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Let’s play a fun game called am I masquerading as an autistic person and acting how I think someone with autism would act or am I simply learning to unmask
#this game is unwinnable btw#everytime I realize I’ve forgotten to emote for a while my brain goes ‘well here you go again. you ableist fuck’#catch myself rocking? why are you faking it#sensory issues? you are being a weirdo#anyways pondering this a lot lately#autism
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@bbcphile asked about Di Feisheng and neurodiversity and it's something that's been on my mind for awhile, so here we go.
100% thought DFS was on the spectrum when he first popped up on my screen. Cue Leonardo_DiCaprio_pointing.gif I related to so, so many of his behaviors.
Trauma/ptsd can often create symptoms similar to autism/adhd/etc due to how it fucks with your brain
Autism/adhd/etc are often co-morbid with ptsd and trauma due to abuse, bullying, increased sensitivities and higher risk taking behaviors that lead to impulsive decision making which then leads to higher rates of death.
Thoughts regarding why I think so:
1. Hyperfixation/special interest being his obsession with fighting only LXY
2. Extremely high masking - as in almost 24/7 except when alone, in front of Wuyan and possibly LLH. He doesn't have any of the perception, motor skills or speech issues some people on the spectrum have. This means he can fine tune his social skills as much as needed. He's incredibly opaque through the entire drama. His behavior is completely different from how others perceive him, how he portrays himself, what information is known about him. There's a solid disconnect between himself and what is revealed to the rest of the world. I strongly suspect he's the type that makes scripts for every social interaction he has with others and behaves based off that.
Masking at that level for so long means it's basically you. Until it's not. It's internalized. It's hard to differentiate between the you that is a mask vs you the unmasked weirdo that wants to sit on the floor all day in your underwear because it's grounding and limits sensory input.
Masking is also exhausting. He runs off to be by himself as soon as he is able. He stays in locations where he can be alone and limit sounds.
3. LLH's behavior with DFS: Yes, it is due to closeness, past history, and also unexplored emotion, but that doesn't explain the bonkers level of accommodation and lack of vitriol toward a man he spends many episodes believing killed his brother. Yes he was emotionally burnt out after 10 years. He could have been playing along to get DFS to work with him (which he didn't need to because he soft-poisoned him with asura grass - the stuff that doesn't have weird side effects like killing a person. Contrast that with wuxin huai JLQ and SGD use)
But that isn't all there is to it - he fully believes DFS wouldn't try to kill him seriously. When arguing or trying to convince him of anything, he doesn't hide the truths he hides from everyone else. He barely exhibits anger toward him beyond that one early "Do you still refuse to admit it?"
Imo he's like this because he knew DFS well enough to know that being angry won't work; he believes DFS thinks differently enough he there may be a disconnect in understanding the source LXY's anger. Considering how happy and clingy DFS was when he first showed up, I don't blame LLH for thinking this way? DFS certainly didn't share any information regarding his suspicions. More on DFS' style of logic later. He communicates with DFS a certain way because he knows:
DFS is very good at spotting lies. This is both autistic or trauma-related behavior in ppl who are very good at masking. He's hyper vigilant to begin with and pair that with him likely being very experienced at picking apart micro expressions, context vibes, logic holes, etc at high speed -- high masking individuals that create personal scripts for their interactions will often do this as a defense, to create a convincing enough set of behavior to 'behave like a person' with the rest of the world.
DFS will so strongly act on decisions based on the information he accepts that it's imperative he has as much of the needed info as possible. This speaks on a lot of experience interacting with DFS. LLH behaves this way because he doesn't want what happens when he doesn't.
4. Sensory issues: Specifically pertaining to sound/noise and food. He complains repeatedly about how noisy FDB and Su Xuayong were. In the women's mansion arc, the signaling beacon was making enough noise that it bothered him so he goes and pulls it out.
Using other preferred sounds: His preferred locations of the waterfalls or the top floor of the Lotus House makes me think of ambient noise machines where people play certain nature sounds to drown out other sounds and relax to. (again, grounding and sensory control)
He was very likely lying about his sense of taste to LXY to avoid rudeness, but there are multiple scenes implying some form of disordered eating. And there is also a scene where he comes in randomly and takes FDB's bowl of rice and walks out without taking anything else. It implies he may actually have certain food preferences even though there are other cases where he eats fine like at the grave robber banquet where he pretended to be someone else. So imo one partial possibility for this, aside from trauma, is autistic eating issues: not being able to eat in certain locations, having preferred tastes or textures, not wanting to combine their foods, eating very little. One common preference is for carbohydrates or processed foods - aka bread or rice. I know someone who's Special Food was chicken. They wouldn't have a problem having it very meal - but as an adult, understood that wasn't something they could always do.
5. Logic that makes perfect sense to him but not necessarily to others:
looking for LLH by flying to and investigating every single mountain peak until he found him (in a savant level display of power and skill)
end goal of wanting to be with LLH and fight him repeatedly forever (special interest, desire for repetition and a routine)
kidnapping QWM for LLH is totally not a bad thing since he wouldn't hurt her and is strong enough he can guarantee her safety
he doesn't communicate with LXY about his suspicions regarding Shan Gudao's death - which most sect leaders would have lead with. He didn't see this information as important to share until a purpose for it popped up later on.
his special interest takes priority over everything else: handing over control of the sect to JQL in favor of the Guyin map, Dongahi battle full of death and destruction and all he thought about was the dual
well, until his priorities change. The entire drama is his single-minded quest to heal LLH -- but it's still linked tightly to his special interest of fighting with LXY.
also "my only rival is LXY, let's fight fight fight fight"= "I only want to fight LXY" but framed in a manner that people of jianghu will immediately understand. But that's not actually what he wants. Here is a prime example of a communication issue where he's created a presentation of this strong fighter - he walks and talks like one perfectly - so LLH and everyone else is of course convinced he wants to be number 1 swordsman. That is the language he's using to present himself. And he wants to know this because, why wouldn't he want to measure himself against a benchmark? However his end goal isn't just to be number one. He wants to be able to fight and win and lose and win and lose against LXY and only LXY.
possible: won't kill women or even engage with them seriously if he deems them too weak, but will still fill his organization's leadership with them and give them huge amounts of power --- this logic doesn't make sense to me, but clearly does to him??
6. He shows love by allowing people in his personal space (LLH, Wuyan, etc) or sharing his hyperfixation (fighting). So him doggedly trying to get LLH to fight him? Well. Also whining to Wuyan every day for years about LXY? He's... sharing his special interest! Wuyan, feel loved! Also, another common form of showing love for autistics are doing things for people -- and dfs' love language is clearly acts of service.
7. One can argue he's a bit on the savant level of skills, but without typical disabilities. Also he's high masking enough that any disability he does have, you wouldn't see it at all. -- ok this might just make him a regular genius, then.
8. DFS' strict adherence to his own code of honor regardless of what anyone around him is doing
9. Need for routine or repetitive behavior - one can argue that martial arts being a special interest of his would actually make a ton of sense because it's about training over and over and over again until it becomes instinct. Daily training for years and years. You never stop. And you do it in quiet spaces away from people or places that can cause sensory issues.
10. Argument for some form of alexithymia: This one is a reach - as there's no evidence of this. But as it's often co-morbid with autism, I think could be an interesting internal reason for his ability to mask. As in, unless it's a very big feeling or a very large event, he may not recognize his own trauma as trauma. His bar for what is 'bad' is somewhere in the basement of hell, and every other traumatic event are just things that happen. He may not actually recognize fear. He chases happy things because at his age, he knows what anger, sadness and happiness are -- because they have easy to parse physical manifestations.
EDIT: I wasn't very clear up top - but I consider severe trauma to be a form of neurodiversity due to the long lasting and sometimes permanent changes it makes in a person's brain (especially when young and the brain is still being formed). So when I say I think it's possible for dfs to be neurodiverse, I'm referring to a range of things. Autism is very difficult to separate from ptsd/trauma for the reasons above, and will often manifest in the exact same ways with overlapping patterns of behavior. Any one of these things or many of these things collectively can exist without someone being neurodiverse.
