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oswednesday · 7 months

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waa @proceduralbob tagged me! thank youu

name: wednesday

pronouns: they/them

where do you call home?: without the right to roam, in a planet with boards and states and nationalities, this is kind of a faulty concept, people ask this sort of thing to judge your worth, sometimes i poke fun at people for like what state or city they live in but know its kind of in a post-ironic or whatever sort of way, i live online! but i suppose the geographical answer is the usa equating that with home feels gross, home feels personal and all encompassing, doesnt it?

favorite animal: im like, rabbit themed, so there's that of course i love so many animals i feel like i have a fave per genre of animals, im really into jellyfish , my fave owl is great horned, i also love flamingos and giraffes and bats and cockatoos

cereal of choice: i only eat cereal as intended like two months out of the entire year max, i like applejacks (with banana slices) and cocoa bunnies from the annie's brand (with strawberries) (cereal feels really naked without fruit on it!)

visual, auditory, or kinesthetic learner: im pretty sure this is something that gets taught in schools in conservative states cause no one gives a fuck whether its junk science or not, i Prefer someone to show me how, then walk me through it and then ill do it a bunch with assistance until i get it, but thats often so taxing to be vulnerable with someone else and not everyone has the patience for me so maybe like visual/kinesthetic/auditory in that order maybe? maybe thats just self fanfiction

first pet: fish! like the first animal i was aware of like, the concept of a pet like we have a pet in the house were two box turtles but those were like, my parents pets, they did not take good care of them! the first pet i consciously was like i want to keep and take care of them were fishes

favorite scent: (oops i forgot to remove the previous answer and fill this in)i have a lot of scents i like but rn i think murphy's wood oil soap!

do you believe in astrology: i think there are three "categories" of astrology

there is the math; the history and the culture and the arts and how much it like is apart of human history like that's real and inseparable from understanding the world around us you cant be like well thats astronomy because its also people folk lore and mythology of their cultures and belief systems and that kind of math was not separate from each other, it was used and is used as aid to make complicated numbers more digestible, as a way to memorize and to pass along oral traditions, its also a form of a people's wealth, so thats real yes

then there's social/economics/psychology of it like time periods coincide with ups and downs of wealth in a place like historically and its also like how the seasons impact people, what food is available, what sicknesses are more easily transmittable during certain seasons, which impacts somewhat the way we interact with the world as early age roles are set in by family, society, so on, thats real

then there's my cringe fetus in the womb is an aries i can feel the energies, that shits fake, but that feeds back into like point two and this point isnt any different than the other awful ways parents can interact with their children about 'metaphysical' matters

so i suppose yes i do, like, in a social science and a traditional art sort of way

how many playlists do you have on your music service of choice: i have a lot i like to make playlists a lot, maybe ill share them with the internet more often

sharpies or highlighters: highlighters are cute! sharpies have more use though, highlighters might win simply for the cute factor

song that makes you cry: once the pokemon 2 movie starts its ON <-the tears, from the ost for some reason

song that makes you happy: i listen to a lot of vashti bunyan and haruomi hosono for that feeling, oh maybe im not answering these correctly, i know nobodies got me like still alive (portal 2007)

and finally, do you write/draw/create: i do all kinds of gay stuff

#wednesdaycore #anyone can do this! if you do tag me back so i can seee

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darlingpwease · 1 year

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shh shshshsh– im happy you do like my writing tho :))) you sound like my friends like that, but it's pinching with them lol

Oh, well I guess we do all do different things for 'me' time. My brain usually shuts off when I do those things lol,, I'm glad that what you do is helps shut off ur brain for a bit :)) I do hope ur work isn't too stressful (I couldn't even forget it rn even if I tried 😒) was it really in yesterday's post?? The only thing I can think of that was somewhat smooth was the Yuuta addiction thing???? Idk–

(I feel like I've aged 10 years because of this haha :')) /hj I know that some of the group members wouldn't be pleased but I'm to drained to really care atm. Good news? We managed to do quite a lot yesterday and now we're just organizing everything. Bad news?? We're all super fucking exhausted and are still stressing that we have a very short amount of time for post. bunny face?? I do, but when you go around being too sweet, of course I get at least a few from you >:(( /t)

I slept in so I think thats a good thing, right?? Once I finish this I'm gonna sleep as much as I can.

...ah... WORM???

I do try to be flexible lol, but I really do like that!! I love when colors mix together well, but things such as earthy tones, nude tones, pastel ones, just soft and/or nature-like colors in general I guess?? are some of my favorites. But I really like different shades of them too,, I also like how they all can correlate to some things or match with things as well, I could go on lmao /neu What?? Of course not!! Do I have to reiterate what I said??? /ht

I can't tell which one would be worse <//333– probably the first one times a trillion well of course I'd stay with the box. I think dying in it would be unsightly tho

-panna cotta

ajshjs don't shush me!!! i'm in great sadness, fruitcake wrote to me again, ahahah, do I have to read and be touched again??? how awful :(((( 🤨🤨🤨 look at him, he looks as if he immediately switched from an anxious mood to a complacent one🤨 that is, it's not pinching with me??? I, I feel betrayed; I will try to follow their example!!! obviously, someone (ex. cocotta) react to the method of punishment more than to encouragement, which is very contrary to what the modern school of management says, you know? it's outrageous 3:<<< /t /hj

... you doing??? my brain calms down only when I don't allow anything to analyze or reflect,,,, If I have to communicate or think about myself, it's always making plans and calculating the best moves — especially if it's games or future... on the other hand, I think if you used your brain more, you would be more tired & would understand the principle of sleep, — and would be taller, — so your brain is more of a curse😔 /t /j [work in the sense of "brain activity", not in the sense of "somewhere where they get money or work experience" — I can still afford the life of a rake😋 not counting volunteering, donating blood, working with some documentation...] (I could say the same about our past messages, but given your forgetfulness, I'm afraid I have to make sure that you remember that you sent me a message yesterday🤨🤨🤨) ... wow, is that your social skills & hint recognition getting... better?😦😧😯😲 impossible...... /t /hj /pos

(apparently, now you're the senior sibling instead of me, huh? /t /j well... but this is the experience of working in a very short time. most deadlines at work will sound like "when did we have to do work?" "yesterday," so it's good if you get that kind of experience early, even if it's, um, not the best way to get it</3 just make sure you're not trying to go ahead of the engine and rest, okay? don't make me crawl out of the blanket to carry you there<//3 yes, a bunny face. when you look with frightened innocent eyes, as if you are trying to convince everyone around you with a more temperamental personality to "attack" you; I'm sure when you're nervous and scared, you make that face ://// /t /hj me? sweet? didn't you tell me I was a 'rotten crumb'? so fickle, so fickle~ don't blame me when we both know it's you too sweet<333 /t)

... does this mean that you will sleep 'a lot' or 'a little'??? because in your case, it has a lot of interpretations, even if I'm sure that this cocotta brain probably assumes "a lot" — I know how cunning you are, I can't let you slip like that ://///

you were caught by the tail of course!!! don't you remember how you agreed to become a worm~?<3333 /100% srs & 100% gen hehehe silly forgetful panna cotta >:3333 /t /j /nsrs

... peacemaker<///333 yes, yes, I realized that you are harmless and accept and love any color & shade, stop being so sweet</3 I myself am about to start caries from you</333 /t /j /nsrs pastel shades and gold are the best honestly but what about snails?🤨🤨🤨 what did you say? what won't you say when you have someone??? I can't trust your words — what if I kiss the already taken panna cotta??? I can't be an 'other crumb', I'd rather be not-kissed and lonely, but proud</33333 /t /j

because it's not one of them!!! I know you don't mind, hey, don't be shy<333 we haven't sorted out your clothes yet and the fact that people are naked under their clothes, so don't be so timid, we still have so much to discuss<3333 /t /j wrong. none of them. you didn't pass this test 3:<<< ??? ??? ??? ??? ??? ??? why??? aren't my pocket and my hands better??? I'm going to recognize this as tyranny and insubordination, besides the fact that you've already shown how unfaithful you are!!! 3:<<<<<<

#[📂] — voice from under the bed #❖.my jewelry #✮.panna cotta <3

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symptoms-syndrome · 1 year

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How bout 3, 9 and 12? 💛

Hi Bunny!!!

