Wait, you mean they’re not the same thing???

Neurodivergent culture is not being sure if you're suffering from mental illness or just the trauma of being mistreated for your neurodivergence.

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ND culture is trying to respect my sibling's choice to eat the same food for every meal but the smell of it permeating the house literally every single day, through fans and air fresheners and diffusers and all, has made it such a big sensory ick for me. Now that food is probably spoiled for me forever, it's just so eughgughh

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A major factor in our trauma is that, growing up with multiple level 3 autistic siblings, my parents thought i was allistic. they would ignore things i needed support in because obviously "your sister needs more help than you so you clearly can do it, you're just being lazy/difficult".

we HAD to form into a system to be able to even live since our support needs have never been met.

as a teenager i wouldn't shower for like 3 weeks and once my mom was like "oh you smell" i would go shower but i didn't use soap because i didn't realize i needed it.

i would have frequent meltdowns but since they looked different than my siblings, i was being "disrespectful and rude".

i would tell my mom i could absolutely not eat something and she would force me to eat it and get upset when i would immediately drop it out of my mouth due to the texture.

i misunderstood things in arguments or got distracted because of ADHD and i was "trying to derail the conversation".

i would look for something and be unable to find it almost every time and it was so bad my mom coined a term that she used for other people as well, using my name to describe "bad at finding things"

my parents treated all of my autistic traits as character flaws because my siblings are "more autistic" in their eyes.

i. am. disabled. my disabilities are not noncompliance or disrespect.

“Eww eww I hate being forced to touch this slimy substance for science class. I should put on my headphones.”

ND culture is "[Little sister] you're talking too much it's making it more painful to brush my hair, can you please turn off the light?"

(Why does it help-)

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I wish gender neutral dresses were a thing.

I wanna wear a ruffled skirt without it emphasizing my curves and triggering my dysphoria.

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I’m the Bog Mayor

Pay your taxes people!!!

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What to do if you find yourself homless- written by someone who has actually been homeless

Most important: Spend the money you have on a motel. Churches probably will not actually help and shelters can be dangerous or turn you away. At a motel you have free breakfast, access to running water, and a lockable place to sleep. Do not waste money on a gym membership like the popular version of this post says to do, YMCA memberships are like $40.

2. Contact family and friends. Now is not the time to worry about being a burden. Your survival and safety comes first and that is all that matters, anyone worth having in your life will agree.

3. Start a gofundme. Even if someone can’t offer you a place to stay, they might be willing to toss out $5 so you can eat today.

4. Libraries have free wifi. Apply to any and all jobs you can think of if you aren’t already working.

5. Any home is a good home. Even if it’s a dingy apartment in a bad neighborhood. If its cheap and you can afford it, snatch it up. 

6. Pancake mix and peanut butter are filling, cheap, and last a long time.

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ND culture is being genderfluid but forgetting your gender whenever someone asks

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Wanting to peck at my food with my “beak”

Reblog chain: What are some “gross” or non-wholesome instincts you have as nonhuman that you usually wouldn’t share out of embarrassment or whatever it may be?

Mine would be the classic wanting to eat roadkill and carcasses and finding them appealing, wanting to mark my territory via urine, wanting to growl and slightly nip at my pets out of frustration when they won’t leave me alone, wanting to bite at my balls if I get an itch (yes, this is the very weird one), wanting to growl and lunge at people if I get overwhelmed, and in general being incredibly agoraphobic.

I acquired a medical problem that meant I’d have to spend 6 months in-and-out of the hospital. I was upset, but I thought, “Oh, it’s not going to be that bad, because I can just retreat into my head and go on autopilot until the misery is over.”

Yeah, it turns out what I was doing wasn’t “zoning out” it was letting other people front. That’s how I discovered I’m plural lol.

me: why does it feel like someone else has taken over my body and im just watching

me, remembering I have “people take over your body” disorder: 🤯🤯🤯🤯����

Realizing lately how much my trauma from six years ago still impacts my life.

I automatically develop incredible hatred towards anyone who reminds me of my abusers. I don’t trust myself to know who I am or what I want due to gaslighting. I’m in a constant state of depersonalization. But I totally don’t need therapy because I’m not actively suicidal. Apparently. *sigh*

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*an ad pops up on my aunt’s phone*

My aunt: “Ugh get rid of that retarded thing!”

*my ptsd becomes triggered*

Me: “Um uh uh um that’s nn-not nice.”

My aunt: “I heard you saying ‘fuck’ earlier, so you’re just as bad.”

*retreats to my room to recover from her stupidity*

Autism culture is wanting to beat the shit out of someone for using the r word and restraining yourself so you don’t reveal your autistic and get ridiculed for it

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I have 3 theriotypes, all birds. I recommend that you try to choose a species that lives near your area. For example, I feel much happier shifted as a sandpiper than a black-capped chickadee because I live near the ocean.

thinking about forming a linktype because we really wish we had a theriotype- we dont know what it is, might have something to do with the fact we wish we were something from this earth. Not sure what animal to choose if we do do it though, maybe some canine or bird?

My facets regularly appear and disappear (I think it has something to do with my stress levels?) and every time it becomes Just Me it feels so weird.

sometimes I will forget that not everyone is a system. Like wdym you don’t have random people just singing shit in your head? You don’t have other people in your head that just say the most random shit ever? That’s insane to me.

When I was living as a girl, I had perfectly clear skin. I had long, beautiful curls. I even had society’s idea of a “perfect body.”

I have none of those things anymore. I have lots of acne, wiry/oily hair, and I’ve gained weight.

But I look like me, and that’s all that matters.

I can take selfies now without deleting half of them. I no longer spend an hour in the bathroom each day trying to make my hair look right.

btw the biggest lie you will ever be told about being trans is that transitioning will make you ugly. that could not be further from the truth: i never got compliments on my appearance ever, but after i transitioned, began dressing like myself, wore my hair the way i wanted to, and especially started T, i have gotten more compliments than i ever have before in my life. people can tell when you look like yourself, like who you're meant to be. it's beautiful, attractive, and sexy. transition will not make you "ugly". it will make you yourself, and that's inherently beautiful

Alright, that’s it, I’m done!!!

I was traumatized in elementary school due to persistent psychological abuse and gaslighting by a teacher. So you know, sometimes a person just wants to scroll the tags on Tumblr to get some support, right!!???

Oh my god the gaslighting victims tag makes me want to scream.

Literal MEMES about being “gaslit” when someone simply lied to you

People deciding that gaslighting is a cool anime girl thing!!???

“Gaslighting kink” what the fuck

LEAVE ME ALONE TUMBLR IDIOTS I JUST WANT SOME TRAUMA SUPPORT