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bethanydelleman · 1 year

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Estimated Sexual Abilities of Austen Men

In no particular order within tier

Edits added in blue based on your reblogs and careful consideration

Top Tier:

Mr. Mainwaring: to have the near undying loyalty of the exceedingly selfish Lady Susan, this man must be a sex god

Henry Crawford: he knows he’s not handsome, he wants women to love him, he'd put in the work. Also one of the only men to be rated by a woman who has had sex before.

Henry Tilney: he cares about things women like, high emotional intelligence, and extremely kind.

Frederick Wentworth: passion and experience (I imagine), also has high emotional intelligence when he’s not being a dufus.

Colonel Brandon: passionate, thinks about other people’s feelings a lot, self-sacrificial

John Knightley: I think there’s a good reason that they keep banging out those kids

Admiral Croft: I cannot believe I left him off, obviously amazing in bed because he respects his wife as his equal and is very fun. You are telling me they spend all their time together and don't have amazing sex? No freaking way!

Good Tier:

William Price: athletic, cares about his sister a lot (good sign), and gives good presents. He’s only nineteen in the story which is why he has room to improve.

Captain Harville: Obviously

Mr. Morland: dude isn’t even on page, but in my head Mrs. Morland enjoyed making all ten of those children.

Colonel Fitzwilliam: I think he’d be good, but not awesome. He'll probably be wasted on a mercenary marriage.

Charles Bingley: I get the feeling he’d be on a race to the end, and maybe not the best communicator at first. Will improve.

Mr. Gardiner: Just because he’s awesome and seems to respect women

Captain Benwick: poetry and passion!

Robert Martin: seems like a pretty romantic guy, also works on a farm so probably athletic.

John Willoughby: Mostly because of experience, but he is also pretty passionate. He’s also super hot, Miss Grey knew what she was getting into. But this guy can only go downhill from here.

Reginald De Courcy: He’s a sweetheart, an occasionally dumb sweetheart

Mr. Bennet: Is he lazy in most domains of life? Yes. But Mrs. Bennet wasn’t just trying for that heir, I’m telling you folks. Maybe he's just trying to make her unable to talk 😉

George Knightley: Promoted to good tier, I do think he's very caring, but he also is always sure HE is right, which may be a problem.

John Yates: Maybe not the most selfless person, but he's got passion and he does love his wife. Probably very into roleplay.

Mediocre but can improve tier:

Fitzwilliam Darcy: he’s a bit stiff... I think it might take some time for him to get good at it (demoted to this tier because he will need time to improve)

Frank Churchill: He’s got passion, but he’s so darn selfish and doesn’t seem to send that much time thinking about Jane’s feelings

Edward Ferrars: I just see him being a nervous wreak the first few times, it’ll get better (Note: I think Lucy is way too smart to have had sex without a wedding date)

James Morland: Dude, I’m just disappointed with you in general. Being led by lust, not protecting your sister. I hope you grow a lot before you try to get engaged again.

Charles Musgrove: could be good, but Mary never seems to appreciate the effort he puts in so he kind of gave up

Tom Bertram: Selfish, never has to try for anything, but he did reform so maybe he can get better here too.

Edmund Bertram: Repressed and selfish. He needs to actually start listening to what women say if he’s going to improve and there is a whole book of him doing exactly the opposite...

Mr. Elton: selfish, full of himself, and low emotional intelligence, however, I think he does love his wife so he is willing to put in some effort for her.

Just bad:

James Rushworth: Maria was not impressed at all, despite how much “taller” he was

Captain Tilney: riding on good looks and money, selfish

John Thorpe: Selfish and he never shuts up. I have trouble imaging him getting a woman to sleep with him without paying her.

George Wickham: selfish and good looking, he’s not doing any work. He thinks you should be honoured to sleep with him.

Robert Ferrars: selfish and not even good looking. There is nothing here. Lucy did not win people.

Mr. Woodhouse: I can’t even imagine, if he didn’t have children I’d say he was a virgin

Mr. Collins: The woman he is trying to please is not his wife.

Mr. Elliot: cruel to his first wife and not even handsome!

