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seoafin · 3 years

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tbh,, i havent read the raws of the interview yet, only the translated ver from fan-translator and b4 i start, i think that this will be just me talking in circle and in no particular order AND a real mess (my brain does weird things after exams) but uhh here we go

gojou collects talented people, and by doing so he finds the people he can most probably relate to, except that he can't, not really, because something in the universe shifted when he was born. and it makes me think of how he's always known it, that he is special, and he's proven it, time and time again— he wants to take in talented ppl and he does, but there rly isn't much he can do for them. for they are talented, more talented than the world can understand,,

but they aren't gojou satoru

gojou took in megumi, bc he knew megumi was strong, and would grow up to be someone even stronger, but gojou can't facilitate or encourage his growth, bc for all they're similar, they are so fundamentally different. ALSO,, while geto was in his life, gojou rly judged everything according to his understanding of geto’s moral compass. gojou wears a human suit and geto is how he learnt to wear it well 🏃

the dragonfly analogy regarding to geto’s response to gojo, who was shown wearing a dragonfly patterned yukata in HI arc,, i’m trying to not think abt the fact that dragonfly symbolized victory in jpn....pain. i quoted from a web here for more explanation : In Japan the dragonfly is known as the "victory insect", or kachimushi, because of its hunting prowess and also because it is known to never retreat. Dragonflies are agile and fast fliers and can even hover, but never fly backwards

and bringing this up again, matricide and patricide are 2 of the 5 worst act to commit in buddhism, and it was said that if u commit one of those act u’re going to spend a real long time in the deepest pit of hell before continuing the samsaric cycle (higher chances to be born as an animal after that probs)— this might be geto’s divine retribution. held no power over his own body and could be considered that he’s the same as those “monkeys” 💀

ALSO the fact that sukuna's interest is "eating" rly drives home his hedonistic philosophy of seeking pleasure for himself. and he’s a cannibal...makes me think if he’ll just chomp on ppl with the mouth on his stomach

randomly, to date i think he hasn't really called himself a human, shaman, or a curse, and has held himself apart from all 3, and we've also the intro of the cursed wombs so i wonder if he’s trying to become, or is, a different entity altogether

so onmyoji got mentioned in the interview and what they practice is called onmyodo and abe no seimei and kano no yasunori were the notable practitioners,, and the kamo in jjk is the same as irl who served the imperial court back then

maybe i was right when i said that the relation between the govt. and jujutsu elders are similar to how the shogunate and imperial court work (ie, the former holds the actual power) but... lets see later,,

and i cant believe that i actually nailed it on the analogy of jujutsu practices by religion,,, so mahayana buddhism, shintoism, and taoism is present in jjk along with their respective jujutsu practices...but between the 3, it shld (?) be taoism > shintoism > mahayana buddhism (which could took a path to pure land buddhism)

it’s weird that the number of curses are supposedly higher in jpn comparable to other countries when taoism was brought from china....tengen sus

so the zenin family tree is sth like :

brothers: [toji's dad] ; naobito ; ougi

so toji, naoya, and maki & mai are cousins of the same generation

[toji's dad] → jinichi (probs) ; toji → megumi

naobito → other brothers, naoya

ougi → maki, mai

but yea i’d call anyone who’s within/close or below my age range as cousins and others above 30 as uncles/ aunts LMFAO,, i dont rly memorize my own family tree 😭😭 especially since most call the other by honorifics instead of names : aunt, uncles etc or attaching said honorifics at the end of a name for an older sibling figure/ older cousins [but like ppl in my country also call the other who are older with sibling honorific even if we’re strangers,,, rly similar to korea’s hyung/oppa—eonnie(unnie)/noona but some uses more genderless honorific] (1)

tw // topic of incest, mentions of abuse

if anyone got the wrong idea when reading this : i am not glorifying/ romanticising incest(uous themes),, i’m looking at this with absolutely no lenses of bias even tho im rly against it

初恋 = literally : first love, or puppy love

恋 = romantic love/ deep longing

i literally don't know how else to put this...🧍and with language barrier...using a western interpretation of the eng word "love" to explain a jpnese term is not quite that simple, unfortunately

that thread omg,, i rly do understand how exactly someone could associated kindness with love bc of my upbringing, it was when i was slightly older that i was just...oh so its not like that orz,,, so the most plausible explanation would be that

but the problem is that,, akutami never specify when exactly she had a crush on them,, and when megumi answered todo’s question she had a “♡” reaction 😶,, uhmmm there’s rly no way to look past this if its this way or be in denial

i’ve seen some of "why wouldn't mai react that way after hearing megumi say he'd like someone who's compassionate when she's surrounded by men like naoya",, well I MEAN,,, that, but also mai probs admires that megumi grew up so well out of the clan, regardless of the fact that he had the foundation (10 shadows) to do so. imo she seems happy for him the way she can't be for maki, bc maki ultimately had to leave her behind

hate to say it but yea,, the 3 clans most likely still practice inbreeding in order to preserve their power and presumably their wealth too 😀

i had an idle thought abt it at first but i filed it deep in the back of my mind asap,, bc i ont wanna jump to conclusion abt this out of all things too early. it’s probably not even in jjk, but all those elite clans in other ani/mangas that produce powerful heirs and whatnot also do the same,,, but this way of (my personal) thinking was influenced when i first got into tsukihime (type-moon),,, i read abt the nanaya family background and found out that they practice that in order to keep their bloodline “pure” (to keep it short : they have an optical power),, and i had this kind of assumption ever since so there’s that

i’m,, convinced the zenins' inbreeding made it more difficult for them to get powerful shamans bc they got 2 jujutsu technique-less children with heavenly restrictions in the same generation: toji & maki

even more convinced that maki might be a bit stronger than toji bc toji could see curses without aid while maki can't so the pay-off must be higher,,, SJJASN IDK ,,, plus naoya sort of implies his older brothers are nothing compared to him, and idk if we should take that as his arrogance or that his older brothers rly are weak/powerless. it would make sense as to why naobito had a lot of sons, ig, as head of clan

i feel so bad that if one of the factors that can caused heavenly restriction is inbreeding,, toji and maki and mai had no say in how they wanted to be born but are scorned for it,, typical asian families projecting their traumas and ideals onto their kids but get mad when they realize that those ideals are ugly...😁😁😁

since the zenin are conservative,, i wonder if they still hold onto old jpnese dining traditions. where in ancient jpn, hierarchical relationships were made readily apparent even within families. a dining table where everybody sat down and ate as equals would be unheard of. rather, each individual is given their own table that indicates their status,,, someone who is not considered “strong” according to the zenin’s views most likely have no place at the table, and probs eat when those who are “strong” finished/ serve them when they are eating

if toji was tossed into a swarm of curses,, i dont think abuse during said time is below them,,,

the zenin clan was already great, but they further amassed power and strength by, what i assume to be, marrying and adopting powerful individuals into the clan 🤔 ,,, i imagine they're like the hiiragi but without doing what they did to shinya (ons reference)

BUT after all that, i like to think that since akutami’s a big horror fan, jjk might be an outlet to explore said topics or even darker ones, so i wouldnt be that surpised abt it. given that there’s more than enough “red flags” before this was dropped : a reference to “tale of hikaru genji” when a grown woman asked for gojou’s number in HI arc (out of all things); granny who transformed into the man’s daughter, sat on his lap and man just touched her waist; mei mei and ui ui ; and...this (incestous theme is in the novel btw)

lets not start with whatever the fuck in kubo’s head in the interview otherwise i’m writing paragraphs with every curse words possible,, those big 3 mangakas are so— UGH,, a planet w out (cis) men like him sounds real good rn 😌 if one of yall out there decide to do it,, pls hmu rly cant do this shit anymore

akutami said i like my men pretty and i like women who will step on my neck and spit in my face (I REMEMBERED TATSUKI FUJIMOTO’S INTERVIEW WHEN HE WAS ASKED ABT MAKIMA AND IT WAS SO 😭😭😭😭) but ykw,, love that for both of them <3

when i said 3 : one piece, bleach, naruto. aside from the blatant depiction/ characterize of women in those 3,, idk if some ppl arent aware yet but oda is friends with two (2) convicted pedos,, man...the major disappointment and disgust when i first find out abt it

anyways this is just my 2 cents (which i think rightfully belong to the trash can) so pls just take this w a lil to no grain of salt - 🐱

YEAH THE ♡ LMFAO I THOUGHT IT WAS JUST A “good answer ♡“ heart BUT NOW IM RE-EXAMINING?????

honestly i wouldn’t be surprised if the three clans practiced inbreeding. but ik people are going to be 😡😡😡😡😡 about it when the queen of fucking england is literally married to her (something) cousin. i’m not justifying it but like....love the double standards, just as always with the west 😍

DON’T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THAT FUCKING PED* LIST THEY SHOULD ALL BE IN JAIL. JAILLLLL. it’s all so gross. that’s why i fucking hate when people look towards manga for positive representation because the chances of that are super slim to zero, especially since the industry is saturated with misogyny and ped******* and a lot of other gross stuff.

i think ppl forget jjk is a horror manga LOL so obviously it’s going to confront darker themes. the question is whether it’s going to be done tastefully or not......

#honestly I don't have high hopes unfortunately 😭#but who knows I might be...pleasantly surprised #idk I don't have high hopes in manga nowadays so hmmm #anyway as always I enjoy ur thoughts <3 ❤️❤️#hope ur doing well!!!#and getting all those genshin impact goodies #🐱 anon #long post

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spadesinglasses · 4 years

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The Half of It (Movie)

omfg this movie is so great, and Netflix killed their trailer game once again.

there will be spoilers involved. So please if you’re on mobile, just scroll down if you don’t want any spoiler.

Okay where to start.

Let’s go first by saying that my thoughts of the trailer was this.

A simple movie about the straights being helped by the lesbian. I thought it will be a cute moment where wlw will help mister himbo get Aster. And the idea is nice, the guy that acted as Paul is adorable (im a gay man, sue me for seeing him first orz)

I really thought its going to be a soft and easy movie about friendship, about growing up and moving forward, of falling for the person your bestfriend loves and then moving on from that.

Then the movie dropped (I was late) and ooh boy.

I’m gay, mlm to be exact so my reaction to the movie may be different from a wlw but god this movie is great.

Ellie Chu is a persevering young lass in a small ass religious town. She looks like she works with sarcasm, and dry humor, and dead pan jokes which will surely bring the house down. She is smart, chaotic in her own way.

Paul Munsky is our glorified golden retriever of a person. He his a himbo, and no one can take that away from him and me. He’s a genuinely great person, ones to diversify the tradition his family have been going for, and is actually a nice guy. NOT a nice guy tm, but rather an actual nice guy.

Aster Flores, our girl in the middle of this pyramid. She is an unknown entity in this equation and we have no info about her, other than she is an artist and wants to kick Trig and the blondies away from her. We stan her.

The story revolves around these three, but mostly Ellie and Paul.

I want to say that i love the friendship that these two have. THIS IS THE KIND OF PLATONIC FRIENDSHIP THAT SHOULD EXIST MORE IN TEEN MOVIES. They don’t have any charged moment, or moments where you think they will kiss. THEY LITERALLY JUST VIBE. or sometimes Ellie schools Paul into becoming a better person.

AND IT WAS SO FUCKING COOL. Seeing Ellie help Paul talk to Aster. Seeing Paul LITERALLY GIVE ELLIE FASHION TIPS LIKE BRAH THAT IS SO PURE.

The only straight man we will save in KASM2020 is Paul Munsky. And some others maybe.

These two showed a side of friendship that isn’t fueled with romance before coming into a platonic warmth. It was friendship from the start til the end. They get one another. I am sure that Ellie was talking about Paul when she talked about losing the person that gets you.

In this household we root for Ellie and Aster, but I see Ellie’s relationship with Paul surviving way longer than what the future holds for Ellie and Aster.

I want what Ellie and Paul have, and it sucks.

Now, notable scenes to comment on.

EVERY SCENE OF PAPA CHU AND PAUL. These two are so fucking different from one another yet vibe cooly. Like braaaaah Paul will be a great son in lawwwww.

Papa Chu has been grieving for Mama Chu this whole time and Ellie just decided to be the adult at a young age to keep them all from falling apart. AND FUCK THAT HITS DIFFERENT.

Papa Chu deciding to spill his guts, even though i’m sure Paul did not understand a bit of it, was a move towards healing and honestly, i raise my fist to him in celebration. It’s about time.

Ellie never resented that about her father and that just shows how much Ellie cares for him.

And also dont lie, if we all have the change to be romantic in our heads with our crushes, i know y’all will do it. I don’t see what Ellie did to Aster as wrong, maybe idiotic yes, but evil? No, so i will fight those who will say it, because i can already feel it in my feelies.

