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tossawary · 10 months

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For a while, I kept periodically thinking about F/M Wangxian (Male Wei Wuxian and Female Lan Wangji) without being able to figure out why I kept being distracted by F/M Wangxian. I mean, I think different genderbending AU situations are fun to think about in fanfiction, especially in worlds where gender roles are a problem. M/M, F/M, M/F, and F/F Wangxian all change the story slightly and I think it's neat to explore why and how.

And obviously, F!LWJ would be a total babe, that's nice to think about, but why still M!WWX and not F!WWX? F!WWX would also be a total babe, though of a different type, especially as the Yiling Patriarch. But my brain kept insisting that M!WWX was still crucial somehow and I couldn't figure out why that setup.

I mean, it is funny to think about how M!WWX's unchanged flirty behavior in their teenage years would suddenly set off every single alarm bell in the Cloud Recesses due to people being able to SEE IT thanks to heteronormativity goggles. WWX with a degree of societal permission to be romantically interested in Lan Wangji? Intolerable levels of annoying. Unbearable to witness. Singing love songs under her balcony type bullshit like he wants her to start another fight under the moonlight. He's writing her poetry (clever "joke" poems bordering on innuendo and actual romantic poems) and has the gall to be good at it. Lan Qiren is barely resisting the urge to beat WWX off with a broomstick. Lan Xichen doesn't know whether to be horrified or delighted (LWJ is bluuuuushing).

I do also like the idea of WWX coming back from the dead and finding out that the common people have decided in the past decade (thanks to the heteronormativity goggles) that the noble female cultivator LWJ had a Tragic Romance with the Evil Yiling Patriarch. Poor woman! WWX: "Who had a what now?" (I do also like the idea of Wangxian actually having a Tragic Romance during and after the war. And mutually stated romantic interest and affection still didn't fix anything for them. But it's funny to think about WWX getting completely blindsided by this EPIC LOVE STORY if there was no actual relationship.)

(Sizhui is still adopted here! Noble and pure-hearted LWJ adopted a war orphan because she longed to be a mother but swore never to love again after the Yiling Patriarch broke her heart, obviously! WWX, listening to this gossip: "She what? I mean, Lan Zhan would make an amazing mom, good for her, lucky kid, and no one is good enough for her if she doesn't want to get married, but seriously, I cannot stress this enough, what the fuck. She didn't like me back! Aiyah, I bet she's still so mad at me for ruining her reputation like this.")

Eventually, I realized that the key piece of this AU that I was missing was that I wanted to write F/M Wangxian that turned into F/F Wangxian. Because I think Transfem Wei Wuxian would display (and I mean this affectionately) the most ridiculous trans egg behavior imaginable, especially because it would lean more towards one of those "I was mostly fine living as a guy, but I'm so much happier as a girl" situations. Absurd amounts of queer foreshadowing.

So, Wei Wuxian gets resurrected into a female MXY's body or something and obliviously goes, "Oh! This is nice! I've always wanted to try being a woman! Yes, I can roll with this." And eventually Wei Wuxian has to actually examine the fact that she really likes being a woman and doesn't want to "go back" to being a man in any way, but not before putting Lan Wangji through an incredible amount of new "joke" flirtation. And people who knew WWX before are like... "Hmm. Some things are making sense now."

Things like: 1) As a teenager, WWX insisted that LWJ was such a strong woman that, if they got married, LWJ could be "the husband" and "he" would happily be "the wife". There were lots and lots of "I want to live as Jiejie's spoiled wife" jokes. Consequently, at the Cloud Recesses, at least one outrageously inappropriate joke was made by WWX about LWJ knocking "him" up, because WWX's breeding kink is still very much a thing. WWX didn't know about her breeding kink when she made that joke; both she and LWJ learned something about themselves that day.

2) Wei Wuxian would frequently pull crossdressing-related pranks saying: "Wow, this is crazy. I can't believe you guys are forcing me to put on a dress and all this makeup for this prank! You guys are wild!" And Jiang Cheng would reply: "No one is forcing you to do this. No one dared you. You suddenly volunteered to crossdress for a prank that does not require crossdressing AGAIN. Also, give me that brush, I'll do your makeup because you suck ass at it."

3) WWX would frequently go on rants about how women are so much more beautiful than men, which flew under the radar as a "normal behavior for a lustful young man", but there was always something a little off about it. Like, WWX might say that women are so beautiful and perfect that everyone would choose to be one if allowed to pick before being born just to admire the gorgeous view, and JC might say, "I don't think that's quite right...?" But WWX would just say something like (like an obnoxious teenage sibling), "That's because you know that you'd make an ugly woman!" or, "Are you saying that women aren't perfect? Also, are you saying Shijie isn't the best person in the world?" And JC would have to be like, "I didn't say that! And I'd make a beautiful woman, fuck you! Also, how is that relevant to your point?"

By the end of this AU, there is at least one public love confession that is horribly embarrassing for everyone else to witness, in which Wei Wuxian has finally realized that LWJ used to be in love with "him" and that she loves LWJ back, but tearfully apologizes because she can't be the handsome man that LWJ loved anymore. Even if she could be a man again, she still doesn't want to stop being a woman, even if she's not very good at it yet. She can't perform the required husbandly duties like provide a good home for LWJ! She can't father LWJ's children anymore!

(Jiang Cheng: "Do you have to do this now?! Stop being indecent! There are children here. Also, we're all being held hostage.")

But it's all cool! Because shortly after realizing WWX was back and determined to live as a woman, LWJ speedran a sexuality crisis, flipped a mental switch, and essentially went, "I'm a lesbian now." (Or maybe LWJ was really confused about being attracted to WWX when they first met, because LWJ had only been physically attracted to her fellow female disciples up until then, so WWX seemed like the "exception", until WWX comes back from the dead as a woman and then it's like, "Ah. Not an exception after all.")

#transfem wei wuxian au #tossawary mdzs #wei wuxian #lan wangji #wangxian #mdzs genderbending au #fic ideas

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forever-fan · 9 months

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Sing A Requiem For The Broken Songbird

So, I'm currently writing a fic on ao3. I'm writing chapter 5 rn.

The basic premise is that when Jason died, he met and fell in love with Danny/Phantom. However, when Jason was revived, he never knew that Danny was still half alive. Jason goes about the next six years (age 16-22) being brokenhearted and trying to distract himself from said broken heart.

One night, while on patrol, Jason sees a young man hanging out by the edge of a roof in Crime Alley. Jason approaches the man on the apartment building and finds out that the guy was just getting some fresh air. They end up talking for a bit but the man leaves for his apartment without ever sharing his name. Jason was in costume so clearly the man didn't know his name either.

Jason finds the man on the rooftop the next night. And the night after that. And the night after that. Eventually, Jason learns the man's last name is Nightingale. One night, Nightingale reveals that he's a halfa and can tell that Jason is a halfa too. He offers Jason treatment for the damage that the "Lazarus Waters" and sudden revival inflicted upon Jason's core. Jason accepts and begins a multi-month detox.

Jason and Nightingale grow close and it becomes clear that they both developed feelings, but neither of them act upon it. When Jason asks Nightingale about this a week into getting ecto-supplements, Nightingale tells Jason how he once had a love. He explains that he met his love when his love was a ghost. Nightingale told Jason that his love had been revived. While Nightingale understood his love might live his life and fall for another, Nightingale himself couldn't bare to move on.

When Nightingale turns the question to Jason, the vigilante replies that it was a similar situation, but Jason was the one revived. Jason then tells Nightingale that because he and his boyfriend never technically broke up, Jason still views himself as in a relationship. Jason also makes it very clear that he does not support cheating. Nightingale and Jason end up agreeing on staying friends and becoming no more.

After another few weeks of Jason's treatment, the two begin to share drinks on the roof. They share stories of their lovers, but they never reveal anything that can identify who exactly their lover was. On a random night, the roof access door is opened by a little 5-year-old girl. (Yes this fic has an oc. Get over it.)

After calming his daughter from her nightmare and putting her back in bed, Nightingale explained that his ghost form was biologically male, but his physical human body was technically trans. He once transformed accidentally while his lover had momentarily blacked out. His daughter was the best accident of his half-life.

I haven't decided exactly how I want the two dumbasses to find out that Jason = Red Hood and Phantom/Danny = Nightingale, but it will happen. Anygays, this is how I'm spending my summer. Writing DCxDP fanfiction. Chapter 5 out soon.

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gatoraid · 7 months

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Anime recs for The Radiant Emperor enjoyers

I was watching the new Ooku anime on Netflix some weeks ago and I thought it hit that ”court drama dealing with gender roles and making me cry” spot that He Who Drowned the World has been occupying in my heart lately (even if it engages with some of these themes very differently).

Somehow that got me thinking about other anime that might align with the vibes and themes in The Radiant Emperor book series and eventually came up with this list.

Some of those themes include gender roles, queerness, disability, politics, oppression, rebellion, revenge, impossible and messy relationships and tragedy. Darker themes like war, violence, sexual assault etc are also often present. Please lmk if you agree or disagree with these choices and feel free to add more!

Dororo (2019)

Historical fantasy based on Osamu Tezuka’s manga classic from the 1960s.

An orphan who hides her gender in order to survive meets a young man who fights demons to claim back his body parts that his father traded away in a demonic pact. There’s tons of pain and tough moral questions and complicated family relationships, and the way Hyakkimaru deals with having lost and then slowly regaining parts of himself is super interesting.

