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stargazedwinchester · 3 months

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Womanhood | Dean

Summary: Dean helps to comfort you during your time of the month, without much experience about periods, he tries his best.

This is a little different to the actual request, I hope that’s okay! I’ve tried my best to replicate it though :) Let me know if you want Sam’s/Cas’s version too!

Based off of this request here, thanks!!

Word count: 1,134

Warnings: some swearing, not loads!

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This morning, you woke up with the most unbearable pain, cramps that felt like your appendix had ruptured. You groan in pain, hoping it would subside soon. You clutch your belly and slowly get out of bed. Your alarm clock flashes 7:39am, and you let your head fall. “I love when I have no sleep,” you mumble to yourself, letting out a huff. Looking behind you, Dean isn’t passed out, snoring so loud it would’ve probably woke you up anyway. You hold your belly and walk out toward the kitchen.

“Morning,” you grumble, and Dean turns around from the stove. His face lit up seeing you at the doorframe, your hair a mess and in one of his spare Star Wars t-shirts and your own pyjama shorts. “Someone’s looking rough.” He jokes, noticing you’re not smiling back. “Aw honey, what’s wrong?” He asks, his smile quickly fading. The smell of breakfast hovers over you, like it’s mocking your morning sickness. “I think I’m coming on my period today…” you say, and Dean turns round to face you, letting the eggs and bacon sizzle quietly on the stove. Toast pings out of the toaster at the same time. “Are you sure you’ll be okay for today’s hunt? If you’re in pain, I’m sure Sammy and I will handle it fine.” He genuinely looks concerned, as if you haven’t had plenty of periods before. It hurt like hell, sure, but you could manage just fine. Along with the fact that periods can make you super emotional and/or angry, you were certain it could come in handy when killing a couple of monsters.

“I’ll be fine Dean, honestly. I want to come with you both.” You smile, leaning over the counter top. Dean nods in agreement. “It’s always fun having you around. If you change your mind just let us know, okay?” He shoots you a quick grin before turning back to the stove, plating up your breakfast. “Where’s Sam?” You question, usually he’s already by the table reading his favourite book or getting ready to go out for his morning jog. “I think he went for a shower, I’m not sure.” Dean spins round and passes you a plate with 2 slices of toast, egg, bacon and hash browns. “Wow, this looks really good, Dean. Thank you.” You smile warmly at him, and he returns the gesture.

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Your rapid breathing causes you to hunch over and rest your hands on your thighs, you take a deep breath. “God damn…” you say, looking up at Sam, who’s right in front of you. “What a kill!” You chuckle to yourself, wiping your hair out of your face. You stand up, giving Sam a high-five. “Good job, Y/N. It’s like you don’t need our help.”

“I know, right? I’m just that go-“ “Y/N! Watch out!” Sam cocks his gun and tries to shove you out of the way, a sudden loud bang shocks you as you feel something sharp pierce your skin abruptly. You fall over, Dean rushing to your side. “I’ll cover you, Dean, make sure she’s okay!” Sam quickly checks back at you, noticing blood is pouring out of our calf.

“Fuck. Y/N, are you okay? Does it hurt?” He panics, shuffling over to apply pressure on your leg. He rummages in his pocket for a handkerchief and immediately applies it to your wound, he rushes to whip his belt off and tie it tight enough around your leg to hopefully stop the bleeding. You can practically see the fear in his eyes, and you laugh quietly.

“What’s so funny, huh? Almost dying?” His hands shake, trying to keep the pressure on your leg at all times.

“I’m not gonna die, Dean. It’s just a gunshot. Stop worrying,”

You place your hand on his, and he gazes at you with so much worry. His gorgeous hunter green eyes comfort you, even though he’s feeling the complete opposite. You pull your hand up to his face and caress his cheek, he finally shows some sign of calming down. It’s like his whole body relaxes by just your touch. “I’ve honestly felt worse.” You joke, slowly moving your body to sit up. You wince, feeling cramp in both of your abdomen and your leg. “Help me get up,” you say, and Dean pulls you up, anchoring you from underneath, your arm draped behind his back. “Let’s get you home.” He says, catching his eye on Sam, making his way back inside.

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It had been a few hours since you arrived back at the bunker, you lay across the sofa, clasping your belly as the cramps still hadn't subsided. Your leg, however, had been patched up neatly by Sam, and were given some painkillers for it. It didn't seem to work that well.

"How're you feeling?" Dean pats your foot, walking past the sofa to perch himself on the very little space left on the armrest. "I feel like I've been shot in two different areas," You try to joke, but it only makes Dean glare at you, waiting for a real answer.

"Could you get me some period pads, or tampons, please? Either work," You state, trying to sit up. "Uh, yeah, I can do that. What... size?" Dean looks puzzled, which only makes you smile. "Regular, Dean. Get the ones with wings."

Dean stands up and gathers his thoughts. "Pads with wings. Tampons with wings. Got it. I think." He places his hands on his hips and looks to the ground, then to you. He smiles lovingly. "I'll be right back." He says, before grabbing his flannel and exiting the door.

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An hour or so had gone by, and you hadn't moved from the sofa. your cramps have worsened to the point of also giving you a headache. You hear the door open, then close. Dean's back from the store, and he's got a white carrier bag full of items. "I'm back," He chuckles, "Got you a few things." He walks up to the sofa, laying the bag on the coffee table next to you. "Oh, Dean, you didn't have to..." You trail, as he takes out chocolate, a small teddy bear with a t-shirt that reads 'Get Well Soon' with a small red heart underneath it. He had also bought you the pads that you had asked for, aspirin, fresh bandages for your leg and a small bunch of red roses.

Your smile gleamed as your eyes met his. "You really didn't have to." Your voice almost a whisper, and he moves closer to you. "I know, but I wanted to." He smiles, leaning in to give you a quick kiss.

"Thank you." You say, reaching your hand up to the nape of his neck, pulling him in for one more.

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ladymarycrawley · 2 years

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Mummy was mine first - Mason Mount

Request: I have a request of a drunk Mason with his newly pregnant girlfriend - him getting all emotional thinking the new baby will take his girl away from him. Stuff like lifting her shirt and talking to his baby saying things like “remember your mummy was mine first 🥺”

Warning: Mason may sound like a prick in this but it was just for the sake of the story 💔

Tag list: @masonxomount @chelsealover @masterclassbaby

The moment you told Mason you were pregnant with your first child, he swore he couldn’t have been happier. He was literally on cloud nine, eager to live that unique and special experience with you, the love of his life.

As most of the things we have to deal with throughout our lifetime, it wasn’t all fun and games as expected. Actually you had to deal with a lot of changes that would come as the result of your newly found condition: the mood swings, the cravings, all the shopping for the baby, all the readings on how to teach things to your baby, how to grow him up perfectly and, at last but not least, all the potential dangers you had to be careful of.

It was a hell of a ride but it was worth it in the end, or that’s what you hoped at least.

He was absolutely crazy for you and he wanted to remember that image of you forever. Mason grabbed his Polaroid and took the most beautiful pictures of you naked, with your hair dishevelled on the pillow, the white bed sheets covering your lower body as you let your hands caress your baby bump.

In that moment the English footballer swore he never saw a woman as gorgeous as you, he really meant it when he said that the pregnancy made you even more beautiful than you already were. He thought it turned you into a goddess, as he couldn’t care less about the commonly called flaws you always complained about such as your stretch marks, your swollen feet, the extra weight you gained. He took every chance he got to make you feel loved, to give love to every inch of your body.

You sighed and shook your head as you got seated on the bed, looking for your t-shirt.

“Mason, stop it”

“You’re stunning, come on!” He giggled, holding the camera with one hand and lifting your chin up with the other, holding then your face in place to kiss you on the lips.

Mason shot a couple more pictures of you before putting the camera to the side and starting to kiss you passionately.

He was standing before you, balancing himself with his right leg bent over the mattress, at the side of your thigh.

The ardour that inflamed your kiss was so strong he straddled you, hovering over you, always being careful of your bump.

He gently led you towards the soft surface beneath, so you could be in a more comfortable position while he made you feel his love.

You didn’t have the slightest intention to move, you just wanted to stay there basking in the relaxing yet exciting feelings only he could give you. Your legs were loosely wrapped around his middle as his right hand was delicately keeping your thigh up while the left one was holding your arms back on the blanket, above your head.

A moan escaped your lips as you felt his fingers fiddling with your knickers.

During the pregnancy, even if it was something common for most women, you started developing a sense of discomfort towards your body: it was inevitably changing but, since you've never been that self confident, those major changes were only increasing the doubts about the beauty or the attractiveness of your curves.

Mason was willing to do everything that was in his power to make you enjoy sex without making you feel guilty, embarrassed or in pain. That's why you spent a whole afternoon on a website the ob gyn suggested you to have pregnant sex safely, to learn all the pros and cons of such a pleasurable activity during a time where things might have gotten a little more difficult.

Whenever your mind took you back to that afternoon you couldn't help but smile, both because it was a funny memory and because seeing Mason so careful and attentive towards you to make you feel better, filled your heart with more love. But reading advice and theories was a thing, putting them into practice was another, even more so since your belly was getting bigger, leading you through the third trimester.

“Mase, the -”

“Yep, the belly is in the way, I know” You both giggled, Mason was really caught up in the moment he didn’t think about the six (nearly seven) months belly you had to deal with.

He sighed, sitting on the bed again.

"It's not just that, my back hurts a little more today"

Mason helped you up, careful not to hurt you, massaging your aching muscles.

"I just ruined your sex drive" You let out in a low voice, feeling kind of bad.

"Hey hey, you didn't ruin anything, that's okay" He kissed your temple in the sweetest way. "Here, let's see if this one is more comfortable" Mason gestured for you to lay back on the pillows he put there to ease your back pain so your body was resting on the edge of the bed while his body was standing before yours, a little bent over.

You smiled at each other until your boyfriend's lips moved upwards to kiss your forehead, tracing your jaw next and ending on your neck.

In order not to weigh on your stomach, Mason kneeled down on your bedroom floor as his hands were on your hips and his mouth was leaving little hot kisses and bites against the soft skin of your thighs.

You would have liked to have sex with your boyfriend so bad but apparently your body didn't have the same intention: apart from the back pain, there were also those hateful little voices in your head the kept on saying you were embarrassing, that you didn't deserve the hot man which was your boyfriend to to make love to you because you were obscene, which wasn't the truth of course.

"I - I can't do it" You placed your hands on Mason's shoulders to make him stop.

He raised his head, frowning at your sudden halt.

"Sorry babe, I can't do this" You sniffled in the attempt not to burst out crying.

"That's okay" Mason said in a low voice, getting back on his feet and helping you up.

Various thoughts were beginning to crowd Mason's head too: he started asking himself what could have possibly gone wrong, weren't you really okay or was he just underestimating some signals he should have been careful of? You weren't attracted to him anymore??

He tried to fight all that brainwork while helping you get your clothes back on, doing the same with himself some minutes later.

"I'm sorry Mase, I really wanted to do that but -"

"I know, I know. Don't worry, it's fine" He faked a smile and left a gentle peck over your lips before leaving your bedroom and going to his game room. He needed to distract his mind a bit and maybe you needed some time alone too.

You huffed and went to the bathroom to fill the bath tub with some hot water and a rose scented water bomb to relax your sore body and your tired mind all the same. Warm water would also reduce some of the weight your spine had to sustain whic was a huge relief, making bath time something you had been really looking forward to at least once a day.

The last thing on your mind was upsetting Mason but you were sure he would have understood how you were feeling during that delicate moment.

