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I don't often post my non kink related art but I'm tryna get the attention of someone else in the community and am too shy and cringe to reach out so. Here, have this portrait I did of Hanzo Shimada. With my finger. On ibis paint. This took me four hours. Progress for proof below.
#we have so many similar interests and im trying to not be cringe about that 🧍♂️#hi im autistic and some people are really really hard to reach out to lol#anyways ove/watch fandom please don't look at my fat kink blog i cannot handle normie anon hate rn#plus id. what u think bc u play OVE/WATCH#idc* oops#not retyping all that#and if you have seen this art on animo and noticed i updated my signature no u didnt!!!#i dont want people on amino knowing im a fat guy that thinks it hot to get fatter#let me be kinky in peace#hanzo#hanzo art#hanzo shimada#hanzo fanart#overwatch fanart#watch either get no notes at all like all my other art or spark the first fatphobic harassment campaign against me bc i dared#to post out my uaual tags#anyways#artists on tumblr#trans artist#overwatch#my art ALWAYS gets ignored its such a SHITTY FUCKING FEELING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thats WHY I NEVER POST IT !!!!!!!!!!!!#but whatever im not normal and need to make friends somehow#when people learn to give the attention my art is worth ill post more#but yall on this site NEVER. do ( at least on ever blog I had before this one)#i just dobt post much of it here bc whats the point? no one gives a shit about my intrests and skillls#im just. pretty face to look at#and thats all ill ever be or amount to#bi polar ramblings ig ig ig
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Heyloo! I love your posts man <333 I have a request for the full score trio. What if they had an s/o (gender neutral) who one day asks them "what would you do if I were to get adopted?". Sorry if you dont wanna do this, I get it if your busy!
Ellooooo! I’m glad you like my writing! This is a really cute idea. Thank you so much for the request, hope you enjoy!
🩷☁️N E R D Y S L E E P Y B U N N Y☁️🩷
Fandom(s): The Promised Neverland
Character(s): Normam, Ray, Emma
Reader: Gender neutral (they/you)
TW: Mention of being shipped out
Style: Short hcs
Summary: Norman, Ray, and Emma (separate) react to their s/o asking them, “what would you do if I were to get adopted?”
Norman:
“What would you do if I were to get adopted?” You asked innocently whilst you and Norman were cuddling against a tree in the forest, away from all the other children who were playing in the field.
The boy completely froze. He knew that you didn’t know about the secret yet, as he convinced the others not to tell you. He knew how badly it would affect you if you knew the truth. But thinking about you experiencing the same fate made his blood run cold. But he couldn’t show signs of fear, he didn’t want you to ask questions. So he held back his tears and recollected himself, grabbing your chin with his thumb and pointer finger to direct you to look at him.
“I’d miss you dearly, and do whatever it takes to find you again. I’d never be me until I found myself by your side.” Norman responded, letting go of your chin to wrap his arms around your torso, pulling you into him.
You didn’t know what those words truly meant, but were happy with his answer, moving your arms to wrap around him and resting your head on his shoulder. It was moments like this where you felt most at peace. He held you there for a lot longer, the thought still swirling through his mind. You didn’t mind though. So the two of you stayed like that, letting the birds chirp and the small breeze flow. You both tuned out the faint sounds of the other children in the background and overrode your senses with nothing but each other, drowning in the feeling of being so close yet still trying to get closer. Yes, you absolutely adored these moments. And you knew he did too. You just didn’t understand why. Not yet, at least.
Ray:
“What would you do if I were to get adopted?” You randomly broke the silence. The two of you were sitting on the library floor, reading separate books. The silence was always comfortable with Ray, but you just felt like this question needed to be asked right this second.
You kept your eyes on your page, not seeing the way the raven haired boy’s face turned to one of complete fear, something nobody has ever seen from the boy. But his silence was starting to worry you, he was usually quick to respond to something, so you looked up at Ray with a worried expression, becoming shocked when he looked just as worried as you. You could’ve sworn he had tears in his eyes, before he squeezed them shut and shook his head, reopening his eyes with his usual cold expression. He pulled you close to him and ruffled your hair, but you took note of how he held you tighter than usual.
“…I don’t think I’d ever recover. I’d never be able to smile the same as I did when I was with you.”
Although it was a simple response, it meant the universe coming from him, the boy who rarely smiled or showed emotion, let alone caring for someone. You decided to ignore how he kept you close to him despite usually not being very fond of physical affection, just enjoying this rare moment with him. Your book had been long forgotten. You were must more focused on the sound of Ray’s heartbeat and the sound of his voice as he read his book aloud to you.
Emma:
You were panting, bent over trying to catch your breath after running around with Emma. The girl was used to running, and had caught her breath before you, so she decided to pat your back and wave her hand in front of your face to try and cool you off.
“Hey, Em..” You said between pants. She continued to give you a cold breeze, but looked softly into your eyes, a look of absolute adoration that she only gave to you. You loved it. You almost forgot to continue speaking, far too distracted staring into the eyes of your lover.
“What would you do if I were to get adopted?” You’re not sure why the thought crossed your mind, but you were now curious for an answer. Emma looked down at the ground, thinking about the scenario. She felt tears run down her cheeks as she imagined your suffering. If only you knew the truth. Before you could ask her what was wrong, she grabbed your face and peppered it with kisses, before giving you a peck on the lips and pulling away sobbing.
“I’d be broken.” You pulled the girl into your chest, kissing her head and rubbing her back as she cried into your chest. She didn’t think she’d ever be able to tell you the truth. It was too scary.
🩷☁️N E R D Y S L E E P Y B U N N Y☁️🩷
Honestly I’ve been a mix of busy and just mentally unstable, drained, exhausted, dead- Point is I’ve been feeling horrible due to some personal reasons. But I’m trying my best to come back. Though I do want to apologize for constantly saying I’m gonna get things out but then never do, I don’t have a proper excuse and you guy’s don’t deserve some shitty lie or whatever so I’m not going to say anything except that I’m sorry. I’ll try my best to do more but I can’t promise anything. My old schedule is 100% done for as I now need the weekend to recharge. I will post random updates, small fics, and other stuff every now and then but I most likely won’t be writing many actual fics or books until the summer. I wish it didn’t take me this long to heal from everything because I love you guys and writing for all of you, but I also can’t rush my healing because I want my writing to be the best it can be. I know I apologize a lot but I really do feel bad for just randomly dying on you all and never really coming back. I love you guys. 💕
#bun writes#the promised neverland#tpn x reader#tpn ray#tpn norman#tpn isabella#tpn emma#tpn krone#bun asks
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LMAOOO yeah no the tumblr algorithm is insane
and sure yeah go ahead enjoy whatever the hell you want to. i used to be into wolfstar and jegulus myself at one point. i do think hp is mediocre asf and yall have the creativity to do so much outside of it - why give more exposure to that series you know? i just dont understand its not like youre anywhere near the realm of canon anyway - but you guys dont upset me and i dont think youre bad people or whatever. i just found it...um...amusing and decided to look into it to see what the new insane thing yall came up with was. and i post about things i find funny. live your life girl (gn) peace and love on planet earth
and im just easing out of the byler community so trust me i know a lot about being unhinged. sometimes a stupid ship will just possess you i get it. no judgement
Oh thank Hera my asks are working again
Thank you for being a decent human being about this, I'm having a bad day and got kinda pissed at u for no real reason.
