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luvkyu · 3 months

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and i ( zhang hao )

zhang hao x male reader

hao is slightly obsessed with another violinist

content : 1.7k words, fluff, violinist!hao x violinist!reader, music terms, v shy hao, mention of vom!t ( just used as exaggeration )

"make sure you go into a heavier crescendo here, okay? this is the biggest climax of the song."

zhang hao nodded sheepishly. it was hard to stay focused on his violin when his mentor was so attractive. especially while sitting right beside him.

"i think a little more vibrato here would be good too, but you can worry more about the actual notes for now if you like," y/n said with a soft smile as he pointed to the sheet music. he could tell hao was nervous, so he was trying his best to keep a light hearted atmosphere.

"it's okay, i can do the vibrato," hao assured.

y/n smiled and nodded. he liked how determined hao was.

"alright, let's run through it one more time and then we'll be done for the day," y/n said.

hao raised his violin back up, straight posture and impeccable bow hold. y/n smiled in approval before doing the same, the sounds of their strings soon filling the practice room.

hao was a second year in their performing arts college. y/n was a fourth year and a first chair violinist in the school's competitive chamber orchestra. the pair had met during hao's first year, but never exchanged more than a few words.

y/n spent a lot of his time helping struggling first and second years with adjusting to their harder music pieces, so when hao spoke up, y/n was happy to help. now they met about three times a week to practice, and hao just received new sheet music that was a complete eyesore.

"good, that was really good," y/n praised happily. "how're you feeling with this piece so far?"

"it's fun, it's just a lot.." hao replied while loosening his bow. y/n nodded.

"yeah, i know. at least we got through the whole first page today! we'll work on the second one next time."

hao nodded as he began putting his things away. y/n gazed at him for a second, admiring how soft his personality seemed.

"y'know, you're a really good violinist, hao."

hao looked up at him with wide eyes. y/n was standing up now, violin hanging from his fingers and a gentle smile resting on his lips. hao could feel his cheeks turning red.

"..thank you. i really like playing, so that means a lot."

y/n nodded in return. "are you gonna try out for the chamber orchestra next year? they let some third years in."

hao thought about it for a moment. he carefully closed his violin case and latched the locks.

"mm.. i'm not sure."

"well," y/n began, "i think you should. if you want to, of course."

hao blushed and nodded in response. he wasn't really sure how to talk to y/n. not when he had the biggest crush on him known to mankind. he could feel y/n's eyes still on him, and for just a second, he wondered if y/n possibly liked him back.

"anyway, i'll see you back here monday?" y/n asked brightly. hao nodded, trying to give his best smile.

y/n hung his violin case over his shoulder and gathered his sheet music before waving goodbye. hao followed his exit, beginning to walk the opposite way to his dorm.

after finally getting back home, zhang hao threw his bags aside with a sigh. he gave more care to his violin case, setting it down gently. taerae stood in the small corner kitchen with a bowl of food in his hands.

"hey, hao. you good?"

"mm," hao mumbled. he went into the kitchen with the other and took a water from their fridge.

"y/n again?" taerae asked with a small chuckle.

hao nodded, "i'm so into him. i hate it."

"i don't know why you won't just ask him out."

hao shrugged. taerae set his bowl down as he gazed at his roommate. hao was so down bad, and taerae hated that he refused to do anything about it. he rolled his eyes and lightly slapped his hand on the counter.

"alright," taerae declared, "you're coming with me tonight. i'm going to his concert to write a review piece for the school paper, so i can get you a ticket too."

"there's a concert tonight??" hao asked with wide eyes.

"yeah, with the chamber orchestra. how did you not know that?"

"i have no idea. i guess i've been too preoccupied."

"sure, preoccupied with y/n."

"..shut up."

zhang hao was shivering. not because it was cold, but because he was nervous. more nervous than he'd ever been, even on his first day of college. he had a small bouquet of flowers in one hand, and his phone in the other with a deathly tight grip. he stood frozen for a moment as he stared at the large theater in front of him.

"hey, relax," taerae's voice cut through his anxiety, "it'll be okay."

hao nodded, trying to let a smile curve on his lips. he could barely see y/n on the stage, as he and taerae were still by the entrance. the orchestra was tuning and warming up, but he could make out y/n's styled hair and pretty smile from far away. he seemed to be talking to the violinist beside him about the sheet music. hao felt his heart swell. seeing y/n in his formal concert attire was almost too much for him.

"c'mon, let's get to our seats," taerae said eagerly. hao nodded again and followed his friend to a pair of seats that were much closer to the stage than he thought.

"oh, he's right in front!" taerae exclaimed quietly, pointing to y/n.

"mhm, he's first chair."

taerae looked over at hao as he looked at y/n.

"taerae?"

"hm?"

"he looks so good i'm gonna throw up," hao muttered. taerae rolled his eyes with a small snicker.

zhang hao took a deep breath and looked down at his hands. he laid the flowers in his lap before rubbing his palms together.

"wait, i think he sees us!" taerae enthused.

hao's head shot back up to find his crush's eyes resting on him. a smile quickly sprouted on y/n's face, keeping his gaze set on hao.

"oh, i hate him.. why is he staring at me like that.."

"cause he likes you, dumb fuck."

hao looked over at taerae with wide eyes before going back to y/n.

"maybe he's just surprised to see me. he didn't know i was coming so.."

taerae rolled his eyes. he watched hao muster up the courage to wave at y/n, the male sending a tiny wave back with his violin bow.

the lights soon died down as the audience began clapping and the conductor made his way out to join the orchestra. hao loved watching y/n become all serious as he lifted his violin to his chin in sync with the others.

throughout the pieces of music, taerae took notes for the school paper, while hao simply sat in awe. he'd seen them perform before, but it was like a new experience every time. the group was so professional and well put together. hao hoped he could be at such a level soon.

by the time it was over, zhang hao was even more of a nervous wreck. he waited with taerae by their seats, pretending to talk until y/n made his way over to them. he was currently traveling through the theater to talk with different people. hao assumed he was thanking people for coming and receiving congratulatory words in return - the usual etiquette that hao found quite tiresome if he was honest.

"hey guys," hao felt his heart quicken as he recognized y/n's voice, "thanks for coming. i didn't expect to see you, but i'm happy you're here."

taerae could tell that was directed more at zhang hao, but he didn't mind a bit. he and y/n were more like acquaintances than friends anyways.

"of course! you guys did really great. the review in the paper will be nothing but good things, i promise," taerae assured.

"thank you, i'm really glad you liked it!"

taerae smiled before turning to hao, "i'm gonna go wait in the car, okay?"

hao nodded in response. he could feel a chill run down his spine as he now faced y/n alone. he felt like melting on the spot. seeing y/n up close in his suit and tie made him feel weak.

"i've never seen you so dressed up. you look really amazing," y/n complimented, as if reading hao's mind.

"thank you," hao blushed, "you do too. i like your suit a lot."

y/n smiled and looked down at the clean black fabric.

"yeah? i always feel kinda weird when i dress up this nicely, but i'm glad someone else enjoys it."

hao nodded. oh, how he really did enjoy it.

"ah- these are for you," hao spoke up as he reached to the seat behind him where he'd left the flowers. y/n's jaw fell open just a bit, blushing a little himself now.

"really? you got me flowers?"

hao smiled and nodded. "you deserve them. i knew you'd be great tonight."

y/n couldn't help but chuckle at how cute the other was. he took the bouquet happily, looking at the flowers before turning his attention back to zhang hao.

"hey, are you doing anything else tonight?" y/n asked. hao's heart picked up once again. he shook his head while trying to hide his growing smile.

"then can i take you to dinner?"

hao almost couldn't believe it.

"really? you mean now?"

y/n nodded confidently, "we're already dressed up, i'm hungry, and i have the prettiest boy in the room to come with me. it's perfect."

hao looked down at his shoes, his smile too much for himself now.

"sure, i'd love to. let me just tell taerae?"

y/n nodded again, "of course. let's go." he offered his hand out, which hao took a bit shyly before he was led out of the theater.

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svltzmans · 9 months

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so hot you're hurting my feelings - h.m.

a/n: this was a request from a lovely anon :) i had a lot of fun writing it so i hope you all love it! i'm still pretty new to writing explicit content so bear with me!! (i'm also obsessed with naming my fics after songs, this one is by caroline polachek and i feel like it fits the bill)

pairing: hope mikaelson x fem!heretic! reader

warnings: smut (18+), dirty talk, lots of praise including use of "good girl"

"how the fuck did you do that?," y/n asks, exasperated. her girlfriend, hope, had just performed the most intricate spell she had ever seen.

"here, i'll teach you," hope responds, going through the spell again, step by step, explaining thoroughly to y/n.

"you're so cute when you get into explaining something, but i'm still so confused."

"come on, you're a tough girl. i'll go through it again. you do it with me this time."

so hope performed the spell again, slowly so y/n could follow suit.

the first few times y/n attempted the spell, she just couldn't get it quite right.

it was frustrating, sure, but hope was right. y/n was tough. she wasn't one to show much emotion outwardly.

but hope could read her well. they hadn't been dating long, but hope had put effort into learning her girlfriend's mannerisms.

