't describe her friendship with Hazel but just... YES

Maddie-

Is kinda considered the mean feminist of the school, and she does kinda fit the steriotype, but she was really upset when she found out she's known as "that feminist bitch" at school

Hates Hazel because Maddie is secretly a witch and is ashamed of that

Thinks Betty's an idiot at first. Later on claims them and her idiot

Crushes on the whole cast and gets very flustered about them

Openly bisexual and makes pride pins

Lower class family so she's at Growth Academy on a scolership

Percy-

Only made him so that my sibling could play someone if they wanted to

Is now fan favorite

You gave me the idea to make him autistic so PJ is now his special interest

I made his name orange because it's his fave color

Because of camp half blood

He's best friends with Betty and thinks shexs both the coolest and lamest person ever

Was scared of Maddie, but now will randomly hug attack her (he asked if she's okay with it and she said yes but not to tell). Also they both LOVE PJ

Loves Hazel. Adores her. They have a secret hand shake

He and Veronica build a friendship off of liking books and writing

I love them all now aaaa

especially Hazel because I'm biased towards theatre nerds lol

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deviantartdramanow · 1 year

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ohhhhh boy.

I used to think clubby was just some funny dude who liked to role-play, and when I found him roleplaying with one of my besties, I felt like I wanted to rp with him too, but I guess I didn't want to pop in and ask him if he wanted to rp cuz that would be rude.

and then a year later he sent me a note asking if I wanted to rp with him. I said ok, he asked me what my interests were which was weird? since I could use any interest (except problematic stuff of course) and when he started the rp.

I was excited until he went "ok now I have this character hypnotize this character and make them act like a baby" and then he went on to mention fucking diaper changing on them. and even worse? he chose underage characters for the diaper shit, like Lincoln loud, wednesday Addams, some total drama contestants, I don't recall which one he used, but I do remember they're canonically underage, and of course his 9 year old oc eduard. idk why he made that oc 9 smh

and later on one of my friends called pedoverse out on his discord server after he sent him a note asking to rp, and my friend said he randomly sent a whole lot of people notes asking to rp which is annoying. he also had a channel about him (his discord server had separate channels to rant on problematic users like him) and there a user showed a screenshot about their friend getting uncomfortable after dream wanted to involve teenage twilight sparkle in diapers, and asking "wHy DoN't YoU lIkE pEoPlE wItH sPeCiAl NeEdS"? after the friend said they were uncomfortable.

and speaking of special needs, I am an autistic person myself, and that excuse he made to do disgusting rps with minors and just be a creep in general really fucking offends me. and how he didn't cut ties from that cuck who drew porn of Cassandra and still supported menslady even after reading a comment about her homophobia further describes how he doesn't deserve to be respected on the internet as a whole. so yeah. after seeing the news and him being a fucking creep in my notes, I've lost respect in him.

so dreamiverse if you are reading this: you might think you are innocent and you are being "bOoLiEd" but nobody is bullying you. you bought this upon yourself. you continue to ask everyone including MINORS you meet to change your 9 year old oc's chris chan wannabe diaper and wipe his dirty butthole with their bare hands despite being called out for it on here and on several posts on da and that's why we are calling you a pedophile. and don't fucking play the special needs card, because special needs does not give you an excuse to creep out other people with your diaper bs.

if you never wanted this blog to go after you, then pick out something else to rp with than changing underage character diapers. or at least accept it if people don't want to rp with you. if they don't want to rp with you then find someone else. or better, go to a site for roleplaying, because da is an art site and not an rp site. and if you want to do diaper rp with someone, age check the characters you want to add to the rp (you might want to age up eduard to 18 or make a new oc who is an adult) and make sure you're rping with adults only.

anyways, either clean up your act, nick, or get the hell off the internet and touch grass.

that's all I have to say about this prick.

(won't ask proof for this since you can simply go on his about page and scroll into the comments and you'll see the same fuckin "my name is nick, want to rp in notes or chat???" over and over, and stuff mentioned above is in the pinned post)

-Mod S

#drama #deviantart #anon post #response #club-dreamverse

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spagheddiesquash · 1 year

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hey i’ll delete this if anyone thinks i should but. is anyone else getting kind of worried about the noticeable rise in like. ableism among kids from around 6th to 10th grade? like i cant go a good 72 hours without hearing shit like “bro youre so sped (short for special ed)”, “oh my god youre so special dude” (used in a derogatory way), and among many other things, “oh my god he is like, SOOO autistic.”