3. How do you figure out who you are in the moment?

It depends! Sometimes I can Just Tell, sometimes I go "hey, what's my name RN?" and sometimes someone else inside tells me. Most of the time I don't track it or anything so it isn't super relevant or super important to know all the time. Which is thinkkk is good but I also think I need to be a little more mindful about it. Probably??? IDK! I just usually know when I'm me bc I'm me! It's intuitive a lot of the time.

9. If you have OCs(original characters), do your parts have any influence on them? Alternatively, if you’re creative in general, do they have any influence?

LMAO u sent this one in on purpose w the timing...........

This is sorta complicated bc I don't totally know!!! I think? But I'm not 100% sure of the details. I have a bunch of OCs and I think parts have some influence but they're sort of a collective creation of many years, PLUS the fact that my friend(s) also influence them! Like I'll be like "hmm I think Jakob would be bad at cooking" and my friends will add in like "yeah I bet he gets a lot of cheap takeout" y'know? Collaboration type stuff. Ofc sometimes I'm like "hmm that doesn't feel right" and my friends are cool w that too.

I do think that parts influence my OCs more than I'm consciously aware of, if that makes sense, but not necessarily because of Parts Reasons but a lot because I consider my OCs to be reflections of myself in a way? Like I put little pieces of myself into all my OCs and then they just kinda grow on that like crystals or pearls. Like for Jakob, who's a cool demon guy, he was sorta made with a little piece of how I used to be really worried about my masculinity. And then he grew on that into a fully developed character. Sometimes that doesn't work though, I'll have an OC that I just can't get to grow on that seed that I gave, and that's okay too.

Does that make sense? I hope it does. I really love all my OCs, even the ones that are bad people LMAO. I'm really proud of the way I can develop a deep and interesting character!

12. Do any of your parts have special relationships with each other? Would you like to share about some?

Umm I mentioned that I think Seba and Runaway are friends. I think they are but I'm not sure, they were at a previous time in my life bc they were the main ppl who were around. I think Runaway thought he was a ghost at first and Seba was like "IDK maybe" but they talked a lot. And he can get through to her easier than the rest of us but he's real serious about keeping her secrets so it's not like he relays anything really I just know they talk.

I also think I said this before maybe but I was rly surprised that Tomas and Aslan (one of our little little parts) get along really well. I didn't peg Tomas as a fatherly type but like. IDK he's good at taking care of him. When I did the whole visualizing a meeting spot thing for the first time they were the only ones who showed up, and when it was time to go back to the safe space Tomas carried him back which is cute!

#asks #i am so CHATTY this is kinda longgg

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eyedle · 2 years

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new post dnd session diary entry: session went well! only three people showed up tho :( one person cancelled after the session started (she has never done this before so it’s not a biggie!) but two people never responded to whether they were coming and they didn’t :(

had some yummy food. feel a little bad i cant make really nice meals or sweets each week but it takes a lot of effort and i don’t have the time or ability sometimes :( cakes last week were scrumptious tho! definitely will make that for my bday/

i don’t know how the “dungeon but it’s a forest” vibe went, i think it didn’t connect as well as i would’ve liked it to. i wanted to keep the chaos and randomness of a fey forest but it’s in the material realm but i think it felt like the party was doing pointless things to just kill time. note to self: fix that.

tempest is getting some really good character development! she literally just needs a community that cares about her :( BUT it’s so awful that Corin is the traitor. I think Corin is regretting her involvement and is trying desperately to stop what’s going to happen but it’s too far gone. Especially after today. Tempest had this beautiful conversation with her about even if she can do what she wants, it won’t solve the guilt and pain in her heart, she needs to care for herself. idk i just loved that. really hit for me as a dm and someone who cares so much about what i can do to make others like me. no matter what i do and what i accomplish, i need to care for myself first and change that inner voice.

kostik and keyon talked about life. keyon likes kostik and it’s so sad :( i don’t think kostik had realized why keyon is so upset about him leaving

halfred, my beloved! he is developing a very interesting spell! idk how i’m going to write it yet but i’m feeling transmutation! it gives the spell caster the ability to make a object or drawing like a container for another object? basically kostik got two tattoos of his axes and he wants to magic them to hold his actual axes. so instead of carrying axes, they’re in his tattoos. pretty cool. love wizards that make their own spells. cannot wait for halfred to level up and get TELEPORT!!!

Selma is a fun npc, i hope the party actually goes to her bday in a month. she is so sweet. i don’t think the party has caught on to the connection between her flirting and wanting to be with people and the fact that everyone treats her like the least talented sibling. she’s a magic tattoo artist!! she’s so cool! shirley is kind of mean, but she’s got a business. hustle life. alistair… is there…

arco is a cute npc, buff guy, likes working out but had a soft spot for everyone at camp.. big himbo, loves his cat. into metalworking. i wish vivia hadn’t wanted to be with him and then ditched him when she found out he was a lightweight. he’s such a sweet little guy with a sad backstory :(

anyways session rating

dm: 5/10 could’ve been better planning

session: 7/10 chill energy. fun world element reveals. moon bunnies!

how does eman feel rn: 7/10 tired but not AWFUL. a lil hungry but i’m laying in bed

good night dungeons and dragons 💖

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princess-pill-enjoyer · 2 years

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My stomach finally put its foot down 💀💀💀

The plan was 1.8k so I could wake up high and hopefully sleep the next day away but I screwed up. Don't know why I decided to full on eat eat instead of something light to minimize the inevitable stomach irritation. My dumbass likes malt o meal a little too much..

Anyway, malt o meal for whatever reason gives me bad ass acid reflux and that's partially why I eat it sm. Ofc the taste is on point as well but the pain from the acid is lowkey soothing. Gives my something to focus on without pills or going back to whatever sh I'd do in the past. Most the time that equals biting/scratching/pulling my hair but I used to cut here and there as well

Uh but yeah my dumbass inhaled a whole lotta malt o meal in prep for all the pills I'd be taking and it ended up screwing me. I took a good 1.5 before I had to sit completely still to not puke whiiich ain't end up working. Puked it all up and judging how I felt after the fact I'd say a good 400-650ish actually got absorbed but the most of it came up. Then past that point I tried to take some tums and continue on but I was gagging off rip

I tried to take it slower this time by only taking 200 at a time and dosing every ten mins until i was high high. It was chill for all of two mins, then i puked again. It got so bad I couldn't keep water down either. So I gave up and just passed out off the residuals of the first few doses

I'm currently on 300. I woulda taken more but my god.. grandma? Idfk. She called me at like 8 asking if I wanted to go to some family reunion thing and I said half sleep just said yeah not thinking nothing of it. I was gonna try and slither out of it but I was just like.. fuck it. Might as well. I still wanna go home and get messed up but atp im just gon ignore the events of yesterday and come back to it when I get home

Ah. And R kinda gently to stop checking on her last night. I asked if she ate and was worried she was taking too much to the point she'd have another bp attack? Uh. I dunno the actual name that's what she called it. But it was a bit too overwhelming for her as her partner used to ask the same shit like that and it stung to hear all that again. Then she said I don't know if there's anything I can do can help her. Which. Really hurt. I get it. I mean. Having the what you thought was love of your life suddenly not care to check on you then having a random do the same prolly hurts so bad. I'm not her and I know it probably is salt in the wound seeing that I did it with ease but her partner couldn't be bothered to put in that minimal effort. But at the same point, I hate that she sees me being concerned for her as me tryna help. It makes me feel like she thinks I only care or wanna talk when I'm getting something out it. That I'm not really there for whatever. That we only need to talk when we're useful for one another

I know I'm probably just reading too much into it but. I'm tearing up just thinking about it. I'm not gonna mention it rn.. even if I'm right somehow someway, it's an extra stressor on her that she doesn't need. I'm just gonna sulk on it got a few days and try to forget it.

So. Anyway. I'm gonna let her come to me instead. I don't want to hurt her again and I gain nothing from forcing us to talk and make her lie/hurt in silence to spare my feelings. I miss her a lot though.. I wore this stupid ass bunny hoodie I have all day yesterday cause it reminded me of her. I damn near saturated the sleeve of the damn thing with snot and tears tho 💀💀💀

Ah but. That's all for now. I'm finna try and find something to keep me occupied so I won't fall asleep

#update #vent #dph #benadryl #diphenhydramine #dph addiction

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iampresent · 2 years

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Alright peeps, listen up. I have very niche and random thoughts abt the TV show Galavant rn and I am going to scream into the tumblr void (Toid, if you will) about them.