24 episodes. Stream on Prime Video, Hidive

The Heike Story (2022)

Retelling of the historical epic Heike monogatari through the eyes of an orphan girl who gains the ability to see supernatural things after her father’s passing. Inevitability of fate, the impermanence of all existence, praying for your loved ones’ happiness in the next life, all of these things are beautifully woven in this visually stunning story. The story also hits different when you know that Heike monogatari was traditionally performed by blind musicians and singers.

11 episodes. Stream on Cruncyroll, Apple TV

Inu-oh (2022)

Historical fantasy. Two outcasts find each other and change the history with their music in this story that also pays respect to the Heike monogatari’s origin as a singing tradition. Focus on things like identity, disability, nonconformity, ghosts. Yes, the ghosts part is important. Also, the gender expressions and the bond between the two main characters is something I’ve seen a lot of queer/trans ppl relate to and Inu-oh is voiced by none other than the trans icon Avu-chan.

Movie. Stream on Hulu

Ōoku: The Inner Chambers (2023)

Alternate history where most men in Japan have been wiped out by a mysterious disease. Very much a court drama centered in the Tokugawa shogun’s residence where men serve the woman shogun as concubines (and sometimes have relationships with each other). Also, one of the main characters is a monk who ends up giving up his vows! Based on Fumi Yoshinaga’s acclaimed manga that has also been adapted to various live action movies and drama series.

10 episodes. Stream on Netflix

Toward the Terra (2007)

Scifi classic with two main characters who are at the opposing sides but feel inexplicably connected. There’s just so many insane relationships and emotions here, I still have not recovered from the ”I want to kill you but I will also protect you with my own life” thing…… Based on the 1970s manga by Keiko Takemiya. Not to be confused with the movie from 1980.

24 episodes. Available on DVD

Devilman Crybaby (2018)

Apocalyptic fantasy with demons and stuff. Based on the classic 1970s manga by Go Nagai.

I don’t even know how to describe the story, it’s just the tragedy, the queer yearning, the ”I killed the one I loved and then it was too late”, the ”things will get bad and then they will get worse” vibe that I think is very fitting. This one has the most extreme violent and sexual content out of the series on this list.

10 episodes. Stream on Netflix

Banana Fish (2018)

Gang wars, mystery drugs and complicated emotions set in New York. Based on the iconic 1980s manga by Akemi Yoshida. Deals heavily with trauma and CSA.

You guessed right, this one is also a tragedy. If you love Ouyang and/or Baoxiang, you’re probably going to love Lee Yut-Lung. That’s all I’m going to say.

24 episodes. Stream on Amazon Prime

#the radiant emperor #idk these made some sort of sense in my head at least #rec lists #he who drowned the world #she who became the sun #long post #anime recs

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punkeropercyjackson · 23 days

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atla gaang hot takes

Aang is objectively the best male character in the franchise and the reason he gets so much hate is because of the violent racism against asians who aren't japanese,korean or chinese and therefore not 'aesthetic' or 'dream s/os'

Katara is neither a mom friend nor a snooty perfect prep nor a homohobic cishet girl.She's a victim of adultification and parentification,an autistic trans bisexy queen who likes her girls masc and her guys fem(Toph and Aang)and the definition of 'teenage anarchist' who only gets called a conformist because people erase her activism and direct action because she's a punk femme instead of a male edgelord and they think girls can only be rebels if it's to cater to men

Sokka is not stupid but a goofy goober and is the smartest character in the whole show and the only reason he gets called a himbo is tropeified racism.Also he owes Katara money for his treatment of her be so fr,he was a misogynist until he was 15 and she had to deal with him

Toph is a transmasc girl as seen by her getting overjoyed at her Ember Island Players sounding like a guy and it is SO unserious to pit her and Katara against eachother over Aang like they wouldn't all be a happy sapphic polycule(Aang is genderfluid tyvm)

While not her fault,Suki is easily the blandest Atla girl by a longshot and her popularity coming from Katara haters screams colorism from the Ba Sing Se rooftops.Also Zukki is not very good polyam rep unless it's tgirl Zuko,i could not care less about an mlm couple that stands on it's own with a girl slapped on but not really being part of the dynamic,MAKE HER A GIRLKISSER ABOUT IT!!!!

'Zuko was never evil' is factually incorrect and a very liberal take because it absolves him of responsibility that HE was the first person to hold himself accountable for by growing the fuck up and unlearning propaganda and giving the people he had privilege over reperations and it's not the writers fault y'all are fence sitters because of some dumbass crush over a guy who'd never even look in your general direction since you infantalize the shit out of him

And not technically Gaang members but they are in my heart so they get bonuses:Jet was more right than any yt boy you thirst after,Azula being so sexualized in canon is a result of the fetishization of underaged east asian girls,Mai is a lil angel compared to Zuko and you only demonize her because you can't accept unconventional women and Ty Lee is highly underrated and the best non-mc on the show-Autistic tgirl swag methinks

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cissyenthusiast010155 · 7 months

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Hi i’m not sure if u write male reader and its okay if not but i was wondering if you could write one where m!student reader and platonic lesso like he’s making a song in a music room and its something like ‘boys don’t cry or boys will be bugs and lesso hears and he breaks down or smt and fluff but again its totally fine if not x

Hiiiii anon! Thank you for your request!! I wont write AMAB!Male, but I will write AFAB!Male. Hope you Enjoy ♥️

Can’t Pretend It Doesn’t Bother Me ~Soft!Leonora Lesso xAFAB Trans!Male!Reader

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Warnings: age gap (All legal), angst, fluffy fluff, implied anxiety, implied anxiety attack, crying, comforting, hugging, physical comforting, etc.

Enjoy (:

You had found yourself in the music room. And you had sat down in defeat next to a harp.

Before you knew it, your hands were stringing the instrument and making beautiful sounds. Along with those beautiful notes, came your voice, getting more and more hoarse.

I’m a dumb teen boy

I eat sticks and rocks and mud

I don’t care about the government

The words and notes just flowed together. And so did your tears. More and more, the waterworks flowed down your face.

And I really need a hug

I feel stupid (stupid), ugly (ugly)

Pretend it doesn’t bother me

~~~

Lesso was walking down the corridor, after reprimanding one of her more rebellious students. Her cane halted as she heard a faint melody coming from the music room.

I’m not very strong, but I’ll fuck you up if you’re mean to bugs

She could hear the harp being played and a choked voice singing along with the notes being played.

It’s getting cold down here underneath the weather

I skipped class to sit with you

I really like your sporty sweater

If ladybugs are girls How do you make kids together?

What’s it like in a female world?

I bet it’s just so much—

~~~

You heard the door creak open, and you immediately stopped playing. You frantically wiped the many many tears away from your face. But you couldn’t make the tears stop.

You looked up and saw the one and only dean of evil, Lady Lesso, standing across the music room. You gulped. She stared at you, not saying a word.

“I’m sorry… I’ll go…” you muttered.

“No!” Lesso exclaimed.

You looked up puzzled and a little afraid.

Lesso relaxed her face and spoke softer, “Please, continue.”

You gulped and nodded, moving your hands back to the instrument. You began to pluck the notes once more and accompany the melody with your hoarse voice.

I just turned 14

And I think this year I’m gonna be mean

Don’t mess with me, I’m a big boy now, and I’m very scary

I punch my walls, stay out at night, and I do karate

Don’t message me ‘cause I won’t reply, I wanna make you cry

Ain’t that how it’s s’posed to be?

Though it… it isn’t me…

B-Boys will… be b-bugs… right…?

By the last few lines, you and your voice was falling apart. Your hands dropped from the harp and your head fell in your hands as you sobbed.

~~~

Lesso froze for a minute as you combusted in the music chair in which you were sitting. Her instincts were conflicted…

On one hand, she had the urge to smack you and tell you to get it together.

On the other hand, her heart cracked at your position, and she wanted to come over and comfort you forever.

Lesso knew that you had troubles. Troubles with friends. Trouble at home. Troubles mentally. Knowing this only made the redhead feel for you even more.

She cautiously approached the crying student in front of her, stretching her arm out to rub your back lightly.

You jumped slightly as you felt the deans hand on your back. But you were quick to get used to the touch, and you even leaned in for more. You whimpered slightly as her hand eventually retracted. But then you saw that the woman was getting a chair and pulling it up next your yours.

Lesso sat down next to you and put her hand on your back once more. Her touch seemed to relax you, she noted.

“Take deep breaths.” She instructed.

The red head hummed in satisfaction when her instructions were followed. She placed her other hand on your outer thigh, rubbing circle patterns on it. She noticed that you were getting your breathing under better control.

“Thank you…” you hesitantly whispered.

You half expected the dean to just leave as you uttered those words, but she didn’t.

“Anytime, sweet boy.” The woman comforted.

Her hand then moved from your thigh to your chin, and it swiveled your head to meet her gaze.

“It’s okay to cry, you know that right?”

Your lip quivered and you nodded shakily, before more tears erupted. You instinctually put your head into the deans shoulder.

Lesso hummed as your head found comfort in her shoulder.

“But don’t you ever tell anyone I told you that…” she teasingly warned, causing you to chuckle lightly.