To answer your question, yeah the Harry Potter series isn't the best story or character or... anything wise really, but just the sheer volume of possibilities with the world building is so huge, and considering the number of named characters we know nothing about, its a breeding ground for the fandom to absolutely nuts and make a bunch of shit up and express ourselves and whatever.
Idk I'm rambling now ok byeeeee
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things about homestuck i have discovered in my reread
terezi is my favourite character and will always be
caliborn is fucking HILARIOUS jesus christ somehow i forgot this (he hasnt got to the misogyny yet that part gets kind of less funny)
dave and karkat kind of ARE that good, regrettably. i feel like we all go through a davekat phase upon first reading and then gradually we get over dave and karkat and move onto other, better pursuits, like vrisrezi fanfiction or space player meta. rereading tho man they are excellent… not the most compelling characters of COURSE and really more like babys first analysis in terms of dissecting them, but man they are funny, man their emotional arcs are vivid and well written, man they are hilarious together also (penis ouija. yeah that was funny). coming out as a dave and karkat fan once again
homestuck in general but especially the start of act 6 is INCREDIBLY funny. for some reason i thought act 6 was less funny and more like plot-heavy which i guess it kind of us to an extent cause most of it is now Relevant all the time but oh my god the alpha kids are a trainwreck and its so funny
on the subject of the alpha kids. last time i properly read homestuck i was like 14. i had never experienced being the same age of the alpha kids and now looking back its insane. that is LITERALLY what being 15/16 is like. the romantic chaos the constant miscommunication the way this group of best friends just somehow have so many fucking problems with each other??? and the COMPLEXES. my god
appreciating roxy more this time round than i ever did before she rubbed me a little the wrong way first read i think maybe bc everyone heralded her as like The Unproblematic Alpha Kid when like oh my god she is a fucking MESS but when looking at her through that lens shes fantastic
jade harley should be mean more often. every PASSWORD FUCKASS interaction was an absolute delight. man she should get more page time
vriska is indefensible when u first meet her its so hard explaining to people that shes like The Fucking Best when she spends most of her intro mocking the guy she paralysed for being paralysed. sadly, she still IS the fucking best.
did i mention terezi pyrope is my favourite character ever in anything
i still cant pay attention to anything exile related i'm sorry. i just look at the pretty pictures and skip through it quickly as possible. if they dont have complex psychology and fun conversations idc sorry im a bad hs fan
calliope is both a delight and so wrong like all of the time. reading her i see where all the fandom misconceptions come from. ur not meant to take her word as 100% serious when she says stuff like male/female classes or whatever!! she sees everything through this incredibly binary 2 choice lens like caliborn bc thats literally the life she lives. this is also extra funny i guess considering shes literally kind of meant to represent the hs fandom
LIL HAL <33333333
sorry that so much of this is about the alpha kids im part way into act 6 now
dirkjake so far have not had a single interaction and iirc they never do??? fascinating storytelling since we still have a perfect picture of their dynamic
terezi is characteristically being stupid about vriska again, because she is complicatedly and unwittingly in love with her
DAVEREZI FOR THE FUCKING WIN MY GOD. THEYD NEVER WORK ENDGAME BUT THEY ARE SO FUNNY TOGETHER LITERALLY BFFS. no romance tho just vibes
does rose get confirmed as a lesbian later in the text or is that just a fandom interpretation cause ngl i have seen people harassed over bi rose which is kinda crazy anyway but would be even crazier if its not. an actual canon fact
LE SIGN IS UNIVERSALLY ACKNOWLEDGED TO MEAN TOO BAD HES GAY YOU OBTUSE DUNDERFUCK from roxy compared to poor dirk calling the word gay antediluvian. man just wants to like jake in peace
honestly everything alpha kid wise is insane lets just. put it there
I MISS VRISKA
terezi is my favourite also have i said that already
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(this is copied from a thread i posted on twitter, hence the vernacular LMAO - a take on fandom discourse from someone who is probably an idiot for posting so be warned)
i try not to speak up about this because of how volatile all the threads involved in c! discourse seems to be but man
everyone likes characters in a narrative they created. there is so much content and so much going on in each viewer’s head that a unanimous interpretation or ‘true’ narrative just doesn’t exist. whether people watch animatics, the original streams, interact with fanart/writing or simply read the events- regardless of what ccs they watch- there is ALWAYS going to be a difference in interpretation that can vary from minute to massive! nobody can constantly consider everything a character has done. the info will fall out of your head, and you won’t realize it! you’ll fill it in with your own perspective! it happens to everyone and it is not a bad thing!
i genuinely worry about getting myself into pqrt territory saying this because this exact thing is my reason to just be and let be, but sometimes it’s ok to let people live with their narratives that contradict your own, regardless of whether one adheres more to ‘canon’ or cc stated information. i am biased towards c!wilbur, probably because i like the cc’s content so much, and i am content to think of dream as a true villain without much interest to look at his full story, and fill in the gaps with stuff that fits my view. that doesn’t mean i think c!dream apologists are bad people or that they condone the behaviour i see c!dream as having! they do the exact same thing i do, and if they want to consume dsmp content thru that lens i dont have any right to come up to them and tell them otherwise.
i’ve been posting for a week but lurking for a year, and ive seen a saddening amount of threads where people share takes and analysis that is meant to stay within their narrative circle (i.e c!wilbur/c!quackity/c!dream apologists or fans) and are attacked with ‘objective’ or subjective fact (objectivity barely exists here, it’s ok to reject canon) from people who are not the target of that analysis. let people talk about their narratives and how they perceive the story, it takes more energy to fight rather than let others be. block people, it’s easy! but coming into someone’s thread angry because their analysis doesn’t fit ‘canon’ is more a show of your character than a productive way of ‘guiding’ others, which is inherently unnecessary within a fandom as broad as this. bias is fine. ignoring parts of canon to create a narrative you prefer for the cc you like is fine!
i know that me saying this inherently contradicts with the belief that nobody should be a fandom authority, why listen to some random person .etc .etc, and i’m genuinely sorry if this upsets you or feels targeted because that was not my intent!
i haven’t even been on twt for a few days aha, honestly that was the catalyst for thinking about this. ive been censoring my own takes on characters because i *know* i have extreme bias and like to twist canon to fit narratives i like, but i am incredibly worried people will take that as me insinuating that is ‘fact’ rather than my personal experience and takeaway if i speak publicly about it. so hopefully having this up will give me something easy to qrt when and if i get into arguments?
peace to all of u, controversial character lovers and haters and everyone in between, go love ur funny block people, the only thing anyone should care about is whether you enjoy it :)
thanks for reading!
