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I’m tired of fighting for my survival
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hey I'm sorry I stopped in the middle of that sentence my brain decided to flush its cache and I totally forgot what this conversation was
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As a wheelchair user I'm trying to reframe my language for "being in the way."
"I'm in the way," "I can't fit," and "I can't go there," is becoming "there's not enough space," "the walkway is too narrow," and "that place isn't accessible."
It's a small change, but to me it feels as if I'm redirecting blame from myself to the people that made these places inaccessible in the first place. I don't want people to just think that they're helping me, I want them to think that they're making up for someone else's wrongdoing. I want them to remember every time I've needed help as something someone else caused.
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hey fun fact did you know that if you're on the schizophrenia spectrum, have psychosis, have psychotic symptoms or traits, etc, that you're loved and your symptoms and traits should not be vilainized or seen as evil or ugly?
#psychosis#schizospec#schizophrenia spectrum#schizophrenia#szpd#stpd#neurodivergent#schizoid personality disorder
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Autism acceptance includes accepting all autistic manners of communication.
That means supporting autistic people who talk in a "very childish" way. (I do this a lot irl)
Autistic people who do "TV talking" (this means talking like a character from your favorite media,basically talking in quotes and copying their speech patterns,as far as I know)
Autistic people who use echolia.
Autistic people who are very awkward/quirky when they communicate.
Autistic people who are overly technical,or have very sophisticated and articulate speech.
Autistic people who mumble.
Autistic people who talk really fast.
Autistic people who can't control their tone of voice/inflection.
Autistic people who talk in a monotone voice.
Autistic people who use different kind of sounds,or body language to communicate.
Autistic people who talk slowly and draw out their syllables.
Autistic people who use a lot of sentance fillers.
Autistic people who use Aac devices,communication cards,etc etc.
Edit: acceptance of nonverbal autistics is also necessary. Nonverbal people deserve love,respect,acceptance,accommodation and support.
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It’s about survival or the idea of self preservation I think.
Omg omg omg. It all makes so much more sense when you realise it's not social anxiety but a fear of being perceived.
Why do you feel more comfortable with a long coat and a mask as opposed to summer clothes?
Why do you DESPISE taking pictures? Especially if it's someone else and not you taking them.
Why do you feel like you have to stop doing whatever it was you were doing when someone passes by?
Why don't you want to tell anyone how leisurely you go about your day, taking a nap, going for a snack, sitting on your phone playing games etc. because you know they will comment on it and even though it's not negative or mockery it's still feels like you've been perceived?
Why can't you make eye contact? Why can you do it only if the other person is looking away but the second when they look at you you stop listening and when you're the one speaking you can't bear to look at them because you know their eyes are on you and they are perceiving you?
Why don't you want to dress excessively or wear nicer clothes? Because you will stand out
People mistake you for shy because you don't speak often, but it's really the fear of drawing attention to yourself more than it is the things you actually say, isn't it?
Why do you hate overpopulated areas even when no one is speaking? BUT you still feel more comfortable when more than one person is in the room (but not too many!) so that the burden of being perceived is directed on someone else and you can safely lay back just observing the scene.
It's all a defence mechanism
#autism#audhd#actually autistic#autistic things#actually audhd#adhd#actually adhd#adhd problems#neurodivergence#neurodivergent
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"This is something Autistics commonly do" and "this is something everyone does at points" can and do exist together.
"That isn't an autistic thing. Everyone does that." Yes, but the post is to autistics, by an autistic, about autism.
Coming into autism spaces, where we are asking for help or looking for others who suffer as we suffer, and trying to invalidate that experience as "something everyone does" is not as big of a flex as you think.
Yes, everyone struggles with the things autistics struggle with.
No, it isn't the same experience.
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I can’t believe how accurate this is. I’ve had a rock collection since I was a kid, and I’m still collecting them to this day.
Do any of you relate to this? If so, what do you like to collect? It can be plushies, toys, whatever. :)
Neurodivergent Girl
#autism#actually autistic#autism and collecting things#actually neurodivergent#neurodiversity#neurodivergence
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sometimes i feel like people forget autism is a disability. and that’s not a bad thing! i’m all for disability acceptance, im proud of my disabilities. but i feel like we forget autism can hurt.
it hurts that i have to put more time and energy into socializing than others.
it hurts when i need to move so bad, usually cause im overwhelmed by either my surroundings or emotions, that i thrash and hurt myself.
it hurts that i cant be in places that are too loud or too bright, which on bad days can be as simple as a small, quiet noise or dim lights.
it hurts that i struggle to tell when im hungry, thirsty, tired, etc. so i can’t properly take care of myself. it doesn’t help my insomnia and i get very nauseas and get UTIs.
i 100% believe in autism acceptance. i don’t want a cure. but i also want us the acknowledge that it can hurt. it doesn’t mean my entire life will hurt, but some parts will. and i want a community where we can see both sides, see the hurt, and celebrate it anyway.