"hey, it's okay. you're doing so good."

y/n can't help the warmth that starts in her stomach and only moves downwards at hope's words. hope's naturally sensual voice never helps.

"let's try one more time. ready?"

and they do. hope leads the way, performing the spell slowly at first but gaining speed at the final steps. y/n continues mirroring hope's actions, and it's clear that she's gotten the hang of it.

"lecutio," they both chant, as sparks generate in both of their hands.

"look at you go, y/n! i'm so proud of you. you did such a good job," hope praises, taking y/n's hand in her own.

the feeling in y/n's body returns stronger this time, and she can't help the furious blush that comes across her face. she finds herself hoping that her girlfriend couldn't tell how her words were affecting her.

y/n's favorite part of her week was the "history of magic" class she shared with hope. the pair would always sit side by side, both dilligently taking notes on the course content while also slyly exchanging looks of admiration once in a while.

"does anyone remember the year "icaeus" became officially recognized as a spell?," the instructor speaks, scanning the room for willing students prepared to answer his question.

y/n raises her hand, much to hope's enjoyment. she admires her girlfriend's academic confidence, especially because many people see her as guarded and overly intimidating.

"around 3000 B.C.," y/n answers, not even referencing her notes.

"that's correct, y/n. someone's been paying attention," the instructor says through a smile.

hope leans closer to y/n until she's just inches away from her face. "damn, my girlfriend is smart. great job, beautiful," she says, smiling mischievously.

y/n has to physically stifle a sinful noise, although she manages to play it off with a playful eyeroll directed at hope. confident that hope didn't notice her initial reaction, she continues listening to the lecture of the day.

a wickery match was in full swing, an even mix of witches, werewolves, and vampires all happily participating, including hope and y/n.

not only is y/n tough, but she is also quite strong. nobody else in the game could throw the ball quite as far as she could.

after being passed the ball by kaleb, y/n realized she only had one possible move; throw it all the way across the field to a completely unguarded mg.

she knows it's not going to be easy, but doesn't hesitate to use every muscle in her arm to get it as far as she can.

to everyone's shock, the ball reaches mg seemingly effortlessly.

"holy shit! y/l/n, that was amazing!," lizzie shouts, her enthusiasm for the game obvious.

embracing the attention, y/n graciously recieves high-fives from the fellow players.

hope wraps her arms around her from behind, squeezing her girlfriend in an affectionate hug.

"you did so good today, y/n. i'm so proud of you."

this time, y/n whines. she hopes its quiet enough that hope doesn't hear it, but with her werewolf hearing, she's sure she must have.

y/n lays in her bed, several pages deep in a new novel when she hears a knock at her door.

"come in!," she shouts, almost certain she won't be surprised by who is standing in the doorway.

"hey honey, whatcha reading?"

it's hope, closing the door behind her and plopping into bed alongside her girlfriend.

"just this new fantasy novel. you know, like castles and shit."

"sounds like fun, but i think i'm more interesting."

nodding in agreement, y/n puts a bookmark in her novel and puts it on her nightstand. she lays next to hope, gently putting her head on her chest.

"can i ask you a question?," hope speaks after a few seconds of silence.

"anything," y/n responds.

"is there anything i say that... you know, has a particular effect on you?"

"effect on me?"

"yeah, you know ... something i do that.. you like?"

"i don't know what you're talking about."

y/n is lying through her teeth, and they both know it.

"i just happened to notice, you know, a pattern of behavior."

"what kind of behavior?"

"just, you know, some blushing. extra blushing. maybe even some interesting noises."

"fuck, you heard that?"

"oh, so you do know what i'm talking about."

"no!"

hope knew y/n wouldn't stop denying her desire for praise, and she knew exactly how to force the truth out of her.

"here, let me try something," hope says, looking y/n directly in the eyes.

"okay?" y/n looks directly back, although she is confused by hope's response.

"you are such a good girl, y/n," hope slurs, her voice sultry.

before hope can even register what is happening, y/n's lips are on hers, passionately moving against them.

"so i guess i was right then, huh?," hope teases when the pair finally separates to breathe.

"shut up, mikaelson."

"lay down," hope responds, y/n happy to oblige.

"such a good girl you are, listening to me," hope teases, running her finger down y/n's still clothed torso.

"jesus hope, just take my clothes off already," y/n responds, growing impatient.

and hope does, stripping y/n naked in what feels like a matter of seconds.

"so beautiful, baby," hope coos, before pulling herself on top of y/n, straddling her.

hope's hands start to gently wander, grabbing hold of y/n anywhere she could.

"hope, please just touch me."

"i am touching you."

"you know what i mean."

"i really don't," hope continues to tease. "if you want something, you're gonna have to tell me, otherwise i'll just never know..."

"please just put your fingers inside me," y/n interrupts, her skin growing hot with desperation.

"ah, that's my good girl," hope responds, only adding to the pooling between y/n's legs.

hope lays between y/n's legs, admiring her naked form.

running a finger over y/n's inner thigh, hope studies the way her body responds, with gentle twitches and heavy breathing.

finally, hope gently pushes two fingers into y/n, still focusing on the way she responds.

y/n can't help but let out an obscene moan, finally receiving the feeling she'd been craving for so long.

hope adjusts to a steady pace, curling her fingers each time they're fully inside y/n's aching core.

"such a good girl, taking my fingers like this," hope praises, her voice raspy.

"fuck, hope. f-feels so good," y/n manages to respond, feeling the pleasure build in her stomach.

hope uses her thumb to rub tight circles on y/n's clit, enjoying the way her whines and moans only get louder.

she feels y/n start to squeeze around her fingers, knowing she's close.

"gonna cum for me, aren't you? so good baby," she coos, encouraging y/n to let go.

"god, hope...," y/n almost screams, giving up on holding back as her orgasm crashes over her in multiple waves.

hope talks her through her orgasm with gentle whispers of "that's it, beautiful. you did such a good job for me."

when y/n finally comes down from her high and catches her breath, hope pulls her back onto her chest to relax.

"so, a praise kink, huh?," hope jests, earning a gentle push from y/n.

a/n: it's 7am as i'm posting this 😭 it's already horny on this blog this early

(also why is the formatting on this so weird like some of it is double spaced and some not? how do i fix this help)

#hope mikaelson x reader #hope mikaelson #wlw #legacies x reader #legacies

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snaillock · 9 months

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your relationship with bllk men as mitski songs

(kaiser, sae, oliver)

my posting has been very slow recently so to celebrate mitskis new album (and to feed into my eternal obsession for her music and lyricism by combining it with another thing im way too obsessed with), i dug up this old ass draft and finished it instead of giving y’all an actual fic

tags: gn!reader, angst(it’s mitski duh), yeah basically no fluff/comfort in here, suggestive-ish in the oliver one, me being a dork and combining two big interests of mine

michael kaiser - i don’t smoke

So if you need to be mean Be mean to me I can take it and put it inside of me If your hands need to break More than trinkets in your room You can lean on my arm As you break my heart

his career can be a lot on his shoulders at times even with the cocky and arrogant facade he puts on for the performance of each match he plays. he has a tendency to keep it all in to bask in the glory of his luxurious life.

you understand. you know he’s currently too prideful to deal with his true feelings, especially all on his own. you just want to be there to know he isn’t alone and that he can be open with you. so you sit there, giving him a listening ear as he lashes out and releases every awful word in the book towards you when everything finally becomes too much for him to bear. you wouldn’t want him to have a very public meltdown when it happens so it’s better this way. you have remind yourself to take none of it to heart because he doesn’t mean those all harsh words. he just needed an outlet for those frustrations.

you also don’t want the weight and significance of his career to separate you two. you’re already so damn lucky to be with someone like him. you want to prove that you can handle it. you know you can. you’re sure you can help him figure this all out somehow. love just takes compassion and patience, that’s all it is. just taking it one step at a time.

it’s just compassion and patience. right?

Just don't leave me alone Wondering where you are I am stronger than you give me credit for

sae itoshi - i want you

You're coming back And it's the end of the world We're starting over and I love you darlin' And I am done, dear

he swears he will make time for you someday. sure those words have been promised over and over again like a broken record but he truly does love you. however you’re starting to wonder if mutual love is truly enough to keep you two going.

the truth is his life is currently too big and important for him to take any focus away from it. the last thing he needs is a distraction. all of which he has very clear multiple times, even along with his contrastingly hopeful promises. though his tone is quite neutral, never letting his emotions seep through as if he’s programmed to do so. meanwhile you have to desperately hold yours back to not seem like an idiot.

it’s never been easy to express how you feel in front of him. you desperately wish you could but the inconsistency of your relationship that’s barely holding up renders it pointless. this over and over/back and forth thing that’s going on between you two is exhausting. it only leaves you lost and confused. you begin to wonder if staying is even worth it at all. even with the speck of hope that it could eventually work out. even if you love him.

You're in the house And I am here in the car I just need a quiet place Where I can scream how I love you

oliver aiku - eric

You like control, well, I do too Take off my clothes and watch me move You can come closer, I'll let you hurt me how you choose

you deeply crave a loving and fulfilling connection with another but unfortunately the other you desire is him. a guy who’s born to be a player and only wants to fool around with multiple people.

you know getting attached would only cause you so much unnecessary pain but your naive heart couldn’t resist him. you know that he doesn’t see you for more than what you give him at night but you were still a fool to fall for him.

enough of a fool to fall for him knowing he’s not ready to settle for one person. you could see it from how you would lovingly gaze at him while he leers at someone else behind you. you would still give yourself up to him if you could, offering anything he wanted out of you.

despite better judgment, you stay with a pained and aching heart. constantly yearning for more.