Sir Walter Elliot: I don’t think any part of his personality would tend toward being a “giver”, however, if you like mirrors...

John Dashwood: exactly the opposite of a “giver”

Mr. Price: the guy had 11 children in 14 years so I wish I could say he was better in bed. My suspicion is that he started in the good tier and has had a very slow fall into just bad. And all that alcohol, ug...

Dr. Grant: Noted for being a whiney, selfish glutton. Hopefully he just falls asleep before he can attempt anything because I can't imagine him being that good in bed.

General Tilney: If you don't want to even try to imagine their sex life, they go in this tier. And he is so freaking controlling!

No Data: We interviewed Lady Bertram for information on Sir Thomas, but she confessed that with full consent, she has always fallen asleep during sex. Given her personality, we decided that this information has no bearing on Sir Thomas’s abilities. She did say that giving birth was, “Very disagreeable.”

Mr. Hurst: I really can't decide with him because while he does love the finer things in life, we don't know exactly why he and Louisa married. More info required.

Criteria: In the domain of F/M sex, communication is key, so we need a man who is willing to listen to what women say. Also, selfishness is obviously a negative trait when it comes to a happy sexual partner of either gender. Some of this is just vibes, but I think there is a fair amount of canon information about how much men respect women, especially their sisters.

Feel very free to fight me in the reblogs. The only hill I will die on is that Henry Crawford’s rating is correct 😉

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artaxlivs · 9 months

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"Stop moving or you're gonna get something somewhere that you're not prepared for."

Steve groans, dropping his face into the pillow, "yhr dshginin."

Adjusting to get a better angle, Eddie tells him, “As much as I love listening to you groan into a pillow, I can't understand you.” He leans down to Steve's back again, letting his tongue poke out of the corner of his mouth in concentration.

Steve lifts his head just enough to clear the pillow, over enunciating, "You. Are. Disgusting." He flops back down but twists his head so he isn't talking directly into the pillow anymore, "and you're not sticking anything anywhere right now."

Oh, hell no, don't challenge him. Not in this position buddy.

Sitting up, Eddie tucks the pen across his mouth, holding it just behind his fancy new fangs. Huh, that's actually very helpful, thank you pointy teeth. With his now free hands, Eddie squeezes Steve's ass through his scandalously short gym shorts, spreading the cheeks apart with his thumbs just enough. Enough so that when Eddie scoots up from where he’s straddling Steve's thighs and presses his hips against Steve, the hard length of him nestles into the space Eddie’s made for it.

Steve groans again, rolling his hips first down against the bed and then back up into Eddie, "Don't be a fucking tease, Munson."

"Don't be such a slut, Harrington." Eddie smirks, snapping his hips forward a few times but pulling back when Steve arches his back up with a breathy please. Retrieving the pen from where it's clutched behind his fangs, Eddie ignores him, leaning back down to continue connecting the moles on Steve’s back with constellation lines.

For the most part, Steve lets Eddie finish his work, complaining only twice more in the next few minutes and getting a sharp smack to the ass for each. Eddie knows he likes it, though, the kinky little shit.

Who would have guessed that Steve Harrington, the Steve Harrington, likes to be spanked and told to mind his manners? Not Eddie that's for sure. But who'd have guessed that Eddie would end up a blood sucking vampire who almost brought about the destruction of the world...okay, yeah, that's fair, odds would have be better for that one.

Whatever.

"Okay, it's finished!" Eddie says with a flourish, accidentally flinging the felt marker across the room without recapping it. It bounces off the wall and then the desk before rolling to a stop on the carpet. Whoops.

Struggling to unseat Eddie so he can go look in the mirror probably, Steve starts to get up but Eddie pushes him back down. "No way, dude, you have to see it in all it's glory. Not all twisted up over your shoulder in the mirror. Lay flat." Eddie scrambles off, grabbing Steve's old polaroid camera off his desk and then climbs back onto Steve's back, straddling his hairy thighs again.

Distracting hairy thighs. All that tan hairy skin trapped between Eddie’s pale legs. God. He always just want to like, lick Steve.