#tham talks#this is long as hell do i have to manually mark a long post oh no#idk how to use tumblr#dsmp#dsmp discussion#dsmp discourse#i am inviting hell into my house by adding tags#but i wanna start sharing my lore opinions so i may as well speedrun backlash
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hi hi congrats on 300 followers!!! (Imo you deserve a million but i mean everyone starts somewhere)
This ask is for the 300 follower special!!
personality :: for this part I'll put good and bad personality traits that I have
Good// I've been told that in general I'm a really nice person and that I care a lot for others,,which i do,, I'm very protective over people that I care about and love,, and will not hesitate to throw hands with somebody who disrespects them,, even if I clearly can't win in a fight,, I'm very open to people that I care about,, and I share a lot with them,, I always try to be there for people,, whether they're a good friend or not
Bad// I've also been told that I'm really gullible and will believe just about anything anyone says,, which is also true,, I tend to let myself be used as a doormat for other people,, I'm also a really needy / clingy person,, another thing is that I'm really touchy person,, not sure if that's a good or a bad thing but I put it here anyways,, especially to people I love I always feel the need to be around them and or touching them in some way,, not in the weird kind of way but touching them like holding their hand,having a hand on their shoulder, Etc,, one last thing is that im really quick to trust people,, it has faded over the years with lots of people coming and going,, but even so I am really quick to trust people
For likes and dislikes,, im not sure if you mean 'what i like in a person' or 'things you like in general', but im assuming you mean things in general
likes :: rainy days,, especially when its dark outside,, reading books about things that interest me,, binging movies/tv shows,, playing video games,, talking to my best friend for hours about literally nothing,,the smell of diesel fuel- (im not joking),,watching youtube,,drawing,,the smell of new alcohol markers,, reading tf x reader fics,,hugs,, and cuddles <3
dislikes :: when someone leaves the faucet water purifier on,, being disrupted when im focused on something,, people talking when im trying to focus,, losing my concentration,, when someone takes wayy to long to respond,, people judging me for how i look and the things I like,, not being able to be myself,,yelling,,and when someone is mean to me or my loved ones
fandom :: Transformers!! Either tfp or bayverse u can pick:)
any sort of gender preference :: male please!! Thank you:))
Also just some facts that might help: i wear glasses that always slide down my nose,, i almost never wear shoes in the house,, and i have a big bumblebee plush from g1 that i always carry with me :)
tysm !! 🥹🥹 im slowly gaining some <33 but hopefully ill reach my next goal ,, 500 followers 😎😎 also i wear glasses too but they slide down too 😭😭 i dont wear them unless im watching smt on tv tho 💀💀 i just cant see too far away ,, heres your matchup thoo !! tysm for being a follower of mine and supporting my content 🥹❤️🙏 i went with tfp with this as well :D also i do like the smell of gasoline too 💀💀 ion know why but i do ,, not that i actively participate in smelling it 💀😭
𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐃 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 :
- ratchet
- breakdown
𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐋𝐔𝐃𝐄𝐒 :
- ratchet
• whilst ratchet comes off as disinterested or grumpy most the times ,, he does have a slight interest towards you
• he does like that you care a lot for everyone at base ,, but he doesnt say anything about it
• occasionally he’ll spare you a genuine smile or two ,, not much for pda but in private moments he doesnt mind your hands all over him
• he’ll let you set on his shoulder or rest against his helm if it makes you feel better <3
• he doesnt play video games ,, but he can agree that he does love rainy days on earth ,, the soft raindrops bring him comfort and peace
• he can also relate to the losing concentration part 💀 he cant stand it
- breakdown
• hes more loud then ratchet is and more energetic then the old medic
• but it isnt much of a bad thing ,, he does tone it down when hes around you ,, taking notice of your dislike towards yelling
• he’ll definitely play games with you in his mass displaced form tho :D !!
• and for rainy days ,, he’ll take you on drives so you can experience it ,, he’ll drive slow and smooth ,, play soft music and just enjoy both of your guys’ comfort
• he will also binge movies with you ,, he is interested in what you humans come up with for entertainment anyways
• he doesnt mind touching either ,, he really loves it 🥹 he loves your affection a lot <33 so you dont gotta worry about that
𝐒𝐂𝐄𝐍𝐀𝐑𝐈𝐎 :
soft rain pattered against the window ,, rolling down and away from your view. the sky was a dark grey ,, the sun nowhere to be seen. warm air blew through breakdown’s ventilation ,, keeping you cozy in his alt mode as he drove slowly down the empty road.
he found out that you had enjoyed the rain ,, and soon grew to understand why. he even had a special place in his spark for the weather on earth. even if he wasnt much a fan of the cold or super hot days ,, he didnt mind the rainy weather. not only didnit provide a nice free shower but also time with you.
soft melodies played out his radio ,, strolling down the black road and going who knows where. the scenery was calm and peaceful ,, the moment you two shared would definitely be cherished.
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Hey! Your Laptop looks so cool!I love it. The stickers are awesome. Aw I get that anxiety feeling. I always feel that way, when I have to go to the office after working from home several weeks in a row. Ugh. But I'm glad you overall enjoyed your day! Yessss aot is amazing but I can't watch it all the time because I have a hard time coping that Levi isn't real. Thats why I prefer to read about him. Speaking of: I know I sent in a few hc I hope that was ok? Tell me if I'm being annoying! <3
dijvfiodvjiofj thank youuuuuu AH I FEEL EVEN MORE PROUD OF THEM NOW HEHE
it's been a lottttt worse than anxiety and so much to put up with. im so shitty at responding to stress (which is why im so chronically into fandom and fic LOL) but i know it'll get better when i adjust. healthy coping mechanisms help a lot. and plus i have a pop it fidget toy so thats instrumental in my peace of mind too
i go feral when i rewatch aot. im not (will never be) emotionally prepared to rewatch RtS but honestly an ugly sob session can be healthy. im rewatching it rn actually w some discord friends :33
noooo not you pls dont worry. the spam i was referring to was many asks within a few minutes of each other and maybe it's a nitpick boundary, but it's still a boundary and i hope ppl respect it. the repeated requests/asks/questions (again within minutes of each other) are stressful to me.
ive responded to all of yours actually!!! just havent been posted yet hehe. i recognize u every time u send smth in since we interact a lot so dw<3
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I don't understand why so many people send hate for Asagiri sensei did Dazai's pov about his orange stocks. Like what make them offended? It just a funny joke between he and Oda actors.
At first many people love it and some even make fanarts about that. And now the Asagiri comments full of hating and really means cmt. All their reasons are very weird.
