why am i not losing weight?

i am fasting all day until around 7 only having one meal(OMAD). which consists of always less than 500 calories

drinking 8-10 cups of water.

doing 5-10k steps everyday and doing weightlifting 3 times a week,

what else am i meant to do?

also any tips on how to stop bloating!!!!!!

Shirt tucked vs not tucked! There’s so much room now!!! 🥰

I’m 1/3 of the way to my ultimate goal weight as well! fuck ya!!! 🎉

good day 🖤

Never realized how much weight I really dropped lol this dress is mad big on me now

My first weigh in of 2024.

Down 4 pounds in two weeks! Total of 6 pounds lost, from 255 to 249!

Losing weight after recovering from a restrictive ED and hating on weight loss for a couple years feels weird. I’m learning to change my relationship with weight loss and healthy foods. I demonized weight loss for a couple years because I tied it with negativity and body hatred and self loathing. But sometimes weight loss can come from self love. For me I’m not losing weight because I hate how I look, it’s not about my looks that much. It’s because I personally don’t feel my healthiest right now at this weight. And that’s not to say someone can’t be healthy at my weight, I’m sure some people are! But my personal body isn’t happy at this weight. I get out of breath easily and my mobility isn’t as good as I’d like it to be. And those things don’t mean I’m morally failing at all, and if I was fine with that then no I wouldn’t need to lose weight and that’d be my prerogative. But I personally want to be able to do yoga easier and feel lighter on my feet, so that is in my right to change my body in a healthy way to achieve what I want. I’m also healing my relationship with “health foods.” I aligned those in my head with my eating disorder because that’s all I would allow myself to eat, but I’m finding that those foods are important and it’s all about balance. Health foods and “junk” foods are ALL good foods. Because there isn’t really a good or a bad food, it’s just food.

All bodies are good bodies, health is not moral. All food is good food. Treating yourself well and aiming for health is not a bad thing. Here’s to my weight loss and self love and health journey!

Quick About Me

I'm a 42 year old mom of a teenage (14) and identical twin(4) boys. I've been married for 2 years to my best friend of 13 years.

I am obese. I have hypothyroidism, pcos, lipedema and other hormonal crap that makes my metabolism super slow. I am disabled as well. I have arachnoiditis and ankylosing spondylitis as well as osteoarthritis. Those are spinal cord injuries/disorders. After 10 years of pain and problems, I was diagnosed finally this past year. I am trying to save for bariatric surgery and a lot of other medical expenses that will come after. My insurance will not cover it. I am actively trying to improve my quality of life.

I have ADHD, OCD, Anxiety and Depression. Therefore, this blog will be all over the place based on whatever is going on in my head at the time. I always warn people because, on the off chance I get followers, I like them to know what they're in for.

I am a mermaid. My "mersona" is The Siren Serendipity. I love literally all things mermaid. That may or may not pop into this blog occasionally. It's my "thing" that brings me happiness.

I am a pagan. I am very Goddess focused, Artemis specifically, I do not belittle anyone of ANY other religion. But...you know...this is a topic that may pop up in my blogs from time to time.

My other interests are mostly reading and studying psychology, so stuff about that may pop in as well. Like I said, I have ADHD and I tend to write to organize my thoughts, so what I type about will depend on what is swirling in my head that day.

Well, that's about it for now. Have a beautiful day and stay blessed.

hey guys!

fat ugly bitch here ! My intro to Ana tumbrlr:p

height:4’11

current weight:4’17

goal weight:105

Hey Matt, I have a friend that is around 500 pounds, and he is trying to loose weight, but nothing seems to work. He is less mobile than you and he is starting to have health issues. I know that some years ago you lost a lot of weight. Can you please share any advice to help my friend suceed in his weight lost? Thanks a lot :)

Thanks for reaching out. Your friend has to get moving somehow. If he has some mobility issues then I recommend a seated walker to walk outside or stationary bike pedals to workout while sitting. Also, highly recommend water aerobics and swimming. That is one of the best ways to exercise.

When mobility becomes less of an issue then all they need to do is make a walking schedule. Nothing too intimidating at first. Five-ten minute walks a day, whatever they can handle even if it’s just three times a week at first. When it gets easier and it always does get easier the more they do it, they can increase distance.

Hope this helps and feel free to reach out with any questions.

had a dream i was at my ugw last night, i woke up and i was honestly so upset when i looked in the mirror and realised it was just a dream, i’ve tried everything why isn’t it working.

Before birth control vs On birth control

LOL the first chart 😳 basically 115lbs and deep into ana/edblr. then you can clearly see my bulk and when I started lifting heavy/gaining muscle. the jagged part at the end is my last 6months struggling to keep on weight and plateauing around 140lbs. what a wild ride it’s been 😮‍💨

I also look and feel better than I ever have. so if you’re deep into an ed and trying to be skinny this is your sign to love and NOURISH yourself. i know it’s scary but it will be alright, I promise

I been obsessing over my body lately

Weight gain journey

When it comes to my body, I’ve made so much progress but then sometimes feel like I’m back at square one. Plus this feeling of letting people down by not being a beacon of body positivity. I talk a lot about it and it’s really important to me, it’s something I’m known for and friends turn to me for, then I feel like I’m being hypocritical or something for not living up to that. It’s an ongoing process of healing and acceptance, fighting back against beauty standards and the comparisons to not only other people but to my old smaller self. I’m having a bad time with it lately.