But how long, how long can we play this way? I'm tired, I'm tired of not loving you My heart, my heart wants to hold you But I know, I know, I know the rules

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harrysmimi · 1 year

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Penguin Walk

Synopsis: One where Harry's got two more girls obsessing over him. Plot twist is: he loves it!

More of my work

Harry had just gotten home from tour.

Two months away from his girls was dreading for him. Little Tara and Roza came into his and his girlfriend's life unexpectedly but has he been obsessed with his girls. They were both just a week after his birthday.

He had to postpone his tour for a year announcing the actual reason behind him wanting to take a break, to be there for his family. His fans were very respective of his decision and it felt even more rewarding to go perform again.

Though he never thought he'd say it but he was very grateful to off tour not to just write new music but to be there with his family. He'd already missed his babies taking their first steps but YN made sure to take videos for him. They take that from their mother, who according to grandma started walking when she was their age. Harry was a late bloomer as a baby. The twins are about eleven months old now.

Today as he walked through the door with all his luggage, all tired and run down, he was met by two girls making their way to him doing their penguin walk he's been obsessed with. Each of them clung to his legs squealing and giggling.

"Papa! Papa!" They both chanted raising their chubby arms up so he can pick them up. He'd managed to pick up both of them in his arms and give them a big cuddle.

"Papa missed you two so much!" He gave each of them kisses.

Both the girls were identical but Tara wasn't a big fan of him but her mum's, she still loves him. Not as much as her mum though. Little Roza never likes to leave him alone.

They've grown so much since he's last seen them two months ago. They're chunkier (even though they both were the smallest and most delicate creatures when they were just born), their hair is longer and fuller and a little darker blonde. Their cheeks has red pillow marks from probably just taking a greatest afternoon nap, their faces puffy from good sleep.

"Where is Mumma?" He asked and Tara pointed to the kitchen. "Hello my darling!"

"Hi!" YN exclaimed seeing him.

Harry placed the twins down carefully on the floor to greet the mother of his children with a hug. "I missed you as well!"

"Oh how lucky I am!" She sighed hugging him back, "I missed you."

"I know, I'm never leaving any of you alone." He squeezed her tightly, "what are you making?"

"Your favourite." She pulled her head away from his chest to look at the food cooking up on the stove.

YN had just gotten off work before she started on dinner. She works from home so it was easier on her to look after the girls as well. They never troubled her, usually they're playing in harmony. Until someone wants the same toy the other one is playing with and end up in hair pulling fights and cries and screams. But mostly they were good for her.

"Thank you so much, baby." He placed a long awaited kiss on her mouth. "Were the girls nice to you?"

"Mhmm. Coco here was a big pain in the bum." YN looked at the cat roaming around like she owns the place. She shot her mother a judging look.

Harry just chuckled, "I'll go take a quick shower and come down to help you, yeah?" He suggested pressing a kiss to back on YN's head.

"Mhmm." YN nodded.

Well, least to say Harry got distracted after his shower having a good play time with his little girls. One moment they were having play time at the play area, the girls making him pretend food in their little kitchen set and the other moment they were chasing each other.

"I'm gonna get you!" He cooed walking behind Tara and Roza doing thier little penguin run, until Roza fell straight on her bum and started laughing her heart out.

"Gotcha!" He exclaimed getting on his knees to attack Roza with gentle tickles. "Oh, no!" He pretend screamed watching Tara come to her twin's rescue, giving him sloppy wet kisses all over his face.

Now Harry was being attacked by two babies and also a cat lying on the floor. All his tiredness seem to disappear.

"Help! No!" He squealed. "YN help!"

"Don't drag me into it." YN laughed filming her husband, on the carpet.

The girls gasped when their dad picked them up and plopped them on the sofa with a tickle attack. The calmness was long gone as the house was filled with giggles and squeals and screams. He finally stopped, so they can breathe watching them belly laugh.

Harry was very happy to be back with his girls. Just in time for the holidays.

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threadbaresweater · 6 months

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Just gotta get this off my mind.

I had a lover once. I met him when I was 16, he was 17. He'd dropped out of high school but still ran around with friends that were still there, and we had several mutual friends. We started seeing each other in secret (but kind of not really. People knew, but we didn't talk about it because we were so very different, and I was a "good girl" and he was a not so good boy). We didn't have official dates, but we would hang out, talk, smoke weed and listen to music, take drives and make out. He disappeared right before my senior year was over, and I was heartbroken. Devastated to the point where I didn't eat, didn't sleep, did reckless things. I look back now and see how I was so desperately obsessed with him to a dangerous degree, and I eventually picked up the pieces and moved on with my life.

Fast forward a couple of years later. I knew he'd come back, but I hadn't seen him or heard from him until he showed up at the gas station I was working at one night. He knew I was working there, though I don't know how. We exchanged numbers and agreed to meet up and hang out for old times sake. He picked me up after work and we drove around like we used to. It became a weekly thing, and we eventually had sex. It started a whirlwind of emotion all over again for me. I was partying heavily at the time, sleeping around, drinking, being reckless, but he was my safe space. I knew I could call him if I needed anything and he'd be there.

I met my first husband in 2002, and stopped seeing this guy. But 9 years later, when my husband showed me a side of him I'd not seen coming, whose arms did I run back to?

We had another affair. My husband and I reconciled for a short time but his abuse continued, so we ultimately split. Again, I went back to my lover, and we finally- after nearly two decades- confessed that yes, we were in love, but no, it could never work in a conventional way. For years, I allowed him to string me along, to play games with me and make me think that I was meant for him. And I guess in a way I was? I used him, too, so I wasn't innocent in any of it. He's charming and handsome and smart and cunning, and he made me feel like I was a goddess. I'll never forget him.

Anyway. At the recital I played in last night, his son (by another woman) was there (he grew up with the young man I performed with last night). He congratulated me on a job well done and said, "My dad says hello." I smiled and said to tell him hello in return, but the wave of nostalgia that crashed over me nearly brought me to tears.

I am in a happy, stable marriage with a man who gives me everything I need- emotionally, physically, financially. I am building a life with him I have always craved, and I am so grateful for his love and grace and patience. I am grateful, too, that I finally understood that no matter how hard I might try, I could never have something this healthy with the other guy. We have incredible memories together and I think overall, despite the heartache and uncertainty, that we taught each other a lot about what love is and what it should be.

Anyway.

#and yes he is the inspiration for several fics that I've written #and theres so much more nuance to this story than I've written here #I could write a novel about it but maybe this is a form of oversharing that makes people uncomfortable idk

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August 16

I am listening to Aloha From Hawaii as I sit down to write this tribute, my favorite of Elvis's live performances. I have read some other tributes and all of them have been so beautiful. This made me pretty emotional to write not gonna lie.

This date definitely carries more weight with me this year for so many reasons. As many already know, I was an Elvis fan before the movie last year but I wasn't as involved in the fandom as I am now. Back in 2002 when "Lilo and Stitch" came out, I took my then 7 year old niece to see it and she did enjoy it, but it was me the adult in her 20s who walked out obsessed with it. Since then, I've honestly felt like it was just me and my homegirl Lilo who appreciated Elvis and since she's a drawing I can't have a conversation with her. Elvis kind of fell to the wayside for me, in the background but still appreciated.

I admit I was skeptical about the movie last year when I first heard about it. I was like "Who the hell is this Austin dude who's playing Elvis? And Baz is directing it? Interesting. Ok, well I guess I'll give it a watch and see." And I'm so glad I did because they blew me away and re-sparked my interest in Elvis. I love how the movie introduced so many new people to Elvis and now there's all these new fans to talk to. I've made all kinds of new friends in this fandom. I hadn't really been using my Tumblr much but I went on it last year to see if I could find other fans to talk to and it turned out to be the best thing because I was invited to join the best Discord channel where I have met some truly wonderful Elvis fans of all ages from around the world. One of the things I love about the Elvis fandom is how supportive and inclusive it is. There's so much toxicity in so many fandoms these days but it seems to be an extremely rare thing in this fandom and that is so refreshing.

Elvis also helped me break through a long drought of writer's block. Prior to the movie last year, I hadn't been doing much writing, just some short one shots for my other fandoms and I was struggling, thinking I'd never write something long or substantial. I had little faith I could write a long story with an intricate plot. After the movie rekindled my interest in him he busted right through that block and I ran with the idea that popped into my head. It started as a one shot and quickly grew into a novel length story. I just posted chapter 35 the other day and it's still ongoing. I admit I was nervous about posting it at first, I often suffer from self doubt and imposter syndrome and I worry my writing is not good enough to share. But I'm so glad I shared it. I had no idea it was going to be as loved as it is now. I have so many devoted readers who have left me kudos and given me amazing feedback for which I am so grateful. And new readers continue to discover it all the time which brings me even more joy.

