Man one of my friends has a habit of accidentally saying or doing stuff that hurts me and I never know what to do cuz like I dont wanna be criticizing her/telling her off every 2 days cuz I KNOW she never means any harm so I know when she says/does hurtfull stuff she doesnt mean it but like it still hurts yk ??? But anytime i do tell her i feel like an ass and the thing is it doesnt make me feel any better cuz when she apologizes i just feel bad for her. But likee also i notixe the frustration building up within myself from her repeatedly hurting my feelings. But its never super big stuff and i dont wanna make her feel bad cuz like idk man shes so. Just like, fragile I guess that anything that makes her sad or upset immediately makes me feel horrible like its the emotional equivalent of yelling at a child or.something. BUT ALSO SHE JUST KEEPS HURTING ME !!!! genuinely from the bottom of.my heart askimg wtf im supposed to do like do I just swallow it down and wait for the feeling to pass. Or what. Cuz like its never lingering serious hurt or anything but it just keeps building up but like also she never criticzes me for anything and so by comparison i DO already "criticize" her a lot I guess and like. Man idk genuinely I dont know what to do

Malleus having older sibling trauma. Malleus resenting how Lilia is able to openly express being Silver's parent but had to keep Malleus at arms length because of their roles. Malleus having to know someone who was presumably initially very cold and softened only as he was growing older while Silver had a very openly loving father immediately. Malleus being the child who taught Lilia how to parent and love. Malleus never feeling like Lilia truly loved him after seeing how he was able to love Silver. Malleus loving Silver because they're brothers and at the same time resenting him for having the father he always wanted.

aaron had every reason to hate neil btw

Man I just got a rejection back for a job I was really excited about..... I did try not to get my hopes up but it's always hard 😔

i know i haven't been as writing as much as i used to but man, getting radio silence on the stuff i do make really does puts a damper on my motivation TO write (；′⌒`)

Would you ever get a pet centipede? I always see them at reptile conventions and think of you.

I'm not sure! I've never really looked into what their care needs are, and I'm a year off at least from moving out of my mom's, and she's not into having pets at all. It would sure be neat, in theory! I've never had a venemous pet before though so I might want to start with a different bug like a stickbug or a beetle....so basically I'll cross that bridge when it's not several bridges ahead of me

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& it's like the thing is gideon IS terrible butch stereotype #1 like she's the service butch jock who puts everyone b4 herself to an insane extent, covers up all her emotions w jokes, has this deep seated shame she cant talk to anyone about & inside is the saddest loneliest girl in the world who is literally nothing if she is not servicing another woman. & on the one hand im not sure if i feel totally comfortable with this- even tho it's obvious from kiriona that it's definitely an intentional critique, i wonder if giving this character to a butch was intentional as well or just stereotyping- but on the other hand. that's literally me she's sooo me i can't be mad that the butch is like this hwen i am the butch who's like that.

this is kinda tmi but yk how people say particular parts of your body when touched make you feel certain emotions. my wax lady was waxing my ass lastnight + i got the sudden urge to burst into tears when she got to a certain spot ,, so crazy right

local boy fucked around and found out, sent into a short coma

more at 6

if you think about it this song is steddie coded

well maybe I don't need friends who don't respect my identity. I'll be alright. it's okay

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i hate that i made it my whole thing that im so Not romantically jealous and that im always 100% cool and chill with all that comes w being polyam bc im having a hard time w my gfs newest relationship and i cant say anything about it

I will say when besties do not tag me in their posts I do get sad but then remember nothing online matters

venting,, ig? just bs on tags,, gonna regret it in a few