In the other room, Mason’s attempt not to dwell on what happened an hour ago didn’t work as he was there, with his headphones on, his fingers shifting over the controller, his stare fixed on the screen before him but his mind was still on you. He knew a thing as big as the arrival of a baby would have changed your priorities but it didn’t want you to change the way you looked at him: he still wanted to be your hero, your everything, he was afraid he wasn’t ready to leave hthe place in your heart for the baby girl who would have been there in a couple of months.

Maybe he was just a bit moody, maybe he was being childish but that concern was something that had been keeping him awake for a whole week now.

Mason turned off the console, putting away all the other devices he used during game time and started wandering around the house looking for you as he came to the conclusion that the best and wisest thing he could do was sharing what his real thoughts were with you, the love of his life and the mum of his daughter.

“Y/N?”

The first room he checked in was the right one as he pushed the bathroom’s door ajar open and the image of you, standing applying some moisturising over your legs, welcomed him.

A small smile appeared on his lips as he entered the room wrapped in a cloud of heat reminding him you liked to take your shower and bath in hot, very hot water.

“Why didn’t you call me to help you get out of the tub?”

“Didn’t want to disturb you plus I’ve managed to do it myself” You say, a small note of pride in your voice.

Mason’s eyes roamed over your body, taking in your every movement and passing you the clean underwear and pajamas (that is to say a pair of joggers and one of his t-shirts) for the night.

"This may sound weird but... I don't like thieves"

"What?" You stopped massaging your face with the night lotion in order to understand what Mason was meaning with that apparent nonsense sentence he just spoke.

"Yeah I don't like people that steal things from me"

"Mason, are you okay? Who stole you what?"

He scoffed, somehow annoyed. He blankly stared down at his feet, as a child would do once getting scolded over something.

"The baby"

"Mase baby, sorry but I'm afraid I don't follow you"

You really were clueless about what he was complaining about, feeling a bit powerless too as you wanted to help him but it seemed kind of hard doing so with him not being clear about what his problem was. You noticed there was something weird in him that day but didn't understand what.

He huffed, getting closer to your body leaning against the basin, looking in the mirror in front of you reflecting both his pout and your frown.

Mason looked down at your exposed collarbone before moving a strand of hair behind your ear. He then laid his head where his glance was, uttering against your skin. "I don't want her to take you away from me"

"Oh Mase" You cooed. He was the cutest human being ever in that moment. He didn't seem like a man who was about to become a dad at all, he felt like a kid who's about to become the older brother and doesn’t want the newcomer to steal his parents' affection.

You started scratching the back of his neck affectionately, placing lingering kisses on the top of his head.

"I can assure you nothing bad will happen. She won't take me away from you, no one will ever. You two will be the most precious humans in my life, I'll love you more than words can express and I'll cherish every moment with the both of you"

Your lips took the place of your fingers, leaving kiss after kiss on his nape, where his hair was the shortest.

Mason sighed, a sad but relieved sigh, as if your remarks comforted him but he wasn't sure enough, as if he needed some more encouraging and endearing words from you.

"You know I love you, right?"

"I don't know"

"What does it mean you don't know??" Your tone feigning shock and disbelief.

"I don't know if you'll love her more than me"

"Oh…you're more of a child than the one I'm carrying in my belly, I swear"

He rolled his eyes at the sarcasm you were using to answer his apparently silly worry. Your reaction made him feel unappreciated, as you didn’t care enough about what caused him that sense of uneasiness.

Mason left you there standing in the bathroom as he let his stressed limbs lay on the soft bed in your bedroom.

“Mase? Are you serious?” You followed him in your room.

“Nevermind, don’t fell like talking now” He uttered, his words muffled as he was keeping his face flat against his pillow.

“Oh my goodness” You closed your eyes, stroking the bridge of your nose back and forth with your finger. The way he was acting was becoming rather annoying, to be honest, and you were too tired to fight for a useless cause with a grown man that was just, in your opinion, throwing a tantrum. “Okay. I’ll be on the sofa eating ice-cream and watching Netflix, if you wanna talk you know where to find me”

You left him there and went to take your spot on the grey sofa downstairs, ready to binge watch the latest season of Derry Girls while scoffing down what was left of your beloved brownie and cookie ice-cream that became a must of your pregnancy by now.

If there was something you hated dealing with was discussing with Mason especially now, where the smallest of inconvenience would bring tears to your eyes.

The moment your view was interrupted by the sound of his footsteps approaching, you sighed under your breath, determined to act as if you hadn't heard him. Until when he took a seat beside you and you felt his eyes burning through you.

“Do you want a spoonful?” You asked him to break the ice.

“Nope, I’d never steal my baby mama’s favourite ice-cream”

That line was supposed to bring a smile to your face and it succeeded in doing so.

“Stop talking about stealing”

You averted your sight from the screen only when Mason placed his head on your thighs, making the butterflies in your stomach come alive.

With your one free hand, you started stroking his cheeks, moving them to massage his scalp.

“What’s troubling you, Mase?”

After you heard him emitting a loud sigh you knew the thing was getting serious so you just paused the tv to have your full attention set on him.

“It’s just - I’m afraid the miss here will steal you from me, that you’ll give her all your love and attention and when it comes to me you’ll be too tired to even look at me”

“Mase -”

“I’m so worried about this, Y/N. I know, this may sound as something childish or immature but I don’t want anything to change between us, apart from changing nappies and things like that”

You let out a soft chuckle and shifted in your seat to face him, as he had gotten up from your lap to seat properly.

“Look, I didn't mean to be harsh earlier, I’m sorry, but you hurt me when you said you weren’t sure whether I loved her more than you. I meant it when I said I’ll love you more than words can ever say. The baby will need all our attention and love and maybe yes, it’ll arrive a moment when we’ll be too tired to even kiss each other goodnight but it’s part of the process”

“I know but…I’m sorry, I wasn’t the one talking, it felt as if someone just took over me and spoke words I didn’t mean to say. I know it’s not easy having to deal with that ever growing belly but sometimes I just feel like I’m not doing enough to make you feel good and I hate that. I know she’ll need all our love, I’ve started loving her the moment you told me we would’ve become parents but sorry...I’ve been feeling weird lately” ”

The promise you made yourself not to cry, failed miserably and your orbs started getting watery with tears.

“You have nothing to reproach yourself for, Mason, really. It’s just - oh great, I’m a mess and she started kicking like a fucking footballer”

Mason chuckled and he promptly put his hand over the hump she formed pressing her feet against your belly.

“She learnt from the best” He wiggled his eyebrows.

“The fact is that…I appreciate every little thing you do to make my pregnancy a little more bearable and I’m so grateful for you, every single moment of my life but the truth is I don’t appreciate my changing body as much as you do and I always feel hideous, I’m really embarrassed of myself... the thought you want to make love to me feels absurd to me” You burst out crying and Mason had to hug you tightly to calm you down. “I’m sorry, I didn’t want to make all of this about me”

“That’s okay and stop feeling sorry for everything. I love you so fucking much. I’m the one who has to be sorry” He let his lips linger against your forehead, detaching from your body when he felt your baby’s kick against his ribcage which was where your belly was leaning against.

He lowered himself further so his face was now at the same height as your stomach, lifting your t-shirt up so your bump was on full display. The moment Mason’s strokes met your swollen skin, your daughter calmed down a bit, giving you a rest.

“I think she’s a bit angry” You said, adjusting yourself against the armrest of the sofa so you could spread your bent legs more to let Mason make himself comfortable against your own body.

“Oh, daddy made you angry? I’m so sorry, sweetheart. Daddy didn’t mean to make his little princess angry, nor your mummy... it’s just that he loves your mummy so much…remember she was mine first, okay?”

“If I didn’t know you, I’d think you are drunk”

“I’m drunk in love”

“Oh Mase…”

“And now please baby, behave and don’t hurt mama cause she and dada have things to do”

“What kind of things do we have to do?”

“The ones where dada helps mama to love herself more…”

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ilovedthestars · 8 months

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the absolute BEST part of finally reading imperial radch (i finished the ancillary trilogy!!! and turns out there's MORE?!) is getting to go back and look again at all the funny posts and stunning fanart that have been slowly convincing me to read it. this was how i got into murderbot first too (saw so much fanart and meta about it on tumblr that i had to read it, instead of the other way around) and even though it had its downsides (i spoiled myself on all the good twists in murderbot lol) i genuinely think this might be the best kind of media experience for me in terms of excitement and fun. because i know in advance that people love it and there's a community already built around it that i can dive into right away, and often i've already had some emotions about the characters just from seeing some gorgeous fanart, so when I get to those characters or scenes they hit even harder because i already care about them. and then i get to go back and look at all those things with fresh eyes, and understand all the layers of meaning now that i didn't get before, and that is so satisfying and rewarding to me.

anyway, hello imperial radch fandom!!!! i'm here now and i'm going to spend the next couple days shouting in the tags of all the cool fanart that made me read the books (thank you thank you thank you to @grammarpedant who started putting an excellent stream of imperial radch posts on my dash the second i finished the trilogy, you are the sweetest ever <3). i may already have a fanart idea of my own sketched out and it might be very ambitious and i may be considering actually teaching myself how to use clip studio paint for it. if there's fanart or fanfic you think i HAVE to see then send it to me please (even if we are strangers, it's not weird, i will think you are so cool!) (person i don't really know who already DM'd me an imperial radch post when i mentioned it the other day: i think you are so cool) i am going to see if i can ride this enthusiasm far enough that it becomes a long term obsession.

#stars rambles #imperial radch #there's SO MUCH COOL FANART #and i KNOW WHAT IT MEANS NOW #these books are so good you guys #the murderbot parallels are REAL #i have provenance and translation state on request from the library now #when they arrive i will be unstoppable #this is the most run on sentence post i've ever made and i will not apologize for it

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douglas-rain · 21 days

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Top Five Douglas Rain Recommendations From Yours Truly

You want to see more of Douglas Rain, but you're not sure where to start? Well, do I have the thing for you! As the internet's most preeminent Douglas Rain expert (except for Gerry Flahive I guess, but he's kind of slow at answering emails and more focused on other stuff these days. If he wants to reclaim the title, he can meet me in the parking lot <3), I've made you a handy little list of some of my personal favourite performances by DR that I think you should see and/or hear!

And by 'little' I mean 'I got way too into this, so it's pretty long now'. I put it under a cut; you're welcome.

In the interest of fairness, I've chosen one performance from each of his fields of work (namely: ON STAGE, RADIO WORK, DOCUMENTARY NARRATION, TELEVISION and FILM). Please know, however, that I can give reviews of basically everything in the masterpost, so if you're interested in hearing about any of them, feel free to shoot me an ask!

Without further ado, let's get into it...

ON STAGE: Henry V (1966)

Okay, this one's teeeechnically a TV movie, but it's adapted from Stratford's staged production, so I'm counting it. It's also a rare treat in that we get to see DR in colour! (Everybody say THANK YOU to David Rain, his son, for bullying the Festival into restoring this production and adding it to their online catalogue. I owe him my life.)

This is one of Shakespeare's histories, part of the Henriad (aka the collection of plays about the accomplishments of various English kings). Henry V, the main guy in this one, is actually the crowned version of Prince Hal from both parts of Henry IV, a role that DR had played previously at Stratford, so this is a fun bit of character continuity for him! The play centres around the king's invasion of France, with a lot of ruminating on hope and despair and duty and bravery. Harry - as he is affectionately referred to on occasion - is really going through it, and DR portrays him with such emotional intensity. He's proud, he's fierce, he's clever, he's a BITCH and I like him SO MUCH.

