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hyunsoolgc · 9 months

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-ˋˏ VIDEOGOMDORI ◡ EP. 03

in which hyunsoo shows off his gaming consoles

The third episode of Hyunsoo's show is when he finally seems to find his footing. After hours of editing his own videos for submission, he finds joy in knowing each one has been approved. Perhaps he is overzealous attempting to do this all himself but the end result is always satisfying. He reads the comments ( well, most ot them — his mental fortitude is not quite there yet ) in search of suggestions and questions that he could address in the next episode.

As an intermission of sorts, Hyunsoo decides to shoot a ten minute episode detailing his game consoles that aren't his beloved PC.

He pulls out each one to set on his coffee table, arranging the camera on a stand to point down at his hands, and another positioned to capture his face. He intends to cut between the two shots to give the video some visual variety. With a small lapel mic clipped to his shirt, he is ready to begin his video.

"Hello again! It's Lee Hyunsoo," He needs to think of a better introduction. "Today, we're going to be looking at my consoles. Surprisingly, I happen to have a few that I switch back and forth between depending on the game I want to play." He holds up his Nintendo Switch and Steamdeck. Unfortunately, the brand labels have to be covered by a thin layer of tape and censorship during editing.

"These are the portable ones that I play on the most... The Stemdeck probably more than my PC, even, if you can believe that... I just enjoy laying down and pulling it up. Or, I can just take it with me to play on between my classes and scenes, since it can be a long wait. I can play all my PC on it, but... it doesn't compare without my 4K monitor. So... My favorite games to play on it are mostly top-downs or hack and slash ones like Hades or RPGs like Persona 5..." On the side of the screen is a display of all of his games in Steam.

He clears his throat. "On the Switch, it's mostly for ..." then he laughs. "Uh, Animal Crossing. I play it with my friends, especially who aren't super into the games I am. But it is nice and calming!"

Hyunsoo drums the table before presenting his PS5. "Somehow... I managed to get one of these. I stayed up all night to get one! It's the first actual... standalone not portable console I have had. I mostly got it to play the new Final Fantasy 7 remake that will be coming out... and Spiderman. I'll try to play a lot of the games I've listed for you all. Let me know in the comments what you'd like to see."

After sitting for a while, he finally stands with a grunt, nearly falling forward as he waves goodbye to the camera.

#𝙨𝙤𝙪𝙧𝙘𝙚 𝙘𝙤𝙙𝙚 ( solo. )#lgc:personalchannel #bad thumbnail but that's ok whateva #what matters is that i am DONE #𝙘𝙪𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙢𝙞𝙯𝙚 ( edit. )

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fallenstarzz · 2 months

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Thinking many many thoughts about how Jean was Riko's partner for a YEAR and was still rooming with Goon #3. Because that was how unwilling Riko was to let go of Kevin. And how that implies that Jean was placed as his partner both because of the practicality of Kevin being gone AND as a punishment for letting him go in the first place. Being partners with Jean could actually slow Riko down depending on how often he's hurt (because I don't think Riko was all that exempt from the rules to the point where his partner's performance would completely not matter) and he was still placed there. Riko was just THAT angry at him over Kevin's escape. And all the while he was keeping Kevin's side of room like an altar, even back when he didn't even think Kevin could PLAY, because of an injury he caused.

#'average aftg fan thinks about Kevins side of the room once a day.' factoid. headboard georg (me) is thinking on it at all times #everything about the perfect court makes me so absolutely insane i am chewing on glass #do you guys think that Jean would still have distracted Riko if he knew Kevin was going to leave?#moreover. do you guys REALLY think Jean didn't at least suspect he was leaving #because tsc is probably going to prove me wrong but I think he would and he knew #anyway. i said it before and i will say it again #the kevriko toxic teen girl homoerotic friendship rizz is unparalleled #riko moriyama the man that you are. they could never make me think you're uninteresting I want to use your brain as a saltshaker #I don't think Riko (or Tetsuji for that matter since he prompted it) ever actually realised what Kevin's injury MEANT. like for real #it wasn't putting him in his place it was destroying the very idea of the perfect court. it was DONE #if Kevin hadn't recovered. if the plot of AFTG hadn't happened. how long would it have taken for Riko to realize #that HE killed the very thing he built his life around and was just dragging it behind him like a corpse (Jean)#kevin day #riko moriyama #jean moreau #the sunshine court #all for the game #the perfect court

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animentality · 6 months

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I know everyone wants stories with happy endings, and they all hate when the main characters die, and insist well what's the point of the story then, it didn't matter at all! they died!

but.