Anyway this is just off the top of my had. I have this under a cut so I'll add more later as it comes they mind. (I think this gets called moral stubborness? Something like that?)
#you need quite a bit of evidence to create plausible support so this is mostly me going off what I see and vibes#like i said trauma can result in much of this behavior as well and we know how traumatized dfs is#di feisheng as someone on the spectrum#just one possibility#meta#di feisheng#my royal ramblings#mysterious lotus casebook
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idk if you're in the mood, but I feel like it's been a while since I've heard any hq headcanons from you... do you have any 👉👈
it’s no longer ushiten uwednesday in my timezone but it is in my heart. anyway:
i have an Extremely specific vision of first year ushiten, mostly because they’re both new to shiratorizawa and they’re not settled yet in their school or in themselves. i think that they clash at first and tendou starts to follow ushijima around out of a combination of fascination and spite and ushijima doesn’t know how to handle it so he Doesn’t, opting to ignore tendou when he can. unfortunately for him it’s a situation of unstoppable force meets immovable object, and it turns out that tendou’s ceaseless chatter is kind of comforting regardless whether or not ushijima is really listening (and he starts listening more often than not as the weeks go on) in a white noise kind of way. it also becomes increasingly apparent to tendou that ushijima is also some breed of little weirdo, albeit not the same kind, and he discovers with a start that he’s funny. he doesn’t always mean to be, but he’s straightforward and blunt and it’s kind of refreshing.
it’s around this time that they start swapping food at meals. their respective sensory issues have a tendency to cancel each other out, and tendou forks over things like mushrooms in exchange for ushijima’s yakult (ushijima likes yakult fine, but he doesn’t care for the texture it leaves in his mouth).
more than once, tendou drags ushijima out into the rain during storms and goads him into splash fights. he always regrets it the second ushijima gets the Look that says he’s going to try his damndest to dunk him in an inch of water if if kills him. he keeps doing it anyway.
they both have a funky relationship with touch, and while this manifests in tendou as being incredibly touchy-feely with everyone, ushijima needs at least eight inches of personal space at all times. tendou compensates for this by tugging on ushijima’s clothing, his bag, his uniform, and eventually, as they both warm up to each other, ushijima will let tendou touch him in certain little ways. he doesn’t mind brief nudges or shoulder taps and he gets more comfortable with tendou absently playing with his fingers when they sit together. tendou practically celebrates the first time ushijima actually leans into him. by late second year it’s not uncommon for tendou to be perched on a piece of furniture and ushijima sat on the floor, leaning against his legs, while tendou cards his fingers through ushijima’s undercut.
post-timeskip, ushijima wakes up much earlier than tendou does to go on runs, but if he’s feeling particularly lazy, sometimes he’ll shower after he comes back and lays down with tendou again to wait until he wakes up. usually he scrolls through his phone or replays matches in his head in the meantime. tendou loves these mornings because it means he gets his weighted blanket boyfriend back.
#ushiten#ushijima wakatoshi#tendou satori#my brain is made of oatmeal but ushiten can sometimes break through. they are so special to me#riko.txt#haikyuu!!#asks
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Now that I have FINALLY SEEN Mutant Mayhem, thoroughly enjoyed it, and stopped vibrating at lightspeed in excitement.
I would like to share the turt gear I made for mineself to watch the movie in, during the month long wait, for anyone whomst may find it interesting.
Also, may I say thankyou to the turtle fandom at large for being so conscientious about spoilers, as an Aussie fan, I really appreciated it.
Details for fellow weirdos under the cut ;)
So first item up on the roster, this ULTRA SOFT sideless tank
I went with the 2012 Hamato clan symbol (cause it's perty) in super soft-autism friendly-stretch applique.
The loose cowl neck is meant to evoke the last-surviours-club look (Casey Jr, Future!Leo, Ronin, ect.)
And I went with the sideless muscle tank, not only because it's comfy and i like the look, but because to me, it calls to mind the fact that the '03 boy's carapaces' and plastrons aren't connected, if their sides are squishy and vulnerable, then so should be mine.
NEXT my beloved sling bag
(which i actually made last year, but it was part of my movie-going ensemble so tckpbtblpfg)
You may note, the straps thickness, and the placement of the buckles, mimick 2012 Leo's sheath straps.
And I whipped up a quick and messy hanger charm of the '18 boys to replace its standard eye dango for the day.
And the masskkss
Stretchy material offcuts, bought from my fav fabric store (which happens to be within walking distance of flying bark studio headquarters NO IM STILL NOT OVER IT)
I couldn't figure out a good way to SEW sew these, so they're a no-sew sandwiched design, using mistyfuse and a see-through white mesh. I could've stood to make the eyes more dramatically shaped, but the mesh holds their shape and looks way less weird than actually being able to see your eyes.
They're all pretty soft and not horrendously uncomfortable pressed against one's eye sockets (Leo's is the softest by far tho) so you can wear 'em for long enough to jump around like a maniac without triggering too many sensory issues, Yay!
Long tail Mikey Mask and 'classic' Donnie mask where worn by the friends who accompanied me, other Mikey mask for a friend who had work that day.
The '18 Donnie mask went in all its eyebrow glory upon my wrist, in memorial of my friend who's overseas rn and I couldn't drag along.
Leo's was mine, and we didn't have a Raph, but I brought it with me anyway, cause im allergic to not having all four.
I'm somewhat frustrated I couldn't come up with an '87 inspired piece, but I'll work one out at some point.
My full 'fit for movie viewing was sick as, though you'll have to take my word for it, but needless to say it was Casey Sr inspired in sillouette and attitude.
If you've read this far, Why?
also Thank you, hope this was entertaining.
#mutant mayhem#tmnt 2012#rottmnt#sewing#save rottmnt#i dont wanna tag spam this too hard#but i hope it reaches#all of the two people or so who might find it interesting#tmnt
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Anyway. In a fairly typical schmaltzy way that you read about but never really thought you would experience, this whole scare with my dad seems to be bringing me closer to some family members I either never really knew or don't often see. I'm very lucky that my family is generally quite accepting, and we are all pretty weird so I'm not exactly the black sheep.
My uncle is 83, I think? Still sharp. Has had cancer for years and is somehow still fighting it. His wife is very Greek, with all the wonderful and powerful personality that implies. If my dad goes to visit him again, I'm going to go, too. Miraculously my anxiety is actually well controlled enough and I feel safe enough now that I could do it.
Separately, I'm also learning that I am improved by going to the equality center for the trans support meetings my boyfriend attends, and while I'm still not going to group yet (intimidating, strangers, sensory issues) I do go to the restaurant afterwards and socialize, an easier way to learn who people are.
I used to stay home, but always got depressed for some reason. Tried going and just hanging out in a different room doing my own thing, and it feels good.
And my god, being around NOTHING but other queer people, mostly trans, overwhelmingly neurodivergent, most flamboyantly weird, is very very good.
I need to map out a day or time to see my bestie, even just to run errands.
But like, moving through the world and making social connections is intimidating and so awkward and weird, but...extremely rewarding. And in the case of the massive herd of trans weirdos, it's a lot less difficult than I thought. We are all primed to be empathetic, patient, kind to one another. It's different from anything else I have experienced.
#i have to emphasize that the strife and divisiveness and nastiness i see in the online queer community is not reflected in this irl group#being terminally online and eating our own is NOT making anyone a better person#if you have access to local support or social gatherings give it a try because this is so much better#you don't have to be swamped in misery to go to a support group#you can just go to be part of it and offer your presence to others who are
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15 QUESTIONS FOR 15 FRIENDS
I was tagged by @adickaboutspoons and @edsrosetattoo. Thank you for thinking of me! ❤️❤️❤️ I love this shit. And sorry for taking so long to do it, I had so. much. uni. work.
