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ftm-megamind · 6 months

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me and my boyfriend are sooo javid (he invited me over for a family dinner)

#jokes aside i am so fucking NERVOUS ABOUT THAT LIKE ???#it's not like i don't know his parents/family. i do. i saw them plenty. still. oh my god #it's his father's birthday dinner too #i think im going to die actually #which is irrational because like #he went to a family party with me and it wasn't a big deal. i mean i was delighted that he was there. but nobody made it a big deal #so i'll probably be fine #still. you get why im nervous about this #while i adore him more than life itself we're still at a point where like. im not fully comfortable around his parents #because like. obviously. i have no idea if they even like me #i mean they probably asked him to invite me so they must like me at least a little #still......#fuck. why am i even going off about this in my tumblr tags. whatever man #delete later #vent but like don't take this too seriously!!! just going bonkers #also can you tell i love talking about him

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cyazurai · 2 years

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I got a job that I literally just applied to last night.

I mean, it's not a huge job, it's just as a substitute para-educator at the local school district, but it'll be a little bit of extra income! Any income is good!

Either way, I'm pretty excited to finally be making money again.

#nonsims #also nervous #because the last time i worked with kids was in 2017 #but i'm a hard worker and quick learner #so i'll probably be fine #yes i am telling myself this #maybe if i say it enough i'll eventually believe it

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toxicwrench · 10 months

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hbd clown boy sorry for being almost a week late or whatever

#kokichi ouma #danganronpa #danganronpa v3 #ndrv3 #i don't remember my art tag hold on #it's been literal years #wrench draws #that'll probably change and maybe perhaps i'll make a secondary art blog #anyways i'm sick of looking at this i haven't cell shaded in a long time and it shows but that's fine #my son is trash and also tubby custard but he's still my son #also inflicting you all with my headcanons bc do i really like a character if im not casting a transgenderification beam at them?#last thing before i shut up but i'm grinding my teeth together bc my new laptops colors are weird so i had to keep checking this on my phon #the tragedy and woes of it all... this looks so much moodier on my screen

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pharawee · 3 months

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"I can betray anyone, but I can't betray Daddy."

#pit babe #pit babe the series #garfield pantach #ping obrnithi #petekenta #pitbabeedit #thai bl #thai drama #bl drama #bl series #my edits.#i kept “daddy” because it's so unsettling #there's two perfectly fine main couples #but no i'm over here crying about a side character who's borderline irredeemable #and if anyone ever writes petekentaway i'll probably implode from feelings

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mummer · 4 months

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would you mind sharing some of your twow predictions/hopes? i'm trying to cope with a lack of twow 🤒

oh man where would i even begin. im gonna do straight up hard predictions and not allow myself to be very self indulgent here is what i think will happen unironically

melisandre does not intentionally resurrect jon bc that makes no sense for her character. i dont think she'll be the one to do it at all but if she does it will be an accident and also a brain shattering experience for her

jon is considered king beyond the wall (not king in the north.... yet) but you already knew that

jon spends more time beyond the wall actually. i am keeping this concept vague

night lamp is definitely real and stannis takes winterfell at some point but he wont survive the book

sam's oldtown chapters become unexpected fandom sleeper faves like theon's in dance

the rosby heir is olyvar frey

dany does not come to westeros before her final chapter and never even encounters jon. slave revolt in volantis yayyyyyy!!!!!

there is still no R+L=J reveal

loras ends up fine but drastically scarred

elia sand and aegon have a forbidden romance

pyp and grenn die offpage (i predict this so that i can be pleasantly surprised when they show up)

danny flint is revealed to be coldhands shut up actually

gerris drinkwater is surprisingly important to the plot

brienne and jaime both survive the encounter with LSH and survive the whole book i saw this in my mind

barristan either dies really early on or he eventually defects to join aegon because he thinks he's the more rightful heir. the ol treason for blood

the faceless men turn out to just be another branch of the iron bank who are doing assassinations for money more than obscure religious/political reasons. this blackpills arya enough for her to return home

sansa encounters jeyne again and this is what provokes her to move against littlefinger

theon...... joins the night's watch..... question mark

there's a gay sex scene but no one likes it

#asoiaf #other than that i am extremely open to whatever happens <3 it's all fine to me #i know im not going to be able to predict anything in a significant way so i'll take my little inferences and i dont mind being wrong #wait shjdfhjhdf the way i said i wasnt gonna be self indulgent and then was also like: AND GERRIS IS A SPECIAL GIRL--#idc about kitn jon like i believe hes named in robbs will and those two guys from riverrun are gonna tell him about it #but hes got bigger zombies to fry to be honest. like it’ll probably happen but i wont be cheering