So, a while back I saw a post that suggested Roberta from S2 of Galavant as trans. I looked and went, “huh, that’s cool” but my subconscious latched onto the idea and now I’m finally ready to properly fangirl over it.

I LOVE THIS IDEA SO MUCH. SO SO MUCH! because there is so much young Richard & young Roberta & young Gareth potential here. I can picture one main plot bunny really clearly so here:

-Richard and closeted Roberta and Gareth are hanging out, and someone mentions that there is a magical item somewhere that can change your physical appearance. For obvious reasons, Roberta is like (:o and suggests to Richard that they go on an adventure to find it (maybe with the pretext of helping Richard grow a really beautiful beard because he’s tried everything else, maybe they’re just bored)

-Either way, Richard is like “sign me up! :D” and they’re off

-Gareth comes along to because, hey, he’s not going to let the king he swore to protect wander off with some rando he’s only known for like. 2 years. she could be an assassin! Besides, Richard clearly cares about Roberta for some reason so he might as well try to help her. definitely not because she’s also his friend. Not at all.

-so they’re all going to find this magic macguffin thingy and let’s say it’s kind of a long journey. There’s a lot of danger, maybe a subplot about Gareth finding out or having always known why Roberta really wants to go and trying to hint at her that he and Richard are both very okay with it or something. (I just really love the idea of Gareth stubbornly refusing to acknowledge that he considers Roberta a friend, can you tell?)

-it’s also an exceptionally frustrating journey, and Richard keeps ending up in a lot of life-threatening situations bc he’s an oblivious cinnamon roll. Gareth is getting more and more stressed out because he’s so worried that Richard is going to die and he feels like Roberta isn’t acknowledging the danger Richard is in/just doesn’t care [Hey don’t do Roberta like that ):( ]

-eventually Richard/Roberta loses a map they were using to locate the macguffin and Gareth just blows up at both of them. He says that if Richard won’t take his own safety seriously then Gareth might as well just leave now, and storms off.

-So now Richard and Roberta are left alone and they are well and truly lost, and Roberta feels awful because she had a way to really transition and now she can’t, the dysphoria is really hitting her hard, she’s lost and tired and hungry, and feeling guilty because she thinks it’s her fault Richard keeps almost getting killed (queen it’s not, he’s just. a dumbass. a wonderful dumbass but still) and she just breaks down. Richard asks what’s wrong, she lies and says it’s bc they’re in danger and Richard is like. Bullshit. There’s something else and I can tell and it’s really bothering you so what’s up. Cause my boy got *emotional intelligence*. And Roberta tells him because she’s wanted to for awhile.

-She is also terrified because there is not a lot of trans acceptance around but obviously Richard is just like. “Ohhh. That’s why you want to get to the face changer thing? duh that makes so much sense. Well then, let’s get going! I bet we can still find it”

-And Roberta is very confused by this sudden burst of optimism and she goes “dude we need to get back to the castle”. Now that he finally knows why they are trying to get to the magic macguffin Richard really doesn’t want to give up, but Roberta convinces him that they can come back to find it later but they can’t go back to the castle if they die here.

-So they are going back, and they try to take a shortcut through a really thick bunch of trees, fall down a hill, and find themselves in the clearing with *le gasp* the magic macguffin!! turns out they walked right past the clearing and started going in circles and that’s how they got lost. So the 2 of them touch the macguffin, which I have now decided is a big cool glowing crystal. It works, Roberta transitions and Richard gets a beard in a huge explosion of light just in time for Gareth, who has doubled back out of loyalty, to run in on both of them and try to attack the crystal bc y’know. he’s Gareth

-and then they go back and have more fun adventures together

anyways TRANS ROBERTA TRANS ROBERTA TRANS ROBERTA

#galavant #roberta #richard #gareth

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jsdgfsdf · 5 months

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Cainpesh mode tierlist official...as of like 10 seconds ago

Pesh mode rambling under tge readmore its long. If it werent long it would just be visible in the post itself but myeh i actually care about post length rn also take this w like 5 teaspoons of salt im not a longtime depeche mode veteran fan or anything i just like their music a lot

Ummmmmoh these are all in order btw not like randomized in the groups. I was real purposeful w this one. for starters im a little biased towards ultra cus it was the first album i listened thru all the way cus i found the cd at goodwill in like. ? August ? September maybe and i was like well why not ive been meaning to listen to pesh mode. That and its just a really good album. It took me a couple listens to really get Into it but its definitely my #1 fave now..call that my..ultra fave..lawl..

Funnily enough i didkt really like playing the angel much when i was first getting into dapeachmode (its funny bc that was my first lile formal introduction to them outside of just cant get enoof by joel vinesauce. Everyone say thank you syd and his oc shangri-la) cus i thiught it was too harsh..? Or something? And i really only like 7 (lol) or so of the songs but the ones i do like are Really Fucking Good imo and its admittedly a very powerful album and i like that.

Music for the masses has a lot of aongs i like too though like a LOT camera pans over to my 100+ scrobvles of never let me down again atp..and my 3 hoarded usernames..and that ine bunny piece..etceteta. Well actually 2 bunny oieces but the other one is strangelove. Its basically just an album full of my favorite songs who am i to argue w that.. though its also sorta the same case w black celebration cus theyre both Albums With My Favorite Songs but idk. Thats why its the last album in best evar

I dont really have much explanation for awsome thru oretty good except for what i just said abt black celebration.. i was sorta torn between putting violator before delta machine or not cus in my mind theyre tied. I also really liked construction time again when i listened to the whole thing Oh My god tje original mix of love in itself. Hhoouuuuh

Memento mori i remember liking a lot when i listened to it the whole way thru id need to give it a relisten.. but i remember exciter was sortof a slog so its after..i really like tge sweetest condition though as evident to friends who have my contact info. A broken frame is good too and some of the first songs i listened to are on there But that said i wouldnt change my mind on the placement. It kinda suffered a little cus i listened to like 2 songs too much on loop and got tired of them (i think satellite and monument And sortof my secret garden cus it was? Is? In my bunny playlist so you can imagine how many times ive listened to That) its just kindof a meh album to me to be mote specific.

Sorry to all the songs of faith and devotion fans out there i dont like it all that much except for in your room (should be obvious that its one of my most favorite depeche mode songs ever..and the only one ive seen the music video for so far) and walking in my shoes but thats stretching it now. And rush but i cant listen to it w/o thinking of this one specific thing and it makes me cringe so hard every time i wanna curl up into a ditch and dissolve into the groundddddffd it sucks cus rush is such a good song

Speak&spell is okay i feel like i was a little harsh w the tier title there especially cus that was their first album and its really not all that bad.. i think i mightve listened to it before anything else too but i might be mixing that up w the one cure album w the fridge picture or whatever it was. It was like. Teal fridge. I think my favorites are probably whats your name & i sometimes wish i was dead but thats pretty basic oooops.. its ok. Also speak&spell has just cant get enough on it which is just a classic even if itsnnot one of my favorites i still like it. And the midi version too.

Finally i dont even know if i listened to spirit fully i know i have scum in my liked songs cus it came on shuffle once probably..and its an alex song to me i usually put character songs i cant fit in playlists in my liked songs..id have to give it a/another listen I thibk i just skipped it cus i was worn out from listening to every other album in a row by that point. I think i listened to wheres the revolution too and didnt really like it but idk.

Also heres my pesh mode faves playlist for reading all of this yes its bunny themed dont Dont even talk me

#Spotify

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peter-rabbit-esque · 8 months

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TW: EDs, BDD, Body Image, Relationships, Sexuality, Attractiveness:

I'm going through a rough but healing time rn of coming to terms with my past ED and realising that it never really left me, and the mind frames and image issues still remain. This may be extremely triggering for someone with an active ED so please do not read it if that is where you're at. Idc if you think to yourself "mine's not that bad" just don't okay.

If you're a curious ally or someone far into recovery (like years post-recovery) then feel free to read. Thank you for respecting this.