The little gym shorts have ridden up so the curve of Steve's ass is peaking out on each side. The material pulled up tight against his body, showing every curve and bulge and crevice. Maybe Eddie can blame it on his vampire instincts that he just wants to stick his face in there and nuzzle around. Just hold Steve down and rub all over--

Focus.

Barely managing to stifle his groan, Eddie waits while Steve lays prone again. Then he sits up on his knees for a better angle and takes a picture of Steve's naked back.

Refraining from yanking down Steve's shorts and including that beautiful hot ass of his in the shot should earn Eddie brownie points. Really, Eddie should be commended for his level of self control.

He sets the camera down on the side table and leaves the exposed bright white photo on the pillow next to Steve's head to wait it out. Then Eddie runs his hands up Steve's back and along his arms, loving the way the muscles bunch as his fingers glide over them.

Encircling Steve's wrists with his own long fingers, Eddie pins him down. "You can't look at it until I kiss every single star," He says, voice husky as he dips down to kiss one of them on Steve's lower back.

Steve sucks in a breath, laughing softly, "That's a lot of moles. Might take awhile." Eddie feels the shiver run through Steve. He can always feel Steve now. Feels everything that Steve is feeling. A blood bond. They'll never know if it was because Eddie had almost drained Steve in the Upside Down or if it was because Steve had let him.

Because that was what had brought Eddie back. Whether it was the act of Steve sacrificing that which is so precious - his own life's blood - to save Eddie's humanity. Or the act of Eddie stopping himself from taking it all before it was too late.

"Good." Eddie kisses another mole, "I like," he keeps kissing the moles between words, "to take my time with you." Kiss. "You're worth it." Steve whimpers, strains up against where Eddie's holding him down on the bed. But Eddie doesn't even pause in his ministrations, he just keeps kissing, following the lines of the constellations he'd drawn.

By the time Eddie has kissed every mole and freckle, Steve is writhing under him, sweat has collected at the divot in his neck and the small of his back. Eddie's boxers are damp where he's been grinding himself against Steve between, and sometimes during, kisses.

"Please, Eddie, fuck," Steve gasps, trying to hide his face in the pillow again, "I can't, please."

Snatching the polaroid from the pillow where it has long since sat developed, Eddie turns it toward Steve to show it off.

"Oh my--" Steve swears under his breath, yanking his arms free and struggling to overpower Eddie who goes over onto his back willingly, cackling, in a spastic display of skinny arms and legs. "Are you kidding me? You're such a dumbass!" Steve's laughing though, biting at whatever bits of Eddie that his mouth can reach as they grapple for dominance, his shoulder, his collarbone, his soft belly. Steve finally pins Eddie's arms down to the bed and lays flat on top of him.

Eddie allows it. Because he's a good sport. And they both know which one of them has superior vampire strength here.

"You don't like it, sweetheart?" He laughs, easily taking the weight of Steve on his chest.

“Eddie! I thought you were drawing something sweet or romantic or like, a nerdy dragon thing.” Steve rolls his eyes, huffing, “you drew a dick on my back!”

“A dick constellation! Which was not easy to do!” Eddie argues, mock offended, “How is that not romantic?”

Grumbling, Steve sits up, straddling Eddie’s thighs and giving him the patented Disappointed Dad look but then it dawns on him - Eddie sees it happen - “Oh. My. Fucking. God.” Steve swears, shocked. Eddie bites his lips, barely restraining his wild giggle. “You’re expecting to look at it while we—while you—from behind!”

“It’s art!” Eddie protests, throwing his head back to laugh as Steve swoops in, complaining into the soft skin of Eddie's exposed throat.

It’s fine, Eddie not worried about his chances about getting laid today, he can feel through the blood bond just how much Steve actually loves the humiliation, the kinky bastard.

Check out my masterlist for links to my fics and drabbles. Hope this started your weekend off just the right amount of kinky and playful💜

*edited a few hours after posted because apparently I’m not good at finding my own grammar mistakes and typos while writing semi-smut in the parking lot of opera camp. Yikes.