#autism#autistic#actually autistic#actually autism#autism acceptance#autism acceptence month#autistic things#autistic experiences#autistic community#autistic spectrum
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Reclaim it. We can do that
i honestly forget that autism mums say 'autism won today' to mean like their kid had a meltdown and that they are ableist. like nooo autism win means something like i found something cool out about my special interest or i managed to avoid a meltdown or i got to infodump!!!!! autism win is good!!!!!!
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things people have done to help me during a psychosis episode
i was on the buss and i hallucinated bugs crawling all over my hands, so my friend pulled my hoodie sleeves over them with permission and held my hands through the sleeves to "keep them off". they used the logic you would in a real bug situation.
i went nonverbal in a bad one in class, so my friend wrote me a note to give to the nurse since the teacher wouldn't let her go with me.
i often am very paranoid about the delusion that meat is actually rotten, so my dad will sometimes eat a bit of it before me
instead of telling me my delusions arent real, they help me through it using logic like it was real. they dont tell me that nothings going to hurt me in my sleep, they stay with me to keep me safe. then when it passes i can realize its not real
edit: i am not a doctor. i am not saying this will work for everyone, the only reason this works for me is because I have short term delusions typically. Typically, it helps me most when people point out the things not real in a loving manner AND help me as though it is
this is not advice for helping every mentally ill person
i am glad it is helping so many people tho! i love you all and I never thought this would blow up.
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Dear “Uncle”,
I look forward to the day you die so I can finally stop feeling paranoid and anxious that you’re waiting to hurt me. I fear that you’re obsessed with me. I’ve seen the people you choose to sleep with. I noticed how you chose a wife who has horrible sexual trauma being that you’ve inflicted such a trauma on someone else earlier in life. I know the girl yo cheat on her with too. She was often mistaken for my sister in school and we were in the same grade.
Strike me from the record of your mind. You have decided I’m the bad guy because I ratted on you for what you were doing to me. You ruined my childhood and my innocence and I hope you choke on it. I hope that your daughters never ever have to endure any pain like that ever in their lives because that is a horror id never wish upon anyone.
I can’t say that I hate you, that would imply you are permitted to live in my mind. No but I do worry for your wife and daughters. I pity you because you will never be okay. You can’t even take responsibility for your actions, and so long as you bury it and hide from it, it’ll eat you alive like the burdensome secret you made me carry all these years. I’m unburdened now going forward. I hope it eats you into nothing and you are too miserable to sleep anymore. I hope you have worse insomnia than I do! I hope you’re miserable until you’re rotting in the dirt.
I’m free of you now, bye bitch.
~ 🦋anon
#anon#anon confession#anon submission#anonymous#complex ptsd#ptsd#actually ptsd#tw csa implied#tw csa#tw inc*st#tw incest#trauma vent#vent letter#letter to mystery person
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I feel like I’m an ugly burden bc I’m disabled and require assistance to live and I need mobility aid
♿️anon
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#anon#anon confession#anonymous#disability#disabled#disabled community#confession#ableism#ableist language cw#tw ableist language#internalised ableism#beauty standards#body posititivity#bopo#body positive
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“I’m so tired of being tired” -anon
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Sometimes I can’t really tell what’s real or not or if I’m ok like Idk who or what I am anymore and that frightens me because what if I’m not who I thought or who I want to be
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#derealization#anon confession#anon#anonymous#actually mentally ill#self image#cluster b#secrets spilled#neurodiverse stuff
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I’m mad that my only surviving grandparent is one I don’t care for. How dare the good ones all die?? And she’s here still?? The wicked monster
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Sometimes I hope bad things happen to me or in my life because I feel like I deserve misery
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#confession#anon#anonymous#anon confession#self sabotage#self destruction#depression#actually mentally ill#cluster b#actually bpd#bpd vent#bpd thoughts#bpd safe#secrets spilled#neurodiverse stuff
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