I really thought that when Ellie spilled how to Paul about her feels about Aster, it was the scene where Paul will know and then helps Ellie and Aster to be together. THat was the part that gave me whiplash because i was expecting it so much only for it to not happen. So again, Kudos to who edited the Trailer for this movie.

I still don’t understand why on earth Paul decided to KISS Ellie after the sport thing. Maybe adrenaline? But that moment hit me like a truck. That was the moment where i was like “oh fuck this story is about putting someone in a pedestal and then falling for them, compare to knowing someone genuinely.”

Do i think that Paul is in love romantically with Ellie? No. Paul understands that Ellie is gay, and even though he was homophobic during that time (the forbidden yakult scene), he pulled through after it, researching what it is to be gay and then not being the person to hinder someone just because of it.

I can defend Paul because I know how he is, at least with how much the movie showed us, so I’m not bothered by it. But what I wish for would be a personal conversation between Ellie and Paul after that, and before the church scene.

I feel like there was a lack of continuation between those two. It seemed too sudden between all of the things.

Maybe Paul is just that progressive.

Anywho. I’m not sure what Aster is in terms of sexuality, or if she will have a future with Ellie. But honestly Ellie deserves to find her happiness in her college so I’m not really hoping for anything between these two.

I was very confused with Aster when she asked Ellie out to her favorite place, BUT it made sense when she said that deep down she knew, at the end of the movie. But it was really confusing how this girl just asked a person she haven’t spoken with, to her favorite place AND get undressed. Like girl is brave brave. Ellie is shooketh.

Overall, this movie is up there with the feel good movies. There was no homophobia in terms of violence, but there was a moment where Paul Munsky spewed religious garbage. But we forgive him for that because the next scene, he defends the lesbians. All hail our new Thor, defender of Lesbians.

This is a really great movie compare to “To all the boys” movie. I really hope that The Half of It gets a sequel with Ellie in College, and then maybe going back home to hang out with Aster and Paul.

#spoiler #spoilers #the half of it spoiler #the half of it #ellie chu #paul munsky #aster flores #netflix #glass thoughts

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franeridart · 5 years

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Anon said: Um so hello, I’m just here to say keep up the awesome work, I love your kiribaku art and it’s adorable and I go on binges through your blog (omg I sound so creepy I’m sorry I just love ur art so much) and it makes my day so yeah please keep drawing!

Ahhhhh you don’t sound creepy at all, don’t worry!!!!! Thank you so much for liking my stuff that much!!!!!!! <3<3

Anon said: May ask what kiri///mina would look like in your style? You don't have to draw it if you don't like the ship.

Gosh sorry but I really really don’t ship it!

Anon said: you know how I miss?? your OCs!!! they're the cutest!!

AWE thank you so much!!!!!!! I have a few comics planned for them, hope I’ll manage getting to them soon enough!!! (oT^T)9<3

Anon said: This is so sappy but some of your kiribaku posts really make me really appreciate long relationships! I’ve always found pining and crushes the cutest bc it’s full of intense feelings, but you portray being in love and accepting each other so well!! it’s amazing how you show characters interacting with each other and being so comfortable instead of worrying about hiding part of themselves and long story short I love your art and ideas so much

This ask!!!!!!!!! means the universe!!!!!!!!!! to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m so glad I can manage portraying love in such a way, I’m so in love with the idea of open, accepting love, andI try seriously hard to make it look healthy in my comics so!!!!!!! thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!! I have no clue how many times I’ve reread this ask I’m not even exaggerating TT^TT <3

Anon said: I just want to start off by saying you’re my favourite blog on tumblr, your art is incredibly adorable and always makes my day!! I was just wondering how you were able to create your own unique art style? It’s something I’ve been struggling with a lot lately with my own art. Any advice is appreciated, thanks for everything you do!!

I think it’s about finding the right spot between what feels comfortable for you and the end you’re using your art for? In my case what’s comfortable is something fun and smooth, and the main end has always been to be able to draw comics - I’ve always liked comics because I like writing and I like drawing, but my attention span was too short to manage finishing them, and the way I had of drawing was too stiff to properly convey emotions the way I wanted to, which made drawing comics sound like an impossible dream haha I fixed it by simplifying my style, by taking away or reducing to the bare minimum everything that took me ages to work out/draw and pushing my expressions and body language to extremes to make up for the lack of details.

That’s just my experience with it, though! The best advice I can give you is to sit back and look at your current way of drawing from an objective perspective - do you enjoy it? Is the process of drawing something you’re comfortable with? What’s uncomfortable in it for you, and in which ways could you change it to make it comfortable and fun? Does your current art style allow you to do what you want to do with your art? If you want to paint, does it allow you to paint in an easy and fun way? If you want to make comics, does it allow you the range to properly portray a character moving and living without making you wish you’d never started drawing halfway through it?

Imho the first step to find a style that’s your own and feels right is to find a style that’s fun to use and doesn’t stress you to hell and back every time you pick up your pencil. This is easier to do the more things you attempt, so for a bit being inconsistent in style is a good and normal thing - try things out! The best one for you will definitely stick in the end. And if you already feel comfortable with the way you have of drawing, then hell! You already have a style that works for you! Just because to you it doesn’t look unique and special it doesn’t mean that it isn’t - if you asked me to point out what makes my style unique I wouldn’t be able to tell you either, the way I see it my style is the most uninteresting and common-looking style out there. To be honest with you that’s probably just how it is for every artist out there hahaha

Anon said: Hi!! I love your art and just want you to know I always get a big, stupid smile on my face whenever I see you cross my feed, whether it’s something new or a reblog of an old post. Everything you do is just amazing and I love it

AHHHHHHH Thank you so so much!!!!!!!!! (TT^TT)<3<3<3

Anon said: Hey Fran! First off, thank you for the Fire Force art. I remembered to actually check it out, after seeing it lol. Second, I still can't find your Fatgum 😭😭 the link didn't give any, and searching on your page didn't help either. I WILL FIND IT ONE DAY

I think it’s a problem of the app orz I can see him just find from desktop but the app can’t find him either T-T stupid app!

Anon said: Do you have a mini Bakugou and Kirishima living in your head? Are they just living their lives up in your brain and that causes your hand to to write and draw the most perfect and accurate things? Of course mini Kaminari, Sero, Mina, Jirou, etc. also come to visit your head hole from time to time and just chill with mini Baku and Kiri. That’s the only logical explanation on how all your Bakushima content is so inconceivably spot on

That’s such a kind thing of you to say, anon!!!!!! I’m glad you find them that IC!!!!!! I try my best, but sometimes I admit I just have them do and say stuff I’ve done and said myself, the only difference is that I word things in a way that feels right for their usual way of talking hahaha

Anon said: I personally would love to read your essay on why bakugo is the best character ever because I really really really want to love him that much but i feel like there's something that I'm just not getting about him- there's something I'm missing about his personality (keeping in mind that i kinda left the manga after the whole mirio/8 precepts arc). I've always found bakugo compelling and would love love love to read your take on him! Hope you have a great day!

Bakugou has had some amazing character development scenes after the overhaul arc!!!!! He’s outright shown he understands where he was lacking and where he was wrong, that he’s perfectly capable of working in a team and letting people help him and helping them in return, that he cares about his class and how the rest of the world sees them! (and that he worries/cares about how the world sees him too, actually, that broke my heart a bit ;; ) We haven’t seen him in a hot minute by now, but most of anything before the current arc has had him improve and develop and become even better than he already was - I’ve always thought him a good guy with just a lot of troubles relating to the world around him due the way he has been brought up as special and different (it creates a drift between yourself and the rest of the world when everyone around you keeps treating you as if you were other - when you tell a kid he’s different and better for his whole life he’s bound to grow up believing it, after all), but if the problem you have with him is that he isn’t showing the good in himself plainly and obviously enough, then the arcs after the overhaul one are gonna help you like him better, definitely

Well, the thing about Bakugou is that he’s not a plain/obvious character, so you need to think about his actions and his words a bit more, and can’t just take him at face value - it’s what I like about him, actually! How much you need to think about him to figure him out on a deeper level than just the surface one. Since I dunno why you like him and why you feel something’s missing, I can’t tell you specifically what it is in the way I see him that completes him for me, but as I said I try to keep him as IC as I can so probably reading my comics about him might help you understand the way I see him. To me Bakugou’s honest, and kind, and loving, but he’s also arrogant, and angry, and used to taking some things for granted, and I like how all those things work with and against each other in his character. He’s at the same time incredibly proud and absurdly insecure, and I like that about him too - where each comes from and where and how they clash, I like the complexity it gives him. I like that he’s a people person in the sense that he likes having people around himself, and I like that at the same time UA is the first time he’s had actual, honest to god best friends, and how that means that he’s gonna be awkward when usually he’s so sure and proud simply because he isn’t used to having people he actually specifically cares for, I very much like that about him. I like that he overthinks everything he doesn’t immediately gets, I like that he still acts on instincts more often than not, I like that somehow with him those two aren’t mutually exclusive. I like that he’s smart and still so damn dumb, I like that he’s just as simple-minded as he is an actually labyrinth in thought process, I like how one-track minded he is even on the most silly things - how once he sets his eyes on a goal he goes for it like his life depends on it. I like that he’s barsh and rude and impulsive in what he says and does, but when he fucks up he knows he fucked up, and he backstracks, and he does his best to make amends. I like that he sits in stupid ways and has the worst posture in the class and then he wears his hero costume and suddenly he’s a model on the catwalk, that’s so damn endearing to me. I like how ridiculously hyperbolic he is and how he just assumes people will get it, get what he actually means, like there’s a point between his brain and his mouth were things get blown out of proportion and he doesn’t even realize it. There’s just so many things to love about him, for me!!

But most importantly I like that he started as low as he could get and that because of it his plot is a one way towards the summit. I like it. I like watching a character grow and every new chapter become a better version of themselves, I love it. Ultimately that’s probably why he’s my favorite, after all haha

Anon said: Hi, this isn’t a question but I just wanted to say how much I love your art and the way you clearly appreciate Bakugou as a character. So many of my friends hate him, but I think he has a lot of depth and so much potential. Your art always makes me smile! Thanks for doing what you do. :)

THANK YOU and thank you for liking the boy too!!!!!!! He deserves it, he absolutely does deserve it!!!!!!! <3<3<3

Anon said: I just went digging in the archives of my blog (which is.. a mess) and found some old art of yours (like... I'm talking bokuto and kuroo level old) and g o s h. I already loved your art so much then and I still do n hhhhhhhh u go. U great.

Gosh you’ve been around a long time then!!!!! Thank you so much for sticking with me all this time!!!! ✨o(TT0TT)o✨

#fran answers #long post #sorry for disappearing on all of you btw!!#some of you might know already but i've spent most of the last week consuming stuff more than producing it haha #sometimes i need that too

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lazy-safetastic-13 · 4 years

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TOP 9 of 2019

Decided to do TOP 9 fics I enjoyed writing for 2019! :D (top 10 is for end of 2020) And this is in no particular order.

Nothing’s Changed - kustard lamia; general fluff - childhood sweethearts growing up The writing style in this is something I’m not used to, but it was fun to explore doing.

To See the World Before your Eyes from Rose Garden Series - Pepper Roses = Razz/Rose; steampunk AU - rated M for parent loss/parent death and violence I enjoyed writing this a fuckton. The depiction of this ship (Razz here especially) is one I adore a million times. Also, shout out to victorian era and airships/steam machines! XD

Of Bites and Lust - kustard; prostitute Red and vampire/scientist Sans - rated Explicit for miscarriage, rape, suicide tendencies; however, it’s a happy ending This is the rp I did with @scarpathcat (awesome rp partner) and it was one of the best ones we did. From here, I got to experience having other/side characters playing a part in a story, really get to play with character dynamics, and even started the birth of my OC son, Rosella Sans. Without this foundation, there would be no Rose nor this wonderful rp. Furthermore, I LOVE old age/elderly death. It’s my favourite way of dying. Wholesome, heartwarming, and sad and happy at the same time. I enjoyed writing the epilogue with gusto.

What’s Mine is Yours. I Won’t Forget from Rose Garden Series - Smokey Roses = G!Sans/Rose; slave AU - rated M for sexual implications It’s a short piece, but I love the dark undertone. Plus, I enjoy seeing/reading, and writing smoking scenes. It’s cool to imagine, and may give a noir-esque vibe to it. I’m a fan of the noir.