#A blood bond you say? That gives me ideas...#why do i do this to myself?#It's like pigtail pulling but with dick drawing #if you saw a typo *no you didn't*#I used prone correctly because I'm a bad bitch #Stranger things #steddie #love means drawing dicks on each other

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mrsoharaa · 5 months

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Your hands entangle through the silken golden locks that frame around his beautiful face. Fingertips dipping, weaving and tugging profusely as your wet lips hungrily一desperately, molds over the velvety feel of his own. The vibrant reverberations of his dire need of you sending waves of enticing tingles down the stride of your clothed back. His vast, strong hands curling around the curves of your waist, pulling you much closer towards his radiating, stocked body.

You both part your lips for a moment, inhaling the much needed oxygen as you press foreheads together gently. Peering your heavy eyes open to gaze into each others lovingly, longingly. Your palms gradually find themselves caressing the warmth of his cheeks, glimmering irises of shimmering gold and hued cardinal stare back at you with such want and admiration.

"I promise to return to you, my sweet sunflower" his breath was still heavily hitched from the intoxicating previous act, the overbearing weight of distraught and hunger for your soften lips badgering down on his Hashira duties he had to beckon to.

"With every fiber in my body, I will return to you...so then we may wed properly and become a family, my love" he closes his eyes gently, as did you, kissing your lips and then your forehead one last time before readjusting his haori and fleeting off to his mission.

Only, to never have the same comforting warmth of his love and adoration to return to you from that night after.

#oh look i made myself sad with the first come-back short drabble for the love of my life ;-;#why do i do this to myself?#im weeping 😭#kyojuro x reader #kyojuro rengoku #kny

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thefloatingstone · 7 months

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really annoyed and bothered that the fucked up youtube video I watched this afternoon about a fucked up topic ended up having fucked up content in it.

#text post #why do I do this to myself?

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pk-anxietychild · 5 months

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Muichiro trying to have a conversation with the Hashira

This took me a little too long for it to be just a funny doodle. I saw the text post above and immediately thought of him. He wants to feel included

(No manga spoilers please!)

#why do i do this to myself?#demon slayer muichiro #muichiro tokito #demon slayer fanart #demon slayer #kimetsu no yaiba #digital art #art #pk anxietychild art #right when i said something about digital art i pull this out 💀 /j #autodesksketchbook

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lichenaday · 7 months

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Rusavskia papillifera (syn. Zeroviella papillifera)

Me: It's Friday the 13th in October! I am gonna be big and brave and watch a scary movie alone at night in a strange house in the Icelandic countryside! Me 2 hours later: Ok, should not have done that. Juuuust look at the happy little lichens. Nothing can hurt you or jump scare you or haunt you in lichen world. Let the soft orange glow of R. papillifera soothe your troubled mind . . . It's lobes definitely don't look like tiny little demon hands scrabbling on top of each other from a writhing mass of . . . nope nope nope, nevermind, on to the next lichen.

images: source | source

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what-do-you-mean-theyre-evil · 8 months

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Y'all... I just had a thought 🤔

What if our crew spent the year searching a a way to get into the shadow realm just to save us? 😭

UPDATE:

BITCH I WAS RIGHT!!!!

#I am in pain #what have I done #why do I do this to myself?#also I can't keep saying shadow realm it makes me want to duel #playchoices #blades of light and shadow #bolas 2

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descendantofthesparrow · 1 year

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i don't even know anymore

#chole charming #disney descendants #why do i do this to myself?#im not happy with the vk look #i like the casual look the best #art #my art #concept art

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lemedstudent2021 · 3 months

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cant even look up lyrics in peace:

found on lyrics.com

the fact that some people still staunchly advocate for israel is honestly beyond me.

and lyrics? of all things?? why???

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keyboard-mang0 · 2 years

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Lost and Found

Part 2!

Genshin Impact x Child! God! Fem! Reader

Just a dumb impulsive idea that got a second go around for a cult au with a child reader! Not imposter, and technically probably not SAGAU.

Reader is referred to with she/her. Not proof read. If you see typos, no the fuck you don’t.

Notes: Major thing to note, the “Favored” refer to the main team of four in the game, and the “Auxilary” is the nickname I gave to my off team that I needed to make for the part of Siral Abyss that you needed two teams for. I used my own Favored as I’m the one writing. They are a healthy balance of “Characters I own” and “Characters I pray to RNG to just fucking give them to me GAME”. Other then that, Warning of religious themes, likely out of character moments, child crying, and issues with heights. Enjoy!