I don't know. do the stories of those who die at the end not matter at all?

because if that's the case, I have news about the stories told by everyone who has ever lived in this world.

we all die at the end. we are all doomed by the narrative.

but our stories still matter.

#writing #writers on tumblr #writerscommunity #listen it can be done well it can be done poorly #but i dont get this hatred of characters dying at the end and everyone not getting their happy ending #its not about realism #its about what the author is trying to say #some characters die because they need to die #because it fulfills their character arc it enhances it #it makes a difference #and there is catharsis in understanding that sometimes people die for a good cause for a glorious purpose #we all die #isnt there relief in seeing a story where our special friends die but it mattered in the end and death was something meaningful #if it was embraced with dignity #am i making any sense #i just know my own death wont matter #i like following stories where the mc dies but #it meant something the way mine will not #and the vast majority of people do not die for a good cause or with purpose #and those who do are heroes in our reality #but why are they so reviled in fiction #let your characters deaths mean something

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rlyehtaxidermist · 3 months

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vote in your primaries.

Americans: Check your state's primary date here.

Pro-Palestinian activist groups are already calling for an "uncommitted" vote in the Democratic primary in Michigan specifically as a protest against the atrocities in Gaza and more broadly the lack of any real challenge to Biden's candidacy.

This is something that every data analyst in the parties will see and have to deal with. If "Uncommitted" gets enough votes, party delegates can even officially be listed as "uncommitted", which is very visible.

"But Orange Man-" This isn't the "if you don't support us you support them" of FPTP general elections. This is the Democratic Primaries. Harm reduction rhetoric is irrelevant here; Biden has no serious primary opponents.

1500 voters in New Hampshire voted in "Ceasefire", which was enough that the Biden campaign had to acknowledge it - even though their response was "see, only 1500 people cared?" And for one primary - yeah, that would be the response. Let's not make it one primary.

let's make number get bigger people

#'only 1500' for a write-in campaign in one state can snowball. fucking start rolling that snow #for reference i have done political data analysis for small campaigns. i KNOW what they look at. i know how the databases work #i am not going to breach NDA for it but like. this sort of thing DOES matter. please trust

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keepthetension · 4 months

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this was made especially for those of us who cut ties with our shitty families, huh

i cried so much this whole episode. i know that i can't be in that house and be who i am at the same time, but the guilt and shame never really go away. i love that this episode said, wholeheartedly: fuck what society says, you should be wherever allows you to be happiest

anyway! you always hear that family estrangement is rare in asian communities, but i did it! and you can do it, too! dump your shitty family! i believe in you~

#tsukuritai onna to tabetai onna #it's incredible like i don't think i fully realized how ashamed i feel until this episode had me ugly crying into my blankie #especially because the abuse was invisible and people say: oh everyone's family says harsh things! it's because they care! they love you!#and no matter how hard you try to explain the magnitude of what was done to you people still shrug and say but they're *family*#not that there was ZERO physical abuse but like. that's just How It Is in the community i grew up in so it's not a Reason reason #and that's all aside from all that's expected of me as the child of an asian family (that i am simply doing none of)#FUCK i guess i just compartmentalized all of this so securely i didn't think it could bleed out anymore #thanks tsukutabe. i guess?#this show is RELENTLESSLY coming for me this season too like explicitly stated asexual rep? a treat for me personally!#idk i never expected an asian drama to be so clear about this especially because kasuga's abuse was invisible too #and the idea of not sacrificing yourself for your parents is COUNTER to what you're supposed to do #i am just VERY EMOTIONAL right now #i love kasuga so much and it was rough to see her going through it but i am SO HAPPY that she's accepted and loved

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emily-e-draws · 6 months

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catventurers meowlphabet (first half) 😽✨

#catventurers #original #cat art #tabaxi #racing against the clock to see if i can finish the last few before i've posted the ones i've got done LOL #ive painted up to S so if I post one every few days.. and paint one every few days.. i should have some leeway hopefully #it does not even matter i just am overly conscious of how my instagram profile looks #I like doing one of these every other post. it looks nice #and hopefully that way people aren't getting tired of them........#well w/e people can think what they like cause i love these sm #nothing better than a silly little guy!!!#anyways if you're reading all this thank you #shocked if anyone made it this far i'm just saying nonsense to myself