~~~

Lady Lesso Masterlist

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graciegoeskrazy · 5 months

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Hey i was wondering if you could do a matty fic where his daughter comes out as trans to him and the boys? Or if you are not comfortable writing for trans people like just coming out as gay?

figure my heart out

Matty Healy + Queer!Teen!Daughter!reader

Warnings: coming out, a lil yelling

A/N: Hi!!! Okay so I was writing something similar but then I put it down but then I saw this request and RAN TO MY COMPUTER AS FAST AS POSSIBLE ASNCONTINUED WRITING BCUZ I GOT EXCITED. A sorry and thank you to the anon who requested this! I felt like I wouldn’t do it justice if I did it with transreader and as a bisexual with a similar coming out experience this was easy peasy lol. None the less i love and appreciate you and I hope u enjoy! I really really really really really like this one and I’m proud of how it turned out. Enjoy!

The epitome of a perfect night. Driving in your girlfriends new convertible with the top down while blasting Lana Del Ray and giggling and smiling like nothing else in the world matters became a wonderful feeling of pure bliss. You wish you could stay in that moment forever. Endless talking about the things the people who piss you off in school talk about, or airing out your problems to her because sometimes it feels as if she is the only one who listens. There was no one word for that feeling. All you knew is that you craved it. You needed it like a an IV through your arm, supplying nothing but joy and love into your life. You didnt just need her but she needed you too.

Yes it was a secret, but it was a beautiful one, Sure, sometimes you wanted nothing more than to parade through town with your hands intertwined and boat to everyone around you that she was your girlfriend, but this secret needed to stay hidden. Not just for her, but for you too. You were n stranger to the things your father has said online. He was Matty Healy, if the guy wasnt known for his music, he was for sure known as the man who makes homophobic jokes on stage everynight to a sold out crowd. The man has been cancelled and apoloized more times than you could count. Even though everytime he says he’s not against anything of the sort - ad you whole heartidly believed that - would it be different because you were his daughter? Some days that thought was just a quiet whisper in your head, and some days that voice grew louder until it grew loud enough to keep you up at night. But you always came to the same conclusion. He would love you no matter what…right?

Any and all thoughts surrounding it came nowhere near crossing your mind while you were at your girlfriends. After singing your hearts out and getting lost but not caring at all on the drive, you both decided to head back to her place since her tank was running low. It was there you fell asleep in her arms. Not thinking. Not caring. Not paying attention to anyone else in the world but her. And most definitely not thinking about you 11 pm curfew.

To June’s parents, you were just a friend sleeping over. A best buddy who helped their daughter get through her high school years. Nothing more than a nice, kind, good girl with good morals. And that was true. They just didn't know about the part where you make out with their daughter every time you’re under their roof. Same with you dad. They were downstairs, absolutely clueless of what was happening above them when a loud flush they made woke you up. You jolted awake and as a result of sleeping so close to your girlfriend, woke her up too. The blaring light on your phone read 1:07.

“Fuck.”

You scrambled out of bed and started packing up your bag without saying a word to June.

“What’s happening?” She said, still half asleep.

You turned to her, suddenly becoming more gentle. “Go back to bed. I missed my curfew, my dad doesn’t know I’m here. If I don’t leave he’s gonna get suspicious as to why slept over during a study session.”

She smiled at you, pulling you in for a kiss. “You’re just a very determined student.”

You fell into the kiss, and let go with a smile. “Bye.” You said. She winked and watched you walk out the door. “Text me when you get home please.”

You turned back and winked, shutting the door.

The drive to your house was uneventful. Yeah sure, you missed your curfew, but it wasn't like your dad was the type of helicopter parent to make sure you were home exactly by 11. You hadn't even received a call or message asking you where you were. If anything he was probably fast asleep along with the other members of the band. Or at least that’s what you told yourself.

When you walked into the flat you shared with your dad and your uncles, it was dead silent. You could hear the silent snores coming from Mayhem on the dog bed in the living room and the crickets outside. You were in the clear. You walked very carefully heading up to your room. Before you could even make it to the 2nd step. You heard a voice. Stern and loud.

“Y/n Healy.”

It was your father. Of fucking-course. As you slowly turned around you were met with him standing in the dining-kitchen area. A light turned on and revealed his full frame along with Ross, George, Adam, Carly, and Jamie. All sitting down at the table except for your dad, standing above them all. He slowly walked towards you as you stood still staring at him. You closed your eyes and let out a shaky breath, followed by a “Shit.”

“Where were you?” Your dad asked sternly. To which you replied, “Nowhere.” It was clear he was PISSED. He only spoke twice and it was evident you were in for something. He never spoke this way. Never to you at least. Until now. He raised his eyebrows, giving you a second chance. You sighed again, looking down and toying with your fingers. “I was with June.” You said shyly.

“Tell me the truth.” He said. His tone softened just a hair.

“That is the truth-“

“Tell me the whole truth.”

You dad knew you like the back of his hand. You were him. A literal miniature version of Matty Healy. Therefore he knew when you were lying. Not that you did it often, you were a very trustworthy kid. Never lied, never got grounded. (Ok so maybe not a literal miniature Matty)

You shrugged, “I was just with June.”

He raised his voice again, “Stop lying to me, y/n.”

“I’m not lying!” You raised your voice this time.

“Your hand twitches every time you lie.”

You were taken aback. Shit, I thought I grew out of that. You just scoffed. “No, it doesn’t.”

Adam spoke up and pointed to your hand and it’s movements. “Boom. Twitch.” You gave him a look.

Matty ignored him and stayed locked in on you. “In all of your years of existence on this earth, you’ve never lied to me.” He said, a little more gentler this time.

“And, I’m still not. I’m telling the truth-”

“But you’re not telling me the full truth.” He was very good at this whole parenting thing. He put his hands on your shoulders. You didn’t reply, just sighed and looked down. After a moment, he continued. “You’re grounded.” You head shot up. He walked back to the kitchen and started refilling his drink. You followed in suite.

“What! For what?”

“For lying.”

“I’m not lying! I’ve never even been grounded in my life.”

He shrugged, “There’s a first time for everything.”

You could not believe what you were hearing. “C'mon Dad! George, help me out.”

George was ethier high of drunk or both because he seemed to be enjoying this little argument way to much. “I’m on his side for this one, babe.” He said.

“What?! You guys, I'm not lying.” You said, gesturing to the group.

“You’ll be ungrounded when you tell me where you were.” Your dad said from the kitchen.

“I was with June! How many times do I have to say that?!”

“Doing what?”

Your eyes widened and you stuttered a bit. The group must have noticed because that to them was a giveaway that something more was going on than you cared to share for. “Nothing! We were just hanging out!”

“Your hand twitched again.” Adam yelled.

You turned to fully face him again. “I’m about to murder you.” You said.

You dad came back around and with a solum look, but a hand over your shoulder. “Look, I’m not gonna get mad. Whatever you’re hiding, it’s not worth getting grounded over. Tell me what’s going on - the truth - and all let you go. Okay?”

You couldn’t do it. There were so many possibilities of what could happen from this moment on. None of which you wanted to explore. You rolled your eyes and headed back to the stairs, whispering a faint, “Whatever.”

Your father followed behind. “Y/n Healy, tell me NOW-“

“I was on a date with June!” You yelled.

“We went on a date! Ok? We went on a date then went back to her place and watched TikToks for an hour before watching New Girl reruns and having awesome sex. I lost track of time, I tried to sneak in so none of you would find out, and so my secret would stay secret.”

The room was quiet. Only the sounds of Mayhem and the crickets like you heard before. Tears were falling out of your eyes and you were heaving pretty heavily.

“Is my hand shaking now?!”

Everybody remained quiet and still, not daring to move. “Jesus.” You said as a final goodbye, before walking up the stairs to your room as fast as you could.

A few minutes after they heard the door slam, Ross spoke up. “You fucked up bro.”

Matty shook his head. “It’s not my fault.” He said in defense

“Mate, you just forced your daughter to come out to you.” George yelled.

Marty liked back at the stairs. A single tear falling from his face as he does so. “Shit.”

#matty healy #matty healy x daughter!reader #matty healy x reader #matty the 1975 #matty x reader #x daughter!reader #the 1975

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thezombieprostitute · 5 months

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Music in the Air

A/N: Written for Vee's Holly Jolly Challenge (@sstan-hoe). Reader is implied fem, "girls like me". No physical descriptors used.

Prompts: Bucky Barnes - My house, my rules. The Christmas music stays on.

Summary: You and Bucky discuss poinsettias.

Bucky's arm was having problems. Again. In all the years he had the arm he never really got to understand how it worked. He could figure out how to fix a lot of things, but his arm wasn't one of them. That's why he was glad he had you to turn to. You had quickly become his go-to engineer in the Avengers Tower. You were a rare and delightful combination of "not afraid of him" and "not overly friendly". You would smile, but let him initiate the conversation when he wanted.

At least, normally you were his favorite. Ever since December started you only every played Christmas music in your lab. He was still trying to get used to how much the holiday had changed and the music was, well, a lot. Especially when you were always listening to some kind of heavy metal Christmas music and he had only ever heard Christmas music sung a capella or maybe a church organ.

"Do you really need to listen to that music all the time?"

You smiled while working, "I did the respectful thing and waited until December before I started listening."

"Yeah, but it's just so..." he struggled to find the words.