Remember When ... from Rose Garden - Cinnamon Roses = ut!Paps/Rose; opposing kingdoms AU - rated M for major character death This one gave me feels. Even though it was simple. Gotta love them angst tragedies. :’D

I’m Your Brother - fellbros; bros trying to be bros I have to admit. I remember when this started off as simply a whimsical idea. Then it had a part 2, then a drawing, and it just kept growing and me adding on to it. Initially, the concept was interesting, but wasn’t too interesting for me at the time, and rereading it again now to finish the epilogue chapter, it actually is! Naturally, I didn’t want to make the series too long so the chapter length were short. And after rereading it, I need to make Extra chapters now too. X’D Still! It was very fun, and brings a lot of feels. And I also like writing my swaps being down to earth. X’D

Voices from The Corner of Kustard - kustard; voice actors AU - rated M for va sexy scenes I like the AU. Was planning on making a series for it, but I have too many on my plate to do so. But the idea is still funny! XD

Take the Damn Compliment from The Corner of Kustard - kustard; general fluff I like the scenario of someone trying to make the other not put themselves down so much. And said person complimenting gets angry that the other isn’t taking them seriously. Very cute. ^w^

Huuaaave you from The Corner of Kustard - kustard; lamia red and owner sans - general fluff I voiced out the snake talk to write it ... Pretty much it. X’D (then again, I voice out even drunk/baby talk. So one of the many things) Plus lamias. Can’t get enough of lamias. I love my reptiles. :D Now I wanna write Rose having his pet reptile. I’m still debating between snake or creating a beast of my own. lol.

Tangent: As much as I’d love to, Rose is a bunny. Orz Not a snake or a crocodile. He fits a bunny more. Snake only in lamia AU lol.

And that’s it! XD

I didn’t write too much this year. Not as much as last year, so my choices for top 9 after reaching 6 was even more difficult as I could only look to drabbles I did. Ahahaha~ Maybe this 2020 will allow me to have more things to write for top 10. :)

#just me appreciating #top 9 of 2019 #great year :D

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Dgm: Lol, it's nice to have someone to chat about it. I've always kind of wondered about it ever since I knew there were more bookman then the two we have. Of course this being dgm I knew nothing could be perfect or simple. Afterall encouraging a someone since the age of 6 to throw away all their humanity is a pretty twisted thing no matter the goal. Bookman Sr himself looks like he might he a hyprocrite depending on what he's hiding that even Lavi doesn't know. The Komui Talks where Lavi -

2 mentions other bookman members being ever all over the world (which is why Lavi and Bookman never worry about money) and the bookman past Allen theory only made me think about it more. I truly believe that somehow Allen will end up going to wherever the Bookman clan resides someday and we’ll get to see the heart of the clan there through Allen’s eyes. Yes totally I agree! I bet Lavi has also escaped the Noah. But something happened to him to cause him to lose his status as the successor. -

3 Since Hoshino confirmed Lavi will be Bookman. It’s possible Lavi is going to have to fight for his right to succeed that role instead of just simply inheriting it. Like you said it’s possible not everyone was happy w/Lavi as the heir and w/Bookman dead/dying they went ahead and picked someone else while he was missing. Shoot maybe someone else was originally going to be Bookman Sr pupil. But then Bookman rejected them for Lavi at the last minute. That someone could have been the clan favorite.

aah likewise nonny, it’s super nice to talk about all of this ❤ and thank u for opening my eyes on this topic i somewhat took for granted.

and you’re completely right, it cannot be that simple. And if Hoshino had a full series based on the concept of Bookmen it cannot be that simple.

And… y’know what I kinda accepted it with a shounen logic but you’re totally right just encouraging someone since the age of 6 to throw away their humanity should be major warning signs of fucked up organizations. And yea Bookman Sr being an hypocrite wouldn’t surprise me.

But yeah at this point I think that it’s just.. good thematically? Allen struggling with both sides of the war, would only look for the “neutral party” until he can make a choice, realizing the neutrality isn’t working ect… at this point of the story it would make a lot of sense, especially after an arc as heavy as the Alma arc that called out the Order hard. The fact we explore Allen’s past while he’s in full struggle about the sides of the war just… makes it all the more curious.

“ …and we’ll get to see the heart of the clan there through Allen’s eyes“ i see what u did there

And yeah!! I think if Lavi hadn’t escaped yet anyway his title is in jeopardy (”Bookman doesn’t have a successor anymore”, such a loaded dialogue), so yeah he either escaped but lost his statue or is believed dead, but a clan like the Bookmen who had lived for centuries won’t lay the fate of their entiere organization on the shoulder of two people right? imagine the amount of history lost just because the two carriers of it were being careless. So yeah, i can totally see them have a “back up successor” for this kind of situation - well less formed bc without the Bookman in charge, but something to carry on the clan, even if they have to start the Bookman education from scratch.

And yeah I think it’s honestly likely Lavi will have to fight to keep his title. I could completely see this kind of situation. And yeah exactly!! there’s so much reasons to see eventually people kick out Lavi from the spot- and tbh I think it would be a nice twist for the readers that something we all took for granted like Lavi being the successor, that we took for granted because of two biased characters talking about it (and a bias with the Bookmen is already a twist in itself), and show us that’s it’s not that easy.

And tbh the more i think about it the more i seriously think Lavi took the place of another pupil: that someone else was supposed to be successor or was a strong favorite for the clan. The insistance that it’s his secret around his eye that allowed him to be picked as successor in the novel….. makes an insistance on the fact that he wouldn’t have been a First Choice would he not have had a special thing.

also just checking back the novel to be sure. The wording is nice:

“People must imagine all sorts of things about his right eye. But no one could guess that the loss of this eye was what determined his ascent to the title of Bookman’s successor.The truth, only his master knew it. No one else had any needs to know about it.No one else… A slight shiver went through his body. The Autumn wind seemed suddenly colder, for some reasons Lavi couldn’t pinpoint.”

Not word for word bc y’know traduction and all, but the longing (…) on the “No one else” that is repeated with it sending a shiver down Lavi’s spin. Makes it really look like Lavi took the place of someone and the reason why was never explained. Which gives even more reason for the Clan to eventually reject Lavi would they not know why Bookman picked him in detail, and would make for a bitter Rival Successor who might have seen their dreamjob (something they were ready to dedicate their life to) taken by a kid for no obvious reasons. (ESPECIALLY since Lavi mentions that for exemple the search for the Key in the arc was harder since he only had one valid eye: So that could be thrown at him that his missing eye makes him less effective of a Bookman. Like he could read faster with two eyes and such)

I’m kinda starting to see it as more than a valid direction the manga could take tbh? Like… there’s stuff that can go in that direction and that would put Lavi under a lot of pressure.

It would be nice to see this sort of Rival say, still being in the Clan (obviously) but while keeping a close eye on Lavi would be more and more pissed than the kid who can’t help but have a bias is the one who was picked and could totally put it back into reconsideration the moment the only person who knows why Lavi was picked will be dead. tbh that would also probably add more to all the reasons we have now (adding the Past!A=Apprentice theory) why Bookman Sr is THAT severe with him. Bookman probably took a major gamble on Lavi without the full Clan’s approval, while keeping secrets, so more than ever he cannot let Lavi mess it up and give reasons to the Clan to have doubted that decision Bookman apparently never explained. (also if Past!A=Apprentice theory, it could also explain how Allen could get more leeway with Nea than Lavi has in general, since Lavi is therefore a complete Gamble to take).

I’m… seriously seeing it be a possibility orz

I’m soo looking forward a Bookman arc ahhhh

#ichafantalks dgm #bookmenstuff #Anonymous #ichareply

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Eh, I haven’t been much on tumblr in a while, I’m somewhat busy, partially because things are starting to kinda fall apart a little at the moment - in some cases even literally.

I’ve just narrowly avoided being laid off from my job due to “internal restructuring” (aka “we employed a bunch of people but didn’t give them enough to do and suddenly realize we’re actually paying them money for that”) by getting transferred to a different department. While it’s nice that I still have work it’s also something I absolutely cannot see myself doing for very long, too much responsibility and generally it’s about stuff I can neither identify with nor do I even really have much of a clue of what’s going on. Everyone’s really nice and patient with me, but it’s still incredibly emotionally vexing for me, I’ve been crying pretty much every day over the last week. Fun. So I’ll have to look for change now, probably trying to get an English proficiency certificate or two (because god knows I’ll never get one in Japanese, I suck too bad orz) and mayyyybe also make a translator’s certificate; anything to get away from this place that’s laying off people left and right (and just for my ego I’d prefer to leave myself lol), for seemingly little reason. They threw out some of the most hardworking people of the office, screwing over one due to his visa restrictions and telling another they’re out literally on the day they’d have to leave. Amazing.

Anyway, the other thing falling apart is my phone, like... literally. You can watch the battery drain, the battery compartment lid is coming off (because I already had the battery replaced once and the glue is failing now apparently) for a while now, it keeps rebooting itself from simple tasks like tweeting and just yesterday the camera stopped working (good thing I found out how to use my tv to share screenshots of non-Switch games lol). Spent the entire day yesterday trying to get the phone I’m aiming for and while I did see it multiple times, the price was always literally 100 bucks higher than online and I had no chance of pressing the price down for various reasons. I prefer to buy my electronics in brick-and-mortar stores, but I get a lower price AND the same shitty nonexistent customer service online, so yeah... And the money I save I can put into screen protectors and getting myself one or two other nice things I wanted anyway. I actually wanted to wait ‘til August with buying a new phone, telling myself it’s a birthday present to myself, but the situation has turned pretty dire rather quickly so... I’ll probably order today orz

Anyway, in better news, I recently got hold of Fire Emblem Radiant Dawn and man is it good. I didn’t even expect to get it so suddenly, I asked someone I saw selling stuff on twitter, was too late, went like “well looking at Ebay can’t hurt, though it’s probably taking ages to get a reasonable price” and, well... found an auction, won it and only paid 60 bucks, which is relatively low. And damn, was that a great investment, it’s a fantastic game, it’s so much fun and shaping up to become one of my favourite Fire Emblems overall, I love it. And since I’m so much into Tellius lately anway, expect fanfic later today lol (it’s already on AO3, just haven’t uploaded it here yet) I mean, I also have 9554089 other games to finish, so buying a giant time eater like this was probably not the best idea, but man, I just had to take the chance and I honestly can’t stop playing haha No regrets.

I think that’s all I can say for now. I’m on tumblr so little it doesn’t even know what kind of blogs to show me in the recommended bar and defaults to “wannabe-emo photography” stuff lol. Speaking of which, I should take and edit some more nice pictures myself... Maybe I’ll find something on my days off beginning of August. Planned to bike around at Wannsee :D

Have a good day!

#random #I need a better tag for personal stuff #emo shit #not everything though don't worry #more random rambling actually

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13.08.2017

Ensemble Stars! Event Story - Reminiscence＊Monochrome Checkmate / Checkmate (Part 1)

A new blog, a new beginning! It’s been quite awhile since my last translation, and partly it was because this event story was soooo long... I probably spent two weeks on and off just to finish reading this , but it’s really worth it as it revealed alot of the back story of how “Knights” was created, how Leo had fallen, and the evil plans of Eichi... =w=“

I actually felt quite depressed after reading it, since it’s very true to the evil side of how things work in real life, poor Leo TWT I shall not reveal too much and would just let you guys read the story below! +W+

Anyway as always, the summary of the story can be found below. Translation may not be 100% accurate due to my poor Japanese skills~

Prologue

The story starts off with Eichi and Izumi having a chess match between themselves. Eichi was already smiling as he’s confident that he was gong to win it while Izumi rebutted him, saying that this was just the first round, and wonder why Eichi had asked him to play chess together if he had really wanted to talk instead. Eichi apologised that he had made Izumi pissed off but still smiled and told him that Izumi himself had already made a wrong step initially, and claimed that it would be near to impossible for him to make a comeback after that.

Izumi however didn’t backed down, saying that he doesn’t feel like he would lose at all, and wanted to continued the match. Eichi agreed, though once again he just deemed it as Izumi wasting his time and efforts afterall. He boasted that he’s really good in chess, since he had always played it regularly in his room when he was forced to stay indoors due to his weak body back then. He was even good at mathematics, music, and even the ballet that Izumi was good at too. In fact, Eichi claimed that he had never lose to any adult ever since from the age he had turned 10. (Wah.. Eichi’s attitude... it’s very annoying ><”)

However, due to a bad memory, for a period of time Eichi didn’t want to touch chess at all. He continued that he had never seems to be able to win a match against Leo though, which Izumi found it impossible since he himself had already beat Leo multiple times, saying that Leo was good at nothing else other than music. (How come that definitely doesn’t sounds like he’s praising Leo... ^^;) He thought that Eichi must have lose on purpose to please Leo back then, but Eichi shook his head and said that he would never do that on purpose since he had everything: the talent, the environment (his family background I reckon), the people and the information. (Eichi boasting about himself again... =w=“) He also said that chess was a game for gentleman and to cheat or to lose on purpose was something deemed not “gentleman” at all. In fact, Eichi didn’t want to “kill” Izumi at all, and would actually rather him to give up on his own, but... to him it seems like Izumi won’t take it down and would rather struggle.