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Logically, I know it's really passe to care about this stuff, but I'm a child of the late 90's who grew up around skinny culture and have been on this hellsite back in its toddler-esque age late 2011/Early 2012.

I developed my ED long before I ever set foot on this platform. Was bullied in Primary school for being overweight, having acne the whole nine yards. Was bullied at home by my parents for overeating. They went on to weaponise my fat in their seperation- blaming each other for their child being deformed.

Felt like I had no refuge where being myself was okay admist all of this. I started skipping lunch in grade 6.

By year 8, the bullying in high school got even worse. Girls and boys hitting me with the "You're fat, ugly and really weird" left and right. And then my Dad said the one thing that cemented it for me. At Easter, I was happily tucking into some chocolate eggs, and my Dad out of nowhere goes "Stop eating those! You have a double chin already!" And among others things berating me for my unhealthy diet. But this was the final straw for me. I was at my mother's house and he had come over to visit (shared custody throughout most of my teens after they split up). Dad had come over to spend time with us for Easter. Though it was always tense between parents, they tried to make it work for me. Many arguments ensued. It sucked BALLS growing up like this. Especially with no siblings and hardly any support from friends, extended family or counsellors. I essentially grew up alone. And I've carried that emotional loneliness with me.

Anyway, that night after my Dad left Mum's place, I snuck into the pantry and destroyed every single chocolate Easter egg and bunny, and chucked them all in the bin. My Mum was horrified when she found them. And I told her what Dad said. I'm pretty sure she started crying and sent him an angry text. But in classic Dad fashion, he either defended or denied it, can't remember at the time what his angle was. If you've ever read "the narcissists prayer", that was his MO. "If I did say it, you took it the wrong way, and if I didn't say it, you're imaging things and you're crazy, but if I did say it, it was for you're own good" etc. etc. Anyone who's dealt with gaslighting will know what this feels like. It's exhausting. But anyway. After this incident I was determine to no longer have a double chin, and no longer be seen as fat and ugly by everyone in my life. I bought a set of scales with my pocket money and started getting up everyday before school at 5am to do home workouts. I won't go into detail of what I did because I don't want to promote or inspire someone. But it kept up for over 6 months. And in this time I took the skipping lunch thing to a whole new level. I'm worried about what to say here without being too triggering. I basically just didn't eat anything the whole day at school. And would only drink water. I even got to a point where I was afraid water would stretch my stomach. But I got over that when I became so constipated I couldn't go for 5 days and had to be put on Pyslium husks and gentle laxatives, which my parents were afraid I would abuse. That was the bizarre thing about my ED.

My parents (as well as my peers, but mostly my parents) literally caused it. Especially my Dad. And yet they STILL refused to take responsibility for how their constant criticism and fat shaming led me to that point. And even when I was losing weight, doing the one thing I thought they wanted from me. They still weren't happy. It was such a punch in the gut to realise this: that nothing I ever did would make them stop abusing me.

And it made me so depressed that I used my ED to try and slowly die.

I just can't believe how they couldn't see that they were killing me. I can't believe how the ED team that ended up treating me couldn't see that my parents were killing me. My Dad put so much pressure on me to be thin, pretty, a good Christian, get the best grades possible (all A's and B's) be nice to everyone, never complain, not be sexual and save myself for marriage, not date, not talk to boys, but also not be gay and like girls either....

When we found out I'm into boys and girls he was so deeply hurt and angry that it led to a confrontation where I threatened su*cide and he threw it back in my face and said he wanted to kill himself as well because I'm bisexual

God. I think I will stop there because I'm just so tired. People don't get how EDs come from so much trauma.

People don't get that genuinely abusive and mentally fucked up parents do exist.

I'm sick of people saying to "just get over the past" or "You're parents meant well and you'll understand when you're older" when they have no idea what you've actually dealt with. NO they fucking didn't mean well, and NO I WILL NEVER understand how you treat a child, you're own flesh and blood like an object to be molded into perfection and chastised when they don't live up to your every request.

Narcissistic parents are real. And they cause these EDs and mental illnesses in their children.

My Dad is the reason that when I think about my last two relationships, and see that my exes both ended up with much thinner girls after dating me, that my weight is the reason I'm alone. That I'll never be as good or pretty or as desirable as those thin coquetteish girls. That I'm worthless in comparison to them.

Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk.

#extremely triggering #and personal #ED #tw #cw #proceed with caution #long text #blog #abusive parents #childhood trauma #life experince

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blazlngblade · 2 years

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Gilderoy is one of my only two 5*s, the other being Odette. Ironically, he’s the only one who comes home. He’s at awakening 2 rn 😂. So he’s 1) my chosen 2) my fave. I love him to bits. He’s the best.

As for headcanons: I’m afraid my definition of being responsible with them is very different from yours. I subscribe to the “I reject your canon and substitute my own” method for CotC, because it’s so dark 90% of the time, and while I don’t force my hcs on anyone, I do have a very.... wide and expansive set of them, from character interactions to who lives and dies (I’m absolutely willing to share so much if asked, too, but I’ll wait to see if anyone’s interested first).

That said, however, I do try and stick with keeping characters ic! But if a new canon comes out that I reaaally don’t like (Alfyn having a dog, for example), imma just.... ignore it. But, from what I see for Gilderoy, I was missing very little! Him liking fishing means he’s canonically a patient dude and I love that it’s something I had figured out the long way around! He’s clever and definitely a daring man used to uneven odds and has skirted the law too much and too often and I love that. He’s everyone’s uncle and likely has a very expansive network of friends and acquaintances and connections. I love him very much and he’s the perfect chosen for me, as he makes the plot bunnies multiply! 💖

Hopefully you get some more 5-Stars one day, at least 4-Stars can get the job done just as well as any 5-Star. My brother's Shelby (His Chosen One) is basically a 5-Star in her own right! ^^ With love and care, a 4-Star can perform very well with later things added such as Soul Weapons. Like my brother just did a level 96, should be treated as level 100, boss battle in the last chapter and Shelby was never the liability in the fight.

Congrats on getting Odette, by the way!

I had also just summoned a Gilderoy, mine's at Awakening III now. The upgrade of his health put him to 5000. :o One tanky man! He's holding second place for highest HP, it's cool!

When I say "be responsible" I don't mean be a stick in the mud! Trust me! The fact that these characters are open is nice, actually. You can do a lot, and add a lot to them. The game is dark, and only gets darker, I've read some crazy shit (though it's going to suffer in the localization most likely). My mind is a pretty twisted one to characters. believe it or not. Oskha, I am so sorry, but I need you to suffer more in youth for your actions to make more sense.

Honestly, what I mean is just in case more info ever does get brought up, it's important to remember that, and perhaps adapt it into the ideas you've already come up with. I'll do my best to finish my Radio Show notes to share with everyone in the near future!

Every time new info gets brought up about my favourite characters, I actually really enjoy weaving it into my own stories! Gives me a challenge! Maybe it's different though for me as my favourites are the story characters and villains, not the travelers. The story characters have a lot more things to work with, making it more difficult to change or add to if I wanted to. But it's still possible using the given material, I mean, I wrote that big ol' thing about Elletrix, who is a main character, the other day. A lot of that was using what I could, and expanding upon it with my own added lore! And I could ramble forever about Oskha and that drama, but I don't want to yet. I'm still waiting for new info.

Though, I do agree with you... Alfyn and the dog... I don't know the full story on that as I haven't played it or read it, neither of us have Alfyn yet. But something about it feels off to me. From what I remember in the trailer, it was acting as if it was some sort of "guide"? I might be wrong, so I shouldn't pretend to know.

Also the Main 8 characters jumping from location to location when it defeats the purpose of the "I want to go on a journey for this reason!" plot they have in the other game really drains me out. -_- Like with Tressa traveling through three different regions, the act as if it's cute or funny, meanwhile we get told in the first game she's never traveled before and the journal was supposed to be her inspiration to do so. And I know Alfyn goes to the Highlands and I seen a screenshot of him in Rippletide's tavern too.

But enough of a rant from me, that's not what I am supposed to be here for. My apologies!

Thank you for asking the original question, and following up as well. The chat was nice!