<~Part 1 Part 3~>

Word count: 3,372, so a bit shorter then the first.

"How about your name? Would that be alright for me to ask?" Ganyu whispers, the child in her arms looks around at the others fearfully before leaning in closer to the adepti.

Cupping her hand around her mouth and whispering as tiny as possible into the woman's ear "Y/n."

The walk back to the Jade Chamber was quiet. Y/n still held, but passed from Shenhe to Ganyu, who whispered gently to the small girl to keep her attention away from the many many staring Milileth.

Ningguang gave a simple order to the Milileth before taking the two favored and young god away. "I want every known vessel in Liyue at the Jade Chamber before sundown."

Orders given, thief 'captured', and great creator found. What a fruitful day.

<~~~~>

Seated around the courtyard, all of the Qixing, the local Favored, and the other available Vessels gathered. Ningguang seated at the head of the large table she had placed in preparation for this meeting. All gathered as maids inside the chamber looked after Y/n.

Beidou shakes her head at the tense silence, "we all know what this is about, that kid is the Creator, she's the damned god of gods…" Beidou announces, her voice carrying over the group.

Ningguang sighs "yes, and as such there are many procedures we must carry out, and responsibilities that by all right, are hers to handle."

Beidou turns on the other woman "she's just a kid!"

Shenhe cuts her off "I was a child as well when I was thrust into adversity among the divine."

"I mean no disrespect, Ms Shenhe, but you are by no means a good measure for how a child should be treated." Yun Jin intersects soothingly.

"But she isn't completely wrong, child or not, Teyvat needs to know that the Creator has been found, if for no other reason than to allow the other nations to stop their searches." Xingqiu leans back in his seat, holding his chin in thought.

"Yes, but isn't there a way to be able to tell them without the risk of crushing Y/n's childhood?" Ganyu voices nervously.

"Maybe not, considering how nearly the entire Millelith was there to see her cry gold. Secrets ain't easy to keep in Liyue normally, somethin like this… word coulda gotten as far as Wangshu Inn by now!" Xinyan grumbles, seeming annoyed at the way rumors flow from the harbor.

Keqing perks up, eyes moving to Beidou and Shenhe "do you not have a way to speak with the other Favored? The Auxiliary doesn't, but perhaps the creator's favor gives something for that?"

Beidou only sighs tiredly, "no, since the ritual things have been extra quiet on that front, my guess is that since now Y/n is here, the divine energy that connected us before is gone, so no chatter between us unless we're face to face." She rubs at her forehead for a moment, "and as one is the single busiest woman in Mondstadt, and the other is just a normal citizen of Inazuma, I haven't seen or heard a thing from either" she jerks a finger at Shenhe, "and if I haven't, safe money is she hasn't either."

Ningguang lets her eyes rest on the table in front of her, thoughts swirling in different directions on the situation.

Ganyu speaks up "either way however, there is also the matter of her own health." She pauses nervously as all eyes move to her. "When we brought her back to the Jade Chamber she was filthy and practically starved, but refused to eat, and tried to run the moment I put her down for some maids to bathe her."

"I could whip something up for her! Maybe she'll eat that?" Xiangling shouts excitedly.

"It's worth a try, but so far she seems distrustful of us all." Keqing huffs, leaning back in her seat.

"Her favored did threaten her…" Chongyun voices, earning glares from both Beidou and Shenhe.

Rebuttals to come however were cut off. The sound of a door slamming open and several runners. The unmistakable head of h/c zipping away from the stone building, with multiple maids and unarmed guards chasing after.

"Miss, please come back!"

"Slow down, kid!"

"Get back here!"

Every vessel gathered in the courtyard were on their feet at once, several joining the chase, others watching in shock at the sight.

The child managed to reach the edge of the Chamber platform before skidding to a halt. Staring down at the land far far below with wide eyes before turning to face the crowd.

The guards and maids slow down, approaching with their hands out like they're facing a scared animal. Beidou shoving her way to the front, giving a strained smile to try and calm the creator down.