"Non-traditional?"

"Jarring."

"Well, Sergeant Barnes," you reply, setting your tools down, "My house, my rules. The Christmas music stays on. However, I am willing to switch it for something that's maybe a little more your speed."

You walk over to your laptop and open up your playlist. It takes you a minute, but you finally find the song you're looking for and press the play button. As the speakers sing a lighter, slower tune, you turn back to Bucky, "you should be grateful. I don't turn off Trans Siberian Orchestra for just anyone."

Bucky blushed as he smiled, listening to the song. It was very different from what you had been listening to. For a start, there were lyrics. They told the story of a poinsettia named Percy and how had been overlooked and abandoned but grew and shone when given love. He almost smacked himself for having empathy for an imaginary plant.

To distract himself he said, "I'm surprised you like this song. It's so different from what you were listening to before."

You smile and respond, "it's a childhood favorite. This song just really hit my heart in a way no other Christmas song did. It stuck with me so much that, even in college if I saw my flowers for sale that were wilting or on their last legs, I'd buy them. Just to make sure they had love before they fully wilted."

Bucky looked at you with a softness in his eyes before you shook your head, "I know, it's stupid. I was an adult, I should've known better but some things just stick with you, you know?"

"Yeah," he whispered. "I know. Did you stop buying flowers because you kept getting them from dates or something?"

You chuckle, "I stopped because I had to prioritize my budget. I can't remember the last time I had flowers in my apartment. But thank you for the compliment."

"What do you mean? The guys you date don't give you flowers?"

"Girls like me don't get dates, Sergeant. I'm not whatever enough for guys to ask me out. Whether it's my size, my intelligence, my hobbies, there's just always something that keeps guys from asking me out, let alone bringing me flowers. But, again, thank you for the compliment."

You set down your tools and start putting them away, "your arm is all patched up. Hope this fix lasts you at least through the end of the year. I've got a lot of projects to finish up before the end of the year so I might not have the time to take care of you."

"You're not staying here for Christmas, are you?"

"I am," you nod. "My family celebrates holidays on days that aren't the day of so that we can avoid traffic and last-minute shoppers. So I set up an office lunch for the people who either don't celebrate, have nowhere to go, or whatever other reasons. Mr. Stark has been very generous with the budget for that."

"I'm glad you won't be alone on Christmas," he gives you a gentle smile.

"How about you," you ask. "You're welcome to join us if you'd like."

"Sam is insisting on taking me to Louisiana," he replies.

"Good," you assert. "I'm very glad you also won't be alone on Christmas."

You really shouldn't have been surprised to see the poinsettia on your desk the next day. There was no note, but you suspected. It wasn't very big and it had started wilting, but you loved it nonetheless. You gently hugged the plant and promised to give it the best of care for as long as it needed. After a week it was like a brand new plant, bright and strong. Doesn't hurt that you asked the biolab techs for help and resources.

It made Bucky's year to see how big your smile was, watching your poinsettia grow and how much you clearly loved it. It took him a while after to gather his courage and ask you on a date but your quick "yes" reassured him. Neither of you would ever be alone on Christmas.

#vee's holly jolly challenge #bucky barnes x reader #bucky barnes fluff #bucky barnes christmas #percy the puny poinsettia

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Dating Leeteuk as SHINee's maknae headcanons

Pairing: Leeteuk (Super Junior) x Male!SHINee Maknae!Reader (trans-friendly) Rating: General audiences Words: 1085 POV: Second Summary: On how you start dating until you finally make it public. Note: Decided on headcanon format to make it easier on me. Tags: fluff, getting together, idols, mention of SuJu & SHINee, but a bit more SHINee because they are my ult, and some mentions of homophobia

So like you’ve known SuJu since pre-debut and tbh at that age the age gap was just too big for you to get along with them really well

You got to work with them occasionally, but it took a good few years for you to really get close

Because of how well your voices work together, you got paired with Leeteuk for a collab on SM Station and that was so well received, you did a couple more of those over the years

Really your voices melted together like nutella on hot bread (Author loves this ok it fuckin slaps)

You did like a super nice love song together, but when you guys were singing together it did not sound anymore like you were singing about a girl, but about each other

Both of you were not even realising how romantic your eye contact was during the live performances

The songs were so well received, you even had a temporary project with Leeteuk, when Onew was out on military service. That’s when even you two could not deny the chemistry between you two.

You guys already acted like a couple before you made it official with each other.

Literally you’re at his place having wine after another day of dance practice, vocal training and photoshoots and you then realise how low the lights are and how your knees are touching on his sofa and how romantic the background music is…

You look up from your glass and see the candlelight flickering in his eyes and all that comes out of your mouth is “wait, this is really romantic”

And Leeteuk is a little embarrassed, because consciously he did not mean to put you on the spot like this, but he was old enough to realise he put way more effort into ‘just hanging out after work’ than was normal. For his fellow members you would not catch him meticulously picking a good bottle of wine or replacing the candles in the living room or dimming the lights to make the ambiance cosy. There certainly would not be playing some soft jazz in the background.

And he has no excuse, because the realisation hits him like a train and he just asks you: “do you mind?”

You don’t even need to ask him if he does, because you understand that look on his face like no one else. You shake your head and just scoot closer to put your head on his shoulder.

Being idols, and men on top of that, you kept it a secret, but everyone was waiting for it. You knew about the fanfics, but you always thought they were made as a joke and you and Leeteuk were very discreet.

SuJu defo knew about you two, but they never mentioned it aside from some good-natured teasing about how Leeteuk spent so much time with you, it seemed like you were a married couple

SHINee also knew and they teased you endlessly about all the little things Leeteuk did, in the hopes you would admit Leeteuk did those things because you were together. They just did not want to ask you directly and allow you to come out when you were ready.

Tbh you did not even realise they knew. Both you and Leeteuk absolutely oblivious to how obvious you guys are.

It is in the Leeteuk walking across venues tailed by security guards just to say hello to you. It is in the way you have the habit of saying “oh Leeteuk hyung would love this” about food, drinks, furniture, songs, clothes etc.

When you guys are together you both have heart eyes while giving ‘professional’ compliments

Both your groups find it painful to watch, especially the more uhhh homophobic ones in SuJu (not gonna say who bc y’all will hate me, but if you know you know)

Then SHINee worked on recording Identity and they are making a lot of comments about it that kind of water down to “hey if SOMEONE in SHINee would have an INTERESTING identity, we would NOT mind that”

You’re one dense mf so Key takes you aside and has a heart-to-heart with you and a lot of alcohol

Do you remember telling him even the spicy details of your relationship? No. Did it happen? Key won’t shut up about it to you. He is not that much of a dick tho to tell the others.

You feel really shit about your slip up and the fact that you were now hungover on date night

Leeteuk went all out with finding a remote spot up Mt. Namsan and buying all that was needed for a simple, but romantic dinner with a view of Seoul. The night lights were gorgeous, the city alive. You had gimbap and fried chicken for dinner with some small electric lanterns surrounding the picnic mat under you. Your favourite playlist played over the bluetooth speaker.

Leeteuk showed you a video that Key took while you were drunk off your ass. It was embarrassing to hear yourself proclaim how much you hated not being able to kiss him in public.

In your words “everytime I see my Teukkie, I wanna squish his cheeks and give him wittle smoochies, but noooooo gotta keep my idol image like I care about that. Aren’t we getting old? When do I stop caring and start marrying?”

You could die of embarrassment, but then Leeteuk took the ring out.

Next day you’re public, what the company might say be damned

God the backlash was huge, the following weeks full of angry managers, PR people and screaming ‘fans’ outside the SM building.

You and Leeteuk laid low for a month or so, but you had a comeback to do and SHINee could not delay more.

In the end it is the support of both SHINee and SuJu members that turn the tide for your career.

Most idols decide not to comment on your homosexual engagement, but some idols had also been on the shipping train for years and were glad to finally see the inevitable out in the open

The reactions were overall mixed. Some people are glad to see their ship be real, some are just homophobic. That’s life. The moment things went public, you and Leeteuk were faced with new challenges, but none of those challenges changed you. You and Leeteuk were in love before the two of you were aware of it, and now the world was aware of it, you got to show it too.

#super junior #shinee #kpop #suju #leeteuk #leeteuk x reader #leeteuk x male reader #trans male reader #male reader #suju x reader #suju x male reader #kpop x male reader #kpop x reader #super junior x reader #super junior x male reader

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A violent man killed his 7 year old daughter and now wants to be placed in a women’s prison

A trans-identified male who beat his 7-year-old daughter to death has been handed life plus 75 years after pleading guilty to her murder.

The Fulton County, Georgia District Attorney has announced that Michael Deon Wash pleaded guilty to the abuse and murder of his 7-year-old daughter, Kamarie. Wash now goes by the name “Milan” and has recently come out as a transgender “woman.”

Kamarie’s body was found floating in Lake Allatoona by two fishermen on June 29, 2016. When examined, investigators found that the girl’s head had been shaved and her hands had been burned in an apparent effort to make it more difficult for her to be identified.

Wash had called 911 and reported his child missing the day after her body was found, claiming the girl had “wandered out of the house” in her polkadot pajamas at some point. Wash told the operator “she was last seen here in my house, here this morning or last night,” adding, “I’m sorry.”

Wash also claimed he had seen Kamarie in her bed sleeping the previous night, but gave unclear and inconsistent details.