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strangersatellites · 11 months

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very excited to announce this!!!!

envy, wrath, sloth, gluttony, greed, lust, ao3

this is part one of what will be the

Seven Deadly Sins Series (NSFW 18+)

pride (noun) - inordinate esteem for one’s own excellence. It is a habit or vice that disposes us to think more of ourselves than we ought.

The Hair.

King Steve.

Pretty Boy.

Steve is no stranger to objectification. He’s well acquainted with the way girls blush and giggle when he smiles their way in the halls. The way guys seem to puff out their chests when they speak to him.

In fact, his physical appearance has become so much a part of who he is at this point that he’s probably single-handedly keeping Farrah Fawcett spray on shelves across the nation.

But the thing about being naturally attractive, Steve learned the hard way, is that humility is what really gets under people’s skin.

Blushes go pinker when his response to a giggly “You look handsome today, Steve,” is looking at his shoes with a quiet, “What, this? Thank you.”

Other boys look less ready to throw a punch or an insult his way when they sprinkle their gametime trash-talk with “Pretty Boy” and “King Steve” if he just laughs and keeps playing.

Humility is what really does it.

For most people.

In the past few months he’s been dating Eddie Munson though, he’s realized there’s one exception.

It's not that Steve doesn’t think he’s attractive. It’s not that at all. He knows he’s good looking, spends an inordinate amount of time making sure he highlights it daily. Loves it about himself actually.

He doesn’t usually let people know that he knows, is the thing.

But Eddie loves when he’s vain.

Loves the way he primps in the mirror before they go out.

How he spins around to make sure his best assets are on display.

Steve’s honestly lost count of the number of times he’s been talking to himself in the bathroom, staring at his reflection saying “Damn, I look good in this outfit,” before arms are snaking around his waist and squeezing at his hips. A gravelly, “Fuck yeah you do,” in his ear.

That’s why, with a Herculean effort, Steve pulls himself away from Eddie’s lips where he’s in his lap on his couch.

They’re both breathing heavy, lips swollen, and eyes glassy. But Steve has an idea.

He rubs his thumbs over Eddie’s cheeks and breathes a laugh when he turns to nip at one of them. Can’t help but to lean in and kiss him again.

“Can we try something, baby?” He whispers into the barely there space between them.

Feels Eddie nod and hands grip at his thighs.

“Anything you want, Stevie.”

He trails a hand back to tangle in Eddie’s curls and shifts to bite at his ear and whisper, “Want you to fuck me in front of the mirror. Wanna watch.”

When Eddie pulls back from him it’s with a wicked smirk and eyes darker than Steve’s ever seen. He bucks Steve up and off and smacks him on the ass when he turns to leave.

“Yeah baby. Let's go watch how pretty you are.”

He knows his smile is blinding when he laughs back over his shoulder.

*****

Steve always thinks he’s hot, but he thinks he’s prettiest when he’s kneeling and sitting back on his boyfriend’s dick with tear streaks down his cheeks and drool down his chest.

He’s so spacey, and so stuffed full that he’d agree with almost anything Eddie said.

Currently it's a litany of, “Look at you baby, you’re so hot,” and “My sweet baby. Prettiest angel,” and “Look how pretty you are, huh,” with every punch of his hips and bite to the side of his neck.

Between Steve’s punched out breaths and whines he’s nodding. “Mhm. ‘M the prettiest. So pretty when I cry.”

His agreements have Eddie groaning and wrapping the hand not digging into his hip around the front of his neck and dragging him backward into a bruising kiss.

He’s smiling and Steve can feel him laugh when he whimpers against his mouth. “Tell me about it baby. Tell me what’s pretty.”

Gasps from deep in his chest when Eddie wraps his hand around his cock and tugs.

“Tell me.”

Steve whines once and squirms under the attention. Loves it.

“My eyes,” he gasps. Eddie hums from behind him and slows his hips to a deep grind. “My eyes look really green when I’m crying. I like them.”

A soft kiss dropped to his shoulder and two sets of eyes on him in the mirror.