its genuinely kind of worrying how many of these people directly equate these terms with “stupid.” its getting to a point where ive heard people shit talk kids in special ed classes when they literally didnt even do anything to them??? they probably havent even spoken with each other or anything but yet so many folks see the kids in special ed as something to laugh at even though theyre literally just human beings living their lives like everybody else?? like what the fuck??? they do the same thing with autistic kids too, and really just anybody with some kind of neurological disability.

all of this gives me two really big questions:

where are they even getting this from?

why are their parents not doing anything about it?

i would assume that tiktok might be the blame for some of it. ive seen a couple of trends as of late that mock mentally disabled people, like the “its autism awareness month, lets all be aware of [name]” trend, where after saying that it shows a clip of them doing something stupid, dangerous or otherwise ill-advised, but that doesnt answer my other question about why their parents arent doing anything about it. they could also have gotten that behavior from their parents, which is even more concerning because these are full grown adults, and if they are the prime role models for their kids who are relentlessly making fun of people with mental disabilities, what are the parents themselves like?

in conclusion, if you overhear someone in like middle or high school calling another person “sped,” “autistic” or any other variation on that, maybe explain to them why thats not okay?? or like… tell their parents or something if you know them because it is definitely NOT okay that this is even something that needs to be said. people with mental disabilities arent stupid, theyre not less than, and they certainly should not be used as an insult to someone.

again if anyone thinks i should delete this, i will, i just wanted to bring up something that i was concerned about.

#tw ableism

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homeofjonicles · 1 year

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Not A Goodbye, More Of A "I'm Currently Too Hyperfixated On A Scruffy Australian Man At The Moment To Have Motivation For The Jonicles"

(^^ i recently did a file move and thats one of the only Garfield images that's not on my other hard drive. beautiful, is it not? look at Jon go!!)

Hey all, Your Local Jonnoissuer here. It is currently the 19th of November, 2022 at 7:48 pm, and it's day #184 today! However, from what you could probably tell from the title, this isn't an entry of 'The Jonicles', it's a note.

I'm gonna cut to the chase; at the moment, I'm not really that fixated on Jon at present. Don't get me wrong, I still absolutely adore this man with all my heart and I still love Garfield as a franchise!!! Jon still means a lot to me and I'm glad I spent over 6 months going gaa-gaa about him, he's awesome! But like,, I'm kinda not fixated on him at the moment and I just wanted to say that 'The Jonicles', as a series, has always been a self-indulgent thing. I wrote it and still write it for the sake of my love for Jon and for shits and giggles. I posted them to Tumblr because I thought it'd be funny and I wanna document this bizarre fixation on this loveable dork we call Jon. That also means I don't have like... any schedule for when I write stuff, I just kinda do y'know? But FYI, the blog's gonna stay up, but I'm gonna pause the counter when this goes up because I've got a new hyperfixation..!

It's Jetpack Joyride I'm fixated on! More specifically, I'm fixated on Barry Steakfries, the main character of the series of games he's present in. The reason? I think I just remembered the game existed suddenly, kinda like how I remembered Jon, downloaded the game again and, well, now I have an insey-winsey, teenie-weenie little crush on Barry... This happens.... A lot.... Which is weird because I'm demiromamtic and I've only had small crushes on like two guys in person but I get really attached to a lot of fictional characters pretty quickly and it feels like I've actually gotten to know them and have a deep emotional bond with them prompting the attraction....!?!?!?!? And I mean you can't blame me, Barry is one hunk of a dude, have you seen this man? Man's built like a square, he's so relatable and so adorable and I wanna see him and Jon go jetpacking together. Imagine that becomes a crackship.... Unless.......

But uhhh yeah! Back around October I recently watched 'Garfield Gets A Life' (really good special by the way its adorable jon is adorable go watch it) and I was planning to make an entry, and like I wanted to, but strangely enough, the obligation to write it made me not want to, so like... I didn't! But I kinda wanna? I dunno, I feel like I just kinda wanna let stuff go, y'know? Just enjoy my fixations, let things phase into each other, just go with the flow of my autistic-ass brain.

I didn't mean for this to be long as hell, but TL;DR, currently hyperfixated on funny jetpack riding australian dude, i still love Jon and The Jonicles is self-indulgent! That's really all. Until I post again, well, we'll see. It's up to me really. I didn't expect anyone to ever see this blog, but if you found it interesting, weird, funny, anything, then thanks, man! I'm scared of the possibility of this blog ever getting any semblence of popularity, but it's still cool that someone's seen it and it makes them feel something. I saw the person who drew art of Emo Jon and I felt that it was really neat, and I'm flattered that a silly edit I made inspired them!! It's really nice art!!

So with that said, until then...

Cheers,

Your Local Jonnoissuer

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Posted on the 19th of November, 2022 at 8:19 pm.