The book has been edited down slightly to fit into a two hour runtime for television, but beyond a few... very funny jumpcuts, it's not really noticeable at all. And while the sets are kept mostly simple, the costumes are gorgeous. I went in not expecting much (a mistake I keep making when approaching Shakespeare plays, for some reason lol), and was thoroughly entertained the whole way through!

It also contains the transcendentally funny line, "Tennis balls, my liege!" because Shakespeare was the most hysterical motherfucker on planet Earth. It makes sense in context, I promise.

Can be found on Stratfest@Home, the online streaming service of the Stratford Festival (there's a 7-day free trial period if you sign up). You may also check my masterpost of performances for a possible alternative, but shhh.

RADIO WORK: Fifth Business (1980)

I love this one; it's literally so fucking funny. This radio play is a dramatisation of the 1970 novel of the same name by Robertson Davies. Fifth Business recounts the life story of Dunstable "Dunstan" Ramsay, from his boyhood in an idyllic (on the surface only) Canadian village to his experiences in the First World War, his career as a teacher and all the loves and complications he runs into, and the formative experiences peppering his life where he's never quite the main character. He is instead 'fifth business' - neither hero nor villain, but still integral to resolving the play's plot. Ramsay is clever, sarcastic and a goddamn weirdo who's obsessed with saints for non-religious reasons. He dodged a snowball as a kid and the consequences of that haunt him throughout the entire book.

The radio drama features a whole cast of actors, including of course DR as the protagonist (who also narrates everything btw), doing an absolutely delightful job. Fellow Stratford actress Martha Henry, who also happened to be his wife at the time, is in it too!

The entire drama is delightful, honestly. I liveblogged my experience listening to it for the first time, and man there is some wild shit happening in this novel. The entire things is about three and a half hours, but it really doesn't feel that long.

Can be found (in eight parts) on YouTube or on Archive.org. (Or in a junkbox on a sidewalk in Toronto. I'm still baffled by that.)

DOCUMENTARY NARRATION: Universe (1960)

A classic. Documentaries make up a sizeable chunk of the masterpost (thanks to the NFB website and archive channels on YouTube), so there were more options in this category than in any of the others. But I decided to go with this particular gem of a documentary.

It's about - who would have guessed - the universe, featuring the most advanced scientific knowledge of planets and stars at the time. The special effects are also quite impressive - if you move around Space Odyssey circles, you may have heard that the visuals of this documentary were a major inspiration for 2001. Also, DR's narration in Universe is what brought him to Stanley Kubrick's attention. You can probably guess how that ended. (Gerry Flahive has some articles about the whole thing if you don't.)

Anyway, Universe is a beautiful and meditative look at our galaxy and the many things it contains, and DR's narration is absolutely lovely. It clocks in at just under half an hour, so not that big of a time commitment either.

Can be found on YouTube or on the NFB website.

TELEVISION: William Lyon Mackenzie: A Friend To His Country (1961)

It's so hard to find old Canadian TV shows anywhere online and I'm forever bitter about it. Our options here are incredibly limited as a result, so you're just going to have to accept that I'm recommending you a historical short film from 1961, alright? This is as difficult for me as it is for you.

Unsurprisingly, this movie is about William Lyon Mackenzie, who was... *checks Wikipedia* "a Scottish Canadian-American journalist and politician." Yes, DR is doing a Scottish accent in this role. Yes, I adore it. I know very little about Canadian history, so I can't exactly speak to the film's accuracy, but I found it charming and DR is doing a very good job. Most of the half hour runtime is spent on Mackenzie's various political struggles (some sort of failed revolution, I gather, followed by exile in the United States and some jailtime) and him trying to protect his family. His wife is played by Canadian actress Kate Reid in this movie, which I personally find very funny for... reasons. IYKYK.

Can be found on YouTube or on the NFB website.

FILM: OEDIPUS REX (1957)

I'm sort of cheating again, but the only other options in this category that I have access to are the two Space Odyssey movies, and they seemed like too basic of a choice. So have some more drama instead! This is also a filmed version of one of Stratford's plays, but released in theatres this time.

Oedipus Rex is a breezy 87 minutes and adapts the English translation by Yeats of the classic Greek tragedy by Sophocles, with a little added prologue to set the scene. It was directed by Tyrone Guthrie, who you might remember as the Big Man from The Stratford Adventure. Or from the fact that he was a pretty famous theatre guy. If you need a refresher on your Greek myths: Oedipus was the guy who was prophesised to kill his father and marry his mother. He got done dirty by Freud somewhere down the line.

DR plays the role of the Messenger, a minor part who recounts some of the most famous plot points of the tragedy of Oedipus, which they couldn't show onscreen/onstage. Granted, he's only in this one for like five minutes, but he really rocks up to crash the party wearing the coolest outfit in the entire show. And yes, everyone in this production is wearing Greek theatre masks, so you can't see his face. You get to hear his voice though - and watch his captivating body language!

Can be found on YouTube. Or you can probably buy it on DVD if you really want to; idk, I'm not the boss of you. (I've also clipped his scene if you really, really don't want to watch the whole play. I get it's a big ask. Really beautiful production though, seriously!)

#douglas rain #stratford festival #national film board of canada #hal 9000 #2001 a space odyssey #(this is me loudly going PSPSPSPSPSPSPSPSPS)

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harlowtales · 10 months

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Jack x Mom go to the Beyonce Concert and narrowly escape crazy fans. ***18+ language ***

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“Come on mom we’re going to be late! Can’t keep the Queen B waiting!” Jack called out to his mom.

“Have my wife home by a decent time son.” Jack’s dad said in that smooth southern accent that was stronger than his wife’s. He rested a hand on his son’s shoulder to reinforce that his wife was to be taken care of with the utmost concern.

“I will dad, but talk to your wife cuz you know how she gets talking to everyone.” Jack said sharing a knowing look with his father. His mother was a popular figure in Louisville herself and knew virtually everyone there was to know in town.

Jack’s mom bounded down the stairs a full head of curls bouncing like her son’s. “Hunny I am so sorry! Let’s go!!” She said excitedly throwing an extra lipstick into her purse. It’s not every day you’re introduced to musical royalty and she was bursting with anticipation.

Jack’s dad made his wife pause. He was in awe of how beautiful she looked with her glamorous sequinned black sleeveless top, sleek leggings, and sexy wedge heels showing off her athletic figure. “Hold up now little lady, before you run off to meet Queen B I gotta tell you, what do the kids say there Jack? Oh yeah, you look like a whole snack hunny.” He said making her turn around so he could take her in from all sides and planted a kiss on her just lipsticked lips.

“Hunny my lipstick!” Jack’s mom said a bit annoyed but always loving her husband’s attention.

“Ok dad don’t ever say that again, and I have security tonight so don’t worry.” Jack reassured his father.

“Son, this here beauty better not have a scratch on her you here? You know how crazy the fans get.” His dad said sternly, speaking from experience being out with his son.

“Ah geez do you guys always have to do that?” Jack said turning away as they kissed goodbye again.

“When you get a real one you won’t say nothing.” His dad ribbed. “Y’all have fun.” He said as he closed the door

“You guys are still in love, I get it, but gets a bit much.” Jack said cringing.”

“How do you think you got here hunny?” His mom said

“Ok eww.” Jack said chuckling “You do look gorgeous mom.” He said kissing her on the cheek. “After you” He said holding the car door open for her. Jack lived for these times when he could spoil particularly his mom. It made him emotional sometimes and he felt his eyes welling up but pushed it down. His mom was a crier and he didn’t want her to ruin her makeup but this was a very special moment.

As they got around the venue traffic was bumper to bumper. “Oh no hunny! What does all this traffic mean for us?” Jack’s mom said concerned

“Driver, what’s going on? I thought we had priority entry.” Jack said not liking his mom was getting worried

“Mr. Harlow I will try to get around this don’t worry.” The driver said confidently as he looked for a way out. Finally he spotted a gap turning the Black SUV around and they were on their way. They pulled up a distance from the actual entrance, but that was far as cars were allowed to go.

“Ok Jack, mom, wait for the cart it’s coming to pick us up.” His security guard said

“Cart?” Jack’s mom said confused

They waited and waited to get picked up and shuttled to the entrance much to Jack’s dismay. Everything had to be perfect tonight for his mom. “Neelam make a call cuz this shit ain’t happening.” Jack said to his manager who was already inside making sure the way was cleared for Jack to enter. As they waited a bit more some fans spotted them and started running over and screaming.

“Jack!!! OMG!!!!!! Jack!!!!” They yelled getting closer and closer screaming and crying. People in Louisville gave Jack his space but there were lots of people from out of town to see Beyonce and seeing Jack made them crazy. More people saw Jack as they heard the girls that initially spotted him screaming and joined in heading towards them.

Venue security saw them approaching and prepared to hold them back but that would only work for so long. There were only 2 guards to hold off a crowd. Just then the golf cart finally showed up.

“Mom get in!” Jack said hurriedly. Fans rushing him was one thing but not his mom. Just as the fans reached security Jack and his mom took off in the cart. “Everyone’s so hyped tonight” Jack said looking back and waving at the fans “That was close!” He said laughing to his mom.

The cart took off fast to escape the crowd and Jack’s mom wasn’t firmly in her seat. “Hunny!!” She exclaimed as she tried holding onto to something to not fall off.

“Mom!!” Jack said scared and immediately put out his arm across his mom to protect her as her human seat belt. “Yo! Slow your roll man!” He said angrily to the driver “Mom you good?” Jack said catching his breath. He promised his dad nothing would happen to his wife.

“I’m…I’m ok hunny.” His mom said just a bit shaken up from the whole experience. Whenever she did accompany Jack to events he made sure she was shielded from the worst of it. They pulled up to the back entrance and Neelam greeted them along with other friends and family. Jack helped his mom down from the cart and gave her a huge hug.

“Hunny I’m fine. Really.” Jack’s mom said warmly to calm him down. “You deal with this kind of thing all the time?” His mom said concerned

“Not when I’m in Louisville. Which is why I like being home. They’re from out of town.” He said keeping a hand on her back and guiding her into the venue.

They settled into their exclusive box section overlooking the stage next to his god-daughters, and other friends. “Uncle Jackkkk!!!” They squealed wanting to be lifted up for hugs. They used to see him more often but lately Jack had been too busy.

Beyonce and her dancers came out in true dramatic fashion as the lights dimmed and the crowd went insane. As always she put on an incredible show. His goddaughter’s danced away with Urban ribbing Jack that they danced way better than him.

“Suck it fam” Jack shot back chuckling in a whisper into Urban’s ear so his god-daughters wouldn’t hear his language.

“His Crip walk is coming along.” His friend Ace Pro defended to be supportive “Not a backflip but not bad.”

“It’s ok Uncle Jack not everyone can dance but you rap ok” His little god-daughter said patting him on the back as if to console him as they walked out after the show and he was holding her.

“Um thanks I think?!” Jack said amused with her

They got up to Beyonce’s green room and patiently waited for the star to greet them. It was a known thing that Louisville was Jack’s town and most artists requested to meet him or he them when they passed through. It was becoming tradition to pay homage to the young legend in his city. Before Jack’s team could even reach out, Jay Z called Jack and asked for a moment of his time after the show because his wife was a fan. “A moment of my time?” Jack said in disbelief “I guess I can pencil her in dog like WTF of course!” Jack told his idol. Now the moment had come.

Beyonce emerged and gratefully bent down to take a large bouquet of flowers from Jack’s god-daughter and his mom handed her a gift. “Mom….Mrs. Carter. Mrs. Carter, my mom.” Jack said respectfully

“It’s Beyonce please y’all! I’m just a Huston girl.” She said humbly giggling at Jacks formality “I see why all the girls be hollering.” She said to Jack and he looked down shyly.