“My hair. Like it when– when it's messy,” a hiccup and eyes squeezed shut when Eddie shifts inside him just right. “Like when it’s messy from your hands.”

He slides his own hands up his thighs and squeezes at the hand Eddie still has against his hip.

He meets his own gaze in the mirror and his face breaks into a smile as his chest heaves.

“Like my lips when they’re swollen. People can tell I just kissed you. Want ‘em to know.”

In a second Eddie’s got a palm flat against his back and has his shoulders shoved down into the carpet, his head twisted to see himself.

He knows he’s falling fast because he giggles when Eddie grips at his hips and pulls him back onto his dick. Giggles even more when Eddie looks up at him in the mirror and smirks when he pushes in deep.

“Pretty when I’m ass up for you,” he smiles and his eyes finally stray away from his own reflection to meet his boyfriends gaze, fucked out and cocky.

Eddie lands a sharp smack to his ass and squeezes. “Hell yeah you are baby. So pretty when you’re on my dick.”

One of his hands slides up Steve’s spine and presses down on the back of his neck and pulls a gasp from his lungs.

“But you know what baby?”

Steve hums with his eyes locked on the way his ass bounces with each meeting of Eddie’s hips.

The hand snakes back around to tug at his cock again and he knows it won’t take much more when Eddie grits out “Prettiest when you come for me.”

His legs shake and he lets out a high whine as he spurts into Eddie’s hand.

“That’s it angel. God you feel so good, Stevie,” is all Eddie can get out before Steve feels his hips stutter and his breath leave him in low groan.

Steve knows he’s attractive is the thing.

Knows he’s pretty and loves it.

People tell him all the time.

But one of his favorite things to hear is when he’s coming down from his orgasm high, his boyfriend lists the things he finds prettiest.

“Your smile.”

“Your laugh.”

“Your heart.”

“The way you love people.”

“The way you love me.”

“The prettiest is the way you love yourself.”

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sleepsucks · 5 months

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#22.12.22 #3208 #books r still a great gift i just felt silly about it bc i 1/ got that for all gifts 2/ it was 100% last minute i hadnt managed it earlier #also i didnt actually read them after they were gifted though so eh #& hiiii hihi im back i got a new psu delivered fast and now pc works again so that was actually the issue hurray no sweat #postin this one manually and then i'll go fill the queue some more #the impending threat on it now though is i havent managed to keep up with coloring lately and i'm running out fast #but i'll get back to it its fine (probably)

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pepa-is-drawing · 14 days

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🤙call me maybe✨

#fanart #isat #in stars and time #isat loop #i dont have the webglaze acc yet but wanted to post something 😗#idk if i will have it actually #its not particularly hard to make but... im jsut too lazy so i'll just probably keep posting without using glaze :|#turned off the 3rd party sharing thing so it shuld be fine... i will just hope ppl who reblog have it as well :P #ok no more account stuff talk more loop talk #hes so silly #watching the jello vods #put those dogs away!!

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starflungwaddledee · 7 months

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kirbytober 2023 02 + 04: starlight + pink

was originally waiting until 06, but noticed these two prompts and realised they work pretty perfectly for my pink starlight themed waddle dee-- and it's waddle dee wednesday!-- so here's a quick one for today!

#kirbytober #kirbtober #waddle dee wednesday #my art #starstruck dee #waddle dee sona #i am jumping around prompt lists where it works best! this one was a surprise bonus i didn't have planned!#i expect because you can't see her lil dee face folks will assume she is kirby in a bow and that's fine too!#probably i ought have drawn him rather than been so indulgent on day two of a prompt challenge but anyway :')#i'll be back tomorrow with royalty!

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capn-twitchery · 3 months

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finished twitch's feast of the exceptional rose fit except i couldn't decide so they get two >:3c i never want to draw another rose again

now with varying levels of scandal,,,each dance comes with free disdainful glares from polite society! and maybe a free exile to the tomb colonies

veil-less versions under the cut, bc why not

(absolutely nobody at the party would see their face like this bc they wouldn't dare let anyone see their Semi Bare Face but it's fine)

#scandalous stocking last minute surprise addition #this took so LOOONG!!!#no bandages bc it looked better but it's fine i haven't decided if they're even a fr tomb colonist yet #i may be too late to join in the community art stuff but i'll probably draw some stuff anyway :D #i do like the turnout tho and 90% of this was struggling to make a good base so i can use it for outfits/ref sheet in the future #so the effort will save me in the future hehehe #anyway #fred draws #twitchery