#kinda important?#itd be really funny if i wrote this like i was cheating on jon #JON IM SO SORRY I WOULD NEVer #BUT BARRY STEAKFRIES WAS TOO HUNKY #im not sure what else to put here... peepeepoopoo #thank you guys though :) you're pretty swell!!

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tragictrainmen · 2 years

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Welcome

Yo I'm Ari! I'm an autistic trans dude who loves me some autistic Trains dudes. HA

I’m a 31yr old adult but this is a harmless pokemon train blog. Not really gonna be posting anything inappropriate. please interact responsibly and only follow if you want to. *thumbs up*

Anyway this is an introductory post of sorts. :> I’m compiling all my headcanons for the Submas twins in one place, and so ppl wanting to follow can get a feel for the kind of content I’ll be reblogging! (and maybe even... making????)

SO let’s get started.

Headcanons that apply to both the boys:

Eyes glow in low light. This is seen with Ingo's eyes in PLA and is too cool not to just call canon. Graphical error? Never heard of her. Seriously thought it was to make Ingo feel like a ghost lost in the past. Really thought his plot twist was gonna be that he was dead the whole time. |D

Both boys are on the spectrum. Both are canonically literalists who avoid lying, share a special interest in trains and Pokemon battles, both struggle with social cues and come across as either aggressively blunt (Emmet) or constantly unhappy and severe (Ingo).

They’re Aro/Ace, although they have a close Platonic friendship with Elesa. I Love adopted sister Elesa content. I am NOT a blankshipper. Do not like incest content. Looking for healthy sibling relationships in my content pls and thank you. I also Love Uncle Ingo and Akari content. He’s a good dad.

On that note: I really like shit that subverts toxic masculinity, especially as a trans dude myself, so I don’t see male sibling affection as idk.. erotic? wrong? If they cuddle on the couch watching a movie together then like. That’s just them hanging out. Idk I'm the oldest of 5 siblings I know what siblings do when they love each other and live together. (and have survived trauma together) And half the reason I like submas content is bcus of their healthy sibling bond that survives through their trauma. Also they are neurodivergent. 🤗

I don't headcanon either of the boys as heavy swearers. Maybe Emmet will say shit and Ingo would mutter damn, but neither would say fuck publicly. It’s more of a professionalism thing, and they’re both very articulate in unique ways. I feel like they’d be concerned cussing would cause someone to take them less seriously. (I don’t mind content where they do cuss! I think Emmet saying fuck is funny as shit, it just doesn’t fit how I ‘read’ them.)

The nitty gritty, like personal autistic headcanons for each brother and how they operate together will all be under a cut to save post length.

Ingo:

- Autism shows itself in lack of facial expression. Pretty much does not realize he is Not Emoting 90% of the time. (This is actually canon in Pokemon Masters? He's genuinely surprised you've never seen him smile) He does smile in PLA, but VERY rarely, and uh. it’s like, almost a straight line. That’s the best you’re gonna get.

-Also will show excess emotion in his voice, and on top of that, his volume control is pretty terrible, and he often uses said volume to accentuate happiness or excitement. Will gradually get louder the more intensely interested in a conversation he is in. Will be shouting about Pokemon battle strategies in a diner and not know he is shouting.

- Has learned to mask behaviors because of his personal sense of responsibility.

-He has older sibling syndrome BAD. It made putting aside his autistic needs a priority as a child and he still struggles with it as an adult.

-This can make strangers believe he's the more 'neurotypical' brother, which is bullshit haha. Ingo will still fidget with his hands in private or around Emmet.

- Fidgets include picking the grime out from under his nails meticulously. (Often done while alone, or before bed) Clapping his hands together or slapping his lap/ the wall/ the seat repeatedly when he finds something funny, and touching or adjusting his hat. He will reach for it even when he's not wearing it.

-He will also clasp his hands together and rub his thumb in circles along the back of one hand. Will also do this while holding hands. Or putting a hand on your back or shoulder. Thumb rubs from Ingo are a common side effect of him touching you for any prolonged period of time.

-He will also take and inspect Emmet's or Elesa's hands/nails when they're alone or waiting for a long period of time. (He will do this while they watch TV, for example. This is a social love behavior and is not something he does with anyone else. He might have done it to Akari a few times? To her utter confusion. “Ingo is there something wrong with my hand?”)

-Aside from voluntary hand-touching, Ingo actually dislikes being hugged or held without express permission first. Will often still stiffen up like a board when hugged with permission. Touching can be painful. Doesn't so much have this issue with kids, who he absolutely adores. But kid hugs are rare and don't involve someone squeezing your shoulders or restricting your arms so they're aren't that bad.

