i wait for your notification like a puppy waiting for its owner.

Crazy how much love I can give but I never receive it back.

Oh boy. It's been awhile since I've had to deal with the feelings of having a FP, the fact it's "them" makes it so much harder too. This one is gonna ruin me if i can't break it 🥲

Stop letting others break you down and destroy your life.

Go ruin that shit ✨️ yourself ✨️ like the lil unstable baddie you are 🥹

You didn’t deserve to be punished for asking for love.

Self-aware of my self-destruction, yet unable to stop myself.

I don't think many people understand what it's like to literally loathe your appearance. Your body. Your being. Regardless of what compliments I get. All I see when I look in the mirror is disgust, nausea. It makes me want to crawl out of my own body. I spend half the time acting like a vampire and covering my mirrors so I don't have to see. Body dysmorphia mixed with a ed has been my existence for the 10 years. Recover. Relapse. Recover. Relapse. It's a never ending cycle.

“I’m totally fine”

I'm back apparently ✨️

I've also relapsed with my ED in recent months.

Can I "it is what it is" my way through this?

I will never understand ✨️ men ✨️.

Like one minute, he adores me. Next, he avoids any type of physical touch with me. lmao.

Not at all triggering for my ED. And definitely doesn't make me feel repulsed by myself 🫠

LOUD LOUD LOUD

My brain is too fucking LOUD Right now.

How do i shut it up. Seriously how do i make this stop 😭

maybe suicide will fix all my problems..

I am ✨️ spiraling ✨️

I'm one meltdown away from a grippy sock vacay 🥲