#Octopath CotC #Rosa Answers

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bivwifeybunny · 2 years

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oh noo that’s the worst :(( i’m glad it was a good dream tho

yes pls tell the story about you and bunnies, i’d love to hear 😋

ugh same :( one day 😔. i will def check out survivor tho, i feel like i would like it!! it’s not my usual show to watch but i feel like bc there’s enough action and stuff going on that i would like it

also im sorry about your period bae, that sucks :(( i hope you feel better :((. i wish i could come take care of you ugh. sapnap would be so sweet and take such good care of you. i feel like i have a few things on my blog about that actually, i do have a full fic of period sex w sap and it’s so cute and fluffy. one of my fave works bc he’s so :(( in it and it makes me all soft and sappy (did not mean for that pun LOL)

well when i was little, my uncle had a bunch of bunnies and I thought they were really cute and always wanted to pet them, but my grandma would always tell me not to, cause they were aggressive bunnies, but I didn't know that so I would ignore her and go out back and stick my hand through the fence of the bunny pen and try to pet them and I would but every single time one of them would bite me. And i'd go running inside crying and my grandma would scold me for ignoring her warning while putting some cream on my bite lol but I never learned my lesson cause they were just so cute I couldn't resist, and I also just thought they would get used to me and not bite me anymore but that never happened lol but even after all that I still want a pet bunny <3

one day 😔 and yess survivor is very much a drama and it's very mr. beast -esque if that makes sense

I wish :(( one day tho.. he would like I do not know anyone more bf coded than sapnap, like he just seems so soft and sweet and caring and loving and ughhh why isn't he my bf already🙄 ooh def gonna check that out cause that sounds so nice rn :(

also... bby i need help, cause I found the point where dream joins the call/stream but idk how to clip shit 😭 and when I tried it's only letting me do a minute but it's longer than that, i mean I have the timestamps but idk if you want that instead im so fkn stupid idk how to work this shit

#g <3

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smemento · 3 years

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hello hello! if it’s alright i have a dbd request, but if you’re not in the mood/have too many requests then no worries.

my silly idea is leon, frank, and quentin (or any different characters, i honestly dont mind if you want to do other ones) with an s/o who is clumsy as shit. trips 24/7, knees and shins covered in bruises, blows up gens, bad at vaulting things, that kind of stuff. i think it’s so funny; i just can’t get over clumsy ass characters rn idk why help

Survivors and Slashers w/ a Clumsy S/O

Content Tag(s): Fluff

Paring(s): Leon Kenned || Quentin Smith || Frank Morrison || + Michael Myers (x GN!Reader, Separately)

A/N: Hello hello! Thank you for the request and no stress, I actually only have a couple of requests (most of them for Ao3 content) so I'm more than happy to do this for you! <3 Hopefully its sorta what you wanted, might change it up and whatnot if I make it a series!

LEON KENNEDY.

Leon doesn’t entirely have room to talk half of the time, especially when it comes to you messing up during a chase. That’s mostly because of how loud he is (not like you can blame him though.) Yet, that’s far more different then just simply being clumsy.

The first time it happened was when you caught chase with Huntress, she was closing in on you and it looked like you were gonna get a good slash to the back. That was when you tumbled over your feet and crashed into the ground without much thought to catch yourself. It caused a whiff, yet you in pain and Huntress kinda standing there. She honestly thought it was on purpose until she noticed how injured you got yourself. (The bunny mom felt bad about it and kinda pretended to hurt you then go off to hunt others.)

With that being said, Leon was quick to lend a hand, lightly teasing you through the staggers.

From there he noticed it wasn’t just- a random bad luck moment.

You fall everywhere, constantly.

Trial after trial, Leon watched you just eat shit 24/7. Once while trying to vault, foot bumping against the window and causing you to face plant, legs awkwardly folded about as you frail to fall in a breathable position.

Started calling you Bambi, which everyone also grew accustomed to calling you when they found out how horrible you are at doing stuff sometimes.

It doesn’t mean you aren’t a helpful teammate!

Goodness sake, if Leon noticed you starting to feel down from your natural clumsiness, he’d be there to cheer you up. Hugs and kisses, telling you he’s sorry and how much he truly loves you with the way you are.

Overtime, despite how frustrating it got sometimes, you learned to just, relax. As you found it funny whenever you tripped and even caused a dog pile with the other survivors or even tripped the killer during chase with your clumsiness.

(Leon will constantly be there to drop a flash bang moments before you fall, giving you enough time to dust yourself off and get to running again. <3)

(Also kisses your bruises. :))

QUENTIN SMITH.

Quentin is a bit of a frail typa guy. He stumbles quite frequently but has never actually ‘ate shit’ just yet.

He didn’t think anyone out of all the survivors was even that clumsy. Until you appeared.

Upon first meeting, you fell for him. Both literally and figuratively, kinda caused you both to come out bruised more then needed during that trial but neither of you really cared.

Well, you didn’t care.

Quentin was worried.

Mf you’re falling every second, even at camp over the biggest or smallest things! How could he not be worried?!

He literally witnessed you pop a gen, somehow break a locker then fail vaulting a pallet during a chase in one trial. Hell, that wasn’t even the worse of it when you kept bumping into stuff when you weren’t being chased.

Literally watched you bump into a tree and APOLOGIZE to it before kicking the stump and injuring your foot.

Mr. Sleep Deprived is truly in love with you and down struck worried for your well-being 24/7.

But, after your constant reassurance he grew accustomed to your clumsiness. You’re an amazing survivor and partner, and sharing kisses for one another injuries weren’t never not a thing after trials.

Became a ritual.

As you told him kissing your bruises will make all the pain go away.

FRANK MORRISON.

Man is so brutal to you.

You could be across the map and if he sees you falling his laughter will burn through the air, spreading like wildfire.

The dude just finds how clumsy you are- hilarious.

How could someone be so clumsy with their own body? He remembers when he pretended to be a survivor once, he was able to talk to you normally but damn. You blew up the gen you were working on hundreds of times before you gave up, hands aching as Frank cackled at you like some evil villain before disappearing to actually go hunt your friends. After all, they didn’t hear any of that? *He thought they were fine with ditching you for dead.*

When you were being chased with him you, kinda- like...

You ran straight into a tree is all that has to be said.

It was a hard crash too, cheek sore as hell and started to bruised nicely after a couple of minutes.

Frank found it funny.

Never likes it when the other survivors laugh about it though.

Will not hesitate to mori them the moment he can.

No one gets to laugh at you except for him. That’s his only rule.

AND NO ONE.

Is allowed to patch up any of your clumsy injuries other then him.

Even with how much fun he has with you being a baby giraffe, he’ll take care of you if you had a bad fall.

As a couple of the other killers started to create a game with your clumsiness. See who could bruise you up the most and whatnot. That pissed Frank off as well, had to have a ‘talk’ with some of them to back off.

Never really understands the cues of you being upset sometimes when an accident happened so you might have to push your anger a bit during scenarios like that. May take sometime but,

he truly loves you.

Very protective over you but, if he doesn’t need to he won’t catch or stop you from an accident. Frank will only ever do that if he knows it might cause a really bad injury.

MICHAEL MYERS.

Heavily confused the first couple of times.

Kinda- just... Well watches. Confused. Altering into a slight worry and disappointment as his presence just kinda, made your clumsiness worse.

He found himself catching you from a bad vault once, both of you silent in your positions as you thank him. He only noticed what he was doing was ‘kind’ and totally didn’t shove you over the vault. He didn’t need or want your thanks! (didn’t understand the feeling it gave him, it was overwhelming so don’t trash him on it too much.)

Michael will kinda play a game with you from time to time as you grew close. Sometimes, if he had bad trials and you were there he knew being able to scare you here and there will make him feel better. The little noises you make as you get startled before stumble-crawling away makes his heart buzz in ‘joy’?

He doesn’t really know.

He just knows he finds it fun to scare you but not to hurt you. Conflicting feelings for the confused slasher.

Like, how. Yes?

Will constantly be stalking from afar if he can to watch how and what you trip over of so he can be cautious of not to go near such things when hes in a chase with you. Not like he’ll catch and hurt you though, unless he’s trying to snatch you to force you into hatch.

Or clean up that blood and grim on your face.

No need to be all dirty.

