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headakke · 2 days
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4n4 tips to remind myself,
all the things that helped me losing weight and not binge.
- do NOT restrict too much if you know you tend to binge, it will only be worse —> I stayed on a 1000-1100 calorie intake and sometimes I even stayed under that easily by keeping myself busy/happy in some ways
- I personally hate waking up early in the morning because I binge mostly for breakfast, but I realized a good sleeping schedule is also important, so if I wake up early, I drink a big ass coffee with almond milk/eat something under 150 cals and GO OUT, like for a walk or anything.
- Lunch/dinner —> I try staying under 350, because I usually eat an apple/fruit after every meal and if I have a sweet treat under 50 cals, why not, I always let myself have it.
- I try (try) walking at least 10k steps everyday, not because it burns a significant amount of calories, but because its good for my mental health. When I stay at home being depressed and doing nothing, I usually look for dopamine in food until Im nauseous, like I did today!😋👌🏻 so yeah.
- Basically try not to have that restricting mindset all the time, try to by chill about food even if you are not, trick your mind, say yes to breakfast, lunch, dinners out with friends, maybe take initiative to be able to choose what to eat and plan your intake based on it, but even if you can’t, always be chill. You can go back on track all the next days or eating a LITTLE less. Its not that deep, your body will not change from that croissant or from that pasta you had that day, it will change if you restrict too much and than fall into a binge cycle for weeks. And its like a living hell.
- Live the moment as much as you can. Weight loss begin to work as soon as you start to see the first little results, you have to stay motivated, not stressing out constantly by planning everything and thinking about the things you will do within 3 months with your body. At least, this not works with me.
- do not weight yourself everyday, do not watch your body in the mirror every hour of the day, do not take too many photos. I mean, the temptation to do all of this is strong, but the weight varies enormously during the day, the way we see ourselves reflected is constantly distorted depending on how we feel and constantly seeking changes in all these forms is counterproductive. The real changes will be the ones that you see casually as the time passes and that you can physically feel on yourself. Don't be fooled and don't become crazy over all this fake shit. <3
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dietcokeflavoredair · 1 month
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i need her atTENTION SO FUCKING BAD IM GOING INSANE WHY DOESNT SHE NOTICE THE THINGS IM DOING JUST FOR HER TO PAY ATTENTION TO ME
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secretqueen2 · 2 months
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Just one little relapse wouldn’t hurt, right? ;)
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cherylmustdie · 4 months
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-i drink so i dont cvt myself (another fucking coping mechanism)
-i cvt myself because i get drunk and have no ability to control myself
it doesn't make any sense
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zapcockdrainobey · 7 months
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bambi relapsed after 24 days
Dear diary,
Oh my gosh, so, like, listen up, you guys. I had all these plans to avoid Tumblr, but then I just COULDN'T. Those reposts and messages were calling my name, and I was like, "Why is this making me soooo horny?"
And here comes the nightmare: I was on my grind yesterday, thinking I'm on a roll. But then I COULDN'T continue, and boom, RELAPSED! It's like, forget about me, Bambi is in control now. She just grabbed the wheel and is steering this crazy train! Bambi just resumed the 20 days training.
So, um, I really, really need your help. Could you, like, punish me for going rogue? I'm so out of sorts, and I need a reality check, like, yesterday. I consent to all DMs and ASKs.
So please, PLEASE, repost this. Seriously, let's give Bambi the attention she's clearly craving. I'm sort of begging here, you guys. Tell the world Bambi's in a spiral and, like, needs some major help or advice or something. Thank you sooo much!
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fenssyy · 5 days
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Sitting in my bed with a lot of Blood soaked paper bc of you
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kitten-forward · 5 months
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manicaliferous · 4 months
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this one girl at group therapy has these super deep scars on her arm and now i want to relapse
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userna-me12345 · 1 year
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This is officially a cry for help 💃
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deepslitaaaz · 1 year
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Very tired of being alone
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wishingintotheunknown · 8 months
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Running into the arms of my Ed because at least that will always be there waiting for me. Because at least if I’m too starved to feel anything I won’t have to remember how alone I really am. Because the few friends I do have all have friends they like way more than me. Because no matter what I do or where I go, the only place I can ever call home is sickness.
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headakke · 1 day
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my favourite safe, low cal meals/snacks as a vegan🐸 (please share yours!!!)
⁃ congee with 30g of rice + veggies/mushrooms + 250ml veg stock, let it cook for like 40mins and then let it sit a bit in the plate, like a porridge. You can add anything to this and switch ingredients.
⁃ seitan skewers —> seitan is SO SO high in protein and so good to me even raw lol, same with tofu.
⁃ block of silken tofu with teriyaki/soy sauce, spices and spring onion —> high in protein, in volume, super simple yet super good, to me its the equivalent of tartare
⁃ tofu scramble —> with the right ingredients and secrets, tofu can be 100% better than eggs. I always hated the texture. Btw I use a little bit of vegan butter, garlic, nutritional yeast, soy milk or melted miso paste, pepper, vegan grated parmesan if I have it and turmeric or saffron.
⁃ tofu with veggies —> I love using red pepper, zucchini, carrots, onion, maybe with origan, black pepper, thyme, curry or paprika
⁃ roasted sweet potato —> I could talk about sweet potato for days. She’s so good cooked in the oven with rosemary, salt, cinnamon, pepper, definitely a safe food.
⁃ soups and pureed soups (I love them with cabbage, pumpkin, mushrooms, i love miso soup, or soups with legumes in it) —> they can be under 100/80 cals and still slap, honestly my salvation when I want to stay under a cal limit or I already reached it but still have to eat something
⁃ hummus of any kind (I recently added sweet potato to it and it blends magically and adds so much volume and flavour!!)
⁃ big salads —> just this, any type. I love a salad with roasted veggies in it or beets and balsamic vinegar
⁃ pan-roasted red cabbage with cannellini dressing —> an easy cannellini puree with some miso paste to blend or some tahini, on top of one or two slices of cabbage cooked in a pan with some oil and maple syrup/marinate sauce
⁃ salted udon/rice noodles with veggies and soy sauce
⁃ ikea vegetable balls (🤤) in marinara sauce
⁃ any vegan burger which is always under 300 cals + some grilled or raw veggies
⁃ tortilla wrap with grilled veggies, tofu, any sauce you like or hummus
⁃ tomato pasta —> simple, lazy, its ok
⁃ chickpea salad with cherry tomatoes, lattuce, pickled onions and pesto tofu dressing
⁃ tortilla-pizza —> under 150 cals and perfect when craving pizza
⁃ chickpea farinata —> again, lazy recipe, so good and rich in protein
⁃ literally anything with rice paper, its so versatile, i love spring rolls
⁃ lentil ragú
⁃ ratatouille
⁃ spelt/orzo with anything, fresh with veggies or cooked in a pureed soup, to make it like a risotto
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dietcokeflavoredair · 2 months
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when you have bpd trying to move past something is so difficult because we have no senses of self and when something that was a huge part of our identity is taken away from us we are even more confused about who we are since we dont know that anyway
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xojaay · 8 days
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The comfort I feel from hurting myself feels so wrong but so real at the same time…
Ya know?
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cherylmustdie · 5 months
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but i feel like i dont have enough reason to lose my sober streak
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spirituallyfucked · 4 months
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looks like its time to distance myself and stop speaking again <3
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