"He can't do Dazai's pov, he destroy Dazai's personally, or his character, he don't know anything, he said that stocks is disgusting...."
But the point here, if someone could do Dazai's pov the best, that much be Asagiri sensei right, because he is the one create Dazai, give him personal and characteristics, right? And what's problem he say his own stocks is disgusting? Like he is his stocks :')
Idk, i too tired to argue with those toxic fana
Don’t argue with them.
I went and checked. The comments are so rude and some of the haters say that it’s an insult towards Chuuya? Is it because he mentioned “black hattifatteners on orange socks”? If so then I think they’re pretty delusional.
Maybe some people are offended about the way he pretended to be Dazai? It’s been stated a million times in bsd that all the characters have nothing to do with the actual author or actual events. So I don’t see a problem with him trying to make a harmless joke from a character’s pov (whether he did a good job or not).
But haters are gonna hate. Let them be. It’s no use to argue with them. Let’s just continue to enjoy what we love. I hope the haters find better things to do with their life.
I will put a rough translation of the tweets here for more context. You can interpret it however you want, but don’t say anything if you don’t have anything nice to say.
Asagiri: I heard that “if you wear cool clothes with some lame socks, you will look fashionable overall” so I immediately gave it a try. In the end, I couldn’t gather enough cool clothes so I only pulled off the lameness of the socks.
Taniguchi Masashi (Oda’s stage actor): This is somewhat beautiful. (This is a popular Oda’s quote in the novel)
Asagiri: “Ahhahahaha!! Look at this Odasaku! These orange socks have so many black Moomin’s hattifattener patterns printed on it! Everyone is looking over here! Ahahaha they’re so gross, right, Odasaku? Hey hey look, Odasaku!!!”
Taniguchi Masashi: I see.
In case anyone is wondering, the hattifatteners look like this. They are characters in the Moomin’s book.
#ask#bsd#you will have more peace in this fandom if u dont look at it much#the amount of toxic people are incredible
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hello!! I love your writing, the soft vibes are exactly what this fandom needs after seeing all the horrific shit that's happened in the recent chapters. I saw your requests are open so may I ask for a gun x reader where they're just relaxing together? maybe a teeny tiny bit suggestive?? no pressure though, I know he can be difficult to characterize. thank you and have a good day <33
nighttime (gun park x reader)
details: oneshot, gender neutral reader but written in 2nd pov, general canon au, you and gun have been dating for a while already, i guess you both live in a house together ?? idk dont think too hard about it its only briefly mentioned in beginning
warnings: suggestive; sorry i think i went over mild because the ending has a heavy implication of how the night ended 🙏
summary: gun gets a day off tomorrow and tells you about it. also, he spends the night with you.
a/n: thank u for the request!! and sjdhshd im glad my writing's helping u cope(?) 😭😭 ngl im not caught up on latest ch since i read from webtoon only but ive seen some vague spoilers and yeah things arent looking too good 💔 especially gun's fashion LMAO
i'd agree gun is a bit difficult to characterize;; for me tho i just try to follow canon him but like... slightly more normal ??? i hope it works for u/isnt too ooc in ur eyes so this oneshot can still be enjoyable !! also i hope u have a good day too <33
btw shoutout to this post ; listening to the song they associated with gun helped me write this ^_^
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Gun was more than happy to return home to you with the good news that he had no work for tomorrow. And once he told you, he was pleased to see your shared excitement.
"We should plan a date for tomorrow," he suggested, "What would you like to do?"
He listened intently as you described the activities you had in mind. Whether they were staying at home all day or venturing off into the city, he didn't care as long as it was quality time spent with you. He couldn't wait to devote himself fully to you tomorrow, but for now he had other ideas.
Before he could say anything, you lead him right to it by asking, "What about you? Anything you want to do tomorrow?"
"No, your plans sound just fine. But, I was thinking that for tonight we do what I had planned ever since I got the news that I'm having tomorrow off."
"And that would be...?"
Gun held up a keyring with his car keys, dangling them. "A late night drive around sound good to you?"
"Why not?" His smile reflected yours as he began to lead you out of the house.
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Dirving around Seoul and seeing all the night lights was beautiful. The hushed bustling compared to the loudness during the day was also refreshing. Not to mention, the general dark blanket that came with nighttime--it was all relaxing to Gun, and even more so with you by his side.
Not much talking happened throughout the ride, but it wasn't awkward at all. Just a peaceful silence as you both enjoyed the cool air that breezed through the open windows of the car. Of course, the occasional conversations did take place but they were more like lighthearted smalltalk if anything.
While driving, Gun didn't have a fixed destination in mind, but when his random turns lead you both to a quieter part of Seoul, he slowed down and looked for a place to park. It ended up being the parking lot of some abandoned store, or at least it looked like it.
"Late night drive over?" You turned to him as he finished up parking.
He nodded. "Let's stargaze."
"On what grass? I'm not laying on the asphalt floor," you semi-joked, looking around at the street.
Gun just rolled his eyes in amusement. "Who said we're even leaving the car?" He got up with a bent back as to not bump his head on the car's roof before stepping over the car's controls. He then sat down on the second row seats and reached an arm up, grabbing a handle on the roof and pulling it back to reveal a glass roof.
Your jaw dropped momentarily.
"Come on." He waved you over and watched as you moved from your seat to join him in the second row. Once you did, he adjusted the seats so they laid parallel to the floor and you both flopped down at the same time. The two of you glanced at each other for a moment before softly laughing together.
After that came more peaceful silence as you both stared up at the stars. At some point, Gun moved his attention from the sky to you, and he was reminded of another reason why he preferred nighttime over daytime--it was the way moonlight shined on you, the way it added a special charm that highlighted your features.
"I want to show them my appreciation," he thought, hands suddenly aching to touch you. If he wasn't showing you love through gifts, it was definitely through his touch. He figured he might as well express the latter since there were no gifts around to give. Plus he was going to be free tomorrow anyway, why not stay up a little later with his lover?
Gun turned to lay on his side and put an arm over your abdomen, hand resting on your hip. "Hey."
"Mm?" You didn't turn to look at him, too busy admiring the stars. Not for long though, because the words he whispered in your ear made you jerk your head his direction and made your cheeks hotter than the sun. "Gun, we're in public," you practically hissed.
"This is a pretty secluded area. And I don't see anyone around. Do you?" He smirked when you couldn't reply. It only widened when you didn't stop him from sliding his hand up your shirt. "I need your vocal consent before I continue, dear."
Your breath hitched, and slowly you murmured, "By all means, Gun."
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Nighttime sure was alluring to Gun, but not as much as you.