When no one is looking he’ll also stop from a bad accident. David kinda saw that once, you were looking over your shoulder, about to crash into the exact locker he was in until the shape appeared. A hand firmly against your shoulder, a bit of a yelp there but nothing more as tension eased.

When he heard Davids’ breathing he did a ‘slash’ at you before yanking the man out of the locker and using his loved ebony mori <3

Would go on a spree moring everyone because he hated the thought of them catching him being soft with his human love.

Once everyone is dead he’ll go off to you, knowing you won’t take the hatch without his permission or without a bye from him. Even if your scared.

Blood is splattered on him, but you didn’t mind as he gave you a medkit, insisting you wrap yourself up in front of him before leaving. (even if the entity heals you after trials he wants to make sure you are fine, it helps him feel better about his ‘episodes.’ Plus, he’d rather not know the entity didn’t heal you for punishment of Michael having favorites.)

If you didn’t understand the medkit drop, he’d drop his knife and kinda man handle you to wrap you up himself. He has zero idea how it works but he’s watched survivors do it enough. He can do it too!

Even if it kinda hurt you appreciated his urgent care for making sure your okay. Making sure to give his hands a couple of kisses and seconds of holding your face before leaving the hatch, reassuring him.

(This doesn’t mean Michael is always soft, he has bad days and you understand that. Sometimes he gives you the cold shoulder or won’t drop you the entire trial as he hunts down your friends. Whatever he does is what he does. You can’t argue with him.)

#˗ˏˋ smementowrites #okay to rb #michael myers x reader #frank morrison x reader #quentin smith x reader #leon kennedy x reader #dead by daylight x reader #dbd x reader #gn!reader #s/o x slasher #dead by daylight slasher x reader #dbd survivor x reader

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darlingpwease · 1 year

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... :// oh heaven forbid I express happiness without getting criticized >:(( /j /nsrs You bite, they pinch. I- I think you should stay with biting,,, I don't think that you need to add pinching into the mix <//333

Oh, reading, writing, games, the stuff I mentioned before,, oops lol. But that's fair,, u resting is very important~~ <33 ...I'm gonna pretend I didn't read that <333 /t /hj [OH– ik I probably say this a lot but still, be careful and try not to overwork urself too much :))] I'M JUST AS SHOCKED– I thought I was gonna guess wrong again,,, /gen

(yes, I'm gaining the salt and pepper look early too!! /j Thats true, still a pain in the ass lol,, dw,, I'm looking forward to sleeping now lol I feel like an ostrich would fit more,, I try to hide lmao I don't wanna hear that from you >:(( Worm? Frog? Yet you also call me sweet names too?? We're going to be going back and forth again at this point >:(( /ht

It means I will sleep a lot. And if I sleep a little, my day will be full of on and off naps.

I can't even refute that. Instead I kinda wanna applaud you for finding the post... Ah,, let me stop you right there!! I agreed with being a frog as long as I don't become a worm!! /100000% gen AND SRS I STILL REMEMBER SOME THINGS!! /vvv gen + srs

your imagination is flourishing, darling /t I agree!! I'm a sucker for those especially when the gold are the highlights or used in details, it always makes artwork and architecture (and many other things too) look more majestic than before. The way people use it too is just really cool. Do you not think they fall under earth/nature related things?? /t Dark browns and greens, some beige colors too. ...okay, uhhh lets pause for a sec... Thats,, fair,,, but I'm pretty sure I talked about that before?? There's barely any bellies in my head (if at all). And if I were taken I would be acting very differently when speaking to you Dove, I promise lol. Plus I'm not even looking for something like that rn, so there should be no worries about being the 'other crumb.' being rotten on the other hand– /t

Ah, both?? yes yes... that does make sense.... Oh, oh no, I'm illiterate now,, but weirdly for only this section? Oh oh no oh well oops oh goodness well time to move onto something else– ...are u sure you did the test right, Dove?? WHAT

-panna cotta

of course; you're already acting teasingly, even though they're constantly trying to tame criticize you, so what kind of mess will you be when we stop doing this??? <///3 /t /hj why not??? I thought about it and decided that pinching you is much more effective than biting; we should start combining<333 /t

😧😧😧wow. I can only relax when I cuddle with a toy,,, you're interesting, boo~ then I will repeat once again that it is a pity that you have not grown even taller due to lack of sleep<///3 how do I roll you back to factory settings??? what is this sudden increase in the level of eloquence??? do you want to become a sweeter talker than you already are???

I sympathize; not that I can understand, I'm destined to remain forever young & beautiful<33 /t /j /nsrs yes;; fucking work with expired deadlines</3 that's good!!! so I can continue to rest while you work😋😋😋 trust me, 50% of your success is your lack of a bunny face, lovely~ of course!!! I love frogs and worms; when I was little, I often caught frogs and lizards to play with them, and dug up worms so that I could just let them go, since the moment of hunting interested me much more than doing something with them<3333 I still remember how I collected worms on the street in front of school (especially those who were trapped in puddles or could not move because they were crushed by someone) and carried them to the ground~ or when I walked around them just so as not to crush; so you're just wormphobic & frogphobic, panettone :///// not very panna cotta-ish of you :///////// /ht /hj I mean, it's normal for STRANGERS who DON'T KNOW EACH OTHER WELL and DON'T HAVE A LOT OF MEMORIES, so yeah, we can go back and forth until I get to know each other better >:3333 /t /j

ah,,,, it's so cute,,,,, I've often let friends sleep on my thighs before; I'd like to see your pretty sleeping face when you're not teasing or saying mean things<33 /t

it was very easy since I remembered him; it's good to have a memory /ht /j /neu no, no, you definitely agreed to become my worm!!! on the contrary, you said that instead of a frog you want to be a worm, because then they won't make a potion out of you<333 /1000000% gen<3333 heheh >:3333 you're wrong~ /t /j

not very peacemaker-ish of you~ /t /pos yes!!! it's just so beautiful,,,, it gives a certain antiquity and nobility to things<3333

[Janthina janthina / Liguus virgineus /Hinea brasiliana] ' fall under earth/nature related things' oh?

of course, there is no belly; instead, someone's glasses are there🤨🤨🤨 /j /t /nsrs If you start communicating with me differently one day, I will block you; NO non-single pies here, even panna cottas 3:<<< /hj /t /¾nsrs being a rotten crumb is a blessing, silly panna cotta<333 you may know a lot of crumbs, but do you know a lot of rotten crumbs? exactly~

It's okay, I can crawl out of the closet and we'll talk!!! I will be happy to explain to you what is hidden under the armor & why people are actually naked and you don't need to be shy about it. hey hey don't be sHY- /t /j of course, I made it up; now I will think about what sanctions to put forward for such an illiterate panna cotta~ yes!!! we urgently need to figure out what to do with you!!! everything always starts with rebellious and unfaithful panna cotta!!! 3:<<< /t /j

#[📂] — voice from under the bed #❖.my jewelry #✮.panna cotta <3

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nekomamiiz · 3 years

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cute little bunny

pairing: deku x fem!reader

wc: 1.6k

warnings: all characters aged up 18+, quirkless au?, not technically public sex ... but, gym setting, oral (m. receiving), kinda scumbag!izuku?, 'bunny' as nickname, deep-throat, degradation, praise, dacryphilia, slight scent kink, lots of spit, rly messy, cum eating/play (facial), edited? beta? def. not, please lmk if i missed one

a/n: hi loves !! this is my entry for @rat-zuki 's collab. pls pls check out the event masterlist to see the other lovely authors/artists participating. i was way busier than i thought the last month or so and i sincerely apologize for my creativity just not being the best rn but i hope you guys enjoy :) happy birthday deku ♡

You shouldn’t even be here. It’s not like you enjoy it either, it stinks, and it’s way too bright. There's also some shitty music playing that's starting to give you a headache. The only thing that makes your time worthwhile is watching the tall green-haired man that’s using the squat rack in front of you—giving you the most delicious view of his ass.

Honestly, you don’t even care that he's squatting more than five hundred pounds. Your eyes stay glued to the flesh of his thighs—thick muscle straining and relaxing after every rep, further accentuating his bubble butt.

You’ve grown addicted to just watching him. The sweat is dripping down his back, clinging to his shirt. His breathing is focused, and you definitely don’t miss the soft grunt or groan he lets out when he lifts back up. Or how his perfect face twists in concentration.