Are you named after anyone?
Katharine Hepburn. And my mother gave me her middle name ('her' as in my mother's, not 'her' as in Hepburn's - although, Houghton? What a bitchin' middle name jfc), which has pissed my sister off literally from the day I was born because she got given a(n arguably lovely) random middle name instead. Suck it.
When was the last time you cried?
Today.
Do you have kids?
Yep.
What sports do you play/have you played?
I’m an equestrian (dressage, specifically) although I’ve been out of it for a while because I had to have some surgeries, also because I’m broke, and horseriding is basically like burning money. Also figure skating. Group sports are the devil.
Do you use sarcasm?
I honestly wouldn’t know how to get through life without sarcasm. I’m like, 75% sarcasm (in person, at least - online I tend to be a bit more sincere because I generally obsessively re-read anything I post or comment before letting it loose in the world and if it comes off too sarcastic in my own head I’m like dude … stop being a dick).
What is the first thing you notice about people?
I’m hyper-sensitive, and I have acute sensory-sensitivity issues, so generally I pick up on the minutia of how someone presents at any given time (sometimes because it’s all my brain can take in, because wider general observations are too much), like I’ll pick up on shit people aren’t even aware that they’re putting down. Ask me how much fun I am at parties.
What’s your eye colour?
Brown. Very much towards the uniform brown/black end of the spectrum though, not hazel.
Scary movies or happy endings?
Neither.
Any talents?
I’m weirdly excellent at claw machines? Someone pointed out to me the other day that I’ll need to budget half a suitcase and a not-insignificant amount of my travel budget to The Claw Machines because Japan is full of them, and it honestly hadn’t even occurred to me. And by ‘weirdly excellent’ I mean weirdly excellent - like I can’t remember ever having started on one and not ended with a sizeable audience. I recently had a worker at one stop me mid-game to open the box and reshuffle the toys and then watch over my shoulder because he thought I was cheating. I’m also really good at mimicking people’s handwriting. I don’t have a gag reflex. I have full-body hyperextension, so I can do weird/terrifying joint-related things. Are we supposed to be picking weird stuff? I do have normal talents but they’re boring.
Where were you born?
Sydney, Australia.
What are your hobbies?
Sculpture, photography, crochet, knitting. I like small-scale art - miniatures, origami. Music (I play the piano, cello, guitar, and sing). I like plants (hoyas, particularly). Is travelling a hobby (my brain would like me to accept that no, it’s a coping mechanism for escaping the nihilistic futility of existence :)? I’m doing two university degrees right now, so I find that my hobbies don’t get much bandwidth and when I’m not reading about neuroscience or philosophy I’m usually just staring into the middle distance letting my brain power down for 5 minutes. Is that a hobby?
Do you have any pets?
I have a cat. And some tropical fish. And a semi-domesticated water dragon named Richard.
How tall are you?
5’2”. Or, as people often enjoy pointing out: pocket-sized.
Favourite subject in school?
I hated my school, and therefore generally hated all subjects by extension. I loved anything creative: art, music, drama, creative writing, but I was too much of a social weirdo to not get bullied about it all, so I stopped bothering because I wasn’t willing to make/do what I really wanted to because I was too terrified of getting shat on about it, and there didn’t seem much point in doing any of it halfway. Plus it was an academically selective smartypants-assface school, so they didn’t put much stock in anything creative, unless you could top the state in it, and I didn’t really want that sort of pressure, thanks.
Dream job?
Some sort of very well paid, very infrequently required consultant.
I tag, with absolutely no pressure at all (and with profuse apologies to anyone who hates these things or who has already done it and i somehow missed you doing it because i’ve been buried under research and only on here sporadically the past week): @jessystardust, @majesticartax, @follows-the-bees, @theangelyouknew, @iamadequate1, @jeffsinnbythesea, @tositandadmire, @ameryth74, and literally any other mutuals who I haven’t tagged and who haven’t done it that would like to do it. I get such insane social anxiety about participating in these things, but also I love them: The Horrors. Also I know that I didn't tag 15 people, but … anxiety (I've tried to not include people who I've already seen tagged, and have literally gone through the last 50 or so posts of the people I have tagged to try and make sure they haven’t already done it, because i’m an idiot, and you know, being an idiot like that takes time).
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I swear im trying for chapter 6 of The Blue Note 😔 My fyp isnt giving more astv edits 🥲 anyways, to feed the twilight community im here to offer
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✨️A JASPER X OC FIC✨️
A Cowboy's Dream
Character info:
Name: Eliana (el-e-anna) Smith
Nicknames: Eli (El-e), Ana, Silly, Star Girl
Insults: Accident, Freak, Weirdo, r-slur
Age: 17
Birthday: April 6th
Blood type: O-
Mental illness/disorder: Autism
Sexuality: Omnisexual
Gender: Female she/her
Backstory: Eliana was born in with a semi-normal family. She had a father, Michael, and a mother, Terra. When Eli had turned about 6 months old when Michael realized he was gay and wanted a divorce. Terra went along with it, as she was a closeted lesbian. She couldn't stand being in a marriage with a man, so once the divorce was finalized, Michael and Terra stayed friends but went to live on their lives. Terra kept Eliana, as Michael wasn't sure that traveling in a van would be safe for a 6 month old, and met her later wife -Vanessa- when Ana was 3. They got married on Eli's birthday, with her permission of course, and have given Eliana the world and more that a girl could ask for while living in Forks, Washington. Michael comes to visit Eliana for special days just whenever she wants to see him because Terra and Vanessa decided that it'd be good for her to have connection to her father, despite calling him "Uncle Mike." Eliana was diagnosed with autism at 7 years old after she had a meltdown about having to sleep on silk sheets in a hotel that the 3 women were staying at for a trip.
She's lived in Forks her entire life and doesn't mind the quietness or rain because at night, when the rain clears, she see the stars and often draws pictures out whatever shape(s) she sees in them.
START NOTE: IM AUTISTIC AND CAN RECLAIM THE R SLUR. I WILL AVOID USING IT AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE SO IT MAY ONLY POP UP 1 OR 2 TIMES. If people are uncomfortable, I'll remove the slur from the story entirely <3
First Meeting
"Do I not look Italian-?" Eli asked, laughing as Mike was in shock learning the autistic member of the group was Italian.
"No, you look white-!! Like, white white." Mike protested as Eliana walked with Bella to her truck.
"Bye bye, Mikey~!" She called as Bella shook her head and ruffled Eliana's dual colored hair.
"So, I'm guessing you and Mikey are close?" Bella questioned as Eliana moved closer to her to avoid bumping into the Cullens.
"Eehhhh, if you wanna call teasing each other like siblings close because you're both only children then yes...? Besides, we grew up neighbors, so we see each other every day and let me tell you- being surrounded by loud neurotypicals hurts like hell."
"Really?" Bella looked up at Eliana as the smaller female sat on the hood of the car. "I thought they were ok- a bit better than the people back in Arizona."
"Ehhh, depends on the person. Since I'm autistic, and I don't speak for every autistic person, I have sensory issues meaning I can't handle super loud crowds or friend groups. But they were my only friends, so I sucked it up as best as I could and dealt with it. You, however, aren't autistic and don't really mix with the loud crowd and tend to avoid them as much as possible," Eliana explained pulling a marker out of her patch-filled messenger bag and started to draw stars along her left arm.
"Oh.. that makes sense, yeah," Bella replied after a moment, watching Eliana draw on herself. Throughout the day, Bella noted that Eli would do this whenever a certain blonde was around. According to Jessica, Eliana has had a thing for one of the mysterious Cullens- Jasper. Yet, he was seemingly taken by Alice. It hurt Eliana, so she took to drawing on herself to avoiding staring at him and causing drama.
Yet, every so often, Jasper would catch himself staring at her and he looked away, attempting, and failing, to not be caught.