Within just hours of responding to Wash’s apartment, police announced they were treating Kamarie’s disappearance as a homicide investigation. Shortly after, Wash and his live-in girlfriend, Lasherae Davis, were charged with two counts of cruelty to children in the first degree, cruelty to children in the third degree, making false statements and concealing the death of another. Wash was later charged with murder.

Kamarie’s cause of death was determined to have been blunt force trauma, and examiners established the girl had died long before Wash made the call reporting her missing.

Investigators would determine Wash and Davis had regularly tormented Kamarie, physically assaulting and withholding food from the girl. On the day of her death, Wash had beat Kamarie until her jaw broke.

Kamarie’s biological mother, Kashira Pettigrew, did not live in the residence, and Wash had been in custody of Kamarie for little over one year. The reasons for the arrangement were unstated.

In 2019, Pettigrew was in the news after driving under the influence and causing a serious car accident. She was sentenced to prison time and lost custody of her other children for her role in the wreck which left them all injured. During her hearing, Pettigrew cited the grief of losing Kamarie as the source of her addiction.

Following her death, Kamarie’s family penned an obituaryfor the girl that beamed about how she was “born a star,” and that she loved to sing and dance.

“She was a member of the Junior Choir at Church of the Living God, the C-Uperstars, and a dance group with Ted Cooper and her mom. Kamarie also loved to help others and always enjoyed leading and having fun with her sisters. Aside from her singing career, she liked to cook and read as well. She was full of life and had a big heart and will always be remembered as a loving, caring person.”

On Wash’s guilty plea, which was submitted on September 15, Fulton County District Attorney Fani Willis issued a statement to local media.

“A 7-year-old baby girl was brutally abused and murdered by a person who should have been her greatest protector. Wash not only beat Kamarie badly enough to kill her but went to great lengths to cover up the crime. It is an absolute shame that a young life was so violently cut short by a parent.”

Willis also noted that a previously-filed intent to seek the death penalty had been withdrawn as a result of Wash’s plea. He has been sentenced to life in prison plus 75 years to be served in confinement consecutive to the life sentence for murder, first degree cruelty to children, false statements and concealing the death of another.

According to jail records, a grand jury declined to prosecute Lasherae Davis on murder, but she is still set to stand trial on the other charges related to child abuse, concealing the Kamarie’s death, and making false statements to law enforcement.

Wash is still currently being housed in the Fulton County Jail where he is listed under his birth name and sex. He will likely be transferred in coming days to a correctional facility, though it is unknown at this time if he will be accommodated in a women’s prison.

Media reports on the case uniformly referred to Wash by feminine pronouns.

#Georgia #Trans identified male violent criminal #Not a Woman #NotOurCrimes #KeepPrisonsSingleSex

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"My name is Prisha Mosley. I was a 15 year old girl when the trans community found me.

Already diagnosed with multiple mental illnesses including anorexia, a body dysmorphic disorder, and borderline personality disorder, a trauma disorder, I was easy to manipulate and convince that I had been born in the wrong body.

I was told that this was the reason for all of my mental and emotional distress. I was told that changing my gender would cure me. As an impressionable and mentally ill child, I fully believed this.

I also believed that my sexual assault, which happened at age 14, only happened to girls. I wanted to transition to be safe, and I was allowed to make permanent changes to my health due to these beliefs.

Beginning at 17, high doses of testosterone were injected into my anorexic body. This was done by a pediatrician in the same hospital where I was seeing a nutritionist for my severe malnutrition, and regularly receiving stitches for cutting and other self-harming behavior.

What I don't understand is why they never offered me counselling to help me with the depression, the trauma, the personality disorder, or my ongoing self-harm. It was clear that they were solely focused on pushing me into transition without regard for all of the other clear challenges and issues I was experiencing.

Testosterone had extreme side effects, more and more of which I am discovering every day. I suffered hair growth all over my body and hair loss on my head. My shoulders rapidly broadened beyond my frame causing me to be disproportionate, clumsy and in pain. My neck, back and shoulders constantly burn, and all of my joints ache all of the time.

Testosterone also caused changes in my vocal cords and throat. I can no longer sing or really raise my voice, and speaking for long periods of time causes me pain.

My endocrine system is ruined and I'm no longer able to regulate my own hormones. I have no choice but to be medicated for this for the rest of my life.

One of the worst side effects has been vaginal atrophy. This is the shrinking and thinning of the vagina. It is so severe that I am no longer able to use tampons because it is so small, and I'm afraid that I will tear. This has happened before.

One year after starting wrong-sex hormones, despite persistent self-harm, my healthy breasts were removed. I was told I would have sensation in my chest within one year. Instead, my chest is numb, except for the occasional zapping pain. I almost lost my nipples; after being grafted, pieces of them stuck to my bandage and fell off, and I no longer have them.

During the time in which I was receiving gender affirming care, my psychiatrists and psychologists had to ask me at the beginning of each appointment what my name was, who the president was, and what year it was, because I was so far from reality.

They told me no to liposuction and yes to a radical double mastectomy. I was too unhealthy to consent to lipo, but not to top surgery.

I was convinced that my puberty was a disease, and I trusted my doctors and the trans community when they told me they had the cure. But it wasn't true.

I stand now before you in an aching body which is no longer mine. I don't recognize myself when I look in the mirror. I am suffering from severe medical issues with which no doctors will help me, and insurance covers nothing. The medical professionals who did this to me have abandoned me, and the trans community has abandoned me. My doctors assisted me in mutilating myself, and then left me in the cold when I wanted the harm to stop.

But when I see young girls in my situation, young girls who have experienced sexual trauma, who are suffering from mental illness, and who suffer from body dysmorphia disorders, or who feel pressured by social media or their peers to conform to certain stereotypes of femininity, my heart breaks for them.

And while the damage done to my body can never be fully reversed, I can be an advocate for those girls in the same position I was.

Thank you."

Are you shitting me? She's busy racking up frequent flyer miles in multiple departments in the same hospital, and nobody noticed or cared. One department is stitching her up, while another one is cutting her up.

Asleep at the wheel.

my psychiatrists and psychologists had to ask me at the beginning of each appointment what my name was, who the president was, and what year it was, because I was so far from reality.

She couldn't be presumed to know what year it was, but she was presumed to be able to consent to irreversible life-long medicalization.

Sure, that makes sense.

While I normally wholesale reject the ideas of the bible, in this case I think there really needs to be a Day of Reckoning for all of this.

#Prisha Mosley #genderwang #gender ideology #queer theory #medical malpractice #medical transition #wrong sex hormones #double mastectomy #bilateral mastectomy #top surgery #medical scandal #sex trait modification #religion is a mental illness

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[TRANS] IU 꽃갈피 (Flower Bookmark) Album Introduction and Song Introductions

ALBUM INTRODUCTION

The trail of memories that does not fade over time

IU’s Special Remake Album [Flower Bookmark]

A book that I took and dusted off from an old library. As I turn the pages one by one, there are times when I find old four-leaf clovers or flower petals that are inserted like bookmarks. It’s a pristine and beautiful trace of a gift that contains someone's sincerity long ago. Along with it comes the memorable pieces of writing that are underlined on each page. This 'Flower Bookmark' may be one of the symbols of youth culture that show the romance and sentiments of the past analog generation which are slowly being forgotten these days.

A trail of memories transcending generations that does not fade over time and makes you want to take them out (Note: to reminisce about them) again. IU's special mini-album contains the meaning of discovering ‘flower bookmarks’ in the music of the previous generation, reinterpreting them with her own emotions and voice and presenting them as a gift to listeners of the current generation. The seven songs were selected by IU, who enjoys listening to old songs in her own time, and reflect her unexpected feelings as if receiving an exciting gift when she first discovered these songs. She worked on the remake album by preserving the original songs’ emotions to the best she could, while weaving in her own style. ‘Flower Bookmark’ will be a gift for the many fans who like IU's analog emotions, which has been a hot topic through her acoustic guitar covers on broadcasts, as well as an album that provides an opportunity to once again reflect on the meaning of these classics and appreciate them for a long time, through the stimulating music.

SONG INTRODUCTIONS

01. 나의 옛날이야기 (My old story)

Originally sung by Cho Deok-bae

Lyrics by Cho Deok-bae

Composed by Cho Deok-bae

Arranged by Kim Je-hwi

The house across the alley from the window, the heart of a boy who had a crush on a girl

Cho Deok-bae, a singer-songwriter who composes sophisticated melodies that do not become outdated and has a voice that rings in our ears. The song “My Old Story” by singer-songwriter Cho Deok-bae, well-known as a singing minstrel (Note: medieval singer who sang or recited lyrics or poetry to musical accompaniment for the nobility), originated from a love letter that he wrote in his college notebook in 1973 when he was in middle school, but eventually failed to give to someone. The song which he had kept for a long time without a title, was eventually released as “My Old Story” in 1985 and received a lot of love.

IU's “My Old Story” is not a remake that reinterprets the song through its musical form and modern techniques, but rather an emotional remake that depicts the original song's anxious sentiments back in those days from a girl's point of view, like a response to the crush. Guitar and piano melodies played by the arranger and singer-songwriter Kim Je-hwi harmonize with the performance of the string quartet and accordion artist Jin-sun, opening the door to the emotions and romance of the analog generation.