-Organized to a fault. Used the calendar app and the alarm app to their fullest potential. Follow the schedules? He and Emmet live by this. Emmet follows Ingo's schedule. They work best that way. His office desk is meticulously organized. No matter what Emmet's looks like, it's always just as tidy as Ingo’s by the time they head home. (He makes sure Emmet cleans up after himself)

-Living situation is the same. Clothes get ironed because Ingo makes sure they do. Chores are ordered by day, week, and brother because Ingo and Emmet need structure, but Ingo's the only one good at Maintaining structure. More on Emmet later.

-Music taste is primarily modern classical. Piano or small orchestral accompaniments like Ryuichi Sakamoto and Andrew Shapiro. Or Orchestral movie scores that emphasizes the grandiose, think the soundtrack of Interstellar. Hanz Zimmer's more classical stuff. Any Gibli movie soundtrack is also fair game. He also likes jazz and certain types of alternative folk. Would probably like Rainbow Kitten Surprise and Mumford and Sons.

-Comically enough, both brother's will willingly tolerate each other's music. Even though they have. Uh. Opposite tastes. They share the same Spotify account even. Ingo will tolerate most average Radio fare, and is probably the most willing to give up the aux. Sort of a music pushover. Is surprised when someone wants to listen to his music.

Emmet:

-Autism and Adhd bundled together into a man that is somehow both the most monotone and most enunciated fast-talker you've ever met. He says everything so abruptly. But you understand every word. He has had A LOT of practice making himself understandable. I've seen some posts around talking about Emmet being nonverbal when he was younger and I wholeheartedly agree with that.

-Emmet's language journey was a rough one, but he's an incredibly confident speaker. I don't believe he's self-conscious about how he talks. To be honest, I don't think Emmet is Aware he speaks oddly at all. If someone says something, he literally has no clue what they could be on about. Yeah Ingo talks kinda weird I guess but him? No. You are wrong actually.

-Is Not Sarcastic. Does Not Know How To Sarcasm. His verrrys are verrry genuine. They just uh... Never sound that way. RIP. He IS a bit blunt though. He has no filter.

-Stimming is far more obvious in Emmet. He is a foot tapper, the sort to rock back and forth on his heels if he's impatient. He claps when he's happy, he claps when he's excited, he claps when something is funny. He is power-walking towards you right now because he can't hold still anymore. :) :) :) Chews his nails, but only while hyper-focusing. Much to Ingo's frustration. Ingo is the only reason his nails have any growth at all. He sometimes makes them bleed without realizing it. :(

- He will twirl or click anything in his hands if he is holding it long enough. He will tear or fold the corners of paper if left holding it for too long. Will scribble on the edges of notes or even on important documents if not given enough stimulation. Likes to draw smiles in the corners and repeated straight lines close together. (The straighter and closer the better!)

-While Ingo has an almost compulsive level of organization, Emmet's forms are always crumpled a little, smudged in places. There's a smiley face next to where he needed to sign his name. A coffee ring somewhere maybe. He doesn't know how coffee got on it. :) He's verrry sorry! It is still a proper legal document thought :) you will take it.

-Contrary to this, Emmet likes things just as neat and organized as his brother, but struggles to plan well and doesn't conceptualize time. His phone has just as many timers as Ingo's, but it includes ones with names like 'eat now' and 'leave with time for coffee'.

-He can struggle with executive dysfunction if left to do a task by himself without company. An issue he sees as a fault. Ingo can do things alone. Why can't he? Why does he have to fight himself tooth and nail just to take the trash out while Ingo is not home? This leads to uh. Some good angst when Ingo gets yeeted lol. Emmet cannot keep a place clean to save his life, and a lack of cleanliness directly affects his mental health.(he tries verrry hard though. Oh god does he try. u-u)

-Is more comfortable with most forms of contact than Ingo, but also prefers to be asked before being hugged. (has stricter boundaries about who can and can't touch him though. He will usually say no. Or ask Why.)

-Likes friendship kisses. 🚫not true kisses!🚫 Will kiss your hand. Will kiss your cut. Will kiss cute Pokemon. Has kissed his Electross's big dumb head before. Actually will also kiss soft blankets.

- Wait scratch that Actually both the boys like soft things. Ingo will rub them compulsively. Emmet will hold things up against his face and feel them against his lips. He will look like he's hiding his face during a scary movie but no he is enjoying a texture. :) (he is not scared of scary movies)

-As far as music, Emmet listens to the grungiest grinding electronic house imaginable. If it doesn't sound like someone tried to hybridize screamo and dubstep into a single song it's not Emmet. His tastes can also jump to more classic house and electronic music, with a preference for heavy beats and drops. He would like some Apashe and Infected Mushroom for example.