#lookism x reader#gun park x reader#gun park#oh my god i hope the car scene makes sense i was fighting for my life trying to describe it#anyways my queued up post of gun x reader with a mildly suggestive thing and then i have this request 😭#i dont mind it at all ofc but its just funny that i have 2 gun writings and both are mildly suggestive#i get it tho hes very attractive 😳#btw i hope u enjoyed my other gun writing <3#jkbubs#requests
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Yall i just found out about this things and these pretty much explains the toxicity in genshin fandom:
So y'all know Diluc's eng va right, he rarely appears on anything (he also doesnt participate where genshin eng VAs play among us), he's not that active on any social medias and here is why:
So i heard that he ever retweet an art, it has kaeya dan diluc fighting and ppl started attacking him calling him "dirty" "disgusting" for shipping kaeluc. And it sucks because the art doesnt have any kaeluc in it, its both of them fighting what is so romantic abt it? And thats why diluc's eng va just peace out from the genshin fandom (i mean i would to) literally twitter is a shithole man. (Me myself ofc doesnt ship kaeluc, u can see from my previous post with the ship diagram thing, but pls dont go overboard and attack an innocent person)
Zhongguang (zhongli x ningguang) (my otp ship ;)) well i also have something to address. Even though i hate twitter, i sometimes go there so i can like my friend's art. But i came across a zhongguang photo which im not complaining of course, and when i take a look in the comments, man i hate it there. Ppl start attacking the user, and also started saying "sorry but Beigguang/Chili is more superior" like bitch shut up, its about zhongguang here, u can comment somewhere else but pls just leave us alone. And yall just defending urself "well i'm just stating my opinion", its not, its rude and there is a difference between stating an opinion and being hella rude or even insulting.
Okay so now that u know the diluc's eng va situation, well now the same thing is happening to Griffin (Childe's eng va) because he tweets chilumi prints , and he received a lot of hate. Ppl start calling him a "pedophile" for shipping chilumi LIKE GOD HERE WE GO AGAIN HOW MANY TIMES DO WE HAVE TO SAY THAT LUMINE DOESNT HAVE A CANON AGE AND she is prolly OLDER THAN CHILDE. Yall be complaining if Griffin happens to leave the genshin fandom like yall do with diluc.
Its funny how its people being toxic just because of a game that has no canon ships. Like ppl be hating on Chilumi or Zhongguang when theres Childe x Teucer, Barbara x Jean, Aether x Lumine chilling around.
This is why i dont really associate with ANY fandoms, except horror game fandoms (ppl there is just so smart with all the theories especially Little Nightmares! Its so nice there)
Well if u made it here , thank you so much for ur time lmao.
#genshin#chilumi#genshin rant#genshin ships#genshin impact#genshin fandom#childe#zhongli#ningguang#zhongguang#lumine#lumine x tartaglia#genshin impact x reader
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head’s still full of Mother EarthBound Thoughts so im gonna spill some here. (warning this’ll be super messy and also contain big honkin’ spoilers for all three games)
for context i played and beat EarthBound after it came out on Wii U, then Mother 3 in 2015. i tried Mother 1/Beginnings at some point, but sadly my immunity to Old Game Jank doesn’t extend past the mid-90's. im a relatively young Mom Fan is what im trying to say here
i havent seen anyone here talk about the vid they put out for the Switch ports?? pls watch it its so cute and in-line with the games’ humor! lets all get to know Ness!!
im still watching Curiomatic’s Mother 3 vid daily and im still noticing new details and shit. and their website's so good too?? felt!Boney has my whole heart
my brain's been on fire imagining how the other two games would look in the same style. and like. it feels criminal to ask so soon after 1 and 2 got Switch ports, but a full 3-games-in-1 remake would be so good for the series for two big reasons:
1. it could fix 1/Beginnings' Jank and tighten its translation, bringing it in line with the other two, and
2. its the one situation i can think of that would force Nintendo to localize 3. like can you imagine if they remade the whole series and then left it in Japan?? people would have their heads!
not to mention a game with a modern 3D engine would be leagues easier to edit than the sprite-based original. cus while im scared of NoA over-censoring the game as much as the next guy, there are a few things in it that could’ve been done more sensitively, and that altering wouldn’t harm the plot if done right. i doubt i need to name specifics
also on the selfish side, i just wanna know what would change in terms of visual design. i wanna see all the enemies move in battle and Pippi with beady eyes like everyone else and how they’d officially differentiate Ninten’s design from Ness’s, and most of all i REALLY wanna see official art of Beginnings!Giygas. i wish to grasp his true form so bad it makes me look stupid
not that i dont like the fandom’s agreed-on designs!! far from it, i love them!! like Giygas having red-and-black eyes as foreshadowing is genius and whoever first came up with it deserves an award
i made a party playlist in case 3 ever got localized back when i was more hopeful about it. how far back, you may ask? i included this unironically. that far lmao
one of my fave things about the series is how, despite being made in Japan, it pays homage to so many distinctly Western pop-cultural concepts that it’s instantly nostalgic to the average English-speaker. the Spielbergian coming-of-age film, the dot-eyed yet contemplative comic strip, the kitschy B-movie monsters, the King-esque entities conveying the loss of innocence, the pairing of psychedelia with an insistence on peace over war. for a funny parody of America, it’s fascinating how right it feels at the emotional level.
speaking of psychedelia, i wanna plug this amazing prog rock cover album that deserves more love. like holy shit, youd think this is how some of these songs were always meant to be played. ive never had a drug trip cus im terrified of messing up set and setting, but to have my first while hearing this played live would probably feel beautiful
speaking of more psychedelia, last month i thought Polka Dot Tail by Ween sounded super familiar, and i just realized why: it sounds like Magicant (the second one). i might try to make a mashup later idk
ive been meaning to watch a vlog of Camp Fangamer’s EarthBound Bash 2015 for years and this week i finally did it! shit looked like so much fun, and i cant think of another game series that’d make for such an immersive event. i could only find one extended video of the Mother 3 bash they did a year later, but it seems like an equally transformative event, if not more despite Lucas being a mannequin
listen....i know people have done the math and ruled it out as a possibility....but i still really like the idea of Ninten and Ana being Ness’s parents. i just think its cute and neat and also opens up some opportunities for angst (something something the fear of your kids inheriting your personal battles)
bonus points for Lloyd being Dr. Andonuts cus i think itd be funny if he was the only character to appear in all three games
while im here confessing my fan sins, lemme add that i treat Smash Bros as canon cus it gave the world such gems as Ness’s eyes being purple and Boney having leg warmer fur
man i remember first seeing Porky in Subspace and thinking he was trapped in the spider-mech thing and i had to free him.... ah, the innocence of youth
removing Lucas from Sm4sh was a bitch move but the trailer when they put him back was honestly SO worth it. like him returning Ness’s favor from Subspace?? everyone noticing he smiled more and being so proud of him?? that was the best day of my life
speaking of bitch moves im still confused by how u get Claus, Hinawa and the Masked Man’s spirits in World of Light. like what the fuck did Nintendo mean by that shit. their placement and the fights themselves are such a specific gut-punch that its hilarious. killing two gods wont bring Claus back
but also its...nice to think that Lucas got a chance to see them again. like maybe one of the other fighters who knew his deal freed them and brought them to him, and everyone let them have a moment before they fought Galeem and Dharkon. imagine Claus being all “told ya we’d meet again someday :’) let’s go beat up that angel thing together!”