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buttercupshands · 18 days

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just some LoV sitting in the long lost bar in Ultra Impact in clothes that they didn't wear yet

#not art #bnha #ultra impact #shigaraki tomura #dabi #toga himiko #mr compress #twice #there's not enough space to put Kurogiri in there :(#I can do it but I'll have to make a sacrifice #just watching them talk is relaxing #like... they're all fine and I can literally fill the table with sushi #league of villains #got UR compress really recently #and it was raining Muscular and the other Compress before that #I have nothing against LoV rain but it was unexpected #I still wait for a day the final SR Dabi drops on the acc #for me to have a Dabi team just for fun #I think I have enough Dabi-themed memories for that #if not LoV centered once will come in hand too #I love the fact that LoV gets as much as 1-A and Pro Heroes #like accesories or ur and sr types of the characters #got second copy on Toga off the Valentines recruit #love her to bits so it was so sweet #still no other UR Tomura tho #and I keep trying every banner he gets a chance to rerun #I love the coat one but the variety of UR Tomura's is just...#I did get this one at all at least would've probably just gotten mad with the game otherwise #but I'm chill with this since I do have them #AND they have fillers

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youchangedmedestiel · 1 month

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Something that would fix me: see on my screen Cas or Dean hug the other from behind in the bunker's kitchen, arms wrapped around the waist and head resting on the shoulder. You get it. You get the visual.

#destiel #deancas #dean winchester #castiel #spn revival #spn season 16 #this would cure me #I don't even care which one is being hugged by the other #of course you might think that this would mean that cas's confession is dealt with #but not necessarily #I'll be also fine with a time gap and just this scene #it would be so soft #that I'd probably end up melted on my floor #I'd be a puddle and I'm fine with that #let me be a puddle #what would you like to see?#my random thoughts about destiel

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iraprince · 2 months

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Hiii, i love your stuff and kinda from a distance really look up at you for, in my perception, being able to express yourself without giving a fuck. Thats sick dude, Im so so afraid, of absolutely everything, its nice to think like i might grow into someone less apologetic of my existence. Nice to see people just being yknow

hey, thank you, this is really really nice. the secret that is probably not a secret is that i am also deeply afraid a lot of the time lmao -- but less than i used to be, and in ways that feel less stifling and self-suffocating, if that makes sense.

like, it used to be "i'm scared that if i express myself the way i want to, everyone will find me obnoxious, so let's just sand those edges down to be safe" -- now my fears are more like "now that i'm expressing myself in a way that feels natural and real, i'm afraid that it's all stupid/vapid/not worthwhile or meaningful" (<- specifically abt my art) or "i'm happy that i talk and act the way i want to now, but what if it makes me impossible to befriend," etc etc etc. which still feels bad and puts me in a funk a lot of the time but at least it's a fear that comes After/in reaction to doing stuff, rather than a fear that STOPS me from doing stuff, you know? like, it's evolved into a kind of fear that's less in my way.

anyway. i believe you'll experience something like this, because wanting to grow is the first step of growing. the fact that u hope or wish for something different means you're already on your way. to fewer fucks!! or at least distributing the fucks u give in a way that serves u better

#stuff like accepting that i'm reserved and i'm not very accessible via messages.#or that my online tone isn't very bubbly and it's weird and uncomfortable to force it.#i stop letting fears about that shape my behavior ('i'll look mean or snotty so let's force markers of Friendliness to avoid that!!') -#- and instead act the way i want to and then trade it in for new fears that come After the action.#also a good reminder to give urself is that if ur fear is abt how other ppl perceive u (as 90% of mine is personally)#u really... can't actually control that. and being very very anxious abt it all the time is usually ur brain throwing a tantrum abt not--#--having that control. bc it is understandably very scary that u don't have that control #as much as it sucks + is terrifying the truth is the only thing u can do is ask urself 'am i behaving in a way that i'm proud of'#'am i behaving in a way that's in alignment w my values + what i think is important'#bc if the answer to that is yes and somebody hates u or is deeply offended by ur existence anyway. well. literally not ur problem #but obv being at peace w that is way way easier said than done + requires tons of practice and will take. probably. years. which is fine #i am stuck with myself. i can either contort myself forever trying to be someone everyone will like and find totally nonthreatening and-#inoffensive and in the process exhaust myself totally and never feel safe or natural myself. OR #i can say okay. so i am a kind of prickly guy with stern and drab speech patterns and close to no social energy. and i think i can still be #-sexy and fun this way. and it is up to other ppl to figure out if they can agree w me on that #ANYWAY enough rambling for now. just another one of those things i think abt a lot so i have a lot of ready-made sentences abt it in mind

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pu-ri-el · 11 months

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A lesson in practicality draft designs!