“Wow I never need to have nobody say nothing about me again.” He said in awe of her majesty and beauty. In person it was almost overwhelming.

“I love your music.” Was all Jack’s mom could get up to say. She was usually very talkative but this was a moment for her.

“And I hear you one of the best mom’s in the business on your own girl boss shit.” Beyonce complimented Jack’s mom

“How did you know I own a business?” Jack’s mom said surprised Beyonce knew anything about her.

“I do my homework.” Beyonce said with a wink. “Ok King Jack I have to go but one thing I have to say is keep going. We see you and love what you’re doing. I’m a big fan. Lovely meeting you.” Beyonce said as she was getting a sign from her team to wrap it up. Jack reached out to shake her hand but she pulled him and his mom in for hugs.

“Tell your husband don’t be a stranger.” Jack said as they parted

“Oh you got a verse for him or what?” Beyonce challenged with a smile

“I always got one for him.” Jack said unable to take the smile off his face. “Mom you ok? You didn’t say much.” Jack said rubbing his mom’s back

“She was magical hunny. Thank you so much.” Jack’s mom said wiping tears away.

“That’s King Jack to you.” He said jokingly to his mom but noticed she was really tearing up. “Ah don’t start” Jack said as it was triggering his own emotions.

“I love you” His mom said “And not just because I get to do things like this but you protect me and I’m grateful.”

“Are you kidding mom? Did you hear your husband basically threaten me before we left the house?” Jack teased. “Naw but for real nothing will ever happen to you with me ok?” He said with his arm around her.

“Ok hunny because those girls are scary! You really need to be careful sweetheart.” His mom said

“That’s why I became a rapper remember?” He joked

@spicypiscesthings @itsyagirljaz @angelbae05 @jackmans-poison @jackslilsecrett @jacks-daycare

#jack harlow #fanfic #jackman thomas harlow #writing #jack harlow fanfic

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ypands · 1 year

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the fact that bumbleby kids will have one of the best genes, home life, and overall inheritance in all of remnant

yellow mom;

- has magic in her blood

- GORGEOUS ?!?!

- physical confidence that attracts everyone in the room

- the kind of person whom EVERYONE has a crush on (canon)

- amazing fighting skills

- 100% brains AND brawn

- daughter of the current spring maiden

- very ‘i love school and it shows in my grades’

- great stamina

- mom fr and knows how to take care of an entire home since she was about 6 or 7

- 2nd best cook in their team (according to the va’s)

- knows her way around weapons and constructing them

- acts of service and quality time love language ????

- cool uncle, loving dad, absent mom, angel mom

- RUBY AS AN AUNT ?!?!

- has storytelling skills down to a T

- has her whole life’s experience of taking care of a child

- will not hesitate to throw hands at whoever tries to hurt them (same goes for blake but more for yang)

- her eyes are so beautiful

- the fun, very energetic mom

purple mama;

- daughter of a chieftain

- GORGEOUS????

- such pretty e y e s

- the kind of person a lot of people fall in love with

- great endurance

- best cook in their team (according to the va’s)

- amazing fighting skills

- will teach her children how their emotions are okay and they shouldn’t be afraid to feel it

- wise beyond her years

- art skills 100%

- will make a bunch of paintings/sketches of her family

- passionate over what she fights for

- words of affirmation and physical touch love language ????

- loving parents

- fairytales live and flutter in her heart

- will absolutely sing for them (hc ‘cause of arryn who does sing a lot)

- literal actual soulmates with their mom

- very environmentally versatile considering she lived in temporary camps for a great part of her life

- will store a bunch of random items of their kids for keepsakes

- extremely patient

- the cool, calm mom

list goes on but in conclusion they’ll be amazing bee parents thank u :3

#applies for whiterose too but we’re still hoping #rwby9 #rwby #bumbleby #yang xiao long #blake belladonna #rwby spoilers #rwby yang #rwby blake #not rlly a spoiler tho?

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goldenandhappy · 1 year

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ONE PIECE 1072 SLAPS👏 HARD👏

This is the best chapter I’ve read in a while ! And that’s a feat because Egghead has been fantastic !

Spoilers under the cut. I might or might not have commented every panel.

> I am a sucker for narrative intros ! I am a sucker for narrative intros ESPECIALLY if they are extracted from a journal or diary. And this narrative intro is so full of emotions ! Good for you Vegapunk ! Go rock that science !

> It is ironic that MADS is called “Laboratory of Peace” when the previous page was basically this:

> The page displays each of the mad scientist with his preferred field of study.

> I doubt Vegapunk knew about what was going down in his “Lab of Peace”; he did hate what Ceasar did in Punk Hazard. So they probably hid it well or made it sound “for the better good and the advancement of science” like for the DFs reproduction. And it’s not like their founds were lacking : Du Feld kept on pumping money in because weapons made him good money.

> And it’s crazy how much info Oda can drop in a single panel because this one has every mad scientist with his preferred field in hand: Ceaser with the smile fruit, Queen with the chemical weapons, and Judge with the spear that ultimately became his weapon of choice. It even has the little yellow tube and all.

Picture from OP PIRATE WARRIORS 4.

> Then Bonney being a little shit and Vegapunk being a worried grandpa. Cute.

> This Bonney form reminds me of Luffy in his Nika form. It’s both funny and interesting because Bonney vibes well with Luffy and I like to think that they arrived to the same conclusions about what they should do with their fruits.

> Excuse me ??? This is too cute ???? I like that bonney is a strong powerful pirate but her power is still girly and cute ! Look at the cute stars ! And there’s a heart ! And look at Vegapunk he’s such a cute baby !!!

> I bet that Oda loves drawing Bonney, because every panel she’s in, she looks gorgeous.

> Ah yes, the classic juxtaposition of dramatic dialogue with a dramatic scene relating to that dialogue. :’)

> You can actually see how much Vegapunk cares for Kuma here. But still, very valid reaction from Bonney. You go girl !

> Vegapunk and Bonney are both growing on me more and more each chapter.

> I stared at those 2 panels for a good 30 seconds. I can’t even describe how they made me feel.

> Because of course... Because obviously... Obviously Kuma pushed out his own memories... This was so obvious and no one ever considered it. God fucking dammit Oda.

> I am still not sure about the origin of DFs. Maybe they are magical, maybe they are man made. But this dialog is very important because we might not understand how things happen, but we can study how they affect the world around them. That’s a cornerstone of science and i’m so happy with how it’s depicted.

Also:

> The greek alphabet is canon.

And

> World reknown scientist DR VEGAPUNK needs to draw a small circuit with coil and capacitator to remember his electro-magnetism rules. Can’t blame him.

> Oh Brook is in a shirt, that’s cute ! Keep up the theme of the island peeps !

> Kaku awakened his giraffe fruit ?? How ?? (Theory time: I’m betting it’s related to the nature of the fruit. Once you reach a certain level in power and creativity, you can awaken your fruit. And the wilder the strength it represents, the harder it gets. But if you’re like... a giraffe, that should be easier than a leopard.)

> Look mate, as long as the crew and VP’s Brain are safe, this is meaningless. But yeah sure have your fun destroying things !

> I am delecting myself with the taste of Stussy’s betrayal. This is a face a love seeing on Lucci. Hit him where it hurts <3

> And what a way to end a chapter. Vampire Stussy ? Or is she a succubus ? Hell yeah ! Of course she was the one Vegapunk called ! And of course she’s a clone ! Vegapunk mentionned that the Seraphim were the pinacle of all his experiences ! And they are CLONES ! So of course he cloned people !!! And the cover story from chapter 1070 ? That wasn’t Stussy ! That was Miss Buckingham !

Miss Buckingham, from the Rocks Pirates, WORKED WITH MADS!!!!

I can’t with this chapter anymore ! Thank you Oda !!!

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Sleep deprived and rambling about yuri today apparently

Keepers:

The Two of Them Are Pretty Much Like This by Takashi Ikeda - Gentle slice of life about two semi-closeted women in the anime industry: a young up-and-coming voice actor and a slightly older writer. (Early 20s and right around 30, respectively.) Established relationship, any conflict is minor and of the typical "learning to live together" sort. Occasional, usually post-coital, nudity.

A White Rose in Bloom by Asumiko Nakamura - Vaguely gothic English boarding school romantic entanglement between a pretty and emotionally frank underclassman (underclasswoman?) and the icily reserved but secretly kind Balkan refugee upperclass…woman. Nothing racier than kissing so far, fucking gorgeous art, seems to be improving as it goes on.

SHWD by sono.N - Absolutely bonkers horror/yuri crossover in which a trio of women built like bodybuilders fight big gloopy psyche-destroying monsters, lounge around naked in the baths after, and occasionally engage in homoerotically charged sparring matches. Plenty of nudity, no sex yet (have only read volume 1, which is the only one released in hardcopy).

Doughnuts Under A Crescent Moon by Shio Usui - I avoided this one for a while because it *does* have a treacly name, and it's turned out to have a very lesbi-ace approach, which I can't imagine will help its reputation much (yes I've seen the tumblr post). But it's also a really beautifully written examination of the process of coming out to yourself as an adult (albeit a young one), and both the core relationship and the secondary characters are very well-written. I think I'm only missing the last volume, and I'm looking forward to completing the story.

To Try:

Asumi-chan is Interested in Lesbian Brothels! by Kuro Itsuki - A girl hears her first crush is working at a local brothel and resolves to visit them all until she finds her. Sounds like sudsy fun and I’m interested to see what the erotic sensibility will be since my other encounter with lesbian sex workers in Japan is in My Lesbian Experience With Loneliness. Which on the one hand has one of the most profound meditations on sex I’ve read and on the other hand has a ~very different sensibility~.

Our Teachers Are Dating! by Pikachi Ohi - I mean, to be honest I'm always going to at least consider a series that's about adults. But this one has good reviews for the main couple's chemistry, and apparently they are loved and supported by their community, which I enjoy in any romance but especially in a queer one. Plus apparently it gets spicy! 👀

My Androgynous Boyfriend by Tamekou - A beautiful kept boyfriend and his hardworking girlfriend. I like my men pretty and my het/het-passing relationships nontraditional. Will definitely at least try the first volume.

On The Fence:

Love Me For Who I Am by Kata Konayama - Lonely nonbinary teen finds community and maybe love at a nontraditional maid cafe. Honestly the blurb sounds like something I'd adore, but considering the main character is in tears on the cover of volume 2 I'm afraid of it turning out to be melodrama farming rather than a good story.

Goodbye, My Rose Garden by Pepperco - Reading between the lines of the blurb, a Japanese novelist ends up broke in Victorian England and takes a job as a maid, only for her new [probably lesbian] mistress to ask her to kill her. Instead, they kindle a relationship. I mean... sounds lugubrious. But reviews are actually good. I'll think about it.

Ditch:

Days of Love At Seagull Villa by Kodama Naoko - I want to like Kodama's writing (I've also read her one-shot, I Married My Best Friend To Shut My Parents Up!) because her premises are often engaging. But her pacing is usually incoherent and she tends to over-rely on boob jokes and under-develop her emotional arcs. It's probably unfair to tap out of a series for being under-developed at Volume 1, but I just don't see improvement from the one-shot and there are better ways to spend my money.