also cus Smash made me so used to it, i refer to all PSI moves as PK. even the ones that are PSI in both languages, like Magnet. PK Sue me
so like... im a twin. my sister and i love each other more than anything. we played 3 together, and quickly agreed that i was the Lucas to her Claus. what happens between them in the game is my absolute worst fear. ive had nightmares since childhood with the same basic theme -- losing her to a decision i can't sway her from -- so the final boss and the "hasty brother" line after gutted us. when youre literally linked from birth, it's hard to imagine life without, and even harder to prepare for the possibility. this game forced us to do so, and it hurt like hell, but it strengthened our bond in the process.
theres already a hundred essays about it but i love how 3′s ending manages to reflect every player’s wishes. everyone’s got their own idea of what Lucas wished for, so here’s mine:
the entire planet was purified and made habitable again
all the Chimeras were split into their original animals (but some of them chose to be friends still, so there’s at least one kangaroo and one shark that hang out often)
everyone that Porky abducted from other time periods were sent back with their memories intact (so Dr. Andonuts gets to be with Jeff again and is also less likely to be employed by another asshat)
im one of those people who thinks Lucas didn’t revive anyone who died, because it doesn’t feel right after the characters spent three years coping with it. (all the power to people who disagree tho, it’s all cool!) instead, i think he wished for a new place to honor everyone they lost, resulting in a beautiful new cemetery hidden in the sunflower field outside Tazmily. strangely, it contains lots of gravestones that no one recognizes; one with a haiku written on it, ten crosses lined up in two rows of five, even one the size of a bug; and at the very back, a swirling metal statue engraved in an alien language, lying between two stones marked “XX”.
and finally, i think Lucas wished to meet whatever force was looking after his world all this time, so he could thank them personally... and thats how you, the player, ended up in the game :)
im still utterly charmed by the image of the player, struck blind from being pulled into another world, being lead by the hand (and pokes in the back) to meet Lucas,,, like its okay sweetie you can say goodbye as many times as you need, im so goddamn proud of you!!! ill see you in Smash okay???
i think thats everything i wanna say? uhhh heres a fanmix i made six years ago
#earthbound#mother 3#mother#earthbound beginnings#mother 2#mother 1#earthbound zero#super smash bros#super smash bros.#earthbound spoilers#mother 1 spoilers#earthbound beginnings spoilers#mother 3 spoilers#me talking#ness#lucas#ssb#mom#headcanons#long#drug mention tw#drugs mention tw#drugs tw#psychedelic drugs tw
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hiiii haaiii i follow u on twt aswell and i saw ur posts both on here and over there - i hope im not overstepping coz we obv dont know each other lmfao , but i just feel like i have to say Smth to you because i Get what you mean, like i GET it . ppl will say shit like "life is so much more than material interests and stupid internet shit and fandoms online go touch grass" or whatev but FUCK man when ur mentally ill and jsut trying to get through the fucking week it's the most utterly soul crushing feeling to Not have something to fall on when the going gets really rough. and i feel like those feelings are only elevated when ur an artist bc it adds this extra layer of like. feeling as though you Need to fit into certain categories so that you can gain traction/become part of the "popular cool people circle," and at least have Some sense of , security ig ? that you can at Least come home and have That . n when you can feel it slipping away or when it already has it's such a GODawful feeling it's so so empty and devoid of anything other than despair, and i GET IT . i unfortunately dont have much advice, i am finding myself in a similar sitch rn and it blows fucking Chunks . i just felt like i Needed to tell u that i hear u , coz i see u on my tl all the time, u make me laugh, i always look forward to your drawings, ur acc is one of the first ones that pops up in the twt search bar coz i check everyday to see if u have anything new . artist to artist , im so sincerely and truly wishing you luck and light and peace and love on this bitch of an earth !!!!!!!!!!!!! <3333 (sry for any annoying typos im hgihg as fuck happy420 too
sorry it took me a bit to answer this i was Also incredibly high and it was hard for me to collect my thoughts but omg! i mean this as a compliment but i really did burst into tears reading it. ive been trying to understand my feelings about all of this and it always ends up in me beating myself up over it but i think youve managed to describe the feeling in a way that isnt? negative? i suppose? even now im struggling to really portray my thankfulness so i just hope its coming across. thank you, genuinely ! i hope the best for you and i really appreciate your words !
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but arent u dissapointed for EM conclusion? u yourself believed eren would survive and then he just didn't. what saddens me the most is that he really could live. there was a way for that to happen (u believed it yourself). it hurts even more that some characters got almost disney ending meanwhile EM (main characters) got the saddest ending from all. i think they deserved better after all the sh*t they went through. their ending was cruel, but to me not really much beautiful. one is dead and the other one is alone without any alive family member. yes, maybe mikasa will be able to open her heart to someone else, but she could never love anyone as much as she did eren, lets be honest here. if yams really wanted to kill eren i think he could at least wrap EM conclusion better. the last time they physically talked to each other was when E said to M that he hated her. they could at least talk to each other before decapitation, or maybe after decapitation in paths - tell everything to each other, say a proper goodbye (maybe a hug? kiss?) and then eren dies. now when we know that mikasa really killed eren in 138, we cant even 100% say whether eren knew she kissed him.. this ending yams gave them to me doesnt seem satisfactory. if eren really had to die i think they deserved at least a proper confrontation and a goodbye. but i still think they deserved to live together. overall i dont mind the ending, but i dont like the ending EM was given. :(
Hi! Let me state my view.
I genuinely wanted Eren to survive and get a positive conclusion with Mikasa. I really did and I believed it. But I never let it blind me and think that what I want must happen (as many people in our fandom wanted their “endings” to be true).
To be honest, as much as I love EM and was sad over the fact that they couldn’t get together, I looked at the story from writer’s perspective rather than reader’s.
Yes, EM’s happy ending would be great and we wouldn’t grieve over it as we do now, but on the other side, Eren’s survival would be full of controversies both in AoT’s world and real life. I think people somehow degraded Eren’s role to just being a shipping tool in ship wars without actually taking into account what kind of person Eren is as a character.
He is very contradictory and controversial. Eren is a maximalist and a literal adult child that didn’t quite change from what we have seen from his first appearance in the story. Even Eren himself said that he was always like this, a boy who desperately sought freedom that doesn’t even exist on practice.
Eren was never actually free in a sense that he himself described it. He was a slave to his fate, circumstances and personal ideas. Eren couldn’t look beyond his ideas, but at the same time, he would scrap them for his personal happiness even if it was temporary.
Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying that Eren was a bad person and he deserved to die like this, but that’s simply who his character was, a person full of tragedy. Eren couldn’t live in the present and enjoy his time with his friends and Mikasa. He literally lived in the past and future. Even if Eren actually survived, I personally doubt that he could be as happy as we imagine him to be. Eren had a strong sense of conscience and responsibility.
He never wanted any of this to happen, but he still went for it, because...That’s what Ymir, Eren himself and his fate wanted. As long as Eren was alive, he couldn’t escape the burden of responsibilities and decisions. Even in ch.138, Eren was still conflicted if he did the right thing by eloping with Mikasa.
Yeah, he probably could live under a fake identity or permanently isolate himself from society and live with Mikasa for he rest of his days, but it would be still nuanced, because his character itself is very flawed and nuanced.
Undoubtedly, Eren and Mikasa deserved their happily ever after, but the world they live in still wouldn’t be merciful on them.
Other characters got their own endings, but I personally wouldn’t call them “Disney endings”. Armin, Annie, Pieck, Reiner, Connie and Jean will need to directly face the consequences of rumbling and deal with all the mess Eren has left behind. Historia’s ending is close to “Disney ending”, but she also will need to deal with everything.
Levi deserved to have a peaceful life after everything he saw. Falco and Gabi had to have a normal childhood/teenage years after being child soldiers.
Mikasa got a tragic ending, but I would say...her ending is still full of mystery and I feel like there’s something that yet has to be revealed by Isayama himself. All in all, I think everyone got pretty much open and ambiguous endings.
However, what makes me positive is that no matter where they are, Eren and Mikasa are tied by the red string of fate and their love for each other isn’t bounded to specific place, time of dimension.
After all, it wasn’t a permanent goodbye. Mikasa still smiled and said “See you later”. The bird came to wrap the scarf, which means that Eren’s spirit isn’t dead.
They will definitely meet again someday and their reunion will be beautiful.
Note: extra EM CD drama will come.
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As I am nothing if not an indulgent soul, Hammerhunter and by all means switch fanfic specific with fandom generally
bless ur soul feather
001 | send me a ship and I will tell you:
when I started shipping it if I did:
when i first watched trollhunters! i think i shipped them before jlaire grew on me, i also think i hallucinated fanart of them before i watched it so i thought "oh so these are the characters people ship! yeah they seem cute" and then i found out no such art exists and that hammerhunter is almost like a rarepeair and all I'm left with is brainrot SKHBHFHGGHDD. i should draw that nonexistent fanart sometime
my thoughts:
fjsfdsjhfdhf aaawafjhdfbg i love them so much,,, i don't know why but this ship is something that makes me feel so genuinely happy and comforted,,, i think one of my favourite relationships portrayed in media is just like,, the kind where people that have known each other for a long time and are comfortable w each other and know each other inside out
i honestly dont know if i like them romantically or platonically more, or if i can define how i view the kind of relationship they have. like for me personally its,, something that isnt a best friend/sibling dynamic, but not necessarily romantic either, tho i rly like romantic interactions too but also its just a rly strong platonic kinda blond...maybe a qpr?? idk akahsjshdd im confused too okay all i know is that they make me super happy akahsjshd. maybe think like. sam n frodo. whatever those two had going on KDJSJSJ
as u can tell i dont have the words so art is the next thing i go to. i try to leave it up to interpretation when i share my draws
What makes me happy about them:
i dont know,, theyre just really sweet especially in the first season, their friendship made me cry and i wish wish wish we had more of that,, i just love how well they know and support each other
What makes me sad about them:
i feel like their friendship kinda got lesser and lesser from mid season 1 onwards, i wish it was addressed better
also rott ofc haha that scene makes me cry like a lot. its so raw and emotional and tender which was honestly something we were missing a lot through the series, but the circumstance is just so painful so augh...
things done in fanfic fandom that annoys me:
naw i dont think anything annoys me
things I look for in fanfic:
i dont read much fanfic as u know, but man im just in need of a hammerhunter centric fic (preferably more in line w canon stuffs) with trans!jim too, which is hard to find with this fandom size
as for fandom stuff in general, i think more of jim supporting toby is needed, i need to do more of it too
Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other:
jlaire and darby are VERY VERY GOOD!!!!!!! i love them very much head full of those ships too!!!!
My happily ever after for them:
not rott DFJGDF
i just want them to be able to hang out a lot and vibe in peace
who is the big spoon/little spoon:
both
what is their favorite activity:
toby infodumping about rocks and jim listening intently admiring his best friend's special interest with heart eyes <3
ask me stuffs from this meme here!!
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Wait wait so your thing says request are still close but where u wrote something for someone it said request open so hmm idk ;-;. But just in case there open how about I request a mother MC/father theo from ikemen vampire where theo takes care of there newborn baby for the day this is a weird request DONT kill me ;-;
Hey Anon! Sorry for the confusion and the long wait - and don’t worry, your request isn’t weird at all! But I may have strayed from the request just a teeny tiny bit though... for the most part I think I stuck to the original idea of Theo with his baby for a day.
I hope you enjoy and you can always come back and request again if this wasn’t what you wanted :)
Warning(s): Teeny tiny spoilers for Theo’s route (if you know who Vollard is you’re fine!), One (1) Dutch swear word
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A Newborn’s Smile {Theo x MC/Reader}
“Are you sure you’ll be alright Theo?” she asked her husband again, staring up into his calm ocean coloured orbs. Suppressing the urge to roll his eyes, Theo ruffles her hair with a playful smirk on his face.
“What? Think I can’t take care of our daughter?”
“N-no, but-” she began, an anxious look in her eyes. While she may have full confidence that he can handle a day with their child, it’s still going to be the first full day that he’ll be left alone with her.
“Listen Hondje, you go with Sebas and when you get back you’ll see that everything will be the same as you left. Now, no more senseless worrying, it’ll be fine!”
Ten minutes later and everything was, in fact, not fine.
“Now what’s with all this noise?” Dazai rose a brow, having just entered via the mansion’s window, as per usual. Mozart, who rarely ever sat at the table, sighed, taking a sip of his black coffee.
“The girl left with Sebastian to run errands. Theo’s taking care of their baby...” Another ear piercing cry filled the room and they all winced. While the sound was deafening to the ears, the twinge of pain that filled Theo’s chest hurt more. The fact that his pride and joy was crying her little heart out and he wasn’t sure what to do had him completely lost.
‘How does Hondje do it?’
“Theo old boy, you should take a page out of your wife’s book right about now...” Arthur chuckled while rubbing at his temple, the writer only somewhat enjoying the sight of his friend struggling to take care of his kid.
“What do you mean?”
“He means it’s lunch time, she’s probably hungry” Napoleon piped up, emerging from the kitchen with a pre-made bottle in hand. Passing it to the Dutch art dealer, Theo began to feed his daughter, the baby quieting as she drank. Sighs of relief left everyone at the peace they got...