(Planning to post individual one's in the future~)

Some inspiration from @robinsdraw own designs, but I tried basing it off this post on @residentanchor :DD

Bonus logicality kiss:

#GUYS HELP THE BRAIN ROT IS SO SEVERE OMF #A silent thank you to celery I used their writing style to help me on an English narrative assignment-#Probable Theorem #A lesson in practicality #Alip!#Pt!#Sander Sides #Logicality #sander sides fanart #This was a “I need fuel for my brain rot” can't find anything? “Fine I'll do it myself" kinda thing

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mamawasatesttube · 2 months

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man. you know, i clean forgot about it, but now that i'm thinkin about it again, i think one major reason i haven't written much queerplatonic konbart is that i did do that in sotm, but people like. don't read author's notes i guess. it wasn't a TON, but there were enough commenters that were like "omg, this kind of reads like youre going for the ot3" that it got grating on me like. hey. hey listen. hey. not every intimate and committed relationship needs to be romantic. do you understand me. ive said so many times i write bart as aroace, and his and kon's relationship is deeply committed and very affectionate without the romance. augh.

which i mean... i have nothing against romantic konbart like i do enjoy that too!! but my favorite flavor is aroace bart + queerplatonic relationship. and i kinda like,,,, idk. idk. my arospec ass is just preemptively tired of having to explain that over and over again if i ever start writing them more often. 😔😔😔

#rimi talks #like in the kon&clark fic i just posted #yeah the tim and kon relationship is the romo one #but its literally no more important than the konbart. like barts the one who gets to cuddle with kon. tim gets to sit by his feet #but i just... didnt emphasize it bc i remember when i DID emphasize it in sotm people got annoying abt the romo ot3 #LIKE. romo all 3 of them is fine. i think its cute! but its not what i was writing and its not what im gonna be writing 😔😔😔#oh well. i'll probably still write some qp konbart at some point. and then waffle about actually posting it #i think abt them often i just. dont WRite much abt them. and i just realized that the arospec Tiredness is probably why fhjdks #so yeah theres my revelation of the night i guess !

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ride-a-dromedary · 5 months

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Alright, the jack in the box is wound, and the coherence is coming to me. Halsin and the dryad, I was talking about his response if the PC indicates that he is most comfortable after a supper large enough to induce hibernation:

"Mindless gorging...? No, that is not right. I did not realize you thought that of me."

And why this keeps catching in my mind is not necessarily what he says, but how he says it (so I am commending Dave Jones' voice acting here). The rest of Halsin's responses to incorrect answers are generally even toned and corrective; firm, usually, but not inherently overly emotional. Much like a teacher correcting a student. But this one...he sounds genuinely surprised and taken aback that the PC would even suggest that. The "no, that is not right" is even firmer on its heels. And the last part...the last part, his voice is smaller. Less forward. I would not go so far as to suggest hurt, but it is approaching that territory. It comes so fast after his firm no, that it almost sounds like something that slipped by accident. Like something that was meant to be muttered under the breath, but it slipped from him because the surprise was so organic.

Alone, it doesn't mean too much. It's a slight offense to an obviously nonfactual statement. And that's likely all it is. I'm about to read too deep into this, I am aware.

But combined with the other things spread throughout Halsin's dialogue, particularly the implication that he is otherwise used to people making commentary on his physical appearance or the physicality of his being, it suggests an extra layer of hurt. An extra layer of: "I did not expect this from you, of all people." Not quite a betrayal, but approaching one.