Izumi kept quiet the entire time, that made Eichi felt abit lonely and he wondered perhaps Izumi was just concentrating to think of a way to win this chess match. Finally Eichi came to the main point why he had gotten Izumi to play chess with him, he had a deal that he wanted to negotiate with him. Izumi showed a glum face upon hearing that, and asked Eichi that whether he had planned to make use of them (knights) as pawns again and killed “him” again. However, Eichi continued smiling as he clarified that he would only “kill” people if there’s a “need” too and said that this is something that Izumi had knew all along about him, aditng on that he had already lose the human side of imself ever since he had became the “emperor”.(That’s scary Eichi TWT)

Eichi went onto nostalgic mode as he remembered the days where he played a match against Leo, and commented that he had always confidently played the “knight” pawn everytime. Izumi dissed that he wasn’t sure that Leo could even play chess actually and asked that whether he had even knew about the rules XD (That’s... kind of mean Izumi ^^;) Eichi admitted that Leo actually added new rules into the game when he played, like making the “knight” pawn being able to release destroyer beam XD That made Eichi faced a hard time playing a game against him, and was why they could never finish a match which explains why Eichi never won a match against him.

Eichi asked Izumi that he really can’t understand. He knew that everyone had said that it’s his fault, which he won’t deny that it’s partly his fault, but Eichi himself had really like Leo, and had enjoyed playing with him. The thing that Eichi doesn’t understand was ... why did Leo had “broke” and asked who exactly had “killed” him?

(Yes this story is going to mainly revolved around Leo and how he broke TWT)

The Killing Song / 人殺しの歌 : Chapter 1

The timeline took us back to a year ago, where Eichi was admitted in the hospital as he still had a really weak body back then. Tsumugi had went to the hospital to visit him, but felt hurt when Eichi mentioned that he doesn’t know who he is. (Ouch...) He told Eichi not to forget about him and introduced himself as his classmate - Aoba Tsumugi. Eichi started talking about things at a fast pace that got Tsumugi confused, as he requested time to catch up. Eichi sighed and remarked that he had been told so by multiple others in the past, and asked Tsumugi that he doesn’t have to try to reply him if he had found it too difficult, since all these comments like “I see”, “that’s interesting” were just words that exist to make the other party feel better afterall.

Tsumugi found what Eichi had said seems kind of lonely, since he would feel that people would wish that the other party would try to understand what they’re saying when they communicate with one another. However, Eichi was sure that Tsumugi won’t be able to understand him, but clarified that it wasn’t because that he looked down on Tsumugi’s level of being able to understand him, but because it was all an illusion that people thought that they could understand each other. (That sounds so depressing, Eichi... TWT)

But the good thing, Eichi became quite fond of Tsumugi after that, since it’s rare that there’s actually someone who expressed an interest to want to know more about him. Tsumugi was glad to have a great relationship with Eichi, seeing that they’re classmates starting this spring. Eichi smiled as he hoped that he would be able to have a normal teenager’s life this spring, and was in fact looking forward to it since there’s alot of stuff that he had wanted to do.

Eichi had initially called Tsumugi by his surname “Aoba”, which Tsumugi insisted that he wished that Eichi would call him by his name instead, stating that he doesn’t like it when others called him by his surname. Eichi gussed that Tsumugi might have disliked his bloodline, and thus doesn’t to be reminded of the fact that he had the same surname as his parents. However, Tsumugi smiled and told him that he doesn’t have such a stigma against his parents, and was in fact grateful to them that he won’t be able to repay them in his entire life. The main reason why Tsumugi doesn’t like being called by his surname is very simple, because being called “Aoba-san” can sound like “Obasan” (which means older woman / aunt) and poor Tsumugi was teased because of this in his childhood TWT

One of the reason why Tsumugi was here was because he was the class president, and asked Eichi to approach him anytime if he had any questions, though partly it was because he was being entrusted to take care of Eichi by the teacher. He handed Eichi the printout from the teacher, and also included some very “interesting” notes that he had made in class, stating that he had taken down EVERYTHING the teacher had said, since he wasn’t sure which information would be required by Eichi.

Actually other than what the teacher had said, Tsumugi had even added gossips talked among the students in class that Eichi found it really interesting that it could be an important information source for him instead. (Didn’t know Eichi could be someone who’s interested in such gossip?! OWO”)

Because Eichi had been in the hospital frequently since he was young, he had found visitors really annoying actually and had even asked that his servants / helpers to deny anyone to access his ward. But that was only possible in his own private ward, and now that Eichi had moved to a shared ward, he won’t be able to stop all the visitors (since some of them had came to visit some other patients, you can’t stop people from wanting to visit them... =w=“) Tsumugi took it as a compliment that due to his low sense of presence, he had managed to sneak through to visit Eichi, but Eichi remarked that having a low sense of presence is not a good thing since they’re aiming to be idols after all...

Just then, Eichi started coughing and that made Tsumugi worried as he thought he must have overstayed his welcome here. He didn’t want Eichi to spend more of his energy and decided to take his leave. Eichi thanked him and called Tsumugi a “blue bird”, which is actually a word pun on his surname “Aoba”, and told him that he wished that they would be able to get along and hoped that Tsumugi would be his friend. (If you had really wanted Tsumugi to be your friend, why would you push him away in “Element”, Eichi...? Orz)

The Killing Song / 人殺しの歌 : Chapter 2 - 3

Outside the hospital, Izumi was seen scolding Leo. He scolded him multiple times that he’s an idiot, and asked him why he had gotten himself into such a commotion, informing him that he might ended up being suspended, or worst expelled. He advised Leo that before he punched anybody, he should take a deep breathe since what’s important for an idol is his popularity and trust. If the news of one had punched anybody was released, his life as an idol would have ended . (It’s... really... that seriousl? OAO”)

(I just found it so hilarious that Izumi actually asked “Are you an idiot?” for 3 times in a straight row XDD)

Thank goodness that Keito had helped to keep the matter under the cover this time, but Izumi warned Leo to promise him that this won’t happen again. Leo however found Izumi really naggy and complained that he sounded like he was his mum or something XD That pissed Izumi off as he tugged hard as Leo’s cheeks, and Leo cried out that Izumi was just taking this chance to bully him XD

Izumi remarked that he would really like to see Leo’s parents so that he could lecture them on how they’re taking care of their kids, but this seems like an insult to Leo, as he demanded Izumi to stop insulting his family and he’ll be dead if he kept doing that. However, Izumi wasn’t threatened by his words at all, and asked Leo to watch his own actions and behave well for his family’s sake if he doesn’t want people to talk about him or his family behind his back.

This only angered Leo even more as he lashed out a series of verbal attack on Izumi, calling him “an idiot”, “smart but still an idiot? XD” “stupid” (X2) and also... “shit” XD Izumi just gave him a side eye and remarked that Leo just seems like an elementary school kid, and wondered how he could write really beautiful songs and lyrics like a professional when the words he used everyday has no sense at all ^^;

Leo was proud as he declared himself as a genuis since he could create melodies, however he also admitted that he’s not good at writing lyrics actually, and thus would asked for help from “Luka”. Izumi doesn’t know who “Luka” is even though he had heard Leo mentioned about her a few times, to which Leo answered that that was his sister, who Izumi had already met for a few times prior to this. Izumi then remembered who she is, but he could only remember her hiding behind the door and looking at him through the gap, and had run away when Izumi tried to talk to her, and added that he doesn’t even really know what she looks like actually. Leo just smiled and said that his sister was just shy, and offered to show Izumi a photo of her since he had a folder full of her photos in his phone.

Just when Leo was happily reaching out for his phone, he realised that... he doesn’t even have his phone with him! Izumi can’t believed that Leo had lost his phone since that would mean a loss and might reveal his personal information to others. But since Izumi had already set a password onto the phone, it would be alright even if it was picked up by a bad person (since the person won’t be able to unlock the phone without the correct password). He even offered to call the telecom to cancel Leo’s phone, and that made Leo really gald that he could feel at ease that Izumi would help him to handle everything.

In fact, without Izumi, Leo thought that he won’t be able to persevere onto becoming an idol actually and would have given up easily. Izumi told Leo not to give up so easily like a kid and that he should learn to grow up like an adult by bearing things down and fight things through, since he does have the talent to be an idol. However, his words just fell on deaf ears as Leo pouted and complained that he doesn’t want to be an adult =w=“

Tsumugi was just leaving the hospital when he had spotted them by the entrance, and approached them to greet them. Leo doesn’t know who Tsumugi was so Izumi helped to introduce them to each other, since he was in the same class as Tsumugi. Izumi had asked why Tsumugi had appeared at the hospital, but guessed that he must have been entrusted by the teacher to pay a visit to Eichi here. Tsumugi went on to ask Izumu to come and visit Eichi when he had the time, since he felt that Eichi seems to be very lonely over there. He tried to give Izumi a omamori in blessing of good health and even offered to hang it on his school bag when Izumi rejected him and asked him not to touch his bag without permission. (Though Izumi seems kind of harsh, it feels kind of creepy that Tsumugi just went onto touching his bag wanting to hang the omamori on it. I won’t feel comfortable about it if I’m Izumi ^^;) He clarified that he’s someone who doesn’t want to rely on “god’s power” and thus had no need of a omamori.

Izumi explained that he had brought Leo here since Leo had broke his arm a few days ago, and had also caused quite a commotion though Izumi doesn’t know about the full details as he wasn’t there at the scene. He wanted Leo to come and treat his injury, but Leo just grumbled that he doesn’t like the hospital and kept wanting to escape. Leo complained that he doesn’t like the smell of medicine, and also people who are carrying needles around and passing medicines around. (They’re doctors, Leo...)

Tsumugi doesn’t know Leo either even though he knew that he’s someone from the same school because of the uniform. Thus Leo introduced himself, praising himself as a genuis who doesn’t really goes to school. (Is that something to be proud of...? ^^:) Izumi asked Leo that maybe he should quit school if he disliked it so much, but since Leo’s parents had already paid for the school fees, Leo felt sorry if he had quitted school halfway, and besides Leo himself stated that he can’t do anything else other than music actually, so he won’t be able to attend normal school as he isn’t good at studying. Izumi dissed him that if he had knew that, he should all the more work harder by taking lessons seriously and do more activities as an idol. (Besides I think skipping lessons is a waste of his parents’ school fees too... =w=‘)

Tsumugi who was watching them, remarked that he’s glad to know that Izumi actually managed to make friends, since he was worried when he noticed that Izumi seems to always be alone in class. Izumi denied that he’s friends with Leo but Leo insisted they are, and even went onto hugging him as he told Izumi that he love him XDD Izumi had no idea why Leo could still be so hyper and energetic when he had an injured arm seriously ^^;

The Killing Song / 人殺しの歌 : Chapter 3

Eichi had heard the commotion from his ward and thus head over to the window to take a look. He noticed Tsumugi over there and could recognised Izumi as they’re in the same class. However, the remaining small kid there was someone which Eichi didn’t recognise at all.

Eichi looked at the photo of Keito when he had participated in the archery compeition, where he was in a very good condition at that time, but still lost the trophy to someone who was in the same year. This was one of the rare times which Eichi had seen Keito being agitated and felt nostalgic about it since the last time he saw Keito being hung about losing was the time when they’re still elementary students. The two of them were really close when they’re young, but now that they’ve grown up and have drifted apart, that Eichi doesn’t even know what Keito was thinking about nowadays. (That sound sad... TWT)

Just then, Leo barged into the ward, screaming out of the window that Izumi is an idiot yet again. He was pissed that Izumi had dumped him at the hospital, saying himself being a poor thing and Izumi being the devil, and added on that it was all just a myth from shoujo manga that those who have good-looking looks were kind-hearted and gentle. (Wait.. which shoujo manga sells that idea? I thought “bad boys” who were good-looking was quite a norm ^^:) Izumi had heard him but still ran off with his hands on his ears in the end XD

Poor Leo screamed that he could see Izumi running away from the window and begged him not to go and leave him here, while still calling him stupid and mean though XD

Noticing Eichi who was standing next to him, Leo asked if he had something that’s about the size of a hand. Eichi was confused why he was asking such a question, but offered him the fruits which Tsumugi had brought over earlier on, since Eichi couldn’t eat them actually since everything he ate needs to go through the nutritionist.

Leo happily accepted them, and said that he shall eat half of them, whereas for the other half... he would use it to throw at Izumi! Eichi tried to stop him from doing that, stating that that would be mean and bad to the farmers who worked hard to grow the fruits if he’s just going to play with them. Leo started apologising to the farmers when he realised his mistakes (awww so cute >/////<), but asked Eichi on what he should do then since he was also quite a poor thing being abandoned here by Izumi.

Since Leo had broke his arm and thus unable to play any instrument, he decided that he shall sing instead. He even asked Eichi to listen to his new song, which he had called it “The mean Sena who would grow mould all over his body and die a suffocating, painful death...” XDD (Song created and written your one and only Tsukunaga Leo~) It was then Eichi realised that Leo wa quite a weird child...