The reason why the pair did this was because Jasper saved her life exactly 3 years ago today.
"Are you serious dude? The Freak?" A student inquired, laughing his ass off as Eli walked passed, clutching her books and not noticing the 5 squares of toilet paper stuck to the bottom of her shirt.
"Yeah! I mean, besides, it's not like anyone's going to stand up for the retard and won't it be awesome to humiliate it in front of the whole school?" The student's friend spoke up, grinning and seeing Eliana walk to class faster to avoid being seen crying out of distress.
Later that day, Eli had forgotten all about the worry of being humiliated. She felt safe and at peace. Besides, she had gotten to talk to one of her more mysterious classmates, Rosalie, today and she promised to help Eli get a good hair-do that would make her feel happy.
Life felt perfect and completely worry-free... until one of her bullies kicked her in the back and caused her to trip down the stairs of the building and fall into the wet pavement.
She groaned, rolling onto her side and hugging her ribs as blood ran down her face from her nose and her head spun in dizziness. She was in so much pain that she didn't process a car come barreling down to her until she heard a large crash and a familiar voice yell.
Two sets of hands pulled her up, eliciting a cry of pain from the younger as pressure was put onto her right foot. One of the 'strangers' whom had helped her up, scooped her up bridal style as she began to fall in and out of consciousness.
After a few hours had gone by, Eliana woke up, groaning.
"Ah, I see you're awake, Eliana. You gave us a scare there," a gentle and friendly voice said earning a tiny smile from the teen.
"Hi, Dr. Carlisle..." She groaned out, putting a hand to her head and flinching in the process.
"Hi, dear," he greeted, sympathetically and gently running his hand through her long bright blonde hair. The doctor cared deeply for her and she loved him like he was her dad. "Can you tell me what happened this time?"
"I- uhmmm... I don't think I remember a lot of it..." She told him, honestly and shrugging a tad. Carlisle merely smiled reassuringly.
"It's alright, you don't have to try and remember all of it now, but would you be able to give me a gist of what happened?" He questioned, sitting in one of the rolly stools while checking her heartbeat.
"Uhmm... I think I tripped down the stairs... and then hit my head really hard, but I don't remember anything after that," She told him, trying to focus on the light he was using to check her eyes.
"You tripped? Eli... these injuries don't typically come from tripping down the stairs- accident prone or not," Carlisle started, looking at her and she moved her gaze to her hands. "Are you sure someone didn't kick you down the stairs or anything?"
Eliana tensed and stayed quiet. She didn't want the senior to get in trouble, but her silence did confirm that someone did kick her down the stairs.
"Eli..? Come on, you can't stay quiet for this, honey. Jasper and Rosalie already told Chief Swan everything that they know and he's waiting to talk to you downstairs, as he's wanting to know if your mothers will press charges against whomever hurt you and, apparently, tried to run you over."
"He's gonna kill me if I say anything though..." Eli buried her face into her knee that she could move and groaned audibly.
"But he also could be behind bars. Freedom from him, Eliana, wouldn't that be nice?" Ana paused for a moment and nodded a bit, earning a kind smile from Carlisle.
However, before Carlisle could continue, one of the Cullens entered the room with Eliana's stuff. This one must've been Jasper, due to the fancy shirt he wore and his wavy/curly blonde locks were pushed out of his face that as Rosalie had described.
"Ah, Jasper, here with Eliana's things. Thank you, son," He said as Jasper sat her bag by her shoes and nodded, then went to leave, not making eye contact with either.
"Hey, Jasper-?.. uhm... Thanks.. to you and the other person who helped," Eliana called. Jasper had froze at the door when she called his name. He'd never heard it said so... kindly and softly before. There was no sound of reassurance or manipulation behind it- just pure gratitude and the blonde could sense that from her, even without his power.
Partially turning to face her, he smiled at her kindly.
"You're welcome, ma'am. I'm just glad to see you're not bleedin too bad," He said to her, with his Southern accent coming out before leaving the room. This left Carlisle chuckling softly at his son for sneaking in a thank-you to her for not causing him to go feral and Eliana completely in love with him.
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lukas question for you- do you think he knows that he's autistic? I don't know... anything about how developmental disorders are viewed/diagnosed in sweden and I'm torn between he knows/was diagnosed at a young age and doesn't talk about it or tell anyone, knows and will casually use it to get people to underestimate him (or anything else he wants), or genuinely doesn't know and thinks he's just a weirdo coder who wasn't socialized enough
I think Lukas got diagnosed pretty young - he took longer to start talking than the other children, got upset around large groups of people, had a narrow area of interests and had a lot of sensory issues around clothing. Being autistic is something he’s always been aware of and Swedish schools a pretty good with providing extra support to neurodivergant children so he didn’t feel “different”. I imagine his mum and dad were pretty good at making sure he had coping strategies and socialised so he wasn’t labelled the “weird kid” at school. Then his dad died and everything went downhill and Lukas spent all his time in his bedroom with his computer so when it came time to interact with people, he really struggled and started getting picked on. A teacher suggests that the annual summer coding camp would be good for him but Lukas is adamant he doesn’t want to go until his mum bribes him with some new computer parts. The first two days are awful and he hates it but then he meets Oskar and despite the other teen being very loud, Lukas finds it surprisingly easy to make friends with him. He’s very upfront about being autistic which doesn’t seem to phase Oskar, even when his new friend comes across as a bit of an oddball the more time they spend together. Then he’s got his own little gang of nerdy friends much to the relief of his mother, even if all they ever seem to do is talk about coding.
Most of Team GoJo are computer nerds so it doesn’t matter if Lukas talks solidly for ten minutes straight about some random piece of code because everyone else is just as interested in it as he his. Nor does anybody care that the CEO wanders around barefoot because shoes and socks give him sensory overload or that he often comes across as “odd”. Being autistic isn’t something Lukas ever tries to hide or see’s as a weakness - his brain just works a bit differently to other peoples.
It’s when the company starts growing and he has to deal with people outside of the GoJo bubble that being autistic is seen as being something he needs to hide. Suddenly the expensive PR person they hired is muttering about Lukas coming across as “weird” and wants to remove all his usual coping strategys to make him fit in more with “normal” society.
You can’t wear sweatpants to a finance meeting because it won’t send the right message. You usually leave all the social stuff to Oskar to deal with? Sorry, thats not how it’s done so you better get out there and pretend you know how to relate to people. You need to stim because you’re having sensory overload? Yeah, you can’t do that anymore because you look like a freak.
After five months of this and Lukas being so burnt out that he spends almost a week in bed they fire the PR guy and decide to do their own thing. Between them Oskar and Lukas devise a system so that if Lukas is getting overwhelmed or not hitting the right social cues, the other one can step in and redirect. It works pretty well over the years and they’ve got the whole “elusive foreign billionaire” schtick down to an art form, with everyone thinking Lukas disappearing from parties early is because he’s off on a hedonistic adventure but in reality he’s leaving so he can go to bed because masking is exhausting and he’s in danger of autistic shutdown.
Then Lukas sets his sights on America and the Roy Family empire and Oskar is surprised he makes it out alive because it’s months of talking and trying to understand the social norms of a country that’s so different from their own and with a bunch of people who seem in desperate need of therapy. At first it’s fun making up fake stories and dropping little nuggets of information for Team Roy to dig up but it quickly becomes apparent that Lukas is going to have to suppress his autistic tendencies if he’s going to get the deal he wants. There’s no way Logan Roy would even entertain speaking to GoJo if he knew that there was something “wrong” with Lukas so whatever previous mentions there were of him being autistic get burried.
Then Logan snuffs it and Lukas is stuck with a presidential race, Succession Bowl and the Roy siblings infighting. Oh, and his crush telling him he hates him whilst perched on top of a rock. Now he’s got to drag Team GoJo back to America whilst simultaneously figuring out which of the CEO candidates is going to be the least irritating to deal with. The Kill List is fun because he already knew who he was keeping but it’s fun to watch them all flapping around in a panic and trying to get on his good side.