What you don’t realize, though, is that he sees your eyes lingering for far longer than any respectful person should. And your gaze trails low, falling right at the waistband of his sweat shorts.

He thinks you look so cute in your little gym outfit too. Every time he sees you, the pieces get smaller and tighter, leaving nothing unimagined about the shape underneath it all—just the feeling.

So what does he do about that?

Well, he could fuck you, make you scream his name while he spills load after load of his cum into your cute little cunt. But he wants to take his time with you, and you look like you don’t mind working for it a little.

Izuku has come up with the perfect plan to get you alone.

He booked a private training room, inviting you in to teach you how to get the most out of the spin machine. Platinum members get the best perks after all, and he really needs a gym partner. So, he introduces himself to you.

You didn’t expect to be on your knees within the first few minutes of entering the room; shorts thrown on the ground and sports bra pushed above your chest, Izukus lean figure shadowing over you. His shorts are bunched around his thighs, and he’s stroking his cock in one hand while the other holds your chin, swiping his thumb along your lower lip.

All you can think of is how happy you are at this moment.

He sees a tiny drop of saliva falling from your lip, and his thumb is quick to spread it around, popping it in your mouth to press down on your tongue.

“You look so cute like this, bunny.” he coos softly.

He taps his cock on the side of your face a few times. Loving the way you pull back a little in shock. It’s so much heavier than it looks, and you stifle a moan at the thought of him inside you.

“Do you want my cock?” he asks you, stroking your jaw with his fingers.

“Mm, yes, please,” you plead, almost in tears, nails digging into the thick muscle of his thighs. “Wanna taste you.”

You don’t miss the way his eyes seem to shine as you beg, stroking his cock in front of your face, gasping and moaning quietly every time his thumb swipes the tip.

“Are you gonna be a good girl and let me fuck that slutty little mouth of yours, hm?” he asks, brows furrowed from the stimulation.

Shifting your weight, you lean into him slightly, but he’s quick to hold you back from the one thing you want most.

“C’mon, baby. Good girls use their words,” he says, squeezing your jaw.

You can only whimper a soft ‘yes’ in response before his rough hands are on you instantly, guiding you closer to his cock. Holding you right in front of his thick length, almost red at the tip. He’s teasing you with it, pumping a few times and waving it in your face like some sort of treat.

Bracing your hands on his thighs, you lean forward, kissing the pretty pink head and hearing him shudder because of it. Your tongue swirls diligently around the tip where you lick a stripe up his glans, smearing a bead of precum down his shaft and to his balls, where he twitches once you lick over them.

You pop one of his heavy balls into your mouth, hollowing out your cheeks and humming around him. He bucks into you, the tip of his dick tapping your forehead as you look at him through your lashes. His lower lip is between his teeth; some curls are covering his dark green eyes and furrowed brows, making him look fucked out even though you’ve barely touched him.

He keeps huffing and groaning the same way he does when he’s squatting, and you press your nails into his thighs to get closer to him, leaving small indents on his skin. He’s so warm and smells so good you can’t help but smother your face between his legs.

You’ve lathered his entire length with a mixture of spit and precum. It’s starting to drip down his balls, onto his thighs. It’s even on your chin, dripping down your neck and glistening on your tits.

Wrapping your lips around the tip, you take him in your mouth, feeling the burn in your jaw from how thick he is and whining around him because of it. Your tongue massages the underside of him while you wrap a hand around the base, pumping him a few times.

His hips are starting to jerk into your mouth at a quicker pace, and you can tell he’s struggling to hold back. “Fuck,” he breathes out. Hands cupping your face again, admiring the puffiness of your eyes as he swipes over your cheeks.

He holds your face in his hands while he looks down at you with a grin. Your small hand keeps pumping him slowly, and your tongue laves over his tip, popping it in your mouth and tucking it in your cheek like a lollipop.

“Shit,” he hisses. “You’re a nasty little whore, huh?” he asks while he pats the bulge in your cheek, grunting when he feels your teeth scrape softly against his sensitive head.

You feel him wrap his hand around yours—encouraging you to stroke him faster, squeeze just a little harder. His other hand finds the back of your head where he supports you before guiding his cock to the roof of your mouth and thrusting forward.

You gag softly around him, moaning at the feeling of his dick hitting the back of your throat. You’re so tight and warm that he can’t help but fantasize about how tight your pussy is and bucks his hips faster at the thought.

Izuku has a blissful expression on his face even though you can’t see it when you peer up at him again. His head is hanging back, and his jaw is clenched, making the veins on his neck more prominent. Beads of sweat are dripping down his throat, collecting on the neckline of his muscle shirt as his chest heaves up and down.

You’re starting to spill tears down your cheeks from the stretch and intensity of his thrusts. Humming around him as more saliva and precum drips down your chin and onto the floor of the training room.

“Fuck, your mouth is so fuckin’ good,” he huffs. Grunting when your throat tightens at his praise.

He looks down at you, a soft smile on his face. Then he smirks, grabbing both sides of your face with his big hands, bringing you further down his cock until your nose brushes against the trim patch of hair at the base of him.

“Gonna take all my cum, ‘kay, baby,” he says fucking your throat like it was your cute cunt wrapped around his cock.

His balls are slapping against your chin, the mess of spit making the sound even louder. His thrusts are starting to slow, but the depth doesn’t change; he’s still hitting your gag reflex each time, and your moans only encourage him to go deeper.

Taking in as much air through your nose as you can, you let him thrust his dick to the back of your throat and holding it there while he swells inside you. He pulls back slightly to spill his hot load on your tongue, then pushes you back softly to finish on your face.

Some drops land on your tits as you struggle to catch your breath, swallowing what he released in your mouth —thick and sticky.

You lick your lips to pick up any remnants before looking up at him with a smile on your face. Shiny and bright with his cum.

“Did I do good?” you ask, blinking tears away from your eyes and sniffling.

He swipes your cheek, trailing his cum back to your mouth before pushing past your lips, spreading the salty substance on your teeth and gums.

“You did so well, baby,” he coos back to you. Kissing the top of your head, then giving you a closed-eyed smile. He steps back to admire how you look. Messy, fucked out, and dripping with his cum.

He pulls up his shorts and stalks over to his water bottle, taking a few sips, then reaching into your gym bag and tossing a towel to you. He spares one more glance your way before picking up his bag and draping a towel over his shoulder.

“I’ll see you next week, yeah,” he chirps before opening the door to the training studio and walking out.

He turns around quickly and chuckles softly. “Don’t forget to do those stretches I told you about,” he adds, closing the door leaving you in the middle of the room.

Naked, covered in cum, and so fucking wet.

as always feedback and rb's are appreciated <333 i love you all v much! MWAH

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Hiya hope your doing okay rn

But are your requests open? If so↓

What would yandere pico, bf, senpai,(←those separate) soft pico and bf (←not separate) if their they found their bunny darling (what I mean by bunny is shy, small, little chubby, & bunny ears and tail) tried to kill themselves?

Let me explain. So they come home to see their darling covering part of their face, when they see the blood from the attempt how would they react? (The reason for blood is that they tried to do brain trama I think-) if that's too much then self harm is good as well

(it's fine if you don't wanna do this!)

I can do all that, definitely! Thank you for your request, Anon, and I really hope you enjoy these! Remember to take good care of yourself and remember you're loved! Feel free to come to me if you want anything else done! Requests are always open!

TW FOR THEMES SU1CIDE (ATTEMPTED) / SH - plz be safe you guys and my messages are always open if any of you need to vent!

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Pico

In all honesty, this was the last thing he expected to see when he returned home. At first, he was incredibly suspicious. After all, nobody ever doubted how paranoid Pico could be, and he absolutely despised the very idea of not knowing exactly what was going on in a given situation at any time. So, seeing you sitting on the floor with a hand covering your face did nothing but peeve him off at first.

"(Y/N)." His voice was firm, the usual raspy tone of his voice breaking slightly as his hand began to quiver. "What the fuck happened." Expecting an immediate response, he stared down at you with an arch to his eyebrow. You did nothing but let out a small whimper, and all Pico could do was sigh in annoyance as he made his way close to you. Pico hated it when you proved yourself to be as difficult as difficult could be, especially considering all Pico asked for was you to love him equally as much as he loved you. He didn't consider being this stubborn as needed, and yet here he was.