Little by little I am starting to get over my insecurities and self doubts about my writing. I am getting much better at battling imposter syndrome and letting my creativity flow. It feels SO good to be writing again, when you've gone through a long bout of creative block to finally be back at your craft is one of the most amazing feelings in the world. So thank you Elvis, thank you for helping me.

In December of this year, I will be visiting Memphis and Graceland for the very first time. I'm a runner who loves to look for destination races so I can plan a trip around a race so I am doing the Memphis St Jude half marathon on Dec 2 and I am going to cosplay as Aloha Elvis. I have an American Eagle jumpsuit onesie to wear for the race. I also plan on ordering a multi pack of leis which I will wear and hand to the volunteers at the aid stations when they hand me Gatorade and I will thank them for aiding my gator. It will be overwhelmingly emotional for me to run on the same streets Elvis once walked. Me and my significant other are staying the week after the race to do Graceland and other tourist things in Memphis. I am so excited.

I hope that wherever Elvis is in the afterlife that he knows how loved he still is and how he's still positively affecting people all these decades later after he passed.

This ended up being a pretty long piece and if you read the whole thing, thank you. I leave you with some pics of my favorite Elvis, Aloha E: my man of many leis. ❤🌺

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yanderes-galore · 2 years

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Hi.....c can I request a yandere concept for Agent Florida/Butch Flowers...?👉👈

Sure, I'll see what I can do for him. He wasn't shown much so this may be a little shorter than others depending on how many ideas I have.

Sorry if things are OOC, like I said, we don't see much of him. If things are wrong let me know how. I personally feel he has the potential to be sinister but I don't think I executed it properly.

Yandere! Agent Florida/Butch Flowers Concept

Pairing: Romantic/Platonic

Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Overprotective behavior, Manipulation, Implied stalking, Gaslighting implied, Patronizing behavior, Mentioned thoughts of murder.

- We do not know too much about Butch Flowers/Agent Florida.

- He was quiet and kept out of the way as Agent Florida.

- Although he was very kind to his team as Butch Flowers.

- That can easily be a facade, however, as he was assigned to protect Alpha in Blood Gulch.

- Let's start with Agent Florida.

- Florida was trusted in the Freelancer program by the Counselor and Director themselves.

- Florida followed orders silently with no question and may even have a darker side.

- He would not be as expressive as other agents in the program, but he may take a liking to a fellow agent when he's still known as Agent Florida.

- As Butch Flowers he'd be kinder, more expressive, and protective towards someone he likes.

- He would be more attached to a member of Blue Team and be surprisingly deceptive towards you.

- He was Agent Florida, it would be interesting to see him be deceptive towards you.

- Maybe even gaslight you if you suspect anything.

- As Agent Florida, he'd be Calculating, Observing, Protective, and maybe a little Manipulative.

- As Butch Flowers, he'd be Obsessive, Protective, Manipulative, and Deceptive

- In Blood Gulch he's essentially playing an act.

- He'd be lying to you the most then because he's used to lying.

- As Florida he's protective of you because you'd be a fellow agent at first.

- You're all kept together and train together... how could he not care for you?

- He feels in a way you're family, family that's easy to lose if he's not there for you.

- It would only take one mission gone wrong before he'd never see you again, a fear that digs into his mind.

- He's used to working in the shadows.

- Florida would watch you from afar for the most part, but on missions he convinces you to join his team so you're out of the way.

- He ocassionally talks to you and when he does, that typical Butch Flowers persona filters through.

- He wants to be seen as someone you can trust.

- There's already enough distrust in the Freelancer program, you should know you can rely on him if anyone.

- He gets the job done, your safety is in good hands.

- He may also be ruthless as Florida, willing to do whatever it takes to get things done.

- Normally when you speak with Florida he doesn't respond much or gives small responses.

- Other times he perks up around you and is drawn in towards you.

- He can be scary as an agent because he'd be skilled in tracking and murder.

- If it means your protection and safety, he's willing to deviate just a bit from the plan.

- As Butch Flowers he'd also be intimidating.

- He's sickeningly sweet in this persona.

- Overly obsessive and caring, he still cares a ton for your protection like he does for the rest of Blue Team.

- Although he does seem more patronizing towards you in this persona.

- Sort of treats you like a kid while also respecting you because he likes you.

- You'd be a simulation trooper in this scenario which means he picked you out.

- You didn't perform as well in your team as others, yet you're also better than the rest.

- Butch Flowers lies a lot to keep up his facade.

- To the point that kindness turns sinister at times.

- Like he's hiding something from you that he refuses to tell you.

- In a way he is, he knows you're not as good of a soldier as him.

- Which leads to him talking down to you sweetly.

- Although, he does adore you despite this.

- You're as cute as a button to him.

- Definitely gives nicknames as this persona, they get pretty strange too.

- The rest of Blue Team can tell Flowers has favoritism towards you.

- They aren't sure why, yet they know he loves to ask about you.

- Flowers tries not to resort to murder as this persona because he's personally hand picked who's in Blood Gulch to protect Alpha.

- He will use manipulation to keep you in check, though.

- At times he shows up out of nowhere as Florida and Flowers, which can be chilling.

- Would also somewhat abuse his power over you to keep you safe.

- He accepts the people need to be around you because of his field.

- As Agent Florida he allows other agents to be around you, unless he suspects them of being too close to you or traitors.

- As Flowers he also accepts Blue Team around you, although doesn't want Red Team near you naturally.

- He's not jealous easily which is a benefit to you.

- Overall, as both Agent Florida and Butch Flowers, he's a protective and manipulative Yandere.

- His biggest concerns is finishing the mission and protecting you.

- If he dies in the process, then maybe that's his destiny.

#yandere halo red vs blue #yandere halo rvb #yandere agent florida #yandere butch flowers

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As someone whose Admittedly Impossible Dream Fancast for Alys was like... Eva Green, but specifically with hair and costumes roughly styled after her all-too-brief performance as Morgan in Starz's Camelot (the show itself had SO MANY flaws, but damn if I didn't completely obsess over her in that role for the one season it lasted!), THANK YOU for being so refreshingly reasonable about Gayle Rankin's casting! I don't think I've ever watched anything with, but I've heard she's a good actress and she's great with eerie, witchy roles, and personally, I think that's all that should matter.

Honestly, my only complaint is that I would have LOVED for Alys' actress to have a bigger, more visible age difference with Ewan. Not just for the obvious "Aemond likes MILFs"/"Alys is more experienced and tops him" jokes, as amusing (and inspiring if, like me, you like that sort of thing in your ships... ;)) as those can be, but also because it would have just been so nice to see a 40+ actress play a seductive, powerful character hooking up with a cool, younger male fan favorite many people (me included, lol) find hot. I get that Alys is supposed to look youthful, but depending on context, "youthful" can mean anything from "so babyfaced they keep getting mistaken for a teen well into their 30s" to "they have such an energy and such a lively, charming personality that people keep forgetting their actual age" after all...

Then again, I, too, would have also loved for older!Rhaenyra and Helaena to be played by fat people, thus putting on screen two fat female characters whose problems don't revolve around them hating their bodies, other people hating their bodies, or whether their bodies are or can be considered attractive. Still, Emma and Phia are both doing amazing jobs, and as well-cast as everyone's been until now, I don't doubt it'll be the same with Gayle and I'll be able to enjoy her performance... while waiting for industry conventions to slooowly change!

i also watched starz's camelot and had very mixed feelings about the show overall, but i adored eva green as morgan pendragon so much. so she was always who i imagined as alys when i read fire and blood. and i understood why many people felt the same way about katie mcgrath after watching her also as morgana in bbc's merlin. alys rivers just has really big morgan le fey energy, right down to her son.

i have never seen gayle rankin in anything. but she is supposedly a good actress who has played roles with witchy vibes. an pictures and edits of her with black hair as selling me on her casting more and more. i am sure she will do wonderful in the role. my biggest issue was those posts comparing pictures of gayle rankin and a fancast for alys, which was clearly posing gayle as unattractive and dumpy compared to the more conventionally attractive actress. which is just gross. it was gross when they did it to emma, and it sucks that the same cycle is repeating with gayle. they both deserved better.

i am terrified for the actress cast as nettles.

in regards to the rest of the casting, i agree with you entirely. milly, emma, and phia are great, i love both of them and none of this is a reflection of my feelings about them as actors. but rhaenyra and helaena are the only targaryen women who are explicitly described as bigger than a pencil. grrm specified that rhaenyra was "pudgy" as a girl and "stout" as a woman due to her multiple pregnancies, but she is still considered desirable. helaena is similarly described as "plump", but is adored. their canonical descriptions being ignored by both the showrunners and fans is disappointing, but not surprising.

i have strong feelings about some of the casting, but i still found it to be one of the shows greatest strengths. and i have no doubt that these newest additions will continue to elevate the show (the only one i actually recognize was freddie fox as gwayne hightower, he was the king of sweden in hulu's the great and i am excited for him).