However it’s exhausting having to pre-plan all his social interactions, even down to the facial expressions he’ll use, and try and remember how to act with each individual person. Sometimes it goes fine but most of the time Lukas experiences an overwhelming sense of physical exhaustion to the point where he keeps trying to brush off Shiv and her insistence that he attends every party on the roster. He’s having more difficulty managing his emotions than usual and is prone to outbursts of anger and waves of intense anxiety. His stimming is off the charts, as is his increased sensitivity to sensory input, and he’s even more insistent on everything being his way due to struggling with all the change thats happening.
Then the deal finally goes through and Lukas hides out on his private island for a month to recharge, barely getting out of bed or looking at his phone until Oskar comes to rouse him for the first WayStar/GoJo team retreat.
So in short, yes I think Lukas knows he's autistic and is pretty chill about telling people but as times goes on he becomes a bit more guarded with who he tells and how much he tells them. For instance Oskar knows all his safe foods and can easily tell when he's masking but Tom will only ever know that the reason Lukas doesn't like wearing shoes is because he's got big feet.
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hmm adhd sokka is very interesting bc I always read him as having autism! I do love a good analysis post tho
(disclaimer that i am not a medical professional)
there is a lot of overlap in my experience (i have both). like, intense interests, hyperfocusing, sensory issues, speech patterns/trains of thought that seem "strange", can be either. i think the main differences are:
autism is more associated with social difficulties - adhd people can have trouble socializing, but it's more about memory/focus issues having an impact on socializing (e.g. not paying attention to a conversation, accidentally ghosting) while autism is more about specifically your ability to relate to other people (high/low empathy)
autistic people are often very distressed when their schedules and routines deviate from the usual, while adhd people have trouble sticking to a schedule and a routine. to compensate for their difficulties, adhd people often create systems and adhere to them with the same rigor, but it's a different underlying cause. autism hates spontaneity, adhd is all spontaneity
with sokka, i lean adhd over autism because his whole jack-of-all-trades thing feels more adhd lack of focus. he can sometimes say kind of blunt and hurtful things, but i don't think it's because he has trouble understanding, i think he's just kind of a grump. plus adhd can make you impulsively blurt things out. he's a talker and seems to have no filter at times (even though he is repressing and hiding a lot). his main socially awkward moments are when he has a reason to be awkward, like talking to a pretty girl.
i also think reading him as adhd fits well with his relationship with aang. aang is very stereotypically adhd, unbothered by deadlines and schedules and impulsively pursuing what seems interesting and exciting. meanwhile, sokka felt a lot of responsibility at a young age and had to learn to compensate for his adhd in a way aang never did. he nags aang to stay on schedule because he sees his younger self in aang and thinks aang needs to "grow up" like he did. but instead aang teaches sokka to get in touch with his sense of fun again, teaches him he doesn't have to always be denying that part of himself. aang and sokka are not a duo you go to for executive functioning and thought-out plans, even though both of them are smart individually, because together, they let themselves just be the adhd unstructured weirdos they are.
also, not to always bring it back to the dilfs, but
piandao distracts him during a fight and then tells him to "concentrate on what you are doing". which is a bit of a dick move, but maybe the kind of thing you'd do if you were trying to teach a distractable person to stay focused
hakoda is established to have a similarly inventive mind to sokka and to have been a bit reckless and impulsive when he was young. sounds more adhd than autism (impulsivity/spontaneity over routine), and adhd & autism are often genetic
all that said - as someone with both i could see him being that way too. maybe he's kinda blunt sometimes because he's not reading the room and doesn't care to. he is very much someone who has plans and likes when people stick to them. he may appear more social, but he's someone who's wearing a mask a lot of the time, playing the role of silly goofy guy while thinking of himself as someone with serious responsibility. i'd love to hear why you intially read him as autistic! love me some neurodivergent headcanons
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Bisexual: "I'm Bisexual but I wanna date all but only have sex w/ one gender"
Weirdos: "So you're not bisexual & you just want queer points..."
Bisexual: "I'm okay having sex w/ all, but I only really wanna date one gender"
Weirdos: "So you're not bisexual ??? [In the case the bi person wants to date someone of the opposite gender] You're fetishizing us ???"
Someone: "Uh... Okay... Well I'm [Gay, straight, lesbian], but I'd be okay having sex w/ [gender] too"
Weirdos: "Why are y'all allergic to calling yourself bisexual, that's not a thing !!! You can't be willing to have sex w/ a gender that's not X & still call yourself [label] !!!! You're bi !!! [Label] doesn't romantically OR sexually like X PERIOD"
Like y'all are so annoying. NO someone who says they're bisexual but only wants to fuck the same gender isn't fetishizing anything. Y'all would NOT say that shit about a monosexual who only wants hookups.
And no, someone who doesn't wanna fuck on gender but will fuck another, but wants to date all of them isn't "trying to get points".
I saw a post about a bi guy who didn't like touching his GFs vagina [she made the post] & someone thought it was okay to only post the caption [which basically stated that], so everyone was making comments about how he's actually gay & "Who's gonna tell her...".
Turns out, he enjoyed having sex, eating her out, etc. He just literally didn't like his hands touching her due to SENSORY ISSUES DUE TO HIS AUTISM.
But even if he genuinely didn't like sex THAT DOESN'T MAKE HIM LESS BISEXUAL !!! Maybe he could've been 100% ace & didn't enjoy it w/ her, other women OR men. Maybe he enjoyed it w/ men but he was still romantically attracted to her. Maybe he had a really low sex drive so low that it seemed like he wasn't into her like that.
All those things can be true & he'd still be bisexual.
Like y'all hate bi people so much for no reason & then the second someone's like "Okay, I'm not bi. But I still feel attraction this way" y'all FREAK THE FUCK OUT telling them that they're bi, like what ????
Then when you see the people who just want sex w/ all but only wanna date one [or wanna date all but only have sex w/ one] y'all are like "I support ace/aro people but this isn't okay" Do you ??? Do you support ace & aro people ??? Cause this is what being ace &/or aro can look like but you sure seem to fucking hate them for experiencing attraction in a way you don't deem "correct"...
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So, since it's autism awareness/acceptance month, I've been kind of annoyed by the actual lack of awareness or acceptance autistic people experience, even by people who are super loud about how accepting/aware they supposedly are. I think what a lot of people fail to or frankly refuse to understand is that if you actually want to be aware of and accept autism, you have to accept autistic traits and behaviors that might make you uncomfortable.
(note: I am lower support needs, so obviously this issue is compounded if you're higher support needs and unable to mask as much or at all. Also, this post is about my experiences specifically, everyone experiences autism differently. Please also listen to higher support needs voices this month <3)
It seems like everyone is cool with autism as an abstract concept, or as a cool thing in movies and TV that makes you super smart but kinda blunt and fidgety, and then suddenly I exist and exhibit autistic traits around them and it's not cool at all. If they know I'm autistic, which not many people do, that's when the infantilization starts. Like, I'm not a different species or a child, jeez. and if they don't, that's when suddenly I'm semi-human and it's okay to treat me like garbage.
Like if you actually want to accept autistic people, you have to stop laughing at people when they cover their ears at movie theaters, or tell you they've never been to a concert because the idea is overwhelming. You have to stop looking at people weird for stimming in public, or making fun of people for wearing specific clothes that meet their sensory needs, and you have to stop ragging on people for not being able to make eye contact. You have to stop telling people that not having Instagram or Snapchat or having too low of a follower count is a 'red flag' or stalking someone's socials to decide if they're cool enough to be friends with you. Stop making fun of your friends who like having strict schedules or concrete plans around social events, and stop triggering your friends sensory sensitivities on purpose for laughs. Stop bullying people you consider 'weirdos' or 'outcasts'. Stop taking advantage of people who are trusting or naive on purpose. Stop calling people buzzkills when they don't understand a joke, or sometimes struggle with verbal communication. Stop looking down on people who need more support than you do, or who need more alone time than you do, or who struggle with things you don't understand.