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prostocupoftea · 2 months

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I have done what kinitopet fandom (probably) does not have but totally does (not) need... a CRIME AU! i am so sorry

Tw on poorly drawn guns, masks, scars, robbery police etc baisicly crime stuff

I have so much work why am i doing this... it is like 3 am...... aNYWAY---

More yapping and magnifyed parts under the cut

I was just literally sitting in the bus from uni and like "jeez can't imagine how those with full au-s abt tsp or kp, that must be so hard, i have one design and im already dying

And than i thought what au can i do for kinitopet

And here i am, 5 hours later with full ref-sheet and a little story idea in my head

Okay now to the au

It might be bad it might be okay-ish, well an okay-ish option is that they are like "Bad Guys"-ajesent group, you know, rob banks, skedadle with money, no killing, etc, all to make them redeamable, but, i mean.... they are horror charscters.... we all want our qute kinito but, u know...... he literally does not take "no" for an answer, just saying

So my idea is that maybe kinito does crime to get attentoin of that one detective, you know, "You" and does those "hello, you!" like he is talking to everyone while specifically naming You (((:

Aaand he is really in crime for that cat-n-mouse game, money are a bonus to do more crime with, he is just resl smart and wants to find soneone who is as intelligent as him and can catch him (or at least follow his clues)

Also they wear matching fake tatoos bc statistically most people are gonna notice a tatoo and they are gonna search you by it

And they have their secret normal lifes ofc bc why not

Sooooooo, i'll probably would never draw those guys again unless i guess y'all really like them, but in any case be free to take them and do whatev ya want, just tag/credit me (:

#kinitopet #kinitopet au #sam the sea anemone #kinito the axolotl #jade the jellyfish #i sexualized both men in kinitopet and what you have done in your life #i am not sorry #sam literally wears men version of bikini armor plate that protects n o t h i n g #kp brainrot so much my gray matter is dripping from my ears #i wanna punch myself in the face #btw i am still rigging that model #so do not worry. i'll get there #kinito fanart #btw i have no idea why new york #just wanna to make him say “hello new york”#also cool screens on buildings #perfect for announcing crime >:)#kinitopet crime au #prosto cup of art

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can-of-slorgs · 2 months

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I'm personally blaming @starbiology and everyone who has reblogged or commented the other piece for this.

Bonus comic featuring my grundo:

#every minute i keep working on this i take psychological damage #neotag #neopets #vin memes #you'reall to blame for this monstruosity #i literally just searched “babygirl” pose and went “I... i can do that”#i didn't stop to think if i should though #Star i was gonna respond 2 the reblog with the first image only but decided it needed its own post for quarantining this... thing #again if youre seeing this with no context #you dont need context #i... i don't think there's any for that matter #just picture me writing all this tags while losing health in posion damage every turn #i am working on neo oc images i just need to render them but i.... i needed the world to see this before #my blog's already tainted anyway LMFAOO #yeah uh im dead in neo canon i drew this and inmediately got taken back by yours trully and never came back #also i'll try making a ref as well for my sona so i can draw them more im just really indecisive in what color to make him #split it is for now #i don't want to look at this anymore end me #i am making more drawings to kinda cover this thing from the light but at this point it just keeps reappearing like a mold #thats it im done see u all in kreludorian therapy #kreludorian health insurance in a farse

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thegirlsinthecity · 9 months

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This one is for the lovely @kalevalakryze ! Thank you for all the time and effort you put into your amazing fics!

This idea is once again pulled from their fic Mine over on AO3 :)

#star wars #ahsoka #wolfwren #sabine wren #shin hati #ahsoka series #ahsoka show #sabine wren x shin hati #star wars fanart #my art #thegirlsinthecity #okay when I read this scene it stuck in my head for days #(i had to get the dyeing image out of my brain first to be able to work on this one but once it was done? I immediately started this one #It’s such a good fic and a very cute scene!!#i hope you like it :)#i’m actually pretty proud of myself on this one #still lots to learn but i am improving i feel like #the lighting is what took me the longest because no matter how many videos i watched about light i still don’t get it #i also tried really hard to make the faces a focal point by rendering that area more than the rest. i originally had more detail on the rest #but it distracted from what should be the focus #also i am a perfectionist and often lose sight of the bigger image… note to self it doesn’t matter if something is rotated 37 vs 38 degrees.#no one will notice you don’t have to waste an hour deciding on if a single pixel should be added or not #also note to self phone will crash multiple times as soon as more than 30 layers are involved #also note to self overlay is your best friend #but yeah probably the first time i’ve looked at something i’ve made and been like ‘holy fuck i did a good job’#also you know what? i will be shameless and put my own damn art in my favourites tag if i want to because i’m so proud of myself #favourites #tumblr is compressing my image quality >:( it actually looks so much crisper in my camera roll #adhd rambling sorry got off track here