02. 꽃 (Flower)

Originally sung by Kim Kwang-seok

Composed by Moon Dae-hyun

Lyrics by Moon Dae-hyun

Arranged by G.Gorilla

The late Kim Kwang-seok, who was like a pillar of Korea's modern folk music, released ‘Flower’ as the 2nd track on his 2nd album in 1991.

Sung by IU, ‘Flower’, began with a longing for ‘him’, whom the narrator raised alone. The selection was a difficult enough choice in itself, as it was difficult to deny the perspective that the remake was riding on the original song's inherent value. The lyrics are close to ‘poetry’ and neatly arranged to match ‘him’, but it is a very tricky song to give emotions to and IU's vocals, Hwang Min-woong's classical guitar and the quartet cross each other's boundaries and bring out a constant tense atmosphere.

03. 삐에로는 우릴 보고 웃지 (Pierrot laughs at us)

Originally sung by Kim Wan-sun

Composed by Son Moo-hyun

Lyrics by Lee Seung-ho

Arranged by Lee Jong-hoon

The million-selling track by Kim Wan-sun, who solidified her position as the best female solo artist in the 1990s with her unique concepts and unconventional performances that had never been seen before in the music industry previously.

IU's ‘Pierrot Laughs at Us’ attempts a drastic change as an extension of the original song concept, with composer Lee Jong-hoon's colorful arrangement using mechanical vocal effects and the emotional part of the song being sung calmly without emotional fluctuations, which stands out from existing IU songs. On top of the solid rhythm led by jazz drummer Lee Sang-min's powerful groove, Hong Joon-ho's guitar, Choi In-sung's bass and Hong So-jin's keyboard accompaniment were combined to complete a monotone analog sound.

04. 사랑이 지나가면 (When love passes by)

Originally sung by Lee Moon-sae

Composed by Lee Young-hoon

Lyrics by Lee Young-hoon

Arranged by G.Gorilla

The biggest hit of 1987 which officially sold more than 2 million copies for the first time in Korean music history.

‘When love passes by’ was written by the late composer Lee Young-hoon, who was Lee Moon-sae’s best musical partner, and was praised for having a perfect harmony of popular appeal and musicality. The collaboration between the two artists is full of memories and IU shows a different charm from Lee Moon-sae's feelings of affection in the original song, which brings back memories of a breakup. This new version of ‘When love passes by’ also talks about a sad breakup, but IU maintains a restrained singing voice that does not lean towards intense sadness, through her uniquely transparent singing tone contained in the song by arranger G. Gorilla, and stays faithful to the original song's emotions like a trace of memories that remain the same even as generations change.

05. 너의 의미 (Meaning of you) (Feat. Kim Chang-wan)

Originally sung by Sanwoolim

Composed by Kim Chang-wan

Lyrics by Kim Han-young

Arranged by Ko Tae-young

The band ‘Sanwoolim’, a pioneer of Korean groups that was evaluated as the most unconventional along with their themes from novel to simple music and could not be limited to the specific genre of rock music.

Sanwoolim's 1984 song ‘Meaning of you’, sung by IU, contains Kim Chang-wan's style throughout the whole song, from designing the emotions of the vocals to featuring in the song itself. The ingenious Kim Chang-wan collaborated with IU and took the lead naturally in the recording studio, in a manner very much similar to Sanwoolim's music, with unembellished emotions from the original song that resonate with listeners from all generations.

Guitarist Ko Tae-young's arrangement ended with a warm sound combining Go Shin-jae's Bass, Chung Dong-yoon's Drum, and Song Sung-kyung's Hammond Organ accompaniment.

06. 여름밤의 꿈 (Dreams in summer night)

Originally sung by Kim Hyunsik

Composed by Yoon Sang

Lyrics by Yoon Sang

‘Dreams in summer night’ is a song released in 1988 by the late Kim Hyun-sik, an indispensable name in the history of Korean pop music.

‘Dreams in summer night’ is also known as the debut song of singer-songwriter Yoon Sang. Twenty-six years ago, the demo tape, which contained the original emotions of young songwriter Yoon Sang, intertwined with the coarse voice of the late Kim Hyun-sik, became very popular in those days. Yoon Sang, who already understands IU well through the songs ‘Only I didn’t know’ and ‘Sleeping Prince’, personally shared his feelings as follows:

“‘Dreams in summer night’ is the first song I completed when I started composing in high school. I’m grateful towards Kim Hyun-sik, who sang this song for the first time and this song has created opportunities for me to connect with others (Note: other musicians and singers). I'm thankful to IU for choosing this song. Personally, I think it was a good choice to only have piano accompaniment this time. The reason being that I was able to capture IU's voice as it is. IU, who was born many years after this song was released, finished recording the song with only four takes, comfortably singing it as if it was her own song that she had been singing for a long time. I've recorded a lot of songs with IU so far, but this was a moment that took me by surprise. I hope all of you can feel the pureness that I felt, like the pleasant and slow wind of a summer night.” (From a Yoon Sang interview)

07. 꿍따리 샤바라 (Boom Ladi Dadi) (Feat. Clon)

Originally sung by Clon

Composed by Kim Chang-hwan

Lyrics by Kim Chang-hwan

Arranged by Kim Jong-min

The title song of Clon’s debut, ‘Boom Ladi Dadi’, swept the nation in 1996 with its intense jungle sound and performance.

The reason it becomes a hot topic every year when the weather gets hot, such that it is called the summer vacation song, is the unique coolness of the song and the consolation message that people of all ages can easily relate to. IU's ‘Boom Ladi Dadi’, with its ukulele tune and calm Hawaiian Hula rhythm, conveys a comfortable feeling like a break from the frustrations and annoyances of daily life, with a tune like the sound of waves in the night breeze and the rap part, in which Clon himself featured in, adds fun for the listener, in a very different tone from the intensity of the original song.

Translated by IUteamstarcandy

Source: Melon

#iu #album introduction #flower bookmark

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[KOR/ENG LYRICS] Young Love (애매한 사이 / An Uncertain Relationship*) by BTS

I love you (I love you)

I miss you (miss you)

사랑이 그놈 참 어렵구나 (ay girl) Love, that jerk, turns out he’s pretty difficult (ay girl)

Young love

I love you (I love you)

I need you (I need you)

(You know what)

Yeah 1, 2

이런게 사랑인가봐 This must be love

참 바보인가봐 How foolish

너만 보면 기죽되고 Whenever I see you, I get discouraged

네 앞에만 서면 작아지는 걸 Whenever I stand in front of you, I get smaller

이런게 사랑인가봐 This must be love

참 웃음만 나와 It keeps making me laugh

왜 자꾸만 엇갈리고 Why do we keep passing each other by?

다가가면 내게 멀어지는 걸 When I move closer, you move further away

사랑 Love

My love is so young

It’s like the littlest child

지구 몇 바퀴라도 돌 듯 계속 뛰는 이 마음 This heart keeps beating like it took several spins around the globe

어느 그 아무도 모르게 정말 우연히 Without anyone knowing, completely by chance

알게 된 널 본 그날 난 내 심장과 마주쳤지 The day I got to know you, I bumped into my heart

Oh it goes fast

너와의 시간이 넘 빨리 가 Time spent with you flies by too fast

그렇다고 내 마음까지 빠르다는 걸 아니야 But that doesn’t mean that my heart’s moving too fast

남들 사이는 TV도 아닌데 왜 자꾸 틀어지는지 What happens between others isn’t a TV show, why do people keep pressing play

근데 왜 우린 서로 아끼는지 But why are we so fond of each other

널 좋아하는데 I like you

아 이유가 없어 Ah, there’s no reason

난 너랑만 있을 땐 물감 칠하듯 번져 When I’m with you, it’s like I’m paint spreading around

어느새 작은 말투 하나하나까지 너 같아 At some point, even little things about the way I speak seem like you

쉽게 말할게 내가 너가 돼 To put it simply, I’m becoming you

Then girl I like that

언제나 너와 함께 Always with you

넌 내가 너 안에 있지만 난 항상 너 밖에 없어 You always keep me within you but I can’t do without you*²

내가 부르는 노래 속에 있을 거야 (young love) You’ll be in the songs that I sing (young love)

이런게 사랑인가봐 This must be love

참 바보인가봐 How foolish

너만 보면 기죽되고 Whenever I see you, I get discouraged

네 앞에만 서면 작아지는 걸 Whenever I stand in front of you, I get smaller

이런게 사랑인가봐 This must be love

참 웃음만 나와 It keeps making me laugh

왜 자꾸만 엇갈리고 Why do we keep passing each other by

다가가면 내게 멀어지는 걸 When I move closer, I grow further from you

사랑 Love

내 맘을 몰라 (my love is so young) I don’t know my heart (so young)

내 맘을 몰라 (my love is so young) I don’t know my heart (my love is so young)

내 맘을 몰라 (my love is so young) I don’t know my heart (so young)

Our love is so young

내 맘을 몰라 (my love is so young) I don’t know my heart (so young)

내 맘을 몰라 (my love is so young) I don’t know my heart (my love is so young)

내 맘을 몰라 (my love is so young) I don’t know my heart (so young)

Our love is so young

내 맘을 몰라 (young love) I don’t know my heart (young love)

Young love young love

Young love

Translators’ Notes: * The word used here is ‘애매한’, a Korean word used to describe something awkward, ambiguous, uncertain, or even in-between. It does not really have a direct English equivalent. When used to describe a relationship, it implies that the relationship between the two is not very clearly defined, and that there is a slight awkward element to their interactions. 2. The Korean plays on the words ‘안에’, meaning ‘inside/within’, and ‘밖에’, meaning ‘outside’. The phrase “너 밖에 없어” in Korean is often used to mean “I have no one but you”, but can also be literally translated to mean “I have none outside you”.