The Killing Song / 人殺しの歌 : Chapter 4 - 5

Izumi had returned to the school while thinking how he can’t believe Leo had even come to school and started writing songs as per usual when he had a broken arm. He can’t bear to leave Leo there untreated with his injury, and thought that it’s best that he pulled him to the hospital to let him heal over there, even if the way he had done it was a bit forceful.

Izumi had actually booked a practice room actually, but due to him bring Leo to the hospital, he had wasted some of the time that he could have used for practice at the room instead. However, since Leo would be working on the song and also the outfit design as an “extra” service, Izumi won’t have to spend too much money in preparing for a performance, but that could also mean that they would need to buck up soon in order to gain some earnings. Izumi thought to himself that Leo was someone who would just take care some random people who Izumi thought of them as being “unusable” (or say... useless) and thought Leo was quite stupid in that way, since those people aren’t really people who knew about “repayment” and would just suck Leo dry knowing that he’s someone who is a “useful idiot”.

Izumi sighed to himself knowing that Leo had smiled and laughed being unaware that he’s being made used of by those people. Even though he had tried to scold those people about their actions, Leo had came up to him and told him to get along with the others like Izumi was the one who wasn’t aware of the atmosphere. (Ah, I guess Leo thought Izumi doesn’t get along with others because he can’t blend into the atmosphere of everyone getting along, but Izumi doesn’t want to get along with them since he had already seen through their real colours... OWO”) Izumi was pissed and would wished that everyone (in the group) would just die already XD (Izumi’s curse XDD)

Izumi wondered to himself why is he unable to get away from Leo even though he knew how stressed he would get from being around him (due to having to look after him all the times ^^;) But there’s nowhere Izumi could escape to now that he can’t return to the modelling world, and resigned to his fate that he would just have to survive here now.

Just then, he noticed a very familiar face by the entrance and called out to “him”. (Though he was calling him a “kuso megane” XDD) And... that person was none other than... Arashi!~ (He looks so cute like a mini Akiyomi with that hair colour and specs, is brown his original hair colour or the blonde? OWO”)

Arashi got a scare himself, and told Izumi that he had not heard him approaching. He said he was hurt by the insult given by Izumi and asked him why is he calling him “kuso megane”. He wondered if it’s because he doesn’t suit glasses, but laughed it off by saying that it’s impossible that they don’t match him since he had gotten the same pair as Akiyomi Sensei, while gushing over how cute the spectacles are himself XD

Izumi just felt disgusted with the way Arashi is speaking and acting, and asked him what on earth is he doing outside the gate since he’s in the way. Arashi just took it as a joke since there’s still so much space by the side (so there’s no way he’s blocking anyone from walking through XD) Izumi admitted that he just found Arashi’s presence an eyesore though, and asked him why had he enrolled in the same school as him, adding on that he had headed towards a disgusting direction of transformation that his unpleasant feeling towards him was just increasing... (I guess Arashi was very different now than how he was in the past. But I bet Izumi didn’t like him very much in the past and now ^^;)

Arashi thought that Izumi was just bothering for no reason, and told him that he had no interest in him unfortunately as he’s now blind by love and unable to see anyone else~ (We all know who his love interest is anyway XD) Izumi doesn’t like how Arashi is calling him “Izumi-chan” and want him to call him as “Sena-senpai” since he’s his senior afterall. He lectured him that he should respect his seniors and use honorifics, dissing that Arashi’s ears are just decorations (since obviously he had not listened to Izumi at all ^^;)

Arashi was actually waiting by the gate as according to the information he had gotten, the work day for teachers had already ended, so it should around this time that Akiyomi Sensei would come out through the gate. However, there was no sight of Akiyomi so Arashi asked Izumi if he had know anything about it since he heard that he’s close to him. However, Izumi revealed that weirdly Akiyomi Sensei just likes to be friendly to him and somehow their relationship were better over time. Izumi was confused about the relationship between Arashi and Akiyomi though, since the two of them belonged to different modelling agency and wondered perhaps there’s a time where they’ve worked and get to know about each other. Unfortunately, that triggered Arashi into wanting to share about his side of the story (or say love story ^^;) of how he had first met Akiyomi Sensei, stating that it’s a meeting of fate that would make one cries when they heard about it. (... Really...? o.O) Izumi shot it down quickly, stating that he had no interest in wanting to know why a guy is so fixated on another guy,adding on that it seems very unhealthy. (Welp, Izumi you’re not any better yourself later on when you are obsessed with Makoto though...? OWO”)

In the end, Izumi told Arashi that Akiyomi Sensei had stayed behind to finish up some work, since he was a new teacher and had alot of tasks being entrusted to him. Arashi wasn’t pleased that Izumi had actually knew much about Akiyomi (more than him XD), and wondered that perhaps Izumi had been targeting Akiyomi as well. He started getting defensive and warned him that it’s not allowed, stating that Akiyomi was the fated person for him. (Guy jealousy?) Izumi cooly remarked that he’s doesn’t want him anyway and could give him to Arashi XD The reason why Izumi actually knew much about Akiyomi was because he had came to Izumi and talked about it by himself, and Izumi guessed that perhaps Akiyomi Sensei was just feeling lonely since he doesn’t really knew anyone in the school. (Somehow, it’s kind of cute imagine Akiyomi Sensei being lonely ^///^”)

Arashi could understand why Akiyomi had approached Izumi though, since even though Izumi had a bad attitude overall, he’s easy to speak to and would listen seriously to their problems. Izumi would even helped to solve those problems or give advice about it. (Izumi sounds like a good counselor in a way ^^)

Since it would be a waste of time for Arashi to wait outside of the gate for Akiyomi Sensei, Izumi asked him to accompany him. Arashi thought that Izumi was asking him out for a date and rejected him, stating that he already had promised himself to a certain someone. By now, Izumi was already frustrated with him and revealed that he wanted him to go practice with him, since he would be able to practice more stuff with one more additional person rather than him alone. Also Arashi would be able to look at Izumi’s performance and helped him to pin point out what are his weaknesses and areas to improve on. Even though Arashi wondered why Izumi was so hardworking that he would be treated like an idiot in this school (since it was the norm to slack in this school a year ago =w=“), but he decided to tag along too as he was getting cold and lonely just waiting outside anyway.

For Izumi, he was alright in getting anyone to practice with him since he wasn’t able to get people from the same unit anyway, but Arashi took that as Izumi being too forceful usually and thus other people doesn’t treat him as a comrade in the end. Izumi explained that that was because his unit worked more like a guild actually, where people were not really bound to it and stayed to gain whatever that’s of advantage to them.

(At this time, I think Arashi didn’t belonged to any unit yet since he claimed that he’s someone who doesn’t want to work for a unit back then. Though he enjoyed having the advantages of being in a unit, he doesn’t like the responsibility aspect of it =w=“ Izumi knew that his personality was like this since in the past, that Arashi was someone who won’t even move a finger if it’s something for someone’s sake instead.)

Even Izumi wasn’t a fan of Arashi’s personality, he knew he had the potential and skills. Izumi continued to talk more about the unit he belonged to now, though it was initially named as “Chess”, it had since changed names multiple times, to “Othello” (meaning ‘reversi’), and now called as “Backgammon”. (They’re all names of board games OWO”) “Chess” was actually the 2nd oldest unit in the school ever since it was created, and Leo was one of the members who had been there since it was called “Chess” and he was viciously against changing of the unit name.

Arashi didn’t know who Leo is back then, so Izumi told him that Leo was someone who was in the same unit and year as him, and that made Arashi remembered who he is, since he was someone who was seen with Izumi and looks like a girl since he had long hair. (Hmm... Leo actually could be seen as a girl somehow~ +W+) Izumi insisted that they’re not friends though, and he only viewed Leo as someone he can’t bear to leave behind like a kitten in the rain ^^” However, Arashi noticed that Izumi seems to show a good expression like how he did way in the past when he was with Leo, but Izumi shot back that he had always showed a good expression all the time. (Are you sure...=w=“)

Just then, Izumi noticed someone who had collapsed by the school gate and thought that it was a corpse. But Arashi said that he had already noticed it earlier on since he was at the school gate for a long time already, and mentioned that this person had walked sleepily, tripped, and fell asleep over there, thus Arashi had thought that he was just taking an afternoon nap. (Arashi just seems very not caring at all ^^;)

(And that person that they’re referring to, you might have guessed who is it by now... it’s Ritsu~)

Izumi thought that Arashi really had no interest in other people and wished he would be abit more caring, since the person might have fainted or in a bad body conditions. Besides,he felt that it would too weird to just leave such a suspicious person there alone. (There goes Izumi with his “I can’t leave behind such a person” tagline XD)

Izumi rushed up to Ritsu and asked if he’s alright, even offering to call for an ambulance. However, Ritsu groggily replied that he’s alright and Izumi was interrupting his sleep, even stating that he’s going to kill anyone who stop him from sleeping XD That made Izumi pissed and since he guessed that Ritsu must be a first year, he demanded him to be more polite to him as he’s a senior. (Is it me or how many times had Izumi throws around the seniority card demanding his juniors to be polite to him...? ^^;)

Ritsu answered that though he’s a first year, he’s a student who had retained for a year so most probably he’s at the same age as Izumi actually. He requested Izumi to leave him alone and let him sleep, since he wasn’t feeling so energetic as the sun was too much for him. Ritsu was actually awaiting for Mao to pass through and carry him back home via piggyback, and wanted to just lie here until the sun had set ^^;

Noticing that Ritsu seems to be feeling unwell, Izumi offered to bring him to the sickbay, and later on insisted on bringing him indoor even though Ritsu claimed that he’s alright. He called for Arashi to help him carry Ritsu, though Arashi wasn’t pleased that he’s calling him “Kuso Megane” again ^^; Izumi remarked that he’s calling him that since Arashi doesn’t like to be called by his name, to which Ritsu had overheard it, and claimed that he’s the same too, that he got a weird feeling whenever someone called him by his surname. (And he called Arashi “Kuso Megane” too XD)

But when asked about his full name, Ritsu groggily answered that he’s “...Kuma Ritsu”, that Izumi ended up calling him “Kuma-kun” after that. (Kuma-kun sounds like bear XD) Arashi thought that that was a cute name and decided that he wanted a cute name too, asking them to call him as “Naru-chan”. Izumi thought that this wasn’t the time to be talking about names though, and quickly got Arashi to carry Ritsu to the sickbay together.

The Killing Song / 人殺しの歌 : Chapter 6 - 7

Izumi changed and arrived at the practice room later on to realise that nobody was there as expected. (The other members of his unit didn’t turn up at all) Arashi smiled and remarked that the other members of “Backgammon” really had no motivation for practice at all. He still insisted on Izumi to refer him as “Naru-chan”, but Izumi dissed that he’s not the body size to be called as a “chan” since he’s quite muscular, and asked him whether he had been playing any sports. Arashi revealed that he was actually in the Track and Field Club, and thus would practice for it sometimes. Izumi wondered why he had went and joined into a club when he claimed that he’s not that free usually, since the school did not make it compulsory that one has to join a club actually at that time.

Ritsu, who was still sleeping, woke up and complained that they’re too noisy. Arashi asked him whether he had felt better and that is it really alright that he doesn’t need to be brought to the sickbay. Izumi was glad that Arashi was around to help him, since he knew he isn’t going to be able to carry Ritsu all the way here with his strength alone, but Arashi was more envy of the fact that Izumi was slim since Arashi himself complained that he gained muscules too easily ^^;

Ritsu assured them that he doesn’t planned to stay here for too long to disrupt their practice. He wanted to call for Mao to come and picked him up, thus asked if anyone had a smartphone which they could lend it to him to make the phone call. Izumi lent him his, though he warned him not to leave any fingerprints on it. (How do you use it without leaving fingerprints... OWO”) However, Ritsu had trouble in using a smartphone even though he had already remembered Mao’s number, and that made Izumi impatient with him, stating that he would call Mao for Ritsu, and asked him to tell him his phone number instead. Ritsu was thankful and told him that he shall repay his kindness one day.

(Ritsu really doesn’t seems like he’s someone who live in the modern world OWO” I realised that quite a number of students in Yumenosaki Gakuen doesn’t know how to use a smartphone ^^;)

Izumi started playing a music, remarking that this was a new song made by the “idiot”, Leo. Even though they won’t be able to practice singing since the song doesn’t have any lyrics now, he wanted Arashi to get a sense of the melody of the song and the rhythm, since he wanted him to participate in the next live performance with him, stating that this was an order. Arashi was alarmed and clarified that he’s just standing in to help replace those seniors in “Backgammon” in practice, and doesn’t want to perform on stage actually, but Izumi answered that the other members aren’t interested to perform anyway, and even if they did, they won’t be doing it seriously. Since Leo had his arm injured, Izumi declared that it would be just him and Arashi left to perform, stating that an idol’s job was to make the audience happy by singing and dancing, asking Arashi whether he felt that way too.