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captcassette · 3 months

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davesprite my good friend davesprite

#i like this guy. a normal amount #funny thing is when i was 2/3rds through reading homestuck i was complaining to a friend about the size of the cast-#and how tricky it is to keep track of that many characters and care about what’s happening to them #i said smth along the lines of “how am i supposed to care about all these guys especially when they barely matter. whats the point of-#another dave but with wings??”#and now davesprite is my second favorite character. whoulda thunk.#anyway he gets done so dirty by jade and john on the ship. fuck that he should be treated better #ok ramble over. can you tell i like davesprite. tags time babyy #homestuck #homestuck fanart #fanart #hs fanart #art #davesprite #davesprite fanart #homestuck davesprite #beta kids

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3-aem · 4 months

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i also don’t want to portray myself as faultless. my work isn’t ai and it isn’t copied. but nk will say i Had old pieces that were copied and referenced ai. Yet it isn’t good faith when i apologize, state how i took accountability, and explain thats definitely not the case today because i learned my lessons- to respond with well you made these mistakes in the past so how can i believe you, you are lying, and have not changed.

so i quit. how can i prove myself then besides what i mentioned in the last post. my question is will you even ALLOW me to prove myself. each time i must explain, i place a spotlight on something that was resolved agreeably with the artists, resolved by removing the works, and resolved within myself by learning from it. but by not saying something i also allow You to concoct narratives and have to watch people spread them around and come to me demanding apologies. it is a very uncomfortable very distressing process that has worn me down completely.

never mind that other artists who have copied have not nearly been requested to apologize as much as i have been. never mind that they were forgiven when they removed the works or even when they just say sorry and don’t remove the work at all. But you still choose to hound me afterwards for doing just that?

nk has stated that i have not fixed this. and that i must address it. how many times though? for how long also? who on this planet starts the conversation by recounting all their mistakes, especially when they know they are resolved.

i have had to learn my lessons through cruelty like yours. trust me its a trauma i have to bear and they are not lessons you then forget.

my anger and my feelings of defeat come from the fact that even after nk was still talking like i had not even attempted to make progress. just look at your tone here.

#im going to fking throw up this is the last time i will ever say this #do not come begging to be for another apology i am done #i will never address this issue again okay #i need to say this because no matter what when i see people supporting me now i feel guilty #i recognize it is just because i hate myself #it is because i havent accepted i made mistakes #but i cant accept it because people cant accept it #i cant accept it and i cant move on #and that is why i think its best to leave art #i cant make work i am proud of anymore #i dont want to list names of artists #but i will say that when king chris reposted my work without credit i viewed it the same as when i referenced other artists work #but there was no callout no request even from the comments for credit #and he has millions of followers #i felt like i could not stand up for myself because i have this history #because of this history i can never properly defend myself i feel i must always kneel to it #even though i have changed and realized i was wrong i still have to acknowledge it always

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dnyane · 1 month

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#op #one piece #sanji #trafalgar law #zoro #i done have enough words to express what o feel about how law is sitting #if i sit i sit gracefully #doesnt matter if its someones shoulder that i am sitting on

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mllenugget · 2 months

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Hey remember when Baghera adopted Dapper like 8 months ago or did I make that up ? ────────────────────────────────────────── Support all the admins that spoke out (& do your daily click) ──────────────────────────────────────────

#idk why on earth i gave baghera knuckles- when i say i turn my brain off when I draw i mean it #i only noticed it after i was done with the shading and it jumpscared me #got me stuttering in confusion i have never drawn anthro arms/wings this way these dont even look like feathers wtf me ??#..... sooo looks like ive got a new wa-cats type of fandom on my hands #as in i am still very emotionally attached to the memories i have from this no matter what i do itll keep coming back #but i havent read the books in several years nor do i plan to anymore and looking back i am so angry and disgusted #but also im still blown away by the creativity and the passion the fandom builds on its own #i wanted to go ahead and finish any art that ive been working on for the past almost year and decided this one would be the most fitting #i learnt last week that only the first 20 tags on an original post will show up in tumblr searches #and I think im going to take advantage of that #because i dont want to hype the server anymore and i have decided i will no longer be adding my watermark on top of my work #and i was going to refrain from tagging it because i dont want my related posts to show up #before remembering that some of my mutuals who ive been chatting to for years now #have these fandoms blacklisted #so im going to test it and hope it works #im still going to tag the characters i love though because i wanna show support to the actors and i wish them nothing but the best #baghera fanart #pomme fanart #dapper fanart #dappleduo #my art #mcyt #qsmp #fandom neg #tag this however you want #yap yap yap yap tlddr

