Emms, 28 yo, she/her. I ship Destiel and THAT will never change. Since I watched Supernatural I'm not the same anymore. You'll witness me rambling about Destiel (and Cockles sometimes). I discovered that I love writing, so here's my AO3 account: https://archiveofourown.org/users/youchangedmedestiel
I was finally able to watch the panel with Jensen and Rob at JIB14. I loved it so much. I laughed so hard, they are really funny together. I want to see more of them on panels together.
Some crazy shit has been said. People really asked good questions and I'm kissing them on the forehead for that. I learned that Jensen was responsible for Dean's coach outfit. He said that they thought about doing an european tour if that's ever possible. Oh man, how I wish it could be. I'd love to see him sing live. Please, please. Let's this be happening!
And then the talk about how he searched in himself to build Dean's character at the beginning (referring to episode 1x03 Dead in the Water), this is crazy. He says this:
Are you telling me that his love for Dean is what makes Dean full of love like he is? Because if it is, then that's... that's just... well it makes me want to scream my lungs out through an open window.
Eventually I start running in the right direction:
And finally:
Before it's too late. Before the moment is gone. Before the vibe left the brain.
My last idea: Dean is dancing and singing in the library, knowing everybody is out somewhere else. At first he is shy and then he goes wild but by then Cas walks in on him and falls in love all over again.
Having returned to the spn fandom so late, it sometimes feels incredibly lonely. I feel like lots of people have their servers, GCs, and homies they’ve known for years.
The love I get for my fics and my art is amazing and its what fuels my creative soul. I could not be more grateful enough for it, I just wish I had a spn buddy or group of friends to scream to on the daily basis.
There's no way Dean didn't pray to Cas in episode 12x09 when he and Sam were isolated in that governemental jail. I refuse to believe it. They didn't show it to us, they didn't say anything about it. But listen to me. There's NO FUCKING WAY he didn't.
They didn't show us because it wasn't relevant to the story like it was in episode 6x06. We learned that Dean called Cas for help about soulless!sam but we didn't see him, but they tell us he did because that's relevant for him to yell at Cas in that scene for not coming when he calls. And same in Purgatory we learn that Dean prayed to Cas every night, we don't know what he said in these prayers but they tell us he prayed because this is relevant, it leads to Cas explaining why he never answered those prayers.
So my point is that in episode 12x09 they didn't tell us he prayed to Cas because there was no purpose for the story, but HE DID. He prayed to him because he felt alone and that's also why Cas seems so lost and helpless. Because he can hear Dean, he can hear him but can't answer, he can hear him not knowing where they are kept. He can hear him ask for help without being able to do so.
It's been a while (months) since I haven't read a long fic, today I had time so I read psalm 40:2 and now. NOW, I'm fucking destroyed. A well spent Sunday afternoon and evening.
Fortunately, against all odds (but not that much), Cockles is there to heal my heart and make me smile again before going to bed.
Characters: Castiel (Supernatural), Dean Winchester, Sam Winchester, Jack Kline
Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Post-Canon Fix-It, Everybody Lives, Jack Kline is Not God, Saileen Mentioned, Domesticity in the Men of Letters Bunker (Supernatural), Castiel in the Men of Letters Bunker (Supernatural), Established Relationship, Established Castiel/Dean Winchester, Kissing, Boys Kissing, Neck Kissing, Fluff, Fluff and Smut, Attempt at Humor, Deansturbation, Masturbation, Teasing, they are so gone for each other, They try to resist it though, because of that silly game they are playing, Smut, Two Endings, Don't be afraid to tell which one you prefer
Summary:
Dean and Cas waited 12 years to finally be together. So, they think they can resist each other, but do they? (Please, read the notes at the beginning for better understanding)
Notes:
I got this idea from this pic (coming from this post on x):