Arashi in the end reluctantly decided to join him to show that he’s a “good girl”, though he stated that he had come to this school initially just to chase after Akiyomi. That made Izumi glad as he praised Arashi being a “good child” XD

Ritsu also started dancing along with them, so Izumi told him to just stay put and rest since he wasn’t feeling well. Ritsu explained that he just suddenly felt like moving after listening to the music, mentioning that he’s quite fond of the music as it gave him a feeling of being alive. Since Ritsu wanted to know what music it is, Izumi explained to him that this song was created by Leo, which was actually an arrangement from a certain famous movie.

Just then, Ritsu remarked that he could smell “Mao, and sure enough, he came into the practice room at the next moment. Mao came rushing into the room, saying that Ritsu had said to “rescue him as he’s dying” before hanging up on him, and that made Mao really worried since Ritsu doesn’t even tell him where he is located. (So cute how he’s calling Ritsu “Ri-chan” here~ >///<)

Ritsu was all smiles though as he assured Mao that he would be able to find him no matter Ritsu is at in this world. (This guy has too much trust in Mao’s abilities XD) Mao complained that he had spent alot of efforts asking students around the school for information whether they had spotted Ritsu, and was mad since it seems that Ritsu was just playing around with him seeing how Ritsu seems to be all healthy and energetic here. (I like this new pose of Ritsu +W+)

Izumi told Mao and Ritsu that they’re being too noisy and disrupting their practice. He also told that Ritsu really does look unwell just now and requested Mao to bring him home since he’s Ritsu’s childhood friend afterall, telling him to treasure such a relationship since it’s rare for childhood friends to be still close to each other even when they’ve become high school students. In the end, Ritsu returned with Mao, asking him to carry him home by piggyback XD He also returned the smartphone he had borrowed from Izumi, even though he threw it back and almost gave him a heart attack. (I would too if someone threw my phone ><”)

After getting his phone back, Izumi received a call with an unknown number. Picking it up, he realised that it was from Leo, who had called from the hospital as he was lonely there. However, Izumi was mean to him, asking him to call his family instead if he was lonely since he’s not his mum XD He also encouraged him to talk to other patients since Leo was much more friendlier unlike Izumi himself, and since Eichi was there at the hospital too, Izumi encouraged Leo to talk with him and become friends. He assured Leo that his injury isn’t too serious, and if he takes care of himself, he would be able to get out of the hospital soon.

Arashi who was watching Izumi talking on the phone, remarked that he really does showed a good expression whenever he talks to Leo, much like how he looks like in the past. He felt nostalgic and mentioned that Izumi was still the same now that he would take care of a young kid back then. Izumi realised that he was referring to Makoto, and asked him if he had knew that Makoto had also enrolled into this school. Izumi mentioned that he was surprised when he spotted Makoto walking around at school, but when he called out to him, Makoto started escaping from him instead. He was worried for Makoto and wondered if he was the same as him being in hardship as it was hard to change from being a model to an idol, and even wanted to protect him himself, but he knew that he no longer had the right to do that anymore, since he knew that he would bring trouble for Makoto if he had gotten him involved.

Aarshi mentioned that he had remembered hearing that Makoto had escaped from the modelling industry due to some reason, and he would cried out whenever a camera was found aiming at him. Izumi said that he doesn’t know what was the reason either, and wondered whether he should call Makoto’s mum to ask about it, if she hasn’t changed her number by now.

Because they were talking about Makoto’s mum, Madara appeared as soon as he heard the word “mama”, asking if they were actually looking for him XD Izumi wasn’t pleased to see him and answered that no one has called for him. He asked him why was he here when they’re the ones who had booked the dance room for this period of time. Madara was looking for Leo but he wasn’t here, as Izumi explained that he had broken his arm. He was curious in how Madara actually knew Leo, that Madara answered confidently that they’re actually friends.

He murmured to himself that Leo actually had his arm broken when he was in so much pain at that time, and wondered perhaps he should pay a visit to him at the hospital. Izumi offered to tell him the location of the hospital he is saying, and also asked Madara whether he had knew how Leo had gotten himself injured since Madara seems to know something about it. He wanted to know why Leo would get into a fight when he’s someone who doesn’t even bear to kill a fly.

However, Madara denied to share anything, as since Leo had kept silent about it, Madara felt that it would be bad for him to reveal the reason. Izumi asked once again whether Leo had gotten himself into something that’s criminal, since he was worried that he might get involved into the evil of this world due to how naive he is usually. Madara asked him back that in order to answer his question, he would first have to know what is Izumi’s meaning of “committing a crime”, since everyone’s definition of a “crime” maybe different from one another.

In the end, Madara left after asking Izumi to pass a message to Leo on his behalf, that “the cat was alright after that”, and “he had already punished the bad guys and won’t bother Leo anymore”. Izumi was left confused and frustrated with Madara’s actions, complaining that everyone around him just seems to do whatever they like ^^;

The Killing Song / 人殺しの歌 : Chapter 8

Back at the hospital, Leo was happily playing the piano, as he was having fun with playing instruments though usually he was a digital type of person. (People who preferred making music digitally?)

Looking at him being that happy, Eichi was glad that he had gotten his helpers to brought the piano into the ward. Leo had recovered really quickly that the doctors were shocked at his rate of his recovery, but he was still very stressed (being cooped up in the hospital), and started playing the piano really violently to release his stress. Eichi persuaded him to play it less violently since the piano actually belonged to another patient actually. (Please don’t break the piano Leo TWT)

Eichi had since then moved to a private ward actually as his health had deteriorated, and multple medical machines of the newest technology had also been moved to his ward too. He was glad that the piano could be used as a gift for Leo (his new friend), and asked to play the piano together. Leo was all too happy to get him to play together ^^

Eichi asked Leo what was the song he was playing earlier on, since he had found it familiar but couldn’t remember what it was about. Leo replied happy that it was the “The Killing Song”. Leo also gave Eichi a nickname, called “Tenshi” (Angel), since it derived from shortening his surname (Tenshouin -> Tenshi) However, Eichi felt abit embarrassed being called as a angel as he was now a high school male student, as angels have such a lovely image. Leo argued that Shu had told him that gods and angels seems to kill alot more than demons actually, so angels doesn’t really have such a lovely image afterall. (Erm, is that explanation going to make Eichi feel any better? ^^;)

Eichi was more surprised of the fact that Leo actually knew Shu. (Since he was really well-known in the school at that time as he was part of Valkyrie, which was s very powerful unit at that time.) Leo happily replied that the two of them talked frequently about arts actually, though most of the time it ended up with Shu grabbing Leo by the collar. (I bet Leo pissed him off in the end ^^;) Leo would also get Shu to help him with designing the outfit for their live performances.

Suddenly, Eichi started getting dizzy, though he mentioned that it might be because he had gotten himself too excited. He doesn’t want Leo to call for the doctor though, since he doesn’t want to prolong his stay in the hospital and knew that Leo who hated in the hospital would know how he felt too about the hospital. Eichi mentioned that he had stayed in hospitals for almost half of his life since he had a weak body ever since he was born, and thus he longed for the world outside. He worked hard to keep himself healthy just so that he could finally go live the life that he had envied others on having. However, whenever he just started to enjoy the life like others did by stepping one step, he was soon taken back to the hospital.

Leo listened and replied that he could understand what Eichi is feeling, since as a guy, they would wished that they’re strong, and thus agreed on helping Eichi lied, which is to think that Eichi is being healthy and didn’t call for the doctor later on. However, he still got Eichi to lie on the bed and rest, and to ask Eichi to rely on him if he had needed anything since it’s not embarrassing to ask for help as Leo won’t look down on him even if he had asked for it.

Monologue

Back to the present, Eichi talked about how narrow their views were back then, but somehow Eichi felt that he had the same thoughts and feelings as Izumi. He wanted to have a good relationship with Izumi as classmates, but Izumi just asked him to keep quiet as he was still thinking about the next step he should take in chess and found it hard to concentrate when Eichi was babbling by himself ^^; Eichi expressed that he had felt bored facing such a chess match where things are in a standstill, and regretted not setting a time limit for it.

Izumi still thought that Eichi was being noisy but Eichi ignored him and continued talking about the next main topic he wanted to bring up about - which is the DDD event that was approaching soon. As the event date crept nearer, the school started to get noisier, with people practising their performance and singing. However, Izumi doesn’t seems to be practising for it, which gets Eichi attention, since Izumi was well-known as someone who likes practising. Izumi admitted that the “Knights” now had already been pulled off the stage and doesn’t has the glory like how it used to in the past. Even if they were to return to the stage now, it would just be an embarrassment, since including the newest member they have now, “Knights” only has 4 members in total.

However, Eichi thought that when Leo returned, Knights’ power would increased as well overall, and guessed that it would highly possible since Leo had not quit school yet. Izumi showed a sad face upon hearing this though and answered that Leo won’t be fighting anymore. Seeing Izumi’s reactions, Eichi was sad too and said that he had visited Leo after “that” too, but it seems that he was still really depressed. He said that the person he had seen was not the “Leo” that he likes and wondered that perhaps geniuses are people who are easilly crumbled. He remarked that it seems that the history of “Chess” might soon come to a end, to which Izumi asked him sarcastically who was the one who had caused all of this actually. (It’s Eichi... =w=“)

Eichi denied that it’s his fault though and said it’s “Chess” themselves who had destroyed themselves, stating that “Chess” had long lost their meaning of why the unit had existed and was just expanding and thus corroded on the inside, passing down the evil traditions from the past. Eichi thought he was one who had appeared to cleanse the school and with the times changing, it was destined that units that were not up to standard got flushed away.

Izumi doesn’t like how Eichi is saying it though and asked whether he had thought of himself as a god. Eichi smiled and answered that he’s an angel, since Leo had called him that. He thought of himself who had cleansed the dirt and corrosion from within, gave the punishment to those who are guilty and brought the school to a new revolution. However, because he had gotten himself too deep into this mindset, Eichi had ended up losing friends, and losing his way. Since Eichi was now a third year, he doesn’t have much time left in this school, and thus wanted to make better use of the “pawns” he had in hand.

錆びゆく心 : Chapter 1 - 2

Going back to a year ago, Eichi was still at the hospital but he already had thoughts to carry out his plans / story. Soon, he won’t be the one just looking out of the window longingly, and thought that soon the story of Keito and him would soon start...

Just then, Tsumugi came into the ward, asking Eichi whether he had called for him. Eichi sighed and told him that he had not called for him, and was amazed that Tsumugi had actually came and visited him regularly. Tsumugi was all smiles as he replied that it was because Eichi and him were friends afterall, and since now that they were in the same unit, Tsumugi thought that it’s best to show his face regularly so as to be in a better relationship with each other. (Ah... Tsumugi was still so pure and naive here TWT)

Even though Eichi thought that he doesn’t meant to create an unit where everyone gets along well, he was glad that Tsumugi had felt this way, and also asked him to get along with the other members of Fine. Tsumugi was all too glad to do so, and Eichi told him that he would be friends with him as long he showed himself to be of good use. (Wah, that... doesn’t sound nice Eichi! It totally sounds like you’re just making use of Tsumugi, even getting him to get along with the other members for your sake... =w=“)

Eichi had returned to the hospital as he was too excited earlier on when he was just discharged, and felt bad that he’s cooped up here again, since their main operation was just going to start. Tsumugi wanted to cheer Eichi up, telling him that if there’s anything he could help him in replacement, he would be glad to help. “Backgammon” had changed its name back to “Chess” again in the meantime, and Eichi, feeling that the unit was a threat to him, wanted to get rid of the members in it. He would try to persuade and negotiate with them to get them to break apart using all kinds of methods he could use. However, there’s two members that Eichi actually wanted for himself, since they’re good to boost up the power for Fine.

The two members he was referring to was “Nagisa” and “Hiyori”, and since Tsumugi mentioned that he actually knew Nagisa, he offered to contact him. Hiyori was actually someone Eichi knew personally, since they’re both from rich families, but Eichi admitted that he didn’t want to have much to do with Hiyori actually, since Hiyori was someone that Eichi felt hard to deal with as Hiyori doesn’t listen to Eichi at all ^^; (Unexpectedly Eichi actually has people he doesn’t want to deal with OWO”)

Eichi also talked about the five oddballs and how he had already decided on who are the five selected. The main three that was decided swiftly was of course: Sakuma Rei, Shinkai Kanata, and Hibiki Wataru. Adding on to them were Itsuki Shu from Valkyrie and Sakasaki Natsume who was a first year to make up the five oddballs in the end. It was hard for Eichi to decide who to be qualified as an oddball, but he ultimately selected these five as they’re the ones with the highest power of influence in the school.