#hotd #house of the dragon #asoiaf #alys rivers #rhaenyra targaryen #helaena targaryen

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phoenixwatchesmovies · 6 months

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What I'm Watching: November 2023

The Fall of the House of Usher

Sycrhjodxfhbaudiffebuvehtxt I'm obsessed with this show. So far, this is the first and only Mike Flanagan adaptation where I was familiar with the source material already, and it was a fucking BLAST playing Spot The Reference. Additionally, the conclusion of the rave scene has been burned into my memory ever since and I cannot for the life of me get it out of my head, in the best and worst way possible. Sooooooo good, but oh my fucking god. And it's been a long time coming, but this series has elevated Carla Gugino for me to Rachel Weiss meme status. You know the one I'm talking about. I just.... THIS SHOW IS SO FUCKING GOOD. The writing, the story, the performances, the cinematography, the scares, the all of it. It's split down the middle between stuff you can point and go "ha! I knew it!" and stuff you just can't see coming, and it's all top tier. I typically need a cool down period to recover after most Flanagan stuff, but I'm just itching to get back to this one as soon as possible. Is a good amount of that just me thirsting over Verna? Well, yeah. It's pretty much Gugino's show, and everyone else merely appears in it. Actually, that's not fair. Everyone involved not only fucking went for it, they fucking nailed it. This is Mike's last run with Netflix, and by god, the whole team went out with a bang.

Cowboy Bebop (2021)

Let me start by saying that my post mentioning how much I wanna bang Spike went as viral as things tend to go on this blog, so I'm glad that resonated with some folks. 😂 I'll admit, I have a lot less nostalgia for the anime as a lot of the audience for this, having only seen it twice, but as far as adaptations go, this was perfectly okay. As someone pointed out already on one of my posts, it's a lot less existential than the OG, and therefore a lot less heavy. And since all I wanted out of this was a good time, I was happy with it. I was EXTREMELY happy with the opening credits in particular. My stance on adaptations in general is that if a piece can stand on its own merit, I don't care how closely it adheres to the source material, and in my opinion, the live action succeeds. In fact, my one and only complaint is...not enough Ein!

Anne With An E

The books stay in my reading rotation, so despite my philosophy on adaptations, I had very high expectations going into this several years late, don't worry about it. And...I was not disappointed. I ended up crying over almost every episode, and that never happens, so... 😅 It's so sweet and I was charmed from the get-go. I've still got a season left, and since it seems to be doing its own thing apart from the books now, I'm really looking forward to it. I'm also dreading it, because I'm not ready for it to be over. Then again, that's how it feels finishing the books as well, so that's only how it should be.

Five Nights At Freddy's

Lemme tell you, I've known jack shit about FNAF aside from "evil Chuck E. Cheese" for years now. I've had the tags filtered for almost as long as I've been on Tumblr (I love the people I follow, but I gotta curate my experience). I've made it my mission to go as long as I can without knowing anything at all about this franchise if for no reason other than it's fucking e v e r y w h e r e and I was sick of the overexposure. But now because a relative of an acquaintance of a family friend was one of the cannon fodder characters, I got roped into watching this and my streak is broken. I can't unknow what I know about this franchise. Which I'm extra annoyed about, considering what the creator of the games tends to put his royalties towards. 😑 From a film standpoint, it's fine. I'm not sure what age range the target demographic is, but having the horror stuff happen off screen made it feel more vanilla than the average episode of Supernatural, and I'll let that speak for itself. The look and atmosphere were exactly what I'd imagine if told to picture an evil Chuck E. Cheese, the animatronics are appropriately creepy (though let's be honest, it doesn't take much to make ANY animatronic creepy), and I was a little surprised and impressed with the soundtrack. And it was nice to see Josh Hutcherson in something new, though it's still so odd seeing him as an adult. I'm most familiar with him as a kid in RV, and holy fuck, I feel old looking at him now. I could have used a little more Matthew Lillard--why would you get Matty Lilly in your movie and then NOT do something with him?!--but given the character/story/what have you, I get it. One plot point in particular didn't stick the landing, as far as I'm concerned. In an effort to tie up all loose ends, it made things too contrived in a "that's convenient but now it makes less sense" kind of way. Don't know if that's how it goes in the game, and I don't care enough to find out. All in all, I've seen worse, I still don't get the hype, and I'm still not the target audience. And that's perfectly okay.

Guillermo del Toro's Cabinet Of Curiosities

A horror anthology? With GDT?? Sign me up yesterday! I don't think there was a single episode I didn't like. And I wasn't prepared to recognize so many names in the credits. Actors, directors, composers, authors, you name it. And it was fun! The stories were bizarre, assorted creature designs were gnarly, and whatever else was going on with the vibes episode to episode, they all felt consistently creepy and sinister. "The Autopsy" has the distinction of being one of the few things I've watched that almost made me puke. "Pickman's Model" was the first thing to freak me out bad enough I stayed awake to get it out of my head in a Very Long Time. "The Viewing" was the only ending that felt unfinished, it was so abrupt, but the style and aesthetic was so *chef kiss* I'll overlook it. (Side note: that episode's director also did Mandy, which I've been meaning to get to for awhile now? Hoo hoo, have I got some visuals to look forward to!) I knew as soon as I saw Jennifer Kent did an entry that hers was going to be my favorite, and that's not even coming from a biased place. "The Murmuring" is beautiful and heartbreaking. Easily my favorite aspect of the series is how you get a sense of each individual director's style BUT the entries themselves are so flavored with GDT, the whole thing stays cohesive. Now all I can do is hope for another season. :D

#watch a thon 2023 #the fall of the house of usher #cowboy bebop netflix #anne with an e #five nights at freddy's #guillermo del toro's cabinet of curiosities

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Not every day an actor you admire gets you to watch one of their movies...

Long post, you've been duly warned.

So if you've seen my more recent blogs, I've been obsessing (a bit, healthily, I assure you) over a certain adventure game series. And from there, I'm doing like I usually do when I want to know more about an actor I REALLY like. Finding other stuff they've done, checking out what social media they use here and there, non-profits they support and promote and what have you...

Enter Alexandra Boyd. Actor, writer, director...inspiration.

Podcasts? Check. Her own personal site? Check. Clips from past British shows she had minor AND major roles in? Check.

Finding out her latest film is a documentary about some of the "core extras," including herself, that were in 1997's 'Titanic?' And the trailer for it looks REALLY good?...didn't see that coming.

Truth: until, like, literally now, I NEVER SAW TITANIC.

I was probably the ONLY teenager in AMERICA that had no desire to go watch it, or had a crush on Leo DiCaprio for that matter.

But...granted, I remembered that other actors I've come to REALLY like over time since I was in high school, they were in the movie: Victor Garber, Bernard Hill, Ioan Gruffud, David Warner...you get the idea. I think I prefer Kate Winslet's performance in "Sense and Sensibility" to her Rose but, eh, I'm a little biased.

And, well there's good reasons why 'Titanic' got so many Academy Awards that year...but I'll be real: I was pretty damn excited when "Return of the King" got all of ITS Oscars for 2003.

Anyway.

Few days ago, I took a chance, hoping I didn't come off as too-much-of-an-awkward fangirl, and shot Alexandra a shoutout on Messenger, saying how amazing it was that she came back for her role as Elaine in Return to Monkey Island. And, kind of offhandedly, mentioned how cool the "Ship of Dreams" (her documentary that's releasing soon) looked, and...how I never saw Titanic but now was kind of inspired to after how many years.

She kindly responded to my message (yay!) and highly recommended to watch "Titanic" at the very least to obtain more of and appreciation for 'Ship of Dreams' when it comes out (I've no idea if it'll be in theaters where I live, but then again, I'm going to ask an acquaintance of mine, who just happens to be the director of a local historical theatre with a small modern cinema next to it, if they could possibly get hold of it. Small city living yo.)

Overall...I liked it. I definitely need to watch it again. Full on experience should be more than my library's letterboxed basic edition on my laptop.

Some scenes and lines...I was all "Oh yeah, right. Uh-huh." Dramatic license sort of getting in the way. Strongest dialogue...maybe not so much? Little cornball in places? Mm, well, putting on the romantic plot in an ultimate disaster movie...kind of lends itself to that sort of thing.

But didn't I LOVE to hate (well, strongly dislike) Billy Zane and David Warner's characters. Which of course is the idea. And I was internally cheering on Kate and Leo pretty much the whole way through. Kathy Bates was probably the best of all the first class passengers that got focused on.

Held my breath and tensed up and...closed my eyes for many of the stunt/action shots once the ship hit the iceberg. That music score realllly helped with that. Once it got to that certain high angle and you got more of the screaming...yeah, that broke me. Knew it was coming but still...hit me right in the feels. And didn't Victor look SO SAD when he realized the truth that his ship's design turned out to be SO flawed. Oh he plays that so well.

BUT I didn't get teary until good old (then unknown) Ioan "My Man Hornblower" Gruffud turned his lifeboat around and desperately called out if anyone in the water was still alive.

Yeah, I liked it. More than I thought I would. Surprised me quite a bit, which is usually a good thing. Need to find me more behind-the-scenes stuff. I'm intrigued, and that's always a good sign that I enjoyed a film.

So TL, DR: Alexandra Boyd basically got me to watch 'Titanic.' How cool is that? Thanks, Alexandra, and cheers!

#amateur time lord turns film critic #titanic 1997 #only took me forever #alexandra boyd #she's the coolest

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I’m sorry I just get nervous jaja

I'm from Argentina, so I'm also sorry to tell you that we're still alive in the World Cup, although by a very small difference, yesterday was an incredible game! I honestly didn't think we would get through, it has been an honor to compete against Wales!