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ginger-snap-talkin-nonsense · 10 months

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If you have to rake all the season of American, dad which season is the best

Oh geez there’s a lot that would go into something like that, I’d have to do a full rewatch of the show. How about a top ten list of the best episodes instead?

1. Jeff Space Arc (Lost in Space)

Jeff Fischer remains the most earnest character in American Dad. While every other member of the smith family is inherently selfish to some degree or another, Jeff is defined by adoring his wife Hayley and loving her family dearly. The Jeff in Space arc is a culmination of this, with several episode dedicated to his journey from space to home after being taken by Rogers people. The episodes are funny and contain a special kind of heart really only reserved for Jeff. The best of these episodes is Lost in Space where his love for his wife is directly called into question and proven without a doubt, but really any episode in this arc is worth a watch.

Cry Baby

Stan Smiths emotional volatility is something the show loves to toy with in its later seasons, and this is one of the funniest. When Stan can’t cry he’s passed up on a mission, so to learn how he enlists his son Steve to teach him empathy. Only to realize that having empathy is too much for him, at which point he tries to remove Steve’s. This episode has nonstop great one liners and is constantly left turning into a new, unexpected joke.

Wild Women Do

Francine and Jeff are both the strongest characters in the Smith family. Francine is a wild card with a crazy past and Jeff is willing to go along with anything if asked. So there’s no better vehicle for fun than these two going out for a wild night on the town.

The Devil Wears A Lapel Pin

Hayley is a character who’s episodes can be hit or miss, but when the show focuses on her relationship with her father it manages to be pretty strong, and this is the apex. When Stan enlists Hayley’s aid as an assistant while making the CIA yearly calendar, Hayley uses it as a chance to get revenge on Stan for his refusal to show pride in her. Great episode, great comedy, and one of my favorite Jeff moments.

LGBSteve

When an all women roller derby team invites him to join their group, Hayley convinces him to join so she can have girl friends. But when Hayley gets jealous of Al the attention Steve gets and outs that he’s a boy, the rest of the team admit that they assumed Steve was trans causing Steve to question his own gender in a positive way, spending with the idea that Steve is comfortable identifying as male but is also comfortable have GNC qualities. It’s really fun and very sweet. Some really solid work on the trans journey and how questioning gender can be very healthy, even if you realize you’re comfortable being cis.

Rubberneckers

Toonrific Tariq once said that American Dads relationship with rap is so complicated it’s kinda impossible to talk about, and that’s certainly true of rubberneckers which is a musical episode featuring everything from R&B, to rap, to hip hop, to gospel style music all centered around the act of “Rubbernecking” and the consequences Stan facing after lying about the cause of an auto accident to his insurance adjuster.

Gold Top Nuts

American Dad pontificates on what it means to be human, to create a society, and to create religion. All with the express purpose of discussing why we can’t just forget the things people have done to us, but we can be kinder in the future and treat people better moving forward

Rabbit Ears

A classic Twilight Zone riff that’s just very solidly made.

The Great Space Roaster

Roger attempts to kill the family after his birthday roast makes him too insecure. Funny ass episode I have no notes.

A Starboy is Born

The Weeknd stars in this episode as himself and sings a song about secretly being a virgin because it gives him magic powers. It’s delightful.

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aurorawinchester-1967 · 9 months

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I'm working on young Sirius Black stuff, and this is something I came up with. I do not agree with JK Rowling at all. My work is in the universe of HP, but it is not even in the timeline. I do not affiliate with that bitch. One of my best friends is trans and he's amazing, and I love him to death. I do not support JK Rowling at all. I just love Harry Potter, and my heart is breaking at the thought of giving it up. I write about this because I love the universe, not the writer or anything she implied in her work.I hope you don't get mad at me for this (writing about HP). I love you all. Thank you for taking the time to read this.

Imagine being Remus' twin and meeting Sirius for the first time.

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Sirius entered his best friend's house with a smile. It was exactly like he'd remembered, the only difference being the loud rock music coming from upstairs.

"Hey, Moony. I didn't know you liked that kind of music." Sirius tells Remus, who sighs.

"That's my sister. She likes rock." The brown haired boy tells his friend.

"Hello, Daddy! Hello, Mom! I'm your Ch-Ch-Ch-Cherrybomb!" Is heard from upstair making the black-haired boy laugh at his friend's annoyed face.

"Hey! Keep it down up there!" Remus yells with a sigh.

Sirius holds in his laugh when the music becomes even louder, and the girl seems to sing as loud as she can to piss off her brother.

"Hello, world! I'm your wild girl! I'm your Ch-Ch-Ch-Cherrybomb!" She yells out, causing Sirius to chuckle.

"She's doing it again, isn't she?" His mother questions as the boy walks the kitchen, causing Remus to nod defeatedly.

"She's been doing that ever since you guys took her wand. She's protesting." Remus tells his mother as he grabs two glass and fills them with water.

"What are you making, Mrs. Lupin?" Sirius questions as he watches her knead some dough.

"Cookies, dear. Y/n has been... in a really bad mood. She hasn't been eating and I'm getting worried. I'm hoping the cookies will at least make her eat a little bit." Mrs. Lupin explains.

"Why isn't she eating?" Remus questions in concern as he gives Sirius his glass of water.

"Andrew cheated on her, and when she called him out on it..." Mrs. Lupin answers only to be cut off with an angry voice.

"That asshole had the nerve to tell me I was a fugly ass bitch and nobody in their right mind would touch me." Y/n snaps from the doorway.

"That wanker is obviously blind." Sirius blurts out his eyes widening.

"Padfoot!" Remus says, giving him a look of disaproval

"I said that out loud." Sirius states as he looks at the h/c-haired girl who chuckles and heads to grab a water bottle from the fridge.

"Yeah, you did. Don't worry tho. I'm flattered you think I'm hot, but sadly for you I don't date my brother's friends." She tells him teasingly patting his shoulder before heading back upstairs.

He stands there frozen in shock.

"I'm gonna go to the loo. You can head upstairs if you want." Remus tells him.

He nods and does as he's told and heads up the stairs when a tune comes on. He follows the music to the first door to the right and smiles in amusement at the sight in front of him.

Y/n is standing on her bed dancing and flipping her hair wildly as she sings into a hair brush. The red nightgown she's wearing leaves little for the imagination.

"I don't give a damn about my reputation! You're living in the past it's a new generation! A girl can do what she wants to do and that's what I'm gonna do. And I don't give a damn about my reputation! Oh no, not me. Oh no, not me. An' I don't give a damn 'bout my reputation! Never said I wanted to improve my station! An' I'm only doin' good when I'm havin' fun. An' I don't have to please no one. An' I don't give a damn 'bout my bad reputation!" She sings, jumping around like a maniac.

"Oh no, no, no, no, not me, oh no, no, no, no, not me. I don't give a damn 'bout my reputation! I've never been afraid of any deviation! An' I don't really care if you think I'm strange! I ain't gonna change!" Her singing comes to a halt when she jumps and spots Sirius watching her from the doorway with an amused look etched on his face.

She lets out a yelp as she loses her balance and falls off the bed and sharply to the floor.

"Are you ok?" Sirius questions as he rushes over causing her to blush.

"Peachy. How long have you been standing there?" She pries, causing him to grin.

"Enough to see those beautiful dance moves." He teases, causing Y/n to sigh.

"There goes my dignity." She states, smiling as he pulls her up.

"What are you guys doing?" Remus pipes up from the doorway, startling them.

"Rem! Get out!" She exclaims, yanking herself away from Sirius like she'd been burned. She blushes and looks at Remus.

"Y/n/n! no!" Her twin says causing her to huff in annoyance.

"What happened?" Remus repeats.

"She fell off the bed and hit her head. I saw her fall and helped her up." Sirius explains causing Remus to chuckle.

"You're such a klutz." He tells Y/n who rolls her eyes.

"Wow, thanks for the concern, you wanker." She says sarcastically.

"You are very welcome." He tells her mimicking her tone.

"Mutt." She insults, causing him to scoff in mock offence. He knew his sister was just messing with him.

"Dumbass." He states.

Sirius attempts not to laugh as he watches the two sibblings fight back and forth.

"Loser." She shot back as she looks at her twin.

"Takes one to know one." He smirks at her teasingly.

"Smartass." She snaps, crossing her arms in front of her chest.

"At least one of us is smart. The other one's braindead." He sasses causing her to let out an offended noise and chuck her pillow at him.

"Dickhead!" She yells at him before they both break out laughing.

"Now, that one hurt. Padfoot, pass her over." Remus tells his friend who looks at the girl who shakes her head.

"Sorry, love." He say as he goes to grab her only for her to push him back and run towards her brother, sliding between his legs and kicking him into Sirius.

"I'm gonna get you." Sirius yells running after her as she squeals and runs down the stairs.