I don't care if these people are autistic or not or have some other disability (they might be, and have just not told you), and I don't care if it makes you mildly uncomfortable to embrace socially 'unacceptable' traits. Maybe you should sit with that discomfort and think about what it says about you. Me listening to white noise in my headphones in public harms no one, me rocking back and forth on my toes in line to get coffee harms no one, me sometimes having a hard time knowing when it's my turn to speak harms no one, but your bullying and exclusion harms both autistic and non-autistic people.
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Candy Hearts Ex(change) Letter 2023
Hello friend!
As on AO3, I'm AzureFishnets and thank you for joining me in this exchange, despite the loss of Chocobox for this year. I think it's going to be fun and I am happy with art or writing or any other medium you want to try. All my prompts are listed in no particular order and I would love any of them, or, indeed, anything using these tags that doesn’t match my prompts. I just hope you find something that speaks to you!
I think it's worth noting that I love these weirdo & pairings with all my heart; I have a few shippy prompts in here but mostly I love to see people just...being human with each other, whether in art or fiction. I don't need movie posters or wild poses for it to be something that will make me so happy in art, and don't be afraid to explore weird, unplotty situations in fiction! I can handle that and will enjoy whatever you gift me with great pleasure.
LIKES:
worldbuilding (I love prompts where it’s like, pick a character and toss them in a location and see what happens)
sensory details (textures and smells especially)
unusual interactions (anything from slice of life to full adventure!)
puns and wordplay
cool symbolism & unexpected parallels
relationship level ups, whether that means platonic bonding or friends-to-more, etc
non-mundane AUs (no coffee shop, school, etc
fandom crossovers or fusions (but taken seriously, not cracky unless specifically requested)
missing moments
emotional support/intimacy
OKAY WITH:
any tense
any amount of plot or none
out-of-the-ordinary story structures
any amount of dialogue from none to screenplay
character explorations
characters appearing that aren’t requested as long as it doesn’t go against my DNWs
DNWS:
any kind of consent issues whatsoever
disrespect of the holy & symbol (AKA non-requested romantic relationships)
angst without a happy ending or at least some kind of resolution
infidelity
pandemic stuff
underage relationships, non-canon children
terminal illness
descriptions of bodily fluids and/or gratuitous depictions of bodily damage
things squirming under skin
--PROMPTS--
GHOST TRICK: PHANTOM DETECTIVE
Alma/Cabanela/Jowd (or any /& subset therof) - Always and forever the OT3 of my heart, and I will happily devour anything that develops any facet of their relationship unless it includes an infidelity angle. I love these three together, or doing things with just one of the others, but always with the knowledge that they are a threesome at heart, you know? I'm happy with date nights, case fic, non-mundane AUS...
Cabanela & Lynne - Lynne didn't have the same things driving her to be a detective in this ending so how and when do she and Cabanela connect for the first time?
Cabanela & Pigeon Man - Cabanela has a small requested task for Pigeon Man that isn't directed to the case; Pigeon Man undertakes it because...dammit he's fond of the boy. Grump.
Cabanela & Missile - Missile would like Mister Cabanela to throw the ball very much please. Too bad the ball is a) evidence and b) filthy. Why is his baby's puppy at an open crime scene anyway?
Kamila & Sissel - Sissel chooses how to reveal his powers to an older Kamila
Emma & Jowd - I'm torn between two prompts on this so have both: Emma tries to verify her suspicions of what happened with a call to Prisoner D-99 OR New timeline Emma attempts to schmooze with Jowd at a party, but Jowd is unschmoozable while simultaneously being schmooze incarnate. How does he do that?
Emma & Alma - Did Alma and Emma ever cross paths in the old timeline? What's their fated non-meeting like?
Emma & Cabanela - New timeline Emma has somehow gotten herself into the situation of needing to infiltrate a political party with Sith and Cabanela is her guiding voice via an earpiece (with optional Sissel?)
Cabanela & Jowd & Sissel - I'm just super taken with thoughts of case fic where Cabanela knows the cat's deal but still can't speak to him; bonus points for undercover work where they all have to pretend they don't know each other.
Alma & Pigeon Man - Alma would like to thank the mysterious Pigeon Man for his efforts on Jowd's behalf but she doesn't know what he knows. Or even how much she does.
Lovey-Dove & Pigeon Man - Lovey is a grumpy dove one day and Pigeon Man is somewhat bewildered as to why
Jowd & Kamila - Jowd introduces a small Kamila to roast chicken and is rather bemused by her reaction
Jowd & Yomiel & Sissel - Jowd and Sissel attempt to teach Yomiel how to be an orb. It is difficult for a variety of reasons.
Jowd & Pigeon Man - The first time Jowd has to ask Pigeon Man to consult on a case in the new timeline...
Alma & Sissel - A small adventure for Alma as Sissel loses his body and has to guide her to it...somehow!
LEGEND OF HEROES: TRAILS IN THE SKY
Ries / or & Kevin - I like Ries best when she's being fierce and I like Kevin best when he's taken off guard by that ferocity. Any moment like that please! Free to make as shippy or unshippy as you like.
Olivier & Kloe - I've got a hankering to see royal scheming. Kloe's so sly with her humor but I feel like these two are a better match as friends than it appears.
Lila/Maybelle - I just think they're cute OK. Anytime they can gently and mutually bully each other into spending time doing something restful is good. Or maaaaybe good ol' sickfic.
Celeste & Kloe - You cannot tell me that academic Kloe does not immediately want to grill her not-ancestor for everything she's worth. Celeste, on the other hand, would like to know more about current day Liberl, especially Kloe's relationship with Alicia...
Kloe & Julia - Kloe and Julia go hawking with Sieg as a training and bonding trip
Estelle & Kloe - I love the FC play so much. Any missing moment there would be great! Or moments in Phantasma: mutual comfort, mutual teasing... OR Kloe allowing Estelle to captain the Arseille for five whole minutes just to see what would happen.
Olivier / or & Mueller: For some unknown reason, Olivier /& Mueller are shanghaied to help with the Perzel farm for a day and find some pleasant parallels to Alster. Free to make as shippy or unshippy as you like.
Olivier & Cassius -They have one final interaction at the banquet before Olivier leaves and heads back to Erebonia forever (?) What advice might Olivier ask of Cassius? Or what might he warn Cassius of, given the Black Record revelations from later in the series?
LEGEND OF HEROES: TRAILS TO ZERO/AZURE
Alex Dudley & KeA - KeA has a question of police procedure that none of the SSS are around to answer; who better to ask than one Detective Dudley?
Elie MacDowell & Tio Plato - Elie & Tio have an SSS case to solve on their own
KeA & Lloyd Bannings - KeA asks Lloyd to braid her hair; Lloyd has no idea how to do that but he'll cross this barrier
KeA & Randy Orlando - KeA asks Randy to read to her, early after she comes to stay with the SSS. Randy's the kind of guy who goes all out
KeA & Sergei Lou - KeA goes to Sergei for help organizing a small surprise for the SSS
KeA & Zeit - Zeit sneakily goes to check on KeA while she is the Zero Child
Lloyd Bannings & Alex Dudley - Lloyd and Dudley share stories about Guy
Lloyd Bannings & Elie MacDowell & Tio Plato & Randy Orlando - Missing moment between Zero and Azure where they visit Armorica and end up picking a bouquet of flowers for KeA together
Randy Orlando & Ken & Nana - Randy gets pulled into a game of hide n' seek with the west end kids
Randy Orlando & Tio Plato - Randy tries to card shark Tio and she sweeps him handily, but he's sharper than she gives him credit for...
DISCWORLD
Death & Death of Rats - There is a small kerfuffle over jurisdiction when both of them show up for an opossom...