"Hey. Hey, it's ok, you're safe. There's no reason to be scared." Her voice is low, almost a whisper as she gets closer, waving for the crowd that had gathered to back off.

Y/n just shakes her head, staring up at the woman, "I… I can't stay around other humans…" she whispers, looking over her shoulder at the expanse below.

Beidou pauses at her words, shaking her head before smiling and inching forward again "who told you that? Well they're very wrong. It'll be ok, I-"

The girl shakes her head, stepping back to try and put more space between them. Her back heel slipping off the edge. And suddenly she disappeared from sight. Drawing a chorus of screams from the crowd, quickly cut off by the child's own panicked screaming.

Beidou wastes no time.

The moment Y/n slipped she was rushing to reach her. Diving off the Jade Chamber like how she would the Alcor. The tiny flailing figure falling clear ahead, her small limbs flailing. The blur of red cloth hardly gaining as the Chamber shrunk behind them. Hands outstretched to the child, the girl seeing the woman began to reach back, however not bringing them any closer.

"Keep your eyes on me, kid!" She shouts against the wind, unsure if her voice would reach the girl. Her answer was a rushed nod.

Her mind raced as she thought of how to close the gap, any way to speed her up or slow Y/n down. When no plans came to mind panic began to rise, straining to keep from showing her panic on her face even as she fell.

Then the air shifted, a sudden gust of wind at a far from natural angle, and Beidou felt herself speeding up. Faster and faster, before she knew what was happening Y/n was close enough to touch. Quickly wrapping both her arms around the small girl, who immediately gripped onto her. Beidou, in her relief at catching her, almost forgot the next step.

Opening the wind glider so suddenly gave an uncomfortable lurch as the momentum she had built was suddenly being resisted. But looking down to see a small h/c head tucked tight against her shoulder, and feeling tiny hands grip onto her clothes like it was the final life line she would ever get. Beidou could handle some discomfort, knowing Y/n safe against her.

"Ok, kid….. please… don't ever do that again." Beidou manages a chuckle, earning a pair of e/c eyes quietly staring at her.

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To say the sight was odd would be an understatement.

All of Liyue's richest, most powerful and respected vision holders run out of the city, to find Captain Beidou herself walking with a wide and proud smile, hand in hand with a dirty child that hid slightly behind her.

Stranger still when the crowd of vessels gathered around said child and blocked her from view as they reentered the city. The small crowd making their way to Wanmin restaurant. Xiangling disappearing to work her magic as the child found herself seated between Beidou and Ningguang, shrinking in on herself under the numerous gazes watching her. The group waiting for other customers to leave before making a noise.

Ningguang lets out a quiet sigh as the last of the other patrons in the restraint make their way out, her eyes moving to find Y/n staring up at her, just for the girl to jump slightly and quickly look away. "Why did you run, Y/n?" Her voice is low and gentle as she moves one hand to try and offer a comforting gesture the child shrinks away, causing the woman to pause in surprise at the reaction.

"I don't want to be in trouble." The girl's voice is still small, hardly louder than a whisper when she speaks, every word laced in fear.

Beidou chuckles before Ningguang can respond, a hand moving to ruffle the girl's already tangled hair "now why in the world would you be in trouble?" The girl seems to relax more at Beidou's touch, a detail not missed by the Tianquan.

Y/n turns to look at Beidou instead "the mages said I would, they said I can't be around humans for too long or else I would be in trouble."

The small crowd goes quiet for a moment, Xingqiu thinking out loud "but why would a vision user say that to you?"

E/c eyes move to the boy next "what? No, the other mages. Short, fluffy, skip on air?"

The blue haired boy partially stands in surprise "an abyss mage talked to you?!" He shouts in shock, instantly causing the girl to cower at the outburst, and promptly earning the harsh glare of both Beidou and Ningguang.

Both women looking down when they felt shaking, Y/n trying to curl in on herself, her hands held up around her ears as the tiniest whimper slips out of her mouth "I'm sorry!"

Ningguang gently places her hand on Y/n back, moving in slow soothing circles as the girl's shaking slowly stops, speaking in a gentle voice "how about we not talk about that now?"