I completely understand your point of view.

I mean football has always been very important for all of us here, it seems incredible but we breathe football, we are happy for football and we cry too; If it's football, 90% of the country wears it with its heart on its sleeve.

Although lately we have been doing very well in different sports nationwide, almost everything always ends up in something related to football.

To give you an example we can use the rugby world cup but if you don't mind, I'll also give you a little context.

Like every year the Copa Libertadores is played (it would be like a South American Champions League) and this year the fans of the Boca Juniors club (including me) did not stop looking for coincidences and situations that had happened the last time they won a Libertadores, we did something very similar with the 2022 World Cup ((believe me that there are still Twitter threads with all our conspiracy theories and "sacrifices" made by Argentines going around social media). If we win this Cup (we already reached the final as the first team to go through all the kill-kill matches on penalties in the history of the Cup) it would be our seventh CL so obviously we are all so obsessed that we see the number 7 everywhere ( there are also Twitter threads about this on the media).

Going back to the example, the last time the Pumas went to the semis was in 2007. And what happened that year? Boca won their last Libertadores. And now that the Pumas have returned to the semi-finals and we are all happy about it, we cannot help but not find the coincidence of the events and therefore fill ourselves with hope for winning “La Séptima” just for the simple fact that something that happened the last time we did it has happened again.

Sometimes I wonder if we are really so bad at a socioeconomic level that we put all our joys, hopes and sometimes sadness in a sport or if we are simply that passionate since we were born or if we are simply a country full of crazy people

I used to play tennis and paddle tennis, I still play as a hobby when I am very stressed and yes you are right, it is considered an elitist sport because to perform professionally you need a very high budget. Basically because it is an individual sport where all the expenses are your responsibility and you are not part of a team. Just like golf, you need special equipment to play it, from the racket to the balls. Generally, an instructor or coach is required to acquire correct technique and these classes are generally not cheap, then the courts are special, they are almost always inside a club, and that club charges a membership that is almost always inaccessible to most people.

Ps: I apologize for the endless text, I think I got carried away.

Ps2: I’m soo in love with your fics :)

you knocked us out!! 👀🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿

was a really close match in the first half - Argentina definitely deserved the win in the end tho, we threw it away ..quite literally!

New Zealand next for you ..a very tough draw! good luck 🥲🍀

I remember seeing drone footage of some of the celebrations in Argentina after the World Cup win!! HUGE turnout 🥹

I quite like the small patriotism that comes with sports - I never feel more Welsh than when watching rugby 🥲

I always find it fun when a nation really gets behind their team - whatever the sport

I think superstitions and coincidences always play a big part too - adds to the fun of it all, building up the excitement!

I feel like there was a whole thing with the number 2 in anticipation of Barcelona’s second Champions League win last season ? and that ended up happening ..so maybe there’s something in it ✨

but no, you’re so right! football and netball were always free after school clubs (in my experience) so almost everyone has played football, and most girls over here will have played netball at some point too I think

that’s very fun! I’m a huge fan of tennis, just never had much chance to play - I was very good at it on the Nintendo Wii tho 😂 it was never offered as anything in school, same with rugby, or even cricket so I think they always seemed a bit fancier

idk if it’s because they’re less popular, generally, or maybe it’s just more expensive for schools to run - the most exotic thing my secondary school offered once was rowing which I quite liked ..definitely felt a bit posh, and it ultimately involved having to join a club outside of school

please don’t apologise! I quite like getting long messages 🥰

and thank you for reading it! I’m glad you’ve enjoyed it so far 🥹❤️

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The Blind Date | Cillian x Reader | Mini-Series |

Summary: 'Hi, I love your writing so much! Can I request a one shot/imagine for Cillian x Reader, where they're set up on a blind date and I don't know just cute awkwardness happens? Thank you' Warnings: Age gap (Reader is in her 20's) Request: By Anon A/N: So I'm actually obsessed with this I'm thinking of making it a mini series? Like always no disrespect to Cillian's family, this is basically an AU where he's single.

•The Blind Date | Mini-Series•

The taxi pulled up outside of the restaurant, the late evening sun was still casting some warmth as you stepped out onto the pavement with a thanks to the driver, you spotted your friend by the entrance, stubbing out a cigarette under the sole of her heels, you brushed down the kinks in your summer dress as you crossed the road to meet her. You weren't thrilled about this evening, your friend had decided to set you up on a blind date with her husbands friend, a double blind date situation that you weren't entirely comfortable with but you could do with a nice meal and some wine so you'd dragged yourself home from work and got ready. Ella hugged you as you finally made it through the bustling city crowds "looking lovely y/n" she smiled a friendly kiss dropped to each other's cheeks "haven't had a date in a long time wasn't sure what to wear" you smiled slightly, the simple summer dress was paired with tan heels, gold jewellery and a tan clutch bag, hair swept off your shoulder in a simple clip. Ella led you through the restaurant, you spotted Paul sat towards the back, he raised his hand in a wave to you both, then your eyes fell to his friend, your date, he had the brightest blue eyes, a wide smile pulled on his obviously full lips, his brown hair was on the longer side but it suited him well, he was in a simple black button down sleeves rolled to his elbow. Both men stood as you reached the table, Paul bundled you into a hug as a welcome and then he gestured to his friend "y/n, this is Cillian" your eyes fell on him, taller than you, shirt tucked into a pair of black jeans he smiled again leaning in to give you a small hug and kiss on your cheek "Hi" you smiled taking your seat next to Ella, opposite Cillian. The wine was chilling in the ice bucket, conversation was flowing steadily when Ella appeared back at the table from the bathroom "Paul, we need to go, Jacobs babysitter isn't well she's just called" she was staring at her husband, you could feel his confusion at her little charade but he finally caught on, getting up apologising to you and Cillian and then they were gone. Cillian was the first to laugh topping up your wine "wouldn't believe Paul's an actor after that performance" he shook his head, you laughed lightly "honestly Ella has never been able to lie" you rolled your eyes, picking up your glass you took a sip of the chilled white wine "you don't have to stay" you added, Cillian frowned "I want too, unless you have somewhere else to be?" His gaze fell on you. You smiled relaxing into the soft seat "No, I'm enjoying myself" you blushed slightly looking down at the rim of your glass "I guess Ella didn't mention I was creeping up to forty" he cleared his throat you looked back up at him "she didn't, it doesn't matter unless the fact I'm only twenty four bothers you?" You questioned. Cillian shook his head opening up the menu for the first time "not at all, Paul told me before we organised it, I'm not a big believer in age meaning anything" he flicked his gaze up to you, giving you a small smile. *** Cillian had switched to a guinness but you'd stuck to the wine, knowing mixing your drinks wouldn't end well, you'd shared a pasta dish and breads, talking over everyday things, you were easily relaxed in his company, never an awkward silence between you. Cillian was interested in where you were in your career at a magazine and you'd felt a little silly to not realise he was pretty much a famous actor, he seemed pleased that you were so nonchalant about his profession, happily telling you about his tv roles, how much he loved theatre work and his up coming auditions. The evening was drawing in outside the sun setting below the London skyscrapers, Cillian slid his card back into his wallet after insisting he paid the bill even after you protested, he'd softly touched your hand pushing your purse back into your bag "it's on me" he stated handing over his card and that was settled. You were back out on the streets of the west end "do you have to get back?" He asked hands in his jeans pockets, you

shook your head "it's Friday night I don't need an early night" you smiled "want to walk?" He gestured to the expansive of London streets ahead of you "sure, I'd like that" you nodded he held out his arm, you linked your hand through resting it in the crook of his elbow as you fell into step beside him. ** You got out of the Uber deciding half way through your walk you both didn't fancy the idea of a forty-five minute walk back to your part of the City. Cillian opened the door for you, you'd discovered that you lived close by, Cillian in West Kilburn, you in North Kensington. You'd paid for the Uber much to Cillians disgust so he decided to get out at your stop, even though you argued that an extra 8 minute drive would hardly cost you the earth. Standing on your doorstep, Cillian had insisted on walking you the few feet to your door to make sure you were in safe before he left, you dropped your gaze to your shoes biting at your lip "did you want to come up? I have beers or coffee" you pulled your keys from your bag, He reached out tucking some hair behind your ear "how about I say goodnight now, and we arrange another date?" his hand was lingering by your ear "there's a play on at the Jermyn tomorrow night if you want to come?" he asked his hand had dropped to hold the tips of your fingers. You smiled at him "That would be nice, what time should I get there?" you asked as his thumb brushed over the back of your hand "I'll pick you up around six, we can get a quick dinner before?" he suggested, you nodded "Perfect, I had such a nice time tonight" he smiled at you, the gesture reaching up to his eyes as they flicked across your face "Me too, thank you" He lent in, brushing his lips lightly against yours, hand resting on your hip, your hand on his forearm to steady yourself as he pulled away "See you tomorrow" he squeezed your hip before turning to head back down the path, you stood on the step watching him go, a dopey smile on your face as the butterflies erupted in your stomach.