-He also likes alt rock, and mentions liking Piers’ music in Pokemon Masters, which is unsurprising. He would listen to Nightwish too lmao. Will usually wear headphones and play things loud as a form of self-regulation. Although he will willingly listen to Ingo's music no questions asked. But it makes him sleepy.

Maybe I will draw art of these two eventually. 😔 Until now, have this long ass post.

#many of these stims are based off one my own or the ones of family #my little sister used to pick up and inspect my hands while we watched movies and it is actually a very affectionate thing to do🥰#i have adhd and autism btw #submas #ingo and emmet #ingo pla #ingo #emmet

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autistic-paul · 3 years

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Paul Matthews is autistic, a masterpost

It's been a while since I've made any sort of masterpost about the autistic Paul headcanon, so I think I'll give it another shot. It's a long one, so strap in! First off, none of this was intentional. Paul was not written to be autistic. Jon has always been supportive of how people view Paul, and that's wonderful, but please don't give Starkid credit for representation they didn't actually include. None of this is concrete, either, it's a collection of traits that can be viewed as neurodivergent traits if someone chooses to do so. I personally do, but at the end of the day, he's just a character that fans can perceive however they want.

- Paul struggles with anxiety. The source of his anxiety in the majority of TGWDLM stems from a change in his routine, of the world he knows drastically changing overnight. He had no reason to get so clearly distressed from what was clearly just a flash dance (That he knew of, at least), even considering his distaste of musicals. But it threw him off quite a lot.

- He's quite blunt and often rude. Whether you believe it's intentional or not, he has a tendency to shut people down when he doesn't want to do something, and makes no attempts to soften the blow or be polite. Telling Bill he didn't want to help him reconnect with Alice, turning down softball, getting worked up with the Greenpeace girl called him out and taking him off his social script. All of these things aren't ways that society expects people to communicate. It's not for lack of caring, Paul truly loves Bill and considers him his best friend, he's just straightforward and says exactly what he thinks.

- The social awkwardness isn't just him being blunt. He's only briefly in Black Friday, but there's plenty of evidence. In other filmings of the show, Paul attempts to shake Tom's hand, and hesitantly pulls it back when it's not taken, and then also tries to shake Tim's hand. He knows that's considered the social script, that's how you greet people in professional situations. He doesn't easily adapt to different social dynamics, considering he tries to shake a child's hand. He just does what he knows. Emma had to cut him off after the bumper cars line, he would have continued to escalate the situation otherwise. All of his parts in Black Friday showcase his difficulty in social situations.

- He's very reliant on social scripts. He repeats himself sometimes, like with the caramel frappe for Bill and also for Mr. Davidson. He says thank you for your service to Tom without hesitation in BF, because that's the thing you say. A small one, but worth mentioning.

- He has little to no ambition, and despite not liking his job according to Forever and Always, he has no intention of changing his path. Nick has said Paul has worked at CCRP for close to a decade. He's settled into the life he has, and change in any capacity is distressing to him. He goes to work, he gets his coffee, he goes home. Emma is the only change we've seen him welcome. In the bunker, Hatchetfield was overrun by aliens, and he said he still didn't want to leave.

- His reactions to stress are not particularly neurotypical. He seeks out familiarity and comfort, such as immediately making his way to Beanies to calm himself down after LDDDD, to indulge in his routine. When he was in the alleys with Emma, he brought up movies and board games, despite the fact that it was an odd time to try to discuss interests with someone he barely knew. If we count Jon's original audition for the character, we can easily infer that Paul has a special interest in film. At the very least, he has strong opinions on it, and wanting to discuss an interest even when the timing isn't appropriate is common for autistic people.

- The stims. Oh, the stims. He wrings his hands quite often, he taps his fists on top of each other, and he repeats words over and over. (The okays can be seen as a form of echolalia, which is a type of vocal stim!) Keep an eye on his hands throughout the whole show, they're moving very often, and particularly intensely in times of stress.

- His body language. There's the ever-present discomfort, of course, and the stimming, but there's more than that. He's extremely tactile, I can't count the times he touches people near him, or grabs them to pull them away from danger. He mimics other people's body languages, especially Emma's. His posture in CCRP at the start vs. His posture in the bunker with Emma are drastically different, and they reflect the people around him. In Black Friday, he touches Emma's back to support her, crouches when she does, holds her at the very end of the show. I'd argue that he struggles with a sense of personal space, honestly.

- As an add-on to the last point, he touches other people very freely, but when other people touch him, he flinches. All the touching in LDDDD have him looking disgusted, and doubly so in LIO, but it's not just that. Ted touches him by the trash cans, and he jumps and looks very uncomfortable. He's tactile, but only on his own terms.