Tsumugi was excited that Natsume was selected and wanted to tell him as soon as possible, since he felt that it was something to celebrate about knowing that he’s one of the five most popular soloist idol in school. (Erm, I don’t think Natsume would be happy to know about this... Orz)

Eichi thought of himself being from the side of righteous, and was all fired up to defeat the “evil”. Tsumugi doesn’t really understand what he had meant about that, and wanted Eichi to get some rest since he’s worried about his health more. Eichi talked about how even though their views maybe different, he found Tsumugi as a really good “yesman” overall. (Ouch...) Tsumugi was oblivious to it as he happily replied that he’s just someone who can’t read the atmosphere. (Wait, Tsumugi are you really that naive that you’re glad to be a yesman? OWO” I really wonder if Tsumugi is really that naive or he just doesn’t’ mind that Eichi just insulted him Orz....)

Just then, Leo had arrived too to pay Eichi a visit, and that cheered him up alot as he remarked that it seems that he had quite alot of visitors today. (Leo called Tsumugi as “Oba-chan” (Grandma) though XD The nickname that Tsumugi said he dislikes ^^;...) Leo mentioned that Tsumugi would always give him some omamori whenever they had met, that Eichi sighed after hearing about it, and stated that this was just one of Tsumugi’s bad habits...

Leo also mentioned that he had also started to receive present from his fans recently, though he wondered why the leader from “Backgammon” (which was the past leader of the current “Chess”) had quit school due to an “unfortunate” event... Leo was being elected as the next leader, and thus this caused a new change in direction. However, he was glad that the unit name changed back to “Chess” again. (Since Leo was really fond of that name~) He was still quite defensive and helped to protect the other members when Eichi talked about them later on.

Eichi warned Leo that the other members were just in the same unit as him because he would provide them with songs free of charge, and thus they stayed around to suck him dry. However, Leo doesn’t listen to him and said that he’s doing what he wants just because he wanted to do it. (So I take it that Leo doesn’t mind giving out free songs to others?) He started to get pissed at Eichi that he’s speaking bad about his unit members when he had came here specially to pay him a visit, and wanted to leave because he was angry.

Eichi wanted him to stay for a round of chess, which they couldn’t finish the match the previous time. But Leo was still angry and told him to just play with Tsumugi instead. He was actually quite busy as he revealed that “Chess” seems to be breaking apart on the inside and everyday was a battle for him. Even though Leo had felt tired from battling everyday, he had wanted to come here and take break by listening to Eichi singing to the songs he had created with his beautiful voice.

Eichi was amazed that Leo had yet another new song created, since he was creating songs at a fast pace, praising that he’s really a genius. Leo answered that he already knew he’s a genius but he wanted to do was to use this talent of his in a place that could make everyone happy, and this was the reason why he had wanted to become an idol.

Leo started reaching out towards the window and that gets Eichi worried, as he had a feeling that Leo wanted to jump out of it. However, Leo didn’t listened to him anyway, and got out of the room that way, telling Eichi that he would remember that they’ve yet to finish their chess match, and asked Eichi to continue living till then. (And... you just stole one of the chess pieces, Leo... =w=“)

Eichi really felt that Leo was a weird person, and really someone who is a genius. Tsumugi mentioned that the school was now in quite a huge commotion over how “Chess” had revived, and was curious why didn’t Eichi selected Leo as one of the five oddballs since he was someone who had the skills and talent to become one. Eichi was surprised and answered that he had actually never thought of that even though he agreed that Leo does have the power that could match with the other oddballs. But he admitted that he doesn’t really want to fight Leo in the end, since he would feel bad as if he had beaten a pure and naive child actually.

However, what Leo was doing now (being really active) was according to Eichi’s plans anyway, since he had expected the surroundings to be critical of “Chess” due to how frequently they’re starting battles with the other units. His plan for “Chess” was to see how one that was being respected and loved by the others get reversed in the end, though a part of him still wished that he could get along well with Leo as per normal, since he loved the song that Leo had created specifically for him.

That’s all for Part 1~! It’s quite lengthy but there’s still Part 2 to be continued on~ Hoping I could finish it as soon as possible so please look forward to it! ^^

#ensemble stars #event story #knights #translation #summary #otome game #es:event #es:translation #leo #izumi #arashi #ritsu #eichi #tsumugi #madara

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mintsoda9395 · 7 years

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A dear anon asked us about our writing process, etc., so....

Okay, first, we basically get inspired by all kinds of things: everyday life, BTS (concept pictures, outfits, etc), books, movies, series, TV shows, documentaries and/or lots and lots of random thoughts that just hit us.

Our writing process is usually all over the place hahaha it's really messy

1. It usually starts with a vague idea, like "who is who in this story about this and that", or we already know "Jimin will be a rich CEO", "Yoongi will be a thief" and then we go from there

2. We TRY to sketch the plot, just simple bullet points with a few words, but that's usually where we already fail and go into too much detail orz (we try to avoid that or do some reverse-engineering if necessary)

3. If we have actually managed to write down the plot/timeline, we start fleshing everything out (this is THE MESSIEST STEP, OMG) usually we already write entire conversations etc. at this point, already scribble down entire scenes and descriptions etc.

Just as an example about how messy it can get: Cotton Candy has A LOT of convos done and many POVs (that's what we call a character's part where it's his point of view haha I dunno if other writers do that too) just need a proper makeover to be finished, but there are entire POVs in the middle of the fic that have about 10 bullet points and we don't know yet what to do with them lmao

4. Depending on the length of the fic we try to divide the POVs into proper chapters here... Cotton Candy is a mess in this regard, too, but for GAME OVER we basically knew from the beginning where chapters would start and end (wasn't really the best approach since we now have chapters that are ~8k words long and chapters that are over 20k words long haha we suck but we were noobs...).

5. Write out everything properly, like, in complete sentences. That are hopefully grammatically correct. English is hard. We just hope for the best.

6. Let it age like a good wine (we don't drink wine, but I say that anyway). We seriously need that. If we post a chapter without it having been "completed" for at least a week or two, we feel really really insecure about it. During that time you have time to reread it and make corrections. If you don't look at it for a while and then have a fresh read, it'll be easier to spot mistakes, weird or cringey parts etc. That's why we usually try to finish our fics before we upload them (again we failed at that with CC but what's new)

7. Post when you're happy with the result! :)

As you can see, there's nothing really special about our writing process. It's just a whole mess. Since we're two people, we also use a lot of colors to mark parts where we changed something so that the other can see and reread it right away, or also highlight newly added parts etc.

As for motivation, we sometimes go outside to get some fresh air and to actually stop thinking about everything that comes with writing fics for a while, or write something else entirely (especially if you write a multichaptered story and are kind of fed up with it from overexposure), watch/read something to take your mind off what’s bothering you, and if nothing of the above works – take a break (not only for a day, like, a REAL break, forget that this story exists. It’s fine, it won’t run away). Don’t put yourself under pressure it’ll only make everything worse (that’s something we had to learn, tbh).

Keep in mind that we are just noobs and don’t really have an idea what we are doing most of the time. :’) Just do what you are comfortable with and eventually find your own way ♥

#writing process #we are noobs #faq #ask

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agenthensem-blog · 7 years

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Craving for you

A/N: @hekate-the-witch I AM SORRY FOR THE DELAY. MY LAPTOP BROKE DOWN ON THE DEADLINE, DATA COULD ONLY BE RECOVERED TWO DAYS LATER AND I HAD A BUSY WEEKEND so I’m sorry if this is not up to standard. It was sorta rushed and I’m skipping sleep for this. I will edit for some mistakes at some point BUT FIRST LET ME SLEEP. HOPE YOU ENJOY THE CHOCOLATE MY AKASHI <3<3<3<3 I TRIED MY BEST EVEN WITH MY SLEEP-DEPRIVED MIND.

Also, not a lot of characters in here. I just put in those that fit in fairly well.

Warning: Tiny mentions of sex. Might be a bit disturbing. Not gonna mention a lot cuz I don’t want to spoil the fun but be on your guard. Btw, I had fun writing this. We both like the same kinda thing though I couldn’t do it justice orz.

Rated: M (for the slight disturbing nature of fic)

Word count: 3.5k+

Summary: Intrigued, Akashi couldn’t help but craved for the blue-haired male…badly.

“Kurokocchi! Let’s go out after your classes later~!”

Tilting his head up to look at his cheerful friend, Kuroko responded with his usual monotonous voice.

“Just the two of us?”

Kise grinned sheepishly and whipped out a peace sign. “Yes-ssu! They all rejected me just now! Can you believe it Kurokocchi?! I’m so sad!”. Sniffling in exaggeration, the blond pretended to wipe imaginary tears at the corner of his eye.

“Yes, I can believe it.”

“So mean!”

Ignoring the blond’s usual antics, Kuroko let his mind wandered to a certain redhead – whom he could see was walking down the pathwalk on the building far across from them with someone presumably from his course.

“Even Akashi-kun?”

“Yes! He said he has a full afternoon schedule today~”

As if hearing his name called, the said redhead turned his head slightly to their direction, just enough to spare a glance to the blue-haired male and his companion with his amber left eye, almost piercing in malice - dare Kuroko say.

Their eyes locked intensely – Akashi’s sharp and calculating and Kuroko’s almost emotionless yet nervous as he gulped and licked his chapped lips. Even in the distance, he could feel the strong authoritative aura of his boyfriend looming over his small frame, as if daring him to disobey.

“So Kurokocchi?”

Daring him to agree.

“….Sure.”

A swirl of excitement teased the pit of his belly.

……..

Akashi first met Kuroko through Kagami.

Which was quite an unusual idea in itself considering the types of persons they both were.

Truthfully, Akashi had always been uninterested in people, preferring to interact with those within his close circle of friends, like his vice-president in the basketball club Midorima, or those that just happened to be talented enough in the sport to earn his approval like Kagami and the likes.

But Kuroko was different. The first time they met in the university café, Akashi barely saw the blue-haired man if it wasn’t Kagami introducing his friend to him. Granted, the smaller male was covered by Kagami’s significantly bigger physique but it also didn’t help that the male lacked presence – almost to the point of invisibility if Akashi wasn’t Akashi.

His first impression of Kuroko was….intriguing, to say the least, despite the male being so plain and expressionless. He couldn’t sense anything from him, neither an aura of strength nor weakness – plain nothing which made it all the more interesting. But he has wits with his words, especially in the matter of riling Kagami up.

Ever since that fateful encounter, he kept seeing the other more and more – if not with Kagami, then alone in the library. It was odd – he had never met Kuroko anywhere until that encounter but he guessed that was thanks to Kagami. Nevertheless, he didn’t mind befriending the blue-haired male. They both like books so that was one thing in common they could converse about.

Kuroko always seemed surprised whenever Akashi greeted him before his usual poker-face came into play a second later but Akashi never missed the red colouring the tip of the bluenette’s ears. It was probably far-fetched to assume he was flustered but Akashi was amused. He didn’t take Kuroko to be a shy one – and he probably isn’t – but he didn’t mind sticking around to get to know him more.

Admittedly, it got to a point where the two of them were close enough to exchange numbers and meet up for lunch whenever they could. And this of course didn’t miss those who especially knew how Akashi is.

“Is it just me or Akashicchi has been disappearing quite often lately?!”

Kise, the copycat of their regular group, exclaimed in disbelief after 5 minutes of their captain’s exit from the changing room. Midorima narrowed his eyes in displease at the loud volume of the blond’s voice.

“Apparently, he found someone ‘interesting’.”

Several gasps resounded around the room, mainly from those Akashi would actually consider as friends.

“What? Since when Akashi ever find someone worthy enough of his time?!”

Aomine exclaimed, popping his head into the collar of his shirt, disregarding Midorima’s glare at his unnecessary booming voice ringing in the fairly tiny changing room.

“Huh? Are you guys talking about Kuroko?”

All heads turned towards the voice at the corner of the room, belonging to none other than Kagami.

“Kuroko? Who?”

Finally putting on his black shirt to complete his casual post-basketball look, Kagami hummed nonchalantly, packing up the rest of his sweaty clothes into his gym bag.

“A friend of mine from highschool. We got into this college together.”

Slinging his bag over his broad shoulder, he continued, “Kuroko has been mentioning him quite often lately – book buddies apparently. They hung out quite frequently too. That bastard’s been neglecting me lately.”

“Woah wait! It’s not a woman??!”

“Only you would think so Ahomine.”

“What the-?! Bakagami you-!”

“Settle down, you two,” Midorima interrupted sternly before the two rivals get to each other’s throats again. They both groaned and glared at each other.

“Wahhh, really?! I want to meet who caught Akashicchi’s eyes!”

And thus, this was how they met Kuroko (if sneaking around behind the duo’s back and lost them on the way because of Kuroko’s phantom ability to suddenly spring up behind them instead can be considered as ‘meeting’ Kuroko).

……..

It came as a surprise to everyone when Akashi asked Kuroko out suddenly after practice (Kuroko merely attending as a spectator).

It was even more surprising when Kuroko - with his typical poker-face – accepted without as much as a stutter or hesitation in his eyes. (“Your taste is so eccentric Kuroko!”)