He knelt down quickly, grabbing your wrist and pushing it to the side. He was about to say something, was about to reprimand you for being so noncompliant when all he wanted to do was love you, but as he saw the blood, he froze. Mouth hanging open, his eyes fixated on the wound on the top of your head. Flinching, with his heart twisting in his closing chest, he tried his very hardest to swallow.

The sight of blood always made him sick. It reminded him of that, and it reminded him of her, two things that were probably the core reason for his extreme instability, and two things that he could barely even internally mention without falling under a fit of hysteria.

His thoughts were interputed, and so was the silence, as you tried to speak through your trembling lips. "I-I'm sorry, Pico..." You stumbled on your words, and the ginger instantly placed his hands on your shoulders and made for you to look him in his eyes. He looked disturbed by the situation, more vulnerable than you think you've ever seen him.

"Don't you dare apologize, (Y/N)." He breathed out, tightening his grip on your shoulders a single time. "I-I'm gonna take care of all of this for you, okay? It's gonna get better. You're gonna get better. I'm gonna find out who did this to you, I promise. I swear to fucking God if she had anything to do with this..." His words were laced with determination and vice, and you didn't dare tell the gun-slinging madman the truth of the situation. You had no way of knowing how he could react to something like that. He was unpredictable. You could end up free from him completely in one universe, and end up dead in the other, especially considering that the injuries to your body were entirely self inflicted. Knowing Pico, he'd see it as a betrayal of his trust - an attempt to escape his courting attempts, and you couldn't have him thinking of you as a traitor. It would be detrimental, not only to you but to everyone you've ever come into close contact with.

He was dangerous, but you were damn lucky he was so delusionally oblivious.

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Boyfriend

"Beep!" Bf exclaimed energetically, worry lacing his tone, as he looked at you sitting in the corner of the basement. "Bee boop...?!"

Flinching, you turned to look at him, towel pressed firmly against the side of your skull. You gave him the brightest smile you could muster up as to not worry him, but you failed miserably, and soon Bf came rushing to your side. He barraged you with countless questions, all in his signature language of beep bopps that you somehow came to understand over the years. Though, you mostly went off of context and tone, rather than the beeps themselves. You could (quite literally) only imagine what Bf was thinking at the moment, and that terrified you.

"I'm-I'm fine, Bf, really, I just...I must have blacked out or something!" You scrambled to tell him whatever you could to calm him down and prevent him from doing anything drastic, and, to your joyous relief, the stress of the situation caused him to believe you almost instantly.

"Bee bee bep?!"

"N-no, I'm alright, this towel should do just fine. Thank you, though." You cooed at him as your ears twitched from the ringing they were being tortured with. You sucked in air though your teeth, failing to realize that Bf had cleverly placed cameras wherever he possibly could. Including the room you were in right now. Just realizing that himself, Bf quickly sat down at your level and gripped your knees happily as he told you this, your eyes widening further with every beep and boop that came from his lips.

"Ah, I-I see..." You looked down, placing your hands onto his. It was so he could make sure everything was alright, that nobody knew where the two of you were staying, since you couldn't tell him what happened considering you blacked out. He gave you a gentle, reassuring smile, cupping your cheeks in his hands and pressing a gentle kiss on your forehead.

"Beep, beep bo bop!" Everything would be alright, he told you. And, deep down, you felt comfort in those words. Deep down, a part of you believed him.

He was all you had, after all. How could you believe a third party when there was no third party to begin with?

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Senpai

"I'm home, bunny!~"

Your pained ears twitched and rose to quick attention, just as the sound of a bookbag hitting the floor became audible. You muttered out swear words fuled by fear, as you scrambled to your feet and so stupidly decided it would be a good idea to greet your captor at the door like he expected you to, as if nothing was wrong. You brushed imaginary dirt off of your pants, breathed in deeply and exhaled with just as must depth and length, and made your way to the living room.

Your movements were drunken, your eyes filling with white and the pain was driving you nearly insane. You could barely rationalize you were near him until you heard him speak once more.

Before he did so, he stared at you for a moment. The blood was impossible to not notice immediately, and as he watched it drip down the side of your face, his eyes squinted and his lips twitched.

"Darling...."

His voice was slightly monotoned, but you knew him well enough to hear the slight shakiness of his tone, and your brain sent off alarm sounds of all kinds upon hearing him finish that one single word. His footsteps echoed off the walls as he made his way slowly towards you. Kneeling down to your level as you nearly collapsed onto the ground, he held up your head by placing two fingers under your chin, tilting his head at you slightly.

"What happened while I was away, dear? You're hurt." Taking the opportunity of seeing your wound more closely, his pretty blue eyes fixated on it, and he swallowed with a combination of nervousness and pity. "Really...really badly hurt." He cleared his throat, and you mustered up just enough energy to speak.

"Sen, it's nothing-"

"You know I don't like liars, don't you (Y/N)?" He cooed in a soft, smooth voice, caressing your bloodstained cheek with the tips of his fingers. "I just have to make sure everything is alright, that's all. I won't hurt you any further, I couldn't."

He looked at you as you tried to steady your breathing, taking in every possible situation that could have led to this. "Was it...was it one of the the girls? I wouldn't put it past one of those freaks to get my house key and harm you..." He scoffed in disgust just thinking about which on of them it could be.

"N-no, I-"

"Then what was it, (Y/N)? You can tell me. I want you to tell me."

Sniffling a single time, you decided it would be best to come clean with how things truly went down. It was for the best, and even if he got angry, it wouldn't be compatible to the rage he'd be feeling if you left him to figure it out on your own.

"I...I did it...."

"You did it...?"

Senpai stood up.

"You did it, huh?! You're just that desperate to get away from me, that you'd rather do this than just love me?!" His voice cracked, face turning blue from rage, just like it always did. The yelling hurt your already pounding head even further, and you decided you had to quickly muster up an apology before he snapped for real.

"N-no, it's not like that, Sen! I-I'm happy being with you!" You forced yourself to get up so you could embrace Senpai in a hug, only so you could collapse yourself into his arms for support. He didn't let you fall, of course, and seemed to calm down as you nuzzled your head into his neck.

Thank goodness his mood swings could come and go so quickly and drastically.

"I miss you so much during the day, Sen...I want to be able to spend more time with you, the world is so scary." You shivered, whist also patting yourself on the back for how good you've gotten at calming the blonde down. He let out a loving "aww", all the rage he once felt washing away in an instant as he embraced you right back.

"Oh bunny, I knew that wasn't the reason! I should have known better!" He kissed you over and over, pecking every inch of your bloodied face as if was nothing.

"How about I take off from school for a bit? I'm sure my precious little bun would need the extra help anyway~"

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Soft!Bf & Soft!Pico

(Sorry this is so rushed and short looking, I'm half awake and sleepy hahaah!!!!!!!)

Your eyes slowly fluttered open, only to be met with Pico looking down harshly at you. Noticing you were finally awake once again, he snickered to himself. "Heh, almost got away from us for real that time..."

He patted you on the head, only causing you to wince in pain. "Softie, they're all good now." He yelled out, and you were soon able to hear Bf rushing over as quickly as he could.

"Oh goodness, thank you Pico!" He sighed in relief, smiling happily as he saw you awake and "well". "I'm so glad you're alright, (Y/N)! P-please, don't ever try anything like that again."

You were too weak in the head to think of a response, but you feel that if you could, you'd be cursing the two of them to hell for what they've done to you. They were the ones driving you to this point, and you wished you could just find it inside you to tell the two sick fucks just that. You didn't even know what random abandoned crack shack the duo dragged you to now.

"You-you're too small to handle that kind of damage to your body, especially your head! I don't want you hurting yourself too bad over something we could just talk about!"

Pico scoffed. "They haven't talked to us for days, blue. I don't think that's happening." Bf whimpered slightly, hearing the harsh reality being uncovered through Pico's words and looking at your wounds, he knew something had to be done.

He just wasn't showing the amount of love that he should be. He's unintentionally making you feel unwanted, and he felt that it was his duty to fix the damage that he had caused.

In that split second, he made a new promise to himself. He'd do better. For you, and for Pico.

In his eyes, the only option going forward was to just be better. And that's just what he's going to do.

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