- He's extremely expressive. He wears his emotions on his sleeve, and does not seem remotely adept at hiding them. Emma knew he had a crush on her the second they met. It's not just his words that are straightforward, it's all of him. He just doesn't hide things.

I suppose that's it for now. Honestly, if I started picking out every little thing about him, I'd be here all day. There's so much about the way he speaks, moves, and expresses himself that makes him seem autistic to me. Simply put, it's about the vibes, my dudes. He's autistic because I choose to believe he is.

#paul matthews #starkid #tgwdlm #black friday #nightmare time #jon matteson #autistic paul matthews #long post #mine #oh god this is so long #i apologize #i know it could be better but i wanted to get all those notes out #i'll add more if i think of them #not much forever and always stuff here because. i haven't thought has hard about it. whoops #maybe someday

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hargrove-mayfields · 3 years

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the tags on your football Billy story about autistic kids not being allowed to play sports, gave me the idea of Steve with autism not being allowed on the basketball team and how Billy and maybe Tommy if you want since you write kegboys sometimes would react

It doesn’t take Billy long to notice him, the benchwarmer boy who sits on the sidelines, never getting his shot in a single game, just riding the bench with a smile on his face.

At first he sort of pegs it to mean the kid is just really not good, maybe riding the tails of his daddy’s sportsmanship legacy, but then Billy realizes something, that this kid doesn’t even get to play at practice.

He shows up and he sits there like being excluded is the happiest he’s ever been, and the only time he ever has the ball in his hands at all is if it’s to toss it to one of the boys on the court when it rolls to him.

Despite this though, he has his very own jersey. Number zero. Harrington.

Billy asks Tommy after practice once who this mysterious jersey kid is, and he smiles sort of tight, like maybe Billy shouldn’t have asked him that, and tells him, “I’ll introduce you.”

Tommy walks over to the kid and tells him something that makes him light up, jump to his feet and follow Tommy back over, “Billy, this is my best friend, Steve Harrington.”

Steve just sort of waves, so Billy jumps straight into it. This kid intrigues him and he wants to know more, “There a reason you don’t play, Harrington?”

In response he shrugs his shoulders, hands stuffed in the pockets of his way too big basketball shorts, “I’m not allowed.”

“Why not? You fail some test or something?” Billy tries to ask lightly, not noticing the way Tommy’s face scrunches up before Steve drops a bombshell on him instead, “They don’t let special ed kids on the basketball team.”

And if that’s not bad enough, Tommy then adds, though significantly more bitter than even Steve is, “Or on any team for that matter, whether it’s sports or clubs or debate, you name it. School board denies every last application.”

“Oh.” Billy frowns, totally dumbfounded, his school in California never had any issues with that, “Oh that- that’s bullshit.”

“I know.” They say at the same time, prompting Billy to ask, “They don’t even have like, a separate team?”

“Not enough kids would do it.” Tommy says, and he gets a sharp look from Steve, who corrects him quickly, “Not enough kids could get permission to do it.”

“But that’s such bullshit.” Billy repeats, not very helpfully.

“Nothing we can do about it. We’ve tried everything. Not even momma Harrington could convince the school board, and let me tell you, that woman is scary.”

Steve elbows Tommy for that one, and Tommy laughs softly, throws an arm around his shoulder, but Billy is thinking, biting the corner of his nail in concentration, “Why don’t we start our own team?”

“I don’t know.” Steve’s face scrunches up, and he turns to Tommy, like he doesn’t trust what Billy says, so Billy continues, “No, I’m serious. School says you can’t play for them, so fuck ‘em. There’s courts in the park, I have a ball, and I’m out there half the time watching my little sister anyways. Let’s start our own team.”

Tommy answers for him, “Practice takes up too much time. We’re not gonna be much of a team unless we’re going to be playing at night or in the winter.”

“Then we quit the tigers.” Billy shrugs, like it’s obvious.

Instantly Tommy narrows his eyes, “Very funny, man.”

On the other hand though, Steve looks at him with awe written all over his face, eyes wide and spelling, “You’d really quit for me?”

And Billy, he plays it off like that look doesn’t make his heart melt, claiming, “For you and for Max who’s been talking my ear off about how much she wants to play soccer and whose heart is going to break when she finds out she can’t.”

Convinced, Tommy looks over at Steve, “If you’re in Stevie, I’m in too.”

Steve seems like he’s considering his options, drumming his fingers on the outside of his thigh, occasionally humming softly in thought, and it’s making Billy impatient.

“So?” He asks, to which Steve nods a confirmation to his offer, his hair bouncing with his enthusiasm.