#rocky rambles #book recs #book reviews #manga #yuri

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blysse-and-blunder · 10 months

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in lieu of a bachelorette party

10pm, sunday, aug 6, 2023

we're officially in the period of the summer that has been planned out since months and months ago, in the lead up to some dear friends' wedding; time is telescoping in a very odd way! after traveling the past two weeks, my re-entry was good but hard; i came back from my trip thinking i'd be all revitalized and looking around me with new eyes, which in a way i did, but then i was also pretty wiped. i didn't really want to spend all week hibernating, but i guess it was good to recharge my batteries since i also had five different party/gathering-type things (three this weekend, including the aforementioned bachelorette).

reading can't forget to mention finishing carmen maria machado's in the dreamhouse, which was gripping and devastating and still beautiful somehow. the experience of reading it was so...i couldn't stop once i got started, you know? short fragmented chapters, some funny, some incredibly sad. every once in a while there would be a detail or an allusion to something i could relate to, punctuating the intense surreality / unreality used to talk about the abuse with a sudden concrete reality that was. striking. loved the device of the footnotes, pointing out where certain things are matching up with folklore tropes? as a form of foreshadowing and ironic, devastating commentary? inspired. that's just one detail, but it's one i can sum up.

abrupt tonal shift and getting back to fantasy / adventure, a.k. larkwood's the unspoken name has been very engaging this week too. part one was...fresh but in a comforting sort of vein, with a young protag escaping a bad fate under the protection of a new mysterious mentor, who then helps her get an education, martial arts training, before he sends her out on a mission--reminded me of half a dozen beloved fantasy novels, with the addition of some fun details! for example, neither is actually described in much detail, but our main character and her mentor are clearly not Human; she has grey skin and tusks (my mind went right to a dnd-style orc?) and he has mobile, elongated ears, which seem to telegraph his emotions much like those in the goblin emperor and was an *immediate* delight to envision. just about a third of the way through this one now; it feels like a locked tomb book with a slightly different magic system, and i'm really enjoying it.

watching plane movies while returning home:

the battle of the sexes (2017) -- entertaining more because i didn't know the history and always enjoy the depiction of historical women's sports and sports teams; emma stone is great but has virtually no chemistry with either of her romantic counterparts, painfully straight energy overall. i was too entertained by watching steve carell and sarah silverman in their respective period hair and makeup . kudos to whoever was the tennis stunt doubles, it was legitimately fun to try and follow the games.

banshees of inisherin (2022) -- people who talk about the overdone stereotyped blarney-filled hollywood depiction of ireland in this one are missing the fact that it's an intentional (ironic?) depiction; see, the imprecision when it comes to year/time passing / calendars and whatnot. sort of waiting for godot-y in its heightened reality / absurdity. my lukewarm take is that it was definitely meant to be a play, and would have worked a lot better that way. not sure i'll watch it again, not sure i *got* it, but it will certainly live in my brain rent-free.

finished strange world (2022) as a palate cleanser-- i wanted to support it, the box office and overall reception to this was pretty disappointing but it's fine! like it's a cute kids' movie! you know, disney's first gay character, thinly veiled climate analogy lesson, absolutely gorgeous animation and colors, what's not to love.

the first three episodes of season 1 of the white lotus . hypnotizing like a train wreck, but i'll wait until i've seen more of it to give a real write-up.

listening you ever watch a viral video and then realize you're captivated by both the cute videos of people dancing and the soundtrack? (and recognizing the background scenery, and it turns out i was right!!) anyway i went and found these two tracks courtesy of just this experience, so thanks to youtuber thoraya i guess?

youtube

UPDATE: saw hadestown live today!!! the original broadway recording didn't prepare me for how much i would love it, how dynamic and captivating the live band and incredible ensemble would be-- and of course i was crying almost immediately, and was clutching my chest during 'wait for me' both times. but then again, the performance i saw didn't include this one instrumental track i love and had on my semester playlist all spring, so here:

playing finally got the cut-scene celebrating my community center completion in stardew, hell yeah. had two great dnd sessions; one campaign successfully defeated a monstrously-oversized jaguar and decided which faction we're going to attempt to win over first, while the other group went shopping and spent some downtime at base and gathering info on some individual plots! napoleon did exist in this world and was a gnome, and our organization assassinated him apparently??, also this just feels like a good time to mention that their resume also includes '1841 – Controlled controversy riots when “Dinosaurs” suggested as a creature alongside and separate from “Dragons” ', which sent us into absolute hysterics when the DM shared that.

making it's summer, so i crowdsourced a ratatouille recipe and could not have been happier with the outcome. saving it here for posterity!

working on i was very diligent with RA work this week, since it feels like i always neglect it over the summer for absolutely no reason, especially since it like. pays me. but i also have been using it as productive procrastination since i'm actively dragging my heels in sending the last few students their essay feedback and grade breakdowns from the summer course. it means confronting my judgments and math and possible mistakes from earlier in july, and trying to either defend or amend them as necessary, and i just have been. napping rather than actually do it. which is silly, and also stupid since i have actual work to be doing! just get this over with, and you can be free!

#ilcb #in lieu of a commonplace book #weekly roundup

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bakuliwrites · 2 years

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Intimacy with the M6 Headcanons

Just an assortment of spicy headcanons for the M6. I had posted this on my old blog, but thought I would bring it back on this one, too. More below the cut. I also have a fair number of spicy Arcana fanfic on my AO3, which is linked at the top of my blog, if you are 18+. TW: K*nk

Very much enjoys teasing you. Especially in public spaces. They'll be subtle about it, but love to watch you squirm. Gentle brushes of their fingertips against you, sliding their hand along your thigh underneath the table, you name it. They like to see you become a blushing mess. But they don't want to humiliate you. They only tease if it's something that you enjoy and are okay with.

Magic play, magic play, magic play. Since you are both magicians, you can certainly get up to a fair amount of fun in the bedroom with your skills. Temperature play, ghosting along one another without actually touching each other. If the two of you can dream it, you can do it. They can also set great mood lighting with their magic. I also imagine that they'd enjoy outdoor sex. In secluded places though. Under a tranquil waterfall, beneath a canopy of leaves in a sun dappled forest. Places that are peaceful and private, and maybe have magical connection.

Their dirty talk is filthy, but witty. It's not crass, but it's certainly not for the ears of others. They're quite sly about it and have a way with words. Asra's banter is also top-notch. They might get a little flustered when you dirty talk back to them, but they'll bounce back with something witty not too long after.

Sleepy, lazy morning sex is a fave of Asra's. Languid, gentle, relaxing. They love the way you look in the morning light. Asra could laze around in bed with you all day, just taking the time to pleasure one another. Forget the shop, they're tending to you all day. You'll get plenty of snuggles and tea breaks though. Asra's aftercare is stupendous. They're very attentive and make sure you're staying hydrated and eating properly (especially if you're planning to stay in bed together all day).

Definitely a dom. But she secretly wants to be dommed sometimes. As someone in a position of power, she often feels the stress and high-demands of it. Sometimes, she wants to relinquish some of that power and be cared for, herself. It's tough for her to show her vulnerable side, but if she really loves and trusts you, you'll get to see it. I feel like she's capable of separating sex and emotion, too. If you're down for just a casual fling, so is she.

Very much enjoys worshiping your body. Doesn't expect it in return, necessarily, but you absolutely should. Nadia is a goddess and deserves to know how utterly beautiful she is. She loves every part of your body, but her most favorite part is your hips. She could smooth her hands along your curves all day. I also feel like she'd be really into aphrodisiacs. Like foods (oysters, caviar, etc...) and scented oils/incense/herbs. All things to make your experience with her all the more sensual.

Has the most gorgeous lingerie. And will get some made for you, too, if you want. It's high-end and ranges in variety. A lot of it is lace, but she has some strappy leather ones and body chains. Body suits are a fave of Nadia's. She also has an extensive collection of toys. They're all very high quality and rather expensive. And, being rather creative and inventive, she's probably even created a few toys herself.

She's very structured about her encounters with you. She strikes me as someone who would set aside a specific time to fool around. But if you are more spontaneous, that excites her. She's so rigid about everything else in her life. It kind of gets her off to be swept off her feet in an impassioned, impromptu way. She's not super big on PDA, but if you catch her by surprise in her office, she will be utterly delighted.

Please litter the inside of his thighs with kisses, he will love you forever. He's so sensitive there (And he will love you even more if you nibble him). His neck and behind his ears are also some favorite spots of his. He can't help the little moans that'll inevitably escape his lips when you pay special attention to those places. He has some trusty ropes and harnesses he likes to use, but if you buy him lacy lingerie, he will absolutely wear that, too. All the leather, for sure. He'll even keep the plague mask on (if you really insist upon it).

Definitely has a good dirty talk game, but he gets pretty flustered, too. He'll turn bright red and start sputtering if you catch him by surprise. Call him, "Baby Boy," and he will lose his goddamn mind (talk about a blushing, sputtering mess, haha). He's also all for quickies, if you're both feeling really frisky. And he's a master at finding private spots in public spaces where you won't get caught.

Laughs a lot and isn't afraid to be goofy during sexy times. Including with roleplay. He'll act out an absolutely ridiculous scene and somehow make it hot as hell. You're laughing the entire time, but damn is he good. He likes to keep things light and fun. But he can be more serious and emotional when he needs to be. I think Julian is actually rather emotional about sex. He's capable of one night stands, but he does tend to get attached.

He has healing hands (literally with his mark, and figuratively speaking). He gives great massages (and is quite skilled with those elegant fingers of his). He'll be gentle with you, if you want, or rougher if that's what you need. But he's always ready to give you amazing aftercare. Make sure to give him some extra loving afterwards, too. We all know Julian is a sub and into pain, so make sure to take good care of him.

Loves to roleplay and utilize costumes. A go to scene is pretending to be strangers at a party and picking one another up. The Masquerades are a great place to do that. She loves the anonymity of the masks (obviously, she can still recognize you, though). To her, there's something mysterious and sexy about hooking up with a "stranger" at a party.

I see her as a switch, but she is an amazing dom. It's a lot of fun for her to be the one in control, especially since her job is one where she has to work for someone else. And she is eager to please you, too. She's a little nervous about being a dom at first, but she eases into it rather quickly. I don't see her getting too rough with anything, but she can be if you want her to be. If you have any particular kinks, she's also willing to try them out.

She is an excellent baker, and has all sorts of sweet treats, so food play is certainly on the table. Honey, whipped cream, etcetera. Anything sweet, for her sweetheart, of course. Picnics that turn sensual are even better. A romantic, sexy time amidst a beautiful field of wildflowers is ideal. I think a lot of her lingerie would be floral as well (and so adorable).

She likes to spoil you and call you cute names just to see you blush. Your time with her is always bubbly and energetic. Lots of giggling and lots of teasing. She doesn't really do a lot of dirty talk, but definitely coy looks. You always know when she's frisky if you catch her gazing at you from across the room, gently biting her lip while her eyes rove your form. She'll pull you into the nearest hidden alcove as soon as she gets a chance. Her aftercare is so sweet and filled with lots of snuggles.

Praise him, please!!!! He will be so flustered and feel like he doesn't deserve it, but this man 100% deserves any and all praise you can give him. Tell him how handsome he is, how wonderful and kind. Worship every part of him (you'll be met with some insistence on his part that you're being too kind, but we all know how incredible Muriel is). He'll do the same, for you. He's a man of few words, but the tender way his hands roam your body is enough to tell you how much he worships you. Muriel can be a sub, but he can absolutely be a soft dom for you. The act of being a dom feels like a reclamation for him, momentous and important in recognizing his own identity and giving himself autonomy. He trusts you and feels appreciative that you trust him.

Run your fingers through his hair and he will melt (just don't tug or pull, he does not do any rough sex). Muriel is really quiet during sex, but the gentle sensation of your nails against his scalp is enough to make him mewl a little. He'll feel shy about it at first, but after a while, he'll allow you to hear him a little more. Whisper words of affection/sweet pet names to him and press featherlight kisses to him- you can just listen to his quiet, contented hums.