#cillianmurphy #cillian murphy #cillian x reader #cm #cillianstory #Cillian one shot #my writing #Peaky blinders #Tommy Shelby #one shot #fluff #au #the blind date #mini series

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robertinator12345 · 3 years

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Ten Bangin Anime Songs

Not ranked or anything cuz I'm too lazy, just some of my favorites that I enjoy

Gurenge by Lisa. Demon Slayer: Kimetsu no yaiba opening

This song goes hard and you'll never want to skip it when watching this show. Great vocals, guitar buildup and a memorable chorus. Also demon slayer is an awesome show with another season coming soon!

Discotheque by Nana Mizuki. Rosario+Vampire capu 2 opening

Churu churu churu payapa! All the Rosario songs (2 openings and 2 endings) smack and it's been years since I've watched or read this show but I still have them all saved and listen to them somewhat regularly and remember most of the lyrics and can sing along, cuz this was one of the first shows I got obsessed with. That aside, this one is my favorite of the four cuz as the title implies it's a disco song with groovy beats that is impossible not to dance to while listening, plus the actual animation is cool, that gif is from the opening itself.

Himitsu wo Choudai by Ars Manga. Jitsu wa Watashi wa (Actually I am / My Monster Secret) opening.

Nee nee futanri no! Nee nee himitsu ne! This song grabs you right from the start with that catchy opening line and keeps you in with great drums, cool trumpet and some funky beats. I feel like it fits this show perfectly, and the show is great with lots of funny moments and it's another one that I read the mamga all the way through after watching.

Foul Play ni Kurari by Kanon Wakeshima. To Love-Ru Darkness ending.

Oh boy, this show. My most recent obsession. It has 4 seasons with darkness being the third. All the other openings and endings are amazing but after thinking about it, this one's probably my favorite because of the beautiful orchestral theme and how especially if you listen to the full version it lulls down and swells back up. It's weird how sometimes the lewder shows can have beautiful/cute music, i looked up the translated lyrics and it's all about being in love and wanting to be with that person and have them look their way. I haven't confirmed this but I'm assuming/deciding this is Momo's theme. Definitely worth watching and/or reading the manga also.

H.T. by Tsuneo Imahori. Trigun opening

I made a post specifically about this opening when I was watching the show because of how good it is. No words, just hard rock for 2 minutes. Shredding on guitar and excellent drum rolls. I feel like it works perfectly for the show, which if any of you out there are looking for a new show to watch and haven't seen this, watch it.

Easy Love by Sumire Uesaka. Don't Toy With Me, Miss Nagatoro opening.

Right from the opening riff it kicks off and you can tell you're gonna enjoy it. It keeps a relatively fast paced tempo throughout and after the first time listening you'll be chatting "easy!" along with the song whenever that part comes up again. Very enjoyable and I feel it fits the show well, and we need more animated.

Aozora No Rhapsody (Blue sky rhapsody) by Fhana. Miss Kobayashi's Dragon Maid opening.

Chu Chu yeah! I like this song a lot and once you hear it, it'll get stuck in your head and make you want to listen to it again, but it's worth it. It's just so happy and catchy, plus the actual animation to it is really cool. Honorable mention to Love Supreme by Fhana which is the opening to Dragon Maid S (season 2). That one's also good I just prefer the first one.

Unravel by TK. Tokyo Ghoul opening.

This song is great, not just from all the memes of the chorus part "yurete yuganda sekai ni dandan boku wa" but just how all the drums, piano and guitar come together, along with the beautiful animation (which this gif is from) and the performers amazing singing, it helps you see Kaneki's struggle and gets you hyped for another episode (which I still need to finish the show, but since I work tonight I'll probably hop back in)

Colors by Flow. Code Geass opening.

This song is very catchy and funky with that trumpet blowing throughout and the upbeat tempo. It can get stuck in your head very easily but that's part of what makes it good.

Ride On Shooting Star by The Pillows. Fooly Cooly (FLCL) ending.

Man, this show was an adventure, especially since I watched most of it on night shift. There's 3 seasons and they follow the wacky adventures of Haruko Haruhara with her trademark Vespa and guitar. All the music in this show is so good I have them all saved on spotify, but I really like this one its just a solid bop and the animation is cool cuz you get to see the scooter move around in real life. Honorable mention to Thank You My Twilight cuz that song also smacks and brings me joy

#anime #music #demon slayer #rosario vampire #jitsu wa watashi wa #code geass #ijiranaide nagatoro san #miss kobayashi's dragon maid #flcl #flcl anime #fooly cooly #tokyo ghoul #trigun #to love ru

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lyjikyu · 3 years

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魔法をかけて、あ・げ・る♡ ★ 준규

"trans: I'll Cast a Spell On You"

for years, junkyu has had feelings for you. and you might be thinking how come was he this dedicated to someone like you? why was he doing such foolish actions just for you? and why could he not let you go? well you had a heart of gold, and your nurturing nature was almost fatal for his poor heart. but, somehow, it felt like someone had casted a spell on him every time he was with you.

seeing you run to his arms after a long time of not seeing each other, makes him want to pick you up, twirl you around and kiss you on the lips. or when you grab his shaking hands as he feels himself getting anxious over something, it makes him want to melt and just faint right there, on the spot.

but even so, his main reason didn't have anything to do with your kindness and tender heart. it was, interestingly, seeing you enjoy doing the one thing you love. the glow in your eyes represents how much you enjoyed every single bit of what you were doing. watching your tired and exhausted face turn into a bright one as the baton lands in your hand perfectly for the first time, has him on his knees. it was a beautiful sight, something that he wants to repeat everyday. it was almost euphoric to him in some way.

ethereal, was the only word he can describe when he sees you perform on the stage. since he would be so attentive and focused on your performance, he would notice the little things you do, like when you would wink every time you make eye-contact with him. and when you would quietly count before doing your next move. sometimes the people he brings along with him, think that maybe he was a little to obsessed with you. which he denies instantly because he would never cross a line and feel that way.

“hey junkyu!” you– breathlessly call out your best friend's name as he turns around holding his camera. and without a word he reaches for your water bottle– that you left with him earlier and hands you it. “thanks, I was just going to say that. but you magically knew already! you're like my soulmate.” there you are again, mindlesslly playing with his heart. “makes sense, since I'm the only one who can handle your ass.” maybe playing along with you for once in a while isn't a bad idea. you glare at junkyu before letting out a giggle and closing the lid of your water bottle.

“alright mister, did you atleast get a good footage of our performance?” you ask– moving to his side watching him slide through all the different pictures and videos before reaching the one he just took earlier and opening it. not even a couple of minutes in to watching the video, you had already snatched the camera from his hands as the strap still rests on his neck.

“woah, you did a good job on that kyu! I'm tellin' ya you got some steady hands.” you compliment the tall male beside you as he scratches the back of his head feeling shy and awkward. letting go of his camera– making him stumble a little bit because of its heaviness you take his hand and lead him to where you could see a perfect view of the city down the hill.

since the competition was hosted on an outdoor stage ontop of a hill, the view from up here and down to the city– where you could see different lights beaming from many buildings due to it being night was really crazy. and junkyu's eyes proves all that. you stare at his face observing his reaction. his mouth was slightly agape, his eyes were shining as he continues to stare at the view from right to left, and his hands steadily holding his camera– that was ready to capture this beautiful scene laid out infront of the two of you.

“it seems like you're liking this a little too much kyu. look at you speechless.” you joke as you poke his cheeks making him go back to reality. he shakes his head and apologizes for spacing out but you insist and instead started encouraging him to take pictures of it. which he obeyed immediately.

“junkyu, you know I would love to spend more times like these with you. where we would just enjoy the little things, take this pretty view of the city as an example. I'm so happy I get to see this with you. don't you aswell?” he didn't really know whether he should voice his answer or just simply nod. but maybe since you were being sentimental right now, it would be a good choice to voice it out.

“I do. I very much do. In fact everytime, day, and night I spend with you, it makes me happy. y/n you make me happy, and I hope I do to you aswell.” smiling as he finishes his sentence he finds himself staring at you after. you look at him copying the same smile he has as the two of you now stare at each other's eyes. “you do junkyu, you make me the happiest person ever in the world! thank you for everything.” you say– taking his arm and hugging it.

junkyu's smile widens as he averts his look back to the view of the city. you were indeed the person that casted a spell on him, but! he wasn't about to complain.

honestly, I hope this wasn't too cheesy. I was actually proud of this one when I wrote it and I thought it was written well (;;;・∆・)

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flufffysocks · 3 years

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let's talk about andi mack's worldbuilding

sorry this took forever to make! i've been pretty busy with school stuff and i kind of lost my inspiration for a bit, but i ultimately really enjoyed writing it! i wish i could've included more pics (tumblr has a max of 10 per post), and it kinda turned from less of a mini analysis to more of an extremely long rant... but i hope it's still a fun read!

i've been rewatching the show over the past few weeks (thanks again to @disneymack for the link!), and i’ve been noticing a lot that i never did the first time around. this is really the first time i’ve watched the show from start to finish since it aired, and it honestly feels so different this time - probably a combination of the fact that i’m not as focused on plot and can appreciate the show as a whole, and also that the fandom is much, much smaller now, so there’s a lot less noise. so the way i’m consuming this show feels super different than it did the first time, but the show itself doesn’t - it’s just as warm and comforting to me as it was the first time around, if not more so.