Tommy cracks a crooked smile, holds out a hand for Billy to shake, seal the deal, “You’ve got yourself a team, Hargrove.”

They decide not to give their little team a name, the idea of being called something feels too exclusive, which was the reason they’d all quit the school's team in the first place. Billy had gotten in big trouble when his dad found out he quit for wasting their time and money on basketball, but that was all bullshit anyways, games were only usually a half hour long and were free to get into for the players family, and the school paid for the uniforms.

But that was what he said and what he’d been going to punish Billy for until they found out about the reasoning behind quitting, after which Susan was flattered he cared so much about his little sister, and he got his permission to freely go down to the park and play with the “special” kid.

Neil of course didn’t care about him doing it for Max, he was just concerned with Billy’s public image. Playing ball with the richest family in town's dopey son did nothing but good things for the way their neighbors saw him, so he’d allow it.

A few weeks into their games though, which are mostly just playing HORSE or teaching Steve how to do trickier shots since no coach ever would, Billy has to bring Max along because nobody was going to be home and she wasn’t allowed to be by herself. It’s a dreary day so there aren’t many people around at all, so he decides he’s going to loosen her leash, and walks her over to the playground (that they can see clearly from the courts, he’s not that irresponsible.)

He teasingly offers to push Max on the swings or lift her up to the monkey bars, making her roll her eyes and proudly declare that she’s not a baby anymore, so he chuckles and leaves her be, walking back to the basketball hoops.

Tommy and Steve are just sitting on the old wooden bench just off to the side of the court, waiting for Billy to get back because he’s their little impromptu coach and they can’t start without him, but he notices that they’re sitting awful close together, and between them, Tommy’s hand sits slightly on top of Steve’s, pinky fingers linked together.

Now he knows these two are affectionate, he couldn’t even count how many times Tommy picked Steve up after he made a good shot or ruffled his hair and smiled at him when he messed up, but that was all just friendly affection.

This was different though, he could tell it was from the way Tommy’s eyes snap up and he pulls his hand away, the both of them looking away from each other guiltily.

He feels a little something like jealousy in his chest, or maybe it was just anxiety at the fact that they’d been so obviously holding hands in the public park, but either way, he just kind of freezes up, looking between their two terrified faces until Tommy’s turns angry, standing from the bench so fast the old rusty things creaks loudly and Steve has to cover his ears.

He grabs the front of the baggy jersey Billy wears from his old school's team, the bears, and gets right up in his face, sneering, “You gonna say something, Hargrove?”

And Billy’s not afraid of Tommy, he might be mean, but he’s on his toes to threaten him, and he’s pretty sure they both know Billy would win the fight anyways. He’s not going to fight him though, and he makes that clear, putting his hands up as a clear sign of not going to sock Tommy for yelling at him, “Secrets safe with me, dudes. You go down, I’m going down with you.”

Tommy doesn’t get it though, because he growls, “Right. ‘Cause all that matters is what will happen to your reputation after giving up your precious sport just to hang with a couple of fags, right?”

“Tom.” Steve snaps, but he gets ignored, Billy arguing over him, “Actually, no. You know all that talk about queer kids flocking together without even knowing? That doesn’t come from nothing. I out you, it’s putting a target on my back, and from there it won’t be not long before a little birdie tells the wrong person the right rumor and we’re all dead.”

“Oh.” Tommy says softly, his face falling.

Billy nods sarcastically in response, “Yeah, oh. So let go of my damn shirt before I find a reason to punch you in the face.”

“Can we just play basketball?” Comes a timid request from behind them, so Tommy lets go, wipes his hands on his shorts, and answers him, “‘Course we can, Stevie.”

It doesn’t take long for them to get bored though, none of them are really in the mood to play after that. They play a small game that’s pretty much just Tommy blocking Billy the whole time, but after he shoots the ball they all just let it roll, none of them caring enough to keep the play going. So instead, Tommy offers up his place to hang out there.

It sounds at least better than this, so Billy drops Max off back at home, making her promise not to do anything stupid to get them in trouble until he gets back later that night, and heads straight to Tommy’s like they planned.

The whole drive he’s worrying that they’re gonna pissed at him and beating himself up for not just pretending like he didn’t notice, to the point where he almost just drives right past, but Steve waves at his car from the front window, and he can’t do all this petty angry shit to him.

Tommy’s house is empty for the night, so that means two things, that they’re free to drink as much as they want, (smoking’s a no go though, the smell is too strong and makes Steve upset), and that Steve sits right on Tommy’s lap like it’s nothing.

Which, it is nothing. Billy just told them he was gay too, and now they don’t have to hide from their best friend, so it’s common sense that they wouldn’t.