Sirius slides down the railing and follows her to the kitchen. He manages to catch up with her and pin her against the counter.

"Got you, Y/n/n." He says with a smug look on his face.

"You sure?" She questions with a smirk reaching behind her.

He raises an inquisitive brow only to gasp in shock as she throws a handful of flour at his face.

He stares at her for a moment before smirking and doing the same to her.

Next thing you know they start throwing flour at eachother, accidentally hitting Remus who walks into the room and joins them.

"Oh my god! What happened to you guys?" Mrs. Lupin yells as she sees the horrifying mess in her kitchen.

They all freeze at look at eachother for a minute before bursting out in laughter.

Mrs. Lupin shakes her head and chuckles before ushering them out of the kitchen.

"You know, I never caught your name." Y/n questions as she looks at Sirius who smirks.

"It's Sirius." He introduces making her smile.

"Pleasure to meet you, Starshine." She tells him causing his nose to scrunch up.

"Starshine?" He questions in confusion.

"Yeah, you're named after a star after all. And you also have a shiny personality." She tells him, causing him to smile.

"I'm gonna take the first shower... you guys aren't listening so I'm just gonna go. Use protection!" Remus shouts, only the end of his rent catching their attention.

"Huh?" They both exclaim looking at the bathroom door then at eachother with a smile.

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I apologise for any spelling mistakes in advance. English is not my first language. I'd like to thank my friend who encouraged me to post this. Please do not steal my work. I work really hard on these one-shots. Reblogs are welcomed tho. 😁

@hurlonsororitygirls @locopollito1967

#young!sirius black #young sirius x reader #sirius black #marauders #padfoot #young sirius black

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lithellyl · 2 months

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so I was just playing around making this song for my own private amusement, but you know what? with the recent tumblr news I think this needs to be released to the public so here you go everyone, a Tumblr Exclusive track, the group may be fake but the sentiment is real! FUCKdaTERFS! spread this track around! make it go viral! lyrics Yo, it's time to drop some knowledge,

what you got to say girl!?! FUCK

da TERFS, we gon' educate, eradicate the hate. Transphobes talkin' trash, tryna bring us down, But we rise above, stand tall, wear the crown. TERFS be trippin', spreadin' ignorance like a disease, But we won't back down, we break through with ease. In the face of prejudice, we pave the way, Love and acceptance, our weapons every day. Gender norms shattered, like glass ceilings we break, A united front, for equality's sake. Educate the masses, change hearts and minds, Empathy and compassion, the ties that bind. Intersectionality, our strength and guide, Together we march, side by side. Dismantling stereotypes, one by one, Inclusion and justice, the battle won. No room for hate, only room to grow, With every step forward, our true colors show. So let the haters talk, we won't be swayed, Our movement's momentum, can't be betrayed. With resilience and pride, we claim our space, In this world of love, we embrace. Bigoted haters, your time is up, FUCK da TERFS, we're here to disrupt.

FUCK da TERFS!!! we gon' break the chains, FUCK da TERFS!!! Stand up for love, in the face of the pain. FUCK da TERFS!!!! Transphobia, bigotry, we'll never yield, FUCK da TERFS, In this rap game, our truth is revealed.

They talk about chromosomes, like it's the only truth, But we break the binary, redefine the booth. Transgender warriors, we on the frontline, Speak our truth loud, let the haters whine. They fear what they don't understand, But we stand united, a powerful band. They say we're out of order, like a glitch in the matrix , But we rewrite the code, defy their outdated basis. Binary minds stuck in a time warp, While we elevate, they stumble, trying to absorb. Labels can't define us, we transcend the norms, Non-binary rebels, breaking down the doors. Haters throwing shade, but we're the sunlight, Shattering the ignorance, taking flight. Paving our own path, leaving trails of pride, In a world that tried to confine, we'll always reside. No apologies, we wear our colors with grace, Transcending the hate, winning this race. We're the future, fluidity in our veins, In this rap game, rewriting the reins. They fear the unknown, but we're the revelation, Transcending boundaries, rewriting the equation. So keep talking chromosomes, stuck in the past, We'll be making history, breaking through the cast Love is love, that's the anthem we sing, FUCK da TERFS, watch us take wing.

We won't let the hate dictate our fate, Educate, elevate, it's never too late. Trans rights, are human rights, we all equal, FUCK da TERFS!, make 'em feel the sequel. Sweet Ayngel's on the mic, and she got a message for you Here's the message, loud and clear, To the bigots and TERFS, you should fear. We stand together, a force to be reckoned, FUCK da TERFS, our love's never second. Transphobia ain't got no place, In our world, it's love we embrace. So step aside, haters, make some space, FUCK da TERFS, we're winning this race. In the face of ignorance, we rise above, Breaking through barriers with the power of love. Unified and strong, breaking the chains, FUCK da TERFS, rewriting the lanes. No room for hate, just pride in our stride, With every step forward, we'll never hide. Equality and justice, our battle cry, FUCK da TERFS, reaching for the sky. Through the storms and the struggles we face , Our resilience shines, leaving no trace. Dismantling prejudice, piece by piece, FUCK da TERFS,, our unity won't cease. In a world divided, we stand tall, Breaking down walls, we won't fall. For every heart that beats in sync, FUCK da TERFS,, it's time to rethink. So let the rhythm of acceptance play, FUCK da TERFS,, we're here to stay. In this anthem of love, our voices soar, Creating a world where all can explore. where all can explore.

So let the beat drop, as we rise above, FUCK da TERFS, cause we're out here spreading nothing but love up in this piece. for all y;all who think we playing a little rough? , Transphobic haters, you've had enough. that's what I came to say Stonewall was a motherfuckin' riot! beyotch! throw a brick

#trans #transgender #trans woman #transgirl #transfem #transisbeautiful #mtf trans #trans pride #transgurl #we will not be silenced #fuck the terfs #fuck the haters #fuck the bigots

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missyourflight · 10 months

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some stuff i read and watched in june:

taskmaster (s1-5): haven't done an early seasons rewatch in so long, s4 and 5 are basically perfect 2 me. incredible that mark watson manages to be both my favourite type of taskmaster guy (hopelessly despairing) and also nearly won the thing lol. nish forever obviously

silo: got well into this! probably at some point apple will stop throwing millions at sci-fi shows but i'm going to enjoy their folly in the meantime

mission: impossible ii: hadn't seen this one! the weakest of the lot but the john woo of it all is undeniable

mission: impossible iii: PSH outrageously good as the villain, hi keri russell

mission: impossible - ghost protocol: so much fun, especially the sequences where you can see brad bird's animation brain going

mission: impossible - rogue nation: ILSA my beloved, the opera sequence is so gorgeous, no notes!

mission: impossible - fallout: it's good when henry cavill reloads his arms, it's better when tom cruise is sprinting around london rooftops and breaking his ankle etc, my most basic trait is that i Love when they're in london like oooh tate modern. anyway i'm very ready for dead reckoning

asteroid city: the bits about making art really got to me! the vending machines were cool!

joint security area: crash landing on you prepared me for this, blank check weren't lying when they said it was homoerotic, song kang-ho forever etc

dodie smith, the town in bloom: the most delightful narrative voice i've read in Ages and v funny. easy to sell me on 1920s theatrical shenanigans

k patrick, mrs s: So hot and butch, i liked the butch friendship stuff almost more than the sex stuff. more sexy lesbian novels Please

kj charles, the secret lives of country gentlemen: another winner from KJC, my most reliable romantic comfort reads. this time it's smugglers!

alice slater, death of a bookseller: sticky little thriller about being poisoned by true crime, great sense of place, So many pints of dark fruits

laura kay, wild things: bisexual disaster in love with her best friend, tragically very me- and also george russell-coded, god i want to swim in a pond again

SOME STUFF I SAW AT ROCK WERCHTER

the dj on the first nigt who played a mash up of i'm gonna be (500 miles) into temperature and then the 1d cover of one way or another into little lion man (deeply cursed fandom flashbacks etc)

weyes blood with candelabras and glowing hearts and amazing adam curtis projections on the big screen behind her

king princess sending the gay girls of belgium absolutely wild - "you wanna hear a sad lesbian song?"

matty healy is a dickhead but he's very good at being the frontman of the 1975. like if ben whishaw was straight and kind of disgusting

stormzy!!! literally the rain was pouring during blinded by your grace pt 2

mumford and sons - this whole festival was like being borne back ceaseless into the past but the cave still fucks me up, marcus really in his ken marino era, face-wise

PUP - i do believe if this tour doesn't kill you, i will to be a wholly perfect song, they had a trans flag on stage, best vibes of the festival

sigur ros - sometimes you just want to be in a massive barn with thousands of people with your faces turned up in the dark feeling like you're inside the sound somehow

muse - fucking incredible live band still!! every time i'm see them i'm floored by how hot chris the bassist is and then i forget about it and then i see them again and i'm poleaxed etc. they had a tech meltdown during knights of cydonia at the encore so we got showbiz instead!!

christine and the queens - beautiful and terrible as the dawn

jacob collier - asked if we wanted to get funky then put on a special hat, bit george russell-coded in the face

arctic monkeys - sometimes you just want to be in a field with one of your oldest friends singing the songs of your youth!! i love the 70s act actually! there are so many sexy songs on AM!! the skies finally cleared for the beautiful full moon, thank you belgium, good night

#monthly media #sophposting

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