Bath sex is a must. No matter how big or small the bathtub is. Muriel loves the perfumed scents, the relaxing warmth, and having you close to him. And please massage his sore muscles (it's hard work to maintain looking like a whole ass meal everyday). It's nice for him to feel pampered sometimes and he is all about returning that luxury to you. He'll give you the best massages and cuddles.

Sex and emotion are intertwined for Muriel. It's a sacred act for him, one that he will only engage in if it's with someone he really, truly trusts. So long has he lived feeling undeserving of love and touch. If he chooses to be intimate with you, it really is an honor. And he absolutely luxuriates in your gentle caresses, the feeling of your hands smoothing along his body. It's one of the few times he shows vulnerability, and crying (though he might be embarrassed about it) is not out of the realm of possibility.

Will try most anything once. Has a wide range of kinks, some of which include, but are not limited to: bondage, pain play (he can leave the talons on, if you like, and the boots), mirror sex, humiliation, etc... I feel like he wouldn't be into anything messy, though. He seems the least emotional about sex (Upright!Lucio learns to be a bit more emotional about sexual encounters, but overall he doesn't get as overtly emotionally attached. But he secretly wants to be wanted and cared for and loved). He is capable of being gentle, though, if that's what you want. His aftercare is luxurious and he'll smother you with kisses.

The thrill of getting caught is exhilarating to him. He will be as loud as possible, just so people can hear what the two of you are up to. He'll purposefully pick spots that anyone could easily just waltz into. In closets, in the palace gardens, behind the Rowdy Raven, the palace throne room, etc... He is not ashamed to let the entire world know what the two of you get into.

Filthiest dirty talk of the M6. He will do it in public and he does not at all care who hears him. He wants the whole world to know exactly what he plans on doing to you and he wants everyone to see how hot and bothered it gets you. Has just the worst pet names for you (he will unironically call you sugart*ts and it's horrible). During important meetings, if you attend them as well, he'll slip his hand under the table and unabashedly tease you.

He is a switch, and he is bratty no matter what. He, too, has a number of expensive toys and a vast amount of high-end (very gaudy) lingerie. I kinda headcanon that he's a little bit into calling you Mommy/Daddy (with a lot of attitude behind it). He might also have a breeding kink (he's a count, he wants to produce some heirs, though he is not good with children at all). He's a bit overeager and thinks a lot about himself and his own pleasure, but very much enjoys worshipping you and pleasing you. It makes him feel really good when you are having a good time, too.

#the arcana #asra alnazar #nadia satrinava #julian devorak #portia devorak #muriel of the kokhuri #lucio morgasson #count lucio #spicy #lemon #very spicy #dani's headcanons

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z0urcherri · 11 months

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Not really a full review but just the thoughts at the forefront of my mind If they'd of just cut some horror references (Shining elevator especially) down into shorter scenes (it'd also work as an unobtrusive background element) AND made it easier to tell apart future and past characters that happen to be in the same scene together, this film would honestly be damn near perfect. It was still an enjoyable experience, though. Alot of scenes genuinely come close to freaking me out, like the respawn terminal failure. Having a fully voice acted cast and some custom models was a treat, i just don't see why some were custom and some were just Scout with a mustache slapped on. Plus, in the funeral scene, it's too noticeable how detailed Redmond and Blutarch are compared to everyone else in the room. I joked at one point that they blew the character budget on those two and couldn't afford to detail everyone else. The voice direction also felt lacking, with certain actors (excluding Scout's and Soldier's bc DAMN i actually asked a couple times if they got Rick, posthumously, and Nathan to do the voice work) focusing more on sounding as much as they could like the original mercs than the actual performance. Mind you i'm not saying they did a BAD job, they did after all do a fantastic job with the emotional line deliveries. Usually, you would complain about the cartoony art style of TF2 clashing with someone's high-end attempt to make the shots photorealistic or so, but since Fortress Films went to all the trouble of touching up everything with grit and keeping it consistent throughout scenes, it honestly works well even if non-TF2 models end up being used. The contrast actually fits. The plot...honestly, again, this is where i wish certain horror tropes got cut way down. Did we really need a whole scene of zombie mercs doing stereotypical zombie things? I don't even think it added anything to the plot, it just happened and was pretty easy to forget right after they're all killed. It's just how it never gets referenced again once it's over. I'm...also not really a fan of the shoehorned Christian imagery around the end. It's basically another trope and again it added pretty much nothing. It's also fun trying to figure out who can and can't actually die. This, ironically, might be the only thing from the zombie scene worth any salt, if the implication is RED mercs zombify after some time while BLU just infinitely respawns (Jules wouldn't be dead and therefore would not need saving if this were the case, which is inch resting) The attention to detail otherwise is fantastic. I keep finding parallels i didn't catch the first time. Along with shots that are legit drop-dead GORGEOUS, or even cutting-edge as far as cinematography goes and are incredibly rare to see in other SFM animations, the mo-cap is some of the best i've seen. It's rough sometimes and makes for some funny facial expressions, but when it works it WORKS. The theatrical feel is just...unmatched. You almost wonder if Valve themselves produced this because of how good the scenes look. I was also really impressed with the sound design, and also the fire and water effects, prominent throughout the film. Obviously, i think the film was really, really good, it's just that some parts feel like this project started as a shitpost animation, before getting stitched together with the parts where the team decided "no, we need to put actual effort into this". I also don't understand why, if the soundtrack is an original composition, the artist couldn't be credited anywhere. Anyway, go see Emesis Blue and come back with your own thoughts.

#me stuff #emesis blue #fortress films #tf2 #team fortress 2

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thesilverlock · 11 months

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Girl- your art and your OC Jey Cleary is SO GORGEOUS I CAN'T- I NEED TO KNOW MORE ABOUT HIM

I know your OTP is Joey and Astral, so, I must ask, how would he behave or act around Dark Mist if he met him?? 👀👀👀

Would he hate Mist? Would he tolerate him??

And what is Joey's relationship with Eliphas and his previous obsession in reaching purity by removing all the chaos??

(( AAAAAAAA! THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH! ;A;;;

THESE are also Super fantastic questions, thank you for the opportunity for me to gush about my boy and his antics with other characters 💙🩵✨ i’m so sorry this got SO long agshdj! There are doodles/art for your reading troubles down there too!))

- - ⟢〖 MIST 〗

So Jey’s whole deal is; Despite hailing from Astral World and being obligated to participate in their favor during the war ﹣ he’s actually the Son of Balance. His father, Protos, (the Heart of Astral World, as some called) was the guardian/overseer of the harmony between Chaos and Order. Before shit hit the fan in every conceivable way lmfao On top of that, Jey’s just.. a rogue and a rapscallion ahsgdhjs He never was keen on how black-&-white the war seemed, but relearning about the complete villainization of one half of a necessary energy was the final coffin nail. And that disagreeance is literally in his soul makeup! He was created in equal Chaotic Energy and Pure Energy. That balance is intermittently tied throughout him; He is meant to be the harbinger of Balance. Even Jey himself isn’t fully aware of how ingrained it is due to his own amnesia, but he does know obliterating all Chaos is not the answer, there’s something in his bones defying it. It’s a rather big plot point in his story that he starts to feel divided from the main crew because of this. Not Yuma﹣ Yuma is the only one backing Jey up at all ﹣but Astral. And it’s Astral’s rejection (spawned from the envoy's own rigid ideals and mission) that hurts Jey enough to push him out of the group for a brief period. ✨breakup arc woes✨

. . . And this is how and when Mist finds him. They make an alarming well fit duo. Their personalities mesh, and they do surprisingly? Okay? To avoid overt toxicity in their alliance? Mist doesn’t get preached at to change, or to “join a side of the war”, or be force locked in his card, so he tolerates having Jey around. And obviously Jey can’t be affected by Mist’s number influence, and he's naturally domineering enough to counteract when Mist gets too... himself lmao. Jey has a Robin Hood type of suave and charm whereas Mist acts increasingly seductive and invades people’s space because he wants to intimidate. Jey knows how to beat Mist at his own game, which both intrigues and aggravates the Number. Like two people who know one another via a friend-of-a-friend, and go on this epic journey and end up unconventionally thick as thieves like halfway through the movie. ASDFGH

Mist likes Jey’s assertiveness and darker side - the viability to resort to vicious methods and being such a rebel personality despite supposed loyalty to the world of “pure” ideals. Jey is pulled in by Mist’s unapologetic “take me or leave me” nature and his recognition of the hypocrisy regarding the war from both ends. And ofc the Number's unique brand of effortless beauty and free-bird, unaffiliated presence. Those two tend to, pretty universally, have a quick chemistry and natural connection. [ It’s also thanks to that natural connection that a certain lightbulb gets his first experiences dealing with an ‘unknown’ and green-eyed emotion. 😉 ] Also also, fun fact - if it could not already be told by these answers lol - These two are my second highest OTP, right after Goldenship (Jey x Astral /JeiAsu) ! I call them Pierceshipping. Since they have a lot of piercing qualities (particularly their affinity for bedroom-eyed stares and smirks) And because they each canonically stab someone through the chest.

I’m so sorry I ran out of space for the Eliphas portion of the question, I’ll have to return to that! ♡ ;v;

But TLDR; For a lot of the same reasons already listed here, Jey and him do not get along. Can’t always do much ‘bout it tho cause that’s their technical boss, gotta play civil or else Jey and boifren don’t get as many missions together :(

#(( THANK YOU So much for the ask!! This was so amazing and fun to answer <3 I treasure when I get stuff like this ;v; ))#| my oc ❦ |#| my art ♡ |#| saved ✧ |#| pierceshipping ✶٭༌ |#(( I’m not actually sure why this is;#but for some reason Golden just always ends up being the pair I *DRAW* more #whereas Pierce is the one I *WRITE* for more?#And I rarely RARely ever write stuff to post.. gshdjf #so it ends up with Pierce being like my ~secret~ ship ppl don’t know about lolol ))#(( Rest assured though it’s up there and sittin' easy with that close 2nd place title GSdhjk ))#(( Honestly it probs just comes down to me having a hard time honing Astral’s voice. I struggle with 'orderly/proper' characters ))#(( the day that I get a lock on writing him tho - watch out~ sfgdHfj #my ao3 gonna turn into a minefield of ✨⚜️🌟🏆🏅👑 lmaoshjd))

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nowdoyoungknows · 2 years

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Pairing/s: ex-boyfriend!doyoung x fem!reader

Warnings: contains adult content, nudity, alcohol, sexual contents, suggestive, touching, seducing, heavy angst, flashbacks, mentions of death, no happy ending if you will

Summary: Four Years since you hazy break-up, Doyoung encountered you once again in an unusual place doing something he least expected you to do.

Note: If you are uncomfortable with the subject, feel free to skip. Read at your own risk. I actually have no idea how to end this story so I leave it to your own interpretation. I'm sorry. Do not take this plot seriously. This is pure fiction with no relations with the mentioned idols personal life and character. Unedited so expect typographical errors. Sorry for the grammatical error as well.

Doyoung is not the type of person to go to a boisterous place, it is never his thing. He would rather drink his expensive wine at the confines of his penthouse. However, tonight is an exception.

Tonight, they are about to celebrate one his dearest friend's birthday, Taeil. He can't say no to him, no one can. All of his friends practically begged him to step out of his place and have fun with other people. How is smelling other people's disgusting smell of alcohol, smoke and sweat fun?

"Stop being a grandpa. Just for tonight." His other friend, Jaehyun, persuaded him.

As Doyoung, together with his friends, entered the said club, he glared at the person who chose this place which is Johnny. "Seriously Johnny? A strip club? I thought we will go a normal night club." Doyoung felt defeated and betrayed.