i think a lot of that can be attributed to andi mack’s “worldbuilding”. i’m not quite sure that this is the right word in this context, to be honest, because i mostly see it used in reference to fantasy and sci-fi universes, but it just sort of feels right to me for andi mack, because you can really tell how much love and care went into constructing this universe. for clarity, worldbuilding is “the process of creating an imaginary world” in its simplest sense. there’s two main types: hard worldbuilding, which involves inventing entire universes, languages, people, cultures, places, foods, etc. from scratch (think “lord of the rings” or “dune”), and soft worldbuilding, in which the creators don’t explicitly state or explain much about the fictional universe, but rather let it’s nature reveal itself as the story progresses (think studio ghibli films). andi mack to me falls in the soft worldbuilding category. even though it takes place in a realistic fiction universe, there’s a lot of aspects to it that are inexplicably novel in really subtle ways.

so watching the show now, i’ve noticed that the worldbuilding comes primarily from two things - setting and props, and oftentimes the both of them in tandem (because a big part of setting in filmmaking does depend on the props placed in it!).

one of the most obvious examples is the spoon. it really is a sort of quintessential, tropic setting in that it's the main gang's "spot", which automatically gives it a warm and homey feel to it. and its set design only amplifies this:

the choice to make it a very traditional 50s-style diner creates a very nostalgic, retro feel to it, which is something that's really consistent throughout the show, as you'll see. from the round stools at the bar, to the booths, to the staff uniforms, this is very obvious. the thing that i found especially interesting about it though is the choice of color. the typical 50s diner is outfitted with metallic surfaces and red accented furnishings, but the spoon is very distinctly not this.

instead, it's dressed in vibrant teal and orange, giving it a very fresh and modern take on a classic look. so it still maintains that feeling of being funky and retro, but that doesn't retract from the fact that the show is set distinctly in modern times.

of course, this could just be a one-off quirky set piece, but this idea of modernizing and novelizing "retro" things is a really common motif throughout the show. take red rooster records. i mean, it's a record shop - need i say more? it's obviously a very prominent store in shadyside, at least for the main characters, but there's no apparent reason why it is (until season 2 when bowie starts working there, and jonah starts performing there). a lot of the time, though, it functions solely as a record shop. vinyl obviously isn't the most practical or convenient way of listening to music, but it's had its resurgence in pop culture even in the real world, mostly due to its aesthetic value, so it's safe to say that it serves the same purpose in the andi mack universe.

the fringe seems to be nostalgic of a different era, specifically the Y2K/early 2000s period (because it's meant to be bex's territory and symbolic of who she used to be, and its later transformation into cloud 10 is representative of her character arc, but that's beside the point). to be honest, exactly what this store was supposed to be always confused me. it was kind of a combination party store/clothing store/makeup store/beauty parlor? i think that's sort of the point of it though, it's supposed to feel very grunge-y and chaotic (within the confines of a relatively mellow-toned show, of course), and it's supposed to act as a sort of treasure chest of little curios that both make the place interesting and allow the characters to interact with it.

and, of course, there's andi shack. this is really the cherry on top of all of andi mack's sets, just because it's so distinctly andi. it serves such amazing narrative purpose for her (ex. the storyline where cece and ham were going to move - i really loved this because it highlights its place in the andi mack universe so well, and i'm a sucker for the paper cranes shot + i'm still salty that sadie's cranes didn't make it into the finale) and it's the perfect reflection of andi's character development because of how dynamic it is (the crafts and art supplies can get moved around or switched out, and there's always new creations visible).

going back to the nostalgia motif though, the "shack" aspect of it always struck me as very treehouse-like. personally, whenever i think of treehouses, there's this very golden sheen of childhood about it, if that makes sense. i've always seen treehouses in media as a sort of shelter for characters' youthful innocence and idealistic memories. for example, the episode "up a tree" from good luck charlie, the episode "treehouse" from modern family, and "to all the boys 2" all use a treehouse setting as a device to explore the character's desire to hold onto their perfect image of their childhood (side note: this exact theme is actually explored in andi mack in the episode "perfect day 2.0"!). andi shack is no exception to this, but it harnesses this childhood idealism in the same way that it captures the nostalgia of the 50s in the spoon, or the early 2000s in the fringe. it's not some image of a distant past being reflected through that setting; it's very present, and very alive, because it reflects andi as she is in the given moment.

some honorable mentions of more one-off settings include the ferris wheel (from "the snorpion"), the alley art gallery (from "a walker to remember"), SAVA, the color factory (from "it's a dilemna"), and my personal favorite, the cake shop (from "that syncing feeling").

[every time i watch this episode i want to eat those cakes so bad]

these settings have less of a distinctly nostalgic feel (especially the color factory, which is a very late 2010s, instagram era setting), but they all definitely have an aura of perfection about them. andi mack is all about bright, colorful visuals, and these settings really play to that, making the andi mack universe seem really fun and inviting, and frankly very instagrammable (literally so, when it comes to the color factory!).

props, on the other hand, are probably a much less obvious tool of worldbuilding. they definitely take up less space in the frame and are generally not as noticeable (i'm sure i'll have missed a bunch that will be great examples, but i'm kind of coming up with all of this off the top of my head), but they really tie everything together.

for example, bex's box, bex's polaroid, and the old tv at the mack apartment (the tv is usually only visible in the periphery of some shots, so you might not catch it at first glance) all complement that very retro aesthetic established through the settings (especially the polaroid and the tv, because there's really no good reason that the characters would otherwise be using these).

besides this, andi's artistic nature provides the perfect excuse for plenty of colorful, crafty props to amplify the visuals and the tone. obviously, as i discussed before, andi shack is the best example of this because it's filled with interesting props. but you also see bits of andi's (and other people's) crafts popping up throughout the show (ex. the tape on the fridge in the mack apartment, andi's and libby's headbands in "the new girls", walker's shoes, andi's phone case, and of course, the bracelet). not only does doing this really solidify this talent as an essential tenet of andi's character, but it also just makes the entirety of shadyside feel like an extension of andi shack. the whole town is a canvas for her crafts (or art, depending on how you want to look at it. i say it's both), and it immensely adds to shadyside's idealism. because who wouldn't want to live in a world made of andi mack's creations?

and, while it's not exactly a prop, the characters' wardrobe is undoubtedly a major influence on the show's worldbuilding. true to it's nature as a disney channel show, all of the characters are always dressed in exceptionally curated outfits of whatever the current trends are, making the show that much more visually appealing. i won't elaborate too much on this, because i could honestly write a whole other analysis on andi mack's fashion (my favorites are andi's and bex's outfits! and kudos to the costume designer(s) for creating such wonderful and in-character wardrobes!). but, i think it's a really really important aspect of how the show's universe is perceived, so it had to be touched upon.

[^ some of my favorite outfits from the show! i am so obsessed with andi's jacket in the finale, and i aspire to be at bex's level of being a leather jacket bisexual]

and lastly, phones. this is a bit of an interesting case (pun intended), because the way they're used fluctuates a bit throughout the show, but i definitely noticed that at least in the first season terri minsky tried to avoid using them altogether. these efforts at distancing from modern tech really grounds the show in it's idealist, nostalgia-heavy roots, so even when the characters start using their phones more later in the show, they don't alter the viewer's impression of the andi mack universe very much.

so, what does all of this have to do with worldbuilding? in andi mack's case, because it's set in a realistic universe and not a fantasy one, a lot of what sets it apart from the real world comes down to tone. because, as much as this world is based on our own, it really does feel separate from it, like an alternate reality that's just slightly more perfect than ours, which makes all the difference. it's the idealism in color and composition in andi mack's settings that makes it so unmistakably andi mack. even the weather is always sunny and perfect (which is incredibly ironic because the town is called shadyside - yes, i am very proud of that observation).

the andi mack universe resides somewhere in this perfect medium that makes it feel like a small town in the middle of nowhere (almost like hill valley in 1955 from "back to the future"), but at the same time like an enclave within a big city (because of its proximity to so many modern, unique, and honestly very classy looking establishments). it is, essentially, an unattainable dream land that tricks you into believing it is attainable because it's just real enough.

all this to say, andi mack does an amazing job of creating of polished, perfect world for its characters. this is pretty common among disney channel and nickelodeon shows, but because most other shows tend to be filmed in a studio with three-wall sets, andi mack is really set apart from them in that it automatically feels more real and tangible. it has its quintessential recurring locations, but it has far more of them (most disney/nick shows usually only have 3-4 recurring settings), and it has a lot more one-off locations. it's also a lot more considerate when it comes to its props, so rather than the show just looking garish and aggressively trendy, it has a distinctive style that's actually appropriate to the characters and the story. overall this creates the effect of expanding the universe, making shadyside feel like it really is a part of a wider world, rather than an artificial bubble. it's idealism is, first and foremost, grounded in reality, and that provides a basis for its brilliant, creative, and relatable storytelling.

tl;dr: andi mack's sets and props give it a very retro and nostalgic tone which makes its whole universe seem super perfect and i want to live there so bad!!

#andi mack #buffy driscoll #cyrus goodman #jonah beck #tj kippen #tyrus #ambi #bex mack #analysis #film analysis #disney channel

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