What makes it particularly catching, is that one of the things you are able to wrench (and I say wrench because getting Halsin to share mundane personal details about himself is a production - and it makes *sense* it's a production if a. We keep in mind that Halsin himself doesn't seem all too sure who he is beyond his preoccupation - which elves are prone to but Halsin also just has...a lot on his plate that have evidently stunted his identity formation - to the point where he even claims he was forgetting who he was, and b. If he is used to questions concerning himself and his experience leading into questions regarding his sex life or his physical activities, see: the companion banter with Wyll and Karlach, he likely...doesn't really keep ready details about himself personally on tap anymore. He's so unused to people being interested in Halsin, that he's taken aback when they are. It becomes the "In the moment, I forget everything and anything I like to do for fun" mentality - no one really cares about what I like to do anyway - if you will. He even goes so far as to joking that the PC may be a doppelganger because *why else would they want to know these things*) out of Halsin when you ask him about himself is that he has a sweet tooth. That he likes honey, and people find that amusing. He chuckles, but his face falls, evidently prepping for the PC to make a similar comment (and he attempts to beat you to the joke about that, though a PC can still call that "on the nose" to which he responds that there is little point in denying oneself if it doesn't hurt anybody - indulging isn't a bad thing). If the PC instead chooses that he should pay little attention to what others think, he gives that infamous: "sometimes I think people look at me and imagine my feelings can't be hurt" line. Which implies - regardless of whether he verbalizes it or not - things in this thread hurt his feelings. Comments or assumptions about his body and his person hurt his feelings. He won't say it, but they do. The PC is likely aware of this by this point in the relationship.

Halsin does not otherwise bring up eating or food to any level of significance or directness - the sweet tooth comment was the only time (you could assume outside of canon interactions that they've had other conversations between them and that perhaps this was brought up, but we are going to base this solely in what Halsin reveals in canon). He brings up hibernation, but specifically the sleeping part of it. Nothing else.

So, the PC then potentially goes ahead and makes an assumption of him during the dryad. How'd they arrive at this conclusion, as it obviously surprises Halsin that they did? It reads, very much, that the PC is making this assumption based on the comment about his sweet tooth, his comment on indulgence, and his physicality (note: the ha ha bear and hibernation thing almost seems like an afterthought - Halsin latches *very* quickly onto the "mindless gorging" part). All things that he has shown very evident discomfort (which is ironic because the question is when he feels most comfortable) or hesitance towards (he claims there is nothing wrong with indulgence, but never seems to indulge himself beyond sex, if that. Gee, what does that remind you of?)

Halsin entrusted this individual with this information, as frivolous as it was, potentially revealed that it hurts his feelings when people make assumptions of him, and this individual then went used that information and made the assuming connection: "So, this is a big man. He said he liked sugar, so he must like to eat and indulge. It must be his favourite thing to do because look at him." I am going to essentially ignore everything else I could have possibly heard, and make a bear hibernation joke that has nothing to do with sleeping being a comfort, but emphasize the eating part.

So, yeah, he's a little taken aback - incredulous, you might say. A little hurt. Resigned, almost. Because at that point, you can make a very logical assumption that Halsin came to a very quick snap realization that perhaps this person was not so different from the others as he thought. That it always eventually comes back to that. What else was he expecting? When has it ever been any different for him?

#BG3 Musing #Halsin Posting #does this make sense i don't think it does but it's like...jumping from a - z based on assumption and you know what they say about that #note: this isn't actually this deep i am just making it this deep - also yes i'm aware it probably means none of this #i have a degree in bullshit #but this is also why halsin should have had a legitimate bear like build of a body #i understand why he didn't - but this is *verbatim* what fat individuals receive as assumptions on their person #*all the time* that oh you must overindulge yourself you must eat a lot you must you MUST #and in that thread of thought of halsin's relationship with his body #there's also something to say when halsin says 'my ears are all yours...any part of me is yours should you wish it'#because he *begins* by offering his sympathy and understanding...but follows it up with 'but if i am more valuable to you in this way #then that's fine too - i'm used to that'#almost parallels (inadvertently) astarion's:#'i think i'll enjoy having halsin around not for his wit or wisdom he'll just make an excellent shield if we're attacked'#he's self aware #and in regards to how halsin sees his body as a separate entity - a. body dysmorphia and b. i don't think he truly does #halsin claims he sees his body as a vessel to serve nature and wrinkles his nose at vanity - but i feel there is enough old hurt in him #that this can never be true of him even is he so desperately wishes it was #does he have a level of confidence in himself? obviously he does - but it is marred - it's an exchange #there's always going to be that little voice in the back

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