Binky & Death - Death has conflicted responses when a horse girl dies and has THOUGHTS on how well Binky is being treated
Death of Rats & Mustrum Ridcully - Ridcully, for whatever reason, decides it is time for the Rite of AshkEente once again, but who has time for the old fashioned ways? 2 ccs of mouse blood later, he sure has summoned a Death all right...
Cheery Littlebottom & Detritus - Detritus brings Cheery some parts of his old thinking helmet in hopes she can repair it
BATEN KAITOS: ETERNAL WINGS & THE LOST OCEAN
Almarde & Lyude - Lyude finds a moment to honor Almarde in the new world with some music
Mizuti & Xelha - Xelha teaches Mizuti to ice skate
White Dragon & Xelha - Xelha takes a ride on the White Dragon to explore her new world and have a bonding moment
LUNAR
Althena & Lucia - The moment they realized one would have to stay on the Blue Star and one would have to go
Leo & Mystere - A moment of contemplation where Leo looks at his alternate life and yearns to be that free
Leo | Mystere & Mauri - I would be most amused by Mauri & Mystere shenanigans. Or even Mauri taking on Mystere's mantle!
Luna Noa & Nall - Luna sings Nall one last song...
Nall & Quark - Nall wants to learn more about Quark, so he decides to live his cave for a time
Alex Noa & Nall - Alex visits Nall in Quark's cave, where he discovers that Nall does not really enjoy cave life
Nall & Ruby - Nall informs Ruby about the secret of Dragon Diamonds...and that they can buy MANY fish
FINAL FANTASY VI
Terra & Mog - Terra and Mog dance together on the airship deck in a moment of silliness
Edgar & Sabin & Chocobos - The tween twins steal some chocobos from the royal guards and take a joyride
Celes Chere & Relm Arrowny - Big city Celes and small town girl Relm have a chat about their respective lives pre-WoR
Celes Chere & Chocobos - Celes's first chocobo ride was in the green forests near Maranda... what a difference in the WoR, now that they're being chased by a dinosaur?!
Cyan Garamonde & Strago Magus -Cyan asks Strago how he dealt with his grief after his daughter died
Cyan Garamonde & Relm Arrowny - Cyan is not reminded of his son by Relm. Not at all. But... she's certainly an interesting young girl, isn't she...perhaps she'd like some flowers to paint?
Celes & Sabin - I'm always always soft for comfort between the two of them on the Serpent Trench
CHAINED ECHOES
Lenne & Victor - Post-game Lenne commissions Victor to write Glenn's last story
Lenne & Magnolia - Two queens commiserate over the loss of their kingdoms, as well their other mutual loss
Glenn & Victor - Any exploration of their shared chained echo, OR Victor finds Glenn's latest incarnation one last time
Ba'Thraz & Victor - How do these two continue to build on their shared fate as continuers of the Heroes of Leondar's legacy?
Thank you for making it all the way to the end! I hope something here spoke to you. Happy crafting! I can't wait!
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ok for funsies im gonna compile a list of. headcanons (?) but for my own special guy version of trace. just a silly guy
he keeps a red nautilus with more visible nautilus-like patterns as a pet. their name is salinkári
not related at all but in middle school he had a bit of a greek mythology phase and he learned a bit of greek during that. its kinda stuck with him
he loves salinkári more than himself. theyre the ultimate baby for him. cares for them like theyre his literal child. if he had a wallet and could take pictures itd be full of pics of them
the snails hc are all acidic and thats why they hurt when u touch em. trace is so very brave and strong now tho so he still picks his snail up and is able to withstand it for a few seconds. his record is 8 btw he keeps track.
yknow realizing that means he has a weird theme of his best friends both being like. snails. thats fun i think :^) idk what it means i think its just a funny coincidence
when his hair initially started getting long it caused a few identity issues bc to him he was losing part of What Made Him Trace and so he wasnt having any of it. so he made the smartest scientific decision ever and used his blaster to just blast the hair off.
it looked fucking awful and he couldnt tell if he felt better or worse
eventually he gave up tryna keep it "trimmed" and let it be. because it didnt do much for him and hes burnt the back of his neck too much to make it worth it
realizing i am making him more and more autistic. so anyways trace is autistic.
i say that bc i think another sensory thing he has is chewing on things. this is smth hes always had tho, like you knew which pens belonged to him because they were always chewed up so badly its a miracle they havent exploded yet.
his least favorite taste in the world is pen ink btw
the chewings only gotten more frequent and worse due to stress since its supposed to be a stim/destressor for him
when hes Really Feeling It you can tell by the way hes gnawing very aggressively on smth and hes got one hand running and pulling at his hair and the rest of his hands tugging at his coat and scratching at each other. hes a very touch based stimmer
dont think he ever got diagnosed before, and its not smth hes cared to really examine before so i dont think he realizes how autistic he is. hes just good ol trace being a little weirdo!
idk lol ... thats all ive got rn maybe when i think of more ill rb with more
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That sweet innocent anon had probably never witnessed the insane crime community on this website XD. I personally don't find it interesting for Sabretooth to be Wolverine's dad and like someone else said, xmen is all about daddy issues so more bro issues pretty please. On a funnier note, Sabretooth being Wolverine's father would mean Mystique did father and son
Elementals would be fantastic. So what kind of new mutant group would be cool and help world building for X-Men...
Reactors, like energy reactors. People who can generate and/or use energy, any and all types of energy. You can put Bishop and Gambit here.
Vampirics, life energy drainers.
Reality-benders are already a thing so maybe stretch the definition to include those who alter the perception people have of reality without relying on mind powers
Amphibians, those whose powers makes them able to live on both land and water.
Extra-S, short for extra sensory. You can put all the mutants here who only had their senses and the organs tied to them altered. A mutant with more eyes? Enhanced sight and layered vision (infra red, ultraviolet, ...). A mutant with an unusual skin pigmentation (purple, green, orange) ? Different touch receptors, higher sensitivity to changes in the environment and different vitamin production.
Just a few ideas thrown in there that wouldn't make a mutant feel less important because they don't even have a worthy power level or find any use to their less impossible mutation
Its suprising because the weirdo criminal fandom circles have infiltrated almost all of social media so it wouldn't be hard to see them but also on the news we hear of copycat killers and such so idk, I mean if being a killer was something that would turn people away from Supervillains then like wouldn't all the Supervillains in Marvel be unable to find partners? lmao.
I think Reactors is a good name or like Generators.
Vampirics is a good term for Rogue and characters similar to her but then I feel like some people are gonna be like youcantuseamythologicaltermbecauseI'LLMISINTERPRETIT
Are there that many reality benders? honestly I think this is such a bad power for characters to have so if I ever have to make a character thats inspired by one I'm gonna be dropping that aspect of them so hard. Mostly because its such an unbalanced and broken power that its hard to have these characters on any team and write them without running into "why dont they just use their power to warp reality?"
Amphibians is good.
I feel like maybe Sixth Sensors? idk. Thats a tricky one to name.
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my percy jackson dating hcs !
pairing : percy jackson x gn! reader
warnings : small cursing
a/n : this is my first fic (kind of) , so lmk what u think!
also OMG the images are such bad quality im so sorry
percy jackson? you mean the total pinterest bf?
whenever he can, you best believe this boy is either holding your hand or giving you hugs hugs hugs
whenever he holds your hand, it's usually with your fingers interlocked and with a small grip
im talkin like a tiny squeeze but just- all the time
cause, lets be honest, the whole getting-kidnapped-by-the-goddess-of-the-heavens-and-going-missing-for-months thing has left the both of you scarred, so he likes to have a small grip on your hand so you know that he's not going aaannnyyyyywhere
but if you dont like that, then ofc he won't do it. percy would never do anything to you that you don't like / makes you uncomfortable, sally taught him better than that !
SPEAKING OF THE QUEEN
percy 100% tells his mom everything about you
so naturally, shes ecstatic to meet you !