As if the Archons themselves agreed, Xiangling chose that moment to drop several plates down on the table. Meals of varying styles and ingredients all arranged in the beautiful mess that had come to be synonymous with Xiangling's style of cooking, "there we go! Enjoy!"

Y/n jumping at the older girl's voice, but not starting to curl up after. Soon the girl began to reach a small hand out over the table, moving to have some food before freezing. Looking up to see the group all staring at her, Y/n pulls back, looking down nervously before her eyes moving to Beidou and Ningguang, as if waiting for something.

Ganyu can't help the growing nerves as even with a spread like this laid out the child creator still won't eat. She leans forward to be easier to see by Y/n, "try any of it you'd like!" Her soft spoken tone managing to get Y/n to look at her.

"Is… is that ok?" She asks nervously, looking again to Beidou, who simply smiles, plucks a piece from one dish and pops it in her mouth.

"Yep! But eat quick, Xiangling's cooking rarely lasts long!" Beidou chuckles, and seeming more convinced Y/n pulls food closer and starts to take slow nibbles.

Over time the crowd of vessels slowly file out, some having their own duties to see to, others simply trusting that the Creator would be safe with the others. But all still ruminating on how the meeting to make a decision had not reached its end. Would they tell the Y/n that she is the summoned god of gods?

Ningguang's mind stormed with that thought, Y/n is undeniably their creator, but she is just a child, one that has already faced considerable hardship. But so many in Teyvat had been searching tirelessly since the ritual had finished, it would not be fair to let them simply believe that the Creator was still out there. Yet this girl is so skittish, even as she relaxed into the meal Ningguang did not miss how often her head would turn to double check that the entrance was still open.

When the plates had been cleaned and half the gathered vessels had gone. Y/n leans her head against Beidou, her eyelids beginning to visibly droop. The group speak quieter as Y/n's breathing evens out and the tiniest sound almost like a snore is heard.

"So… what are we actually going to do?" Keqing whispers, eyes flicking down to the now sleeping child.

"What can we do? If we make a full announcement that the creator has been found, then her chance at just being a child disappears." Ganyu fidgets nervously as she looks between the people at the table.

"But if we do nothing then all those who have searched tirelessly for her will only continue to do so in vain." Xinqiu lightly taps his finger on the table, seeming deep in thought.

Ningguang stares down at Y/n, the girl snuggling as close as she can into Beidou's side. Her eyes moving up to take in Beidou herself, the sailor looking somehow both mildly uncomfortable and utterly at peace. "Then we'll only tell the favored."

All eyes at the table move to Ningguang, the woman gathering her thoughts for a moment before explaining. "She had two teams of favored, correct? The true Favored and then the auxiliary. Both teams include people of notable repute in the three nations that were involved in the summoning ritual. So we send letters to all of the favored, and the Traveler, expressing the importance of secrecy in this matter." Her voice is unwavering, even with her quiet tone.

A silent pause goes over the table, Beidou's eyes going from Ningguang, to Keqing, to Shenhe. "Well we have three of those nine recipients of the news here, two more are in Mondstadt, and I believe the Traveler is still in Inazuma so that would make the final four there."

"So two letters that need to be carried north, and four that need to get across the ocean. Would it be faster to use the Alcor to get to Inazuma?" Ganyu says.

Beidou puffs up slightly at the mention of her ship, "well of course, I could bring those letters there and the other Favored back in no time at all."

Ningguang interrupts her, "No. Unless you're confident that the Alcor could make that trip without you on it, we'll figure out something else."

"What?!" Beidou shouts slightly, before quickly checking to see that Y/n is still sleeping before more quietly hissing through her teeth "you want me to send out MY ship without me on it?"

Ningguang just partially turns to face the captain, unphased by her outburst, "we need you here." She gestures down to where Y/n is sleeping on the woman "so far you're the only one that can really make her relax enough to not make a run for it. So unless we want our promise of having found her to mean nothing as she disappears again, you will stay here with her."

That seems to quiet Beidou again, though she keeps the glare in her eyes, even as her hand moves to gently pet the sleeping girl. The group again slipping into silence.