..which was short lived, the little girl beginning to cry once more.
“Well, someone’s not a daddy’s girl~”
“Quiet klootzak!” the baby cried louder, “tch, I’m gonna go see Vincent, he was always good with kids...”
“Best of luck~” Tossing a final glare paired with a scowl at the Brit, the younger van Gogh made his way up to the painter’s room.
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“Afternoon Broer, sorry for barging in while you were painting...” Prompted by the sound of his brother’s voice, Vincent set down the brush he held, wiping off as much paint from his hands as possible while smiling.
“It’s alright Theo, I was finishing up anyway! But,” he frowned a little, gazing down with a troubled look at his niece, “you seem to be having a bit of trouble...”
“Yeah.. she’s been crying ever since this morning. Hondje was able to make her stop for the time being but then she left with Sebas and, well...”
“Mm... I see” Vincent hummed, trying to think of a way to help out his little brother.
“Ah! Why not show her the painting? Maybe if she sees it she’ll stop crying! It always worked when you were little!”
The idea was pure, innocent. It quite frankly made Theo embarrassed and for a split second he doubted that it’d really work. But, he reminded himself, Vincent is more experienced with kids than he is - plus, it didn't hurt to try.
“Fine...” stepping up to the coloured canvas, Theo angled his arms so that the little girl could catch a glimpse of the masterpiece. For some time nothing came of it as she continued to wail and Theo sighed, about to throw in the towel, claim that it was pointless and he’d just have to wait until his wife got home.
That was until the crying gradually got quieter and quieter before ceasing altogether.
The brothers stared in astonishment, watching as eyes that resembled the colour of a stormy sea stared in wonder at the painting of a vast ocean. Chubby little hands started to try and reach out to the picture, the little limps desperate to explore the new discovery more. And along with the newfound curiosity was a happy baby grin, a real one at that, and not just one of the usual reflex smiles.
It was truly a sight for sore eyes, a masterpiece that out does any other that the art dealer has seen before. If he’d had the ability to paint like his brother, Theo would’ve captured this moment in a heartbeat.
“Look Theo! She’s smiling! And she likes art just like you!” Vincent laughed joyfully, the smile contagious. At the same time the words spoken to him sparked Theo with an idea of his own.
“You’re a genius Broer! Dank je!”
“But I didn’t do anything- hey! Careful Theo!” Watching as his brother nearly raced out of his room, Vincent stared at the doorway, wondering what went through the other van Gogh’s mind to cause such a reaction.
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Vollard’s is where he took her. If his little girl enjoyed his brother’s artwork surely she’d be over the moon with wonder at seeing the bright colours of other young artist’s work.
Turns out, he was right.
Instead of the cries from this morning, squeals of delight and laughter filled the room. Thankfully, none of the people who were expressing their creativity cared, it was a small price to pay if they had the honor of seeing the renown art dealer in such an unguarded and calm state.
This was his element, art having been a large part of his life, and the fact that Theo got to experience something like this with his daughter (no matter how young she is) was nothing short of precious to him, a memory he’d treasure for as long as he lived.
When every nook and cranny of the art studio was explored, Theo went around to other Paris museums, showcasing as much fine art as he could. While the reactions weren’t as lively towards the standard religious paintings, the look of wonder and awe that mirrors his own still remained.
And as afternoon turned to evening, the streets bathed in an orange hue and his daughter having dozed off long ago, Theodorus van Gogh donned one of the softest smiles he’s had in either of his lives. While he gazed down at the sleeping girl the image of her smile from earlier in the day flashed through his mind. Oh how he wished his wife was there to witness it with him.
Theo placed a light kiss to the child’s forehead.
“Rest well mijn schatje...” he whispered, silently promising that for as long as he can, Theo will make sure that his daughter continues to smile as brightly as she did today. Vowing that he’ll protect her happiness from the dangers of the world and doing anything to make sure that the joyful expression on her face stays a constant in all stages of her life.
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*schatje can have the meaning of ‘little treasure’ (which is what I was going for in this)*
As of me posting this, requests are open [check my bio though to be sure]! Don’t forget to check the rules too for the fandoms/topics I write for (which are linked in my masterlist)!
Masterlist
#ikevamp theo#ikemen vampire#theo x reader#ikevam x reader#ikevam fanfic#ikevamp#ikevamp theo x reader#ikemen vampire theo#ikevam theo#ikevam theo x reader#ikemen vampire theo x reader#ikemen vampire theodorus#ikevamp theodorus
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this might ruin the nice mood we got going on but have you ever felt insecure ab your art? specially when looking at other people in fandom? it tends to happen to me quite a bit and i have no idea how to deal with it :p
lmao have u met me???
im a depressed 22 years old who’s dream was to work in art, be it animation or comics, but had to give up because art school was too much on my mental health, ruining my life plan at age 19.
ive been insecure about my art all my life. i think that most artists get insecure about their art (except dc artists. but u know SEJOEFSJOFSE) and in a way it’s good, because that’s how we get better, by being critical of our own stuff and seeking inspiration and going further.
i’m insecure with my art because in art school my teachers taught me that oh No i am actually bad (for their standards, for waht they were expecting), and ever since i left art school and it’s not my n°1 priority because now i have a full time job, i draw less, and i dont get better, dont push myself like i could before. every week i have a moment where i cant draw and i’m like. this is it. this is the last time im picking up a pen. i’ll never be able to draw again. i read once that we only had 10 years in our lives where we were at our best creativly, and even if it’s bullshit it’s always in my mind because im like. im passed it. im now going to be Bad forever.
my head’s been fucked over because i’m never going to be a professional, and even tho i’m starting to make my peace with it, i look at friends or people i follow who are in the art industry and i just feel so upset. i look at my art and at followers or like numbers and im like . oh no i don’t have the numbers then i dont matter, my art is Bad.
and it’s fucking stupid !!! every little thing i do makes me insecure about my art !!! and tbh i got better when i really started putting this as a Hobby, a thing i do on the weekends or evenings when i have the energy, and not as a goal. but i’m lucky, i caught attention and with it, validation. because that’s what’s important in my eyes when it comes to art insecurity. it’s because you dont get validations. yes it’s validation from strangers, but it’s validation nonetheless. and you know when i get like this i just !! hey !!! i got so much fucking better fuck you !!!! legit i’ll find you one of my first digital piece thats like from 2015 or something and wtf !!! i got so much better i’m getting so much further and im having fun ! i’m drawing things i like i’m discovering how to do things, and i’m doing it at my pace. and that’s waht important. fuck insecurity and comparing yourself to artists who have such different paths. what matters is your path and if you are happy.
it’s okay to step back when your hobby doesn’t make you happy. it’s okay to find other things to do. i used to only define myself by Oh im nostra, i draw. don’t do that. i discovered i was so much more than that, and so are you. dont let the insecurities eat you.
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