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techmomma · 3 months

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I am increasingly certain after 34 years of life that if you are afraid of something, if you want to get better, then you have to face it. Maybe you face it in little pieces. Maybe you face it with help or holding someone's hand, preferably in a safe environment but not everyone has that luxury. But exposure and being around what scares you is the only way to make it better.

Afraid of the ocean? Go touch the ocean.

Afraid of crowds? Go be around crowds for a time.

Afraid of being alone? Gonna have to be alone for a time.

Afraid of death? Talk about death, maybe go to a cemetary.

Afraid of becoming your parents? Gonna have to face the idea that you ARE probably like them to an extent, in order to NOT be like them.

Afraid of people not liking you? Gonna have to be not liked, sometimes.

Afraid of those thoughts saying you're a bad person. Gonna have to go talk to those thoughts.

Because humans are funny, paradoxical creatures, and almost always, the answer to being afraid of something is embracing it.

The more we embrace the thing we're scared of, the less control it has over us.

But, sometimes, people are also afraid of getting better. The decision to embrace our fears is not one that everyone takes.

Because sometimes, the fear of what is involved in getting better is greater than the original fear itself. It turns into a self-eating ouroboros.

Brought to you by me remembering me avoiding doing scary things and that made them worse and the only thing that makes them better is doing the scary things, even when scared.

#also brought to you by every time I've done something that seemed kinda insane or terrifying and people were like WHY STEPH #'I did it because I was scared of it.'#'what'#'to teach my brain that my imagination is always scarier than the reality'#I don't do scary shit because I'm not scared #I do it because I AM scared #I don't go talking to strangers because I love talking to strangers #I do it because I'm afraid of strangers. but I don't want to be.#I am so scared all of the time man #no matter how goofy or silly I look to other people or how quickly I volunteer for shit #that is more than 15 years of trying to face face my fears #15 years of fucking practice #and if never ends

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fear-no-mort · 5 months

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my one fear (aha get it) with the finale is that they’ll focus on rick more than morty, because the thing is with rick it’s SUPER easy to think of stuff that he’s actually afraid of, but with morty, he’s so normally viewed as the scared-of-everything character that people never really take a second to brainstorm on what truly scares him as well. he’s just a kid who got thrown headfirst into literally everything and it’s even a recurring theme in the show of him being told to simply not think about it if he wants to stay a little bit stable, him even having to get his memory wiped of certain things just so he could go on living, even if that whole thing did get twisted up into a whole other thing. all that but nobody really thinks about how incredible it would be to really establish what he’s the MOST deeply afraid of, things like subconscious fears and things he’s more terrified of happening more than anything in the world, even after having seen everything

#but to be honest this is an episode where i don’t care if morty gets sidelined or if him and rick are barely together in it #just bc of the 5 minutes of diane mentioned like. that’s genuinely crazy? not to be a pushover or anything )which i am) but like #this season has done so many things that were basically unheard of before it that i cant even get mad at it. for anything #like ohh you little rascal of a season you. help #so like im happy no matter what!! yay great finale for a great season!!#rick and morty #rick and morty spoilers #odiespeak

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libelelle · 2 years

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you’ve been watching underground you say? i’d love to see how you’d draw the hog family 🥰

I FORGOT ABOUT ALEENA

#alas anyways im obsessed with them #i wanted to post this last night after i finished this but i got sidetracked and finished it at like 3 am. oops #the shadings funky too but idc #what really matter is im almost done my redesigns i just gotta do it digitally and all that #hopefully today but im like i just finished frontiers #OOF #ANYWYAS thank you for the ask!!!!#i loved drawing them 🥺#ask #starrjoy #sonic #sth #sonic underground #sonia the hedgehog #manic the hedgehog #sonic the hedgehog #sonic artventure #digital art

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