"C'mon Doyoung. This is Taeil's birthday plus he will tie the know next year, he has to experience this." Johnny tried to reasoned out. "And I never mentioned anything about a normal night club. I said we are going to a club, THIS IS A CLUB."

Not wanting to ruin the birthday celebration, Doyoung sighed in defeat and followed his friends at their designated table near the stage. While his friends are enjoying the show, some of them are giving tips to some women they have eyes on, all Doyoung do is sip at his drink and wanders his eyes around the suffocating place, too awkward to look at these female entertainers, dancing seductively. He is silently praying that this celebration will soon be over.

Loud cheers and applause, interrupted his little space. His attention is right now at the stage as Johnny nudged him and asked him to pay attention. A gorgeous woman appeared on stage, wearing the most beautiful lingerie compared to other women who previously performed. Also the way the crowd go wild when this performer popped out on stage is outrageous, seems like she is everyone's favorite, the star of the show.

The way she swayed her hips and do the splits made everyone lose their minds, not to mention how she worked with the pole. All of the audience are desperate for her to come to their tables and dance right in front of them but that woman is a tease. Doyoung found himself being strike by her charisma regardless of having a dangling mask cover the upper portion of her face. The way she seductively lipsync to the sensual song playing, those lips are to die for. He is hypnotized is an understatement.

If it isn't wild enough, everyone went crazy and ecstatic when the woman removed the mask, revealing her enchanting beauty, as well as removing some materials of his already scantily clad outfit, showing more of her skin. His friends are loud beside him and the rest of the people inside, everything in Doyoung's ears are muted. He is too shocked to even process everything around him. Mouth hung low, emotions overflowing, heart racing. A mixture of surprised, sadness, anger and somehow hopeful overflowed his emotions. "Y/n..." he whispered.

Fortunately, no one heard him. He was too overwhelmed at the shocking event that just happened that he didn't notice that he has been stoned for a minute. "Hey Doyoung, are you alright?" Jaehyun patted his back. "You've been staring at Briar. I thought you are not interested in this place." He teased Doyoung. "I mean I can't blame you, Briar is perfect."

"Briar?" Doyoung was puzzled.

"Oh right, it's your first time here." Jaehyun explained. "It's her stage name. All of the performers here use stage names to avoid being followed by creeps. No one knows their real names and their personal lives."

"What? I thought it's—"

"Bro, this is a strip club not an orgy party. No one's having sex with anyone here. That's not allowed. This is just pure show." Jaehyun added. "I thought you know the difference."

"Look Briar is coming to our table, how lucky our birthday boy is." Johnny excitedly announced as you walked towards their table.

You strutted towards the table of your chosen customer with a bottle of whiskey and a glass with you, still wearing the revealing outfit that covered almost nothing as everything that is intended to be covered has been almost out. Your seductive eyes looking straight at the certain birthday boy your boss was talking about. "Happy birthday." You spoke in an alluring voice as you pour a drink on the glass, letting the birthday boy, Taeil, drink on it. You then had a special ravishing number in front of him and his friends.

Unexpectedly, as you turned your head on the right, a familiar face appeared that caught you off guard, tripping but luckily smoothly as if it's part of your routine. The man's face is screaming in confusion, worry and shock but you never allowed it to faze you. Instead, you quickly finished your dance and said your parting ways to his friends, acting normal as possible before retreating to the backstage, grabbing your coat, wrapping to your almost naked body as you sat in front of the beauty mirror, processing what you just saw. 'Why is Doyoung here?' You thought.

A fellow dancer approached you and asked you if you are alright as she sensed that you are tensed. You assured with a nod and smile that convinced her enough to leave after she said some compliments about your performance recently.

Both Doyoung and you can't stop thinking about your short encounter as you both reached at your respective places — in your small but decent and clean apartment in your case. Four years ago since you ended things between the two of you — a painful breakup without a proper closure. Many thins has been left unsaid.

4 years ago...

Instead of using your time for another review session, you allotted this day for your boyfriend that you haven't seen for a while due to busy schedules. You have been preparing for an entrance exam to your dream medical school and this meant so much for you for it will make your beloved grandmother proud, the person who loved and cared for you after your parents abandoned you for both of their separate newly built families, leaving you alone.

Only five minutes left before your scheduled date for your 4th anniversary but you are too excited so you went to the restaurant earlier than the meeting time. As you wait, you fixed your eyeglasses and the dress you recently bought at a thrift store. It is a beautiful above the knee dress but not sultry as you are very conservative about your body. You hate showing skin and you are lucky enough to have someone who loves you the way you are. Doyoung is the nicest and most gentleman person you've ever met in your life.

Hours had passed and Doyoung was nowhere to be seen. The waiter has been coming back and forth at you asking if you are ready to order for the nth time. You kept calling his phone but your boyfriend was not even answering. Your messages were left unseen either. Did he forgot your anniversary? Is he busy? Is he sleeping? You are aware that as busy as you are in your entrance exam preparation, he as well was busy in studying for he is an heir of his family billion-worth of businesses. He is a part of a conglomerate family so you understand him.

However, this is your anniversary. As his girlfriend, is it wrong to demand even a minute to spend time with your partner? Is that too much to ask? With a heavy heart, you left the restaurant and decided to visit his apartment instead. Despite feeling neglected, you still care for him so here you are pressing his access code in hopes for seeking a reasonable answer why he can't come or even respond to your calls.

What you are seeing in front of you is the least thing you expect him to do. This is the opposite of a reasonable excuse that you might let him pass for not coming to your date. Tears formed in your eyes as you stare at your boyfriend being topped by a woman you recognized as the beautiful, rich girl Doyoung's parents wanted for their son. She was sporting her lace underwear, kissing the man under her roughly.

"D-doyoung?" Your voice cracked as tears streamed on your face.

Doyoung, on the other hand, managed to free himself from the woman on top of him and looked at the source which is you, completely broken. You swiftly ran away not caring when your eyeglasses fell. All you wanna do is ran away, ignoring Doyoung's scream.

"Y/N wait." He called you as he fixed his belt which that woman unbuckled unsuccessfully. He disregarded his unbuttoned top though since he still cared about that he might lose you more. Doyoung ran as fast as he could to reach you but was stopped when he stepped on your eyeglasses that fell on you a while ago, crushing its lens. Within the millisecond distraction, you are no longer in front him. He lost you completely. Doyoung cried in the middle of the road, picking the only thing he had of you.

Four years has been wasted already and there is no way Doyoung can turn back time to fix everything and be happy with you. 3 days straight of struggling to sleep because of you, he decided to search for you where you work at. He called his secretary that he would be leaving the office immediately because of an important business which the secretary politely responded and accompanied her boss until he left.

Doyoung only agreed to his friends to came in this place so they don't have to bother him for going here again. Now he is right in front of the club's entrance tonight still wearing his dashing work attire. He ignored the eyes of the people looking at him and simply entered the venue. He looked around in hopes to see you as soon as possible.

Roaming his eyes around for minutes already until a woman wearing a party clothes approached him with a smile in a friendly manner. "Hello sir, are you looking for someone?" She asked accurately. Maybe it's normal for them to encounter people like him who is looking for someone.

"Oh Thank you." He replied politely. "I was looking for y/—"

'Fuck.' He cursed under his breath. He forgot your screen name. Doyoung almost forgot that entertainers like you don't use their given name. Thinking hard to remember, the female smiled at him and said.

"Are you perhaps looking for Briar?"

"Oh yes yes. That's the name." He was relieved.

The woman ushered one of the bouncer and asked them to fetch you on the backstage which the male complied. "She will be here for a moment." She assured the male customer before eyeing him from head to toe with that wide smile. "I knew you were looking for her. You are not the only one actually, she's in demand."

Doyoung gave her an awkward smile before looking settling himself and have a seat as he waits for you. Not that long, you came, wearing your tonight's outfit. As usual, a daring latex with a hint of lace lingerie, your hair is perfectly curled, your red lips caught his attention the most.

Your eyes met Doyoung's beautiful one even from a far. Your boss motioned you to go to him, a customer which you refused. "Miss, I'm preparing for my performance. I can't." You were about to leave when she stopped you. "Look at him. He is wearing authentic designer items from head to toe. That man is extremely rich. So you better cater him and give him a good time." She said. "I never handed you to some creepy old men who look like they want to eat you. This man is an exception, he looks no harm."

Yes Doyoung is no harm but he is... to your heart. You really can't face him after what happened in your past but for the sake of work, you walk on his direction andnd leaned towards him, using his thighs as support, not caring if some people out there would have a clear view of your ass as you bend. "Why are you here? Leave immediately." You whispered but with sharpness in your tone.

Your cleavage is the most distracting part on his perspective but he is more mesmerized with your lips, the urge to kiss you right now but he has to stop himself. He has some serious business to do. "I wanted to talk to you." He replied.

You rolled your eyes before turning your back, later on swaying your hips as you slowly sit on his lap, as you sexily rolled your hips, brush your ass on his clothed manhood. You can feel how tensed Doyoung is but you shrugged it off and continued dancing seductively while speaking. "We have nothing to talk about. Just leave." Your boss is watching you so you have to do your job while talking or else it would suspicious to just talk casually.

"I'm not leaving." Doyoung was stubborn but you have to show him that he is in your territory. "Leave or I will scream that you are trying to kiss me." You threatened him seriously, pinching his thigh and you stood up.

Being a pervert is probably one of the accusations he doesn't want to face so he ended up giving up and left the place. Desperate to clear things with you, he thought of something. He is not giving up.

After a tiring show, you bid goodbye to your fellow performers then made your way to the exit backstage. Putting your earphones on and listening to mellow song relaxes you in contrast to the loud music at the bar.

Hug me more. Tell me more.

Don’t push me away now.

I’ll watch a bit more and cry a bit more.

So that I can let you go.

Just a little bit more. Just a little bit more.

You stopped your pace the moment the familiar tall figure stood in front of you. You looked up to look at his tired, sad eyes. Doyoung waited for you outside the bar. "So can we talk now?" He said softly, almost begging. There's no harm, right? After all, it's been four years, you should be ready to face him again.

You two decided to have your talk at a peaceful place which is the children's playground. You both sat in the swing with a moment of silent at first until Doyoung collected himself and finally talked. "What happened to you?" The first thing he asked.

You avoided his gaze and looked down at your heels. "None of your business." You coldly spoke which he fully understand. The last time he saw you, you were crying and running away from him. He did something hurtful, even too late, you deserve an explanation even without you asking. On the other hand, you are just waiting. You had a feeling earlier that he was going to tackle about your break up. Maybe, you actually needed the closure that you both didn't get.

4 years ago...

Doyoung's parents were furious about their son being hard-headed and not wanting to follow their orders. Right after the painful break up ,which he can even call it like that since there's no announcement from you saying 'we should break up,' his parents were extremely mad for rejecting and dumping the woman they chose to be married with their son. How come they are more concerned about that woman over him? They were enraged enough to confiscate all his phone and computer then worst, sent him abroad.

It pains him to not even had a chance to explain the truth even on phone. She went to his apartment and delivered the message of his parents threatening to reject you once the entrance examination for medical school occurs. Doyoung knows what his parents are capable of. They have many connections and they can do it in just one call. Feeling weak, she took advantage of it and just pounce, the same time frame you caught them making out.

When he was overseas all he thinks about is you even after so many years. Once he had the access to his phone, the first thing he did was contact you but you are out of reach, probably you changed your number. He tried searching you in all social media platform, still can't find you.

"I'm sorry for everything y/n... for not giving the explanation you deserve, for leaving you with unanswered questions." Doyoung started shedding tears. "I am the biggest jerk ever for that but Y/N, I never cheated on you, never in a million years but I'm guilty of hurting you and not fighting enough for us. I should have fought harder." He began bawling and crying out loud.