But Billy, well, he wouldn’t say he’s jealous watching the two of them together, it just makes his chest burn every time they touch or laugh at some joke and whisper amongst themselves like he isn’t even there, or when Steve kisses Tommy’s cheek.

Yeah no, there’s no pretending, Billy is totally jealous. He’s had a thing for Tommy since like, day one of practice when he bounced a basketball back in his own face trying to show off, and Steve for just as long, yearning to know more about the pretty faced mystery kid who turned out to be a total sweetheart and won him over. It’s tearing him to shreds watching them just being happy together without being a part of that.

He wonders if these small town boys have ever even heard of having more than one partner other than like, mormons, and if they haven’t, how is he supposed to bring it up without sounding like a total weirdo. Maybe he could claim that he was just trying not to be left out since they were probably the only queer kids in Hawkins. Or maybe not and Tommy would try to kick his ass again for even trying.

He doesn’t have to do much wondering though, because as pointedly as he’s trying to ignore them, Steve keeps getting closer to Billy on the couch until he’s sitting in his lap, and Billy has to ask, blue eyes going a little wide, cheeks flushing red in a way that had nothing to do with the sunburn he’d gotten at the park earlier, “What’re you doing Steve?”

“You included me. Now I’m including you.” Steve hums and leans his head on Billy’s shoulder, holding eye contact with Tommy.

To say that Billy is flustered and doesn’t know what to do with himself is more than an understatement. He'd like to say he’s not the most inexperienced one here, but it’s not looking good, because he’s flushed as red as a tomato, and the only thing he can think to say is just, “Oh.”

“Yeah, oh.” Tommy says and smiles that big goofy smile of his, a playful imitation of their little argument from before, “And I’d much rather you kiss me than punch me.”

#kegboys #steve x billy x tommy #billy hargrove #steve harrington #tommy hagan #autistic steve!#ej writer #story by ej!#requests #based heavily on personal experience lol #thank you anon for reading my mind #and for the request <3

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wholetmetalk · 2 years

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spoiler warning for the whole season!!

my thoughts and commentary on Episode 1: The Goldfish Problem

- steven (?) looks confused about his own room

- GUS THE ONE FINNED GOLDFISH

- Steven calls his mom :(

- "laters gators" SJHDKQHDH I LOVE HIM

- "and did it suck for you? getting rejected from the Field of Reeds?" I CANT DO THIS.

- Steven responds "well that doesn't make sense, cause I'm not dead am i? am i...?" he sounds as if he is genuinely questioning it

- FUCK OFF DONNA

- who asked that girl out to the stake house? cause it wasn't steven, might have been marc

- Taweret plushies!!

- Donna so help me if you cut off steven one more time while talking about his special interests I'm gonna lose it

- steven has poor motor skills (me too bud)

- statue dude showed up in ep 5 !!

- I still don't understand the point of the sand

- he's so similar to me its painful (lots of reading, puzzles, forcing yourself to stay awake, pretty poor motor skills/general clumsiness, etc)

- he's autistic because im autistic and i said so (and so did Oscar Issac!!)

- him reading about his special interests <3

- KHONSHU DONT CALL HIM A WORM >:(

- props to steven for not just breaking down when he woke up in the middle of nowhere cause I absolutely would

- steven is so confused :(

- was that Jake who fronted (the first time) and killed those people? cause Marc doesn't seem like the type who would kill unless he had to (or khonshu was telling him to)

- the 2nd time someone else fronted, that could have been either marc or jake, idk but probably marc

- any time the situation gets too dangerous or stressful, someone else fronts and I think its really sweet that they want to protect him

- OI KHONSHU HES TRYING HIS BEST

- 3 reflections in the mirror (one for each alter)

- "I wonder what fishes dream about" I love him sm

- that's not gus :(

- Marc buying a replacement fish so steven didn't think gus died is really sweet

- 3 REFLECTIONS AGAIN (they do that a lot)

- fuck I feel so bad for steven he's so confused

- khonshu stop being an asshole please

- HES LYING TO HIS DEAD MOM OVER THE PHONE I CAN NOT DO THIS SHIT

- marc is just trying to protect steven :(

- the voice Harrow is talking about is Khonshu, not marc

- marc in the reflection !

- Steven that's not a dog, hun

- when Steven was in the bathroom talking to Marc, Steven was getting frustrated and started hitting himself, which can be a violent form of stimming (I often do it)

- marc <3

- YEAAA GET ITS ASS MARC, PROTECT STEVEN

#my random ass thoughts #moon knight #steven grant #marc spector #i love marc and steven sm #they are the best #autstic steven grant

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