( i mean who wouldn't be, look at yourself, muah )
when you do meet her, it doesn't take long for you to realize you love this woman almost as much as you love her son
sally jackson is the sweetest human being you've ever met, she cooks for you, tells you stories about baby percy ( best believe that scrapbook is coming out ! ) laughs at all your jokes, and listens to your stories as if she's watching a telenovela
im not surprised if you guys just become total besties while percy and paul just kinda sit there like 🙂
if he meets your parent(s), this boy is the most respectful mf you've ever seen
not that he goes all "i'm sorry, the old percy can't come to the phone right now, why? oh! cause he's meeting y/n's parents and turned into a new person!"
he just wants to make sure that he has a good impression with them
omg and if u have little siblings?? gods, he'll play with them allllll day and they'll have sm fun together
anyways back to the couple of the hour
hugs from percy are literally the best hugs you'll ever receive
they're so warm omg
and he will never ever pull away from a hug first
somebody's calling him? they gotta wait cause he's hugging his #1 over here !!
i feel like he'd give just really gentle hugs like, he'll just put his arms on your waist and place his chin on your head and bam
ya'll could just stand there hugging for hours
ofc, dates are limited at chb, but you guys make it work <3
obviously, he lovesss planning dates nearby the lake
and no matter how many times you do go to the lake, he always finds ways to make each date different than the last
im talkin a picnic, making matching necklaces out of shells, building sandcastles, beach volleyball ( hes very pro, he'll teach you if you don't know how to play ofc ), swimming ( again, if you don't know how to swim it'll be his #1 priority to teach you how to ), and little trips around the lake in a canoe <3
and this man, LOVES his underwater kisses
he could literally push you into the water then be like ' oh no y/n fell into the lake, gotta go save them! ' then come back like 5 mins later all grinning cause all you did was KISS ya weirdos
i also feel like percy is on it with his skincare routine
and it's so basic too?? like all he does is cleanse and bam perfect skin
its not fair
but he'd also really care and make sure that his lips are always soft and never ever chapped or dry
not only because he wants to make sure you enjoy every kiss you two share <3 but also because he hates the way it feels when his lips are the slightest bit dry
sensory issues are something that people with adhd face ( its me, hi! ) and some people dont know that !
so best believe he always carries chapstick in his pocket <33
a/n pt.2 : hii! hope you enjoyed my hcs <333 did ya catch all my taylor swift references? also im sorry for any spelling and all the grammar mistakes, sometimes i'll add the apostrophe and sometimes, well, i dont
lmk if you want a pt 2! or leave any requests! i'll write for anyone, romantic or platonic, but no smut, whatsoever aaand yea! thats all<3
peace from manhattan,
percy jackson
#percy jackson#percy jackson x reader#pjo#pjo x reader#percy jackson x you#percy jackson x y/n#hoo x reader#heroes of olympus#heroes of olympus x reader#percy jackson hc#by bells ♡⋆ ࣪.
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Actually ... I think I *do* have time to unpack this (being my weird okayness with being alone on Thanksgiving though it may not be an actual okayness). Strap in.
I first, right off the bat, want to say that I love my sister. We get along great. There is no like life or death, knock down, drag out rivalry here. Perhaps we're not attached at the hip but we are fine.
Getting that out of the way ........
So here's the deal:
I've always been kind of a weird kid. My mom would always tell me (and continues to tell me) that I march to the beat of my own drum. And I do ... and thankfully I was in a school system that didn't horrifically bully me over it. Sure people were kind of jerks but for the most part I was left alone because I was the nice kid who didn't talk too much and just chilled out on the playground looking at clouds or daydreamt in class. I was the weirdo who actually wrote 50,000 words in a month for my English class (even though you only had to write I think like 10k if that). I wasn't bullied but I didn't fit in either.
My sister is kind of in the same boat in terms of not quite fitting in with the crowd and she dealt with some shit because of it (she was older, she went to different schools than me, and some other stuff that I'm not getting into)
The main difference between her and I was that while she acted out like, a lot, I just meekly sat quietly in my own little world not really kicking up any fuss. I didn't really do much. So she kind of got all the attention because she seriously needed it - not in an attention hog way but in a, like, "you need legitimate medical help" way.
In the weirdest way, I became a bit of a black sheep in my family - not in the popular definition of a "black sheep" where it's like ... I'm despised or something. I was just - different. I had a shit ton of sensory issues, undiagnosed ADHD, and what is very likely some flavor of autism.
College time came around - my sister stayed and has stayed in the same general area where my parents are. I decided I wanted to move halfway across the country to attend school for meteorology.
And that's the other major thing:
I went into meteorology. The rest of the family? Medicine. Parents are docs, sister's a nurse, brother in law's a medic. My mom at one point lamented to me that while she could help my sister out with her college coursework since it was all biology and shit that she knew ... she couldn't do shit for me because I was 1) all the way in goddamn Oklahoma and 2) she didn't know shit about differential equations and QG theory. She wasn't angry that I didn't go into the "family business" (honestly my mom and my dad are the first in their family to graduate college). She just didn't know how to connect with me and I was struggling in school and she could not help.
There's also the fact that I'm gay and ace and nonbinary and my cis, straight parents are so very confused. They're supportive but they don't get it on the same level as someone who's LGBTQ would. I can't talk to my mom about girls or how I wish I could not have the parts I have but also I don't want those other parts either. I want to be as sexless as a rock.
Anyway ... I'm still in meteorology (and I love my job, I feel like I'm actually doing good in this world and it's a satisfying career ... it's a tough career but it's satisfying). The one thing my parents and I have in common now is that I work a job that's 24/7/365, including holidays. They're retired but they used to have that lifestyle to - my sister and brother in law still do.
But ................ I've kinda been drifting away from them. They love me and I love them but I've felt like a stranger in my own family since I was 18. And my mom and dad have tried so fucking hard to reach out to me in the past few years. It doesn't help that I'm a $500-1000 (depending on travel season) plane ticket or a three day road trip away. Like honestly - fuck living in the US. No country should be this goddamn huge.
I feel like there's both a very real physical distance but an emotional one as well. At least when I was a kid I was living with them and able to talk to them daily. Now it's just weird being home because it's like interacting with complete fucking strangers and I'm not really great in that front.
I used to go home for Thanksgiving every year when I lived in Oklahoma - because thank fuck Southwest had direct flights from OKC to where I lived and it was a 3 hour plane trip and because it was Southwest: dirt cheap.
I moved to Reno in 2019 for grad school.
Went home in November 2019 for my sister's wedding but that was the week before Thanksgiving. My grandma died the next week and I couldn't go to her funeral and I couldn't go to Thanksgiving because my dad and I had reached this coldly logical conclusion that the turn around would be too much and trying to buy plane tickets last second would be hell.
2020 was... welll 2020. Not many people were doing shit that year. 2021 - I had moved to my current state of residence and started a new job. I didn't have leave and also, because of the nature of the job, my parents were like, "well you'll just switch off on holidays you miss with us. It's better to miss Thanksgiving and be back for Christmas." (spoiler alert: I missed Christmas with them that year too).
2022 we basically had conceded that I was just not going to be home for Thanksgiving, ever, unless I found a job at an office close by. Which I'm trying very hard to get a job out there. Did get to go home for Christmas. My sister and my baby nephew got COVID and couldn't make it until the last day I was there but we did get to see each other.
So this year ... I'm alone for Thanksgiving. Parents may try a zoom call at 5pm their time which I'll try to be awake for. Time zones suck, America why are you so huge. Oh ... also because of reasons I decided to work Christmas and New Years. I'm not going home until the beginning of January.
Because Christmas is just a day right? 🫠
TL;DR
I'm a stranger in my own family. Mostly by my own doing.
Honestly just don't be gay, don't be trans, and don't be a meteorologist. <- and please don't take that statement at all seriously.
#it's a long ass post you don't need to read#I got off a mid and I'm feeling very ... idk man#I'm going to go bake a pumpkin pie and clean my kitchen
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