For the first time since the initial meeting, Xiao speaks up, "write all the letters, I can bring them to Mondstadt faster than any human."

Ganyu looks up surprised at his words, "but what about your contract?"

"This is for the good of Liyue. Not to mention the creator god, Rex Lapis would understand the importance of this." Xiao's voice is quiet, his eyes moving to Ningguang, "have your letters to Mondstadt ready by tomorrow night, and I will take less than a day to get there and back."

Ganyu cuts in again "and then perhaps one of the Mondstadt Favored will be able to watch her instead while you go to Inazuma, Beidou."

Beidou looks down at Y/n again, a slow drawn out gaze before nodding, "I can't believe I'm actually agreeing to stay on land for this long…"

<~~~~>

In the silence of night one can gather their thoughts rather easily, be it to count their doubts, lay out a plan for the next day, or simple considerations for what the past day had held. Ningguang found herself taking in all three, sitting at her desk, a small stack of envelopes waiting to be filled, beside an already half written letter.

Is this the right course of action? To keep the god of gods a guarded secret? From the Archons even. Limited only to the Liyue vessels and those who are suspected to be trustworthy enough to know the truth. But what about those who couldn't make it to the meeting? Neitger Hu Tao nor Yelan could be found in time and so they carried out business without them. Should they remain ignorant of Y/n?

A soft knock at the door pulls Ningguang out of her own head. "Enter." Steady as the stone that empowers her, not the slightest hint of her doubts leak into her voice.

The curved horns of Ganyu peak around the edge of the door first, "we finally managed to put their grace to bed." More of her face inches out from around the door before her whole head is poked in.

"Thank the Archons, I hope that means no late night chase?" Ningguang can't help the small smile that makes it onto her lips.

Ganyu shakes her head, "it took Beidou and I some time, but we got her comfortable enough with one of the maids to get her to let them bathe her. Her room has a few guards outside just in case, but she seemed exhausted, so I doubt she'll be waking up before morning."

Ningguang hums for a moment before closing her eyes, a short break out of relief, reopening to see Ganyu still staring at her. "Is there anything else?"

Ganyu's features take on a pink hue, looking away nervously. "You remember the Traveler talking about the kameras from Fontaine, correct?"

The taller woman tilts her head slightly in confusion, "yes?"

Ganyu opens the door more to show the brown box in her hand "I ended up buying one, and well… there's something I thought you might like to see, if I may." She nods her head slightly, only entering the room fully when Ningguang waves for her to do so.

Ganyu walks with quiet steps as she strides to Ningguang's desk, kamera tucked under one arm and a small piece of paper in the other, gently laying the paper in front of Ningguang before taking a small step back.

The small smile Ningguang wore before can only grow at the paper before her. A small image, Beidou laid out across a bed, her eye shut and mouth open wide in a snore, one arm tossed wide to her side, the other curled protectively around the tightly curled up form of Y/n, her h/c locks catching the light the way only still wet hair can.

"It's a little hard to believe she isn't a normal child in that." Ganyu breaks the silence, a peaceful smile on her face as she fidgets with kamera dials.

Ningguang's smile fades only slightly "you're right…" The woman moves to hand back the paper, but the adepti waves her away.

"No no, you can keep that one, I have my own copy." Ganyu looks over the desk for a moment, "would you like some assistance with the letters, lady Tianquan?"

Ningguang settles back, her eyes gazing over the picture, "no, I can handle it, you should go rest, I'm sure Beidou will appreciate the help with watching Y/n."

Ganyu just quietly bows and retreats from the office, the sound of the door closing rousing Ningguang to move again. Gently placing the picture on the table, Ningguang takes up her pen once more.

They should keep this secret. Y/n is not an ordinary child, but she shouldn't get mixed up in the affairs of the world yet. Not at this age. She deserves to feel normal, if only for a bit.

Post Reading notes: In my head the Jade Chamber is just as much an office building as it is a house. So I imagine that were Ganyu to find something to use as abed time story, the likelihood of it being legal documents is quiet high. Thus when she read them as a bed time story, Beidou ended up falling asleep faster then Y/n.

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