As expected, despite the simple and straight-forward confession, the others made a commotion over the declaration of the new-born couple (“You’re signing a contract with THE Devil, Tetsu!” “Nooo, Kurokocchi!!”). But Akashi paid no heed to them, instead focusing on Kuroko with a smile of amusement permanently etched onto his lips as his boyfriend bowed politely, asking Akashi to take a good care of him.

Absently, Akashi responded the same as he couldn’t take his eyes off the gradual reddening of the phantom’s ears and neck.

……..

One month was what it took for them to start dating.

Three months were what it took for hell to break loose.

‘Sorry for leaving early, Akashi-kun. Aomine-kun and Kagami-kun invited me out to eat.’

That was twice now for that week.

Akashi clenched his phone tightly, repeating the words silently in his head but not letting his distaste to show on his face. After replying with a curt ‘Ok’, he pocketed his phone and proceeded to continue walking beside Midorima (who was holding a small frog statue for his lucky item of the day) as they were both back from attending the same extra-curriculum leadership course.

“Is everything alright Akashi?”

Sparing a glance to the green-haired male, Akashi chuckled lightly but even Midorima could hear the dark undertone lacing it.

“Of course. Why wouldn’t I be?”

Midorima frowned. Maybe he had imagined it but...Akashi seemed different. It wasn't uncommon to see him serious - Midorima was familiar with that sight in every training - but this seemed....almost dangerous, for the lack of better word.

Seeing as he had been the closest one to Akashi - being the club's vice-president beside Akashi and his shogi's playmate, Midorima knew of the redhead's situation at home. Being the only heir for the Akashi Cooperation, there had been pressure on the redhead to excel in everything - to be the most absolute.

This had been the case ever since the redhead was a young boy, even more so when his mother had passed away. Midorima could only guess that it had only been getting worse as Akashi was nearing the age where he could take over his company.

But lately, even Midorima noticed how relaxed the male had been. Which he guessed was owed to a certain phantom. He didn’t know how the phantom had affected Akashi but it was reassuring to know at least there was an oasis in the midst of the desert.

Although, having said that, there were still instances such as this when this ‘different’ Akashi would resurface. He couldn’t pinpoint the exact reason for it, other than the pressure at home might have gotten to him but he could guess it might have something to do with how Kuroko might have gotten close to the others like Aomine and thus might have spent less time with his boyfriend. It didn’t help that Akashi also had a busy schedule of his own.

He wondered if Kuroko ever see this side of his boyfriend.

If so, would he have said that this is not the Akashi that they both know?

……..

Akashi felt displeased.

Severely displeased.

Lately, Kuroko had been spending a lot of time with Aomine and the others instead of him. He knew it was probably because they had invited him out most of the time and since Akashi had been quite busy, he couldn’t complain much. He still got to see the phantom in between breaks so that was something. And the time they had spent together was still as soothing as it was the first time.

However, there had been major nuisances regarding his friends interrupting their quality time together – to the point of hogging Kuroko for a conversation throughout the entire break.

Akashi was never a fan of public drama so he chose to tolerate them. He could always get his revenge during basketball training anyway. Besides, Kuroko usually made the effort to include him in the conversation, seeing as he probably felt the same of wanting to spend their short time together efficiently. The phantom had smiled a lot more recently too which had always improved his mood for the day.

But it wasn’t enough.

Akashi wanted more.

An hour or two with Kuroko was never enough to satisfy his longing.

It didn’t help that the situation at home had been weighing on his shoulders the past few months - the growing expectations on him had been looping itself tightly around his throat, constricting his ability to breathe - it was suffocating.

And his only relief had been getting further and further away from him.

From Kuroko, he had known true peace. From him, he could let himself free of all worries. From him, he could forget reality for a moment.

In a world of high expectations and strict perfection, Kuroko was Akashi’s escape – he was his salvation.

And he didn’t intend to let that go anytime soon...

……..

That day was unlike any other day.

Akashi had never so much had a day such as really bad days. He had always gone through his life efficiently and smoothly. But today, things had not gone right at all.

There weren’t really such big deals – he had experienced them at some point – but just on that particular day, it felt different. His father had started off the morning on the phone with a lecture of what he should get done during the weekend and again reminding him of his status; then on the walk to college, the rain started pouring so he was drenched to the core; and one of his groupmates didn’t turn up for an important presentation for an afternoon class whom he managed to cover for but it was still a nuisance.

And he would have been more displeased by the sudden short notice of his last class of the day being cancelled if it weren’t for the fact that Kuroko was free to meet up with him at the main college porch at the stairs then.

When he arrived however, it wasn’t just Kuroko.

There were Midorima, Aomine, Kagami and Kise – the latter trio messing about around the blue-haired male and Midorima standing slightly to the side with a red scissor in his hand (probably his lucky item for the day), reprimanding them of their rowdy behaviour.

What caught Akashi’s attention the most though was Aomine’s arm around Kuroko’s shoulder, getting all touchy than the redhead would have approved.

Feeling his temperature rising, Akashi slowly walked towards the group, seeming casual but authoritative. They barely registered the redhead coming closer towards them until a sudden disappearance of the scissors between Midorima’s fingers and a swift attack aiming towards Aomine’s head (which he managed to barely dodge with his excellent reflexes) were registered.

Silence cut the atmosphere sharply – wide, shocked eyes trained themselves onto none other than their captain, Akashi, holding the red scissors firmly, the sharp tip barely missed Aomine’s cheekbone. Even Kuroko was frozen to silence at the unexpected strike.

Retreating the sharp object to his side, Akashi locked eyes with his target, a serious dark look on his expression before a small amused yet malicious smile graced his lips.

None of them missed the different colour of amber on his left eye.

“Do not touch Tetsuya.”

On the command of the cold voice, Aomine’s arm limply retreated back to his side, still frozen with shock at the unexpected turn of events.

“Akashi-kun, are you okay?”

Kuroko was the first to snap out of it as Akashi grabbed his wrist firmly and proceeded to drag him elsewhere, disregarding his questions. He tried to struggle out of the vice grip but to no avail. Akashi was so different at that moment – with his sudden change of eye colour and first-name basis – and violent. But at least Kuroko felt reassured his friends didn’t seem hurt other than experiencing slight mental trauma.

Though now he had to worry about himself because he had no idea where Akashi was bringing him.

“Akashi-kun, where are we going?”

No answer.

“Akashi-kun, are you okay? You’re hurting my wrist.”

Akashi kept walking, each step faster than the last and Kuroko could barely keep up. But he could finally see where they were heading to.

The dorm.

Kuroko remembered Akashi stayed in a single room at the campus dorm during weekdays and returning to his actual home on the weekends where needed. And he had been to the redhead’s room a few times so he was familiar with it but he started to get more worried by the seconds. In Akashi’s current different state, he wasn’t sure how safe it is to stay with the redhead out of public’s eyes.

When they had reached the room, Kuroko was given no chance to calm Akashi down as he was pushed in and pinned against the door with his lips occupied suddenly by a warm sensation.

Kuroko wasn’t foreign to Akashi’s kisses but rough kisses that sucked his breath away was something he had never done before.

When they parted, their eyes locked intensely as their ragged breaths mingled warmly. It would have been something Kuroko would have appreciated if the context was different. Not to mention, the amber hue of Akashi’s left eye was unsettling.

“Akashi-kun, you shouldn’t do that to Aomine-kun.”

Akashi blinked, caught off guard slightly before he chuckled. “I wouldn’t have if he didn’t hog you so much.”

There was a mysterious nervous prickling at the base of his stomach at the redhead’s words – tickling him almost deliciously. He gulped, adamant on scolding Akashi’s unfavourable tantrum towards their friends, even though the delicious tickles in his stomach almost betrayed him to agree with the redhead.

“Are you jealous Akashi-kun?”

“Hm? Am I?”

Kuroko’s breath hitched.

“We’re just friends. They’re your friends too…”

He really should have been sterner towards Akashi – he really wanted to. He was never a fan of a bad treatment towards a friend and Akashi wasn’t supposed to be an exception.

But Akashi was so close to him.

So close and wanting him so badly.

And the feeling was mutual.

……..

“Hmm…”

His head felt heavy as he stirred in his slowly disappearing slumber, a streak of the morning light peeking through the maroon curtain and teasing his closed eyelids, prompting the bluenette to awaken even more despite the delicious warmth engulfing his body, tempting him back to sleep.

Rubbing his eyes off of drowsiness, Kuroko lazily reached for his phone in his discarded pants by the bed to check the time. He squinted at the blinding brightness.

It was still fairly early in the morning.

He rubbed more of the sleep away from his eyes, slowly propping himself up to sit on his slightly sore bum before he turned his head to his side to see his boyfriend sleeping whilst draping his arm over his stomach, breathing peacefully despite last night’s intense session.

Upon remembering said session, warmth crept up Kuroko’s shoulders up to his ears.

He should probably get back to his room soon before the redhead woke up – not because he was scared but rather feeling the need to freshen himself up before the mere memory burned him even more. He lived just across Akashi’s building so he could always come to check up on the redhead once he was done.

Though he was surprised Akashi didn’t wake up early that morning. Considering his lifestyle, Kuroko would have thought him to wake up early at the crack of dawn just to jog but apparently, even he was drained from last night.

Not wasting any time in case Akashi would wake up soon, Kuroko silently got off the bed and stood up shakily on his sore legs, steadily putting on his discarded clothes before ruffling his bedhead just for a good measure (though it didn’t calm the horrible bedhead at all) and started for the door stealthily.

On his way back to his room, Kuroko couldn’t stop thinking.

His breaths grew more ragged the faster his steps took him, his legs gave out as he stumbled a bit before he finally reached his room.

He took deep breaths, willing his heart rate to calm down though knowing the futility of it. He kicked off his shoes quickly, sauntered over to his closet and leaned on the closet door as his legs gave out underneath him. His pants slowed down, sweat trickled down the side of his face despite the fairly chilled morning and the heat rising underneath his skin had not calmed down fully yet.

Last night was…different and intense, in a way that he had not expected himself to feel elated at. He crossed his hands to caress the opposite sides of his neck, willing the coldness of his fingers to soothe the rising temperature of those parts with every second the detail cleared in his morning mind. He could still feel the teasing tingling sensations of Akashi’s lips trailing his skin, peppering kisses and sucking marks all over his pale skin.

He gulped, recalling every single touch of his boyfriend’s lips and hands, rough yet gentle but demanding all the same, roaming all over his lightly muscled body.

‘Do not let anyone touch you ever again except me, Tetsuya.’

He could almost feel his hot breath fanning against his red ears, the low vibration of his voice teasing and daring him to disagree as his grip against his hips tightened with every single syllable. It was honestly scary when Akashi had muttered those words in his ears as he pounded roughly into him, vice grips on his hips, threatening to hurt those who dared to disobey him – those who dared to take Kuroko away from him.

‘You’re mine.’

Kuroko shivered.

With fear came the thrilling excitement that had him wobbling on his legs, hands shaking, clammy with cold sweat and shuddering breaths passed his chapped lips. He supported himself on the closet door, hand on the handle.

He smiled.

The closet door creaked open lightly.

And what stared at him back was his pale reflection – conspicuous dark red patches of marks scattered along his neck and collarbone - at the centre, lined out by several pictures pasted on the mirror haphazardly.

Pictures of a certain redhead.

“Akashi-kun….”

With a shaky finger, Kuroko traced a picture closest to his eye-level – the most recent picture of the redhead in his practice clothes, sweaty with a towel around his nap and a bottleneck lightly grazing his lips. He had taken it when he was allowed to watch their practice that one time.

That one time that also happened to be the day Akashi had asked him out.

Lacking in presence came with its benefits for Kuroko. He had managed to take secret pictures of the redhead during the practice session, especially when Akashi was so focused on the game he wouldn’t notice Kuroko taking pictures of him. He had been nervous when Akashi wanted to talk to him after that, scared of being caught red-handed but the outcome was unexpected.

His poker-face was a real advantage at the moment to cover his elation.

He had been watching Akashi for a long time, long before Akashi had known him at the university café. Fascinated and drawn to him, Kuroko thought he would never be able to get close to Akashi. After all, he is on a different level than Kuroko himself. But Kuroko was content – taking advantage of his phantom-like ability, he took pictures of the handsome redhead throughout the year, collected them and pasted them onto his dresser mirror, looking at them with longing and fascination every morning.

He had been contented with loving from a distance.

But now…..Akashi noticed him.

Akashi loved him.

Akashi desired him.

He swore by the reddened and purple marks on his skin that Kuroko was his.

And he was Kuroko’s.

-END-

#akakurovalentine2017 #dania #akakuro #akashi seijuurou #kuroko tetsuya #mah fics #really sorry for the delay #hope you enjoy it even a bit #I will edit it later for any mistakes

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