You looked up to the sky, trying to contain the tears threatening to fall. Everything is clear now and you can't blame him for that. Doyoung tried his best, you knew him very well, you regretted not holding into that. If only you listened to him and not ran away. You stood up, stood in front of him and patted his head like a puppy. "Stop crying now." You tried your very best to sound unaffected and composed with your authoritative voice. "It's all in the past now. We can't go back in time. It happened for a reason." You told him which made him look up to you. Your face has no emotion at all, you are actually good at hiding it though.

"You should've let them..." you admitted, looking away from him. Your statement made Doyoung confused. "I never went to the medical school obviously... that's why I'm here." Your words tasted bitter while you think about everything that happened prior to that.

Doyoung panicked he asked you continuously if his parents harmed your chance but you shook your head. "I didn't even get the entrance examination." You confessed. "I was on my way at the school when our neighbors called me, announcing the most heartbreaking news I have received..." This event was so emotional, it became your breaking point, you can no longer hold back your tears. "She passed away... I have to mourn while dealing my heartbreak with you and at the same time failed what I prepared for, my dreams. Worst is you were never there beside me. Honestly, I was mad at you that time. I questioned your love for me. That time I was thinking, "did you even love me?" As well as my grandma treated you like her own grandson but you didn't even show up." That's the cue, you covered your face with your palm, crying your eyes out.

The only thing Doyoung can do is stand in guilt, as he watched you at your lowest point. It made him feel useless. He lost his connection with you at the time when you needed him the most. If only he fought tougher and harder, he might at least ease the pain by being there for you. As he embraced you, all he can say is numerous apologies and you let him for a couple of minutes.

As you asked him to let you go, you wiped your tears quickly and met his eyes again. "It's painful but it made me feel better." You said. "Maybe this is all we need... closure."

Hearing the word closure, Doyoung's heart crushed as it is not what he wanted. "Y/n..." he started. "I'm no longer weak... maybe this is the right time to continue what we had four years ago... I still love you. I never stopped." He held your hand which you quickly retreated.

"We can't." You simply answered, going back to your tough and restrained self. Doyoung asked a soft 'why' which was answered by a soft yet bitter chuckle. "Things are different now, Doyoung. I'm no longer the same Y/n four years ago. You don't know me."

"Then I'm willing to know you once again like how people do when they meet someone for the first time." He desperately replied.

"No." You told. "I don't deserve someone like you and you deserve someone better. Can you even fathom why I do now? People like me don't get normal. We don't love people, we don't have attachment. We don't deserve love and respect—"

"I don't care. No matter how you insist how different you are, you are still there. I don't give a fuck what you do now, what you wear... I love you." He looked and caressed your face, his favorite. "You are still the most beautiful woman I've seen, with or without your eyeglasses, no matter how long or short your dress looks... fuck those things. All I want is to be with you." He said with all his heart that made you melt. He never changed.

The same thing he does, you also touched his cheeks, wiping his tears with your thumb. Within a second, your lips are planted on his soft lips, giving him a long, loving kiss, both your eyes closed and tears streaming down your faces as if showing how much you longed for each other in that way. As you separated yours to his, you caressed his face one last time. "I am glad to see you again." You confessed. "I truly am... but may I ask you this?"

Doyoung listened attentively with full of hope that you will still let him in your heart as he felt it with the kiss you shared minutes ago but he is wrong with the words you spoke. "Please do not come back to that place again. Don't look for me, never ever come back. Forget about me."

All he can say is why. "Maybe it's time for us to accept that maybe we are not meant for each other." You said. "As I said earlier, we are on our own ways now. I can't be with you. We should be lucky enough to even spoke and fix things together." You continued. "For both of us, please let us not see each other again." You gave him a one last hug before walking away. Once again, you slowly faded in Doyoung's eyes. But this time should he do what you said or should he fulfill his promise to fight harder?

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Sav!!!! I'm sorry you're having a rough time, bestie... hugging you so much right now 🫂🫂🫂🫂💖💖💖💖

I heard you're accepting gushes, so I thought I'd stop by, hehe... hopefully, my endless talking about Rockie might cheer you up a little 💖

This is my favorite doodle I made when I first started shipping with him (gosh, my first Java doodle 🥹), and this is my absolute favorite gif I made from his mv for Rocker's High 🥰

He is absolutely gorgeous and handsome and sweet and kind and passionate and chill and wise and... gfbgbhgmh... I feel so comfortable and safe with him fr 😭💖 Rockie is literally the very first character I've ever come across in my life that I felt such an intimate and deep emotional connection with. Out of all my f/os on my massive list, I feel like I relate to him the most - as in, completely with all of my heart. I grew up with classic rock as a kid, so his style of music instantly resonated with me. I actually fell for him from the second I pulled him in C.RO.B!!! I didn't care that he was only a rare Cookie, I still maxed out his magic candy and almost maxed out his level, too... God, his energetic personality won me over so quickly!! Rockstar as a young Cookie was absolutely adorable, and it feels incredible to play all the C.ooki.e R.u.n games and watch him slowly grow into the guy I ship with and love so much... C.RO.B (his experimental phase), C.RTO.A (his metal/guitar-smashing phase), and C.R.K (the self assured, confident old man I know and love and will soon marry... 🥹💖). He knows exactly what his music is and what it means to him because he's gone through a lifetime of experience, and I love that I get to see all these sides of him... I get to learn what made him who he is... and C.R.K will have a special place in my life forever as the game that gave me my husband and soulmate in this life... 🥰💖

Y'know, I literally kept him on my list as a platonic f/o in the back of my mind for years because I thought he was too young to ship with... and then C.R.K happened and made my dreams come true in the best way possible. I'm eternally grateful that they committed to creating an older, more mature design for him because they don't always make older Cookies in C.ooki.e R.u.n - and they don't always update their original Cookies in such a drastic way, either!!!

But they did for Rockie, and I absolutely adore him in every single way!!! His looks, his songs, his attitude, his voice... oh god don't get me started on how hot his voice is... I could listen to him sing and talk for hours in that rough, deep undertone of his - you know, the one he uses when he's not trying to shine in the spotlight... his calmer, more everyday voice... *siiiiiiiiigh*... ☺️🫶🏻💋💋

Art: plurralthing 💖

(Of course, I did add a few of my own headcanons that I thought fit him too, but honestly... you can't go wrong with giving this man transmasc genderfluidity when he literally oozes it at every opportunity imo!! Also, fuzzy old man... body hair... hhhhghjgjgbbbhn)

Anyway, I just... I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT MY MAN FR... He is everything to me 🫦💕

♡• rockstars-babe •♡

REFFIIIIIEEEEE I CAN'T GET ENOUGH OF YOU AND ROCKSTAR COOKIE AAAAAA

Like??? Your dynamic together is just so sweet and stuff, you know? Like, it's the kind of love that gives people good vibes just by being around, you know? That's the kinda vibe I get, anyway. 💕 It's the kind of love that just!!! Ages like a good wine!!! May it last for forever and always, my friend!!

It took me a couple days to get around to finally answering this but thank you for sharing your love!!! It really cheered me up and I hope you had as much fun gushing as I did reading, heh. :3c

#gush ticket redeem!#friends' ships #yeeeeey!!

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clear-what-i-was-seeing · 1 year

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Get to know me

tagged by the wonderful and amazing @petrowriting!! thank you <3

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This one’s my home screen, I took a photo of a cabbage when I was like 12 years old and did something to invert the colours and have had it ever since lmao. My lockscreen is this fanart of Will Graham because it’s amazing and gorgeous and I’m obsessed with it

The last song you listened to: Through Me (The Flood) also by Hozier alksdaslkdhf. i’ve been obsessing so much it’s such a good song. i have maybe described listening to this song as a religious experience too many times for someone who has never had an actual literal religious experience

Currently reading: 100 pages into the Red Dragon book and it is a trip lmfao. it’s so fun seeing the ways the dialogue was repurposed, and the prose is wow, but ohhh boy. thomas harris. babe. get help<3

Last movie: Jane Austen Book Club! i love grigg very much despite his stupid name. gonna start alternating between hugh dancy and mads’s movies bc I’ve been doing that accidentally I think lmao. Last three movies I did went like Confessions of a Shopaholic -> Charlie Countryman -> Jane Austen Book Club. but on the other hand I deeply need to watch like four hugh dancy movies as soon as possible for emotional reasons

Craving: For it to be like a week from now so I’m healed from my wisdom teeth surgery. also to have no work or responsibilities for a month and just be able to write and read hannigram fics aslkdf.

What are you wearing right now: this is my first time not being in pyjamas since getting the aforementioned wisdom teeth out lmfao. black pants and dark blue t-shirt

How tall are you: 5’3 </3

Piercings: love the aesthetic yet terrified of getting it done and also them catching on things. I got these clip-on gothic glow-in-the-dark dragon earrings a bit ago from a targeted instagram ad (my first and last time ever doing so) because I have zero impulse control, and they broke immediately.

Tattoos: none, but have been microwave-spinning the concept of getting a hannibal tattoo since I watched. the heart from primavera would be so cool

Glasses? Contacts?: Glasses, my eyesight is deeply blurry without them

Last drink: classic water, big big fan of the stuff. reminds me of nbc hannibal because because there was water in the show a lot

Last show: watched two episodes of The Last of Us at like 5am yesterday, it was great. also perpetually rewatching hannibal by getting everyone I know to watch, and then watching with them

Last thing you ate: soft tofu in broth. there are, not a lot of vegan post-wisdom-tooth food options (also I’m very picky lmao), so I’ve been rotating between that, vegan ice cream, mashed potatoes, and vegetable smoothie for like 3 days.

Favorite color: ohhh this is painful, is it a cop-out to say all of them? Big big fan of purple, orange with purple, green, and blue.

Current obsession: it’s been hannibal and nothing else for 9 months now, and im going strong

Unrelated obsession: not sure if this counts exactly but there’s a writing app where you set a timer and start typing, and if you stop typing for longer than 5 seconds it deletes everything, and it’s so cool. I’ve been calling it stream-of-consciousness writing in my head for like a year bc it’s like a personal stream-of-consciousness even though ik that is not how to use that term alksfhd. I do 3 or 5 minute sprints and store them in one document, then have a second document where I edit and refine, and for a few I’ve put them side to side and colour-coded all my changes and it’s so fun

Any pets: two cats! Miles, my grey one, is extremely sweet, and possibly too smart for his own good. My other one Chico has a very adorable snaggle-tooth, and is incredibly stupid <3. he’s very bad at knowing what direction he’s going or recognizing any parts of the world around him and I love him very much.

Do you have a crush on anyone?: only in that vague abstract way, almost without direction, catching little wisps of the concept of the feeling from scattered bits of interactions with the world around me

Favorite fictional character: im absolutely refusing to choose between hannibal and will so im listening them both and you can’t stop me

The last place you traveled: i’ve literally gone nowhere since the pandemic started </3. i’m in Canada and the furthest I’ve been is just one city to another in the same province like 1.5 hours away. Hopefully going to Italy in the summer though!!

Tagging: @stranded-labyrinth, @valentinsylve, @elvislefilm, @disaster-vampire, @sacha-da-1, @dreamed-itself-waking, @em0fagz, @cannibaltranssexual, @hisjimct, @im-urchin, @ghostforwhat, @f0undationsofd3cay, @det395, @a-pigeons-soliloquy, @mysterist, and anyone else who wants to!

zero pressure, also i’m always v forgetful with tagging so if i missed anyone sorry and ily!

#clear posts #me #tag game

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